#i fucking hate feeling like this
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hanniedream · 1 year ago
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when will i finally be free from the hell that is constantly needing assurance and validation
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charliethinks · 1 year ago
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my friend’s mental health is starting to get bad and i feel horrible that i can’t help her because of my bad mental health.
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thenotsolittlelady · 11 months ago
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someone probably just needs some sleep
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frogsky · 11 months ago
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i fucking hate crying for just being so depressed. i wanna be with my auntie, who's not on this earth anymore, and just have her hold me forever. i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it
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s1xseasonsandamov1e · 1 year ago
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I just had a meltdown and hurt my hand cause my sister was eating really loudly and then when I go into the living room to get a bandaid for my hand she starts brushing her fucking teeth which is pretty much the sound I hate the most out of all the sounds I hate
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Can someone please tell me why, despite not having seen him since July 2022, I cannot get him out of my mind. And it hurts thinking about it. Why can't I stop thinking about him still? This is stupid, right? Why can't I just forget about him and move on? This is getting ridiculous. I want to get over this so badly but I can't for some reason. I can still hear his voice and see his face and remember our conversations.
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inkskinned · 25 days ago
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she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.
my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.
my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.
my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.
at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.
my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.
i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.
two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.
it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.
#writeblr#wlw#i often think about like.....#being happy in a gay relationship is sometimes so odd#bc u can forget how stupid ppl are.#bc ur so USED to being gay. and u forget other people GENUINELY ARE homophobic#so it's like. girl pardon?????#but also there are moments where it's like. ohhh the kids are alright#like watching someone razz someone else.... so fucking wholesome#“lemme get this bitche's pronouns before i make gentle fun of them” .... i would have KILLED for that.#THAT is how u know ur accepted#not just tolerated#..... when ppl are like. sure ur nonbinary congrats but WHAT is this fucking sunscreen application#ps idk if "razz'' is a real word but someone asked what it means -#i've always heard it as being a term for 'gentle & friendly teasing'' which like#i personally notice more from my guy friends but is like - when a person isn't#LIKE ACTUALLY teasing u (it's nothing personal/mean) they're just laughing w/you about something#my friends often put on a little voice and call me an anemic little bitch#like 'ooooo the anemic little bitch is cold??? does she need a mouse blanket#bc she's SOOOO SMALL AND ANEMIC???''#and it doesn't hurt my feelings (it makes me laugh very hard) bc 1. i actually called MYSELF that first#and 2. i'm not sensitive about it!!!#a proper razz is when you are ALSO in on the joke - i ALSO think it's funny#for some people i personally find that when they razz u it's when they love u -#they've noticed something genuine about u and love u enough that u know they're not being mean#this is cultural and personality based of course but i'm hispanic#if someone isn't making fun of me it means they hate me . obviously.
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catsingbad · 4 months ago
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I feel guilty for being like this, I feel guilty for being so angry
I should be fucking happy, why can't I just be fucking happy?
why can't I just be grateful and joyful for the things I have
I feel selfish, I fucking hate feeling like this I fucking hate being like this
what the hell is wrong with me
nothing should be wrong with me
I should be the strong smart, cool, and amazing older sister I should be a good example
why can't I just be a good example why can't I be fucking normal WHY CANT I JUST BE FUCKING NORMAL PERSON
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possessivefemme · 5 months ago
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so fucking sick of the pit at the bottom of my stomach
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sabertoothwalrus · 2 months ago
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does science experiments on you (homoerotically)
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jaime-in-chaos · 7 months ago
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Sometimes I feel happy and then there are times I want to fucking rip my head off.
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wrinklyromanesque · 10 months ago
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am i the only one who feels like they dont belong/feels disconnected from their country.
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havenshereagain · 2 months ago
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DPxDC Idea
Danny working at Wayne Enterprises as some sort of engineer, uses the in-house app for all his blueprints and stuff
He starts getting notes from a coworker in-app, and assumes its this annoying older guy in his department who constantly undermines him because of his age, despite his education and past achievements (i feel like in this AU the Fentons react well to the reveal and they work together on a number of non-lethal ecto inventions that have Danny's name attached to them)
Except one day his coworker mentions never using the app, and Danny suddenly realizes there's only one other TD he could've been arguing with in the notes of the app
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beausprouts · 5 months ago
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Dancing with my deepest dark desires
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welcometogrouchland · 3 months ago
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Extremely bad batgirls comic I made featuring Steph's sex life and Cass' ability to read everything but the room
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enigmaticpink · 5 months ago
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Cannot believe this is a controversial opinion but if you cannot say or write out the words murder, killed, rape, death etc. then you are not mature enough to be discussing these subjects in the first place
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