#i have a life off the internet so i don't know what hate yall are spewing

[hellameyers]

Have you heard the news?

Apparently I'm a bitch, a pervert, and a sicko, according to someone I don't know who's anonymous on the internet.

I suppose I haven't sufficiently internet stalked a celebrity enough to know every little thing that other people who never met them are saying about their life, and then canceling them without a lick of evidence.

How could I?! I'm a horrible person.

/sarcasm/

[glitter-alienz]

I'm gonna talk about this once and only once. because I really don't have the energy for arguments.

yall know when someone makes a human pinkie pie design and she's white and skinny (which is fine, do what you want) and hundreds of people in the comments are like "finally, a normal pinkie pie" or something along those line. <- (I've mainly seen this on tiktok and insta)

i keep thinking those comments have to be satire cuz there is no way people actually think that. but they do. and its so fucking funny. pinkie pie is a fictional pony. why do people get so heated up when a rando fan on the internet draws her black?? their asshole is so itchy they got worms in there they cant just sit. they HAVE to go show their racism. if you don't like when someone draws a non-human character as a black person please sit down and think why does it make you so mad? why does black pinkie fill you with so much rage? why is her being a black person a problem? why is some random stranger on the internet drawing her as black making you so upset, even tho that's just fanart and it doesn't affect canon, because she's not a human in canon. why do you feel like you have to let them know how much you hate pinkie being black? nobody wanted your opinion.

and people just loooove to hate on fat people which sucks. shocking that people have different body types. your cartoon pony being drawn chubby shouldn't make you this upset. get help please <3

anyways, this goes for like,, all the ponies and other media where the main cast isn't human (and ofc this includes tmnt, the amount of people who have a problem with the human turtles being drawn as black or blasian is so insane) why does harmless FANart / HEADcanons have so much power over people?? live your life man stop harrassing people over their fanart. its never that serious. fan works are just that, FAN works. its no big deal

I'm just ranting about this to get it off my brain, this was lowkey why I never posted my mlp humanizations anywhere (except pinkie on insta once, ended up deleting it) but im thinking that i should like.. do what i want. this is my house after all

tldr; I keep seeing people relieved to see a human design of pinkie pie that isn't black. and the fact that people care that much and get so upset over a fictional pony being drawn as black person BY A FAN is so funny and annoying at the same time.

[bakiuwu]

Imagine saying someone posting screenshots to prove themselves innocent cause someone made a fucking alt to spread a fucjing child grooming rumor stupid ass internet beef, are yall slow do yall know how serious that shit, do you know how fucked up it is to be minding your business and for someone to hate you to make up a fucked rumor??? This literally fucking harassment I'm defending myself and showing how actually fucked people in this fuckinf fandom is, also to make a post about something then to throw fucking shade are fucking unserious

Then, on top of all this bullshit to have someone admit that they did it...and a person who I haven't a gave a fuck and even forgot abiut FUCKING YANDERE MOMO ARE YOU SHITING ME, YOU LITERALLY HAVE ME BLOCKED AND YOUR STARTIGN SHIT??? being on apart of this stupid ass scheme l.....WHY cause you don't like me over some baki shit??? YOUR 23 HAVING A DAMN 15 YEAR OLD DOING YOUR SHIT, ARE YOU SURE YOUR NOT THE DAMN GROOMER WERID PICE OF SHIT Why are you close with a damn 15 year older who happens to be a fucking proshipper who has drawn cp before you fucking bitch, it's already bad you write rape fanfics BUT THIS no wonder you were able to make uo such a rumor, you self-progecting cunt

ALSO FOR YOU SAINT FUCK ASS PUPPY TO PLAY THIS OFF LIKE ITS A JOKE??? HATE YOU??? I DONT EVEN KNOW YOU I AXTUALLY FEEL SORRY FOR YOU, YOUR A KID CLEARY SURROUND BY WERID ASS ADULTS, I DONT KNOW ANY OF YOU PEOPLE??? AND YOUR DAMN LIE YOU HAVE HARRSED ME AND MY FRIEND BEFORE YALL CAN NOT BE SERIOUS

Then too pussy to even say anything to me cause WHAT YOUR SCARED OF ME OR SOMETHING??? WTF YOUR A SPINELESS PIECE OF ACTUALLY SHIT, then to act like your changing a new leaf cause you decide to tell WHEN YOU BEEN DOING THIS FOR SOME TIME APPARENTLY, ARE YOU THAT BOTHER BY ME.....what happen to people having a fucking life, your so mad at someone that get a proshipper 15 year old to help your GROWN ASS to make up a fucking child grooming rumor.....that is the most Pathetic loser shit I have ever witnessed, then for this to be played off like this not serious......this fandom is really fucked up,

I don't even do anything all I do is post dumbass shit.....this actually funny....I have no words....so agian if you actually think any of this is silly internet beef.....there's something wrong with you, I feel like people think shit on the internet isn't serious like you can say and do whatever they pls and think nobody should call them out for theyre dangerous behavior this is very serious shit like this can ruin someone's fucking life....this is the last thing I have to say....this so disgusting

[sempsimps]

Gregory Violet head cannons + NSFW

Season 4 of black butler has me thinking about a certain emo (Gregory not ceil but check out my friend @serve-corps if your into that) but like omfg he's so fine what for and like man wears lipstick I just he's so adorable I've never wanted to own the manga more in my life he's so- I should stop but like aaaaaa so this is head cannons mixed with actual cannon that was on the fandom wiki so that's fun I was thinking of writing a full story later but for now....

this is head cannons, and at the bottom, I'll have a warning for my nsfw thoughts. lol, just remember you're responsible for your Internet consumption, but before i get into this, it's all my opinions. Don't take it as gospel or anything like that, im having fun, alright? okay then.

