#i get so clingy when im drink i need to cuddle w someone rn

[gothoevsky]

worst thing in the world is getting drunk and getting affectionate but gaveing no one to be affectionate with

[soybeansoyul]

complete. | jinhwi

pairings: jinhwi, panwink, minhwan, ongniel

summary: jinyoung needs someone to fill the void in him. he’s also looking for a new housemate. and some money.

warnings: idk swearing? 

chapters: 1/2 

cross-posted from aff, ao3 and wattpad.

jinyoung groans as he looks at his tuition bills. he still has more envelopes laying on the kitchen counter. more bills, probably. "fuck you, park jihoon," jinyoung mutters as he opens another envelope.

he rolls his eyes at how his best friend had moved out of their shared apartment just to live with his boyfriend of 3 years - an extremely tall taiwanese boy named guanlin. 

boyfriend.

jinyoung whips out his phone to make a google search.

is it normal if ive never dated anyone and im like 20?

he skims through the search results and puts his phone down.

bjy @baejin

YALL its comfirmed im dying alone im gonna b single 4 lyfe !!11!

bjy @baejin

jk im not lonely or desperate i just need money

bjy @baejin

if u wanna sponsor ur boy's tuition pls hmu !

woojin @nationsdarkpast

@baejin if jaehwan-hyung could find someone u can too! WOOOO

sungwoon is shaking @kingjaehwan

@baejin @nationsdarkpast THE FUCK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN ???

an idea pops into jinyoung's head. he heads to his bedroom and grabs his laptop.

jinyoung plugs out one of his earphones and turns to glare at the couple sitting behind him.

bjy @baejin

who in the fuck holds hands while studying?? its a damn library get out if ur gonna hanky panky and not study ffs

minhyun @optimushwang

And here we have another episode of Angsty Teen

it was sejeong and doyoung - the presidents of choir. the two seniors had heavenly voices and they were one of the sweetest couples on campus. jinyoung just didn't appreciate having to hear their "haha i love you" "no i love you more!" debate while he was trying to finish his essay.

"why so glum?" he looks up to see daniel, along with seongwoo and jisung. "i'm not, i'm just annoyed at the PDA," jinyoung replies, and continues to type away at his laptop. "by the way, hi hyungs,"

"how have you been? you seem really stressed out lately," jisung asks, concerned. "i'm fine. just broke." jinyoung's eyes don't leave his laptop.

"you're renting out your apartment, right?" seongwoo asks, sipping his coffee. "jihoon replacement?" "yup. and nah, i just need the money."

daniel looks over at seongwoo before speaking. "actually, i have a friend who's interested in moving in," daniel says. jinyoung's eyes instantly light up. "really?"

daniel nods. "do you want his number?" "yes, please!" the trio swears they haven't seen jinyoung so happy in a while. "thank you, daniel!"

baejin: hey, daehwi right?

maguhwi: yep!

baejin: u wanna come over to see the place and stuff? we can discuss afterwards if ur keen

maguhwi: sure ^^

baejin: [address attached]

maguhwi: thanks! see you tomorrow at 4?

baejin: see u :-)

jinyoung opens the door, only to be greeted by the most adorable boy he's ever seen.

you just met him, jinyoung, don't hoe around-

"hi! i'm daehwi, nice to meet you!" the blonde bows, and jinyoung does the same. "i'm jinyoung, nice to meet you too," daehwi was a little shorter than jinyoung, and he had uneven eyelids. jinyoung thought that was cute.

"so, how old are you?" jinyoung starts, waiting for daehwi to step into the apartment. "19."

"oh, i'm 20." daehwi hums in response, and the taller of the two shows him around.  

it's daehwi's first day living with jinyoung, and jinyoung wakes up to daehwi gently shaking him.

"dude, what the fu-"

"i made breakfast, jinyoungie!" daehwi smiles, and jinyoung has question marks floating around in his head.

jinyoungie?

