#i gotta go to sleep and nobody rly cares anyways

[ququoquaw]

decent vid. there r some things that i disagree with or i feel like r left out but its alright

[i8jisoo]

𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘 𝐊𝐈𝐃𝐒 ⇉ skz with pregnant!reader 

hyunjin x reader | part four of dad!skz

↬ genre; fluff

↬ warnings; pregnancy, lots of cursing (i have a streak), birth, n kkami bein a meanie

↬ notes; ok this might be my fav in the series | 1.5k wc

u and hyunjin actually were broken up when u found out about the pregnancy

u waited (stalled fuck off) until five months since u really didnt know what to do with the news

u kinda feel like ur insane, playing your ex-boyfriends music constantly and watching interviews of him but it kept u company and gave u a reminder that u still needed to tell him

u got this rly cute popped out bump, just rly kinda like those movies but u know its gonna get bigger and grow to have stretch marks

one day ur just sitting on the sofa of your apartment n the next thing u know ur door is being opened and hyunjin is barging in

ofc ur in a sports bras and a pair of basketball shorts cause they r comfortable and shirts r overrated

ur there with set out marshmallows, graham crackers, and chocolate, as well as peppermint sticks on the side just eating them together

ur in the middle of eating a smore u had put together

u swallow ur smore slowly, sucking on ur fingertips n just staring at him

“oh my fucking god- and it’s true?” 

ur honestly so confused until u remember u dont have on a shirt n ur bump is showing

ur standing up in a millisecond, hyunjin getting more upset by the second just looking at u

“why— how? how could you just not tell me?”

baby boy has those angry tears and the strained voice hes just so upset and the guilt is setting in for u

“i’m five and a half months.” 

fuck hormones cause next thing u know ur crying and u cant do anything to make it stop

u guys really can’t be mad at each-other, ur relationship was filled with nothing but kindness and it ended only because u two felt it was going no where

ofc u two argued about it and in the end hyunjin was the one who walked out

“we can try again. you can move back in right? we can stay together and put back the pieces.”

u agreed n by the next morning he was there to help u pack ur things up n take them back to his place

he ends up seeing the box of baby stuff, with unopened bottle packages and sonograms, as well as a disc that was labelled as your 3D ultrasound

u find him just sitting there, staring at the black and white sonogram with tears freely falling down his cheeks

he doesn't even notice u next to him until ur thumb swipes the tear away from his cheek

u two just smile at each-other, his arm wrapping around u n pulling u in to his side

“that’s our baby?” he asks, not removing his eyes from the little white blob that barely was the size of a jaw breaker n u just whispered, “yea, it is.”

ur relationship doesn’t exactly get back into what it was at first,,

ur both nervous and cautious around each other

at first he insists he can just sleep on the couch so u can take his bed but u insist u both can sleep together

hyunjin doesn’t mean to but he somehow always winds up with his arm around u n ur bump every morning

he will talk to the bump n tell them how they r gonna have the best mommy n daddy 🥺

“did u know ur mommy is one of my favorite people to be with? i know ur gonna hear the story one day of how we became parents but i have always loved her, even when we weren’t together i loved your mommy. i hope one day you will love someone as much as i love your mommy, i hope you get your mommy’s personality bub.”

ur fake sleeping wbk but u dont move so u can let him talk

around eight months u two are way more comfortable n are getting closer

he lets u borrow his clothes because u used to do that even when u weren’t pregnant and he figured they were more comfortable & better looking than ur maternity outfits 😣

he rly goes the whole nine yards, buying anything u can think of for the baby n he’ll sometimes wake u up from ur sleep (if he’s rly excited) just so he can show u what he bought

hyunjin is in love with u and kkami cuddling together

also when ur due date got closer u both def went out for walks with kkami or played in the dog park with kkami

(u couldn’t really be as active as hyunjin but it was fine with u just watching)

something within hyunjin changes n he just gets so shy n flustered around u ^.^

he’s crushing so hard on u and u can guess he is but then again u two were just living together for the pregnancy

it’s probably three in the morning n hyunjin had just came home

ofc u were crying

a rly cute dog ad was playing with a baby in it as well :(

u explain n hiccup while doing so

hes so s o f t at this moment

he presses a soft kiss to ur lips n ur like wow thats um—

he doesn’t even care how shocked u r this man goes back in for more kisses

“i want you, i wanna be a real family. i wanna one day marry you, have more babies or get other dogs, that’s all i’ve ever wanted since the day we met.”

enywayz u two r dating,, a g a i n

spooning half of the time during ur last few weeks of pregnancy, but the boys come over frequently n for some reason jeongin is always bringing presents?? its cute but u guys RLY didn’t need anymore toys for the baby

u guys r just cuddling n he’s got one hand on ur bump before ur like

“ow,, fuck that hurt.”