Little head cannons

-he likes poetry. He gives that vibe like come on...(literally an hour later) Okay, so like, just seen a manga page of him drawing a jabberwocky around ceil like a sleep paralysis demon. a little back story on this particular poem is "a nonsensical poem about the killing of the jabberwocky" in 1871, apparently. this is very relatable to ceil and Gregory alike and like Google it for real (so like I was completely right about that and I didn't even know)

he smells like a mix of charcoal and acrylic paint like dusty but kinda nice, ya know (i go back to this further down)

-why dose he seem like he has autism, i cant explain it but, i have it to, so I'm not trying to be rude, but the bowtie he wears is like a normal tie but looser and nicer. and i hate ties, so i feel that in my soul. he also seems like he wouldn't like synthetic material idfk. also social situations suck, his voice is mostly monotone and quite, its not the typical "not understanding cues or not getting jokes" but its more like a social anxiety thing, and that's usually diagnosed with autism i think? (I'm not a doctor i don't really know. Maybe I'm projecting here a little)

-he's like defo bi or pan or perhaps an ace group. I'm not that educated on that lgbtq+ aspect apologies but that's the vibe (again, that's my opinion)

Dating head cannons male or female [brackets if pointed to someone with tits lol]

-bones. Need I say more? I like bones and rocks soooo be like, otters give him a bone (not like that-) or rocks he strikes me as a rock guy like smooth ones. idk how, but just get one he deserves it.

-painting dates if you struggle, he can easily guide you through it, his hand gently moving to help you use the right brush stroke. he's clearly more skilled in pencil/charcoal works, though we haven't seen much else [that takes skill and I take art like damn that's difficult]

-So apparently the sun and dancing makes him dizzy (it was on the fandom wiki) so definitely have water on hand and well he doesn't seem like the type to like anything plain becuse of the drink mixing so water is a no go to boring and i get that so grab one of those ball tea infusers and make flavoured water he can put the flavours in it like idk lemon slices and let it sit in the water maybe add suger (wait thats just flat lemonade lol whatever I'm a genius ik don't flatter me)

-stolen hoodie? Nah, stollen emo robe looking ass. it seems everyone in purple house has one, and well, yall could swap, or ya know, just wear his. if he has another obvious man is never seen without it, it could be a comfort for him. but like, he seems like he would have a bigger one, and it would smell so nice like charcoal and acrylic paint (that i mentioned earlier). Don't question it, but you can smell that, right? but there's a hint of passion fruit becuse he's trying for you (aw how cute) you can not tell me he doesn't like perfume and like its either passion fruit or cola adjacent like i know it probably wasn't around at the time but like you can see it (maybe i based this on a meme i found but shush)

-you paint each others nails need i say more? and even if you dont like/want to, he would just like to take time off with you to do his own or you do his. oh my god, I just remembered he wears eyeliner the same thing, but he likes you doing it. For some reason, you're better at it, and he doesn't want panda eyes.

-sneaking out at late to hide behind the boarding house, to just chill or chat, looking at the stars. It's a nice area, but yall gotta dodge the house master most of the time. Still, a little thrill never hurt nobody, just maybe given a Y or two if you're caught.

-hiding in your shoulder when the sun or people get too much to deal with. (I feel that so much)

-Gregory is a mix when it comes to pda. Overall, he doesn't like it could be a little overwhelming for him, but when yall with the other prefects, he might hold your hand, he's trying, and we love him for it.

-Gregory seems to observe his friends a lot, and so i think he truly values any relationships he has with anyone. on a whole, he usually draws people that are around him, like ceil, and i think i seen one of Lawrence. (idk i don't have the manga) so i think he would have a lot of sketches of you, be it in his work as doodles, or fully fledge charcoal drawings, maybe even a painting. but he values and enjoys being with you a lot.

-little snacks like fruit and chocolate almost like a picnic in the swan gazebo, but ya know not sharing with everyone unless Gregory wants to, also the fact your with the others in the swan gazebo is becuse, 1 your allowed to be there they've invited others before, 2 you get along with the prefects and drudges and they really don't care, 3 your either his drudge or the first two already applied before hand so you both seen no point in doing that.

okay, so i can't think of anything else wholesome to put down, and i just can't stop thinking, so now this is the warning I REPEAT NSFW BEOYNED THIS POINT!! ALSO HE IS 18-19 ACORDING TO GOOGLE

NSFW head cannons

- some general things, he's a switch or power bottom idk but i can see it so much he prefers you on top, though

-favourite body part would be chest. tits or not [but defo would love them so much like a stress toy] or the space between shoulder and neck, to hide in and bite....(he is a wolf lmao)

-right, so first off lipstick. oh my god... imagining it smeared in places and having prominent marks on your body made by him, like hickeys but removable. and like after he gives head, it would get so messed up on his face or you and just kissing him with it like that, getting some on your lips... (jesus, i need to touch grass)

-he likes art obviously, and well going back to the lipstick and hickeys, he wants to see what colour they turn, your like a brand new canvas just begging to be painted on by him, and honestly vice versa he's too pretty not to mark up..... (no comment)

-this is an all boys school they most likely don't have sex ed here and so you would have to teach him what to do but once he knows it kinda clicks right ya know [another reason i think he would just love titties becuse he wants to learn and i mean like he would get kinda fascinated with them] also he would be really sensitive in general and that's a great advantage to top (but hey you didnt hear that from me 0^0)

okay then that was that and ive run out of ideas now and i need to get this out of me ive got like 2 more things to write about this emo becuse i love and relate to him so much anyway hope that was good i try to be accurate even though this is head cannons and not real at all im still trying to be in character sorry if my writing sucks :)

[mihai-florescu]

Have you seen that one twitter post?

"I wish I lacked critical thinking skills yall seem so happy"

Feels very you-core, especially in regards to enstar fans that don't read/bother to understand the stories

I hate the trend of people referring to others as "NPCs" as im sure everyone has a beautiful inner life and worth. However. I am also half convinced people who comment shit like "the curtains are just blue" "it's not that deep" "what's bro yapping about" and so on and so forth are actually not real and just a psyop to lower the rest of the population's intelligence on social media. (This is said lightheartedly and halfjokingly but also...well...)

