#i have Not Been Doing That Lately since i dont have a paycheck anymore BUT when i start getting an income again... hoo boy
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seilon · 3 months ago
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shouldn’t have checked my bank account as expected my mother has taken thousands more dollars from my savings and has almost run me dry more or less. Cool!
#I’m going to fucking call the bank and ask about a second checking account because she’s never going to make her own fucking account#it’s been like a year since she said she would and it’s just not gonna happen#she owes me thousands of dollars via me paying her fucking overdraft fees and she always says ‘what you think I won’t pay you back?’ no!!!!!#no I don’t!!!!!!! because you literally never have!!!!!!!!!!!#and where the fuck are you going to get like 8000 dollars anyway. because that’s what she owes me at the very least#even if you want to factor in like. paying her monthly for the groceries she buys and cat food and whatever that’s still. thousands of#dollars. and the worst part about it is I just have no safety net anymore#because my savings is basically nothing at this point. like nothing that can help in a dire situation anymore.#I keep thinking about whatever im going to have to end up paying for top surgery and I WOULD have a significant amount saved up to#contribute to that but haha! no I don’t! it’s fucking gone!#and I’ve been getting paid basically fucking nothing lately because of how few hours they’re scheduling me so that does not fucking help#my last paycheck was literally like half of what I should be getting. I made like 1K in the past two paychecks. that’s fucking depressing#anyway I’ve given myself a headache#I’ve been avoiding looking at my bank account because I knew it would be bad and it’d stress me the fuck out but I also have been anxious#not knowing and my mother making a few vague comments that implied she must have fucked me over. so I checked today and yeah she sure did#if I don’t make a new checking account that she can’t access i am actually going to be broke within the nenxt few months at this rate#my head hurts and I am so upset I am so upset I work so fucking hard and it doesn’t even matter i just lose money constantly#I get nothing I just pay her fucking fees and pay for my tuition and pay for everything else of any significance#and I am not exaggerating I work my ass off. I am the only person I know at my job who begs to work holidays and extra days and stay as late#as possible and it . doesn’t even matter#im going to kill myself I swear to god. there’s shit I need to buy. what am I supposed to do.#kibumblabs#vent#like shit I need to buy for WORK. my manager is getting on me about not having proper shoes for example and yeah I can get a discount#through shoes for crews but I still dont have the fucking money for anything anymore#not unless I want to run myself into the fucking ground#I need a new binder badly. I need new black pants also for work since mine are so faded at this point.#I only have one fitted sheet that doesn’t have giant holes in it#I can’t stop thinking about my last paycheck it was literally the worst I’ve seen since starting this job a year ago. fucking infuriating
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olive-wines-thin-vines · 10 days ago
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2024-2025 round up for me so far
Gained a bunch of weight around Christmas and felt horrible spent months dieting on and off from January to July when I cut myself and became obsessed with losing weight again and moved in with my boyfriend because CPS got called on my mom I was subjected to complete isolation for two months I was left alone all day everyday and I was cleaning and cooking while no one spoke to me or cared for me I was all alone I lived in my boyfriend's house and he still jerked off instead of asking me because I'm so revolting to look at. I lost a few lbs then gained it back and left school to be with my boyfriend I lost my college opportunity and had to get my first job I got my first job and moved out of my boyfriend's house back home with my parents and got screwed over by my first job got offered a new job and got excited and then I work two shifts a week at a job I barely make enough money to buy toiletries and I have to pay for my boyfriend's date night biweekly which comes to about 3/4 of my paychecks. I got accepted into school to finish my highschool so I'm now going back to school to finish it while working a late night shift crappy job my boyfriend started smoking weed in July and is now obsessed with it and has to do it very often and I hate it so I picked up a bad habit of smoking I now am addicted to smoking cigarettes I'm more depressed than I've been in two years and not a single person knows I was almost fired from my job and left alone the entire time to deal with it while I screamed into the phone begging my boyfriend to come to my house to help me but he was playing video games on his couch and didn't wanna move so I hung up after apologizing and sat alone and relapsed in self harm I'm starving myself again to feel something and I want my best friend back who left in May of 2024 I lost the best friend I'd ever had and I don't know how to cope I have no friends at all like litterally none my phone is empty all i have is my boyfriend and he cant handle me every friend ive made has left because of some reason with my boyfriend and im all aline most of the days and the days im not im taking care of him I don't want to live anymore i see girls i went to school with studying in univsersity and a few are singers now really good ones ive always wanted to be a singer since i was a kid i will never have that and I dont think this world is worth the pain it takes to enjoy any of it.
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nathank77 · 4 months ago
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7/10/24
2:15 p.m Edited/Added to Significantly
I slept, but heavy sedation was required. I took a little more than a 1MG cause tbh quitting time can't be 3 a.m or 2 a.m.
This new schedule is fucking great, yea I can't stay up late but I'm getting shit done. I can make 10 a.m appointments. I can be in the house with dinner in my belly after running fucking errands and making phone calls by 1 p.m. It's dysfunctional in one way, eating dinner at 1 p.m and going to bed at 9 p.m but I mean the dinner part is only related to when I take my pills and my caloric deficiency in order to keep a healthy weight.
The 9 p.m thing isn't that dysfunctional. I mean, tbh I want to wake up at 6 a.m... but that's not in the cards right now if I want to go to bed at a semi regular time aka 9 p.m. I close my eyes around 10:30 every night. 9 p.m is when I start my routine. So it's not really dysfunctional.
I had to stop taking the statin drug bc it's causing muscle spasms. So I stopped that today. I'm just going to take coq10 and see if it's good enough. I have a chlorestoral test coming up soon and I've been on coq10 since like March.
I'm pissed about last night. Quitting time really has to be around 1 a.m. I'm not going backwards. Circadian rhythm issues will never be a fucking problem for me again. I'm making milestones in terms of getting shit done waking up at 8 a.m. I feel more functional and less isolated despite being just as isolated bc I'm awake at the same time as the rest of the world instead of sleeping all day long.
I'm worried about the spasms but they should stop within 3 months. He offered other things like injections, I got to consider side effects and I just want to consider that maybe coq10 can work. Research suggests it can... it isn't causing side effects... so instead of throwing another drug into the mix I'd rather wait. My leg has had several muscle spasms today... but it should stop now that I've stopped the drug as of today.
My heart monitor left a mark after it came off in the shower. It's since gone away so I'm going to reattach it... it won't be a continuous feed unfortunately but it'll still pick up a decent amount of data for the next month if I can wear it at least 10 hours a day. Unless I get rashy...
I'm going to meet the new therapist today but I dont really want to. I just want to cancel. In 1-30 days I'll get the, "it's not a good fit" speil and then I'll feel like I did yesterday, traumatized.
Maybe I shouldn't be open anymore. I really wear my heart on my sleeve and it bites me in the ass when the new therapist gives up on me... problem with this is- if I am more withholding, then once I start to open up in 2 months let's say-they may leave me then instead of 2 weeks in.
I'm truly giving up on therapy. I technically have a therapist I can start with in August but she will leave me too. Who knows if I'll even be alive in August anyways.
If sleep problems persist. I'm commiting suicide hands down. I'm not going to meet the therapist in August. The one I'm meeting with today is the last chance before it becomes just Mike once a week reporting that I still have ocd and psychosis.
It'll just be a checklist kind of thing. Make sure I stay on disability since I can't work bc I'm mentally ill. And I can save myself from the trauma of being seen as a lost cause....
I'm going to look at this new therapist as a bot collecting a paycheck. So when she leaves me hopefully I won't have much of a trauma response. I'm a paycheck. She's a bot performing a task. She will leave me and then I'll just stay with mike.
Tbh having therapy 3 days a week is really important for my mental health but at the same time it fills my schedule making it hard to plan something like grocery shopping or do this task that requires driving out of town...
So it'll free up my schedule and save me from more trauma. She's a bot collecting her paycheck. She doesn't have a name. She's not a human.
I'm not human to these people I'm a paycheck. So she's an automated bot performing a task. You can't hurt me as badly if I strip you of your humanity.
I should have known when Sarah the automated bot was talking about Prime House and Western as resources that she was actually setting the stage to send the, "it's not a good fit," spiel.
It's whatever though. They aren't people, they are just automated bots performing a task for a paycheck. And you can't hurt me if I look at you that way. New therapist is named automated bot. She has no name. She has no identity. She's performing a task. She's unable to traumatize me when she leaves me if I don't see her as human.
99.99% of therapists are bots performing a task for a paycheck that couldn't care If you live or die and I'm done with providing money to these bots when they don't care and I'm done letting them hurt me.
What's important is keeping my disability status and remembering that 99.99% of people are SHIT and that's why I should avoid them at all costs. Everyone leaves. Everyone. EVERYONE. And 99.99% of people don't deserve to know me and I'm going to hide away from the world bc it keeps me safe. You can't leave me if I don't meet you.
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tragically-broken · 2 years ago
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{brain dump}
my heart has been acting up again....I had heart surgery when i was 4 and ive had no problems since, but recently at night my heart as randomly started racing. i dont think it could be anxiety related bc when it happens im literally in bed reading my book and at peace lol maybe it’s happening during the day too but i just dont notice it then? who knows, but im 26 now so that means i cant be on my moms insurance anymore. i work at Starbucks and they have insurance but i thought you could sign up any time but that might not be the case. that is what ive tasked myself with today. my one goal today is to call corporate and see if i can get insurance. if its too late, my mom said she knows how i can get some and if that too fails then i have a friend who has basically said she can guarantee she can get me signed up for insurance. so much of being an adult is keeping yourself alive and honestly its all bullshit. i wish we lived in a society where you could see any doctor for anything for free. but thats extremely wishful thinking and id prob have to leave the US for stuff like that, but i have certainly thought about it. all that keeps me here is my gf and my friends. international travel is expensive so i wouldnt see them much and then making new friends in general is hard, much less in a new cultural environment. anyways, this is getting rambly at this point but im getting anxious and just need to make the call. i always get nervous making “adult” phone calls. i feel like i always feel so dumb lol so ive started doing a think where i write everything i know down on a piece of paper before i make the call. i currently have written down the phone number, my username/password, when i got my 1st paycheck and how much it was, the hours i work per week, and what i make per month. *deep sigh* here i go then! time to feel stupid! 
#me
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bbeelzemon · 4 years ago
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when i move out and get a job again. im going to be so powerful. buying things for people i love is like breathing to me, it comes so naturally and it gives me LIFE.... must give presents...........
#i bought something for net and i am so excited to give it to them.... aaaauuuuuuu#hopefully they dont somehow end up with the same thing b4 i can give this to them but . we'll cross that bridge when we get there LOL#besides.. having two of these probably wouldnt be the end of the world anyway LOL#anywhay back 2 da post#i dont thiiiink gift giving is my 'main love language display' or however you'd word that#i think i probably mostly show my love with words and Doing Stuff For You fhsjfhsh idk i was talking about this the other day#how in my mind a lot of those things overlap to the point i cant really pin my spectrum of love expressions down to one neat little categor#anyway anyway getting distracted#but yeah... im definitely the type of person who will just come home and be like. hey. i saw this at the store and i thot youd like it#i have Not Been Doing That Lately since i dont have a paycheck anymore BUT when i start getting an income again... hoo boy#anyway hi i wrote this post at like 3:30am and put it in my drafts for later . so if i sound sleep deprived thats why ✌#ohhh quick tangent again.. i have one more commission to do (for my dad) and one gift art to do#or that gift may be swapped out for another commission hfsjfsj directions unclear for now . we are going 2 talk about it later#but anyway after i finish those. i SHOULD. MAYBE. be able to make a commissi9ns post to share around HFJSDHSJ#THAT BEING SAID THO.. you can find my comm info in my pinned post if you wanna get in on it early ;D#but yeah i took a break from new comms and i need to get back into it so i can save up to MOVE..#also i am almost definitely visiting for a weekend or a couple days or something Before Then#so i will need an extra couple hundred from my initial estimates hehe :3c very very excited....#okay god i am falling asleep at my phone . into my drafts you go. a little timecapsule for you tomorrow
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kooktrash · 3 years ago
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Mafia!jimin where he caught yn trying to leave him in the morning bcs of his rival threatened her to kill her family if she didn't.
