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donaidk · 4 years ago

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Marcus Armstrong - Almost Home I.

In advance: This is getting a Part 2 for sure. I don’t want to leave it here, but at the same time I felt like it would be really long if I left it in one piece. Turns out I have a whole lot of inspiration for Marcus fics right now. 😂 I also wanna let everyone, who’s waiting for their request, know that uni is starting next week for me. It means less free time, but I will make sure to finish every one of them in the next week or so, and then focus on all the series I started. There’s gonna be slower updates to them, but I’ll make sore to have one or two per week at least. Hopefully they won’t try to kill us in the starting weeks and I will finish up the Lando one so I could start posting that every week and just add some parts from the others to the queue 😊

Thank you Anon for requesting this one though, and sorry for the wait. Hope you will enjoy it and as it’s almost the next day here, have a really happy start to your Friday everyone 🧡

Kind of Taglist: @mickschumcher, @art-gp

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With the Australian GP knocking on the door Melbourne filled up with tourists and fans even more than usual. The first time I got to witness it in 2017 was actually scary in a way for someone who didn’t know the city well yet. Getting from one part of the city to another was a hard task already, and all the shouting and crazy fans weren’t of much help when I tried to get some usable info out of them so I could finally get to my destination and get off the streets. It almost held me back from choosing Melbourne’s university, but I had to remind myself that it was just once a year and I shouldn't give up my plans because of it. Melbourne was beautiful and their schools were highly rated, giving me everything for a stable future. Luckily I was never disappointed by my choices as it was easy to get used to the life here and I even found some new friends who helped me every time I felt homesick. It wasn’t the worst usually, as I was truly content with how my life was going, but sometimes it just hit me out of nowhere and in those moments they were always there for me.

It was now the third year when we lived through the race weekend, meaning we finally had a working schedule with which we still followed our usual plans but stayed out of the bigger crowds. Although we were in the middle of the semester we always found time to enjoy the still warm weather and spend most of our free time outside. Usually our choice was the beach for the afternoons as even though it was packed until noon, the tourists never stayed for long. We usually arrived in the late afternoon and stayed well after the sun went down, and the temperature went down a little finally. The water usually stayed comfortable until later in the evening making it bearable for almost a whole 24 hours if you weren’t squeamish. Even if you were after spending a few weeks at the beach, everyone got used to it.

As soon as everyone finished with their lectures we got our things together and took the 5 minutes walk down to the beach. We had a favourite spot which was luckily never taken when we got down there. For a few minutes we just sat down, talking about our weeks. I shared a dorm room with two other girls, but we had a few friends who had their own apartments or lived with their family a bit farther away from our university. We usually had one or two days every week to catch up with them as in between lectures we were either too tired or didn’t have the time to do so. But most of the afternoons were ours fully and we used it the best we could to relax but still use that time to make memories for the few years we’re spending together. We could say it’s gonna stay the same after we graduate but everyone knew we would move to different countries as soon as we weren’t connected to Australia. Even I planned to go home, although I enjoyed living here and getting to be independent without my family behind my back.

�� Are you coming? ” One of the girls asked me, as they were already walking down to the water, while I was still standing around our towels with my phone in my hand. I was in the middle debating which sunset photo I should post from my gallery, but her voice made me look up.

“ Just a second. I’ll catch up. ” I smiled at her before looking back down at my screen. In the end my finger finally tapped the posting button and I pushed it aside while I got the sundress off that was on over my bikini.

Right before I would have ran after the girls, the device was back in my hands so I could check that the picture uploaded without a problem. A smile got on my face when I saw a reaction from one of my family members but as soon as it showed the whole list of the people who looked at my story, it faded away. For the past few months whenever I posted something he was always there in the first few seconds or at least minutes. I couldn’t understand what changed that he showed up in my life again, but I didn't really want to give him space in my thoughts either. It has been almost 4 years since we last talked and could call each other best friends, but I wasn’t about to take the first step and message him after he forgot about me until now. I just dropped my phone back into my bag, closing it and then caught up with my friends so they could make me forget about him again.

We spent quite some time in the water, swimming a few laps back and forth before just standing around and enjoying the last rays of sunshine while we chatted away. My thoughts were already in a different direction thanks to all the different topics that came up between us. Sometimes it was harder to make me forget time and time again, but turns out today I only needed some distraction and everything was set for an enjoyable night. With the sun completely off the sky the temperature dropped quickly and it was getting a bit chilly for my liking in just a few minutes. When it was truly uncomfortable I gave up and walked back to the shore, sitting down on my own blanket and draping my towel around my shoulders. It immediately brought enough warmth over my body that I stopped shivering and could wait for them until they would get cold too. Until then I just went onto my phone to go through some posts of my friends. Sometimes I looked up to check on them just so they wouldn’t leave me out of something. One of those times I saw a person coming my way and although I didn’t mind too much attention to it, when he continued and there was no one else in my close proximity I felt like he might be coming to me. In the end I was right as he turned right towards me and then stopped just a few steps away from our blankets.

“ Never thought you would exchange our lovely and perfect red stars for ugly white ones. ” He spoke up and I could recognise the voice even though his face was almost unseeable thanks to him standing with his back towards the moon. My jaw dropped immediately and I felt like I grew roots into the ground as I couldn’t move my body. “ If you want me to fuck off, just tell me. It’s okay. I just thought we could maybe talk, and from the pictures I saw that you’re here. Hoped you didn’t go home yet so I could catch you and... ” He started rambling but I was quick to finally push myself up and hug him immediately. I always imagined our reunion with me being angry at him, but somehow I couldn’t get myself to feel that way now that he was standing right in front of me.

“ You idiot. ” I told him not leaving any space for questions and I could feel as he finally relaxed and hugged me back. “ The biggest in the whole world. ” I added with a sigh, closing my eyes as my brain started functioning again and I had an urge to kick his shin at least.

“ I can live with that. ” Marcus let out a laugh and I could feel as my heart jumped a little at the sound. It was something that always reminded me of our home and spending every possible second together. “ I’m sorry for disappearing. ” He let out a sigh, letting go of me only when we realised my wet bathing suit soaked his shirt, although even he didn’t care about it for too long.

“ What are you doing here? I thought F2 wasn't coming here. ” I asked him confused, knowing that we wouldn’t be in this situation if he traveled here for one of the races in the past two years. “ Not like I’m complaining, but I can hardly believe my own eyes and senses. ” I shook my head a little before looking up at him again. He changed, quite a bit since we last met and even though I saw pictures of him it was different in a face-to-face situation.

“ Ferrari invited a few of us so we could gather some experience. The speed I accepted the offer with might have raised some eyebrows. ” Marcus hid his face in his palm, making me chuckle as I could see the situation unfold in front of my eyes like I was there. “ Thought I would DM you and ask if you wanted to meet up maybe. But I realized it would be better offline. ” I had to roll my eyes at his first idea although I knew he wasn’t lying and it for sure went through his brain as a real possibility.

“ You’re lucky you didn’t. I would have blocked you forever I think. My plan was connecting my fist with your face if we ever meet again, right until you showed up here. ” I shook my head with a smile, as I wasn’t proud of what I wanted to do to him. “ I was really angry when you just stopped talking to me. I tried so hard to reach you, but it felt like you didn’t even exist anymore even though they were talking about you almost every week. ” I sighed, sitting back down and leaving enough space for him too.

“ Would have been deserved actually. ” His fingers scratched at the nape of his neck and I could see the tint of purple traveling up his neck. I watched him as he sat down, pulling his legs up and resting his arms onto them. “ I really am sorry. For a part everything got busy with all the training, races and studying, but at the same time I know damn well a message here and there should have been possible. I messed up, everything. ” His eyes shined even in the minimal light of the moon, and I could get myself to look away. Even feeling the burning stares on my back from my friends didn’t get me to turn around.

“ I won’t say that it’s okay, but I accept your apology. How could I not. ” I let out a breath that I realized was still stuck in me since the initial surprise took over my body. “ It feels like we didn’t even skip over like 3 years of each other’s life. Only difference is that you’re finally taller than me, but the baby face’s still there. ” My hand went up to his cheek to pat it gently like my grandma did for him all the time when he came over for lunch. He always hated it but knew that it was a gesture of love from her and a way to show Marcus that she considered him part of our family.

“ Yeah, I guess it’s going to stay forever. ” Marcus huffed, moving his head back a little to avoid my attack, although he failed miserably. “ I almost forgot, congrats for uni. I remember how hard you were studying to get in. Everyone home was ecstatic when I told them about it. ” His hand slapped his forehead, making me laugh with his expression at the slight stinging he caused himself.

“ Thank you, but it’s nothing compared to your second place last year. ” I shrugged a little but as soon as his lips pulled into a slight smirk my eyes rolled on their own. “ Surprise, surprise, I followed your career. Just as much as you followed my life for the past few months. ” I poked him in the ribs with my finger, making him wince for a second before we both started laughing at the little sound he made.

“ Fair. I still hate how Instagram shows who opened your stories. ” He shook his head a little and both of our heads turned towards the water when we realized the background chatting was getting closer and closer to where we were sitting. They were just a few meters away when my eyes landed on their figures and I sensed when Marcus stood up from next to me, making me push myself up too.

I didn’t feel too anxious about him meeting my other friends, although I knew what this meant for my evening at the dorm with them. They would have an immense amount of questions both about him and us, even though I already mentioned him when we were bringing up our past. A few of them even knew about my past feelings about him and how him reappearing on my socials played with my emotions, but they only saw a few photos of him. This was another level and I knew he would be the topic for at least the next week between us, for one reason or another. Depends on how we get on from this point and if we manage to keep in contact when they have to fly away again.

“ Oh, I knew it wasn’t just my imagination. I told you someone was coming here. ” My roommate spoke up as soon as they got close enough to make us out from the darkness. “ You’re Marcus, right? ” She stepped right in front of him, reaching her hand out while introducing herself. I always admired her boldness even in front of strangers.

“ Yes, although I didn’t know so many people knew me from here. ” Marcus let out an uneasy chuckle, looking at me a bit concerned. I just shook my head dismissively, almost telling him that it was just a ‘Girl group’ thing. Relief washed over me though that I didn’t share a lot about him, behind his back.

I watched from the sideline as everyone introduced themselves to him and for a second it felt domestic as all of them shot me a concerned glance towards me. It felt like they would pounce at him if they saw that I was uncomfortable in his presence. While it made me feel loved in a way, I also didn’t want them to really chip on the situation. It was something that better dealt with in private as I felt like we had to talk lots of things through to get back to the friendship we left behind years ago. This wasn’t the setting for a conversation like that.

“ We should probably get home before it gets really late. School won’t wait in the morning. ” I spoke up before any of them could start questioning him. We would never be able to get going then. “ Maybe we can catch up sometime before the race? I’m sure you will have enough to do during the weekend. ” I turned back towards Marcus who looked just as relieved as I did seconds ago.

“ Yeah, that would be better. Maybe lunch, or a coffee in the afternoon? Whenever you’re free of course. ” He nodded a little, still glancing at the girls who were either packing up or staring him down behind me.

“ I’m up for either of those. Surprise me. ” I grinned at him, feeling the pull on my arm when everyone was ready. “ Is your number the same? ” I asked him, already taking a step back, but waiting for his answers.

“ Yes. Never changed. ” Marcus nodded again, a little smile playing on his lips at the idea that we’re going to meet up again probably. At least I hoped so. Why else would he stalk me down and come up to me for a chat?

“ I’m gonna text you in the morning when’s my last lecture. We can meet up after that. ” I told them, before turning around with one last wave and catching up to my group. I could only hope that they would at least let me sleep before the questions start pouring out of them all at once.

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fatandnerdy30 · 6 years ago

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The Itsy Bitsy Spider 18

I would like to thank @midas-or-khaos for your help with this, and for getting my plot bunnies out from under the couch when they weren’t behaving! This person is a very talented artist, so go check out their work!!

Now, on with chapter 18!!

