#i hate you for what you've done to me

[utilitycaster]

I feel like every condemnation of the gods of Exandria, in-world or out, comes from someone who, when posed with the Trolley Problem, was like "well I would simply ensure I was not in that situation" and just generally I think the first time you say that in your life someone must give you a patient, gentle, and throrough explanation of the concept of a thought experiment. they should also give you a healthy snack. every time after that though it's purge rules.

[iamfuckingsorry]

"Do you know where we are going next?" I asked ART.

Y'know what, I think maybe I don't need any more Murderbot books. I think maybe ending things here is fucking perfect and as much as I love Wells's writing I'm genuinely not sure it can get better for me.

Like, so much of the books are about MB learning how to be a person, about becoming okay with being a complete individual with everything it entails. The first thing it does once it's actually allowed to decide on its own is it runs away from it all (admittedly to go on a mission to confirm some things about its past, because it genuinely just wants to be *good*). It shoves all its emotions away as much as it's able to. Then shit happens, and it makes its first friends, makes decisions based on these friendships, goes through a lot of emotionally intense situations...

And we get to this point here. MB having zero doubts about going with ART says a lot about its relationship with ART, but it also says a lot about its relationship with its humans - it knows that wherever it goes, when it comes back, the humans will still be there. Its humans actively acknowledge its struggles with being a now-free SecUnit and MB is willing to entertain the discussions to an extent and share information about its deeply personal experiences. Hell, System Collapse ends with MB admitting it might be somewhat broken, but that's okay as long as it can keep doing its job, and agreeing to basically do counselling - this is the guy what would rewatch its favourite TV show again and again in order to avoid acknowledging it even had Emotions a couple books back.

Reading this, I know that MB will be okay. It has hopes and goals and genuinely believes in itself and it has an amazing support system that its willing to lean on for the first time in its life. I'm convinced it'll go on to do great things with ART. And that's really the only thing I need to know.

[venomouslilith]

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[justaz]

was thinking about my merthur greek stories post and ran into a few tiktoks about orpheus and eurydice and got to thinking even more. just imagining them going thru a trial for some reason with the same premise and arthur is leading but cant help but look back to make sure merlin is still there and they think that means they fail but it just proved to whoever was running the trial that arthur was a loving and caring man so they passed it,, yay happy ending.

but then someone said “if orpheus had loved eurydice less, he could’ve saved her” and i got to thinking about canon merthur and started crying. if merlin had loved arthur a little less, just enough to where he didnt let the distant threat of doom hang over his head, where he didnt push morgana and mordred away, he could’ve saved arthur. if he had loved him just a little less

[seokmattchuus]

And if I said I still don't hate shauna, then what

[riley-summers]

The amount of people in the btvs fandom who get nasty when you dare to like a character who is unpopular/they don't like is actually staggering. Like. There's plenty of characters I don't love, but interestingly enough, I don't think I've ever harassed anyone for liking Kennedy (and personally I don't like her), or for shipping Willow/Kennedy (and yes I do know people who enjoy that ship).

Like it's not hard to just ingore stuff you don't like. Don't like my blorbo? Block his tag. Block the shipping tags I use. I tag everything. But noooooo some of you all don't do that. "Oh no! Someone on tumblr likes Riley Finn! Nooooo I don't like him and I don't want to be on the same website as someone who does!" Ok I have a couple solutions for you. One is to block the tags and keep on scrolling. The other is to log off tumblr and go touch some grass.

it's not the whole fandom. a lot of you are chill. but some of you. are not.

[arttsuka]

Visual representation of me trying to communicate with other people via text

[eggzeroni]

if people are so great then tell me why my character ai is keeping my passion alive rather than the people who are supposed to motivate me.

[hella1975]

genuinely people who send anon hate must be sooo miserable and bored. like seriously do you not have anything better to do than anonymously harass FANFICTION authors on TUMBLR??? like pls get a job I beg of you and also maybe a better personality. anyways ily thank you for sharing your amazing writing

REALLL SAY IT LOUDER PLEASE!!!!!

[deitycrows]