13. "Please dont leave me." And 17. "Are you upset with me?" Please :3
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Love Surrender
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summary: your relationship with Jimin had always felt like it was on bothered time, but you were too scared to tell him.
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- You had always questioned what drove you to be with Jimin. He lied to you, did awful things to others, and wasn’t trustworthy. You always wondered if it was fear that you stayed with him, or love. But you couldn’t wrap your head around loving someone who couldn’t tell you who he really was. It took an entire year for him to tell you what he did for a living. That was one of the first lies he told to you. The second, was that he’d always protect you and your family no matter what.
But now you understood that it wasn’t possible. Because even though he had all these connections with big scary people, there was always someone who was going to find their way around his security. He tried his hardest to always make you feel safe, and you thanked him for that. Because on the days where you lived paycheck to paycheck or your car would break down, he was always there to pick you up. He treated you like you were his world, and he’d tell you that every day that you almost believed it.
And if it wasn’t for last night, you could’ve seriously pictured spending the rest of your life with him.
- “Y/n,” it was late. You wiped at the sticky bar top trying your hardest to hurry up. It was just your manager and you, and he loved to leave early. “You don’t mind closing by yourself tonight, right? I have to get my kids to bed already, the babysitter’s leaving soon.”
“That’s fine, I’ll make sure to lock up,” you had told him. You locked up the restaurant on your own many times, it wasn’t hard and almost everything had been done anyway. You’d finish cleaning up and then you’d text Jimin telling him you’ll be home soon.
The glass in your hands almost slipped at the sound of the door opening. You looked up, placing the cut down as you noticed the group of men walking in. Pushing your loose strands behind your ear, you frowned apologetically, “Hello, I am so sorry but we are closed for the night. The cook already left.” They ignored you, locking the door and pulling the blinds down. You found yourself taking a step back, one of them smiled at you, “You must be Y/n I’ve heard so much about.”
“Who are you?” With brows furrowed you waited, scooting to the side where your phone was put away in a drawer. “Consider me,” the man pushed for a moment, “A friend of Jimin’s. You can call me Suga.”
You could hear buzzing coming from the drawer and he smiled, “That must be him. Find the phone.”
You made a move to run but one of the guys gripped your arm. He clicked his tongue shaking his finger at you, “That’s not how you treat company now is it?”
“What do you want?” You asked trying to push against the restraints of the man’s grip. He smiled warmly, “Well you see, I don’t have any problem with you Y/n. You seem like a smart and hardworking girl, so why you’re with him? I will never understand. But that is not why I’m here.”
“The reason why I am here is because, I am tired of seeing pretty girls like yourself get hurt by men like Jimin.” He took a step closer to you. “What does that have to do with you?” You spat out, wincing as he lifted his hand to you.
Pushing your hair back he smiled, “Well let’s just say someone I hold dearly was in your position once upon a time.”
“So I want you to understand that my problem is not with you,” Suga said reaching into the inside pocket of his blazer, a picture of you with your sister and father, “Or with them. And unless you want to see them get hurt, I advise you to leave Jimin. For your own good that is.”
- You didn’t return home last night. It had left Jimin up majority of the night, your text for reassurance doing anything but that. “She’s not back yet,” he huffed looking to Jungkook as the two waited, “She won’t even answer my text.”
“She said she was sleeping over at Yuna’s, relax she’s fine,” Jungkook tried telling his friend. Jimin only shook his head, pacing back and forth, “I know but...no she’s fine. She has to be. She’d tell me if she was in trouble, right?”
“Yes, she would,” Jungkook sighed standing up, “So why don’t you get some sleep. You’re looking sort of psycho right now.”
The sun hadn’t even fully come up when you arrived home. You spent the night at your dad’s house, fixing up your room that had been used for storage. Your sister and him bombarded you with questions left and right, asking why you were leaving Jimin. They never understand the kind of people Jimin knew, or that you wanted to make sure your family was safe over being with who you loved.
Jimin was passed out on the couch, still in a suit and a few empty glasses scattered on the coffee table. You were as quiet as a mouse, trying to hurry into your bedroom to get your things. You didn’t want him to see you. He’d try and make you stay or ask why you were leaving. You hoped you could just go, not have to listen to his promises, not feeling like a burden to him.
You flickered the light to your bedroom on. Going into the closet and pulling a chair up. You stood on it, reaching a high shelf to pull your old duffel bag out. You hadn’t used the worn out bag since you first moved in. Not even when you’d go on vacation with Jimin, he’d buy you suitcases from high-end brands instead. You were leaving him, but you were only taking what you came with.
You threw the bag on the bed, quickly opening your drawers and pulling out what you could remember. A lot had changed since you moved in with him, but you could still remember your worn out things from the luxurious things he’d buy you. You shoved your laptop in, not caring much as you put shoes and clothes and everything you could think of.
“What do you think you are doing?” You could feel your heart drop, not wanting to turn around and face the reality. Jimin took a cautionary step toward you, heart racing as he got a closer look at what you were doing.
“Um, Yuna and I are spending the weekend at a spa, I forgot to tell you?” You lied, clearing your throat. You could see the way he pressed his teeth tightly, eyes narrowed down on your belongings as you tried blocking them. “Are you trying to lie to me right now? Right to my face?” He asked pulling out your old slippers from the bag, “What. Are. You. Doing?”
“I already told yo—I just gotta go for a little bit,” you bit your lip, “Jimin stop it.” You reached for the things he pulled out of your bag. “You’re leaving me aren’t you?” He asked through gritted teeth.
“Jimin I—“
“Why?” He asked, suddenly pushing your bag onto the floor, a crack being heard from your laptop hitting the ground, “And don’t fucking lie to me.”
“I just have to go okay? I have to go, please just understand and give me space,” you reached for your things with shaky hands. He grabbed your arm, pulling you toward him, “I don’t understand though. Tell me what’s going on. Are you in trouble? I can help you. Just tell me what it is. Is it money? Is your dad in the hospital again? I’ll pay the bill don’t worry about it baby, okay? Is it your sister—“
“No! I just, I need space okay? I don’t think I can do this anymore—“ “Y/n!” His body trembled, “Listen to me. What is going on? You can’t just leave me like this and not tell me why. You can’t just leave me. Please,” he reached for your hand pulling it to his chest, “Please don’t leave me. Whatever it is we can figure it out together, just like we have for the last four years.”
“Jimin I—“ he dropped down to his knees, arms wrapping around your waist, “No. Please Y/n. Please don’t leave me.”
“You don’t understand,” you could feel a tear slip from your eye as he planted soft kisses on your hand repeatedly, “I have to.”
“Why?” He shouted, eyes growing red, “Why do you have to leave me? Am I not enough for you? I’ve tried to give you everything, and I’m not asking for anything back but for you to love me. Do you not love me?”
“Jimin, he’s going to come after my family if I stay with you,” you finally said. He sniffled, looking at you with a cold expression slowly raising to his feet, “What did you just say?”
“I shouldn’t have said anything. Please just let me go,” you sighed but he gripped your shoulders roughly, “Who is he?”
“Jimin, you’ll only make it worse. You can’t always protect me,” you argued but he shook his head. “Who the fuck was it?”
“Some guy named Suga.”
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“Look at me,” he held your face in his hands, “Unpack your things, right now baby. You’re not going anywhere, I won’t let you. Let me take care of him okay? I’m sorry for putting you in this.”
“Bu—“ “I’ve got it baby, don’t worry.”
“Are you upset with me?” You asked as the pad of his thumb wipe: a tear away, “I’m sorry.”
“No baby,” he kissed you lightly, “Of course not. But if you try leaving me again, I will be.”
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IM SORRY BABSHDJSKDHKSNDHSJSNSHSJKSD. I LITERALLY CANNOT WRITE MAFIA LIKE WHAT EVEN HAPPENS NEXT 😭😭😭
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yikesharringrove · 4 years ago
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this is angsty nd for the mango au so u dont have to answer it (i am SO sorry for the angst) but billy, because of the stress , is getting more irritable and might be a bit snappy or raise his voice a little, and when he realises it, he gets so upset and terrified, maybe spirals a little, tries to “reason” why they aren’t reacting to it (none of them are bothered by it, steves just worried about him) and is so worried he’ll be like neil :(((
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Part 32
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Billy had been getting home later and later each night this week.
Steve was okay, knew he was working two jobs while being a full time student and a dad to two pups, just made sure he ate when he came home before collapsing into bed.
It was hard on him.
He felt bad for not being around very much, sometimes he even missed Mina entirely, coming home after she’d gone to bed. It only stressed him out more, thinking about being such a shitty father.
He was wound tight one Saturday morning, getting dressed to go in on his day off.
“Bill, maybe you should quit the garage. Your internship pays better anyway, and you hardly go anymore.”
“I can’t. We need all the money we can get if we’re ever gonna pay off this house.”
“I can go back to work. You know I’ve been doing better.”
“But then we’re just spending your paycheck on a nanny, or daycare, so it doesn’t work.”
“Bill, we talked about this. We can survive for a while. Once you graduate you can get an even better paying job.”
“No, Steve. Once I graduate, I have more school, and then I can get a better paying job.”
“Didn’t you say that some firms hire grads and help them pay for lawschool?”
“I mean, yes, but who’s to say that’s me.”
“Your amazing grades, your dedicated work, your passion and talent for what you do. For a start.” Billy put his fists on the bed, letting his head hang between his shoulders.
“Steve, just drop it.”
“Bill, we’re going to figure it out-”
“Steve! I said drop it! I don’t want to fucking talk about this anymore! Can you leave me alone for five fucking minutes?”
Steve blinked at him.
Billy never raised his voice. Had been yelled out far to much when he was growing up, knew it only hurt.
He rubbed a hand down his face, turning to set off for work.
But tonight he was late.
He should have been home no later than eleven,
It was three in the morning.
Steve was sitting on the couch in the living room, dozing slightly when Billy came in through the front door, stumbling drunk.
“Bill, thank God, I was so worried! Are you okay? Why didn’t you call.” Billy flopped onto the coffee table across from Steve.
“I’m sorry.” His voice cracked. His eyes were hazy.
“Bill, it’s okay, I was just worried you were hurt.”
“I just, I can’t believe I fucking yelled at you. I’m, I’m just like him.” Steve shuffled forward, placing Billy’s head in his neck, rubbing down his arms.
“Billy, you are nothing like him. You are overworked, and stressed out. I understand why you got frustrated, and I am not mad.”
“I just, I was so mad.”
“I know you were, but I also know that you’re a good man. You’re a great husband and an incredible father. I know that you would never do anything to hurt any of us. I know that you would rather fucking die than lay a hand that wasn’t gentle on any of us. You’re good, Bill. Your heart is made of pure fucking gold, despite how hard he tried to taint it.” Billy gave a choked off little sob. “You are not your father. You are your own man. A man that is sweet and kind and caring. A man that stuck by your pregnant boyfriend when you were in high school, a man that works so fucking hard to build a life for your family.”