As soon as she was cleared to leave the hospital, May got into her old ninety-four four door sedan and drove like a madwoman. She wasn't exactly clear on where this 'Compound' was, but she was determined to get there. Her nephew was now probably dead, and she wanted answers as to why that was! Tears tracked down the woman's face as she drove, listening to the GPS as it told her where to turn. She drove for what seemed like hours, no music, just the cheery woman telling her which street to take. For the past six months, she thought Peter had run away, living on the streets. She'd actually searched for him every day, looking down alley ways, calling different homeless shelters for months. She'd actually just spoken to an out of state one and was disappointed again. But when she saw that small boy sitting on the Hulk's shoulders, his hair was the same as Peter's....the cameraman had even gotten his tiny face into the screen and May felt her heart explode with happiness. But, all that disappeared when she saw the piece of asphalt land where he was laying. A sob ripped through her as the scene replayed over and over in her head as she drove. Suddenly she noticed the woman wasn't talking anymore and looked at her phone. The screen was blank with a message reading 'entering top secret area, no directions found.' "Great!" she screamed and sobbed again. Just then she passed a dirt road. May stopped the car and started driving down it. Hopefully someone lived along the road and maybe knew where the facility was. More thoughts then poured into the woman's head. How long had Peter been living there? Why hadn't he called her? Were the Avengers holding him prisoner? Did they even do that? Had he possibly gotten involved in something dangerous and his current body was the result? She didn't' know what to think, and tried not to let her mind wander, but it was too late. The only thing she knew was that she wanted her baby boy home with her today. Her tears were starting to dry when she was met with a large electronic gate with a huge white mansion looking building that the road led to. She took a deep breath and she felt a wave of relief as soon as she saw the large A on the building. Now that she had found it, how was she going to get in? Getting out of her car, she walked up to the gate and tried to peer inside when a man appeared in front of her, his round face angry. "You're on private property," he said with a growl. May saw red and put her hands on her hips. "Don't you think I know that!? I drove all night to get here and I demand to have some answers about my nephew!" Thinking about Peter suddenly started another wave of sobs. "I demand to see Tony Stark!" Her voice had risen to a shrill, explosive volume, her glasses askew on her face, hair wild from the wind. Happy gulped and contacted Friday to tell Tony. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "What am I gonna do!?" Peter wailed from Tony's pocket, his fidgeting getting worse the closer and closer the group got to the common room. "Just calm down, Peter," the man said, taking a deep breath, feeling the boy rise and fall. "We're gonna talk to her, that's all. You know, offer her a place to stay if she wants to be near you. But there is no way she is going to be taking you out of this building." "But, Mr. Stark, she's my family! She's gonna want to take me home!" The man simply pushed the boy into his pocket and out of sight. "We'll take care of it, bud. Don't worry." He walked until he heard a scathing voice and stopped. "Mr Stark, I presume?" The woman who met them in the common room looked nothing like her picture. Her hair was wild, and her eyes were red and glassy behind her glasses, as if she'd been crying for hours. "That depends on who's asking," the billionaire said, and wished he hadn't. May's eyes flashed with fire the moment the group walked into the room. She wasn't even paying attention as they all stared at her. "I was told that Peter is top secret," May said in a dangerously low voice. "Peter was my nephew, my only living family, so I have more than a right to know what happened to him," she snapped. The boy huddled deeper in Tony's pocket the moment the woman spoke, and right now, he wanted to join him. "I apologize about that. Yes, my name is Tony Stark. Let me say first, you look so much better than your picture." He shot her a winning smile, but the woman didn't stop glaring. Well, there went that plan. "I want my nephew's body," she demanded shakily, her body trembling. Happy was in the corner, trying to hide the fact that he was listening and failing if his shocked face said anything. "If you don't hand it over, I will bring lawyers into this." "May, if I can call you that, this is a difficult situation to explain. But first, I will let you know, Peter is alive." The woman's shoulders sagged with relief and tears came to her already cried out eyes. "But, if Peter leaves this building with other than myself, or any of the Avengers, it will be dangerous for him. There's people who are working for Hydra that want to take him back to the scientists that did this to him." May scoffed. "Yeah right. You're probably trying to cover for yourself after something went wrong. How dare you try and keep Peter away from me after what I saw! What did you do with him!?" "He's telling the truth, May!" Peter's head popped up from Tony's pocket, his face a little red from the heat around him. "Him and the Avengers are the ones who saved me...I....I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you worry or think I was dead. The Hydra people, they took me while I was walking home from school. I couldn't fight them, there were too many, and I was so weak back then. I'm sorry." Tears started tracking down the boy's face as he spoke, staring at the ashen faced woman. In an instant, May had surged forward and taken Peter out of the more than shocked billionaire's pocket before Tony could stop her. Happy had moved in that moment as well, but when he saw the small boy, he simply stared, mouth open in shock. She held him in a curled hand, eyes wide as she looked at him. "Oh, Peter," she finally said, her voice raw as tears came to her eyes. "I was so worried about you....I thought you had run away, that I did something wrong to make you so angry that you would leave...The when I saw the news, you were there, and then that piece of rubble.." The boy's head was shaking like a bobble. "Aunt May, you could never do anything to make me hate you. You're wonderful and I love you so much." He said as he held onto the woman's thumb. "And I'm so sorry you had to see that...It's just...I can't leave." Her eyes went wider, if that was possible. "What do you mean? Are they holding you prisoner?" She sent a glare to the group who had the right to look a little ashamed. "No, May....what Mr. Stark said was true. What you saw on the bridge, those guys that attacked us, they were after me. Hydra really does want me back." "Why?" "Because..." he looked down, drawing little circles on the woman's palm. "Because I was the only person who survived the procedure to turn me this way. All the rest of the people with me died....in horrible ways." He didn't want to go into detail. "But, then the Avengers came and took me out of where I was....they gave me freedom again, let me go outside. Not by myself, but at least I got to walk around by myself! And I've met so many amazing people, like Mr. Stark! He got Captain America to agree to help me even when I'm normal with the changes that happened. We were actually testing out my abilities before you came." May's brow was raised again. "Abilities?" "Ms. Parker," Bruce came forward with a smile. "Please allow me to explain, because Tony will just make it so confusing. You see, your nephew was given injections by Hydra, some of which were made by a Dr. Hank Pym, who also made Ant-Man." He paused and the woman nodded, seeming to understand. "So, Peter's body was compressed, but his mass was doubled. But, according to his size, he is the weight he should be, but due to his mass increasing, he's able to move things that are up to one thousand times his weight, and maybe more. It's really very interesting." When he finished, May had been following, but the man had lost her towards the end. "So...what does that mean?" "I'm like a super strong ant," Peter explained. "I was able to save Morgan, Mr. Stark's daughter. It took a lot, but I was able to lift her over the road." "Is that how you survived? These...abilities?" Peter nodded. "Well, I guess I have to thank them for that. It's a miracle that you're here at all...but what about when you get-get to normal?" "That's a bit harder to explain," Tony stepped forward, wanting to be close to Peter just in case he fell or the woman fainted. "You see, when Hydra gave him the shots, the DNA they injected him with pretty much changed his whole genetic makeup. He's still Peter, but now he's mixed with spider. We're not sure what kind of spider, though I'm convinced it was one hooked on something because he's too hyper." He reached out and with a finger, rustled the boy's hair. "How did you get blueberry in your hair?" May watched the interaction, fascinated about seeing the soft side of the money mogul. "So...does that mean...he'll be changed when he gets back to normal?" May was staring at Peter like he wasn't even her nephew anymore, and that hurt the boy the most. "Well, yes and no. When he can finally get him back to normal, which I'm guessing will be much taller than he is now, he'll probably be able to do everything he can do now. Some new abilities may begin to grow, or they may not. Time will only tell. But," Tony smiled, "my offer still stands for the others to train him. That will remain for as long as he needs or wants it." "R-really!?" Peter felt his heart swell at that news. He would still be able to come back when everything was back to normal? "I don't know," May said, dashing the boy's dreams. "I don't want Peter anywhere near where he can get hurt. He's a frail boy." Clint started laughing. "Really?" he managed to get out. "The kid who can lift seventy pounds the way he is, is frail? Yeah right, tell me another one." "May, I...I've changed. Because of Hydra, I'm not that frail boy you knew anymore. I'm much stronger, like I said. I can run faster, move things I was never able to before, and once I'm big again, I'm sure I'll be able to do all these things and more! Please, May...I've made a lot of friends here and I promise I'll be safe.Right Mr. Stark?" The man threw his hands up. "Yep, completely safe. We're basically just talking about training him to control his senses and strength." He wouldn't tell her about the suit he'd build for the kid, nor would he tell her if Peter decided to use it. That was Peter's job. May nodded. "Then I guess it's okay," she said a little unwillingly. She looked at Peter, still stunned at his size and the fact that he was still alive, and in her grip. With a watery smile, she brought him close to her chest and hugged him as best she could. "I missed you so much, Peter." Peter smiled as he was enveloped in May's scent and warmth, the things he was used to. "I missed you too," he said, not sure if the woman heard him, but at the moment he didn't care. Too soon he was pulled away and was presented with a pair of lips coming at him, and before he could scramble away, May was planting a soft kiss to his head, which enveloped half his face with it. "MAY!!" he yelled, embarrassed to be kissed in front of the entire Avengers team. He enjoyed it though, even though when she pulled away, his face was red. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ They were back in the training room, May hadn't given up her hold on Peter just yet, insisting on holding him in her palm the entire way, all while looking around. She was promised a tour by her nephew after the tests. Happy had appeared on the way down to the training room, smiling at May a little too much. "So," he started, clearing his throat. "How are you doing? You know, with all this?" The man had motioned towards Peter, who had ducked the incoming hand, sending a glare Happy's way. "Oh..I'm doing a little better than I was before. I mean, I'm coming to understand that he won't be like this for the rest of his life, so that's a good thing. The only thing I'm worried about are these tests they're doing." "I'll be fine, May," Peter said with a sure smile. Happy stared at the finger sized kid in the woman's hand. He sometimes wished his life was more....sane. "And here we are," Tony's voice broke through the tension and they stopped in front of the training room, which was soaked at the moment. "What happened?" Happy asked as he stepped in a puddle, making a face. "It's just a test for Peter," Steve said shrugging. "See if he can stick to wet surfaces." May put her hand up. "Wait, wait...stick to wet surfaces?" She stared at the boy who looked a little too innocent. ""May, can you put me down?" the boy asked. His aunt was hesitant, but agreed, lowering him to the floor, allowing him to crawl off her hand. "I'm gonna need to focus on this, but remember when we were talking about abilities? Well, sticking to things is one of those abilities. I don't know how it works, but it seems to work better when I can concentrate on what I'm sticking to." He shrugged at the crouched woman who stared at him. "Ready?" Doctor Banner asked, his eyes on the boy at their feet. Peter gave him a thumbs up and started running to the wet wall, avoiding the shin deep puddles and waited by the wall for the say. "Go whenever you want,"the doctor said. Peter nodded and put a hand and foot against the wall. The wet surface was a little tricky because of it's slippery nature, but he was sure he could do it. He focused intensely on the slippery wall until he felt his fingers stick, then the pads of his foot before allowing himself to begin to ascend. He waited until he felt his other limbs stick, making his climb faster. He only slipped twice, and that was when he looked back to see May staring at him with worried fascination, while Happy was checking out the woman's butt, and he lost concentration. Peter didn't go as high this time, because it was a lot harder to stick to a wet surface. "I'm coming down!" he yelled and tried to come down the way he had before, but that was a lot harder on a wet surface, and he caught Happy checking out his aunt's butt again and lost his concentration. With a shout, Peter felt his feet slip and he was free falling, tumbling through the air. He saw the ground rushing to meet him, and closed his eyes, expecting to hit the hard ground, but what he hit was something soft, yet firm enough to daze him from the contact. Slowly he opened his eyes and found himself looking up at Mr. Rogers' worried face as his hands cupped around him. "Are you alright?" the man asked, bringing Peter up to check him over. The boy nodded, wincing when that hurt his neck a little. "Y-yeah, I think so.." he stuttered. "Thank you." "You're welcome. That was pretty impressive to watch, by the way," the man smiled