#i had this in my drafts for sooo looong :')

[fukutomichi]

Subnautica: Below Zero ∴ Al-An "With you, I am ready to face whatever awaits."

[fade-out-lights]

i will delete it later anyway but i have this chaotic looong essay on poverty drafted out somewhere in my head because it - growing up in poverty - sets you sooo so behind. everything. and everyone. and it's so common, and when i think about it, when i come across yet another obstacle existing, and being said obstacle for me mostly bc of that reason, i feel so hurt. back in childhood i didn't use to be friends with anyone who'd had the same experience, my friends were children from middle-class-ish families mostly, but the mutual recognition between all the kids like me was sooo obvious, like, yeah, we were coming home to the depression factory. anywayyyyy. it's mostly about me struggling with the access to education and it's just sad bc it's still hard, well, i mean, it's hard for everyone - if you're really trying to do your best, if you're serious about something it's never easy, it's always a long path, but i mean general access to educational institutions which still tend to do their best to let as few people get into them as possible.

[ladyramora]

Author Interview

Tagged by @eemamminy-art

Putting a read more because this baby is looong....

1. how many works do you have on AO3?

Currently 72! It would be more if I posted all of my Tumblr snippets separately lol

2. what's your total AO3 word count?

467,534 words.

A decent bit, I think. Though I started writing again in 2015, so maybe it's not much? It's not everything I've written on Tumblr, either.

3. what fandoms do you write for?

I used to write for FF11 & Inu Yasha, plus Inu Yasha & Yuyu Hakusho crossover fic. I never deleted my fanfic dot net account, but it is all super old now. Nobody go looking for it! I may one day rewrite some of those old fic, but confronting my teenage writing skills is a bit much for me right now lmao.

My Ao3 is all FFXIV at this point, but that is subject to change! I have a c0mmission from Divinity: Original Sin 2 I'm currently working on! (Ifan. He's such an interesting, handsome guy. I'm having fun writing him~ ❤️)

I am interested in writing for other fandoms! For instance, Nu Carnival that is currently one of my favorite games, and possibly BG3? But I only know of it, haven't played it, I'll have to do research to write for it.

I just need to work through my current queue first!

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

I'm gonna go by actual chaptered fic, not just my collections of Tumblr snippets.

• Drowning in Blue:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/4679429/chapters/10680896

Kudo count: 460 ❤️

Haurchefant/Warrior of Light (reader insert).

Summary: The Warrior of Light is granted a wish from Hydaelyn after being gravely wounded in the fight with the Ascians.

I have a lot of love for this one, however I would like to go back & edit it to make it more friendly to nonbinary & they/them readers. I do enjoy the writing style I have in this one. I do remember writing chapter after chapter of this one, day after day. A lot of passion there.

• In plain sight:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/4333374/chapters/9826917

Kudo count: 385 ❤️

Yet another Haurchefant/Warrior of Light (reader insert).

Summary: The Warrior of Light has fled from Ul'dah to take refuge in Camp Dragonhead after being accused of treason. Though dark times have forced them there, it is in Camp Dragonhead that potentially disastrous shenanigans ensue. Much Fluff with attempts at humor. Haurchefant x WoL. Tataru and Alphinaud friendships.

This one! The fic where I created Ger! Another one I would like to edit to make more friendly to non-binary & they/them readers. I'd also like to update Ger's characterization, because she's an entirely different character now! But I really enjoyed writing this fic. It was a lot of fun. I really enjoyed exploring Haurchefant's character & building up the relationship between him and WoL. I had a sequel planned & everything. I'd still like to write that sequel eventually. I have a draft on my computer for it lol.

•Switching Roles:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/9899933

Kudo count: 266 ❤️

Summary: Estinien lies in wait for Aymeric. This is also porn. Can be stand alone, but more like a sequel to Sweet like birch syrup.

Estinien and Aymeric were my first foray into writing smut, not just fading to black or ending at the buildup & making people ask in my comments "that's it? where's the rest of it?"

Oh, how far we have come since then! I used to say I was strictly a fluff/romance writer with occasional angst. Now look at me. 95% pure, explicit smut!

•Peculiarity:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/36427720/chapters/90829135

Kudo count: 244 ❤️

Hermes/Warrior of Light (reader insert?) from Hermes POV.

