#i had a tangent woops

[babacontainsmultitudes]

I'm not the first person to bring this up but, I do feel that the general response to the gun range scene has mostly failed to acknowledge the context that would call for such extreme levels of self-defense training in the first place. We know from episode 23 that even just a few years after the release of the doodler (when Lark and Sparrow themselves are still just teens) things are already pretty bad (to the extent that in Lark's case the stress of it all has already begun to take a physical toll on him- don't forget that he and Sparrow too were once kids who had the world placed on their shoulders), and one need only look at how quickly the situation with the mayor has degraded to imagine how bad things would have gotten by the time Hero was 12. Training your six-year-old to use a gun in a normal or at least mostly normal world? Batshit crazy. Training your six-year-old to use a gun in a world overrun by an eldritch horror where danger, death, and the possibility of corruption from said eldritch horror are around every corner? Still intense but, much easier to understand the reasoning behind.

oh oops it's a long post woops woops woops

In Sparrow's case in particular, we know that he behaves quite differently under alternative circumstances, and that Normal (Hero too for that matter) lives a pretty different life in a post code purple world:

Not that it hasn't been Sparrow's intent and priority to mitigate the extent to which Normal was caught up in everything from the get-go, as evidenced by his namesake. Recall what he had to say on the matter:

In some ways this extreme self-defense training is a "two sides of the same coin" sort of deal vis-a-vis Grant's extreme isolation of Lincoln for his protection, a major difference being that Lincoln still deals with this in a post code purple world (to the extent that he literally had to pretend to starve himself to get his dad to let him go to public school), whereas Normal and Hero get the chance to live mostly normal lives and do as they please (the disapproving words of a drunken and partially-doodlerized Sparrow aside), now removed from the immediate threat of the doodler.

Hero's case is, at least from what we currently know about the prophecy, more complicated than Norm's. It is easy to reprimand Lark and Sparrow as being the worst parents (and/or uncles) whilst forgetting that their circumstances are fundamentally different from the other kiddads. The first half of this lying in their shared responsibility (and guilt) in releasing the doodler. Grant and Nicky can retreat to their respective homes on the basis that this is the best they can do, resolving to put their energy into protecting their closest ones first and foremost. At the end of the day, they aren't really any more responsible for dealing with the doodler than any other bystander. The same cannot be said of Lark and Sparrow, who can't exactly look away from the fact that they were the ones who brought the doodler into the world. At least from their perspectives- of course Lark (and Sparrow by extension) in reality was a child that was manipulated into doing what he did, which as some people have pointed out is not dissimilar to what happened to Normal at the end of this episode (and if Sparrow felt the need to rid Normal of his memories of this event in particular, perhaps it was to spare his child from feeling guilty about it for the rest of his life).

The second half of what differentiates them is, of course, the prophecy (right- now we can actually get to Hero lol). We must remember that, as far as the twins knew, the only way to actually "defeat" the doodler permanently was through the chosen one, i.e. Hero (probably- after last episode I'm starting to think that Norm may be more directly involved in the prophecy than previously thought, but that's a tangent). "Continue to let the being you released into the world kill and torture millions (very likely billions) of people, which could wind up including both of your children, or put your ill-fated child through very intense and ultimately traumatizing training to put an end to it, potentially losing her in the process", is essentially the choice the twins were given. Hero isn't made to kill a deer with her bare hands for the hell of it, she goes through what she does because Lark (who likely did not see the same thing that Normal did on the throne- or at the very least interpreted things very differently) and Sparrow had no reason to believe that there was any other possibility. This certainly does not negate or undermine the extent to which Hero was deeply traumatized by it all, but it's not exactly a detail that you can choose to ignore when discussing the ethics of Lark and Sparrow's decision-making.

And yet, despite it all, Sparrow and Lark do ultimately chose saving their children over saving the world. Not before significant damage has already been done (to Hero that is), but they do decide to go through with the one plan that allows both of their children to (hopefully) live a doodler-free life: code purple. Code purple, which ultimately reduces to a trolley problem with a presumably near-equal number of people on both tracks, with the important difference of sparing their own children in one case, and likely not the other. And if we want to talk about Henry's ethical stance in the matter and how it compares to the twins, we need to consider what it says about him if he was *not* in favor of code purple, with all of this in mind. Not to come to any hasty conclusions about Henry either- I think there remains too many unknowns on that front to assume much and... Ultimately it's a complicated matter! But that's kind of my point.

Even post code purple, Lark and Sparrow (and the rest of the kiddads) try to pursue that which they believe (or at least hope) will both put an end to the doodler without involving their children and without the enactment of the prophecy. Is blowing up an entire world with the sun to save all the others a plan I'm gonna sit here and defend? I don't think so lol, but you can't exactly look at it and pretend that Lark and Sparrow don't care about protecting their fucking kids.

My point isn't that Lark and Sparrow haven't made a lot of mistakes and questionable decisions, my point is that their circumstances are so much less black and white than the majority of the takes I see on them make them out to be, and a lot of the conclusions I see people jump to when it comes to the twins' feelings and intentions strike me as... Pretty odd? Tangentially-related: if you don't think Sparrow is someone who is affectionate with and deeply loves his kids despite his flaws, I don't really think we're listening to the same podcast. But even in Lark's case, yes he's more subtle about it and yes, Lark can be quick to anger (not that I personally read him yelling in the last episode as anger so much as panic but all the same), but affection can be sewing bulletproof material into your nephew's mascot costume, or secretly taking him out for pizza, or pretending to be his dad so that you can tell him you're proud of him, or putting your gun down when he asks you to. The twins are anything but perfect but, fuck if they aren't trying (and changing, and improving). And yes, they deserve some damn nuance.

Also, okay, I couldn't really find a neat way to bring this up in the above but, speaking of no-nuance and bad faith takes, can we talk about the locks? Or lack thereof, rather. "How could they be so stupid as to leave the door unlocked?" you're right, that does seem odd, and Anthony made a point to explain that every other door was very thoroughly locked, and Normal seemed to have practically been moved into opening the door against his own will so... Hear me out, maybe, just maybe, the door usually *is* locked??? And something fishy or unusual is afoot? I also wouldn't take their immediate, knee-jerk reactions to a dangerous flesh monster being released to come to any conclusions on whether or not Lark and Sparrow "blame" six-year-old Normal for it. In Sparrow's case, I struggle to even imagine it. In Lark's case, though I wouldn't put him above getting angry over it, my doubts on his deeper feelings are still high. Conversely, if he actually did place some of the blame on Normal, at the very least there is an interesting discussion to be had on how this relates to Lark's own guilt over what Willy manipulated him into doing, and subsequently being denied the catharsis of punishment. But I'm getting ahead of myself. Like I said, a lot of important things are yet unknown.

*breathes* okay end of overdue ramble [insert proper conclusion paragraph here lol], thank you.