as Peter blushed. "Th-thanks..." He couldn't believe he had just gotten a compliment from Captain America! True he hadn't really fanned out about living with the Avengers, but he had never really had a chance to think about it, with his situation. But it seemed to be setting now that he had his aunt in his life suddenly, bringing back a semblance of normalcy into his life. "That was very good, Peter," Doctor Banner said leaning over to look down at him. "Why don't you take a little break, be with your aunt while we set up the next test, okay?" Peter nodded and stood up, feeling his feet stick to the familiar texture of skin. Apparently he didn't need to focus on something if he'd already stuck to it. "Mr. Stark?" he called and the man turned. "Can I, umm....can I be on my own in here, on the floor I mean?" He stared at the man with big eyes and he sighed. "Those eyes are weapons," Mr. Stark said to his aunt, who smiled and agreed. "Just be careful, okay?" Peter smiled brightly and automatically started hopping in Mr. Rogers' hands, acting like he had to pee. "I guess you wanna be put down?" Rogers teased, laughing when the boy nodded so fast he thought his head would fly off. "Okay, I'll set you down, but stay close to you aunt, okay? May?" He looked to the woman, who seemed surprised that Captain America was talking to her and nodded. "I can watch him. I've been doing it for the past nine years," she said snappily. It was obvious Peter was very popular here and that was making May a little jealous. Peter ran to his aunt, who knelt to in order to not be towering over him, even then she knew she must look so big compared to his size now. "Why haven't you called me?" the woman asked, obvious hurt in her voice, her hand reaching out to Peter, her fingers stroking his back. The boy looked at her nervously. "Because...I didn't want you to see me like this. I was afraid if you did, the shock would give you a heart attack or something. So, we were gonna wait until I was back to normal, but we don't know when that will be. I'm sorry, May." May smiled and scooped the boy up, bringing him in for another hug, loving that her nephew was alive and safe. "I'm just glad that you're okay, honey, honestly. You don't have to worry about anything, okay. As long as you're safe and with me, I don't care what happens." She pulled him away and rubbed his head with her pinky, laughing at the aggravated sigh he gave at that. "About that," Tony chose that moment to cut in while Bruce and the capsicle analyzed everything for Peter's next test. "What we were talking about earlier, him staying here, that's a must unfortunately. So if you want to bring Peter home with you, we all have to go. And that means less time here to work on the cure, the more time Pete has to spend time as a Liliputian...do you get where I'm going with this?" May nodded, her face scrunched with anger. "You're saying you want to take my nephew away from me so you con continue to experiment on him." Tony shook his head, a shocked look on his face, that was covered in an instant with a not too strong glare. "No, we want him safe. We want him back to normal again, because between Clint and my daughter, we have enough children around here." "Hey!" the archer cried with a pout. Tony ignored him. "I want you to go home, knowing everything is all right and Peter is safe right where he is. This is the safest place for him to be right now. Plus, he loves it, right Mighty Mouse?" Peter laughed and nodded. "Yeah, May! Please...I don't want to put you in danger. If I go home with you, that means you'll have all the Avengers at the apartment, which will bring more trouble than it's worth. So please, let me stay here, where it's safe. I know you have to go to work, but Mr. Stark has offered a place to stay if you need or want it, okay? So I won't be completely off limits to you if you want to see me." "While that doesn't make me feel a little better," May said. She wanted her nephew by her side, with her where she knew he would be safe. But, this place, it was like a fortress, almost seemingly built for keeping people safe. She hoped that was the case in this moment. "All right," she agreed again with a shaky sigh. "I'll let you stay here on one condition. You call me, and once you're normal, I want to be the first person to know, do you hear me?" Peter nodded, his eyes wide and shining. He got to stay with the Avengers! "And, Ned has been asking about you. Would you like me to tell him where you are?" The boy thought about this, but shook his head. "No, because if we tell him he's gonna wanna come and see me and the compound....which I don't think it's a good idea to let a lot of people know where this place is located, you know? I hate to say it, but he's gonna have to keep thinking I'm missing, and you're gonna have to play along with it May. I'm sorry to have to do that to you." Tony then realized that Peter apologized to the people he loved or trusted way too much. And then it hit him. Peter apologized to him all the time. He got a warm feeling in his heart at that and hid his smile behind a cough. "We're all set up," Steve turned to May and Peter, smiling at the way the boy looked at the woman adoringly. "Okay George Shrinks, let's get this over with, I'm sure you're hungry after all this." Tony simply grabbed the boy around the middle. Peter was placed on the floor near what basically looked like flat surface. "Am I supposed to be impressed?" May asked with an eyebrow raised, letting them know if they hurt Peter, they would be answering to her. Doctor Banner was the one that answered. "You will be. This is a training simulation that was made for Scott, also known as Ant Man. He was supposed to come and stay with us full time, so this was made for his training. He decided to stay where he was with his family, so you can use it until you're fixed. It has a few tricks in it. They're not exactly made for your abilities, but this will test your ability to think on your feet." The man stepped towards Peter, casting his shadow over the minuscule boy. "Go whenever you're ready." He could feel every time one of the giants shifted, feel the rumbles and vibrations in the floor. He really hoped that didn't distract him. Peter nodded and took a step onto the blank looking floor, when suddenly walls that were his height popped up from beneath the tile. "Friday," Mr. Stark said from above him. "Lower the Piss-Ant training course slightly." Steve glared at him. "What? I thought Scott would be using it." Suddenly a shadow became larger and Peter felt the back of his neck tingle and turned to see the billionaire crouching down, his hands held out. "Thought you could use these, kid. And thank Friday for the vials. She thought of them and cut them down to size." The boy took his web-shooters and the now full vials and smiled. "Thank you," he whispered, then turned up to the ceiling. "Thanks Friday!!" "You're welcome, Peter," the AI replied, happiness in her voice. "Try them on," the billionaire urged. Peter nodded and hurriedly attached the wrist bands. He would have never been able to make the vials that small. They had to be at least only a centimeter in one of other's eyes, but to Peter they were just right. He wondered what type vials Mr. Stark had. "What are those?" May asked, looking at Mr. Stark with worry in her eyes. "Just watch," the man replied. Holding out his hand, Peter aimed at the low wall, and pressed his middle and index finger to the applicator, using his strength to push it down. A harsh click and a stream of web-like fluid came shooting out, but the thing that surprised the boy was the kickback that made him fall back. And he found the webs sticking to a familiar pair of jeans. Looking up he saw the stunned face of a certain billionaire staring at the webbing. "Mr-Mr. Stark! I'm sorry!" Peter began pulling at the string of web to no avail, not realizing how strongly they would stick to objects. "Okay, this is gross," the man griped, pulling at the white strands, making a face when they stuck to his skin. "Jeez, kid. Apparently they work. A little too well, I would say." Peter blushed as he stood. "Um...I don't know how long they'll stay...it shouldn't be long, I made sure the webs would be able to dissolve in the air. I hope I didn't ruin your pants." He shook his wrist, the strand falling from his shooter. "Just go do the course kid," Mr. Stark sighed and stood, the strand hanging from his shin. Peter felt bad about what had happened, but now he knew there was a definite kickback if he pressed the activator too hard. "I'm ready," he said lowly, and thankfully Friday heard him. The first obstacle was dodging the walls that were as tall as him, which moved. Peter thought that was really cool. Staring at the walls, he timed them and thought out the mathematical pattern for the four walls in seconds. Keeping that in mind, he jumped to the first wall, keeping his hands and feet as far away from himself as possible so he could be flush to the wall. It was hard to keep his grip, but he only had to hold it for a second until, and there it was! The second wall moved diagonally behind him, coming so close he thought it might hit him, but that was only his senses tricking him. With a grunt, the boy threw himself from the wall he was stuck to, flung himself around and gripped onto the passing wall in a perfect rendition of a dancer doing a pirouette. He silently thanked his aunt for those dancing lessons. Next was the wall that was the furthest from him, and possibly the most tricky to get to, since it moved up and down and side to side in a random sequence.It did go higher, then the others but left a substantial gap on the floor of the maze that was just big enough for him to get under, but it came down too quick to be safe. Besides, he'd figured out this equation on possibly stronger legs, and there was only one way to find out if it would work. Waiting for the wall he clung to to pass the first wall, he quickly let go with his hands and moved his feet so they were flat. He only had a few seconds to try this, so squatting down, the boy felt his muscles curl and he jumped! Apparently his legs had gotten a stronger than he thought, because he reached the tricky wall faster than he calculated, which earned him probably a nice big bruise on his right leg as the teen crashed into the wall with a loud 'thunk' upside down and turned outward as the wall was heading down. He had been planning on landing the right way, but thankfully he didn't go beneath the floor, crab walking up the wall. The fourth and final wall spun and moved at the same time, making it hard, but the pattern was predictable, as well as the timing. Pointing his hand out, Peter shot a web stream at the wall, feeling his body reel from the kickback, but he forced himself to keep the aim. When the wall stopped spinning was when Peter allowed himself a moment to cheer a moment before connecting the strand in his hand to the wall he was on, successfully stopping the other object's movements. Flipping himself up, the boy landed on the web, his balance wavering a bit as he felt his feet stick to the already sticky web. Soon Peter was doing a tightrope walk that would have made his gymnastics instructor weep. Now it was on to the pendulum looking objects flying through the air from the ceiling. Those would be a little tricky, but he was sure he could do it. Crouching down, he grabbed the web for balance, and pointing a hand out, he hit the activator and timed it just right so that the web stuck to the bottom of the first swinging piece. He propelled himself off the wall and time and time again, he gripped each one of the swinging objects, until he came to the last one. Aiming his web shooter, he clicked the activator as gently as he could and felt proud when a web shot and stuck to the top piece with little kickback, and swung himself toward it. The boy then climbed up the now swinging web and flipped up to land on the top of the giant hammer-like pendulum. He studied the area in front of him as he passed again and again, looking for the next test, but he couldn't see anything. Not until he climbed up a little and instantly his face went white. Mr. Barton came into view, his huge body waiting for him with an arrow ready. "Don't worry, kid, they're foam tipped," the archer said, noting the way the small teen froze, poking himself with the arrows. "They won't hurt you and I'll be gentle." Peter looked to Mr. Stark, who only nodded and smiled in encouragement. He gulped and turned back to Mr. Barton. "I-I'm ready," he stuttered. The archer nodded and notched the arrow. "It'll be fine, kid," he said with a gentle smile, and let it fly straight at Peter. The teen heard May gasp, which had him flying into action. The boy only had a second to dodge, his senses screaming at him. Peter jumped over the massive arrow, feeling it brush against his arm before he used a hand to flip and land on top of it, running along the half mile long stick as it sped toward the ground. Another arrow followed it, aimed a little higher and to the left of the boy. When it was close enough, he jumped to the side. He meant to land on top of the arrow, but at the last minute he felt his finger slip off the foam, and he hit the hard metal with a pained grunt, rolling along the rod with the velocity until it finally ran out and he fell from the arrow, flipping head over heel in mid-air. He heard May cry out. The ceiling and the floor became so disorienting that Peter didn't know which was was up. Suddenly a shadow fell over him and Peter let out a loud grunt as he shot a web towards what he hoped was the person's chest, his arm nearly coming out of the socket when he came to an abrupt stop, his centrifical force causing him to swing toward the body he'd attached to, and the speed he was going caused the boy to close his eyes before he hit, the force behind it enough to make him gasp. "Ouch..." he mumbled against the cloth, forcing his hands and feet to move to stick to the person he'd hit. "You okay, kid?" Mr. Barton's voice sounded too close, making Peter look up to see the man's body twisted to stare down at Peter, who looked to see he was hanging from the man's shoulder blade. "Oh my god!" he pulled himself away a little too quickly, because he had to grab the web that was still wrapped halfway around the man and wound up hanging from the string. "I'm so sorry, Mr. Barton!" The man just chuckled and grabbed Peter gently between his thumb and pointer finger, tugging him away from the webbing. "It's all good, pipsqueak. As long as you're okay. And what happened to Uncle Clint?" The boy smiled. "I forgot, Uncle Clint. Better?" The archer nodded with a smug look, but that disappeared when Peter looked down at the man's thumb. "That was so embarrassing, though..." After a moment, Clint laughed. "Kid, I don't know what you saw, but that was freaking great! I think Natasha and I have to watch our backs in this business. If Nick Fury ever finds out about you when you get back to normal, I have a feeling you'll receive a phone call real soon."