“I don’t know how much longer I can do this. I feel like I haven’t seen the girls in days.”
“Maybe you could talk to your boss about taking Saturday and Sunday off. I could find somewhere to work on the weekends, and you can have the girls. They miss their Daddy.”
“I tried, but that asshole reminds me of your dad. I asked if I could stop working so damn late, since I have a family, and he just fucking laughed and asked why I gotta be home if I’ve got a pretty little omega wifey to take care of it for me.”
When Billy applied to the internship, he and Steve had had a very frank discussion. Steve felt he should keep the fact that he was married to a male omega underwraps. Male omegas were still so looked down upon, he didn’t want his presentation to affect Billy’s opportunities. Billy fought him, said he was proud of their family, was unashamed, but Steve insisted. Billy had a picture of the girls on his desk, and tried to avoid talking about his omega in any situation.
“I’m sorry, Bill. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with all this. But I’m proud of you. You work so hard, and one day it’s going to be so worth it.”
“I’ll fight for weekends. I feel like I don’t even know Zara.”
“We’ll make it work. We always do.” Billy sat back, looking at Steve.
“I’m really proud of us. When I was that fucking kid, sitting in your bed and you told me you were pregnant, I never imagined we’d end up here.”
“We’ve done good, Bill.”
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yyxgin · 3 years ago
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no bar!! never fret about replying late. i know what it’s like to not want to talk to anyone. honestly. i won’t call it (my experience) a depressive episode bc one of my friends used to brush off me when i was saying things like i’m depressed and say ‘sad’ instead. like if i were to say ‘that made me/i am depressed’ she’d say something like ‘oh god same! like if it’s making you sad,, don’t do it.’ which is a v poor example of what she did but i never called it depressed after that bc she pissed me off n was disregarding of my feelings (even though she’s incredibly anxious herself) bc i didn’t get it officially diagnosed. idk if you’ve ever read about birth control pills but i always read on tumblr people calling them literal depression pills and i ignored it, thinking either 1) people were being dramatic / were over-dramatising it or 2) it wouldn’t happen to me anyway. it fucking happened and they were not being dramatic. i was never happy n always working on minimal sleep n making self depreciating jokes all the time bc it was the only way i could cope with my thoughts n constant mood swings. so what i’m trying to say is,, i know how it feels. if that’s any consolation. it’s not me trying to be ‘oh me too!’ or ‘mine was worse than you’ it’s just me being understanding n telling you it’s okay. also lemme at your friends!! i’ll stomp them out n get the barman to run them over for you!! they’re so mean to forget you!! i find that deciding i want to do something specific n then asking the appropriate people if they want to do saïd thing/place works for me. it can be a simple ‘we should do this, when are you free?’ helps. making it known that you want to do things helps. or aggressively remind them that it’s nice to be asked bc it means they thought of you even if you couldn’t go n tried to include you. or we can revisit me stomping them out w my beloved barman,,, whatever works best for you my dear <3
admittedly me and one of the girls were discussing that we are going to miss our manager. even though literally everyone moaned about her (i feel like it’s impossible to avoid in literally any job/situation) she did have her moments and she did a lot for the staff like after work-drinks, asking the chefs if we could order off of the customer menu instead of the staff menu or whatever they cook in bulk for everyone to take home in the evening. apparently she did this a lot more than the previous manager. she has a good heart but sometimes she ignored some of the girls when we ask for days off or our availability for the week which was very annoying of her. it could’ve been a lot worse, i suppose, but overall she wasn’t terrible.
thé lady who lives in my town and drops me given the chance, told me the other night that she used to be the duty manager. i asked her why she stopped and she explained that when they furloughed everyone they asked her to come back on like half pay or something? idk i just remember it being explained as they wanted her to come back sooner and take away her furlough so she said no and got demoted. but somehow she still gets some of the furlough? idk i have been taught that asking how much or discussing specifics of paychecks kind of thing is rude, growing up. she has been telling me they keep asking her to come back (now they’re asking her to be a supervisor since she declined the manager role) and she keeps saying no. i love her and want the best for her so i won’t say anything to anyone about the conversations me and her have had (i mean, apart from maybe my mum if i can remember, and you bc, let’s be real, you don’t know me and idk you) and she says they’re just difficult to work with as a management team. she even said our area manager isn’t impressed with our current assistant manager (who is currently the only person on an houred contract since our manager left) which shocked me since i personally think he is quite good considering he has a good relationship with the staff and kitchen (he’s thai so he can communicate with the kitchen better than most of the wait staff (some wait staff are thai but mostly not)) i think she doesn’t want to be the eldest person in management or she doesn’t want the age gap to be so big since she has a kid she can lecture at home, she doesn’t need to be looking after people at work, y’know?
also today, me and one of the girls were upstairs (two floors of the restaurant!) and it’s nearing 11pm and her brother (who also works there) comes up and asks us when we’re finishing (mostly her lol) but we had two tables just sitting talking amongst themselves so she just said idk. he was saying he wanted to go bc he’s tired etc n he’s driving n she was like it’s fine go home i’ll call an uber or something n he was refusing to leave her behind. (i feel like i brushed over the two tables sitting there but it must be noted they’re the only tables left in the entire restaurant and we were the only two wait staff still there, apart from her brother but he changed and was waiting downstairs). anyway, she was sweeping (i was cleaning the booth/sofa thingy chairs as it was a mundane task we could do to pass time and while she was sweeping by one of the tables thé boyfriend was whispering to his girlfriend saying ‘should we go?’ and the girlfriend said ‘why should i care?’ and the girl came over to tell me v quietly and i got so upset for her. bc she is literally the sweetest person on the earth and the only reason i didn’t go to ask the manager to see if i could go home with the lady who offers to take me (ex-duty manager lady!) was so she wasn’t alone up there. if i had been the one sweeping near that table i would’ve snapped so fucking hard at them. i mean, we’re 18 and have lives and sleep schedules, and we’re working until 11pm on a thursday before we even get home?? like i wouldn’t have minded staying if they were reasonable tables but after the gf said that i was like ‘shall i go get our stuff from the staff room?’ so i could split as fast as possible. in the end the temporary acting manager came up and told us we could finish and she kicked the tables out ten minutes later. i told her what the table saïd and she thought that was mean and unnecessary too. i was also worried about my sleep tonight since i have my first vaccine tomorrow morning. that’s why i was more pressed about what time i left work today. oh well.
im sorry for talking so much about work! sometimes i don’t have someone to talk to about it (at home) bc of my weird hours and sometimes i don’t like re-explaining things to my mum if she doesn’t get it the first seven times. sometimes it’s just a little too draining as she doesn’t understand since she’s a lifer at her job. it’s easier to explain to my dad but then i get a whole lecture on something that i ultimately have no control over n id rather just bitch w the girls at work but the problem is WE’RE AT WORK!!!
also i booked for my first tattoo!! i’m excited. it’s for next week,, which was super quick considering i was expecting to have to wait soooo much longer. i’ve been telling people about it and that it’s happening but i haven’t had the pleasure of telling people exactly where i got the idea from. bar, my dear, you know wheein’s new album, redd? well, it comes with loads of things, including these stickers (one for each song) and the one from springtime was just so perfect and when i saw it my first thought was, this would be a perfect tattoo. and so i am having it tattooed on my body. a subtle nod to kpop whilst also having something meaningful on my body. i also have just decided i want a small, minimalistic (or one-line art) rose on my sternum, kind of in the valley of my breasts, bc my nan was a rose. i like having her close to me. i recently got her necklace fixed which has left me feeling so incomplete after it broke in august last year. it’s been almost ten years and i think i’m long overdue something to remind me of her. i fiddle with my necklace when i’m nervous which is why i love it so much but incase it breaks again (i pray it doesn’t but i have a long life ahead of me) i would like her close still.
gosh there’s never enough space in my head to remember what i want to tell you so i’ll stop here for now since i should sleep to be able to wake up in time for my first jab. i’m scared but it’s whatever i’ll do it i suppose,, eeek 😨
ilyl ~ 🌻
thank you so much for opening up to me about this, it means a lot to me :( i am so sorry you had to go through this and honestly,, i really resonate with you. i feel like when i talk about my emotions and my sadness (dont know if its okay to call it depression either but yea), my friend either always either makes me feel like my emotions arent valid or she tells me she doesnt know how to help, which is frankly, why i dont talk about my emotions to people irl anymore. i dont open up and it takes me a long long time to do so if i ever do, because i tend to feel insecure/not safe :D so really, thank you for telling me and i hope you are doing better. your emotions are valid and i am always here for you 
HAHAHA i mean i dont have many friends so theres not many to stomp on:( but i mean,, i get passive aggressive when i feel forgotten/left out so you best believe i told my friend how im feeling, but like uhhh it didnt do much. i spent the whole weekend at work and i was free on friday but my friend decided to ditch me and yeah. i havent been out in like two weeks now and i mean i am an introvert so i dont mind that much but even i want to socialise sometimes
aah i mean every manager has their flaws, no one’s perfect. my manager keeps calling me to go to work even though i was literally there for 11 hours on saturday AND sunday which means i worked for 20 hours in two days. and i work 20 hours a week at max. and i already worked some hours before the weekend so i think i have like 30 hours now and she keeps calling??? dude i need a break too,,i am so exhausted and tired of this shit :dd
oh i totally get what the lady that drops you off sometimes told you. i would feel a little iffy if i heard it too, but like,,,judge by your own experiences!! if you feel like something is off, you can always leave,, so i wouldn’t be so stressed about it.
why are people so rude ??? dude,,you should care, because we are all human. everyone has their needs and their lives and i bet he wouldnt like it if he was the one in your place. why should you stay there longer just because he didnt want to leave?? that was so unnecessary. people are weird beings and i learnt that after working with them this weekend,,,like i litereally got screamed at because i couldnt accept cash in different currency. like,,what tf do you want me to do?? i dont have every single currency with me so i could give u the change ?? tf ??
ALSO ITS OKAY TALK ABOUT YOUR WORK HOWEVER MUCH YOU WANT !!!! i also feel like i dont have anyone to talk to about work bc my parents dont listen to me as much as they used to these days and my friend unsurprisingly just doesnt care bc she doesnt work,, and i dont wanna talk to my internet friends abt it as much bc i feel annoying so i am glad us two can talk about these things together !!!! 
