#i hadnt updated this in about a month lmao

[alwayssunnyinhawkins]

Idek what to say at this point

[aphrodeiities]

i've returned to post about a particular subject i've been fighting to or not to post, because i used to consider this person the closest person in my life and i even considered her as a best friend and a sister.

and we have fallen out and apologised to each other many times, but perhaps whenever we argued it was life telling me that she is not supposed to be in my circle. and you could be wondering why am i bringing this up and telling tumblr this but im telling tumblr this to be aware of @couerardent and her scamming behaviour.

couerardent also known as MYSTIICWINTER OR MYSTICWIINTER.

talk about WORSE SERVICE I HAVE EVER GOTTEN MY ENTIRE LIFE.

[other people have come to me and spoke about how bad her services were, but i tried to overlook it because i really cared for her, lessoned learn]

i have always been empathetic towards ardent and her money situation, but there are moments when excuses turn into reasons to not do something. on august, i sent alex money because she needed it, but she also said in return she will give me 4 packs she usually gives her clients and she told me she would give me my money back.

first pack is "tell me your story."

second and other packs she hadnt told me what they were but she informed me that i'll be receiving them weekly since august, and now its november.

at first i was empathetic, since i used to be close to ardent, i knew she went through a lot of stuff at home, so i was patient. until august turned into september, and september turned into october and then october turned into novemeber.

and slowly i became annoyed, [as i should] because her services arent even long or good, as someone who gives chart readings to other people that consists more than fourteen pages, the effort to write that would take long, but ardent doesnt even give five pages for her services, three at most, so why is it taking her so long?

previously, she has joked to me about scamming other people, but would put the blame on them and not want to take accountability until they start using threats to expose her, i think she deleted the making fun of scamming them but here is some of it:

and when i would message her for updates about my reading because it'll take months, she would ignore me and even change her pfp on tumblr or discord, until i reach out to her on more platforms to get her attention.

and what would annoy me even more is that she would talk about how she never has something to do or would focus on other stuff knowing she needs to get my reading done lmao and this would be like 1-2 months after i was supposed to receive any of it lol.

worrying about the layout for almost 3 months PLEASE.

i have received 1/4 readings, and that was now almost 2-3 weeks ago, we should've been on my 2nd or 3rd reading by now, the only reason i have received 1 reading is because i did threaten to expose her if she didnt send the money or reading my way, because even i had some issues because living in london has gotten really difficult and i have been trying to support my family as much as i can, but im doing better right now.

its all about the principle. and she has none of that. and even attempted to victimise herself and behave like she was in distress whenever she got called out about her behaviour.

she lost track of time, the time being 3-4 months lol.

and when i was speaking to her she ignored me for a bit again ha, it was almost comedic. for almost two weeks she didnt try and check what i was speaking about.

she has gotten ill, but this was still months after.

and i have remembered, she has used much of her earned money to fund for her nose job but also uni, but during the moments it was best to pay me back was at the job she said paid her well, she informed me that when she gets paid by her job she'll pay me back, and she never did and ended up quitting the job.

[the unfairness i was speaking about is how uni her country dont do student finances, she's from romania, because they do in the uk it was just a surprise].

i asked her recently on how i was supposed to receive a reading but she didnt reply but change her pfp on whatsapp and discord, again.

if there is any confused people comment please because i did this half asleep lmao

[eldritchmochi]

Saw the reblog are you still thinking about doing the CS restructure idea? I can see the benefits of splitting it up like you were talking about even just for finding sections when rereading from a reader perspective.

