#i genuinely do need a concert buddy so bad

[kanmom51]

I actually have a crazy theory...

I have already sent this ask as the response to someone else’s thoughts, but then I thought about it and I REALLY wanted to know your opinion about this.

I think Jikook by the beginning of last year didn't know they were enlisting together.

I think they obviously knew about buddy system but didn't actually think they would need to use it. Because it's not really done by idols, and also they both could've gone to safer and easier stations, where they could have more freedom.

BUT THEN Jimin started working intensely on his album and JK started acting out (like having drunken lives), and it became VERY CLEAR that they would not be able to do 18 months apart.

I mean do you remember, that at this time JK said himself that he was not working on anything. And I think the plan was for Jimin to go first (just like a lot of us thought he would) and for JK to have more time for promo alone, when others are gone (I’m pretty sure that HYBE definitely wanted for JK to have big solo debut apart from other members).

But then like I said the drunken lives happened and realization hit, that they have to apply for buddy system, that 18 months apart would be BAD for both of them.

And that's when HYBE (or whoever) made specific demands from JK. Like if he wanted to leave by the end of the year (and he had to for buddy system to work) he HAS TO do the album, and because there was no time to write it from scratch they got all the English songs. Also his schedule was extremely packed and difficult.

So I think that the travel show was something Jikook specifically done for themselves because JK's schedule was so insane that if not for that excuse they would not be able to hang out freely before the enlistment. (By the way am I the only one who thinks that we are getting the travel show only next year? And waiting for it now is kinda crazy?)

But again it's just my theory, mostly because HYBE doesn't feel (to me) like the company who would just let their artists do whatever they want. To me they are waaay more pragmatic than that, and if they decided to allow their stars to enlist together (something that isn't really done in idol culture), than they would make sure to get something in return. They worked JK very hard, and I think he took it because he had a specific goal (more like a person) in mind that he was willing to work for.

So, although we might be on the same wave with some of your thoughts, I don't fully agree with you.

I agree that they didn't know they would be enlisting together way back at the start of 2023.

I think that way back then they were still struggling with the realization that they will have to be enlisting. All the way back to the end of 2022, basically up to around the Busan concert, which was October 2022, they still held hope that some kind of arrangement could and would be found to allow for them not to enlist or to serve a shorter term. It was quite a conundrum for them, something I think most of them struggled with (and I say most because I do think that at least one of them did genuinely want to enlist) - on the one hand this is a life changing pretty scary thing (terrifying even - we saw how sad, and I will even say broken, JM was having to shave off his hair, and that was only a small part of it) they would have to do (joining the army is not a walk in the park, no pun intended), not to mention being in their prime, in the height of their success, having to part with the life they are accustomed to (professionally and personally), not being something they would necessarily want to do. And on the other hand you have that sense of commitment to the country and to their fellow Koreans, that have to face that same compulsory enlistment, adding the knowledge that not taking that path of enlistment could also come at a price. Like us, they knew that there were those that indeed believed they should be given an exemption, but at the same time many Koreans would have frowned upon it, and it's them that have to live among their people. Also, enlisting like any other SK young man would allow them more freedom in the future when it comes to voicing their opinions, as they had, like all others who had served their country fulfilling their duties. Criticisms of anything within a society you live in is easier to swallow when the person voicing said opinion is part of that society and enjoys not only the rights bestowed on those who live there, but has also fulfilled all required duties as well.

Long story short, end of 2022 the decision to enlist became a reality and Jin enlisting hit them all VERY hard. At that point I don't think they had a plan of enlistment just yet, although we do know from RM, for instance, that he was supposed to enlist with Hobi but ended up pushing back as he was busy working on his album and preferred not to lose the momentum.

And btw, hearing this from RM also teaches us that JM was never going to enlist so early on. And here I think our ways part when it comes to the continuation of your theory, because I do believe that JM's plan had ALWAYS been to stick around for JK's solo debut, whenever that would be. And I'll get back to it in a few...

JK was struggling start of 2023. What we got to see, starting with his lives in Feb 2023, him deleting his IG, was him pulling himself out of the pit he was in. Taking initiative and deleting his IG (which I will once again say was a big old F U to the company) and reaching out to us with his lives was JK becoming more active in getting better.

*Side note: I'm using the term getting better meaning pulling yourself out of a bad place you are in mentally (one that effects you physically as well).

Idk if starting the lives was a conscious decision on his part towards getting better, but I do believe that starting them was a key part in it.

Talking to us, sharing things with us, setting (at least trying to set) boundaries with his fans what is and is not acceptable on his part as an idol when it comes to fan behavior and interactions with him, doing it all in the most JK way, intelligently and respectfully.

JM was busy all the way from end of July 2023 through to the release of Face and until the end of his promotions. It's not that they weren't seeing each other or spending time together during this time. It's not that JM wasn't there for JK, as much as he could in the moment. It's very important to state this. But JK was struggling with everything. It's the hiatus, Jin's enlistment, their looming enlistment (the unknown of what will be with the two of them - separation for such a long time is something that both of them would find extremely hard to handle for so many reasons), the lack of direction, the lack of a structured timetable (JK is neuro divergent - there is zero doubt in my mind - if it's asd or adhd or a combination of the two, which in my mind is the most likely of them all). He was kind of lost and his anchor, JM, was not available in the way that he needed. Not JM's fault. Not JK's fault. It just was what it was, and JK was a little lost. It's natural for something like this to happen. I spoke about it quite a bit in my posts about his lives at the time. We saw RM was kind of lost for a while there too. The trick is to pick yourself up and pull yourself out of it (with help of others if necessary), and JK did, and JM was ecstatic to see him doing it. Those comments of his during JK's lives (we are talking about the lives during Feb-Mar 2023) were testimony to that.

Once again I can't seem to reign myself in and keep on point, lol.

So, where was I? Oh yes, they didn't know what will happen, but at the same time JM was not planning on enlisting earlier that year. Understand this: JM enlisting earlier would, to them, mean them being apart for not 18 months, but for 18 months plus. Plus the time between JM's enlistment and JK's enlistment. And plus the time from JM's discharge to JK's discharge. Even without JK's situation this was not something that they would want or agree on. Not to mention JK not only wanting JM around for his solo debut, but NEEDING him around for it. And it's not about being by his side 24/7, which he wasn't and he couldn't be. It's about being accessible. Being there to support him if he needed. Whenever he needed it. Being able to be with him for his first solo performance (this brings me close to another ask I received and am working on regarding JK's FIRST big solo performance). All this has to be within the limits of their glass closet (glass getting a little murky for their own liking since the end of 2021 all the way to the end of 2023), and the limits set by the powers of be (some of which JK very defiantly crossed). So yeah, JM was going to wait for JK's solo debut before enlisting.

As for enlisting together. That was something that was being assessed and in the works for several months. Something obviously kept quiet for good reason.

Was there a give and take with the company when it came to JK and the album? 100%. There were things he wanted, there were things they wanted, there were frogs that it being a first solo album he knew he would have to swallow.

Were some of these concessions given to allow the two more freedom, like allowing the 'travel show'? I do believe they were. Perhaps also prices paid (with Golden) for demands agreed upon in their new contracts. I can definitely see that happening.

The push for a full length album could be one of those, for example. JK was talking about a mini album even as late as mid July, and then it turned into a full length album. Could it have been the company pressuring him into it? Yes it could, as in the company wanting this. But JK is not one to cave in just because the company wants. So very possibly we had a bit of give and take going on here, and some of it most definitley would have had to do with allowances made for the two of them.

But at the same time I don't think it had anything to do with the joint enlistment. Not only don't I think that the company would have a say in it, legally or morally, but this wouldn't be something that either of them would stand for. So, in case I didn't make myself clear here, I will say it again - the company didn't use the possibility of joint enlistment as a tool to get something extra out of JK.

You talk about Hybe not being a company that will allow their artists to do as they wish. BTS belong to Big Hit, which is a subsidiary of Hybe. But Hybe would not have existed if not for BTS. BTS made BH what it is today and Hybe was built on their coat tails. And BTS, the members, they have enjoyed many freedoms within their company over the years. Not full freedom though. And Jikook, well they were allowed to be (while in other companies this was not allowed, couples forced apart or forced out). And not only were they allowed to be, but towards the end of 2020 there was movement towards normalizing their relationship, ear suck, hickey and all.

But then came Hybe and Hybe going public, and I knew the day that was announced that even though the members will get a huge payout this move will cost them freedoms they already had, because now there were shareholders and share prices to worry about, and when your band is the main bread winner for that company, well, as I mentioned, there is a price to pay. And they have been paying that price. The two of them for the 2 years prior to their enlistment. As long as they were under their old contracts they were bound by them. Which is why I feel like there will be changes coming when they are done with their MS and well into their new contracts. This will be freedom regarding their art (I think we can already see part of that with RM's new album) but also regarding their personal lives, in a sense of what they can or cannot show if they choose to. JK telling us he's human, telling us he loves us but he deserves to be happy, or even more needs to be happy to be able to create and perform and make us happy (you need to be especially dense if you don't understand that this also includes being in a relationship with another person, who may or may not be a member of his own band). This includes setting boundaries with their fans - yes they love them and feel indebted to them, but at the same time they need to stay in their own lane (I do think JK has been too nice at times setting these boundaries, while others like RM, Yoongi and Tae - a couple of times - were way blunter).

Once again, Hybe wouldn't have the right to 'allow' or 'disallow' them to enlist together. This would have been their decision and theirs alone. Hybe could talk about timing and what they would like to happen before or after, but not if it can or will happen. Hybe could like or dislike it, support it or not, but they would have no power over it. The military alone would have a say if to allow it or not, and at the end of the day we know how that one ended.

I also want to touch on another point.

Again.

Their choice to enlist together.

I've seen talk about Jikookers using the term NEED when it comes to the two of them - needing to be with one another to get through their military service, and I wanted to put in my two cents on this.

The way I think of it is that when people use the term need in that case it's not about saying that if they weren't allowed to enlist together they wouldn't have survived it. No. That isn't it. Not in my opinion, in any case.

These two young men are strong physically and mentally, and they would get through whatever was thrown their way (wouldn't be easy, I tell you that, but they would get through it). Chances are that if they wouldn't have gone down the path of enlisting together they could have landed a cushier placement, band perhaps, like NJ, who knows. But definitley the choice to do this together had a price tag to it, and their letters from Festa tell us as much as well (even though they obviously sugar coat it for us, but the sentiments are clear - it's hard).

So, they chose this. They knew this was going to be hard. A harder, more difficult, placement if they were to go down this path. And yet this was their choice!!

Why?

And here comes that NEED into play.

Yes, I do think that they needed this. They needed each other. They needed to not be separated for 18 months not knowing if and how often they could get to see each other or be together (maybe, if allowed, once in 3 months, and only if their units allowed the time off at the same time). They needed that person that they trusted and KNEW that would stand by their side, that would support them, be their rock, catch them when they fall, be by their side in their time of need, just like they always have been.

They are each other's PERSON. The one that would ALWAYS be there through good and bad.

They both put it down in words:

JM

And JK

Shock, awe... I must be one of those delusional Jikookers that believe JK's lyrics were not describing his relationship with us, the fans. Another song written for the one person they love, yet given as a gift to Army.

And in his very subtle but intelligent way, he told us that himself:

"Even when I was working on the song, I really wanted to release it as a fan song".

Just like JM did, eh?

Would it be too hard to just say : "I wrote this song for my fans"? He chose not to, didn't he? Once again we have choices here.

I digress.

You could replace NEED with WANT, if you will. Same same in this case, imo. Seeing how hard they fought to find their way to this exact point.

The first, the only idols to ever do this!!

Bottom line:

To me, using the term NEED in this context is not about them not being able to make it otherwise, but more about a choice made to have that person they feel closest to, the person that has since forever been their emotional anchor, the person that lifted them up when they fell, the person that stood by them, cared for them, supported them when they were struggling. The person that KNEW them to the core and would be there by their side to get through this together with.

Each other.

[mamirhodessxox]

One request. 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Angry black suit cody. 😍😍😍

That's all.🙃🙃🙃

Ask and you shall recieve shnookum 🤓☝️

Settle Down

Cody Rhodes x Fem!Reader

Desc: Cody fires himself up during his Monday Night Raw promo which results into Y/N having to help calm him down backstage.

Contents: Fluff, Cussing, Y/N being a sweetie, angry cody 🤗‼️ (No smut in this one since next oneshot will include smut)

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“The Rock, took to instagram last week following up with a very entertaining rock concert, too bad he didn’t wanna be here tonight..” the crowd booed “Rock referred to himself as our favorite heel..?” Cody’s voice echoed throughout the arena talking & saying “The nature boy rick flair was a heel. Rock..I don’t think you’re a heel I think you’re an asshole..” Cody scowled directly into the Camera while standing inside the ring as if you two were making eye contact despite the fact you were backstage watching this all go down on the tv that laid against the wall of his dressing room.

“Haven’t you been crying behind the scenes this whole time? I mean once that hashtag came out once they started chanting something else, you went and CRIED to your buddies on the TKO board ‘HEY HEY! This is gonna be some good pr for the rock I need to save wwe’ god knows look at thise house we sure needed saving right?! He said it’s gonna be this great pr for the rock until it wasn’t..” Cody ranted while circling around staring directly at the live camera & you immediately noticed that he was beginning to fire himself up the more he spoke.

