#i hATE IT like let me exist carefree w/o feeling like i have eyes on me always pls

[m-eltdown]

what do you mean it’s not normal to feel like you're under constant surveillance

[red-the-ghost]

(Submission Below)

Toby x Reader

I was wondering if you could do a Tobias/Toby x Reader, kind of like an enemies to lovers where Toby and the reader have a mutual friend?

Reader doesn't like Toby because he's taking their best friend from them, but Toby thinks that they're a bad influence. At some point, the two get into an argument and reader leaves/ghosts everything. Reader isn't doing so well w/o their best friend because they were the only one in reader's life, and Toby notices that their friend doesn't know what to do without the reader.

Toby and reader agree to act like friends, and end up falling for each other at some point.

(This could be a series or a single post, your choice <33)

Ticci Toby X Reader (1/3)

Enemies to lovers version <3

Whilst settling in at the mansion you managed to make a few friends however you mainly stuck by ‘the proxy trio’ well, now there were four of you. Originally when you arrived there was only tim and Brian there. You enjoyed Tim’s hard exterior, the great facade he shows to anyone he meets and you loved his softer personality that he lets you and Brian see when you guys are alone. You equally enjoyed Brian’s gentle personality, his giddy ideas and carefree attitude. To be honest you didn’t even know toby existed. Apparently, he was away On a long mission and oh boy did he make a scene when he came home. At first he was excited to see a new proxy or member, you can vividly recall seeing him bounce up and down much like a hyper child, his brown hair bouncing with him, a huge stupid grin covering his face, his wholesome eyes searching and scouring you trying to determine how good of friends you’d be. But his whole demeanour changed when he found out how close you had become with Tim and Brian. He felt defensive and all the while jealous, he constantly shoved in your face how long he’d known them both or how many great memories they’d had together. Once this behaviour started to show through you took a dislike towards him, really there wasn’t anything to really hate about him, if anything you actually enjoyed his company and bubbly behaviour when around others, but his jealousy and slightly arrogant behaviour struck you in the wrong way. He would make comments that stuck you more as an attack rather than a joke, he would constantly ‘flirt’ with you by saying the weirdest of things. He would often loose himself when having to talk to you- he’d become meaner or more distant, often times he just ignored you and after a while you decided to ignore him too. For the next few weeks life went pretty smoothly, well, as smooth as it could go. You kept to yourself and only really lightened up around tim and Brian, however your guard would instantly raise around toby. You wouldn’t let him in and you didn’t want to try to like him, though things began to crack when not only Tim but Brian started to see this conflicting behaviour between you and Toby. Eventually Brian pulled you to one side whilst Tim seemed to have a similar conversation with Toby across the room. His attitude towards you wasn’t as usual, he was more stern and more concerned- with just the look in his eyes you felt regret and remorse all at once. You felt bad about the situation and you didn’t realise what strain you and Toby were putting on the group. “Look, we care about you, we do. But, I mean, come on, what’s with this silly feud with you and Toby? You guys are constantly battling over mine and Tim’s attention and it’s not healthy. I know he might have made a bad first impression on you but.. I think he could really use someone like you in his life” you couldn’t help but laugh. A shameful laugh. A laugh that made you slam a hand over your mouth to stop yourself. “Someone like me? I can never get a word in around toby. He’s the most positive fucking guy here, what the hell would I do for him?” Your tone came across more snappy and condescending than intended and you did feel bad for Brian having to hear it. “Look, you haven’t seen Toby alone alright?” But before you could question the very essence or meaning of Brian’s statement he walked away towards Tim. Tim was now standing alone, toby must have stormed out or something, you didn’t miss his absence though. Instead you just wandered outside to join everyone else. It was a decent summer day so most of the proxies were outside playing games or just hanging around before going out on jobs.

You found a nice spot sat against a tree, shaded, not too far away from the mansion. You got a pretty good view of everyone outside without having to join in on conversation. Your eyes wandered the scene setting on whoever caught your eye: Jane was sunbathing whilst Sally laid next to her scribbling away in a colouring book Ben stole for her, liu was sat on a chair being bugged by Nina to take his scarf off- it was way too warm and people were getting worried for him. Then your eyes settled on Toby. He was alone. Sat on the floor with his back pressed against the wall of the mansion, one of his legs was brought up, allowing him to bury his face, leading you unable to tell if he was crying or not, every few minutes he would look up as if he wanted to join everyone, he’d tick a few times but ultimately lay his head back down. You felt bad. A part of you deep down felt bad to see him like this, is this what Brian had meant? A figure approached toby and a foot kicked his leg. Tim’s foot. It was as if a switch has clicked in his head, he darted up and jumped about, wailing his arms around as if he was telling a story, his smile beamed across his face once more as his shaggy hair bounced around his face mirroring his bodies actions and for a moment you forgot you’d even seen him on the floor a few moments ago. For the next hour you watched as people danced, played, laid and sung along to cringey songs from their childhood. You watched as Toby attempted to teach Brian a stupid dance whilst Tim smoked behind them laughing along at their inability to dance. You brought your legs to your chest and you hugged them, you didn’t want to feel alone but you couldn’t help it. A part of you wanted to go and join them but you knew Toby didn’t like you anyway so there was no point causing awkwardness for no reason. Instead, you busied yourself humming melodies of your old favourite songs until slenderman came outside and silence filled the air.

“Y/n” he began and you looked up, sending a slight wave to his direction. He motioned for you to walk to him so that’s what you did, you stood up, slightly shaky after being sat down for so long. “Toby” he continued. You felt yourself cringe and your eyes rolled back. What could you have to do with him. “You two, there’s a house about a mile from here, abandoned. Zalgo’s proxies have been spotted there a few hours ago. Go. Check it out, any sign of danger then come back. Do not initiate in any form of contact.” Toby defeatedly sighed and hung his shoulders low, before walking inside. You followed him after getting further instructions and details from slenderman. You grabbed your knives and headed to the door. Toby was already there, goggles on, mask on and hooded. He held up an axe in your direction as a acknowledgment of your presence “ready princess?” He began. You rolled your eyes- again and shivered. “Mhm, and don’t call me that.” he brought a hand to cover his heart, “wounded” he added, pouting before rolling his eyes dramatically so you could see- a mockery of your previous actions. He followed his actions with laughter before opening the door. “Let’s go then”

Part two soon folks :)

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JJK: Non-idol Boyfriend AU [O-Z]

List of all Jungkook fics under 'Non-idol Boyfriend' AU with titles starting with 'O-Z':

* ¹ - one shot ² - two shots s - contains smut sm - social media format

* Last updated: 25/02/2024

D R A B B L E S

Oh So Divine by yoonoclock Summary: He adored you beyond words could express. From being friends for years to now a couple, he took the opportunity to share with you a special gift. He only hopes you treasures it as he does you.

Only if You Hold Me by vminity21 Summary: Just imagine sharing so many kisses and cuddles with the sweetest man in existence Jeon Jeongguk.

Only Love by koostarcandy Summary: Over 5 months of domestic bliss with your best friend turned roommate turned lover gets you thinking, a lot. Alternative? A fluffy, domestic morning with Koo.

Oops by likeastarstar

Photograph You in This Light by yoongiphoria Summary: A moment of carefree youth, preserved in time.

Pigtails by thecozywhaleshark Summary: “Can I do your hair?” + “I’ll give you a massage.”

Please by pasteljeon s Summary: “I’m too busy.” “I’ll be quick, I promise.” + “I’m about to miss this important phone call but oh my god your mouth feels too good to stop right now.”

* “Pull over. Let me drive for awhile.” by seoulnotes

Race me to happiness? by kooksbunnnn Summary: Your urge to beat Jungkook in a race makes you realize how deep you have fallen for him.

Rain by ichorai mafia au Summary: Running away from problems never fixed anything, did they?

Red Wine by taephilia college au Summary: You don’t understand why Jungkook likes red wine so much.

“Ride me.” by honeytae s PWP

Say Please by souryoong s PWP Summary: You and Jungkook fuck in the bathroom in front of the mirror.

* Scrapbook by taleasnewastime

Scrunchie by gukkheaven s PWP Summary: Jungkook’s man bun falls out while going down on you.

Secret Relationship w/ JK by ubemango king's advisor!Jungkook, king's sister!reader, secret relationship Summary: My brother is the king and you’re his advisor and my brother is hiking up the export taxes on cheese but my best friend is a farmer on the verge of homelessness so can you please convince him to lower the taxes??? Would it help if I gave you kisses even though we can’t be together???

Shades of Red by thatlongspringnight s vampire!Jungkook Summary: There are very few pleasures in this world as great and lovely as riling Jungkook up.

“She’s good with me, right baby?” by theiris-storyvault gamer!Jungkook

Shut Up and Kiss Me by sugarwithtea s PWP Summary: Your boyfriend couldn't resist himself when you walked out in that dress and especially when you started arguing with him.

Sick Day by thatlongspringnight

Sleepless Nights by wnderkoo s Summary: In which you can’t fall asleep and accidentally wake Jungkook up so he decides to make it worth your while for both of you.