i had legitimately forgotten about that ask and then someone liked it over night so i reread it (and reblogged). i am again tempted, especially cos ur right, it WOULD make rereading ur fav part easier i hadnt thought of that. cherry keeps 🗞️🗞️ every time i mention reworking whats been posted (u gotta wait until you know where the ride lands before you start tweaking the tracks, and i have an idea but its not yet solid) so im hhhh but also, perhaps it would make me actually get back to working on it

leaving it would keep it with its bonkers weird pacing issues and leave out the handful of things i want to add (until the second draft, wherein i would also file off the serial numbers). would also include me not posting until i finish writing this first planned section, meaning there likely wouldnt be updates again til 2026, at the earliest

restructuring would include leaving the og fic as is, with a note at the start that theres a v2. would also include a number tweaks and additional scenes to fix the pacing overall, as well as general tidying of the early sections since my skill has increased leaps and bounds since 2021 when i started it. since it would be reposts of stuff with added content, there would likely be sooner "updates" cos i would post in MUCH smaller sections, but would probably have bursts of posts, then nothing for a few months, until the whole (and i mean *whole*) thing is posted

leaving it with notes on continuity errors is sort of a combo of the two; would still be a single fic post, but rather than having to contort myself into keeping continuity with the existing story, i would just keep going based around the changes i want to make. this would def make it easier for me to go in and add those things in draft two but would also be a bit awkward to read, given some of the changes, even with explanations of what those changes are. additionally, would make extra work for me because id have to *write* those explanations also. again, i wouldn't start posting until this whole section is complete, so probably not until at least 2026

if u say the forth thing pls tell me what lmao

[brokenhardies]

wip day!

i wasn’t tagged by anyone lmao but @witchofinterest and @water-writings have both posted their stuff so i figured i would too! here’s part of chapter six of electric feel!

tagging @nolanhollogay @starlightocs @honeyandsunflowers @twinmasks @richitozier @cullenmunsonwp @darth-caillic @i-am-cloud-writes @raith-way @cantfighthemoonknight and anyone else who wants to take part!

It was third period when Amber saw Billy and Freddy standing in front of the teacher’s lounge. She’d already had her… suspicions that they were gonna play hooky in order to ‘train’ Billy’s newfound superpowers, mostly due to the fact that she’d already had evidence. She’d had to stuff Freddy’s makeshift go-pro helmet into a tote bag in his locker after the stunt Billy pulled with the Bryers – although she wouldn’t say they didn’t deserve it. 

The good news was that Amber was your archetypal ‘good’ student. The only reason she tended to show up each day even though she probably didn’t need to – after all, when you have a photographic memory and the ability to pretty much recall everything you’ve seen, heard or felt, school was kind of redundant – was mostly to get a GED.  The bad news was that she was pretty sure she couldn’t sneak out of the class to follow them. 

She frowned, quickly scribbling a makeshift hall pass on a sheet of paper. She passed it to her teacher as she walked around, before muttering something under her breath about needing to use the bathroom. She was expecting a comment about using the bathroom beforehand, but was surprised when she got it back fully signed. That was when she left the classroom, shoving her hall pass in her pocket and spotting Billy, holding a crumpled up jacket over his arm. She quickly ducked around the corner, can’t look like you’re stalking the kid, and listened to his and Freddy’s conversation. 

“Hey.”

“Making the crippled kid do your dirty work. Wow!”

“I’m a better lookout!” Billy claimed, “I can play innocent!”

It was true, considering he was able to play the cops – and maybe Amber as well, although she’d never admit it – with the puppy dog eyed ‘holy moley’ act. Who even said ‘holy moley’ anymore? …Okay, says the girl who unironically uses ‘gee whiz’ but that’s beside the point! 

“And I can’t?”

“Your face gives off a very strong vibe of someone who’s hatching schemes.” 

Amber snorted. “And your’s doesn’t, Red?” She whispered, trying not to look like she was spying on them. Of course, that failed immediately. Amber wasn’t the best at being subtle, she knew that. 

“My face?” Freddy asked, “This face?”

“Yeah!” 

Amber rolled her eyes, quickly straightening her sweater and turning a corner, walking out behind the boys, hands in her pockets. She quickly saw the school security guard - Officer Moran, not Moron -, and ducked around once more, leaning against the wall, trying to look casual.

“You boys got a hall pass?” He asked.

“Oh, us?” Freddy responded, turning to face him. “Yeah, always.”

That was when Moran stood up. “You!” He pointed at Freddy, much to the boy’s shock, “You look like you’re up to something.”

