#i have a lot of Thoughs and Feelings about Kieran that i'm always trying to find the right words for

[a-tale-of-legends]

I was originally gonna wait till the poll was over just to not tamper with the voting or anything, but I do want to explain why I personally think that the player telling the truth to Kieran or not doesn't exactly matter in the end.

Spoilers ahead! Just to be safe

I mean. It does to Kieran. Someone he thought he could trust didn't tell him the truth and that hurts. Especially given that he already had trouble making friends before. But it wasn't the lying that caused him to spiral the way he did. It was ogerpon. Ogerpon was the thing that Kieran honestly loved the most. He wanted to befriend her, give her room in his own house for her, bc he probably saw himself in her too. While I personally believe that Kieran was projecting a little bit onto Ogerpon, and probably latched on to the idea of her a little too much, I don't exactly blame him. Kieran wants a friend, and before the player, he thought Ogerpon could be that.

But then ogerpon didn't choose him. And that's what pushed in over the edge, so to speak. Cause this whole time, Kieran's fears of being weak were only just growing. Ogerpon liking the player more just kept on edging him further down in his spiral. Cause what else would you do when the being that you really wants to be friends with favors someone else? The being that you thought would understand your loneliness and form a bond with? That would boost one's insecurities far more than a lie would imo.

Don't get me wrong, the lie definitely played a part here. I personally think it speed ran the inevitable( Yes, I think regardless of a lie of truth, what would have happened with Kieran would have been inevitable). Kieran lost a person he thought he could trust, and that hurts. I don't want to understate that. But given everything about Kieran, his social anxiety, his relationship with his sister, his own view of himself, I feel like the ending of the teal mask was going to happen one way or another.

Basically what I'm trying to say is that Kieran is/was a ticking time bomb waiting to happen. Telling the truth wouldn't have prevented it from happening. But of course that's just my opinion and my perspective!

There's lots more I want to say, but I often struggle with finding my words. This is the best I can do, and I hope you found it insightful!

[cowboyfromh3ll]

I like the kink hcs you did for Arthur and the boys. What about kink hcs for some of the less popular characters?

Kieran, Sean, Micah, Eagle Flies?

Maybe a sprinkle of Lenny, javier, hosea?

Kink HCs Ft. Kieran Duffy, Sean Macguire, Micah Bell, Lenny Summers, Javier Escuella, Hosea Matthews

I've done Eagle Flies a few times already so I'll stick to these guys hehe. Also finally someone else who thinks Hosea is fine HEAR ME OUT YALLLLL

Warnings: pet play, humiliation, voyeurism, rough sex, name calling, impact play, marking, knife play, blood kink, bdsm, sadomasochism

Kieran Duffy

Surprisingly kinky, and incredibly submissive

I feel like he'd be into puppy play

He's just a sad, wet, and pathetic dog

And I'm talking leashes, collars, maybe even muzzles

You can order him to do just about anything

He'd probably be into humiliation. Will bark if you ask tbh

Part of that would probably involve public sex and the embarrassment that would come from the possibility of being caught

So low-key a voyeur maybe maybe just a little

If you've had a long day just go ahead and take it out on him during sex because he'll love every second of it

Orgasm denial and edging is definitely on the table

Until you have him swearing he's a good boy and deserves to cum

Sean Macguire

This man will do anything as long as he gets to cum

Though he'd probably steer away from the heavier kinks

He's into body worship. Not for his own body but yours

Kisses every inch of skin and appreciates your entire being before and during the act

He'd kiss the very ground you walk on tbh

Likes dominating but he doesn't mind taking things slow and kissing your feet and legs while you talk about your day

He's a real fun guy so I'd imagine he'd also like some form of roleplay. Ends up being really silly but plays his part real well. Makes sense his favorite roleplay scenario would be cop and criminal

He seems like the type to have fuzzy pink handcuffs LMAOO

Micah Bell

Let's be realistic he's probably into some freak shit at your expense

Rough sex always. Ain't no sweet and slow love making

Definitely into degrading

Hair pulling, slapping, spitting in your mouth or on your face, etc

Probably into spanking

Will "punish" you for just about anything

Lots of spur of the moment sex, like y'all will be in a public area and he'll suddenly want to take you

Name calling !

Whore, bitch, slut are commonly thrown around

Marking, you will always be bruised or have teeth marks and even scratches

Lenny Summers

He's such a sweetie, I have a hard time imagining him being very kinky

He'd probably be into some more gentle shit

Y'all would go through your more experimental phase

He's wholesome so he'd like praise, and that would go both ways between you two

Would let you order him around but more so he can learn what you like and what you want him to do

Once he gets more into it he'll become more passionate, he just needs more practice

I feel like the farthest he'd go in terms of inflicting any discomfort would be choking, but it would never go far. He'd end up taking his hand away last minute

He'd probably want to try different dynamics so he'd want to try subbing

Needs to be reminded of his role because he gets too enthusiastic

Javier Escuella

It's a universal fandom headcannon that he's into knife play

So knife play

Ghosts the tip of the blade up your thigh closer to your pussy before pressing the cold metal flat against you

Then runs it back down to your knee, repeats the same motion over and over again until you're shaking

Would probably enjoy typing you up/cuffing you so you're helpless to whatever he does

He'd probably be scared to actually draw blood but if you're into it he'll be down

Licks up any bloody wounds or sucks on them

Praises you so much the entire time

He'd be incredibly romantic though, incredibly good at aftercare

I think there'd also be times where he gets really into it and feeds off on the fear in your eyes

Hosea Matthews

He's such a sweetie but I feel like he'd be an incredibly experienced dom

These are my headcannons and I think Hosea is fine asf so leave me alone

Into leather crops, whips, blindfolds, gags, etc

Drips candle wax on you

Very flexible in terms of what he'll do

But he has to Dom

He can either be really good at praise or will degrade you

Brat tamer for sure

I can even imagine him having cages bro

Talks you through everything and gives you very detailed commands

Inflicts pain on you but knows extremely well how far to go and how much is too much

[hobis-hope95]

Blessed by the Gods pt.2

fancast!Benjicot Blackwood x Bracken!fem!reader

Part 1

Summary: You and Benji decide that, for the better or the worse, you'd follow through what you began. So, with a little help and some persuasion, you pursuit the permission you need to try for a happy ending, with Benjicot Blackwood always by your side.

Warnings: 18+ (minors, please DNI), some fluff (more than the last one), minor fighting description (no blood mentions though), swearing, smut, oral (f receiving), fingering, p in v, unprotected sex, kinda breeding kink, praising kink, mentions of pregnancy and a few self insertions from yours truly.

Authors note: Hey guys, so... I know I took long enough with this one and I'm sorry if I made anyone wait for so much time (I am a reader as well and I know how it is to wait that long). First I want to apologize for the format that this is being delivered (this is how I normally start an idea, but with so much that is going on in this final part I could not get myself to write it "fluidly", so I thought that this would be better than nothing, I'm so sorry ;-;), second is that I work in two hospitals and the free time I have I struggle to organize between sleeping, watching Kieran's tts, reading other fanfics, writing my own, having some quality time with my mom, playing with my dogs and studying for my postgraduate course (I don't know if this is how it's written but I think you get it) so it's a lot. But enough with all the excuses, I hope that you like it, even though I think I could've done better, and I'd love to get some opinions, because all constructive critics are valid and I'd love to know what can I do to get better!!

After all this blabber of mine, enjoy your reading! 🌻✨

Word count: 3.716

You both stayed in each other's arms for a while, talking about the future and kissing, before Benji decided that it was time they went to Raventree Hall to then head to Riverrun. 

He stood, put back his breeches, and helped you stand, but as you did, you felt the ache in the middle of your thighs, your legs almost giving out as he held you firmly against his chest. 

He didn’t say it with all letters, but he did feel his ego inflate in knowing you were struggling to walk because of him. But because of that he had to carry you on his back.  

So, he covered you in his cloak, smoothing your dress and trying to sweep most of the dirt from it, before he knelt in front of you to carry you on his back (come on, bridal style may be more romantic but is way harder guys) 

All the way to the castle you both teased each other “If you wanted me that much you could’ve asked, didn’t need to stalk me to the weirwood tree” He laughed, a smirk on his lips, and as you turned your face to take a glance at him, you sighed in disbelief “As if I would do such a thing, the one that doesn’t stop looking at me in the assizes and the boundary is you” 

As you get to the castle, he orders you to cover your face with the hood and stay quiet. He gets inside without anyone questioning who he’s caring (but ofc with some staring at his back from the guards) and right after he gets to his room, closing the door and placing you seated in his bed, his aunt gets inside and you panic, facing the floor and pulling at the hood of the cloak. 

“Who is that and why does the guards say they saw you carrying her from the woods, Benjicot?” She demands, her voice unaltered but her tone imposing respect, and he scratches his chin awkwardly “Uhm, that’s the daughter of Amos Bracken and, well, she fell in the woods” 

You take the hood off, looking at the Black Aly, and admit “I am the one to blame, I went to the woods that I knew were in Blackwood territory, but still didn’t care for, then Benji found me and...”  

You stopped talking, your mouth opened but extremely embarrassed to voice the rest of it, your cheeks blushing and feeling hot – even though the day wasn’t that warm – as you looked to Benjicot 

“And we may have engaged in some more... let’s say... private activities” He awkwardly finished the thought, his brows furrowed, and you covered your face with both hands 

“So, you are telling me you just couldn’t control yourselves and engaged in intercourse in the middle of the woods?” As Alysanne concluded, one hand massaging the bridge of her nose, Benji’s eyebrows shot up 

“Well, putting it like that makes it sound-” You interrupted him as you stood up and hugged yourself 

“Stupid and inconsequential, yes” You looked at him, accusing eyes making him point to himself as he mouthed an ‘me?’ but he didn’t stop your next words “He started the whole thing, but it wasn’t something that I didn’t want as well” 

The older woman sighed and asked “What are you two going to do about it?” And for that Benji quickly responded “She’s going to need another dress, but the plan was to go to Riverrun and ask Kermit for him to engage us, so her father may accept it”

“I don’t know if you agree, but I found this as being the least conflicting way for us” You argued right after he stopped talking and Aly sighed 

“I have to say that yes, it may be the best option, so I’ll help you. First, your clothes, come with me. You send a raven to Lord Kermit and ask for three horses to be ready in 15 minutes” The older woman said as she went to you, resting a hand on your back, and pointed to her nephew, who quickly went to his table to write the message 

You went to Lady Alysanne’s chambers and changed to a black and red dress that was the closest to your size, her only arching her brows when she saw the ripped golden dress she’s just so done with their thoughtless actions 

And soon enough you three were riding to Riverrun Benji was just so whipped to see you in his House colours and smirked when he saw you shift uncomfortably in the saddle 

