#i got into a mood to read what a fandom im part of is thinking of my favourite characters

[ub-club]

oohhhh there it is.

[therentyoupay]

im completely feral over all your jelsa stories!!!!!! do you ever write established relationship jelsa or have any headcanons about what they would be like together in a serious relationship or marriage????

THANK YOU SO MUCH. 😭😭😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💕🙏 thank you thank you nonny for this super sweet ask and this really lovely question and all of your love and support!! 💕💕💕💕💕

i have... never actually written established!relationship (in any fandom), now that i'm thinking about it? that said, i guess i can come up with a quick list of some headcanons, maybe? 😂 i will have to think about this more, but for now, here's a quick drop:

elsa is an early riser; elsa helps jack create more sustainable sleeping patterns and habit formations 😂

when jack gets Impetuous Urges to Do Something Rash and Impractically Spontaneous, elsa will ground jack, reminding him to think before acting. (he occasionally Still Does It, anyway.) elsa knows what she signed up for, lol.

jack loves to play Harmless(!) Pranks, just to watch elsa’s reaction. (he is no longer allowed to sneak up on her after The Incident).

they also quibble over the definition of "harmless" and the specific logistical implications of that; for a while, jack was banned from further pranking, but then he got more creative at showing elsa that pranks could be wholesome and genuine, in which they could both be in on the joke. however, due to elsa's deeply-rooted Need to Excel and her (Not-so)Secret Competitive AF Streak, her retaliation in escalating the Cleverness Prank War quickly resulted in jack's prompt implementation of the Prank-Free Zones and Time Periods. (no, he was not scared.)

elsa, usually reserved, has learned to let her playful side show more often with jack. she might still pretend to be exasperated by his antics, but sometimes it's part of the game (or habit).

elsa sill struggles with opening up emotionally sometimes, but she progressively feels safe enough to share her innermost thoughts and fears. with time, she confides in him more about her worries. she still never likes the idea that jack sees her Imperfect Parts, but at least she can tolerate the discomfort (and, yes, take comfort in it) now

(jack loves elsa's Imperfect Parts, and jack admits that he is Weirdly Proud and Competitively Honored to be one of the only people, even including anna, who gets to see them. he also is strangely Comforted and Validated that elsa is, in fact, not perfect because for a while there, he was pretty freaked out and intimidated by how fancy she is.)

until he realized that no one ever let her actually be a Weirdo before, and once he realizes the Truth of Elsa Also Being a Secret (albeit perhaps more Subdued) Weirdo, the Universe Aligns.

jack listens to elsa's Big Conversations intently, activating varying levels of Serious Mode.

jack is getting better at recognizing the moments when elsa needs him to play and needs him to listen or Give His Opinion or any combination of those things.

jack learns that it's not always about Saying the Right Thing (which he is not very good at, anyway, or so our Serially Unreliable Narrator thinks), but rather being able to read elsa's mood and anticipate what she might need (even if she is not aware of it herself yet).

elsa is meticulous about planning and preparing for special occasions.

elsa likes traditions! jack likes tradition only because elsa likes them, lol, and hey, okay, these are more fun than he thought?? (who knew fun could be organized??!!?)

so he really wants to show (off to) her by pulling off Incredible Planning Feats in her honor, too (they do not go as smoothly, lol).

jack will often go out of his way to spontaneously create something meaningful, a moment or a gift or a gesture, that reminds elsa that he cares. he is big on words of affirmation, gift giving (but like, souvenirs that he collects on adventures like, "i saw this rock and it reminded me of your cousin olaf, we should put it on the window after we paint his face on it"), and acts of service, as well as physical touch and quality time. HE WANTS LOVE. he wants TO BE LOVED. he wants to prove that he is worthy of being loved.

(and elsa has to get him to Chill Out sometimes, remind him that he doesn't have to Do Things For Her/Anyone in order to be deserving of care; he is more than what he provides for other people.)

(jack gets its, and appreciates it, but also, the Urge to Provide and Protect is still strong, even after so much time, and sometimes Old Habits Die Hard.)

i get the sense that he'd be the type to he wake elsa up in the middle of the night to take her on a surprise adventure, or convince her to Do a Fun Thing without any preparation (/warning).

and she would Be Alarmed at the Lack of Plan (especially if/when jack Did Not Think This Through), but he also took precautions to ward off Concerns by pacifying her with tea, or reassurances that yes, he did call ahead to make sure the restaurant was open before they left the house, of course he did, he would never just leave home without double-checking beforehand (and frantically googles it two minutes later when he thinks she's not looking; she is, naturally, and even occasionally pretends not to be).

elsa approaches conflict with a desire to resolve things Calmly and Logically. she tries to understand jack’s perspective, even when she disagrees, and she’s careful with her words, not wanting to escalate the situation.

however, she can sometimes withdraw emotionally, fearing that she might say something hurtful if she’s too overwhelmed.

jack was initially (and, honestly, still is, even though he understands more now) hurt by her tendency to shut down when she Feels Too Much, and understands (although it's still hard) that elsa needs time to process her feelings and organize her thoughts.

jack also helps elsa actually Feel her Feelings, instead of just trying to intellectualize and analyze them. (she hates it, BUT sees the value. jack lives for these moments in which he realizes that he's actually contributing positively to her life and helping her in some way, rather than just being a burden or a nuisance, as was/is his fear.)

his initial reaction might be to push for a resolution quickly, but he’s also deeply afraid of Creating Distance between them, so after the first few fights, he really makes an effort to find the right balance between Pushing Hard Enough and Not Pushing Too hard, so that he doesn't drive a wedge between them as they work things out.

jack FEELS intensely, and can be so stubborn. he does not always have the most precise vocabulary or tools to describe his thoughts and feelings, or identify the root causes of what is actually going on inside him; sometimes elsa asks a lot of insightful and guiding questions that help jack come to the conclusions himself, and other times, she Puts Into Words the very thing that he had been thinking or feeling, but could not name, and it is very reassuring to have someone who understands him well enough to be able to do that.

after conflicts or arguments, they take time to Decompress and reassure one another (especially if at least one of them, if not both, was Overthinking again).

when they argue (and healthy couples do, remember!), it’s a dance of patience and understanding: elsa might need a moment to Collect Herself, and jack learns to give her that Space while also making it clear that he’s ready to talk whenever she is, and that he is going to try very hard to be Rational and Patient About It.

in the end, they both prioritize their relationship over any disagreement, always finding a way back to each other.

