#i go crazy for him and honestly. i am rly very excited to see where this interaction goes. because like.. they are Not so different on pape
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soulscursed Ā· 7 months ago
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to say that the whole professor affair has left a rather sour taste in Barok's mouth would be an understatement. But as of late, he has done his very best to think as little of it as possible. This cannot be healthy, he realises, but it is all he can do to compensate for days and weeks following the Reaper trial, when he had done nothing but think of it.
(Ā Of his brother, Klint... of the lives that Klint had taken and the lives that Klint had destroyed, even in death. Barok among his victims.Ā )
It's a task made difficult by Enoch Drebber's presence and by the reminder of recent events at the Great Exhibition, and of the decade old tragedy that those events had in turn unveiled. Barok has no fondness, either, for the way Drebber speaks his old friend's name.
ā›Ā Well,Ā āœ says Barok curtly, though there is little reason to entertain the scientist. After all, Drebber is more than a simple graverobber and a criminal, despite the fact that he has few valid academic credentials to his name.
(Ā ... though, in retrospect, that was a matter far beyond the man's control. Was he not, too, a victim of Klint's madness?Ā )
Still, there is a slew of questions left unanswered. Barok straightens to his full height ā€” though it's not much more, given the consistently near-perfect posture with which he conducts himself in all things ā€” and fixes Drebber with a sharp, calculating stare.
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(Ā He pointedly does not think of the night in the graveyard. Of that wretched wax sculpture, or of Genshin Asogi's hand splayed out towards the man who had unearthed him from his grave ā€” reaching out not with malice, but in hopes of long-awaited salvation. And of hope stolen away in a flash by the hand of his own fellow countryman... all of it puppeted by a mentor that Barok was foolish enough to have trusted with his life.Ā )
ā›Ā You will have to forgive me the discourtesy of being so blunt, Mr Drebber ā€” but last I remember, you were being held and awaiting trial for murder.Ā āœ Spoken brusquely, perhaps even more than usual for a man ruthless enough to be christened Grim Reaper of the Old Bailey.
What plays on his mind now is the safety of his old friend. Abroad, he had believed Albert safe there from the influences of the real Reaper ā€” though, of course, Mael Stronghart hadn't any real interest in Harebrayne. But Barok could not guarantee Albert's safety in Germany when it came to a man who had stopped at nothing to avenge himself, and to avenge a career and a life ruined.
His purpose fulfilled, Drebber would have ordinarily been little cause for concern... but there was the matter of failing to get away with it. It was Albert that Drebber had intended to pin for his crime. There's no immediate sign that Drebber holds a grudge of any sort, but Barok finds it difficult to trust a man who has been so nonchalant in taking and endangering others' lives for the sake of his vendetta.
The fact that Drebber stands before him now should be of some comfort. Better than having slipped away without a trace to board a train to Germany. But it wasn't Albert alone who could be in danger, was it?
After all ā€” it was Ryunosuke Naruhodo who had gotten in Drebber's way. Naruhodo who had upturned the trial in his typically absurd manner. Naruhodo who had saved an innocent life that Drebber had so cleverly offered up in place of his own. Naruhodo, to whom Barok owed his eternal gratitude for defending his dear friend... and Naruhodo, who had gone on to save Barok's life.
It was only natural, then: to desire to guard Ryunosuke Naruhodo's life in any way that he could.
Barok van Zieks is an intriguing man.
Enoch has heard the news. The truth of the professor case, finally revealed to the world... it makes him want to laugh, to think about how it's all come out now - too late for Enoch, who nobody ever had ever believed; who had had his future taken away cruelly and abruptly as a result, because if there's one thing that this world is - it's unfair.
It does strike him as ironic, how they've both had their lives ruined by the same incident - though for very different reasons. If he were to try, maybe he could even muster up some sympathy for the man... as someone who's also been exposed to the unfair judgement of society, and who sees the world for what it is - a farce.
But instead, van Zieks... irritates him somehow. Maybe it's because he still seems to care about justice in this world so devoid of it. Though it's not like Enoch knows the man at all, so it might be that deep down, Barok is just as selfish as the rest of them, and he doesn't truly believe in justice at all. Who can say?
What the prosecutor is here for now, Enoch has no idea. But there's one thing he has to ask - even if it makes him feel sick to think of it, and he hates the feelings that stir inside him as a result.
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"That mockery of a scientist... Albert Harebrayne. Tell me. How does he fare?" That's what he asks, but... looking at Enoch's face, it's difficult to tell whether or not he truly cares about the answer.
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endwalkr Ā· 5 years ago
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this is an ask based thingy but im really in the mood to infodump so im just gonna answer them all under the cut !
Favorite video game?
starting off with the absolute hardest question huh? i canā€™t possibly name ONE favorite game of mine because i adore my favorites for many different reasons. my overall favorite video game is ffxv or botw. ffxv because it has brought me so much joy for such a long time, and because i have such a connection with the characters. botw because i was actually in the fandom when it first got announced in 2016 so i got to be there when the hype was at an all time highā€“ and finally being able to play the game after waiting for so long was an unforgettable experience. i have more favorite games but ill talk more about them in theĀ ā€˜ā€™special place in ur heartā€™ā€™ question.
First console you owned?
my first console wasnā€™t a console. my friend and i used to play on her nintendo dsi all the time and at one point tiny little me reeeally wanted one of my own so i saved up and got one in [redacted] when i was 7. my first actual console was a wii though, we got that around the same time.
A game that holds a special place in your heart?
ffxv and botw mean the absolute world to me, but super mario galaxy and skyward sword are very important to me too. skyward sword is the game that got me into zelda which got me into anime which got me into final fantasy etc etc etc.Ā  super mario galaxy was the first non-mini game collection and more adventure story-ish game i played. i was so proud when i beat it for the first time and mario was my first everĀ ā€˜ā€™fandomā€™ā€™ :ā€™)Ā 
Favorite video game character?
bro. i cant pick just one so iā€™ll choose one per game : prompto, ryuji and link. they were all my comfort characters at some point and i projected like crazy onto them. this doesnt mean that i wouldnt absolutely die for noct or zelda.Ā 
Least favorite video game character?
i dont think theres anyone i distinctly dislike? i always talk about hating ardyn but thatā€™s because heā€™s just a salty bitch. as a character i think heā€™s a great villain and i rly love him. i honestly always end up liking everyone somehow, maybe there is someone i just forgot about but i cant remember at all.Ā 
Favorite genre?
adventure games, or action rpgs.Ā 
Video game character youā€™ve had a crush on?
every character ever, but i distinctly remember the moment i fell in love with prompto sjghfkshd i was watching a playthrough of xv in december 2016 because i didnt have a ps4, and the guy got to the scene in galdin quay where the bros learn insomnia fell. i had watched about 6 hours of the game by that time and wasnā€™t particularly interested in the characters but not uninterested enough to drop it. i hadnt even gotten a good look at the characters faces yet, so when the camera zoomed in on prompto when he saidĀ ā€˜ā€™might not be save for us here!ā€™ā€™ i noticed he had freckles. oh god. oh fuck. oh my god hes fucking cute. oh my god better watch 30 hours of this game now
First video game you remember playing?
wayyy before i got my own gaming systems, my then-best friend had a gamecube in her attic. i was around 5 or 6 at the time. whenever i was over at her house and we didnt know what to do, sheā€™d sometimes propose to playĀ ā€˜ā€™mario kartā€™ā€™. important is that we are dutch, and i was a literal child. i thought mario KART meant it was a fucking card game, so i always declined whenever she asked. on one fateful day, i finally gave in and was pleasantly surprised it was in fact not a card game, but a viddy game. so we played mario kart double dash. (ā€¦i had never played a video game in my life besides browser flash games and was Very Very bad)
Age you started gaming?
so i played my first video game that i didnt own when i was about 5 or 6. then i got my first supply of games at age 7/8, but i dont really consider that time to be when i startedĀ ā€˜ā€™gamingā€™ā€™. iā€™d say that was when i started mario galaxy, so iā€™ve been playing video games for real (ie. story adventure games with boss battles) for about 6 years now.
Hardest video game youā€™ve played?
this is gonna sound stupid, but the witcher 3. thereā€™s like 7 difficulties and i played on the EASIEST and still had a hard time, i just couldnt get used to the combat. i had the same problem with assassinā€™s creed syndicate, but after about 10 hours i actually knew what i was doing, and ive played the witcher longer than that and still am clueless. this is kind of an unpopular opinion but i dont particularly like that game
Video game youā€™ve spent the most time on?
i guess i am what youā€™d call a casual gamer; i really like video games but during a normal school week i only game for like 2-6 hours. most of the time i dont play for like 2 weeks if im busy. gaming has kind of taken over my life not because i play so much but because i get so emotionally invested lol iā€™m currently on summer break and even now im not playing a lot because of exhaustion and executive dysfunction. this derailed slightly but the game iā€™ve played the most despite my casual gamer status is ā€¦. ā€¦ ā€¦. ffxv. surprise, right? the runner up is botw, but xv wins by a landslide. 630+ hours. botw is 350. my main save in ffxv is almost 200 hours i think. damn. i really managed to keep myself entertained with that gameā€¦ (ā€¦ā€¦ā€¦i was thinking recently, since the loading screens in xv are so long, how much of this total amount was spent watching screens. i imagine itā€™s several hours, especially if you fast travel a lot.)
Most embarrassing gaming moment?
many moments in my gaming experience are embarrassing, but a more recent one: i was in xvā€™s postgame, beating some dungeons on my new save file. i had just finished daurell caverns and hadnā€™t saved in about 2 hours. (uh oh) i was driving around in the regalia type d and got to the big cliff near lestallum, and remembered someone made a gif of jumping in there so i wanted to try it too. i imagined the game would just put me back on the road, like it does when you crash into something. except it didnt. i got a game over. where was my last save? 2 hours back all the way in hammerhead. yippee.
Scariest video game youā€™ve played?
i never play horror games, cuz for me games are supposed to be relaxing experiences. no hate towards horror games of course, they just stress me out. the only time ive played horror is when friday the 13th was for free on ps+, and my friends really wanted to play it. (theyre kinda addicted to it now. huh) they had already gotten over the initial fear of having jason chase you, but i was still terrified. i can play the game without getting scared now tho. the horror sound effects just rly freaked me out at first jhsdkghsd
Most memorable gaming moment?
playing breath of the wild for the first time, or beating it for the first time. both experiences were filled to the brim with excitement and nostalgia. seeing botw as a blank slate, a world for you to explore, having no idea where youā€™re goingā€¦ that was pretty incredible. now i know every nook and cranny of the map, so i wish i could play it for the first time again. i was so incredibly immersed. beating it was insane. i cried for 30 minutes and the end wasnt even sad, i was just so amazed at the fact that i was really here, playing breath of the wild, it was really real. the fucking main theme in the background (which i cannot for the life of me listen to without crying) didnt help with my emotions sgkdjh
Video game character you wish you could meet in real life?
ā€¦ā€¦ā€¦ā€¦..its prompto again. maybe 2017 me ā€¦. was .. kind of a kinnie
PC, Xbox, Playstation, or Nintendo?
i dont care about console wars at all, but i think hardware-wise, pc is the best, because if you have a good pc you can basically do anything. i however do not, so i just play on consoles. ive never particularly liked xbox, so i only play ps4 and nintendo. not the switch though. its kinda petty, but my best friend and i really dont like the switch djghks
Gaming company youā€™re most loyal to?
none. i used to call myself a nintendo nerd (oh my godā€¦. i m. gonna die) in like 2015 but since the switch came out and since i got a ps4 they kinda lost me. i still like their game series of course, but as a company i donā€™t care for them. the only reason i see square enix as one ofĀ ā€˜ā€™myā€™ā€™ gaming companies is because ffxv took up like 70% of my gaming experience, but besides final fantasy i donā€™t really love them too much either.
If you could only play one video game for the rest of your life, which would you choose?
atm iā€™m really into ffxiv because theres just so much to do, but thatā€™s just a new, possibly temporary interest. if i had to choose, iā€™d say botw. maybe iā€™d say ffxv, but i feel like running around doing nothing in that game isnt very fun, because the world is sorta empty after completing every quest and getting to level 120. in botw, just fucking around on your horse is still really relaxing and nice.Ā 
Do you use strategy guides?
yup. in certain games i try to avoid them but i usually end up stuck or in need of advice. i couldnā€™t have gotten so many p5 trophies if not for the internet lol
How often do you use cheats?
never, simply because the games i play often do not have cheats. unless im playing the sims and are in need of a motherlode, i dont use them.
Competitive or single player?
single player. im bad at video games and like to do stuff at my own pace. online multiplayer can be fun every now and then in games like mario kart 8 or splatoon, and i also like teamwork stuff like ffxiv or comrades. but ultimately, i prefer playing on my own.
Video game character you want to/have cosplayed?
have never cosplayed, dont have plans to either, but it would be fun to cosplay link. omg. i just remembered i have that fucking chocomoogle shirtā€¦ sorry link im gonna slap on some sasuke hair, black jeans and ugly sneakersĀ 
Ever go to a video game convention?
i have not, i have however gone to three (3) video game concerts which is basically the same thing.Ā 
Hardest boss fight youā€™ve been in?
the hardest bosses for me are usually the ones with a gimmick. you have to use a certain item or tactic to beat them or something. other hard fights for me are when you fight someone with a similar skill set. (in ffxv, this happens twice, once with the iggy-noct sparring match and once against ardyn. somehow, the final boss was easier than getting the prince to eat vegetables.) i donā€™t know an actual example of THE hardest boss fight ive been in though. at the time, the first bowser battle in mario galaxy was the hardest thing in the universe and i got stuck for like a month. currently, iā€™m having trouble with the riku-ansem fight in kh1.Ā 
Video game you wish you could burn from your memory?
the zelda cdi games? no, i dont really know. i dont hate a game so much that iā€™d want to forget about it altogether, but i dont exactly love ocarina of time that much. it hasnt aged well and playing it on the gamecube for the first time in 2015 wasnt a good idea. im sure it was revolutionary at the time, but i cant handle the outdated controls gsdgksjsĀ 
Favorite gaming series?
see, i love ffxv itself more than the entirety of the zelda series, but i dont love ff as a SERIES more than the zelda games. so if were talking series, zelda for sure. i fucking love those games and they mean a lot to me.Ā 
Do you skip tutorials, or find them useful?
i often skip them because i cant pay attention, but then find that i need them anyway. so i usually do skim through them.Ā 
Best online gaming experience?
one really good one happened a few days ago in ffxiv, some guy and i exchanged emotes for like 30 minutes and it ended with us becoming friends on psn :ā€™) ppl dont usually emote back at me in that game so this was really wholesome and nice gjshksdjĀ 
Worst online gaming experience?
i dont really have a worst? theyre more annoying. think try harders in gta online killing you 15 times in a row because they want to show you how good they are or something. magically, online gaming hasnt been too hard on me (mainly because i dont game online that much)
Why do you game?
it brings me joy. itā€™s a fun way of relaxing, while being stimulated at the same time. games have meant a great deal to me the past 6 years and i wouldnt want to lose them for the world.
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midsvmmars Ā· 6 years ago
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after taking a long ass break from actually rping and being active on here i changed my entire account and am ready to jump back into rping. iā€™m looking for some new 1x1 partners and plots but you should know i really want to focus on the writing and development of writing and pushing each other to write more!! many of the things on my page arenā€™t very updated but my rules are hereĀ (iā€™m 18 but i havent updated this in like a year) and some wanted plots are hereĀ though iā€™d like to create more original ideas between us and what weā€™re both into and brainstorming new things. i play more males and females and all types of ships but please donā€™t try to force me into playing a male. if you want to 1x1 like this and iā€™ll hit you up, and iā€™ll have some more specific stuff under the cut!!
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okay honestly im a sucker for like angst and complicated and complex emotionally plots so pls give me something to make me suffer
on the opposite give me a plot on cupid and psyche please!!
ā€œiā€™m a vampire and we met when you were still human and we fell in love and planned out our whole eternal life together but on the night i turned you i freaked out over the commitment and abandoned you in the middle of the night & now itā€™s over a century later and weā€™re only just seeing each other again for the first time since and thereā€™s so much hatred in your eyes when you look at me but fuck you still look just as hot and make my heart race as much as you did back then and i think i made the biggest mistake of my life in leavingā€ au (ā˜‰ā€æā˜‰āœæ)
PRIDE AND PREJUDICE PLOT PLS
angsty soulmate plots please??
okay i lowkey want like the stereotypical sugar daddy ceo plot but not where its like just smut filled and 50 shades of grey but where it starts the kinda stereotype then starts getting more real where like he has problems w emotions and intimacy and letting her close and shes trying but any step forward he takes 3 steps back and idk we can figure out more but iā€™d prolly wanna be the girl for this tbh
best friends older brother youā€™ve always hated but now youre lowkey attracted to him??
rOoMmAtEs
exes plot
OKAY BUT LIKE GREEK MYTHOLOGY PLOTS OR PLOTS W ANGELS OR DEVILS OR ETC JUST LIKE ETHEREAL BEINGS
being into your roommates boyfriend eep
a plot based off from dusk till dawn (the series world) based off kate x seth or kate x richie where itā€™s ā€˜sweet jesus girl goes on vacation with her family and gets held hostage by a hot af criminal trying to get into mexico and next thing they know theyre in trouble, share an unspoken connection, and are in a world of danger and excitementā€™ i donā€™t put it into words right but look it up and u get it
muse a is a prostitute with a heart of gold. muse b is a cop with a steely demeanor. muse a and muse b cross paths often when muse b is patrolling the streets. over time, muse b begins to feel protective over the kind-hearted muse a and develops feelings for them. muse b knows getting involved with a hooker could ruin their respectable reputation. muse b wants to get muse a off the streets and give them a better life, but muse a thinks muse b deserves to be with someone without a shameful past.
gimme a stranger things-esque plot thatā€™s all about the 80s and teen angst. Teenagers who have nothing to do in their shitty little town except to hang out at their little diner or watch reruns of shitty movies at the drive-thru. gimme boring parents who have no idea what their children are up to. gimme teen angst and scrunchies and acid washed everything. gimme diner aesthetics and 80s rock ballads. seriously, gimme all of it.
ā€˜popular wealthy bitch who owns the school and intimidates everybody but is secretly crushing on the soft boy with the puppy dog eyes whoā€™s totally so unaware of itā€™ plot pls.
also yes ok i totally want a plot where for once itā€™s the female whoā€™s really sexually experienced and popular, and this nerdy boy has a crush on one of her best friends, and she needs tutoring and heā€™s the only one who could do it- so she offers him tips and advice on how to get her friend to notice him and seem cool, in exchange heā€™ll tutor her.but as her best friend gains interest, he realises how inexperienced he is, so it becomes a trading of tutor- he teaches her maths equations, she teaches him how to kiss, and go down on a girl.and oh no- sheā€™s starting to really like him???? she doesnā€™t want him to date her friend?? maybe he could date her instead?????
what about a bonnie/clyde kinda relationship?? like maybe they met when she was trying to steal his car or whatever and it was love at first sight and she just jumped into his car and they get together just like that and now they drive around running away from cops and cameras while theyā€™re robbing stores and banks and theyā€™re fucking on the hood of his car and being completely destructive and just fucking crazy but like they love each other and they cant be without each other and this is kinda like my problematic fave plot?? v screwed up but i kinda rly want it?
