#i hate being jealous because it makes me feel gross ☹️

[joplinspiderz]

if i type enough words into google docs, maybe ill forget that i am seething with jealousy

[harryconcepts]

part 42

"is it true he doesn't touch you in the place the way I know you like" that's jealous Harry who fucking hates your bf bc he's always had a crush on you and knows he could treat you better 😌 he's def very petty and says stuff like "you can go back to your little boyfriend, but I know you'll come back to me" and he's so confident about that 😌

going to look at dogs or cats with harry after you move in together 🥹 I feel like you would def go to shelters to look there, and harry is all "we're not getting anything today, we're just looking" and you're like yes yes i know and then 30 minutes later you're carrying your new little baby out to the car 🥰 he just couldn't resist your begging eyes when you picked up the little kitty and said "harry she loves you... she needs us... she needs a new home... harry please 🥺" so you're stopping at the pet store on the way home to buy all the necessities 😌

if you were ever in Vegas with Harry he would be suuuuch a pest he would be like "hey we're not doing anything today... let's go get married 😌" and he's joking but also a little bit not joking 😌 he goes "what do you think baby we could have an Elvis officiant, I think it's a great idea 😌"

harry would want to renew your vows CONSTANTLY, he comes home and kisses you and says "let's renew our vows 😋" and you're like noooo you weirdo it's been 2 months and he goes "two month anniversary sounds like a good time to me, I'll go look into it 😋"

counteracting that gross angst to say harrys favorite thing is going down on you 😌 he will just come up to you and say "can I eat you out" and you're just like ... yes so he's immediately pulling you to the edge of the couch and pulling your shorts off 😌 he throws your legs over his shoulders and gets into it 😌 he loves feeling surrounded by you and being able to smell and taste you so intensely so he grabs onto your hips to pull you closer 😌 he barely breathes bc he's so focused on making you feel good 😌

Harry is always ripping off your clothes 😌 you go shopping together and buy lots of new lingerie allll the time and then you get home and he asks you to do a little fashion show for him 😌 which ofc ends with him throwing you onto the bed and ripping the pretty outfits right off your body 😌 you always whine at him and he shushes you, saying "you know I'll buy you more" and then he's on you 😌

harry absolutely loves hearing you beg and having you desperate under him 😌 when you wrap your legs around his hips and pull him against you because you're so needy for anything he'll give you 😌 kissing at his neck and whispering "please, please I need you" bc he just likes being in control 😌

ok that brat line is HAWT ... he gets a little stern and gives you that look... you know he means business and maybe he even grabs your jaw to make you look at him 🥵 he says "you can be in a bad mood, but you don't get to be mean to me for no reason" and you say you're sorry, and he lets go to say "do you want some space right now? tell me what you need from me" in a voice that says he's not going to fight or argue with you right now, he just wants to do whatever is best for you... he goes upstairs and leaves you alone for a while, then an hour or so later you come up to him and give him a hug saying you're sorry 😔 he holds you so tight and says "I'm not mad at you, just glad my girl's feeling better" 😔

imagine having a baby from before you met harry, and you're a little nervous he might be freaked out but he's so good with her right away ☹️ maybe she's just starting to teethe, and she's a smiley baby so you can always see them sticking out, and the first time he meets her they're both so giggly and he thinks her little teeth are the cutest thing in the world ☹️ he's always offering to babysit and you can tell he's not doing it bc he feels like he has to, he really just likes being with her ☹️ a few times you've walked into the room and he's holding her up and saying "say harry... ha... rry...." and bouncing her up and down to make her laugh ☹️ she just stares at him and maybe babbles a big and he says "we'll keep working on it" and gives her a big kiss on the cheek ☹️☹️☹️

your baby being scared of Harry's tattoos when she first sees them 😭😭 maybe you don't have any or if you do it's just one or two small ones and so she sees him and she's like 😶 not knowing what to think 😭 so then for a while whenever he comes over he wears sleeves so she won't be freaked out, at least until she gets used to him and all the funny drawings on his arms 😭 then soon she loves them and is always touching and tracing her tiny fingers over them 😭 soon she starts pulling up his sleeves to look at them whenever he holds her 😭

