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I cannot believe it's been 10 years and I'm fucking fixated on Sebastian and Black Butler again. This can't be happening. I shouldn't have screenshots of him, yet here I am. I'm cursed. I can't escape this. My heart is still 13 and stupidly charmed by a stupid pretty demon and his stupid child boss.
#kuroshitsuji#i have fucking TIMESTAMPS for my fixation#i sent myself all my old favorite pics#all saved on my dead childhood email#i also have copies of my weirdly successful terribly written kuroshitsuji fanfic#that i wrote at the ripe old age of 14#and here i am about to turn 26#thinking about writing something actually decent this time around#why does it all come full circle?#i feel like i'm back in 2013 again
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COMMON MASTERLIST — ateez blurbs
collection of my blurbs under the cut ٩(๑ `︿´๑)۶
multiple members
- longing for your owners!ot8!ateez, who had left hybrid!you alone at home, you reach for the phone seeking comfort. - hyungline!ateez headcanons about the first time u meet them - atz headcanons about reader being unusually silent when drunk - atz headcanons about reader hugging a pillow 2 sleep - atz headcanons about making out with them on a chase atlantic beat - atz headcanons on them using "tiny" during sex [nsfw]
ddeonghwa
- biker!seonghwa vs bimbo!reader [suggestive] - bf!yunhwa help you in this heat (yunho acc doesn't help)
joongi
- a long-awaited reunion in hongjoong's creative studio leads to soft moment - hurt 2 comfort with hongjoong [light angst] - hongjoong and your first subdrop [nsfw] - shopping spree with dilf!woojoong - primal play with predator!joong [nsfw] - soft sex w joong [nsfw]
yunni
- during a late-night math session, you're visited by spiderman!yunho - bf!yunhwa help you in this heat (yunho acc doesn't help) - yunho fucks your nightmare away [nsfw] - choking kink w yunho [nsfw] - some boxer!yunho timestamps
hehetmon
- you admit something to vampire!yeosang [suggestive] - prince!yeosang rubs oil in your hair (cuz he loves brown girls) - yeosang and his oral fixation aka he loves boobies [nsfw]
sanni
- babying and doing san's eyebrows - ceo!san leaves u alone in ur bed 4 a meeting - sangi taking care of sick you - phone sex with daddy!san [nsfw] - pregnant reader faints [slight angst] - emperor!san x empress!reader
mangi
- mingi taking care of drunk you - sangi taking care of sick you (i have a thing 4 mingi taking care of me and i think it shows) - roommate!mingi is a big pervert [nsfw]
wooyo
- wooyoung playfully interrupts your asmr session, expressing his jealousy in a dramatic yet affectionate manner. - hybrid!wooyo plays a little game with you in your bathtub [nsfw] - overstimulation w meandom!woo [nsfw] - shopping spree with dilf!woojoong - zombie au - zombie au pt 2
jjong
- exbf!jongho misses u but u... miss him too? - jongho teases u
other groups
- spoonfuls of ice cream [brother's best friend!eunseok] - yandere school (+18) tropes [riize, atz, tbz, txt]
other works can be found here
#masterlist#ateez#x reader#fluff#mingi#san#wooyoung#yeosang#yunho#hongjoong#jongho#seongwha#x you#x y/n#ot8 x reader#vampire#blurb#hybrid#imagines#scenarios#soft thoughts#soft hours#prompts#poly#reverse harem#x gn reader#x gn y/n#x yn#x gn yn#hard hours
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Alright so. It would appear I need to make a post about this. And I’m only stating this once, any asks I get based on this will be ignored.
1) whoever keeps asking me if I’m poly, why does it matter? Why do you care? Why do you keep fucking asking? My answer: Don’t ask again.
I’ve stated before on this blog but I’ll say it again this one time: I do not share things like that to others. If we’re close and you know the answer, that’s fine. What you can know is that I’m really really fucking gay. :)
2) I don’t have a posting schedule guys. I just don’t. If it takes me two months to post another chapter of a fic then it takes me two months. Constantly asking for another chapter with a timestamp, or constantly asking for me to hurry up will cause me to take longer writing. If you’d like to be supportive then compliments are just fine- flattery works for me
3) Do NOT compare my fics to other writers. Do NOT tell me you think this other persons fic is better. Now, if I have a fic that I’ve labeled as ‘inspired by’ then yes, there’s a couple connections but I promise you the storyline and focus and feelings are entirely different.
4) I don’t wanna state my age, simple as that. I am an adult, I can have people confirm I am an adult. Do not ask for a real age number unless you absolutely want to be blocked.
5) there are NO. MINORS. ON. THIS. BLOG. I have a second blog for my other fixations and if you have jt? Great! If you don’t? Tough shit.
This blog, this specific one of mine, is not child friendly for a multitude of reasons. You will instantly be blocked if I notice you’re a minor in this blog.
That’s all.
