#kokuri the hedgehog

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I've dabbled in watercolors from time to time, but recently I've decided to fully commit and get myself a full plethora of pencils and pens!

And it's A LOT of fun. Just draw in the color and paint over it with a wet brush URGH it's so satisfying ... and with my current hyperfixation on a certain creepy hedgehog I can just play around with my colors and have a grand old time ewe

So yeah, I did draw the left piece with water color pencils and water, and the emotions on the right I just colored in with pens; which can also do watercolor shit, but I wanted to try out normal coloring, cuz I NEVER did something like that ... IRL colors scared me okay?!? X'D

And yee while coloring the emotions I've realized Kokuri lookin good with white in his eyes when he has those crazy ring eyes ... so consider it an alternative eye design oWo

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April 2021 Commission for @shnowbilicat of Kokuri the Hedgehog

I am taking commissions! Check my pinned post.

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What the ... ? Why is Sonic in a Prison?!

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Zooming through Eggman's base, Sonic had his eyes on following his nemisis closely. It was a day like any other; Eggman had one of his big master plans and Sonic would stop him yet again. Our hero ran through every room, destroying every robot Eggman threw at him. Until Sonic finally caught Eggman in a dead end.

Like the hero Sonic was, he gave Eggman a last chance to stop what he was doing ... but Ivo wasn't going without a fight. The genius was trembling, holding a gun in his hand, before turning around and pointing it at the blue blur. Sonic was pretty shocked and calmly told Eggman to put it down, but the doctor didn't even budge. With a shaking hand he pulled the trigger and hit Sonic right in the head.

Sonic lost a life, but he was still standing. He lifted his hand and wheezed, about to tell Eggman to stop, but there was another bullet piercing the hedgehog's head.

Another life lost.

BANG!

And the third life was gone ... and Sonic collapsed to the floor. With a heavy breath Eggman slowly lowered his arm and stared at Sonic's unmoving body. It was done ... thank god it was done-

There was a soul piercing screech echoing through Eggman's base ... and he was never seen again.

But miraculously Sonic was totally fine. well expect having to bandage up those shot wounds and his quills being a little ruffled up. It was like nothing happened and while there were rumors about Eggman's disappearance, soon the city was under attack yet again. Tails, Amy and Knuckles struggled to keep the invasion at bay, but thankfully the hero himself swooped in and destroyed one bot after the next. However something inside him changed andSonic enjoyed destroying those robots.

Suddenly, the commander of the attack showed up, Metal Sonic. He accused Sonic of killing Eggman in cold blood and being a danger, a monster to everyone. First Sonic's friends didn't believe Metal, but as the two Sonic's fought, they could see the beast that was lurking behind Sonic's heroism. With every deep blow Metal managed to hit on Sonic, the hedgehog became more and more wild and eager to detsroy Metal. And suddenly, huge bone claws emerged from Sonic's back and his eyes went dark. Slamming Metal to the ground and ripping him appart with hands and teeth.

... and while everybody was frozen in shock, Sonic contiued with his friends, whil he was at it.

As everything quieted down, Sonic found himself in a black room with a giant mirror, he looked inside it ... and saw himself staring back. While one looked like the hedgehog we loved, the other was a murder hungry beast ... but this was him.

Sonic was so tired, so exhausted of needing to be the hero that saves the day, every day. He wasn't allowed to show anger, he wasn't allowed to shed a tear, everybody was counting on him, but the years made him so fed up with these expectations. All he wanted was to break those chains, do whatvere HE wanted to do ... and be free.

With this he embrace his other half, casting aside 'Sonic' and becoming his real self; Kokuri.

And if anybody would stand in between Kokuri and his freedom, will face the same fate as his friends and enemies.

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It all started with Kokuri, my love for creepy stuff and of course having a character that I adored to biits X'D

And he's making ANOTHER comback! This time where it all began, as a creepypasta/horror story character! With the recent Sonic.Exe games I've seen, I got really nspired to give my horror boi another chance. Dunno when or if I'm gonna redo his creepypasta, but I love him either way X3

He's so fun and I'm so glad I started drawing and designing him. He kinda broke me out of my creative rot and art block. Just having a character you can do whatever you want with is ... freeing.

And just look at my fluffy murder boi! Gosh I love him X33

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Double Trouble

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What's better than one twisted, murderous fictional character?

Two twisted, murderous fictional characters!

Meet my new bby bois; Creepy Vincent and Creepy Kokuri!

Tl;dr I was recently very inspired by the Sonic.Exe community posting really REALLY amazing stuff and I kinda went into a rabbit hole of more creepypasta and analog horror based on Sonic, Marion, FNAF, etc.

It's been ... pretty amazing and I've used this to fuel my own motivation. I drew A LOT of doodles of these two and I really wanna do more sooo I hope you're looking forward on some more creepy art from me! X'D

Also once I'm happy enough and filled in the free spaces on my doodle pages they will be uploaded too ... someday X'D

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Old Scars Heal Slowly

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Healing from wounds takes a long time, especially once that you cannot see. Sadly I'm someone who carries many scars and many times they like to open up again.