Slut Me Out by joonberriess s PWP Summary: “Put your ass in my face 'til I get pink eye, fuck you anywhere, I'm that type guy,”

* Sneezes And Cuddles by ditttiii Summary: You hate being sick. You hate spring more, but somehow being cuddled by your boyfriend, makes it all worth it.

Snow Angels [AO3] by goodsoop s Summary: Jungkook hates losing, but this time he’s more than okay with it thanks to the little distraction you pulled off. Sadly your tits are fucking freezing.

“So… what are your plans for New Year’s?” by breadoffoxy s

So fast, baby? by jkeuphoriadreamland s

Sofa by monsteronfire s PWP Summary: Such a good boy.

Soft Mafia AU by taleasnewastime mafia au

* Something about giving him nose kisses by honeytae

* Something about Jungkook being super clingy at a party by honeytae

* Something about Jungkook getting you lost because his eyes were on you instead of the road by honeytae

* Something about Jungkook’s thighs by honeytae s

* Something about sharing his hoodie by honeytae

Spring Crescent by persphonesorchid Summary: Just you, Jungkook, and spring time.

Stay Focused by btsgotjams27 s boxer!Jungkook Summary: Jungkook has a big match coming up and you love teasing him.

“Stop hogging all the blankets” by taleasnewastime

Sundae Best by cotccotc established relationship Summary: A fancy restaurant is no match for your boyfriend’s appetite for dessert.

Sweet Apology by thesvnsins s Summary: You are mad at Jungkook because he ditched you to go with his friends. Now, in the morning he is trying to gain your forgiveness by sinful means....not that you mind.

Sweet Talk by yukheii

Sweetener by jeonbunnie s PWP Summary: Jeongguk knows just what to do to make you feel better.

Swings by thecozywhaleshark Summary: A little playground date with your favorite golden maknae.

[...] Syrupy Sweet by luvjimins Summary: Jungkook being the sweetheart he is the morning after the kiss.

Oh, You Didn't Know? by luvjimins Summary: Jungkook's been thinking of when he could ask you to move in with him.

Taking care of your sick boyfriend Jungkook by headintheclouds-posts

Taste by sugalaritae s PWP Summary: He needs to taste you.

Taste the Feeling by 94hixtape s PWP Summary: Masturbation + Bodily fluids.

Tease by whoreternal s PWP

“Tell me what you want and I’ll give it to you.” by honeytae s PWP

That’s My Baby by gimmethatagustd Summary: All you want to do is make sure that your boyfriend feels good about himself, no matter how life changes.

The Aftermath by koostarcandy Summary: Post birthday celebrations are in order, the birthday boy thinks. Time for your head massages and a few rounds of his favourite game then!

The Angry Snowman by artaefact college au Summary: When he lends you his hoodie.

The Clarity of Love by pasteljeon s PWP Summary: He loves the games you play.

The Dom by strwberrytae s Summary: A short excerpt about your dominant boyfriend, Jeon Jungkook.

The Hand Game by solastia s PWP

The one at Hobi’s birthday party by mccnyoongi s college au

The one where Jungkook has to sleep on the couch by eoieopda Summary: In which Jungkook finds a loophole in the most jungkook way possible.

The one where Jungkook thinks you’re perfect by eoieopda Summary: In which Jungkook is down bad.

The one where he thinks you’re perfect (JJK POV) by eoieopda Summary: In which Jungkook is down incurably bad.

The one who bites and the one who doesn’t by eoieopda Summary: In which you face the final boss: Jeon Bam.

The Past Is Past by yukheii Summary: Where Y/N is with Jungkook but she originally had a crush on Taehyung and Jungkook finds out and feels insecure.

The Perilla Leaf Debacle by here2bbtstrash s Summary: You hate it when your boyfriend gets jealous, but you love the way he takes it out on you.

The Sea Monster by writeformesinpie Summary: Jungkook is determined to find a sea monster no matter the cost and he has dragged you along for the ride.

Things I Wish You Said by snackhobi

Thoughts in A# Minor [AO3] by kkulfm-2 established relationship Summary: Jungkook drives you home.

Timezones by minisugakoobies Summary: Only thing that keeps us apart / Is a different timezone.

* Tingle by hansolmates s tattoo artist!Jungkook Summary: Your super hot, super sexy tattoo artist manages to catch you off guard mid-session. At least his touch keeps the pain off your mind.

Tiny Dancer (An Ode to Life) by aamalaaa '70s au, bandmates au

Tongue at Work by 7waystreet s Summary: Your boyfriend Jungkook surprises you at work with a little more than a cup of coffee on his mind.

Unresolved Tension by feliix s PWP

Unwind by yoonia s college au Summary: When he helps you unwind from your study night.

“Wait a minute…are you jealous?” “I’m not jealous! It’s just…you’re mine!�� by taeken-my-heart college au

Wake Up Call by junghelioseok s PWP Summary: Good morning, indeed.

Wake-Up Fall by fortunexkookie Summary: When you first snuggled up on the couch together, you quickly learned there wasn’t enough room for two people to lay side-by-side.

Wanna Show You How by ugh-yoongi s ft JHS, PWP

War by btsqualityy Summary: He knows better and yet, he continues to try you.

[...] Ways to Say I Love You by btsmosphere

Ways to Say I Love You by ggukiepie Summary: Saying I love you but meaning it differently each time.

[...] Waste It on Me by byeoltoyuki gang au Summary: When you’re mad at Jungkook for not taking care of himself.

What Did You Just Call Me? by hollyxqx s PWP Summary: What happens when you call your bf daddy for the first time? PURE FILTH.

Whatever You Want! by cheolhub s PWP Summary: Waking up next to you, breakfast in bed, a party with his friends— Jungkook swears his birthday can’t get any better, or can it?

When he eats your food by nayutai sm

When he’s jealous over the perilla leafs debate by delugguk s PWP Summary: 'Next thing you know, you're holding hands with him and end up getting married!'

When One is Never Enough by vankoya Summary: “I know I’ve kissed you like, ten times, but just like another ten, please.”

“Why the hell are you bleeding?” by taeken-my-heart

* Wide-eyed by onlyswan Summary: I think you should come live with me, and we can be pirates, then you won’t have to cry.

Wild Thoughts by jjksblackgf s PWP Summary: "When I'm with you all I get is wild thoughts."

With a Smile on Your Face by seokmingiggles Summary: “I’m just so happy you’re living. Wouldn’t ask you for more.” Alternatively, in which Jungkook is awe-struck as he watches the first snowfall of the year, but you’re more content watching him.

With Him by 7deadlysinsfics s

You coerce Jungkook into taking a “study break” by joopiterjoon s college au, PWP

“You’re mine. I don’t share.” by fortunexkookie s PWP

O N E S H O T S

Obviously by ugh-yoongi wc~3.7k / secret relationship, roommates au

On Camera by agustdiv1ne s wc~3.1k / YouTuber!Jungkook, PWP Summary: Jeon Jungkook, also known as kookiemonster97, was a youtuber and, more importantly, your boyfriend. Your sex life was great, amazing really, but what happens when he asks if he can film you two one day? He did have the equipment, after all.

Out of the Blue by jungkxook s wc~5.2k / gamer!Jungkook, YouTuber!Jungkook Summary: Catching your boyfriend bleaching and dyeing his hair for a livestream is definitely not what you expected — but it certainly has its perks.

Player Two by minjoonalist s wc~10.6k / ft KTH, gamer!Jungkook, PWP Summary: You’ve always wanted to be as good of a gamer as your boyfriend Jungkook and you’ve tried many times to ask for his help only to be turned down…on your game. but this time you’re over his bratty attitude towards it and he still can’t get enough of yours.

[...] Poster Boy by hamsterclaw s wc~8k / ft MYG, boyfriend!Jungkook, doctors au Summary: You, Jungkook and Yoongi liven up the most boring conference in the world.

Pretty Boy by inkedtae s wc~4k / secret relationship Summary: He’s just a pretty boy, a pretty boy ~ you wanna be his pretty toy.

Quiet, Baby by bratkook s wc~3.2k / PWP Summary: Teasing your boyfriend lands you on his lap during a subway ride, an evil tilt to his voice when he asks you to play a game with him, can you be good and make him cum before your stop?

Red-Handed by bangtanstanst wc~3k Summary: Two lessons learned today: patience is a virtue, and fitting rooms are much less private than you thought.

Rum Raisin by lemonyko0 s wc~3.6k Summary: You find someone else’s lipstick in your boyfriends car, and he makes sure you know you’re his.

Selcouth by 99liners s wc~7k / detective!reader Summary: Jeongguk is your weeb boyfriend and you are the perfect weeb waifu but he doesn’t know yet how much of a badass girl boss you are. Basically, he turns into :o emoji.

Slow by joonlaksme s wc~2.2k / PWP Summary: It’s unusual for the two of you to be this sensual, to be this slow. But you both chose to savor it just for tonight.

Slow Down by ggukbabyy s wc~6.5k / ft KTH, boyfriend!Jungkook, PWP Summary: You’re both fucked up, Jeongguk knows you like attention and Taehyung is willing to give you it.