The ride was short and silent, and you thanked the gods when you arrived and had no sign of your father or any Bracken in there 

When Kermit saw you walking to him together with the two Blackwoods, he rubbed his eyes in annoyance “Please do not tell me that it is about the boundary stones again” 

“Actually, it isn’t. The matter is that we want to be wed, and we were willing that you could perhaps convince Lord Bracken to accept it” Benjicot said, and Lord Tully took a minute to process it all, his eyes widening as his brows shot up 

“Okay, now I wished for it to be about the boundary stones” The poor Lord only wants to not deal with Bracken and Blackwood shit anymore, give the man a break

“Please, my lord, you are the only one able to convince my father and...” You shifted, nervously and embarrassed to what you were going to say “And?” He asked, but you just looked at Benji, who held your hand in his 

“And we may expect for a pregnancy in the next few moons” A few of the servants that were in the room gasped and Kermit let out an incredulous laughter 

“So you went that way, then? I truly cherish you, my friend, but why must you make my life so much harder?” He sighed before he called his maester inside “Please, send a message for Amos Bracken that I need to discuss urgent matters with him, with haste, and later send another message for house Frey, apologizing and saying their Lord Paramount had a change of plans” 

“I’m really sorry, my lord” You took a step forward and bowed in apology, but he dismissed it “I knew one day or another this would happen, so do not worry, I just wished it had happened sooner, for now I must arrange another marriage for Forrester Frey” 

After that you were all dismissed to rest until the arrival of Amos Bracken and you grabbed Benji's arm with a strong grip, mumbling as you turned to leave the hall “You made me sore, you idiot” 

Benji almost choked trying not to laugh and replied “You have no idea of how it pleases me to know that” 

And as soon as you are out of the great hall, Benji asks for a servant to take you to a place to rest and the servant complies, saying that it has already been arranged as she takes you to another room  

After a couple of hours, you are requested to get back to the great hall for your father had arrived and when you get there he frowns in confusion  

When Benji arrives right after you, his expression turns to pure rage 

“Lord Amos, I know that I have granted you permission to marry your daughter to Forrester Frey” Kermit started as you placed yourself next to your father “But it seems to me that this union is not to be blessed, and another proposal seemed more reasonable” 

“Excuse me, my lord, but what exactly do you mean by that?” Your father enquires and you feel your throat dry 

“Lord Benjicot came to me with a really good proposal of bringing peace to both your families by marrying your daughter and me, as your Lord Paramount, see this as a good opportunity, one we should not miss because of our ego or unsolved matters of the past” 

“You expect me to give my daughter to this- this boy who knows nothing about honour and will most likely corrupt her into hating her own family?”  

You lowered your head when your father talked about corruption, remembering how just a couple hours ago you were more than eager to let yourself be bred by a Blackwood - and him only - and to carry his babe, and your face turned red with embarrassment  

“You may find it surprising, lord Amos, but I do not care or have any intentions on corrupting anyone” Liar, you thought, but wouldn’t dare to pronounce the words, as you lifted back your head to look at Benjicot, who had stepped closer to your father and yourself “I wish to marry her mostly for the prospect of peace and for that I would respect any of her wishes and let her as close to her family as possible” 

“And why should I agree with it if you can possibly change your mind and just have her as someone to torture and use as a threat while you do as you please?” You wanted to say to your father to trust him, but that would sound as childish words with no guarantee whatsoever 

“Because your daughter may, at this very moment, already be carrying my child and despite of what you believe, I do have honour, as I would not let this baby live without a father and I would never do any harm to the mother of my children” 

If Amos Bracken was angry with Kermit’s proposal, now he was furious with Benji’s words, so much so that his face was becoming red 

“What in the seven hells did you say about my daughter?” He turned to you, and you could not hide your fear, your eyes widening “What is he insinuating?” 

After a moment of hesitation, you took a deep breath and answered, your hands closed in fists beside your body so tight that your nails were hurting your flesh “He is right father, I willingly laid with him and I do not wish for the child to grow apart from his father if I’m truly pregnant, but I would never stop loving my House and family, I swear” 

In a fit of rage, lord Bracken turned back to Benjicot, grabbed his sword from his hips, and tried attacking the younger man 

You were glad that lord Blackwood was as good with a sword as the rumours said, for his reaction was quick enough that before the blade could hit him, the loud *CLANG* of swords resonated through the hall 

The guards wasted no time and in a moment were around both men and Kermit Tully raised from his seat 

But before any men could react, you screamed as hard as you could, and took the advantage of their confusion to stand between your father and your lover 

“Enough!!” You said – tired of being the good daughter and polite lady, moving with the adrenaline of it all – and turned to your father, letting Benji face your back “I know that what I did was not the best decision I could have done, but I did it, we did it, and I have no regrets” 

“This feud between our Houses has been going on for too long and it’s time for some change and a bit of peace. We came to lord Tully for his approval, which he gave, and like it or not, my lord father, we are going to get married” 

“I love you, mom and our family and I love our House, but- but between a marriage with someone twice my age for just another senseless alliance of yours and a Blackwood, I prefer the one with an alliance that would truly benefit both” 

All men in the room with swords in hand lowered their arms, Benjicot being the first one, and after a few long seconds with your eyes on his, your father gave in 

“It had to be a Blackwood?” He asked, his sword lowered next to his body, and you answer “I know, I’m sorry father, but you can’t control one’s heart” 

You and your father have a cute little moment, he hugs you and all, and after all calmed down, he apologizes to lord Tully and agrees with the proposal  

Your engagement would last 3 weeks, so it could be properly arranged, which made you grunt a little but accept it anyway 

That night all of you feast on Riverrun – as it was already too late to get back – and to your surprise, after the first minutes of awkwardness, your father and Benjicot started getting on seemingly well 

You and Benji had time to get to know each other better, forgetting the rest of the world as you laughed at his stories, both whipped as hell 

And when he discovered that you actually frequently went to that one clearing, he praised your hiding abilities

And for the next three weeks you spend all the time you can together in your short courtship, but rarely alone 

When Benji would come to Stone Hedge, one of your father’s guards or your mom’s servants would follow you and never lose sight  

When you went to Raventree Hall, Black Aly would make sure that the same happened  

Even when you’d meet outside, near the boundary or walking through the woods, someone would always follow 

Still, that didn’t prevent you to hold hands, sit on the grass with your legs touching or him to bring your faces together for a delicate kiss to your lips 

All the light touches, the way he would lick his lips and open a smirk while looking at yours and the way he would purposely choose narrow paths in the woods to guide you from behind – his hands never leaving your hips and his mouth blowing on your ear every time he spoke – were driving you crazy, leaving you lightheaded and with reddened cheeks 

And he adored your reactions, proudly smirking when you shifted on your seat or avoided his gaze the devil in disguise, that little shit

And speaking of this, he loved when you tried to provoke him as well, with your lingering touch on his arm or chest, the way you’d lean down and your chest would be on full display, and how you’d kiss his cheek for longer than necessary  

By the day before your marriage, both were desperate for one another, but still kept it on those soft touches and light kisses 

After two weeks you sadly discover that you aren’t pregnant, for your monthly comes one day after waking up and feeling cramps on your lower abdomen. Even so, that was long forgotten, and you knew that soon enough you’d have more than enough times to try for a pregnancy

The Wedding Day 

You both decided that the ceremony would be held by the Old Gods tradition, but instead of choosing the Godswood in Stone Hedge or Raventree Hall, you agreed it would take place on that beautiful clearing in the woods 

The ceremony felt almost magical, the moon so beautiful in the night sky throwing rays of light between the leaves, and Benjicot felt like his heart could just jump out of his chest when he saw you dressed all in white  

As your father and the guests held torches to guide you to your groom, who was standing right in front of the weirwood tree next to his aunt, you felt the happiest woman on earth 

As Alysanne Blackwood started the ceremony with the question “Who comes before the Old Gods this night?” You felt like you could burst, your heart beating as fast as it could be 

As the few sentences are exchanged between your father and your aunt-to-be, they both turn to you, who quickly answers Aly’s last question “I take this man” 

The ceremony continues and soon enough you are lifted in Benji’s arms, your faces just a breath away, as he carries you to the wedding party, being the last ones to leave the clearing  

“Who would say that this clearing could bring a couple together?” You asked after taking a last glance at the place 

“We may never know how the Gods work, but they do find their way to bring people together” He smirked at you as you blushed, remembering that day that already felt long gone, and he leaned in to kiss you, your hand on his nape as you gave in to his sweet lips  

When you both arrived at the feast, the guests all cheer and soon enough you both are dancing, feasting and talking to some of the too many faces in the room 

Most of the night Benji is right next to you, a possessive hand on the small of your back, and you are glad to see that he pays no attention to other women present there, safe from his aunt and your mother 

After three or four hours of all that, noticing that the guests are far from leaving, you quietly ask your husband “Do we need to stay any longer?” 

“I was about to suggest for us to leave, actually” He answer as the hand on your back starts to lightly push you towards the small door in a corner of the big dining hall 

“Don’t we need to inform anyone about us leaving?” You ask, quickly looking through the room, but he just says that your absence would be noticed soon enough  

Your steps are quick, both too eager to get to your shared chambers to actually care if anyone saw you both almost running through the halls which a few servants did, but no comments were made apart from something on the lined of ‘oh, those youngsters in love’ 

Barely making an effort to close the door behind you, Benjicot lost no time before hovering over you, his hands on your hips pulling you as close as he could and his lips smashing over yours 

Differently from your last time, your husband now took his time on undressing you, taking care for nothing to rip apart or hurt you in the process 

And after both of you were fully naked, his warmth welcoming you closer, he took you in his arms and lied you on the big bed 

“Now is when I break your father’s hopes of not corrupting you, for I want to hear your sweet voice saying you’re all mine, wife” He said as his lips roamed through your skin, leaving love bites and kisses along the way until he got to the middle of your thighs 

He ate you out like you were his own private feast, each moan and little quiver making him more invested on making you cum 

When one of your hands pulled on his hair, he moaned against your cunt, the vibrations hitting right at your clit, and you moaned his name like a prayer 

Not long after he squeezed two fingers inside you, hitting the spot that made you see stars repeatedly, curling them inside you as his tongue worked on your clit  

Soon enough you nearly screamed when your orgasm hit you like a powerful wave, your whole body turning into melted iron 

Benjicot didn’t stop right away, slowly and carefully reducing his pace, and only then did he lifted his head, your fluids leaving almost half of his face glistening  

“Husband, please, I want you inside me now” You whined, feeling a slight breeze hit your sensitive core as he moved back to be face to face with you 

“So bossy and so beautiful” Benji said as he saw your expression, blown watery pupils looking at him, pleading for him to take you “My lady Blackwood, do you want my cock that bad?” 