I won't post the summary because it's kinda sorta Endwalker Spoilers! Sorry!

I will say that this fic is my current baby. I love Hermes sooo much. I relate to him a lot. It makes me very sad that so many people in fandom seem to hate him. My poor, misguided little meow meow.

Yet another character I ship with Ram, in theory, but as of yet not in written practice. Just vibes, just brainwyrms doing loops in the old noggin.

•The Cats Meow:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/4508475/chapters/10253364

Kudo count: 243 ❤️

Haurchefant/Miqo'te WoL (reader insert)

Summary: Haurchefant notices the cat-like qualities in the Miqo'te!WoL. Attempts at humor and fluff.

Ok, this one is just silly fluff. Much romance. Very cute. Meow. This was around the time I was still playing my miqo'te, before I left her standing by Haurchefant's desk before level 57.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Eyes Ever Heavensward

https://archiveofourown.org/works/29054034

Kudo count: 33 ❤️

Haurchefant/Warrior of Light (reader insert)

Summary:

The one where Haurchefant is a member of the Heavensward, and WoL is storming The Vault. Angst. Feels. Unhappy Ending.

Ok, I probably have a few angsty ones but this one made me cry while I was writing it. I think it's just angstier because of what WoL is forced, with no other choice, to do in the fic.

:( ͡° ᴥ ͡°)

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I have so many that end on positive/happy endings. I can't really say what is the happiest. Maybe fix-it fics?

8. do you get hate on fics?

Not so much on fic. I have gotten some mean/malicious anons on Tumblr, but not since my fanfiction dot net days have I gotten "flames" or somebody sending me a link to my fic being posted on "gaff" (god awful fanfiction). That was really mean lmao.

I just end up deleting hateful comments, anons, etc. Who wants to waste time on that?

Attacking or harassing real people over fiction is utterly ridiculous and I will never condone that.

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

Hello, so much smut!

I can write super explicit stuff that is really raunchy, or more flowery/romantic types. Fun, silly, sweet. Darker themes. I'm pretty flexible when it comes to writing smut.

10. do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one you've written?

I have. Probably RP? The other crossovers I've done are nowhere near as crazy as things can get in RP.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I'm aware of??

It's harder to pinpoint with writing, I think. People can have similar ideas, plots, or just enjoy similar tropes.

Unless someone is copying your work word for word, lifting scenes, or using it for A/I... (A/I images & text are theft. We want A/I to help people, not to replace human creativity with regurgitated trash that has no human soul.)

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

I think I had someone ask at one point but it was some time ago. I don't even remember what fic it was.

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

Does RP count?

Brainstorming, bouncing ideas off one another. Or even just doing prompts & requests... I think that counts as creating together, if not actually "co-writing".

14. what's your all-time favourite ship?

I have so many!!!

For FFXIV in particular, it's probably still tied between Haurchefant/WoL and Zenos/WoL at the top. Ships with Ysayle or Foulques!! Ships with NPCs that are job class or side characters.

I am really fond of Emet/WoL, too. Tbh, any Scion ship or Ascian ship.

I love them all...

15. what's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Don't call me out like this 😔

I want to finish so many...

Ones that I feel I have to edit to add to them, maybe? I just don't have the free time to do so right now.

16. what are your writing strengths?

Hmm. Research and dedication to accurate characterization??

Dialogue, I think, because I enjoy it very much, but that could also be marked in weaknesses because I struggle with certain characters. (Smart characters. Characters like Urianger who have a particular way of speaking, etc, etc.)

Setting the scene. Word counts go crazy with that.

Descriptive writing and character introspection. I can dive deep into that.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

Definitely perfectionism. I'm never satisfied. I want every fic I write to be a home cooked meal. Michelin star.

Also run on sentences and my love affair with commas, em dashes, and semicolons.

Keeping the tenses consistent.

World building.

Overworking. (Set word count? What's that? What if 3k fic became a 6k fic became a 9k fic. Oops.)

Having time/energy to write. That's a big one. 🥲

I'm a caretaker for my disabled sister, the designated chef of my household, and just constantly busy every day. I try to squeeze in writing where I can, but some days I'm just so tired and drained that I have basically nothing to spare for my creative pursuits. It's a definite struggle to work through that.