If whats seen as cool is refusal to engage with media earnestly that you supposedly do like, or refusal to try to find meaning through analysis, instead chasing ratios and whatnot, then how are we going to expect these people to question anything else in life. You then get on one hand the people who just blindly follow ideas without doing their own research to decide whether they actually believe in something or not as long as they look good to other people who do the same. And on the other hand the people who look at ads with clear symbolism meant to convey something (all ads...are made to convey something...otherwise they wouldnt be made...) and say "youre reading too much into it" (this is an actual response i saw to the outrage sparked by the new zara campaign that came out a few weeks ago, you know the one)

Idk. Im aware i sound like an insane pretentious and annoying old man yelling at clouds which is why i kept this ask in my inbox for a week as i am a bit. Scared. To say my thoughts openly anymore.:)) It isnt that i was ignoring you anon, i'd love it if you came off anon to talk if you ever wanted. This isnt just about ES to me btw, but i do believe fandom culture and media engagement is indicative of greater trends and issues. But at the same time... i think people have always been shallow, it's just that now due to the internet we're simply more aware of others' actions and beliefs, we're connected for better or for worse. For both. I wonder if the 1950s had their equivalent of a ratio...

[your-thorn]

It seems I made him question if he wants to be with me. I didn't mask well enough, my paranoia tipping him off. I did promise in a previous post that I would do that, but I didn't show him this blog, I only told him about my wizardblr. (Haha guess which one I am, but I won't tell...)

He thinks all my overthinking is a quirk, which I guess is much nicer than it being a symptom of something greater. But that shows me that he doesn't seek beneath my layers, he can't see the hurt and the pick marks on my skin.

He claimed his red flags to be like mine, but then when I freak out he's confused as to why. He told me "the crazier the better". I don't think he means that.

I think I should split from him. I have this huge urge to push him away, especially with all the chaos surrounding my home life right now. I think this would be a good move to give us a way to work toward our own separate futures, or to save him the trouble.

What he wants is clearly not what I want... I don't hate him, I thought I loved him, but dread soon started to replace excitement when I heard my phone buzz. 4 days though... what a record haha and totally not pathetic.

Better to know what you want than to stick to something that isn't good for you.

We're also both high maintenance/low energy people, which you'd think would get along, and we do but he is too normal about his requirement, also he's suspicious of me. I wrote a long farewell, I hope he doesn't take it too hard because he told me he liked me.

And my mother won't stop trying to influence my personal relationships. Wow I'm SO loved aren't I? Even some of my internet life and pretty much my whole regular life.

☆I will soon resume my series after the splitting since I won't be putting my energy into a 3rd party source and my self worth can influenced by you guys again, YAY you guys are like my babysitters now.☆

Love [platonic] all of yall. I'll be happy to return soon.

[golbrocklovely]

Funny how a normal relationship upsets so many people😂

We don't know what it's like behind the camera, the two are probably very, very happy with where they are and don't need to spread it all over the internet because they both have a private life too. Thanks.

went on a bit of rant so... apologies in advance lol

i'll be honest with you, i think being concerned over any new relationship is fine. understandable, even. but there does come a point when if you keep thinking one thing, but all signs point to the opposite, you're just in the wrong. plain and simple.

now, is it possible that he's not happy every day he's with her? sure. but like.... we wouldn't know that. and it's not our place to judge and say they shouldn't be together strictly bc not every day might be a happy one for him or her. every relationship has it's ups and downs.

i find all of this incredibly odd. i want to give certain ppl the benefit of the doubt - maybe they really are just concerned. but there are way too many ppl that are full blown judging every little thing colby and malia do and trying to figure out if they're gonna last or not. yall are basically praying for their downfall, and if it does happen, you just want to be the first person to say "i told you so".

yall are losers with a capital L lol it's pathetic, really

this man spent years being closed off and unable to connect to any girl he tried to be with. now he feels safe to be himself with someone, and ppl want to shut it down... for what? bc you don't like the girl for superficial reasons? bc you get a "bad vibe" from her? grow up. this is not your relationship. you shouldn't fucking care about it in the first place.

and trying to use the justification of "well he's putting it out there publicly, i'm allowed to judge" as proof for why you can be a bitch about him all the time is bullshit. you want to be mean for the sake of being mean, but know admitting that would make you look like a cunt, so you come up with a lame excuse of "he's a public figure" as why you're allowed to be this way. reality is, sure - you can be this way. but you shouldn't. you should have some common decency to BE NICE, but apparently you have so much internet brain rot you think this type of behavior is fine.

i genuinely can't think of a worse way to spend my time. but hey, if your life is already miserable, i'm sure trying to bring others down to your level is just another tuesday.

(also none of this was directed at you, anon. just the ppl that hate on colby's relationship lol)

[slowdripsunrise]

jfc okay so i have forgotten/been too lazy to write up reveiws here i apparently havent updated since. lone women which is well. so ive read a shit ton since then so i'm going try my best to write up as much as i can in this post bc i don't want to just. stop and skip over stuff. so well. here we go. spoilers for various books under the cut, i'll tag them all !

first book i finished after i last updated was silver nitrate by silvia moreno-garcia. been a while but damn do i remember the fucking vibes. absolutely killer vibes and atmosphere, and the plot was fun and interesting; i do remember being a bit confused in one of the final scenes fighting the guy but it wasnt enough to take me out of the story. the characters felt real and i could feel their love of movies and maybe each other off the page, definitely recommend if you're looking for an atmospheric, creepy little book.