-Billy
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okay but when i saw this video ( https://youtu.be/NaFdZq3a6m4 ) and saw when jisung got his prize (around 14:05 timestamp).
all i could think about was horny jisung with a fixation on squeezing your ass, tits, and thighs. just everywhere! holding you close all the time, hands clinging to your body. and having dozens of polaroids and photos with his veiny hands groping your ass and bare chest. oh my god.
no bc i’ve talked about this with a friend….if it’s squishy jisung likes it so he’ll definitely squeeze anything squishy on your body if you let him …. screaming as someone with a squishy body
but for that second part … ACK. jisung taking pictures during intimate times???? sign me the fuck up ….. just takes anything from photos squeezing your ass through your jeans to your bare ass (maybe even having a cute little handprint forming on it ����) to pictures with your boobs being squeezed and spilling between his fingers to your nipples being pinched between his fingers ….fuck. FUCK
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Do you happen to know any Larry fic inspired by the song Medicine by Harry?
Hi! So here's what I found for you...
You got that something, I got me an appetite by Only_angel_28 / @beau-soleil-louis
After years of being forced to hide their relationship, Harry and Louis decide to come out with a bang.
couldn't be more in love by cabinbythesea
Louis Tomlinson is thirty-one. Harry Styles is not. (Best friends with a seven year age gap who fuck because they are both actually smitten and, let’s face it, hot as fuck together).
Featuring an engagement ring without actually being engaged, a Medicine by Harry Styles reference, and a painful playlist.
Lately You've Been On My Mind by @lululawrence
Louis was jamming with Harry as he watched the chorus once more and started the second verse, but then Harry went up higher than Louis was expecting and fully put his entire self into a line where he explicitly said the boys and the girls. Louis felt his entire face go slack, because afterwards it sounded like Harry said, “I mess around with him and I’m okay with it.”
“Fuck,” Louis whispered, scrambling and accidentally minimizing the screen. He pulled it back up and paused it before he rewound it and watched it again, and then once more.
“I…” Louis blinked at the camera and couldn’t even bring himself to pause recording. He just stood up from his chair and left the room, walking into his bathroom to try to pull himself back together.
Or five times Louis makes reaction videos to Harry's performances and songs, and the one time they actually meet.
No GAY! by Stylinson_28 / @stylinson28fics-blog
Harry has his favourite conversation ever during his Sunrise, Florida show and gets more out of it than he ever could have wished for.
Featuring Gay Vodka ;)
Somewhere Where You're There by metal_eye
"The greatest luxury, in this new part of their lives, should have been time. It stretched at varied intervals with no attention to what the real world might find convenient. Hours yawned like horses’ mouths, stretching backwards in the effort of seconds. Except that Harry couldn’t help feeling like he’d missed out, somehow. That he needed to hurry. They’d been denied their formative horny years. Something had to give."
A Caught by the Sun timestamp in which they are both lazy and horny, and some things get resolved.
The press conference by fairyfions
Harry is still mad at everything and everyone and just wants to forget about the time he spent in One Direction and the day everything fell apart. But a phone call 5 years later pushes him right back into his old life. Will the band be able to get back together? Will he even recognize Louis after all these years and will the spark between them still be there?
Medicine by thisisafamilyshow_orisit
Louis exhaled shakily and shifted slightly, placing a hand in Harry's curls. “There you go, baby,” he murmured, playing with his boy's hair while he sucked him. “That's a good boy, take what you need, love.” Louis swallowed thickly, leaning his head back against the headrest. No matter how often this happened, he never got used to Harry's mouth - the soft velvety heat of it, the obscene wet slurping sounds Harry made as he got into it, but mostly the mindfuck that he could never get over was the fact that Harry did this for himself. He truly felt like he needed Louis’ come to feel better, his “medicine,” he liked to call it.
Or: Another very self-indulgent fic featuring Harry with an oral fixation and Louis being Daddy af.
up to your mouth, feeling it out by ShapeOfLou
A quiet picnic in the part takes a drastic turn
Think I'm Gonna Stick With You by Kachina
Louis Tomlinson is doing just fine on his own, working on a solo album and being a judge on this year's X Factor. At least that's what he thinks until he is confronted with all of his restrained emotions during the first night of the X Factor finals.
take my medicine (treat you like a gentleman) by kwitegay
"Yes, god yes, just..." He bites his lip, looking him dead in the eyes, "Use me. Use me as a fucking toy, Louis. Nothing will give me more pleasure." in which cock and being used are harry's medicine, and louis happy to give it to him.
make me take my medicine by @velvetnoodle
Here to take my medicine, take my medicine / Treat you like a gentleman Give me that adrenaline, that adrenaline / Think I’m gonna stick with you
An unusual thrift shop find by Harry leads to a very interesting evening ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
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wanted to address this quick (also the guy I was arguing with blocked me, go figure.)
This is garbage. Don't fucking do this.