YOUR FIRST TATTOOOO WHOAAAH thats so cool. i love tattoos hihi dfkja idk if u already had the appointment but tell me how it went after !! i wasnt able to find the sticker on the internet but im sure it looks hella pretty. also i love how it reminds you both of kpop and your grandma, its wonderful <3 i really want to get a tattoo one day,, and i also want something meaningful (not that i am hating on people that tattoo themselves just for fun and have no meaning behind their tattoos i just have commitment issues so i want something long lasting). alSO my crush (yes i have a crush now ew) has a tattoo and it looks like satan lowkey,,but apparently its a japanese something (i forgot the word oopsies) and it means jealousy, bad past and wisdom ?? i was like BOY IF U DONT??? fjdkla he has blue hair btw i am very much whipped but he also doesnt know me and i am older than him so this is embarrassing
ALSO I HOPE YOURE FEELING WELL AFTER GETTING THE VACCINE !!! 
ily <333
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literalbuzzkill · 4 years ago
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Below I'm gonna vent so y'all can ignore that XD
I'm basically making this post as a timestamp/reminder for myself about Covid2020 and what I had to deal with during it (even though it's still a relentlessly ongoing problem, as of Jan2021, yikes)
Below is my personal experience in switching from working everyday as an essential retail worker to now a stay at home unemployed/leave of absense person. Don't feel bad about not reading it, it's long, boring, and I can't really expect anyone to actually be interested because the struggle is real and who wants to be reminded of the grim reality we can't currently escape? XD
[The Start:]
I was still working retail up until a few months ago because most people left. And being short staffed already before covid at my store, things became an even worse unmanageable nightmare because they started to work the remaining staff to death because no one really knew what to do which sucked and everyone was rightfully afraid of what was happening all around them, plus everyone internally was hoping that this would all blow over in a decent amount of time and we could all return to normal and never speak of it again. Considering Covid started around late January/early February in 2019 and today's date (for my future reference) is Jan 4th 2021, I'm going to go out on a limb and say that it certainly has not blown over in a decent amount of time like originally hoped for. Oof.
I was a closer but because of covid my job turned into 'every position at the store and everything/anything that you can possibly get done'. All the stuff from morning team, mid shift, and nightshift rolled into one. Cashiering, phone calls, cleaning, ship from store, backroom, covering multiple breaks, and every department on hardlines salesfloor,
(I did everything except for guest services, food service, clothing, and hr)
you name it XD because most people abandoned ship and Yeeted (which I dont blame them for, t'was a big mood) our store did not hire replacements until literally a few months ago. After I left. Nice.
We were not getting paid any extra, having to stay late, running around with an unending unfinishable list, having to deal with rude customers and cranky bosses, full 8+hour shifts having to wear a mask (even in the break room, and sometimes missing breaks all together because of the large work load) Another problem, my job did not supply masks, proper cleaning supplies, gloves etc to us until an unacceptable amount of time had passed since the start of the virus. Now I didn't expect them to be stocked and fully prepared immediately, obviously.
It was also pretty frustrating getting reprimanded by customers when supplies were low everywhere and some things necessary for existing safely could not be bought anywhere due to high demand, which was only natural, but some people actually acted like it was our personal fault for the store for being sold out of things like hand sanitizer, masks, gloves, toilet paper, and even accused us for holding it in the back for ourselves (which wasnt the case, customers are top priority at our store so the workers usually got nothing to take home or buy, even if we had pulled it from the truck or stocked it ourselves.)
Aside from the excessive draining from normal retail where we already suffer from Karen's and the often unpleasant general public, the Rona made the daily grind even more intense, as if we already thought it couldn't get any worse.
Straying away from that for a second, personal lives were now also affected greatly. Added on top of this new fear/caution/lifestyle was not being able to see my fiance or his family for months because they are all at very high risk. (Unfortunately I am too, but I really needed the paycheck so I thought I had to keep working until the inevitable, which was not looked forward to, but as long as I was potentially exposed with my job we all had to be apart unless I decided to quit and risk not having enough money to pay my bills or survive.)
(Side note for context: My fiance and I have been very lucky enough to see eachother almost every day for 4 years. Surprisingly we have not gotten sick of eachother yet and kept up with that regularity. And though we are engaged, we dont live together, but we do only live 15 minutes away so we just drive over to eachother everyday. Anyway, point being that going months without seeing him at all killed me internally hardcore. This was before zoom was popular and we were not about to resort to Skype. His parents are older and closer to me than my own family and were not comfortable with any form of in-person visits so we usually just did phone calls.)
And eventually I gave up,
I made it halfway through this pandemic working everyday, not seeing the only people I considered family, and I couldn't do it anymore. It literally didn't feel human.
Not to mention this did not help whatsoever with my pre-existing problems, bad depression, anxiety, ptsd, Self h, etc... it was all just getting way too out of hand with more stress piling up daily and taking too big a toll on me to the point where I couldn't deal with my regular lifestyle anymore. I needed a break and a change to severely turn myself around.
So a few months ago I finally went on leave of absence and it was the hardest thing for me to do but honestly the best thing I did. Because everything was so uncertain and I worried about how helpful unemployment would be towards my bills, if I'd lose my job for being gone too long due to an open ended leave of absense for the sake of my health/safety, and honestly I loved my job and my coworkers, but many of them had already left so at that point it became easier for me to leave.
I'm currently making more on unemployment than my job was paying my bi-weekly and doing leagues better mentally, emotionally, and physically, than before when I thought I could last the whole time working through covid hoping I wouldn't catch it and probably die because my health is not 100% gucci in the first place. I was too stubborn to quit until I got to a breaking point and then realised that putting my health/life on the line when I'm at risk during a pandemic for literally no reason other than feeling bad for my one really kind boss (who ended up leaving for a better job anyway right after I left)
in my brain the whole time I figured "eh if I die then I die" but there was a major upside to saying "you know what, fuck this" and leaving.
I've gotten to take up hobbies and do things that I've wanted to do for like 10 years, I improved my financial situation, bought my dream car(A 2004Crossfire), got engaged to the love of my life, had more time to read, write, learn, create, help my fiance record his first official music video, support smaller businesses, get back in better physical health, regain stability, and a new respect for life, health, friends, family, acts of kindness, and how easy things used to be before covid and how it was unintentionally taken for granted.
Not gonna lie, at first I was pretty mad that people on unemployment made more than essential workers, but I also knew that it wasn't their fault for their personal situations or reasonings for needing it. The problem was mainly that many Companies/jobs could have done more, treated essential workers better, given more help, compensated financially, offered forms of protectionagaint the virus, or done literally anything extra at all to help employees who were struggling or who stay to continue working there during a terrible pandemic, and some companies/jobs have done good things for their workers in response of the outbreak which is awesome.
Workers should absolutely be compensated for their extra efforts, time, and pleasant attitude in this difficult time, and treated better than they are. Some things should 1000% be different but some things in this world are still a work in progress.
And also, for people with health issues that are at risk but working anyway for whatever reason, there shouldn't be any shame felt for taking care of yourself or by the people who have to go on unemployment, those who can't work, lost their jobs, need help or a break, or just can't do it anymore, because it hits hard when you realise that even though your effort is important and you're doing your best, playing an important role in society, you could also be risking your health/life or even possibly someone you live withs, for a company that will replace you pretty easily if you're suddenly gone.
I worked at my store for 4 years, was extremely hard working and did everything and anything I could to stay as long as I could during this, but I realised that I'd rather not risk myself and be treated how I was.
Ultimately, the sad reality is that covid has some people forgetting that humans (whether working or not) are humans too that can die or fail at any time given the current circumstances. Some situations are unavoidable like a pandemic, but we can do our best with whatever reality we meet, whether it's being essential the whole way through like some are able, and knowing your health well enough to be able to judge what's best for you individually for now.
but regardless making sure you're not taking yourself for granted in the process.
I'm lucky enough to not have gotten covid yet, and I hope it stays that way.
If your job isnt doing what it can for you in this time, dont be too stubborn about staying
Its not worth risking yourself for your job honestly, and I really hope peoples jobs do as much as they can for those they employ.
If you aren't working, do something with your time that you'll remember (safe things obviously) and if you are still working keep up the awesome progress, stay safe, and be blessed. ❤
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wondertainmenttoys · 5 years ago
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A Gamer and a Wondertainment intern talk over video chat
Document POI-9874-12
Date: 10/12/2019 - 10/19/2019
Background: POI-9874 (Arthur Mullin) is a suspected member of the group of interest “Gamers Against Weed” and has been under Foundation surveillance since 07/16/2018.
Document Summary:  Document POI-9874-12 are transcripts of online interactions between POI-9874 and Thomas Randall, who is believed to be a friend of POI-98745 and possibly associated with the group of interest “Dr. Wondertainment”. Reclassification of Randall to the status of POI is pending.
For the sake of brevity, POI-9874 will be designated as “Gamer” and Randall will be designated as “Vendor”.
Vendor: DUDE
Gamer: Wat???
Vendor: I GOT A JOB
Gamer: DUDE
Vendor: DUDE
Gamer: [IMG]
Note: Image was an animated gif of a video game character dancing
Gamer: what is it
Vendor: Some vendor job. The interview was kind of weird but I’m just happy to finally get a paycheck.
Gamer: weird? You got nervous or something?
Vendor: Nah. The interviewer just seemed way too happy to talk to me. like come on it’s just a vendor job what are you excited about.
Gamer: lmao probably desperate to get someone to fill the spot. hope that doesn’t mean that they’re about to go under or something.
Vendor: God please no
Gamer: I’m sure its fine
Vendor: hope so
Gamer: when do you start
Vendor: tomorrow
Gamer: dude you have to tell me how it goes
Vendor: lol it’s a vendor job so I’m not expecting much, but I’ll let you know
Gamer: whats the place called
Vendor: it’s dumb. Wild Oddities, Neat Doodads, Rare Terrific New Magic Toys
Gamer: [IMG]
Note: Image was a jpeg of a zoomed in picture of Shrek. The character has a neutral expression.
Vendor: I know. But whatever I’m getting paid for it
Gamer: True true. Good luck tomorrow!
Vendor: thanks!
Gamer: yo
Vendor: yooooo
Gamer: dude how’d that new job go? Did you vend hard. Sell some of those terrific rare toys?
Vendor: it was pretty boring. I sold some things. they’re stupidly cheap.
Gamer: cheap?
Vendor: yeah. Like some of the pricier stuff only costs like $5 max. it’s wild.
Vendor: especially with how much they said they’re gonna pay me
Gamer: how much are they paying you???
Vendor: $30/hr
Gamer: holy shit
Vendor: YEAH
Gamer: Dude not to alarm you but that’s kind of shady. might not be something that stays in business for long
Vendor: I know. Maybe they’re the type of company that sells a ton of cheap stuff en masse.
Gamer: maybe
Gamer: what are you coworkers like
Vendor: uh there aren’t any. it’s just me at this small store I think
Gamer: wait so they’re making you clean up and restock without help
Gamer: that’s some bs
Vendor: I don’t think so? It wasn’t in my job description, so I’m guessing someone comes in at night or something after I close.
Gamer: bro
Gamer: bruh
Gamer: brokowski
Gamer: ngl that’s shady as shit
Vendor: yeeeeeeah now that you mention it
Gamer: you’re like in a front for the mafia or something
Vendor: I’ll see how it goes for the next few days. if it gets way too shady I’m out.
Gamer: bro I’d just get out now
Vendor: but the pay
Gamer: bruh
Vendor: hey so you know how we talked about shady shit
Gamer: uh yeah?
Gamer: please don’t tell me that you had to bury a body or something
Vendor: someone broke in last night and stole a ton of the merchandise and the cash in the cash register
Gamer: oh shit
Vendor: smashed the window in too
Gamer: you ok?
Vendor: I thought i was going to get fired
Vendor: but I got a call from the manager and told them about it
Gamer: yeah?
Vendor: and they thanked me??? like they said that was the biggest sale I’ve done for them and that I’m doing a great job?
Vendor: dude you got your shit stolen why aren’t you mad
Gamer: calling it now that stuff had drugs stuffed in them. it’s too shady
Vendor: yeah it’s freaked me out a little
Gamer: way too shady
Vendor: but that’s not it
Vendor: After my lunch break I went back to the register
Vendor: and all the stolen stuff had been restocked
Gamer: what
Vendor: like when I wasn’t looking someone just restocked the shelves or something
Vendor: and the window as fixed too
Vendor: I didn’t hear the door open or anyone walk in or anything
Vendor: not even a customer
Vendor: It’s a really small shop so I would’ve noticed
Gamer: okay that went from shady to scary way too fast
Gamer: get the fuck out of there
Vendor: I know I’m already looking for a new job
Vendor: this is some paranormal shit
Gamer: you doing ok
Vendor: yeah.