"whoa, how do you look so handsome even when you just woke up?" jinyoung nearly chokes on his own saliva, but somehow manages to shapen up anyway. this beautiful stranger he was now sharing his apartment with - made him breakfast and called him handsome? he snaps out of his daze when daehwi grabs his arm and drags him to the kitchen.

if jinyoung had to name one thing he had learnt about daehwi over the course of 2 weeks - was that the smaller boy was exceptionally clingy. oh, and adorable too.

jinyoung doesn't know how he ended up with daehwi in his lap, leaning against his chest on their couch, watching movies. it was a friday night and neither of the two had plans to leave the house. by the 2nd movie, jinyoung was already sound asleep.

be wakes up at 4am to make a trip to the bathroom - he realises he's in his bed, which is definitely not where he fell asleep. he pokes his head out of his door, and daehwi is still there, wide awake, onto the 4th movie already.

the taller boy is secretly envious of the latter - daehwi didn't go to school. when questioned, he simply said he was taking a year's break to "realize stuff". daehwi could pull all-nighters and do practically anything he wanted, while jinyoung was a (not-so-anymore) broke college student struggling to keep his eyes open in class.

once again, jinyoung doesn't know how, but daehwi somehow ended up being his best friend. the boy was similar to him in a way that they both rarely left the house. as much as jinyoung hated to admit it, he was a sucker for skinship ; and he's always wanted to have someone to hug to sleep. he now does have someone - daehwi. his heart feels like it's about to explode sometimes - he doesn't know what this feeling is. is this love?

friends share the same bed although they have their own rooms, friends kiss each other on the cheek, friends cuddle, friends shower together, right? this, this is all platonic, right?

"hyung, are you single?" the blonde boy currently straddling jinyoung asks. jinyoung nearly chokes on his coffee. 

"yeah."

"you've never had a boyfriend?"

"yeah. never."

"but hyung, you're so handsome. and you're so lovely," jinyoung snickers, and shakes his head.

"no! hyung, you're the best-"

jinyoung doesn't know when the younger's lips had looked so plump and soft, but he quickly learns that he posesses zero self-control when he cups daehwi's face and leans forward to kiss him. he thinks he's going crazy - his heart has never pounded so fast before.

"no, daehwi-yah, it's not what you think it is-"

"yeah, staying up late just to wait for you to come home, only to see you drunk with some woman at the club? right." daehwi spat, anger brazen on his face. "

she's just a friend, hwi," jinyoung sighs, head in his hands. it was true - he was just drinking with the president of his club.

"whatever, go spend more time with your friend, then. we've been together for a year and a half now, i can't believe you'd pull this shit on me," daehwi's furious, and storms out the door before jinyoung can even stop him.

shit. there i go, fucking up everything once again.

niel: wtf happened

baejin: i dont fucking know ok i fucked shit up

niel: :( daehwi's w me and ong rn

baejin: take care of him

baejin: sorry

baejin: i always mess up

"hyung? i'm so, i don't like seeing jinyoung with other people! i don't feel good!" daehwi screams, startling the couple, who were sitting on the couch.

"jealousy? anger?" daniel looks at his boyfriend, confused.

"how in the fuck-"

jinyoung swears to never let daehwi go so easily again. he's glad he has the smaller boy back in his arms. he falls asleep with the latter as his teddy bear. he's been told by others that he seems a lot happier now - and jinyoung thinks it's true. daehwi is the epitome of perfection, it's as if his hands were made for jinyoung ; and jinyoung only. his first love - and his first kiss, his first time holding hands with someone else. jinyoung always felt empty, but with daehwi, he felt complete. jinyoung hopes he never loses him.

jinyoung learns that good things don't last forever when he finds daehwi, laying on the living room floor, pale, eyes shut, with no sign of life whatsoever. 

“daehwi, can you hear hyung? yah, daehwi!" jinyoung shakes him, and he freezes once he hits the cold, hard reality - daehwi's heart isn't beating.