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sternenteile Ā· 6 years ago
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ā˜…*ļ½„ lovely ooc meme.
TAGGED BY:Ā  yā€™all i stole it from multiple ppl on my dash TAGGING:Ā  idk just take it from me and let the thief train continue
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NAME:Ā  nikki NICKNAME:Ā Ā nikkibun, bun, assturd AGE:Ā  26 weeps......... FACE CLAIM:Ā  my bunsona!! my bunsonaā€™s icons are so old and crusty tho so iā€™ve just. been using genoā€™s. rip. PRONOUNS:Ā  she / her, but they / them is fine, too! HEIGHT:Ā  5ā€²3ā€³ i am berry tinie BIRTHDAY:Ā  april 4th
AESTHETIC:Ā  cute animals (namely bunnies and cats), a basic n64 with a purple controller, pastels, piles of tasty chicken wings, and. and. more terribly charismatic buns.
LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO:Ā  yā€™all listen the lavender town theme from pokemon lgpe is absolutely destroying me and it was absolutely the last thing i listened to. i love it.
FAVORITE MUSE ( S ) YOUā€™VE WRITTEN:Ā  my boy papyrus ( @outbraves ) was easily one of my favorites ever. i just had... so much fun with him and had a lot of development for him, and just. i have such fond memories of rping him. i love my bone boy, even though his muse has long gone.
tbh, tho? geno is climbing up there, too. in so short a time, iā€™ve already got so many ideas and so much development plotting going on. given how expansive the mario universe is, too (esp. compared to undertaleā€™s), there is just... so much room for different things to do with him?! iā€™m really excited. the potential is bananas.
WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO TAKE ON YOUR CURRENT MUSE ( THAT YOU ARE POSTING THIS ON ):Ā  ok iā€™m not going to lie. this is a bit of a story, and it starts off in a very interesting way. at first, i actually... didnā€™t really give a single floppy titty for geno? seriously. i didnā€™t care. i played smrpg and i just fell for mallow that much more. i was like, gee, i wonder what people see in him. heā€™s cool and cute, but mallow has all this development and stuff! basically, based on my memories of smrpg and howĀ ā€˜overratedā€™ i felt he was, i just didnā€™t really give geno much of a chance.
now, rosalina is my favorite mario character. ever. i used to rp her a long time ago. i absolutely adore her. thanks to smash speculation really bringing geno to the forefront of peoplesā€™ minds again, i was like, huh. i wonder what kind of lore could come from her and geno? a lot of stuff i saw was implicating ship stuff, and i was... not impressed LMAO. i was like, naw, i see them being like mother and son. heā€™s a star spirit, after all, very similar to a luma. sheā€™d totally be his superior + mom figure.
and then i started headcanoning more between them, which... via causation, started the headcanon train going for geno in general? i was like, no, iā€™m not going to get attached to this dumb doll, heā€™s overrated, blah blah. then i started thinking of him more, started doodling him, seeing why people liked him so much, and i was like... fuck. shit. damn. i used to have a weird disdain for you, you fuck puppet, why are you wiggling your way into my heart. no. get out.
needless to say, he didnā€™t get out, and i had to unleash my creativity with him. i missed rping, too, and i was like... this, this will do. voila. here we are.
WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE ASPECTS OF YOUR CURRENT MUSE:Ā  where do i even begin omg... ok. letā€™s see.
first, his design in general is just? really great. heā€™s a design that fits in the mario universe while also feeling so unlike it. mallow feels more integrated, yet geno feels... so... otherworldly? so different? his design philosophy hinges on round, soft familiarity while also being colorful, complimentarily so, and encapsulating it in a way that comes off as both cute and mysterious. i just love his design. even in all of my disdain for him initially, iā€™m pretty sure i always liked his design.
with that shallower bit out of the way, let me tell you about the virtues this boi has that i love (or, at least, in terms of my version, most of it not being canon oops). i love how courageous and forward he is, even if at times, it results in some fumbling. heā€™s fascinated in the world around him and has an innate desire to explore, to experiment, to experience. he gets pretty into it, but it does result in some very silly moments where his cultural differences play a large factor. heā€™s so distant from the modern world in a lot of ways, and it shows. between this and his curious nature, heā€™s just... god, heā€™s just a dork. heā€™s just a huge dork.
but boy, his vices. he doesnā€™t have much of... any at all in canon, but itā€™s clear how attached to his duty he is, even in what little we see. building flaws off of that has been a blast. i love how he feels so tied to his purpose that he feels branching out isnā€™t an option, yet it conflicts with his desire to break free and just be. heā€™s still figuring out how to be his own person, how to be genoĀ and not just ā™”ā™Ŗ!?, the protector of star road. even then, heā€™s trying not to fail his most precious person, rosalina, and those who depend on him. itā€™s a lot of conflict that pulls his heart in a lot of directions at once. chances are that heā€™ll progress and then harshly regress multiple times, going through a bunch of shit before he finally manages to find a happy medium. itā€™ll be a long road ahead, and what can stem from this has me soooo excited.
also heā€™s just rly cute. did i mention heā€™s cute? heā€™s so cute. heā€™s literally a doll and i need to cuddle him.
WHATā€™S YOUR BIGGEST INSPIRATION WHEN IT COMES TO WRITING:Ā  honestly? steven universe and undertale have played huge inspiration into the way i write. undertale is obviously because i love it (and deltarune) and have written a muse from it. itā€™s just kind of integrated into my writing to the point that it feels natural. itā€™s... itā€™s something thatā€™s just there now, lmao.
steven universe, however, is more particular. it hasnā€™t really influenced how i write in general, per se, but some aspects have inspired my geno, actually. garnetā€™s cool demeanor with inner conflict and a goofiness that she often shows? yeah, that definitely inspired a good chunk of my genoā€™s exterior personality.Ā 
in terms of his inner self, those bits of garnet, plus the pearl + rose and steven + rose conflicts, pretty much shaped that up in my head. pearl + rose on its base level minus the romantic aspect definitely touches stone on how geno feels about his duty, his dedication to rosalina, and how heā€™s trying to become his own person, not just a star spirit in servitude. steven + rose more represents the mother + son aspect, the way geno wants to live up to her and what she wants, the way he views her as a parental figure thatā€™s just unattainable (even if in a more figurative sense than steven and rose). thereā€™s also a tiny, tinyĀ bit of lapis in there, solely the tendency to flip a switch and bail if he thinks itā€™s best, just for less selfish reasons and more dutifulĀ reasons. itā€™s. itā€™s very minuscule and very base-level, but itā€™s there.
in terms of geno himself, those two have to be my biggest inspirations at this point. ye.
FAVORITE TYPES OF THREADS:Ā  god. anything is great, but these two are especially important:
slice-of-life. given genoā€™s distance from earth traditions, customs, and general livelihood, slice-of-life threads are immediately that much more interesting and even a bit crazy. being able to show how much of a curious little nerd he is and Hecking Things Up is always a good time.
finally, anythingĀ that draws out his insecurities. something that conflicts with his view on his purpose in life, that stirs his longing for parental recognition, that turns his beliefs on their heads... things like that. just. yes. gimme that.
BIGGEST STRUGGLE IN REGARDS TO YOUR CURRENT MUSE:Ā  honestly, the fact that heā€™s such an old character that nintendo and square doesnā€™t care for is easily the worst part of playing him. itā€™s rough knowing that, even with all of the fan demand, heā€™ll likely never get a revival. heā€™ll just fade out of a lot of peoplesā€™ memories more and more, and heā€™ll be even more irrelevant than ever. every time someone so much as knows who geno is, it just makes me giddy. i want that to stay alive, even if nintendo and square wonā€™t do anything with him. the fan base keeping him going makes me feel so warm.
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dazzling-ji Ā· 6 years ago
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aesthetic themed ask list
flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?
probably halo? still riding off the performance high tbh
fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?
canā€™t think of anything that i would want to know immediately that i couldnā€™t just wait for confirmation in prayer about...
daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?
so far? taking the steps necessary to actually pursue my dreams
1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?
kbbq with friends
matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?
probably tell my parents how i feel about them, same to my friends
black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?
not really. i have things iā€™d like to do, tho
pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.
as in a human being? um, she has obscenely small hands. her face is like shiny and red perpetually. she is tiny. she gets really excited over the smallest things, i.e. her cats or the sight of a corgi. lowkey highkey hates her hair unless itā€™s short. bane of my existence.
moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?
bruh i wish. literally still trying to console younger me with each day.
stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?
lowkey cried in front of my therapist as i told him i donā€™t cry in front of people. idk if he noticed or not (ITā€™S CUZ HE KEPT STARING AT ME WITH THOSE BIG SAD EMPATHETIC BLUE EYES. I DONā€™T NEED EMPATHY!!!) but the tears were threatening and i was threatening the tears.
plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.
bruh, had to describe a human for the last one but this time i wonā€™t. my best friend nam shin iii. because i love him and heā€™s great. wish he were real so i could teach him english and he could teach me korean and i could help him romance his girlfriend.Ā 
converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?
i did when i was first meeting my therapist lol. i donā€™t trust people enough to do stuff like that.
lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?
probably ye olde tiny handed one. sheā€™s the only one who would try to stay up that late with me. doesnā€™t mean i donā€™t have to deal with her sleep delirium.
handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?
itā€™d either be to myself or my mom. something along the lines of letting them know their worth.
cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?
they aight. blue eyes are really scary 90% of the time. brown eyes make more sense to me.
sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.
ā€œdifferent doesnā€™t mean wrongā€ said by one of my late faves, who i honestly felt was a kindred spirit 99.999% best friend match to me. not gonna get into why the quote is so deep to me, all iā€™ll say is it allowed me to breathe.
oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?
indigko
overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?
pay off debts, travel, save, give to charities/church, save some more, maybe make a trust fund?Ā 
combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?
with God, yeah. by myself? depends. i can be kind of hypocritical and times.
winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.
guess i know what to tag this ask meme now
pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?
punk for sure.
tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.
super cool. was thinking of getting either a septum or normal nose ring. wish tattoos made a bit more sense on dark skin, but either way theyā€™re super painful so maybe i lucked out.
piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?
i donā€™t. donā€™t wanna ruin my skin and i like the natural look over a beat face. i like people looking realistic if that makes sense?
bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.
so many people to talk about, but my ex-fave prince helped me realize i was ace.
messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.
i wouldnā€™t. at least not rn, donā€™t have anything revolutionary to tell em. maybe something likeĀ ā€œPlease remember weā€™re dealing with human beingsā€ or along those lines, because Iā€™m tired of reading about racists and human rights violations who real life be forgetting that aside from differences in race/gender/sexuality/etc/etc we are all human and worthy of love.
cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.
stromae @ msg - super fun! wish the people behind me didnā€™t try to waste my time and sit at a dance music concert.
nai palm @ brooklyn (i forget the venue) - also super great. it was great to actually see her irl, and allowed me to realize i can actually socialize without too much problem.
garth brooks @ mercedes benz - yikes ppl in the south RLY like their country music huh?
kimbra @ brooklyn (also forget the venue) - LIVE MUSIC CAN BE SO EXPERIMENTAL AND FUN. kind of reminded me of what iā€™d heard seeing prince irl was like.
grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?
NYU - You have no outstanding balances. We have a $1 mil scholarship that will be applied to your account as of today. We love you. In fact, weā€™re gonna wipe away all your student loan debt and ensure no one in your family has to worry about paying for anything ever again in their lives.
space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?
my desk always gets cluttered with papers and stuff. but i really do prefer working at a desk rather than a bed.Ā 
white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?
stall as long as possible until i REALLY need to go to sleep. grumble as i lazily brush my teeth and rinse my retainer. lie in bed and watch youtube for anywhere between 30 min to 3 hrs before actually turning off.
old books: whatā€™s one thing you donā€™t want your parents to know?
call me crazy, but i want my parents to know about me and *gasp* like what they realize. like lemme tell em iā€™m ace and have them not freak out, idk.Ā 
beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?
blue or purple. but probably a wig or something impermanent.Ā 
eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?
THE FAB FIVE. WHY AM I SO DUMB. weā€™d go makeover their next person on queer eye OR even betterĀ weā€™d just hang out
11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.
1. the aforementioned letter from nyu because i deserve it, ok?
2. a life i donā€™t feel like i have to run away from because i hate living like this but feel powerless to change it.
3. a cool best friend i could go cool places with, because i wanna go cool places
painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.
i cosplayā€™d as Taemin during the Ace era. It was cool because it basically was my style, so I felt super confident all day looking my best.
lightning: whatā€™s the worst thing youā€™ve ever done while drunk or high?
I do neither. But the craziest thing I did half-asleep was convince myself I could still talk to the aforementioned tiny handed weirdo and answer her questions though my head was firmly planted on my pillow and i was neatly tucked under my sheets. like i really thought homegirl could read my thoughts and find the answers she needed to her questions.Ā 
thunder: whatā€™s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?
like donald trump
storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?
maybe one person - iā€™d see myself the way God sees me so I wouldnā€™t be so powerless against my insecurities and the fake people in the world all the time.
love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realize youā€™re in love.
idk? iā€™m ace and aro and very aesthetically drawn, so i really donā€™t know if i ever have.Ā 
clouds: if youā€™re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if youā€™re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?
i prefer myself with longer hair tbh.
coffee: whatā€™s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?
hot chocolate if i wanna blend in. otherwise a strawberry acai refresher. i trust any of my friends because itā€™s really not that deep.
marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?
gaining self-confidence so i can step more firmly into my calling.
fin.
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identitycris1s Ā· 4 years ago
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im back
hi just thought id pop in with a status update! maybe iā€™ll break this down into categories. feel like im doing an email update (ew!) but this rly is probs the best way to structure this post...
work / school (?)
work has been....aite. idk what to say. idk if i have unrealistic expectations of what work is supposed to be, but the idealist in me thinks its wrong to not even try and find something that seems meaningful / is deeply fulfilling. i think im mature enough to get that work isnt supposed to be fun / exciting every single day but bro this daily grind / sense of dread / utter disinterest / feeling of futility / frustration / disenchantment surely isnt the correct state of affairs.....at least let me try and find something that is a better fit, thats more stimulating, that feels more NATURAL to me? i just dont think im cut out to be a lawyer. sure i sometimes like arguing and making my point and i like that everyone i work with is smart and interesting and generally kind and reasonable and i like the prestige of the job and feeling like ppl respect me and i like the decent pay and the humane hours but.....i feel unmotivated to be a good lawyer. i think i find it difficult / disingenuous to always 100% get behind my client and advocate for their best interests. i tend to see things from a zoomed out perspective, like WHY are we fighting, WHY cant we just settle, WHY are the claimants pursuing this absolutely crap and unmeritorious claim and WHY do we have to defend it when its stupid and bound to fail (cos access2justice i guess but still, WHY), WHY cant we just hash things out in a meeting instead of sending emails here and there and wasting time, WHY do we have to answer stupid questions, WHY WHY WHY
and i think public policy is sort of an answer to that....i think theres more questioning of why we do things and why a policy will or will not work, in a macro sense - what is good for society at large. whereas in law (at least in litigation) its how can we just move this case forward and help the client, which is often not the most productive thing to do in a macro sense - very much a zero sum game. i get that shitty / unmeritorious claims still need to be defended against and someone has to do it and I GET IT but i just dont think i want to be that person defending these claims...or bringing them for that matter.....ultimately i cant fully / sincerely separate the overarching sense of futility from the duty to do a good job.
sigh. well at least ive kind of figured out this isnt for me. which is scary cos being a lawyer in this firm is pretty much a career for life - truly an iron rice bowl, i could probably make partner in maybe 4 or 5 years and live a comfortable upper middle class life...but i cant bring myself to do that. i cant bring myself to not give myself a shot at doing something i actually find interesting, stimulating and that i care about deeply. call me crazy! weā€™ll see where this brings me in 5 yearsā€™ time....:)Ā 
anyway most ppl at work (at least in my team) know that im most likely gonna leave soon. i rly only told 2 ppl (my boss cos he had to sign off on my testimonial and G cos she was quitting anyway)...but somehow ppl found out one way or another. i dont rly mind and ppl have been taking it pretty well and have been kind and encouraging (i guess why would they not take it well, im hardly indispensable) but i get a bit antsy thinking - what if i dont get in...then what? do i just put my head down and continue here (BUT IM SO SAD) or do i just quit without any prospects and try to find a policy-ish job??
idk. will have faith that God will put me where I need to be. he is in control of it all and I BELIEVE THIS !!! I am just a bit scared that his plan is different from what iĀ  think i want....but this is just my human instinct and i know in my head that there is no reason to be scared cos his plan is always the better one. head knowledge just needs to translate to heart understanding and real trust / faith.
ermmm relationships...???
i started using...cmb...idk why i find this so cringey. i guess about a year ago i couldnt imagine doing this and i kept thinking EW what if ppl i know see me and they think im a desperate saddo who cant find a bf irl and has to resort to an app EW shes so lame and ugly and gross. and i realised that is so stupid no one actually thinks that way and its very backward and dumb and insecure of me to be thinking that. and anyway as i get older i rly dont quite give a shit what ppl think of me (at least i tell myself that....)
i suppose i was also inspired by csm who has been quite actively using apps and meeting ppl and taking real..strides..(LOL) in her dating life. i used to tell myself hey God will provide u with a mans if he wants u to be with a mans. but also God can use an app to do that...and if i dont step out in faith that he will do something and i dont take any action at all, how is God gonna work?? should i sit at home and expect a man to fall into my lap??
for some ppl it has been way easier, e.g. my parents meeting in uni and falling i love. i always wanted that - the organic relationship, the meet-cute, the friends to lovers thing. (i guess i tried that last one before and it didnt work...) but i think theres no point in romanticising relationships anymore. thats a very modern thing to do and its not necessarily a good thing? like whoā€™s to say a relationship that had organic beginnings is intrinsically better than one that started from an app?
anyway i havent had much luck haha i think its hard to find genuine GCBs (or maybe theyre just not attracted to me....) although recently ive been talking to this one guy B for a week or two and its been...ok i guess. hes rly nice and seemed cool at first - we talked about travelling and hamilton and the office, which was a good start. he is thoughtful and kind and doesnt seem to be put off by my very slow replies (he replies so fast......its stressful a bit) and he does the whole good morning text thing (which i frankly find a bit bizarre, we barely know each other..?? and ive never even met him irl.. but its sweet i guess :))
but DUDE his english seems to be not great - at least thats the impression i get from texting him. which is an issue for me. i dont want it to be BUT IT IS...first red flag was when he said some weird thing about not wanting to wear a mask at work (not a literal mask - like he didnt know if he could be hisĀ ā€˜true selfā€™) and the wording was very strange. then he saidĀ ā€œthe weekends are almost hereā€ ?? the weekend is not a plural though? then he used the wrong tense a few times and his apostrophe usage was wrong (ā€Godsā€™ loveā€ - bro there is one God). he also uses way too many commas which irks me.
i mean i get that text is supposed to be an informal medium - come on look at this post, there r hardly any capital letters and plenty of short forms and hardly any apostrophes but u see its CONSISTENT and its obviously cos of laziness / convenience - but i think his problem is a bit different...u can sort of tell if someone doesnt have a 100% strong grasp of english. those r basic grammar mistakes man...i get that i sound petty and stupid and this isnt a huge deal but i feel like im settling by even talking to him cos this is not something i wld normally tolerate but hey maybe im getting desperate with age :(:(:( urghĀ 
on the other hand maybe i just need to be more generous with ppl and l have an irrationally high standard for english cos i am a lawyer and my friends all speak well / text well?? maybe im just being too nitpicky?? honestly hes very niceĀ  and communicative and straightforward and seems mature and very God-fearing and idk why hes still talking to me cos ive been a bit cold and slow to respond. hes very patient which i dont rly deserve.....i myself have a million flaws that are probably way worse and egregious (ahem PRIDE...ahem ego....ie the source of this dilemma in the first place...) so maybe i should just close one eye abt the bad grammar.
i also realised how fked up i am - confirmed my suspicion that i am naturally attracted to emotionally unavailable ppl / ppl that just seem distant / out of reach (thats my avoidant attachment style right there). i think there was one day he didnt text me at all and omg...i couldnt stop thinking what i did wrong...like did i piss him off by being too cold for too long...did he get scared off cos i said i wanted to do a masters (idk this seemed like an irrational leap but i was being irrational)..then i started being nicer to him and replied more promptly hahaha turns out he was just rly bz at work that day. omg this pattern is real i think i did this with xj also - was eager to speak when he was in japan but after meeting irll i was just over it... (i am drawn to distance like a moth to a flame and i am repelled by availability like....a fire by a fire extinguisher (??)). yucks i rly hate myself sometimes but yknow what at least im self aware and im trying to fix this...kind of.. gonna hash this avoidant thing out with my therapist at the next sesh.
on the topic of xj i got a bit nostalgic and wondered why we stopped speaking (surprise surprise it was my fault, didnt reply then felt it had been left to long to pick it up again...) went back to look at our texts and aw we rly got along so well, i do miss him as a friend and im sorry about how poorly i treated him especially in dec 2018 / jan 2019 sigh.....i was a real bitch....
anyway im just gonna see how things go with B... if he asks me out i prob will go... just to give it a shot. update if / when that happens!