“hey don’t swear around the baby!”

u just suppose it’s a hard kick since the baby had been active a lot recently n the pains had been occurring often

kkami is very cuddly today n he’s giving u kisses

hyunjin lowkey jealous cause kkami doesn’t ever give him kisses like that  ⸜( ⌓̈ )⸝

yall ever seen the thing where dogs know pregnant people the best n they can like SENSE something goin on??

well kkami was on it 

baby kkami is sniffing u n just restless in ur lap n its a lil weird cause kkami is ALWAYS sleeping or sitting still cause kkami has turned as lazy as u n hyunjin

u have this feeling but instead u just tell hyunjin u gotta pee :P

newsflash: u didnt n as soon as u got up, boom, theres ur water breaking and running down ur leg

“it feels gross.”

ur literally whining about ur pants while a baby is coming out of ur ... hooha 😳 n hyunjin is freaking out

he’s rushing around the rooms n making sure everything is in the bag and nothing gets left behind

last thing on his mind is changing ur clothes

though he does, putting u in his baggy sweatshirt and a pair of his shorts

hes freaking out lets be honest the thought of u giving birth is fuckin scary

hyunjin is so out of it and spaced out while ur cool n talking normally with pauses everytime theres a contraction

“aish, why are you so worried? i’m the one that should be worried!!”

ur not cool after an u hit the four hours in labor mark

u do not want to be t o u c h e d

touching u is off limits ur so sweaty n ur body feels like its crumbling u cannot deal with someone holding ur hand or holding u

hyunjin just sits there

hes kinda in a different realm while he stares at the clock on the wall

hes so ready to meet the baby but apparently ur body was exactly 4 centimetres not ready :(

hes just trying to distract u by talking with the boys n his other friends, all of the face timing to talk to the parents to be 🥺

yall r wrapping up a call with jeongin when u have the built up pressure feeling again

he doesn’t even explain to jeongin hes so quickly to hang up n ask u whats wrong

“i— it feels like i have to push.”

he’s already pressing the pretty lil white button on ur bed for the nurses n doctors

they confirm that u indeed r ready to push and that the baby is in position

hyunjin trying to take a peek WHAT A WEIRDO

yall hearing ur baby has a head full of hair and u just give hyunjin this look

like WTF no wonder why u had so much heartburn its because of ur fuckin rapunzel baby daddy

here comes the cries, loud n u just heard the quietest sob from beside u which was hyunjin

“it’s a baby boy, congrats!!”

his lil puppy baby boy 🥺

he had a lil pout like his daddy n his brown locks on top of his head

it was kinda creepy how similar they looked

anyways u dont care ur lil boy is p e r f e c t and nobody could dare tell yall different

u would disagree anyways because thats ur lil pouty baby boy n hes so cute 🥺

“we got a pretty good break-up story right? one for the books.”

he’s got baby boy in his arms bundled up but that doesn’t stop u from smacking his arm before kissing him quickly

“yea, we do.”

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[peach-pops]

i can... maybe... have a matchup 👉👈 ?? i am 5'7", filipino, black shoulder length hair that i like to curl or put in easy hairstyles, round glasses, average body shape. best feature is my smile, and i like to smile often !! i love to be helpful but hate asking for help. introvert. a sprinkle of social anxiety. slytherin, INFJ, and a cancer ! i love being alone but feel lonely a lot of the times. if i'm close to you then i'm teasing and cracking jokes but if not i'm reading the room... (1/3)

gotta match the energy, you know ? more creative than sporty (the only sport i'm pretty good at is ultimate and maybe badminton) i play ukulele and violin, bake bread, knit, and enjoy taking film photos. and dancing ! one way to bring me out of my shell. only reason i have a nightlife is because i love to dance haha. terrible terrible texter, i won't reply for days, but i also double text and love that puppy dog eyes emoji. current favourite song is Nothing by Bruno Major ugh SO cute || (cont)  i'll listen to anything ! besides heavy metal and hardcore country songs (you know the ones about trucks :\) rly like musicals too. naps frequently, even at house parties. definitely hogs the blanket. always nervous that i'm boring whoever i'm with. will literally throat-punch anyone for people i care about, and i enjoy listening to people talk or rant and give advice rather than talk myself. romantic + karasuno team please ! thank you for taking your time to do these things it means a lot 

Thank you for sending in a matchup! Also Nothing by Bruno Major is one of my favorite songs UGH! 