Gamer: your still at that Wild Terrific Toys place right
Vendor: Wild Oddities, Neat Doodads, Rare Terrific New Magic Toys?
Vendor: yeah
Gamer: anymore spooky shit go down
Vendor: no. the shelves are still doing that restocking thing when I don’t look but other than that it’s been quiet.
Gamer: I was thinking
Vendor: what
Gamer: what do they sell again
Vendor: toys and games.
Vendor: board games
Gamer: and this is in Portland right
Vendor: yeah?
Gamer: Just throwing this out there but have you heard of Portland with a 3?
Vendor: ???
Gamer: Like a 3 of Portlands or a 3rd Portland at your job
Gamer: 3 Portlands
Vendor: what no
Gamer: ok just had an idea but I was wrong
Vendor: what was your idea
Gamer: it was about that weird place you’re working at
Gamer: i thought it might have to do with something
Gamer: hey can you send me a pic of the store logo?
Vendor: sure. why though
Gamer: i’m going to see if any of my friends know about it. I know one who is super into bizarre stuff like this
Vendor: yea tomorrow I’ll get you a pic
Gamer: hey you got the pic
Vendor: no. for some reason everytime I try to take a picture it comes out blurry or unfocused
Gamer: weird
Vendor: the store’s haunted or something
Vendor: I drew a sketch of it though
Intern: [IMG]
Note: Image is a sketch of the Wild Oddities, Neat Doodads, Rare Terrific New Magic Toys logo on a yellow sticky note. The font style loosely resembles that of previous logos used by Dr. Wondertainment.
Gamer: thanks
Note: Shortly after this interaction POI-9874 discussed the topic in an online chatroom with other members of Gamers Against Weed. See Document POI-9874-14 for a full transcript.
Vendor: hey so I know it’s 3 AM and you’re probably asleep
Vendor: but i decided to stay late at the shop just to see if any other employee would come in
Gamer: oh fuc
Gamer: k
Vendor: and someone did at like midnight
Vendor: OH YOU’RE AWAKE
Gamer: ye
Gamer: dude was it a ghost?
Vendor: no
Vendor: some old lady
Vendor: I think it was the janitor
Vendor: but like everything else there she was weird
Gamer: a ghost
Gamer: calling it
Vendor: she was surprised to see me but didn’t seem too bothered by it
Vendor: like complimented me for working late or whatever
Gamer: ok
Vendor: but I swear dude
Vendor: her eyes
Gamer: DEAD GHOST CALLING IT
Vendor: I DON”T KNOW DUDE
Vendor: but I SWEAR I saw them glowing in the dark
Vendor: like glowing green
Vendor: like a Christmas light
Gamer: ghost
Vendor: She was super nice and cheerful but it was unnerving
Gamer: dude you saw a ghost at your haunted toy store
Vendor: i dont know it was weird like everything else
Gamer: so I spoke to my friend
Vendor: yeah?
Gamer: Does Wondertainment ring a bell to you?
Vendor: yeah I think most of the toys there are from them. why.
Vendor: are their toys supposed to be haunted or something
Gamer: something like that yeah.
Vendor: are you kidding me
Gamer: I mean they said it’s harmless
Gamer: like some sort of urban legend that’s weird but doesn’t hurt you
Gamer: you just do your thing and they’ll pay you
Gamer: I’ll have to introduce you to them later
Gamer: they can explain it better
Intern: ok
Gamer: they also said that Men in Black type stuff can happen if you stay there too long
Vendor: uh men in black? like the movies
Gamer: no like the creepy UFO stories
Gamer: where they show up at your house and try to shut you up or mess with your memories
Vendor: what even is my life right now
Gamer: Like I said, it might be better to get a new job
Vendor: I think I’ll weather things out for now
Vendor: at least until I get my first paycheck
Gamer: I guess. just let me know if more weird stuff happens dude
Vendor: will do
Vendor: ok so weird stuff happened again
Gamer: oh boy
Gamer: you ok?
Vendor: yeah I’m fine. I’m honestly starting to get used to it
Vendor: so the less weird thing was that this morning I found a basket of baked cookies
Vendor: with a note thanking me for being a hard worker
Vendor: they were still warm too
Vendor: so I guess the janitor or someone else just dropped them off right before I arrived Intern: look if it’s just weird stuff happening, then I guess I can live through it
Gamer: ok
Vendor: but then I got a weird customer
Vendor: like some random guy
Vendor: just walked in saying he’s here to inspect the store
Vendor: it’s a small toy store what is there to inspect
Vendor: i mean it’s haunted but that only happens when I’m not looking
Vendor: anyways he said he’s part of some Social something Policy
Vendor: Social Coordination Policy
Vendor: Social Corporate Policy
Gamer: uh
Vendor: something like that
Vendor: Social Corporate Policy. Yeah that’s what it was
Gamer: uh
Vendor: The guy kept wanting to get into the back but I told him I’d need to call the manager
Vendor: really pissed him off
Note: This seems to be describing Field Agent ████████’s investigation into the venue, which was conducted on 10/18/2019.
Gamer: uh
Vendor: uh?
Gamer: I think that’s the men in black stuff my friend warned you about
Vendor: OH
Gamer: what did your manager say?
Vendor: They didn’t seemed really bothered by it. Said it happens and that they’d take care of it, whatever that means.
Gamer: ok
Gamer: so he was basically like
Gamer: [IMG]
Note: image is a jpeg that depicts a cartoon character leaning back with the caption “Not My Problem”. Testing revealed that the image is anomalous in nature and temporarily makes any individual who sees it resistant to amnestics.
Vendor: lmao yeah
Vendor: if this is the Man in Black stuff then the moment I see that dude again I’m running for it
Gamer: not sure if that’s a bad or good idea dude
Vendor: maybe my ghost manager will protect me
Vendor: or maybe I’ll find another job before anything else happens
Gamer: I can help you look for something if you need
Vendor: thanks. I think I got it though
Vendor: uh
Vendor: remember how you offered to help me find a new job
Gamer: yeah??
Gamer: what happened
Vendor: the store is gone
Gamer: waht
Vendor: it’s gone
Vendor: poof
Gamer: like gone gone?
Vendor: the place is empty
Vendor: [IMG]
Note: Image displays a photo of an empty storefront. The inside of the store looks abandoned and shows signs of structural decay. A Foundation agent monitoring the location that morning confirmed that Thomas Randall was the one to take the photo.
Vendor: It’s like it’s been abandoned for years
Gamer: ghost toy company
Vendor: YEAH
Vendor: and this morning I got an email from them
Vendor: thanking me for my work and saying I’m pretty much fired
Gamer: wow what dicks
Vendor: NO BUT THEY’RE LIKE PAYING ME A YEAR’S WAGE
Vendor: a year’s worth of $30/hr
Gamer: wow what not dicks
Vendor: yeah
Vendor: I got spooked a lot but I kind of don’t regret it?
Vendor: I won’t lie I’d work for a haunted toy company again just for that kind of pay lmao
Gamer: honestly I don’t blame you
Gamer: glad you didn’t get kidnapped or killed
Gamer: especially with the Men in Black
Vendor: lol yea
Gamer: Fucking Tommy’s Bizarre Adventure with Wondertainment
Vendor: [IMG]
Note: Image depicts a heavily edited image of an cartoon character with the caption “IS THAT A MOTHERFUCKING JOJO REFERENCE”
Gamer: HA
Gamer: Speaking of that I still need to introduce you to my friends
Gamer: they know a lot about this stuff
Vendor: dude please do
Gamer: also might help with anymore weird stuff that happens
Gamer: because after this I think you might be running into more weird shit
Vendor: My Bizarre Adventure begins
Vendor: as long as it’s not shady anymore
Gamer: [IMG]
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Gamer: yeah here you go.
Gamer: [LINK]
Note: link leads to a chatroom that POI-9874-12 frequents, which is believed to be associated with Gamer’s Against Weed
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futurewriter2000 · 6 years ago
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Imma Rant cuz I’m really pissed right now
What’s life? Honestly, what the fuck is life? Like the bullshit I believed that life can be beautiful if you just open your mind to it. That’s the dumbest bullshit I’ve ever let myself believe because it’s not! Life isn’t beautiful. It’s suffer and pain, dissapointment, resentment, disunity and it’s confusing. 
Like the fact that I am so dumb! I am so mf dumb that I can’t even- I can’t even tell you how mf dumb I am! 
And at times like these- no, like from this point actually I understand why my dad is the way he is because what my mom says “The more good-hearted you are, the more you look like an ass.” is so mf true because it’s not just the money but the more you let people beleive that you’re good, the more they step on you and use you like a piece of bread they don’t want anymore. 
I always try. I always try my best to keep connections with people. I always try my best to still be friends. I hate losing people I care about but then, now, I realize that I might care about them way too much than they care about me. Why am I aways the one trying to keep in touch? Why am I always the one calling them, texting them, asking them on a coffee, being there for them and then still get the “You never have time for me.” . LIKE I TRY MY FUCKING BEST! I MAKE TIME FOR THEM! I MAKE TIME EVEN WHEN I KNOW I SHOULDN’T BECASUE I HAVE MY OWN THINGS TO DO AS WELL!! I aways say that I put myself first but I never do. I put my best friend before me, my sister, my mum and even my dad. I put my friends before me, my cousins - EVERYBODY. And I put myself on the fucking last place. 
I try my best to be good. I try my best to mke other people happy becasue that makes me happy. But lately, making other people happy, doesn’t make me happy at all. I’m misrable. Because nobody tries to make me happy as much as I try to make them happy. It hurts. It hurts and it’s annoying and it’s making me feel dumb. 
I told my best friend when are we meeting up. She comes with the usual “I don’t know answer.” Everything I ask her is “I don’t know.”. I am always the one to text, “Are we going today or not?” I am always the one that has to plan out everything becasue they JUST. DON’T.CARE.  and they wait for me to do everything for them. I’M SICK OF THAT. I want her to plan something. I want her to call me and ask me for coffee, now that it’s May holidays not then when I have to do school and study my ass. And I hate that she hides things from me. And not in a way that I don’t know but like she gives this tiny little hint that she’s in the town where her ex is. And I ask, what the fuck is she doing there and she just leaves me on seen. Like I’m sorry if your old best friend did shit to you but I’m not her and I WANT to know what’s happening in your life, not just be a random extravagant idea that pops in your head when you have nobody else to hang out with. Does she know how that hurts?! To know she doesn’t even try. We are BEST friends. Why does it suddenly feel like we’re just becoming friends again?
I lended my friend, who is also my classmate 20€. And I know that for someo f you that’s not much but for me that’s a lot. I don’t have much money. I am in school, a student, with 75��� alimony a month. I pay my own bills and I am not left with much. So, I lended my classmate 20€ becasue her family doesn’t have 20€ to take her little sister to the capital for a doctors appointment or something. Of course, I wanted to help so I gave her 20€. But then..a week later if not even sooner, she forgot about those 20€ completely. She started saying how she gave her bf 20€ for ciggarettes and she kept buying food from the cafeteria, going to the store to buy food and sending me snaps of her going everywhere. I even went with her to the post so she could lift some money and  she like lifted 400€. Now, sorry but I feel like a fucking dumbass falling for that shit! Did she really tae her little sister? Or was that a scheme to decieve me into giving her the money so she can give it to her bf for cigars?