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I like to read it! It's especially fun if it's a fantasy language like vulcan or elvish.

Unfortunately, I only speak English, and even writing in my first language can be difficult. I don't know any other languages well enough to even attempt writing in them.

19. first fandom you wrote for?

Inu Yasha, DBZ, FF11. All when I was a teenager.

Then I didn't write again for years and years. Started up again with FFXIV.

20. favourite fic you've written?

I have so many I love, I can't pick one favorite... I'll just list a few of my favorites right now!

XIVSapphicWeek Snippets

https://archiveofourown.org/works/45529894/chapters/114564367

Ram x Ysayle & RamLynn

(Lynn belongs to my RP partner, @/lynnslight )

I had an AyaGer one planned but I didn't end up writing more before the week ended. I'm still gonna use the prompts & add to it, eventually ❤️

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•Peculiarity

(Yes, again. I'm posting it twice)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/36427720/chapters/90829135

Hermes x WoL

Summary is !Endwalker Spoilers!

This is my current baby, I have the next chapter stewing. The start of the smut always has to be good, you know? The flavor has to be just right~

•A (Primal is a) Wish Your Heart Makes

https://archiveofourown.org/works/29186616

Angst. Gerchefant? Primal Haurchefant. I have a WIP of the next chapter & it is angst and smut.

(You know what's funny? I've written/posted more Ger smut than Ram smut lmao! Sorry Ram. I love putting Ger in situations 😌❤️)

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Favorite series?

Amnesia Zenos, Villain Haurchefant, any Ascian fic (particularly fond of Attracting Ascians, I need to write more for that one.)

Amnesia Zenos

•Dancing In The Dark

Zenos x reader Insert WoL

https://archiveofourown.org/works/16868251/chapters/39610297

Summary: If Zenos had lost his memory, and WoL was the one to find him.

• Dancing In The Dark - With Two

Zenos x reader Insert WoL

Summary: One with Amnesia, the other without? Two Zenos? You can barely handle one.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/16868563/chapters/39611086

Villain!Haurchefant

•Villains and Heroes

Summary: “Shh, it’s alright,” the villain said. “You’re doing beautifully and I’m so proud of you. But that’s enough now. It was cruel of them to make you fight me - you could never have won. It’s not your fault.” Villain!Haurchefant

https://archiveofourown.org/works/16868086/chapters/39609883

•Attracting Ascians

Ascians x reader insert WoL

https://archiveofourown.org/works/29053515/chapters/71312748

Summary: The Warrior of Light attracts Ascians like moths to light. Or the one where WoL Kisses Ascians instead of Killing them. (ARR. Early? Maybe. IDK, who cares about Canon, this is Fanfiction.)

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Special mention to my WiP fics I haven't posted yet except for some snippets like that Ram x Zenos smut, the dark themed/dubcon Fandaniel fics that I'm excited about.

Also the Nu Carnival & Obey Me! fic I started that I want to eventually sit down and properly write...

(I know. Fic that isn't FFXIV? Gasp.)

And of course, the comms!!

I really try to write every comm I get like I'm cooking a homemade meal for someone.

I made it for you. Take a fucking bite bro, I love you man. (Gender neutral uses of 'bro' & 'man', ofc. It's like saying 'dude' to me lol)

https://youtu.be/tkUSCNr0aDE?si=uDbsApgeOLU_SvMx

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Anyway, thanks for tagging me ❤️

If any of my followers would like to do this, I'm tagging you! 💕

[dleena2023]