[nickwhenthewinerunsout]

favorite parts of writing collateral damage?? so ready for the unskippable cutscene! :D

so i have infodumped this to people who follow me as well as people who are not invested in pc but read cd because of liking my writing in general and. oh my god. do u have any idea how fun it is to collaborate with ur friend. travvy and i met YEARS ago from writing and hang out irl and never did anything together until this and im so serious it was nawt supposed to be as long as it was which is why the ending is kind of sudden. it was a meme while we were writing that i kept making messes for them to clean up because im an angst slut and they love fluff and are Really good at it. so id basically go crazy and put the blorbos through agonies and theyd slap a bandaid over it and it was so fun. i already said that. it was SO FUN.

we did a lot of switching between writing, pretty much every divider is someone else writing which is cool on its own and like. i wish i could just screenshot our colour-coded notes because its fascinating to me the way our writing styles read together because its cohesive with the tone being just slightly different. i have this overhanging metaphor for my internet presence thats 'leaving a bad taste in your mouth' that i adopted back when i started writing because the stuff i write can dip into unsavoury and occasional dead doveish things and i adore it but it ALSO quickly can descend into the inter-fandom chaos of WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT THE DEVIL'S SACREMENT ?? that is my ao3. but anyway.

travvy did this one thing where i was writing two povs in a row but it was the brent/vern get together leading into sophist pov (i think?) and i got impatient and did a piss poor job at actually establishing the relationship, so travis just snuck a miniscene in between my two povs and decided to cherrypick tropes i had snuck into my parts to build a more ongoing theme, and thats why one of my favourite aspects of cd dynamics which is the stark contrast of sophick staring exchanges vs communication between the rest comes from. i adopted it into my spain fic because something about those intense moments were soooo fun to explore in fic and added a lot of depth to their dynamic without having to write too much with it.

another cool moment was one that ive talked about a lot, which is the polycule chart being entirely written by travis until the moment nick leaves the recording when it switches to me. i know the exact paragraph where it switches off and reading that scene in its entirety for the first time was absolutely fascinating. the shift in mood and transformation from something lighthearted to angst was so satisfying and genuinely made me feel like RUNNING LAPS. i could talk about the polycule chart scene endlessly, that was where the whole idea for the fic came from. we were just going to write that and then 25k words happened LMAO

also side note, i wrote the brent/nick kiss which came out way better than i expected considering i really dont ship brent. but travvy does and i wanted it to be good for them and i guess i just put my whole pussy into it

[komatsudaya]

hope you dont mind random asks ! im a huge fan of your fanfiction work and im always amazed by these sort of beautifully complex character dynamics you're able to establish and build upon from the source material. what's your process for when you're writing something? any advice for someone starting out? ^^"

I definitely don't mind random asks, I love talking to other people in the fandom! Thank you so much for the compliment and for reading my fic and reaching out!

I've never given out advice or talked a whole lot about my writing process, so forgive me if anything here isn't terribly interesting or helpful. Also, take anything I say with a whole salt mine, because I'm an amateur who only slightly knows what he's doing lol.

When I'm hit with an initial idea (out of nowhere, after watching an episode, talking with other fans, etc.), I'll note it down and let it cook for awhile, adding onto it if I'm struck with more plot points, dialogue, prose, etc. I personally have a text file on both my phone and my computer so I can write down everything that comes to mind no matter where I am. Once I think I've got enough to go off of, I'll start outlining. I used to switch between lots of outlining or vague notions of what I wanted, but I'd end up having to outline mid-story anyway because I'd realize oh no, I don't know what I'm writing.

When I do outlines, I start with listing the main story beats and plot points, noting where I want to put any specific dialogue or prose that I may have already thought of. I may also break down each scene into what I want it to achieve - mood, plot progression, stuff like "this is where X begins to see Y in different light." The outline can be changed and stuff can be added to it at any time as I write the story. For an example, here are parts of the outline for my YuuDemo fic "Just Not Out Loud":

You can see some details which ended up changed in the final version.

The first draft, I try to just write it without worrying too much about how great it sounds (I say "try" because I still haven't quite gotten over my habit of sitting on a sentence while writing until I think it's perfect). After the first draft is done, I'll go back and fix all the areas that seem limp or in need of rewriting. I've got a biiiiiig file of descriptions, phrases, etc. that I'm constantly adding to that I'll pull from when I'm in need of something evocative for my fic.

I don't have a beta reader, so when I'm done with the first draft of a fic, I'll put it away for two weeks so that I can then look at it again with fresh eyes. I'll read through the whole thing, making notes when I see something that needs to be changed. Then I'll go do a bunch of rewriting. Eventually, out of all that rewriting and editing comes the final version that I then publish online.

For the second question: I don't know what your writing background is, so I'll skip all the basic writing advice (read all sorts of different writing! learn spelling and grammar! vary sentence length for impact!) and focus on fanfic writing.

So you've got an idea. What to do with it? I think the hardest part of fic tends to be actually starting it. Staring at a blank screen is one of the most intimidating things in the world. To get over that, I'll often start the fic by writing the parts I want to write the most or which I've already got a solid plan for, then filling in the blanks between scenes later. Sometimes all you want to write is a scene, and that's okay, too! Lots of people write drabbles and flash fiction, and those are really good for dipping your toes into fic, trying out different characters' voices, etc.

Other general advice:

If in doubt, absorb more of the source material. If you're writing Nintama fic: there's literally thousands of episodes, it's likely that the character you're writing has gotten angry/sad/happy and you can study those episodes to see how the character would act in all sorts of different situations.

See if you can imagine your dialogue coming out of the character's mouth (as much as you can when writing Japanese-speaking characters in English… sometimes I end up with the very weebish problem of knowing what the dialogue I want to write is in Japanese but I have a hard time translating it into English).

Have fun! Ignore the doubt and second-guessing! Easier said than done, of course, but sometimes you have to tell your inner voice to shut up because you're here to have fun writing about characters you love.

If you're a Reddit kind of person and want more advice and discussion, the subreddits r/AO3 and r/FanFiction are pretty solid, and I know r/FanFiction has weekly concrit threads for getting feedback.

Hopefully some of what I wrote helped in some way? Like I said, I'm not used to giving advice or anything like that. Thank you again for such a wonderful message! And good luck with writing! If it's Nintama fic, I hope to see it when you finish it!

[fandomanimatic-tournament]

Fandom song animatic tournament: Bracket 2 Side A

Be Nice To Me - The Front Bottoms

"But you're a killer and I'm your best friend Think it's unfair, your situation You say I'm changing Sorry I didn't know I had to stay the same Can we talk about this later? Your voice is driving me, driving me insane"

My Ordinary Life - The Living Tombstone

"Stayin' still, eyes closed Let the world just pass me by Pain pills, nice clothes If I fall, I think I'll fly Touch me, Midas Make me part of your design None to guide us I feel fear for the very last time"

Remember that we're voting on how Iconic they are for ANIMATICS, not for the song itself. In order to make things fair, the tone and mood of the song should not affect how iconic it is (for example, a serious song should not be considered more iconic than a joke song just because it's serious)

Propaganda and animatic links of the songs under the cut:

Be Nice To Me - The Front Bottoms

Propaganda:

Because it's awesome

Animatics with the song:

Genshin Impact

Don't Hug Me I'm Scared

Undertale

Lego Monkey Kid

DSMP Crimeboys

My Ordinary Life - The Living Tombstone

Propaganda:

Good for good turned evil etc yknow im so tired dude i

I love characters with god complexes so so so much

Such a vibe but so angsty at the same time "It hurts me just to think and I don't do pain" hits different when your sensory overload and/or burnout is kicking in

Animatics with the song:

MDZS Mo Xuan Yu

Deltarune Spamton

DSMP

Land Of The Lustrous

Deltarune Spamton

Please be cautious and read the title, description and warning cards on the animatic videos if you decide to watch them. If you've got specific triggers I'd recommend even more caution when watching animatics of fandoms you don't know, since sometimes canon-typical themes don't get warnings.

