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I been talking to vance again, slowly

Yesterday i got very upset so he came out of stasis to comfort me(i think im at a place now in my mental state where i am more willing to hear him, rather than needing the space)

He prompted me to come over to him for a hug and it felt nice to wrap my arms around him and cry on him u.u i brought my blanky over with me as well so i could be comfy.

I feel okay today, even kinda good! Im happy that vance comforted me cuz it turns out i needed it ><

Im at work rn so i cant see him rn, but i told him 'goodbye' and 'i love you' when i left which made me happy aaa and it made me happy when he told me to have a good day 🩷

I might be back to vanceposting soon lol

But i still might be kinda absent a bit idk, im feeling ok rn but i have borderline so my moods can switch on a dime >< unfortunately ><

Tw bpd talk and its a bit dark?

Also speaking of borderline. I fuckin hate splitting sm... like... ugh its so painful like to just think that everyone is evil and out to get me all the sudden and then i get defensive and angy and a little mean and kinda abusive(i threaten my safety a lot) and i say things i dont actually mean... it always takes so so so much energy to not tell people i hate them and want them dead, and it makes me so tired bc i never want to say that to anyone, and i never have(i think?) But im so scared i will...