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Umbrella Pharmaceuticals - Chapter 59

Summary:

Alexia Ashford and William Birkin in Silent Hill. The chapter takes place before Silent Hill 1. Canon: Silent Hill 1, Silent Hill 2 (Original), Silent Hill 3 and Silent Hill 4: The Room.

William awoke to a knock on his bedroom door.

“Mr Birkin, may I come in?”

“Yes, go ahead.”

A nun dressed in nursing attire entered the room. She was carrying a plastic box with various sanitary utensils. The nun placed the box on the bed and moved to the wall to pull back the curtains. The faint glow of dawn streamed through the narrow window to illuminate a room characterized by its virtual absence of ornamentation, save for a crucifix hanging above the headboard of her bed and the bed itself, plus a worn but sturdy wardrobe and a simple desk and chair. There was no radiator, so William must have survived the frigid subarctic night covered with an abundance of thick cotton blankets. Fortunately, he had a brand-new mattress and pillow, so he was able to enjoy his genuine comfort without back pain.

The nun, very young and jovial, sat next to William with the plastic box on her lap, from which she took out an ointment to treat skin irritation. William rolled up his sleeves. The marks of the leather restraints had been imprinted on his epidermis like his jailer's signature; like a bitter reminder of who he belonged to.

“Did you sleep well?”

The nun spoke in English with a strong French accent.

“Yes, better than yesterday. Thank you.”

The young woman spread the ointment gently and expertly. William felt his nervous system suddenly relax as his brain's anxiety at being in a safe space subsided. The nun smiled candidly at him, as if from a world devoid of evil; from a reality where the Ashfords did not exist.

He finished spreading the ointment and closed the box.

“Breakfast is ready for you. Are you sure you don't want to participate in our first prayer?”

“No, thank you. I'd rather not.”

The nun said goodbye to William and left the dormitory.

Alexia had brought him to a Benedictine abbey in northern Quebec. He didn't believe it when they landed in Montreal, for Alexia's very existence antagonized that of the religion, but the Ashfords were Catholics and Alexia received the sacrament of confirmation from the Pope at the Vatican. She had chosen the abbey because she had been there for three months when she was 15. She assured him that the abbess would keep their escape and their whereabouts secret, even though she was a member of Jacob's Circle, and that she would provide them with the means to continue their journey to America.

William made it a non-negotiable point to return to his family. Alexia agreed. However, the family reunion would be a long time coming, for Alexander had already mobilized the soldiers of Jacob's Circle. Nor would their stay at the abbey last any longer. After William's remarkable recovery, they would leave that evening for Maine, where they would temporarily hide out. William had never been to Maine, so he didn't know where they would land. That was less of a concern than living with Alexia.

He had experienced a fraction of the Ashford way of life and what he had seen had distressed him. He knew about butlers and servants from television, but this was qualitatively different. A legion of servants devoted body and soul to satisfying the desires of three individuals who wouldn't even look them in the eye. The butler, Scott Harman, and his assistant, Michael, along with the head cook and the head of security, Martin, were the only employees who received friendly and dignified treatment. The other workers swarmed around the mansion undifferentiated and anonymous under the inescapable scrutiny of the security staff. He watched Alexander's tea being served without him bothering to say thank you. He heard Alfred complain in a rather vexatious manner about an employee who forgot to press a suit, and saw Alexia order Michael to pick up a piece of paper she had dropped on the floor. But what surprised him most was the absolute complacency and happiness with which all the staff acted towards the Ashfords, as if they were semi-divine beings and not human beings who happened to be born with too much money.

Maybe it was culture shock, but his American upbringing did not justify tolerating such smugness. Or maybe he had lived in a bubble of complacency and selective blindness, and now he was taking the shock without anesthetic. For one reason or another, William swore to himself that he would not allow Alexia to cross that red line. If she was so keen, she'd better know and respect his boundaries.

He got out of bed with the intention of showering and dressing. Before leaving, he would take a few bars of the chocolate the nuns made, which tasted like the sweets his parents bought him when he was a child. What had become of his parents? He didn't know. At this point, perhaps they regretted having fathered an only child who had not visited them since his admission to the Training Centre. What a pity.

The abbess accompanied Alexia for a stroll in the garden after completing her chores for the first half of the afternoon. In the intervening eight years, the abbess, a member of the Inner Circle, had grown old and half-blind, but she retained her good judgment and excellent diction in Scottish Gaelic. Alexia came to her on the recommendation of Mary-Anne Campbell, who was accustomed to holding her retreats in such a space. The abbess welcomed Alexia as a daughter and, knowing of her distress, took care to provide her with emotional support and to protect her from her family. This second time Alexia had come to her company, but for the same reason: to flee from her family.

Alexia helped the abbess sit on a stone bench. A thick blanket of snow had settled on the ancient monastery grounds, freezing the water and burying the trees.

“I have committed more sins since I left the abbey,” said Alexia in Scottish Gaelic. “God has not willed that I should elucidate a new path.”

“Trust God to inspire you, but you must discover the new path for yourself,” said the abbess in the same language.

“I have not found the way. I rejoined Umbrella with this belief, but my doubts have grown. I feel the embrace of my ancestors more and more strongly, but I do not aspire to a life like my father's and my brother's. I have never settled, despite my commitment to them. I have never been contenting, despite my commitment to them. I aspire to my own answer, not a predetermined one. That is why I made a decision that has led me back to you.”

“Were those sins you committed very serious, my child?”

“I have killed a man with my own hands, and I have ordered the death of dozens of men and women in a laboratory. God has forsaken me, Mother.”

“God's grace is with you because He knows that you are acting out of the legacy of your lineage. Therefore, you must continue to trust in Him, so that one day you will be able to overcome the mistakes made by your ancestors. Your family must remain united, my daughter, for this is how God has ordained it, and this is the only way you will be able to bring light back to where darkness reigns. And tell me, this man who accompanies you, William Birkin, have you chosen him because he will help you in your task?”

“I chose him because I interpreted him as an opportunity for me. I invited him to Ashford Hall. My father left him alone for a week in our house to see if he was worthy of our trust and his forgiveness. He went mad and escaped, but my father captured him and tortured him to break his will and make him surrender to us. Finally, he obtained my father's forgiveness, but I did not wish William to become his minion. He felt a rage equal to mine at the destruction of his greatest creation. I may have erred, Mother, but I am not willing to continue this barren and insignificant life. I intend to prevail.”