* Snake Eyes by dreamyjoons s wc~5.7k / PWP Summary: In the never-ending quest to try something new in the bedroom, Jungkook brings home some dice.

So Good by ggukiepie s wc~3.3k / PWP Summary: Just some steamy sex with your boyfriend JK.

Sore Loser by sailoryooons s wc~9.5k / streamer!Jungkook, Valorant pro!reader Summary: It’s another day of shooting Run BTS at Bangtan Streaming for Jungkook. At least, he thinks it is until his girlfriend walks into the room and the director announces that Jungkook and his teammates will be battling two professional Valorant players for the episode. The stakes are high - but the prize if he manages to beat you? Total submission in the bedroom.

Space by jeonbunnie wc~4.8.k Summary: All boyfriend Jeongguk wants is to be by your side, but honestly? You just need some space.

Starry Night by kithtaehyung s wc~7k / gamer au Summary: All you wanted to do was take your boyfriend on a super late date.

Stay Quiet by hobidreams s wc~2.7k / college au, PWP Summary: You think the library is only a place for studying. Jungkook convinces you otherwise.

Stay with Me by svenotes s wc~6k Summary: Maybe staying another night at your boyfriend’s isn’t such a bad idea.

Still My Baby by aureumjeon s wc~13.5k / tattoo artist!Jungkook Summary: Jeon Jungkook in tight leather pants was perhaps the sexiest thing you’ve ever laid eyes on.

Still With Me? by magicalmarauder wc~4k / boxer!Jungkook Summary: Dating the world’s fastest growing boxer meant several things – kissing his wounds at the end of every fight, watching countless boxing matches to study new techniques with him, and worrying like crazy as different men every night tried to bash his face in. But what happens when tensions run high after a match and Jungkook throws your support back in your face? Angst/fluff. Inspired by Jungkook’s Instagram post earlier today!

Strong Enough by jimilter s wc~3.7k / biker!Jungkook, bartender!reader, PWP Summary: You’re strong enough to protect yourself – Jungkook is strong enough to take you against a wall. Unrelated claims that are both proven to be true on an unsuspecting Thursday. The common denominator? A bunch of losers that leer at you and ask you about your boyfriend’s sexual prowess.

Stupid Game by kookiesjoonies s wc~2k / college au Summary: All you wanted to do was study in peace, but that becomes impossible due to your boyfriend’s constant screaming at the video game on the television. So you decide to teach him a lesson; if he insists on being loud, you’re going to give him a reason to be.

Take Me to Church by illneverrecover s wc~5.1k / gang au Summary: You can always tell when something is bothering your boyfriend, despite how hard he tries to hide it - and you have creative ways to get him to talk.

Take Your Shirt Off, Blondie by honeytae s wc~2.9k / PWP Summary: Take your shirt off, blondie.

Taming of the Flu by kpopfanfictrash wc2.4k / new relationship Summary: When you are sick, the last thing you want to do is call your boyfriend for help. But somehow, he finds out anyways.

Tattooed Two by httpjeon s wc~8.5k / ft KTH, boyfriend!Jungkook, tattoo artists au, PWP Summary: Your boyfriend’s best friend joins you for a night you’ll never forget.

Tepidity by yoondles s wc~2.8k / PWP Summary: Turns out falling to temptations is a lot more easier when you’re warming your lovers cock.

The Cockpile: Try Out by httpjeon s wc~6.6k / pornstar au Summary: Dating a porn star wasn’t easy. Jealousy can run rampant if there’s no communication.

The Cowgirl by heartbeatan s wc~3k / PWP Summary: A thematic, seven part series about sex toys.

Thirteen Rounds by moni-logues s wc~13.2k / boxer!Jungkook Summary: JK's boxing coach tells him he can't come for four weeks before his title fight. Ah, four weeks isn't that long, right? ... Right?

This Is How You Fall in Love by jeonqkooks s wc~9.3k / rockstar au Summary: After years of drinking and clubbing most days of the week and leaving every gig with a different girl on his arm, Jungkook feels what it’s like to want someone with his entire being.

To the Victor by hwanghyunjinenthusiast s wc~2.8k / boxer!Jungkook Summary: Jungkook lives to box. The ring is practically his home. However, watching him become all bruised and bloodied isn't exactly easy for his girlfriend, no matter how much he wins.

Under the Blankets by yoonia s wc~5.9k / tattooed!Jungkook, tattooed!reader Summary: Even in the mornings, it is always hard to resist him. His presence alone captivates you, yet there is something else that always catches your eyes, drawing you to touch him. Not so surprisingly, he shares the same sentiment, though he has his own way of showing it to you. And neither of you mind it when things escalate further into something else that is not quite so innocent.

Untitled by namsjunies s wc~10.2k / PWP

Want More by jeonverselol s wc~3.8k / PWP Summary: After being awaken by the thunderstorm, all you could think about is how Jungkook fucked you so good a couple of hours earlier and now all you can think about is how you desperately want him inside you again.

Watch Your Words by v-hope wc~2.6k / college au Summary: You get the chance to go study abroad for a whole semester and your boyfriend doesn’t take it very well. Or the one in which you mix up the words “when” and “if” during an argument and make him cry.

Will You Make a Mess Now? by softyoongiionly s wc~4.7k / college au Summary: Jungkook’s never been touched before and, after a hectic end to his semester, he thinks he wants that to change…

Can I Make a Mess Now? by softyoongiionly s wc~4.8k / college au Summary: Jungkook’s never had sex before but, after realizing that he’s falling in love with you, he thinks he wants that to change.

XX(X)II by softyoongiionly s wc~3.8k Summary: Jungkook is an amazing lover. He’s always so gentle, so restrained…so attentive. But, you find yourself wondering if he wants you as much as you want him. Tonight, he decides to address your curiosity.

You’ll Let Me? by honeytae s wc~2.9k

T W O S H O T S / S E R I E S

On My Mind ² by angelguk s domestic au Summary: You’ve been together for five years. Long, hard but worth it all. You’re both stable enough within and out your relationship. Until Jeongguk realises he’s longing for something he’s not sure you want. Kids.

One Time, In Your Room by ubemango s college au Summary: There are papers to write, and virgins to daydream about. (You can think about Jeongguk’s dick later.)

The Boob Tattoo Chronicles ¹ [drabble1] [drabble2] [drabble3] [drabble4] by whoreternal s tattoo artist!Jungkook

[ad1thi]

@starklysteve me?? spamming you w recs because i love talking about my ships?? more likely than you think :)) (here’s some rhodeytony to get you started on what is objectively the best tony ship)

i place your hands around my neck:  @fanfictiongreenirises

"Rhodey could practically feel his lungs getting heavier again, weighed down by roots of plants that he’d thought would never take hold in him again."

Or: the one where Rhodey's been pining over Tony for much longer than either of them realised and develops the Hanahaki disease

Pretend We’re In Love (The Heartache Still Hurts): @marvelingjules

Rhodey's dad is dying, and what he's always wanted is for Rhodey to be happily married. Tony and Rhodey were best friends, and haven't spoken in years. But after a chance meeting at the airport, and a desperate, insane idea on Rhodey's part, they end up pretending to be engaged.

But how much of it is really pretend?

i can’t seem to get a grip, no matter how i live with it:  @psikeval

Tony knows he's got no business being a father.

A Million Shades of Blue: @notfknapplicable

“I just know that if I could get to wherever he is, I could find him. Dead or alive, I'd bring him back to us.”

James Rhodes will never stop searching for Tony Stark.

Twenty Five Years: @notfknapplicable (part of a series)

Nobody knows how long this has actually been going on. (Tony Stark has pretty much been in a monogamous relationship since he was 18 years old.)

Leave The Light On: @notfknapplicable (part of a series)

He was never doing this for fun. He'd just wanted to stay awake. And whatever you do, please don't tell that guy he's been fucking. He kinda likes him.

coloured in sun: @heleus

The one in which Anthony Edward Stark, having just reached the warm age of seventeen, realizes that he's in love with his best friend.

(The idea is terrifying.)

the planets that bend us: @deathsweetqueen

When Antonia Margaret Stark wakes up on her sixth birthday, it’s to the words: I didn’t get any sleep last night after that fucking lawn mower decided that 7 in the morning would be a perfect time for him to start his day, right outside my room.

She runs a thumb over the long string of words, wrapping around her wrist like a thick leather band.

She smiles.

She’s fourteen when she meets James Rupert Rhodes for the first time.

Written for the "more than a partner" square (S3) for the Tony Stark Bingo 2019 and the "soulmate" square for the Iron Husbands Bingo 2019

we rattle together in a bed of honey: @deathsweetqueen

Toni first met James Rhodes in Cellular Neurophysiology and Computing, when she was fourteen and trying very hard to stay in the shadows. She stumbles into the classroom, clutching her books and binders and pencil case close to her chest, as she stares at everything, wide-eyed and hungry and terrified. She seizes on the contempt, the confusion, the incredulity of the other freshman who look at her like she’s an incongruity – she’s used to that look, all that hate and derision.

She eats it up like chocolate cake.