One of the symptoms of ADHD is disorganized thinking. Go figure. When you are talking, on an ADHD post, about someone backtracking, you are clearly not showing any respect for ADHD people, in what seems like a harmless way. I cannot organize my thoughts up front. It will take me a minute to gather myself. When I backtrack to a point, its not because I'm trying to cover evidence, its because my disorder is getting in the way, as it does. It isn't a sign that I'm just a douche and my point was invalid all along. That's an intentionally bad faith take on a symptom of a disorder.
The other thing I wanted to address was, again, nowhere was I saying that the example was ok or something anyone should be doing. Which that guy conveniently glossed over while they tried to make me look like a bad person on purpose. I don't personally care about their opinion of me, but I do want it to be made clear that I genuinely would never treat my friends that way. I easily could, I'm aware that I easily could, I have no idea why that is, I couldn't care less, I work around it like I do all my other disorders. I'm just painfully aware that I could, and I wouldn't feel bad about it in the slightest. I am very careful about how I interact with my friends because I know that I wouldn't feel too much if I did hurt them and I understand that means that I have to be more careful with my interactions with them, because I might not notice if I did hurt them.
In their next few posts they decided to fixate on the fact that I included forging a photo (which?? is too much effort anyways?? Like even if it wasn't about my room being clean do you realize how much effort goes into forging a fake photo of a room?? One that my friends would clearly recognize as *my* room?) which further proves they were intentionally doing bad faith takes on my comment, because that was literally included as an offhand option. The first thing that came to mind is "I know photoshop so I could possibly maybe forge a photo", and then I realized that is far too much effort overall, I would never put that amount of effort into anything, much less a lie for whatever tiny amount of serotonin I might get from the praise of having a clean room, and decided to include a much more likely option of "a photo of my clean room that I might maybe have on hand somewhere in my photo gallery", which is still a lot of effort for a lie like that, but its much easier than taking a photo of my room, editing out everything in it, editing in the exact shade of carpet in the exact position going around every object without clipping wrong or being shadowed improperly, and making sure it has the appropriate timestamps for when the photo should have been taken and not spending as much time as it would take to just clean my room in the first place.
Not to mention my friends literally know that my room is a mess, I bring it up constantly, they've been in my room, etc. They know I rarely have the energy to actually tidy up, which is why I usually go to their place instead of inviting them over.
tl;dr don't make intentionally bad faith takes on someone's post, it really is a bad look.
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a public ‘thank you’ :
as you all know, and i know it’s annoying because i keep mentioning it, but i accidentally deleted my blogs.
i opted to contact people who were previous moots, but many of them didn’t have a shitload of my works saved or reblogged or liked.
but then @oatmealupdates messaged me, saying that they saved all their fav works of mine from the past. they even went as far to create a google document for me, where ALL OF MY POPULAR WORKS were there. WHICH WAS MY BEST CONTENT I THINK !!??
that included the;
san gaming fic ft. ateez
yungi threesome fic
san office uniform fic
seonghwa oral fixation fic
my love letter series
some of my timestamps
i just want to say how grateful i am for this person. this sounds so fucking dramatic, but i am forever in dept to @oatmealupdates. truly, thank you so so much. i will be retyping and revamping these past fics, and i will make them better. love you all !!
also; i am currently happy crying.
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requests!
kinks I will indefinitely write for:
threesome (maybe sometimes bukkake/orgy but damn those really take a lot of work)
pegging
choking
oral fixation/face fucking
exhibitionism/voyeurism
bondage
powerplay/dom x sub
rough sex
blindfolding
mommy/daddy
mistress/sir
sex toys
overstimulation
edging
sub!idol
masturbation (mutual or not idc)
kinks that I will have to think about writing before I do it/take a lot of time to write:
teacher x student (I would most likely ONLY do roleplay in this area, but it depends on my mood I guess)
breeding kink/impregnation kink
step sibling stuff
(I don’t know if I have more for here lmao)
kinks I will not write about:
incest
watersports/urine
no poop ew
rape
pedophilia (this doesn’t even need an explanation)
bestiality
petplay (again, all respect to the petplay community, but I don’t have experience in this area and I don’t feel comfortable writing about it. I apologize.)
necrophilia
and a few more but if they come up in asks I just won’t write them
as of right now, when I am posting this, requests are OPEN!
what I write:
blurbs
timestamp blurbs
reactions (maybe but they take a lot of time so I recommend requesting one of the above options lmao)
and if I really feel like it, a full length smut/oneshot
I also write fluffy stuff so don’t hesitate to request some of that as well!
thank you for reading!
- fruity admin
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timestamp (For the about and verse page)
Name: Ayano Aishi.
Age: 18
Height: 5'8
Weight: 168 pounds. (She has a dense frame. More on that below)
Gender: Trans female.
Eye color: Pink.
Personality: Thoughtful, cruel, cunning, smart, somewhat charismatic, sadistic in some instances albeit of conditioning rather than of sexual need. Incredibly sweet and loving to her loved ones. Puts on a face she think suits the situation for people she doesn’t care about or trust. (More on that below)
Looks: Pretty, cute but has a strong build.
Status: Recovering from trauma.