“You have not changed in these eight years. You were born consecrated to God, but within you burns the fire of Satan. I looked after you in this abbey for your salvation, but I see that you reject my recommendations.”

“I was born with this curse that forces me to be aware of what I should not be. God has given me an understanding that does not annul me by unhappiness but impels me to rebellion. I do not wish to destroy my family, only to exist for and by myself.”

“And don't you long for a life of peace and integrity? Don't you want to enjoy your privileges with your family? Don't you want to bring about change out of true love?”

“The only true love I have ever known was my brother hugging me to protect me from the cold as we walked to nowhere starving. Everything else has consisted of circumstantial love and hatred. I was not born to be loved.”

“Do you intend to give yourself up to hatred, my child? Know that Satan is plotting against you!”

“It's not hate or love, it's nothingness.”

“The nothingness?”

“Nothingness is Paradise, Mother.”

“Your mind is full of confusion, but perhaps one day you will attain clairvoyance, my child. I have faith that you will ingratiate yourself with divinity and repudiate these strange thoughts. In the meantime, I will pray for the salvation of your soul until the end of my earthly existence.”

“Thank you, Mother.”

“God bless you, my child.”

Alexia gave William a US passport and driver's license with his new identity: Damien Thorn. She adopted the name Carrie White. A mechanic friend of the nuns chartered a Chevrolet Cheyenne for the second phase of their journey. In the bed of the truck, under a tarpaulin cover, Alexia and William stowed petrol, tools and suitcases of clothes and other belongings. Under the row of seats, Alexia hid the duffel bag containing $1 million in cash she had stolen from her father's safe.

“I guess I don't have to shave your hair off,” William said as he scrutinized the photo of a random person who vaguely resembled him, but who, in Alexia's and the forger's opinion, would be good enough to get him across the border. “Although we can consider entering illegal. We're white and we have a million dollars, I don't think they'll shoot us.”

Alexia threw a road map into his hands. The passport fell to the ground along with the map.

“Warning is not your thing, genius,” William complained.

“I drive to the first stop. You drive to the next stop.” Alexia climbed into the driver's seat.

William picked up the papers and took his place as co-pilot.

“I remind you that we are not in your father's domain. Here we rule equally or, failing that, I rule because I am the eldest.” William asserted himself.

Alexia started the engine and switched on the lights. As she pulled her hair into a ponytail, William unfolded a map of the road map on the dashboard and began to look at possible destinations.

“Shall we go to Twin Peaks? Or would you prefer to see my hometown Baltimore? Or maybe rent a flat in Manhattan overlooking Central Park? Or why not Beverly Hills? Sunbathing would do me good. Lack of Vitamin D causes me to feel sluggish and mood swings. When I was a kid, my parents used to stuff me with supplements. I think they might have poisoned me, but hey, here I am, alive and kicking. Haven't you taken supplements? I doubt it. At your house even the cat eats à la carte.”

“There is a place. A small, little-known town by a lake. A nun friend of the abbess once visited it for charity. The town is outside the Jacobite area of influence.”

“What is the name?”

“Silent Hill.”

The road.

A straight line to infinity.

The horizon.

The border between heaven, ether and earth.

The van.

A spacecraft meandering among supernovae.

They took detours to avoid motorways and other main roads. The five hours the route would have taken turned into eight.

At midnight, they stopped at a dingy tavern on the right-hand shoulder of a side road that disappeared into the mountains. A joint idly frequented by truckers, prostitutes, drug dealers and the like. For her personal safety, Alexia stayed in the car.

William bought two takeaway menus and, when they were finished, it was his turn to drive to the Canada-US border. Neither of them dared turn on the radio, so a tense silence settled between the two travelers. William felt like a fugitive on death row. Alexia did not express any distress at his current circumstances.

At the border, William handed the passport to the officer, trembling with fear. Alexia told the officer that they were friends and on holiday. The officer swallowed the charade and raised the barrier. William's trembling did not stop until a couple of hours later, more than 62 miles away from the border and facing a landscape of rugged mountain foothills.

Alexia checked the map on the road map.

“Silent Hill is about an hour from our location, bordering Ashfield and passing Brahms.”

William nodded.

“And what do we do when we get there? Do we stay in a hotel? Hotel? Apartment block? Detached house with porch and garden? In a doghouse?”

“Brahms Road leads to the old part of the town: Old Silent Hill.”

“So what, we try that direction? The abbess told you your father's influence didn't reach this far? That's right, that damn town's up the ass. Raccoon City's the farthest I've ever been from civilization.”

“William.”

“What?”

“Go.”

William accelerated. After half an hour, they joined a side road that ran along the edge of a gorge. Dawn was breaking over the tops of the pines.

They made an emergency stop on the hard shoulder to change the wheel chains. Alexia helped William and between the two of them they finished fixing the problem in less than a quarter of an hour. Back in the car and with the heater on full blast, William stepped on the accelerator.

A couple of miles later, they spotted a battered greenish sign: Welcome to Silent Hill.

Bachman Road.

William parked in the car park of a supermarket located next to the exit of the tunnel leading to the town. Alexia held out the road map for the Toluca Lake region.

“We are here. Alexia pointed to a pink square at the northern end of the town.”

William examined the map legend to find out where there was accommodation. To the south was a holiday area and to the south-west was the Lakeview Hotel, next to an amusement park.

“Heh, fancy a trip to the amusement park?” William joked.

“We can't stay in a hotel or a motel.” Alexia looked at a square labelled Jack's Inn at the southern end of the map. “We'd register our names and there are security cameras. We'd make it very easy for the Circle.”

“What do you suggest?” William spread the blueprint on top of the steering wheel.

“A dwelling.”

“Sure, and we hire a lawyer to arrange the sale and purchase of the property. Better idea than registering your name with a hotel, of course.”

“There are two flat blocks here.” Alexia pointed to them: Blue Creek Apartments and Wood Side Apartments. “Which one do you prefer?”

William evaluated the proposal based on the simplicity of the plan.