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

dear zofgk + coaches tom, roach, sky & becker ❤️

let's skip all the worries and doubts but TODAY IS FINALLY THE DAY!!! YES BABY QUARTERFINALS DAY! 🤧😵🥳🤯 I WOKE UP FEELING OPTIMISTIC AND ENERGISED SO THAT'S A GOOD SIGN RIGHT. I HAD ENOUGH REST WHICH WAS INDEED CATHARTIC AND MY MIND IS NOT HAZY OR ANYTHING ALHAMDULILLAH! :) IT FELT SO SWIFT NOT GONNA LIE 🫶🏽 LIKE SPRING, MSI, SUMMER AND ASIAN GAMES HAVE PASSED AND NOW IT'S WORLDS TIME. DON'T YOU THINK SO? TT^TT WELL MA BOIS, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR? I KNOW WE ARE GONNA DO SOOOO WELL TODAY SO LEAVE ALL YOUR WORRIES & FEARS BEHIND OKAY. REMEMBER, YOU HAVE COME A LOOONG WAY SO THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO DOUBT YOUR ABILITIES. ALWAYS HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF. LNG IS A TOUGH OPPONENT AND WE MIGHT GO INTO GAME 5 NGAWWW I HATE SILVER SCRAPES SO MUCH BUT IT'S THAT MOMENT THAT DETERMINES EVERYTHING. IF YOU CAN BEAT BLG RECENTLY WITH GOOD FORM, THEN I KNOW YOU CAN BEAT THEM TOO. SO JUST RELAX, TAKE A DEEP BREATHE AND LET IT ALL OUT. YOU MAY BE LCK'S ONLY LAST HOPE AND THE EXPECTATIONS MAY BE HIGHER AND PRESSURING. BUT I DON'T WANT ALL OF THAT TO AFFECT YOUR MENTALITY TODAY. DON'T LET THE EMOTIONS OVERWHELM YOU. YES, BEING THE ONLY LCK TEAM LEFT IS A BURDEN BUT ALL I WANT YOU GUYS TO FOCUS IS YOURSELF, YOUR FAMILY, FRIENDS AND WORLDWIDE FANS. YOUR BIGGEST ENEMY IS NONE OTHER THAN YOURSELF. IT'S HEARTBREAKING TO REALISE THAT AFTER 2 YEARS, TODAY MIGHT BE YOUR LAST GAMES PLAYING TOGETHER AS THIS ROSTER, ZOFGK 😭❤️‍🩹 SO PLAY WITH NO REGRETS AITES!!!! JUST RELAX, BE CONFIDENT, REMOVE ALLLLLLL AGONY AND UNEASE IN YOUR HEART AND MIND, JUST YOUR DO YOUR BEST, BREATHE IN AND OUT ONCE IN A WHILE, FOCUS WELL, COMMUNICATE EFFECTIVELY WITH EACH OTHER AND DRAFT, DRAFT, DRAFT WELL. AND ONER PLEASE FOR THE SAKE OF THE TEAM PLEASE PRIORITSE GANKING BOT AND DO YOUR THING. I HAVE FAITH IN YALL. I HAVE FAITH IN EACH OF YALL. I DOAKAN YOU GUYS WILL DO YOUR BEST IN YOUR RESPECTIVE LANES, OUTPERFORM ENEMY'S SKILLS, HAVING CS LEAD, JUNGLE DIFF, GOOD MAP AWARENESS, SUPER DUPER GIGACHAD BUFF, EASE MIND AND HEART, PERFECT COMMUNICATION, PERFECT SYNERGY, BURNING PASSION, PLAY EVERY GAME WITH NO REGRETS, PLAY WITH EVERY CELL OF YOUR HEARTS OUT, PERFECT SMITES, PERFECT ROAMING, PERFECT TEAMFIGHTS, PERFECT SOLOKILLS, PERFECT BOT DUO, PERFECT 1 VS 2 TOP, PERFECT DRAGON STACKING, PERFECT HERALD, PERFECT BARON FLIP, PERFECT OBJECTIVIES, HEALTHY CONDITION, FAKER'S WRIST IN PINK OF HEALTH, TILT PROOF, GREAT MENTAL, PERFECT MICRO, PERFECT MACRO & A CLEAN WIN FOR TODAY'S SERIES. LET'S GET CLEAN TODAY AITES BOIS!!! COACHES TOM, ROACH, SKYYY & MANAGER BECKER + ZEUS, ONER, FAKER, GUMAYUSI & FAKER -> LET'S COOK NON-STOP TODAY WITH EM' SPICY PICKS AND DON'T BE AFRAID TO ALL OUT. LET OUR EGO DOWN AND BAN CHAMPS THAT ARE HINDERING OUR WINS. AND PICK CHAMPS THAT ARE OF THE PLAYERS' COMFORT PICKS WHICH ALSO SYNERGISES PERFECTLY WITH EACH OTHER. MY BABIES MY LOVE MY ZEUS YOU ARE THE BETTER TOP. YOU WILL SOLOKILL YOUR ENEMY LIKE IT'S NOTHING. MY ONER YOU ARE THE BETTER JUNGLE. YOU HAVE BETTER MAP CONTROL AND YOUR SMITE IS ALWAYS ON POINT. MY FAKER YOUR CHAMPS' ULT HITS EVERY SINGLE TIME AND YOUR SHOTCALLING IS THE BEST DECISION MAKING EVER. MY GUMA YOUR ATTACKS STRIKE DOWN ENEMIES FLAWLESSLY AND YOUR TEAM MOTIVATION IS NOT WASTED AT ALL. MY KERIA YOUR MAP ROAMING AND VISION ARE SO SUPERB YOU ALLOW YOUR TEAMMATES TO GET AHEAD AND WIN IT ALL. YOU GUYS ARE THE BETTER TEAM. YOU GUYS ARE THE BETTER PLAYERS. IT'S TOO LATE TO BACK DOWN NOW. WE HAVE COME A LONG JOURNEY. SO MUCH LAUGHTER AND TEARS. DO THIS FOR OUR REDEMPTION ARC. WE HAVE BEEN GETTING 5 RUNNER UPS IN A ROW AND IT'S SO DEPRESSING. SO LET'S GET THAT CHAMP. IT'S GONNA BE SOOO WORTH IT. IN T1 WE TRUST. IN ZOFGK WE TRUST. IN ALLAH I TRUST. AR-RAHMAN, AR-RAHIM, AL-ALIM, AS-SAMI, AL-FATTAH, AL MUJIB. YA ALLAH, KURNIAKANLAH MEREKA APA YANG TERBAIK DI SISIMU. DENGAN IZIN DAN RAHMATMU, PERMUDAHKANLAH TODAY'S SERIES UNTUK MEREKA AND GRANT THEM VICTORY. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE TO YOU AND YOU CAN MAKE THE IMPOSSIBLE POSSIBLE. AND GRANT THEM WORLDS CHAMPIONSHIP 2023 THIS YEAR. AMIN YA RABBIL 'ALAMIN. ❤️