“Rock, the TKO folks said to you oh my gosh yes rock yes put on your gucci shirt your muscles will look so big YES YES YES YES! The reason they said it is because they are YES people they are enablers they don’t tell you like it is, so I’m going to.” Cody scoffed as he went on another tangent on how he could admit many things on the Rock but then he pissed himself off so much to the point where he started becoming more verbally agressive “Rock you are also a terrible Salesman a carny succubus and for those who don’t know what that means..Your a whiney BITCH.” He snapped.

Y/N sat in the dressing room staring directly into the fury of his eyes right through the television screen, all this talk about the rock had genuinely started becoming angering to him & bothersome that he somehow managed to upset himself the more he spoke. “You haven’t been in the ring in real time action in YEARS! And April 6th the BELL is gonna ring! What happens rock when it rings? Are you gonna have all that Big Dwayne Energy or LDS?! Little. DICK. Syndrome!” He shouted while all of the fans within the arena started Chanting, Cheering, Shouting waving around their signs while even the announcers chuckled to themselves.

For the rest of his promo he continued ranting, shouting & even going as far as making a sudden deal with The Wiseman Paul Heyman, threatening to pull a Homelander & rip out his throat if he didn’t get to the point which left Paul a little shocked. Once his promo for the night was finished You immediately left the dressing room just as he rushed his way backstage huffing and puffing mumbling with Jey & then approaching you hut you held up your hands that lightly knocked against his chest about to speak but you shook your head

“Cody I can tell you’re pissed off, You upset your own self just by talking about Dwayne alone & before You do anything like take off the suit, get comfortable, go to the bus I need you to grab some water & take a breath.” You spoke softly as you noticed his hands were shaking in irritation and inner rage before he took a deep breath & exhaled while nodding.

“Good. Now let’s get you out of that suit & into the bus before Pharaoh looses his mind..” you pat his shoulder while you two went to the dressing room. You helped him get undressed and for a moment he just legit stood there with boxers on ranting his heart out “Had the nerve on him to mention MY mother y/n and complain about me shedding ONE tear ONE SINGULAR TEAR but this entire time he’s bitching and WHINING to TKO” he started shouting a bit while you folded his suit & packed it away. You turned around & started shushing him softly and pat his chest “Baby your yelling, Settle down okay? I know your pissed hell I would be do if someone talked about my parents like that. But I need you to lower your voice, your throats gonna go raw. Like Monday.”

Cody chuckled at the corny joke you had made to help cheer him up while pulling him into a warm hug as you practiced deep breathes with him “Thank you sweetheart I don’t know what i’d do without you.” You smiled shrugging “I don’t know either.” He snorted and pressed a kiss against your lips “alright now pipe down a bit.” You laughed before giving him one more kiss.

Cody was not an easily angered man, until things like his parents or loved ones getting mentioned but when he had You around? He was going to go a long way when you knew how to calm down in the right ways.

xtripleiiix’s Masterlist

[jungilhoon]

from 2015 to 2023: a retrospective!

i’m mostly writing this for myself, but if you happen to take a look and even get something out of it, that’s cool too.

i started this blog in march 2015; it’s now december 2023. back then, i was still a student, reaching the end of my teen years and preparing to progress towards the next stage of my life. i’m now twenty-eight (birth year buddies with sungjae, let’s go).

to be honest, my main goal in life during that time – aside from surviving university and then finding a job – was basically to spread recognition of btob as much as i could lmao. it was as if my well-being depended on their happiness and success. i wanted to watch them succeed so bad, and i feel like their rise equated to some of the most exciting years of my life. they gave me something i thought i was missing, and i needed them. at the same time, i think i was experiencing a lot of difficulties during the years 2015-2017. btob became my escape and comfort that helped me get through that period. looking back, i could have been relying on them a bit too much, but they certainly brightened my world. for that, i’ll always be grateful.

one of my fondest memories will forever be seeing them live for the first time at their 2017 concert. being in the presence of the seven people i had been supporting so hard was profoundly touching. hearing fellow melodies singing their hearts out to ‘it’s okay’ alongside myself brought tears to my eyes.

anyway, as time passed and i started to spend less time online due to changing commitments offline, i began to notice changes in myself. i stopped posting here in 2019 for no significant reason other than that i had gotten busy, and i was finding myself genuinely enjoying life by then. i was discovering happiness in more ways than i had before, but btob stayed a part of me. they were my reliable friends, my found family – the ones i could come back to at any time. my home.

in late 2020 and 2021, i distanced myself for a while. i don’t think i ever fully processed the news back then. i might have even told myself that not paying attention and blocking it out would be for the best. i basically took a break, only checking in here and there. (4u ate up on kingdom.) i’ve naturally drifted away from people i knew back then, but i’ve also stayed close to a few. eventually, i found myself accepting the way things had become, albeit slowly. i still miss and care about ilhoon. i understand if he will never be a ‘public figure’ again. i think i can simultaneously acknowledge and hold both of these perspectives. every now and then, such as when i’d finished watching the btob time movie last week, i do feel sad about it. it’s hard to just get over it. yeah, i’m an adult, but so what.

my mindset has changed as i’ve gotten older. in the past, i was hostile and quick to react in the face of negativity. i was chaotic; i always wanted to prove a point. i guess i’ve calmed down a lot since then. i’m pretty mellow these days. on the whole, i’m not fond of spending too much time engaging with strangers or acquaintances online. truthfully, it did make me anxious then too. i kind of prefer just tossing things into the void, like this post, and quietly enjoying what i like. that’s why being active online the way i used to be doesn’t seem to work for me anymore. still, maybe with rose-tinted glasses, i miss those days i spent just waiting on the next btob update and having fun here. i scrolled through my archive for a while last night, riding on a rollercoaster of emotions.

what i actually mean by my mindset having changed though, is that i seem to view things in life more positively these days. i’ve somehow stopped being so pessimistic all the time. i found it difficult to look on the bright side when i was younger. i was colder, filled with dread, and eternally expecting the worst. as a person, i think i’ve become warmer, more appreciative. precious things can disappear just like that. i try to be thankful, in case it’s true that nothing gold can stay.

i’m undecided on if i’ll randomly appear with the odd post when i feel like it. there’s no harm in it, so perhaps! at present, what i want to say is that i still wholeheartedly love and support btob. always will. i have their season’s greetings pre-ordered. now that they’re out of cube, i’m so excited for what they might have in store next. i don’t know what it’ll be, but that’s okay. whatever it is, and even if it’s not what i’m expecting, i trust them. i’ll be proud of them. really! 비투비 예전에도 지금도 앞으로도 사랑해요! 🩵

(p.s. i impulsively bought hour moment photocards at 2am last night, so maybe i actually still need to relax.)

[withleeknow]

lmao not the big work screen that's brave of you here's another one but less 😵 and more 🥰 vm.tiktok.com/ZGe378eMP/ - genuine q. concerning 🐹/🐈‍⬛: when are we never in the rabbithole??? *complains about the microwave*- *proceeds to feed the microwave* speaking of, hi welcome to your en-o'clock era 👀 this compilation is the most accurate preview of what's in store: vm.tiktok.com/ZGe37yXGA/

icl seungmin and mimo in ate?? still not over that bridge + that genre of mimo? i'm thinking the Δ composition = fwb/fboy!mimo + pining-bsf!seungmin 😶‍🌫️ WT: I CAN HEAR THE COGS TURNING + SENSE THE ANGST FROM MILES AWAY ISTG WOMAN THE REVEALLLL I'M GONNA SCREAM 🕊🦋

“what am i doing with an enhypen album” im crying 😭😭 consider yourself ✨️ influenced ✨️ she really is the prettiest - I didn't realise just how cute/cozy their photoshoot concepts were for inceptio 🥺 also asia!! 💓 whereabouts are you headed?

i'm surprised you're still here bc 🥟's given us not one but TWO ig lives this week 😭😭 AND THE TOUR CLIPS SO FAR?? BANGCHAN??! SMILEY MIMO W/ HIS BLUE HOODIE? THE THUNDEROUS STAGE?!!

i'm already on ep 27 bc i'm a fast watcher lol but YOOOOOOOO why did nobody tell me about niki 😭 he's ADORABLE YO, my new son omg i immediately adopted him. the most precious baby someone protect him at all costs 😭 also i've been looking at sunghoon lol we're pleasantly surprised. i had zero clue about his personality but after watching this, hello....... interesting....... just hear me out - he reminds me of mimo sometimes :o personality wise and also in some shots he looks like mimo to me lolll. ALSO i'm sure you've probably seen this but it came up on my explore page the other day and i watched it like 20 times in a row lskdfhalsd 🤣

2min △ 😭 we need to stop being on the same frequency bc i thought about it once and while a hyunho △ has the potential to run along lines of being in lurv with your buddy's gf, a 2min △ just has to stem from (childhood) best friends :o

i'm equally excited and nervous to post wt7.5 bc while i like some of the bits in this one, idk how people will receive it bc yk... angst. but we'll see in a few days akskjshd 😭

i'm going to vietnam for like 3 weeks hehehe. OH and i keep forgetting to tell you, my friend is going to music bank madrid and she asked me if i wanted to come too. unfortunately i'm out of paid leave and i have a jonas brothers concert (in my defense i bought the ticket last august before all the drama 🤣) a couple days after that, but imagine if we both to music bank together 😭 that... would be kinda insane methinks

🥟 has been so active with his lives lately i'm so in love with him :((( that newlywed life is treating him well i see, i should be their roommate i don't mind thirdwheeling

everything about the tour is driving me crazy. the setlist (although no charmer is a major L for me, rip), the looks, the solo stages (i cannot tell you how in love i am with mimo's hair. i'm still trying to process it), the merch especially the mood lamps and the stress balls (i caved and ordered a foxiny one) and the new skzoos doing UPPIES I WANT THEM SO BAD (and look oh my god they can hold hands) I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I WANTED SOMETHING SO BADLY 😭 i love that while everyone else was doing horny numbers and getting freaky on main, seungmin had a mike wazowski guitar moment and mimo had a babygurl stage lolll. ngl i couldn't really focus watching the thunderous performance bc they were SO sparkly lmaooo i love the babygirl-esque fits 😂

[jimbleswrites]

Pantheon 2022

Chapter 10: Leblanc’s Ambush

Our trip to the K+ concert was a success. It had been a few days since then, but we watched with Ongaku as the internet blew up about K+’s complete breakdown on stage. Ongaku was happy that the smaller labels could continue to be independent. And I continued to patrol for Thora and deliver justice on a smaller scale. Vida was going to talk to Arinya about a possible lead, and I was currently on route to Cranberry Kiss, as Dan & Pat wanted to talk.

I walked into the bar, and found the same quiet place as last time. It was comfy, and I pulled up a stool. There were a few other patrons, all quietly drinking. I ordered a Cranberry Kiss, and the bartender silently mixed it together. I sat there for a minute, enjoying the atmosphere. Then Dan & Pat walked in.

“Robert, Buddy!” Pat called out as the door opened. He and Pat walked in, sliding right next to me at the bar. “Great to see you again!”

“I’ll be honest, waking up in a doctor’s office last time we hung out kinda freaked me out, but I've never felt better after that visit! You gotta let me know if he accepts new patients.” Pat chimed in, waving down the bartender.

I thought about the fight with Thora that put them into Ako’s care. But Ako was able to patch them up and make sure they didn’t remember any godly activities. “Hopefully you don’t need him again. I still feel bad that you guys got involved with my work.” I couldn’t say too much, but I genuinely did feel bad for them getting hurt.

“Don’t worry my man, it is what it is” Dan retorted, grabbing two bottles from the bartender as he walked by. “The important thing is we’re all okay and the paper is doing great!” He pulled up his phone and showed me an article. “Hits are up! We might even expand the team and get a real office!”

I looked closer, and noticed my picture and name near the bottom. “I’m on the site?” I questioned.

“Well, yeah. You got us off the ground, so we felt you deserved some recognition. You’re one of the Weekly Eagle’s field reporters!” Dan smiled, tapping my glass with his bottle and taking a swig. “Don’t worry, it’s just for show.”

“Yeah, that’s what I’m worried about. It doesn’t worry you?” I didn’t want to have them attacked again, and having my name attached to anything could be bad.

“Nope.” Pat chimed in, “But the cop cars outside are a little concerning.” He pointed to 3 cop cars that were rolling in, almost on queue. Lights blazing, they quickly drifted to a stop, blocking the road on either side of the bar. The patrons of the bar began walking to the windows to see what was happening. The cops began setting up defensive positions behind the cars, and a tall man in a long overcoat stepped forward with a megaphone.

“ROBERT PALADIN!” The man called out. “YOU ARE BEING ARRESTED FOR TREASON  AGAINST AMERICA! COME OUT NOW OR WE WILL RAID THE BUILDING!” The police were pointing various arms at the building, pointed between the apartments above and the bar.

“You two should find a safe spot.” I stood up awkwardly, not sure why I was being arrested. “I don’t know what’s happening, but I don’t want you getting hurt.” The two reporters nodded, and scuttered behind the bar. I slowly walked over to the front door, cracking it a little. “I gotta ask, what did I do to get this response?” I yelled out to the man, still hiding inside.

“You come closer, and I’ll go over the full wrap sheet with you.” The man stepped forward. “But you try anything stupid, and we start firing.”