yes this is 100% me projecting but oh well im thinking about one of your y/ns (idk which, probs aster y/n bc she's soft 🥺) having a baby blanket or stuffed animal she still sleeps with 😔 maybe she's a bit nervous for harry to see bc she's worried he'll laugh at her so she usually hides it, but then one day he comes home early and she's taking a nap all cuddled up with it 😔 he doesn't wake her up bc she looks so soft and peaceful, but he thinks it's the most adorable sight he's ever seen 😔 he climbs into bed with her and cuddles her close even though he's not tired at all, he just wants to hold his girl 😔 then a little bit later she wakes up and she's panicking a bit because she usually never sleeps with the blanket when he's around, and he wasn't supposed to be home yet! so she's apologizing and saying "I'm sorry, i know it's weird, I just sometimes can't sleep without it and i-" and he shushes her quietly saying "I don't think it's weird, I think it's the cutest thing I've ever seen" and she's all blushy and saying "really?" and he nods and leans in to kiss her cheek 😔and from then on she's not so scared anymore and doesn't feel like she has to hide it all the time or even at all, because she knows he'll never judge her 😔

harry makes me want to scream and cry bc he actually said the words "tell me what you want and you got it love" he would literally be fingering you and looking in your eyes and he would say "what do you want, baby? I'll give you anything you want, swear I will" and he just needs to be making you feel good at all times

ok I popped and I don't think I'm going to die anymore but now I'm thinking about harry after sex 😔 he knows you need to be close to him so you feel safe and comfortable, so he cuddles you against him and he's stroking your back 😔 letting you listen to his heartbeat to keep you grounded and just doing whatever you need 😔

but when Harry builds you a house it's definitely out of town a little bit so you can have a huge property and yard and so much space for your kids to play 🥹 lots of trees and space for a huge flower garden for you bc he knows that's what you've always wanted😔 then one day he comes home from work to see you sitting on the back porch, on the rocking chair with your brand new tiny baby, and he's smiling so big when he comes to give you a kiss 🥹the sun's setting and it's starting to cool off a little, but it's still that perfect temperature 🥹 he says "hi mama... missed my girls today" and you smile at him and say softly "we missed you too" and then he looks down and sees the baby is only in her diaper, and you don't have a shirt on, and he looks up like ??? and you're just like "yeah she spit up on three outfits so I gave up on clothes, and then she wouldn't calm down until we tried a little skin to skin so... here we are" and he's just watching you with the biggest heart eyes, then he pulls one of the other deck chairs over and lays his head on your shoulder so he can look at his baby's perfect little face 🥹

constructionrry could throw you around a bit 😌one day he goes to lift you up and you're telling him no that he shouldn't and he goes "baby what do you think i do all day" and he picks you up no problem 😌

mmmm yes plugrry being the first person you ever ~do things~ with, maybe you haven't really had a lot of relationships before or if you have they just haven't gone very far, but then with him you're just immediately ready to jump his bones 😌 it's partly bc he looks like that but then also bc he's always so respectful and kind to you, he's always so gentle with you and he just makes you feel safe 😔 so then one day you're kissing and starting to grind on him a little bit, and he groans deep in his chest bc he's just so into you 😌 that starts to make you a little nervous so you pull away, and right away he's all "you okay baby? did I do something wrong?" and you shake your head, tracing your fingers along the swallow tattoos that are peaking put the collar of his shirt, and you say "no, not at all, it's just that i haven't, really done this before" and you're a bit embarrassed since he very obviously knows what he's doing but he just says "that's okay, we can do whatever you're comfortable with" and you're blushing so hard but you manage to say "I don't really... i don't know" and he takes your chin between his fingers to make you look up at him and says "need you to look at me, pretty girl" and you meet his eyes but he sees how hard you're still blushing, so he runs his fingers over your warm cheek and says "do i make you nervous?" and you nod a little bit, he smiles but not in a mean way and says "how come?" and you shrug saying "you're just really- you're very attractive, ok, and you clearly have a lot of experience, and I don't really know what I'm doing, and you're honestly kind of intimidating, and sometimes-"