I gotta say reading all the posts about cr3s ending is interesting to me. But I wanna talk about Vaxleth really quick and how it really isn't a happy ending. If anything, it's worse and that's why I LOVE IT so much, it isn't them falling in love again (kinda). Starting with Vax. It's Vax who's a completely different person at this point, with only a handful of fragments of who he used to be left. How he hasn't been a mortal for 30 years (he's still not), 30 years is still a long time. He still has his duties he willingly does with the Matron, especially now if cr4 (whenever that is) and her also being a mortal again and whatever Matt decides to do with it. How he has to fit in with all this new change, so big. His story is bittersweet tragedy, yet he is walking again with his family, people would call it a miracle. I'd call it a curse, it a sense it IS such a horrifying thing. Having to not only find himself again, but figure out just How he is as well, to navigate how he as now is the same spot Keyleth is in. He'll have to watch his sister, her children, his beloved friends and family including those named in honor of HIM die and maybe that's not a bad thing. Maybe he won't feel as torn as I am writing but he still has to watch all that happen or not even be there 100% of the time because he still has a job to do. He's a walking anomaly. He shouldn't be Here anymore, yet he is. And Keyleth, poor Keyleth deserves to move on. She truly does, but wouldn't, couldn't because Vax won't himself. She was healing, I'm not one to say she should've moved on in those 30 years, it's both a long time and not, especially if you're so deep in grief, but the work was being made toward healing till she saw him and it brought back everything up again. That loved saved her again, yet most likely sent her back right to square one. And here she is with him back and short term of course they're happy, but long term real soon is going to show just how messy things will get. She's also changed, she still holds the same resentment, guilt, sorrow, etc she did. And now him being in front of her? the utter cause of all of her feeling she's been under in so long? Wouldn't spite not just be aimed at the Matrons way but his as well? They both know things won't be different or easy but with everything and I mean EVERYTHING that happened in their relationship I can honestly see them still not being together in the long run if we ever do see them in a one shot or in c4. How does one explain to people? to herself of all, even if she got the one she wanted back. Why isn't she happy? Why does her step still carry the same weight as before when he was gone? Wouldn't it just be better to split up and let that love finally die. It is tragic in a different sense if they did. Or will they actually take the time to rewind and start again? Will they agree it's good for them or not? Especially Keyleth since at a certain point she also will die and Vax will be alone again.

[mairen-marionette]

i really wish my mother didn't hate me. And that I wasn't essentially trapped here with her. And just in general had more avenues of getting myself out of here or even just have someone who could take me in and help me out or something.

[aeolianblues]

I'm not an extrovert. At all. In everyday life, I'm a yapper, sure, but I need someone to first assure me I am okay to yap, so I don't start conversations, even when I really want to join in sometimes! It's just the social anxiety acting up. God knows where from and why I lose a lot of my inhibitions when it comes to talking to people about music. I don't know where the confidence has suddenly sprung from. I've made a crazy amount of friends in musical circles, either just talking to people about common music or (since it is after all in music circles) talking to bands about their own music. I let out a sigh of relief any time an interaction goes well, because in truth it's going against my every instinct. I wish I could do that in everyday life

[acrylicdragon]

Help "let's go for a car ride" turned out to be deep family lore discussion and now I want to cry

[crowsdove]

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[geddy-leesbian]

ngl weirdly salty that there's already like an Established Leon Lore guy. does not matter how much i meticulously document everything about DSC lore, literally no one will ever come to my ask box on @leon-stupid-kennedy to ask a lore question. I guarantee if the vast majority of my mutuals had a question related to Darkside Chronicles Leon they wouldn't come to me, they'd run straight to highball. don't get me wrong highball is GOAT, but like when it comes to Darkside specifically I'd say I'm more useful. like I'm not trying to be arrogant or say I'm a Leon expert or anything but I don't think he's even played DSC ever, I had to get him screenshots of costumes once when he posted about not being able to find them and also he wasn't aware that the cutscenes are pre rendered or whatever so costumes don't work in them. I have a phd in darkside chronicles at this point but i don't have cool name recognition so why even bother asking me when you could just ask highball because his word is gospel who cares what anyone else knows about leon

No matter how hard i try i will never get lore questions or requests for anything because ???

Like even outside of darkside i feel like i have enough cred to be someone who would maybe get a luis lore ask once in a blue moon bc ive analyzed his fucking trash can and found a HIDDEN ROOM IN HIS HOUSE NO ONE ELSE HAS EVER GONE IN but nope no one cares about heathers thoughts at all! my opinions are worth nothing i exist to pump out gif and screenshot sets. the only time i get headcanon/lore/anything asks is when i pathetically beg which makes it less fun! :) literally how the fuck do people judt get spontaneous asks.

I do so much work taking screenshots of EVERYTHING and compiling lore and no one gives a shit because I'm not some household re fandom name like highball or eric. I'm the weird loser outcast of the fandom that's never fully included. You'll drive by and maybe slow down and reblog a gif set of mine or a shit post, but you're keeping your windows rolled up, you're not engaging with me.

Once in a while I'll get thanked for what i do but idk it just rings hollow sometimes. Ppl tell me ive done so much for the fandom but the fandom doesn't seem to be aware of that seeing as a lot of re blogs that interact with my mutuals constantly refuse to follow me or engage with me in any way beyond reblogging my shit posts :) literally people who joined the fandom long after I did have more RE mutuals than me. whenever a new person pops up in the fandom everyone flocks to them and they'll follow back and interact with a ton of people, but not me! :)) like do I need to change my blog theme? Trash the ugly wall of disorganized text. Oh wait no that won't do anything because even when I had a super clean/neat/organized blog description I was ignored like I am now :)) something about me is inherently off putting to other RE fans and I should just give up <3

[brown-little-robin]

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