Amber had to hold back her sniggers. Oh my God, for once in his life, Red was right. She sighed, quickly watching as Freddy tried to cover his tracks with a grin on her face, seeing Billy’s smug ‘told ya so’ expression as they locked eyes. It was almost like a brief moment of ‘what are you doing here’ from both of them, with raised brows and awkward shifty eyes. 

[theathenanebula]

idk how people are like “I lost 4 followers after posting this!” like I haven’t looked at my follower count since the dark days of 2013 how do you know this

[mitsubitchiee]

hey mistu~~~

im back after 4 months of disappearing off of the face of the earth~~

update on my college experience; im having so much fun, i was basically worried for no reason at all lmao. the only problem im having is the fact that im always 🎺🦵 but i have a roommate and im constantly getting blue-balled (but in a fem way) by her, if it gets bad enough i might just take a risk and wait until she's sleeping to rub one out, but i guess i'll have to wait and see.

update on mystery dream girl Vera; doesn't exist at all. i have not met a single person whose name starts with a V, actually. I have made a friend who i casually flirt with sometimes though! i mean it mostly in a platonic way and so does she, but then again we almost made out on the quad in front of a homophobic preacher that came on campus to make him mad (the only reason we didnt is because i hadnt brushed my teeth that day and they were really gross feeling, i wasnt gonna make out with anyone while having disgusting breath and teeth). still, i dont think we'll be anything more than friends, which is fine by me.

long story short: im back and better mentally now lmao

- 🎃

Ah!! Pumpkin!!! Ive been disappearing from here too so! Hehe

Oh my godd, ive never had a roommate and thats definitely smth i think about, like... how do rub one out?? Jfhsks i wish you the best of luck in your sneaky adventures! 🤭

Mm, im glad college is going well so far and that youre feelung better mentally!! Stay safe ok? <3

[dramarising-replacement]

i really didn't wanna do this but i just sorta need to vent. (no, i will not namedrop. i do like this person and i'm not sure if i'm just overreacting.)

in july, i ordered art from someone i figured was a friend -- we share the same sort of friend group and while i'm not the most sociable of the group, i'm usually around. it was gonna be a birthday present for my best friend, since they do a lot for me and they love art of our characters. i paid them 2000 gems upfront, plus tacked on about 1000 more after some progress was made with every intention of doubling it and then some once i got word that it was finished. i very much enjoy this person's art and wanted to make sure they were well-paid despite not being able to pay USD.

about a month later, with no word from the artist, i checked in. they said they had two sketches but weren't in a position where they should show me. i know art takes time and i do love this person's art so i didn't think much of it. i checked in once more in september, just for a status update since i hadnt heard anything, and was told that their computer had died and they lost all progress on all of their commissions. so okay, yeah, shit happens, i get it -- i wish they'd updated me but whatever, no big deal.

but since then i've been.... worried? it's november now and still no word from them, no progress updates, nothing. radio silence. it's not a huge deal but i'd at least appreciate updates all things considered, i've been saving my money to pay for the final product and i wanna know if i should just give it up. they've finished other commissions since so... idk if i was just too much of a pest or what. i dont expect quality art in two months but the silence is concerning me, y'know?

idk lmao.

[letevolin-blog]

an update for myself for my own goddamn sanity because i feel like im living a weird double life and cant tell anyone any of this shit 