“So what's your idea? Do we knock on the door of a random flat and take out the occupants, keep the corpses in the fridge and impersonate them? If the corpses were married, we can pretend to be the perfect Mormon married couple, no one will care that you look like my niece.”

“Bribing the concierge for an empty flat.”

“Okay. I understand.” William pulled the plane away from the steering wheel. “That's your nature. I'm just a poor upper-middle-class bastard with a 20% tax burden, in your father's literal words.”

“Continue along Bachman. Then turn right onto Sandford Street and continue straight ahead to Nathan Avenue. Turn left at the junction of Sandford and Nathan and continue to Katz Street. This is where the building is located.”

“Great, thanks for acting as my GPS.”

William put the car in reverse and they drove out of the car park. As they passed Bachman's, William remarked that there was not a soul on the street. Alexia shrugged and told him she preferred that kind of quiet, decadent atmosphere. William remarked aloud how much Alexia reminded him of the Wednesday Addams character.

“You would have been best friends.”

Alexia shrugged her shoulders.

William parked a few distance from what he thought was the gate of the gate surrounding the building.

“Well.” William unbuckled his seatbelt and dismounted from the vehicle.

As William stretched out on the pavement, Alexia took the opportunity to put the road map in the glove compartment and pull $5,000 in cash out of the duffel bag. She got out of the van with her hands in her jacket pockets.

“You were in Antarctica, weren't you?”

Alexia entered the compound, ignoring the outburst. William locked the van and went after her.

The hallway was dark and musty. William coughed at the lofty accumulation of dust on the floor and on the sparse furnishings. Alexia approached the back to locate the caretaker's booth or something similar, but the door opened into another corridor. She went to close it, but William stopped her.

“The concierge lives in a flat like the rest of the tenants. Usually on the ground floor.”

William stepped into the shadowy corridor. 101. 102. 103. 104. 105.

“Give me a number.”

“103.”

William went to flat 103. In front of the door, he tied up his hair and clothes and pressed the doorbell. The sound of a bell rang in the background. After a few seconds, no one answered. William looked at Alexia. She pressed him with her eyes to try again. William pressed the doorbell a second time.

“I'm coming!”

A thunderous voice as hoarse as a cave troll's came through the septum and pierced William's eardrums. Alexia pretended not to be startled. The bolt was unlocked and a fat, hairy man greeted them with a grumpy face and a cigarette to his lips.

“Who are you?”

“Eh... We are tourists. We wanted to know who the building manager is in case there is an empty flat to stay in for a while.”

A middle-aged woman emerged from the shadows to join the man in welcoming him.

“Who are they?” said the woman.

“Fucking tourists. If you want accommodation, go to the fucking hotel!”

The man slammed the door shut, ruffling William's hair.

“A nice guy... Give me another number.”

Alexia nodded in the direction of 101. William pressed the doorbell.

“Yes?” A cascading feminine voice was heard. “Who is it?”

“We are tourists. We wanted to know who the building manager is in case there is a free flat to stay in.”

The sash was opened with the bolt chain on. An old woman peered through the crack.

“Oh, but you're a young couple. Why are you here?”

“We are on holiday and we were thinking of staying in this town for a while because... because we like the lake and the mountains.”

“Are there no rooms available in the hotel?”

“Uhm... No... It's because... Well, we're more into flats. Hotels are too conventional for us. Are there any vacancies in this block?”

The old woman assessed William and Alexia as if she were subjecting them to a thorough examination. Then she turned her attention to Alexia.

“You are a very pretty girl. Are you married?”

Alexia looked sideways at William with visible discomfort.

“No, no. She is my niece. I am her uncle. We go out every summer.”

“Aha, you have a beautiful niece. What's your name?”

“W... Damien. Damien.”

“What about your niece?”

“Carrie.”

“Wouldn't you like to have a coffee?”

“What? No, no, we don't want to disturb.”

“We're in a hurry,” said Alexia.

“What's with the accent? Are you a foreigner?” said the old woman.

“He... Her family is Irish. Ma'am, we don't want to bother you any longer, but could you tell us...”

“There is a vacant flat on the third floor. The 302.”

William nodded. Alexia leaned against the wall opposite the old woman's field of vision.

“And it's for rent? Who is the owner?”

“The neighbors,” said the old woman. “Do you want to rent it?”

“Yes, we would like to. Is there a deposit to be paid?”

“It's $50 a month, but it's not furnished. Only the kitchen and bathroom are left. The previous tenant disappeared.”

William took his wallet out of his coat pretending he hadn't heard that the previous tenant had disappeared.

“Here you are. 50.”

He passed the note through the hole.

“All right. Just a moment. I'll get the keys.”

The old woman closed the door. William bit his lip. Alexia had leaned her head against the wall as if she was about to die from the boredom of dealing with the old woman.

The old woman reappeared in the doorway.

“Here. It is a copy of the original key. Enjoy your stay.”

William took the key.

“Thank you very much, madam. I didn't ask you what your name was.”

“Mrs Powell. Have a nice day.”

Flat 302 smelled like shit. Alexia retreated into the corridor while hyperventilating. William, in a fit of self-preservation, ran to the balcony door and opened it wide to ventilate the room. He inhaled and exhaled deeply. Alexia crossed the doorway, holding her nose with a handkerchief.

The flat smelled like shit because rats had shat on the floor and a legion of cockroaches had expired in the kitchen sink. Alexia, tearing up at the stench, stepped out onto the balcony to breathe in the less stinking, polluted air of the street.

“50 dollars... The old woman has swindled us.”

“I can't live here,” Alexia confessed.

William laughed.

“Well, my dear, it's not so bad. It's only 50 bucks and overlooking the road. Always look on the bright side of life. Besides, think of it as an adventure in the Amazon rainforest. When you get back home, your father and brother are going to flip out.”

Alexia leaned against the railing as she dramatically wiped away tears. William glanced inside. Indeed, there were no furnishings other than the kitchen and maybe the bathroom. However, the walls and floor were actually in good condition. A thorough cleaning and they would be ready.

“Alexia.”

“What?”

“Have you ever done anything like cleaning a house?”

“No...”

“Well... I'll teach you.”