I ship you with Kageyama!

He would have to agree that he really loves your smile. It’s the kind that makes him feel so bubbly and mushy inside and whenever you smile at him, he always smiles back. 

The snack that smiles back anyway

Even though you don’t like asking for help, Kageyama will notice if you’re struggling a bit and instead of offering his help, he’ll just do it for you cause you’ll be stubborn otherwise. 

I feel like he’s also the same way but if you two have been dating for a while than he’ll always come to you with his problems and rant about whatever is going on because he feels that comfortable with you. He always says he just wants to rant but you know he’s secretly asking for advice and you always know what to say to make him feel better

lets take a second to picture this boy baking bread with you. You’ve made him some in the past and he’s the one who actually comes up to you and asks if you can teach him and of course, you would love to teach him. 

He would do his best to be so patient throughout he whole thing but he would suck at scoring bread IDK why I just get those vibes

“ Aw babe! You’re doing so good, your dog looks great!”

“....it’s supposed to be a flower.”

He gets so discouraged even after you try to give him kisses to cheer him up but once the bread is done baking and you try his loaf, it’s surprisingly really good ??? Maybe because he has the best teacher but whos to say

You both have your own passions whether it’s sports or something along the creative side but cuddling/napping together is one of the easiest and most rewarding ways you two spend your time together

He doesn’t mind that you hog the blankets unless it’s during winter cause you should expect this dude to yank back the blankets so he can have some. If he can tell you’re still cold, he’ll cuddle up even closer to you cause this boy radiates heat like it’s nothing

I also think it takes a long time for him to knock out while you’re snoring away  so he uses it to his advantage and will pepper kisses all over your face just because he can 

I get the vibe you can sleep anywhere and everywhere so here’s a bit extra

You’ve fallen asleep while out with the Karasuno team before and everyone else is just so used to it like they don't even mind. Kageyama always packs a blanket in his gym bag for this exact reason 

It’s pretty much a talent to sleep anywhere and Kageyama didn’t really understand it until he found you asleep on a couch in the middle of a party

Like even with the music blasting and people dancing around you, you’re just curled up on the couch asleep like it’s nobody’s business. That’s when he knows it’s time to leave so he’ll just scoop you up and say bye to everyone while you’re knocked out 

Matchups are Closed

[littlebabycrybtch]

ok ik bitches are still going to complain but i gotta rant to keep my shit together;;; ngl after being stuck co-raising two babies now i really feel genuinely Disgusted by unnecessary parent critique. like it actually makes me feel so viscerally upset and depressed when i remember nobody gets this or cares to and probably just wants to call out what im doing wrong, instead of lend me a hand to do it better. man im not treading lightly here the ‘no excuses’ mentality is literally Inhumane to parents and dehumanizes them as these superhumans, they arent, they are people trying to take care of themselves Plus One. there Are ‘excuses’ for not being perfect. just bc every child deserves perfect doesnt mean it can be given and that fucking SUCKS but that is one of the only times im comfortable saying; ‘thats just life’. you cant magically make life better for kids the way you think, you’re not a protector, you’re their Rock to teach them How to DEAL with what life brings, that means you’re allowed to struggle with it too. childcare is like this cosmic design to work you physically and mentally to the brink, fucking forget the normalization of how many people you think you’ve seen raise kids and done fine, it is harder than you can even fathom. they probably did not do fine behind closed doors. the parents with the best behaved and most obedient kids probably did harmful things to make them that way that will eventually come back to them, the parents with the happiest most well adjusted kids probably had the money to provide the extra care for that. there are ‘excuses’. idc if it fucking annoys you or w/e, i dont like being the bitch that says stuff nobody wants to hear, but you truly deeply cannot 100% understand unless you are raising kids, i dont say that to hurt your feewings or exclude you, i used to think that way, i say it bc when you see me passed out on the couch while my nephew gets into something dangerous, its because i got one hour of sleep that night while he kicked me in our bed for 4 hours. he cant help not knowing how that affects both of us, but i cant help being affected by it just cuz im supposed to be ~the big strong adult~, bc i am not a fucking xman. i CANT pretend it all away. while im sitting there napping im also waiting for my mental health meds to start working. im also dizzy from not eating. it sucks that he gets into shit sometimes. hes still gonna get into shit sometimes, and i can do my best, but if i sit here worrying that karens are gonna get pissed abt that and work myself even harder im gonna straight up explode. who does that help. who does me falling apart help. come babysit my kid for free if you wanna help me bitch!