"daehwi, don't scare hyung! it isn't funny!" he shakes him once again, using his phone to call for an ambulance.

"doctor, is he okay?" jinyoung stands up when the doors burst open.

"kid, is this a prank?" the doctor, dongho, according to his nametag, asks.

"what?" jinyoung shakes his head in disbelief.

"why would you bring a robot to a hospital?"

"what? he's my boyf-"

"kid, he's a robot. do we have to unscrew all of this mechanism to prove it to you?" dongho raises an eyebrow.

jinyoung's hair is all messed up, his eyes are puffy and tears are falling from them. he can't believe what's happening.

"he's human - his heartbeat stopped just now, doctor, just help him!"

"he never had a heartbeat. he's a robot."

jinyoung cries even harder, when jisung and minhyun drag him away to the carpark of the hospital. his 7 other friends are waiting for him there.

"you, you knew all along, right?" jinyoung storms up to daniel and grabs him by the collar. "yeah, i knew. we just wanted to help you, jinyoung-" he stutters and minhyun has to step in before jinyoung can throw a punch at daniel.

"all of you knew, too? you all knew he wasn't human?" jinyoung screams, and the 9 nod their head in shame.

"so is this what your fucking shady ass company is about?" he glares at seongwoo and daniel, voice all hoarse, the two looking the most guilty out of all of the boys.

"jinyoung, let us explain," seongwoo puts a hand on jinyoung's shoulder, but jinyoung slaps it away.

"don't talk to me." and with that, jinyoung leaves.

he can't believe it - daehwi, his first love, the one that completed him ; was just a robot. jinyoung laughs bitterly as he walks down the street.

he knew things were too good to be true. who would fall in love with him, anyway?

a/n im so sorry for what ive done

inspo credits go to @/leedaehwi on ao3 for the social media au part!! 

[captain-ezri-dax]

ALL OF THEM ANSWER EVERY SINGLE ONE IF I HAVE TO DO IT SO DO Y O U

B)

uhh i guess formatting wants 44 to be on top. i can’t believe #44 is a top, all the other numbers are bottoms & 7 8 9

44: A random fact about anything - anyone who’s played dragon age inquisition but says that Sera isn’t autistic or at least ND can eat my ass

0: Height - i actually have no real idea lmao?? At least 5”7’ i think

1: Age - aaaaam 20

2: Shoe size - again i can’t tell u cause i haven’t needed to buy new shoes in literally 4 years

3: Do you smoke? - nope

4: Do you drink? - not yet

5: Do you take drugs? - nah

6: Age you get mistaken for - lmao i dont get mistaken for ages im not tbh

7: Have tattoos? - nope

8: Want any tattoos? - hell yeah?? I’d get a nier automata tattoo tbh, maybe a dragon age & rwby one too

9: Got any piercings? - nah

10: Want any piercings? - naah

11: Best friend? - probably Tori??

12: Relationship status - single as shit

13: Biggest turn ons - nicee looking tummies, lap sitting, hickies, neck kissing, tiddies

14: Biggest turn offs - uHH i actually don’t rly know?? Pee, dd/lg & bullshit like that, keep all that away fromm me

15: Favorite movie - idk if i rly have one tbh?? I’ve watched spiderman homecoming a lot

16: I’ll love you if… - tag me in things, send me posts i might like or pictures of things u see that remind u of me or think i’d like?? Be even vaguely nice to me lmao

17: Someone you miss - well, people who aren’t in my life any more aren’t rly people i miss tbh?? I miss pmuch all my friends when they aren’t around tho

18: Most traumatic experience - probably the utterly relentless bullying throughout my entire school career & the teachers agreeing w/ my bullies (but not outright saying ofc) lmao

19: A fact about your personality - uuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhh?? I get very excited when friends make me things or show me their own things but have a kind of hard time showing it? Does that count. What counts. Help

20: What I hate most about myself - myy probably abandonment issues, clinginess meaning that i try distancing myself from a lot of people in case i get too clingy, my writing style, the fact that it’s impossible for me to learn a new skill cause not getting it right immediately upsets me & i can’t learn, literally my entire body, how my mind works, my writing style & i can’t keep going or i’ll never stop

21: What I love most about myself - uhhh sometimes i make okay worlds & characters i guess??