next (and i'll just group these together) i read the poppy war trilogy by r. f. kuang ! absolutely wonderful storytelling and the characters were interesting and loveable. i think that this story succeeds in being one of the few good "war stories" as in it doesn't glorify or make light of any aspects of the war. there are good moments and bright spots throughout, but in the end pretty much every single character we know and love ends up dead, and before they're dead, they've been shaped so thoroughly by the war around them that there is no way anyone could have come out of this series thinking that it in any way romanticized the events. i loved everything about it and more. but while i did love the series. tbh i don't agree with everyone saying that its the most serious and intellectual and groundbreaking book in the entire world. yes it is groundbreaking and yes it is based on a lot of real life horrific events, but it's also. extremely entertaining. it's written beautifully and has some very poignant scenes that i love, and i am gonna be honest i lost where i was going with this point. i think what i'm trying to say is like before i read it, i saw a lot of people on the internet saying that it is like. the highest peak of literature and such and like. for me, it's mostly just a damn good time. i go into most books looking for entertainment (meaning like. i would like to feel emotions, not necessarily happy ones, just emotions in general) and what i think a lot of people made it seem like, was ONLY an epic tome about the brutality of war, the military, and colonization. and it absolutely is about that ! i am not docking points for it being about those things, in fact if it hadn't had all these hard hitting topics i wouldn't have liked it as much. but it's ALSO about rin, kitay, and nezha, and how they love and hate each other. and sometimes i think people lean too much into one aspect of the book, one way or the other (i have absolutely seen the inverse of this, people forgetting about the colonialism and militarization aspects in an impressive show of hypocrisy. which... is worse imo.) but idk. i have no idea what i am trying to say i just like this book yall.

next oml. okay again grouping them together for my own sake but i read the southern reach trilogy by jeff vandermeer ! this series was such a creepy and weird and offputting good time i ate that shit right up. the first book and the biologists pov are my favorites, and all of the insight we get from her and the first book into area x was just. so compelling i could not put that shit down. i'm pretty sure the second i finished in the hospital lol i was INVESTED. and honestly. i did really like the second book. not as much as the first, but i don't think it was bad or underwhelming compared to the first. once i got past the pov shift, i really liked controls pov partly because he is just some guy. like he is just so average and banal, and seeing this set against the absurdity of the rest of the book was really interesting. i liked how even though we weren't IN area x, the southern reach still had that otherworldly and offputting suspenseful energy, even in a familiar setting (office building type i mean. as opposed to weird as fuck forest). that and also i am deep into my f1 phase so like i kept picturing control as checo perez. like hes just so guy to me like hes just a normal guy that has no fucking clue whats going on and thats really funny and awesome to me. like man. anyway the third wasnt my favorite, but i still really like the series as a whole and will probably read the 4th one coming out whenever it does.

NEXT. sharks in the time of saviors by kawai strong washburn. did i cry. maybe. did i really like the story. yes. it was definitely a change of pace for me after reading the above books but the story was lovely and magical and engaging and very sad and i enjoyed every bit of it.

after that i read scattered all over the earth by yōko tawada, which is a story that i kinda have mixed feelings about? i listened to the audio book and the narrator did such a wonderful job, i loved listening to the two man characters talk about language in the mc's made up language, panska. and if the book was just about that, i probably would have liked it more, exploring language and the loss of it; however one of the side characters constantly get's misgenders when the story is outside of her pov. and it's like. really fucking distracting. so like i guess i don't have very mixed feelings about it lol. i liked one bit, definitely did not like another bit, and the rest of the book wasn't really strong enough to sway me back into the "i like this book and think it's interesting" camp. although if you can get past the blatant transphobia, the audio book really is nice to listen to, especially coming off a post surgery high.

next i read the ghost bride by yangsze choo ! this was another really atmospheric, palpable book. i could feel the setting, the humidity, the smells, all of it and it was so good! an engaging story, i'm pretty sure i read this one in a day or two. the characters were fun, the plot moved quickly in a way that made sense, and exploring the realms of the dead and the living with the characters was so fun, definitely recommend !

im gonna wrap this post up here mostly bc im hungry but i still have a lot more to update on ! if u made it this far thank you and also im sorry. happy reading!

[shadesofbrixton]

been thinking a lot about anti jewish, anti muslim, anti islamic sentiment in the light of everything happening with the I/P conflict, and let me tell you, i'm 38 and nothing on the internet has taught me as much about bystander intervention as moderating a public discord server for a little over two years.

we have (apparently? according to our members?) a pretty unique method of dealing with trolls: when they come in, we bait them. you can identify them pretty fast, right? a lot of folks have obvious red flags in their user names or profile pics, or put quotes from the bible or from fascist leaders in their status. as soon as they're identified, the staff initiates what i can only term a period of gentle cajoling harassment. we start asking the trolls questions about the stuff in their profile. not accusations, always questions.

the intention here is to kick off the troll so that they reveal themselves ASAP, and begin posting reportable content - which 9/10 times we can get done in about 15 minutes. so then the troll starts spamming the N-word and the F-word and dropping horrific memes they've got saved up and talking about how all X should die and all that nonsense, and this is when the community rallies: they bully the bully. not with reportable content, but generally with:

insults about their social life

softcore queer gifspam

confused, innocent questions intended to garner more reportable content

generally, the troll gets so frustrated and annoyed, they leave. if they don't, we ban them after a minute or two of community-wide booing. then we report and delete all the offensive content.

the point here, though, is that we get the entire community involved. EVERYONE gets a taste of learning how to speak up, in a setting where they know that they're supported by the majority. everyone gets a lesson in standing up, even when it's not their demographic. and it's been really easy to get people on board with this for BIPOC racism and for LGBTQ+ phobic behavior, but you could feel the handholding that was necessary for defense of Jewish communities, Muslim communities, SWANA communities.

but it WORKS, yall. the hand-holding WORKS, and the catharsis is INSANE. the staff leads the charge (we have one staff member from each of these communities, btw, that helps a lot) and the community learns how to defend itself and each other. instead of ending these sessions feeling angry and unsafe and rankled, the mood is celebratory and proud.

not every setting in life is safe for you to confront a bully. not every setting lets you fight back. but when you can, and when you can bring people into it with you, and when you can educate, and when you can do it safely: do it. fight back. teach others how to fight back.

and you know, it's wild that how no matter what flavor the trolling content is, they all really hate softcore queer gifs. reeeeeally makes you think. ✨