I could try to make a doorway out, but I didn't want anyone caught in the crossfire if the police deemed me a threat. I could try to fight out with my aura, but it was still risky. I didn’t have much of a choice though. I stepped out fully from the door, hands raised. The cops focused all their aim on me as I stood there.

The man held out a pair of handcuffs in a gloved hand. “I was hoping for a struggle, Rob.” He said, smirking.

“Then you’re gonna love this.” I focused my aura into my hands, now emitting a bright light and noise, effectively flash-banging the entire force as my hands glowed bright gold with a high-pitched screeching. The full force reeled back, and I quickly ran down the road, hopping over the top of the squad car and sprinting down the empty road.

“GOD DAMN IT, SHOOT HIM NOW!” I turned back to see the man in a full sprint running after me, with others aiming their weapons over. I heard gunfire as I ran, bullets whizzing by. I turned a corner just as a pain shot my leg. I toppled over, and saw a ripple in my aura near my calf. I must have gotten hit by a bullet, and my aura automatically shielded it. The man turned the corner, rushing towards me in a feral charge. I tried to get back up, but it felt like someone had smacked my leg with a hammer. The man finally caught up, and slammed my head into the sidewalk. My aura was shielding me but it still hurt, like my brain was being rattled around in my skull. I flipped over to face my attacker, only to see him swinging for my head. He hunched over me, repeatedly punching me as he pinned me to the sidewalk. I felt myself blacking out as he continued to attack.

***

I woke up to a major headache. My eyes focused on a figure in front of me. I tried to jump up, thinking it was that mysterious attacker from before, but found myself strapped down. I thrashed for a second, but couldn’t break the straps. I looked up again to see the figure was myself, reflected in a large mirror next to a door. I also saw a monitor next to me, with my vitals plastered all over it. I followed the cords to see some sensors hooked onto my arm, right next to a metal cuff chained to the bed I was laying in. I looked to my other side to see something hooked into my arm. It looked like an IV drip, but the label had some chemical I didn't recognize. My best guess was that I was captured, but by who? And why is no one watching me?

“Hello?” I called out. I tried to focus on breaking the cuff, but my body felt sluggish. It was like having a 2-second delay on moving anything.

“Anyone there?” I tried calling out again. I sat there awkwardly squirming, until the door finally opened with a whoosh. The mysterious man that attacked me walked through, alongside a smaller man in a lab coat. They walked to the edge of the bed, standing a good distance back.

“Mr. Paladin? How are you feeling?” The smaller man spoke up, with a bit of fear in his voice.

“To be honest? Disoriented, pissed off, and confused.” I responded. “Where am I and who are you two?”

“My name is Dr. Doug Prunty, and this is Commander Leblanc.” The smaller man explained. “I’m afraid you aren’t allowed to know where you are.”

“You are a captive of the United Nations. You are being deemed a threat until we know more about you.” Commander Leblanc spoke with authority. “We have questions for you.”

I scoffed. “You accuse me of treason in the middle of the street, then assault me, kidnap me, and expect me to play nice?”

Leblanc stepped closer. “You were accused of crimes you did commit. Trespassing, stealing, assault to officers and civilians, espionage, and more. While you are extremely good at breaking the law, you didn’t attempt to cover your tracks at all. We have several reports, eyewitnesses, and security footage for several escapades of yours.” He turned to a TV in the corner I hadn’t noticed yet, and it buzzed to life with photos of me. “GIPA HQ in New York, The storage in the Phoenix courthouse, and the K+ concert in Green Bay. We have you clocked at each location.” He turned back to me. “Now, you tell me. Who do you work for?”

I wasn’t telling these people anything. They wouldn’t believe me, and normal humans weren’t supposed to know about gods or champions. I stared Leblanc down, refusing to speak.

“OK then, how about known associates?” The TV flickered to photos of Dan & Pat. “Why are you listed as a field reporter on their site?” I stayed silent. The TV changed again to a photo of me and Mrs. R at the mall shopping. “How about her? You two shopped with a bank card that doesn’t exist, and yet all the charges are fine. Anything you wanna say?”

These guys had done their homework, but didn’t seem to know about Mrs. R. Maybe she was sneakier than I was? The TV changed again, showing me and Caleb buying the car in Phoenix. “How about him?” Leblanc continued to question, “Your accomplice for the Phoenix heist?”

“Is there anything you will tell us?” Doug piped in, trying to help.

I wasn’t sure how much they knew, but I needed to leave here. “I gotta pee.”

Leblanc sighed, turning off the TV. “You are just making this difficult for everyone. But if you don’t want to talk now, i’ll wait.” He grabbed Doug by the shoulder, and led him to the door. “If you try anything, we’ll know.” They went through the door, it loudly clanged behind them, and I was alone again. Suddenly Leblanc’s blared over a speaker. “There is a toilet and sink next to the bed. If you cooperate, we won’t need the cuffs.” I sat up, looking to my left, and found a small toilet and sink attached to the wall. I looked closer at the cuff, and found a small clip to a longer chain. I unhooked it, and now had some more freedom. My other cuff on my left wasn’t attached to anything, but had a small light and beeped occasionally. Probably a tracker or a bomb. Maybe both. I found myself in a set of scrubs, and just realized my stuff was gone. I wasn’t left with any options for now, so I just had to bide my time.

***

Dr. Doug Prunty was not very excited to have this assignment. Normally guard duty on this platform was not bad, but with Leblanc? The commander was known for two things. His impressive record for catching criminals, and his obsessive personality. Doug had just gotten the report, and he was not looking forward to going over it with the commander.

“Commander, his things have been analyzed.” Doug stood next to the commander, looking through the report on his tablet. “The items are normal, except for a yellow jacket and his phone. They have no manufacturer listed and appear to be made by the prisoner himself. The phone also has no response to anything we try, so it may be a while until we can hack in.”

Leblanc didn’t react. He just stared through the one-way mirror at his prisoner. Robert simply sat on his bed, cross-legged, seemingly meditating. “What about the flashbang he used?”

“Nothing found on scene. No body armor either. He doesn’t seem to have any other advanced tech, and the search of the bar and apartments came up with nothing.” Doug continued. “We’re unsure if he has any other tricks up his sleeves, but there’s nothing on him. The body scan showed it was all organic.”

Leblanc turned to Doug. “Of course it did. We just have a person with superhuman powers, with no previous record of existence, that has been actively stealing government secrets, and with no actual leads on how he did any of it.” His voice dripped with sarcasm, clenching his fists tightly.

Doug gulped. “But he’s here! That’s a good thing, right?”

Leblanc pulled up his sleeve, revealing his robotic arm. It was clearly a prototype, with exposed pistons and gears quietly clicking as the arm rose. “The last time we encountered someone like him, I got my entire arm ripped off.”

Doug tried to look away just to have Leblanc move his arm closer. It grinded against Doug’s shirt, tearing the cloth against the unpolished steel. “I was apprehending a simple suspect, when someone TORE my arm off. Not cut. Not dislocated. She pulled it off like I was a god damn toy!”

Leblanc was shouting now, towering over the scientist. He pressed his metal hand into Doug’s shoulder. “MY PLAN WAS TO KILL HIM BEFORE HE COULD HURT MORE PEOPLE. NOW WE HAVE ONE OF THOSE FREAKS, JUST WAITING FOR A CHANCE TO STRIKE! THE MOMENT OUR GUARD DROPS, HE WILL ATTACK AND HE WILL BREAK OUT!” Leblanc breathed heavily, now pinning the poor doctor to the wall.

Doug tried to break away, but was unable to. After a moment of silence, Leblanc lowered him down and stepped back.

“He could have some information for us. I’m sorry.” Doug finally spoke. “We’ll focus on getting info our way. Then you get your way.” Doug timidly snuck away, scuttling out of the door.

Leblanc looked back to the prison cell, watching Robert. He flexed his arm, knowing a fight would be coming. It was only a matter of time before this new threat showed everyone his true colors.

[golbrocklovely]

Colby doesn’t need any of that though. you guys don’t care about l10 and c*rey which i get bc i don’t either so why does it bother y’all so much what they do or don’t do? stop giving them attention and the time of the day and they’ll fade into the background like Ms snapcha. like seriously they didn’t even cross my mind when i saw Colby’s post. they’re irrelevant. they’re nothing, zist, nada. not a blip on the radar. they’re two bitter miserable adults that fight to stay afloat and that’s it. Colby doesn’t need their fake support or “love” or them reaching out. he needs genuineness, genuine love, genuine people, genuine positivity and a support net to hold on to and fall on. none of those things would be provided by corey’s/elton’s empty words and actions. it would just bring them/him back to a momentary spotlight, get people talking and slightly paint them on a positive note. or it would get people saying “look at them, they’re so fake/attention seeking”. it wouldn’t be worth it. it’s not worth it. i’m glad they said nothing. i hope they continue to say nothing. their nonexistence is music to my ears.

if i'm honest, i never expected elton to say anything. mostly bc he does his best to ignore snc at this point (while still being petty towards them sometimes) bc it does not work out well for him. all he gets is hate when he even breathes something in their direction so for a while now he has stuck to his own lane. and realistically if he would have left a comment on colby's post, ppl would have called him out for being a dickbag all this time or coming across as fake towards them and it just would have turned bad. so in the end, it was probably for the best that he didn't say anything.

but with corey, i think i was just hoping for him to go against the grain.

bc while elton constantly shitted on them for years, corey never really said anything minus one or two things maybe. elton was the person that shaded them constantly and was the one that was petty. corey was just… there, so to speak. and i kinda always thought that corey never said anything bc in his mind he thought that while he was collabing and living with elton, this was a battle between elton and snc and he just wasn't a part of it. idk if that's reality, but i can see how maybe he would think that way.

but this whole thing makes it true that he wasn't a bystander watching and doing nothing, he agreed with elton all this time. and that's just sad.

personally, i don't pay attention to elton or corey anymore. back when elton was heavy on shading snc, i would notice him or go looking for what he said. but in the last two-ish years, i don't pay him or corey any mind. if they pop up on my tl or if someone tells me something, then i'll notice them. but even then it's fleeting.

the issue is that when everyone and their mother (almost literally) are reaching out to give colby love, it becomes apparent who isn't saying something. so, it's noticeable that corey isn't there.

and what makes it a bit icky to me is that corey was seen with colby a couple days after he first announced he had cancer, when they were all at a concert together with jake. so i figured "hey, he didn't say anything the first go around, but he probably said something privately. and this time he'll say something." and him not doing that is just gross. you're fine to hang out with colby, but can't take two seconds to leave a comment? you're a dick.

and while i agree with you him saying something could have led him to have the spotlight on him for even a second, that's not really the point. the point is, at the bare fucking minimum, he should have been kind. and he wasn't. and that's sad.

and even if for argument's sake he reached out privately, that's weird. he's okay publicly looking bad but behind the scenes being buddy-buddy? that wouldn't make sense. so this leads me to believe he probably didn't reach out that way either. and i agree with you that colby needs genuine love and support. but i highly doubt he would have seen corey's comment and said "oh he's pretending to reach out, he doesn't actually care." colby would have loved the love even if it wasn't 100% genuine bc he would have seen it as genuine. he sees the good in ppl. it's just a shame that after everything that has happened, corey couldn't be nice.

so in the end, fuck him and fuck elton. good riddance.

[monstermaster13]

Corey Feldman Room:

You decide that after what happened a few weeks ago between you and your former friend of yours that you really need to find someone who can understand you and won't end up blaming you and treating you like you're the villain so you decide to head over to the door with Corey Feldman's name on it and you open it up, once you head inside that room you see what appears to be a room decked out like a goth rock concert with a vampire motif, there are posters for Goonies, Dream A Little Dream, Stand by Me, The Lost Boys, The Burbs and Bordello Of Blood. All of which are movies you recognize as being Corey Feldman movies, well okay one of them has Tom Hanks i.e The Burbs but you know Feldman was in it. You look around, making your way past the dancers and head over to what appears to be an altar of some sort, that's where you see something emerging from it...smoke, smoke that once it clears reveals a shadow, the shadow then takes you to where Corey Feldman is. 'Hi ya Nathan.' 'Aren't you?' 'Yes...i'm Corey Feldman. Nice to meet ya.' 'Uhhh....likewise, I guess.' You and Feldman have never been on good terms but you do like him even though he did transform you into him quite a few times already and did bite you that one time, but of course you didn't know that he intended on doing that because he is a vampire after all. And you've always liked vampires and have fancied the idea of becoming one which of course sounds awesome to you. You approach Corey. 'It's nice to see you by the way. How may I help you?' 'Well Corey, I had a bad breakup with an ex-friend of mine a few weeks ago.' 'You lost your bestie too, huh?' 'How do you know that?' 'It happened to me too.' 'Ah yeah, the Haim thing.' 'I was never really able to get over that.' Corey sobs, you can tell he has been through a lot just like you have and you can't help but feel that you want to help him. 'Is it okay if I become your bestie?' you ask shly, unsure of what he might think or what he might say about it. 'Sure...you can be my besite. After all, I feel that we are very similiar. We both like monsters and lost a best friend and I definitely feel that you could use someone like me to make things less depressing.' You reach and give him a hug as you bond over monsters and the adventures you've been on, you look at various articles and you also can't help but feel impressed by him, even though the two of you never did get on nicely you seem to be getting along now and now you're best buddies.