[howlingmod]

follow-up to Allusive !

summary - hcs + drabble continuation of allusive ... the ooc confession hath arrived. lampert x reader

wc - 1.5k

misc - sort of requested by @ra-bies . technically. (sorry for the @)

-Lampert did not actually tell you that night. Woops. He wanted to, and he really thought he was gonna! He knew if he didn’t just get it off his chest there was a pretty good chance he’d end up never telling you and agonizing over how he could for forever. Even then, though, he couldn’t risk blurting it out wrong and saying something entirely by accident. He would be mortified for life if he said something stupid after such a special moment between the two of you. So instead he just made up a story about something he saw at Rokea earlier that day he thought you’d find funny and then stared off into space for the rest of the night. Needless to say, he had to come up with something better, and soon.

-He’s really not sure of where to start. Sure, he knows the cliche romantic stuff people to do confess their feelings, but all of it feels a little … off. It’s just not something he would do, and he’s sure you would notice if he was doing something so wildly out of character for him, which runs the risk of making you uncomfortable or think he’s not being genuine and that’s the last thing he needs.

-So, he’s gotta figure out something you would understand. He thinks a lot about how you two normally hang out, all the places you tend to drag him whenever you’re off of work and have money to spare and the energy to go out. You’ve taken him to a couple of places near your work, a handful of small stores and a restaurant or two, but that’s just a little too casual, isn’t it? I mean, yeah, he had a lot of fun on those little outings with you, but they’re all right by your job. You see them every day– hell, you probably go visit them pretty often!

-You’ve taken him to a few more ‘special’ places, too. There was some clearing at a nearby park you’d showed him, flopping down on the ground to look up at the stars. There wasn’t anything super unique about the place, but Lampert didn’t really remember it for that anyway. He mostly just remembers talking with you there, how you went on tangent after tangent about customers or random conversations you overheard or something you remembered from when you were younger. He didn’t have too much to add, his day had been pretty normal and his childhood was a lot of just him looking at furniture, but it was nice. He liked hearing you talk, the sound of your voice, how much fun you were having. You’d gone long enough that your voice was still scratchy the next day, much to your chagrin. Despite the sore throat, he was sure you had fun too, since you talked about going back there with him someday soon.

- … But that also felt pretty cliche. I mean, yeah, that was a pretty special experience to him, but a “beautiful, starry clearing” felt just tropey enough to make him cringe. He might as well bring a bouquet of roses and a handwritten letter.

-So, that left him with one other idea: your place. Sure, it seemed pretty lame– It’s your house. You go there every day and spend a whole lot of time there, but it felt like the only place really unique to the two of you. You two have spent plenty of nights watching bad movies on your tv or going on about this and that over drinks. Besides, that’s where he was planning on telling you in the first place, wasn’t it?

-He would’ve considered his place, but he didn’t really wanna risk some random passerby overhearing such a sensitive conversation, especially if you didn’t return his feelings. A fort in the middle of a store only has so much privacy, and he wasn’t sure you’d be a fan of the dark of the store after hours.

-Even with a location figured out now, he was a little apprehensive. He really didn’t wanna risk throwing out your guys’ friendship over unreturned feelings, but he also knew he couldn’t really make them go away and you would start to notice something’s up eventually. You probably wouldn’t cut him off just because you didn’t feel the same, but the fact it was a ‘probably’ and not a ‘definitely’ felt like it may as well have been an outright no.

-Either which way, he had to give it a try. If you didn’t feel the same, that was fine, he’s sure he could still be your friend. Hopefully. If you did feel the same, though, then … yay. He’s not really sure how to put into words how happy he’d be.

-You’d invited him over as per usual and the night had been pretty normal for the most part. You two had dinner and were just sitting around talking, but he’d decided to let you take the lead in conversation tonight, since he had to gather his confidence to say this right.

“… You alright, man? Been pretty quiet,” You hummed, looking over at your friend. He’d been sitting pretty stiffly, now that you looked at him. He was on the other side of the couch, facing forward with his hands folded on his lap and looking right ahead, though his eyes had shifted over to look over at you once you addressed him.

“Huh? Oh, uh … yeah, I’m fine. But uh … could I talk to you about something?” He asked, uncharacteristically anxious. That was enough to make you sit up straighter, already dreading what was to come.

“Oh, yeah. For sure. What do you wanna talk about?” You hoped you sounded normal enough, it was a little hard to get those words out through the worry tightening arond your throat.

He seemed to pick up on it, though, efforts be damned. He’d suddenly turned to you then, fully shifting to face you and waving his hands, “Don’t worry! It’s nothing bad! I probably should’ve worded that a little better, sorry, it’s just sort of … big? Complicated? I dunno.”

You relaxed at that, but still kept an edge of uncertainty, unsure of where this was going. There was a pause for a few moments, each of you waiting for the other to say something more. “Well … you gonna tell me about the big news or what?”

He smiled at that, scoffing a laugh, “Yeah, yeah. Sorry. But … do you remember when I asked you if I could tell you something?” He paused, looking at you. You stared back blankly, lips pulled into a straight line. “That one night? The one where you got those wires for me? I followed it up with some like, dumb story or whatever.”

“Oh! That night! Yeah, I remember, what about it?”

“Well,” Lampert took a breath, looking off into the side and folding his hands together again, “I wasn’t really … honest, about what I wanted to tell you.”

“I didn’t just wanna tell you about some stupid guy at Rokea,” he continued, leaning back against the arm of the couch, pulling his legs up to fully mirror your position, “I was thinking about something else and just kinda panicked once I’d actually said something.”

You blinked at him, and he took another breath, tensing up as he physically braced himself for the point of no return. “So, I was actually kinda thinking about … ugh, how do I say this? Us? Like, ugh, no, that sounds so …” he trailed off, rubbing at his eyes hard, “I don’t know, I just … I felt so safe, y’know? I don’t really like other people touching me, much less sticking their hands in me like that, but I didn’t mind it when it was you.”

“I always kinda felt like that, I guess, but I just never really noticed it until then. And it’s not just that, either. You’ve always been there for me, you’re funny even if you’re being annoying, you always think about me and you’ve done so, so much for me and I just–” he sighed, letting go of held breath, “I really appreciate you, I like having you in my life. You mean a lot to me.”

He risked looking at you then, meeting wide eyes, “You can say no if you want to, of course. I don’t wanna lose you over some stupid confession. But … if you’d want to, I’d like to go out with you.”

You didn’t respond for a few seconds, blinking at him. Okay, clearly you didn’t feel the same. That’s fine, okay, he can deal with that. He should say something, he opens his mouth to speak again.

“Lampert I’ve been dropping hints for like weeks now.”

“Huh?”

“Dude,” you were laughing now, badly biting them back, “Do you think I invite anyone over this much? Why do you think I took you to that one stupid, fancy cafe a while ago?”

“I- Well,” Lampert stammered, struggling to wrap his head around what you were saying, “How was I supposed to know that?! You never said anything!”