“Yes, I want you, please” You begged, your hands reaching for any part of him you could touch 

He leaned down to kiss you, your taste on his tongue, and he stroked himself before aligning his tip to your entrance 

And when he got inside you, oh Gods how you loved this 

This time with all the time in the world, he made love to you, shifting his pace every so often to make it last but also giving in to his desires 

In no time, both of you started to moan each other’s names, talking about belonging to each other and exchanging sloppy kisses  

When he felt your walls tighten around his cock, he hurried himself and soon after you came together, your moans mixing when he kissed you 

After catching his breath, he held your hips and rolled you both on the bed, lying on your sides and retreating from inside you, your legs tangled in a comfortable position 

“I love you” After a moment of silence you let out, your eyes scanning his in fear of rejection, but all you saw was a soft expression, a bright smile on his face that brought butterflies to your stomach  

“One month ago I would’ve rejected the idea of even liking you, but now I cannot think of living without you” He brushed a lock of your hair out of your face and kissed your forehead “In these three weeks you taught me to love you, to crave your attention and your smile and now I can’t wait to form a family with you” 

“I can’t wait to bear your children, husband” You said, pressing a gentle kiss to his lips, and he pulled you closer by the hip, a smirk on his face 

“So we better not waste any more time, wife” Benji said before turning you on your back again 

The two of you loved each other for the rest of the night and all nights that followed, so soon enough your pregnancy was announced and the promise of a family finally came to fruition.  

The love for each other only grew as time passed by and a peace that few believed to be possible was finally a reality in the Riverlands.  

So that's it, again I'm really sorry for the way I delivered this to y'all, but I just couldn't delay it anymore trying to fit it all together like a full text.

Thank you for all the likes, reblogs and comments in part one and feel free to leave a comment, I'd love that! 🌻✨

Tag: @jevoislavieenrouge

[yellowkitkieran]

No Scotland, No Party (Kieran Tierney)

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Word Count: 1.9k

Summary: Kieran helps you pack for Germany and helps fight your insecurities at the same time.

“Key! Come help me, my case won't close!”

Your tongue pokes out as you climb on top of the unzipped suitcase, trying every trick in the book to get the damn thing to close. Are you trying to shove a month's worth of skincare and clothes into a single bag? Yes, but that is beside the point. Being prepared is the most important thing here; you cannot touch down in Germany and realize you forgot the very color of nail varnish you haven't touched in years but decide that is the best option. 

“My darling,” Kieran's sweet tone already has you bristling because you know what he'll say, “Why don't you just pack less-”

As Kieran rounds the corner to your bedroom, you shoot him with a glare that would make most men turn tail and run. Your boyfriend knows better though; he's well aware that your bark is far worse than your bite. For as vicious as you appear on the surface, it takes a lot for you to truly snap. So your handsome Scotsman only grins, crosses his arms and leans against the doorframe. 

“Don't finish that sentence, Kieran. I have to pack all this, I can't take anything out! I have the bare minimum already!” You probably look unhinged with your wildly waving hands and wide eyes. At least Kieran gleans some amusement from your dilemma.

“Alright love. Let's take a breather, yeah? Okay.” Kieran removes you from your perch and sets you on the bed as if you weigh no more than a bird. He smiles and pecks your forehead, ever the level headed problem solver. Though you feel heat creeping to your cheeks, you're too stubborn to say anything as Kieran pulls out the packing cubes you spent ages tetris-ing into place. 

“Hm. I’m not sure about all this. Three pairs of sneakers, two pairs of flats, and a pair heels? Darling, surely you don't need so many shoes.” Kieran shakes his head with a smile as he pulls out another larger cube bulging with jerseys and miscellaneous Scotland gear. “And I thought you were planning on stealing all my jerseys anyway, why do you need these?” 

“Because,” you snatch the cube from him and shove it back in the case, “they're vintage. They prove I'm a day one supporter! I don't want everyone thinking I'm some bandwagon fan that's only in it cause Scotland is doing well this year.”

“Come on, you know no one thinks that. All of the lads know how long you've been around, you're my day one lass!”

You quirk a brow at him, “actually, some fans have other opinions. Clearly you don't read what people say online-” 

“You know I don't, because it doesn't matter-” 

“But I do, and I don't want to give anyone an excuse to critique me while I'm in Germany. I'm there to support you, not get caught up in some tabloid headlines.” It’s silly, you know that. Opinions of faceless online trolls shouldn't have any say in your plans. It is hard to ignore though, when it pops up unprompted so frequently on social media. 

Kieran joins you on the bed and pulls you into his lap. You relish the slight scratch of his five o'clock shadow against your shoulder as he lightly kisses your neck. “Like I said, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. I know that you're there because you love me and you cannae stand the thought of watching on a screen instead of supporting me in person. That's what counts, why does anyone else's opinion matter?” 

Of course Kieran is right. As usual. Because your insecurities always resurface when the spotlight gets brighter on Kieran, and during the Euros you know there will be plenty of chatter surrounding him and his teammates. You're doing your best to mentally prepare for it, trying to get ahead of the curve to anticipate and dispel anything negative before it can surface.

Your trust for Kieran outweighs any doubts hanging over your head. So you smile at him, nodding as you put on a no-nonsense face. 

“Alright, I'll take some out.” You hold out your hands for the bag of vintage kits and remove all but two of them, your favorites that you were planning to bring regardless. Then you take out the heels (you'd rather be comfortable than be fashion forward anyway), and a dress that you packed solely because it was “wag material”. Kieran doesn't say a word, he just repacks the remaining cubes when you’ve finished your audit and then zips the case shut with ease. 

“There, all set. That wasn't so hard.” You want to be mad, but Kieran's smile ebbs any lingering frustration. It's always been that way with him. His ability to soothe your hot-headed streak never fails. So you sigh and rest your head on his shoulder instead of spitting a reply like you instinctively want to.

“I guess all that is left is to pack my carryon.” You grin at Kieran, recognizing the moment the thought crosses his mind. 

“Ah, no, before you ask, you cannae fit me in your carry on, love. I'm going on the jet!”

**********

In the future, perhaps you'll listen to Kieran more often. The only headlines you've seen online are about how brilliant of a supporter you've been. Fans are singing your praises for your decision to forgo sequestering yourself in a private box in favor of joining them in the stands. Your ability to start chants with your loud, captivating voice keeps them riled match after match. And even now at one of the many after parties, you keep the lads riled up and excited by singing along to the music pounding over the speakers. 

“We know we ain't no Argentinaaaaa…” 

Robbo throws his arm over your shoulder as the music pauses for a beat, his ridiculously oversized sunglasses knocking your temple. The whole room remains hushed for a few tantalizing moments, and when the beat drops, everyone erupts. 

“BUT WE'VE GOT JOHN MCGINN!” You can barely pick out your own voice among the players, friends and families gathered as you all belt out the lyrics to the unofficial, official Scotland Euros song. “And Robbo out on the wing!” At that, the entire room points to you and Andy, who is wearing his classic goofy smile and jumping up and down with one arm still over your shoulders. His glasses are askew now, but he couldn't care less- the entire atmosphere is electric, and you find yourself caught up in the fun and join Andy in his erratic dancing. 

You tip your head back to the ceiling, eyes shut against the strobing lights and yell the next line, “No Scotland, no partyyyy!” Like your life depends on it. “Steve Clark’s tartan armyyy!” You're in your element now, as at home among your friends as Kieran is with a ball at his feet; a fact that isn't lost on your boyfriend, who happily observes from his spot near the makeshift bar and sings along too, albeit a touch quieter than you. 

It's only when the song ends and Andy releases you that Kieran comes to find you. The volume of the music lowers a touch and gives everyone a chance to catch their breath. You grin at Kieran as he approaches, one arm sliding around your waist as he joins you near the bar. 

“Hello darling. Is that drink for me?” Your hopeful question has Kieran tipping his glass bottle of beer toward you. You greedily gulp down half of it before he manages to steal it from your claws. 

“Oi, I'm only allowed one all night! And now it's nae gonna last much longer thanks to you!” 

You giggle, then hiccup, then lightly smack Kieran’s toned chest. “Maybe if you had a line written about you in that song they'd let you have another. Cause Andy's had more than one, that's for sure!”

“Dinnae know how he got a second,” Kieran grumbles, pouting in the general direction his captain disappeared in. “Nae fair if ya ask me. If he gets two, the lot of us should get two!” 

“Ohh, you tell ‘em babe. Look at you- all angry aren't you?” You run your hands over Kieran's chest, tipsy enough thanks to the unlimited number of drinks you've been allowed to have. “Such a strong, angry little man aren't you… and so handsome! I'm a lucky lass.” you cup Kieran's jaw, thumbs rubbing over his stubble. Upon seeing the slight glaze to your eyes, a laugh rumbles out from Kieran’s chest beneath your other hand. 

“You're right pished, aren't you darling? Just how many did you have?” 

“Dinnae count,” you mumble. You're far too tired to tally them up now, especially when Kieran's warm lips meet your forehead. “When's your next match again? I hope it's not tomorrow because I'm gonna need to sleep this off.”

“Wednesday. But I have recovery tomorrow, and training every day too.” Kieran is quick to shush you when you groan, registering your protest even if it does fall on slightly deaf ears. “I know, I know, you'll miss me the entire time. You dinnae ken what you'll do with your free time. But you could go out with the other girlfriends and wives, that's an option!” 

“That's already my plan! But I want to see youuuuu- I want to see my boyfriendddd!” You jut your lower lip, two fingers finding the front belt loops of his jeans and pulling him closer. “Why do you have to be so good at what you do? You should slip a few times in training so you don't have to go back. Then you could spend time with me!”

“Well, I'm no John McGinn. But I am out on a wing, so I guess I'm sort of like Robbo- clearly not as good as him but hey, but I'll take it.” Kieran’s smile turns your knees to goo. It's lucky he's got a firm hold on you or else you'd be a puddle on the floor at this point. “Why don't we head to our room for now then? We can party more when we win, yeah? For now let's get you into bed.”

A pitiful whine bubbles past your lips. “I want to stay outttttt! You haven't even danced with me yet- and that's a crime! Shame on you for not dancing with your girlfriend!”

“I- hey!” Kieran rubs his arm where you just pinched him, frowning down at you. “Well, I was going to offer to dance with you now, but I dinnae ken if I should after that abuse!”

“You have to! I'm not leaving until I get a dance with my handsome, lovely, song-worthy winger of a boy-” 

Kieran's kiss cut you off, which while mildly surprising, is somewhat expected. It's his favorite way to distract you from any argument and it works fairly well. And when he gets a bit cheeky and grazes his tongue over your lips, you're putty in his hands. You would pluck the moon from the sky and place it in his cupped hands if he wished it. 