Please keep in mind that I don't know all the media and fandoms of the animatics provided as examples and I don't have the time (nor the will) to research them all. Don't come into my notes or my ask box complaining about them being included, I will simply block you. If a ship animatic included is about an adult and a minor, do tell me and I'll take it out of the post

ALSO keep in mind that I don't know all the artists submitted; in fact, even if I do know them I do not know absolutely nothing about them as people (I do not have twitter nor tiktok) and I could not POSSIBLY have the time to research ALL of the artists' controversies and what came of them so PLEASE don't flood my inbox with the artists' entire crime list.

[kx0e]

RAHHHH TYSM FOR ASNWERING MY PREVIOUS QUESTION!

So. I had 3 problems-

1. Constant study but no results

>I make sure I atleast spend 2 hours atleast twice a week doing full body or partial body sketches with references (from lineofaction🔥), and have been since 2021, but going from barely any art ability to now, all i've managed to do is drawing things from the neck up☠️ No matter how many different kinds of faces or perspectives i try its always the 3/4 side view. And i can barely even draw a recognizable jawline😭 (but then on any whiteboard or public art thing its as if the spirit of a medieval master artist possesses me)

2. motivation

>how on this earth do you stay motivated to draw your favorite fandoms😭 theres tons of shows i LOVE or games that I adore, whos characters i literally am obsessed with, but once i pick up a pencil its as if I've never seen them in my entire life💀

3. I know youre not really an oc artist (understandable, if I had the ability to draw genshin and/or persona characters forever, i WOULD.) But if you do have any, is there any specific place you got inspo from? a lot of art advice i see is to turn an object or concept into a character of some sort, but no matter where I look, and how inspiring it is, as previously stated, all traces of muscle memory delete themselves the second i pick up a pencil☠️

Have a nice day, Im really bad at explaining i apologize, and TYSM for hearing me out💖

long reply

1 - maybe doing some theory rather than drawing could help you, if you study the human skeleton and muscle you might understand more how the body works and therefore how it must look in different poses (read MORPHO). Other advice is to trace your references with basic shapes and landmark (just a cube and a cross for the face) and then do your study, you can also do quick studies focusing on only one part of the body but draw it under all angles (the thing is to not rush, if you have trouble drawing the face as a whole, draw all the element separated and add them little by little)

2 - this honestly depends on the person, im someone who loves fandom art but i have zero OCs because im not interested, dont force yourself to draw things you dont want too it usually ends up looking bad anyway !

3 - i do look at objects first when doing character design, but i also like to look at plants or in fashion history books. Most of the time i first do a global search on pinterest to find the general idea and then go to more specific sites depending on what im going for

i think you should take your time and draw only when you're in the mood for it, when you feel motivated pick up a pen and DONT THINK just draw whatever

remember art takes time, patience and a lot of practice, dont force yourself and draw for yourself first ^^

[jils-things]

❨♡❩ valentine's week ; platonic day

okay my biggest regret for this letter is that I don't actually have enough platonics to fit in here, like really major platonics because they all went to the familials AHDHFHSJDJJS but hey as long as i have someone, i'm more than willing to talk about them 💚

im gonna throw a little curveball here and start off with hero! before i got into poke.mon wholely, i was in a very deep o.mori mood. i loved the game so much, i played it blind and found myself to really adore hero. words cannot describe how happy i feel when i see him. he's a nice mix of comfort character and platonic f/o to me. i think he's the first guy that made me really feel so attached to him and talk about him like he was my best friend - i was literally branded as the hero friend in my circle just because of it 😭 as i played the game, i couldn't help but feel so connected to him. he's so mature, he's a great big brother, hilariously the charming type and he's not big headed. he's in fact a little self insecure... and part of me really just understood him well there. my sympathy and care for him grew all the more when i see him in the current timeline, especially what he had to go through for mari and kel. i remember being so happy when i saw overworld hero debut for the first time, heck i'm pretty sure i almost teared up in joy. hero is most definitely the highlight of my o.mori journey, his character just so happened to connect to so many favorite little topics i liked (him with sharks? cooking? love interest in mari?) so many things to love about him! its safe to say that hero is truly the first platonic i ever cared so deeply for. i'm a little sad that I don't have that spark at the moment to go back to him due to fandom jumps but just know that i'm absolutely down to talk about hero anytime

anndddd of course, as many of you all expected... it's blue! if not appleshipping, then it's the silly caramelapple goofies! blue was not gonna escape my grip if i were to romantic f/o red. like come on, this guy is the second closest to being associated with red. but that aside - i really like sun and moon blue more! i'm not exactly too fond of his younger alternative but for the character development i 100 respect him. sun and moon blue however is just the perfect mixture of - fun, mature and cocky. he's a bit of a flashy guy but at least he knows how to hold his ground. blue is just cool. he's definitely a lot more sociable than red but that's what makes the dynamic even funner! with jaide inserted in the group he becomes the token responsible adult and i think its funny 💚

since my platonic list is too small im gonna cheat a little and bring my friends' poke.spe ocs who i included in my platonic fo list AKFLFLFKDLLD hi bee hi nero uhh im cheating shhh sorry 😔

ok so like!! this maroon berry and clear salt!! (jaide stone is on the far left) if im being honest... reading poke.spe is not the same to me anymore because i always have the pok.espe parents in my brain no matter what. it can be over the littlest, trivial things yet my brain will go "ooh, what would maroon/clear do in here" like genuinely a lot of our fanon ideas are just real to me at this point. red has a brother?? fuck yeah dude. crystal's mom is meh but her divorced husband is better?? yeah. yeah REAL. the best part about having clear and maroon close to me is that i actually tend to imagine what would jaide be doing with them together, i mean clear has a little connection to d.evon corp and that's already a great bridge to ponder over how jaide and clear interacts. we may have not written anything TOO canon yet but the ideas are there. and then there's maroon with red meeting gold. there's a perfect bridge to make jaide at least interact with them. i know we're just floating on the bridge of ideas and we didn't actually canonize as much with the parents together but it's just so fun to think about, y'know?? maroon and clear are just written so amazingly well to me and well we're here to deliver therapy to our kids 🤧🤧 i promise you there's a lot of times where i wanted to cook smth that unites all 3 of them together but I just didn't have the time 😭 btw maroon is definitely the person i'd run to for comfort because she wouldn't judge no matter what and would find a way to comfort and of course give a nice nice delicious meal. clear is probably a little more difficult to befriend but if i imagine if you at least get past his cold ice exterior he's a very sweet man (and maroon can vouch for that ☝️☝️)

sorry this ended up becoming a little message to my actual friends but ahakskdjdjd i tried 😭

oh oh and big big BIG shoutout to my fucked up cartridge family created by my circle of pokep.asta obsessed mutuals AKKDKFJDJD 💚💚💚 from fuckin mike and steven stou.ghton, to kalei to jasper to grey to megabyte to rainbow to teo to jayden to blake to jett to orion to EVEN RHYS' PAPARAZZI to FUCKIN GREYYYY AAHHH GREYYYYY (UGLY CRIES) I'D PLASTER IMAGES BUT I FEEL BAD SHARING TOO MUCH ART DRAWN BY YALL HERE BUT I LOVE THEM UGHHH

yeah I didn't have much of an elaborate outline going on here unlike my last one its a little more passionate and sporadic AHJSDJJSHS anyways yayyayayay love my frens :]]] thank you platonics :]]]

[elisedonut]

fic author interview

Thank you for the tag @mirrorofliterature I'm tagging whoever feels like doing it!

How many works do you have on AO3?

33.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

42,741 words.