Overall the changes I present will be more morally gray leaning and occasionally messed up as a pathway for Ayano. This is challenging the Yandere approach and while still having Ayano as a Yandere? This is challenging the narrative and I understand completely what he’s intending for some features/backstory he’s revealed before asked about this. I did my research and re-watched a lot of videos in order to make accurate statements in response. I am not condemning the game utterly as I am fully accepting if the game turns around and does things in a different, more exceptional way, but I am fully willing to admit when it’s had some bumps as well. The game afterall: is still in development regardless of how the Dev is as a person, it is subject to change as this about is as well.
Things he’s missed the point of a Yandere:
Usually? Most popular Yanderes have a tragic event or childhood to cause such a drastic twist in mental stability and personality. EVEN SO much as addressing this as such and some popular Yanderes have gotten happy endings with everyone living or somehow reversed or it ends in tragedy in certain cases.
Yandere characters in the archetype generally as a rule DON’T WIN as their delusions and instability is toxic and usually end in their defeat or apprehension. This isn’t set in stone but overall an inevitably as that’s the main point of characters with the archetype: they’re harmful to themselves more than anyone else.
My Ayano never ‘wins’ her Senpai as he either ends up dead or she’s stopped by Megami and then rehabilitated by her in her main verse when Megami can’t sit idly by and see Ayano be far better than her mother in the need of help, Megami comes off far too morally righteous to allow that to happen. And then for her ‘bad end verses’, she’s confined to get help and her father spends the rest of his days in regret for not acting sooner. Her mother dies frequently however via execution after trial from what she’s done to Ayano, her father, along with her countless victims or is confined. Or she is simply killed by Ayano in her main verse after kidnapping a few ‘loose ends’. (More on that below)
Changes to her character’s interactions with others along with fluff info:
She will have some habits and customs from japanese culture. Her skirt will be at knee-length along with the other highschool girls for an actual dress code to a high standards school. Along with the changing of uniforms as? While I think he explained it, they still look far too middleschool for my tastes but the student council uniforms can mostly stay the same other than skirt length.
There will be no panty shots for Info-chan and instead she will be gathering information through various means and ways.
To go with the fanart and concepts that I’ve seen in canon videos and what not, I’ve decided to give Ayano the trait, Ocular albinism: meaning her eye color is pink.
Ayano unless in certain verses is less likely to murder as that makes zero sense as why she’d jump straight to that as Senpai wouldn’t love a murderer. Granted, she would use it as a last resort if there was no other option or time. However, she sees little to no reason why she shouldn’t murder or even torture actual ‘murderers’ in her eyes, or pedophiles along with others as in the worst of the worst.
In most scenarios with a physical confrontation or a forced one, Ayano will be keeping her identity a secret with a mask and beat up her target usually rather than outright killing them. Using intimidation, manipulation and cruelty in extreme circumstances to get what she wants.
Ayano is capable of becoming hyper fixated on other people once she gets over ‘Senpai’ in her recovering verse due to her disorders. Or the rp partner’s muse in question can outright be her Senpai.
Regarding my Ayano’s Ocular Albinism: aka why her eye color is pink. I never really specified her eye color exactly other than pink and how her emotions reflect it. So as you notice, you see blatant red on even my theme for her eyes and other artwork he’s made to have Ayano? And due to me liking the concept and explaining it as an extreme case of Ocular Albinism? I’ve further gone to say that while her eye color is pink? Depending on her emotions, such as getting angrier or feeling intense emotions of love? It can become darker shades of pink, even resembling a pinkish red. This actually happens in real life with our own eyes to a degree of becoming darker or lighter colors or sometimes partially different colors altogether depending on our moods, but Ayano’s being far more severe in pigment change. And because of ocular sensitivity? I’ve decided to give her protective contact lenses she wears over them as while she can go without them? It is uncomfortable on brighter days.
Changes to character’s mental state and addressing the ableist outlook placed upon her by the Dev.
Overall, while Yandere Syndrome is a fictional mental illness, Yandere Dev has confirmed she’s a ‘sociopath’ and a ‘psychopath’ whenever it’s convenient for him and the reasoning behind this is that even as a sociopath or psychopath, and there are actual ‘normal’ terms for that: as sociopath = anti social personality disorder. They’re literally JUST personality disorders that are often demonized and portrayed incorrectly and this game is no exception in that, look up the myths and do your research- these people can live happy lives if they get help either through self-help or third party to be more comfortable and happier. Regardless, morally righteous or not? The mental illness aspect of the game is poorly written and overall I don’t expect much out of his explanation why she has her ‘bizarre’ condition but also apparently actual conditions that are demonized by him. As using a fictional mental illness but also subtly demonizing existing ones and even incorporating them into your own character whilst having a fictional one? Like, make up your mind.