EDIT - he asked me out lol we shall see how it goes.Ā 
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survivor-tierradelfuego Ā· 4 years ago
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Ep. 9:Ā ā€œIf youā€™re not on top, youā€™re on the bottom & getting playedā€ - Maddison
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Maddison
I made the merge!!! Letā€™s gooo baby!
Aimee
I cannot believe me the oldest person made it to merge! Iā€™m still shaking a little bit to be honest. Haha I always see those reality tv shows where the oldest person is the first boot. Haha and I know there are other 30 year olds but this feels special to me.Ā 
Yay merge! This lady is gonna kick it into high gear, hopefully the alliances I made and the friendships I have started help me to get far but we will see what the future brings šŸŒ…
Olivia A.
Iā€™m excited for merge but not sure if weā€™ll able to get numbers together and have a majority.
Grae G
We do be merging.... OG maola is in mini Priya so I will be spending every spare moment working my ass off to try and make as many OG Hanuha bonds as possible...Ā 
Najwah
While I'm happy to have made it to merge, I'm actually really sad about James. I've never been this sad about losing anyone in this game before. We started off never having had a one on one chat but we just had each others backs from day one. Stuck it out. Fought together. We spoke on a video call earlier and it was the most easiest conversation ever. He was genuine and kind and I wish him everything of the best in this life. He deserves so many good things. My heart is sore. I didn't want to be here with Amy. She's unresponsive and I don't really trust her. But she told me she had a steal a vote and she wanted to give it to me before tribal because it could be used post merge. And then, she changed her mind like 15 minutes before tribal she was like no this game is a distraction for me and I want to use it tonight. And it was either going to be James or me. She was in a position of power. I think she chose to vote James out coz she has previously stated that he is good at challenges. She wants to have a secret alliance with me. I agreed to it just so that I could be. Kept in the game by her I guess. I have no intention to betray other people I am in an alliance with. Idk. I'm just still shocked. I actually cried about it on a call with Cody earlier. Cody also told me that since day 1 Ben and Zack have been bitching about me voting James out and turning on James and weakening HanĆŗha Tribe alliance. Like? What? I'm so annoyed. Not once have I even considered voting out James. We had a good thing going. He's just one of the best people in this game and I honestly wish he was. Here. I'm not in the mood for these two faced assholes who only care about themselves.Ā 
Pedro A
im scared ..this can change the whole game
Sarah
AHHH, itā€™s Merge time! Iā€™m so excited that I, along with most of my alliance, made it to Merge. Definitely sad about James being voted out at the last vote since he was one of my closest allies in the game but thanks for giving me coins and helping me get the idol James! šŸ˜Š Maybe Amy has put a target on her back after playing steal a vote and can be an ā€œeasyā€ first vote for the majority of people on our new tribe. Well, there was definitely a lot to catch up on in a week and I talked with Cody for quite awhile last night and he filled me in. He let me know that Ben confided in him and said he didnā€™t trust Zack fully either. Cody of course hasnā€™t completely trusted Zack this whole game so at some point, Iā€™m sure everyone will vote out Zack. But for now, our alliance and former Hanuha tribe is staying strong. Like Iā€™ve said, I feel like Cody and I are in one of the best positions in the game because of our connections with so many others. Aimee feels close to me, Najwah feels close to Cody, and Ben and Zack feel close to us. I have also had some communication with Grae and feel like I can talk with her. I do think there is an alliance between Grae, Maddison, Olivia, and maybe Amy though. This next challenge and tribal will be interesting for sure with a 6/6 tribe split.Ā 
Olivia A
At the moment it feels like weā€™re in the minority (with Pedro still mad abt the John vote) but with this idol and the plan to get everyone to target Pedro I feel like we can get in a good place again. And then convincing people to turn on Zack will hopefully not be too hard.
Maddison
It seems like the boys from original Hanuha are coming after me... and there is nothing I hate more than men chasing me. Time to bring down the hammer. :) I found an idol today thanks to the help of my lovely Rox the Sox alliance. Iā€™m happy to have it in my possession but Iā€™m also ready to use it for whomever in my alliance may need it. I wouldnā€™t have found it without them anyways.Ā 
Amy A
Made the merge šŸŽ‰šŸŽ‰šŸŽ‰šŸŽ‰. Canā€™t say it has been an easy road. Almost voted out last night. Even though that was not even remotely gonna happen cos ā€˜Steal-a-voteā€™. So, definitely happy to be here but sad that I lost my advantage. Also, my alliance with Najwah seems pretty solid. I hope she isnā€™t just saying stuff to me just to gain my trust and then break it. I absolutely trust her. Even beyond the game. I feel like I can actually talk to her. Letā€™s go merge!!! Amy A. So, lies. I feel like this should be my little confessional to keep track of my lies cos šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚ itā€™s so damn hilarious to ME. I donā€™t even have a cat but I feel like people seem you as more trustworthy when you have a pet. I also think Grae believes Iā€™m not aligned with Najwah cos I told her I had a mini bond w James instead. This is really entertaining.Ā 
Zack M
"well, i got it." - valerie cherish, the comeback and by it i mean the merge. i'm here. i've accomplished what i wanted to do. now my goal is to make it to top 10. baby steps. but i feel like i'm going to be the first person voted out tbh. something is off with my tribe. the only person i feel like i can actually trust at the moment is najwah. we had like a 2 hour video call last night and compared notes. apparently cody also tried to buy the necklace with her. i'm like 89% positive that him and sarah have the idol. i really wanted to go to final two with him but 1. i don't see me making 2. if i do, i don't think i can fully trust him. it's obvious he is running around talking to everyone and it's starting to get messy. anyways, i think i will be voted out first because it's clear the maola girls are working together. maddison, grae, olivia, amy, kalle all need someone to vote out. why not the guy who was the "tribe leader" at the swap. there may be some hope IF pedro stays loyal and votes with the hanuha tribe but that would also mean that aimee and sarah have to stay with us. aimee apparently told pedro she's been on the bottom which isn't a lie but like why aimee? *face palm* if hanuha stays strong and pedro votes with us then it will be 7 /5 and i should be safe. i would like to pretend to vote amy out (#Justice4James) because i feel like alan may have gave her the idol, if they actually had one like rumor suggests. she plays the idol ... we flush it ... and take out maddison or grae. that would be dream scenario. but who knows what is going to happen with this auction coming up. stay tuned.Ā 
Olivia A
At the moment it feels like weā€™re in the minority (with Pedro still mad abt the John vote) but with this idol and the plan to get everyone to target Pedro I feel like we can get in a good place again. And then convincing people to turn on Zack will hopefully not be too hard.
Pedro A
OKay so kalle basically said...."I've been on the bottom since the John vote lol....I just don't know who I can try to connect or reconnect with at this point"...so she doesnt trust them anymore....which is nice...and i kinda believe her..considering they didnt pick her to be in the swap tribe...which honestly was a mistake......Grae and Maddison..im coming for you...karma is a bitch
PedroĀ A
im talking with najwah...i kinda wanna know about her relationship with amy...cause amy is a snake gURL...But i feel like its too early on to ask that...but im watching you GURL
Pedro A
lets just hope we dont self destruct...cause then we will be devoured by the habuha. tribe
Olivia A
Checked in with Aimee and sheā€™s seeming iffy about the original Hanuha people and is still interested in working with me! This is very good news :) If we get Pedro our next and Aimee sticks w us then weā€™ll have the numbers 6-5.
Kalle N
This first tribal is going to be a gigantic mess. Pedro now says he trusts me and asked me really nicely to not lie to him bc he's sick of being lied to, and it just made me feel really bad. I think rox the sox is still planning on voting Pedro but if I feel like I genuinely have him on my side, I could maybe try to get our alliance to vote for someone else like Zack or Ben. Ben really wants to take out Maddison or Grae but idk how much I want to rely on Ben.
PedroĀ 
i honestly feel like i noone is being truthfull to me
Pedro A
Honestly im scared...at this point..i just want to make it into the top 10
Pedro A
one step at a time
Olivia A.
For this challenge Iā€™m paired with Cody. Iā€™m not really excited about it. I donā€™t have anything against him but Iā€™ve never interacted w this man before and I donā€™t want to help him get immunity! He seems rly nice and funny I just feel like itā€™s gonna be awkward and also I have 0 ideas. Doesnā€™t rly matter though bc weā€™re not planning on targeting him so if he does get immunity itā€™s whatever. šŸ¤·šŸ¤·
Pedro A
Is this Ā a jokkeeee..I'm with graeeeee .....I'm so unlucky...I'm honestly doneeee..like wtf...what did I do to deserve this ass...gods please help..
Kalle N
I don't know if you're familiar with the show New Girl or not, but it's my favorite show of all time and I'm going to use an example from it to explain how I feel. In New Girl, Nick Miller once said "I'm so sick of the lying... and the manipulating .. Ā and the out-manipulating". I'm lying and holding so much different info from different people and groups of people that my brain is going to explode. Can't wait to see what Aimee will be like but oof this is getting crazy
Olivia A
I take back what I said Codyā€™s vibes are immaculate šŸ¤ 
Aimee
Haha Iā€™m an idiot. I just sat there at the auction staring at the void. I think Iā€™m still so shook I made it to merge that I just stare into the blankness instead of doing anything. Dang, I wish I would of gotten that envelope. I need that extra vote man. I donā€™t want that extra going to the Suite life of Zack and Cody. I feel like they are still a big threat to my game even if we are being friendly right now. I donā€™t necessarily believe in this old Hanuha strong alliance. Iā€™m skeptical, the game of survivor is so complex and I donā€™t want to play this simple, it has burned me before. With this immunity challenge for me Kalle would be a simple vote to get out now. But now I have to work with her to get immunity. Damn. We will see how this goes. Your lady is gonna to try her best no matter what. No throwing challenges here , in this house.Ā 
Zack M
literally fml. i didn't get anything the auction which i don't care about tbh. but now it's our first INDIVIDUAL IMMUNITY CHALLENGE but we have to work in pairs. individual immunity challenge .... in pairs. i know. seems like kindergarten knowledge that we would work alone but like whatever. i'm partners with amy. she fucked over najwah and james. i hear she doesn't respond and she didn't even complete the last challenge. i guess i will be doing this alone. flashback to high school when i did all the group projects. this is kind of mean. amy could be a sweetheart of a person. she's been nothing but nice to me. and i did reach out to her this morning because her facial expressions during tribal do crack me up. so if you read this amy, know that my frustration isn't with you personally ... it's how you've played the game so far from what i've been able to see. + that our first individual immunity challenge isn't individual at all. whatever.Ā 
Sarah
AHHH, itā€™s Merge time! Iā€™m so excited that I, along with most of my alliance, made it to Merge. Definitely sad about James being voted out at the last vote since he was one of my closest allies in the game but thanks for giving me coins and helping me get the idol James! šŸ˜Š Maybe Amy has put a target on her back after playing steal a vote and can be an ā€œeasyā€ first vote for the majority of people on our new tribe. Well, there was definitely a lot to catch up on in a week and I talked with Cody for quite awhile last night and he filled me in. He let me know that Ben confided in him and said he didnā€™t trust Zack fully either. Cody of course hasnā€™t completely trusted Zack this whole game so at some point, Iā€™m sure everyone will vote out Zack. But for now, our alliance and former Hanuha tribe is staying strong. Like Iā€™ve said, I feel like Cody and I are in one of the best positions in the game because of our connections with so many others. Aimee feels close to me, Najwah feels close to Cody, and Ben and Zack feel close to us. I have also had some communication with Grae and feel like I can talk with her. I do think there is an alliance between Grae, Maddison, Olivia, and maybe Amy though. This next challenge and tribal will be interesting for sure with a 6/6 tribe split. Olivia A.For this challenge Iā€™m paired with Cody. Iā€™m not really excited about it. I donā€™t have anything against him but Iā€™ve never interacted w this man before and I donā€™t want to help him get immunity! He seems rly nice and funny I just feel like itā€™s gonna be awkward and also I have 0 ideas. Doesnā€™t rly matter though bc weā€™re not planning on targeting him so if he does get immunity itā€™s whatever. šŸ¤·šŸ¤·
Sarah
FUCCKK. I didnā€™t buy anything in the auction except for a ticket with the VL (which Iā€™m honestly thrilled about that). I definitely thought there would be 10 items, I learned my Survivor auction lesson.... So much has happened in the past hour I- Cody got an extra vote which he told me and then we discussed whether we should tell the whole group or not. I encouraged him to share it because it would keep our Hanuha tribe from getting paranoid at this first vote if they knew we had that advantage. We donā€™t want Zack to get paranoid and flip... So. Zack messaged Cody about Najwah sharing with him about what the necklace meant. Zack said that the necklace had to be used with an idol and would be like a super idol that can be played after the votes are read. But if Naj holds on to it, she gets a 5% disadvantage each week. Najwah didnā€™t message Cody about it and he was hurt and didnā€™t know if he could trust her. Cody asked Najwah and at first she said it was just a cursed necklace with a disadvantage and then later shared with him about using it with an idol. So we have no idea what is the truth and if Zack and Naj are closer than we think... but Zack literally wanted to vote Naj out so I have NO idea what to think anymore. Iā€™m also worried that James shared with Naj he had shared 5 coins with me because they got close and now she may think I have an idol.... asdfghjkl. Cody also wants to start a group of 3 with Ben, him, and I but we donā€™t know if that will expose Cody and I and if Ben would share that with Zack. Sooo much uncertainty. Merge is CRAZY.Ā 
Grae G
Pedros my partner which sucks for him bc of my disadvantage :///
Najwah
Ā I'm so happy about having Sarah as a partner in this challenge. Also awesome that I'm able to give people a 10% advantage. So Amy and I are secretly chatting. Initially I was ready to just blindside her and get her out but she's giving me the tea from the inside lmao and we are sharing ideas and hyping each other up and I love that. Pedro started talking to me too and we kinda connected. I told Amy the 10% in giving is for her and Zack and I'm telling Zack it's because I don't want to give Maddison, Grae or Olivia an advantage so Ben and Cody don't benefit from my advantage either. Aimee, Sarah, Zack, Amy and I do however and these are all people I'm willing to work with in the future. I have to play this very carefully. I THINK people trust me right now, but I suspect they're extremely weary. I don't want to be messy so I am sticking to HanĆŗha, Amy African Queen alliance and I'll listen and entertain Pedro if he wants to talk. He just needed to vent and I really think he's a genuine person. Not sure what he's going to be like now that he's working with someone he "Hates" and is "dead to him" yep my guy is hella dramatic. I feel for him though, I do. It's a game of survivor yes but the constant lying and betrayal affects one psychologically. It's important to still treat each other like humans and be kind. I feel okay right now. I think I'm in an okay position right now.Ā 
Olivia A
I take back what I said Codyā€™s vibes are immaculate šŸ¤ 
Sarah
Cody, Ben, and I formed a three person alliance tonight and I honestly feel really good about it. Cody and I were worried that it might expose Cody and Iā€™s closeness but we both really trust Ben and want to talk through things and work with him. Ben brought up the point of causing chaos at the first tribal so the former Maola tribe can play advantages/idols and we can flush some of them out. I think that will be a good plan. We will get more information tomorrow and then make a decision when we go to tribal. I still havenā€™t told Ben about my idol yet and I feel like I may but I just want to make sure sure sure that he wouldnā€™t tell anyone else... After talking with Ben, Cody and I called for another hour and seriously, our friendship goes beyond this game. Itā€™s so crazy how someone can become your best friend in a couple weeks. We obviously want to get to final three/two together and donā€™t care about voting each other out (if there was a million dollars up for grabs yeah I would want to vote Cody out šŸ˜‚). We want to go down as the best dynamic duo.Ā 
Pedro A
really GRAE an disadvantge??????....CHILLLLEEEEE....my luck...im literally so unlucky.....anyways lets try to win either way Im so not confidente about this challenge and about the next tribal jeez...this will be a long ride
Cody A
https://youtu.be/cAF4L9RNlHg
Pedro A
me and grae did fine.....i really liked our ideia....i hope the judges like it too......IM SO NERVOUS...after this challenge chilllee...IT WILL be a mess
Olivia A
Iā€™m excited for merge but not sure if weā€™ll able to get numbers together and have a majority.