Much to her luck, all the seats are filled, all except for one towards the middle of the row, a table shared only by a tall, handsome black boy, sleeping on top of the counter.

a winding road that stretches to the truth: @/coulddaughter (this author ostensibly has a tumblr but im unable to locate it -- so if anyone knows what their tumblr is please let me know so i can tag them!)

“Why do you need a date? Also, no offence, but why did you come to me? I stole, like, four of your girlfriends and at least two boyfriends, remember.”

“I do remember that, Tony,” said Jim, pinching the bridge of his nose. “No, I need you to come on a date with me.”

Love in the Eyes:  @child-of-sunshine

The moment each of the Avengers realized Tony and Rhodey were in love.

The Curious Case Of The Discarded Condom:  @/AssvengersArsemble

Natasha, Clint and Steve get just a little nosy about Tony's love life. Tony finds it extremely amusing they can't see what's right under their noses.

takes a lot of love and compliance: @gyzym

She's born breech, feet kicking out before the rest of her screams free; she's born breech, and never stops running. (Rule 63!Tony)

Targeted Persuasion: @galwednesday

Jim opened Tony's most formal closet and started pulling out tuxedos. "Put one of these on.”

"Why?"

"We're getting married."

Tony froze. "No, we're not."

"Oh yes we are." Jim tossed three tuxedos onto the bed. Three was a good number of options, enough for Tony to make a choice, but not so many that he'd get lost analyzing the ramifications of navy pinstripes vs. charcoal paisley. Tony did best with clear, specific expectations rather than an unlimited universe of possibilities that he would inevitably filter through his neuroses and obsess over, and Jim was really kicking himself for not considering that, oh, ten years ago when they’d first started this, but there was no point in beating himself up about it now when he could put that energy towards solving the problem instead. "You brought this on yourself, Tones. Pick a damn tux."

Five thousand roses: @/forestgreen

She is broken and all the more dangerous for it. The world should tread carefully around the shards of her former self lest they cut themselves on Antonia Stark's sharp edges.

A Guide to Handling the Unhandleable Tony Stark:  @/nightrider101 (this is ab a/b/o verse)

Written for the following prompt on the Avengers Kink meme: The rest of the Avengers assume Tony is an unbound Omega by the way he acts. He's reckless and carefree and does what he wants. Imagine their surprise when they find out that Rhodey is Tony's Alpha. They're all confused at the way Rhodey lets Tony act and how they can be away from each other for long periods of time and Rhodey's just like 'He didn't want to give up his career and I didn't want to give up mine. And I gave up trying to tell Tony what to do years ago.'

It’s Not Bacon Until It Ceases To Be Bacon: @sobebold

Tony has lived with his best friend Rhodey for fifteen years, and everything is perfect.

Until Rhodey finally gets a boyfriend, and Tony's world gets turned upside down.

by any name: @machi-kun

Tony calls him ‘mine’, sometimes.

And he also calls him platypus, honeybear, sugarplum, all those stupid nicknames; but James’ favorite will always be ‘mine’.

Tutor Me: @wisiaden

Tony really wants James Rhodes to be his math tutor. The guy was hot, and if he had to play dumb, well, he can say he hates math.

run and hide: @/starksrhodey

Tony may or may not have a crush on football captain James Rhodes.

Or, Tony is extremely insecure, Pepper knows best, Steve likes to bake, Bucky loves red heads, and Rhodey keeps trying to talk to Tony.

This Is The Real Life: @blancheludis

It takes doing the laundry for Tony to realize he is completely, irrevocably in love with Rhodey. Who knew that the way to Tony Stark's heart is to teach him how to wash his clothes.

Anything For You Darling: @areiton

Tony is sitting on the balcony of his palace in Malibu, and Rhodey hates it, more than he's ever hated anything, watching his best friend stare at the water, limmed by the sun and utterly alone.

"She's dead," Tony says, before Rhodey can ask and he feels his breath catch, his heart stumble.

There's--

Grief. For pretty, troubled Maya with her big eyes.

Heartbreak. For a sweet infant who will never know the mother who gave him up, whose life will never be exposed, now.

Relief. Because Harley is safe. Safe. Gods, he's safe.

or

Rhodey helps Tony raise his son.

it goes like this (just like heroin): @quandongcrumble

He’s twenty-six and you’re twenty-eight and you get a midnight phone call from Obadiah and between the two of you, you manage to beg and bully until you can fly back to the States and sit beside the white hospital bed while they say words like heroin and accidental overdose and that Tony should pull through but Tiberius might not wake up.

It goes like this—for almost sixteen years Tony’s addiction problems are a blight on Rhodey’s relationship with him. Friendships crack and trust is shattered, over and over again.

motor oil and coconut oil: @/halfasgoodasanything

James loves his best friend. He's entirely supportive of his friendship and his almost relationship with Steve Rogers. He is! He is. Carol and Pepper seem to think otherwise, but he's cool. Loving Tony doesn't mean no one else can. Even if he wanted to.

lost and found: @starkslovemail 

“Are you lost?”

Tony jumped at the voice cutting into his thoughts. Turning around, he saw another teen, maybe a year or two older than him, decked out in Team USA gear. He shook his head, flashing what he hoped was a disarming smile, “Nope.”

“Are you sure about that?” The athlete raised a disbelieving brow as he stared down at Tony. “You’ve been walking up and down this hallway for the past ten minutes, and the least embarrassing reason why is being lost.”

The blunt honesty startled a laugh out of Tony. He grinned cheekily, rocking back on his heels, “Guess I’m lost then.”

--

Written for the RhodeyTony Mini-Bang! Art can be seen on twitter here!

two boy geniuses walk into one frat house: @starkslovemail (part of a series)

There were too many white people at this damn party.

The Other 'Mr Stark': Iron Man’s Mysterious Paramour:  @presidentrhodes 

Clint leans over to Tony and whispers. “For the record, I know you’re lying. You’re describing the perfect man and he doesn’t exist. You might as well say you’re dating Superman because at least Christopher Reeve was a looker.“(Based on this prompt: Tony keeps telling the avengers how awesome his husband is but they don't believe he exists because it has been months and they still haven't met him yet and then finally, Rhodey comes home.)

[idreamofplaid]

Christmas Promise

Summary: Dean reached a point in his life where something has to change, and he finally makes a decision about his future. 

Characters: Dean x Reader

Word Count: 2594

A/N: For the purposes of this series, pretend Cassie and Lisa didn’t exist. 

A/N 2: This is Part 4 of Dean’s Christmas Carol. I originally planned on this being the last part, but as I wrote the story a Part 5 materialized. Read Christmas Past, Christmas Present, and Christmas Future. 

Dean drove all night to get to her. He put down the windows and let the wind blow into the Impala. The music playing on the tape deck didn’t do much to calm his nerves. Everything reminded him of her. They had listened to these same songs together when he had taken her driving in Baby, which really meant they’d ended up in the backseat. She had loved his car, and he loved her even more for that. It was just one more reason he knew she was perfect for him.

It was the carefree memories he tried to keep in his mind. The vision of the future Charlie had shown him was too painful to think about. Y/N had always been so upbeat. She was optimistic and believed the best could actually happen. Dean couldn’t stand to think of her giving up and being alone, settling for hookups with some jerk who didn’t come close to being good enough to be anywhere near her.

The question was, did he deserve her? He was the one who had left her after spending the best months of his life with her. She had made his heart feel light in a way it never had. Monsters didn’t matter when he was with her, and she made him feel hope when he would have thought that was completely impossible. 

Zeppelin lyrics poured out of the speakers, and Dean tried to think of a way to tell her who he was, to explain to her why he’d gone when the only thing he’d wanted was to be with her always. If she slammed the door in his face, it would be understandable, but that wasn’t her way. 

She would listen to him. Dean knew that. He would at least have a chance to tell her what he wanted her to know, and once he did; it would be up to her. She would have the chance to decide for herself that he should have given her in the first place, but had he been wrong? That was a long time ago. He didn’t know the things then that he did now, and he sure as hell didn’t have the experience killing things that might intend her harm. 

He trusted himself and his ability to protect her more now. Back then, demons were the biggest challenge he’d faced; and they had only been low level demons in the grand scheme of things. If Dean could face God and Lucifer and come out on top, whatever else came his way, or hers, now; he could handle. That was, if she’d give him the chance; but he knew he at least had to try. He knew now that doing nothing was one regret he couldn’t live with.

When Baby turned onto the familiar street where Y/N’s coffee shop was located, Dean took a deep breath. What if she wasn’t there? What if she was? He pulled up by the curb in front and got out of the car. The morning was cold, and he blew his breath in his hands to warm them. He couldn’t see her inside. It was early still, maybe the shop wasn’t open yet. It had to be; this was where people got coffee. Of course it was open. Dean knew he was stalling. C’mon, just open the damn door. What’s the worst thing that can happen? She can hate me for what I did to her, and I can hurt her more than I already did.

Dean gathered his courage and pushed the door open. A bell jingled as he walked inside. So much for buying himself a few more seconds to get himself together. Y/N came walking out from a back area of the shop that Dean knew she used for storage, or at least she used to. There was a big smile on her face. “Come on in, get out of the cold and have…” 

She stopped and stood perfectly still when she saw him. Dean’s heart started beating faster, and he searched for the right words. What he said was, “Hey, Y/N.”