Literally you could have taken a ‘normal’ person and put them in the exact same scenario and they could’ve react the same way. As not to get political? But look at mass shootings and highschool murders and stabbing cases- perps more often than not are morally fucked rather than having anything MENTALLY ILL about them. So while I’m fully okay with her being mentally ill and explaining why she’s doing the things she does? You do not jump from point A to point Z. You go from A to B to C and so on. That’s poor writing otherwise for a character as I understand ‘a reflection of the player’ as a blank slate to project onto, but overall he basically admitted to giving up on the character’s personality and story, then contradicted himself in making her a backstory.
Moving onto Ayano’s backstory: ‘Doctors knew she wasn’t ‘normal’, her parents knew she wasn’t ‘normal’ and her father instead of helping her cope? Tried to make her normal and her mother did nothing to help. Her teachers did NOTHING to stop the bullying it seems when she was younger and overall forced herself to act ‘normal’ and is numb 24/7’. That is the biggest copout for a character, as she is shown to have emotions when it suits him but she’s emotionless apparently? This whole narrative creates an unintentional sympathetic outlook on Ayano.
Why?
Her parents failed her, her father kept trying for her to be normal instead of getting her actual help. Her mother PROBABLY made it worse as why does a Highschool Girl know how to torture and mentally break people and brainwash them into her mindslaves to kill themselves afterward? It was Ryoba’s doing for how I’m making it and that’s incredibly damaging mentally for a child. (More on that below) Her doctors KNEW something was wrong at an early age? And she’d never be normal and instead of getting her therapy? They did nothing. She was bullied and while she didn’t mind it? Her teachers did nothing.
Society failed to help the little girl known as Ayano Aishi.
Now moving onto my Ayano’s actual mental and personality disorders: she’s a sociopath, has extreme obsession issues and severe ingrained trauma with needs for violence or isolation for the people she ‘needs’. Has varying levels of mental stability and coherency depending on the circumstances and can become extremely unstable.
Ayano’s actual emotions and character will actually exist instead of a ‘blank slate’ which he later contradicted himself with his backstory video of Ayano Aishi and that actually GAVE a lot of unintentional depth to her as a character as- ok, well I see why she’s messed up now as being numb 24/7 even when she has shown actual emotions in genuine response in the game and in his cutscenes. So yes, my Ayano is an actual person and for her ‘recovering verse’ and even outside of it. And has BECOME numb from everything as? That whole ‘numb’ narrative could still be kept if it was explained better.
Her mother and father and how they interact with her differently.
Ryoba’s mother has been conditioning her since she was seven for murder, starting her on animals to begin with and eventually moving her onto actual people when she was around ten to torture, murder and make into mindslaves as practice as she was ‘just like her’- as literally there’s no explanation why she knows how to do this other than ‘she’s a monster’ and that’s the biggest cop-out ever and demonization of a mentally ill highschool girl. Ryoba keep in mind while thinking about this as why I have her do this: IS A CANON rapist. As? Kidnapping someone, and coercing them and conditioning them into sex is actual rape no matter how you want to explain it and if even he came to agree to it eventually. That’s? Sex under duress and that’s actual rape. I feel as though Ryoba is underutilized in Ayano’s backstory due to her history and how she is, as I do explain her ability to instantly kill people in some instances from the physical training she received throughout her life from her mother. As some weapons would require MASSIVE amounts of strength to kill someone instantly with, yet Ayano can with ease in some cases and knows where to stab and so on and so forth and how to fight. That’s why she has such a weight because her frame is so massively dense and yes, there are people like this who exist- she packs a lot of power in that body of hers.
Her father in summary? Is a traumatized victim of rape and kind of an idiot as he actually never bothered to get his daughter actual help. And I blame this on the higher stigma toward mental illnesses in Japan for flavor text albeit Yandere Dev being shortsighted in plot devices as a possibility.
My Ayano and her place in the school:
She is considered a relatively popular and well known girl in the school that’s part of the student council, known for being oddly helpful even outside of her student council duties. Though she is somewhat intimidating with her physique and intelligence to other students but is highly admired, her personality often disputed and argued about as she adapts it to the situation. Though most are unknowing to this other than Megami.
Ayano’s likes from her partner(s). She likes to be laid on while intense smooching ensues. Likes to be held or partially cradled while sitting in their lap, perhaps fully cradled if they’re strong enough for it. Likes to sit on their lap preferably while being held from behind around her waist. Likes to hug with her legs whenever she can whether being laid on for smooching or sitting in their lap in reverse so she’s facing them. It can be purely chaste most of the time in the gesture, but can lead into intimacy. Likes neck and collarbone kisses leading up to her lips. Likes being petted. Ayano favors feeling like she’s soft so that’s why she does or likes these things done to her.
Picture reference for Ayano’s body build:
Ayano’s religion.