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TGIWednesday and clearing alien/foreign energies

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I am most afraid of ________________

_________scares/upsets me

I feel depressed and ____________

I am scared about the future especially when it comes to_______________

Fear of _______ is keeping me stuck/holding me back

Halloween and scary things bring up my childhood past and _____________

Submit your Top 3 to [email protected]

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Fish Food

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November 3rd - Psychic Joanne Leo | Numerology/astrology/angel cards reading from the heart www.psychicjoanneleo.com

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From the Fish Box

"Many Blessings, Thank you for sharing your wisdom and positivity. That's how I keep in the realm of peace each day. These affirmations are perfect. Thank you." - John

Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy

The 30-day service is now being offered exclusively and you also have the option of selecting an ongoing subscription ($95/month) which is managed through PayPal only.

Go deep sea "fishing" with Jimmy!

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TGIWednesday and clearing alien/foreign energies

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We have one more week that we are offering the Dark Energies Audio MP3 at a discount Click here for an automatic 20% off!

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Think of these sample suggested items to clear when you submit your email.

I am most afraid of ________________

_________scares/upsets me

I feel depressed and ____________

I am scared about the future especially when it comes to_______________

Fear of _______ is keeping me stuck/holding me back

Halloween and scary things bring up my childhood past and _____________

Submit your Top 3 to [email protected]

LIVE Appearances - Free Healing

Tampa Office Sessions

FRIDAY KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS

Fish Food

The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

The Jimmy Mack Healing Show

October 20th - NO SHOW THIS WEEK

October 27th - Rev Debbie | Our resident trans medium communications with your loved ones in spirit. Visit her Facebook page

November 3rd - Psychic Joanne Leo | Numerology/astrology/angel cards reading from the heart www.psychicjoanneleo.com

November 10th - NO SHOW THIS WEEK

November 17th - Michael Sue Scott | Cards, and intuitive readings LIVE Visit her Facebook page

November 24th - Rev Debbie | Our resident trans medium communications with your loved ones in spirit. Visit her Facebook page

**Can't See The Full Email? Click Here to View Online**

From the Fish Box

"Many Blessings, Thank you for sharing your wisdom and positivity. That's how I keep in the realm of peace each day. These affirmations are perfect. Thank you." - John

Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy

The 30-day service is now being offered exclusively and you also have the option of selecting an ongoing subscription ($95/month) which is managed through PayPal only.

Go deep sea "fishing" with Jimmy!

Level 1 is open to ANYONE at anytime! Click here to watch the Mastery video playlist

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It’s Complicated (Modern AU) 13/?

Summary: Emma Swan thought her life was complicated before him, but she didn't even know the half of it. Deputy Emma Swan finds her one night stand at the station the next day and doesn't quite know how to handle it. She's given an undercover assignment that doesn't make her life any easier.

FF AO3

Hi! So my inspiration for this story has finally returned. This story is near and dear to my heart so thank all of you for sticking with it. There are many exciting things to come. I hope you love them all as much as I do. Enjoy the chapter!

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The shrill ringing of Emma's phone wakes her in the middle of the night. Still half asleep she grabs it off the night stand.

"This better be good it's the middle of the night," she says with her eyes closed.

"Em, it's David. I hate to do this, but the ankle monitor company called and Walsh left his apartment. We have to go out to his place and see what happened," he explains. This catches her attention and she opens her eyes.

"Shit," she says as she sits up in bed.

"I know I can be at your place in ten," he states.

"I'm at Killian's actually," Emma says rubbing her eyes trying to wake up.

"Again? Isn't that the fifth night this week you've stayed there?" David asks with the tone of an older brother.

"David," Emma says in warning.

"Sorry, what's his address?" David asks. Emma reads it out to him and then hangs up. She leans over to Killian and shakes his shoulder. He simply stirs in his sleep.

"Killian," she says as she continually shakes his shoulder.

"Did the alarm go off," he mumbles and then finally opens his eyes, "What time is it?"

"It's almost 3:30," she sighs as she begins to get ready.

"And where are you going at this time of night? I see no reason for you to leave my bed," he says with a smirk. He wraps an arm around her waist and pulls her close. She wishes she could stay here in bed with him, but she can't.

"Walsh left his apartment. David is coming by and we are going to his apartment to see what the fuck happened," Emma says while slipping out of his arms. She begins to pull on yesterday's clothes.

"He did what? That's a violation of his bail," he pauses for a moment, "There's nothing I can do at this time of night, but I'll be at the station early," he sighs. Fully dressed Emma walks over to him.

"I know that. I just wanted you to know what happened and that I didn't leave in the middle of the night. I'll see you later," she smiles. He pulls her in for a passionate kiss. It takes everything she has to pull away.

"Be careful, Swan." His tone one of concern.

"Always am, Jones," she kisses his cheek and heads out the door. His front door shuts behind her and David is waiting for her in a police cruiser. She opens the door and slides into the seat. Without a word David hands her a thermos of coffee. She sips the coffee in an attempt to wake herself up.

"So, things with Killian are serious, huh?" David asks breaking the silence.

"What makes you say that?" Emma grumbles.

"You're staying over at his place a lot. He comes by the station for lunch with you. It's just an observation," David says with a shrug.

"It's not that serious," she opposes his statement, uncomfortable at the thought that what he is implying is true.

"Alright, whatever you say," his tone implying that he doesn't believe her.

"Do we know anything about what happened with Walsh?" Emma asks, changing the subject.

"Just that he isn't in his apartment. That's all they told me," David discloses. The rest of the short ride is in silence. They pull up to Walsh's apartment building a few minutes later. When they exit the elevator onto his floor they both pull out their guns. They approach his door and see Walsh sitting on the floor in front of his front door. They keep their guns trained on his, unable to see if he has a weapon. His hands go up in defense.

"It took you guys thirty minutes to respond. What if I had actually tried to make a run for it? I'd be long gone by now," he says. The Sheriff and Deputy lower their weapons.

"Then why didn't you?" Emma asks.

"I knew everyone in the state would be looking for me. House arrest is a cruel joke. Gives you a taste of freedom, but you're being forced to stay in your home. I had to stretch my legs. I am better now, but I am sure you have to take me in now," he says matter of factly.

"That's correct. Please stand," David says not at all amused. Walsh stands and closes the door to his apartment. David places the cuffs on him stating he has violated his house arrest and has the right to call his lawyer. They take him to the station where he does in fact call Robert Gold. Emma and David head into his office to lend them some privacy.

"Something is not right about this at all. Why would he risk his limited freedom? To stretch his legs? I'm not buying that for one second. Regina is going to send him to jail for the duration of the trial for this. You know it, I know it, and Gold knows it. This isn't adding up," Emma says quickly, but in a hushed tone.

"I know this hasn't felt right from the beginning. I'll call the ankle monitor company and see if we can see if he actually left his building," David says.

"Hopefully that will lead us somewhere," she says. Emma still has this feeling that this will bite them in the ass later. She doesn't know how or why though. For now she'll just have to make sure they look at every angle of this.

Around six Killian comes in ready to work. In David's office they tell him that suspect that something else is going on and they are looking into it.

"Let me know about any developments. I called Regina his hearing is set for eleven today. I have paperwork to sort out call me with any updates on him," Killian says before leaving the office.

David and Emma spend about three hours on hold with ankle monitor company and they both want to tear their hair out. David has had to stop Emma twice from cussing out the person on the other end of the phone. They get transferred about twenty times, but finally a perfectly nice woman tells them the coordinates of where Walsh went. They finally go get off the phone and Emma plugs the coordinates into the computer.

"Well where did he go?" David asks while looking over her shoulder.

"The warehouse," Emma says turning and looking at David, who immediately starts making another call.

"Who are you calling?" Emma asks, still not sure why Walsh would go there.

"Killian. Emma, all his drugs came into that warehouse. Whatever the reason he went there it wasn't anything good," David says. When Killian picks up David tells him what they know and suspect.

"Bloody hell, do you think he was meeting Zelena there?" Killian asks.

"He could've been. Who the hell knows what he was doing there?" David says.

"I don't know, but I intend to find out. Thanks, mate. I've got to go. I'll see you lot later," he sighs. This just added a new twist to the case. Killian finished up his paperwork and figures out what to say to Regina. She has a good head on her shoulders and Walsh will definitely be sent to jail for the duration of the trial. On top of all of this, his brother and sister in law will be in town tomorrow night.

They hold the hearing in the Mayor's office promptly at eleven, David and Emma escort Walsh in with Robert Gold trailing behind him. Regina wastes no time.

"Let's begin. The evidence has been presented to me and I've had time to review it. Mr. Green, I must say this doesn't look good for you. I agreed to give you house arrest to give you benefit of the doubt. It seems as though you didn't treat this as a gift. Where did you go last night?" Regina asks sternly, she had the nickname evil queen for a reason.

"I simply needed to stretch my legs, Madam Mayor. I now see it was a mistake," Walsh says trying to sound sincere. Emma sees through the facade and she's pretty sure Madam Mayor does as well.

"Madam Mayor, we have GPS proof of where he went last night," Killian says taking a file from David's outreached hand, "He visited his warehouse, which is an active crime scene. Deputy Humbert is there now investigating if any evidence was tampered with. I believe this demonstrates that he can no longer be trusted to stay on house arrest." Killian hands over the file to Regina.

"My office didn't receive this new evidence. I haven't had time to review it, therefore it wouldn't be fair to base your ruling off this, Madam Mayor," Gold argues through gritted teeth. Regina looks up from the file with an uninterested stare.

"Then you'll be pleased to know I made up my mind without the file, but I'm sure Mr. Jones will send you a copy. Mr. Green, I hope you like Tri-County prison because that's where you'll be staying for the duration of the trial," Regina commands. Walsh doesn't look too fazed, he must have been suspecting this.

"That will be all. Sheriff the necessary paperwork will be sent through today and the prison will be expecting you and Mr. Green tomorrow morning. I assume he can stay the night in the holding cell," Regina says with an eyebrow raised.

"Yes, Madam Mayor." David nods. The hearing ending and the group disperses. Gold leaves in a hurry. Killian soon after, making his way to his office on the floor below them. David and Emma escort Walsh back to the station. Emma can't lie she's ecstatic about Walsh being sent to prison for the rest of the trial.

-KEKE-

Later that week Killian grows more nervous with the upcoming prospect of his brother and sister-in-law visiting. Emma doesn't let on she's nervous, but she is. Liam and Elsa are huge part of Killian's life and it's impossible to not be a little concerned about meeting his family.

Friday night rolls around and Killian comes to the station to pick up Emma. With another busy day at the station Emma didn't have time to change into anything else. Killian comes into the bullpen with a nervous smile on his face.

"Do I look okay? Is this nice enough to meet your brother and his wife?" Emma asks, worry creeping in through her voice. Emma is wearing black skinny jeans, a cream sweater, and her red leather jacket.

"Love, you look fantastic as always," he smiles, realizing she's just as nervous as he is. Nervous is good, it means she cares.

"Alright, we should go then," she smiles and they walk out hand in hand. The couple return to Killian's loft waiting for Liam and Elsa to arrive. Emma's nerves grow with each minute. She's never met anyone's family before. Neal didn't have one and well Walsh claimed he didn't speak to his, but who knows if that was the truth.

"Emma, it's going to be fine. They'll love you," he kisses her cheek. She takes a deep breathe and his phone rings. The caller ID flashes Liam. Killian picks it up.

"There's one main road in town don't tell me you got lost," Killian teases his older brother.

"No, we didn't get lost. I believe I'm in front of your place, but I'm fairly sure you pranked me," Liam says unsure.

"Why would you say that?"

"Because we're parked in front of a warehouse," Liam says. Killian just laughs as he goes down the stairs to his front door.

"Looks can be deceiving," Killian says before hanging up. A few seconds later he open the door and sees Liam and Elsa in the front seats of his brothers car. Once they see him they get out. The brothers reunite and Killian hugs Elsa. That's when Emma sticks her head out from around the door. Liam spots her first and greets her as she approaches the group.

"You must be the lovely, Emma I've heard so much about," Liam sticks his hand out. She shakes it with a slight smile.

"I am. You must be Liam," Emma turns her gaze to the blonde woman standing next to Liam, "And Elsa." The woman shakes Emma's hand with a small smile. Elsa is tall with her blonde hair in a braid and she is just barely showing. Emma probably wouldn't be able to tell if she hadn't known already. Liam stands next to Killian is only a couple inches taller than his younger brother. They're eyes are similar, but Liam's hair is curly where Killian's isn't.

"Yes, it's so nice to meet the woman who has Killian completely smitten," she smirks and Killian blushes.

"Smitten, huh? Did he tell you that?" she asks, curious to what exactly Killian has told Liam and Elsa about her and he scratches his ear nervously.

"Oh no, but he doesn't have to. It's the way he talks about you," she comments. Emma smiles at him.

"Good to know."

"Little brother, show me your place. I'm still not convinced that this building is habitable," Liam says with a sceptical glance back to the converted warehouse.