They surveyed the state of the flat and stole the cleaning materials from an alcove with washing machines next to the entrance to the floor. William was exhausted, but he wouldn't stop scrubbing until he saw the Virgin Mary reflected in the tiles because he deserved a long, deep rest in a place that smelled clean. Alexia put as much effort into cleaning as William, motivated by exhaustion and her strong opposition to living in a space that was even the slightest bit unsanitary.

They finished cleaning at dusk. Alexia was hungry and William's back ached as if he had been whipped. They threw the spent cleaning products into a rubbish bag and took the utensils back to the hole with the washing machine. The next step was to unload the van. William went to dump the rubbish bag while Alexia unloaded the luggage. On his way to the dumpster, he detected the presence of what appeared to be two people chatting. At this distance he couldn't make them out and didn't think much of them.

The luggage was brought up at once and, last of all, the duffel bag with the million dollars. Alexia locked and bolted the door.

“Which room will be your room? The double room?” said William.

“I choose the other bedroom.”

“Really?”

Alexia went to put her suitcase in her chosen bedroom.

“As you wish.” William left his in the double bedroom.

After the thorough cleaning, they had dinner at the Happy Burger fast food restaurant. Alexia ate her hamburger with a knife and fork, and William ate his with his hands. Then they returned to Blue Creek to sleep. They drew lots for a place to sleep. Alexia got the bathtub and William got a couple of blankets spread out as a mattress.

Still in tremendous back pain, Alexia and William struggled into the van and drove to the nearest furniture shop. There, they bought the cheapest, most practical and easy-to-assemble furniture. Back in Blue Creek, it took them a full day to make the flat a livable space.

They then took care to buy clothes and supplies they lacked, plenty of food, and even allowed themselves to improve their appearance. Alexia got a haircut, and William finally got his hair done and shaved off his beard. They sold the van for a pre-owned Chevrolet five-door sedan and a Ford of the same type. Finally, Alexia went to an electronics shop where she bought a desktop computer and a router. William picked up a couple of handguns, two double-barrel shotguns and two hunting rifles with numerous boxes of ammunition at the mall.

Alexia managed to connect the computer to the internet by hacking into the flat's telephone system so that she could send emails to Alfred via an encrypted client she developed two years ago for the twins' exclusive use. Alexia wrote a message to her brother with the simple sentence: “We are alive”.

“Alfred will tell Annette. My father tapped your phones and bugged you at home to keep an eye on you.”

“Wait, what? Your father did what?”

“He sent a Circle soldier disguised as a technician who tapped your phones and bugged you.”

William put his hands to his head. It all fit together now.

“That's why... That's why your father knew these things...”

“I was in no way involved in the invasion of your privacy. That was my father's obsession.”

“But listening is still active?”

“Yes, so you should not contact Annette. This email is the only secure means at our disposal.”

“God…”

William went to the kitchen to drink as close in taste to brandy as they had.

A ghostly force prevented them from crossing the threshold of flat 302 to the outside world as if a wall of invisible chains had sealed the door. They were deprived of sunlight, except that which they received through the frost-fogged glass; of being embraced by the cold air blowing down from the mountains; and of listening to the cacophony of natural and man-made sounds that the city emitted from dawn to the next sunset, so that it was the gloom of day and the darkness of night that regulated the circadian cycle of flat 302.

The seclusion did not come about by choice, but by implicit mutual complicity. It began after the last outing to the outside world, when they both completed their to-do list to make the place their temporary refuge. The two went to bed in their makeshift beds as usual and the next morning neither wanted to leave. By the inertia of his past life, William was the only one who dared to timidly break the vow of closure with a mock escape that ended in the rubbish chute, located in the same hole as the washing machines. A gesture that, however, did him no favors. Alexia, for her part, quickly got used to the monotony and quiet of confinement. However, their confinement was not limited to the spatial, but mainly to the mental.

The silence of contemplation reigned in flat 302; a silence occasionally broken by the shrill noise of a television on, by Alexia's panting as she exercised, things accidentally crashing to the floor, William's footsteps as he paced the living room, the words articulated by two solitary voices. Sometimes these words reached their destination and sometimes they were lost in the void; sometimes they were launched with meaning and at other times emptied of it. In this way, flat 302 became an extension of the secluded, half-hidden spaces in which William and Alexia had often met at the latter's request. These were places where soliloquies were shared and conversations on a wide range of scientific and metaphysical topics, generic and intimate.

But flat 302 was different. In this kind of non-place, the sum of all places, the soliloquies and preservations took on a tautological nuance. Three themes recurred: self, existence and family.

“I was diagnosed with depression, agoraphobia and social anxiety,” said Alexia.

“Social anxiety. I think I got to feel something similar during my first and only year of high school at the age of eleven. They put me in a senior class expecting me to deal with the situation. After all, you're the wunderkind, you're the problem solver,” said William.

“I would have ended up in a similar boarding school to my brother.”

“Is it that bad?”

“My brother was physically and emotionally abused by teachers, carers and pupils. They break you to make you what you are expected to be. My father and brother went to the same boarding school, which my great-great-grandmother Veronica founded. There they learned to be what they were required to be.”

“Your father is a dangerous man. He's not right in the head. He tried to kill me... And then he kidnapped me and tortured me. That's not right. Your father is crazy.”

“He wanted to possess you.”

“I am not his slave.”

“Reality was unchanging and peaceful until you broke the fantasy.”

“He almost broke my neck.”

“A slight subversion is enough to enrage the beast.”

“You are sick in the head.”

The strap marks disappeared from William's wrists, and he threw the ointments in the trash. Alexia would wake around noon and stay in bed until she was hungry, absorbed in a waking state in which her thoughts followed no common thread. William cooked lunch and dinner for both, but Alexia had grown accustomed to eating them reheated from lying in bed during the dead hours. The opposite was true: Alexia had grown tired of doing, while William had grown tired of not doing. Alexia didn't even feel like reading, while William kept busy cleaning, doing laundry, watching TV and taking out the trash. Alexia prioritized ennui, while William longed to regain control of himself.

“I don't understand,” said William.

“What?”

“Why don't you just leave. You are a billionaire, remember. Your family has as much money as the GDP of several countries.”

“It's not about the money.”