Alright I'll drop the vagueness, I hate calling what I've went through 'traumatic experiences' but I also can't deny that many things in my life have been really messed up and that they left panaoid thoughts that ... sometimes are right.

You're free to read the whole vent below, but I'll summarize it here if you're still interested but too lazy to read through paragraphs or le tragic backstory~

It's funny that I have another character that was very well liked, but pretty much used as an object for someone else to injet their fanatasies into, and when I mentioned how uncomfortable it was for me, people lashed out. I don't know why strangers on the internet think it's totally cool to take someone else's character and jerk off to them. Maybe they're all kids who don't know any better? But that does not excuse that they're legit hurting the original artist ... me. I was hurt. I got paranoid to the gills, have a fcked up relationship with intamacy and am super defensive when it comes to other people wanitng to do something to/with my characters. Consent is still a very new concept I have the feeling ... and I'm so tired of fighting over other people about what I can or cannot do with MY characters ... *le sigh :'33

Okay, so now for a more indepth vent, yay!!

Kokuri started out as a Sonic creepypasta. I liked the concept of a powerful, stalking, creepy Sonic character, so I made him into an OC! His power made him into a god, his creepiness gave him a cool creepy horror form and his stalking ... yeah I made him into a perv and I loved him to bits X'D

I never had a perverted character and since I was a teen I could kinda explore my sexuality and stuff with him in a fun way- wait why are my followers really into him??

Yeah for some reason Kokuri was REALLY popular, so much so that many of my friends and followers started shipping him with their characters?? Luckily my friends understood that I was uncomfy, but some were not so nice. I remember getting a note where someone told me they 'omni-shipped' Kokuri and while I admit I was an emotional teen that had english as their second language, I still was uncomfy and tried to tell them to please not. Later a friend of theirs argued with me that I cannot control others, especially when I become big ... I hope yall know that it does not matter how big someone gets, people shouldn't just ... deny the original creator their wishes for THEIR OWN CHARACTERS. I know I cano't control them, but they can at least be nice enough to respect my wishes mmmmrgh.

Another example was that I had a back then recent friendship tarnished when the person drew their self insert with Kokuri and I told them nicely that Kokuri had a boyfriend ... and they started to be very upset and rude towards me. Or, ya know, that one time a very clingy, RP-happy 'friend' who was always venting to me about their mental health and family and always wanted Kokuri to be their self insert's boyfriend- wait I feel a deja-vu. But there's more! Bby me tried and tried to talk it out how much they tired me out, even RPing it out with Kokuri telling them off, but nothing worked. So, public journal canceling our friendship- ah shit they made a counter journal pretending to be their sister and how I made them attepting to end game. Yaayyyy~ Yall can imagine how it fucking traumatized little ol me :'333

SO! After I kinda drifted off from Sonic to FNAF it was peacefuly quiet, but I had a hard rule that my characters are not allowed to be shipped without my consent after all that bs.

Fast forward to 2023, I get a chat message on DA and someone was really interested with my FNAF boiz. I was ecstatic and rambled about my squad, since it's really rare to get new people on board on loving my bbys. Soon we pivoted over to Discord and ... they mentioned how they liked Rick n Keith, like REALLY really liked them. So far as to call them 'boyfriend material' and how they wished Rick actually existed and how he would be the perfect boyfriend cuz they wouldn't judge them. And I was like 'plz dun take this too seriously okay?? :'3' cuz I was uncomfy with them drooling over my boiz, but also not wanting to take away their joy. Cuz surprise surprise, they also had a bad life. I didn't wanna take away that potentially could help them cope with it all, but also, ya know, don't be creepy.

Aaaaand they asked me for a romance RP with Rick and their FNAF character. I declined, cuz remance RPs are uncomfy, no shit, but they continued being weird, always wanting my attention and being weirdly talkative about how X character was hot or smth, wanitng me to get into the stuff they like, being dismissive about things I liked, being very non-chalant on visiting them IRL (we barely knew each other for half a year too), not taking a no for an answer, etc etc etc

One of my biggest mistakes was giving into the romance RP some time later. The person managed to talk me into merging two of my AUs, FNOK my NSFW AU and my base FNAF AU. I dleted any murder from FNOK cuz I didn't like the implications of murder and naughties ... but now it was back in it! :D

Also remember their OC? Yeah, they didn't even have a design or name up until now- ah wait they are oddly similar to my RP partner and also they share a name? A fucking self insert?? Yeah, yeah it was a self insert and I'm 1000% sure about it. Also they wanted to have at least 5 sentence replies, without dialogue. Broskies, I was so mentally exhausted by it all ya don't even know.

Worst part? They also pivoted to having the hots for SpringTrap, asing how much animal to animatronic they are, how *ahem* rough SpringTrap would be in bed. You can imagine how little old me was very creeped and weirded out. Nothing against kinkiness, but if ya wanna get violated by a big ass rabbit monster, don't do it here thxx

Or some minor things were that the person was sharing their ideas for some FAR future plots or ideas for the RP. Like when Rick and their OC would live together ... bro, they just met in RP, chill your balls plzzz qWq

All came to a head when I got a very uncomfy nightmare and confronted them to all my issues ... aaaand they lashed out BIG TIME. To keep the next scene short, we had a falling out, I tried desperately to talk things out, but they refused, even though they previously told me to be direct with them, even before my confrontation. I remember very well that they demanded that I NEVER bring drama with them or tell anybody about our arguement.