"Younger brother, Liam, but of course follow me," Killian says as he leads them up the flight of stairs, Emma trailing at the back of the group. Liam and Elsa's shocked faces mirrors Emma's reaction when she saw the place for the first time.

"Looks can be deceiving," Elsa comments, "This place is beautiful and has an amazing view."

"Aye, that it does," Killian grins as Emma joins him at his side, his arm wrapping around her shoulders.

"I was wrong you can live here. I was certain you were pranking us. What is the plan for dinner?" Liam asks.

"Granny's, it is one of the best places in town," Killian beams.

"And one of the only places," Emma jokes as the group heads out the door.

-KEKE-

Dinner couldn't have gone better. Emma can sense that Liam isn't certain about her, but has been nothing but nice to her. Although she isn't worried because her and Elsa have hit it off. Emma suspects Liam will follow his wife's lead eventually.

As they are finishing up some delicious pie none other than Robert Gold walks in. Killian automatically tenses up besides Emma and she places a hand on his knee.

"Brother, what's wrong?" Liam asks noticing the shift between the couple.

"The man who just walked in defense lawyer here in town and let's just say we don't get along," Killian says stiffly.

"Isn't that expected?" Elsa asks.

"No, he can't remain professional. There is a difference," he says.

"Gold has made the case we're on personal and the trial starts next week. I think all of Storybrooke may try and attend just to see these two have it out," Emma comments.

"It's that big of a deal here?" Liam asks.

"It's a small town there isn't much else to do and this is the most dangerous case we've ever had here," Emma comments.

"Are you from here?" Elsa asks.

"No just lived here for a while. I'm from Boston," she says.

"Despite the drama, I'm sure you'll get the guilty verdict," Liam encourages the two. They smile and nod because this case is far from over.

The group heads back to Killian's place for a nightcap. Liam manages to get Emma alone for the first time all night.

"I've been meaning to talk with you," Liam says sternly. She braces herself for this conversation. She knew it was coming.

"Ah is this the big brother overprotective chat?" she asks.

"Yes it is. You knew this was coming?" he asks curious.

"Of course, you're his brother. You're the only family he has. The way Killian talks about you shows you two have each other's back. That you would do anything for one another," she explains.

"I do. He's my brother. All I'll say is he's known a lot of pain in his life, so please don't add to it," he warns her.

"I don't intend to," she says just as serious as he is. What she said seems to please him, and a grin crosses his face.

"Good to hear, welcome to the family." He hold out his glass and she taps her glass against his. A grin spreads across her face when she catches Killian looking at them. He has a concerned look on his face, but she just smiles and shakes her head. He nods and returns to his conversation with Elsa.

"Now listen here Killian, if you ever do that again, if you ever leave like that again and not tell us where you're going I'll make your life a living hell. Is that understood?" Elsa says staring him down.

"Yes, it is. I was an idiot and a fool. I promise it will never happen again," He states his guilt weighing heavy in his gut.

"Good, now don't mess things up with this one she's good for you," Elsa smiles.

"I'm trying my hardest not to," he sighs.

"Do you love her?" He knows the answer to that immediately. He's loved her for a while now, but he can't risk saying it and having her leave him. He doesn't think his heart could take it.

"Aye, I do."

"Then that's all that matters," she smiles. He nods and looks over at Emma, who is now laughing with Liam. Their conversation earlier looked serious, but it seems to be alright now.

The rest of the weekend goes by without a hitch. Elsa and Emma are thick as thieves. The Jones brothers are better than ever. Sunday night they have one last dinner at Granny's.

"Are you two ready to head home?" Killian asks. Liam and Elsa exchange a look.

"Actually we've been thinking that we really don't want to leave," Liam says.

"What do you mean?" Killian asks, unsure of where this is heading.

"We're not quite sure how you found this town, but we love it. My job isn't making me happy anymore and I'm going to be a mother soon. I'd rather focus on that than a job that makes me unhappy," Elsa explains.

"I can work any wear. Honestly I'd rather be here, where you are brother. This looks like a nice place to raise a family," Liam comments.

"Storybrooke would be honored to have you two as its newest citizens," Killian smiles.

"I think it's wonderful that you guys are moving here. Speaking of work our other deputy just quit. There's a spot for you. David and I could use the help," Emma explains.

"I'll have to keep that in mind. Thank you, Emma. Of course, we have to settle things back in New York. We hope to be here within the next month or two," Liam says. Emma and the brothers toast the happy occasion while Elsa drinks water.

The happy couple leave after dinner with promises to call and be back soon to look at houses in the area. Killian and Emma watch them drive away. Emma suddenly realizes that this is what a family is. It felt so natural and easy, like she fell into place. She felt the same way when David and Mary Margaret pulled her into their lives. This feeling scares her, but she doesn't want to run. That's when it hits her with full force, she loves Killian.

-KEKE-

Emma, Killian, and David are confirming a few details the night before the trial and Killian is practicing his opening remarks. Mary Margaret brought dinner for them and is interjecting with her opinions. Suddenly there is a knock at the office door. The whole room goes quiet. Mary Margaret opens it and there stands Robert Gold. He walks in and only has eyes for Emma. This causes Killian to tense up; he does not like the way Gold is looking at Emma. She doesn't like it either, but she never backs down from a fight. She almost seems to be taller, ready for the fight.

"Miss Swan, I told you one day that I would need a favor. That day is today. You won't be testifying for the state, in fact I don't want you testifying at all. Now, you and your sherriff are very virtuous, so I suspect you will attempt to testify anyway. If you do I will expose you to the whole town. It's your choice dearie, but we had a deal," Gold says with a menacing stare and walks out of the station. All eyes turn to Emma.

"Emma, what did you do?" David asks, arms crossed.

#cs au ff #cs #CS modern AU #cs mc ff #cs mc #cs ff #cop!emma #lawyer!killian #killian jones #emma swan #captian swan #coworkers #One Night Stand

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evdarcy · 4 years ago

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An Unusual Hero C10S2

Please remember, this is unedited and unfinished, but will hopefully fill in the holes that were left and answer some questions without leaving too many others. HOWEVER I will answer all and any questions if you want to leave me a comment.

Next update - Friday 18/06/2021

Sarah’s head snapped up, her eyes wide as she frantically looked around. Her hand went straight for her gun at the small of her back as she tried work out where she was.

‘Easy, cowboy,’ Luc’s low voice said, his eyes watched her over the top of the computer screen. She focused on his beautiful green eyes, just visible above the line of the monitor and reminded herself she was safe, away from the Demon and all the devastation he brought. She took a couple of deep breaths, removing her hand from her gun, and let her eyes slowly drift around the room to take in everything she could see.

That’s right, they were at the library. They’d come to charge her phone and check on the news being reported on the aftermath of their escape two days ago—God, it felt like a lifetime already. She glanced at the phone on the desk and groaned as she saw the charging icon’s green bars still quickly rising before dropping away to nothing and repeating the cycle all over again.

She sighed heavily as she dropped her head back to the crook of her arm and stared across the table to where Luc sat. He’d gone back to his web search, browsing for everything he could on the Demon, probably something she should be doing too, but she was pinning all her hopes on the phone-thing working out exactly as she pictured it in her head. She was sure it would connect her to some super secret phone, deep in the depths of a hidden bunker somewhere under London, only accessed by the Prime Minister, the highest military personnel in the UK armed forces, and a cleaner. Just the one. They’d probably be paid hundreds of thousands of pounds to nip in and spruce the place up a couple of times a week… Man, she’d love a job like that.

She sighed. Trying to dismiss her daydreams. She watched far too much TV. It would probably just connect to the GPS in the device and tell her where to go—maybe she’d have to meet someone and give them a code, something like the bees only collect honey when—

She shook her head, rubbing it along the soft, thick jumper she’d donned that morning. She really didn’t have a clue what the hell the locket’s secret port was going to do, but she really should be considering what to do next just in case it didn’t—

She buried her head against her arm and squeezed her eyes shut tight against the sour thought. God help them if the phone didn’t work. She didn’t really have the first clue what to do without Jack leading the way. When they’d hightailed it out of Vegas she’d just followed the road, determined to put as much space between her and the wreck of an escape as possible. She’d simply driven until she was too tired to keep her eyes open any longer and had only pulled over in a beautiful, secluded spot by happen-chance.

‘Shit,’ Luc’s voice broke the silence of the library. She lifted her head slightly, managing to peer at him just over her arm.

‘What?’ she asked, her voice muffled by her sleeve. He didn’t say anything, his focus still on the screen before him, and Sarah quietly watched as his eyes quickly scanned whatever he’d found. She groaned as she rolled her head back up along her arm, before it rested on her shoulder and she stared out the window at the far end of the table.

Maybe they’d cancelled Destiny. Perhaps, Marc had finally come out about the secret love affair some of the fans swore he and Luc were having. What if Linda had actually… if she’d…

Damn, she couldn’t even come up with something good to finish that train of thought. She just didn’t have the energy to do anything. A single day of sitting around and doing nothing had zapped her of every ounce of motivation she had—although the nightmares starting up again didn’t help. She’d been like a sloth yesterday, barely moving from under the thick blanket she’d wrapped herself in before plonking her arse in front of the fire in the sitting room. She’d started reading the books Jack had left in the back of the car and asking the occasional question to Luc who seemed quite well informed on the matter of the Smoky Mountains. She’d been very impressed when he’d told her that it was very different to the Teton’s where they currently were.

‘But do the Smokies have bears?’ she’d asked.

‘Yup. Black bears.’ She didn’t ask for him to clarify if that was better or worse; surely they would still try and eat her if she came across one?

‘Wolves?’ she’d said, hesitantly.

‘Not as many as up here, but still a few. They’re quite endangered though and you’d rarely see one outside of the national park.’

She drummed her fingers again, wondering if perhaps a mountain side cabin hidden away somewhere would be a good place for them to hide. The little one they had commandeered was okay, but it wasn’t right. It was too close to the road and right next to a huge tourist spot. It would be too easy for them to be stumbled upon. Or for the owner to decide to come visit.

Sarah sighed and pushed herself up to sit properly in the chair again. She held up the phone to check the charge and heaved another exaggerated sigh as she rolled her head back across her shoulders.

‘Do you have to?’ Luc stared over the top of the monitor at her. She made to mimic him, but the look in his eyes gave her pause.

‘What’s up?’ she asked, putting the phone back on the desk and leaning over the table as if she’d be able to see the screen. He simply stared back at her for a moment before he turned the monitor around to face her. There, on the Geek Chic! website, was a huge headline announcing that Casey McManaman had been caught in the blast and was suspected dead hidden somewhere amongst the rubble.

‘Shit,’ she breathed as her eyes began to scan the piece. Luc made to swing the screen back around but Sarah grabbed it and held firm as she read what had happened. Her stomach dropped; there had been almost twenty people in that morning’s meet and greet including Casey, his security, some convention VIPs and staff, and a Geek Chic! reporter called Paige Hamilton. Their meeting room had been on the ground floor directly outside the blast area; they were probably the worst hit of the whole disaster. In two days they’d found nothing but bodies in the debris and they weren’t holding out any hope for anyone else.

Slowly Sarah raised her eyes back to Luc’s. She saw anger simmering there, but guilt and sorrow warred with it. She bit her lip as she let go of the screen and sat back.

He said nothing as he turned the monitor back around and Sarah followed his lead; what the hell could she say? I’m sorry? She wanted to snort at the thought. Sorry I killed your friend and co-star, a guy you’ve known and worked with for five years. Someone who was probably more like family to you because of how often you had to work together…

Although, Casey did play a demon, he was probably friendlier with Marc more than Luc, so—

She shook her head of that callous thought. God, she could be a right bitch sometimes. At least this time she hadn’t said it out loud as was often the case.

‘Luc, I—’

A quick, high pitched beep-beep made Sarah’s words stop. She glanced down to the phone, excitement making her heart pound in her chest as she grabbed the device, but the little picture of the battery was still quickly filling and dropping, filling and dropping. She frowned as she shook the thing, as if that could somehow make the little picture remain green.

‘Um, Sarah.’ A nervous tremor in Luc’s words caught her attention. Her head snapped to him and took in his pale face; any anger he might feel towards her was gone and replaced with sheer fear and panic.

‘What?’ She dropped the phone back to the wooden worktop as she stood up and leaned over the desk to try to see the screen again. Luc didn’t say a word, instead he slowly lifted his closed fist in front of his face. Sarah went to slap it away, but her hands instead closed around his fingers as her eyes spied the watch on his wrist that no longer displayed the time.