WE'LL BE PLAYING IN BUSAN, SOUTH KOREA, WHICH IS KERIA'S HOMETOWN AND YOUR LOVES' OWN HOMELAND. SO MAKE US PROUD YAAAA!!!!! I'LL BE ROOTING FOR YOU LOVES ARDENTLY & VEHEMENTLY AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LESSGO MY LOVES, I KNOW WE GOT THIS. WE. WILL. WIN. TODAY. AND. WE. WILL. WIN. THE. CHAMPIONSHIP. T1 WINNN!! ZOFGK FIGHTINGGGGG!!!!!!! ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

🥹🤨🤫😎😝

PS/. ALWAYS REMEMBER, THE GAME ISN'T OVER UNTIL THE NEXUS FALLS.

"But why Do I keep on telling myself Things will get better?"

-lines extracted from the chorus of 'here again' by insomniacks

NEVER, EVER, EVER LOSE HOPE IN YOURSELF. I KNOW YOU GUYS CAN DO THIS. I BELIEVE YOU GUYS CAN DO THIS. I HAVE FAITH IN EACH ONE OF YOU. KEEP HOLDING ON AND NEVER GIVE UP. BECAUSE THINGS WILL BE ALRIGHT. THINGS WILL DEFINITELY GET BETTER. I HAVE A GOOD FEELING THAT WE CAN MAKE IT TO SEMIS. IDK MAN I JUST FEEL IT. SINCE END 2022, MY INSTICTS TOLD ME THAT SOMETHING GOOD IS GOING TO HAPPEN IN 2023. WHICH IDK IF IT ALREADY HAPPENED IN MY LIFE YET. BUT ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. IN SHA ALLAH. 💞

[emmafallsinlove]

OH MY GOD HAVE YOU SEEN DICKINSON??? i loved it sooo much!!!! 😨😭😭💕 emisue made an actual crumbled piece of paper of my heart, i felt that relationship too closely and more so because of the actresses’ chemistry. like honestly i haven’t seen such a real and emotional media representation in a looong time and that needs to be well recognised! BUT YES the ivy references are SO obvious, it is for sure one of her greatest lgbt+ coded songs and a lot of straight swifties agree that the vibes are unquestionable!!! especially if you’ve watched that show too, like goddamn it just HITS (different) sksksk oh and i love watching fanvideos as well!