Ayano’s religion is known as ‘Shinto’ it was the state religion of Japan until 1945 and is as ancient as the culture itself. I don’t know TOO much of the practices of Shinto as it involves rituals and offerings, along with other bits of my research obtaining a basic understanding. Which reminded me of appeasing the vengeful spirits/kami/demons in-game. Along with the fact that they come as more akin to Yokai and an Aragami (other than the Succubus which I later found out there’s a term for actually being: Akuma as a western demon) more than anything to me? All mechanically will or can be offered gifts, tasks, and sacrifices for great boons in-game. So while I’ll be using this to explain how she can communicate and ask for their services from great, and hard tasks given in exchange for massive boons: I will be using this as a baseline to explain that she is naturally connected spiritually and quite heavily, as the occult club constantly try to summon the supernatural, but fail to every single week in comparison to Ayano who can just put a knife into a skull and bam- she did it, she can talk to them (Which might be made harder later to do, but we’ll see. He hasn’t mentioned anything regarding the mechanic). Albeit I will not go too much into the Shinto religion regarding the Aragami, as I feel I wouldn’t be able to accurately represent it and I don’t wish to appropriate holy or sacred practices.
The ‘three demons’, aka the dismembered Aragami, the flame Yokai, and the western ‘demon’ that’s an Akuma and the ancient evil. All four of these will have extensive plot-lines and rp potential if someone wishes to utilize them in an rp or have Ayano delve into it. Note that her interactions with these beings overtime may be subject to change, but her religion regarding Shinto and family origins will NOT unless I am shown otherwise it’s satisfactory story-line in canon wise.
The Aragami.
The ‘demon’ or Aragami that demands dismemberment comes off to me as an Aragami, which is those who are killed without being shown gratitude for their sacrifice: will hold a great grudge after death and become powerful and evil Kami who seek revenge known as an ‘Aragami’. The great Kami is ultimately appeased and befriends Ayano, albeit its great power will not be used often as that comes off to me as blatantly disrespectful to her religion. And instead will only be utilized under dire circumstances.
The Yokai.
The Yokai, the ‘flame demon’ comes off as more a spiritual, supernatural monster rather than an Aragami with his speech. And instead will simply have been appeased through odd, quirky means as some Yokai often are. His powers while still used more often, will still be rarely used as the powers of the supernatural can be devastating.
The Akuma.
I’ve flavor texted the clear western demon as a ‘foreign exchange demon’ for humor purposes, but also more accurately being known as an ‘Akuma’ that through various means, has befriended Ayano. As there is a term for a literal western demon apparently and can function as another term for another demon? And she is a Succubus currently quite evidently so she’s an Akuma for now.
The ancient evil.
I’ve flavored texted this seemingly new feature that may be implemented as a great, evil and ancient Yokai that through various means has been soothed and appeased by Ayano and currently has never been used for a boon due to its great and terrible power.
You may be asking yourself at this point? Why would Ayano be religious? Why would she even remotely care about abusing the power of Yokai, Kami, or an Akuma for the sake of her own gain to easily obtain ‘Senpai’? Why would she care about ANY of what I’ve said above? Well, I will be explaining this now, using her family origins and adding a sense of greater depth and potentially a greater mystery into a redesign of the game.
Ayano’s family origins.
To explain Ayano’s upbringing, along with slight insight into Ryoba’s own motivations into why she conditioned her daughter in such an extreme way physically and mentally, along with teaching her holy practices: is that Ryoba’s family sect dates back to an ancient and dark time of Japan where human life was valued very little that followed the family line in traditions and practices up to Ayano’s bloodline that progressively got worse as time went on in mentality.
To explain what the Aishi family’s sect was like in the past: they were highly religious, traditional and information gatherers for their leaders, along with being torturers and breaking people mentally to subjugate and break their spirit after capturing them to obtain vital information, and that’s where the art first began and overtime became honed into why: Ayano, a Highschool Girl has the knowledge to turn people into literal mindslaves with almost zero to needed requirements stat wise. (He might change this later, but he has made ZERO mention to it as he has with other things, so for now? I doubt it)
Why have I made it this way?
Mainly to incorporate things from the game rather than being a simple club accessory into a more compelling story with a sense of mystery even though I basically laid it all out for you as to why she acts the way she does and her family- as it is just a concept but a concept that’s currently more fitting to me than the current iteration. And why she can do and engage in certain things, rather than use a ‘bizarre mental illness that also is seemingly actual ones’ as a plot device to explain certain mechanics, along with the fact of knowing how to properly utilize poison among other killing mechanics, granted you need certain stats before doing that? Ayano needs to have a reason WHY she would know to be able to jump from point A to B to C and so on with that logic.
As for story-line? While I made it that this is rooted in tradition can seem highly unlikely as actually possible: for there are traditions in this world that have been going on for generations. In fact, some of even the most popular plot-lines in popular Japanese anime have involved outdated or dogmatic practices and traditions as being something they need to overcome together as a whole.
All verses will be typed as exactly in bold to separate them from one another. Ultimately there is a canon verse to this blog, but it is up to you the player rper decide on kind of path you want Ayano on to interact with your muse.
Eyes on you.