Olivia A
Working with Cody on this challenge was a lot of fun!! Weā€™re not in the same alliance but if Iā€™m in a position where I do need to strategically work with him later on Iā€™m confident that wonā€™t be too difficult. Also I love what we made lol.Ā 
Grae g
Amy got immunity which is very sexy Zack not so much but you know heā€™s not an active target ((yet))
Kalle N
Ok I literally had to make a chart to keep track of which lies I'm telling to which people bc this is getting WILD. Basically, Ben and I are trying to organize a Grae blindside without Grae knowing anything. If all goes according to plan, we have the numbers to make it happen without me even having to vote for Grae, which will make Maddison and Olivia still trust me. We're also trying to get Maddison to play her idol so we're pretending that her name is being thrown out. In order for this to work we NEED Aimee so tomorrow we're trying to pit her against Grae and make her think that Grae is just using her as a number and wants to get rid of her. I also have to keep talking to Pedro and just make sure he doesn't spread any info or find anything out. Bc he could topple this whole thing. I've also told everyone that I have a fake idol when it's actually real, and Grae is the only one who knows it's real. So if we vote them out and they haven't told anyone else, then that secret dies with them and I'm golden. Even Ben thinks my idol is fake. I'M OUT HERE PLAYING 11TH DIMENSIONAL CHESS rn
Zack M
to quote the great philosopher t-pain, "all i do is win win win...." dude. what?! i won the first "individual" immunity challenge?! this is so wild to me. najwah and sarah's was so cute. i want the little bead man najwah made of me. she really called me an #EMOGAY ... love to see it. back to my work though ... look ... was amy my first choice? no. literally no offense to you amy because you were actually a delight to work with because you allowed me to do what i wanted to do. the secret to a relationship with me is to let me have my way. you did and LOOK AT GOD you're safe. i know i'm a threat in this game and the second i don't win i will be in the mouths of everyone ... im including my alliances in that statement. like why would you want to keep me in this game with my track record? i guess for a shield? seems risky to me. i would 100% blindside me. i would like to take a second and talk to one of the judges from this challenge: dear raffy, lord where do i even start. this is an online game of survivor that's happening while everyone is also living real life. i'm not sure what you expected from people but like damn dude ... you were really acting like you were a guest judge on america's got talent or something. make way for TRYra banks. he called himself "a moment" in his bio. let me tell you that no people wait a lifetime for a moment like this. i can't. lol. you literally gave me a 6 for appeal but gave a computer generated buzzfeed quiz a 9. these judges should really have to explain their scores live in my opinion. ALSO JUDGES SHOULD NOT BE PEOPLE WHO ARE DRAFTING PLAYERS!!! now, i'm not saying they are cheating. (please do not edit this out because i just learned that was a thing from najwah. i will share whatever is missing from my confessions on twitter or somewhere if it isn't here when posted.) it seems a lot of this game is "in the family" and i don't like that. it's hard to be unbiased. but back to raffy ... you said i should have included the entire tribe or created a whole deck. sir ... 1. this is an INDIVIDUAL IMMUNITY CHALLENGE that i already had the displeasure of working on with someone else. it should have just been me on that card tbh. i'm tired of having everything comeback to a tribe. this isn't pre-merge. 2. create a whole deck? this was not some copy and paste art project. i did EVERYTHING including writing out the text on the cards instead of typing it out. now that that's out of my system .. jesus .. i don't even know where to begin with the vote. ben and i have decided to start floating maddison and olivia's names around. this will hopefully scare maddison into using whatever her MAYBE advantage from the auction is. let's flush that out. BUT the target i believe is going to be grae. we're not going to share that until later because we don't know if they're are any moles in the group. omg i just thought, what if her advantage is to steal immunity away from a player at tribal. i don't think that's ever been a thing but like maybe on this fucked up online version it could be. you just never know what to expect. hopefully everything goes according to plan and i just get to chill and see where everyone stands in the game .... and then i win again next time.Ā 
Pedro A
I dont like that Amy came to talk to me.....seems suspicious...expecially because amy and najwah for sure have an allience...LOL.....i dont even know what to say..........i think im going tonight...maybe im just being paranoid....But i have this feeling....and hey its my 3rd tribal....3 times its a charm LOL
Amy A
So my little alliance with Najwah is brewing šŸ˜‚. Weā€™re super close and tell each other everything and I think this is the best move Iā€™ve made since the game started. Also, I won immunity šŸŽ‰. Najwahā€™s advantage really helped. Cos thatā€™s what boosted us. Unless no one tells me sheā€™s the vote, sheā€™s NOT going home tonight. I feel really great for tonightā€™s tribal and canā€™t wait to see whatā€™s next.
Pedro A
but im 95% sure najwah..and amy are working a together...like amy came to talk to me...while najwah was online....and it seemed like shes was comparing notes ..to what i said to najwah lol
Pedro A
it feel like Najwah came to supervise me and to get me to throw out a name...LIKE GURLLLL...you think im stoopid?....I HAVE A BAD FEELING...i think its me tonight...chilleeee...which is dumb tbh....cause theres bigger fish...
Pedro A
I feel like najwah...doesnt trust me........like shes always...suspicous of me ...i dont like that....like im paranoid...but she is AN INVESTIGATORĀ 
Pedro A
IM going homeeee FUCKKK
Pedro A
Theory confirmed...CHILLEE...kalle told me....and Grae, Maddison, or Olivia, are planning to vote my ass out...like gurl....and apparently the other tribe was also considering voting my ass out also...wtffff...IM AT ROCK BOTTOM...and im not even playing both sides...i just want grae maddison and olivia out LOL
Pedro A
GraeĀ“s ass better leave...i worked so mf hard on that challenge...and got a disadvantge from them ...and now they are trynna vote me out...LIKE chillleee wtf
Maddison
I! Still! Want! Pedro! Gone! Also hi Zack youā€™re the clear ringleader but youā€™ll be knocked out soon enough my guy
Olivia A
Hiii so itā€™s looking like weā€™re going for Pedro. I think we have a solid 6 and hopefully 7 if we can get Aimee to get Sarah in with us. This vote feels really important bc itā€™s gonna establish who has the majority. Although, anyone could flip at any time. WHO KNOWS!!Ā 
Kalle N
So last night I was stressing and now I've actually decided to just pass away. This is getting insane. I told Pedro about the Grae vote and he's in, I just have to babysit him and make sure that he doesn't say a word about it to anyone. We also NEED Cody to use his extra vote. I need to throw away my vote on someone that Amy could vote for bc I'm gonna have to throw blame on her after this if this actually works out. The lying is really getting on top of me bc I have to say different things to different people but here we are. Very big tribal tonight
Maddison
I wish some people would realize that if youā€™re not on top, youā€™re on the bottom & getting played.Ā 
Amy A
The votes are a MESS lemme tell you! The names are Pedro and Grae. Weā€™re tryna use Cody as our decoy vote. The actual mess is in who weā€™re gonna involve and everyone tryna downplay their closeness to people on the other side. OG Maola tea-time seems to be working well together and have all agreed on Pedro. Maddison has taken a step back from the aggressive role cos I think she has seen that itā€™d make her a target. I honestly wouldnā€™t mind voting her out someday because sheā€™s GOOD. I just want us all to get through this tribal and see where the lines fall.Ā 
Amy A
Najwah is an actual rockstar šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚. She and I are basically a tag team at this point. Our private messages are actually lit. Nothing is off topic and literally everything I hear, I tell her. The best part is always blaming the things I know from her from our Palena swap tribe on James. I always say ā€˜James told me ...ā€™ and itā€™s HILARIOUS. People may have doubted at the beginning but I think that now, no one even thinks we work together. We nicknames Zack and Pedro ā€˜Dynamic DĆŗoā€™ and I basically love her. Sheā€™s my spirit animal.Ā 
Olivia A
Hiii so itā€™s looking like weā€™re going for Pedro. I think we have a solid 6 and hopefully 7 if we can get Aimee to get Sarah in with us. This vote feels really important bc itā€™s gonna establish who has the majority. Although, anyone could flip at any time. WHO KNOWS!!Ā 
Olivia A
The vote is still Pedro but our fake-out vote is Cody. I completely trust the people Iā€™m working with but Iā€™m getting a gut feeling that this isnā€™t going to work out in our favor. Just bc the numbers arenā€™t quite secure yet. But Iā€™ll just stick w the plan and stay hopeful :/
Kalle N.
kinda bummed we didn't get to pull off the Grae blindside tonight and give Pedro the idol that no one knows about :( But I'm more bummed that Zack was treating anyone the way he did so good riddance I guess. The PB & K alliance is hopefully going to be the undercover move making force that we need to keep our momentum going forward. Unfortunately I do have to work with Ben for right now since I'm definitely on the bottom of my other alliances. It'll be interesting to see what happens next
Pedro A
SOOO this was a mess....i was going homeee tonight.........this wholee situation saved my damn lifeeee.....lets hope this was only a situational thing....and next round is someone different....i doubt it...but still......im so shocked about zack...also can i say that my nĀŗ1s change every elimination ..like now its kalle and ben ...i trust them..they had my best interest in mind....im sorry to whoever is reading this...i dont like making long texts in english..and im not good with essays.. SORRY
Aimee
Iā€™m not sure where I left off in my last confessional lol so Iā€™ll start here It was a lot of fun working with Kalle on the coloring and poem projects. I really liked her haiku and her originality of it. I hope she becomes more confident in her creative writing. Iā€™m happy that we got 3rd overall. This morning I heard Graeā€™s name get thrown around. Haha I literally almost cried when I heard that. Iā€™m not normally an emotional person but I feel like Grae and I have such a special connection and I donā€™t want to lose it so soon. They are a joy to talk with everyday and I might honestly have a little crush forming. ā˜ŗļøšŸ˜… Their energy matches no other that I talk to in this game. šŸ¤© It was so nice getting reached out to by Grae and Maddison on how they wanted to vote Pedro out. It was such a relief to finally get included in a vote. I am working closely with Ben in this game. Our main thing is that no one can know we are working together so that we can hear information from all sides of the game. He is someone that I can spill my guts to about ANYTHING game related and I know that he is in it with me for the long haul. Thereā€™s so much we know about Ā each other that itā€™s almost impossible to betray each other without burning each other to the ground! Not that I would want to! He is such a sweetheart and I love him to bits! Haha itā€™s hard to keep track of the days at this point. We video chat a lot and I really enjoy his company! Iā€™m happy we both made it to merge and together we can turn this game upside down. Sarah and I call ourselves Team Casanova! The flash game queens! šŸ‘‘ I love talking with her about outside of the game stuff. Itā€™s was so great having her on Maola with me and now merge. We have built such a strong relationship and I really think she is someone I can trust through the end!!!! I really enjoy Maddison too. She seems so down to earth and easy to talk to. Iā€™m glad she sees me as an ally and am excited to see how far she is willing to work with me. Shout out to my girl Najwah! I had no idea what all she was going through and Iā€™m so happy that the emotional threat to her well being is out of this game. She is such a gem and I hope we get to work together more in the future. Iā€™m honestly happy Zack is out of the game. I donā€™t enjoy hearing what all he was saying about contestants and the host. This game is meant for fun. I hope with him being out the game will be less stressful for us all. Iā€™m just so sorry to hear about what people on my old Hanuha chat had to go through, it sounds even worse than how I felt about things. It breaks my heart and Iā€™m relieved for this reset in the game where we can all air things out and come together. I love everyone here and Iā€™m so happy Jay has decided to recruit me. These friendships I have made and continue to make have been such a joy this summer. Your lady is strong and I will keep fighting for that immunity. āœŒļø
Najwah
these past 24 hours have been the craziest ever and I have experienced a whirlwind of emotions, all while forgetting to eat, barely sleeping ans having not got out of bed today. Let me start from the beginning, hopefully I remember it all. Let me grab some snacks too. So it started with our first reward challenge. The auction. zack immediately asked me what I got and everyone else were sharing their bid items in the old hanuha group chat so in a panic, I told him. In retrospect, I should have lied. Anyway, zack made me doubt my trust in Cody so i decided not to tell Cody the truth about the necklace, i would learn that zack had told cody about my necklace almost immediately. But more on that later. Anyway, in a panic, i told ben too. lmao. Why? who knows? But i suppose it was an opening and Ben and i Could talk for the first time. Why am i writing this at 12 am on like2 hours sleep? who knows? Okay so then the reward challenge comes up and I am paired with Sarah. I end up having the best day ever. I had so much fun creating and chatting to sarah. We just spoke about life, absolutely nothing game related. For the first time in this entire game, I felt as though we could actually WIN and for the first time, I was having THE BEST DAY. I gave each of my 8bit survivor characters little haikus. It was funny, if i say so myself. Me? I love my silly humour. Okay this page is cutting me off I will write these in parts.Ā 
Najwah
Before the challenge due date yesterday, Cody messages me and of course I am pleasantly surprised as I have felt like things were a bit off between Cody and I since merge happened. He said he wants to call and it ends up being one of the most emotional calls i have had in a while, even in real life. Through our call, we realised that we have basically had the same gut feelings about zack and his behaviour for a while now and we spoke about how zack has been trying to pit us against each other, how controlling and jealous and manipulative he is. We basically realised that the reason we have been so mentally exhausted was BECAUSE of Zack's paranoia. zack spoke so much game. we were constantly being bombarded and had our trust and loyalty questioned and he thought nothing about throwing My or Cody's names out. All of this just validated and reaffirmed our feelings towards Zack and we decided there and then that we would vote Zack out ASAP. As we were talking, the reultsof the challenge were released and lmao what are the chances that FRIGGEN ZACK WINS IMMUNITY URGGGHHHH. We were reeling and i so much wanted to decompress with Cody but then I had my meeting with the VL draft people so I had to reframe my mindset. Bare in mind that this is all happening at 4am and im under the blankets, with a warm bean bag because it is freezing out. NajwahI actually loved my conference call with Ellie, Raffy and Tim. What awesome people. I wish i wasn't as distracted or could articulate better because I feel as though my mind was all over the place but i also took the opportunity to ask for their advice and guidance post my call of revelations with Cody. It was still fresh in my mind and they gave me some GOOD pointers. They also told me how I should approach the game moving forward. I loved how they all had such different approaches. Raffy made me laugh so much. They told me how to deal with Zack too. So some other ish went down after this call.Ā 
Najwah
Cody calls me and is like "lets get on a three way call with Sarah" After gushing about how much we love each other and how we have been on the same page for such a long time, Sarah throws an idea out that sticks. WHY NOT VOTE PEDRO OUT TO ISOLATE ZACK SINCE WE CANNOT VOTE ZACK. And we spent a lot of time freaking out and laughing about how we are going to do that. Cody was frustrated that everyone just assumed he and Zack were a duo and I said its because "Zack and Cody" to which Cody replied "Well this definitely aint the sweet life." Later I suggested that we call the group Mr Moseby and Cody said it was perfect as Zack was the bane of Mr Mosebys existance. Everytime i think about it I laugh. We spoke until my battery died, which was around 6am. I didnt sleep much because I was tasked to get a name out of pedro. I think i was messy there because Pedro accused me of being acting "like a supervisor and demanding a name from him like he is a ring leader" and honestly, it made me laugh so much. He is so dramatic I can't deal. Anyway, he knew what I was trying to do and he called me out and I apologised and honestly felt bad about the whole thing. In the end, I am happy we didn't vote him out. He has loose lips but he is very honest and I like that.
Najwah
So i feel as though there are so many things that happened simultaneously today. Amy L and I are working together on the side, she gives me all the ex maola tea. She told me Maddison has an idol. I haven't used this information yet and I won't now because it will raise questions. I told her that some of us are willing to vote Zack. The funny thing about our chats is that Amy keeps saying we need to share this tea with the VL. Any bit of information I have ever given her, she tells her tribemates she got from James lmao. And whenever I talk about her, I use James and Ryan too. Our alliance is so low key and its such a safe, unpretentious space. We have the best chats and we just spill tea for information's sake. Neither of us are going to use any of the tea. It's great having an in.Ā 
Najwah
So all day Zack has been bitching about jay and Raffy and the judges and honestly, I can't even remember what else. It was as though he got a kick out of being verbally abusive. I think he watches too much trashy reality TV, there is a difference between sassy and just plain rude. I also felt that many of his comments were borderline misogynistic. also, whatever information I have given him, he used against Jay. Today was a blur and also intense and also exhausting. I went with Cody to a mall, to visit his friend at a military base, drove around with him, chatted in his room while he was drinking a whole bottle of frozen coke. Like we spoke so much and it was just Zack's constant bitching and paranoia getting to us? Like? How does one person make so many people feel uncomfortable. Cody got on a call with Ben and told him that we had been trying to vote Pedro out and ben went ballistic and said that i am being manipulated by ex moala, he didn't know that we all wanted Pedro out. It made me mad so I called Ben too and asked him why he keeps thinking I want to flip? But he gave me his word and I guess that should mean something. Today was especially exhausting because I had to pretend and entertain Zack until we voted him out. I hated every minute because usually if i find out people talk shit about me, I either talk it out or just not talk to the person at all. I couldnt do that with him. I needed him tio feel safe with me in order for us to pull of the pedro blindside. I wanted to see the look on his face when he realised wtf had just happened. Am i sad that I didn't get that satisfaction? yep.Ā 
Najwah
Do I feel Zack should have been removed? Honestly no. I don't agree with it. I think we should have worked with everyone else and voted him out. I genuinely don't think he is a horrible person. In all honesty, I wish we could have met outside this game. I feel as though the game wasn't good for him. Not that i'm trying to justify his actions but I feel as though he got too invested and was too emotionally unstable. Most of us are here to have fun. Sure, it would be nice to win but at the end of the day it's not real life and I would much rather preserve the friendships and connections I've made in this game than win. Winning is nice but it isn't everything. Am i worried about Zack and wonder whether he will have a setback of some sort? Definitely. He has spoken about his crippling anxiety numerous times, which he has also projected time and time again.Ā 
Najwah
So Cody feels bad and blames himself for all of this. I don't blame him. I feel bad too. I thought I would feel some sort of relief with zack gone, but it is just guilt. I mean the messages were still sent in confidence and I feel bad for violating his privacy. I also feel bad for entertaining him because of the game. I don't want to be playing so hard that I go against my values. It just feels weird with zack removed. Like he wont be on the jury. I can't stop wondering whether he is okay, as a human to another human. My husband says that the Russel Hantz of Tierra del fuego got removed. It made me laugh a little. He is a survivor super fan too so he is very invested in all of this. Sigh. I may have left some stuff out because its so late and just A LOT has happened but I will keep confessing as I think of things or remember things. Oh lol Ben said he would voted Zack out in a heart beat, Basically we all felt the exact same from the beginning, no one wanted to speak out in fear of being targeted.
Olivia A
The vote is still Pedro but our fake-out vote is Cody. I completely trust the people Iā€™m working with but Iā€™m getting a gut feeling that this isnā€™t going to work out in our favor. Just bc the numbers arenā€™t quite secure yet. But Iā€™ll just stick w the plan and stay hopeful :/
Sarah
From last night.... https://youtu.be/EirlyVVXDKk
Ben Kessler
Today was eventful, so I will skip to the end. Situationally, I believe I am not in a good spot at all. There are 11 people left, Pedro will receive votes next tribal, but I would like him to stay. My former tribe it seems as though everyone is closer with others than they are with me, except possibly Aimee but that's a stretch. Today could potentially crash my game. So, what do I do? Hope is not strategy. Tomorrow, I talk to others. I ensure everybody knows how close people are. I play double agent. I make sure I am at least in important conversations to merely be there. I let people know I want to be with them in a group setting. I re-establish that I am here to have a good time. At the end of the day, this both is and isn't monopoly. Strategy is involved, but the rules aren't as specific. You don't know how much money or property people are holding. Situationally, though, it is the same. You work with the hand you are dealt and I intend to make the absolute best of this hand. People will do what they want for a variety of reasons, so I need to let things roll off my shoulders, read, and react. To end this long confessional, I am not hoping for anything. I will be doing things to affect change. If I see it doesn't work, I lay low. Read and react.