“And why is that?”

“It's a question of power. You didn't leave Umbrella when you had the chance.”

“Because I wanted to know why the hell you fucked me up like that.”

“And because you might not have thought you would have had access to the same resources to succeed as you did in Umbrella.”

“Well... It's true that I want to succeed, but that's because I'm ambitious.”

“Because you are a normie.”

“Alexia, don't start with that bullshit. You still haven't answered the question.”

“Do you really believe in starting a family and retiring with several obsolete publications and a few decorations? The American way of life.”

“Is there supposed to be nothing wrong with starting a family? Or aspiring to a quiet life?”

“Working in a clandestine laboratory for two war-loving managers?”

“You haven't answered my question.”

“You answered it for me.”

Supplies were running out at a steady pace. William cooked the same dishes, again and again, and Alexia reheated them in the microwave, again and again. He did, however, make one change. Alexia replaced the bed with the computer to program he didn’t know what. William, for his part, had started writing in a notebook, but it wasn't a diary, it was just the things that came into his head jumbled up. Neither of them had been out in the outside world for about a month, until almost the beginning of spring. Alexia's hair extended down her back, and, for the first time, William sported a full, untouched beard.

“Why did you kill John... Did he deserve it?” said William.

“He annoyed me.”

“Is human life worth so little?”

“Less than any other animal's life is worth.”

“If you hadn't intervened, would Alexander have killed me?”

“Yes.”

“And you wouldn't have felt any remorse?”

“No.”

“You didn't feel any remorse either?”

“No.”

“But murder...”

“William.”

“What?”

“Be aware of what you have done.”

“What have I done?”

"You killed, William. You killed the guys Spencer sent you. Do you know where they came from? Who they were?”

“No...”

“Ordinary citizens, mostly from the lower classes. Anonymous and poor, but with a life and illusions. You killed them, William. You turned them into biological weapons, into monsters. You did it because you were ordered to, to fulfil your role.”

“Uhm...”

“That's what we do, William. My family does it because death is our raison d'être: the foundation of our privilege. You do it because, whether forced or not by circumstance, you wish to do it. Giving death is, in the end, what we do.”

“I didn't want to be like that... I only signed a training contract.”

“James Marcus was your mentor: you knew exactly where you were going and what you were doing. All of us know what we're doing and yet we keep going.”

“The logical conclusion is that I'm a son of a bitch, isn't it? Is that what you mean, that I'm a son-of-a-bitch motherfucker just like you?”

“Interpret it as you wish, but I insist that projecting your shortcomings onto me will not resolve the dissonance.”

“Oh, wow.”

“I have begun to discern.”

“He, where has your gift for clairvoyance led you?”

“I have discerned Paradise.”

“Ha ha ha. Don't fuck with me, Alexia.”

“I was once on the verge of creating a virus. I called it T-Veronica.”

“When?”

“At twelve years old.”

“So what? What did you do with it?”

“It disappeared. My father destroyed it with the Antarctic base. Do you know why?”

“I don't know.”

“The employees of the base rebelled against him. My father mistreated them. He cut their food rations and heating, doubled their working hours and deprived them of sleep. It finally came to a head when my father publicly laughed at an employee who crushed himself while operating a packaging machine. I was in my lab when it happened. The first thing I saw when Alexander came to pick me up was his look of hatred. Absolute, unrelenting hatred. At that moment, I realized that hatred was what had driven me to create the T-Veronica. The same kind of hatred my father felt: the hatred of powerlessness. My father wanted to kill and destroy, and so he did. He took hate as volition. If hatred is will, Paradise must be attained through it.”

“Is that a biblical passage?”

“Paradise... There was an anthill in the laboratory... If the human species were at least this orderly, this efficient, I wouldn't feel this hatred... The T-Veronica could have been a way...”

“Luckily it seems it never was. Is that why you're in Umbrella? To resurrect your virus?”

“No, that is unrepeatable.”

“So?”

“I am a scientist. Besides, if I could remake the T-Veronica right now, I would do it for a different purpose.”

“I'm afraid to ask, but which one?”

“Exterminate humanity.”

William started going out on the balcony as temperatures rose. The first time the sun came out it scorched his skin and burned his retinas. Alexia had decorated her bedroom with drawings of vortexes and similar patterns. She said the sight of them comforted her. She told William that she had initiated the development of a computer virus and had adopted the name T-Veronica as her hacker pseudonym.

“Is that why you brought me here, Alexia?” William said to himself in front of the mirror. “To turn me into a monster and take revenge on the world? He, he, he, he, he... I want my revenge too. I want revenge on your father, on Spencer, on my parents, on the kids in the neighborhood, on the teachers... I want revenge.” William gesticulated exaggeratedly to emphasize his sneer. “I want revenge on you, Alexia. I want to destroy you the way you destroyed me. I want you to sink as I sank,” he muttered. “I want to destroy the world.” He sniffled. “I'm pathetic.”

He heard her singing through the partition. A lullaby-like song that told the tragic story of an evil queen and a naive king. The king died, but there was no mention of what the queen did after his death. Perhaps revenge?

“Throw myself out of the castle window. Slash my wrists with the broken glass of a bookshelf. Hang myself in my bedroom. Drown myself in the bathtub,” said Alexia. “But my most creative intrusive thought was when I considered the possibility of, if I completed it, trying T-Veronica on myself.”

“What about your brother? Would you have left him alone with your father?”

“I don't know.”

“Cruel, considering that he is the only person in this world who loves you as you are. Just as Annette is the only woman who dares to be with me.”

“I wanted to convince myself that I didn't need it, but...”

“But what, you realized that in your black heart there was room for love, that you even have emotions and everything? Nobody is an island, no matter how much you pretend otherwise. I don't know you very well, but my impression is that you need your brother because otherwise you would be completely alone, and not alone without friends, but absolutely alone. With no one to confide in and to feel loved. That's what I miss about Annette. You admit it yourself: if it wasn't for Alfred, you would have killed yourself.”

Alexia went out onto the balcony for the first time in over a month. She sat down next to William, who had wrapped a blanket around himself. The influx of passers-by had increased slightly since the winter. The town now seemed inhabited.

“About what we talked about in the sewers that time,” said William. “I don't know what I want to do.”