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Raspberry Muffin Flintley - 139 

at least we're trying Flintley - 104

Rhododendrons and False Indigo Harry/George - 102 (why its only been up a week wtf)

Anyone But You Draco/Percy - 98 

Storytime Naps Perciver - 96 

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yeah! unless it's just asking me to make more then i tend to get annoyed and ignore it but i don't get very many at the moment so i tend to stay on top of it pretty well

5. What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

Deceased. i guess? it's really the only one I got

i don't write angsty stuff much

6. What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

most of what i write barely even has AN ending I do a lot of open endings

i think the closest I've gotten to a complete story story have been A Shell for a Mate and Camera Cutie and they both end pretty happy

7. Do you write a cross-overs?

I have not as of yet! if I ever do it's probably going to be an isekai type scenario because it seems like the most fun to me

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

I still have not shockingly

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Sometimes im not very good at it and am still learning on that front most of it tends to cut before smut really happens or is just jacking off

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope.

12. Have you co-written a fic before?

Also no.

13. What's your all time favourite ship?

I'm a big multi shipper so don't really even have one within one single fandom and you want an overall??

right now 99% of what i think about is Percy ships

14. What's a WIP that you want to finish but think you never will?

hmm if i say all of them do i lose my writer card?

jkjk

but i do have alot of things I've started because the mood hit that i just can't see myself going back to like i have 3k for an amnesia memories au that has just been gathering dust since that original sprint of inspo hit

15. What are your writing strengths?

??? i come up with fun concepts i think? or at least they're fun to me

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

the writing part really I come up with far more ideas then I would ever be able to write hence why I still post alot on here but also like making the idea an actual story story and not just a small slice of a story

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in fic?

I'm too lazy for it overall.

18. What's the first fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter so far it's the only fandom I've written for

19. What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

I'm not sure i ofc have a list of Percy ships i want to try which is currently

Dudley, Seamus, Justin and then ofc the two that constantly give me trouble when i try to pair them with Percy, Remus and Harry

but like outside of Percy ??

i have fandoms but most are dormant as of now like i love Idolmaster and stay caught up on the music but the idea of writing fics for it is like eh if anything it would be Makio/Soichiro tbh i miss them

I finished rwrb and enjoyed it a ton but with the firstprince being canon my brain just doesn't care that much to even seek out content for it because that's how my brain works

its canon so i don't feel the need to read (or by extension write) like 1000 different scenario's for them to get together

like people who stay fully invested in canon couples are powerful because my interest in them in a fanon sense goes out the window every time

i feel like if i ever did do something with rwrb it be an isekai since they are both into HP so it be a very typical get transported into your favorite series story i think that would be fun

i will never do it but fun idea

the ships i like for Danganronpa would probably get me killed/j

like i am with Percy now i was a big Chihiro multi shipper in my DR days before settling on ChiMaru as my favorite for them

20. What's your favourite fic that you've written?

controversial pick but Secret Fantasy 

i put so much work into it KNOWING no one was going to care about it because it's incest but i care about it damn it!! its the longest fic ive written as of now and i had so much fun with it and still think about it alot

less controversial pick is Camera Cutie  because I'm Colin kick at the moment though it is a bit more like messy since it was a pretty early one

[powerpolyculeshowdown]

god I so feel just totally avoiding the main quest. I love when I can do that in games. like yeah ik the main quest is over there but I'm gonna do all this other stuff. main quest can wait!

is tma The Magnus Archives? I never really got into it but I relate a lot to having brainrot about your fandom...and very much to having lots of ideas and not writing them lol.

though my brainrot lately has been Minecraft. so instead of having writing ideas I just have ideas for what I wanna make. I sit at work in meetings and just think about the house I wanna build and get really indecisive about the building shape sjdklfjkf

-shark anon

sorry zelda, i can't save hyrule, i'm busy doing hot girl shit (fucking around and finind out) (so many game overs i am Not a Good Gamer)

yes!! tma is The Magnus Archives and i love it so much but more importantly I love the characters so much and it's difficult for me to capture personalities so i've been trying a lot to practice with them cause they mean so much to me and i know whatever i write will be kinda ooc but i still want it to at least feel like the characters? which is very difficult when 2 of them are background characters and while both are mentioned multiple times one makes one appearance and the other well im writing about who he was before i cant elaborate on that without spoilers but theres basically no reference material for that part of his life aside from fan stuff so im tryin my best djahdsh (any tma fans reading this yes im talkin about gerry and michael), it's good tho cause i get to practice/improve my english so even if they stay in drafts i get to feel productive? aslhdlashdla

oh man i havent played minecraft in forever, im rarely in the mood for it but when i am i usually get the brainrot for like a month sakjdah last time i was playing on a server w friends that was modded to add more stuff to vanilla so it had a bunch of new animals and i started making a zoo (then the brainrot died and i never finished the zoo rip i hope those animals r ok) i also had so many cats at home my farm animals started despawning :) i love kitty <3

i hope u can think about a building shape u like !!

[rosyd-mei]

maybe its because its the new year but im feeling awfully anxious

i look back on my lack of accomplishments in 2024 and i genuinely hate how i simply lost the last six months of my life to grief. i don't remember much in recent history other than frustration, feeling trapped, and a distinct sense of disappointment with myself for failing to accomplish anything of note in my professional life and regressing in my social life

in the past six months alone i was dumped by a partner id known for nearly six years, ended a close friendship with someone who suddenly started verbally harrassing me, moved apartments, worked 6-7 days a week with a 1hr commute both ways at a job that eventually laid me off, found out my grandfather was diagnosed with cancer, was told of potential divorce by my mother...

i haven't found another full time job yet, despite having had searched actively for something that would pay me a liveable wage for the better part of three months. so there's that too, i guess

i started working out again but entirely for the wrong reasons. i cant look at myself in the mirror without feeling like taking a knife to my body and scraping all of my flesh off

i didnt read as many books as i wanted to

my issues with eating got so much worse. if i dont pay attention i under eat. if i pay attention i feel disgusting for eating more than 1k calories a day

to be honest things were already pretty difficult to begin with in 2024; it was my friendships and relationship that made things bearable. after i got dumped, the future i had believed in and worked towards was taken away from me, and in hindsight i guess i totally fucking lost it from that point onwards. because now whats the point of all this suffering and stress if its not even going to get me towards something i want in the end

to this day when i interact with content of happy couples- written works, pictures, drawings, anything- it ruins my mood. even ship content of characters in media i enjoy makes me feel unhappy and as a kid who grew up in 2010s fandom culture that really, really fucking sucks

i don't know. thinking of houses, a cupboard for mugs, shared holidays and marriage makes me irrationally upset. i cant look at the colors pink and green together anymore, either

i now have commitment and trust issues to top it all off. and lets not even get into my complicated relationship with physical intimacy, good grief

beyond all that, i am resentful. i can't believe they would do something like that to me. i knew deep down that they'd never once prioritize our relationship over their family but like a fool i chose to believe in them anyway. look where that got me

but beneath that still, i understand. and i hate that part of myself the most, the part that cannot trust them any longer and yet loves them still. a scorned lover, sure, but one who loves nonetheless. the days i dont think of them at all are slowly becoming more and more frequent. all five of my senses still remember them. i don't know how to feel about that. what was that saying about love and grief? maybe ill stop loving once i stop grieving

ive considered dating apps, becoming a discord kitten for real, anything to fill the gap. but these ideas never make it past the confines of my mind because any sort of vulnerability on an intimate level makes me feel like dying on the best of days, so buying cute clothes it is

but, hey. i always had my nails done this year and saved up a little bit of money

i hope i survive 2025

[fuchsea]

hiii it’s me again, sorry i vanished, got caught up in christmas things. now it’s the day after christmas so i’m back 😅 it was lovely, i got some very nice gifts !! including some fancy perfume i wanted, a red panda plushie (my fav animal), a projector, and a massage voucher which i have been dyingggg forrrr. how have ur last few days been?