Maddison
the pink house has become my safe haven. i shall inhabit her until i can no longer. thank you, pink house, for the many blessings of coins that you have given myself and my allies.
Pedro A
Okay...so i think grae maddison and olivia are voting me....and everyone else is voting maddison (if maddison doesnt use her ring)...and im voting olivia and using kalles idol....idk at this point 2 hours till tribal..and anything can change
Sarah
Plans keep changing every minute but as of right now going into this first Merge tribal, the plan is to vote out Maddison because it seems like Maddison, Grae, and Olivia want to vote Pedro so if they vote Pedro and the rest of us vote Maddison we may could blindside her and we could get an idol out of the game. If she plays an idol, then Pedro still goes home and original Hanuha is saved... but if Pedro wins immunity, of course we will have to rework everything. We may be able to do 4 for Olivia and 4 for Maddison .
Aimee
https://elysiankardia.tumblr.com/post/625017490490179584
Is this really happening? Am I going to vote for who I ACTUALLY want to vote for for once, as a treat? And I getting what I want...and controlling the vote?! Am I in the twilight zone? The name of the game now is to get all of my potential final allies to get along with each other and play nice. My hand is in so many cookie jars I have to be careful, all my relationships trust each other. I already have an army ready to strike if anyone tries to turn on me, and I was forming those relationships genuinely and BEFORE I needed them to come through for me, not last minute where trust would be harder to earn. I literally am running this vote off of Grae and Maddison and onto a different target. Hanuha is so deadest in getting one of the ā€œcore threeā€ out and this is the best I can do to protect those two but also not flip on people who I trust from my original tribe. For DAYS they have been so afraid of Grae and Maddison and Iā€™m put in massive work to divert that away from them. My plan is something right down the middle, where I get to have my cake and eat it too. I love the best of both worlds; Iā€™m Hannah Montana!
Maddison
Tonight is going to be a big one. Iā€™ve heard my name and I really donā€™t want to go home with an idol in my pocket. Better safe than sorry? Olivia AI really hope this vote works out Iā€™m NERVOUS!! Also, I worked really hard on this challenge so getting the disadvantage when I had 2 puzzles left was shitty but I donā€™t really need the immunity anyway. Still felt really good to finish it out regardless of if I win. :)
Sarah
Plans keep changing every minute but as of right now going into this first Merge tribal, the plan is to vote out Maddison because it seems like Maddison, Grae, and Olivia want to vote Pedro so if they vote Pedro and the rest of us vote Maddison we may could blindside her and we could get an idol out of the game. If she plays an idol, then Pedro still goes home and original Hanuha is saved... but if Pedro wins immunity, of course we will have to rework everything. We may be able to do 4 for Olivia and 4 for Maddison .Ā 
Amy A
Tribal again and with it, ALLLLLL the drama. So I have made a ā€˜vote fourā€™ alliance w Kalle, Ben and Pedro which is supposed to be secret. Which makes it two secret alliances Iā€™m a part of šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚. The alliance w Najwah is definitely the one Iā€™m most loyal to but Pedro and co seem like a really solid group I can work with. I didnā€™t think Iā€™d win immunity so thereā€™s that. About tonightā€™s vote, the new ā€˜core fourā€™ is aiming for Grae but in order to keep the alliance a secret, only Pedro will vote for her. Itā€™s all exciting stuff and I KNOW tonightā€™s tribal is going to be THE ONE. Cannot wait.Ā 
Olivia A
I really hope this vote works out Iā€™m NERVOUS!! Also, I worked really hard on this challenge so getting the disadvantage when I had 2 puzzles left was shitty but I donā€™t really need the immunity anyway. Still felt really good to finish it out regardless of if I win. :)
Aimee
Nooooo I didnā€™t need Olivia to win immunity. That way she is one of the ā€œcore 3 Maolaā€ out. Oh man I donā€™t think I can save my game and Maddison at the same time. I got the target off Grae after merge happened. I worked so hard for that so this all wasnā€™t for nothing. Thereā€™s like fifteen minutes before tribal and Iā€™m still not entirely sure what is going to happen.
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gontagokuhara Ā· 8 years ago
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me and @thisiswhatmylifeamountsto created a boyfriend for jared kleinman and here he is
lgbtrucy: idea: jared has the Biggest crush on one of his online gamer friends and while literally Everyone is aware hes gay (he told them all himself he wants them all to Know) he would rather die than admit he likes this online friendconnor finds out by accident. it turns wild
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Dude yes ((((((GAYmer friend)))))))) Nope you
*Nope youā€™re committed to this now - how does Connor find out?Ā 
lgbtrucy: and i feel like jared has connor and evan over around his place and theyre playing something online and jaredā€™s friend comes on and jaredā€™s immediately like ā€œevan give the controller to connor i cant look like my friends are bad at video games"and connor is like >:) whats this
and he isnt horrible at video games, he just doesnt rly care about them (and jared Knows This) so when connor starts playing the worst heā€™s ever played jared is pissed
lgbtrucy: ā€œconnor what the hell man, youā€™re making me look like shit, knock it off!!ā€
evan eventually catches on and he and connor just start. making the fuck out in the middle of the game and jared has to get his headset on and apologize to his friend
ā€œdude im so sorry my co-op is making out with his boyfriend IN MY ROOM, WHICH IS REALLY FUCKING WEIRD CONNOR, anyways sorry but hes the only one here that can play w meā€
lgbtrucy: and connor is a smug asshole so hes like ā€œoh who you talking to jared??ā€ and jared goes red as hell and is like ā€œno one just a friend onlineā€”you Were playing against him until you started fucking evan on my bedroom floorā€
and the tiniest, giggliest ā€œhotā€ comes from the headset and In That Moment, evan and connor pledge themselves to hooking jared up w this mysterious gamer boy who is so obviously perfect for jared
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: THIS IS SO GOOD IM CACKLING AND CRYING Please tell me more about the adventures of Jared and mysterious gamer boy
lgbtrucy: ok So jared and mystery boy
lgbtrucy: his name is elliot, heā€™s half-korean, and i love him
lgbtrucy: hes goofy and more conventionally funny as opposed to jared, whoā€™s funny by being kind of mean and using crude humor
lgbtrucy: anyways later on, evan is over at connorā€™s house and they break out connorā€™s scarcely-used xbox and send a friend request to elliot
once theyre friends, they sort of keep up appearences for a little while, playing games with him and eventually moving into text chatting and talking on headsets (connor had to spend $50 on a new headset. he was not pleased)
lgbtrucy: and one day they not-so-casually let slip the fact that they were ā€œthe guys who were fucking on jaredā€™s floorā€ (evan nearly choked when elliot said that) and elliot is like !! ā€œno way!! you guys are friends with jared?ā€
lgbtrucy: and because evan is a #good friend hes talking jared up ā€œoh yeah jared is like my best friend, heā€™s so funny and cool and really good at video gamesā€ and elliots just ā€œyeah, i know rightā€ all dreamily and connor + evan know their plan is gonna Work
lgbtrucy: and connor says ā€œmaybe you two should meet up or something, i heard theres a convention or whatever near here this weekendā€ and elliot is like ā€œ!!heck yeah i just gotta ask my momā€
lgbtrucy: fastforward to the con: connor and evan are being dragged around by jared while he shows off excitedly but he suddenly halts when connor calls out, ā€œhey, elliot.ā€
lgbtrucy: and jared doesnt know what elliot looks like. he doesnt know that its him officially. the only reason connor and evan know is bc they traded numbers and selfies so they could find each other
and elliot yells back ā€œhey connor! hey evan!ā€ and jared Knows because he knows his voice and he is ready to Die and break evanā€™s other arm
lgbtrucy: because evan Knows hes gay and even if he would rather cut off his own foot than admit he actually Likes elliot, evan knew that he thought really highly of him and What The Fuck evan???
lgbtrucy: and elliot approaches and looks at jared all smiles and asks him ā€œjared?ā€ and jared just kind of dazedly nods and elliot Lights Up and hugs him (jared nearly collapses) and is like ā€œoh my god man im so excited to meet you!!!! i was looking forward to this all week since evan and connor told me about this!!!ā€ and jared gives them A Look but hes lowkey happy
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Honestly this was all I ever wanted wow
lgbtrucy: so the four of them walk around the con, connor and evan kinda trailing behind because elliot is talking to jared about the mechanics behind some game they both like and how calculating the math of it made him really good, and it helps him w his adhd, and theyre all happy and gay(jared gets elliots number later)(and the rest is history) in conclusion im very passionate about jared and his gamer bf
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: That was beautiful I also applaud your dedication I am also v passionate about Jared and his gamer boyfriend tbh
lgbtrucy: #givejaredaboyfriend2k17
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Now that is a cause I can get behind Iā€™m kinda laughing at imagining gamer bf finding out about jaredā€™s obsession with bath bombs
lgbtrucy: jared whispers ā€œlove the cronchā€ and everyone else loses it but elliot is just ?? ā€œwhat????ā€
lgbtrucy: its explained to him and more than anything hes confused about why he would waste a $10 bath bomb by eating it
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Honestly so am I Wtf Jared But just think about Connor embarrassing Jared as much as possibleĀ 
Because like Heā€™s done the nice bit by getting them to meet And now he can be a little shit
lgbtrucy: ā€œdear elliot cho weā€™ve been way too out of touch Ā life has been crazy and it sucks that we dont talk that much. but i should tell you that i think of you each night; i rub my nipples and start moaning in delightā€ ā€œCONNOR WHAT THE F U C K NOā€
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Iā€™M CRYING NO I CANā€™T THAT WORKS SO WELL
lgbtrucy: while jared is Suffering elliot is just delighted at how cute he is ā€œdont be embarrassed man its cute!!ā€
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: ((((((Dammit why am I so attached to this fictional fictional character))))) Also On the list of things I want for no particular reason Alana + Elliot brotp
lgbtrucy: YES they both talk a lot but theyre both very on par with each other intelligence wise so it balances out??
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Yes yes yesĀ 
They do that thing where they both speak over each other a lot but theyā€™re both happy because theyā€™re enjoying what theyā€™re talking about Plus Elliot is the one who gets her to call her friends her friends instead of her acquaintances
lgbtrucy: ye hes a good influence on everybody but everybody is Not a good influence on him
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto:Ā Tell me more?
lgbtrucy: connor gets him high and he nearly drowns himself trying to race connor in a swimming contest
lgbtrucy: jared fucks his sense of humor for good. everytime someone mentions the word ā€œdickā€ he laughs for ten minutes straigh
tzoe convinces him to dye his hair baby pink. she messes up the dying process and he ends up with electric pink hair
evan and alana are the only good influencesĀ 
tbhthisiswhatmylifeamountsto: So far heā€™s got bright pink hair, laughing at dicks and drowning Amazing ((((OK but Jared being a little shit all the time But when Elliot thinks heā€™s going to far He gives Jared a look Like a LOOK And Jared is sort of like Oh shit OK That was pretty fucked up Sorry))))
lgbtrucy: yes!! he uses that look a Lot when connor and jared are in the same room
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Oh yeah definitely But one time Jared, Connor, Elliot and Evan are together for a while And Elliot doesnā€™t have to use the look once And heā€™s really damn impressed
lgbtrucy: jared gets an extra round of smorches. jared decides he likes that better than fucking w connor
thisiswhatmylifeamountstoYes But Connor is really confused??? Because like Sure Jaredā€™s better with Elliot But suddenly heā€™s a downright angel??? And itā€™s weird But one day when Connor is feeling like shit Jared genuinely helps him out And Connor doesnā€™t care what happened It happened And itā€™s good
lgbtrucy: they still fuck w each other but its more lightheartedĀ 
nowthisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Like more ā€œHey Iā€™m kinda being mean to you but itā€™s ok because we both know we love each other But in a heterosexual way Because we would never date Ever No Stop thinking about it"Ā 
Honestly Elliot sometimes questioned whether he should wonder if Jared was cheating on him but he A) trusted Jared B) could see how in love Connor was with Evan
lgbtrucy: he realizes even tho theyre being nicer to each other they could never date. they get caught at evans house together when a bad storm hits and they have to stay overnight and by the time they leave theyre beginning to go at each others throats so. no chemistry there
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Accurate Wait crap what about the Evan + Elliot brotp
lgbtrucy: they get along rly well honestly theyre good influences
elliot hasĀ adhd so he Knows how it feels when things become too much nd they can bond over similar experiences
lgbtrucy: good friends 10/10 would brotp
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: I feel like their friendship is really pure Like half the time their conversations are just a bunch of compliments thrown at each other? Honestly Iā€™m convinced that Elliot is my fave and this is really bad
lgbtrucy: elliot is the unproblematic fave
he just likes video games and his friends and his bf
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: ok but Elliot not having any close friends Heā€™s that guy who chats to everyone but has noone to confide in etc And then he finds some online But itā€™s still not the same And suddenly he has five??? And like They all really like him Like obviously he knew Jared And he got to know Connor and Evan But Zoe and Alana love him too And Iā€™m just such trash for this au wow
lgbtrucy:Ā ELLIOT LOVES ALL OF HIS BEST FRIENDS
when someone asks who his bff is he cant choose"oh man i dont know!! i love all my friends the same theyre all really greatā€ (crying boyfriend sounds in the distance)
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Honestly every time Elliot does something really sweet/pure/nice Jared cannot handle it At all Because !!!! MY !!!!!!!! BOYFRIEND !!!!! HEā€™S SO CUTE But going back to drunk Jared Imagine drunk Jared with sober Elliot
lgbtrucy:Ā "HI DID YOU KNOW I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND ELLIOT HES REALLY NICE AND CUTE AND R ES LLY GOOD AT VIDEO GAMESā€
lgbtrucy: ā€œoā€¦.oh really?ā€ elliot is dying blushing at this point
ā€œYEA HES REALLY GOOD DID YOU KNOW HE USES MATH AND SHIT TO PLAY VIDEO GAMES? IT SOUNDS LAME BUT HES RESLLY GOOD. AND ALSO VERY CUTE DID I MENTION I LOVE MY BOYFRIEJD HIS NAME IS ELLIOTā€
someone (probably connor or zoe) is recording at this point. evan is near tears lauging. elliot is In Love
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: When Jared watches the video in the morning he gets really nervous because he hasnā€™t seen Elliot that morning But when he does ā€œSo I hear you have a boyfriend named Elliot and heā€™s really cute? Interestingly enough I have a boyfriend named Jaredā€™s whoā€™s really cute - look how much we have in commonā€ And Jared dies
lgbtrucy: DHSHSHS YES THATS SO CUTE (connor posts the video. it goes semi-viral. jared dies for a different reason)
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: (Jared moans that heā€™s lost all of his street cred Nobody has the heart to tell him he never had any in the first place) OK but how often do Jared and Elliot so theyā€™re going on a date And then the next day everyone finds out the ā€˜dateā€™ consisted of beating each other at every single video game either of them owned
lgbtrucy: elliot is always swooning over these ā€œsuper romanticā€ dates and everyone is like ??? jared?? ROMANTIC??? and its a big thing trying to find out just what jared and elliot do
turns out these romantic dates are playing video games for 10 hours and then going to mcdonalds at 3 am and sharing a milkshake
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Like when they find out everybody sort of wonders why they expected anything elseĀ 
They met in person at a con through a shared love for video games after about three months of planning because neither of them wanted to make a move
lgbtrucy: elliot, unironically: jared is the most romantic person in the world everyone: that sounds fake but ok
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: But I feel like Jared would be a really attentive bf Like he actually pays attention to whatā€™s going on in Elliotā€™s life Like the day he has a big exam he has everything 100% prepared to congratulate him/cheer him up depending on how it went
lgbtrucy: hes a really good bf but only likeā€¦..secretly. he has to keep up his Insanely Cool Jared Kleinman appearance
physical affection is where he hesitates tho hes v awkward with holding hands/kissing/cuddling. elliot has to initiate all of it
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: Elliot so called him that once to make fun of him but itā€™s stuck now and they canā€™t get Jared to stop coming into a room announcing himself as the INSANELY COOL JARED KLEINMANĀ 
Elliot felt awkward about it first because he wasnā€™t sure whether Jared was comfortable with it and he didnā€™t want to make Jared feel bad But then they have a long, way-overdue talk and work out how things are gonna work
lgbtrucy: its not from a lack of interest that jared doesnt initiate it he just. where do u put ur hands. is it weird to just kiss ur bf randomly. fuck evan was right hands DO get sweaty abd [panic alarm] but as soon as elliot touches him hes like ā€œniceā€ and is totally into it
thisiswhatmylifeamountsto: OK honestly Iā€™m so sad that Elliot doesnā€™t exist heā€™s literally Jaredā€™s ideal boyfriend this is such a travesty
lgbtrucy: make elliot famous
THE ELLIOT PROJECT
except its me posting at 2 am about how much i love him
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nozomijoestar Ā· 4 years ago
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For the character ask thing, bestie:
Joseph Joestar, Guts Berserk, Entrapta, and Nozomi Tojo (bc her special day yesterday šŸ˜©)
Yehas...
Joseph the Himbo:
who? | only know their name | loathe | ugh | overrated | indifferentĀ | dead | aliveĀ | just okayĀ | cute | badass | my baby | hot |Ā want to marry |Ā favoriteĀ 
Ups and downs with this man over his appearance changes in each part cuz Araki loves throwing curveballs be it coerced by the editors or just himself (cheated on Suzie Q like Rly...Rly? šŸ¤Ø) and forgetting but like, Part 2 is still special to me bc it's The Joseph Show as I've heard sb who doesn't like Pt 2 say, and it's SO entertaining to see him at his peak bullshittery while still seeing his moments of nobility and being humble because under everything he's still got a compassionate streak even if his temper can get the best of him- Lisa Lisa, Speedwagon, Wham, Erina, and Caesar make him great as a protagonist too for what they each push out of him as he matures and without them I think he'd be entertaining but shallow after a while
Also I love Battle Tendency and it is decades old at this point and Araki as a person seems to have changed but the inclusion of Nazis as allies is another mark of how venerated they are not only in Japan's Far Right but it's pop culture and nerds too since in being part of the Axis Japan decided to scrub a lot of their evils and Germany's from school history books Post War creating entire ignorant generations, I'm sure it's a mix of people who genuinely were never taught the truth and are very ignorant and those who do know but justify uplifting it somehow if only for like aesthetics at expense of being a fucking decent human being
I get so excited remembering Part 2's action and fun that I almost live in a world where the Nazi Allies don't exist and then I Remember šŸ˜”
Guts:
who? | only know their name | loathe | ugh | overrated | indifferentĀ | dead | aliveĀ | just okayĀ | cute | badass | my baby | hot |Ā want to marry |Ā favoriteĀ 
KING KING KING KINGHDHDJ
This man has it ALL, this man's example wrote the standard for almost EVERY piece of dark fantasy Japanese media after 1989 and even beyond Berserk's genre and overseas. People can go their entire lives not knowing who he is but his character influenced the creation of their own favorite series, imagine being that powerful. Imagine Guts not existing and Final Fantasy wouldn't be what it is from 7-10 or parts of 14 (Cloud & Auron being the most obvious homages, 14 would never have had a Dark Knight class), Bleach wouldn't be what it is, Claymore would be less of an answer series without a Berserk to have posed its questions, Vagabond and Vinland Saga probably wouldn't exist etc. like?? I miss Kentaro Miura so much.