Stars buzz in your vision when he pulls away. You laugh, fingers interlocking behind his neck. “Alright. Back to the room it is.”

[pawmesan]

So yesterday I said I had ✨opinions✨ on the DLC and today I have come to the conclusion that as per usual, I will not chill until I dumped them somewhere lmao. It's mainly focused on what I've seen people say about Carmine and Kieran online, be it on tumblr or other websites.

Teal Mask Spoilers under the cut :3

I have no idea if I used the under the cut feature even right lmao I've kinda always just been a douche and ignored it when talking about spoilers as I've realised gfjdjrc

Ok anyway so. I think what personally bothered me the most is a lot of people saying "they just have a perfectly fine siblings relationship, nothing unhealthy to see here" and "Kieran is a coldass douchebag who view others as objects and only cares about strength". Both statements I strrroooongly disagree with.

First about his and Carmine's relationship, since it plays into the other thing. It seems that their parents aren't around, though it's unknown why. The grandparents are apparently pretty lackluster in taking over their job and because of that, it seems that Carmine has taken it on herself to take somewhat of guardian role for Kieran. Which is a role she's visibly overwhelmed by, which makes sense, because that's not a role you should have to take when you yourself are maybe like 17/18 lol. You can see that she absolutely does care for and wants the best for him, but at the same time she can't wrap her head around his actions and how he's feeling. So a lot of the things she does she does out of good intentions (for example telling the player for him that he's interested in them because she says he couldn't ever ask on his own, or the whole lying thing where she believes not telling him you guys met Ogrepon prevents him from feeling left out), without understanding that they have quite literally the opposite effect (Kieran feeling like he's unable to do anything on his own BECAUSE she does everything for him, and of course him feeling left out BECAUSE you and her keep meeting Ogrepon a secret). On top of that she clearly has issues keeping her own emotions down, so instead of reacting calmly she'd yell at him whenever he does or says something she doesn't like. And whether you want to see that certain one-liner as her implying she does also hit him when she's not "being nice" or not, she seems unaware of what effect these reactions have on her brother. I do think the implication might very well be on purpose, but it's just not as obviously stated as it could be because this is still a Pokémon game and we don't gotta be too in your face about child abuse in a game that like 8 year olds play lol.

Anyway, aside from him thinking he can't make decisions on his own and stuff, there's a lot of ways this treatment shows in Kieran. Notice how while Carmine is pretty open about showing her anger, he keeps trying to repress his own until later in the story where he's starting to be unable to do so? You can see that when you battle him the first couple times and he loses, the light in his eyes leaves briefly (yknow, the anime thing they both do where that shows them being angry/frustrated) before he grabs his head and just says aw man or something. And when she outs him on his crush or whatever on you, he also looks angry like that, but she immediately shuts him down like usual. I'm pretty sure that's a learned behaviour on his part, aka "when I get openly angry or sad my sis will yell at and/or hit me so I have to keep it down". That's why he always switches the topic, runs off or just goes quiet when he pisses her off or he thinks he pisses her or someone else off. It's optional dialogue so idk how many people have seen it, but Carmine confirms that at the festival, though she again misunderstands why he does it.

Have a high quality photo of what I mea-

So yeah, in short, in regards to their relationship, I think it's clear that it's pretty dysfunctional. For some reason Carmine's stuck with taking a caretaker role she cannot possibly fill given her own issues and age. As a result, she takes it out on her little brother who in turn has to suffer the double bagage of lack of parents and dealing with his older sister's moods. And with next to no social contacts outside of her, he's stuck in that situation and he's got no one to help him learn how to deal with this in a healthier way (same with Carmine really). All he knows that if he was "stronger", he could deal with this better. Like that cool ogre from the folktale that does not care what people think of it and keeps fighting for its right to be respected regardless. Stronger being a very arbitrary word here, as the only specific goal he mentions (in the beginning) is able to stand up against his sister.

Now onto the whole "Kieran sees Ogrepon, the player, probably everyone but him, as an object" thing which... yeah no, he's not a sociopath kcngjtc

More precisely, the player character comes in as this cool person who has no trouble beating his sister in a battle. They don't seem to have all that much trouble socialising either. Good thing he doesn't know all the kewl stuff we did at Area Zero and all or he'd lose it completely. I think a big bonus is also that we're not from his town, so we don't have any bias against his ogre idol. So like, he's head over heels for us, he actually gets to hang out with us and warms up as we realise we're interested in his stories and all and wow. He's found an actual real friend omg. He might not be 100% aware of that, but that's all he really wanted. He wanted to befriend the ogre because it sounded like it would be someone to understand him. And now there's suddenly this super nice person who's taking that role.

But then suddenly, that person hangs out with his meanie sister and stops interacting with him almost entirely. I have a feeling that Carmine hanging out with people he'd want to befriend and them making fun of him is just a thing that happened before and that's why he jumps to that conclusion right away. Keep in mind, the reason Carmine came to us in the first place is literally to make fun of his lack of skills at the mini game lol.

So yeah, the reason Kieran is so massively pissed off is because he does view the player character as a human being, and one he really really liked and put up the courage to open up to, yet from his POV we shamelessly take advantage of that and leave him alone again to hang out with his sis instead. Would probably come off to him like you just pretended to be his friend because you had to and now you're hanging out with the cooler kids and giggle about how silly he looked when, idk, he asked to have a sandwich with you lol. Of course this is not what the player intended (or is meant to intend) and I too felt physical pain when the game gave me no option but to lie xD but I'm pretty sure you guys making up and giving each other another chance is what's gonna happen in Indigo Disk.

For Ogrepon, instead of as an object, I think he just keeps seeing the ogre from the story in her. You gotta remember that he never gets to properly interact with her, he doesn't even refer to her by her actual name like Carmine does once she learns it. He doesn't understand that, ironically just like him, what she really wants is just acceptance and a friend. He thinks that the reason she's distrusting of him is not because she has trust issues and needs to warm up first just like him, but because he isn't as strong as you are, the one she does trust much easier. He's so convinced that nothing in his life will change for the better until he's "stronger" that... presumably the Dokutaro thing somewhere during the mid point starts influencing him. Not like, straight up possession, but more it taking advantage of his instability and promising to give him the strength he wants if he does what it wants. Just like the dex entries of the loyal three says what happened to them. So Dokutaro moreso takes the role of some guy who's a really bad influence and convinces you to do things that will harm both you and others with some sneaky lil psychological tricks. Because I mean, self-sabotaging is something Kieran literally does around the time he presumably comes in contact with Dokutaro. He completely stops trying to talk to you, he boxes the furret he apparently raised from an egg, he doesn't come along to help beat the loyal three to get the masks. I wonder tbh, if Dokutaro was influencing him, if it didn't lead him away from helping with that on purpose, since it originally made the loyal three steal the masks in the first place. I guess that would also explain why he would have been fine with Ogrepon just going back to the cave so he could get the masks back later. And while there definitely is the whole jealousy aspect, I think it's also Dokutaro leading him into actions he wouldn't normally do to get the masks. Because if he gets the masks it'll give him what he wants or whatever. I think without the Dokutaro influence, honestly, he'd probably just have locked himself up in his room for the rest of the story after you lying and sobbed into his Furret pal's fur lmao.

Soo yeah, I think that's about it. They both have quite some issues and continue the trend of ScaVio characters that really need a therapist lol. I like Kieran especially though, he's really adorable despite having his own set of flaws of course. So I do hope the next part will take his (and Carmine's) story into a satisfying direction. And I better get to give him a hug because he needs one smh. Maybe Arven can make him some top tier candy apples. Oh oh yeah, noticed btw that he adds Dipplin to his team after he gave us a candy apple at the festival and told us there's a mon that looks like one? Pokémon likes to do storytelling via the team, so maybe the Dippling reminds him of our broship 😔😔

[pbandjesse]

I mostly had a nice day. It would be really nice to feel normal but today was a pretty close one. It was just way hotter then I was prepared for an that made it really hard on me.

I also didn't sleep amazing. I woke up and snoozed my alarm and extra 10 minutes. James was sitting on the floor and when I got up for real they just held me for a minute. I was not happy. I was trying really hard to be positive but I was not happy about having to leave. I was looking forward to the feild trip but still. I was worried.

James made me a cinnamon toast sandwich. Which was fine but a little drier then I hoped. They also peeled an orange for me. I ate those while I drove. They would give me an extra kiss before I headed out. And I had a pretty easy drive in.

When I got to camp I would chat with Jamie. I really like her so I'm excited she's going to help with some field trips. And after checking in with Elizabeth I would grab the ropes key and went to set up my program.

While I do really like running low ropes, I hate setting up and breaking it down. I struggle holding my arms over my head and spinning the locks on the carabiners takes a minute so I end up lightheaded. Plus pulling the ladder all over sucks. So it's just not my favorite. But I did it and I did accidently put one of the wrong ropes up so I had to fix it and redo the carabineer and that was very annoying.

I decided that the rope swing needed to have higher stakes. So when I got back to the office I would print out a picture of fire to put under the ropes. And when my groups would get to try the swing I would fully play it serious that the fire pit was very dangerous.

Not everyone would get to do low ropes though. Because all of a sudden the school changed the schedule on us. Doubling up flying squirrel so that there were more people helping pull the rope. Which meant we didn't have a lot of time for team wall and low ropes. But I did my best.

The school came a bit early though and we were not ready for them and they were just like okay time to start!! And we're being a little fussy about us not being ready until the actual start time.

But Elizabeth held the line and gave everyone time to set up. I would end up walking my group and Kieran's group up to the ground elements course.

And it would be a good day! The first walk up was fine, but every other would be pretty hard on me. And it would get very hot throughout the day. I was dripping sweat at times and that sucked. But I tried very hard to be a rice and positive. Even if I wasn't feeling good.

For all five sessions we would start by explaining that one group would be going on the flying squirrel and the other would help pull. And when we were done with the one group we would split to do whale watched and team wall. And if there was time we would do low ropes. The group that assisted with squirrel would come back later and get to fly.

I would help with harnesses. Which I've gotten pretty good and quick at. I still think we should keep plyers up there to pull the double back straps when my fingers get tired. But until the very last group I did good. Was struggling in the heat with the last group but we got everyone who wanted to go through up on the swing and it was great. We had a lot of fun.

We would have a pretty good system going. And would use about 30 minutes to get everyone through twice. Kieran was getting tossed around a lot as the stopping system. I think we did a good job working together. I kept us on time. Things went well.

Team wall was. Harder then I expected. I always feel like we struggle when the groups are under 10 people. But my first group couldn't get anyone up at all? I've never had that happened before. The next three groups for would get everyone but one student up. And the last group tried twice and got everyone but two up. I put them on a timer and it was fun making it a competition. And they were nice kids.