"Corey, this is going to be the beginning of a lovely friendship."

"Indeed."

It seems that you and Corey are bonding and truly meant for each-other, you don't mind it when he disagrees with you because you know he's looking out for your best interests and he genuinely cares for you, it seems he wants to seal the deal. 'And now the real fun is about to start.' 'What do you mean?' 'Well..I notice you like vampires.' 'Yes.' 'How would you like to join me and become one yourself?' 'I'd like that a lot.' You're rather nervous about this but if it means you officially become his bestie, you decide to go along with it....he smiles as his canines lengthen and sharpen, resembling fangs as he asks you to lean back, you do so as he reaches into the nape of your neck...he gently bites it and laps up some of the blood, which doesn't feel too bad and you've always wanted to try out being a vampire yourself...so you let him do it and as you do, his vampiric essence is transferred into you, possessing you in the process...making you feel like you are being taken over by him.

"Mmmmm....this feels pretty nice."

Your skin complexion seems to clear itself up before roughening up as your chest and torso alter a little bit, your arms lengthen as your hands alter, while this is going on your fingernails are lenghtening a little. You don't mind this though as you feel relaxed and allow the process to happen. Your outfit slowly changing to an outfit resembling the one worn by the character David from The Lost Boys as your legs alter and your feet follow suit in a size change, your shoulders and back contort a little as you grow a little to 5'8. You start thinking about how good it was when you got turned by him the previous time, and how you've always wanted to become a vampire yourself...now it is coming true and you're already thinking about how good blood tastes, especially from those of your enemies, even more so once you turn them over to your side, you're unsure about the proccess but he assures you it's alright, becoming one of the undead will be fun after-all and once you're fully vamped up, you'll be ready to get payback on your enemies. He whispers to you to relax and let his influence help you as your aura darkens and your desire to be loyal to him in return is increasing, your neckline lengthens while your hair lengthens, becoming messier and turning jet black as a strand in the middle of it develops, your eyebrows thicken a little and arch, your brow altering as your eyes widen and narrow a bit, darkening and glowing a bit...giving off a supernatural vibe as your cheekbones sharpen and your features slowly morph into a perfect copy of Corey's features, you cough a little as your voice deepens, contorting itself and gruffening until it sounds just like his as you develop his mannerisms.

"You're damn right it feels nice...now, listen closely."

"Yes, I'm listening."

"You're gonna be needing a lot of blood from now, now that you're my bestie, you now have my vampire powers too."

"I've always wanted to be a vampire."

Your teeth sharpen as your canines extend to became akin to fangs, you lick your lips thinking of the delicious blood you'll be able to obtain. Your personality and mind warp and contort, making you forget all your troubles and allow you to embrace your new self...and that self is that of Corey himself, you have his appearance and you have his voice and now you're a vampire just like him. The transformation completes itself as Corey looks over at you and gives you a pat on the back. 'So, so ready to paint the town blood red?' 'You bet I am.' He can tell that you're eager to hunt for blood and for people to convert into fellow vampires so he gives you a helping hand and assists you with learning how to use your new powers. And like any good teacher and bestie, he's going to deliver on his promise to teach all you need to know.

"Follow me. I know lots of people who would make excellent vamps."

"Right behind you."

The two of you turn into mist/shadow-like forms and slink off into the night and from now on...you two will remain as vampiric best friends and also as twins, since after all you're both Corey Feldman. You learn how to use your vampire powers from him and learn to embrace the nocturnal lifestyle, which is a lifestyle you've always wanted, all your troubles are over now that your bestie is with you and now that you can get back at your enemies by swaying them over to your side which is sure to coem in useful. It's like you're forever in Neverland and to be honest, you don't mind that...because now yourself are indeed a Lost Boy, a lost boy who has been found and trained to be a creature of the night. And what more could a vampire want than a bestie who can teach him how to turn others and share the glory of being eternal? Absolutely nothing, but we know that's the way it is.

[stuckinapatriarchalbullshitland]

Get The Party Started....🥳🎉👯‍♀️

No. The title is not only because of the Pink! song, but also because of that video of Camila having a good time in La Cienaga where I remember you, sorry, in the karaoke bar The Belmont.

As you know, I love to be curious around the fandom (and I find out things thanks to the anons as curious as me who send me stuff, thanks buddies!) And well, besides, I was thinking about what this anon sent me about The Belmont

Then I remembered the reasons why Camila still has a dirty image and why they keep on dirtying her and don't defend her as it should be... And I hit my head on the wall, figuratively because the answer was in front of my eyes, or well, not my eyes, but in front of the reflection of... Lauren.

Let's go back in time in an imaginary time machine. Don't worry that the trip will be shorter than you think because I wasn't here at that time so forgive me if I'm wrong, but: Do you remember when Lauren's image started to get dirty? My understanding is that it was before her open letter to Trump, i.e. Laucy.

What did we see of her? Smoking pot and partying, right? Then marijuana became an issue and out came the headline.

Lauren Jauregui is arrested for marijuana possession and is barred from entering Brazil to accompany her bandmates on the concert tour they would be giving in the country.

Before that she had come out of the closet with Lucy and followed Tyren, after Tyren Lauren's image was clean and she released her first EP.

We go back to our time after getting out of our time machine and we have Camila.

A Camila with a totally dirty image in front of the GP, with two fucking PRs to account for and two albums of her own and a movie.

And now?

Pictures of her in a sex shop, pictures of her in a bar and apparently drunk, but being happy after the breakup.

This video was meant to be leaked with a purpuse and now I understand why, the sex shop papz pictures too.

Oh, and these ones

Remember how we couldn't avoid to think about Lauren after we saw her with this style?

Need I say more for you guys to get the point of this post? Free woman who doesn't need a man to be happy and.....

I think you already know the answer, folks. It's right in front of your eyes

In 2018 I wrote a post called They Switched where I said that we would see the strategies that one of the girls had reflected in the other and it is the same as what we are seeing now. The same strategy they used with Lauren, but with Camila. They are their own reflection, publicly speaking.

What fucks with my head a bit is that the bastards make coming out a bad thing. That they relate something like that to partying, excess, alcohol and drugs and call that empowerment, free will and bullshit. There is nothing positive in a public coming out of an artist because to the bastards it means drama and scandal, not something positive or worth following because the relationship of being free is full of darkness, shadow and a dirty image.

Because I guess I have a genuine question: How many LGBT couples exist in the American music industry that has not been involved in scandal and that the coming out has not been taken as a transition to put said LGBT artist back in a box of heterosexual PRs? I hope you can help me to answer that question.

[melto]

good lord maybe im just a little crazy but bad buddy really just. god. my homosexual bestie pran has really really gotten to me. literally something something about the cycle of fated love and doom.

like. i think most people agree that the thing that sticks out with bad buddy compared to others that it does such a good job with showing that characters have a history together rather than just saying it and putting none of the work in it really does feel like pat and pran have known each other for so long and that they are so integral to one another outside of the basic haha they have been rivals since birth because their parents hate each other and all with like. idk other shows that want us to believe people have had this long and impactful relationship it is rarely there. like the people are literally strangers and nothing about their shared history has truly effected one another but pat and pran do very clearly remember each other in a way that informs how they act towards one another, you can see why they argue the way they do but also now why it is so easy for them to actually get along and be friendly

it especially shines with pran because he is so genuinely affected by things, because its always been him who's life getting all fucked up because of things that happen between him and pat like in the ep when he's just. miserable and crying under that bed while pat's dad is just going off about how 3 years ago pran always was following pat around and copying him and saying how he's just an awful and jealous boy and like pat's not agreeing but its been said, and even if pat doesnt believe that its something that pran does seem to believe, because he takes the blame and says its true and he's sorry and that he will leave so that he doesnt cause issues again which is like. god. and then the flashback happens about their misunderstanding 3 years ago with them getting along, even being more than friendly. its that exact thing pat's dad is calling pran jealous for and they are doing it together knowingly and having fun with it and then suddenly it gets ruined with parents showing up and pran's being transferred while pat stays and even though the flashback only shows pat being blamed by their friends for pran having to leave its so clear that pran feels the other way around, because he had to leave and he always needs to be ready to leave because he's the real problem and pat has seemed unaffected every time by whats happening so it has to be him like im assuming he wasnt supposed to play at the concert with pat specially and then being friends/in love with him ofc too but pran like going against his parents to do that with pat and all.

its something that has affected the way pran still is today, clearly, and the way pat responds is informed by that same history and it shows! their shared history has such a weight with it to them and they literally cant seem to escape each other (from birth, everything that happened in their childhood, pran transferring back without knowing theyd be at the same college, their friend groups always at each others throats, living across the hall from one another, etcetcetc) and they know that they will never be able to get away from one another but they are also scared that history will continue to repeat itself and they will be punished for their proximity to each other and the fondness but they cant do anything about it, because the connection is supposed to be there and they want it so bad but they feel doomed about what that means and like with them always saying stuff like you're my bad luck it always happens when i'm with you its just. they are so aware of it but truly arent making any moves to stop it from happening like always.

they’ve been forced to be rivals since birth so the only time they were ever allowed to spend together was when they were competing so its something that has become so truly important for both of them but neither are able to come out and say it. its all about this fucking competition its all about how their relationship is supposed to be all competing its all about how the love they shared in the last cycle was ruined at a music competition in highschool its all about well maybe maybe this time it will turn out different. there is just something so overwhelming for both of them AND me with them feeling like they are fated to be together but doomed to repeat a cycle that will never allow them to be.

and literally like everything i learn about pran and pat’s like shared history makes me evil. everything is so much. the fact they used to have a cans on a string to talk and pat’s kept it still despite pran being gone for 3 years and just threw it thru his window bcuz pran wldnt pick up his calls. pat keeping pran’s guitar safe all these years and waiting to give it back to him to see if he missed it missed playing wanted it back (easily read as if pran missed him missed what they had wanted him back). pat trying to make pran a guitar pick out of his student id and when pran wouldnt let him making it out of his own bcuz he really didnt want pran to get hurt (and it specifically being of his face which is just :|). pran’s repeated jealously over the same girl with pat, the flashback of him being so !!! when pat was like i’ll see you there and him getting that second drink only to hand both away to the first person he sees bcuz pat is in with her and he wasnt waiting specifically for pran like he had hoped. etcetc.

and then with ink... there is something that is just so much about her being introduced to be a point of conflict giving pran a bracelet she wanted to give him back then before he moved away and also having given pat one years ago so now they have matching ones with little 'p' charms followed by pran asking her if she liked pat and her saying no and that hes just a friend like pran and when she asks if pran wanted to know so he could hit on her and he avoids answering and struggles to find a reason as to why he wouldnt want to hit on her as an excuse because he cant just. come out and say why without having to truly confirm that he’s gay and has feelings for pat (which. basically happens at the end of this ep to himself. kms)

and the. god the ending of ep 4. i feel like shit!!! i really do!!! like them both asking if the other likes ink and pran is obviously so worried about the answer but so is pat and pran really thinks that the reason pat is worried is the same reason that pran is but the countdown happens and pran says no while pat says yes and pran just. seems so devastated. and then pat goes on to try and ask that if pran was her if he would like him and pran is like no you dont have good qualities why would i.

and then pat starts listing off things he's done for pran, rather than things that are just good about himself in general (which is like dude. cmon. even if pat doesnt really realize he wants to know if pran as himself would like him bcuz well. ur in love with him and u want him to like you back) and he keeps pushing it while pran is having flashbacks from highschool to present of all those moments and his eyes are glassy and pat is pushing and pushing would you like me would you like me and pran just goes i... hate you. and turns around

and for a moment it seems like pat is heartbroken bcuz for a second he really thought he would get the answer he wanted to hear much like pran before but he snaps back so fast and starts going like okay dude so mean<3 and says 'even i like myself' (which, arough bcuz pran very obviously hates himself and a handful of it stems from everything that has happened surrounding pat bcuz hes the one who has been punished the most by it all. i have a lot of thoughts about it obvi and im suffering) and then after a few seconds pran turns back around to look at pat and he's literally. you can see he started crying and then he covers his face to keep crying.

it sucks it sucks!!! he really thought for a moment that pat felt the same way back and then it felt like he was being mocked and he feels stupid and heartbroken bcuz for pran, the cycles of fated love and doom that come with his feelings towards pat is a one sided thing. its always completely his fault in his mind bcuz again, he's the one who's always losing. he had to move away, he's the one who's in love with him, he's the one who's misreading signals, he's the one who's like this while pat is just living his life and pran is what is causing all the problems bcuz the problem is and always will be pran's one sided feelings for pat. even if its like not true really, thats what is and always has been true to pran and i feel like shit and i wanna scream.

this is like probably incomprehensible nonsense i am just constantly full of feelings and thoughts about the cycles and fate and love and doom and my homosexual bestie pran.

[anxiouspotatorants]

heyy first off im obsessed w your account and the underdog quartet but also i feel like, with your new jess/paris playlist post, we need to acknowledge paris and jess’s first interaction when paris went into luke’s diner in “Richard goes to stars hollow” they had a very subtle interaction but he was clearly memorable enough to her to remember him and his name. I wonder if whenever paris when to stars hollow in the future she would look for jess what do you think

Thank you so much for this ask and the kind words!!! I’m obviously obsessed with UQ too, so finding more people who love that dynamic is just amazing!