yeahh we’re not too different in age but we’re very different people lol. had a bit of a crisis last night that i’m gonna be 27 this coming year that i forgot my half birthday isn’t until january 1st which means im still 26 for over half a year…. but that’s what my anxiety does unfortunately. i’m rly trying to just enjoy where i am and not care how old i am yk? i feel more like a teenager now than when i was a teenager! just figuring everything out for the first time.

waittt the kpop choreo with bollywood music sounds sick?? what’s the account name? yeah the production level is crazy it blew me away when i first got into kpop. there are 5 ppl in txt! they’re a super easy band to get into imo! one of my fav groups (seventeen) has 13 members lol a lot more to catch up with. still, once u get into kpop for the first time, it’s rly easy to learn everything about new groups rly quickly. i loveeee bts but i totally understand, esp as they got so popular, getting into the fandom part is hard sometimes. (fun fact txt are actually bts’ juniors in their company!) i still don’t rly have many friends who are into kpop, and my kpop blog has almost no followers. getting into a new fandom in general is hard! but i’m actually not exaggerating when i say, for me personally, getting into kpop as a whole thing is one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. ik that sounds dramatic and it’s not for everyone but it’s true for me! if u wanna start easy on some good easy songs my top 5 would be:

lo$er=lover,

devil by the window,

farewell neverland,

frost,

opening sequence,

if you do give them a shot, i highly recommend the music videos or performance videos instead of just the song!

yeah i think so too. ^-^ my name isn’t similar to my url and u don’t follow me as far as i’m aware, so i can tell u my name if u waaant! and ok fun fact, my parents wanted to name me grace, but then my first and last names would’ve rhymed. so they gave me a name that MEANS grace, but then spelled it differently?? and it’s also japanese (tho i am not), and my middle name has two meanings. so technicallyyyy they wanted my name to mean “grace from the heavenly ocean” but it actually ended up meaning “flower of the sea and sky”

i’ve never been into hard liquor but i used to get drunk on white wine and peach juice a lot. or maybe a white wine spritzer. maybe a white claw or two but usually just wine. when i was like 19/20 (yea underage but just at home or when i was house sitting) as it only took like a glass or two for me to be drunk lolll and drunk for me just meant like….. crying over movies and getting rly flirty and silly and dumb. and then i got a little older and was like oooookay enough of that. u don’t like clubs ur not social u just drink alone in ur room reading so why don’t u just have tea instead. so i switched to tea, then lost my taste for alcohol. (also got very very drunk on halloween while my friend was visiting and was like alr never drinking again!). wine made me soooo sleepy tho and like a few months ago i had half a glass of wine for the first time in ages and immediately fell asleep on the couch for an hour lmao.

my fav pizza topping is pineapple! yes i’m that bitch. i think it goes perfectly. or mushroom, depending on my mood. and i lovveee the heart shaped pasta! i have it every year on valentine’s day. we actually buy shaped pasta for every holiday, a week ago or so we had snowflake shaped pasta! can u not get it where u are?

honestly i don’t remember everything we had, my mom ordered it all. i know we had chicken tikka masala, butter chicken, palak paneer, some sort of veg curry thing? lots of naan….. a couple other things i don’t rly remember what they were sorry. i’ve liked every indian dish i’ve ever tried tho!

yessss well spanish is our official second language, there are a loooot of spanish speakers here, and there were a lot when i grew up on the west coast bc we border mexico. so california has a lot of mexicans. i would be so anxious moving to a country where i didn’t speak their language well, im so impressed by immigrants that come to the states and anyone who moves somewhere like that! it must be soooo hard.

yesss we’re very close, and i’ll def send pics of stuff off anon! and pls, we joke all the time that my family is SO similar to the dunphys lol. i did dress up for halloween! i was like a dark fairy. i’ll tell u my ig after and u can see the costume if u want ^-^ it snowed where i USED to live, and hopefully i’ll move again soon to where it snows again, but rn i live somewhere hot and i hate it. my dog’s name is oliver! very basic unfortunately i was not in charge of the name lol but oli suits him too. do u have any pets? christmas tree farms and pumpkin patches are so funnn, if u ever visit the states during holiday season i will take u to do those things u can tag along with the modern family gang lol

ooo i would enjoy working at an ice rink! i love being in there. i’d be annoyed stuck working when i wanna skate tho ngl.

there’s a big chinese new year festival here in a couple of weeks im excited for!! i would lovveee to go to some indian holiday festivals too, they always look so so festive and fun! i do not have a partner, i have been single my whole life, which rly adds to my yearning writer vibes lol. i spend valentine’s day with my family and we get each other gifts, my mom gets rly into EVERY holiday so we decorate and get themed foods and treats, and then later my parents go out to dinner and my sister and i have a self care night.

for italian food in boston, i always get a margherita pizza and just like pasta pomodoro, but last time i had a pizza with goat cheese and caramelised onion

and arugula and it was absolutely incredible. i also have a lot of cannolis and tiramisu :P i go to boston every so often, it’s actually a small possibility i will move there this year? but im not 100% that’s happening yet so im trying not to get my hopes up too much. it’s very cool there tho one of my fav places.

i feel like i’m doing all the talking when i should be asking u questions !! what’s smth good that happened to u this week? anything ur looking forward to? only a week until i reveal my identity! tho i have a feeling u already know who it is based on smth that i know 👀

happy thursday hehe ❄️

hiiiii hellooo sorry for the late reply x

i knew how big christmas is for u so i assumed u were having a lovely time with ur family! very pleased to hear that it went lovely! how was watching the holiday this year? 👀 ooh i love perfumes, do u have a signature perfume/scent that u always use or are u more the experimental kind? i love love love plushies and i demand a picture when u are off anon <3 just today i went and got myself a blue penguin. i saw her last week and was contemplating whether to bring her home and today i finally said fuck it i'm getting her and i was SO lucky because it was the last blue one in that size so here u go say hello to zula 💙

i feel u so much about the age thing because it hit me out of nowhere when i was 23 and i just felt too much™ about being 23. like just a complex web of untangled emotions and i couldn't believe i was 23. turning 21 in the pandemic really did a number on me huh 😬 and 24 came with a very settled feeling of how i just can not wait for my 30s like i'm looking forward to it SO much. am i right to assume that ur birthday is june 1st? 👀 my sister's birthday is in june too!

it genuinely is so funny that account because it mashes up all the popular bollywood songs to really good kpop choreos. i remember seeing some with bts on there! i found two videos here and here both songs are very popular in india! i think i remember my sister explaining to me how the kpop industry works. correct me if i'm work, but it's usually these entertainment companies that aspiring artists register to and go through rigourous training before getting put together as a band right? a friend of mine who is a bts fan explained to me how there's different lines based on the vocal skills within a band! oh my god 13 members sounds like a lot 😭 i would need so much time to be able to recognise and differentiate each member but doesn't it make the music very chaotic with the vocals? i think i have an odd mutual or two who's into kpop but i'm completely blanking on who rn 😭 honestly it doesn't sound dramatic at all because i completely get the feeling (i'm a 1d girlie after all 😬) and i love how music has this ability to intertwine with ur life! ooh i love the song titles that u mentioned i'll definitely check them out and get back to u 👀 have u been able to pick up on korean since getting into kpop?