You threw your head back, laughing harder now. If he liked you any less, he would be walking away right now. Instead, he was sitting and watching you laugh at him like an idiot. “Man! Whatever, who cares. But yes, I’d like to go out with you too.”

“Really?”

“Yeah. You mean a lot to me too, if that wasn’t obvious.”

…

“But for the record, I knew you were bullshitting that story in the first place.”

“Oh lay off!”

[kiawren]

Okay I wanted to study math but I got so distracted by important kiawren thoughts..

You know how some time ago I posted this about the fire-crested wren's story making me think about kiawren (I realised there was a typo, I didn't type out the 'wren' after 'fire-crested' woops.)

Today I realised I didn't dwell on the other part of the chapter I read this at. One of the hawaiian stories of Maui finding fire relates to him learning from birds who could make fire. (you can read the full thing here, it's cool I found it online after reading this in person but my new phone doesn't have the pics of the pages)

And like..... ... I was thinking how it is birds that first alight fire in this folklore. And Kiawe... Maybe his fire burns passionately becuz of Wren. Yes he's always had the drive in him, but a new sort of fire was kindled after he met Wren. It's a new sort of love and passion. Especially becuz he talks about feeling down and unsure about the future until but he says talking to (the player) helps.

Similar to this Pokemon Masters storyline:

He can and does feel burnt out (haha) sometimes and it really helps to know the people and pokemon around him care for him and want to achieve their goals together. So, I think with Wren around he'd have a new sort of motivation and looking forward to show them his progress. (Becuz he does all this for pokemon and people in the first place, to learn about the connections between the natural world and people through this cultural art.)

Wow ok I'm going off tangent. Uhm basically he needs a bird to keep his fire alive. (The bird meaning me)

Something else,

I find it comforting that he'd also know Banyan trees becuz they also have stories where I'm from: (there are more apart from these)

I think Kiawe would like that the former myth relates to music (the kompang drum) since he's a traditional dancer that also appreciates traditional music.

This is the same sccreenshot as the second picture on this post but I was quite glad to read they were baking bananas. Becuz I love goreng pisang that you can find in my region🤤🤤🤤 (fried banana)

Like! We could tell each other these stories and remark about their similarities (also, the snake in the Banyan was killed and Maui broke a neck and burned the head of the birds in the earlier story, but I didn't screenshot that part. Interestingly they have the animals on the losing end lol) and find parts of it that relates to us, even though these stories were shaped in different places.

The main thing I wanted to say is that Kiawren is so special to me for relating our love to the stories and symbols of the world, so that it goes past just "haha us" to wow I'm learning a lot of things because of you, and it's a larger than life feeling.

Also I remembered this silly drawing I did last time. If you asked Kiawe about loving Wren he'd probably remark that he loves them simply, becuz he cares for them and likes learning with and spending time with them. And if you ask me about loving him, I'd tell you about the fire-crested wren, the birds that made fire on trees that led Maui to bring fire to people, the way the Pacific Ring of Fire and the way tectonic plates subduct to form volcanoes reminds me of him and us. The Dragon and Phoenix in Chinese myth are celestial beings and when paired together represent marriage and prosperity. (He reminds me of reptilians, hardy and seemingly fierce but can be gentle. The dragon is formidable. He also has dragon, charizard, that used to be his grandfather's, the ex island kahuna and yes I'm following the pokeani story here cuz i like incorporating it with his game character. So yes I associate him with the dragon. And I'm the phoenix becuz bird. And also he loves fire. The dragon and the fire-bird. ) Chalk it up to age-old mythologies and natural phenomena that is a symbol of us before we even met, and even if we part.

[scepterno]

Oh my god I love nsfw with acc feelings in it it makes it so real and meaningful icl

I remember reading one where Alejandro was insanely focused on Noah and like to get handsy and describe every part he loved ab him😭 Alejandro when he’s not playing in TD is so different towards people (if he wasn’t attracted to Heather he’d be attracted to Noah?? Or something like that I remember seeing it) but yeah Noah felt so safe with him and wasn’t at all nervous to say no to things in the fic it was so sweet☹️

I haven't read any nsfw fics of alenoah simply because.. erm...... i do not enjoy a lot of alenoah fics in general.. i cannot shake the feeling that most are written by teens so i just tend to avoid them by virtue of not wanting to read some high schooler's fanfic. i am a stickler about proper grammer, syntax, rhythm and beats, or what have you. *pushes up glasses* i am a scholar in STEM at heart. do not let the art degree fool you! when you get older and go to college you tend to...................................... now, i don't mean to be rude, but you tend to refine your tastes in literature, aka silly gay fanfics in the internet.

i just cannot bring myself to sit through more than 2 sentences of a fic if there's not proper punctuation or grammar. (also you can sort of tell when a fic is written by someone young or inexperienced, which, you know, power to them! you cant get better if you dont suck first! but that does not. mean. i will subject myself to Suck) i simply cannot. it hurts my bones.

that was a totally unrelated tangent. WOOPS. sourry 'bout that, mate.

what you're thinking of is the reddit AMA with alejandro's original voice actor where someone asked if they could see alejandro being attracted to anyone other than Heather, using Noah as an example, and he agreed. (they kind of led him into that one, so i take it with a grain of salt, but celebrate nonetheless)

i personally cannNNNAWWWWTTTT see Noah as submissive in a sexual situation with alejandro. with someone like Emma? yeah. sure. vaporize that stupid twink. but with alejandro, who brings out the competitive, spiky side to Noah??? i cant see him assuming the submissive role. maybe he likes to get pampered and Pillow Princess'd once in a while (he is VERY lazy to his core, after all).

i do find it interesting how most people tend to agree that alejandro would be a much better person as soon as he's no longer on reality television. although, i suppose that applies to most characters, especially the villains.

i personally still think that alejandro has a nasty side, since he wasn't ALLOWED to have a nasty side around his family (or he'd get a beating). being on total drama let him have fun with being a complete asshole, which is not something he was ever allowed to do before then, because he's supposed to be perfect! and suave! and a gentleman! Chris hired him to be a dirtbag, so he played the part and had a blast doing it (until it bit him in the ass)

i do regret not being able to show alejandro's Nasty Side more in my fic, but i dont' really think there was room for it given how hard he was trying to redeem himself both in his family's eyes, as well as Noah's. once he and Noah are more comfortable with each other, Alejandro definitely allows himself to be let loose a bit and forego the manners. he truly DOES admire that Noah isn't a pushover, because he considers himself one and wishes, deep down, that he wasn't so compelled to be a people pleaser. there is a subconscious filter in his brain that keeps him generally polite, just because it's been drilled into him by his family (diplomatic and strict, cough cough) that being undesirable or off-putting is something to be punished for.

EGADS, it appears I have allowed myself to ramble again, so I'll cut it off here. sorry for using your fairly straightforward message as a means of info-dumping. 'tis the turn of the tide, or what have you.