no need to apologise for rambling bestie!! i also do it and your replied put my fangirl shoes on lmao but to answer your questions; yes i’m excited about speak now tv because it’s another rerecording plus new content from the vault! though tbh i’m probably more excited about the rest. like i know for a fact 1989 and reputation are gonna bury me alive, i cannot even prepare myself for that. but i agree!!! mine is SO GOOD and it also has lgbt+ vibes imo! along with wonderland and cruel summer ofc, iykyk!! haha my faves from speak now are mine, better than revenge, last kiss, haunted and long live. so those are the ones i’m waiting for the most! ✨

ohh great, i’m a yntcd/me supporter too!! they don’t deserve the slander they get, i really don’t get it! i wish i had a vinyl player though… i’ve always loved vintage stuff and it’s a shame they’re so expensive, but i trust you 100% the sound coming from them must be something unparalleled. OMG wait you have tattoos!!! woah those look SO pretty, i’m obsessed! i’d say i’m more of a piercings girl but me and my gf have been discussing to get ourselves Seven tattoos, so that’s the one i’m wishing for (another great lgbt+ song if you ask me, also cowboy like me!) but my fave is rep, definitely another gay coded album if you just feel it that way… or i’m probably too gay for my own sake and i just like to queer code everything 🤦🏼‍♀️😂

alright this got unexpectedly long and i’m so sorry! please feel free to answer whenever you can and feel like to, no pressure here!! i just got too excited sharing these little things with you and getting ideas for a perfect gift! 💌😋 but i’ll see you soon, lots of love ! - 🌈

hiii hiii <33 sorry it took me some time to answer i had a crazy weekend and i was on vacation so i kind of stayed out of tumblr for most of it!

and yes ofc i’ve seen dickinson! i had like a whole dickinson era, i literally bought “open me carefully” but i haven’t even finished reading it because i’m having so much feels every time i’m opening this book but like. AHHHH how can people just say they were “best friends” or whatever? and i remember when i watched it and i was in my dickinson era i even started writing some draft about emisue + ivy. it’s actually not so popular tv show which kind of makes me sad because she’s soooo good! i didn’t got into the dickinson fandom actually but idk i haven’t seen many edits or headcanons. but ofc in ao3 there are great fics! and yes yes i agree with everything you had to say! the chemistry between the actress was so rare and it one of the best wlw representation we had in the recent years!

god i hope that in 1989 tv she’s gonna add a bonus track of style ft. harry styles because it’s been my dream since 2014 and i literally do not care about anything else. oh, and need (from the leaks) feels like a reputation tv vault to me?? like i feel it in the same vibe of ✨dress✨ but she couldn’t include both so she basically gave up on need for dress but i love dress so much as well so i’m like? i want to have both but. i don’t know if i’ll ever gonna get both, y’know? 😂

also yes now that you mention it rep has some gay vibes i haven’t noticed before!! like dress? getaway car?? gorgeous?? “only bought this dress so you could take it off”??? I MEAN HELLO also in a parallel universe it could be fitting for emisue! hmm maybe i will edit them with dress one day… we shall see….

and omg yeah seven tattoos could be so cool!!! and thank you i really love my tattoos <3 kind of funny to me how both of these songs I tattooed (ivy / august) talking about cheating and having illicit affair in a sense AMFHKFK but out of context i just really love the sentence of “to live for the hope of it all” idk how to explain it

can’t wait to hear from you again!! <3

[kenjacku]

Thank you @velouie and @loulovehome 💓💓 for tagging me to do this (I apologise in advance if its too long and boring rip, also this has been in my drafts for a looong time now hehe)

“💕 get to know your mutuals!! when you get this, it means someone wants to know more about you, so list 5 things about yourself you want your followers to know. they can be as simple as your age or as complex as your deepest fear, as long as it’s something you’re comfortable with sharing. when you’re done, send this to ? people you want to get to know better!! 🥺🌼💕”

1. I love food and I have a gigantic sweet tooth if I don't have a really good book /show to keep me occupied, food is what I'll be thinking of all. the. time.