“We can find out.”

“Sherry doesn't deserve for me to be her father... I'm out of my mind... But I love her. What should I do?”

“Find out.” She sighed. “I think it's time to return to the outside world.”

“Yes...”

The chains sealing the door of flat 302 came undone and fell to the floor.

The supreme Power hurled him headlong, engulfed in flames, from the ethereal vault, loathsome and burning, he fell into the bottomless abyss of perdition, to remain there, laden with diamond chains, in the punishing fire; He, who had dared to defy the weapons of the Almighty, lay and wallowed in the fiery abyss, together with his infernal band, nine times the space of time that day and night measure among mortals, yet retaining his immortality. His sentence, however, had in store for him a greater misfortune, for the double thought of lost happiness and perpetual sorrow tormented him without respite. He wandered about with his dismal eyes, in which were painted dismay and immense grief, together with his deep-rooted pride and unshaken hatred.

Alexia finished reading as the Protestant pastor finished the service. The parishioners rose from their seats and marched out of the church. Alexia approached an icon on the side of the nave, a Virgin Mary with the baby Jesus. Alfred turned to spirituality for self-acceptance. Alexia, on the other hand, felt nothing in the presence of those caricatures immortalized in wood. When she needed him most, God ignored her prayers because he was always dead. However, she believed in Paradise. She wanted to be the maker of her own Paradise.

She noticed from the accumulation of dust that the virgin's garment had not been washed for months. She touched it. The touch was strange. She pulled back the fold of the robe. The paint had faded from much of the figure. It looked like an intentional lack of maintenance considering the good condition of the building and furnishings.

“Are you a newcomer?”

An elderly woman in a dark brown dress with a thin white veil spoke behind her. She crowned the ensemble with a red and black striped tie.

“Yes, I am.”

“I saw you reading during mass. What were you reading about?” As she spoke, the old woman fixed her wide eyes on Alexia and hovered over her as if to catch her.

“John Milton's Paradise Lost.”

The old woman gave him a nod of approval.

“Do you believe in Paradise?”

Alexia began to distance herself from the old woman.

“I believe in the word of the Bible,” she answered evasively.

“The road to Paradise is paved with pain and suffering.”

Alexia suppressed her revulsion for the old woman.

“I see it in you,” the old woman continued. “The fire that burns inside you. The hatred that consumes you.”

“You don't know anything about me.”

Alexia turned and left the church.

“I know all about you,” said the old woman.

In the evening, Nelly's bar was attended by two scattered groups of co-religionists, apart from the two waitresses and the cook. William was drinking a beer alone in a corner of the bar.

Nobody paid any attention to him.

The world sucked.

Stinking, noisy, stultifying and stupid like that bar.

A teenager approached the bar.

“Another one!” His voice trembled from the high level of alcohol in his blood.

William smiled at his deplorable state. The teenager spotted him and approached him.

“What are you laughing at?” The teenager leaned on the bar to support the weight of his inebriated body. “Do you want me to break your mouth?”

“I didn't laugh at you.”

“You laughed at me.”

“No, I haven't.”

“Enough!” said one of the waitresses. “Don't scare the customers away from me!”

The teenager walked away from the bar grumbling.

“You fool,” William muttered between his teeth.

He asked for the second round.

A woman with dark circles under her eyes and a drug habit asked him for five dollars and passed him a leaflet. William gave her a five-dollar note and thanked her for the second. The brochure advertised the Silent Hill UFO Association. Sightings had increased in the region and especially in the lighthouse area. It seemed that one of the members of the association had discovered a talisman with which aliens could be summoned, but it had not yet been tested. Below was the address for receiving letters and for applying for membership for ten dollars a month. If he had had a pen handy, he would have filled it in, even though his favorite aliens belonged to another franchise.

He threw the leaflet in the bin.

A man entered the bar. He activated the jukebox first.

A letter to my future self, am I still happy, I begin

Have I grown up pretty? Is daddy still a good man?

Am I still friends with Colleen? I'm sure that I'm still laughing

Aren't I, aren't I...?[1]

The man ordered himself a well-filled whisky. He gave William a sidelong glance.

Hey there to my future-self, if you forget how to smile

I have this to tell you, remember it once in a while

Ten years ago, your past-self prayed for your happiness

Please don't lose hope...

The man sat next to William. He had a slim, trim appearance, piercing light eyes, neat curly hair and a neatly trimmed beard. He reminded him of a cross between John Lennon and Jesus Christ if he were dressed in jeans and denim.

Oh, oh what a pair me and you, put here to feel joy not be blue

Sad times and bad times see them through

Soon we will know if it's for real

What we both feel

“We haven't met. I'm sure you're new in town,” said the stranger with charming formality. “What's your name?”

“Damien.”

“Leonard Wolf.” He held out his hand.

William shook it at him.

Though I can't know for sure, how things worked out for us

No matter how hard it gets, you have to realise

We weren't put on this earth to suffer and cry

We were made for being happy, so be happy

For me, for you, please...

“What are you doing here? Are you sightseeing?” said Leonard.

“Yes... A season of retirement.”

Oh, oh what a pair me and you, put here to feel joy not be blue

Sad times and bad times see them through

Soon we will know if it's for real

What we both feel

“On your own?”

“No... With my niece.”

“Oh, you must like each other very much.”

“Well... We'll take each other. It's just to hang out.”

“Aha, and how long ago did you arrive?”

We were put here on this earth, put here to feel joy

William took a swig from his glass of beer. In small towns like this, everyone knew everyone else, and rumors spread at the speed of light. Lying was not the best option.

“Approximately one month. We rent a flat.”

“Ok. I hope you had a good rest. Hey, do you want to go for a walk? Do you know the town?”

We were put here on this earth, put here to feel joy...

“More or less.”

“Let's go.” Leonard urged. “Lucia! Tell Nelly I'll buy whatever the newcomer's had! I'll see you later.”

William followed Leonard into the street.

Compared to the histrionic hustle and bustle of Raccoon City, the streets of Silent Hill were quiet. A group of five children played on the pavement with sticks and bricks. A couple of grandparents walked their dog. A busy work crew was repairing a broken steel fence at one end. There were no drug addicts wandering around, no police violence. There were no people shouting nonsense at the top of their lungs, and no pockets were not being touched in case a friend of the unwanted had thought to rummage in their trousers.

