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anachronistic-falsehood · 1 year ago

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why am i upset. my life literally could not be more stable. i have two steady jobs. i’m living with my parents and don’t have to start paying rent until september. i have 10k in savings. why do i want to sit down and cry. what’s the problem. why can’t i figure out the problem and make it go away. why can’t i fix it. what’s wrong

#whiskey yelling into the void #and now i’m being a lazy fuck by sitting in the break room while my coworker works up at the front #tw sh talk here aughhhhhh>>#i have a boxcutter with me and my six month streak is this close to being broken istg #yeah i gotta book something with my therapist. god #and ofc i’m like 3 days away from my period which a) causes dysphoria and b) makes me feel like all my issues are just me pmsing #which is so so upsetting to think about because the thought of experiencing fuckin. shitty female hormonal changes every month makes me #feel like absolute shit because I Don’t Want That. I Don’t and i hate that it’s here #i want to crawl out of my own skin i wanna hit my head against a wall i want to do something that makes me Feel #i want to punch something and break my fingers idk i want somethingggg

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