Also yes we only had about two direct interactions between Paris and Jess but holy shit was the platonic chemistry there!! Paris bothering to remember him is something I would love to take as a sign that she was a Jess gal (especially since if you combine that with Keiko Agena saying she and Lane are team Jess, that means all my faves support my ship!)

Now for Jess and Paris specifically, I could honestly give you three different types of answers for this. First is that ASP and company didn’t feel like exploring that dynamic, so Paris probably doesn’t think about Jess or seek him out in the future, especially not after Rory’s break up. But that take is boring so let’s go for wild headcanons!

The second approach is on the more realistic side. I bet that Paris would avoid bringing up Jess every time he popped into her mind in front of Rory, but she would be too desperate to finally have that decent conversationalist to not bug Rory about him. She probably wouldn’t head over to Stars Hollow of her own accord considering how disappointed she was with the research results for that article, but she would ask about when Jess could come over to Hartford so she could rip his literary takes to shreds at a nearby cafe or at the elder Gilmores. Once Jess and Rory were a couple, Paris would double down on her requests but probably only have them met once or twice (Jess has work, Rory still has a tendency to compartmentalize parts of her life etc.). Post-breakup Paris would take Rory’s side, but secretly be sad to see a potential friend go. She probably felt like this guys really could be something, not just for Rory who seemed to finally get decent taste in boys, but for Paris who was finally starting to get more true friends. She carries a secret team Jess torch for the rest of the series but hides it in general criticism of any and all guys Rory is involved with.

On to approach three, aka balls to the walls whatever I want!! Hold on to your hat because this will be a long and windy ride:

After the diner-meet, Paris is intrigued by the guy who played along with her interrogation and eye-flirted with Rory. She doesn’t think she’ll see him again, but she would be lying if she said she didn’t want to.

After the dinner at Rory’s, Paris is honestly elated to finally have a great literary conversation with a guy her age. The only one to have come close is Rory, and that doesn’t say much for the «opposite sex» in Paris’ eyes. But she’s also furiously disagreeing with Jess’ «Austen loves Bukowski»-take, so she writes a whole several page argumentative essay and forces Rory to deliver it to Jess the next school day.

Jess responds not with a letter, but by having Rory hand Paris an annotated («blasphemy!») copy of a Bukowski work. There are no arguments from Jess notes, just underlines of quotes he thinks Austen would approve of, and excerpts from different Austen works put in the margins for comparison. Paris despises him for how much she is seeing his point.

At some point Rory get’s sick of being a carrier pigeon and drags Paris with her to ST after school so the two can fight in person. All three stay until Lorelai pops over for dinner, and Paris realizes she needs to haul herself over to the bus. She’s hungry and worried about the time she should have spent on homework, but ultimately really happy about the day.

She’s bummed to see Jess go after the car accident, but doesn’t have much time to think about it between school and… well, school. She does end up being one of the few Rory can talk to about Jess without getting the whole «bad bad boy»-speech she gets over in ST and at her grandparents’.

Rory doesn’t tell Paris Jess is back until the very end of their Washington trip when Paris finds the unfinished letter and Paris is boiling. She does cool quickly, but only to constantly bug Rory about when the three of them are going to meet up again for coffee and verbal war. Rory gets so stressed about it that at some point she gives Paris the number to Luke’s and tells her to go on her own for all Rory cares.

Paris does. Jess is surprised, but they get in the groove quick. What doesn’t go as smoothly is Paris asking what the hell is going on between him and Rory. His non-answers pretty much spell everything out, and in a rare moment of comradery, Paris decides to turn the conversation in to hating on Dean. Jess appreciates it. It doesn’t happen again, but Paris firmly puts herself in the team Jess camp from then on.

Paris is releived once Jess and Rory finally are together and it is great! More cafe talks! Study sessions! Movie nights! They even sneak both Paris and Lane out into concerts! Paris feels like for the first time in a very long time, she has real friends her own age. The kind who actually like you for you and want to spend time with you for you, not just to get better grades or a better reputation.

Paris sucks at being strong for Rory when Jess leaves. Like, she takes it really personal. This was supposed to be the one good guy, and he decided to be just like everyone else. But with time she learns to coach Rory into speaking her mind about the whole thing, and to support her in her own Paris-y way.

What she doesn’t tell Rory is that at some point after summer break (either because she gets hold of Jess for some scolding or because Lane does and spills to Paris or even if Jess gets in touch himself) Jess starts sending Paris beat up books he collects on the road around the country. None of them feature letters (at first), but annotations at the beginning declaring his safety and momentary location, as well as his general style annotations of the book inside the text. Paris starts responding with letters, and with time they start talking on phones and through email.

Paris helps Jess with his GED. They make it an equal study-buddy thing because Paris needs help taking certain writers seriously in her essays. Most of their sessions are over the phone, and a lot of it is just them daring each other to actually try. Paris gets actual stars on her improved essays, and Jess passes with flying colours.

Paris doesn’t know about Truncheon until Jess stands in front of her place ages later, dressed like a Kids Bop version of himself and holding a messengerbag with his debut novel. Paris tears through it in two hours (forcing Jess to sit on the couch next to her the whole time) and then spends another half hour furiously trying to tear it to shreds but actually praising it. She gives him their first hug ever, and hopes this afternoon is a sign they’ll slowly get back to being close friends in person.

Paris sucks at hiding how team Jess she is. So. Much. She does have genuine critiques of Logan and other guys, but her gut-defenses of Jess at random times in the day and weird reminiscing back to the «good old days» of diner talk after school gives her away immediately. Rory is uncomfortable, but Paris doesn’t even change her mind after Rory still picks Logan.

What she does do is invite Jess over for grown up evenings with Doyle. Whenever Rory is scheduled to be out and Jess needs to visit Luke anyway, Paris extends her invitation. They test wines based on price and taste, watch cult classics, eat takeout (in honour of Paris’ very first Mac and Cheese night) and talk for hours. One day wires cross and Jess gets in while Rory is there/Rory gets back while Jess is there and things get awkward.

Paris invites Jess to the graduation. Yes she has a limited amount of tickets and yes it’s weird to invite your friend who has barely been around ever but damn it she wants him there. He came to her when he was celebrating his accomplishments, she wants him to be there for hers.

They actually grow even closer as adults; emailing, texting and calling regularly. About 70% of it is general banter and picking on everything and everyone around them, but it’s a far more loving kind now — not that anyone who isn’t them would know, from the outside it looks like they want to kill each other. Regardless of outcome, Paris remains forever team Jess, and the two end up having each other’s backs for life.

So this went long and away from the point (and I only went through Paris’ pov!) but it was fun to write! I hope you like rant answers!

[duncanxtrent]

The Punks vs the Parents

(A quick none ABC related Duncan story based on a wondeful prompt by @trash-that-loves-total-drama. Go follow them for more good Duntrent stuff ;) Anyways on with the story)

(Also for context, Trent, Geoff, Katie, Sadie, and DJ all also attend the daycare along with the other kids)

*insert Baps and Beeps by the TDR kiddos intro here*

“UGH!!!!” Duncan screamed

Duncan stormed into the daycare. Visibly angrier than normal.

“What in the world?” DJ glances at him confused.

Duncan just storms to his time out corner and quietly crouches in the corner.

“Are you ok, dude?” Trent asks

“NO IM CLEARLY NOT OK!!!” Duncan shouts.

“What’s going on?” Beth asks

“My parents are coming over…” Duncan mumbles.

“They are?!?!” Beth shouts in excitement.

“EEEEEEEEEE!!!!” Owen squeals wearing a lot of Banana and Cheese merch.

“Oh great… Another cringy concert…” Gwen groans.

“What? No! Those guys aren’t my parents anymore…” Duncan counters.

“WHAT?!?!” Everyone screams.

“What happened?” Owen cries out in sadness.

“Well…” Duncan trails off.

FLASHBACK

“Letting your child set off several kilograms off explosives?! Leaving your child alone for months at a time?!?! Leaving the child with only 2 weeks of supplies in food per month?!” The social workers screamed.

“What? We needed money for props!” Cheese explains.

“Yeah.. And besides I don’t think it was that bad!” Banana adds.

“Your son is literally in the hospital after collapsing of exhaustion and starvation…” The child care worker sighs.

Banana and Cheese just look down at their feet.

FLASHBACK END

“Oh so that’s why you weren’t here Monday through Thursday!” Beth concludes.

“Yeah, I was in foster care for about 2 weeks before a new pair of parents adopted me. A pair of local cops…” Duncan explains.

“That doesn’t sound so bad!” Trent says

“It’s just… Listen I don’t want them coming…” Duncan sighs.

“Well we can try and stop them. I’d be glad to help!” Trent offers.

“And this is why you’re my best bro!” Duncan says clapping Trent on the back. “Let’s do this!”

The two of them quietly sneak into Chefs office. They pay Owen some cookies to distract Chef while Trent messes around with the computer.

“Alright what should we do?” He asks

“How about you shut down some traffic lights? That should cause some chaos!” Duncan offers.

“Sounds like a plan!” Trent types some things into the keyboard and shuts down some traffic lights in the neighborhood.

Meanwhile

Jackson eagerly bounced up and down in the police car as June quietly drove to the daycare.

“I’m so excited! Visiting my son in the Daycare, and getting to present to his class! I can’t wait to see him.” Jackson excitedly cheered

“We’ll be there in a bit. Just be patient.” June explains.

“Do you think we’ll meet this infamous Trent he’s always going on about?” He asks

“Probably… Not many people were absent today…” June explains

“Oh I can’t wait to meet him. He sounds amazing from the way my son described him.” Jackson sighed.

Suddenly the radio in their car went off.

“All units we have a traffic light shut down on the corner of Maizono and Kuwata. Please call in to direct traffic.” The police chief reports.

“What?! Come on!!!” Jackson shouts.

“That’s awfully inconvenient.” June mumbles.

“UGH!!! And just when we were going to see him too!” Jackson cries planting his face into the dashboard.

June looks at the map and sees the daycare is only a couple blocks away.

“Hey Honey do you think you could run today?” She asks

“Yeah why?” He asks sitting up.

“Well what say I go handle the incident with the traffic lights. And you go run to meet our son at the daycare.” June offers.

“Really?! You mean it?!” Jake asks excitedly.

“Just be careful ok?” June smooches Jake on the cheek.

“I will! Thanks!” Jake says hopping out of the car. June drives off to handle the traffic incident while Jake begins running back to the daycare.

Back at the daycare

“Seems like THEYRE on their way to deal with it. They shouldn’t be around for the whole day!” Trent explains.

“Awesome! Thanks dude!” He says quickly hugging Trent before retracting and hopping down.

Duncan begins humming and walking back to the main room when the door bell rings.

“I’ll get it!” Chef calls approaching th door.

“Probably the mail man…” Duncan assumes.

Chef opens the door and wouldn’t you know it? Jake is standing there patiently waiting to get inside!

“Mr. Fuego! A pleasure to see you!” Chef waves.

Duncan stops in his tracks.

“I-I’m sure it’s another-“ Duncan is cut off.

“DUNCAAAAAANNN!!!!!” Jake runs past Chef and immediately picks ups and squeezes his son in a hug. Duncan struggles to get out but eventually reluctantly accepts and hugs him back.

Jake sets him back down and Jackson crouches down. “How ya been little dude?!” He asks excitedly.

“How’d you get here so fast?” Duncan asks in retaliation.

“Your mother and I were supposed to help with a traffic problem but she offered to take care of it while I ran here.” Jake explains.

“How nice…” Duncan mumbles, red in the face.

“You ok little dude? The summer heat getting to you?” He asks

“No no… Everythings cool Dad…” Duncan stutters.

“Ah good! Wouldn’t want anything happening to my little buddy!” He says ruffling Duncan’s hair.

He stands up and turns to Chef. “How’s my son been doing?” He ask

“That’s actually what I invited you to talk about.” Chef explains

Jake looks at him with a questioning face. Chef leads Jake to his office and sets Jake down in the chair in front of his desk.

“What’s going on?” He asks

“Your son is an absolute menace in our school! He’s constantly setting off explosives! Bullying the other kids! And he’s always destroying things!” Chef explains.

“What?!?! That doesn’t sound like him at all!!!” Jake says genuinely shocked.

“You mean he doesn’t experience this behavior at home?” Chef says obviously expecting that he does.

“No! He’ll knock things down on one rare occasion when he’s running around, and he’ll usually apologize for ti even. And whenever other kids are over he’s always incredibly nice playing with them! The parents even confirmed this!” Jake explains.

“See exa- Wait HUH?!” Chef says clearly shocked.

“Did you really come here to lie to me about my son, Mr.Chef? I’ll have you know I can easily arrest you for that.” Jake glares.

“N-no! Your son always exhibits this behavior at school! I don’t know why he doesn’t do it at home!” Chef explains.

“You’re sure?”

“Yes!” Chef insists

Jake sits back down “Well then if you would like I wouldn’t mind observing your classroom for a bit to see this ‘behavior’ you claim he has.”

“Ok sure! I could use the extra hand.” Chef offers.

Jake nods and walks outside the office to observe the kids.

Outside, Duncan was fully prepared to knock over Cody’s tower. But sees his dad mid way and stops and turns around quietly.

Cody turns around looking confused.