‘So. Funny story,’ Luc began, squirming in his seat with embarrassment and nerves. Sarah’s eyes flickered from the device to his eyes and back again. She licked her lips as her mind tried to piece together what she was seeing and what the hell it meant.

Picked up the GPS on your watch—don’t move, help on way. Linda.

Sarah met his eyes again as the text continued to scroll across the tiny screen.

‘You have a smartwatch?’ She spoke her words quietly, trying not to explode the way her mind was telling her to release the sudden wave of panic that washed over her. ‘A smartwatch with GPS.’

‘I didn’t think—’ he began, before Sarah cut him off.

‘No you didn’t!’ She threw his hand back at him. ‘Everything you’ve touched, wipe it all down.’ She hissed her order, trying not to draw attention from the tables around then. As calmly as she could, she grabbed the phone, unplugged the charger, and threw them both into her handbag.

‘Take that off,’ she said when they began to head for the exit.

‘I’m so sorry—’

‘Not now,’ she she said through clenched teeth as she smiled at the librarian as they left. She took the device from him as they stepped outside and headed to the car—luckily, they’d been able to snag a parking spot near the building’s entrance.

‘Get in,’ she told him as she popped the locks again, but she didn’t join him. Instead, she hurried to the back, shoving the fancy watch under the rear wheel before spinning on her heel and opening her door. She jumped inside, throwing Luc a quick look of disappointment before she began playing with the wires again to get the car to spring into life.

‘Don’t say anything,’ she told him when the car’s engine roared. ‘I don’t want to hear apologies,’ she said as they tore out the lot with a squeal of rubber on asphalt and the crunch of glass and metal as they destroyed the tracker. She manoeuvred carefully through the busy afternoon streets, her mind whirling with thoughts of what to do.

They needed a quick get away but they also needed something to distract from them. Something to grab the attention of the locals to get them talking to the police, FBI, CIA, or whoever they’d be sending for them about that rather than them…

‘We’ve got to ditch this thing,’ she told him, running her fingers over the steering wheel. She put her foot down as they hit the 191 again. ‘You said there’s a national park around?’

‘Yeah,’ he said quickly, nodding his head rapidly. ‘It’s further up the state, and you’ve got Yellowstone further north again.’

‘Plan of action then.’ She took a deep breath, quelling her rolling stomach and bracing herself to try and sound convincing. ‘Back to cabin and grab everything. Then we hit Yellowstone—that’s more touristy right?’ Sarah caught Luc’s head bob from the corner of her eye. ‘Okay, we grab a car there and dump this thing. Then we drive back the way we came, hit Grand Teton and switch out again. We’ll keep going south, doubling back almost on the way we first came—they won’t expect us to do that. They probably already think we’re heading for the Canadian border.’

‘Where we really headed?’ he asked quietly. Sarah pursed her lips as she considered her options. She had an ID in Utah. She couldn’t use it, but Utah was full of Mormons and the church’s headquarters were based in Salt Lake City. Even if she hadn’t studied the culture for one of her covers, she knew—because everyone did—that the Mormon church sent missionaries all over the world and did most of it from Salt Lake. The city was probably just as touristy as the national parks but for different reasons. They could probably blend in there.

‘What do you know about Mormons?’

Any questions, please drop them in the comments. Next update on Friday!

#AUH #fangirl #Unpublished #unedited #luc's story #destiny

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uncle-ak · 5 years ago

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What Do You Do When...?

They say; April showers bring May flowers. It is still showering/raining in May. I pray these are showers of blessings because, with the condition of the world at this time, we need to hold on to the slightest glimpse of hope.

May is Mental Health Awareness Month; I used to think it was October. World Mental Health Day is on October 10th. Raising awareness about mental health involves fighting stigma, providing support, educating the public, and advocating for policies that support individuals with mental health challenges and their families.

A sequel from my previous blog post… Have you been or are you on a journey to something non-traditional in your culture, society, community, home? It doesn’t have to be work-related.

Reflecting on some challenges I have experienced, not directly mental health-related but affected my mental wellness. Background story; a journey to a non-traditional profession in the African community. The first month of grad school was so challenging that it was the first time I thought of giving-up/dropping out. Prior to my grad school experience, I used to make the statement that the only reason I would ever try the Insanity Workout by Shaun T was if something in life drove me insane. Well, guess what, life in grad school was getting me there barely weeks into it.

It was September 2012, I had just left the financial aid office the third time that week where I was told that my financial aid/school loan application which I completed in July 2012 was not processed. So my tuition and housing weren’t paid for, I couldn’t buy textbooks which cost an arm and a leg and I was pursuing a degree that wasn’t/isn’t “typical” in the African community so who do I call to ask for financial assistance while waiting for financial aid to kick in before I am kicked out of the program? I did have a letter that stated the application was processed but the financial aid office was yet to receive it; something wasn’t adding up. So what do you do when…?

I had about $2000 in checking, about $1000 in savings, a $700 unused credit card, and a reasonably functioning 2004 used car which I drove about 7hours with from Maryland to Massachusetts and the car insurance of $600 due by December for the next six months. I was in a new territory away from family and friends, with no known relatives in the area. I had done some job searching from retail/cashier, to a home aide, to a residential assistant for individuals with a disability but looking at my class schedule, most of the jobs I found were not flexible enough to accommodate that and the locations were all over the place.

It was probably the second week into September 2012 when I left the financial aid office the third time, I found myself at the center of the campus when my binder suddenly dropped from my hand and the binder rings popped open. I didn’t have the energy to pick them up so I just sat on the pavement and watched the wind blow the papers away. I’m not sure how long I sat there but as the papers were flying, I noticed a yellow paper that caught my attention. I somehow dragged myself up, went to the paper, and realized it had the list of resources available on campus one of which was counseling services and fitness classes. One of the exercise classes for that day was… you guess right! The Insanity Workout by Shaun T.

Prior to this moment, I had never considered seeking counseling. I took a course in counseling psychology in undergrad so I had a vague idea of what it was like but I battled with the notion that going to therapy meant I had a mental health condition. Even with that thought process, I felt the need to talk to a “stranger” who would listen from a different perspective. So I found the strength to pick-up my binder and walked to the counseling center. I signed up to receive counseling once a week which continued for the duration of the grad school program while school was in session. After my first intake session, I decided to go try out the Insanity Workout. I always kept workout clothes in the trunk of my car; so I grabbed them and went to the class. I must say it was a good way to take out my frustrations, I kept going two to three times per week for the duration of the semester.

I must say seeking counseling was the best decision I ever made. It didn’t eliminate life challenges, it helped me realize how my thought process amplified situations or how I was self-limiting or how I was unconsciously holding on to the past or holding onto something in the present that wasn’t there or expecting others to act/respond a certain way, or feeling entitled or blaming others for things I had no control over or trying to control things that I couldn’t.

So the theory part of the grad school was drawing to an end in December 2014, the thought that the counseling sessions were ending gave me anxiety. My counselor gave me a gift with a heartwarming message.

Back in Maryland, from January 2015 to June 2015 I did fieldwork (aka clinical/non-paid internship) Mondays to Fridays in addition to working 8hours overnight on Fridays and 16hours on Saturdays and Sundays. I barely had a social life. Funny how the mini extrovert side of me was trying to override the major introvert side of me during those years in grad school. I was granted a break from fieldwork to go attend the commencement ceremony back in Massachusetts which took place in May. Initially, I didn’t think I was going to attend it because of the workload but my supervisor made it happen. The graduation party took place in June. By August, my classmates were posting on Facebook about passing their board exam and I had not even registered, so what do you do when…?

So I deactivated my Facebook account (I haven’t reactivated it since then) that same month and registered to take the exam by the end of October. In September my youngest brother became seriously ill and in early October I experienced the most heartbreaking betrayal EVER relationship related. It was my first experience of how emotional pain can be mind-numbing. You know how you can take medications for a headache or any physical pain or put heat/ice on a hurting joint and it somewhat feels better? Besides going for long walks and driving in silence to sometimes unknown destinations and using the GPS to return, nothing else helped.

During this time, I did contemplate seeking counseling services but I didn’t follow through because I felt like I did not want to depend on counseling. Besides I was out of school so I would have to pay for it. I had Medicaid insurance at the time so I assumed the copay was no joke. With that and my brother’s health on my mind, I couldn’t study so I postponed the board exam to November before thanksgiving week because it was the holiday season; thanksgiving, Christmas then New Year. It would have been too much distraction to study including working. I was charged for postponing the exam, money that I didn’t budget for; so add financial burden to emotional pain. The good thing is I wasn’t paying any rent at the time. My only bills were car insurance, phone bill, and taking care of my basic necessities.

Three days before the November exam date, I fell sick and was diagnosed with an upper respiratory tract infection; I started treatment right away. I didn’t want to postpone the exam again. It was more expensive to postpone this time because it was close to the scheduled date. I had not told anyone about taking the exam. Uber wasn’t a thing back then, getting a taxi/cab wasn’t within the budget given the distance and I’m not into inconveniencing people to render me a favor especially since it was last minute and I didn’t want to explain to anyone why I was going to that location. So what do you do when…?

So I drove myself there. I just wanted to get the exam over with. I said to myself, if I don’t pass, then I’ll retake it hopefully with less emotional stress/pain the second time around. I just didn’t want the year to end without at least trying. I don’t recall answering all the questions before the timer went off and the testing screen closed out. I went to my car, took a nap then drove home. It felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulder.

The results were out a week later. I was at work, I had worked 8hours overnight. I logged into my account and the first thing I saw was PASSED. I took a picture then refreshed the screen to see if it will change but it didn’t. I logged out and logged back in and it still said PASSED. I went to my car. I took a nap, drove home. I logged in on my laptop and the results didn’t change. I logged into the home desktop and got the same results. Do I need to say I was in disbelief that I passed? I checked my results for the next three days and then I shared with family and friends. I would say I didn’t feel comfortable sharing nor asking for anything relating to my journey in the undergrad or grad school because I was pursuing a degree that wasn’t understood and still isn’t understood by a good number of people around me. So I had to do a lot of figuring out on my own.

I later received my certificate via mail with the numerical results. I had 450/600, the minimum required score for passing. My heart stopped for a few seconds. Recounting this got me teary-eyed. My journey from 2009 in undergrad, to my unpleasant experience in grad school (details for another day) to the very trying year of 2015, was about to be over… I can’t put the feelings into words. I had some emotional healing to do, so I decided I won’t start the job searching until after the New Year but it dragged through till the end of January. During this time I reflected on what I had learned during counseling in grad school and did a lot of reading on emotions and the mind for self-healing.

The first week in February 2016, I posted my resume around 9 AM, by 11 AM I had two interviews scheduled for that week. By mid-February, I had two job offers but they didn’t sit well with me. By the end of February, I reconnected with a friend whom we went to community college together. He was the first African (Nigerian) I knew to study in the field, had recently graduated and was working. He had shared some suggestions/resources on how to study for the board exam. It turns out he was in contact with the regional manager of a location where I did the first portion of my fieldwork/clinical/rotation. That regional manager was looking to fill an open position. Per the regional manager’s words during our communication via text; “based on your work ethic during your time with us, you are hired.” I was in disbelief, he asked for my email and by the next day, I received an offer letter. The rest they say is history…

So what do you do when life throws you curveballs or there’s a sudden stop sign, red light, yield sign, crossroad, speed bump, extremely curvy ramp, exit? I think it all depends on the options available; stop and take a moment to reflect on your why. Why am I thinking/feeling this way, why do I want this to be this or that way? Counseling services can be expensive and sometimes the waiting time to see a counselor could be weeks. Last year I took a class to become a Mental Health First Aider; it’s like CPR for Mental Health. I learned a lot about a number of resources, some of which provide options for those with low income. Link

As I type this, I am reminded of a Stuck in The Middle interview which discusses mental health in the African/African-American community; a topic that is shunned in our community and needs to be addressed more. Link

I am generally on the quiet side depending on the topic of discussion so I have come to realize that my silence may give off the impression that my life has been smooth and dandy. I would say it has taken me a while to write in the first person (I) and share this much depth about me. In my earlier writings, I typically wrote in the third person because it is easier and it deflects attention. Sitting here, recounting/writing this which has taken me years to share this experience in this much depth, I have come to appreciate who I am and who I am becoming more now than before. And with that said, may I share that I am working on bringing to life the book I’ve been writing in my head since 2017. Inspired by Achu Ebong Mba (aka Riflex) the newest published Author in town; No Such Thing As Halfway. Grab a copy if you haven’t yet and joint to the conversation.