[damnfandomproblems]

https :// www. tumblr.com/damnfandomproblems/703405919773589504/i-think-that-whats-not-being-considered-is-that?source=share this is fair but yall are missing the point unless it is important to the story THE PLOT UNLESS IT IS SOMETHING THAT IS ABSOLUTELY NESESSARRY race, ethnicity, nationality whatever does not matter its all just a side bit of information that you do not need to know say you in a high-school of somewhere and you go on a fieldtrip (like a filler episode of an anime or something) and you go explicitly to learn about a different culture or people than your own. while to many these people seem the same this would be an excellent time to explain the differences between the two as a sort of educational episode. to show off lesser known cultures and people or its important lore that two or more different groups are opposing each other and its important the reader knows the difference between the two or more. but this is not necessary in EVERY story. sure it could be a fun little trivia information sometimes. a passing comment from a character like "wow you know seem to know so much about this stuff!" "yeah! i lived there most of my childhood i picked up a few things" and its not really that important other than that. i mean seriously how important to you is it that you know the exact details of what people are in real life. how often do you ask your coworkers or peers or whatever exactly where they are from or what they are besides maybe sometimes in small talk? if it is often why? why is that the only thing you care about? if an author wants to include that information that's perfectly fine. its also fine for you to want more representation either or yourself or to learn about others. but here something yall need to learn. content creators are not your personal entertainment making slaves that you get to order around. all these anime and manga yall consume were not made for you. they are people and they make content for themselves. they are making content because THEY enjoy it. its not their RESPONSIBILITY to provide representation for you. yall seem to think that whatever you want should be served to you on a silver platter. no. what you get is what other people decided to make and share on the internet. either have the money to commission someone or make the content yourself. as a content creator myself we are not your slaves. we work for ourselves, not you. your allowed to enjoy or hate our content, but you don't get to demand or dictate what we should or allowed to make. if someone hasn't made something to your liking then make it yourself. if you want a story about a certain thing then MAKE IT. we arent fucking machines. we are real people just like you so start treating us like it. you like "slice of life" over "action"? then you would create "slice of life". but someone else enjoys "action" over "slice of life"? but you want them to make "slice of life"? too fucking bad. they aren't interested and you dont get a say in what they make. its the same with race. or any other topic. you wouldnt create "action" over "slice of life" because it doesn't interest you so why would you force someone to do something they have no interest in. race is not as important as yall think it is and you need to stop putting it on some pedestal. I don't understand why this even needs to be explained. yall really act like its the end of the world because the content you want isnt being created and served to you within seconds. i cant believe yall act like its actually a fucking problem that some races and cultures aren't being constantly talked about in entertainment media. especially in media where it hold no importance to a story. this is not the big important problem yall think it is and it could be solved very quickly if yall would just start making content yourselves instead of expecting everyone else to do it for you its baffling. sorry again for the long ask

This is the ask the anon is responding to.

[devils-dares]

THIS IS NOT A HATE ANON DEVON I LOVE YOU

Anon get a life challenge. Literally people on the internet with takes like that are irrelevant.

Some of us have lives and things to do outside of working on fanfics WE put out for yall. If you fucking wanting something done asap DO IT YOURSELVES!!! telling someone to kts is literally so fucking childish, just cuz ur not getting what you want immediately.

Writing takes so much time and energy!!! @ anon YOU DONT FUCKING KNOW THIS PERSON

You don't know what the fuck they are doing outside of writing so stay in your fucking lane bro.

Devon, I hope you have a good rest of your day/night depite those absolute lugnut anons you are getting. In the end of the day, they clearly have nothing better to do, and are just garbage people who need to get over themselves. Keep going at your own pace and I hope you feel better.

thank you truly for typing this out. i don't think non-creators realize how much time, effort, and energy it takes to make something. being so blantantly for real under the cut/tw for mental and physical health, hospitals

thank you for supporting me, for being here, for reading my material, reblogging my works and leaving comments. i'll try my damndest to be here for all of you.

this past week has drained me more than anything ever has. i went from going to the college campus nurse to thinking i could die while getting fucking rushed to the hospital in an ambulance. i have been holding it fucking together at home by the seams, the literal seams. coming out of the hospital on wednesday, i was diagnosed with a rare form of complex migraine, added onto an already not widely known form of chronic dizziness, as well as possible endometriosis. i am at my fucking wit's end. i am in chronic pain. i can't fucking focus anymore. i'm crying every chance i get when i'm alone because i am overwhelmed with every single thing possible. i've been playing this game since i was 14 and i'm 19 now, and there's not going to be any improvement, and i have to come to terms with that.

for those who aren't medically dependent on someone, this might not make sense, but i need to get it off of my chest: i feel like a burden because my family is too fucking nice. they've been there every single goddamn step of the way and misstep i have hurts them too. i felt so bad laying alone in that hospital bed that when my parents burst through the doors i sobbed and apologized over and over again because i immediately knew i ruined everyone's days and weeks.

for me to come to my happy place where not really anyone knows that about me, just to be told to k word myself when i'm already fucking on the edge of it anyway is just so fucking draining. i have near nothing left to give. i'm trying my best.

[kpoptarotvibes]

Hello boo 👋🏻 I’ve seen Becky g mentioned on your blog a few times but I was just watching bangtan bomb and miss girl or whatever 🙄totally ignores Park Jimin… like, who are you to ignore any member?! I noticed she always does this and only talks to hoseok. Can you do a reading on what her problem is? Will they get away from her? Peace out 💕💕

This is my very last time answering this. After this, I'm not responding to this anymore. This was my last answer to this and I'm sticking by it.

Copy + Paste

First, because she doesn't have a relationship with the rest of the members. She was asked by Hobi to do the song and he was the only member to keep in contact with her. Not all seven members. She has spent most of her time with Hobi only. So in human nature, you are going to gravitate to someone you know or who you are familiar with. Jimin is not a familiar person who she knows. I mean you get off the internet and live real life and interact with human beings you would know this. And not take it personally or weirdly.

Second, a lot of things are edited. Maybe she did say hello to Jimin but they could have cut that part out. Because this was a bangtan bomb focused on Hobi. We don't really know what actually happened.

Third, I personally think Jimin was making faces in the back because they love to tease Hobi about her. They did it at the AMAs around her. So again I didn't think it was anything weird honestly I didn't even notice him. I was too busy looking at Hobi and Becky interaction. Hell I wasn't even paying attention to Jimin either. LOL!

