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soupblr · 6 days ago

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Mean scores (s = 24) Boldness: 42.83 (Mine: 37) Meanness: 47 (Mine: 38) Disinhibition: 42.67 (Mine: 51)

Average Total Score: 132.5 (Mine: 126) Mean Total: 44.12 (Mine: 42)

there's no official data available online for comparison purposes so i just averaged all the relevant replies i could find on subreddits for pplwaspd (not a great sample size). that quiz was a lot better than the other one I took imo because it doesn't just rely on a criminal record or physical fighting & aggression. although it basically reinforces the same thing the pclr told me: I externalize those traits less, socially

what the hell man

#i feel less weird about it rn after doing so much research like okay oh well. mask glued on for a reason #the comorbidity rate with ptsd says a lot #anyway i like this kind of quiz rather than just the dsm because it's more objective #i have a hard time deciphering dx criteria a lot of the time #and poor self judgement many times #<- unaware self aware queen of being aware of not being aware #z #it took until today to be comfortable using the actual acronym #so #when i say pplwpds i meant specifically pplwaspd Only #i am working on the internalized ableism i didn’t realize was there rn #i think because so much of the way i control my behaviour is through the Cringe Baton #like i said before somewhere lol #i ended up in a place of denial and internalized ableism rather than a place of regulation #if that makes sense #i corrected it to say pplwaspd now 👍#the relatively low meanness and boldness mixed with high disinhibition… yeah that is. yeah. yeah #i put a lot of energy into trying to be good to other people but it doesn’t change how i feel inside or any of my impulses #i end up feeling completely exhausted both by any and all social interactions #but then also exhausted by the interactions i don’t do that i want to? like i can never ever just be myself ever ever ever #that is ALWAYS when i end up hurting someone. i do not want to be that kind of person to others!#i wish i looked into this sooner #i wonder how is the score of other groups like pplwopds and pplw other pds?#i dont wanna say i’m dxing myself but i kinda am… there is no fucking way i’m talking to psych about this #i knew i had mixed cluster b traits and not just bpd since a looooong time it isnt new #i hate to admit it but i think i convinced myself that i didnt have enough aspd traits just because of that internalized ableism…#and didn’t realize it #it makes me feel like a bad person by my own standards that i struggle with shit like that #it is easier to dismiss the thought that i seriously am struggling by saying Okay Edgelord lmao. in my head than to seriously consider it😩#i dont have an external person/reason helping me keep that shit in check anymore which is i think why it’s so bad suddenly

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