22: What I want to be when I get older - mmm don’t rly care as long as i have time to spend time w/ friend & play vidya

23: My relationship with my sibling(s) - not bad but like. Not good either?? We just don’t talk lmao

24: My relationship with my parent(s) - bad

25: My idea of a perfect date - videogames, movies, naps, cuddles

26: My biggest pet peeves - lmao idk this one either tbh

27: A description of the girl/boy I like - n/a rn

28: A description of the person I dislike the most - the president of the united states

29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend - i. Haven’t lied to friends?? Do people do that??

30: What I hate the most about work/school - it’d be much much shorter to ask what i liked about school & then it’d be such an incredibly short list

31: What my last text message says - i technically don’t get texts cause discord is near my sole means of communication at this point

32: What words upset me the most - “futa” lmao, i don’t even see it only on porn blogs anymore, i’ve seen it a few times on sfw art

33: What words make me feel the best about myself - mmm shrug, just validation of my existence

34: What I find attractive in women - not being a fuckin ter/f or any kind of fuckin bigot but otherwise?? But otherwise it’s hard to pin down lmao, all women are good

35: What I find attractive in men - since when are men attractive in literally any way

36: Where I would like to live - andromeda

37: One of my insecurities - mMM what if my friends don’t actually like talking to me & just feel bad for me

38: My childhood career choice - traffic cop lmao

39: My favorite ice cream flavor - miiiint

40: Who I wish I could be - uUUH?? Me i guess but in the right body & wihtout the defects

41: Where I want to be right now - in my room but w/ a working computer

42: The last thing I ate - cake lmao

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately - i genuinely can’t think of any real people lmao, so i’ll just say Aloy

[three-eyedraven]

I want you to do all the numbers. I only reply so quickly because I get notifications when you post because I love you so much ❤❤ And I want to learn more about you

0: Height

5′2″

1: Virgin?

yes

2: Shoe size

anywhere from 7-8

3: Do you smoke?

no

4: Do you drink?

no

5: Do you take drugs?

I take CBD oil for my anxiety from time to time.  I need to get better about taking it more regularly but I forget. (I don’t really consider it much of a drug really since there is no THC in it but it was recently classified as one so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

6: Age you get mistaken for

idk.  a lot of the time like 18-20 but sometimes younger cuz im short and v quiet/my voice pitch goes up due to my social anxiety which i guess seems childish

7: Have tattoos?

not yet

8: Want any tattoos?

yep!

9: Got any piercings?

yep

10: Want any piercings?

don’t think there are anymore that I want so nah

11: Best friend?

Honestly, my girlfriend ( @lizzywaffles ).  Also Rachel, Courtney, Mimi, Jordan, and Grace even though I don’t get to talk to her or see her a lot anymore. 

12: Relationship status

In one ♡

13: Biggest turn ons

Idk probably light back scratching/rubbing, butt touching, lip biting, getting my hair played w, and idk that’s all I can think of rn.  Just kissing is chill too.

14: Biggest turn offs

Rude, bigoted, not understanding or patient w me bc I take a lot of work, dishonest, loud, impulsive (like in a bad way [if that makes sense]), disloyal, and basically just basic things that most people don’t like.

15: Favorite movie

(in no order) Dope, Ponyo, Belle, Across the Universe, Lilo and Stitch, and I think that’s it

16: I’ll love you if

Are honest w me and respect me. Patient w me and kind to me.  Funny and intelligent.  Mostly if you are understanding and tbh I like clingy or don’t be super distant (unless you need it that’s okay) bc it’s always good to know you’re loved.