“You come from a city, don't you? You can tell. You city-dwellers boast that you have a lot of work and services, but the real life is in the towns, that's where the authenticity is; that's where you feel your roots. You come from the capital?” said Leonard.

“From the state? No. I come from further south.”

Leonard held his tongue because he was waiting for a more elaborate answer. William swallowed hard. They were supposed to be safe from Alexander in this place, but lying was very difficult because of the context and his character. A half-truth? But how long would they stay in Silent Hill, and was there even a plan?

“Raccoon City in Ohio. That's where I live for work.”

“Is your niece also from there?”

“No, he's from another city. I'm just there for work.”

At the end of the avenue, Leonard told him to turn left onto a dirt road.

“Over there is a ranch and beyond that is the cemetery. As you can see, it's a small town, but very cozy.”

“Yes, it looks like it. Maybe I'll move to a town when I get bored of the city. And what do you do around here?”

“Everyone makes a living as best they can. Some open businesses, others do repairs, others farm and so on. We do what we can to survive. As I say, there is little work, but that is compensated by a strong sense of belonging to the community. That's what you city dwellers lack: a sense of belonging. You live in shoeboxes and spend your days driving from one place to another for nothing but work and consumption until you die and nobody remembers you. Isn't it a shitty life?”

“I guess you're right. What do you do?”

Leonard smiled.

“I do a bit of everything here and there, but I'm a mechanic. Sometimes I repair cars. Other times I'll do a little fix for you, and if I like you I'll do it for free. I don't let myself be fooled by the devil's tricks. My shop is in the north, in the business district. Drop by if you need an oil change or get a flat tyre. First time is on me.”

“Thank you, you're very kind.”

The road led into a tunnel adorned with a profusion of obscene graffiti. At the end of the passage, Leonard opened the gate and they entered the promised dirt road.

“Now it's my turn to ask you what you do for a living.” Leonard lit a cigarette. “Do you want one?”

“I don't smoke. Uhm... I work in a company.”

“Officer?”

“In a laboratory.”

“And what can you do?”

“Chemicals. We develop and test them. It's not very exciting, but it has its charm.”

“Chemicals such as what? Pesticides? Fertilizers?”

“Pharmacy.”

“Oh, you work for a pharmaceutical company. I hope they're paying you well for poisoning us with their cheap drugs and vaccines. God didn't create man to be dependent on such tidbits. No offence. But you're not evil, are you? You are tricked into working and you believe the lie for survival.”

“It's a job. I need it to eat. I haven't yet been lucky enough to live on rents like others I know.”

“Ha ha ha.” Leonard laughed out loud. “God forbid, Damien, God forbid... By the way, I noticed your wedding ring. Are you happy with her?”

“We've had our ups and downs, like all couples...”

“Why isn't she with you?”

Leonard leaned against the wooden fence of the ranch. William looked at the horses in the background eating and trotting.

“Uhm... Because I'm with my niece. It's a habit. My wife also works.”

“You can't lie.” Leonard sat on the fence.

“Why do you think I'm lying?”

“You hesitate too much. The truth admits of no hesitation.”

“Believe what you want, but it's true.”

“We'll see. Why don't you tell me the real reason?”

“Because I am on holiday with my niece while my wife works.”

“Do you hate your wife?”

“No! What's the connection? Are you Mennonites or something?”

“No, not at all. I'm just curious. You know, most of the people who come here on holiday are a pain in the ass. Young couples who go off to the hotel to fuck their brains out, litter our streets, and get in our way with their modern-day talk of equality and sexual freedom. Then they complain that we hate them, but they have never respected us. Every place has its culture and traditions. We have ours, is it so hard to ask for a little respect for them?”

“I don't know. My mentality...”

“You look different. You spent a month with your niece locked up in Blue Creek. That's news to us.”

“How do you know...”

“It's a small town, Damien. We know each other here and we talk to each other.”

“Yes, of course. We needed it.”

“Curious. Hey, it's starting to get dark. I have to go. Would you know how to go back by yourself? Nobody's going to rape you!”

“Yes...”

“Great. Come by the shop tomorrow at ten o'clock.” Leonard handed him a business card. “I'll recommend places to visit with your niece.”

“Okay.”

“Goodbye.”

The local library of Silent Hill was small, narrow and nondescript. Most of the volumes on its sparse shelves she had already read, with the exception of the few copies of popular literature, which she disliked for their terrible quality. There was not much scientific literature and the few references available were out of date, which made her suspicious of the economic and educational level prevailing in the region.

The only interesting part was housed on the upper floor of the reading room. Unlike the section reserved for scientific literature, the esoteric section boasted a bulging number of well-preserved and rather thick tomes. Surprisingly, she recognized many of the authors from her great-great-grandfather Stanley's collection. Malleus maleficarum. The Necronomicon. Tarot manuals. De Vermis Mysteriis. The Book of Eibon. Cultes des Goules. Herbology of Toluca Lake.

That last one interested her. He turned random pages.

CLAUDIA ALBA

Perennial herb that grows in the vicinity of bodies of water. It reaches a height of 10 to 15 inches. Its leaves are oblong and the flowers are white. The seeds are hallucinogenic. It is recorded to be used in religious ceremonies for its hallucinogenic effect.[2]

He closed the book and put it back. There was another one: Lost Memories.

One feature, only rarely mentioned and disappearing, is that of ritual sacrifice.

"Pray. To pierce a man's chest with a copper stake. To soak the altar with the blood that flows red from the heart to praise and show allegiance to God".

In another sacrificial ritual mentioned in the same book, the victim is burnt alive. The latter was a more dignified ceremony in which prisoners and sinners were not allowed to participate. Only the clergy could be sacrificed. There is no similar rite among the other religions of the region. It is possible that it was associated with a sun god as the main deity.

Although this religion extols redemption, its history is dark and sectarian.[3]

She recalled the sacrificial altar in honor of great-great-grandfather Stanley's Ancients.