i love how ur parents put so much thought into naming u and came up with a creative name because flower of the sea and sky sounds! so! amazing! i was just talking to my mum last night about baby names because we have naming ceremony coming up in our family and i asked my mum whether they gave that much thought into naming me and my sister and she was like nope 😬 although! i have never met a single person with my name so that's a win for me <3

yeah i only just started drinking this year and i really like some gins and ciders but i can never become a beer person 🫡 i love how u are saying 19/20 is underage because in india technically 21 is the legal drinking age but everyone starts drinking wayyy before that and in the uk it's 16 😭 i've never really gotten drunk and from everyone's experiences i don't intend to either. i get u about wine making u sleepy though because whenever i have had alcohol i get so sleepy too! what's ur favourite tea? do u like herbal ones?

i have actually never tried pineapple on pizza but i'm surprised by how many of my friends actually do like it. i'm in general not a pineapple fan though :( and i'm a mushroom hater (i also found out im allergic in the weirdest possible way 😬) but my go to toppings are onions, peppers, jalapenos and olives! snowflake pasta oh my god that is so cute!! pls send me a picture if u have one <3 i actually haven't looked around for different shapes of pasta yet so i'm gonna do that next time im out grocery shopping!

all of those dishes are definitely india's popular ones so u definitely had some of the best ones and im so glad to hear u liked it!!! i know u mentioned tea so if u get a chance u should definitely try masala chai!

i actually didn't know that spanish is the official second language! i'm only just learning spanish now and i'm honestly so glad that the people here have been so warm and welcoming towards me while i learn a whole new language!

exactly u guys sound so much like the dunphys and i love that for u!! ooh a dark fairy! was it inspired by any of ur favourite characters or was it an original outfit? and yes i'd love to be besties on insta too 💖

oh u missed snow this year :( here's me manifesting snow for u next year with snowflake pasta and soup 💖 oliver is a cute name i like it!! say hello to oli from me 💙

i don't have any pets yet but i do intend to adopt cat by 2027 so let's see how that goes 🫡 i would looveee to join u guys for all the fun festive activities it sounds so warm and filled with joy <3 working at the ice rink was fun but listening to the same christmas playlist made me go insane 😬

ah very excited for the chinese festival! let me know how it goes! and honestly u should see at least one of our festivals because we are very loud celebrators 🫣 god i feel u on the yearning because it's been too long™ for me too, i've always been single and i better get a girlfriend in 2025 because what is this 😭 i loveeee ur valentines celebration tradition because it is filled with so much love!

honestly pomodoro goes really hard and omg i love goat's cheese and caramelised onion and especially if it's a thin crust pizza with some rockets on it, it's so so good! i tried cannolis once and i didn't much like it🫣 but i do loveeee tiramisu!

i'm actually hearing so much praise about boston recently that i want to visit it now! seed wrote about boston so fondly and noah kahan also loves boston and now u are mentioning moving there! manifesting it so so much for u! does it snow in boston?

oh no u are not doing too much talking, this is definitely a two way street and i love chatting to u too! i went to get some clothes and then of course i got zula the blue penguin so i'm very happy about that! i'm getting a laptop for my sister and we finally managed to select one and my parents should be getting it by tomorrow so very excited for her!

also oh my god my perception of time is so off rn thank u for reminding me that we're supposed to reveal ourselves soon because otherwise i'd just continue to yap on anon (and hehe i do think i know who u are and i kinda figured it out around ur second message itself 👀)

hope u had a very lovely weekend and hope ur new years celebrations are filled with joy 💖

[castlebyersafterdark]

ok, on a genuine note, i've been coming here and enjoying the spice level of your blog for several months. obviously youre catering to an audience here, as are other spicy blogs, but i genuinely have to ask - as someone who doesnt seem to have such a high sex drive as you but is still very very into the whole romance and excitement of spicy byler - how do you cope on a daily basis haha

i mean this blog, obv, but you have implied that you as a person outside of spicy byler etc have also this sort of high libido etc. i mean, you've got your man but overall in your life, before him and maybe during dry spells - talking to others here who may relate, too - doesnt it get exhausting lol?

ive been big into romance as part of stories since i was a teen but the sexuality aspect of it, and leaning into that as a need and a drive, exploring that part of myself, is quite new to me. i realise im really not as high libido as many people especially in this fandom. i get that may seem sad to some but really it just feels like im kind of... more in control of what i get to do, especially compared to certain times (of the month lmao) when i am super horny and its literally so tiring when everything reminds you of sex haha

so im just wondering for people with high sex drives, do you ever get exhausted being constantly horny lmao. and how do you focus at work/when other important things need doing lol

all love! just curious. cos its a physical feeling as much as emotional so its not as simple as like... me sating my need for romance by reading or dreaming etc.

Friend, are you calling me a slut?? The AUDACITY! Wellllllll. 😉🤭 JOKING!! SAID WITH LOVE NO WORRIES!!

I feel like this is a perfect example of hmmm to overshare or not to overshare - well, I'm utilizing a cut here so what do we think. Personal insights below:

To be fair - I'm not walking around 24/7 only thinking about either this show or pairing or sex in general hahahaha. Yeah, that would be exhausting and a little crazy! Maybe some do! No shade! It's just very concentrated here - you are spot on. There's a theme and a catered interest here so that's what we all see. Just like I often say about the celebrities we follow on social media - we see about 5% of a life, if that. Same with bloggers!! Why I kind of have been embracing talking about some non-spicy Byler things here too, because I decided not strictly adhering to a very tiny niche of content is more relaxing and if people no longer want to hang out - so be it!! But, yes. This blog does serves as a concentration of that topic.

But it is very true what I've said previously, to speak very frankly here on out on this post - I do have a pretty high sex drive. I'm very open about that! Because in the wake of a world careening towards repression and shame, no thanks. There's nothing wrong with having a healthy relationship with pleasure and sex. It's a major part of my life. Just is. Everyone's different. I cope by not really denying that or feeling ashamed by any of it? Sex and pleasure and love and beauty and happiness. I want to live my life surrounded by good things and those are good things to me.

Having a high libido is - well it's convenient being in a loving long term relationship, thaaaaat's for sure. HA. Yeah 😏 I definitely had fun when I was single/dating around, but I wasn't totally indiscriminate. It wasn't constant. Again, as always, no shade - but I've heard of guys who get body counts in the hundreds per year. To me, that sounds ridiculous and exhausting. But I know that happens! Human sexuality is a spectrum in so many ways. Sex drive is yet another. As long as sex is safe and consensual - hell yeah. Have at it.

Sure there are times when you're struck buy a mood and nothing else occupies your mind. Other things can have the same affects on your day to day as well. Hunger or depression or addiction or obsession can also completely take over the brain the same as a want for pleasure. Is the hyper focus and need healthy? There's the key. Honestly, there's nothing wrong with thinking about sex a lot or being super horny often. But like anything - how is it affecting your life? What is positively fulfilling and what is being neglected? There's also nothing wrong with never or rarely needing / thinking about it, to balance the truth.