and he knows you're just rambling a little so he gently cuts you off to say "hey, hey, don't freak yourself out... it's just me and you, there's no pressure or anything, you know that right? just us kissing on each other cause it feels nice, hm? nothing too scary about that, is there?" and you shake your head, and he smiles when he sees you're a bit calmer now 😔 then he says "and besides, there's really nothing intimidating about me" and you can't help but laugh at that, since he is quite literally a drug dealer, and he seems to understand what you're thinking because he drops his head to your shoulder and lets out a little laugh too 😔 through your giggling you say "I don't know what you mean, you're a real hardened criminal" and then you're both laughing, he has his arms around your waist to keep you close to him 😔after a few minutes of breaking out into laughter every time you look at each other you're both finally starting to calm down, then he gets a little more serious and says "we can do whatever you want, ok? if you want to stop and do something else, we can do that. or if you want to keep kissing for a while, we can do that too. I'm always gonna give my sweet girl anything she wants" and he gives you a few kisses on your cheeks 😔 you smile at the attention, clutching your fingers in his shirt, then say "i don't want to stop" and he's still nosing along your cheek as he kisses, he says "no? my pretty girl wants to kiss some more?" and you nod, letting out a little sigh when he finds a sweet spot on your jaw, and then finally you feel brave enough to say "and maybe we could do some other stuff too" and you can actually feel him smile against your skin when he says "yeah? what kind of stuff?" and he's pretty sure you'll be too shy to actually say anything, but he's having a good time teasing you a bit 😌 he knows it's a little mean since you're clearly flustered but he can't help it, he just loves to see you blush 😌 you're having trouble thinking of what to say, and he's doing a very good job of distracting you with his lips 😌

finally you say "um, we could... you could maybe touch me?" and he's smiling sooooo big but he wants to see how far he can push this, so he looks down to where his hands are on your hips and he says "I am touching you, aren't i?" and you roll your eyes, knowing he's just trying to frustrate you, and you say "not like that, you know what i mean" and he has the most annoying smile on his face when he says "no, I don't think I do... why don't you tell me? help me understand?" and you realize he's not going to give you what you want until you tell him, but you're a little too shy to do that quite yet so you take one of his hands and guide it down between your legs 😌 you press his palm flat against you and say "I want you to touch me here" and he's basically losing his mind 😌he did not expect you to be so bold and outright tell him like this, but he's for sure very into it 😌 he presses his hand up with a little more pressure, watching the way your eyes close bc it feels good and he says "my pretty girl wants me to touch her, hm? make her feel good?"

and you nod, opening your eyes to look at him again and whisper "please?" and he says "well since you asked so sweetly, I can't say no to you can i?" and he lifts you up to carry you to his bedroom 😌he lays you down on the bed and he's being so gentle bc he doesn't want to do anything to scare you, so he's kissing all over your arms and shoulders and neck and anywhere he can reach 😌 when he can tell you're starting to get a little needy again he says "what do you want from me sweet girl? want my fingers? or my mouth?" and he makes it very hard to respond when he keeps kissing around and leaving little lovebites, but then he hums again to get your attention and you say "yes, I want your mouth" and he decides he's teased you enough, so he just gets right to it 😌 he kisses down your chest and tummy, making sure to pay extra attention to spots he sees are ticklish, and fiiinally he's at the waistband of your pants 😌 he looks up at you and says "can i take these off?" and he sees you look a little nervous, so he pulls back to give you some space and he says "we don't have to do anything you're not ready for, love" and you shake your head saying "I do, I want to, I'm just kind of- what if I do something wrong?" and he gives you a little smile before he says "you don't have to worry about anything, just lay back and let me take care of you, hm? just tell me what feels nice" and he moves to lay between your legs 😌 you lift your hips to help him out when he pulls your clothes off, and you instinctively close your legs a bit but he just puts his hands on your thighs and says "come on baby, open up for me so I can make you feel good" so you do, he feels you relax your muscles and let him move you however he wants and he says "that's my good girl" and he definitely takes note of how much harder that makes you blush 😌he doesn't say anything though, he figures you've had enough teasing for now, so he just leans closer and starts kissing up your thighs 😌