“W...What are you…? Dean?”  She put the bag of coffee she was holding down on the nearest table, and walked closer to him. Her hair was longer than it had been when Dean saw her last.  It was pulled back, but he caught a glimpse of the loose braid that fell halfway down her back. There was very little makeup on her face, just enough to allow her natural beauty to shine through. She was wearing jeans and a simple black t-shirt with a plaid shirt over it that looked like something she might have borrowed from him. No one would have described her as glamorous, but there was nothing she could have done that would have made her more attractive to Dean.

She still took his breath away. “I wanted to see you, Y/N.”

Y/N picked up the coffee again, walked behind the counter, and poured the beans into a grinder. The noise delayed her response for several seconds. She emptied the freshly ground coffee into one of the espresso machine and turned it on. This was her normal routine, and she answered Dean like he hadn’t disappeared from her life fifteen years ago. “Why did you want to see me?”

Dean walked up to the counter to be closer to her, but it was still between them. “There are things I never said to you, things I need to tell you because you deserve to hear the truth; and I can’t live with you not knowing anymore.” His words were falling out in a jumble. Dean hoped he was making some kind of sense to her.

Y/N didn’t leave her spot by the espresso machine. The aroma of a rich French Roast filled the air. Dean recognized the smell; he hadn’t forgotten what she taught him about coffee. “O...Okay, then why don’t you tell me whatever it is you came here to say.” 

“Is it alright if I sit down?”

Y/N waved her hand at a bar stool. “Sure. Go ahead.”

“The way I left things...that wasn’t...I didn’t…”  Dean shifted uncomfortably. “I didn’t want to leave you, Y/N.”

Y/N’s eyes dropped to the counter. She didn’t respond. Instead, she turned to the espresso machine and filled a cup. Dean decided he was going to have to talk to her back in order to say the things he came here to say. Her braid swayed as she drank, and Dean focused on that while he spoke.

“There were things you never knew about me, Y/N. Things I thought it was better not to tell you. I was involved in some dangerous stuff, and I didn’t want it following me to you. The reason I left was to keep you safe. I thought it was the best thing, but now I know I should have told you everything and given you the chance to decide for yourself.” 

Dean paused and scrubbed his hand down his face. Tears had gathered in his eyes, and they were threatening to fall. “I came here because you deserve to know the truth if you still want to hear it.”

Y/N had put down her cup, and she was grasping the edge of the counter. She turned slowly now to face Dean. “Tell me. Tell me what you didn’t tell me then.”

Dean made a fist and tapped it against his mouth a couple of times and took a deep breath. “This is going to sound crazy. It is crazy, but it’s my life.” He looked directly into her eyes with the most serious and sincere expression he could muster. “I hunt monsters.”

Her eyes didn’t leave his, and she didn’t say anything. Dean couldn’t read her expression, so he went on. “Just about everything you can think of is real, and I kill it. Vampires, werewolves, banshees, ghouls.” 

“Monsters? You came here to tell me you hunt monsters?” She leaned back against the counter and looked him over. “Have you been drinking?”

“No, Y/N. I haven’t. I’m completely sober. I drove all night to get here. From Kansas. I live there now with my brother. He hunts monsters too. We have a headquarters there, a home base.” Dean ran his hand through his short hair not knowing which way he should go with this next. “I didn’t want any of the insane crap I deal with to affect you, to hurt you, so I left; but I promise I didn’t want to go. Nothing has ever hurt me so bad. Still hasn’t.”

He was all in now, so he was just going to go with it. “I think about you all the time, Y/N. I never stopped thinking about you.”

Y/N folded her arms across her chest. “You didn’t get married?”

“No, there’s never been anyone I’ve had the guts to say this to, never been anyone I wanted to come clean with. I never let anybody know who I really am, Y/N. I came the closest with you, and I want to tell you all of it. You’re the only person who ever made me think about the future, about the rest of my life, about spending the rest of my life with someone. I still think about it.”

Y/N walked around the bar and came closer to Dean. “I don’t know what to say. Is there something else you haven’t told me?” 

Dean weighed his options. Where did he start? Angels? Demons? The Apocalypse? Which one? Y/N walked closer and reached out to touch Dean’s face. “Doesn’t matter. I still think about you too.”

It happened fast, and it happened naturally like no time had passed at all. Dean put his hand on her waist, pulled her close, and kissed her. He felt her arms wrap around him. His tongue glided over the seam of her lips, and she opened her mouth to him. All the years melted away in that kiss. Dean was young again, young and in love. 

They kissed each other for a long time, and when they finally pulled away; Dean cupped her cheek in his hand and once again memorized her face. He could feel her breathing, and it was the happiest he had been since he last held her. She whispered to him, “Come upstairs with me?”

Silently, he nodded; and she put her hand over his. Y/N led him up the stairs to her apartment where they had first made love so long ago. The furnishings were different, but the place still had all the coziness that told Dean it was her home. Everything about it said it was hers from the braided rugs on the floor to the handmade ceramics. 

Dean took her to the four poster bed covered with what looked like a handmade quilt. She took his hand and pulled him down to the bed with her. They sat on the edge, and he watched her bring her braid over her shoulder. She pulled the hairband from the end of it and placed it on the nightstand. Then she took her hair in her hands and started to separate the strands she had woven together into the braid. When she was done, she spread her hair around her shoulders. 

Dean watched her every movement, entranced by being so close to her again, the intimacy of it. He lay her down on the bed and kissed along the line of her cheek and down her neck then moved his mouth back up to hers. She sat up and took off her plaid shirt along with the tank underneath.

Under it, she was wearing a plain white cotton bra, and it was the sexiest thing Dean had ever seen. He brushed his thumb lightly along the line of the cup; he inhaled sharply and closed his eyes at the feel of the soft skin on her breast. He kissed her cheek while he continued to touch her. “I missed you so much, Y/N.”

He was still wearing all his Winchester layers, and she pulled at his jacket trying to get it off. Dean kissed her cheek again. “I’ve got it, baby.” He treated her to a private striptease, taking off first the jacket and then the flannel he was wearing beneath it. When he lifted the hem of his t-shirt revealing his chest and stomach, it was her turn to suck in her breath. 

Dean reached behind her, unhooked her bra, and slipped the straps down her arms. “You are still the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen.” He kissed her softly, his tongue circling hers and exploring every part of her mouth. She sighed into his kiss, but then pulled away and buried her face in the side of his neck. 

Dean’s hand went instinctively to the back of her head. “What is it, sweetheart?” 

“I thought about this so many times. I imagined you coming back and saying you still wanted me. I can’t believe it’s happening.”

He cradled her head in his hand and kissed her temple. “It is, baby. I’m here, and this is real. It’s always been real.” He was so close now; it was hard for her to breathe. “Hey, it’s okay. We don’t have to do this.”

She abruptly lifted her head. “No. I want to. I need to. In case you….”

Dean put his finger under her chin and lifted her face up so she was looking into his eyes. “It’s not going to be like that. I’ll never leave you again. My heart broke when I left you. It’s been broken ever since...until now.”

“I trust you, Dean.” The sweet forgiveness in those words was more than Dean had dared to hope that she would give him. 

In return, he was going to give her everything he had in him to give. “I promise I won’t hurt you.” He unbuttoned her jeans and eased the zipper down. Dean flattened his hand against her stomach and pushed it down slowly until it slid beneath her panties. He brushed his fingers through her folds, and his eyes locked onto hers. “Tell me if you want me to stop.”

His fingers found her clit, and he rubbed it until she arched beneath his hand. “That’s it, sweetheart. Let me take care of you.” She came on his hand with his name on her lips. Dean held her through the aftershocks until her breathing slowed then he finished undressing her and himself.

He wrapped one arm under her and supported his weight on it. With his other hand, he brushed her hair from her face. Dean kissed the corner of her mouth then looked into her eyes while he pushed himself inside her. He was still for a few seconds then he pushed in deeper and waited again, giving her time to adjust to him. 

Her body was tight around his shaft; he could feel her stretching to accept him. He threaded his fingers through hers and held her hand as he started to move. She let go for him, and he did the same for her. Dean breathed into her with his kisses while he moved inside her. When she climaxed, her walls tightened around him, and he came with her. 

Dean lay on top of her, panting for several seconds, before he rolled to his side and pulled her into his arms. She rested her hand on his chest and made little circles with her fingers. Her voice was a whisper. “I wish we could always be like this.” 

Dean ran his fingers through her hair. He would find a way to give her that. “We can always have this, Y/N.” Dean stopped combing his fingers through her hair and got very still. “There’s something else I haven’t told you, something I need for you to know.” He kissed her hair and inhaled the sweet smell of flowers that lingered on it. It calmed him and gave him the courage to tell her what he’d been holding inside for more than a decade. “I love you, Y/N.”