parents are doing twice the work of a normal person while also teaching one of these people theyre caring for, how to BE a person. i used to be SO pro judging parents and im literally nauseated by the judgments now. “i cant believe this parent looked away and their kid got hurt, i cant beleive they just leave them there with a tablet or a snack or a toy while they nap, i cant believe they let them do that, i cant believe--” btich you literally have no idea how lucky you are that they are not both already dead. you are so lucky tehy are both alive and the parent isnt hospitalized for mental health or even physical exhaustion, or addicted to a stimulant (which includes caffeine), or using smth to relax like weed or alcohol (hello wine mom culture), or the kid isnt traumatized from watching their parent have repeatd breakdowns. that is literally better than most situations already. no matter how impossibly perfect the family could be in your mind, kids fuckin get hurt and they make mistakes and the PARENTS make mistakes bc theyre PEOPLE and yall this blows my mind that ppl dont realize this but,,,,, Little kids??? THEY DO NOT LISTEN TO THEIR PARENTS bc they essentially CANT..... for like YEARS there is a period they WILL NOT LISTEN TO YOU at ALL while they have the full autonomy and smarts and strength to cause horrible consequential problems, they are capable of learning how to circumnavigate your ‘babyproofing’ in new ways every single day, but they have ZEROOOOO MORALS OR CAUSE AND EFFECT SKILLS to understand RIGHT FROM WRONG, NO MATTER HOW OFTEN YOU TELL THEM!!!!! IT WONT CHANGE, ITS LITERALLY A PHYSICAL BRAIN THING THAT THEY CANT LEARN WHAT ‘NO’ MEANS FOR A WHILE YET!!! THIS CAN LAST FROM AGE 1 TO 4, SOMETIMES LONGER! THATS GENUINELY INSANITY INDUCING FOR THE ADULT WHOS KEEPING THEM IN LINE HUNDREDS OF TIMES A DAY, KNOWING ITS AMOUNTING TO ALMOST NOTHING UNTIL YEARS LATER!!!! IT DOESNT HELP WHEN PPL JUDGE YOU AND DONT BELEIVE YOU AND THINK YOU JUST ARENT ~TRYING HARD ENOUGH~! holy FUCK dude, idc if you wanna judge, im losing it bc i am being forced to keep my cool while a child whos pinching me and genuinely HURTING and BRUISING me laughs in my face bc he truly DOES NOT KNOW this, and there is NO WAY for me to convey it to make him stop at the moment!!!! thats maddening!!!

listen to me, neither of you dying or experiencing lasting damage is literally the goal every day, not just ‘raising them’, but that you both survive to the end of it. im appalled by how different the lifestyle is and the way ppl just... dont know that/REJECT that information so they get to judge. ofc tiny vulnerable innocent kids deserve the best, parents cannot always provide that if they want to Survive, bc they also deserve , basic understanding and humanity. you call out abuse all you want, theres a difference between the 'lesser of two evils’ choices, or even the genuinely Bad choices you can Accidentally make when at your wits end (which you should immediately correct anyways), and ever causing intentional physical or mental harm to the child, but the secodn yall start nitpicking or blatantly being ignorant to a struggle just so you get your blame validation in i literally cannot AFFORD to give you the time of day, im busy running on minutes of sleep, so if you think i have enough free time to entertain ur whining that my kids got a messy face and has been on his tablet in a highchair for an hour or w/e, idc, im using that time to shower for the first time in 2 weeks bc nobody else is gonna be there for me to let me do that shit :) so frankly put your money where your mouth is and help struggling parents whenever you can. i cant make shit better out of thin air.

