#i fucking hate feeling like this
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when will i finally be free from the hell that is constantly needing assurance and validation
#i fucking hate feeling like this#but idk how to make it go away#feeling invisible#feeling like i'm nvr good enough and will nvr be#bibi thoughts
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my friend’s mental health is starting to get bad and i feel horrible that i can’t help her because of my bad mental health.
#i wish i could but i just cant#i cannot ‘heal’ someone if i don’t understand it myself#i fucking hate feeling like this#i hate that she feels like this
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someone probably just needs some sleep
#feeling like a garbage person#i guess because i feel overwhelmed and stressed when i actually shouldn't feel that at all#cause others are actually busy while i'm just sitting at home all day#with all the free time one my hands to do everything people with fulltime jobs and responsibilities can't do#yet here i am whining and stressed out cause my to do list doesn't seem to get any shorter#it would be really helpful if i could just sleep#i fucking hate feeling like this
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i fucking hate crying for just being so depressed. i wanna be with my auntie, who's not on this earth anymore, and just have her hold me forever. i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it
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I just had a meltdown and hurt my hand cause my sister was eating really loudly and then when I go into the living room to get a bandaid for my hand she starts brushing her fucking teeth which is pretty much the sound I hate the most out of all the sounds I hate
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Can someone please tell me why, despite not having seen him since July 2022, I cannot get him out of my mind. And it hurts thinking about it. Why can't I stop thinking about him still? This is stupid, right? Why can't I just forget about him and move on? This is getting ridiculous. I want to get over this so badly but I can't for some reason. I can still hear his voice and see his face and remember our conversations.
#teacher crush#teacher crush community#male teacher crush#tc community#tc feelings#male tc#i fucking hate feeling like this#especially considering how long it's been#it feels stupid to still feel this way about him#why can't i just forget him???
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she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.
my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.
my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.
my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.
at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.
my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.
i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.
two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.
it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.
#writeblr#wlw#i often think about like.....#being happy in a gay relationship is sometimes so odd#bc u can forget how stupid ppl are.#bc ur so USED to being gay. and u forget other people GENUINELY ARE homophobic#so it's like. girl pardon?????#but also there are moments where it's like. ohhh the kids are alright#like watching someone razz someone else.... so fucking wholesome#“lemme get this bitche's pronouns before i make gentle fun of them” .... i would have KILLED for that.#THAT is how u know ur accepted#not just tolerated#..... when ppl are like. sure ur nonbinary congrats but WHAT is this fucking sunscreen application#ps idk if "razz'' is a real word but someone asked what it means -#i've always heard it as being a term for 'gentle & friendly teasing'' which like#i personally notice more from my guy friends but is like - when a person isn't#LIKE ACTUALLY teasing u (it's nothing personal/mean) they're just laughing w/you about something#my friends often put on a little voice and call me an anemic little bitch#like 'ooooo the anemic little bitch is cold??? does she need a mouse blanket#bc she's SOOOO SMALL AND ANEMIC???''#and it doesn't hurt my feelings (it makes me laugh very hard) bc 1. i actually called MYSELF that first#and 2. i'm not sensitive about it!!!#a proper razz is when you are ALSO in on the joke - i ALSO think it's funny#for some people i personally find that when they razz u it's when they love u -#they've noticed something genuine about u and love u enough that u know they're not being mean#this is cultural and personality based of course but i'm hispanic#if someone isn't making fun of me it means they hate me . obviously.
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I feel guilty for being like this, I feel guilty for being so angry
I should be fucking happy, why can't I just be fucking happy?
why can't I just be grateful and joyful for the things I have
I feel selfish, I fucking hate feeling like this I fucking hate being like this
what the hell is wrong with me
nothing should be wrong with me
I should be the strong smart, cool, and amazing older sister I should be a good example
why can't I just be a good example why can't I be fucking normal WHY CANT I JUST BE FUCKING NORMAL PERSON
#vent post#vent blog#i fucking hate feeling like this#i fucking hate being this useless lazy little girl
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so fucking sick of the pit at the bottom of my stomach
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does science experiments on you (homoerotically)
#petra idk if you read tags but I was wondering how ok you were with people making comics esp since tigers is ongoing;;;#I assume jokey comics are probably fine but I don't know if gets iffier beyond that#I'd hate for you to feel like your work as a comic artist is being undermined!!#I tend to think Sequentially by default hehwhwerjwh#ANYWAY#wasnt sure if I was gonna post this FUCK IT WE BALL#tiger tiger#luck tiger tiger#ludo#ludovica bonnaire#my art
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Sometimes I feel happy and then there are times I want to fucking rip my head off.