Transition

Later the kiddos are eating lunch together when Beth accidentally trips Duncan over.

“Oh my god I’m so sorry…” Beth shouts.

Duncan quietly gets up and Beth expected a violent response but instead Duncan simply reached out his hand.

“It’s fine! Everyone makes mistakes!” Duncan says shrugging.

Duncan just quietly walks over and begins eating his lunch, which was thankfully I damaged due to the fact that it was still in his lunchbox. But Beth just looked at him confused.

“Huh?”

Another transition

The kids are quietly finger painting, and Courtney ‘accidentally’ spilled some paint on Duncan.

“Oops… Sorry…” Courtney says sneakily.

Duncan growls for a minute but then takes a deep breath and faces Courtney.

“Can you please be more careful next time? I like this shirt.” Duncan asks shockingly polite.

Courtney just looked at him confused.

“Im going to go clean up…” Duncan walks off to clean up in the bathroom.

“What the?” Courtney stares at him confused.

And another transition because TDR moves fast

All the kids are quietly napping away and Trent approaches Duncan, quietly scooting up next to him.

“Dude what’s going on?” He ask

“What do you mean?” Duncan asks

“You’ve been incredibly well behaved the entire time we’ve been here. What’s going on?!” Trent says clearly confused.

“I just wanted to not break the rules! What’s the problem with that?” Duncan shrugs.

“Yes but that’s the attitude you NEVER have!! What’s going on?” Trent asks

Duncan looks around for a moment. Then sighs and gets up quietly.

“Follow me…” Duncan asks.

Trent gets up and the two of them head to the bathroom where Jake can’t see them. Then Duncan turns to Trent.

“Listen… I’m trying to be on my best behavior for my dad. Ok? I don’t want him to know that I’m this thug punk guy that beats people up on the daily.” Duncan explains.

“Why? Just because he’s a cop doesn’t mean he’ll hate you if you’re a thug…” Trent explains.

“No! That’s not it! It’s just…” Duncan sighs “Dad and Mom were way better than Banana and Cheese were. They actually gave me attention! They never abandoned me or had me cook my own food just because they were busy. They helped me! They cared for me. Yes they punished me which is a little unfortunate but the punishments weren’t ever extreme. The worse I ever got was having to clean out the toilets for a couple days. And even then they helped me by showing me how to do it. Dad and Mom, they are the only adults I actually trust. And I don’t want them to think I’m just a bad kid who just puts on a show for them for the sake of getting love and cookies or whatever. I love them… I love them too much to betray them…” Duncan begins noticeably crying.

“Dude… Are you ok?” Trent asks reaching a hand out.

“IM NOT CRYING YOURE CRYING!!!” Duncan sniffles.

“Hey dude it’s ok…” Trent reaches around and hugs Duncan. Duncan quietly hugs him back.

“It’s fine dude… If you wanna start changing your ways. I’ll be by your side no matter what…” Trent says patting Duncan’s back.

Duncan lets go. “Thanks…” He mumbles wiping his eyes.

“Should we head back now?” Trent asks

Duncan nods and the two of them open the bathroom door…

To find Jake standing outside the door, with tears streaming down his face.

“Ah nuts…” Trent mutters.

“Dad… I-“ Duncan gets cut off by Jake picking up Duncan and pulling him into a hug. This time Duncan only has a slight hesitation before pulling his Dad into a hug as well. The two of them sit there quietly hugging as Trent stands by and awkwardly watches.

“You really love me that much?” Jake mumbles.

“Of course I do. I love you so much, Dad. I don’t wanna hurt you…” Duncan responds.

“I love you too…” He says hugging him harder.

Finally Jake sets down Duncan and wipes his eyes. “I get it though. You always loved to play the villain. It’s not necessarily good for you, but if it’s what you want to do that fine with me. Just don’t do anything highly destructive, ok? And nothing majorly emotional damaging obviously. Basically just don’t go too big.” Jake explains.

“Ok Dad…” Duncan hugs Jakes leg before wandering back to the nap room. Trent gets up to do the same but Jake stops him.

“So you’re the Trent I’ve heard so much about!” Jake says smiling.

“Hmm?” Trent looks at him confused.

Jake crouches down. “Duncan talks about you all the time at home. He considers you his best friend, I’d almost say he loves you. He really is a good kid at heart, I want you to know that.”

“I’ve always known that…” Trent chuckles.

“Good. You seem like a good friend for my son. Hope to keep seeing you around.” Jake says ruffling Trents hair and standing up.

“Thanks…” Trent is about to walk back but stops.

“One more thing…” Trent says turning around. “Do you have any embarrassing photos of him?” Trent asks

“Whaddya mean?” Jake asks

“Like photos of him being cute or dorky or stuff that isn’t cool or villainous or whatever.” Trent explains further.

“Ooh! Yes actually I have the perfect photo I’ve wanted to show for a long time.” Jake explains.

Jake pulls out his phone and scrolls through his photo till he finds the photo in question. He crouches down again and shows Trent the photo. In the photo, A starry eyed Duncan is clinging to Jake’s arms in a white shirt with red sleeves smiling giddily as Jake smiles back at him. The photo was presumably taken by June.

“That is so cute. I love it.” Trent laughs.

“He’s so cute isnt he?” Jake smiles.

“He is! Anyways that’s all! Have a good day Mr.Fuego!” Trent says wandering off.

“You too!” Jake says waving.

(End)

[thedreadvampy]

tw body image stuff

yesterday I found these passport photos from when I was 16

and honestly like. so Sam immediately reacted with like. not horror exactly but he was like wow you looked real skinny and Not Super Healthy and like

I don't think anyone's...ever said that to me? like I remember being 16 I remember being afraid I was fat. and I have always sorry of looked back and thought like Man I Wish I Was Still The Shape I Was When I Was 16. like I was 5'7 and I had a size 8 waist and D-cup boobs and I sometimes wore clothes from the kids' section. but I was still constantly unhappy with my body.

and like to be clear I never acted on my discomfort with my body. this year is the first time I've really ever made a concerted effort to diet or exercise. as a teenager I ate a genuinely ridiculous amount of food given half a chance, in America when I was 18 I are a challenge burger then stopped for I've cream on the way home. mum always said I hollow legs. so it's not like I was starving myself or anything. but I can pin this photo down to within a 6 month window between the point where I started shaving my head and the point I started dying my hair, and buddy I was not having a good time, my health was bad, I was sleeping 14+ hours a day and if I tried to sleep less I'd sometimes pass out, I was having constant panic attacks, you know the vibes. and I never felt great about my body but I've also always just assumed for a variety of reasons that the weight I was at when I was a teenager was the Optimum Ruth Weight.

but Sam's right. I don't look The Best I've Ever Looked here, at the point when I was thinnest and when the most people were telling me how hot I was. I look tired and too thin. I look like someone who's not doing so well. For Some Reason.

I said to Sam like. when I was this age men the age we are now wanted to hit on me and like why? what the fuck? he was like yeah you were hot to me, a 17 year old, but looking at this kid now as a 28 year old I just want to sit you down and give you several hot meals and a cosy jumper. and I was like yeah. same. if I met this kid I would buy her a burger and give her a hug cause she looks like she needs both (and I was her so I know that she did need the hug and wouldn't say no to the burger (although I was vegetarian back then))

idk like also sometimes I just need a reminder of how far I've come and how much I Never Have To Be This Person Again

[brideofcthulhu10]

I have another lame request if that's ok? Paul with girlfriend who is a member of rock band?

Oh I love it! There are no lame requests, hon. Don’t even worry about that. Personally, I’ve thought about that a few times before too

Paul with a Rock Band Baby

CONTENT WARNING: Offensive Language, Potential Triggers, Gore! READER'S DISCRETION IS ADVISED!

Oh that’s how he met you! Opening for a bad ass concert, he was sold the moment your cute butt stomped out with wildly teased hair, sporting shredded black nylons, biker boots, a leather skirt and a torn up black tank top with your band’s name crudely spray painted on. At first he thought you were a groupie that jumped on the stage- until you slung that gorgeous cherry red six string over your neck. One hand on the mic, taking in a deep breath before you scream

“HELLO SANTA CARLA! We are (Band Name) and we’re here to blow your BRAINS OUT!”

He thought a mermaid had just jumped on stage because your voice utterly hypnotized him. Paul wove through the moshing, dancing crowd screaming. It was a show for the ages, you owned that stage like it was your destiny. They way you shredded just hit him, he hadn’t even realized you guys finished until you bid the crowd farewell. Farwell? Wait! Merch in the back?! Cue him yanking Marko and Dwayne with him. He HAD to meet you! 

Star struck was a bit extreme, but that’s only way Marko could describe Paul. Oh boy, they lost him. Paul’s up in space just lost to your feminine charms. Turns out you guys were pretty damn good as a few teenage girls posed with their polaroid camera, eagerly buying up a few T-shirts and then it was their turn. 

“Dude, earth to Paul, man,” Marko nudged, snapping him out of it.

“Huh? Oh! Shit!”

“Sooo I’m guessing I should make it out to Paul, right,” you ask with a teasing smile. 

Paul has since shown up to every concert you played, always swooping back to speak to you. Eventually you caught on. Honestly, it wasn’t too hard. After all, this guy was always so slick around everyone else but once he talked to you he was tripping over his own feet, getting his bracelet stuck in his hair, nearly knocking over your stacks of CDs. As you help him pick up the scattered photos, he’s going on about what an ass he was when you cut him off. 

“Uhm, Paul, do you wanna go out with me this Saturday?”

Did he die? He swore his soul just flew out. Date. Date, a date, a mother fucking date with an angel of rock! Someone punch him he’s gotta be dreaming. Of course he says yes, and it is everything you could hope from a date with him. Schooling his ass in the bumper cars, sharing a big ol’ pink and blue cloud of cotton candy while browsing the music shop, he has to show off at the strength test. When the bell rings he lets you pick out an adorable, floppy armed, little purple elephant with sunglasses that read “Santa Carla Cool” on the lenses. When he kisses you on the Ferris wheel you don’t even realize the massive burst of summer time fireworks they’d launched- you just assumed they were the sparks flying. Well, one kiss wasn’t enough. You two ended up making out all the way to the end of the ride. 

You weren’t supposed to find out about him being a vampire, but that night he had no choice. It was after a gig at this club that just opened up on the boardwalk, you had gone to the alley way for a smoke while your boyfriend offered to help the band carry their gear back to your van. Some unhinged fan came up to you. At first he seemed sincere, just kind of skittish. You figure he was just another star-struck fan. Then he professed his undying love for you. Oh, uh...

“L-Look that’s really nice man,” you trail off, starting to inch away from him. “But, I’m sorry, I’m kinda already seeing someone. It’s really nice to meet you though-”

“-What?! No, no, no you’re not supposed to say no! Y-You can’t-!”

Okay time to run. He tried to grab you and you immediately kneed him in the crotch. That kept him for only a minute and he ran after you, snatching you by your hair before you could reach the crowded streets of the boardwalk. No one could hear you scream, you did everything to try and push him off. Kick, flail, thrash, the ominous drag of a zipper striking fear into your heart. Until he stopped.

Gasps, gurgles, then a spray of blood staining both of you. A hand was shoved straight through his stomach, he looked at the hand then back at you easily three times before it retracted yanking out his intestines. The lifeless corpse flopped over next to you and suddenly the air returned to your lungs inflating your screaming again. Holy shit! What the fuck?! Paul was standing above you trying to ask if you were okay. Nope. Not at all. His entire arm was dripping in that guy’s blood, sharp claws replacing his nails. The was nothing compared to his face. His brow and cheeks had raised with the rest sinking in, looking more like an animal than human. Blue eyes were glowing white with dark red circles detailing them, and two sets of fangs sticking out when he spoke. And cue faint.

When you came to, it was some weird old dusty cave filled with decrepit furniture, posters and dirty old paintings- and there was Paul! It was hard not to scream and panic at first. The whole vampire thing was a lot to digest. Of course he tried to excuse it any way he possibly could. You hit your head, the guy was dead when he found him, it was swamp gas! Anything he could to get you to stay. The information was just to much to process and you ran.

Paul is utterly heartbroken, waiting every night for you to show up. But instead you stayed home at your apartment for the next week. He was destroyed, just in a depressed funk the guys couldn't get him out of. David even suggested flying to your place and dragging your sorry butt back but Paul just turned him down.

"It would take two minutes tops, I'm tired of you moping all over the place!"

"What's the point. The music's gone, man. I can't rock out if I don't have my ride or die baby by me"

Meanwhile you had shut yourself in. A vampire. The though terrified you but... all you could do was think about your baby who saved you. You kept seeing not the gore he left behind, but his tear filled eyes every time you slept. You could still hear him screaming for you to come back. It was too much. Vampire or not you needed to see him.

The next time you two reunite its all love. Marko managed to haul his depressed ass out for a ride on the beach but Paul just sulked on the boardwalk. He was practically melting away on his bike when a familiar pair of boots walked up next to him as he stared at the ground.

"Hey rocker," she coos softly. "Is there room for one more on that bike?"

Paul just kisses you and hugs you, jumping off his bike and swooping you into his arms. It's the first time either of you had genuinely smiled in days. The guys leave you two to your dramatic reunion. After all, now you had come to grips with your new vampire boyfriend, they were sure you must have a lot of questions for him. 