and its a long story but idk i dont wanna forget the stuff we said. me and Girl I Actually Love (A) hung out because we kinda try and see each other every weekend. i wanna see her every day who could blame me lmao. so we hung out and it was great we got drunk it was great and i literally dont even know how we started the convo, i never do but first we were talking about Girl That’s Good For Me (J) because she knows i basically was like well guess i’ll see what happens and give it a try and shes unconvinced because i told her but i dont FEEL anything and i dont know what the damn problem is and she was saying like ok give it a few months if you really feel like you have to give it a try but if your feelings dont change leave because you wont be happy and just be friends or whatever. and anyway its such a big part of whats been stressing me out like... i feel like J is exactly what i should want and should have but i just DONT and idk i’ve thought to myself like fuck maybe if A and i hadnt started talking about it could have worked but tbh! probably not because the reason i hit her up again is because i couldnt get her out of my fucking head no matter what and no matter how long we were apart. so anyway we eventually go upstairs to her room and we’ve talking about a bunch of shit like sexuality and like discomfort with sex and just like stuff i literally wouldnt talk about with anyone because it makes me uncomfortable but i would talk about anything with her. then we talked about a really touchy thing with an ex of hers who passed and its always complicated because i had a lot of beef with him and she hardly really knew him and now she never will and so she takes it hard and knows how i feel even though i try to be very nice and not say anything. but she knows because shes asked me for my super honest opinion before. but anyway she was crying and i told her to come to me so i held her and then like I LITERALLY DONT KNOW HOW IT HAPPENED but we somehow like got into us again and like i told her how when we first started talking we kinda had some vague discussions about Us but like never like said or resolved anything? and would make jokes like oh youre so dumb THATS why we broke up and idk it left me feeling very like does she mean anything or when she says we were too crazy together to work does she mean that? and then she texted me out of the damn blue to say she liked a boy and that shit fucked me the fuck up so i told her and then you came out of left field with this and i was like alright well fuck never mind i guess and tried to go on dates and it never fucking worked and she was like well it didnt work for me either and was crying and like she REALLY doesnt cry so i was shook and she was saying like im scared because you’re like The One but i cant believe that i found you so early (met when we were 14, now 23) and she was like crying about it and i was like bitch i been knew! like you’re it i cant imagine anyone else no matter what and she was like sometimes you’re like the only person in the world because you’re the only person that really makes me FEEL and im like uh yeah join the club like i know and it pisses me off every day i WISH i could feel half of what i felt with you for someone else. and then she said like you make me nervous and i was like WHAT because she seems so chill and confident and idk like nothing phases her and she was like when you were sad and i came to your office and brought you presents to cheer you up i was shaking so bad because you make me nervous and like... if you knew this girl you would understand how wild that is lmao. so anyway i was trippin over it a little and we said some stuff and she said “can i kiss you” and i was like bitch you better LMAO so anyway we kissed and bruh when i say i never wanna kiss anyone else..... god im so fucking dumb. lmao anyway then i said like if i was doing what i wanted i would marry you tomorrow like.. u know that and like she laughed and stuff and i was like all i want to do is be your girlfriend i just like dont think we can yet because you are so important to me you are so special the most special person in my life and i cant be without you and she was like ive told you that since we were 15 i cant be without you because no body is like you and no one makes me feel like you and i was like and thats why i cant do this again right now because i dont think it would go well because if this is how you feel but you still like decided to kinda date some fuckin dude and tell me you were into him like i dont think you can be like no youre it for me im in it for the long haul like i can just foresee shit going down and us not talking for a while again and i dont want to do it because i just want you here so i was like listen i can do whatever the fuck im doing with J and if you meet someone and maybe theyre it or idk you want them then i want you to have the freedom and to be in a place where you do. just like do whatever it is you need to do and i’ll do what i have to do with the mutual understanding that you are the most important person to me and i am to you, if thats how you feel. and she was like so we can date other people but we know we’re special to each other and i was like yeah if you want if thats what you want to do i want you to be free to do it and maybe like when time passes and we grow up more and idk then we come together and reach the agreement that this is it. and then idk we kissed we said we loved each other over and over and i just held her and kissed her face and her neck and her hair and damn.... life was really really cool. then today she had to work and i hung out with J and it was... it just feels awful because we have fun its great but i know it means something different for her because im sitting there praying to feel something and all i can think of is how she could never make me feel a fraction of the way A does. and idk! so life is basically as confusing as ever but idk A kind of told me a lot of feelings she never really does and it felt good to know im not alone in thinking this shit. idk. i love her and i wish i didnt but fuck if it isnt the greatest feeling in the world when she says it back