A few of the groups got to try the ropes course. The ones who saw the fire picture got a kick out of it and also took it very seriously and we joked that they were gonna burn their toes. It was a good time.

I had three groups and then lunch. At lunch I just wanted to lay my head on the table. I got s little bag of chips and a diet soda from Heather. And the sodium helped I think. I had only packed sweet things which was dumb. But I had my little snacks. And chatted with Jamie. And just tried to rest for a minute.

We all walked over to the lodge to get our groups. My group left without me??? Hilarious. So I had to go catch them. But they found their way and we would wait for Kieran and the other group before we got started.

I got really woozy from the walk and the heat. I had to sit on the ground for a bit. I was okay but I was just. So very ready to be done.

The last two hours went fine though and we had fun. Lots of laughs. And when they were finished they all shook my hand and said thank you. It was a really nice day overall. I do really love doing field trips. I just wish I felt better.

I took down low ropes. Kieran would carry the ladder for me. And we walked down to the office.

Chloe drove past and we chatted. She let me know that the barn is going to pause lessons for the school year so she is going to try to get a new barn job. I'm sad about it. I like working with Chloe. And I really hope she lands on her feet quickly.

I would sit with Heather and chatted for a while. She suggested I start trying to take my medicine in the morning instead of in the evening so I'm going to try that tomorrow. But I also am skipping taking it today so I'm not taking two so close together. I was worried. I was already starting to not feel amazing. I just wanted to go home

So I did. I said goodbye and headed home. And would be back home by 330. The drive was fine but my phone wouldn't play my podcast and I was very frustrated. About half way home it started playing but it caused me a lot of stress for no reason.

When I got home I was really happy to see James and Sweetp. James biked to DC today. And Sweetp had been laying on my knitting project. Silly boy.

I would go upstairs and took a shower. Washed my hair. I switched back to the argon oil shampoo because I felt like the aloe shampoo was causing some build up. And then I got in bed with my husband. I did not feel good and I was so tired.

I would sleep until 530. I didn't want to be awake but I was. James would come back upstairs and gave me some water. We laid there for a bit and we made a shopping list. James would go to target to get a few things for us and would pick us up five guys.

While they were gone I moved downstairs. I thought maybe sitting up would make me feel better. And it may be did a little. But when James got home I was really hurting.

And it was really really hard to eat. I ate almost half my sandwich and was really happy because I wasn't hurting. But then all of a sudden it hit me so hard I seriously thought I was going to throw up. It was very scary. Everything felt very very focused on the pain I was feeling.

I would sip my drink and breathe through it. And eventually was able to finish my sandwich. And the pain went away. I still feel just this side of nausea but no more pain at least.

Me and James are upstairs now. Painting our nails. Sweetp wants to be in here too but hates the smell so he's sitting in the doorway.

I was very ready to go to sleep. No field trip group tomorrow. Just camp stuff. I hope there are fun things for me to do.

I hope you all sleep well tonight. I love you all. Until next time.

[darcyolsson]

actually how do you feel about the queer rep in tsc in general, b/c i feel like it's so good but also sometimes. Bad. like Anna was so messy imo, both as a nonbinary character and her relationship to Ari. but at the same time she writes so much queer rep for such a big and mainstream series.

i think the short answer is "overall very good, but not perfect, as can be expected from a cishet woman in her 40s"

long answer is yeah, it's a bit of a mixed bag sometimes, but generally good. i think she treats her queer and her cishet characters equally, without putting too much thought into certain sterotypes she wants to avoid, which does lead to a few questionable moments. (though she does avoid killing her queer characters like the plague, which, so true. keep that up)

i think a good example of this is how both magnus and matthew, two of the most prominent bisexual characters, are both known for being very flirtatious people, which is a negative sterotype i think most authors as dedicated to writing rep as cc would want to avoid. at the same time, there's also slutty characters who aren't bi (jace, isabelle, anna) and bi characters who aren't slutty (mark, kieran, helen). would it be better if she had avoided this stereotype altogether? i don't know!

same goes for the way cetain characters talk about magnus' femininity. though it's generally respected and generally admired, it's absolutely used as the butt of a joke like... all the time. would it be better if no one made fun of it, even though magnus' femininity is also explicity admired in-text by just as many people? i don't know, you tell me.

anna is......... a lot to unpack, isn't she. i can't really say how i feel about her gender identity since i'm not nonbinary myself, but i do think that if cc set out to write a genderqueer character she could have made that more explicit. i get that tlh being set in the 1900s leads to some complications, but i think a sensitivity reader may have helped her a bit here.

i do think her and ari's romance lacked a certain depth that other couples were given (and same goes for helen and aline, though they are obviously not main characters). i think this is mostly due to the way cc writes her male and female characters, or rather, their romances. it's a little hard to put into words but i feel like, in the end, her female characters are the ones who are regular people while the male characters often step into the sexy love interest role, ready to admire the Main Girl any opportunity he gets. that's not to say that most characters don't carry elements of both these roles sometimes, but it kind of leaves us with, like, Lesbian Sheep? does anyone get what the fuck i'm trying to say?

basically, when your romances depend on men being sexy dreamboats waiting for a girl to slowly fall in love with him, it's hard to write one without a man in there. the reason why ari and anna don't read as romantic is because they're both rational, three-dimensional people, whose main purpose in life is not getting the attention of some girl, when cc's romances almost always depend on the core dynamic being Regular Girl x Universally Admired Guy Who Would Kill Himself For Her If She Asked. (sizzy is a very notable exception to this, with izzy being the universally admired guy, while simon is the regular girl.)

basically, think her desire to write all her women as relatable, rational people for whom romance is not the single most important thing in their lives is preventing her from doing it. i'm very curious to see if twp will give us a better take on a lesbian romance but i don't count on it unfortunately!

[kitakami-zorua-kin]

Ah, hello so you are Russet?

I can see the resemblance. I'm Oys, or on-your-side anon though Oys is shorter, I got here while Kieran was running things, we got along relatively well, he's very direct but I don't mind that I'm kinda similar.

you seem awfully sorry for what he might have done here? but personally I'd say he wasn't bad, maybe a bit intense in the beginning but I like to think we got along, if you just let him be himself without meddling he's rather open and easy to talk too actually.

I think it's a matter of respect with him, be and let be. I'm the same in that regard.

He talked about you too, some nice things, some things he seems to wonder about you and so not so nice things. But don't worry I like to form my own opinions.

Anyway nice to meet you, I hope we can get along just as well.

And to keep up a kinda small pseudo tradition here's a question I asked Kieran too. What do you like about him the most and what do you dislike more than anything else about him? Also, favourite legendary?

Oh and I, unlike others, advise you to read back there's stuff there about your brother that might interest you?

Oys

//sorry this is such a wall of text but I'm excited to get to know this little creature, also Sweetheart is an adorable name for Pecharunt, also question for you about it? the chains are probably from the same stuff it's mochi are made of right? So by theory they must be edible, do you think they CHROMCH?? Do they taste like hard candy? And if the chains or mochi ever get mentioned as edible I will ask him the same maybe try to tempt him into taste testing.

Oh - yes, I'm Russet. Oys anon - I... read over your conversations with my brother. I have been reading back - just... a little slow at it. I'm... glad he's made a... friend? I.. don't quite know what you two are, but... he seems to like you, at least from what I can tell.

I'm... yeah. I... know how he gets when pressed, and... I'm afraid I sort of... biased people here against him - I didn't mean too, but... I've... made friends here. And... he... he hasn't treated me the kindest, lately. When Kieran's pushed against the wall, he... lashes out. i... i used to, as well. now i just... um. nevermind!! It's nothing to worry about, um, sorry! Don't even know where I was going with that-

What I... I've always admired my brother's passion for... Dragons, just about everything. He's always been the type to get really really into things, while I just... Sort of float from thing to thing, never really excelling at any one thing. Just sort of - halfway decent at a lot of things, I guess...? Ah - I've gotten sidetracked. Um. What I dislike...? I... I just wish he wasn't hurting himself like this. I don't - dragons, I don't really care that he's been cruel to me, even though it hurts, I just - I hate how cold he is to himself. I hate that I can't help him. I just want my little brother to be okay... ... Sorry, that was - a lot. Um... My favorite legendary...? Heh... Um, Kieran already mentioned I really like the Unovan Dragons... It - it feels weird to say this, especially with everything Dray went through - but... My favorite has always been Kyurem. I always thought it was a really cool Pokemon. And… Relatable. If my siblings were Zekrom and Reshiram, then… I’ve always felt sort of like Kyurem. Alone. Forgotten. Waiting for… Oh, nevermind. Um. Forget I said anything. Just. Ice/dragon types, you know? They’re – pretty rare, heh! :3

[arsenalgbt]

There's one thing in the uni au that I have always know I was going to include and I was gonna keep it to myself until I got to that point but I literally cannot so I'm telling you.

Kieran made Leo promise very early on in Leo's first pregnancy that their child and any future children they have will not have arranged marriages. He understands that they are going to grow up in a world where they are the norm like their Ma did but Kieran cannot imagine a worse fate. He also places a lot of importance on marriage being a sacrament and is totally against it being cheapened by becoming a business tactic. Leo makes the promise because he knows its important to Kieran. He's already gone so off the script of what was planned for him and is dealing with the fall out, he never wants his kids to feel like they're destiny is mapped out for them (even while still pregnant with their first, Leo knew he was going to have more children with Kieran. Leo wanted a whole football team, they'd never discussed this). Leo and Kieran never tell anyone about it because they don't want to be seen as judgemental.

Pre-Willo and throughout his battle with postpartum depression, Ben considering calling his parents and asking then to find him a match. He knew they'd probably starting sussing out anyone who'd take a single parent the second he'd told them. He's sure they'd find a nice parent for Ethan, maybe even one who liked babies. Ben thought Ethan deserved at least one parent like that. He never called and asked though and looking back he thinks it's for a multitude of reasons such as knowing Kieran would try to talk him out of it, the fact his parents would be all judgement and the fact he couldn't flirt with Willo if he was married. Post Willo, Ben spends lots of time thinking about marriage and matches and even after having Alessia and marrying Willo with their two kids by their side - He's still not sure if he wants his kids to have matches or not. He eventually talks to Willo about it and they agree that only if their children ask that they'll find a match and even then they have a different plan from the traditional quick engagement. Ben and Willo want their kids to find love like they did and will insist that any matches have to date their kid for at least a year before a wedding happens.