This man is about as close to perfectly human as I have ever seen in a character of any media, he's been at and encompasses an entire spectrum of humanity good and bad and between, he was one of the first protagonists who made me question the expected Western goodness of the protagonist role. Even if you don't like him there's no denying his impact. He breaks all expected genre conventions of a hero to the point of making his own, he simply Is without guiding by any archetypes.
His story is suffering yet persevering, being extremely traumatized yet healing, surviving for purposes that evolve as much as he does with what happens to him. A guy who's both active and reactionary flies in the face of Western storytelling and says it can go fuck itself. I saw so much of myself reflected in him small and large and while I'm critical of his actions (a laundry list in its own right) I still wouldn't be where or who I am today without him. He's everything, let your characters be human, strictly following archetypes and conventions is meaningless. The best story is forgetting all the shit you're taught and looking at life as you live it, the people as you encounter them, your thoughts as you reflect on them. He reinforced that in me and I'm so grateful.
Entrapta:
who? | only know their name | loathe | ugh | overrated | indifferentĀ | dead | aliveĀ | just okayĀ | cute | badass | my baby | hot |Ā want to marry |Ā favoriteĀ 
What can I say Two Trucks slaps šŸ˜©
Entrapta was such a breath of fresh air in Spop I genuinely can't imagine an Spop without her and not just bc she invented shit to advance the plot. Her humor, her intelligence, her committed responsibility to her actions, her simplicity that works for and against her, she had so much going on with so little. And whenever tensions got too crazy where she could be involved she was there with the facts and straightforward honesty to get people on track.
Without Entrapta the set ups and catapulting events of Spop wouldn't have happened or would be almost unrecognizable. It was great having a character who could stay the most grounded of everyone which made it sadder whenever she lost belief in herself.
Catra betraying her to me was the real straw to show how far she'd been pushed into her own anger, like it's Entrapta, the least egotistical person with virtually no complex agenda who had never intentionally disrespected her, the person she knew would be easy to trick for her straightforward nature and lash out at for the same. I love Catra but damn, that was fuckin dirty.
Nozomi...Nozomi šŸ˜³ā˜ŗļø
who? | only know their name | loathe | ugh | overrated | indifferentĀ | dead | aliveĀ | just okayĀ | cute | badass | my baby My King, My Muse| hot |Ā want to marry |Ā favoriteĀ 
The canvas I paint on, my anchor in uncertainty, a fabric of my identity, she's part of my everything. No character has held dominance over my life and directly shaped events I've been apart of by association as she has. When I talk about comfort characters or joke about reverse kinning she's who I'm talking about, I made her me as much as I notice and interpreted in my own depth what she has in her series.
Love Live is honestly generic with some awful messages and largely made as wank material for godawful otaku incels even at its best But in saying so it gave me so much freedom to color in the lines of Nozomi to my heart's content.
I can't put words to how important she became to me, how I first encountered her from someone evil and made her my hope, how I met and parted from dozens of people because they took interest in her then me and how I see her, there's no words for defining how differently five years of my life would have gone without her. I would be a stranger to myself if she weren't there.
Nozomi's emptiness outside a handful of traits made her a framework to find myself in even if I didn't realize it at the time. The characters I've created since her come in part from ideas I started with Nozomi, so that she's literally in everything I create one way or another, she's in my moods and my thoughts and my confidence. I've even found entire new genres of music, series, and writing styles out of devotion to defining her in my imagination. She's informed a piece of how I interpret my gender presentation and how that makes me see other women's own presentations.
A long way of saying I owe my life to one big titty fake New Age weirdo cunning lonely and emotional bastard jfhdheodjfj
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survivorwakea Ā· 5 years ago
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Episode #3:Ā ā€œNew Tribe New Tribulations.ā€ - Ben
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That joint tribal went almost perfectly besides the fact that a dean voted for me for whatever freakkkkiing reason, but I really came out of that tribal with close allys in Johnney and Chloe from the other tribes so I really think that is dope I would type more but Iā€™m shot
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wow ladies so im sitting on the toilet rn and i am fucking shaking in my boots. do u know how worried i am rn. im so worried. johnny said at the joint tribal that we were SOMEHOW not a part of that the 13 of them had already gotten to know each other and meet each other and everything that hit me rly hard bc like.... shit. shit shit fuck. fuck fuck shit. fuck. theyā€™re friends already and more likely than not lono is gonna get picked off one by one at the tribe swap or whatever im literally so scared
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Omg omg omg I just went to like my first ever live tribal and it was soooo exciting omg omg omg. I really loved having the chance to sort of better connect with these people and have a moment with them that you wouldn't otherwise have really. And, I survived so that's a massive plus as well!! Eek I'm just so excited right now to be playing this season and everyone on the other tribes seem so active and happy and I'm really looking forward to getting to know them more throughout the season. It sucks I had to lose Dean but we all have to make sacrifices somewhere.
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Just got on new tribes and Iā€™m pleased. I think I should be able to make some strong connections here. Elmoā€™s on my tribe and that really helps. Also talking to Joey and he seems pretty cool. Hopefully we do a good enough job on whatever song we choose so none of us have to go home. Hopefully Johnny, Justin, and Taylor are alright. I still kinda donā€™t know what Iā€™m doing or where I am. Didnā€™t realize until half way through the last round that all 3 tribes were at the combined tribal. I thought there were 10 of us and that it could be a split vote. True flop? Yes. Maybe Iā€™ll decide to get it together.
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After a really crazy tribal council, we swapped and to be honest I donā€™t feel as bad about this as I probably should. I feel like during the joint tribal I bonded well enough with Chloe, Thomas and Taylor where I think that if we go to a tribal I have enough bonds started that will keep me safe at least for another round and on top of that we also got Cullen on our tribe which is honestly the best case scenario because that could honestly be a free round!
Trust Rankings (Early AF) 1. Chloe 2. Thomas 3. Taylor 4. Randy Whoā€™s Cullen?
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Well I knew I was going to be talking about the swap eventually. Cullan just got evacuated which is sad and I hope he is doing okay. I'm glad I swapped with Chloe and I feel Adam and Taylor are staring to see me and Chloe as a duo, which can be either good or bad. Randy I need to talk to more. Taylor and Adam both said they would be a number to me and Chloe if we need them, but I hope to hold that off for a little while.I just want to win this next challenge and avoid tribal :)
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WHAT IN THE ABSOLUTE FUCK DOES THOMAS THINK HE IS DOING RIGHT NOW? Ā  Taylor has messaged me saying last night they spoke to Thomas about maybe us 3 working together and that Taylor thought maybe Thomas should message me first about it. But here I am with Taylor messaging me about it and no word at all from Thomas. I've given Thomas a chance to bring it up, I've been sat talking to him about how he's now finished school so he has more time to play orgs. This could so easily lead into a conversation about how Taylor messaged him. But instead he's just said "Im gonna go get a slurpee" well while you're out go find someone else to work with you because you're gonna need all the help you can get because I'm fucking coming for your bitchass now and I'm not gonna stop until it's red raw from taking all these hits from me.
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New Tribe New Tribulations. I stayed with Elmo which is good, and I have been chatting up the rest of the tribe. Jared seems nice and I've floated the idea of working with him at a potential tribal. I've talked less with Lily, but she seems nice. People I've talked the least with are Ian and Joey. Joey never responded to my messages, and Ian I just don't talk to lol. I'm pretty confident ian would stick with me and elmo and I think we could successfully target Joey, especially if we hold the milo 3 over their heads and threatened rocks.
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So, my premonition was most indeed correct. We ended up swapping from 4 tribes to 3 tribes. Not that thatā€™s a totally bad thing. I mean, looking at OG tribes on Haumea 2.0, Iā€™m in a 3-2-1 majority. And we had a music video challenge. My tribe lip synced to I Write Sins Not Tragedies. The question is, will we be pouring the champagne in victory? Or will the goddamn door be closed on one of us at tribal council?
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whew. sorry i havenā€™t made a confessional yet iā€™ve been busy. but now i feel like iā€™m gonna leave out important info so letā€™s hope i donā€™t. we swapped tribes and that was... a bummer. i had my 3 person alliance over on my other tribe and i had elmo! i miss elmo so much and just hope we meet again soon. i donā€™t really loooove my new tribe.. i like justin of course and i think iā€™ve been hitting it off with johnny. and strayed talking to anbel a bit. tried to talk to bodhi and asya but nothing really clicked. hereā€™s something interesting.. justin told me he went idol searching and he looked where i looked round one and where i found the idol. he told me that a power was there but itā€™s now gone and he told me that johnny told him he looked there but said he just drowned in the vortex and didnā€™t say anything about a power being there. so i think johnny just messed up his words but now justin thinks johnny has a power and iā€™m just letting him think that and throwing scenarios out there and i can let johnny take the blame hehe. i also went idol aka advantage searching somewhere and i got somewhere asking if iā€™d be willing to give up 2 votes. i thought about how during the joint tribal a vote was missing so i assumed whatever power is there, somebody has it. so i said nope bye i want my votes! i told justin about this so i can kinda pin asya having this power since she was at the joint tribal and sheā€™s on my tribe now so it could be a good excuse to vote her off if we ever go to tribal and i can be safe another round.
so now justin thinks johnny has the idol or some kind of power even though itā€™s really me who has it. and thinks asya has whatever power she got for giving up 2 votes. idek if asya is the one who got that power but i needed someone to pin it out so we have an excuse to vote her out and i can stay safe.
i also wanna apologize for whatever spelling mistakes i make and if i literally donā€™t make any sense at all. itā€™s so hard to type up exactly what iā€™m feeling and put it into words kdkdkdkd.
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Trust List:
1. Joey 2. Anabel 3. Elmo 4. Ben 5. Bodhi 6. Lily 7. Randy 8. Ian
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so we swapped which is great! the initial numbers are 3-2-1 and im in the 3 so that's great! however ian isnt the most socially active player so i think he could easily be the target of the 2 and the 1 and i dont think either ben or myself would want to pull a rock for him right now
i think i will hint him to get close to like lily or someone so in case we ended up losing a challenge she'd want to target joey instead of him. thats the goal. i dont want to lose ian bc basically if lily sides with joey in that situation, jared will be the decider and while i do trust jared, i think it gives him too much power yanno and it might be enticing for him to stick to his OG tribe ally rather than two ppl he met at the swap
im not sure how that will go but i hope well hehe! ALSO I FOUND AN IDOL, ZACK'S INFORMATION PULLED THROUGH!!! i havent told anyone yet, in fact host made a mistake in the beginnin sayin that it was already found and then said like 1h later, oh u actually have an idol and that got me SHOOK TO MY CORE! the awk thing is that i told ben already that i didnt find it so hdiasfahsdif! i just hope that when / if i tell him, he wont be too upset with me bc i right now i consider us p close!
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Itā€™s hot as hell where I am right now. Better to be sweating over the heat than sweating over tribal, I guess.
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I got tribe swapped fucked and im annoyed.
So i got put on a tribe full of STINKY stinky players. And the challenge is a lipsync so im like "submit the lipsyncs ASAP" and theyre practically more than useless and do nothing. So we submitted practically nothing because theyre so fucking bad at time management. And now we're at tribal.
Nobody talking to me about the vote, so I'm going home. I'll try and pull a stunt but idk. Wish me luck
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Milu 2.0...hmmm... Where do I begin? šŸ¤” So my feelings on the tribe are mixed. Adam, Tom and Chloe were all part of the previous joint tribal so I had already had conversations with all of them. It made it easier to socialize when the swap actually did happen. Tom seems like a cool cat, and I had approached him with the idea of him, Chloe and I grouping up. Chloe seemed more than okay with it, but Tom never talked to Chloe about it like he said he would. That raised some red flags for me and Chloe. Adam and Randy I didn't feel as comfortable to begin with, but in the past day or two Adam has really came around and proposed we work together. Thus CAT was born. It's maybe not something long term but I think I could have great allies in Chloe and Adam individually. Tonight's vote is probably the most uncomfortable yet. Nothing feels solid, everything feels very much in the air, even if I have a majority alliance. This game is a rollercoaster and tonight I'm teetering on the edge and I have that sinking feeling in my gut. All I can do is put blind faith in my people and hope for the best.
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Milu 2.0...hmmm... Where do I begin? šŸ¤” So my feelings on the tribe are mixed. Adam, Tom and Chloe were all part of the previous joint tribal so I had already had conversations with all of them. It made it easier to socialize when the swap actually did happen. Tom seems like a cool cat, and I had approached him with the idea of him, Chloe and I grouping up. Chloe seemed more than okay with it, but Tom never talked to Chloe about it like he said he would. That raised some red flags for me and Chloe. Adam and Randy I didn't feel as comfortable to begin with, but in the past day or two Adam has really came around and proposed we work together. Thus CAT was born. It's maybe not something long term but I think I could have great allies in Chloe and Adam individually. Tonight's vote is probably the most uncomfortable yet. Nothing feels solid, everything feels very much in the air, even if I have a majority alliance. This game is a rollercoaster and tonight I'm teetering on the edge and I have that sinking feeling in my gut. All I can do is put blind faith in my people and hope for the best.
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This confessional is for the Third cycle where the end result was 4-1 (Randy, Tom) Loosing this challenge as honestly a rally hard pill to swallow I was absolutely pissed if weā€™re being honest, pissed at the fact that the final product was my video that as supposed to get snipped and trimmed because I didnā€™t know legit anything about that song or even lii syncing. I think me competing and being the one that submitted helped me when it was time to vote somebody out because I was told by basically everyone that sending me home would have been a silly decision. I honestly think my only option was too got out Randy because I think Iā€™m solid with everybody else individually where I was trying to force something with Randy. If we lose again things will honestly go from 0 to 100 real fast as I donā€™t think anybody knows if Tom and Chloe are actually tight or what the deal is there but that will one hunger percent come in to place. All in all very successful round for me in my opinion. I think I need to be careful not to build this huge target on my back but Iā€™m staying focused and just plowing through
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https://soundcloud.com/bodhi-small/week3/s-0kmTB
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Iā€™m doing wonderful! As far as this game is concerned, Jared and I are tighter than Ralphie Mayā€™s(RIP) pants. We know what each other is doing, and we communicate CONSTANTLY. Ian is tricky to get. He just says ā€œOh, okayā€ to everything, its as if heā€™s building up a wall to prevent me from having a social game, itā€™s highkey INFURIATING. I LOVE LILY, sheā€™s an actual angel, and sheā€™s a good player. I like Elmo alot, heā€™s definitely at a disadvantage due to his timezone. As far as everyone else, Iā€™m getting closer to Asya as weā€™ve put our ā€œbeefā€ aside and we realized weā€™re friendly. Johnny and I have known each other for 3 years, he was the first person I knew in this community, he was the first person who hosted me and got me into this community, heā€™s going to always be like a brother to me.
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Cullan is removed from the game. Randy is voted out 4-1.
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survivorkomnata Ā· 6 years ago
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Episode #7:Ā "keep me because im so cute :3" - Zach
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omg i forgot to confess bc i was so busy.... so this last round was honestly p straightforward. the ~international~ alliance stuck together. i feel bad cos liam is the loml but ): a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.
lowkey pissed the other tribe didnā€™t send me to the basement. they can choke !
iā€™m nervous about the joint tribal bc letā€™s be real iā€™ll be going. iā€™m nervous for whatever tribe goes with us cos if itā€™s atilla iā€™m worried someone iā€™m close with will leave. tho honestly i would flip on stephen z. so weā€™ll see!
iā€™m feeling rly close to luke and iā€™m excited to potentially make merge w him (:
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Winning this immunity challenge is a double-edged sword. I'm immune at what will probably be a chaotic joint tribal, and LIKELY going to be making it to the merge soon. At least I hope so. But there's two major drawbacks, and I want to talk about why I'm worried about each of them.
Number one is obvious, I can't socialize with the 4 Kato members that will be at this vote. They'll be meeting 4 more original Takagi members and potentially bonding with them while I'm sitting here in what is basically exile. I need to pay even more attention to my first impressions because these players are definitely going to have some kind of deal going before I show up.
The second is just as important. i won't be at this tribal council, meaning I can potentially lose an ally here without having any ability to change plans for the better. If Karth or Ally get voted out here, my game takes a huge hit. A hit that I might have been able to prevent if I was there with Jess and Alyssa.
But, I'm gonna enjoy this safety while it lasts. I want my last few moments away from the merge to be stress free, since I know things are really going to pick up once every piece is on the board.
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i'm going to tribal for the second time this game, and it's a joint tribal. rip. i am riddled with fear and stress.
i don't think i should be targeted. i believe i've maintained a solid social game and appear as a benefit to most people. i trust karthik/tim enough to not vote me, and i think i've developed somewhat of a grounding with jake/miguel. though ally/stephen/luke may identify me as a physical threat, i think ally knows keeping me is best purely for a shield purpose.
however, there is that little voice in the back of your head. the one that says "you're a physical/social threat!" and "it's the (probable) last vote for premerge, why wouldn't they take out a threat???" - though i disagree with this logic in terms of how i feel/play orgs, you can never know until it's too late. personally, i'd be taking out a goat or someone who is playing a similar game as you. if you're a shield, take out a shield. if you're UTR social, take out another person who is UTR and social. you want to be the BEST at your role, and i don't think anyone is as big of a shield as me (atm, of course). maybe i'm overhyping my game (and p.s., in no way am i saying i'm playing a good game, i just mean physically im pretty dominant).
jake mentioned stephen being an endgame threat due to his social game and likeability. he (stephen) is someone i wouldn't mind taking out. i have no connection with him, and he has had a tendency to flip on alliances (confirmed by jake/miguel/ally; the TJ vote). it just seems too obvious.
as for my idol, i'm not sure. if the person i vote (stephen, whoever.) is idolled in any regard, i'm likely idolling. i am NOT leaving premerge with an idol - that's ugly. but it's a tribal with no advantage i fear most. i don't want to overthink it. i've wasted so many idols because i critiqued every little word + action. i want this game to be different. i'm totally using it tomorrow bc im a paranoid mess btw. but i truly would love to save this idol (if i'm safe, of course) for future use.
in the wise words (or title) of that one type of game at the killing floor in Murder Trivia on Jackbox Games:
decisions, decisionsā€¦
i KNOW I JUST I CONFESSED BUT
idk. my fear is that it's final 11 right now. merge is in the horizon. if this joint tribal (for me) was any earlier, i'd be more secured i think. they don't need me for tribal immunities anymore. so, what will they decide?? keep me because im so cute :3 or throw me in a ditch and call it a day.
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OK SO FIRST SORRY FOR THE LACK OF CONFESSIONALS I'VE BEEN SO BUSY WITH MY 1st ever THEATRE PRODUCTION. And I haven't been able to talk to anyone at all which bites. I am lucky that my team sat me out for this challenge because I woulf have flopped but we flopped anyway lol.