I talked to this guy. Since September we’ve been doing nothing but talking to eachother every day. And last time he said somethign offending to me and I told him that he was being rude but he was just like- I mean he thinks I’ll just get over it like I did in the past. But I’m sorry. If you hurt my feelings I won’t be running to you. I miss him. I do. But I’m not going to be dumb enough to be the first one to text him. I’m not going to do myself this and let him believe that I have no feelings whatsoever. If he cared he’d text me a long time ago. But it’s been four days and I guess it’s done. Just another disappointment in my life, I guess. 
My sister is in college. She has a job, a fine job where she just sits on a chair and sells lottery tickets. She gets around 300€ - 400€ paycheck and I still had to give her 20€ from my 75€ alimony, my last 20€ that I had, for her to buy toothbrush, deodorant and eyeliner for me, toothpase and a shampoo. That comes over 10€ but less than 15€ so I told her what is left, give me back because I don’t have any money. Last night she came home drunk and I asked her if there was anything left. She said around 3€ because she bought herself facemasks, hair oils, tissues and spent those 3€ on ciggaretes. I don’t know anymore. I honeslty dont.
 I GIVE MY MONEY FOR THE ONE THING I HATE THE MOST IN LIFE! CIGARS! FUCKING CIGARS! EVERYBODY BUYS THESE STUPID CIGARS! SHE SPENDS HER ALIMONY, HER PAYCHECK AND HER SCHOLARSHIP ON DRINKS AND CIGARSS AND NOW SHE SPENT MY LAST MONEY ON HERSELF! I NEED MONEY! I’M SORRY BUT I NEED TO SURVIVE! I’M SORRY BUT MONEY FOR ME IS NOW EVERYTHING BECASUE I’M BROKE AND I’M TRYING TO PAY THE BILLS AND I’M TRYING MY BEST TO KEEP THIS “FAMILY” FUNCTIONING! I’M TRYING MY BEST IN SCHOOL! I’M TRYING MY BEST TO KEEP IT TOGETHER WHEN ALL I WANT TO DO IS JUST KILL MYSELF AND FUCKING DIE ALREADY! MY MOM IS COMPLAINING THAT HER LIFE SUCKS! WHAT SUX ABOUT IT MUM! YOU LEFT! YOU LEFT ME AND MY SISTER AND MY DRUNK ASS FATHER AND YOU LEFT TO YOUR BF AND I’M HAPPY FOR YOU AND I LOVE YOU BUT YOU HAVE EVERYTHING AND I HAVE NOTHING AND HOW IS THAT BAD?! HOW IS YOUR LIFE BAD NOW THAT EVERYTHING IS FALLING IN THE RIGHT PLACE FOR YOU! I’M BATTLEING NOT ONLY MINE BUT OTHERS BATTLES BECASUE I’M DUMB! I’M DUMB AND STUPID AND NAIVE TO BELIVE THAT ONE DAY! THAT DAY, THAT SITUATION THAT I HOPEFULLY BELIVE EVERYTHING WILL GO RIGHT, disappoints me like all the others before.
So what is the point of life? What is the logic in living the life when you don’t have the main thing to live it. Money. That’s the meaning of life now, isn’t it? Either you are born in the rich or the poor, your fate is sealed. The rich have their family to back them up if they slip. What I have is a hard ground to get up to and start climping again if I slip. I fight but I’m so tired of figthing. I just want to let go of everything.
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hitchfender · 6 years ago
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Hey sarah this is a bit out of the blue but I dont want to dump on my friends any more about it, it's making me feel guilty. Im early twenties and I still live with my, quite frankly, toxic parents. I'm in a spot where I cannot support myself to move out, I almost fully rely on them. It gets to the point sometimes where I don't want to be around all together. All things considered I'm coping okay, but since my birthday I've been thinking how abusive their language is and they talk down to me. 1
2 the more I think about it the more stomach turning it gets. Their love feels disingenuous. I don’t want to be around them anymore but I also dont have the option to leave. I was hoping you would have some sort of advice or just some words of comfort. I’m tired of being told I’m the problem, and that I need to grow up or being verbally abused when I make minor mistakes. Thank you for listening - :( anon
hi, lovely anon. i’m going to restate your points just for my own clarification:
1.  your parents are verbally abusive and you can’t take it anymore.
2.  you rely on your parents financially, and don’t know how to change this.
3.  you feel scrutinised and trapped.
i’m really sorry that you’re in this situation - i know from experience how frustrating it can be not to be in charge of your own finances or personal life. here are a few tips, in no particular order. i hope some of them help.
if you are in school: 
do whatever you can to minimise the amount of time you’re at home. take extra credits, start going to a gym, or join some clubs that will take up your time. (these will have the added benefits of helping you learn more, get healthier, and make some friends!) you might even be able to argue that your extracurriculars are keeping you out so late it would be wiser to stay at a friend’s house, or to start living in a dorm.
consider talking to an advisor about study abroad programs. there are often scholarships and loans available for them, and they’re educational experiences that can help you escape for a semester or even a full year.
if you aren’t in school:
start researching apartments on trulia, yelp, or craigslist - it doesn’t hurt to be informed, and it’ll help you to structure considered arguments when you broach the subject of moving out.
talk to friends about possibly rooming together, and apartment-hunt with them in your spare time. having roommates makes living away from home significantly cheaper.
get in touch with friends and relatives who might be willing to let you sleep over. even if it’s just for a short time, it’ll give you a taste of freedom, and might show your parents that you’re serious about wanting to leave.
getting along better with your parents (this sucks. i know.)
contribute as much as you can to living in your home, so your parents can’t say you’re freeloading. take out the trash, keep your space clean, maybe clean the bathroom without being asked sometimes. my hope is this will make the atmosphere less tense for all involved.
if fighting is an issue, try to address fights before they can start. make a plan to avoid sensitive topics, or find ways to derail those conversations.
lie when you have to. find ways to conceal anything you do that they disapprove of - wear modest clothes on top if you’re going to a club, or don’t tell them when you’re going on dates. a little misdirection is infinitely preferable to a lot of conflict.
conversely: be communicative. if you know you won’t be home for twelve hours, let them know beforehand so they can’t accuse you of being dishonest later.
make it clear that you’re considering moving out, and present this as a positive thing for them: you won’t be in their way anymore, you won’t be a strain on the budget, etc. if you spin it in a positive light, they might even be willing to help you plan.
work and money things
explain to your parents why you want to get a job: it’s good practice for the real world, you’ll be able to contribute at home, it’s a productive way to occupy your time. of course, you’re also ultimately planning to move out - whether they see that prospect as a positive or negative thing will affect the way you spin your job search.
take advantage of your local library! libraries are always looking for new employees or volunteers - working at one is a good resume-builder regardless of your chosen field, as well as a way to get out of the house. if you’re a paid employee, that’s another step closer to financial independence.
in school? if you’re in america, you might qualify for federal work-study hours. talk to your advisor about this - it’ll make it easier to find a job on campus.
build your resume! here’s a link with instructions and an example.
i’m a big fan of sites like indeed.com that suggest jobs in your area based on your abilities. sign up and scroll through - they’ll even send you emails when new opportunities arise.
if you don’t have a bank account that’s separate from your parents, you can easily open one. i recommend visiting your bank in person, rather than doing it online or over the phone, since it’s more secure and easier to ask questions.
once you have a steady income, budget yourself. open a savings account and be careful never to withdraw from it - you can make it so that a certain amount of your paycheck goes straight into that account, and it’ll grow on its own.
becoming independent is scary, but i promise you it’s worth it. like anything else, it’s a skill you have to learn, and small steps make a difference. i’m wishing you the best of luck!
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third3yeblonde · 3 years ago
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thoughts for today..
So, it’s pretty late in the evening here. Trying to get myself to start winding down. Although you and I both know how much of a struggle that is for me.. LOL. I’ve already considered doing a deep clean of my room.. It’s gotten pretty bad and I haven’t really done it since I moved in here 2 years ago... Yeah, clutter. Clutter EVERYWHERE because I’m a pack rat and never and I do mean never throw anything away. Memories, you know? But, maybe I need to start learning how to let some of those go.. kind of cleanse my surroundings so I can cleanse my soul. Rid myself of the baggage I carry around all the time. Heavy shit too.. I’ve been told I’m pretty hard on myself and I know it’s true but.. It’s hard to just, not expect so much more of myself when I should be looking for ways to cope and acamodate (sp?) myself I ridicule and put myself down or just straight ignore the fact that I know I may need extra help here and there with life things.. enough to where I just struggle on my own until I break down eventually.. I gotta work on that for sure. I’m going to start writing posts on here every day if I can, but I”m not going to set an impossible goal once again so, you’ll see something from me semi often I hope. Just to kinda get things out of my head and onto some kind of outlet/platform. I’m no artist, I can’t sing or write songs, I dont really exercise, I don’t do planners, I don’t do anything to let things go, let things out. I could just start randomly screaming I guess, but that may become alarming to some, So writing it is, or well, typing it is, Seeing as unfortunately I cannot write with a pen/pencil on paper anymore without my hand starting to cramp up after less than a page of hand writing,, it kills me to have to do this because I love the simple art of writing in a notebook with a new favorite pen and smelling the ink on paper.. but oh well, this will do. :/ enough depressing stuff though, today was okay I guess. It’s my last day off of the week and I got to spend it in court this morning, .Luckily things went how I’d hoped. I got an extention on my community service due date. Just a week, but that gives me time to finish the 11 out of 15 hours I have left. Hopefully I can anyways work around my work schedule. I work 4 out of the 7 days of the week. Hopefully soon to be 5 so I can start making some real money. I’m so excited for my first full paycheck (2 weeks worth of hours). I’m going to feel rich, it’s the most I’ve ever really made somewhere and I”m stoked to see the results of my hard work. I’ve really been busting my ass at this new job. Its another housekeeping position but at a sort of new place. I’m full time @ the La Quinta Inn and Suites now. Cleaning rooms.. fun fun fun. But its a job and an easy one at that, .Well, maybe a little physically taxing but I need that forced bit of exercise every day. I’ve been gaining weight again so this will slim down a smidge. Not that I really want to lose weight I just don’t want to sit around like a blob anymore. I’ve also been doing a lil side hustle.. it’s risky but it getting me through this last gap of no check until next week. I have help, but I think I”m okay at it myself. It’s also not very hard.. just risky if youre not smart about yourself. So i try to be as not dumb as possible in this business. The consequences are more than I’m really willing to face. But, if that day was to ever come of course I would face it. Aint no fuck shit in this bitch. I unlike a lot of people I know really knows and practices respect and loyalty. I wish some people could really see that and appreciate it for what it is... but oh well, thats a song I need to stop singing.. a broken record I’ve got to quit playing. If he loved me, I know where he would be,. and he’s not there so.. that tells me all I need to know. Or it should, I’m just stubborn and really honestly still want to hang on.. I really don’t know why. Matt says Stockholm Syndrome.. I kind of can believe that to be plausible.. just sucks knowing that that is what I had to come to accept as love.. because that’s all he knows how to show it.. and I knew the things I had to endure were worth it because, it meant he cared about me. He hurt me the most because he loved me the most... right? Ha.. yeah, right.. I miss him every day still, I can’t tell you why or how I can still say that and truly mean it but I do. I miss the good times..  I even sometimes miss the attention that came with the not so bad times.. the bad times though, I don’t miss. And wouldnt wish on anyone that has so much love for someone that continuously tries to intimidate, hurt, embarrass or punish them so they can feel big.. I would do anything for him. I did do anything for him.. Every day... And I still would would it not be for his habit of being physically and mentally abusive on a daily basis.. I wish he never had to go through the things that made him into the kind of man he is today. I wish no one had to.. I wish someone had been there to show him real love, to protect him, to give him a real childhood.. to not have it robbed from him at such a young fragile stage in his development as a person.. I wish that I could have loved the bad away. I tried so hard to love his pain away, his past, his rage.. I tried so so hard to show him what real love was. What it really felt like but.. He didn’t know what to do with it when I had such a compulsion to give it all I had. To give him all of me, every ounce of my being I wanted him to know I used to love him with. My heart beat for him, the blood in my veins still runs so hot for him and his touch.. His eyes on me.. the way his hands felt on me,. All over me.. the way his kiss felt all the way down my body.. teasing me in the end. Making the anticipation eat me alive before finally relieving me of my yearning.. letting me have all that I wanted of him.. It was so much about that though, so much of my love for him stemmed for the passion I felt for him during those times,, And I fell so hard for him physically.. It’s so crazy.. but thats how he works. That;s how he gets you. Really any woman.. but goodness.... I know it was real with me. And no one can tell me otherwise. How hard he’d give it to me.. How deep he would go.. making me feel like I’d become a part of him and he of me.. Him making just as much noise as I did.. not being able to contain his pleasure in what he was doing to me.. How good it felt.. grabbing my hair from behind me and gripping harder with every stroke.. ugh.. telling me when he wanted me to cum for him.. and goddamn did that make me lose it. Worked like a charm everytime that hot breath in my ear with those words.. that demand.. to show just how much control he had over my body in those moments. His voice.. fuck.. rough and low.. me responding with shakes all throughout my body as that pleasure pulsed through my entirety.. over and over again. Making me say his name amidst the cussing I always let out when I’m being railed right.. god bless america.. well this turned into something entirely different than what I had anticipated but.. I can dig it. LOL wonder how much content I could come with that would actually be acceptable as something worth reading,. God bless. Now I’m sitting here all uncomfortably hot and bothered. I wish he’d come fuck me one last time,. making sure I never forget who did it right.. always.. who changed my life in soooo many ways; not even just in hed either but i won’t get too emotional about it right now. Theres absolutely no excuse for the way he got me wrapped aroumd his finger.. Using sex as a bribe worse than candy for a fucking baby..Anyways,. this is probaly a pretty good stopping point. I’ll never understand how he could pick her over the shit we do .. but ohh well.. It hurts less and less everytime I’ve been reminded which gets less and less often as each day passes.. Okay, goodnight everybody.  