As for what Dec and Kai decide about matches for any kids they may have, well I guess I'll leave that up to you;)

-💙🤍 KT Anon

crying at ben that desperate to be married off to some rich man who wouldn't mind a baby out of a wedlock ajkshdfhasfjkashjdfkadsfalsjdfhajsdfljafaljsdjfaajsfja I love that trivia ngl it's so humane imo

I'm just glad Leo's rich parents are super chill about their heir marrying outside their rich circle likeeeeeeeee and besides ktrossard produces the cutest the most ambitious the most competitive grandchildren that they can mould~ ofc they let Leo do whatever he and his hardworking husband do anything teehee

deckai... idk man will they have the baby that's the question?

[zalrb]

Succession 4.06

So an anon asked me to review Succession the way I do OTH/Skins/TVD etc so let's try it out.

I never thought I'd ever feel nostalgic seeing Logan's face

"Good to see you, dad" and the video is paused on this face?

this show is so fucking good.

3. *Succession theme song plays* me:

4. Is this how billionaires flirt?

5. Lol, really, Shiv, the guy who possibly sends frozen blood to an ex? Come on.

6. I mean he's Alexander Skarsgard but still.

7. I wonder what it must be like for him to not be the tallest person on set considering he's 6'4 and Nicholas Braun is 6'7.

8. "BOYS, you're not good at this." She speaks the truth, Kendall and Roman, this is fucking bush league.

9. You are not. serious. people.

10. Kendall's outrageous demand to build a mock house overnight reminds me of this boss I had who would want to switch up where we would do events the day of the event and we had to be like, we can't just ... change it, there are permits and licences we need...

11. "Tom Wambsgans, finally made me feel something." I have to say I do quite like toxic flirty tomshiv.

12. "Can I just say … it’s kind of hard to make houses seem like tech because we’ve had houses for a while…" COUSIN GREG.

13. "Oh my God, you're fired." ROMAN.

14. "I'm not crazy about, you know, dying." "Yeah, it's bullshit." That is indeed my vibe.

15. This scene with Roman and Gerri is breaking my heart, he yearns for her respect so badly.

16. Kieran better win all the fucking emmys.

17. Oh their expressions, my god.

why are they doing this to me?

18. GIVE. KIERAN. THE EMMYS.

19. "Fuck off, you fired Gerri. Shiv's godmother, Gerri??" Oh, I thought Shiv was being facetious when she called Gerri her godmother, I didn't think she actually was her godmother??

20. "grumble quote grumble quote" I fucking love Kendall. He's terrible but oh my god, the dialogue.

21. I know on this blog there's a lot of discussion about how Shiv isn't my favourite, but let's talk about the skilful bit of acting Sarah did in this scene, man, the various emotions she goes through?

22. I do find this scene with Tom to be interesting though because Shiv looks at him like she's seeing who he is for the first time

and I wonder if it's because he's finally talking about wanting money and liking money or if it's because she realizes he can be acerbic and mean-spirited and basically communicate in a way she communicates with everyone else in her world and she's intrigued.

23. "It's enough to make you lose your faith in capitalism." KENDALL.

24. Kendall has taken kind of a backseat this season compared to Roman and Shiv but man, Jeremy's acting, his expression of complete abandonment when Roman backs out?

25. As someone who does like Ken, I'm glad his speech went well and the other shoe didn't at least drop in this episode. I was like he got a mini win and I'm happy.

26. Shiv was pretty diabolical this episode with the two of them, though.

27. Roman replaying that manipulated Logan's video over and over, about how he always gets it wrong, MY HEART.

[desired-misery]

[not me getting to this five years late LOL, but I'm still gonna do it!]

How many fics have you worked on since January? Omg, so many. So many. Around 30 or so (almost all WIPs, especially)

What’s something new that you tried in a fic this year? Tried a new method of showing a character having a bad experience via dissociation by changing how the scene is written (no real spoken dialogue especially)

What piece of media inspired you the most? Resident Evil to the max!!!!

How many fandoms did you write for this year? Just two, I believe. Resident Evil and Red Dead Redemption 2.

What ships captured your heart? Resident Evil: Leon/Chris + Chris/Piers + Leon/Luis + Chris/Leon/Piers + (and someone opened my heart to Ada/Hunnigan and GOD I need!!!). For RDR2: I always love Hosea/Dutch, Arthur/Charles, Kieran/Mary Beth

What characters captured your heart? fcuking LEON S KENNEDY, THAT MAN IS NICE! DAMN! Oh, and Hunnigan, too! She is so fucking cool!!!

Did you write for any new fandoms or ships this year? Resident Evil is new to me! We have RE4R to thank for that.

What fic meant the most to you to write? Hm, that's a hard one. I'd say the one I've posted is "This Must be Good" because of what I was trying to do, and I think I succeeded with it.

What fic made you feel the happiest to work on? All the whumptober stuff :) I love whump! And it was my first time interacting with the whump community on tumblr!

What fic was the most satisfying to finish writing? Within Range! Managing all those characters and chaos was fun! (it's a scene, not a full fic, but it's about 50% done, enough to be posted for whumptober).

What fic was the most difficult to write? Genesis 3:19! Spent a long time on it proportionally to how long it is. Lots of research, a lot of refining how I wanted it to read/feel.

What fic was the easiest to write? Experiment 537! BOW!Leon was so fun to write, I need to prioritize working on that AU.

What were your shortest and longest fics posted this year? (for completed fics, I posted a lot of wips for whumptober) Shortest is "This Must Be Good" at 3.9k, longest is "Trapped by Circumstance" at 17k

What were your go-to writing songs? Anything by Witchz. New fav artist this year.

What was the hardest fic to title? Genesis 3:19. God, that was hard lol

What's your favorite title of the year? It's a WIP, but "Flies and Blood, The Demon"

Share your favorite opening line: He avoids capture for almost two whole days until they bring out the dogs. ("Trapped by Circumstance"

Share your favorite ending line: Luis averts his eyes from the laser’s glow as it burns the rest of the parasite away into ash. (Genesis 3:19)

Share your favorite piece of dialogue: “Keep it professional, Kennedy,” Adam cuts him off, cold and firm. Leon curbs his instinct to snap back, smoothing his anger out just enough to count as humor. He pushes because he always pushes, even though it pisses Adam off��� especially because it does. "Jesus, did someone kill the Queen or something?" "Or something," Adam repeats, drier than a rock. (WIP "Flies and Blood, The Demon")

Share your funniest line: If Piers didn’t already know that Kennedy was this sarcastic by nature, he would be thinking Kennedy’s GSW isn’t that bad if he is being snarky. (Within Range)

What's something that surprised you while you were working on a fic? Did it change the story?: Pretty much every decision Capcom makes... so yes it absolutely changes the story (LOL), but it's fine! It means I get to have fun patching up major plot holes.

What writing programs did you use? Google docs, then started using Ellipsus! I like Ellipsus!

If you had to choose one, what was THE most satisfying writing moment of your year?: Finishing Whumptober! It was my first time participating!

Did you do anything special to celebrate finishing a fic? Nope! Just enjoy posting and talking about it

How did you recharge between fics? ... working on new ones?

Did you create fanworks other than fic? I did not, but I'm hoping to start next year!

How many events did you take part in? (bangs, exchanges, ship weeks, zines, prompt memes, they all count!) Just one, Whumptober!

If this were an awards show, who would you thank? @waywardsou2 for being the literal BEST!!!! EVER!!! FOR EVERYTHING! @rainwaterapothecary for letting me spam you with re4r thoughts and enabling my love for Hunnigan! @geddy-leesbian for being a cool friend who makes cool shit and has a sick AU that I love to think about! @silvercap for your whump ideas and fellow desire to make Leon suffer :) @greasedcowboy for the love you poured onto Genesis 3:19 and our talks after! <3 and major honorable mention to @wisecrackingeric-2 for showing being 98% responsible for me loving Luis so much!!!!!!! Fuck yeah, Luis!!! Fuck yeah, Eric!

What's left on your to-do list for 2024? Uh... 'tis over, but I did not finish what I wanted to.

What would you like to write next year? So much, so many things. Especially finish up all my posted wips and then post new ones! I have so much writing I want to do!

A slightly revised version of last year's questions! Two ways to play: Reblog and have your followers send you numbers, or answer the whole list!

How many fics have you worked on since January?

What’s something new that you tried in a fic this year?

What piece of media inspired you the most? (This can be the fandom you wrote the most for, the one that spawned the most ideas, the one you thought about the most, etc.)

How many fandoms did you write for this year?

What ships captured your heart?

What characters captured your heart?

Did you write for any new fandoms or ships this year?

What fic meant the most to you to write?

What fic made you feel the happiest to work on?

What fic was the most satisfying to finish writing?

What fic was the most difficult to write?

What fic was the easiest to write?

What were your shortest and longest fics posted this year?

What were your go-to writing songs?

What was the hardest fic to title?

What's your favorite title of the year?

Share your favorite opening line

Share your favorite ending line

Share your favorite piece of dialogue

Share your funniest line

What's something that surprised you while you were working on a fic? Did it change the story?

What writing programs did you use? Did you write by hand?

If you had to choose one, what was THE most satisfying writing moment of your year?

Did you do anything special to celebrate finishing a fic?

How did you recharge between fics?

Did you create fanworks other than fic?

How many events did you take part in? (bangs, exchanges, ship weeks, zines, prompt memes, they all count!)

If this were an awards show, who would you thank?

What's left on your to-do list for 2024?

What would you like to write next year?

[cowboyfromh3ll]

Hcs for the boys' toxic traits. Preferably arthur, javier, john, and charles, but other boys are welcome too! I'm curious to see what you'd say Dutch's toxic traist are, though they're pretty self explanatory 😭

I just love how you write sm sorreyyyy

Van Der Linde Gang's Toxic traits

(Arthur Morgan, Javier Escuella, John Marston, Charles Smith, Micah Bell, Dutch Van Der Linde, Sean Macguire, Kieran Duffy, Eagle Flies)

HAHAHA THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN TO WRITE. I tried not to sugarcoat anything.

Arthur Morgan - He definitely has some trouble communicating. Not to say he never will communicate with you but it'll be long in between and after it's been plaguing him for a milenium. As we've seen, this man is capable of having deep, well thought out conversations. He'd also be pretty prideful to some degree. Mostly depends what point in time you start dating, later in game he'd be able to see past his pride. Also, I feel like if you were dating a major point of contention in your relationship would be questioning whether it's time to move on from this life.

Javier Escuella - WAY too jealous. I don't even mean it in a cute way but in a way that would genuinely cause several arguments between you two. "Why were you looking at him that way?" "That sounded like you were flirting with him" "Why do you spend so much time around the other guys?" Would also be around you 24/7. Someone would be incapable of having a conversation with you that doesn't include Javier. You two would also argue about Dutch's leadership skills.