じゃね~~~~!!!

[strangerhands]

go to a wedding, go to a party, go to a museum with the moon boys🫶🏻

7. go to a wedding with, go to a party with, go to a museum with

eeek okay, i want to say go to a wedding with marc, but i feel like he would not want to be there😭😭 but also, i would not really want to be there either, so maybe we would just chill quietly in the corner together and eat and drink good stuff. marc definitely seems like the type you can people watch with, while also having your own fun yet chill conversation, and thats what i personally would love to have in a setting like that (that makes us both kind of uncomfortable and anxious) i feel he would relate to how you feel, and we would find comfort in eachother🥺 and god just imagine him all dressed up🫠 and the both of you getting all hot at how the other looks🤭 and the yearning.. the desire for your own wedding together,, hooo boy

i would definitely go to a party with jake, i think if/when given the chance (like in the comics) hes super fun and laidback, and loves to hang around people. i saw a post the other day saying jakes the type who would stay by your side the entire time if you get anxious around people/at parties and it made me want to cry ngl because i think thats so true😭😭 he would just love to be with you, and would want you to be safe and comfortable and happy, and gaaaah i need that so bad. and i think that if i were comfortable enough in the environment to loosen up a bit and let myself have fun, we would have funnnn. i can see him getting rowdy for sure, and i might just join him😋 i think hes a touchy flirty goofy loud drunk for sure lol we would definitely have a good time😏

and of course i gotta go to a museum with steven,, i mean. who woulda guessed. but i actually love going to museums and art galleries, though i havent had the chance many times in my life. i would love hearing his thoughts on things he knows about, and his tangents and info dumping. i think he would have really insightful and unique thoughts on some things, and id just love to learn from him. he would definitely have some cheeky facts too. i also think seeing and learning about new things together, or telling him about something he doesnt know, would be really great too, i think he just loves to listen and learn as well, and just enjoys being with you and talking about things you both like together. itd be such a sweet time🥺🥹

thank you for this ask!! so fun thinking about all of this lol i did not think id write that much about it all🧍woop

[the-s1lly-corner]

Can I get Centipedes x Ragatha? (it’s a joke)

Ragatha and centipedes

jokes on you im going to entertain this because im feeling a little silly. going to be all over the place since its just a bunch of random stuff tying in with the general centipede idea future admin here VV did not think i would need to put a cw on this but this genuinely made me feel bluuuuuugh and yucky so uh. CW on talk about bugs and vague talk of infestations because the admin tried to make a hc on why ragatha is scared of centipedes in particular (admin realizes their phobia of bugs is worse than they thought by the end of writing it they just thought they had arachnophobia LMAO) not even going to bother to tag this

i think its centipedes specifically that ragatha doesnt like. shes okay with spiders, shes fine with flies, hell shes okay witih silverfish (which arguably are just as gross if not grosser than centipedes). its something about centipedes in specific she hates. maybe its the legs. its gotta be the legs

or maybe theres something else? honestly i can see her getting her little fear of the things from a prank by jax gone terribly wrong, or perhaps even an in house adventure

or maybe she experienced something with them in her real life that, despite her losing her memories, she fears the bug down to her very core. something that shook her so deeply, engraining itself into her psyche, enough to carry on even after losing everything that once made her her when she put on the headset

okay jokes aside, originally i was going to go on a tangent about how that maybe her fear came from a really bad IHA.. but now that i think about it, the idea of her going through something in her real life makes more sense. plus as much as i write about jax putting centipedes in her room i dont think he actually did... but what i have cooking in my brain far exceeds the cruelty jax would dare dish out

i dont know about you but infestations can quickly instill a fear in you. i would know personally because when i was younger roaches and silverfish were common in my house hold, especially during wetter times of the year. also crickets. and woop the admin hates all three of those bugs, deeply. can you imagine going into the bathroom as a small child, only to get up and see a roach as big as your hand just chilling in the toilet bowl. do you know what that does to a person

cue that one post where op said they were taking a dump and they poked a weird spot on their wall only to watch in horror as a hoard of silverfish started spilling out of it

genuine fear of mine i hate silverfish kid me used to avoid the bathroom because of them

so anyways with the power of my self projection, im going to apply the same idea to ragatha. maybe she lived somewhere where centipedes were common. sure they might not have been the huge gnarly ones that we all think of when we hear about these things, but i think even the smaller ones would do her in after enough time. could be a large amount of house centipedes but as stated above, it would probably drive you insane after you see enough of them for long enough

shrugs

okay psychological torment aside i dont think theres really any curing her fear if we're following this hc, like maybe you can help her build a tolerance to having them around but to actually get rid of it fully? yeah no thats going to take a lot more than you can give her in the digital circus

will NOT pick up a centipede you try to get her to hold, you could have the best intensions and it can be the cutest one ever in existence

i was going to add a lot more to this post and make this comically long but my skin is crawling (pun intended) at the images ive just put into my head. genuinely feel yucky inside

[megaawkwardhuman]

8 shows to get to know me

thanks for tagging me @someguywife

an excuse to talk about the shows I like? sign me the fuck up!

WARNING: A LOT OF INFO DUMBING I TRIED TO JUST SUM UP WHAT I LIKED ABOUT THESE SHOWS BUT I COULDN'T RESIST GOING ON LONG TANGENTS ABOUT THEM SO I GAVE UP ON THAT REAL QUICK

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

1) what we do in the shadows- I mean considering how much I post about it and the fact it got me to write my first ever fanfic no shit I love this show! I mean it's got gay people, causal murder, people who have no idea wtf they're doing, vampires, weird ass CGI baby for a season, emotional devastation, did I say gay people? I will admit when I first watched the show I honestly thought it was just ok (may have to do with the fact that halfway through watching it I got sick which is funny cause when I watched the OG film I was also sick and I'm sick now while working on my fic- AM I CURSED!?) but after showing my friends the 2014 film decided to rewatch the show before showing it to them and got fucking OBSESSED. Never been a huge fan of vampire shit but now whatever vampire media I consume next HAS to have gay people in it thanks to this show. It still feels weird to have a character I like and relate to that I can kinda actually see myself in like Guillermo and while we're not 100 the same I still kinda feel seen which is fucking weird ngl. HIS COMING OUT SCENE MADE ME CRY THE SECOND TIME I WATCHED IT. (probably cause that's roughly how coming out to my parents as trans and pan went just without the whole working for vampires thing) Low key scared for what the fuck season 5 has in store :D

2) our flag means death- I fucking LOVE this show! shout out to my friend for showing it to me cause I never would have thought that a show about gay pirates would be for me. Our flag means death has just this vibe to it that has me addicted to it and the love story that I'm STILL surprised a year later they actually went through with just AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! The fact that a show that does what our flag means death does AND GET RENEWED FOR A SECOND SEASON brings a big fat smile to my face! Stede going in head first with an obsession while having no idea what he's doing is a fucking mood. can't wait for season 2 hopefully it won't leave me screaming at my screen like last season! OH YEAH I ALMOST FORGOT I'm SO glad they portrayed Mary the way they did! like they could have easily made her into an unforgivable bitch or homophobic as fuck but no I mean sure she's upset for what Stede did (if you were in her shoes you would be too) but after attempted murder and a bunch of shenanigans beforehand they talk it out and find a compromise that they both like and the fact that she's happy for him for finding love even if it's a guy and she isn't secretly jealous or disgusted by it is just *chef's kiss* so good.