“oh, but i dont have the money to help you.” YOU THINK IM AFFORDING CHILDCARE?? YOU CAN COME OVER AND HELP DIRECTLY WHILE I DO CHORES. “oh, but i dont wanna babysit for my friends, i dont like kids.” OH REALLY?????? OH YOU DONT LIKE KIDS??? BC THEYRE DIFFICULT MAYBE ??? SO MAYBE YOU SHOULDNT JUDGE WHEN ITS HARD THEN????? LIKE YOU RLY THINK JUST ‘LIKING THEM’ SUDDENLY MAKES IT EASY FOR ME?? YOU THINK ME FINDING MY NEPHEW CUTE AND LOVING HIM AND HIS LAUGHTER GIVES ME FUCKING SUPERMAN POWERS TO DEAL WITH THIS???????? “but You chose to have kids” rt in my case i literally didnt and would be homeless if not offering to help care for them but HEY COOL CONCEPT PRO CHOICE KINDA FUCKIN INCLUDES WHEN PEOPLE ‘CHOOSE’ TO HAVE KIDS EVEN WHEN THEY STRUGGLE AFTER, TOO LATE TO FUCKIN COMPLAIN NOW, JUST HELP A BITCH OUT. LIke... bro BRO b R O im losing it stop giving parents the inspiration porn treatment while disrespecting the actual struggles they go thru any time the child actually suffers bc they are unable to shield them from their struggle. can i be real, life literally will not go without struggle. you cannot raise them to have a life better than what the world is, you can do your best but you really cant MAKE it fair. once again this is not a ‘raise the perfect child’ contest you are just . trying to raise them at all. its messy. every single day you will have successes and failures, and you’ll be running on empty, and you’ll be doing that just to make it through to do it again tomorrow, while it slowly (AGONIZINGLY SLOWLY) gets easier each day. im tired of pretending lmao i dont wanna hear you bitches judge parents anymore, i dont wanna hear the stupid ass ‘im allowed to’ shit anymore dude!!!!! for gods sake i can agree with you when some shits just plain wrong but ill never apologize for standing up for myself or other struggling parents even if it makes you uncomfy, i can care about Both the child and the parent at the same time, ig i wont ask you why you seemingly cant. 😶 ESPECIALLY when things like classism and ableism tie in so often with these situations. not to mention racism like im white but hoooo if i hear one more story about a black parents ‘negligence’ in efforts of just trying to help their family, like leaving their kids somewhere during a job interview or w/e, vs the white parents that LET THEIR 10 YR OLDS WANDER AROUND MALLS BY THEMSELVES... im gonna scream. im gonna fuckin scream. its so unfair. fuck off, stop the spiteful ignorance, change this shitty hateful culture.

tldr; you Can care about kids while respecting parents, even when they arent perfect. you can advocate for children while also advocating for parents, and in fact, you should fucking try.

[ourlittlebitofnothinguniverse]

Revenge time, you gotta do all of them too.

lmao ayyy ur finally off anon for smth!

jokes on u i love answering things like this it’s not revenge it’s a treat

hERE WE GO

1: What is your name and does it mean anything? my name is Rachel and it means ewe in hebrew and was the favored wife of jacob

2: How long have you known your best friend? like? two and a half years idk when did we meet

3: What position do you normally sleep in? any that i find comfortable altho probably most common is on my stomach surrounded by a nest of pillows ayy

4: Were you a part of any “clique” in high school? um my school is kinda too small for that but ig u could say i was (and am until the third) part of the “weird kids”

5: Who was your favorite teacher in high school and why? aaaa mr scott bc he was just So Rad holy fuck he took us to portland for a weekend and let me lay on the floor in class and overall was hella

6: Do you wish to travel a lot? ehh??? like i have no money to even go to the store now gotta be realistic abt this shit. i suppose ideally tho ig i’d love to explore if i knew i had a home to come back to i need me roots i am a tree

7: Did you participate in any sports while in school? hELL NO

8: Show a sample of your handwriting: 

9: Have you ever given blood? yeah and it made me sick for three whole days, never again sry ppl

10: Do you like the way that you grew up? hPFHDSAFKL; nope

11: Do you like your siblings? Why or why not? hadhsf;lks;dfa again nopE they were all abusive

12: How did you meet your best friend and why did you become friends? u sat @ my table and told me damien was scary and we became friends bc u liked to read and same

13: Name one movie that made you cry. fuCKING WHERE THE RED FERN GROWS. GETS ME EVERY TIME