Paul still comes to every night time concert you have. More so now that you only accepted gigs after dark. It played to your image so no one really questioned it. Recently you’ve been writing some very strange songs. “Bat out of Hell”, “My Dark Prince”, “A Vampire’s Ballad”. They seem to really hit with the teens so your bandmates are living for it. Paul is just ecstatic when he here’s your newest song, “Blonde Beast”. He gushes to the guys every night about his girl writing songs about him, to the point where David has started mimicking Paul because he’s said the same schpiel easily twenty times. Dwayne humors him. His buddy is happy, gush all you want dude, and Marko has started coming to your gigs too. They can’t wait for you to come to the hotel. Or rather, they’re eager for when you decide to join them. What’s more badass than a punk rock singer who’s a vampire? 

[msiopao]

Nobi with the Members

WORLDWIDE HANDSOME

‘eomma!!!’

one yell from her and jin’s running in with a spatula, ready to beat the kids

thinks a lot of her outfits are revealing but gave up after nobi told him to stop complaining to the stylists

cooking buddies

feeds into jin’s ego at being handsome

‘kim seokjin? no. art? yes.’

babies nobi TOO much

even though she’s literally 24, he still treats her like she’s 12

thinks she can do no wrong and sees her as an angel

but nobi is such a bad influence

‘my hair is bothering my eyes and it makes me want to just cut if off’

*nobi handing him scissors* ‘do it’

constantly telling him that his dancing is perfect bc jin is insecure about the lack of his ability :(

even though he’s a better dancer than most

nobi tries to get him riled up so he talks all weird

the one who is actually genuinely tickled with jin’s jokes

eatjin’s legendary moments always have jin and nobi in it

goes to his hotel room just because he always has food and jin doesn’t have it in him to refuse her

the one who nags nobi the most regarding her eating

just her mom periodt

TONGUE TECHNOLOGY

gets hyper when nobi messes around

incredibly and ridiculously protective of her

helps her go through rough times as her therapist

yoongi mumbles under his breath and nobi is usually the only one who hears and will laugh as he curses someone quietly

nobi’s sense of humor is the closest with his

nap times are their bonding times

also composing

army always amazed bc nobi is the only who gets yoongi on crack mode

nobi always pinches his cheeks and she shrieks when he does that cute awkward smile

nobi absolutely flipped out when yoongi got really sick

always seeks yoongi’s approval so he’s the first one to see her lyrics

doesnt beat around the bush w it

if its bad, needs improvement

if its good, its the BEST LYRICS HES EVER READ

nobi hides her feelings well and he’s the only one who can get her to open up

during bst era, she hit her lowest

yoongi got very concerned and when she did finally talk, his heart just broke in half

she hates the fact that she can’t be the daughter her parents wanted

she hates the fact that she’s weak and breaks down easily

she hates the fact that she’s seen as a whore because she’s surrounded by boys she calls her brothers 24/7

she hates the fact that everything about her is considered wrong

that talk got them really close and yoongi makes it mission everyday to see her genuine and pretty smile

he lives for her happiness

uwu

HOBI

‘WELCOME TO THE HOBI NOBI SHOW!’

puppies

nobi hugs him a lot

whenever he dances, nobi has this look in her eyes that looks like hobi is the stars and the universe

both of them are the ones who keep the group’s mood up and tries to prevent fights

even when they’re tired from practice, they still smile and yells ‘hwaiting!’

while hobi is just a moodmaker in general,

nobi does it bc she hates confrontation and gets uncomfortable so she just blurts it out

nobi’s also a dancer so her and hobi dance ALL THE TIME

vlives w them are always filled with laughter and teasing

‘everyone, nobi just fell after hitting that spin’

‘YAH! NO I DIDNT!’

hobi is known to be a choroegrapher and nobi puts her input here and there and boom!

tbh idk why they even have a professional choreographer in the first place

hobi is a trained singer so nobi asks him to sing for her constantly

hes happy to oblige

armys live for the moments of them in run bts or vlives bc they have this vibe or bond that is just something you wished you had

JOONIE-HYUNG!

‘NOBI WATCH OUT!’

they’re the philosophical duo

nobi loves poetry and literature in general bc she tends to think really deeply 

their bonding time is those deep talks

as their leader, nobi goes to him for confirmation or approval for a lot of things

she’s always having english lessons w him and he tries his best to teach her so she could speak to int-army

bts calls them the clumsiest bc of joon’s usual clumsiness but nobi is always looking out for him so she doesnt pay attention to her surroundings and runs into something too

she loves his studio and hangs out the most even though joon’s always telling her to stay away

props up her feet on that fortune dollar table of his

when he speaks english in interviews, she watches him with a smile on her face

her dad

pats her head when she walks over to him

her and jimin crashes his vlives all the time 

there’s nothing in the world that changes the way she sees joonie

to her, she’ll always be the joonie who welcomed her to their group even though she was a brat at first

thats another story for next time

now she respects him so much and he’s probably the one she looks up to the most

overall, she idolizes him and talks about him like he put the stars in the sky while joon just sits there all flustered

MOCHI

oof look at that beautiful manjfkalj;dlfsjkf

cannot sleep without her chimmy plush

when they first met, he was the first one she got really close to

his cute chubby cheeks were victims of her uwu moments

learns a lot fo ballet videos from youtube and they dance it in vlives all the time

remember when i said she had an eating disorder?

yea, it happened around the time he had his too

nobi was always trying to eat little ever since debut but she stopped eating for days at a time and with jimin doing it too, bts kinda derailed for a hot minute

a long emotional time of sufering until bang pd demanded they stop it immediately

after that, they had an emotional sit down where they just cried and spilled all their insecurities and they had each other’s backs

knowing she was already skinny, jimin disapproved but she also disapproved and again, more tears

nobi always hides snacks in her and kook’s room that kook doesn’t even know about and she always brings the box over to jimin’s room if hobi is out for schedules

when hobi went to america, nobi slept in jimin’s room

kook was real pissed off about it

eyesmiles for days

giggles 24/7

has the picture of one of jimin’s unreleased baby pictures as her home screen

dies a little inside when nobi reaches over to him with sweater paws bc OMG she’s so cute

uwu

jimin really coos and giggles at nobi bc of her small height and her uwu energy

sorry i used uwu a lot

TAETAE

the dumpling accident omg

jimin mentioned it in a vlive earlier and nobi also talked about it a day later in her own vlive

‘tae was very hungry at that time and just wanted to eat it immediately and when he got angry, he curled up to nobi and refused to acknowledge me’

again, nobi hates confrontation so fights between the members always brings her down and so she tries to comfort each member

she bought tae some dumplings after practice and tricked him into meeting jimin so they could meet up

tbh, tae would be a mess without nobi

she helps him clean up his room but gives up w the amount of clothes on the floor

‘honestly, you shouldve just stayed roommates w joonie-hyung. we cant trust you to room by yourself’

she goes to his room sometimes and just lays on his bed bc he has the softest bed in the whole dorm

tae is already known to be very regal and royalty like whenever he steps outside

combine that with graceful queen nobi?

oof armys fanfiction royalty aus pop up everywhere

nobi is still angry that tae isn’t a gucci model w her bc she feels out of place being the only member w a clothing sponsorship

but underneath that stiff and cold facade, they both are seen making faces and goofing off all the time

nobi can only stand being a queen for so long

in one concert, she danced w him in a duet w singularity and lets just say, armys died that night

always stands next to each other and if they cant, always seen giving each other longing stares and smiles

the 2nd most popular ship in the fandom and they know it too so they keep feeding armys for their compilation videos

MUSCLE PIG

the only member who’s younger than her

actually would it be considered if they’re only 10-months apart?

kook refuses to call her noona unless he wants something

initially didnt like her but there was a time she bought him banana milk and it was all good

our boy was crying bc he was hungry and tired and he was trying to control his weight and he just wanted some banana milk

they’re a superior ship

one of the most popular ship in the whole industry

actually the superior couple and kai and jennie can square up

there’s fan edits of them and they both purposely do stuff to help them make au videos in youtube

theyve seen it before so we arent safe bois

the 2nd pair of roommates in the bts dorm

nobi is usually the first one to sleep while kook is watching something in the living room

when he goes to his room, he takes a minute and stands at the doorway and just looks at nobi with love in his eyes

mhm

nobi loves warmth so she gets out of her own bed at like 3 in the morning and just goes into kook’s and cuddles to him

sometimes, they just lay in bed and nobi is holding his hand just inspecting his tattoos

‘should we get a matching tattoo?’

their closet is large and tbh, they share the same clothing anyways

more like nobi wears mostly kook’s stuff

like, really, nobi has pants and a few shirts and thats it

they share everything like family but kook refuses to share her w anyone else but him

[theradioghost]

hey, can i pester you for some podcast recs? something with a good dose of humour and not too many episodes to catch up on. a sprinkle of queer romance would be a nice bonus. my fave so far is tsco starship iris, and i also loved greater boston, wooden overcoats, the bright sessions and caravan. and thanks always for all your great recs! you’ve brought many hours of joy into my life :)

We Fix Space Junk -- Two intergalactic repairpeople -- a knowledgeable cyborg veteran and a former socialite on the run -- travel the universe meeting people and fixing things at the behest of the terrifying intergalactic corporation they’re trying to work off their debts to. Hilarious British sci-fi sitcom featuring Evil Space Capitalism, many many wonderful AI characters, and an absolutely delightful teenage space wasp-human-cow hybrid princess who is probably off accomplishing her grandiose special destiny somewhere offscreen while the main characters deal with things like their bosses possibly trying to kill them (again).

Death by Dying -- People have a tendency to die in odd ways in the small town of Crestfall, Idaho. Luckily the town also has an Obituary Writer, an eccentric and nameless but impeccably stylish fellow whose closest friend is the Angel of Death, and who has a knack for solving murders even though that’s definitely not his job description. Throw in walrus haikus, extremely rude ravens, Something Mysterious And Malevolent Lurking In The Dark Woods Outside Of Town, disappearing childhood homes, silent nuns, ghost bicycles, and three man-eating cats, and you get something like a delightful cross between Wooden Overcoats and Lemony Snicket. (Also, OW is peak Canonically Bisexual Dumbass.)

Less is Morgue -- Riley is a paranoid, reclusive teenager with a fondness for conspiracy theories who lives in their parents’ basement. They’re also a predatory ghoul who feeds on human flesh. Evelyn is a cheerful, outgoing young woman with questionable tastes in media. She’s also a ghost, ever since she was killed by a falling stage light at a Nickelback concert 16 years ago. And since Riley dug up and ate Evelyn’s corpse, they’re roommates! Will they ever manage to record a coherent episode of their podcast without something going ridiculously wrong and/or Riley eating one of the guests? Probably not!

Victoriocity -- The steampunk buddy-cop comedy-mystery thriller you never knew you needed but definitely do! Featuring Inspector Fleet, a grouchy, extremely driven policeman looking for the murderer of the Empire’s greatest inventor, and Clara Entwhistle, an even more driven and unfailingly upbeat rookie journalist who has just arrived in the island-spanning, bizarre cityscape of alt-history Even Greater London. Come for some of my favorite sarcastic British narration since Adams and Pratchett, stay for characters-are-begrudgingly-forced-to-work-together-until-they-come-to-genuinely-and-deeply-care-about-one-another-as-friends trope. (Also for Tom “Eric Chapman” Crowley as the aforementioned grumpy detective.)

Quid Pro Euro -- From one of the other leads of Wooden Overcoats, this doesn’t have a typical plot as such but has made me laugh so hard I pulled a muscle despite the fact that I know nothing about the EU. Which is what this near-surreal, Look Around You-style comedy is about: Felix Trench’s vision of a simultaneously hilarious and terrifying alternate European Union, seen from the perspective of a serious of educational tapes from the ‘90s predicting what the EU would look like in the 21st century. It’s hard to describe this show in any way that does it justice, but it’s incredibly funny.

Time:Bombs -- A miniseries by the exalted creators of Wolf 359, which (because they are madmen) was written, recorded, and produced in the space of one week. Also, a comedy about an NYC bomb retrieval squad on New Year’s Eve, most of whom are just trying to get through the night while their leader attempts to break a record for most bombs cleared before the calendar ticks over. Chaos and hilarity ensure.

Superstition -- Wisecracking, bi, Jewish, definitely-a-private-eye-just-don’t-check-her-qualifications Jacqueline St. James receives a message from her father, which is weird, because her parents disappeared years ago. Following the trail leads Jack to Superstition, Arizona, a town in the middle of the desert where everyone’s got secrets, assorted ghosts/monsters/cryptids harrass the locals, and the missing persons rate is the highest in the nation. As a protagonist Jack is Looking For Trouble And If She Cannot Find It She Will Create It, so while Superstition isn’t a comedy per se, it’s got a fair share of laughs and is also just so, so excellent in general.

Standard Docking Procedure -- A self-declared hopepunk scifi workplace comedy about the somewhat dysfunctional staff of Pseudopolis Station, effectively a high-tech interstellar truck stop. It’s funny and heartwarming, nothing truly bad happens, and Julia Schifini is there.