NOW WE'RE AT A JOINT TRIBAL NNNNNNNNN and i do not approve. ļæ½ļæ½ Jake talked to me and pushed the idea of staying with the 5 on kato 2.0. I totally agree with this but we just need to come up with a nameā€¦
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By some miracle.... Attila came together this round and... actually..beat.... the... other... two... tribes. LIKE YASSSSS QUEEN YASSSS! I'm almost certain we will be merging next so it's always nice to know that you didn't suck enough to NOT make merge?
Speaking of merge, that's all up in the air for me right now. I still have no idea what my merge plan is.... I'd love to link up with Tim, Karthik, and Stephen but something tells me nothing is ever that simple. I can see a world where Tim, Karth, and Zach got extremely close. I can also see Tim's paranoia about me and Alyssa grow out of control and that's just something I'm going to have to deal with in this game. It's a fact.
I really want to end Zach's game FAST. I'm really afraid he's going to just keep winning immunities and that's going to suck.
Going forward I DO hope the trio of myself, Alyssa, and Stephen stick together but lord... I don't see that lasting very long either..
Let's just say... I'm prepared to get messy. Messica is here y'all!
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Something fishy is going on here. So Zach is, without a doubt, the biggest physical threat in this game. Ally tells me the best way to move the votes is to vote out a threat. I say Zach. Ally says no, Karthik and Tim would never vote out Zach. But you just said we should target a threat... Oh, i see, you meant an OG Kato threat. Right, ok. Its worrying that Jake is being shady and lying to me when he really needs to open his eues and see that if he doesnt work with us then OG takagi is gonna vote us out 1 by 1
Iā€™m going home but ive told ally i have an idol cause i might leave but ill be damned if i dont make an impact before i go
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a timeline of my thoughts throughout this tribal that iā€™ll probably end up dying in for being messy: ā€” 12pm: iā€™m worried about getting votes bc for jake and miguel iā€™m the only person they donā€™t know well miguel knows me obviously but not in game ā€” 4pm: THESE PPL ARE ALL MESSY kato 2.0 is gonna control the vote and at this point iā€™m just gonna seal stephenā€™s fate byeeee i tried to get a majority but stephen is an idiot and only wants to vote zach so iā€™m going to go shove him under a bus to zach now and hopefully theyā€™ll kill him ! ā€” 5pm: jk i hate all of og takagi they can all choke stephen is gonna try and get all of og kato to vote together and i'm voting with them bc fuck zach fuck karth ! tim is ok we don't rly talk i'm gonna try to flip miguel i have low hopes but we'll see ā€” 5:30pm: iā€™m being so messy but i don't even care bc i'm sick of being ignored by ppl who are allegedly!!! my allies!!! ā€” 6pm: WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENINGGGGH I AM LOSING MY MIND I HATE ALL THESE PPL ā€” 6:30pm: so stephen has an idol zach might have an idol letā€™s pray my messy ass isnā€™t getting votes for being a messy ass and maybe everything will be ok ā€” 6:47pm: something feels weird. idk what. fuck survivor!
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SO I JUST SAW THE MOVIE US. Oh and I will recap on that crazy joint tribal in a second but now I'm at CHILI'S. And I feel a merge in this Chili's tonight.
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Oh my GOD. Oh my G O D!!!!!!! We WON????? HOW????? Iā€™m actually dead cuz weā€™ve been strategizing literally since yesterday about what we would do in a joint tribal situation. Like I was looking at the results just PRAYING Takagi lost and Anna Jane announced they did and I just felt a huge sigh of relief. But then she announced who was safe????? And it was Attila?? I??????? WOW. Iā€™m just really happy. I mean it sucks I guess cuz now itā€™s one less round to meet new people and maybe itā€™ll put me at a disadvantage for the merge that may be coming but like???? My head not being on the chopping block is pretty. Um. YEAH! Iā€™m hoping that they vote out Luke tbh... but I guess weā€™ll seeeeeeee. For now Iā€™ll enjoy being safe!!!
Stephen W is voted out in a 5-3 vote. He becomes the first member of our jury.
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survivormuxloe Ā· 6 years ago
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Episode 15:Ā ā€œi didnt control this game 4 a goat to winā€ - Scott
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So the reward challenge has been revealed. A little bit nervous tbh. However I do have a plan, Iā€™d probably call Danielle. Because I feel she would have the best read on how the jury is feeling. She has sat there for the longest time. So her views are most likely the views of most people. So having her knowledge of the jury will be useful. First I have to win this challenge which I think Iā€™m capable of winning, so fingers crossed I can win this.
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THE CAT IS FINALLY OUT OF THE BAG HOLYYY LMAAAOOAO
i finally got to play it.. it didnt do anything. but. it secured me f4 just incase anything did happen!! LAMJFNFHBG. ugh. i love it tho... everyone takes me to the end i think which makes me lowkey queef LMAOAOAOOA :):)
hope yall r proud of meeeee :flushed:
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I MADE FINAL 4. Iā€™m so shocked and happy with myself. I broke my personal placement record and itā€™s so exciting. Unfortunately though I get to move past a milestone at the expense of losing a close ally. I got past eighth but Jones got eliminated. I get past my record but then Tobi gets idoled out. Iā€™m so depressed but it just makes me want to win for them. Iā€™m hearing that itā€™s a final 2 but it isnā€™t confirmed. So now Iā€™m thinking who do I want to be sitting in a final 2 with. None of them honestly, theyā€™ve all played great games. But I especially donā€™t want to sit next to Ryan. Heā€™s done so well in this game and he made a succesful idol play. It would look like if a genius hacker were to sit next to an enthusiastic toddler.
It sucks cus nobodyā€™s said anything since the vote and I really wanna talk to someone because bitch Iā€™m in the top 4 letā€™s celebrate. I see Tobi online and its like fuCK I CANT CELEBRATE WITH HIM EITHER CUS HES GONE NOW.
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its so hard telling eveeryone that im winning
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we have a reward challenge on day 36 so i think that means we have a final 3 yayyyy whew. and the reward is the power call w one juror for 10 mins... which makes me kinda anxious ngl so i'm not even sure if i want to win this... but the challenge is Casanova and that is like one the flash games i'm really good at if i need to be so hmmm I'm wondering if i should beast it or not. i think winning it and having the courage to talk to one of them could be a big boost to my game so like... i'm thinking maybe i should just nut up and go for it hm
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So I won reward fuck yeah.
This will give me the chance too see how the jury is thinking at the moment.
But with this immunity I am fuckin scared. Cards being stacked into tower formation. Honestly fuck that. Iā€™ve been practicing and am getting there but I need to do this to make sure I have a chance of winning.
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it feels so weird bc theres so little to say in confessionals now LOL!
uhm. just hopin for mo not to win ig. :)
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So just had a call win Dani. Apparently I have close to 0% chance at winning. Which tbh Iā€™m surprised about. Mo has the best chance? Idk like I want to believe her but it sounds fishy. I just need to feel out and go with Dani it trust my gut.
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Rhys won his third immunity which is intimidating but then again he was only participating against me. Reminder I was trying to set up a card house with a tremor, due to my meds my hands shake. BUT I refused to give up and Iā€™m still proud of myself because I know I did the best that I could.
I think this might be the round Iā€™m eliminated. I hope not but apparently Rhys used his Jury call on Dani and Dani said he had the lowest chance of winning and I had the highest chance. Which first of all, REALLY???? ME???? Like thank you but, what? Second of all I need to play very passive right now in hopes that Rhys will stick with his original plan of voting Scott. Tomorrow itā€™s going to be me or Scott.
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i feel bad for abstaining in the final 4 immunity but hnnng i really cant fux with these live challenges so rip. i feel like there's a good chance the jury looks down on my game bc this is like the 3rd challenge i've sat out of hnnng. but i'm glad Rhys won instead of Mo woo for that. it's seeming like it's gonna be a final 2 after all so womp. according to Mo, Rhys says he's voting for either him or Scott so ig I'm sitting in a good spot... although is it bad i was hoping to get another vote to rack up more than 11 overall? lol whatever so yay. i don't have high hopes of winning this game but regardless i'm happy i was able to survive all this time especially w my bae scott <3
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Ok so I have a lot of hope right now. Iā€™ll share the messages I sent Rhys because theyā€™ll explain why Iā€™m hopeful. ā€œI just got some info This vote is either going to end in a fire making challenge between Scott and I or with me going home Cus Ryan just said him and Scott have had a tight Final 2 since the beginning so he canā€™t vote Scott (If you donā€™t believe me Iā€™m sure heā€™ll tell you himself if you ask) So I respect your decision of voting for me if you do but Iā€™d be insanely grateful if I was given the opportunity of a fire making challenge I see it like this. If I get to stay, then itā€™s us two vs Ryan or Scott because I think both Ryan and Scott have played insanely good games So we would have a higher chance of winning immunity But if itā€™s Scott, Ryan and you in the final three then itā€™s 1/3 odds. Where as if I stayed it would be 2/3 and if I somehow miraculously won individual immunity Iā€™d take you to the end. It would be the smartest decision for me after hearing what Dani said But then if you win you can take Ryan with you to the end and Iā€™ll end up 3rd Since Ryan and Scott have their final 2 thingā€ and Rhys agreed to it so tomorrow is going to be a firemaking challenge between me and Scott.
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rhys is actually driving me fucking crazy lol... like. its right to vote me out yes. but his reasoning is so FUCKING DUMB. HE GENIUNELY HAS CONVINCED HIMSELF THAT THE JUROR HE CHOSE TO TALK TO LIED TO HIM. LIKE. RLY BITCH? im not getting 4th off of the back of ur fucking goaty ass losing to mo @ ftc ew lmao..
actually ya im not done like rhys is geniunely losing against anyone left for good reason hes been a goat this entire game and thats the entire fucking tea LAMJFBHFG.
i just dont want mo to win... imagine someone who voted wrong like 7/9 times in merge winning. fucking ew. if i leave ryan better win ftc bc hes the only good winner left if i leave like fr. i didnt control this game 4 a goat to win.. LAMNFNFG just ew ew ew ew ew ew..
im not going down tho america... ill pull every trick out of the bag if i have to. if i gotta lie to get a 2-1-1 vote i will. i aint bothered. id rather get 3rd knowing i was gunna win than fucking 4th. i aint knife!!
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So like i Won immunity again which is insane. 3rd immunity.
Iā€™ve been thinking about my call with Dani. I realised that if she telling the truth I have no chance. So might as well assume she is lying and have a chance. So Iā€™m being optimistic.
So taking Scott out is my best choice right now. He may have bad jury management but he had played the best game. So Iā€™m voting with Mo against Scott. Realistically Scott is probably going to win. But that gives me a possible vote on the jury.
I told scott that Iā€™m Voting him as there isnā€™t any point in lying but he is working to stay. But like he needs to go. I canā€™t fuck up and have him win immunity. So yeah my game could be a shit show it could be nothing I donā€™t know. Wish me luck I guess.
Iā€™m like legit so sad rn. I know Iā€™ve had literally no chance at winning this game. So Iā€™ve been optimistic trying to take the best road. Which in my mind is voting Scott out. I told him because he like legit my best friend Iā€™ve made in this game and In a lot of games recently.
Now he hates me and has been really aggressive with trying to get me to stay. Ā Like Iā€™ve told him my reasoning and he just still thinks Iā€™m being stupid. Like yeah I just hate this. Canā€™t wait for tribal for him to attack me more.
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Rhys gettin a lil brave this round after being asleep the whole merge omg. Whatever he heard from Danielle has seriously gone to his head and he's now considering going to the end with Mo ???? i have to laugh... i dont think him tying the vote and making me or Scott firemake is a terrible idea at all, but honey pls dont make me have to vote Mo to win this game flkadsas. It will be such a travesty if Scott and I go out 4th and 3rd god i dont even wanna think about that
god I really didn't expect this jury reward thing to have an actual impact on things??? ugh lol. Rhys a mess PERIODTTTTTT
After a 2-2 vote resulting in a firemaking challenge, Mo loses and gets 4th place.
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survivormoheli Ā· 7 years ago
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Episode #1 -Ā ā€œIĀ had to unblock two people in my tribeā€ - Tara
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The cast is revealed: https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/tagged/reveal In addition, it is revealed that there are no idols in this game, instead a system of twists: https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/post/171711080313/idol-system The buffs are also revealed: https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/post/171739691688/premerge-buffs
Immunity:Ā https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/post/171711113378/tribal-immunity-1-duolingo During the immunity challenge, the Ouani tribe quickly dominates, with Raffy and Bryan each having extremely high scores very early on. Sima, having a native French speaker in Eric K, also finds quick success despite having a few players with very low scores. In addition, Raffy discover's Jay's method of assigning usernames, and tracks the scores of the other tribes to remain dominant.
Results:Ā https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/post/171745790728/duolingo-results After immunity, Bryan, having earned the highest score, got to choose a member of the losing tribe to recieve an extra vote. He chose Becca, and she decided to cast two votes against Phoenix to try to keep herself in the game. Matt, having the lowest score, seems to be an early target, but manages to twist the votes against BEcca by working with Phoenix and Richie. Back on Ouani, Tara, Raffy, JG, and Bryan bond and form an early alliance. At tribal council, Becca goes home in a 5-2 vote.
Tribal:Ā https://survivormoheli.tumblr.com/post/171778863148/tribal-council-1-moya
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I am really nervous to start out this season. I did really poorly on my last season and I am scared I will do poorly a second time. I just have to play a more social game than I ever had before, and hope for a better result. But I know that as long as I try, I will be proud of myself.
tara
omg hi i'm tara and i'm rly excited to b playing with BRYAN!!!!!! i had to unblock two people in my tribe p exciting but i'm excited to see the cast reveal!!Ā 
JG
HOLY HELLLL!!!! LETS GOOOOO! 3 Tribes of 6? OMG SHOOKETH TO THE CORE! I am in all caps but I am literally shaking. This is a chance for redemption with me and Tara. Then there is Rafael who I voted out in Kuang Si as well as Andreas, in actuality those two were the ones who tried to flip the vote the vote me on me during Kuang Si when I was almost tribe swap f*cked. Don't know the other two but that can change, this should be really interesting! BryanOMG FUCKING WOOH TO THE MAX! IM SO HAPPY TARA IS IN THIS GAME! I was so sad when i met her and she said she wasnā€™t gonna play another org. BUT HERE SHE IS IN ANOTHER ORG! We are gonna slay. And Oml Ratfy is here. Itā€™s very scary. BUT ITS OK CUZ WE ARE FRIENDS! Iā€™ve never met the other people on my tribe tho. IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS GAME! Tara is amazing. Lav her.Ā 
Eric A
5 minutes in and Akito forgot the series name. Ok Akito, ok.
Tim
Show me support I'm so anxious!
This is gonna be outdated in like a few months but. "My FBI Agent watching me play in another ORG
https://scavengertim2.tumblr.com/post/171711065049
Matt J
Survivor time! I am so excited to be playing, my tribe seems really cool and Iā€™m definitely looking forward to getting to know them better.
So the first challenge was posted and we have to learn French. Iā€™m definitely shaking in my boots a little because I couldnā€™t learn Spanish and am bad enough at English! My tribe mates have already started the challenge so I guess itā€™s time to step it up or go home.
Rafael
Immediately I see a lot of familiar faces. Bryan is refreshing as we tend to work well together. I would love to work with him. Tara is a blessing and an angel on Earth. She's so sweet and I would give arm and limb for her to work with me. Like that's someone I want to honestly work with the entire game. But her personality is liable to other people wanting the same. JG is someone who I've only known through him voting me out. But I've gotten over it. We can probably be a strong duo that no one would see coming. Andreas.... I don't know. He's not someone I had a real connection with and is definitely an outsider to me. Then there's Elliot. He's a newbie, so maybe easy to control? The thing about him is that he has not been online yet. He does live in the UK so he's probably sleeping, but I hope he will do the challenge in the morning.
After a lengthy call, my relationships are definitely tight with JG, Bryan, and Tara. Bryan and I still have a strong friendship going on. All four of us talked a lot through the night, and Tara even brought up the possibility of forming an alliance. It was in jest, but it seems like everyone was really digging the idea. It ended up being JG and I as the last members on call. He expressed a desire in working with me throughout the game as a power duo and I am here for it! This is exactly what I wanted! I'm very excited to work with him. He also talked about working with Tara and using Bryan since he saw how close he and I were. JG's insight could be beneficial to my game as I tend to be a very delusional and oblivious person at times. I am already putting myself in a good position so I cannot wait to see what happens! This tribe is definitely drinking the Raffy Kool-Aid. Time to just utilize them to further my position.Ā 
Rafael
I'm speaking to Andreas right now. He brings up a very interesting point that I have noticed about the games I have been in. People are scared of me. They are scared of how I play the game. In this community, to those who know me, I'm considered a "dangerous" player. I'm honored to hold that status, but it's also annoying at the same time. Like I never really get the chance to play differently if I wanted to. I always have to stay the social player to stay. People need to want to keep me for my personality. They already see me as a threat. Note to self: need to cool it on the strategizing for now
Rafael
Why is Tara such an angel? Like she literally just spent time playing 20 questions with me. We just talked about ourselves and got to know each other more. This girl is sweet! But also playing an amazing social game currently. I can see her being a threat later down the line, but I want to keep her around. Plus I don't think people would go for someone like her this early in the game.
Andreas
What's up Mohelians. It's Day 1 and oh boy, my Tribe is lit! Have you ever ordered something at a restaurant, waited for an uncomfortably long time whilst growing hungry, ONLY TO RECEIVE SOMETHING YOU DIDN'T ORDER? Yeah? That's my tribe. I've played with Raffy and JG in my very first ORG and we were in a very awkward situation where naive, inexperienced me betrayed Raffy, heavily blindsiding him, only to be eventually be blindsided by JG myself. But that's okay. I hope to get a chance at a fresh start with Raffy. As for JG, we'll see. I know he's a really fun guy, but I don't really trust him game-wise. As for the other people: Bryan and Elliott haven't replied. And I've spent a good few hours talking with Tara about <everything>. Game-wise, idk if I can trust her just yet, but she's very easy and a lot of fun to talk to and I reveal everything about me, because that's a wise strategic move, right? Anyway, Day 1 tl;dr: I wanna work together with Raffy and Tara. But let's see what happens. :)
Eric A
So day 1 is down, which has been the most nerve wracking org day I played in a while, even though nothing happened. Akito seems to want to work with me, which is good for me because I never get approached, like ever. I approached all the others on my tribe too, just to introduce myself. I think I would want to work with my clone and AnnMarie the most. My clone (Eric K.) and I seem to get along well, especially with the connection of us having the same name. I feel like I have more connections to him than Blake or Lynn. I also like AnnMarie because she seems to be outgoing and fun, at least by what she has said so far. I think she is a trustworthy person as long as I were to approach her early in the game. But you never know in Survivor. You have to go with your instinct, and I intend on doing just that.
Akito
Oh my goodness no idols! I am loving this season already. Now I can only focus on strategy and socializing which is perfect! Let's hope I do a good job doing this though.