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theangelofthephoenix · 3 years ago
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The Twins Of Mistwood Manor Part Seven
Home For The Holidays
Snow lightly fell outside of a small suburban home on the outskirts of town. Christmas was here, and true to what Elizabeth said Mio had given Alexandra Christmas off to be with her family. Alex had been...oddly quiet about that decision which made Mio raise an eyebrow but neither spoke on it. So the days passed and she found herself at home for the first time in a couple months. Neither the inside or the outside of the house was decorated for the season. It was a cold, quiet night.
Alex was busy in the dining room serving up two plates of food that she had prepared. Ham, mashed potatoes, gravy, baby carrots, green bean casserole, and a healthy slice of pumpkin pie.
Seated at the table were a man and a woman in their late forties. The man wore a nice button down shirt and black slacks, while the woman adorned a fancy white dress for the occasion. Alex, meanwhile, was in simple jeans and a sweater. The couple were her parents, as they shared an eye color and facial features with each of them. They lacked her dyed blue hair obviously, the father's being brown and the mother's blonde.
"Took you long enough. Christmas dinner is usually in late afternoon but here it is seven thirty already." The father piped up as Alex placed their plates in front of them.
"Sorry." She quietly replied. Her eyes remained on the table as she went to sit across from them. She made no move to get food herself.
"Ah well, cant be helped dear. She did have a lot of chores to catch up on." The mother spoke then before starting in on her food. There was a few moments pause before the father spoke again.
"Speaking of which, we're going to need you to contribute more financially since you aren't home to do your part anymore." This caused her eyes to shift up finally.
"What? But I already give you guys half of my paycheck. I thought you guys were close to getting jobs again."
"Sadly our opportunities fell through, dear. You know how it is." The mother replied, a smirk threatening to crease her face.
"Yes, and since from what I understand your housing and food is provided to you I think you could part with your entire paycheck. You dont exactly need it." The father added. Alex's eyes widened.
"N-no, that's not fair! What do you need all that money for? What happened to your job prospects? Are you even trying?"
A silence fell over the table. The father leaned forward then, his eyes narrowing at his daughter. "Watch your tone. Or do I need to remind you what happens when you aren't an obedient child?"
Alex's eyes dropped to the table again. Her hands were shaking, so she tried to fold them in her lap to keep them steady. Finally, she spoke.
"Yes sir. I understand sir."
"Good. Now take the trash down out of the attic. By the time you're done your mother and I should be done eating and you can have what's left."
Alex silently stood from the table and quickly left the room. Her chest hurt, her eyes felt like they were on fire from holding back tears. It wasn't long before she was dragging a few trash bags out of the house and to the street. It was only when the bags were set down that tears finally began to stream down her face as she stood in the snow.
"I shouldve made something up...shouldve said something, anything to not have to come back here..." She softly muttered to herself, her breath forming steam in the air. "I thought I'd be making Lady Mio Christmas dinner but...here I am again..."
She wiped at her eyes, desperately trying to stop her tears. She turned to collect more trash when her eyes caught sight of a bat hanging from the overhang above the porch. She rubbed at her eyes again, trying to clear them to confirm what she was seeing.
"Hey little guy..." Her voice was still soft and quiet as she took slow steps toward the creature. "What are you doing out here? You're gonna freeze."
The bat only seemed to watch her, its bright red eyes locked on her movements. Red eyes...
"Heh. I'm probably just seeing things. Stress making me hallucinate this creepy ass bat...ha..." She muttered softly as she looked up at it. "I dont suppose figments of my imagination can take me out of here, can they? How about it little one? Can you kidnap me so I dont have to go back inside?"
"Alex! Are you finished with that trash yet? Hurry up!" Alex winced at the distant booming voice of her father. She looked toward the house before wiping at her eyes again.
"Pull it together. Just a little longer...just a little longer..." Without even glancing back toward the strange bat she moved to head back inside. She tried to avoid her parents directly as she wasn't sure they'd take kindly to the fact she'd been crying. She didn't have to think about it long as there was a sudden knock on the front door. She paused, hearing muttering coming from the kitchen table before the inevitable order came for her to see who the hell would dare bother them this time of night on Christmas. She adjusted herself, trying her best to look composed as always as she went to answer the door.
"Good ev-" Her words caught in her throat as the door swung open. Standing on the porch now was Mio, dressed to the nines in her usual gothic attire. She was in the middle of folding up a large black umbrella as she smiled at her caretaker.
"Good evening Alex. I am terribly sorry for showing up unannounced but I'm afraid something rather urgent has come up so I've come to get you."
Mio looked past Alex toward where she could hear other voices approaching.
"What's with this? Who the hell are you?" The mother's agitation was more openly showing now.
"Good evening Mr. And Mrs. Middleton. My deepest apologies for interrupting your Christmas but I really must take Alex back now as something urgent has come up. She did agree to be on call 24/7. Rest assured though, I will fairly compensate her for the intrusion upon your Christmas as a family."
Alexandra watched quietly as Mio spoke to her parents. Her face remained calm and refined but something in her eyes felt...dangerous. She could hear her parents murmuring behind her before actually stating their understanding. She glanced back at them, unsure why they hadn't tried to fight it. She knew it was partly because they knew that extra compensation she was going to get was going straight to them but still. Something felt off.
"Perfect. Come along then, Alex. I'll fill you in on the way back to the manor."
Alex looked back toward Mio and saw that strange glint in her eyes directed at her now. Suddenly her head felt foggy. She could only nod her agreement as she stepped outside onto the porch, closing the door of her family home. Mio took a moment to open back up her umbrella before starting to walk away into the dark snowy night. Alex took a moment to try to shake the fog from her head before moving to follow after her. Something still felt really weird but...she got what she wanted in the end.
<Part One>
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hoeexotic · 6 years ago
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Feel free to ignore all of this if you want I’m just organizing my thoughts on this lmao
So it’s 5am lol and I figured out that I’m shopping so much 1. Because I got really toned and lost weight so I feel like I wanna put nice clothes on the body I’ve been working hard for but more importantly 2. All my friends are in graduate/medical school and I already started working so a. It’s to fill a void that I’m the only working so I at least wanna show that I have money to afford nice things or some shit like that and b. Because, not trying to brag, but I have my job on lockdown and haven’t learned a ton lately and I love learning so I feel like I’m not getting any smarter or better since I’m not in grad school so I’m turning to designer brands to feel better about myself and status if that makes sense???? Also potentially 3. Kinda with the sex and workout “addiction” (I say addiction but I can function....mainly because I’ll workout twice a day even if I’m in a ton of pain or tired and if I don’t I’ll get a legitimate anxiety attack that I’ll wake up fat or something stupid on occasion and the sex thing dictates my self worth and times and sometimes Its all I can think about for hours and if I don’t have sex with someone on a weekly basis I feel shitty about the way I look and stuff like that) sure I hookup a lot and have a ton of self confidence now (which I’ve never had) so I’m loving myself by indulging in clothes and showing off my body to other people (I .e. Sex, All my tumbler pics and my burner Snapchat account just for tinder guys) but maybe I’m filling a void that I’m lonely and nobody loves me? I only get sad that I’m single if I’m bored and by myself on a weeknight (which then I usually either online shop or stop in somewhere on the walk home from work since I know I’m not going anywhere or have plans), but like on the weekend I love the single life and I dont think about that at all if I’m busy or during the weekend (maybe sexcept sundays). So it could be some kind of nonstop subconscious loneliness. But also having said that, I feel like in between hookups there’s always one guy on a seasonal basis that I get really hopeful about but know it’s a totally forlorn situation, so I guess since I know I probably can’t have them I can at least have material possessions. Also one last part to this: I was dependent in relationships in every way and expected a lot to be done/given to me by my partners, but over the past year and a half or so, my independence levels and relationship expectations have completely 360ed so I feel like I treat myself a lot to prove that I dont expect or want anything to be given or bought for me anymore and I wanna buy myself all this stuff to show this kind of growth even though at the same time it’s negatively affecting me so I guess it’s not really the most effective form of growth.