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remnantsofhersoul · 5 years ago

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So, it’s been a weird 24 hours.

Yesterday, I was coming home from therapy & by the time I got here, I was having heart palpitations & felt yuck. Also had a headache.

As the night progressed, it continued & I felt very shaky & dizzy at timesI tried to eat, just to see if increasing blood sugar ect. helped a bit. I felt hungry but it was hard to eat. Eventually I ordered some food because I was struggling to stand up. I felt more comfortable laying down. Dinner made me feel sick. It was too heavy. So, I ate some dessert I ordered with it, which was better, didn’t make me feel so queezy.

All this went on from around 5pm til I went to be. Diaz helped a little. I realised at some point, it felt like incredibly bad anxiety.

Woke up this morning still feeling incredibly anxious. Waited til my drs opened & called you to see if my dr had any time. Thankfully, it was one of only two days she works & must of had a cancellation. Really dumb luck that someone has cancelled & to call up right at open to get an appointment that day. Although, I like to think as the manager answered the phone & seems to like me, she may have had more opportunity to find a solution. Given she is the manager & has a good relationship with my dr, plus knows me well (she started using my nickname I go by when she realised it was me on the phone), I think she would have felt more comfortable to approach her, to see if there was anything that could be done. My dr is incredibly giving of herself & her time, especially for me & a few others.

Anyways, appointment at 4pm. So greatful that the day I needed her urgently, I could get an appointment. Explained everything above. She asked more questions, did BP, heart rate & blood oxygen saturation. Given I had no pain, she didn’t think it was my heart. She said, on balance of probabilities, it’s more likely anxiety. She was happy to do blood tests & an EKG but I declined with her reassurance. It was likely what I thought had happened. Had this weird experience yesterday & today my brain decided to panic about what it could be outside anxiety.

She was incredibly reassuring though. I said I felt guilty & stupid. She said, many people in this situation would have gone straight to the hospital & that’s okay, that’s what it’s there for. She wants me to be able to come to her with this stuff & get it checked, I deserve that. If I went to the hospital, I deserved to be treated well there too. Even just being there with her, my anxiety decreased & my heart rate dropped.

She has been not so subtly pushing mindfulness the last few weeks & started talk about it again. To which I rolled my eyes. But we talked about breathing strategies, what I find tolerable. She put the heart rate monitor back on my finger. She said she could see how low my heart rate dropped on an out breath, so I watched. Like 10-20 bpm, was pretty amazing being able to see it work.

We also talked about how my therapy appointment may have triggered all of this. Even without realising it. Which makes sense. It’s just frustrating not knowing what in particular. We talked about how the gp-management plan is freaking me out too. Needing to talk about my health & stuff to a stranger (it’s typical done by the nurse). My dr singled out one nurse in particular who she thinks will be really supportive. So hopefully I’ll get a chance to meet her before it & my dr made a note that I don’t want to be weighed, so hopefully that’s all good now. She said she doesn’t really like weighing people anyway. It’s not really telling you anything important.

Even though it’s been a really hard 24 hrs, I think it just reminds me, yet again, how greatful I am to have my dr. Just her validation & support made a huge difference to my anxiety. I left still with the anxiety going back up, but I felt reassured that it was just anxiety. She didn’t think I wasted her time. I don’t know what I would do without her now. Definitely don’t want to think about it.

Tonight my anxiety has been fluctuating but I’ve tried to stay busy, now I know it’s not making anything worse. Pain from what I was doing. But yeah.

I started swimming last Friday, went on Monday too. I’m really looking forward to going again Friday. I think I just love having that almost 2 hours not in pain. I’m such a water person too.

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andivebeenafoolandivebeenblind · 6 years ago

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my story!

Day 1: Today was a long and very emotional day, M came with me to the hospital, where i had too tell my story from the very beginning, which was difficult. After the D&A team and the MH team finally figured out what they were going to do with me, i ended up waiting for patient transport as they were admitting me in Wyong. After arriving in Wyong and being metal detected, vitals done and shown where everything was I spent an hour or so just in my room which is number 21, at the end of the corridor, away from the desk. When I thought everyone had gone too bed, I went and sat in the common area and watched a bit of whatever was on tv. I had a small reserved chat with a girl who is 31 and in the room next too mine. They’ve taken my phone and bra’s off me. I can hear the rain outside. I’m nervous about tomorrow with all the new Dr’s and having too repeat my story and hopefully be cleared for piggies. M was amazing today! I cried so much on the drive too Wyong :(

Day 2: Today was rough! after a some what hard sleep with a few awoken moments and tears, I found it very difficult for me to wake up for breakfast. After breakfast I had a shower and went to sit out in the courtyard. I sat in on ‘group psychology’ and didn't really say anything. I spoke with a psychologist, psychiatrist and the MH ward GP. Sooooooo many questions asked on their end. I was approved for two, thirty minute breaks (smokes) unaccompanied leave and one hour of accompanied leave per day! We get our phones on each break so I need my charger I had smokes today thanks too a guy in here. Since being back i got very agitated and had a headache, so I was given 1g of panadol l and 100mg of serequel and then the night meds too sleep which were zopiclone. I start a new a new antidepressant tomorrow morning. Right now my mood is 4/10 Megan comes tomorrow and smokes. One step at a time.... still really want too end it all but everyone here is the best kinda support. Tomorrow is a new day.

Day 3: Today most definitely had its ups and downs. For starters NOONE called me, I had too call you and no-one answered, so all g I’m over it now.... I found waking up was different and that i felt like a space cadet its worse than being lit thats for sure. I haven't got too pick my menu yet so morrow will be a surprise as well, the new girl E, she presented too GDH ED the same afternoon I did. M and her mum came too see me today, they saw my room. We just stood outside so i could smoke. Mum is coming up tomorrow around 1-1:30pm but thats when lunch is, hopefully we go shopping and we get ciggies, and fingers crossed she remembers the shit too get me including my thongs and charger. Second night in a row of zopiclone and serequel, administered separately both with effect. Goodnight cruel world.

Day 4: Sunday was eventful thats for sure. I felt sick, space cadety, belittled loved, scared and unsafe. Mum came too see me today, we hung out and got coffee’s. She bought me clothes, smokes and my glasses. We were belittled together by a nurse about bringing coffee back onto the ward. I was also asked if I had spoken too any patients of the rehab ward, too which i responded NO!. I danced outside, I cried, I am currently feeling unsafe and know I’m still a 3/10 if not maybe even a 2/10 because i stole a fucking staple, a singular fucking staple, but I’ve got this. My emotions are sooooooo out of whack, I rang N on my last break of the day and face timed him and H. Rang C and told him where I was. I haven't had a zopiclone yet, just a serequel, ladies and gentleman “Next on, is A going too kill herself?”

Day 5: Just when I thought I couldn’t feel any worse, I woke up! Today has just been challenging I was woken up too take my medication, breakfast was crap, I did go out into the courtyard and throw oranges at the tree with J this morning. L and I went on the morning walk and snuck ciggies out. Mum wouldn’t visit me today because of my mood! I had an ECG and MSU the ECG was fine, my MSU showed all the recreational drugs I’d been taking outside of admission. *D and A came and saw me. Last night I hurt myself with the god damn staple and I was honest with my morning nurse about it and I was spoken too about HDU, where I don’t want to go! which got me on 1/2hr watches. Ive had 150mg of serequel today so thats not good. I didn’t like the psychology group today, maybe tomorrow’s will be better. I rang N and spoke too him before his phone died, he made me laugh which was good. Hopefully this is as low as I’ll feel which is a 1/10.

Day 6: Today was okay, I was around 3/10-4/10 for a vast majority of the day, but I’ve had some lows. I was so drugged out this morning during my appointment with the psychiatrist, but the general gist is I’m here until I’m not scared of myself anymore, I do however get extra leave. 2 X1hr unaccompanied and 1X2hr accompanied. I walked over too the petrol station today too buy cigarettes and a 30pk of winfield blue crush cost me $40.45! WTF! Snuck a biggie out on the morning walk again and had headpins hahaha. I bought a large soy dirty chai. After my afternoon break I came back in and wanted too sign myself out! I spoke with J and E about it then I rang N and he gave me some hard truths, that i needed. After the morning walk because the psychologist wasn’t there the OT organised cooking, so we baked 2 cakes. Tonight I have been in and out of tears for god only knows why, no thats a lie there are a few reasons why, I took my night time meds tonight so lets see how i feel when i wake up considering I’m still scared of thoughts. C my nurse this morning has been fantastic.

Day 7: I woke up a 3/10 I didn’t have breakfast, I went for the morning walk and snuck a biggie. Came back form the walk 2/10 spoke with G the psychologist on the ward, for a fair bit of time and was able to speak about somethings I haven’t ever spoken about. For my first 1hour break i went too Kanwall shops to go too the bottle-o with B, I bought 2 bottles for $12 and there was 7.4 standard drinks too a bottle. We sat at the park had a few ciggies, I tack vommed real good, we walked back too the unit, I had a shower and changed and washed my clothes. For the second break B and I did the same thing except this time I only bought 1 bottle and we shared it. We didn’t finish it and left it near the school, I’ll be going back for it tomorrow. My afternoon was about a 4/10 and then my mood started too drop and now i have been randomly crying for no particular reason. O’s exhibit J’s currently girlfriend is in here and she is a piece of work, J visited her almost all afternoon. After B and I went for the second walk we were where we normally smoke, I laid down on my back and B sat on my stomach, she looked down at me and kissed me, and then we kinda made out and N saw us, we went too go inside, when she called me over in-between the buildings and we started making out again. N saw it again lol, so we had a smoke with him and then walked back in. According too R I’m fucking “desperate and stupid” because i used a staple too hurt myself, she is so lucky L told me and that I didn’t hear it because Id be sitting in HDU right now. I miss my mum and hope she comes too see me tomorrow and I won’t be drunk.

Day 8: I got lamb drunk today, I saw the psychiatrist and MO today and I’ve been put on 5mg Diazapam (Valium) BD aswell as being on a benzo withdrawal scale, which is weird, why did they wait 7 days too put me on a bento withdrawal scale? any who I get 6 hours/ day accompanied or unaccompanied leave hoping for discharge on monday. If not all good. I wish i was out for the weekend but im going too organise with mum a time too go see N. Mum has saturday, sunday and monday off work so she will see me then with C and possibly Nan. C said he will come and see me tomorrow. I rang N tonight where he told me after his appointment today, he came too see me but I was in the middle of lunch and they didn’t even tell me, he thought I picked food over him! As if that could ever be true. Im getting referrals too psychotherapy and my GP is going too get a discharge summary with how too wean me off Valium. I really miss N and just want an N hug and too play the drums. N left today, I wished him the best of luck.

Day 9: Today is Friday and I went and got super smashed, mum knows about my bento withdrawal scale and is okay with that she doesn’t know I’m smashed. I cant wait too see her tomorrow and go too the beach with her and C. Tonight I was so drunk I couldn’t do the withdrawal scale but they gave me a sleeping tablet. I fell over on my walk back too the hospital and fucked up my knee’s toes and one wrist. I don’t want to feel this bad again I was literally laying where we smoke and I was tack coming hard. NEVER AGAIN! they want too take my solo leave away but they will let me out tomorrow with mum so I guess thats okay. Mum is taking me too the beach so I’m excited about that.

Day 10: I went too the beach today and it was great! the weather was warm but the water was absolutely freezing, yet refreshing. C was a no show today, which didn’t faze me. Mum bought me a razor so i could shave, but she made me strip too my underwear and show her my body both before AND after the shower and then she checked the razor, it was humiliating, but i completely understand why she did it and I don’t blame her! After the beach mum and I went too Lakehaven shops where we went too coles and Kmart, we got KFC for food. At Kmart I bought a new pair of shorts and a pair of thongs. Once I got back to the ward I had a biggie or two and started feeling really low so instead of doing something I’d regret I walked back through the doors too the ward, where after dinner I went straight to bed, looking back on that feeling I’m sure its because I was surrounded by a lot of people and I was just very overwhelmed, but I spent most of the night in my room or not engaging with people in the common areas. I snuck my phone in tonight, and messaged N until I fell asleep. I only took a 50mg serequel instead of that and a zopi. Im seeing mum tomorrow and she is taking me too see N and I’m super excited, I’ve missed him so much.