#I think I am not ok right now#its just a bit :[#i feel like shit#not good#not fucking good#I dont like this feeling#I fucking hate feeling like this#what the fuck is wrong with me#I fucking hate this#I hate it I hate it I FUCKING HATE IT#i hate feeling like this#I FUCKING HATE FEELING SO FUCKING ANGRY AT EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE#I want it to go away#I dont want to be sad#I FUCKING HATE BEING SAD AND PATHETIC#sorry#I am not ok right now#vent post#sorry again#fuck everything#Im sorry for everything#i might delete this later#I think I need to draw for a bit#it helps#sometimes#idk
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am i the only one who feels like they dont belong/feels disconnected from their country.
#romanananan#thoughts#semi vent#personal#sometimes i wish everyone had a chance to escape their country whether they want to or not just in case shit hits the fan#my country is simply not the best. far from it im afraid#its my home and i wouldnt let it be taken again but it really isnt the best after everything#high corruption and poverty rates + cursed geography..#i feel bad just putting this here but its been a feeling ive been having for a while now#its been quite draining for me to think that i never felt like i truly belonged#or that im forever emotionally and mentally disconnected from my country because of things i dont have the power to control#i fucking hate feeling like this#im sorry everyone. i might delete this later#im in a bad state of mind rn and this day has been draining for me#ill try not to think about it later
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DPxDC Idea
Danny working at Wayne Enterprises as some sort of engineer, uses the in-house app for all his blueprints and stuff
He starts getting notes from a coworker in-app, and assumes its this annoying older guy in his department who constantly undermines him because of his age, despite his education and past achievements (i feel like in this AU the Fentons react well to the reveal and they work together on a number of non-lethal ecto inventions that have Danny's name attached to them)
Except one day his coworker mentions never using the app, and Danny suddenly realizes there's only one other TD he could've been arguing with in the notes of the app
#dp x dc prompt#dpxdc#danny phantom#danny fenton#batman#tim drake#red robin#i have no ideas what happens beyond danny realizing it's been tim the whole time#and having a 'fuck ive been arguing with the big boss' moment#cause of course when he thinks its some asshole from his own department hes snarky as hell#but the ceo??#should he stop with the sarcastic explanations behind his designs?#or will tim think its weird if his tone changes#in my head this does end up being dead tired somehow#just because i love the idea of these two bonding over snarkiness and engineering#and i feel like tim would simultaneously love and hate danny's notes#but also is that actually in character? cause the only batman thing i've read is rhe webtoon#and i know some vague things about canon#but thats it
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Dancing with my deepest dark desires
#william afton#springtrap#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#beauart#i feel like hes actually a fucking parasite in my brain i actually cannot stop drawing him#my stupid autistic ass has to pick the most random muse and then suddenly draws more in a week than i have in months lord#i hate him BUT I LOVE HIM... BUT I HATE HIM... BUT I LOVE HIM#RAGH
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Extremely bad batgirls comic I made featuring Steph's sex life and Cass' ability to read everything but the room
#dc comics#dc#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#batgirls#feels really wrong not tagging their ship here. they could be in an open relationship if you want#and Cass is either aspec or not down for sex for another reason and they've talked about it and whatnot#or it's just cass wingmaning steph#also those little scribbles in the bg are. vaguely circuit breaker and red canary BUT ONLY BC I BLANKED ON CHARACTERS-#-IN STEPH AND CASS' AGE GROUP WHO AREN'T GAY MEN OR TIM OR KON OR BART#i could've just had steph fuck a woman but i liked to imagine this could happen in canon. if DC were based (worse. much worse)#anyway normally i hate uploading bad drawings in poor quality but that just felt like the correct medium for this idea#I'm working on two dc for gaza Commissions rn and im a bit blocked w the lineart rn but we're truckin!
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Cannot believe this is a controversial opinion but if you cannot say or write out the words murder, killed, rape, death etc. then you are not mature enough to be discussing these subjects in the first place
#sorry i fucking hate this recent sanitization of the internet#saying silly shit like grape or unalive takes away the way serious subjects like is supposed to make you feel
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