3) moral orel- well let's go from modern live-action shows with gay people to a stop-motion adult cartoon from the mid 2000s! I can still remember watching this show for the first time since I binged it all in one night (by the time I finished it it was like 5am WOOPS) and I don't fucking regret it this show is just fucking fantastic. I HATE THAT IT WAS PULLED FOR BEING "TOO DARK" THE MORE I READ ABOUT WHAT THEY HAD PLANNED THAT THEY HAD TO CANCEL DUE TO THE SHOW'S CANCELLATION THE MORE PISSED OFF I GET! Like it's the darker episodes that make the show SO DAMN GOOD and memorable. HELL the episode that got the show canceled (I think it's called alone) IS ONE OF THE BEST EPISODES. The way it portrayed people handling trauma is fucking fascinating and it's a shame the episode is what got the show pulled. The season two finale two-parter I also up there as one of the greatest episodes in the show. The way the tone shifts as Clay gets more and more drunk and what went from a thing mainly played for laughs turns into a painful moment for Orel as he realizes just how awful his dad is especially when he's drunk. This isn't to say the less serious episodes aren't good. The show can be really funny when it wants to but it's just the more serious episode that leaves an impact on you. When hopping into the show for the first time I heard it was a satire show that was a parody of christian shows I was expecting every other joke to be bible bad (not a christian so I wouldn't have gotten offended but still it would have gotten tiring) but god I was relieved when I found out it was more making fun of those who use faith for all the wrong reasons then pointing the blame to an old ass book. overall 10/10 show that might not be everyone's cup of tea but I personally LOVE it. It's been a while since I last watched it but talking about it makes me wanna watch the entire show again. TL;DR: I fucking love this show and the reason it got canceled is the reason why I love it.

4) invader zim- OK time to move on to something less serious. It's also been a bit since I've last seen this show but it still has a close place in my heart. Invader zim aka the reason I have a tumblr account in the first place (though it wasn't until later when I started to actually use it. when I first made this account it was to lurk) is a nice little show I can watch and not over analyze the shit out of. (I do that a lot with shows I like) I watched this show at a very interesting time in my life. I had recently realized I was trans and had no idea how I was going to tell anyone and funnily enough a couple of days after I realized I was trans quarantine hit so needless to say it was an interesting time for me. This show and the fan stuff on tumblr for the show kept me sane. Dib was one of the first characters I ever related to and as you can tell by me still using him as my profile pic I still do. another show that the more I learn about what they had to cancel due to the show being canceled the more pissed off I get. I forget this is a kid's show half the time.

5) hannibal- I feel bad for my friends cause when I finished this show I WOULDN'T SHUT UP ABOUT IT. This show is the reason I actually use my tumblr account. (cause I paused it and it looked like Will and Hannibal were about to kiss and I needed to share it with someone and none of my friends have seen the show so I threw it onto here and the rest was history) I don't remember why I watched this show but I'm glad I did cause it's fucking great the mystery the first time you watch it and the set up of the answer the second time you watch it is just *chef's kiss* 10/10. The way they portrayed Will and Hannibal's relationship is so fascinating like it's so complex AND GAY. I WANT ANOTHER SEASON DAMN IT THAT CLIFF HANGER (hehe cliff) HAD BEEN KILLING ME EVER SINCE THE FIRST WATCH!!!!!!

6) the last of us- Ok so confession: I haven't finished the show (I have one episode left but I'm watching it with friends so it's probably going to be a bit before I watch it) BUT FUCK DO I LIKE THIS SHOW. I haven't played the games but from what I heard this is a rare video game adaptation that ISN'T dogshit so I might watch a let's play of the game after we finish it since I like the show so much. This has to be one of the most realistic representations of a zombie apocalypse I've ever seen. (granted I haven't consumed much zombie media and it could be the fact that before this the same friend is showing us the walking dead which granted CAN be good at times the way characters act most of the time at least at the point we were at before taking a break where annoying and frustrating) EPISODE 3 WAS THE FIRST TIME I EVER SOBBED AT A SHOW. Fun(?) fact: that date on the letter at the end of that episode august 29 IS MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY 😭. I'm afraid of what episode 9 has in store.

7) south park- despite having a dad who quotes this show and would watch episodes in the living room growing up it wasn't until after watching the last of us one time with friends did I ever end up watching a full episode of the show. (I forgot what episode we watched before watching south park but we all decided we needed a pick me up after it) While I'm not obsessed with this show and I haven't seen all of it (if it was possible to watch that much south park without going insane) I still like this show. Another one of those shows I can watch casually without overanalyzing it. Whenever I need a break from writing my fic or whenever I just feel like it I just pick an episode I heard was good and just watch it. The history behind this show and behind certain episodes I've always found interesting. Though I'm going to be honest for now I'm going to avoid most modern episodes cause I've heard mixed things about newer seasons. Butter's own episode, Cartman sucks, and Butters's bottom bitch has to be some of my favorite episodes. if you can't tell by my fav episodes Butters is my favorite character.

8) the owl house - FUCK YOU DISNEY THIS SHOW DESERVED BETTER!!!! Another kid's show I forget is a kid's show. the way the boiling isles are drawn hell the overall art of the show is just so fucking fantastic. THERE'S GAY IN IT!!!! LIKE ACTUAL CANONICAL GAY IN A DISNEY SHOW!!!!! I never thought I would see the day BUT HERE I AM AND AAAAAAA LUZ AND AMITY ARE SOOOO CUTE TOGETHER! KING OMFG KINGGGGGGGGGGG HE'S MY LITTLE BABY AND THE SEASON TWO FINALE MADE ME STRESS EAT FOR THE FIRST TIME. So sad that season three was cut down to three episodes. The idea that something you put a bunch of hard work into can be cut short cause someone didn't like the vibe is fucking BULLSHIT!

I would tag other people here but in the wise words of Laszlo

[attackofthezee]

Im not touching on the queer parts cause like hell yeah I agree. And I also have a lot of opinions on like screaming hatred of the word queer being our new fancy lgbt way of gatekeeping buuuut this is not where I'm getting into that. Buuuut I'm also like 99% sure lesbian wasn't a slur? Granted, I only did a quick Google search but like for a long ass time lesbian just referred to anything derived from Lesbos, the home of Sappho aka the og mother of lesbianism.

