#i hate scrolling through cute fanart and then bam

[anonygowose]

Am I the only person horrendously weirded out by selfcest???

I see SO much Artificer (RW) selfcest, shipping Arti before and after the incident with the pups and..... why....? Just. Eugh.

I do not understand the appeal of romanticizing a character with themself? It's just kinda gross imo? Tags will have more opinions :/

[thanatos-nightshade]

Rant: Long Post

Have i ever told you guys how much i hate coloring? Cause i do i really do. If i could sketch all day i would but those are a messy. Like my ability goes down as i spend more time on it for the most part. And wanna know what i hate? The thing i draw the most is mostly me. Does that make me conceited? I dunno. Like if i draw other things i use refs a lot and if i go to draw something else i dont know what to draw. I love klance but do i draw it thag much? No. I love lance but aside from when ive read fanfics and shit i dont rlly draw him. I love my ocs but i dont draw them that much either but you go through my sketchbooks and theres a bunch of fanart and then theres me. A lot of mes. Different aus different styles clothinfs posings positions little comics you name it. This has been a worry of mine for a while but i dunno. Today its really gotten to me. Like at least other people have ocs all i have are fucking self insert shit. Fuck me man. But back to coloring i did this one piece a while ago for a friend in like 30 minutes and it was pretty simple and pretty easy and i used a color palette for part of it and like boom bam done but now i dunno like. I draw myself so much and my colors are never consistent and i just see so many mistakes right now but i dont want to leave it a mess. Like goddamn alexis the least you could do is clean it up. But like i dunno. I jist dunno about all this any more. And like my traditional drawings look good but digital sucks ass. Im so tired. I fucking hate this i fucking hate me. God damn. Fuck it yall get this rant post. Have fun with it i dont fucking care i just. I think its just a slump just today a bad day im tired sort of thing but i dunno. Im just literally the epitome of cringy and like i dunno. Like i dont care but at the same time i do a tiny bit like ive got no creative juices and im a little angry at that? But at the same time aside from these self insert shits i do i do have ocs like i have voltron ocs who i dont even have names for yet ive got an entire dark hunters/chronicles of nick spin off self insert story sort of thing i fall back on when i want to daydream. Ive got ocs in there too but do i draw them? Do i flesh them out? No. I did a little to one. His last name keeps changing but his names eric. Ugh whatever. I dunno. I might go to sleep early and come back to this over the weekend or never but like. I dunno i just feel so let down this time. I really wanted to draw. I wanted to create something digitally and i was itching to draw something but i pulled up the program and i doodled a chibi keith and part of a lance as a warm up and then dove into this and i lost everything. Something cute and curvy? Nope i cant fucking do that. Youre lucky if everything turns out anatomically correct or proportionate but will it? Nope cause im a lazy mofo who fucking sucks at this. Uuugh i shouldve warmed up more i shouldve tried more things i shouldnt have even attempted to do this but i actually put effort into this galra oc??? Like i dont know! And then now i just pffftttttt nope. Colors? Eh close enough just fucking fuck me. Im sorry. I actually had a good night maybe its just not good for art. Who knows. Maybe i should sleep early. Maybe its the set up. Who knows. Im sorry i just...i dont know. I just really don't know right now. Ill probably work on cleaning this up and then sleep. Maybe use the palette thing for the background and shit. But i should sleep. I hope you just scrolled past this itsnreallt shitty and not a big deal. But if you did read this uhm thank you and im sorry you had to read that. Ill be ok.