Solutions to Problems -- A morally-questionable human named Janet who has defintely never done any illegal time travel and an easygoing, physically indescribably alien who likes to go by Loaf host an intergalactic advice podcast. Are you tired of your species’ insistence on solving everything via ritual combat? Not sure how to talk to your partner about whether body-swapping has a place in your sex life? Dealing with being a superpowered teenager summoned into being by the collective will of an apocalyptic groupthink cult? Janet and Loaf have you covered! Provided that Janet’s on-and-off girlfriend, the AI who supplies the air they breathe, doesn’t kill them all first. Oddly heartfelt comedy in the form of a relationship advice radio show from the Space Future.

Middle:Below -- This show’s tagline is “Remember: bad things WILL happen,” and that is basically a lie. This is actually a short, incredibly heartwarming and frequently funny show about Taylor Quinn, the only human with the ability to pass between the land of the living (aka the Middle) and the land of ghosts (the Below). Meaning, of course, that the dead call on him to fix all their problems, with the help of a girl named Heather, a ghost named Gil, and a cat named Sans. (Also, some of the most comparatively wild live shows I’ve ever heard.)

Inn Between -- Ever wonder what fantasy characters get up to between adventures, during all that time they seem to spend at inns? This show skips all the adventuring, question, and action, instead focusing on the quiet moments between where what is Definitely Not A D&D Party meet and progress from bickering strangers brought together by circumstance to close-knit found family -- all at the inn, of course. (Lots of queer folks in here also, although there’s no romance at least in the first  couple seasons.)

The Godshead Incidental -- A relatively new but very exciting and so far really enjoyable show!! Following a young woman who writes an advice column through her life in a familiar, and yet strange city where anyone might be a minor god -- your editor, your landlord, that weird guy on the street who was shouting about how he’s the God of Memory and you got into a fight with him and now you keep forgetting everything? Also, your apartment is full of pigeons now because you found out the aforementioned landlord is secretly the god of doorknobs and he’s panicking. Good luck! (Starring Ishani Kanetkar, aka Arkady from Starship Iris!)

Gal Pals Present: Overkill -- Madison, a middle schooler at a Girl Scout camp, agrees to play a game with a somewhat tastelessly bright-pink Ouija board. However, Madison doesn’t know that she’s a natural medium, and now sarcastic mid-2000s 19-year-old Aya Velasquez has joined the many ghosts who are for some reason haunting scenic Harding Park. Aya, however, will not rest until she can solve her own murder (and possibly get to know that other ghost girl a bit better, who says romance has to stop when you’re dead?). Absolutely hilarious writing of a narrator who is almost definitely wearing spectral Uggs during the entire show.

Dark Ages -- The Rivercliffe Museum of Mostly Natural History is one of the finest museums anywhere! Or it would be, if anyone ever actually visited it. Or maybe if the staff weren’t a disastrous and dysfunctional collection of criminals, weirdos, wannabe immortals, idiot bisexuals who can’t just admit they like each other, and one extremely uptight elf with no people skills. Also, it would probably help if the legendary and fearsome Dark Lord, finally returned from his millennia of dormancy to complete his prophesied conquest of the world, wasn’t hanging around watching the chaos unfold because they’ve got his crown on display. (Fantasy workplace comedy with a theme song that did not need to go that hard?)

Brimstone Valley Mall -- It’s mid-December 1999, and at one mall in South Central Pennsylvania, a group of demons are going about their evil work -- namely, working at various dinky kiosks and restaurants, hoping of achieving every demon’s dream of getting to work at Hot Topic, trying not to do too much evil because Earth is way more fun than Hell and no one wants to get promoted back home, and preparing for their band's triumphant opening performance at the upcoming Y2K party. Just one problem: their lead singer is missing. Another absolute masterwork from The Whisperforge.

Arden -- 10 years ago, Hollywood starlet Julie Capsom vanished into the woods of northern California, leaving behind a car containing a human torso that may or may not have belonged to one Ralph Montgomery. Now, private eye Brenda Bentley and reporter Bea Casely, both of whom were among the first at the scene and both of whom have their own very strong opinions on the case, are setting out to solve the mystery on their true crime podcast, Arden. Providing, of course, they can stop arguing with each other long enough to solve it. (Or, a not-really-parody-but-definitely-comedy “true crime” podcast where the crime is a retelling of Romeo and Juliet -- and even knowing that, it’s still a genuine mystery with twists and a surprise ending! -- and the hosts are wlw Beatrice and Benedick from Much Ado About Nothing. In other words, it’s perfect. Season 2 is upcoming soon and is adapting Hamlet!!)

Alba Salix/The Axe and Crown -- Another high fantasy workplace sitcom, this one a medical comedy about the titular not-very-personable witch who runs the kingdom’s House of Healing and the various shenanigans she gets into, between her somewhat scatterbrained sister and brother-in-law the king and queen and her assistants, an overly-whimsical fairy and a wannabe monk forced to do community service. The same feed contains The Axe and Crown, a spinoff set in the same world that manages to simultaneously be a sitcom about the staff of a local pub trying to stave off foreclosure and come up with schemes to beat their business rivals, and a heartfelt story about gentrification and recovery starring a gay veteran with PTSD? Which is possibly one of my favorite podcasts? (Also contains one of the most unbelievable crossover cameos possible: Leon Stamatis.)

The Adventures of Sir Rodney the Root -- Also a high fantasy comedy! When a witch transforms heroic Sir Rodney into a small piece of wood, his closest companion Sir Gilbert must set out to cure him by collecting several highly powerful and dangerous relics, accompanied by a snarky dwarfen thief, an imperious princess, a slightly creepy human child raised by fairies, a picky elf sorcerer, a dead unicorn possessed by the ghost of a stoner, and a bard who breaks the fourth wall too much for his own good. So far as I can tell, nobody is straight.

The Amelia Project -- A dark comedy about a secret organization that helps people fake their deaths. Which is honestly a pretty full summary, barring the two important points that 1. this show contains possibly the most continuity-warping crossover event of all time (it’s the center point of this absolutely chaotic diagram), and 2. in one episode Felix Trench plays a character named Bartholomew Fuckface Chucklepants Knucklecracker.

[poemprince]

Golden Heart Locket [TaminoxReader ONESHOT]

It’s only been a couple months in your new relationship with Tamino, but you’ve been so happy for these said months and you wouldn’t have it any other way. Not only was he kind in every retrospect, but he was patient with your romance. There was no other way you’d like to have it, too.

It’s not like you were a serial dater, anyway, you liked to get to know your partner and you knew that rushing into a relationship would be the doom of it before it even got started. This one, however, showed that Tamino was someone who did the exact opposite. He took his time and, adorably enough, he was very shy time to time. His idea of romance was perfect, though.

He was insanely classy, first of all. American boys typically wore trashy clothes but Tamino was far from them. He wore silk shirts, high-waisted pants, vests, and jewelry that flattered his soft features. You wanted to non-verbally thank his mother for raising such a beautiful boy, but that wasn’t possible seeing as he was on tour currently.

Second of all, he was a poet. Anyone knew that from the first couple of lyrics from any of his songs, it was just a given at that point. Tamino had a heart of gold made for loving nature and beauty and he expressed that vividly in your relationship. He would often write little poems through text, mail, anything he could get to you in, he would do it, and in such a sweet and endearing manner too. His kindness surpassed anyone’s you ever knew.

Back on topic, your boyfriend was currently on tour in North America. Like, north North America. You didn’t live anywhere near any of the concerts, so you had to stay at home and focus on your schoolwork while he was out having fun. You felt bad but you exchanged cute selfies before you went to bed every night, so it was somewhat worth it. You did feel bad seeing his exhausted expression, though.

You could tell he missed you. Every text he sent was full of adoration.

T: Good night, habibi, please sleep well tonight and dream of me. ME: goodnight!! you look so tired, I wish I was there, I’d give you a million kisses <3

Setting your phone down on the nightstand, you thought about the things you’d do if you were on tour with him. You dreamed about being in his arms that night before coming to an inkling idea.

You’d just pay him a visit.

So, you paid for a ticket to one of the nearest concerts, which was twelve hours away and a couple weeks out. You knew that you could easily get a backstage pass just by texting one of Tamino’s buddies, Colin, about the show. Colin seemed overly excited that you were going to surprise Tamino, glad to be in on it. Colin told you about the procedure about getting backstage and said he’d help, so you thanked him and went to sleep that night pondering what you’d do when you reunited with your boyfriend.

It took you a week to be able to drive out somewhere and look for gifts. Getting a gift for a pretty boy didn’t seem hard, but it was beyond difficult because you knew you had to get something quality. See, with your past boyfriends, they didn’t care much for the gift itself because they didn’t see the quality of it. You could��ve gotten them a pair of socks and they wouldn’t have complained. Tamino was different because you knew that his taste was very selective. Not that he wouldn’t enjoy a good pair of socks, but you had to think out of the box for this one.

And that’s when you saw it; a pretty, dainty, golden locket. It wasn’t any larger than a dime, which made it perfectly quaint for his style. Gaudy heart lockets were so out of date, anyway. As you lifted it to look at it, you noticed small engravings on the heart. That’s when you knew it would be perfect for him. Taking it to the counter, you paid for it excitedly (alongside some clothes for yourself because you couldn’t resist) and made your way to go wrap it.

The day before the concert came and you were all packed. You were going to get a hotel room just for two nights and Colin already had the plans underway. As you drove literally twelve hours to the city the concert was being hosted in, you decided not to play Tamino’s album because you wanted to experience it again in full. The real experience was being able to listen to his music live, that was truly like a gift from heaven. His voice was enough to make angels swoon, you always joked.

Upon arriving in the city, it was already night, so you crashed in your hotel room and made yourself at home. The next morning was the day of the concert and you found yourself just as excited as when you attended your first concert of his. The city was busy, as usual, and the skies were warm and sunny, but you knew you had to get to the venue as fast as possible because it was typically first come first serve and you wanted to be near the front.

You weren’t worried about him spotting you since he kept his eyes closed while performing, but the thought did cross your mind more than once. You just hoped he’d remain cool and think it was a fan that looked similar to his lover. Getting dressed up, you ran to get lunch and a spot in the line outside the venue. You were insanely early but you knew it would be worth it, seeing only a couple of other groups lined outside the door.

And so the waiting game began.

To be honest, you didn’t care if your phone died, you didn’t need to record the concert at all. You could really just ask him any day to perform a song and he’d do it for you. Safe to say that your phone didn’t last long with you standing out there bored as hell.

As the hours pass by slowly, it begins to get dark out. You notice that the line grows and grows until it surpasses the block and, finally, when it’s time to be allowed in, you all start to move indoors. You felt excitement surge in you as you held your ticket up for examination, keeping the boxed gift in your pocket. Walking into the venue, you were greeted with cold air and the whispers of other excited concert-goers. It took about half an hour until everyone was filed into the hall, but that only fueled your energy. It felt like your blood was thundering in your ears, you could hardly handle the adrenaline.

As the band begins to walk on stage, you catch Colin’s gaze. He just smiles at you knowingly, situating himself at the bass guitar. It seems that the other band mates know about your presence because some of them giggle to themselves before focusing on tuning their instruments. Next, Tamino steps out, and the crowd roars with life, screaming his name and cheering for him. You watched him, in his loose collared shirt, smile at the crowd as he took his place center stage. You loved it when he was in the spotlight.

And so began one of the many songs played that night. You listened intently, hushing strangers near you as Tamino broke into gentle melodies, beginning with Persephone which was a personal favorite. Each song, you stared at his face, wishing you could be on stage by his side, kissing him all over. You knew some of the other girls in the crowd might be thinking the same exact thing, but you didn’t let that get to you.

Each song came and went and, before you knew it, it was over. The crowd cried deafeningly for him, wanting more, but unfortunately he had to stop for the night. He personally thanked everyone and shouted out each of his band mates before people began to leave the concert hall. You remained in your spot, fighting the crowd to get behind the stage. Colin met you halfway there, pulling you past security into a dark area behind the stage, dimly lit.

“Come on, this way,” Colin said, eyeing you as you stumbled behind him. “enjoy the show?”

“Loved it as usual, Colin! You guys were breathtaking.”

Colin breathlessly laughs, leading you to a smaller room set away from the stage. He enters, motioning the rest of the band to come out. You heard Tamino’s confused voice ask what they were doing, but it was then you entered, the two of you isolated.

“Y/N..?” He asked curiously before his dark eyes lit up. He approached you in a few strides before opening his arms, pulling you into them tightly. You burst into giggles, returning the hug and cupping his face, pulling him to your height and kissing his lips over and over.

“You were amazing out there.” You whispered but he was too stunned to respond. You reached up, wrapping your arms around his neck and playing with the curly ends of his hair. He felt warm, even sweaty, but you didn’t mind.

“I... didn’t know you’d be here,” he laughed nervously, “I messed up a couple of times...”

“Oh, nonsense, don’t get all flustered now, you sing about love, come on.” You pinched his face, causing his nose to wrinkle cutely. “Oh! Hey, I have something...”

You reached into your pocket, withdrawing the little gift box you wrapped for him. He curiously stared at it before timidly taking it, opening it slowly to reveal the golden heart locket. He admired it with a sudden love-stricken expression, turning to you and simply responding by kissing you on the lips ever so gently.

“It’s beautiful,” he breathes, taking it out of the box and putting it on. “I love it.. I love you. Thank you, habibi.”

It was safe to say he really loved your present and, who knows, this might not be the last time you’ll surprise him at a concert. You loved his reaction, the genuinity behind it, and you know that you’ll never forget this night for years to come.