Everything Forever: @gambitwinchester @princessmisery666 @onethirstyunicorn @peridottea91 @logical-princey @emilyshurley @beenlovingromansincedayoneish @fangirlxwritesx67 @waywardbaby @atc74 @ledzeppelinsbonzo @shaniquacynthia @mariekoukie6661 @tumbler-tidbits @67-chevy-baby @fandom-princess-forevermore @terrarium-jpeg @emoryhemsworth @crashdevlin @heycasbutt @jules-1999 @mrsdeanfuckingwinchester @cosicas-cuquis @sammyimpala-67 @queenoftheunderdark @dean-winchesters-bacon @mrs-meghan-winchester @timelordy-fangirl2 @sweetness47 @hobby27 @awesomesusiebstuff @kickingitwithkirk @becs-bunker @gh0stgurl @sandlee44 @supernaturalgrandma @lonewolf471 @sea040561 @dawnie1988 @maddiepants @volleyballer519 @outcastedangel @iknowwheremytowelis @wendibird @kdfrqqg @lizette50 @daisymoder72 @sorenmarie87 @oldfreakything

Dean/Jensen Love: @deansyahtzee @flamencodiva @deanwinchesterswitch @waywardrose13 @feelmyroarrrr @winchesterxfamilybusiness​ @focusonspn​ @akshi8278​ @ladywinchester1967​ @sgarrett49​ @wingedcatninja​ @coffee-obsessed-writer​ @adoptdontshoppets​ @team-free-will-you-idjiot​ @ellewritesfix05​

Dean’s Christmas Carol: @moron225

[solidburnreturned]

by popular demand, here is my oc chatter regarding stuff like relationships n random character traits. its rly long oops but i divided it by character at least lmao,, these are all things that i think id also wanna use if i ever use these characters as humans (which i def will at some point honestly)

- i thinkkkk i want toad and pike to date. toad would come across pike in their lagoon one day while hes wandering around on another wonked exploration and pike is like hey lol :B with their pointy teeth and long ass hair and toad is like :0 he just sits and talks with pike for hours and comes by a few times a week to hang out with them. they fall in LOVE

- fred and lani are def gonna date too. two butches who use he/him pronouns fuck yeah? they have a powerful relationship. mega BDE. power couple. not a lot of pda but alone together theyre both very loving and tender, its a vulnerability thing for both of them. like lani is very cool and can be either stoic or borderline obnoxious while fred is punkish. fred is very head over heels for lani tho 

- mardi n berg.....complicated....i gotta figure out how they actually end up together. berg is a jogger and mardi is a piercer/tattoo artist so that doesnt....make them line up very much in that department. ill think about it more and figure something out. itll probably have something to do with berg’s nose stripes and eye rings

- also side note on mardi......i want his backstory to include a grey period set off by his brother being eaten when they were both young at the troll tree. like he becomes angry and depressed, sorta like branch, his tattoos that he gives himself the only color on his body, until he learns to let go and his colors come back (high key this was inspired by 21 savage, mardi’s voice claim, and the line in his new song A Lot “my brother lost his life and it turned me to a beast”). ill develop this idea further but i just wanted to get it written down

- bismuth.......unsure. they had a crush on pepper and kept trying to ask her out until she came out to them as a lesbian, then they were like :’) but theyre ride or die theyre not gonna be an ass to her because they cant date her. they just care a lot about her. its like icarly

- gazpacho and jupiter CUTE two small trans trolls in That Love. i need to develop them more but. theyre just cute 

- talia is still a little too new for me to develop her......but im thinkin about it...

- kinda same with ernie and olive. they kinda mostly just exist as cute babby characters right now? if anything olive is a trouble maker and ernie is a chatterbox

- clem and thursday also fuckin cute as hell......clem was a nervous wreck asking thursday out but theyve been together like ever since, which is more than a few years. they have a rly cute gentle lovey dovey relationship. thursday is usually hanging around up on her gf’s shoulder giving her kisses on the cheek

- bea and crystal.......adorabl relationship......crystal is another character thats kinda nervous but bea is so chill n confident is helps calm her down. theyre both trans and love the hell out of each other. rly slow n steady relationship, bea is very patient

- pj and marcus!!!! dumb mlm rep relationship. pj is so so gay for marcus he can barely comprehend it. its a dumb ego boost for marcus but hes also very in love with pj, he just expresses it in a weird cocky way idk marcus is a nerd. i need to make more content for them i think about these two way more than it seems

- dwight!! he has a boat. he lives on the boat.....ive thought about maybe pairing him with toad and pike. deciding on his voice claim has been the most difficult thing ever

- kass and current HELL yeah buff gf and tol gf......they spar with swords and wrestle for fun and hang out at the beach a lot. kass fuckin loves the gem on current’s back. i gotta make more content for them 

- celia......i wanna do more with celia. friends with berg probs theyre both sporty. shes just a sweet giant troll who loves mushrooms. i gotta pair her with someone whose palette goes nicely with her pastels 

- carrot and harriet are literally cricket and tilly from big city greens just older. yeehaw siblings. havent thought about relationship stuff with harriet yet.....i think she also needs ANOTHER redesign her colors are just too heavy still. maybe if i can make her colors compliment celia’s that could work as a pairing? hm hm.....carrot tho is dating ford’s oc rye theyre gentle country gays

- rainer. hm. i dont think theyre rly the dating type......theyre just chill with being them. they just wanna swim and be funny

- hammond and andromeda are probs two of my least developed characters.....hammond still needs a redesign. he might be cute to pair with walter, theyre around the same age. andromeda tho i have no idea. she might be a nice pairing with eve? if i ever feel like pairing her with someone...who knows. eve is very carefree and might find andromeda’s energy too intense

- radish i wanna make more content for!! i rly like her a lot....i think shes another troll who isnt interested in dating. shes very focused on being a chef instead. loves her friends a lot!

- mack and pepper 2gether 4ever obvs......they have a relationship that gets richer with age for sure

- im just gonna ramble about mack. i thinkkkkkkk i wanna make her half latina? columbian specifically. she doesnt quite read as white and i didnt make her with the intention of making her white. anyway i love mack a whole lot and should really develop her backstory more. its not rly as like...””tragic”” or whatever as pepper’s i know that but she def has layers. i wanna give her whole family more depth. she has a very complicated relationship with her own feelings and motivations that i need to think about more fully. my powerful femme tho i lov her

- mack’s parents, robin and champagne, i need to like....think about them more. they have kinda a comedic relationship thats sorta inspired by roger rabbit and jessica rabbit. robin is a very caring, gentle troll who’s very smart and cares a lot about his nursing responsibilities in the village. champagne is very relaxed and the “voice of reason” character of the family. she loves a good party and has her party planning down to a science. both are very successful power parents. kickass family

- i already talked about topaz and marney in a separate post but i still love them both so much. big wesbiabs

- pepper....pebber. im gonna talk about her the most obviously gfhjdkrs i wanna talk about her mental health i feel like i think about it a lot but i never write about it explicitly? this is gonna be long oops hgjfksd she has depression and ptsd stemming from the trauma of her crash...im thinking she also has adhd and thats just something shes always had. her depression rly got heavy during her recovery and right after like...she hated being bed/housebound and felt rly powerless to her situation and just let it eat at her until her personality had actually changed considerably. like extroverted wild child rebel to introverted, soft-spoken sulker. this got better with time but she still is pretty introverted, just turned her moodiness into chill energy. 

- she has bad depression habits like letting dishes, old food, laundry, or just stuff pile up in her room until it gets overwhelming and she spends like two days just manically cleaning; or staying in bed for way longer than she should and messing with her hygiene; or eating way more or way less than she should eat in a day. just stuff thats hard to completely break out of when youre recovering. her color is pretty consistently the dark red but if shes having a particularly rough day she might look a little paler, or like a muddy brick color at her worst. thats kinda rare tho

- her ptsd is the thing she hates the most. for a while it made her feel very weak and she’d beat herself up over being traumatized by the crash which was obviously not helpful to her mental state but she was really all over the place during her bodily recovery. its part of the reason why she started working out, she wanted to reclaim some sort of feeling of strength and power that she felt she’d lost completely. she still gets really frustrated with this feeling of loss but she gets a lot of support from loved ones which has helped her not self-blame so much. her ptsd manifests mostly as nightmares/insomnia, chronic headaches/stomachaches, intrusive thoughts and sometimes flashbacks. the nightmares are what rly get to her, she really doesnt get a lot of good sleep and it can get to the point where she just doesnt want to sleep sometimes and she’ll stay awake until she crashes hard

- her scars used to be a big trigger for her ptsd, which is why she has her bangs covering the one on her face and wears long pants (her knee braces are too bulky for pants and would force her to wear shorts which would force her to expose her scars). she just. really really hates them. this is something she struggles with for a majority of her life

- once she and mack start going steady with their dating and start consistently sleeping in the same bed, pepper starts to sleep better. she still has nightmares that wake her up at least weekly, but having mack there to comfort her (whether she wakes mack up accidentally or if mack is already awake) helps a TON with getting her back to sleep soundly. it also just helps her sleep in general to have that comforting, loving presence in her bed snuggled up to her ;w; mack is a big help in general with pepper’s mental health, pushing pepper to make better, healthier choices and get out in the village more and have fun. mack for sure does not “”cure”” pepper of anything but shes a very positive light in pepper’s life that helps her pull thru tough times!