Day 11: Today has been a mixed bag of emotions, waking up every hour or so last night probably didn’t help. I woke up for my morning meds and breakfast with no-one waking me up. I went out for my morning smoke at 10 in my pj’s and took an hour. I went and laid in the sun in the courtyard with J, I then started to get ‘bad’ thoughts and went too lay down and read. I ended up getting PRN serequel because I could feel my heart beating through my chest and I was getting really edgy, I think that was because I was nervous about seeing N and Z this afternoon. Mum came up at around 2pm and we sat in the common area chatting for a bit, we then played uno, where I whopped her ass! Mum then signed me out on leave and we went too the small park right behind Tuggerah Westfeild so I could meet up with N and Z. When I saw N he gave me the biggest and best most needed cuddle I’ve ever had, he didn’t let me go, I had a few tears but it was okay, we talked, i laughed we got in Z’s car because the boys had something for me too listen too and it was THEIR SINGLE and it was fucking filthy, I’m so proud of them. N said he would come and stay at mum’s with me when i got out and we would dye my hair and go clothes shopping hahaha. On the drive back too the hospital I started getting really upset and anxious because I just wanted to go home with mum, but I’ve spoken with my nurse and it looks promising for discharge tomorrow :) Fingers crossed everything goes well. I smuggled my phone in again tonight.

#mental health #bpd #mentally ill #institutionalised #mental ward #12 days #suicde #suicide prevention #dont glorify mental illness

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canaryatlaw · 7 years ago

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Currently sitting in the back of an uber and typing this now because I'm unbelievably tired and when I get home I'm just going to bed. Today was a travel nightmare. My flight was supposed to take off at 6:50 pm. But there was thunder lightning, so it took off at 1 am, a full 6 hours late. And of course it ended up that I'd gotten to the terminal absurdly early, through no fault of my own, so I'd been sitting there since 4 pm. It's now 2:22 am Chicago time (extra hour in there) and I'm hoping I'll get home by 3 am. I'm supposed to go to a conference for student leadership in the morning but my resolve is wavering steadfastly, despite assuring people that I would in fact be there. I'm just so fucking tired and I want to sleep forever and ever (not in a suicidal way just in a really fucking tired way). But I guess I should recount what actually took place today for this post. I got up around noon, I think, which means I shouldn't be this absurdly tired but I am so fuck everything! Lol. The plan was to meet my dad for lunch by his office and then continue on to the airport. So I collect my various possessions and throw them all in my southwest duffel bag that is now permanently stained NyQuil blue(TM) (I mean it was already blue, now it's just NyQuil blue) and we left at the house at like 12:45 (we being my sister, my mother and I). We met my dad at a restaurant by his office, Italian of course, and a long time favorite. I got veal parmigiana because what the hell I felt like it. The meal was good, I probed my dad a bit about to what extent does his loyalty to Trump lie because I've been concerned about some of his statements regarding people who have criticized him which led me to believe he might be in the Trump can do no wrong lane, which would concern me greatly, but he assured me that was not the case and he does have many objections with what is currently going on so that helped. He has a radio spot on a Christian radio station every Friday morning so he was saying how he talked about Charlottesville and everything and said that the monuments should come down as we need to condemn nazism in the strongest terms, even saying his father went to war against these people. So that was comforting. But yeah, meal was good, and afterwards my mom drove me to the airport (my sister went with my dad back to his office to be dropped at someone else's house at some point). My mom only got a little lost, and it was easily correctable by gps so I'll call that a win (my parents have zero sense of direction. zero). Got dropped off, there was a bit of a line but I guess since I was traveling alone I got fast tracked through the lanes and wound up at the gate by 4. So I went on my laptop for a little until my complimentary 30 minutes of wifi was up (unlike midway, laguardia does not allow unlimited complimentary 30 minute wifi sessions) and then listened to podcasts, colored, played games on my phone, and did literally anything else I could think of while I had to sit and wait for this goddamn plane, which was promised to us so many times, but was then moved justttttt that much further away until its 1 fucking am by the time we taxi off. We were on the plane and mostly ready to go by like 12:15, but their system was down and they couldn't scan the digital boarding passes, so they had to verify everyone's identity manually, and told us not to worry because there was a line to take off *anyway*. But eventually we made it out of there, I listened to more podcasts and played solitaire and pretended to sleep while knowing I'd never actually fall asleep like that, until we got here, at which point I got my back and I got in a fucking uber and here I am, and god am I exhausted. It's 2:36 am now, we're at least on the northside, so that's good. I'm gonna feel shitty probably shirking off my duties tomorrow, but it'll feel less shitty than actually getting up and doing them (how's that rationalization for ya?). Either way I doubt I'll find the willpower to actually get out of bed for a good chunk of time, and I think that's deserved at least. I'll figure out what I'm gonna say to everyone tomorrow, hopefully they'll be understanding of the hell I just went through (god I hope so). Anyway. Guess I'm signing off now. My head hurts and I want to sleep. Goodnight folks. Hope you had a better Friday night than I did.

#daily journal #August 2017 #it's still August #how is it still August #sigh

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Abundance Switches Luck Switches Love & Romance Switches Youth & Vitality Switches The Plandemic: Moving Forward *If you've never heard Jimmy explain about switches, click over to this page and play this brief audio.

The Jimmy Mack Healing Radio Show

**NEW TIME** TUESDAY'S at 4pm EDT / 1pm PDT CALL IN (206) 806-9965 https://www.freeconferencecall.com/wall/goldylocksproductions

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Yesterday'sShow - Special Guest Nicola Grace

4pm - May 19th - Kimberly Marooney | Angel Readings and Intuitive Readings http://kimberlymarooney.com/angel-expert-kimberly-marooney

4pm - May 26th Rev Debbie Dienstbier | Our resident trans medium communications with your loved ones in spirit. Visit her Facebook page

The Jimmy Mack Healing Show is LIVE on Tuesday's at 4pm EDT If you want to Listen in only, go to this website: https://www.freeconferencecall.com/wall/goldylocksproductions OR If you want to call in & ask a question CALL (206) 806-9965 No need to press #1, just dial in and you'll be in the queue. If the Call in Number above doesn’t seem to work, please use this back up Call in Number: (425) 535-9149 when prompted, enter 206.806.9965 followed by # International Callers, click the link below for the International call in list for your country. If you're using the Free Conference Call App, it automatically re-routes the best call In number for you. Please unblock your phone number if you wish to speak with Jimmy and or his guest host. Blocked, Restricted and Private Callers are not brought on air.

Fish Food

The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

Tell The Fish: 365 Daily Inspirations & Affirmations

MAY 13th "Today I will move forward with determination and dedication. My job will be to find a new one, or do better at my current passionate work. I will push forward and network my way to success."

From the Fish Box

"Jimmy. We spoke last Sunday and I have to tell you it feels like a different lifetime ago. I still can't believe it. I don't understand the magic ...but I can't deny it's real. So many things shifted, I don't even recognize this week that I've had, or myself to be honest. MAJOR changes in business; financial opportunity left and right; just opened 2 new locations; and had major shifts in my partner/boyfriend in our relationship; major shifts in our team; community growing closer; and feeling more free to be me - moving out of my mind into heart and present moment. Seeing myself and what holds me back. Many things I can't even believe." - Emily / Oklahoma

Sessions at the Tampa Office

FRIDAY KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS *Appointments are either phone or Skype until further notice - stay tuned may be resuming soon...

I'm scheduling 15 and 30 minute appointments at Kodawari Yoga Studios from 10am-2pm EVERY FRIDAY.*IMPT! You must call Kodawari directly to schedule times and dates with them AND pay them directly at the front desk prior to your appointment Call Kodawari's front desk directly to schedule (813) 773-4017 and pay at the concierge desk PRIOR to your appointment - 15 minutes 38$ or 30 minutes 68$. 3965 Henderson Blvd Suite C Tampa (813) 773-4017 http://www.kodawariyoga.com/

Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy

The 30-day service is now being offered exclusively and you also have the option of selecting an ongoing subscription ($95/month) which is managed through PayPal only.

Go deep sea "fishing" with Jimmy!

Level 1 is open to ANYONE at anytime! To All Mastery Students: If you haven't taken the time to complete the course and book your Certification test with Jimmy - now is a great time!!

LEARN MORE HERE

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For those who aren't familiar, here's the list of the MyBeliefWorks™ audio library.

Abundance Abuse Addiction Body Scan: Head to Toe COVID-19 Daily GPS Reset Dark Energies/Fears Decision Making Diet & Exercise Education & Learning Family & Relatives The Gold Coin Healing Physical Body Healing Mental Stress Holiday Stress

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TGIWednesday and clearing alien/foreign energies

TGIWednesday News

We have one more week that we are offering the Dark Energies Audio MP3 at a discount Click here for an automatic 20% off!

TGIWednesday Download

Monthly LIVE Zoom Event

NEXT WEDNESDAY OCTOBER 28th LIVE CALL 7:30pm-8pm Register to attend live & get replay - $22 https://calendly.com/jmh-calls/october-switches-event

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Theme for October: Clearing dark energies and fears

Think of these sample suggested items to clear when you submit your email.

I am most afraid of ________________

_________scares/upsets me

I feel depressed and ____________

I am scared about the future especially when it comes to_______________

Fear of _______ is keeping me stuck/holding me back

Halloween and scary things bring up my childhood past and _____________

Submit your Top 3 to [email protected]

LIVE Appearances - Free Healing

Tampa Office Sessions

FRIDAY KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS

Fish Food

The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

The Jimmy Mack Healing Show

October 20th - NO SHOW THIS WEEK

October 27th - Rev Debbie | Our resident trans medium communications with your loved ones in spirit. Visit her Facebook page

November 3rd - Psychic Joanne Leo | Numerology/astrology/angel cards reading from the heart www.psychicjoanneleo.com

November 10th - NO SHOW THIS WEEK

November 17th - Michael Sue Scott | Cards, and intuitive readings LIVE Visit her Facebook page

November 24th - Rev Debbie | Our resident trans medium communications with your loved ones in spirit. Visit her Facebook page

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From the Fish Box

"Many Blessings, Thank you for sharing your wisdom and positivity. That's how I keep in the realm of peace each day. These affirmations are perfect. Thank you." - John

Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy

The 30-day service is now being offered exclusively and you also have the option of selecting an ongoing subscription ($95/month) which is managed through PayPal only.

Go deep sea "fishing" with Jimmy!

Level 1 is open to ANYONE at anytime! Click here to watch the Mastery video playlist

LEARN ABOUT CERTIFICATION HERE

For those who aren't familiar, here's the list of the MyBeliefWorks™ audio library.

TGIFunny

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TGIWednesday and a download for dealing with family

TGIWednesday News

TGIWednesday Download

LIVE Appearances - Free Healing

Monthly Zoom Event - MySwitchWorks

ACCESS CALL REPLAYS HERE

The Jimmy Mack Healing Radio Show

**NEW TIME** TUESDAY'S at 4pm EDT / 1pm PDT CALL IN (206) 806-9965 https://www.freeconferencecall.com/wall/goldylocksproductions

Click Here for Previous Weeks' Show and a full archive of past guests & replays.

Yesterday'sShow - Special Guest Nicola Grace

4pm - May 19th - Kimberly Marooney | Angel Readings and Intuitive Readings http://kimberlymarooney.com/angel-expert-kimberly-marooney

4pm - May 26th Rev Debbie Dienstbier | Our resident trans medium communications with your loved ones in spirit. Visit her Facebook page

Fish Food

The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish

Tell The Fish: 365 Daily Inspirations & Affirmations

From the Fish Box

Sessions at the Tampa Office

FRIDAY KODAWARI YOGA STUDIOS *Appointments are either phone or Skype until further notice - stay tuned may be resuming soon...

Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy

The 30-day service is now being offered exclusively and you also have the option of selecting an ongoing subscription ($95/month) which is managed through PayPal only.

Go deep sea "fishing" with Jimmy!

Level 1 is open to ANYONE at anytime! To All Mastery Students: If you haven't taken the time to complete the course and book your Certification test with Jimmy - now is a great time!!

LEARN MORE HERE

**Can't See The Full Email? Click Here to View Online**

For those who aren't familiar, here's the list of the MyBeliefWorks™ audio library.

TGIFunny

Forward

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