Now gay however, is a whole other story! A lot of people in the comments on this seem pretty adamant in their "gay wasn't ever a slur! It was only ever a good word!" mindset which like siiiiiigh. As a word its so much more interesting than just good or just bad???

(I would like to clarify that I am not a linguist or anything like that. I'm just a person who really likes linguistics and like how words relate to culture and all that good stuff.)

At the start it totally meant "joyful" and "carefree" and also "showy" so like I mean it didn't start out a slur so there IS that. But at the same time it wasnt in usage THAT long before it took on some negative connotations. Well before it was a word to describe homosexuality it had different connotations than just straight up happy. It had a sort of added layer of "immoral", or "innaprorptiate" or i guess "irreverent"???

It also came to, for a long ass time, just kinda mean "prostitute". A "gay woman" was a prostitute, a "gay house" a brothel, and a "gay boy" a male prostitute who serviced men.

And then like, somewhere in the late 19th/early 20th century it came to describe people of one gender who wanted to smush their bits against people of the same genders bits.

And even then! It still kind of described like a lot of things because language doesnt exist in a vacuum. Certain people use one word one way and others use it another way and neither is actually right or wrong per say, just different in their understanding of it.

And I think its worth noting that even the words that arent slurs? There are and have been large circles of so called polite society that wield them against us like they are. I've lived in the midwest and the south, on two different edges of the bible belt and let me tell you I've heard the word 'lgbt' said with enough disgust and hatred that they might as well have been saying something much much worse.

Stop screaming about how ‘queer is a slur’ every time someone says ‘I like being queer’ or ‘I id as queer’ or ‘let people id as queer’.

We fucking know. All our words are slurs. Lesbian started as a slur. Gay started as a slur. Bisexual started as a psychological disorder, same with transgender. All our words have bad starts, the point in us using them was to reforge their sword into our armour.

Let us id as queer in peace. Stop harassing people over their identities.

[baeshijima]

does anyone else suffer from being a model student that’s dedicated and a perfectionist who has to have everything done and handed in no matter what and pushes themself to the point they get overwhelmed but pass it off as nothing bc ur in the mindset that if u don’t complete everything then ur a failure and the expectations just keep piling up and u shoulder them bc that’s all u know or are u normal

[factorydefaultlu]

The 3 boys finding out their darlings personal maid was paid to give the reader moon tea without her knowledge by Alicent and Otto, even though they know the boys have been trying for a child with reader.

I went a little crazy with Aemond and Aegon woops.

Jace is upset, nearly in tears when he sees the tea his wife is drinking. Of course, she's confused. It's just tea? When he explains what kind of tea it is, his wife is as upset as he is. She's horrified that she's been drinking it for months, finally understanding why she hasn't conceived yet. She holds him close, kissing him and saying that she's sorry she didn't know. Of course he comforts her and kisses her, telling her that it's not her fault.

Jace will help her figure out who has been paying the maids to bring her this tea, and why.

*

Aemond looks at his wife from across the room. He was finally able to join her for tea for the first time in a month, and when he arrived he immediately smelled the kind of tea she was drinking.

Anger filled his being. If this was some kind of a cruel way to say she didn't want kids with him, it was fucked up. He would then enter the room and make his presence known. Sitting across from her, she immediately noticed something was wrong. When she asked him about it, he went on a long tangent about how if he wasn't good enough to give her his children then she shouldn't have agreed to have them in the first place.

Of course she's confused, she asks him what this is all about and he refers to the tea. Still confused she asks what's wrong with it. Aemond finally understands, she has no idea what she's drinking.

He interrogates her on who's been giving her the tea, and he will find out why. Then dispose of them.

*

Aegon isn't stupid. He knows what moon tea is, but he's never seen nor smelled it. He had joined his wife for tea nearly every day, watching her drink it, completely unaware.

The two were confused as to why they had no children yet, they fucked like rabbits. Eventually Aegon would confide in his brother, Aemond would suggest that maybe one or both of them is infertile.

This would lead Aegon to consult a maester, he'd ask a million and one questions and get various answers as to why his wife hadn't fallen pregnant. The Maester then mentioned to him that ingredients for moon tea had been missing from his stores.

Something clicked in Aegon's brain. He then marched back to his chambers, ready to confront his wife. He had entered the room, immediately raising his voice. "You told me you loved me, you told me you'd be honored to have my children!"

His wife nearly jumped out of her skin, he had never yelled at her before. She asked what he was talking about and he brought up the moon tea, and how they hadn't had kids yet.

She was confused, then as he continued his rant she put the puzzle together. She was shocked that the supposed Dornish blend the maid has been giving her was actually moon tea.

After it was explained to Aegon, he fell to his knees apologizing. Swearing to her that he will find whoever would dare control their relationship and make them pay.

[swiftsaltsweet]

Welp I got the Taiwan/Chinese LN version of Twilight in today! And the results are: Korean and CH LN ver are the lame ass virgin to the chad Japanese LN *sobs* No need to debind. *sobs again*

That being said, at least I can scan the glorious “embarrassing” (Korean/CH/TW words on mine) covers! I don’t think the KR LN ver is that bad, but the CH/TW one is def a *chefs kiss* chunibyo’s wet dream dflksajfa;lkfa Reminds me of Chibi Vampire without the awareness that it’s a comedy. fjkaldjf;la

Still a few days off from when I can start debinding them. Trying to flatten out the JPN LN sleeves so I can have a semi ok pic of those when I scan then (I can at least do the sleeves, clean covers, and KR/TW covers). 

I’mma probs wait to debind the non KR LN novels, until I get the Midnight Sun collection and Bree Tanner’s novel. 

[baerryjj]

I never quite realized how superbly metal Malenia is for being completely unaffected when Radahn cut her arm off. Bitch wasn't even knocked off balanced. Her prosthetics is very firmly attached to her body. So just imagine the force of his hugeass weapon on one side of her body. FS should've given her more poise. That could've pissed off more people, which undoubtedly would include those raging misogynists.

AGREED WITH THE MAKE MALENIA HARDER PHILOSOPHY.

Though to be fair, lore-wise by the time tarnished gets to fight Malenia, the rot has probably progressed to a point where her poise had decreased significantly. Especially after the battle of Aeonia and the second (/first??? Idk) bloom into the goddess of rot, progressing her curse even further. I mean, can you imagine how powerful she would've been in her prime? Who's to say that when we fight her we're fighting her at the weakest she's ever been, EVER. Both torn by the rot consuming her mind and body and the grief of her brothers disappearance and yet she STILL WOOPS ABSOLUTE ASS.