- i love all my goofy trolls so much. its so fun to just chill and blab about them to relax between working on big projects ;o; ty if u cared enough to read this whole thing ur so rad

[purplesurveys]

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A

Art: When was the last time you painted something? I don’t remember; maybe about a few weeks before the breakup. I haven’t really been into painting since, but now that I’m over it I should probably dabble in it again soon.

Adventure: When was the last time you really felt alive, and what were you doing? Last Sunday! Watched the Sowoozoo show with Angela and Hans. We set up a huge tent at the rooftop and had fairy lights all around and so much beer and soju and so. much. food. She and Hans ended up bringing most of the food we got home. It really felt like throwing a party with a million other people and it was SO so ridiculously fucking fun.

Allergies: What is one thing that you are allergic to? Slightly allergic to grass.

Answers: What is one question you would like an answer to? If I’ll ever have a family of my own.

Age: What has been your favorite age so far? Hmm, maybe 16. 23 has also been a blast so far; I hope it stays the same.

B

What month is your birthday? April.

Have you ever played house inside a big box? Possibly as a kid. It doesn’t stick out in my memory though.

Are you boisterous? I can, especially if I feel enthusiastic about the situation.

Have you ever dated a bad boy? Nope.

Name one thing you like that is blue: The ocean. Not being in it, but being near it at the beach. < Ooh same.

C

Cinnamon--yay or nay? Yay, I guess. As long as it’s not excessive.

Chocolate: do you love it? I like chocolate-flavored things. Chocolate bars themselves not so much.

Name one favorite type of candy. Gummy bears or worms.

Children: Name one favorite thing to do with kids while babysitting. I only ever ‘babysat’ my much younger cousins; and when I did that more than a decade ago I just enjoyed playing games and toys with them since I too had been a kid who just had to babysit them.

Carefree: Are you carefree? I know how to let go when I want to, but I think most of the time I prefer to be careful and cautious about most things.

D

When was the last time you danced like no one was watching? LOL last Sunday when I drank too much and danced to Boy With Luv, and apparently Angela got it on tape as well. I haven’t checked the video yet and probably never will.

Do you daydream? Quite a lot, yeah.

Dreams: What is one of your dreams? To learn how to cook is one, hahahaha.

What is one thing you are currently dreading? We have an event tomorrow and my team is going to have to host it, so I’ll have to go over my script tonight so that I don’t end up sputtering and stuttering.

Name something delicious. Brownies!

E

Would you ride an elephant if given the opportunity? I have before. I’d do it again but make sure it’s done in an ethical environment.

Do you live life on the edge? Nah. I mean I’m bad at saving and VERY GOOD at spending my money, but that’s probably the most reckless I’ll ever get. Playing safe might as well be my middle name.

Name something you like to eat: French fries.

Do you believe in everlasting life? No.

Name something that comes easy to you. Continued from sometime this week, idek when. Anything that has to do with my reflexes. I can respond pretty quickly.

F

Name a fragrance you like. I like fruity, summery scents, for one.

Are you a free spirit? Eh, not so much.

Are you fickle? I wouldn’t say so.

Are you hiding your feelings from someone? Nope.

Name one flavor you like. Cookies and cream.

G

Are you gentle? This is too vague for me to answer.

Are you generous? I feel like I can say that, yeah.

Name something green. Eyes can be green.

Name a famous giant. My mom was watching something recently about a wrestler named Andre the Giant. He really was. < That’s a good answer :D I’ll just borrow it lol.

Are you a girl? Yessss.

H

Are you generally a happy person? I think more so these days, yeah!

Do you honor the holiness of the day? Idk what this means but if it’s supposed to be related to religion, I don’t really practice.

Do you believe in Heaven? Not the way the Bible describes it but the idea of reuniting with my loved ones when I die is pretty comforting, if that’s what ‘heaven’ is supposed to be, if it exists.

Name one thing you are hoping for. I’d like to be able to go to concerts again soon.

Name one thing you hate. That weekends are only two days long.

I

Imagination: Write the name of one of your imaginary friends from when you were younger. Katrina. Issues: Name one magazine you subscribe to, if there is any. I never did that.

Internet: Name one website you visit often. These days, Facebook.

Itinerary: List one place you would like to visit. Malta.

Interest: Name one thing that interests you. Cooking.

J

Are you joyful? Again, I think I am generally happier these days so yeah.

When was the last time you were filled with joy? Last Thursday when I finally got the BTS Meal from McDonald’s, lollllll.

Can you jump high? As a kid, yeah. We had a childhood garter game that kind of made it a requirement for you to be good at jumping, so that served as practice for me. Idk if I’m still as good, though.

Name one girl's name that starts with a J that you like. Julia.

Name one boy's name that starts with a J that you like. Jacob.

K

Have you ever been kissed? Sure.

Have you ever feared that you would be killed? Yup.

Are you kind? I wanna think so, but idk. This is a question you’ll have to ask other people about, not for me to answer for myself.

Who is your kindred spirit? Angela.

Name one thing you liked as a kid. Chewing gum.

L

Do you love someone? My close friends.

Do you live out loud? I try to make the most out of everything life hands me and enjoy life as long as I can, if that’s what you’re asking.

Do you read food labels? Only when I’m bored and have nothing to do at the dining table. I never read it to actually know the nutritional value of what I’m eating.

Name something local that you like. Balut.

List one thing you like to do at the lake. I don’t think I’ve even been at a lake before...I’ve seen ones, but haven’t been up close.

M

Do you like...

monkeys: Sure.

music: More so these days.

musicals: I never liked them.

mansions: I mean...I guess? I love house tours so if I can get to go around a big ass mansion I feel like I’d have a good time.

miracles: Not so sure I believe in those.

N

Do you want something....

new: I’m well aware that I can be quite materialistic, so yeah I’m always wanting something new.

nice: Too vague.

neat: Vague again.

never-before-seen: As long as it doesn’t hurt anyone, sure.

nature-inspired: Idk.

O

How old are you? 23.

What is the last great opportunity you missed? Erm...my 20s? Because of Covid? if it counts lol.

Name one thing you like that's orange (besides oranges). I don’t like oranges, but I do like Hayley Williams’ Riot! era orange hair.

Are you open? In surveys I definitely am. < Agreed.

Name something odd. Can’t really think of any at the moment.

P

Are you...

patient: Too much for my own good.

perky: With the right people, yeah.

pale: Far from it. I live in a place with sunny weather all year round.

peaceful: For the most part but I can provoke people if the need be.

passionate: Not always, but sure it shows up occasionally.

Q

Do you own a...

quilt

quail

queen-size bed

quill pen

book of questions ^ I don’t have any of those things.

R

Do you like to...

run

rave

riddle

rhyme

rap: If I memorize a verse/song, then yes.

S

Are you ever...

shy

sensitive

secretive

sure

stable

T

Are you...

ticklish

trouble

tall

thankful

tactful

U

Have you ever...

ridden a unicyle

used an umbrella

visited an uncle

been undecided

played a ukelele

V

Do you own a...

violin

vehicle

violet dress

vampire cape

veil for a wedding dress

W

What is something you wish for? Longer weekends.

Wonder: When was the last time you opened your eyes in wonder? I guess this morning? When I realized it was finally the weekend and I could stay in bed and relax and sleep in if I wanted.

Name five words you like. Let’s just go with poignant, which is what I always answer. I don’t feel like thinking of four other words.

What is something you wonder? What my own place would look like.

Name someone who thinks you are worthless. I hope there isn’t anyone; but my mom did make me feel like this for a long time. Either she’s stopped it or I’ve grown completely immune to it – I can’t really tell the difference.

X

Have you ever...

played a xylophone

had an x-ray

enjoyed exercise

had excision surgery

been excluded

Y

Are you young? I think 23 is still quite young, yeah.

Are you youthful? Idk lol my stress level these days makes me feel like I’m 35.

Did you have a big yard growing up? No.

What did you do yesterday? Had what was probably my busiest day at work yet.

Do you like yams? I mean I like ube cheesecake, but that’s as far as I’ll go when it comes to yam.

Z

Zeal: What are you passionate about? My work, to an extent.

Zing: Do you like raspberry lemonade? I’ve never tried it. I think.

What's your favorite zoo animal? I don’t go to zoos.

Do you own anything from Zales? No and idk what that is.

List a name that starts with a Z. Zia.

[mafiabosstsuna]

something angsty with tsuna, dino and enma (they are my boys thanks to you guys!!) with s/o

COMPLETE

~Okay, you guys, if your stomachs are too weak for violence against the pregnant then stay out of Dino’s story. Sorry but you have been warned. I felt pretty terrible writing his that way but my muse wouldn’t listen to me. Sorry in advance. (-_-;)

-admin Adelheid

Tsuna

Tsuna took a healthy swig of the bottle oftequila he had had sent over from the cellar earlier. Around his feet wereseveral bottles of other different liquor but he didn’t mind them all.

He didn’t care for the expensive carpetbeing stained by the alcohol at his feet. He couldn’t give a fuck about theexpensive paintings and furniture that lay around him. Nothing mattered. Theworld was empty. As empty as his heart…

He rose from his chair and swayed. Gokuderatried to catch him but he shoved the man aside violently.