2. I do not like wearing makeup, I only ever use lip balm and/or lipstick, that's it

3. Ive always had short hair, done in a boy cut and sometimes a bob cut, but i started to grow my hair out last year after i started getting obsessed with male anime characters with long hair and the one and only LHH, sooo for the first time in my entire life, my hair is now midway between my shoulders and waist yay

4. i really really want to learn to play the violin

5. I am very lazy and very messy and very disorganised.. and my sister who's actually younger than me gives me hell for it lmao ( it's almost like she's the elder one.. you know, i just have fruits for dinner but i also eat a lot of other stuff throughout the day. And yet she has some problem with me not having a 'proper dinner' and she's declared she won't talk to me about any of my interests like onedee or listen to my complaints about college or unblock me on whatsapp (she did that because I told her what sausages are an innuendo for lmao) until i start having dinner. like whaaat.. it's none of her fucking business and it's really pissing me off but im finding it kinda funny too)

im tagging @finexbright @holyshit @halosanchor @trulymadlycrazy @solvetheminourdreams @sunflowerapocathary (onlyyy if you want to <3)

[gammafish]

Fanfiction writer asks Thank you @saantha and @writerforthetylwythteg ! ^^ <3

Okay, Caroline first cause you sent this to me like a week ago :’D 1) How old were you when you first starting writing fanfiction? My answer is really similar to yours, I think? I started years and years ago, maybe when I was 15 or 16? But I didn’t even know what fanfiction was lol. But before that I was writing a long looong story, kiiinda origina but also kiiiinda with a character based on an existing character from a show ^^’ I first published an actual ‘proper’ fanfic on AO3 when I was 19.

12) Who is your favourite character to write for? Why? Surprise surprise, but my I love writing ‘dark’, tortured, angsty, and tormented characters, wow, who would have thought xD I wrote for a few fandoms and I guess I have a favourite in each? In SNK it’s Levi, in X-Men it was Charles, in BBC Sherlock it’s Moriarty, and in Black Butler it’s... well, both Ciel and Sebastian. But I’d say that out of all of those, at least recently, I’ve been enjoying writing Sebastian; I wrote over 25k words of a series recently entirely from his POV, as you know, and it was fantastic to write, that fic is my little baby, my little pride and joy :’D I remember you saying that the fic read like something I was born to write, and that that demon was my perfect muse and my dude, it sounds so right XD

13) Who is your least favourite character to write for? Why? Hmmmmmmmmmmm no one comes to mind, really? Logically progressing from the previous question, I’m not the biggest fan of writing overly-happy, bubbly characters XD But I don’t think I have one I actually dislike. If I really hate a character, I probably won’t include them in my fic, or as little as possible.

16) How did you come up with the idea for xxx?  (Guide Dog) Whump. I just wanted to write lots of whump xD And fear, and abuse, and recovery from these; describing the slow mental process of a character progressing from being scared of their own shadow to - through someone else’s kindness and patience - learn how to function again. I’ve wanted to try this for years and years, it’s been brewing in my head for so long, and I had so many plans and drafts, but somehow it just never took off until I came across SNK, and Eren’s story. And then of course it got a bit political, but honestly I’m kind of glad it took that kind of turn, I think it made it a more meaningful story than just an attempt at a feels-fest XD

21) Tell me about another writer(s) who you admire? What is it about them that you admire? Well, you know I obviously like your works because of how wonderfully fucked up they are, right up my street so :D In the SNK fandom, I love acidtowns who wrote Junkyard Dogs, and also julieofthwatertribe, and I’ve STILL got to read pinkheichou’s massive Ereri fic but people love it so I’m sure she’s good too x3 There are tons and tons of fics in that fandom that I love but these are the first few that come to mind. In BBC Sherlock fandom, Mad_Lori wrote this absolutely infamous ‘Alone on Water’ fic which is basically just a rollercoaster of angst and tears, it was amazing. SD_Ryan wrote amazing fics too, with Moran/Moriarty. I had a friend on deviantArt years ago, who wrote really good Rammstein fics too, she even wrote one for me!  And of course, in the SPN fandom, the top of the top of Destiel fics; Twist and Shout by gabriel and standbyme. It’s the highest-rated (in terms of kudos) Destiel fanfic on AO3, and I can absolutely understand why. The angst in this is just indescribable, I wasted like an entire tissue roll on my tears. And then there were two fics; ‘To high places by narrow roads’ by Fossarian, and ‘Carry On’, by TamrynEradani. I don’t remember the first one too well, but it had lots of angst and issues of slavery like in Guide Dog, so I loved it lots, but the second one, ohhh the second one. The writer described a dom/sub relationship in the most perfect, wholesome, realistic way I ever saw written anywhere. I need to reread it soon now actually, because it’s a feast for the soul, I’m not even kidding XD And then finally, Black Butler fandom; chromehoplite, gxlden both write awesome stuff (and they collaborate a lot too and the results are aMAZING and they grace this fandom with sooo much content :’3) Severus_Divides_into_H is also writing a fantastic multi-chaptered fic which is so beautifully sad, dark and gothic and full of feels, honestly you can clearly see I have a type, when it comes to fics :’D