Which just makes the story trailer all the more badass. We see for like, a split minute the power of both Radahn and Malenia in their primes, I definitely think the poise she had at the time is not what it is when tarnished fights her. She doesn't think twice when Radahn breaks her sword arm, as opposed to when we fight her you can get like 6 attacks in on her before she hops away😭 LIKE GIRLIE WHAT ARE YOU DOINGGG

Ok but as I'm writing this I've begun to realize how great of an analogy that cuts-off-prosthetic scene is for Malenias character. Torn, broken, injured but fighting. Adapts to her circumstances and doesn't let it get in her way. Determined wrath filling her every bone, she has a cause she will not stray from it. A God itself will not stop her, or whoever comes close. Even if her prosthetic is torn from her body and her sword drops from her hand, she'll simply pick it up again and keep fighting.

AGH. I love Malenia, Blade of Miquella.

Anyways, sorry for the tangent anon. TLDR; MALENIA BLADE OF MIQUELLA IS METAL AS SHIT , LETS MAKE THE MISOGYNISTS ANGRY WOOOOO

[resistanceisfeudal]

Season 2 finale reaction

Opening the episode with everyone standing a responsible 2 metres apart. Safety first.

Somebody let seven change her shirt please

Hehe yes jl

Again the theme and credits still slap

Tallinn accidentally blurting out a thesis statement for the show

Ooh yes genius hacker raffi

I think I blame Angelina Jolie or maybe Carrie Anne Moss for this but goddamn hypercompetant queer coded hacker women my word my ovaries my dear

....

...

....

... I apologise for being bi on main again. Let's get back to it.

Dr soong is the Jacob Rees-Mogg of star trek. In a couple of ways tbh

I can't believe a star trek show included a character too smart for the ole outfit change technique

OK but from Renee's perspective this is creepy af

Have you tried, idk, just grabbing a drone and holding it down?

Ew very creepy soong

Yay Rios!!! I liked this victory moment it was wholesome

Tallinn came here to dispense wisdom and die. And she's all out of wisdom

OK that was mean I actually liked this. Orla Brady served this season

Let's be real he's actually the Elon Musk of star trek

KORE

Yes. My wife. Also hacking, because of course. Baby yes she gets something to dooooo!!!!!

Wait what? Um. Khan. Um....

I thought Khan was 1990s in star trek canon? Or was that retconned? Either way it's a clunky as fuck reference not a fan

Um

The fuck

What

Why

.... I don't like this

This episode is bizarrely structured what the hell

Wes here trying to make the dumb nerd time travel people seem cool. They're not. They're dweebs. We all know. Enterprise got this right.

That was random. But I'm glad kore has stuff to do.

KISS

OH MY GOSH MY DARLINGS

KISS KISS KISS

... honestly I don't think I ever truly understood qcard until this moment. I get it

Know thyself.... OK so tangent

"Know thyself" is the usual translation of the words (γνώθι σεαυτον) inscribed in the stone at the oracle of delphi. I mostly know it from the phaedrus but it's kind of everywhere in Greek philosophy. It's interpreted in range of different ways and is all over the place in "intellectual" pop culture. I love this. It's pretentious. It's high camp. Feed it to me with a ladle.

"Why me?" 🥺

I like this convo between q and jl a lot

Very gay 10/10

Get yourself a woman who will not doubt your ability to kill a god. Seven is wife material.

Teresa and child exist in this scene as props. But okay we all knew this was coming. I don't love it, I don't even like it but I'll talk about it some other time.

Forr the record, I hope that off screen Cris and Teresa had some amazing times together, and that whatever project santiago cabrera went off to work on is a success. I've been appreciating that man since Heroes so yes ❤ miss you already

Hahaha omg

Omg the hug

Yes

Heyyyyyy agnes

"Do not resist."

Ahhhh

Woop elnor!!!

Poor thing he doesn't even know what happened or that they'd be returning!!!

My baby kochanie my love my baby

I cannot believe that Agnes through shere power of nerddom reformed the fucking borg. I love her

Irrelevant but the polski shelf at Tesco's had Ukrainian chałwa. I tried it and tbh it's not as good. Solidarity anyway!

OK so dessert break over

This is sweet. Rios is a legend. Still sad he was written out tho

Sometimes a found family is you, your beautiful cyborg wife and your assassin nun son.

N'awww that was cute

It didn't do the thing I was dreading (ending on a massive cliffhanger). I think I'll definitely watch s3. Was pleasantly surprised by this despite some complaints. I have a more thought out retrospective planned but for now? Mostly positive, some complaints.

Also did I mention elnor????

[writefightandflightclub]

For the next thirty (Santi x GN reader blurb)

Summary: You get lonely around the holidays. Turns out, you’re not the only one.

Author’s note: It’s a super quick + short one. I’m in my Triple Frontier feels tonight. I may even have a Will blurb for you shortly. Idek what this is. It’s a Christmas holiday fic. Why? Idek. Frenchie is your call-sign. I told you: idek.

Warnings: swearing, kissing. Mention of alcohol. Mistakes.

GIF: @realoscarisaac​

“You ever wanna get married, Frenchie?” Frankie asks you merrily, taking a generous swig of beer.

You blink at him from across the table, taken aback by the sudden tangent in the conversation.

“Shit, ‘Fish. Where did that come from?���

You were generously hosting Squad Christmas for yet another year in a row. It was a lot of effort to host, but it was worth it, as, in return, the boys always ticked-off a ton of your annoying holiday tasks. You were clever about it, of course, and you plied them with enough beer and snacks that they either pretended not to be wise to your game, or they ceased to mind so much.

Even now, you are sat with Frankie and Will, readying to wrap all of your family gifts, and Benny and Santi are outside in the cold, kindly hanging your Christmas lights. Or, at least, you can hear Santi’s version of “helping” through the window, which seems to consist of yelling orders at Benny from the ground as the Miller brother snipes back.

Frankie looks at you cheekily as he hands you another tote full of gifts to set out on the table.

“Y’ know. Asking everyone,” he says casually, voice layered with far too much innocence, and a throaty chuckle rattling his chest. Yeah, he’s definitely up to something. “Asking all the single people I know. Asked Pope earlier. Asking you. I mean, cariño? It’s common knowledge people get lonely around the holidays.”

“People do, I’ve heard that from people,” Will nods emphatically, with a knowing, conspiratorial smile between him and Frankie.

You arch an eyebrow, not having any of this bullshit.

“Savage, ‘Fish. Fuckin’ brutal,” you complain.

“You plan on it - settling down?” ‘Fish presses, with no shame.

“What would I get out of marriage, huh?” you dismiss. “Someone to ask me honey, where are the scissors? for the next 30 years? Doesn’t sound worth the hassle.”

Frankie shrugs and opens his mouth to protest, but you cut in.

“Besides,” you protest. “Who’d wanna spend that much time with me anyway?”

“Maybe we know someone. Could fix you up,” Will smiles, a shit-eating grin inching over his face.

“Oh yeah!” Fish adds. “Don’t we know a guy, Miller?” Frankie says, slapping Will on the upper arm.

“If you know him, he’s probably a shit head. I want nothin’ to do with him.”