John Marston - Oh my God this man is so indecisive. Doesn't know what he wants ever. In a modern setting you two would be sitting in the car, asking each other back and forth "what do you wanna eat?". And his commitment issues? Good lord. At some points in your relationship it'd probably feel like you guys aren't dating at all. You'd probably have to beg him to put some effort into the relationship to be honest.

Charles Smith - It's so hard to think of ANYTHING this man can do wrong but alas, I must. You probably wouldn't be his top priority at all times. Which isn't to say you should ALWAYS be at the top of his list, but sometimes it can result in your feelings being neglected over a situation that affects you. Only when the day reaches it's end will he consult you over something, which will have you feeling incredibly frustrated.

Micah Bell - This man is a walking red flag so let's not dance around his flaws. Incredibly prideful, will ignore your warnings over something just to get his way. Also probably lies to you A LOT. Can be way too rough with you in many aspects. Also this man embodies the word sleezy. Yuck.

Dutch Van Der Linde - Do I even need to say. So fucking stubborn. He also probably thinks he's intelectually superior to you. If you bring up a concern to him he'll probably use as many flowery and big words as possible to make himself appear smarter during the discussion than he actually is. And if you advise him to do anything he'll probably just ignore you, saying you don't know what you're talking about. All in all, thinks he's better than you. Also you're probably a trophy wife since Dutch views women as accessories to his success, if you can even call it success.

Sean Macguire - He doesn't take anything seriously. If you're trying to have a genuine discussion with him he'll play it down and make it seem less important or severe than it actually is. Don't even bother trying to emphasize how serious you are because he won't take that seriously either. It's only until he feels the consequences of his actions will he listen to you, which results in a frustrating cycle.

Kieran Duffy - Also very indecisive but in the way where he can't speak up for himself because he doesn't think it's important. Has such low self esteem, he also probably thinks his emotions are less important which results in a lot of miscommunication on his behalf. Sorta just let's you take the lead all the way, always let's you have your way, with no valuable input of his own. You have to shake his shoulders and beg for him to actually speak his mind.

Eagle Flies - He's probably so childish. Like, mommy issues CEO over here. Will probably seek for you to fulfill that role in his life. Has almost no control over his emotions and has trouble identifying them, and when he does indentify them, has absolutely no idea what to do with them in terms of expression. He will make various efforts to communicate with you but will struggle immensely. Being with him will probably be like teaching a man how to experience emotions in a healthy way. I could write an entire post dedicated to what I think his toxic traits are

More eagle flies ones

[ashintheairlikesnow]

Feeling very emotional about how you depict the trauma of having abuse in a household which isn't directed at you. Ryan and Izzy mean a lot to me. It really isn't something which is talked about enough, especially when it causes PTSD and huge guilt. (I know Izzy is also abused but I mean in the context of witnessing one parent abusing another). I'm just blown away by how nuanced and compassionate your depiction of trauma is.

Ryan and Danny very much hit the Golden Child/Scapegoat dynamic of emotional abuse, and while Ryan has it "easy", he also struggles with the reality of what that has meant for Danny, and with guilt and regret over the times when they were young that he allowed Danny to take the blame for him, or didn't speak up or try to defend him.

As an adult, he does his best to make up for it, knowing that he can't. But he and Danny are inseparable and always were, regardless of whatever else happens to them.

But, yeah, I think there's a particular kind of awful sharp guilt that the Golden Child can live with when they realize what it meant for the Scapegoat child.

As for Izzy, @comfy-whumpee and I have at length about how their Jax and Izzy become essentially unhealthily codependent, because Izzy is already forced to essentially be a second parent to her infant brother even when she is only four years old - she knows how to change his diapers and can get out one of his readymade bottles or snacks when he's hungry. She echoes her father's actions in turning down food if it means her little brother might not have enough, because the example she has of a parent who loves her is a parent who is forced to accept abuse to keep himself and his children alive and together.

One thing about Izzy is that she and Jamie undergo very different early childhoods. Izzy is four years old when Jax escapes and retains some fairly clear memories and fears. She has a lot of nervous issues, is diagnosed with severe anxiety, struggles to speak up in school and with severe delays in her social development and some significant academic delays, because she is so scared all the time that her brain struggles to soak up and create the kind of social connections other kids her age are making. Jax (and the other servants) did what they could but Izzy suffered from a chaotic mix of Jax's love and Savvie's neglect or outright violent hostility, and her development is very affected by it.

Also, Jax was so overwhelmed and traumatized himself that he would often need to step away from parenting, and while Izzy and Jamie would be watched by Hannah, Izzy was keenly aware nonetheless that sometimes her father seemed like he couldn’t bear to be near her.

Jamie was a year old, and so he has no memories of Savvie directly. But he also has nightmares more often than is altogether normal for a small child as he grows up, and he reflects and responds to Izzy and Jax's trauma adaptations with his own - he's a little bit of a class clown (his ADHD feeds into that), he's light-hearted and always smiling. He focuses on drawing the two of them out of their fears as best he can without even realizing consciously that he's doing it. He also grows up knowing his father and sister both have complicated plans for what to do if Savvie somehow returns.

I wanted to show that while Izzy's trauma doesn't just fade, even though the main cause was during her early childhood. She retains a sense of being a 'second parent' to Jamie even after Kieran enters their lives and is their dad as much as Jax is. When there is the slightest hint of risk or danger, Izzy switches back into Jamie's Mom mode.

I don't know. I feel like there is often this sense in fiction of kids being so resilient, but resilience doesn't mean you don't still have to get through it, day by day. It doesn't mean it goes away. And so much of our brain development is affected by our early treatment. But it doesn't have to define us.

[ihaverecurringnightmares]

I guess the one good thing about the AU world with them married is that it shows that she wasn't the one to bring out his humanity. And the other AU scenario showed the only reason he wrote her that fan service letter at the end of the main show was because of Hope going to school there not just to gain her favor for a future relationship. Double whammy.

Though I wonder if s5 didn't try to SUBTLY throw that relationship under the bus. They copied quite a bit of kl@mille scenes (like they say we did them) but didn't measure up.

Example: hope and l@ndon dancing (the human asks for the dance but isn't good at it. Dialogue is super similar) and then KC almost kiss.. that's like a direct repeat of 2x4 dance. Though they might of had the better almost kiss..like why Klaus? 🙄 Why you gotta go so hard like that? But he gets denied and she walks off and he doesn't even look back

I would have found you vs I would have noticed you. Are we even going to talk about how 'creep' was playing on the radio during that scene 🤣 and the last line of the song that plays says 'i don't belong here' 😂☠️

Rebecca calling her to get him to do something, you mean like she did cami after he was un-daggered.

Even her walking away without looking back dialogue is similar to Kieran's and Cami's. Yes it might also connect with how she remembers her husband but if someone didn't watch TVD they wouldn't know that. I'm just grateful she had to pull him in for that last kiss and he didn't actually make the move. Small thing but I'll take what I can get.

Oh and her dialogue of liking the bad boys (a big cami thing). Since when? She usually liked the guys that were good in her show. That just didn't make sense unless it was a copy/callback

There's more but I'm done lol. Well...one more thing, he could have let Elijah take the magic and stayed alive for her and Hope but he didn't. The writers even wrote her as not wanting him to die and even telling Elijah about it, I guess to stop him. Yet, he still was like nope, I'm out! Peace! He obviously wasn't moved enough to change his mind for her. True love at it's finest 😉

I hate s5 but boy am I glad the series ended with Klaus' death. I mean did the actors even like s5? I'm pretty sure DG didn't. Then, when I watched most of Klaus' scenes it was like I was watching JoMo and not Klaus. He just did not seem to be in to it.

But anywho, so you don't think he would ever want to marry Cami then?

The AU is actually really insulting to kc, and I think it flies over a lot of their fans' heads. It's stating that the only way they'd be together was in the worst possible scenario and timeline where the people they love are gone and they've resorted to turning off their emotions. It completely goes against the narrative of her being a "good influence" on him or "changing" him.

I agree with a lot of what you said about season 5. I think people assumed it would be this great pro kc season, but it did even more damage to it. Caroline was just this prop who had no interactions with other characters or any purpose other than to soothe Klaus' ego and make him feel good about himself. She was what kcers pretended Cami was. And then all the shady stuff like creep on the radio, the corny af dialogue about hovering essences, the retcons and ignorance of their past, them CLEANING GLASS together, Elijah snapping her neck and Klaus not caring, the kiss where their lips were on different parts of the other's face, Caroline smiling as she walked away, no declarations of love or even close to it. They wrote Caroline as a half-assed version of Cami, and it just didn't work at all because they're nothing alike. I remember seeing some kcers saying they wished the season never happened and it was all bad, which, of course, means they were pretending it was good to begin with.

And I wouldn't put much thought into that kiss. Nobody on the show did. It was a pity kiss that was drier than the sahara desert.

Did the actors like the season? From what I heard there was a lot of complaints on set, and then Daniel Gillies voiced his complaints about it being a backdoor pilot for another show instead of a proper sendoff (as well as his own death being dumb). You're spot on with Jomo. He was completely lifeless and non emotive in his scenes. When Hayley burst into flames and died he let out the smallest "No". Come on, dude, you can do better than that! It's why it shocked me for the klamille scene, when Cami walked in and his entire face lit up and his eyes widened, and he did the signature "Camille?" with a tremble. Nobody is ever gonna convince me he didn't enjoy that relationship, because he had to act opposite of both girls in that season and there was a drastic difference. Cami's presence pulled him out of autopilot.

Would Klaus marry Cami? Klaus already declared Cami his soulmate, gave her a ring, had her move in, promised to give her a life other's only dream of. That's as close to marriage as it gets. I think Klaus would propose if it was something that meant a lot to Cami. He did love her so passionately and was always making big romantic speeches, so him getting down on one knee would not shock me. That boy was IN LOVE.

[ofwrxth]

Emine clears her throat, nodding, "yeah, exactly," she ignores the way his laugh prompts a small smile from her and waves a hand. "And what's new on Netflix or what book I haven't gotten past page fifty on...lots of stuff..." She's rambling now, so it's a relief when he shares about his mom. "I'm glad to hear it. It's probably good to have you and Tavi around anyway." Emine nods at the mention of Archie, and stifles a laugh. "Oh, right. I did get an odd photo from him. Tavi says it was his...chin?" She scrunches her face in amusement, "seems like you better keep a closer eye," she waggles a brow before chewing the inside of her cheek, as though hearing his unspoken words. "Well, I've always thought that was very...you?" She clears her throat, "you go where the wind takes you. Not a lot of people do." Maybe it's too close of an observation for comfort, but it's a way she's reasoned with herself that it makes sense he's been away. And that it's not her fault he's stayed away.