Yall just want to find a reason to hate any woman they are working with honestly. Cause yall did the same thing to Halsey. No one is obligated to kiss your fav feet. No one is obligated to like and be nice to Jimin Park. No one is obligated to be nice to anyone. When your fav didn't bother even investing in a relationship or friendship with a person either. Let's be more realistic here. Yall are exhausting with this. This right here is why people don't like the Army fandom. And just be silent so they don't have deal with yall immature behavior.

[shnowbilicat]

Old Scars Heal Slowly

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Healing from wounds takes a long time, especially once that you cannot see. Sadly I'm someone who carries many scars and many times they like to open up again.

Alright I'll drop the vagueness, I hate calling what I've went through 'traumatic experiences' but I also can't deny that many things in my life have been really messed up and that they left panaoid thoughts that ... sometimes are right.

You're free to read the whole vent below, but I'll summarize it here if you're still interested but too lazy to read through paragraphs or le tragic backstory~

It's funny that I have another character that was very well liked, but pretty much used as an object for someone else to injet their fanatasies into, and when I mentioned how uncomfortable it was for me, people lashed out. I don't know why strangers on the internet think it's totally cool to take someone else's character and jerk off to them. Maybe they're all kids who don't know any better? But that does not excuse that they're legit hurting the original artist ... me. I was hurt. I got paranoid to the gills, have a fcked up relationship with intamacy and am super defensive when it comes to other people wanitng to do something to/with my characters. Consent is still a very new concept I have the feeling ... and I'm so tired of fighting over other people about what I can or cannot do with MY characters ... *le sigh :'33

Okay, so now for a more indepth vent, yay!!

Kokuri started out as a Sonic creepypasta. I liked the concept of a powerful, stalking, creepy Sonic character, so I made him into an OC! His power made him into a god, his creepiness gave him a cool creepy horror form and his stalking ... yeah I made him into a perv and I loved him to bits X'D

I never had a perverted character and since I was a teen I could kinda explore my sexuality and stuff with him in a fun way- wait why are my followers really into him??

Yeah for some reason Kokuri was REALLY popular, so much so that many of my friends and followers started shipping him with their characters?? Luckily my friends understood that I was uncomfy, but some were not so nice. I remember getting a note where someone told me they 'omni-shipped' Kokuri and while I admit I was an emotional teen that had english as their second language, I still was uncomfy and tried to tell them to please not. Later a friend of theirs argued with me that I cannot control others, especially when I become big ... I hope yall know that it does not matter how big someone gets, people shouldn't just ... deny the original creator their wishes for THEIR OWN CHARACTERS. I know I cano't control them, but they can at least be nice enough to respect my wishes mmmmrgh.

Another example was that I had a back then recent friendship tarnished when the person drew their self insert with Kokuri and I told them nicely that Kokuri had a boyfriend ... and they started to be very upset and rude towards me. Or, ya know, that one time a very clingy, RP-happy 'friend' who was always venting to me about their mental health and family and always wanted Kokuri to be their self insert's boyfriend- wait I feel a deja-vu. But there's more! Bby me tried and tried to talk it out how much they tired me out, even RPing it out with Kokuri telling them off, but nothing worked. So, public journal canceling our friendship- ah shit they made a counter journal pretending to be their sister and how I made them attepting to end game. Yaayyyy~ Yall can imagine how it fucking traumatized little ol me :'333

SO! After I kinda drifted off from Sonic to FNAF it was peacefuly quiet, but I had a hard rule that my characters are not allowed to be shipped without my consent after all that bs.

Fast forward to 2023, I get a chat message on DA and someone was really interested with my FNAF boiz. I was ecstatic and rambled about my squad, since it's really rare to get new people on board on loving my bbys. Soon we pivoted over to Discord and ... they mentioned how they liked Rick n Keith, like REALLY really liked them. So far as to call them 'boyfriend material' and how they wished Rick actually existed and how he would be the perfect boyfriend cuz they wouldn't judge them. And I was like 'plz dun take this too seriously okay?? :'3' cuz I was uncomfy with them drooling over my boiz, but also not wanting to take away their joy. Cuz surprise surprise, they also had a bad life. I didn't wanna take away that potentially could help them cope with it all, but also, ya know, don't be creepy.

Aaaaand they asked me for a romance RP with Rick and their FNAF character. I declined, cuz remance RPs are uncomfy, no shit, but they continued being weird, always wanting my attention and being weirdly talkative about how X character was hot or smth, wanitng me to get into the stuff they like, being dismissive about things I liked, being very non-chalant on visiting them IRL (we barely knew each other for half a year too), not taking a no for an answer, etc etc etc

One of my biggest mistakes was giving into the romance RP some time later. The person managed to talk me into merging two of my AUs, FNOK my NSFW AU and my base FNAF AU. I dleted any murder from FNOK cuz I didn't like the implications of murder and naughties ... but now it was back in it! :D

Also remember their OC? Yeah, they didn't even have a design or name up until now- ah wait they are oddly similar to my RP partner and also they share a name? A fucking self insert?? Yeah, yeah it was a self insert and I'm 1000% sure about it. Also they wanted to have at least 5 sentence replies, without dialogue. Broskies, I was so mentally exhausted by it all ya don't even know.

Worst part? They also pivoted to having the hots for SpringTrap, asing how much animal to animatronic they are, how *ahem* rough SpringTrap would be in bed. You can imagine how little old me was very creeped and weirded out. Nothing against kinkiness, but if ya wanna get violated by a big ass rabbit monster, don't do it here thxx

Or some minor things were that the person was sharing their ideas for some FAR future plots or ideas for the RP. Like when Rick and their OC would live together ... bro, they just met in RP, chill your balls plzzz qWq

All came to a head when I got a very uncomfy nightmare and confronted them to all my issues ... aaaand they lashed out BIG TIME. To keep the next scene short, we had a falling out, I tried desperately to talk things out, but they refused, even though they previously told me to be direct with them, even before my confrontation. I remember very well that they demanded that I NEVER bring drama with them or tell anybody about our arguement.