he sees you're still a little fidgety and not quite sure what to do with your hands, so he takes them and puts them in his hair 😔 he noses around a bit before he takes a deep breath and says "you smell so good, sweet girl, gonna let me have a taste?" and you nod, your head tips back on his pillow and you let out a breathy little "yes, please" and that's all he needs to hear 😌 he puts his arms around your legs to keep you still, and then he gives you what you've been wanting all day 😌 he starts with a few big licks, trying to get a feel for what you like, and also selfishly so he can taste you more 😌he's moaning against you right away which only makes it feel more intense for you, so you're whining and pulling his hair which only makes him moan more 😌 he's very messy with it, making sure the whole lower half of his face is coated in you so you're completely surrounding him in every sense😌 he circles his tongue around your clit, and then sucks it between his lips, and that's when he really has to fight to hold you still 😌 you're making the prettiest noises for him and gasping his name every few breaths, and he manages to glimpse up at your face to see it twisted and almost looking pained from how good you're feeling 😌 he's testing out different movements with his tongue to figure out what makes you really squirm around 😌

then he brings his hand down, tracing against you and humming when he feels how wet you are 😌 he pulls away just enough to say "soaking my fingers, baby, is that what i do to you?" and you nod desperately, trying to use your grip on his hair to push him down again since you were so close and he laughs with a very cocky look on his face knowing what he can do to you 😌 he slips one of his fingers inside, very easily from how wet you are, and gets back to sucking on your clit, which has you gripping his hair even tighter than before 😌 he crooks his finger up and moves it around a bit, and he knows he's doing something right when you nearly scream and it feels like you're about to rip out a few hairs, but he's never been more content and he wouldn't dream of stopping 😌 finally you gasp out that you're close, and he just hums again, not daring to lift his head to say anything, and keeps working 😌 his fingers and tongue keep moving until he feels you tense up all around him and gasp his name a few more times, before you relax back onto the bed 😌 he works you through it the whole time and even a little bit longer because he just doesn't want to stop touching you, but soon you pull him away saying "too much, too much" and he smiles, bring his finger up to his mouth to lick off 😌 you're watching wide eyed the whole time, and he's smirking bc he clearly can tell you're into that, but then he flops down to lay next to you and says "so how was that?" and you can't help but giggle at his causal tone, but you take his hand to rest it on your chest so he can feel how fast your heart is beating and you say "good, it was really good" and he just looks so happy 😌

plugrry is absolutely 100% obsessed with having you ride him, he likes seeing you take control a bit and take what you need from him 😌 he knows you're a bit hesitant at first, maybe you're a little thicker, but he's just grabbing your hips and pulling you down all the way 😌 showing you that you have no reason to be nervous 😌 and he for sure presses his hand on your lower stomach and says "feel me, right here?" and you throw your head back and moan when his other hand comes down to rub your clit 😌 you're whining about how deep he is and he says "go on baby, use me, get yourself off" and he's just watching and basically drooling the whole time 😌

then later he would grab the camera and be like "ahh no it fell over, didn't catch anything" and he presses play and all you can hear are your moans 😌 you blush and try to grab it out of his hand to stop it but he holds it above your head and says "no no, this is my favorite sound" and he keeps it playing 😌 you huff and start to walk out, but he just pulls you back against him and hugs his arm around your waist to keep you there 😌 you hear a particularly loud sound from his phone and he laughs and says "I remember what I did to get that noise out of you" and you're blushing so hard 😌

he's showing you all the bedrooms and you're like "wow.... there's a lot.... you have some big plans then I guess?" and he's all 😌 i wouldn't be opposed 😌 and in fact we can start right now! and he pulls you to the master bedroom for some very giggly smiley sex 😌