17: Someone you miss

My aunt, some of my friends cuz I haven’t seen a lot of people over break that I would’ve liked too which is bc I am trash and never initiate things.  Also my girlfriend cuz I’m clingy yikes srry (but not really).

18: Most traumatic experience

Would rather not

19: A fact about your personality

I am v quiet. Like I just don’t really like to talk a lot plus I am v shy and suck at holding conversations so if I am ever really awkward and quiet around you or don’t reply it’s mostly bc Idk what to say so please do not take it personally, I’m v sorry.

20: What I hate most about myself

*queue Jean-Ralphio voice* everythiiinnnggg

But if I had to choose one thing personality wise it’d be my anxiety and physically my skin or maybe my weight

21: What I love most about myself

I like how artistic/creative I am

22: What I want to be when I get older

Makeup artist

23: My relationship with my sibling(s)

It’s good, I guess

24: My relationship with my parent(s)

I love my mom a lot even though we fight sometimes and my dad I’m kinda neutral on tbh like I’m just v uncomfy around him and usually just get annoyed so meh.

25: My idea of a perfect date

Probably eat some good food whether we make it or go somewhere, then just chill out and maybe watch something, and then cuddle.  Also I just like drives or walks especially at pretty places.  Idk I am p simple tbh and I just love being around my s/o so really anything that doesn’t give me anxiety is gr8.

26: My biggest pet peeves

Chewing loudly, interrupting, and that’s all I can think of tbh.

27: A description of the girl/boy I like

She is the most wonderful person ever and I adore her w every fiber of my being.  She treats me v well and we always have a great time together.  She makes me feel comfy and at home which is something that I never feel honestly so it is really nice.  On the outside she is super swaggy but she is actually a huge dork once you get to know her and it is amazing.  She also is really talented and she’s in a band called Generation Nomad so you should check em out on Spotify or whatever your preferred music streaming thingy is.  Basically to sum it up she is the most incredible human to ever exist and I lover her so much.  (sorry if this is too sappy but also im not bc i just love my girl so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

Idk if there is someone I dislike the most honestly.  I hate when people are rude, bigoted, and basically most of the things that were included in my “turn offs”.

29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend

idk cuz I didn’t want to do something

30: What I hate the most about work/school

It is v time consuming and, if you are a baby like me, they cause a lot of anxiety.  Also it just seems like people get stuck in it and can’t really enjoy life which sucks and is my fear.

31: What your last text message says

One is long and salty so Imma just do the second to last one which says “holy shit”

32: What words upset me the most

Slurs and that’s all I can think of rn tbh

33: What words make me feel the best about myself

Honestly just any nice words.  Validation is always gr8

34: What I find attractive in women

I guess probably their sensitivity and I am just more comfortable around women. Also they’re just so pretty.

35: What I find attractive in men

Idk I guess their strength (I can’t really think of anything else so that’s what comes to mind).  Guys are great tho but I just can’t think of specifics.

36: Where I would like to live

I’d either stay in CO or I’d like to live somewhere in the upper west coast.  A different country would be cool but very hard.

37: One of my insecurities

I am v quiet and anxious so I worry that it comes off as me being a bitch.  Also my anxiety keeps me from doing a lot of Cool Teen™ things so people probably think that I am really lame.

38: My childhood career choice

I wanted to be a singer and before that a hair stylist like my mom.

39: My favorite ice cream flavor

Chocolate, cookies n cream, or strawberry i guess.

40: Who wish I could be

idk tbh.  I just wish I was a better, cooler, happier, prettier version of myself.

41: Where I want to be right now

Somewhere warm and maybe rainy.  A beach would be nice for a bit.  Or just w my girlfriend (cheesy i know).  Also hangin w some good friends on the road or just somewhere new or something would be nice.

42: The last thing I ate

A cookie

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

My gf

44: A random fact about anything

Crocodiles have the strongest bite of any animal.

Thank you so much for the ask!!  I love you too  ♡