On the flip side - the romance, ahhh the romance. Why is it that I'm personally so enamored with fandom? Storytelling and an outlet for my incredibly overactive imagination, yes, but gosh the romance. Hopeless romantic, for sure. But romance for me is also tied up in sex, that's just how it is. I'm someone who liked to have fun, chase a feeling, get off. I've hooked up with strangers. I've fooled around with friends and gone on like it was nothing afterwards. I've done things and fallen desperately head over heels and let it negatively affect me. I had certain things I'd only do with those I had genuine feelings for. ~Romance~ and sex in conjunction. But, this is just how I am. Can't explain it. I'm a physical guy, to some maybe a little over indulgent, but I've grown to have a healthy view. Pleasure and joy and love. All positives for me. I might go so far as to say it would be more exhausting repressing and denying how I truly feel and what I want!

It's all so personal and we can imagine our hypothetical needs and interest bars like the stats screen in something like the sims. Maybe someone's sex drive bar stays green fairly longer or barely budges and someone like me has one that depletes a lot quicker. That's life!!

Unless this was intended to just be a ploy to get me to talk about and detail various sexcapades well..... maybe in the future 🤭🤭

[m1ckeyb3rry]

I agree, there's something about the Itoshi's that I cannot get my finger into. I tried, and it was a failed attempt. Heck, I watched Blue Lock because of Sae (because he shares the same VA as Geto Suguru). But I am slowly getting into the reading of their character and that's about it.

Also, now it made more sense why our boi Karasu is in Shidou's system, the man (Shidou) just wanna play soccer. Karasu went "naah Rin, ya moody son of a bitch bye" (internal Karasu: his mood swings are far worse than Otoya).

Okay, I call this segment tea time with Jeirin lol

And this is where it hit me in different ways. And I've decided it's definitely like a 'how you been, how you doing in the past few years' but never revisit old feelings trope because you were just kids, you wouldn't have a clue what to do and where things will head from that moment on.

Heck, I remember my first crush well too, his name is Andrei, also the smartest in my class. Got in touch in socials, never once talked. Scenario 1.

Got in touch with a classmate of mine from when we were in primary school. we liked each other but we never got together, but we're still friends. But every now and then we tease each other about our shared history and how we liked each other, and that's about it. Scenario 2.

The thing that left an impact to me and why I cannot so brush this off, I was 'seeing' someone (ex-best friend, yes, I 'saw' best friend but we didn't end up together for various reasons) who also can remember his first crush well, I will name her Lyra. It's been years too since my ex-best friend and his first crush saw each other, and they reunited on his like 17th birthday (or something like that). They got in touch and Lyra confessed to have liked him since they were kids too, and so did he. My ex-best friend ended up dating her for I don't know until when (I heard they broke up eventually and wanted to win me back, but it was too late). Scenario 3.

But so far, scenario 3 is rare but also, surprised that they didn't work out either. Moral of the story, people grow up lol

Just the whole notion of first love/first crush is a-whole-nother sequence of angst to me. You can always get over your first crush easily, but your first love is something different but also, don't be too hard on yourself. There's plenty of people out there. (I had an explanation/probability of this in the AOT fandom and I will not revisit it because it's yea we know how that fandom's like).

That explains why I was so angsty the other day lol sigh, Karasu this is your fault 😂 im kidding.

i actually started blue lock because of a rin edit LMAOAO and then promptly proceeded to…not like rin…actually that’s a lie i don’t really mind him and i acknowledge that he’s pretty and also kinda funny at times but i wouldn’t say he’s one of my favs by any means

HAHA also to be fair rin is like barely 16 and karasu + shidou are both 18 and their birthdays are only really a month apart?? so there’s also probably an age thing there where karasu and shidou can just relate to each other better and consider each other equals whereas rin is younger and given that both of them lowkey have asshole tendencies they’re def like “haha okay kiddo whatever you say” and then side eye each other when rin is being all dramatic 😭 honestly karasu + shidou as besties in pxg is my fav headcanon i think they would be hilarious together…so much potential for being menaces

TEA TIME W JEIRIN OKAY I AM SEATED ☕️ and yesss i def agree w that perspective i think it’s a natural part of growing up and maturing!!

SCENARIO THREE IS BRUTAL WTF 😭😭😭 omg i am so sorry that’s actually the worst 😕💔 but yes sometimes people just aren’t meant to be…the way he realized what he was missing out on though and tried to come back as if you wouldn’t move 😒 the audacity fr…HAHA but agreed i think there’s also a lot of societal emphasis on FIRST kiss, FIRST bf/gf, etc, so people tend to romanticize and idealize those connections in their minds a ton when it’s really not like that…there’s so many people in the world!! like is a boy from your elementary school necessarily the one for you?? maybe not!! and especially as people change and grow and whatnot…even my best friends from back then who i’m still friends with are nowhere near as close as the friends i’ve made now because we’re all different and at different life stages so it stands to reason that it’s the same romantically

the aot fandom is genuinely horrific bro i was in the trenches with attack on titan (originally an eren stan here) but so many people in the fandom are like kind of insane, have no media literacy/reading comprehension, and are WAYYY too cool w excusing genocide 😭 as much as i once loved it idk if i could ever go back to it 😓

HAHA karasu inspiring angst 🤩 we love him for that fr (<- saying this as an angst enjoyer in fiction ofc not as someone wishing angst upon you irl 😩)

[love-fireflysong]

OH DEAR HI I'm the anon from before HII!!

Thank you so much for reading my message, it literally made my day!!

First of all NOO THE SUITCASE?? I hope you get it back soon, that sucks 😭

For the Outlast AU, girl I read the newest chapter the second it came out, and oh boy was I screeching LMAO

I was actually kinda worried since it had been a while since the last fic and I was worried you had paused writing, but then it was THERE, and it was ASHLEY POV AGAIN AUGH (Ash is my favorite UD character LMAO)

So thoughts, where do I even begin???? I'm gonna add some of my favorite lines that I just love a lot LOL

''All because it was actually his voice. It wasn't an electronic facsimile screaming and sobbing desperately through a bluetooth earbud, and it certainly wasn't her own voice weaving his actual words through the folds of her brain during the private late night conversations the three of them hadn't been able to enjoy for almost three weeks now. It was him''

Girl I am crying already O[-[

It's so heartbreaking reading about their separation and now that it's so close for them I just wanna SCREAM

''All of which she knew because Ashley had been the one to turn that once alive inmate into a bloody, mangled corpse herself. All for the crime of them simply being the last thing that stood between her and the door that kept her from Chris and Josh.

''Ash can murder a little bit, as a treat /J

GO GIRL GO GET YOUR BOYS.

''Has her name always sounded like this? Like it had been created solely to be spoken in his voice, said like it was something holy—like she was holy?''

God I keep coming back to this line, it's just. Perfection. It's so darn good.

''Forcing himself to push off of the wall and continue his hurried stumble down the stairs, steadfastly ignoring the bright, sticky handprints that he had left in his wake. (Though really, Ashley can't help but think, what is one more mark of blood in a place that is already saturated in it.)

''I just really like this line, it's chilling!

"Okay, I gotta get this off my chest, but whoever the hell it was that suggested the couple's retreat to the insane asylum is officially being kicked out of the polycule."

SJSHSJK what would we do without our Chrissy 😭 Always gotta lighten the mood!