She almost clamps a hand over her mouth, Sinan barking as she shouts her reply and shakes her head adamantly. "Sorry, I just meant...yeah. Good. I mean. You know. People miss you. In general. Like Felix and Kieran and Owen and Noah and," at this point it's like she's rattled off everyone they know. "You get the idea." Of course she'd never say she was included in that group, only because she was the one who'd put distance between them. Too caught up in her grief that she felt like it wouldn't be fair to him to stick around. Waiting for her to be back to old Emine. "Uh," she worries her lower lip as they walk down the steps in tandem and sighs. "No, not yet. We're all...you know, hoping. Waiting. Trying to figure stuff out. It's all very complicated and," she flops her arms. "Feels like it's a hurry up and wait situation." Which is the worst thing for a person like Emine who prefers to move a mile a minute rather than get caught up in her worries.

Emine pointedly ignores her familiar's promiscuous behavior, and her subsequent flushed cheeks before snorting at his story. "Oh, oh no. Maybe he was just," she searches for something to give him the benefit of the doubt before shaking her head. "No, you're right. That is a dumb question." She watches Sinan transform into an outline to mirror Athena as they push the door to the Institute open. "Honestly, Twitch is better. Their logo is even a moon," Emine chuckles, the fresh evening air seeming to undo the knot of nerves bundled in her stomach. A bit anyway. And the summer sun, still aloft, makes it feel less like an intimate evening walk home and more like a casual stroll. "But, uh, actually, I was going to find food and then head home..." she glances at him, "you hungry?" It's an olive branch, the only one she knows how to offer right now and despite preparing for any response, she knows deep down that hopes he'll accept.

Tarquin can't fight his laugh, a sound that's entirely endeared as he bops his head with a quick nod. "Oh, yeah. Sounds normal." he teases with a smile. "I was thinking about normal stuff, too. Like going home and what to have for supper." he can't help himself as another chuckle bubbles up. Tarquin's eyes flick over Emine's features, just a momentary scan before his own expression animals into a pleasant response about his mother. "Oh she's...Pip. Doesn't really bother her, I don't think." because he doubts reality can find Filippa Arison very often, or the other way around. "It's my grandad I'm worried about. Pretty sure that old man is going to say something offensive just for the reaction any time soon. Thought it had been a while too, since I...stayed put." he doesn't mind admitting as much to Emine, even though he doesn't tell her the other reason why he wants to stay. Her.

The quick shout from her has Tarquin laughing withiin the same instant and his hands throw up as if Emine's voice is a sonicboom. "Bloody hell, thank God you brush your teeth." he teases, completely swept in a good-natured amusement as he laughs. "Got it. I won't piss off." Tarquin then adds as the laughter subsides and her gives Emine a gentle nod, despite the grin remaining over his lips. He doubts she means it in any other way other than literal. But, it's still nice to hear. "Any update?" Tarquin breezes around his own thoughts. "You know...for your aunt and uncle? I was meaning to ask Isra but, not really seen her around." he adds, as always making everything appear as a casual conversation.

The Arison witch watches as Sinan and Athena mingle at the bottom of the stairs, a childish chuckle escaping as he sees their tails twirl around one another before Athena slowly becomes a ghostly outline and runs ahead. "No such thing as dumb questions. Well, there was a boy in my year who asked when his birthday would be on Friday the 13th. Bloody birthday was on the 28th. His older brother became prime minister a few years later so, that's all I'm going to say on that." he quips with another grin, reaching the doors and taking a quick glance as Emine mentions walking. "Yeah, I'll walk with you." it takes him not even seconds to decide. "Where are you headed? Home or, Howl? I can drop my business card there. Ask them to change the name to Twitch or something."

[am-i-forgotten]

Enneagram Types of TDA Characters

I'm not going to explain how each enneagram type + wing works, so if you don't know anything about the enneagram theory, this post won't make sense to you. I have a TL/DR at the end in case someone needs it. And I probably made tons of grammar mistakes.

Thank you to @thechangeling for allowing me to make this post! Make sure to check their typing too.

(These are solely my opinions and I'm open to discussions, I'd be happy to discuss, I want to discuss.)

Ty: I love how we all agree that Ty is a 5w4! His enneagram was the most obvious one thank god

+He's ambitious and really focused on his goals, so i think there's 3 in his tritype.

Emma: I've always thought that she is a 8w7 but 3 totally fits her too omg!!! Her tritype is definitely 837 or 387 (I'm not sure about the order but those three numbers are definitely in her tritype, which is funny because Jace also has the same numbers lmao)

Kit: Well... I know the song may fit (Eight by Sleeping At Last right?) but I really don't think 8 fits him.

If he was an Eight, his entire storyline in QOAAD would be... impossible? Eights are dominating, tough and they are not afraid of conflicts. They don't like to be controlled, they need to be in control and usually like being in charge. (I'm really simplifying here but you got the idea.)

So if he was an 8, I'm not sure if he would go along with Ty's plan. I think he would immidiately tell him he thinks it's too dangerous and try to stop him when Ty first tells him about the plan.

(I hope I didn't come off as rude! I'm just trying to clear out confusions.)

With that being said, I'm not sure about his enneagram at all, but for now I think he's a 6.

Sixes are the security-seekers. They are royal and want to be trusted & trust others, yet they are really skeptic of other people's intentions. They can be people-pleasers and have a fear of abandonment.

"Sixes are full of contradictions. They can be dependent on others, yet value their independence. They want to be trusted and to trust others, yet constantly test others to allay their own suspicions. They want the protection of authority, yet fear it. They are obedient yet, disobedient; fearful of aggression, yet sometimes highly aggressive themselves. They search for security, yet feel insecure. They are likable and endearing, yet can be mean and hateful. They are reassured by traditional values, yet may subvert those values. They want to escape punishment, yet may bring it on themselves."

I also relate to him a lot and I think that's because of his tritype. For now it seems like 694 to me (mine is the same but in reverse) even though I'm not sure about him being a 6 his tritype definitely has 9 and 4 in it.

(I may be biased here because I really like 6s, especially 6w7s. Anyways 7 is also possible for him)

Kieran: 4. Just 4.

Julian: HE'S THE HARDEST ONE TO TYPE OH MY GOD. He's the one that I'm the most unsure of, along with Kit.

I think he's a 9. (DEFINITELY WITH A 8 WING)

Nines are the peace-seekers and they usually avoid conflicts. I know this doesn't sound like Julian but 8 wing is the game changer here.

In order to make peace (Protecting his family in Julian's case) 9w8s can be assertive and fearless.

"Awakened Nines with an 8 wing have a modest, steady, receptive core. They are charged by the dynamism of 8 - when focused on goals they often have great force of will. Get things done, make good leaders. May have an animal magnetism of which they are only partly aware. Can seem highly centered, take what they do seriously but remain unimpressed with themselves. 8 wing can bring a strong internal sense of direction. Relatively fearless and highly intuitive. [...] Could be passively amiable like a Nine and then turn horribly blunt like an 8. One moment they are opinionated or nasty, next moment kindly and supportive. Often don't hear their voices when angry. Can have a sharp, grating edge. May be slow to anger and then explode. Or angry but don't know it; may confuse being assertive with being rude. Placidly callous - both styles support numbness. Tactless and indiscriminate and indiscreet. May be unwittingly disloyal, spilling everyone's secrets. Sexual confusion, sometimes they are driven by lust."

@thechangeling typed him as a 6 and it actually makes sense because 9 disintegrates to average/unhealthy 6 during stress. (and boy he was STRESSED)

Livvy: Not sure but I guess 7 fits her. She's fun loving and energetic (again, i'm simplifying) Doesn't seem like a w8 so 7w6 seems like the most possible type for her for now.

Dru: I'm not sure about this one either but 4w3 fits her imo.

"Fours with a 3 wing can sometimes seem like Sevens. May be outgoing, have a sense of humor and style. Prize being both creative and effective in the world. Both intuitive and ambitious; may have good imaginations, often talented. Some are colorful, fancy dressers, make a distinct impression. Self-knowledge combines well with social and organizational skills. When more entranced, often have a public/private split. Could conceal feelings in public then go home to loneliness. Or they could enjoy their work and be dissatisfied in love. Tendency towards melodrama and flamboyance; true feelings can often be hidden. Competitive, sneaky, aware of how they look. Some have bad taste. May be fickle in love, drawn to romantic images that they have projected onto others. Could have a dull spouse, then fantasize about glamorous strangers. Achievements can be tainted by jealousy, revenge, or a desire to prove the crowd wrong."

Yeah I guess it sounds like Dru.

Mark: I think his personality changes during the series, which makes sense because he was just out from Faerie in LM.

That's why I'm torn between 6w7 and 7w6. In LM he definitely seems like a 7 but in the end of the series, he seems more 6-ish..? Plus 6w7s with strong 7 wings can get easily confused with type 7, so I'm leaning towards 6w7.

Cristina: 2w1 or 9w1. I can honestly see her as both but I'm leaning towards 2w1 because she doesn't have this vision of "ideal world" like most of the 9w1s do. But extroverted and energetic 9w1s can usually get mistaken for 2w1, so I'm not sure. She's definitely one of those two types though.

Diana: Maybe 9w8 (I don't think a 9w1 would cut someones arm off) but I can see her as a 3 too?? I'm not sure.

Diego: He seems like a 1w2 to me. (I've considered 8 too but 1 is a better fit imo)

"1w2s tend to be more empathetic, compassionate, warm and overtly helpful than 1w9s. Like 1w9s, they are genuinely interested in improving the world and especially helping people. They are more willing to get passionately, hands-on involved to bring about the changes and reforms that are important to them. They are sensitive to others needs and willingly sacrifice their time and energy to be of assistance to people.[...] Some 1w2s like to get involved in politics since they have strong opinions about how to improve conditions for people, are good at debating and have a strong desire to make a big difference with their life in service of others."

Helen: 2w3. She's friendly, adaptable, charming, and good natured like a 2w3 is. I didn't type her as a w1 because she seems more outgoing and competitive.

Aline: I HAVE NO IDEA I'M SORRY

Tavvy: smol

Sorry for grammar errors!

For your information, I simplified a lot of things because a) my English is not enough, b) I'm bad at explaining my thoughts and c) this took hours to make I'M TIRED

tl/dr:

Ty: 5w4 (Tritype: 53?/5?3)

Emma: 8w7 or 3w4 (Tritype: 837/387)

Kit:6w? (Tritype: 694) (not sure)

Kieran: 4w3 (Tritype: 49?/4?9)

Julian: 9w8 (not sure)

Livvy: 7w6

Dru: 4w3

Mark: 6w7 or 7w6

Cristina: 2w1 or 9w1

Diana: 9w8 or 3w? (not sure)

Diego: 1w2

Helen: 2w3

Tavvy: too young to type