14: Do you prefer to read poetry, write poetry, or neither? both! lov me some poetry mm good shit lov that word crompch

15: Things about someone that you find attractive? when somebody has a passion and they talk abt it or try to share it w/ u like i might not be interested but it’s 100% guaranteed that i will still lov that u have smth u care abt a lot *unless it’s murder tbh

16: What song are you currently listening to? the silence of my soul idk i was watching mark play prey

17: Have you ever broken a bone? If so, how? nope i am made of solid wood no bones to break

18: A random memory from you childhood: when it would rain i would go play in the concrete ditch beside our apartment complex

19: Where did you grow up? Arkansas. mostly camden but when i was a bby child we lived in stephens for a couple years (until i was like? abt to be in second grade)

20: What was the last thing you watched on tv? i don’t watch television like a normal Human i binge netflix and the last thing i watched was a show called Father Brown which had the guy who played arthur weasley and he was a priest who solved murders it was p good i liked it

21: Do you think you’d make a good parent? i’d b that vodka aunt tbh (but like replace vodka w/ choc milk or apple juice or smth no alcohol will touch these pURE lips)

22: Would you like to meet any of your Tumblr friends in person? i mean sure if i trusted them but i don’t know any tumblr ppl all that well so

22: What was the last dream you remember having? we went to a vacation house and when i checked tumblr a guy i hated and had blocked had found me again and sent me dick pics and other nudes thru the message system and got mad when i didn’t respond bc i lost my phone but my only response was to be like wTF DUDE STOP??? and then we left and i woke up but he was so pissed and i was just like how did u find me wtf

23: When is your birthday? oct 23

24: How many pillows do you sleep with? So Many

25: Do you wear glasses? If so, how long have you been wearing glasses? I WEAR THE DREADED FACE LENSES and i have since like sixth grade (altho i probably needed them for longer i just kept somehow passing the school eye exams bc by the time they caught it i was having such bad migraines i had to hide under the desks @ school bc the light was too much and i couldn’t see SHIT)

26: What color is your hair? shit colored

27: Name 5 facts about your appearance: round, friend shaped, DREADED FACE LENS, about a 1, Squishy

28: What is your favorite soda? cherry cream or cherry sprite

29: What is a strange talent that you have? i can completely forget conversations i just had lmao jk that’s not a talent that’s mental illness! hm i can somehow telepathically sense certain songs when somebody else is thinking abt them

30: How’s the weather right now? LOVELY but still kinda cold

31: Why did one of your friendships end? nobody likes me and i’m gonna die aloneidk man ppl just stop being my friend they get bored of me or smth

32: Who do you miss right now? a lot of ppl

33: Why did your last relationship end? i am a single pringle who has never been in a relationship other than platonic friendship unless u count our broship bc we are totally still getting married in holy matribrony

34: Are you still figuring out who you are? isn’t everyone?

35: Have you ever been admitted to a hospital? Why? no but i came close when they thought i had like? gallstones (i think it was gallstones anyways it was smth like that) when i was eleven bc they were gonna do surgery but it was rly just stress presenting in a weird physically painful way

36: What is your favorite restaurant? what are restaurants? i have never heard of such a thing do u think i, a poor people, have seen such a sight? a myth, no more

37: What is word that you always seem to spell wrong? All of them i cannot read

38: Would ever adopt kids? i mean i adopted my cat does that count?

39: What is your favorite kind of pizza? DISCOURSE FLAVORED jk pineapple ham pizza is bomb but i also just like str8 up pepperoni

40: What was your first thought when you woke up this morning? “god i dont wanna do this” this referring to school but then my second thought was “aa my son is so cute” bc he snuffled my face when he saw i was awake

41: When was the last time you got really really happy and why? whenever i look @ archie bc he is my son my lov nd one of the only things keeping me from going insane in this hellhole called home

42: What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten? germ-x

43: How do you start a conversation? i dont

44: What’s a band you’ve been obsessed with lately? idk? i don’t rly pay attention to that but ig i rly like mother mother lately

45: Do you come from a family “of money?” lMAO I WISH

46: Do you have a bucket list? sort of but not really? like my kinda bucket list involves: adopting and keeping three cats, two dogs, a ferret and a bunny, having my own library room in a house i own, and having enough money that i can actually own a house of a reasonable size like u kno all things that i will never be able to accomplish exactly like a bucket list is for but Not

47: What is your favorite series of books? so many

48: When was the last time you laughed so hard your stomach hurt? when i saw that lord of the rings thing i just reblogged

49: Where do you go when you’re sad? my brain?