Also just the entire last paragraph... girl my heart is on the floor, it is in pieces, I am crying

Their reunion was just so heartwarming and with every second it took for them to see each other, I just kept waiting for the rug to be swept out from my under feet and for the angst to kick in, but NOT THIS TIME!! THEY'RE TOGETHER!!

God the way they just look at each other, taking in how much (or how little) they've changed O[-[

I don't know if half of this makes sense, I'm just rambling LMAOO

Seriously though, you deserve only the highest praise, I genuinely loved this fic, and I am eagerly waiting to inhale the next parts!!!!!

There's so much more I want to share, buy AUGH WORDS

Also writing Chrissy like that reminded me of a dream I had once I first discovered the Fandom. I think it was a text post that was like ''If Chris kissed Ashley, could he say he Chrissed her?'' and I got so mad about it I woke up LMAOOO

AAAAAHHHHHHH IM SO GLAD THAT YOU ENJOYED IT!!!!!!

(I will say though that the fact that this is another Ashley POV addition is just chance, once I actually stop working on these """"snippets"""" the plan is that the viewpoints will switch between the three of them so I hope that this doesn't deter you any on future stories for this universe askdaksldsaj)

You would not believe how much fun I had writing literally any of the parts where they were all basically close enough to touch but still so far apart that anything could happen to prevent the reunions. Pining in a completely different sense of the word there: a nice fun, obsessive, desperate pining where they're willing to do whatever and kill whoever it takes as long as they're back together. They can ALL do some murder, as a treat <3 They deserve that much I think lmao

And man, that whole name scene? From the very beginning I knew that Chris was gonna (unintentionally) distract her with her name until she couldn't take it anymore and finally interrupt him. But that whole 'holy' line? Yeah that one came out of left field for even me alskdjlaksjd Vividly remembering writing that bit and going 'oh shit, that's fucking good I am so good at this shit'... before immediately tearing out my hair for the next and calling myself a fraud probably not even thirty seconds later SDFKLJSDFJ

And that whole 'kicked out of the polycule' line? That was the one single line I had had planned out since I started writing this one like two years ago. And yet, the line had originally been a JOSH line. Delivered flatly and sarcastically and all. But when I finally got to writing that last scene in question, I started second guessing myself and wondered if it was a Chris line instead. In the end, the only reason I went with the Chris-delivery though was simply because I liked how bittersweet it would be if the line was met with not a short and tired snort, but the first time any of them had a chance for some genuine full-bodied laughter before the tears finally came on once the reality hit.

(Also, if do end up doing something with the whole "If Chris kissed Ashley, could he say he Chrissed her?" dream line than you have only yourself to blame. Gonna make you rage quit in the beginning of a fic if your not careful ;P)

[fandomanimatic-tournament]

Fandom song animatic tournament: Bracket 2 Side A Round 2

Crush - Tessa Violet

"I can't focus on what needs to get done I'm on notice hoping that you don't run, ah You think I'm tepid but I'm misdiagnosed 'Cause I'm a stalker I seen all of your posts, ah-ah"

My Ordinary Life - The Living Tombstone

"Stayin' still, eyes closed Let the world just pass me by Pain pills, nice clothes If I fall, I think I'll fly Touch me, Midas Make me part of your design None to guide us I feel fear for the very last time"

Remember that we're voting on how Iconic they are for ANIMATICS, not for the song itself. In order to make things fair, the tone and mood of the song should not affect how iconic it is (for example, a serious song should not be considered more iconic than a joke song just because it's serious)

Propaganda and animatic links of the songs under the cut:

Crush - Tessa Violet

Propaganda:

I swear that at some point(I think it was 2019) there were a million animatics with this song. That's how I found this song and I genuinely like it, I'm pretty sure it's still one of the most listened to songs on my spotify acc history or was up until recently

not only is the song an absolute banger, it is also incredibly sweet and the vibes are simply immaculate. if you want to watch fluffy flustered love, this is the way to go, i love love and i also love crush by tessa violet animatics, both of which happen to be the same thing

Animatics with the song:

BNHA Tododeku

The OWl House Lumity

MDZS WangXian

BNHA Erasermight

Miraculous Ladybug

My Ordinary Life - The Living Tombstone

Propaganda:

Good for good turned evil etc yknow im so tired dude i

I love characters with god complexes so so so much

Such a vibe but so angsty at the same time "It hurts me just to think and I don't do pain" hits different when your sensory overload and/or burnout is kicking in

Animatics with the song:

MDZS Mo Xuan Yu

Deltarune Spamton

DSMP

Land Of The Lustrous

Deltarune Spamton

Please be cautious and read the title, description and warning cards on the animatic videos if you decide to watch them. If you've got specific triggers I'd recommend even more caution when watching animatics of fandoms you don't know, since sometimes canon-typical themes don't get warnings.

[dread-red-queen]

some questions for writers

tagged by @fereldanwench

Last book I read: I honestly can not remember the last time I sat down and just read a book, I do enjoy reading dont get me wrong but I just have not found a book that I want to read recently, I did used to really love the Anita Blake Vampire Hunter Series by Laurell K. Hamilton

Greatest literary inspirations:  not really sure If im honest I'm more inspired by tropes and situations my brain randomly comes up with that are probably not as random as I think they are.

Things in my current fandom I want to read but I don't want to write: I'm not really sure, I tend to love reading what I also enjoy writing which is usually gritty angst, romance, alternative universes, sacerin sweet romance or spicy romance full of passion, or just spicy in general I love the trope of two characters just being so in love or in lust with eachother trying to resist giving in only to do just that when the other looks at them, that sort of thing I dunno.

Things in my current fandoms I want to write but I think nobody would be interested in them but me: more fic focusing on my OC Raven and her softer side or just exploring her past and stuff, I wanna share my baby, but I know when its not about main characters in a fandom or at least have them feature in it, that might not be everyone's cup of tea

You can recognise my writing by: I tend to really like writing spicy content, I think my plots are ok Ish. I'm sure not everyone likes my plots as much as I do but I have fun writing them and I share them in case someone else might also enjoy them

My most controversial take (current fandom): I dont really think I have any "controversial" takes, but I will say I really dislike the use of the word C*nt in regards to describing lady parts in romance scenes especially if up until the use of the word the scene has been so sweet ,tender with beautiful wording. I personal just find the word a bit to vulgar for romance, I dont mind using the word if describing someone horrible but yeh I guesse some might consider that a controversial or hot take *shrugs*

Top three favourite tropes: 

stuck in close proximity like trapped in a tight space and being hyper aware of the others body.

kissing to distract, get through to someone or to avoid getting caught by guards

enemy's to friends to lovers is also one of my favourites

What’s your current writing mood about a 5 I'm trying to wrap up my latest fic Present & Future, I got my ending written as inspiration randomly struck me the other day but im struggling to get to that ending, I dont normally write fics out of sequence but I was on a roll and got carried away. now I'm wondering if I have set myself up to not finish the story at all haha

Share a random frustration: I'm currently in the process of packing to move house, My husband serves in the military so we have some work we need to do to the house before we leave and I think my husband is being a bit paranoid on just how much work we need to do, considering we are paying a cleaner to make sure the house is perfect for march out. I'm like why am I on my hands an knees scrubbing when I'm going to pay for a cleaner to do it XD

tagging but no pressure XD @breezypunk @severemiraclefest