So in conclusion I decided to brush up on French, which I used to be really good at in high school, and learn German. I love learning and language so this is a good idea for a hobby to get over what potentially could be functioning retail addiction (I say functioning because I wear/use everything I buy and I have no debt, but I’m still a bargain chaser and if I see something I want, I spend hours of my day being distracted and thinking about it, and I can’t really focus on or do work/life until I break down and just buy it and this can go on for days with one item after another to the point where my mom has to call me up telling me she looked at my statement and I need to cool it with my paycheck spending (yes she still looks at my statement sometimes even though it’s my money lol). But yeeeeaah useful self analysis here I’m gonna be tired at work but this was definitely a good brainstorm for personal development......on a positive note: when I first started working at the end of last October, I told myself I’d essentially take a gap year in financial responsibility and have already decided that I would let myself spend freely if as long as I had a certain amount leftover at all times. And now that I only have about two months left I feel very satisfied and no need for anything else, which I havent felt all year. Sure I spent a lot but but it also played a role in adjusting to my new life with work attire (in a trendy office, gotta keep up) and going out in the city I live in on the weekends (didn’t go out much in college and was an athlete so I hoenstly didn’t have a ton of viable trendy work/going out options to begin with. But this whole blog post had to do with my stress after purchasing a large overhaul of outerwear, clothes, shoes, and scarves for the upcoming fall and winter because I wanted to replace a lot of old ratty stuff of this nature that I’ve had for years, and though it was expensive and I feel a small sense of anxiety that I have little financial gains after working almost a full year, I feel satisfied that I have all the clothes I need for any situation in my work/city life, which I didnt feel before.
Also the language learning is great because I’ve been wanting to travel to Europe sooo badly (like to the point where all of the stuff I bought on this fall winter overhaul was a discounted European designer that I found seconhand on Poshmark), but I know thay travelling is hella expensive so every time I learn, I’ll be filling a void and it’ll be motivation to save!!
I’m also glad I wrote this out organizing my thoughts because it was hard at first to pinpoint my issue....In college I was a big believer in retail therapy, as anyone in my family, my friends, or any of my exes, but on the surface I feel so happy and am having so much fun in my life. So yeah again if you’re reading this sorry that you did because this is a bunch of random shit that’s not at all funny or enticing or entertaining and it’s really only useful to myself (and I know I’m missing like thousands of commas and punctuation at this point along with a ton of spelling errors becaus im kinda just typing my thoughts as they come). But yeah I’m glad I could sort of figure out and pinpoint why I’m shopping so much when I dont really experience depression anymore, and what voids I’m filling if any.
I’m being serious tho
Help I’m addicted to sex retail and working out I’m gonna be left work no money a broken back and hips and the clap at this rate
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I just read the front page of our local newspaper regarding homeowners and auto insurance rates will be tied to ones credit score, making those with lower incomes, or problematic credit to pay even more for the home or auto insurances. The main question I have is...do you think that if ones credit improves, that the insurance companies have an adjustable rate that will decrease when ones credit score increases? I know this isn't the way it's going to happen, but what are your feelings on this plan?""
I am 22 Years Old. I Live in Ireland. How can I buy cheap car insurance?
I am 22 Years Old. I Live in Ireland. How can I buy cheap car insurance?
Question for uk drivers: How much does disqualification effect car insurance?
Was convicted 5 months ago for permitting use of a vehicle without third party insurance and driving with not in accordance with a licence . Got 4 month disqualification but managed to keep driving licence just need to re-apply for it back from d.v.l.a. Does being disqualified greatly effect insurance? will it affect insurance the same as say drink driving?
Do I need to switch car insurance for being out of state temperaily? Am I still covered?
I have car insurance in Florida, but I'm going to be going to school in New Jersey for probably for 2 years. Do I need to switch my car insurance or will I still be covered under FL rates? My DL has my Florida address and my car is registered in Florida. I plan on going back, so what should I do? Thanks (I'm with State Farm BTW)""
VERY URGENT! Buying car insurance by telephone  heeeelp!!!!?
Hello thank you for entering in my post I'm buying an insurance for my car by phone call so far I have the best deal from a company called Admiral Tomorrow I'm going to call this insurance company back to settle the agreement I've never done a contract by phone call I believe they should obviously send me a contract by e-mail with all my details and all the details of my purchase and the details of the company  until here it's quite clear my question is: How should I pay for this contract? Should I give my debit card details by phone call? Is buying an insurance by telephone safe? Any advice according this matter will be very appreciated thank you in advance for your help
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Car insurance question?
My car is currently under my parents name any under my parents insurance. It was a gift from my parents but we never bothered changing the ownership over and it wasn't a big deal since we live in the same home. I am planning on moving out soon, do I need to have the car put in to my own name to get my own insurance and to make it legal? I've heard that continuing to pay through their plan without living in there house would make it void. If I don't change my ID right away would it still count as me not living there?""
Uninsured driver with no license driving car with insurance hit my car.?
A teenager hit my car. He had no insurance, no license, but he was driving a relative's car that did have insurance. There is no question he is liable, everything seem to be going well. But now there insurance company is telling me they are disputing wheather or not the kid had permission to drive the car. What are the chances I'm gonna get screwed here? And what should I do?""
What would my insurance company do if I told them I'm derestricting my moped?
Hi, I'm not a stupid driver or irresponsible, it's just I work so I have to drive 15 miles to and from work (I'm 16) and I know it's illeagle to derestrict my 50cc moped but I could really do with abit more speed without being caught, so if I told my insurance company that I'm 16 and derestricting my moped, would they still cover me or cancel my insurance? I'm a sensible driver! Thanks in advance""
Cheapest car insurance in florida?
I know insurance is very important, but I simply do not have the money right now to get a good plan. I have a minimum wage job, and I need to go to work and I need a way to get there. So I need the cheapest plan I can find. At least for now. These premiums are up to 500 a month and I really cant do that. Anybody know of a cheap cheap CHEAP car insurance company?""
Teen driver and car insurance?
I am 17 years old and am looking to buy my first car. I have found a 2002 Buick Rendezvous CX that I am very interested in. The only problem now is insurance...With my car insurance company, Liberty Mutual, it will be close to $800 every 6 months! That is A LOT of a teenager or for anyone to be paying. That is also being under my parents policy which has the best coverage. What can I possibly do to finagle a lower price? I know that the car should be registered as pleasure driving, I have good grades, took Drivers education...what else can I do to try and lower my payment every 6 months? If there are any tips, please help me!""
How much is car insurance for a 17 year old?
I know it all depends, but I'm talking on average, I live in the Manchester area and I've heard it depends on your area aswell?""
Car Insurance decrease or increase?
I'm purchasing a 2012 Toyota Aygo within the coming weeks but I cannot be quoted on the insurance as the 2012 registration plates have not yet come up on the database of the insurance company I would like to go with. I have had a quote for 'nearly' the exact car but a 2011 version. Does anybody have a rough idea if the insurance is likely to increase or decrease with it being a 2012 model? Thanks :)
How much is Audi A4 1.8t insurance?
I know there are a lot of things to take into consideration when getting insurance quotes and all but I was on craigslist and I found a nice little 2005 Audi A4 1.8t and I wanted to get an idea of insurance. I know that it is considered a luxury sedan and its foreign from Germany so those are going to make it more expensive. It puts out around 170hp and 160 trq. The car has great crash test ratings too. Seller is asking a little under $6000 and I don't know how many miles are on it yet. Other things to consider are that im only 19 so it would go under my fathers name. I know its hard to estimate what insurance would be but if anyone can come up with a good idea or if they own one themselves. Im not completely sold on the car but I just wanted a little help from the yahoo community. Any help would be greatly appreciated. I know Im not giving you a lot of info to work with.
Car insurance for 17 year olds - UK?
Im about to turn 17 and wanted to start driving, how much would car insurance be for a Ford Ka? Are there any cheaper companies to go to and any ways of bringing down the price like installing trackers etc. Would it be much cheaper to be put onto parents insurance, even if they are really bad drivers!?""
In india car insurance have to pay monthly or yearly & how much it cost?
In india car insurance have to pay monthly or yearly & how much it cost? is that same for new aswell as for old car?
Will a seatbelt violation afect my insurance rate in california?
Will a seatbelt violation afect my insurance rate in california?
Classic (1964-1972) Mustang Reliability/Maintenance/Insura...
Hi guys, I am looking to get a classic mustang convertible as my first car/college car. Is this a good idea? I know its not the most reliable, but for the kind of money I have I think it is the coolest and most fun car I can buy. What are the reliability/maintenance/insurance like? thank you!""
Good auto insurance company in St. Jonh's Canada?
I'm looking for a cheap auto insurance companies in NL. Can anybody help me on this please? I'm from New Zealand and was paying $70 a year for my car insurance and was blew away with the amount of the insurance in Canada. I know it's depends on car type driving record etc, but I just need names of companies which is generally cheap.""
Can I insure a vehicle I don't legally own? ?
Can I insure a vehicle I don't legally own? ?
Named driver had crash. Should I tell my car insurance?
Last year my girlfriend has a car crash, she was not at fault. So she didn't tell her insurance company and claimed of the other party. So she is assuming her car insurance does not know. Now I am looking to get insured on my first car. If I add her to my insurance as a named driver the premium is about 200 less. The problem is she doesn't want me to tell the insurance company that she crashed, as they asked has the named driver crash. I am now worried I were to crash, they would see she had crashed and void the insurance. I am tempted just to get my insurance in my name and pay the extra 200 for peace of mind. She will not under any circumstance tell her insurer she crashed as she thinks her premiums will rise. But I have found out that the insurance companies have a database of all claims, so they can easily find out that she has crashed. She refused to allow me to put on my application for insurance that she has crashed. What to do?""
How should i select PIP in car insurance...?
Hi.. I am going to take a car insurance and i am not very much clear about PIP. what is the best option to take as there are 4 PIP options given to me I have a health insurance that covers me till 80 % of the expenses. So if i take PIP option in my car insurance will it cover me the rest of the 20 %? will both the insurances work together? Please let me know. Thanks
How much would Insurance for a bike?
I want to get a 2005 YZR-R6 by yamaha. I dont have my motorcycle licence and im 17 years old. I will get my first written (m1) licence soon. the bike is cheap but im woried about insurance. For motorcycle insurance do you pay it for all 12 months? I will only be riding it in the summer time anyways so do companies allow you to only pay for 3-4 months?
""If my car was stolen, does the insurance pay me or the lienholder the settlement check?
It has been a month since my car was stolen and it hasnt turned back up. So the next step is the settlement. How does it work if i owe the lienholder 3000 dollars?? Does the insurance pay the lienholder and i get the difference or do they just pay me? And does the interest rate get deducted from the $3000????
What's a good sports car for a 16 year old that would have cheap insurance?
What's a good sports car for a 16 year old that would have cheap insurance?
How much would car insurance cost? ?
I'm 18 and live I'm Maryland. I want to get a car but want an idea of how much car insurance will cost
What health insurance can help me?
ok im 44 years old and i have super low income and i have heart problem, 8 years ago i got heart attack now insurances i applyed for wont take me because i had heart attack im from different country so i dont know many american isurances and stuff please tell me which is cheap health insurance which will check out my heart and hopefully help me""
How does health insurance work?
I'm completely lost on how health insurance works... and I'm finally starting to work and don't know what to do =/ so any information about it is greatly appreciated. thank you
Do I qualify for federal health insurance?
My parents don't get insurance through their jobs, and they can't afford private insurance. My parents and I are currently enrolled in an assistance program through our local hospital. I go to a private university that requires for students to have some type of health insurance. If the student doesn't have health insurance, the school charges the student $1,000 for the school insurance. Since I am 19 years old, I no longer qualify for CHIPS, which I've had all my life. I am a full time student, I am a U.S. citizen, I am in Texas, my parents are low income, I don't have proof of a job (I'm a nanny and get paid in cash). Online resources are confusing. But is there any federal insurance program that I may be eligible for?""
Most Reliable and Affordable Car Built Between 1995-2001 ?
Mercedes c-class ?
Does anyone know cheap car insurance websites for a 22 year old driver?
hi i am a 22 year old driver and i live in london does anyone know any cheap car insurance web sites?
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