Ayano is fixated on the muse she is rping with and sees them as her ‘Senpai’ or person she wants to be forever with by any means necessary. This can be countered with the muse knowing and helping Ayano through her condition. This tag is limited to no specific muse so long as they’re in her age range as she can even become fixated on her ‘rivals’ for how casual I’m willing to be with this. Do tell me if you want it to be AFTER she gets help, as Ayano will attempt to kidnap them prior to being abducted by Megami to get help when Megami can’t sit idly by any longer. Muse must be in 2-3 years within age range for this to apply or be considered.
Hugs on you.
A recovered Ayano can be a ‘yandere’ for her friends or made family. To give an idea of how this tag differs from the other one: she’s completely loving as she is in her romantic fixations, though her actions are completely chaste in intention.
Living again.
Ayano’s main verse is recovering from a lifetime of trauma and overall did not follow in her mother’s footsteps completely, taking a morally gray stance in eliminating her rivals, doing her best to not traumatize anyone but making them back off through intimidation and possibly violence with her identity masked or befriending them on accident in the goal for Senpai’s affection but also from her own sense of warped morals. Only resorting to murder with the worst of the worst and while she did a lot of bad? She also did a lot of good and saved people albeit in order to be with Senpai, never murdering anyone outside of what her mother conditioned her with privately and forced her into.
In this main verse: she is living with Megami after killing Ryoba to save her and a few of her other rivals that were considered ‘loose ends that knew too much by her’. Megami is the one who originally apprehended Ayano after piecing things together and unable to idly standby while Ayano was in need of help and needed to be stopped, rehabilitating her in the process with therapy and freeing her from that fixation she had on Senpai as she saw the good in Ayano from an outside perspective but also on a personal level. Note: the Megami I’m rping with can be romantically involved with Ayano if they desire, that is up to them or to assume a more familial relationship, helping her deal with the tragedy she endured and protecting her during the initial reveal and overall therapy Ayano needs.
Note: this verse can start at any point in time of the verse, even so much as the first day of back to school.
Masked.
The mask itself is hard to rip off and you’d practically have to hurt her in the process to forcibly remove it fully. But it resembles that of something faceless and can only be seen out of, but not into. Its pure white in design and the material is easily washed and disposable. She has a voice distorter while this is on that makes her sound further intimidating, though she mainly did this on purpose- as rather than sound robotic. It sounds multi-toned, calm, soothing and yet eerie.
No going back.
Ayano has resorted to murder of the innocent and also has no qualms about framing, or traumatizing anyone to get what she wants. This follows a ‘bad end’ route for the rp and will eventually result in Ayano apprehended by Megami and her forces and temporarily locked away for several years to get help with Megami’s intervention. With her mother imprisoned for extreme child abuse, murder, rape, and so on with possibly being put on death row? Ayano has to live with her actions for the rest of her life as Megami takes responsibility for her as I see her as the type of person to look at her father and just: ‘You’re bad at this, I’m taking over now’ with how morally righteous I see her as.
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Interactions but online, as in if Ayano was using the internet on the actual website itself: tumblr. As there are a lot of canon interactions in the game on her phone? So it works as she will age in real time in this verse: she is currently only 17 right now.
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Exactly how it is. So tw blood, tw stalking and so on and it will be under a readmore anyway if it’s extreme violence and torture.
A Yokai’s scorn.
There are some muses that clash far too much with Ayano’s world to properly interact with her. So I’ve decided to give her a supernatural verse.
I’ve decided to make Ayano a mixture of immortal spirits for what kind of Japanese Spirit/Demon or ‘Yokai’ she’d be and I was leaning more towards spirits than anything.
Her inspiration:
Betobeto-San
Betobeto-san is a formless specter, and is only recognizable by the telltale sound it makes – the “beto beto” sound of wooden sandals clacking on the ground.
People who walk the streets alone at night sometimes encounter this harmless but nonetheless disturbing yokai. It synchronizes its pace with walkers and follows them as long as it can, getting closer and closer with each step. For the victims, this can be quite traumatic. The haunting sound of footsteps follows them wherever they go, but every time they turn around to see what is following them, they find nothing.
Teke Teke
As a young school boy was walking home at night, he spotted a beautiful young girl standing by a windowsill resting on her elbows. They smiled at each other for a moment. The boy wondered what a girl was doing in an all-boys school, but before he could wonder more about the girl she jumped out of the window and revealed her lower half was missing. Frightened, he stood in the sidewalk, but before he could run, she cut the boy in half and the boy was found dead but his lower half was missing.
What Ayano is and how she functions:
Ayano was born from human sadness, loneliness, love and yearning. That’s how she came into existence is manifesting from those innate desires, often seeking out those who wander alone with the same ones. Thus her willingness to grant boons without a question so long as it does not conflict with her own warped morals.
Basically I’ll be taking this as Ayano is a ‘born spirit’ and while immortal, can be dispelled temporarily or fought back if the person is supernatural themselves but as imagined? Can be hard to deal with as most of the time once angered, as Ayano at first is harmless and will simply follow lone travelers as a wandering spirit, having no disfigurements and appearing as a young Japanese Teenage Girl in traditional garments and only allowing glimpses to be seen before vanishing completely, though the clack of her sandals can still be heard.