50: 5 random facts about yourself: I lov the aesthetic of traditional art but i suck @ it i played clarinet for 5 years and i was rly disappointed when the band director made it so that i no longer felt comfortable in the band and quiti have a need to say hello to every crow i see

i love what’s in the ocean but i hate looking at the ocean and beaches

i chew my nails when i’m stressed and i hate it but i Can’t Stop

[mediocritymachine]

Do all the honest asks....if u dare >:3

1.Who was the last person you held hands with?My ex. I felt uncomfortable the whole time hahahaha
2. Are you outgoing or shy?Depends on who you are 
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?My datemate hopefully ;o;
4. Are you easy to get along with?Short answer. No.
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?I think so haha 
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?Uh good question
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?Yeah !
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?What is this "opposite" gender bs 
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?Not really but if I don't know you well then, yeah lol
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?Furry actually like just a bit ago
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?>>Btw... If we see eachother I'm bringing food from trader joes>>it will change ur life
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?Lavander-Two Door Cinema ClubCaliformula- BlackbearBad Decisions- Two Door Cinema ClubWorld Alone- LordeAnd... Another I forgot the name to it'll come to me,,
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?Yes. I don't let just anyone do it tho,
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?Sorta
15. What good thing happened this summer?This summer as in last summer? A lot of things idk 
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?I ALMOST DID kiss my ex but. I copped out bc it was weird and forced and it made me uncomfy, haven't kissed anyone romantically.
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?Hell yeah
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?Nope
19. Do you like bubble baths?Tbh yeah 
20. Do you like your neighbors?They're alright? Not really tho
21. What are you bad habits?Bad posture, sugar addiction, uh 
22. Where would you like to travel?Hmmm~ the EU is somewhere I would love to go, 
23. Do you have trust issues?Yeah, deep trust issues
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?The part where I sleep,
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?My shoulders
26. What do you do when you wake up?Sleep in for another 30 minutes
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?Nope 
28. Who are you most comfortable around?Furry or Dori
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?Nope ayy lmao
30. Do you ever want to get married?Yeah!
31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?Yep
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?Uhm. I can't name celebrities, so I'll be glad I got out of this situation. 
33. Spell your name with your chin.No.
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
Nope. Used to do horse riding but when I got better I eventually got into jumping and people are rly weird and catty so. I don't do it anymore bc that wrecked my confidence.35. Would you rather live without TV or music?I hate TV anyways
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?Yep
37. What do you say during awkward silences?I laugh it off or make stupid jokes
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?? What it's too late for this bullshit
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?Hmmm ~~ you know I don't really know, there are some I rly like though 
40. What do you want to do after high school?If anything it's my life I don't have figured out. Maybe something in the field of biology as a dream career though.
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?Not everyone
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?They did something wrong or I'm nervous around you or I don't know what to say ayy lmao
43. Do you smile at strangers?Yeah!
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?GOOD QUESTION IDK OH GOD DONT MAKE ME CHOSE PLE A SE
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?"You fucking have to to school, you gotta."
46. What are you paranoid about?Home invasion really scares meAlso I'm paranoid about losing my friends 
47. Have you ever been high?Nope
48. Have you ever been drunk?Nope, can't say I haven't thought about it tho
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?Probably. Can't remember rn.
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?I literally just took a hoodie off. It's my white cat hoodie.
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
Yeah of course52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?My long hair ahhshs 
53. Favourite makeup brand?I don't wear makeup but if I had to chose ? Urban Decay bc ... The name sounds cool fuck me
54. Favourite store?YOU ALREADY ASKED THIS
55. Favourite blog?Idk
56. Favourite colour?Muted blue and Tiffany blue 
57. Favourite food? ALL
58. Last thing you ate?Cookies ,,, 
59. First thing you ate this morning?Chicken soup skjdjdhdhdh
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
Yeah I have. I remember a 2nd grade school art contest ahshshs61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?Nope 
62. Been arrested? For what?Nah
63. Ever been in love? ❤️
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?I haven't ajsjdjd
65. Are you hungry right now?I'm always starving tbh. I'm probably growing again, probably the last time too since I'm gonna be 16 soon 
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?What no bc I hardly have friends on tumblr and the ones that are are mutuals I don't talk to. Btw feel free to message me :D
67. Facebook or Twitter?Neither 
68. Twitter or Tumblr?Tumblr
69. Are you watching tv right now?No
70. Names of your bestfriends? Brooke,Iris,Dorris, uh
71. Craving something? What?I just want to c o n s u m e
72. What colour are your towels?Brown
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?2
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?Yes, two stuffed donuts. I won one at the fair and the other one my mom bought me for my birthday.
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?10? 15?
75. Favourite animal?IDK PARROTS?
76. What colour is your underwear?Uh, 
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?Chocolate
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?That one half baked Ben n Jerrys ice cream, like YES
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?White
80. What colour pants?It's the bottom part of the cat hoodie set 
81. Favourite tv show?Staven Galaxy
82. Favourite movie?The furry movie or the fox and the hound
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?Neither
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?Neither
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?Never seen it lolol
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?NEMO
87. First person you talked to today?my mom
88. Last person you talked to today?Furry
89. Name a person you hate?I'll use their emoji 🍂
90. Name a person you love?Furry