Over time I realized I was fighting a battle I cannot win. One last time, being so calm I scared myself, but no, they called me a a parasite (for demanding space? That's the opposite of what a parasote wants bruh) and I blockd them everywhere.

Freedom at last ... but at what cost?

I got new scars, because of someone who couldn't understand limits or keep their bloody hands of other's characters just to satisfy themselves.

I just recently saw the parallels with Rick and Kokuri and it really makes me upset to see that I let someone just ... use them and me like that.

And you got not idea how much my paranoia expanded. Hell, drawing love or intimacy are even worse now, I'm so scared to have people yell at me again or be happy about the things I draw ...

So yeah, that's why I was posting some deeper stuff here and there :'3

I gotta say, it's nice to draw my pervy hedgy comforting best shadow boi. I really wanna draw Kokuri with my sqaud more, they'd be so fun <33

Anyway, thank you for reading and also being there for me. While I still struggle immensly with drawing stuff, I'll try my best to get over my fears ... just pray for me to not get another creep wanting to jerk off to my characters X'D

[bloonfroot]

actually i'm pushing back against this mindset. i agree with the suicide one and the general air of being kinder to oneself, that part is true, yall gotta drop the self-depreciating humor, we have normalized it far too much. but that's not what this post is REALLY getting at.

what it's actually saying is that you are a lesser writer if you do any of these. it's old internet elitism repackaged, and sold to young tumblr fanwriters as "advice" and "self care". but pay close attention, and you'll start to see how underhanded and stuck-up it actually is.

"--tells me you didn't care." "Okay, I won't read it then." "--you don't know what your story is about if you can't give us 2-4 main tropes and themes."

the bias here is entirely rooted in the fact that your writing is not GOOD ENOUGH if you can't present it in a professional fashion. because if it doesn't sound like you're writing an email to your coworkers in your AO3 summary, you aren't a real writer. that's the real sentiment. not you, your work, your health, or your enjoyment, or whatever other bullshit this post used to couch that real sentiment:

your work is inherently inferior because you didn't do this or that the way they consider the "correct"--and therefore only--way.

it's really just designed weigh you down, pressure you to conform--which will likely just discourage you away from your passion for the damn work entirely, if you don't--by speaking down to you for failing to meet their set of standards. you know, for the art that you're producing for free. it's not good enough. you aren't good enough. you didn't meet these standards so you shouldn't have posted at all.

as a writer of both fics and novels, if you believe that my work is not good enough for you because i didn't cross my t's and dot my i's and present you a fucking polished manuscript, then my work's not for you! derogatory! go away! you are not WELCOME to read as far as i'm concerned. you can fuck clean off!

this elitist mindset has been prevalent in any and all online writing spaces, fanwork or not, since i came up at least, and it's been consistently discouraging me my entire life and quite frankly, i'm over it. so let's rock the boat a little:

hubert selby jr. got a movie deal on a book in which the only period was at the end of his name. the man published three novels, and never met a quotation mark in his life. i don't fucking care if you like or hate it--the books themselves or the way he wrote them--because he did it and it's still art and it's still worthy.

enough people DIDN'T turn their nose up at his "incorrect" writing style that he got a movie deal. enough people won't turn their nose up at my funnily named fic that i will get the engagement i desire. you will not be one of them. good. bye.

in the aughts i watched a live Q+A on deviantart hosted by MARGARET FUCKING ATWOOD, in which the attendees mocked her in the chat for using emojis and text speech, reacting as if it was unprofessional of her, treating her as if every time she posted a smiley face, her work and her value and insight as a writer and the reverence at having her come talk with us budding writers AT ALL was lost bit by bit.

margaret atwood.

and i didn't use emojis, or indulge in reading or writing fics, until i turned ~21, despite growing up entirely online, because i was so rattled by that. if such a foible can dethrone an icon, i'd have to walk a very rigid line in order to be taken seriously, yes?

except i wasn't having fun, i wasn't enjoying it. i wasn't impressed with or fond of my work. nor was anybody else. i still struggle with that now.

the negative impact of this kind of bullshit on young artists is absolutely real and detrimental. y'all turned hard on art hate blogs but this is good and correct?

FUCK this mindset. when i publish a fic that still has the jokey wip title attached, i'm doing it in honor of god damn margaret atwood. because i was too scared to stand up for her, and for myself, when i was a kid, and i'm doing it for every single writer who recognized their own work habits in this shit show of a post.

make art however the fuck you want forever.

never ever listen to anyone who tells you you're "doing it wrong". they will drain you of creativity, inspiration, and motivation, and you will feel as if you're losing your craft.

ESPECIALLY with fan fiction. what are you, my publisher? mind your business. you want it your way, go to burger king.

or idk, use the filter functions and refrain from engaging with those you deem lesser WITHOUT running your mouth about it and forcing the onus of YOUR bias onto the writer.

when we change to please others, we lose that piece of ourselves, and we do so for a person who will NEVER actually be pleased. they have already judged you. create for yourself first, and second for the people who will enjoy it, and no one else.

I'm begging y'all, put at least minimum care into how you present your fics to the public.

"idk man you name it im tired" as a title tells me you didn't care.

"This is STUPID" in the tags. Okay, I won't read it then.

"I don't know how to do tags" tells me you didn't bother taking one look at any page in the archive to see how others tag and use it as reference. Or, you know, you could have asked, too.

"idk if this is trash, bc I worte this in the middle of the night bc idrk" in the summary doesn't really encourage me to open the story.

3 lines of tags on a 4k monitor, none of which are actual searchable tags but a stream of consciousness about the author's sleeping habits and music preferences, tell me you don't know what your story is about if you can't give us 2-4 main tropes and themes. Also, this isn't tumblr, come on mate.

"I hate myself for this fic" okay? Why did you write it then if it brought you discomfort? Moreover, why did you post it???

"Why Did I Write This?" well, hobbies are about joy and fun, if writing doesn't make you happy then maybe it's time to look for something else to do in your free time? No point in making yourself miserable.