Tim
Things are quiet over here at Moya but this challenge makes me want to jump!!! From a bridge!!! The truth of the matter is that my Mental Health had continued to deplete from learning French
JG
This challenge is gonna drive me crazy oops , I used the wrong tense! IT IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!! I hate tedious work and this is literally just doing the same thing over and over. It's like the song that never ends, its OK the first time and you can tolerate the second time through like the fifth but after that you're just waiting for someone "accidentally" knock you out.
I really am getting good vibes from Raf,Tara, and Bryan. I'm less cautious about Tara being tight because apparently she JUST met Bryan a day or two ago. Crazy how things work out! If I'm being frank (I know it's not my real name) I would be down with doing a four person alliance consisting of me, Tara, Raf, and Bryan. It appears we are the most active so far and granted the other two were in different time zones but still haven't seen much. I started to talk to Elliot and he seems cool. Not sure what vibe I am getting yet. Also I was successful in my night one goal that is the same for every game. GET THE Ā TRIBE ON CALL!!! This is a way for me to bond with people and feel them out as well try to read between the lines of past relationships. People are more likely to say something they didn't mean to than to type it. I really think at the very least we should get second and if not then I will probably push for Andreas to be voted off! Sucks to suck, I guess.
J.G.
This challenge is a chienne! Probably the only French I'll remember after this.
Elliot
I've been using duolingo for two hours and while i still don't know french i think i may be forgetting how to speak english please send help
I've been using duolingo for two hours and while i still don't know french i think i may be forgetting how to speak english please send help
Tim
We are gonna lose smh!!!!
Becca
Okay so far I love my tribe and everyone is awesome! Iā€™m pretty hyped!
Elliot
I spent like 6 hours gaining 1000xp only to take one test and get 900xp i genuinely learnt fucking french and w a s t e d 7 hours of my fucking life I'm so upset oh my god
Tim
https://scavengertim2.tumblr.com/post/171745654689 my eternal mood.
Tim
So Phoenix is playing sorta fast? Making an alliance based on nothing fjsksks just trying to get majority to vote with them because they are gonna score low djsksks.
Lynn
I honestly thought we were going to tribal because I had to work most of the day and felt like I didnā€™t do the most I could have but iā€™m proud of the tribe.Ā 
Blake
Im estatic we didnā€™t go To tribal! I see that AnnMarie may be a slacker so if we plunge on our next challenge she may have to go home.
Tim
Im not saying ANYTHING this time around. Not even gonna ask for a name. Anyways sidenote... Bryan really wanted that advantage huh sis outdid himself.
Matt J
Well we are going to tribal, that sucks. I definitely could be going home tonight but I hope I have built strong enough relationships with people to stick around. Now I need to talk it over with my allies to see whoā€™s going home. I want Phoenix or Dani gone for one simple reason: they never tried talking to me. Iā€™m just hoping that they are not gunning for me for the same reason.
richie
whats up whats good we in this bitch!!! its day 2 in this game and we already lost the first immunity challenge and we're going to tribal because i'm literally destined to be on the worst tribe in every game i play its just what i deserve!!! this is a small tribe theres only 6 of us and i like everyone ive had at least somewhat of a conversation with everyone at some point in the last day nothing spectacularly life changing/bond making/best friend creating/social game dominating but at least something..... a couple hours before we lost immunity i was talking to phoenix for the first time they were the last person i had any interaction with and then he's like "Hey, I was wondering if you want to work with my alliance?" and instantly in my head i was like *omarosa voice* YOUR alliance? tell me about your alliance... since you just said that "my alliance" is what you just said..... so that was ridiculously poor wording on phoenix's part because it was like hey i have my alliance want to work with us.... so obviously i said yeah bc you cant say no and i wanted the tea so he adds me to the chat and its phoenix/tim/dani and i can see the chat history where they were already together in this alliance chat and phoenix says "Yo I'm talking to Richie, should I ask him if he wants to join the alliance so we have majority?"....................... can you make it any more obvious that i'm at the bottom of this alliance and i was brought in after it was established so yall would have majority and im just supposed to be grateful and compliant? okay....werk!!! unfortunately matt and becca got the worst scores in the challenge so if i wanted to do something about this the best i could do is either force a tie or try and flip tim to the other side but thats super risky to work with people who arent going to help us win and we just end up losing over and over....ill probably go along with whatever this alliance says and build up 1 on 1 relationships with them to try and up my ranks on their individual totem poles until we can swap or something but its been 5 minutes since we lost so im sure shit will go down that will change everything before tribal but i guess we'll see~! Rafael
Winning immunity is the greatest thing. I did not want to go to tribal in the first round! Bryan's reward was very interesting. Becca getting it might be a sign that he wants to work with her. Plus, it could be a detriment to Tim.
Tim
So Matt really screwed his own game up huh. Anywayss Phoenix is getting a bit crackdt and wild. Id love for Matt to stay but he threw my name out there yikes. (Not to vote out but in a negative way). I wanted Bec gone because she did worse on the challenge but we'll see .wink wonk
Tim
Also im becca scrambling and akig everyone to align with her and playing dumb because "um tehehehe this is my first org" im like yeah sis I get it lol you have some game potential but we'll see how that turns out. Im not a fool I see through that! Luckily Matt screwed himself over now hes gone and not her.
Tim
Im really looking forward to working with Richie and Dani and Phoenix but Im weary on Pho.
Tim
So my analytical skills have kicked in. Becca really saved herself by aligning with Matt who is also in jeopardy but he takes the fall by targeting someone who scored in the challenge instead of pressing the weight onto bec.
Matt J
So Iā€™m pretty sure Becca was going to be going home but after using my amazing survivor skills, I put the target on me. What can I say, I play hard lol. Iā€™m like 100% positive that Dani, Phoenix, and Tim are all working together. They were gonna target Becca since she did slightly worse than me in the challenge but then I opened my big mouth lol. Iā€™m going to have to let Richie take control of my fate and see if he can pull any strings for me. The smartest move for him and Becca would be to turn on me though and if thatā€™s the case, I have no hard feelings or regrets.
Bryan
Omg hey so. Little check in. OUR TRIBE WON THE FIRST IMMUNITY WOO! Not only that but I got first place overall with all the players so that was nice. The reward for getting first place was the i got to give an extra vote to someone on the losing tribe. I didnā€™t know anyone on the losing tribe and i had never met anyone so i gave it to Becca because feminism. Also another thing. I absolutely love the group of me, raffy, JG, and Tara. I feel like we all really connect and being on call with us four is a lot of fun! Me and raffy were talking about it and we felt that this group could really do some damage together. Anyways. Sorry this was so long. Peace out yo.Ā 
Akito
We won a challenge!!! but also seeing that I did 3rd best in tribe puts me in a good reason. I didn't do too well and I didn't do too bad. As long I average scores in the tribe I am in a decent spot. Right now I have to focus more on socializing and trying to make strategic moves now. Because I wanna gun for big comp threats, because they can easily beast their way, but at the same time you don't want to make too many big moves or do things too early too soon. Pinpointing the game and looking forward the future and thinking one step ahead and trying to see what works and all that. Building the bridges in relationships is key and I wanna put my trust in others so I can be able to maneuver that trust into an advantage in the game.
tara
bryan leaksss so much like i can't do anything w him bcos the whole tribe will hear about it. which sucks bcos i like bryan but like he has a big mouth!!! so talking to him is bad for my game. everyones attacking the foreigners too and its kinda rude!! i think i need to stick w them otherwise the kuang si alliance is gonna take over yikes!Ā 
Andreas
Bonjour mes amis.
I really don't like how my tribe works. It's one thing that I am unable to be around when people are active. I get it. I'm European. I sleep when you are active. But do you really need to focus camp life on skype calls? There's barely anything to start a conversation on! Arghh!!!! Anyway, with tryhards like Raffy, JG and Bryan, I don't see us losing a challenge anytime soon, but I do really feel like I'm at the bottom of the tribe. I was still only able to connect with Tara and I hope that we don't go to TC and get a swap soon. Ā  This has been proven to be quite the opposite of a chill ride already as people are realling putting everything on the line. Let's see how the next rounds go.
AnnMarie C.
Being in Sima tribe is an experience a lot different from other games I've had. I barely know anyone here, and they're all so quiet, I guess because of the challenge and because we won. I hope it changes soon. Not the winning part at least but the talking part. I feel TERRIBLE about just doing 270 xp for the challenge. 270!!!!! That's nothing. Having (French)Eric in the tribe though? He was like a gaurdians angel for us in this challenge. I also love how there are 2 Erics. I guess that happens a lot in ORGS. Two tims, two bryans, two erics, but I cannot wait until there are two AnnMaries! I think that would actually end up terribly. Anyways, the beginning of Moheli for me was lack luster. I was expecting getting to meet all these great people, having interesting conversations, and throwing down at this challenge, but it's quiet. Really quiet.
Rafael
JG, Bryan, Tara, and I were on call last night again! I really do think that this is a solid group of people. We get along really well together, and it is a group that I think no one will see coming. There is something that bothers me though. Tara is very likable. She could easily put herself in a position to control the game. There is also JG who is not dumb. He knows how to play this game. I do not doubt their loyalty, I'm scared of the power they could hold and the moves they could make. This could make them frontrunners from the beginning of merge and I want to win! That's thinking too far ahead though. I just need to relax and keep an eye on things.
Eric K
I'm super happy that the Sima tribe isn't going to tribal! i loved the first challenge because I'm french so it wasn't hard to go through the whole Duolingo course. I was really hoping to get the highest XP but I guess somebody else beat me out on that.
Matt J
So thereā€™s not much time left before everyone has to vote and my time in this game is dwindling down. The only smart choice for my tribe is to vote me out. I didnā€™t do very well in the challenge and I talked a lot of strategy for someone on the chopping block. Last night I wanted to work with Becca but she wants to vote out Richie so now Iā€™ve washed my hands with Becca and my only chance of staying in this game is if everyone votes for her.
Dani
There's either one of two things that are happening right now in this game. I have either formed a great majority alliance and am set for any future elimination, or am about to get completely blindsided. Hopefully it's the first lol.
Tim
Its already drama on the first vote ugh! Like ugh It was simple vote Bec because she did the worst in the challenge!Ā 
Matt J
So it turns out in a shocking turn of events I actually might not be going home first. It turns out that Becca may have rubbed off on people worst than me but of course I still wonā€™t be surprised if Iā€™m voted off lol. I do really trust Richie, and Iā€™m starting to trust Phoenix and Dani as well. Tim has definitely rubbed off on me wrong, Iā€™m hoping we wonā€™t have to come back to tribal but if we do, Timā€™s got to go.
Tim
Me @ this no idol twist: https://scavengertim2.tumblr.com/post/171775006444
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survivormoheli Ā· 7 years ago
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Tribal Council #5 - One World
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Welcome, everyone, to our one world tribal council where only the Ouani tribe can be voted out.
Eric, Blake, and Elliot, as this is your first tribal council, please dip your torches.
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AnnMarie, how important is trust in a tribal council this big? Do you trust anyone who comes to you, or are you skeptical of everyone?
I'm open to all discussions with everybody in a tribal so large. Trust is important, but easy to maintain. To me, you are innocent until proven guilty, and unless you have lied to me, I'm open to any idea you may have. No plan is good or bad, and nobody is truly good and evil in a game like this.
Blake, you had the worst score in the challenge. Do you think this will ultimately put a target on your back? Do you think the strategy is past ā€˜keep the tribe strongā€™?
Ultimately I hope my GOD awful score doesn't put a target on my back... but hey who knows they may be thinking about the merge and be like well that kid wont be any competition for individual immunity so lets keep him around. The strategy about keeping the tribe strong I don't know if that is so relevant now bc so many people have formed relationships. But if my tribe still wants a strong team then I may be on the chopping block...
Bryan, how confident are you in the game post-one world? Do you think your position on your new tribe will be solid after all of this roundā€™s drama?
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Dani, after getting a strike in the challenge, do you think youā€™ll be targeted? How do you assure your fellow players that youā€™ll be active enough to take part in their plans?
Oh Jay... ENOUGH! Enough is ENOUGH IVE HAD IT! I feel like Iā€™m taking CRAZY pills every time you ask me a god forsaken question... anyways. To answer your question. First of all, I didnā€™t understand the challenge and had no desire to understand it. Second of all, I had to volunteer all day today so I was just not for it. In other words, Yes. I AM ACTIVE ENOUGH.
Elliot, how has the tribe swap influenced game dynamics? Do you feel more solid with your new tribe or with the old? How do you think the game will have changed after this one world tribal?
The tribe swap has definitely changed the game- you get comfortable and then the tribes all swap around. While there are people I trust on both my tribe, and people I don't, for me this vote comes down to who I think has been the most genuine with me, and while that might alienate me from some people that's a risk I'm going to have to take.
Eric, congratulations on attending your first tribal council this late in the game! How do you sus out where the vote is since you donā€™t have prior experience with tribals? How do you maximize this opportunity to send the right person home?
Thanks for the warm welcome! haha It's kind of exciting to finally be at a tribal council, especially one where I'm immune. I guess it's important to take the time to chat with others, see how they all feel and take the time to understand what's truly going on. This is a very unique opportunity since everybody on the game is here to vote and it can create a unique voting trend.
Andreas, how much do you think old tribal lines and old alliances will influence this vote?
This vote is all about old tribal lines and old alliances. So I think, this will influence the vote for 100%.
JG, thereā€™s no way for a majority alliance to have existed since tribes are currently smaller than the number needed for a majority, so how do votes get determined in a one world tribal? Is there a cohesive voting block, or will it be a heavily split vote?
Honestly, we won't know until tribal. There are so many strong players who want to still be here the next round and with so few people to be voted its gonna make for a interesting tribal .... I also think this has the potential to shake up any pre-existing shiz. .... oh and hi lynn
Lynn, after the drama between you and JG last round, do you think that animosity will come to a head as youā€™re one of the people who could potentially be eliminated?
Um the animosity is most definitely coming to a head. I mean even now everyone can obviously see JG doesnā€™t know how to keep my name from out of his messages to the gc so far. thereā€™s no way you can stop people from believing what they want and JG is obviously coming after me so weā€™ll see what happens.
Phoenix, what do you think of Taraā€™s decision to make one world happen?
I mean, I know she was in a rush and people wanted it to happen, so it happened. I don't blame her or anything haha
Raffy, as the numbers dwindle down, how do you set yourself up to be in a good position for the merge?
You be social and hope to god people are being truthful. I want to trust people, but this is Survivor. Trust only goes as far as the things backing up that trust. When people vote together, you trust them. However, things can shift dramatically within the span of one tribal. I don't know how to set myself up for merge, but I pray to god that I am doing all that I can
Richie, my question to you is as simple as it is classic: what will you be basing your vote on tonight?
what will i be basing my vote on tonight???? well i'm safe and so is everyone on our tribe so my stake in this vote is hopefully going to make a proactive move that will help make the next vote i'm not safe at a little bit more manageable?????????
Tara, let us in on the logic behind putting the one world tribal in place. Do you think this will help you seem MORE or LESS trustworthy long term?
umm i honestly was just like walking down a rly busy corridor and i was stressing bcos i had to answer quick bcos i had already kept ppl waiting like 20 minutes so i asked in the tribe chat what ppl wanted n ya here we are. umm i honestly don't know what ppl will think of this! i hope they take the time to make new friends and have fun and not stress too much.
Tim, on a scale of 1-10, how rat-like/snake-like is this game? Do you feel youā€™re playing with trustworthy people, or are you constantly watching your back?
On a scale of one to 10 I'd have to rate the game as of now as a 6. There ARE snakes somewhere because they are inevitable. However, there are different types. You have your garden snake, small and sneaky but common and mostly harmless when they bite. Your Phythons, the big bad snakes who think they're running the show but their fangs hold no venom. They are only deadly one you've came within their ever so "trusting" grip, but from a distance, they are spottable if you know what you are looking for. Finally you have your Black Mambas. NOW these snakes... are deadly asf. You may not even see them coming but once they bite your life in the game is up. I'd advise that you stay as far away as possible from this breed but their camoflage leaves you unable to know who or where they are.
I feel as though everyone is trustworthy but the extent at which they are varies depending on the context of the situation as well as your previous trust.
Iā€™ll read the votes.
First Vote: Bryan
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Second Vote: Blake
you did not speak to me. you tried to do something way beyond your ability. you were messy. good bye.
Third Vote: Bryan:
Under his eye
Fourth Vote: Blake
Thatā€™s two votes Bryan, two votes Blake, 10 votes left.
Fifth Vote: Bryan
Out! OUT! GET OUT!
Sixth Vote: Blake
sorry I have to stick to my guns ....
Thatā€™s three votes Bryan, three votes Blake, 8 votes left.
Seventh Vote: Bryan
in tears uh, hey everyoneā€¦ karma got its kiss for me! puckers lips uh i cant go to JONATHANā€™S right now because i got aā€¦. a ticket because apparently youā€™resupposedtopulloverforanemergencyvehicle and i didnā€™t know laughs listen, my life is extremely going downhill cause im getting acne, and im getting fat and im blading right here if you cant see the whole triangle there like a piece of hair, im balding IM BALDING iā€™m turning ugly and my face is going to be fat for the rest of the day and i cant even SHOWER BEFORE WORK because im not going to be home on time! and that fat ass indiana cries the fat ass indiana copā€¦. gave me a ticketā€¦. and heā€™s like ā€œdo you know about this law?ā€ i didnā€™t so i said ā€œnoā€ā€¦ because i didnt talking through tears and itā€™s so much money and i only have FOURTY SEVEN DOLLARS and im not even supposed to go under fifty and im going to get fined by my bank
try not to hold-
SHUT UUUUUUUUUUUUUUP!! im going to get fined by my bank for having under fifty dollars ā™« and i already owe my parents four hundred something dollars and i owe my friendā€™s mom eighty and i cant get a job now but everythingā€™s fine cough and im oKAY and my parents are really mad at me and my life is going downhiiiill ā™« so if anyone wants to be like a nice person laughs through tears and give me money to pay for this fucking ticket because i dont have it inhales iā€™mgoingtoleavemypaypal link but like winks thats me winking BUT MY EYES ARE TOO SWOLLEN TO WINK cries and i called to see if i could serve jail time instead of paying but no one answered so i left a voicemail asking if it were an option for me to serve jail time instead of paying inhales youā€™re going to get arrested for that theyā€™re going to be like this dumbest bitch then theyā€™re going to arrest you crying isnā€™t that the point thatā€™s what he wants and my friends are laughing while iā€™m having an emotional breakdown crying SHOW ME SUPPOOOOOOORT crying laughing screams into pillow
Eighth Vote: Bryan
it's hard to not take an opportunity like this to vote out a very strong and experienced player. I wish you the best!
Ninth Vote: Bryan
It sucks that you have to go home but sometimes it be like that
Tenth vote, and the next person voted out of Survivor Athena Moheli: Bryan
Lol sorry bud
The remaining votes were also for Bryan.
Eleventh Vote: Bryan
You're a really nice dude, it just has to be done
Twelfth Vote: Bryan
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Thirteenth Vote: Bryan
Fourteenth vote:
Bryan, you will have a few moments to send any last words before everyone is removed from this chat.
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