[blackoutbook]

July 28, 2018

G: Hello

G: Are you awake

G: Babyyyyyy

G: I miss you

G: Why you sleeping already

G: Me so sad

G: So much dumb shit happened today

G: Hehe can’t wait to see you

G: I’m home now

G: I wish I could see you tmr

G: Clarebear

G: Y u no love me no more

G: I give you everything and you don’t even reply me

G: So unappreciated

G: (photo)

G: Look at this beautiful girl

G: I wish she could be my girlfriend

G: That would make me the happiest guy on earth

G: But I heard she’s taken by some tampon

G: (photo)

G: Ugh so perfect

G: The way she eats her yogurt

G: Gets me every time

G: (photo)

G: Who dat boi in the back

G: Her new library boi

G: So jelly

G: He got some nice legs tho I’ll give him that

G: Hopefully he makes her happy

G: (photo)

G: Look st those perfect eyebrows

G: Cute little smile

G: She’s so shy

G: Hiding behind her hand

G: V cute tho

G: Looks like she’s Japanese

G: Went to Tokyo uni

G: I think I’m attracted to Japanese women

G: (photo)

G: Even when she’s black she’s cute

G: Sweatpants, hair tied, chillin with no makeup on, that’s when you’re the prettiest

G: Am I talking too much baby

G: Am I too needy

G: I can stop if you want

G: Just tell me

G: Magically wake up and tell me

G: (photo)

G: Wow so beautiful

G: The girl on the right *

G: Left one is meh

G: Hey you changed your ig pic

G: Wearing my fave hat

G: Hipster clarebear

G: With the Harry Potter glasses

G: My fave

G: I told my friends such good things about you

G: They think I’m crazy but I don’t even care hehe

G: I actually drank hard liquor today unlike the little bitch stuff we drink

G: They played some songs from my chill and 🙂 playlist

G: So good

G: The club was so fun

G: But it was missing my baby

G: And I just remembered I actually am busy tmr too!! I will be distracted from you

G: I’m gonna gym with my friends and then we’re gonna go eat crab or something

G: Your fave

G: I don’t even like it but I’m going anyways

G: Can I even gym tmr or will I be ded

G: I should sleep

G: But I like talking to myself like this

G: It’s like when I cuddle you and you just lay there

G: Dead body sorta

G: Kinda like this I’m talking to nobody

G: Fuck I sent so many messages

G: Ok I don’t wanna be too clingy I’m gonna sleep bye

G: See u soon baby

G: Jk I’m back

G: I told one of my friends that you’re the first girl I actually see a future with and can be with long term

G: And she was like omg now I really wanna meet her

Hehe

G: I wanna be with you forever baby

G: Seoul mate

G: Swole mate

G: I’m getting tired

G: But this is the most drunk I’ve been this summer

G: Gotta make the most of it

G: My bed is so empty I don’t wanna sleep without you in it

G: But it’s so comfy and soft

G: You’ll love it

G: You’ll fall asleep 3 seconds after you lay down

G: Okie I can’t rly think anymore

G: Gonna sleep now

G: Goodnight baby have a good day at work tmr

G: I’m prob gonna sleep til 12