"The Author Regrets Everything" paired with more self-deprecating tags suggest I better not bother opening the fic because it clearly made the author miserable and why would I be miserable as well?

"killing myself rn" please get help.

0 additional tags is better than that. Writing and sharing fics should be an act of care, not anguish.

[subnaut1ca]

I think ppl are sosososoososo soooo silly for getting mad at doja saying she hates her fans lmao

Like.... lol yall have sm time ig 😭😭

Idk like... I have no idea what's up with the drama with her boyfriend or whatever, I don't care enough about celeb drama to look it up or waste my time reading about it but if he's as bad of a guy as everyone says he is, that's definitely rough and her endorsing someone who has done smth hurtful or bad is like a bad thing, but she's an adult woman lmao, she has the brain capacity to make her own decisions. Probably more mindfully and logically than the ppl who don't know them typing on the internet...

That aside,

Ppl that say they hate her cause she called her fans out saying they're cringe, or that she hates them/doesn't love them or whatever or says they're cringe, LOL as a doja fan, I think that's some queen powerful pussy shit, like that's so funny girl😭😭 like idk how ppl are so sensitive to take that so personally, like you're telling me, you walk about your day, ahitting your pants over a GENERAL TWEET doja SENT TO TO GENERAL INTERNET saying her fans are whatever?? You're telling me, you care so much about what this person who has never met you, talked to you, or seen you said about a group of ppl??? That's like me saying I hate Cheswick the 3rd... who is Cheswick the 3rd I don't fucking know he could be somebody out there never met him, what's the impact you might ask?? Absolutely nothing, I'm talking straight outta my asshole. What I'm saying doesn't matter especially in context to cheswick. Idk it's ao wild to me that ppl walk around feeling sad that doja cat doesn't love the people she has never seen and met her, and told her she's ugly, or objectified her or whatever. Like ofc that's a group of ppl only, but I get how it can get to a person. Idk this new edgy style she's going for I think is smth she's doing for herself and smth she wants to show she can break out from what her label which she obviously hated made her make lmao ppl are so simple minded and so binary with their thinking, like im not even gonna label what the reason behind her style change is cause ppl ate complex and maybe if I keep guessing I can get to the ballpark I could get it, but I'll never really get the exact reason lol cause that's smth for her lol. Ik it's like ironic to be like meeeh why are ppl blah blah blah they have sm free time to think about mee mee mee l and I'm literally writing an essay abt it. But Idk I peeped her comments and was just kinda thinking so thought I might as well rant abt it in my diary to myself. Idk I'm not pissed off or being dojas keyboard warrior cause I think she's prolly at fault for whatever bf drama is, but when it comes for being an ass online to fans, is it proffessional?? No. Do I care??? Not really it's kinda funny. Do I think she's doing this to lose fans purposefully cause she's over being a celebrity and is still under signature??? Probably. Is she doing it for press??? Yk what they say all press is good press I guess. Was that bars I just spit??? Absolutely yes. Anyways to my main point ppl are so parasocial sit ur ass down, she never lived ur ass uhhhhhh she's not going insane prolly yall sound like mothers being like what hapoened to my sweet beautiful smiling girl 😭😭 when your daughters turns emo uhm, just like idk stop being cringe its her life you dont know what's best for her lmao you don't even know her.

Anyways... deuces

Also ps (edit)

In the song I literally linked there's a FUCKING LINE IN THE SONG THAT SAYS

Quote-> "fans ain't dumb, but extremists are"

Lol stew on that a little yall then rethink yourself

[batsarebetterthanpeople]

#every time I come across this link I have to open it and stare in fascination and horror#my favorite part of it is the claim that izzy metaphorically dies of aids#it's like a terrible accident. i just can't look away. (@bookshelfdreams)

Ok, I didn't realize we had to have this conversation. I'm going to have a screed rn and it is directed at everyone who has said anything like what bookshelfdreams is describing the author of that meta as having said about HIV/AIDS and OFMD

I am a gay guy a sex worker and a drug user and I've sworn off IV at least partially because I don't want to be three for three on high risk groups for this fucking virus. It's less scary now that I'm on prep but my insurance company keeps trying to pull the rug out from under me, so there's that. HIV/AIDS is something I have to consider in my life and I know that there were men who behaved in exactly the same way that I do now who died because they were born 20 years earlier. I have gay male friends, family members, and sexual partners who lived through that time period and are traumatized by it.

I am incredibly fucking offended by this actually.

Like I know you guys think that HIV is the faggot disease and you're trying to prove that Izzy is a leather daddy (citation needed) who fights for your rights (contradicted by canon) or whatever the fuck, but can we please not let every single thing about gay men be infected by this? Just because OFMD is anachronistic and often highly metaphorical doesn't mean that you have to bring up a disease from 250 years after the media in question was set, and which is never once addressed in the show, just because there's gay men here. Like god fucking forbid we are even once depicted as living our lives without that threat looming over our heads. God fucking forbid that sodomy not be synonymous with death and disease for 5 SECONDS. You sound like fucking Reagan era propagandists saying that we're all diseased. An AIDS death. An AIDS death of a pirate in fucking 1718. Not syphilis, the disease mentioned twice in canon, but AIDS. Fuck you.

Like I said that a certain subset of the Izzy stanyon was getting homophobic when yall kept talking a certain way about Stede and I hate that I keep getting proven right. Please if this thought has ever even crossed your mind exit the fandom swiftly, never watch another piece of media about gay men, stop slash shipping, log off the internet, and leave all queer men alone forever. I don't want any queer person to have to put up with you. GET OUT!!!

People in this fandom somehow continue to find new and innovative ways to make engaging with this fandom completely hostile for the people who share the identities of the characters depicted in the fucking show.

Being in the OFMD fandom right now is so fucking funny because half the fandom is like "I love my little show perhaps it was not as good as it could have been due to the budget but it was still beautiful and wonderful I hope we get a season three <3" and the other half is like "Snapewives and The Johnlock Conspiracy speed run no mods any percent, go go go"