Over time I realized I was fighting a battle I cannot win. One last time, being so calm I scared myself, but no, they called me a a parasite (for demanding space? That's the opposite of what a parasote wants bruh) and I blockd them everywhere.

Freedom at last ... but at what cost?

I got new scars, because of someone who couldn't understand limits or keep their bloody hands of other's characters just to satisfy themselves.

I just recently saw the parallels with Rick and Kokuri and it really makes me upset to see that I let someone just ... use them and me like that.

And you got not idea how much my paranoia expanded. Hell, drawing love or intimacy are even worse now, I'm so scared to have people yell at me again or be happy about the things I draw ...

So yeah, that's why I was posting some deeper stuff here and there :'3

I gotta say, it's nice to draw my pervy hedgy comforting best shadow boi. I really wanna draw Kokuri with my sqaud more, they'd be so fun <33

Anyway, thank you for reading and also being there for me. While I still struggle immensly with drawing stuff, I'll try my best to get over my fears ... just pray for me to not get another creep wanting to jerk off to my characters X'D

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Drew this before I made Kokuri's newest pieces, but I thought I'd share this too X'D

Kokuri and Vincent are my bestes boiz of all time ... also the bestest dorks I could imagine to have.

My bbys <333

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He Smirks, He Grins~

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Eyyy! Lookie is Kokuri again! Yup thought about giving my fav cringy perv hedgehog wanna be another design update, just minor ones, cut I also wanted to have a clean reference picture for once … and not make a whole ass reference sheet again X'D

And since Kokuri got an update to his normal form, I thouhgt of giving his 'creepy form' a proper reference as well. For once pff.

Seriously, while looking up on who I drew this mf I realized I never drew his normal creepy form in any way. Just in some other forms where he had the same vibe, or his very first design right after his creepypasta I made … so yeag, twas about time owo

And tbh now that I've dabbled in FNAF and horror a little more, this is a well welcomed upgrade eWe

Missed the guy, love him to bits :'33

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Cheeky Hedgy

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I think I remember somebooty wanting to see the Perv-Hog again? :3

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Remember Him?

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Cuz I do! :'D

Look who I dug up, guys! Our favorite Perv-hog! For those who remember him ... X'D

For those who are new and don't know, this is Kokuri! One of my Sonic/Mobian OCs and former 'Guardian Demon' :3

Well, what about I tell you a little bit about him, hm? Before FNAF, I was really into the Sonic Franchise, and I still am, and Kokuri was my 'main Character' (Aka. I had him as my Icon and I let him interact with people alot X'D)

His origin is a bit crazy; when I first discovered Creepypastas on the Internetz I came across Sonic.EXE and some Vids about it and how the Creepypasta was kinda meh. So, I tried making a better one! To make it short, the Pasta was about somebody finding a CD of a Sonic game for the PC in a forest. Trying to play it, the game gets more and more f'ed up and at the end, when Sonic was completely bonkers, the actually appeared in RL and started haunting them. At the end he got defeated and said that he wasn't the Hero he was before anymore and that his name is now 'Kokuri'.

After writting it and thinking about how Kokuri may have stalked me in this Pasta gave me the idea to make Kokuri Canon in my Sonic Universe, and so I did! ;D

... and good god this Hedgehog gave me a boost! I dunno why, but people liked him ALOT, so many peepz started watching me after I uploaded his Canon pic and it was amazing. Seriously, I think without him I wouldn't have met the people I now call my best friends on DA X3

But ... it had some minor problems ^^;

And these were ... that people really REALLY liked him ... and that people started shipping him with their OCs ... ^^;

Back then I wasn't very familiar with Ships and even RPs; heck, thanks to this Hog I started RPing!

And I actually was very VERY scared to 'get Kokuri back', fearing that the Drama would come back and that people wouldn't be happy (Or even angry at me) with my decision on me not wanting my Characters being shipped with their Charas.

... but ... I decided to draw him anyway and bring him back from his vacation, at least for a little while :3

I changed his design a bit, and to be honest he looks alot more mature than I last drew him X'D (Though he's old as f*ck, so it dun matter X'D)

I really hope you like him and I will secretly hope to everything holy to humankind that the Drama won't come back, seriously, looking bakc it was a realy Nightmare, espacially since I was pretty new to the Internetz X'D

OH! And one more thing; this pic is a little 're-draw' from the first pic I did of my Perv-hog http://fav.me/d613s67

Also feel free to ask stuff about him; he has ALOT of story and stuff behind him and I am happy to tell you all about him X3

(And thanks to :icondummyheart: he has much darker fur ... though I guess I will play around his skin colour to make it match more ... I dunno X'D)

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*Sigh* You know ... I can hear you two ... .