“Go ‘way…” he muttered in a voice that lost it’s smoothness, burned away by the alcohol. Swaying as hewalked out the door. “Wanna be alone…”

“Jyudaime―”

“LEAVE ME ALONE!” Tsuna yelled, grabbing agun from the holster he kept on his chest and randomly shot at his right handman, missing Gokudera by inches in his drunken effort. Emptying the barrel asyou did so much to the bomber’s relief.

No one dared stop him afterward.

Tsuna swayed towards the hall like a ghostand every single denizen of the Vongola mansion made sure they were well out ofhis way even as the sunken look on his face and the circles under his eyesaroused their pity.

Yes, it was that time of the day again.

Tsuna noticed nothing.

His feet acted as though on auto pilot and ledhim to the gardens. Crossing through the rose laden arcs and lilac scentedblooms. The chilly night gave the scents an ethereal feeling of being somewhereethereal. Like a beautiful dream.

Just like you…

He trudged forward until he reached thehill that held your headstone. Covered in your beautiful white and red roses.It’s almost as though the very ground itself was embracing you. Holding youaway from him and keeping you safe.

He threw the bottle right at it, the glassbreaking into a thousand million pieces when it hit a corner of your grave.

And then Tsuna laughed.

And sobbed.

And cried.

On the very edge of madness.

Has it really been six months? Six months sincethat cancer killed you?  Has it reallybeen six months since you asked him to hold you in his arms as you sat on thisvery same spot, watching as the sun went down? You have always loved sunsets.You said it was romantic. And somewhere deep inside where the remnants of hischildhood lay Tsuna agreed with you.

Has it really been six months since he lastheard you say, ‘I love you…’? Has it really been that long since he held youclose as your hand lay limp in his palm and felt your heart stop beating as he held you close?

No it can’t be.

It already feels like forever.

Breaking down he knelt on the ground andembraced your headstone, watering it with his tears. Uncaring of the thorns theflowers pricked him with. Uncaring of the blood that seeped through his skin.

What sense was being the most powerfulMafia Boss in the world bring when he can’t even save you? What good was allthis power if he can’t even get you to stay by his side?

Nothing.

It was all for nothing without you…

Dino

“No. No I will not allow it!”

“You can’t stop me, Father, I’ve made up mymind!”

“You’re too young! You have no idea what you want, boy! Cease and desistthis instant!”

“I’m sorry, Father, but I love her. I needher. I want her to be by my side for the rest of my life.”

“Don’t do this. You are my heir. You can’tjust go out into the world and live the life of a civilian just for this girl!I’ll accept her into the family if that’s what you want but stay here for God’s sake! I can keep you both safe!”

“She deserves better than that! She doesn’tbelong in this world! In our world! Iwon’t let her be tainted by your sins! Iwon’t let the Mafia touch her!”

“Do you really think it’s that simple toget away from the Cosa Nostra?! This world is the womb that gave birth to you!No matter how far you go, no matter how well you hide it will find you. Andwhen it does it will swallow you whole!”

“I don’t care! This is what I want. This isthe life I’ll live. Go ahead and wallow in this darkness. I’m choosing to livein the light.”

“Even outside the Mafia the world isnot a safe place! Please, let me protect you!”

“I’m sorry, Father. Goodbye.”

It would be the last time Dino would speak to his fatherfor the next three years…

Dino had been so youngback then. So innocent. Barely even out of short pants.

And yet he was sure he loved you.

All he knew was that he was in love and nothing was going tostop him from being with you. You didn’t want him to break his father’s heart;but neither could you change his mind. You were the only one who looked back asDino pulled you away from the mansion.

He ignored his legacy, he ignored his Family and he ignoredhis father’s love. Because you made him feel like he was more than just theheir to a Mafia legacy. You made him see a future that contained more than justblood and hate and shame. For you he was willing to refuse all the wealth andpower his father had accumulated in his lifetime to hand over to him somedaybecause your existence, your way of life gave him a choice. Like he was morethan he was meant to be.

Dino moved with you in a country across the ocean. He took aseries of different, menial jobs here and therewhile you studied. He ignored every single one of his father’s messages begginghim to come home.

Happily, Dino had livedthrough those years. They were the best years of his life. No burden of alegacy full of bad karma. No darkness hovering over the horizon demanding hebelonged to it. No blood on his hands someday… Soon he forgot about that world and settled into this new one. Hewas so happy when you told him about the baby a couple of years later. Despite your disappointment that your studies would be put on hold you were excited as well.

Dino knew you tried to keepit a secret but he knew you were sending his father pictures of him and yourultrasound results in an effort to reconcile them; such was the kind of person you were. He didn’t mind. Despite failing him he loved his fathervery much and you knew that. And from the few letters he had managed to find it seemed his fatherhad forgiven him and was wishing him well in this new life he had chosen. Dino was looking forward to a long and happy future with you and the baby…

And then one night, Dino came back.

Old Don Cavallone had been shaken awake by Romario andhe had hastily donned a house robe over himself, almost tripping over his own feet in his haste to get to his child. Itwould be the first time in three years that he would see Dino again and hisheart beat excitedly in his chest at such a happy occasion.

But he stopped in his tracks when he caughta glimpse of his son’s face. His heart pounded in dread when he saw Reborn’s face before the hitman pulled his fedora down and left his son’s side as silent as a shadow.

Gone was the soft roundness of Dino’s happy youth. Where was the face of the happily married man in the photographs on his desk? Before him was a man who looked like he had been through hell and back andmore.

Dino’s eyes were chips of ice, his cheekslike chiseled granite. A cut marred the once smooth skin of his left cheek. He had wounds and bruises all over. Covered in swathes of bandages that even covered oneeye. In that one moment Don Cavallone thought that his son didn’t look like a civilian at all. Dino looked like a veteran of war.

“Son―”

“I’m sorry, Father,” Don Cavallone and Romario held their breathat the sound of Dino’s voice. Even his voice sounded cold, hard. Like a stone grating on asphalt. The fury simmering underneath itwas unmistakable. The heart that had once shone from his eyes torn away from his chest. Gone was the youth. Gone was the innocence. In three years, Dino had turned into a man who had seen what the bottom of a barrel looked like. “You were right. You were right all along. No matter how farI ran, no matter how well I hid it still found me. It swallowed me whole andmade me see hell. I… was never meant to be free of this darkness.”

Don Cavallone could do nothing but wrap Dino up inhis embrace, in which his boy broke down and sobbed just like he did when he was small and had scraped his knee. It broke the Cavallone don’s heart tosee his foal so wounded. It wasn’t until Romario had investigated that theyfound out that you and your baby had been murdered by ordinary burglars on an ordinary night. Of how the murderers held Dino down and made him watch as they violated you and made you lose your child…

And that the only reason why the Cavallone heir was still alive was because Reborn came over, curious about the Mafia heir who threw away his legacy for anyone. He was there just in time to witness the awakening of the Dying Will Flame that killed killed the animals who had killed you right before they shot Dino between the eyes as he knelt on the floor of their little house staring at your dead and violated body, a sea of Flames around him.

Dino shed the last of his tears that day, hiding the man he had become behind a bright smile and a carefree nature. Hiding the lesson of life that he had learned the hard way. The one fact that he will never forget…

…That the light was never his to truly hold…

Enma

He had loved you for years.

Following every move you made.

His eyestracing your cheeks a hundred times. His lips kissing yours for a million more…He didn’t even know how many countless dreams he had of you writhing under histouch. Panting beneath his body.

Whenever you were around too busy to evennotice him all Enma could do was watch you with half parted lips and batedbreath, struggling to record your every move and sound so he could take it backwith him in his bed. So he could pretend to know what it would feel like foryou to moan out his name.

And yet you never looked his way. No, neverhis way. Your eyes only ever turned to one direction and it was always whereTsuna was.

Tsuna was his best friend. Enma would takea bullet for him. But every time you looked at the man’s way he struggled toget behind the brunette so he could pretend you were looking at him with such longing in your eyes.

Oh the nights when he would touch himselfjust imagining you looking at him like that. Like he was heaven and hell andeverything in between. God he wanted you so much. Each time he came hardcalling out your name. Sometimes biting into his pillow so no one would hear.

It would have been so simple if it justended like that. If he could curl into a ball and sleep the want away. But hewould stay awake hours after his release pretending you were there beside him,looking back at him with satiated eyes. Smiling sweetly with eyes that told himyou loved him. Telling him about what you did today and what your plans were tomorrow.

In the mornings he would wake up. Hisdreams of you so real he would reach out to you to hold you close by his sideonly to clutch empty air. And for a bit he would bury his cries in his pillowsbegging your absent self to want him. Just want him.

Even if it was just for a bit.

Even if it was just a lie…

Forcing you was out of the question. Eventhough Tsuna did not love you back he knew he would not be able to live withyour hate. Your love meant too much to him. If you flinch from the thought of his touch he would probably die, heartsick. He didn’t want just your body alone he needed you. All of you. Body, heart and soul.

And until you could turn your eyes at himlike that he was going to wait forever…

And he will never stop trying.