33) What’s the biggest compliment you’ve gotten? I couldn’t choose a single one, I’m flattered whenever I get any kind of compliment :’) But I live and breathe for the moments when people tell me that my fic made them cry. And honestly you gave me some of the best compliments lol, I wanted to launch myself into space when you said that Ciel’s death from my fic affected you and that you randomly found yourself thinking of that scene the next day, because you’re not even in the fandom T__T <3 And I wanted to do the same thing when a few people told me before they would buy a physical copy of Guide Dog, like, people would pay money for what I wrote?? How possible, nat.exe has crashed, reboot now. And hahah, recently when I comment on some Black Butler fics, once or twice I got a response that the author was glad to get a comment from me because they read my fic and they liked it, and that just blows my mind because???? Someone recognised me??? how possible?? Reboot again

49) Can you remember the first fic you read? What was it about? Uuuuuum I think it was actually a Rammstein fic, based on the ‘Ich Will’ music video. Angst and death all around ;-; But again, at that stage I didn’t really know what fanfiction was lol. 

Bahaha I hope you enjoyed your novel, my GOD that took me so long XD

And hóhóhó Jázu thank you for asking too ( ͡◉ ͜ʖ ͡◉) <3

8) Where do you take your inspiration from? Uuuuugh that’s a tough one. Maybe overall just some messed up movies or books or other fics, and when I’m actually writing, it’s usually some dark or sad gothic music, or whatever else fits lol ^^ But I don’t write THAT much, so I don’t need a constant IV with inspiration, I suppose ^^’

18) Do you have any abandoned WIP’s? What made you abandon them? Yeeeeesss ^^’‘‘ Guilty as charged lol. I have at least one abandoned WIP in the BBC Sherlock fandom, X-men fandom, and supernatural fandom (in the last one, I remember it was some heavy angst - what a surprise - destiel wip that I actually tried to find a few days ago, but couldn’t which made me very sad lol cause I wanted to read over it :( ). I guess I abandoned them because there was no solid plot, and I only started writing them because I wanted to write some quick whump, or some feels, but didn’t have the determination to write a whole story around it XD

25) Have you ever cried whilst writing a story? ABSOLUTELY, with the amount of angst I try to squeeze in everywhere, I take it as a personal offense and lack of skills if I can’t make at least * myself * cry x’D Although, I’m writing this long multichaptered fic for Attack on Titan that I think I mentioned to you, and its close to 200k words, and there’s lots of angst, but it hasn’t made me cry as much as writing this other for, Black Butler, which is only 24k words. I cried for at least half of it lol, maybe because it’s much closer to canon, and the canon itself is so tragic and has me upset whenever I think about it ;__;

HOH ALRIGHT that’s me done, I think this actually took me around an hour to do XD But thank you guys, that was fun :3c <3

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hi! do you know this taekook fic where tae and jungkook were together for a while (i dont really know). they broke things off (i think so), and then tae went to the states or abroad, and when he came back, jungkook picked him up at the airport.

the thing is. jungkook is a tattoo artist and tae kinda promised him that he would let jungkook do his first tattoo. BUT when he came back from the states, he came with a tattoo.

i had the ask in my drafts for sooo looong now JEEZ-

im so sorry for keeping u waiting? for nothing. I def remember reading something like this but i wasn't able to found it. If anyone knows this, pls let me know~