Eventually, after a day of off and on stalking during the night, the spirit will converse with the traveler on really any topic at night. Maybe the weather, their lover, or even what era it is- the possibilities and accounts have been numerous. Albeit, there are occasions where the spirit will become enamored with the traveler she’s following if they’re a young teenager such as she, pursuing them more frequently and even flirting or complimenting them and capable of physical contact. However… if the spirit is rejected harshly or told to go away in any circumstance whether enamored or not other than politely and calmly asking to be left be: a farming scythe will appear in her hand as blood begins dripping from her eyes and a great wound appearing on her abdomen shows with entrails hanging partially out, the Yokai will then pursue relentlessly until her victim is mutilated and brutally murdered with a vicious smile. Then vanishing with the remains to who knows where.
Though if appeased after seven days and humored in her dealings, the spirit is capable of giving great rewards or even taking one favor and will fulfill it without question so long as it doesn’t conflict with their own warped moral code. However if simply asked to be left alone peacefully after three times each time she disappears and then reappears later, the spirit will leave and give no reward or punishment. But will give no reward if asked to leave even once if the duration is met to its end.
Often many times, the spirit will attack people who respond in fright in the heat of the moment, as it needs to be done ‘politely and calmly’ with no sense of hostility or horror. So as you can imagine? Things get quite messy at times for those not in the know of Ayano and her ways.
Weapon reference so people don’t get confused and think of the western version of a farming scythe.
The home.
Her home essentially is her own heart which consists of an endless hallway of flesh that constantly beats and convulses as if well- you guessed it: a heart. Inside, she sits on a regular mat when dormant if not seeking or being sought out with her offerings or gifts she has received over the thousands of years, the walls lining with countless masks of her victim’s faces that she carefully carves off and then places onto a wall to dry and harden and reform. The masks once taken shape, resemble the victim’s face almost exactly, albeit their eyes are merely darkened holes as if to see out and simply look like ordinary masks, having her own ‘special section’ for her victims she’s been fixated on that’s deeper inside her heart’s winding chambers. Although… visitor’s under her protection will often find themselves feel as though the masks themselves are following them with their empty eyes.
The leftover flesh is absorbed and essentially consumed as it becomes a part of Ayano’s ‘home’. This is to ease the emptiness she feels eternally in her ‘heart’ and that’s why she keeps her victims close to it, or well, more literally inside of it as a part of it. Taking the phrase ‘keep them close to your heart’ rather literally.
Habits.
She’ll often take the masks of her victims to temporarily meld onto her face to admire herself with their face and build.
She collects the faces of her victims to fill the eternal emptiness in her heart.
She is willing to trade faces with people from the victims she’s acquired of their own choosing, thus ‘visitor’s under her protection’ are a possibility when picking out and trying out masks for the ‘face trader’. The trader themselves will be able to either keep the face and build or simply the face, but never just the build. Albeit can leave some parts of the body unaltered, such as if the person in question is simply transgender and doesn’t wish for their sex to be changed as well or someone who wishes to change it entirely along with looks if they’re transsexual. The participant must be specific or Ayano will simply leave them in the new un-altered body if they wish for the build as well.
If simply asked for a boon when sought out via things to attract her, Ayano will fulfill this without question if there is no trade conducted. What this means: later on, without warning as years or simply weeks passed, Ayano will absorb them completely as if stalking them with the clacks of her sandals. However, when they turn around? Well… I’ll let that be a surprise for whoever wants their muse to find out as their face will appear in her heart’s wall.
She deems it as you always have to give her something if you want a boon, even if it’s yourself.
Will trick others into giving themselves to her when they ask for boons if she sees that it’s possible.
Is extremely affectionate to the few friends she makes. Will revisit previous companions she’s granted boons to with no strings attached to simply enjoy their company. Especially if she’s fixated on them.
A few powers to simply list them off.
Immortality, albeit not invincible but can return from being vanquished or forced away.
Reincarnating others through budding them in a large flesh cocoon that instantly hatches once dropped from her hand: this is necessary for a ‘face-trade’. And to take inspiration off certain myths and shows.
Absorption/Soul Absorption.
Dimensional travel and having a dimensional plane of her own.
Limited shape-shifting so long as she has the mask.
Limited wish granting.
Using her victim’s mask to form ethereal and formless wearers of it to deliver messages in her voice.
(Maybe more to be added later, I might be forgetting some)
How to seek her out and appease her rather than herself finding you.
Traditional offerings or sacrifices whether great ones or personal ones regarding loneliness, along with food and incense to attract her. Alternatively, you use a charm given to you by her, and while greeting offerings aren’t necessary after befriending her? They’re greatly appreciated and could actually earn you her friendship.
To trade with her.
It must be exceptional and befitting of a Yokai. Whether it’s an offered task to do for them such as to expand their influence to others with great statues, writings or knowledge, or to perform something at the request of Ayano on her terms if accepted. Or a grand sacrifice for a grand boon or a small sacrifice for a small boon.
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