“Oh yeah. He’s a shithead, for sure. Complete pendejo,” Frankie laughs, shoulders shaking. There’s another conspiratorial look between him and the Miller brother. Miller bother, more like. Will exhales a laugh and looks down at the carpet, softly shaking his head at Frankie.

You brush it off, not concerned with their attempts at meddling. More concened, in truth, by the fact you were a little lonely so close to the holidays, much as you were determined not to admit it. Less lonely, perhaps, because you’ve had the boys for company... especially Santi of late. Maybe he got lonely around the holidays too.

“Look, less chat more wrapping, pendejos.”

The pair back-off, palms raised, their deep laughter still washing over you, and Will looks down at the unfurled roll of wrapping paper on the surface in front of him.

“For real though, where are the scissors, Frenchie?”

You are about to come up with some fitting comeback -something about how you don’t need a spouse when you already have four dumbasses to annoy you- but before you can tease him or answer his question, Santi breezes back into the house with Benny in tow, responding on auto-pilot.

“Kitchen or craft, hermano? If you mean craft -in a basket in the top of the linen cupboard, and if you mean kitchen - third drawer from the left.”

When Santi responds, all of you -Benny included- converge on the man, slack-jawed, and in silent disbelief.

The significance and the seredipity of this is not lost on you.

Nervously, Santi looks around at the eyes on him and unsettles his baseball cap from his head, rasping his palm over his hair and then trailing it down over his stubble.

“What?” he asks as Will breaks the silence with a snort of laughter and yet another conspiratorial glance at ‘Fish. The men’s faces crease with silent mirth.

“What, dickheads? Was that weird? Shit, do I spend too much time here?” he asks self-consciously.

It was a small thing. A small sign of familiarity. Yet somehow, it is enough for you to realise Santi is everything you want. And that maybe, probably, he might want you too.

“Not enough, turns out,” you breathe, rising from your seat with the sudden realisation, and, to everyone’s surprise -especially yours- you grab Santi by his t-shirt and pull him to your lips for an open-mouthed kiss.

Santi responds immediately, melting into you like he’s been waiting for this for a long time, his arms wrapping around you as if you are a gift he is folding into his embrace, his kiss hot and heavy as he moves his supple lips and tongue against you and grazes you with the fiery rasp of his stubble.

Woops and shouting from the other boys draw you back into the room, and, as if suddenly realising what you’re doing, you push your palms to Santi’s chest and practically throw him off you.

“Fuck, honey,” Santi asks, looking kiss-drunk and hotter than you’ve ever seen him. “Not that I’m complaining but what was that for?”

“People get lonely around the holdays,” you offer innocently.

“So I’ve heard,” Santi frowns, looking over at Frankie and Will trying desperately to supress a laugh.

God, you want to kiss him again.

“Do you wanna... talk? Away from these assholes?”

You nod, yes, and you grab his hand and lead him into the kitchen, away from prying eyes, where you very much intend on... talking. And then, making-out up against the counter until your legs are weak and your face is raw with stubble burn.

“Hey, wait, just one question,” Frankie pleads, and the two of you are stupid enough to turn back to him, each arching an eyebrow.

“Well?”

“You ever wanna get married, Frenchie?”

You stick a middle finger up at your dear friend and escape, as the Miller bothers join his fits of laughter- Benny susceptible depsite not even being in on the joke.

Regardless, you lead Santi towards the kitchen, where you talk, and you make-out until the two of you are pretty worked-up. Until you feel warm in the knowledge that this year, you may just be a litte less lonely for the holidays, after all. Maybe even for the next thirty, if you’re lucky.

Frankie and Will were right though, that guy they knew? Complete pendejo. but you love him, turns out. Have for a while. You just needed to realise it.

[gay-otlc]

I‘m not supposed to be on Tumblr right now but hi hey hope you’re having a gay day

also!! one of my mates agreed to use my neopronouns so woop woop :D (mainly because a fair I went to had free neopronoun pins???)

It's been extremely gay, I listened to my crush infodump about her gay show and then I went on a tangent about David and Jonathan being the gayest bitches to ever gay. Hella gay.

That's great, congratulations! I'm really happy for you :D

[kpoppwriter]

Dating JeongHoon ~

Anon asked: can you do poly! jeonghoon pls 🥺🥺 i love my boys such an underrated duo

Anon asked: thoughts on polyam!jeonghoon (is that jeonghan and jihoon’s ship name i have. no clue) i just feel like they’d have a rly interesting dynamic🥴

A/N: this was a dynamic I really had to think about for a while but like wowie cute

☆ tol and smol

☆ yet again

☆ I was looking for a gif of them from ISAC because cute

☆ ok hcs

☆ tbh there’s a lot of love here

☆ but like 

☆ expressed in many ways

☆ Jeonghan is touchy 

☆ that is just how he is

☆ Jihoon is more into expressing it in his own ways

☆ verbally, through gifts, through other types of actions ;)

☆ we’ll get to that

☆ cuddling is pretty casual

☆ you usually lay on Jeonghan with your legs on Jihoon

☆ or you’re cuddling Jeonghan while holding Jihoon’s hand

☆ you can get Jihoon to properly cuddle too 

☆ but it takes a bit of convincing

☆ when they go on tour

☆ you put Jeonghan in charge of Jihoon watch

☆ someone’s gotta watch him and make sure he’s taken care of

☆ he will forget to take care of himself

☆ they’ll video call you after concerts while eating

☆ it helps relax them to see you 

☆ so I can see y’all having one of two couples items

☆ either bracelets or phone cases

☆ both are kinda discrete though

☆ like you wouldn’t know they were couples items 

☆ you and Jeonghan are constantly at Jihoon’s studio

☆ trying to get him to come home and relax

☆ y’all end up falling asleep on his couch a lot

☆ Jihoon may have a folder on his phone just with pics of you two sleeping

☆ it happens a lot 

☆ overall,

☆ these two are subtle cuties

☆ like big softies but lowkey

☆ wowie

☆ ok now for the not as soft stuff~

☆ woop dynamics

☆ Jihoon - switch leaning towards dom

☆ Jeonghan - switch

☆ Jeonghan really could go either way 

☆ ok this duo is p kinky

☆ voyeurism/exhibitionism, bondage, impact play, breeding, marking

☆ degradation, praise, somnophilia, toys, orgasm control, sensory deprivation

☆ y’all have probably had sex in his studio

☆ I wouldn’t doubt it at all

☆ Jeonghan is a tease

☆ we been knew

☆ but he’ll submit to you/Jihoon in a second

☆ unless he wants to dom

☆ then he’s gonna really fight for dominance

☆ if Jihoon’s gonna dom

☆ he’s not gonna stand for teasing on him

☆ he’s a hard dom

☆ lowkey likes being called sir

☆ Jeonghan’s more of a daddy guy

☆ or master

☆ ooooooo

☆ my brain just went on a tangent oof