No religion has remained unchanged from the time of its foundation. This is no exception. When this religion fell into the hands of the immigrants, it was deeply influenced by their Christian beliefs. For example, the representatives of these primordial gods may be given the names and descriptions of Christian angels. (There is also a rare example of the chief deity, the Creator of Paradise or Lord of the Serpents and Reeds, being nicknamed after a demon. Of course, this is not the work of the believers, but of their adversaries).[4]

One page showed an illustration of a symbol consisting of a larger circle and three smaller circles inside it.

It represents the deity known as the Halo of the Sun. In heraldry, it symbolizes a religious group. The two outer circles represent charity and resurrection, and the three inner circles represent the present, the past and the future. It is usually drawn in red. Occasionally it is also painted in black or other colors, except blue because it reverses its meaning and makes it a curse to God and is therefore forbidden.[5]

It continued:

AGLAOPHOTIS

Red liquid or blood-like crystal. According to the Kabbalah, the name comes from an herb with the power to dispel evil spirits. It is said to grow in the Arabian deserts. It can be steamed or applied as a poultice to ward off demons. It is powerful, but because it is rare, it is extremely difficult to obtain.[6]

Lastly, she read a description of a talisman:

This magic square, with strong protective and dispelling properties, is called the Shield of Virun VII or Seal of Metraton. It will work regardless of whether the target is good or evil. Therefore, its strength places a heavy burden on the conjurer. As it is also difficult to control, it is rarely used. This is why it is called Metraton, after the angel Metatron (or Metraton), also known as the Agent of God.[7]

A syncretic and apocalyptic cult operated in the region, yearning for the redemption of mankind with the coming of Paradise.

That sounded familiar.

The Hyperborean Brotherhood founded by Stanley Ashford started from a similar premise, although his goal was not the coming of any gods parodied from Christian mythology, nor the establishment of Paradise. What her great-great-grandfather desired was the return of the Great Old Ones to Earth for the reinstatement of their rule over all creatures. To accomplish his task, the high priest Stanley performed rituals involving the sacrifice of human beings and pilgrimage to sacred places such as Irem, City of Pillars, and the search in dreams for the unknown Kadath. Since the Great Old Ones had not yet manifested themselves, Stanley seemed to have failed in his mission, although he is said to have triggered some unusual events such as the impact of a mysterious meteorite in Northumberland and the sighting of humanoid amphibious creatures off the coast.

In any case, the point of the matter was that Stanley, as a strong believer and prominent occult leader, had no qualms about sacrificing whoever was needed. Similarly, according to what she had read, the cult generically called The Order might bear some resemblance to the Hyperborean Brotherhood in its practical vocation. If that was the case, there would be evidence and at least one high priest heading the organization.

Alexia returned the book to its place and went downstairs to ask the librarian for access to the newspaper library. The librarian granted her access and opened the door. Alexia turned on the microfilm machine to consult the front pages of the only local newspaper. Looking through the headlines, she found two that caught her eye:

The suspicious deaths continue. First the anti-drug mayor, and now a narcotics officer dies of sudden heart failure of unknown cause.

And:

A fire breaks out in the city. Six houses destroyed. Charred body of Alessa Gillespie (7) found. Preliminary investigation points to a fire in the basement of the Gillespie house. The fire is believed to have been caused by a boiler malfunction.[8]

Alexia turned off the machine and left the library.

She guessed why Jacob's Circle was repelled by the region.

William turned on the microwave to preheat the umpteenth container of convenience food he had bought at the nearest convenience store. A strange mixture of rice with vegetables and sauces that smelled of overripe soybeans and expired fried chicken. He was trying hard to improve his diet, but the talk with Leonard and his walk back to the flat had exhausted him. Alexia was content with leftovers from the day before.

William sat at the table burning his fingers. Alexia was tearing the fish apart with her fork. Since their final exit to the outside, each had been intent on going their own way. In fact, William could have driven to Raccoon City, but he felt tied to Alexia to protect him from Alexander's threat and because his mental state had declined, and he didn't want Annette and Sherry to panic. He would not return until he resolved the issue that tied him to Alexia.

“There is a cult in this town. The Order.” Alexia gouged out the fish's eyes with her fork.

“What about it?” said William.

“It reminded me of my great-great-grandfather Stanley. You were in his dungeon.”

William's hair stood on end. The sacrificial altar with traces of dried blood.

“The Order bears a resemblance to the Hyperborean Brotherhood.”

William focused on eating.

“Human sacrifices.” Alexia removed the plate.

“Do you want to investigate? I'll be Fox Mulder and you be Dana Scully.”

“Where did you spend the afternoon?”

“At the bar on the corner. I met Leonard Wolf today. He invited me to drop by his shop tomorrow at ten o'clock.”

Alexia was fingering a lock of her hair.

“Who will be the high priest?” she whispered.

William shrugged his shoulders.

“While you find out, I'll go and see what Mr. Wolf wants. Maybe he'll buy us lunch and everything.”

“There was an old woman in the church who approached me.”

“Uhm?” William went to the fridge to get dessert.

“She asked me about Paradise and said she knew who I was.”

“Your real identity?” William sat back down with concern. “Have we been discovered?”

“No. The Circle will not discover us in this town.”

“So?”

“She is a member of the cult.”

“So what? Are we leaving?”

“No, not yet. But be careful. Watch who you associate with.”

Alexia got up and went to the kitchen to put the dish in the dishwasher.

“Fuck,” William muttered.

Silent Hill Central.

William parked in a free spot near Leonard's garage. He went over to the garage to have a look around. One of the mechanics saw him and went into an adjoining room. Leonard then went out the same door.

“Damien, I'm glad you came. Come in, come in. Do you want a beer?”

“If you have coffee, that's fine.”

Leonard led William into the workshop office and poured him a machine coffee that tasted like shit. Leonard uncorked a bottle and invited him to sit in a wide, frayed armchair.

“Have you visited the town?” said Leonard.

“No, not yet.”

“Better. There are a couple of places you could go with your niece. Actually, three. Lake Side Amusement Park, the Historical Society Museum and Rosewater Park. They're all good.”

“We'll go, then.”

“Hey, Damien. I'm sorry if I was too abrupt last night, about your wife. You see, this is a very small, close-knit town and sometimes new things take some getting used to, you know?”

“It's ok. I understand.”

“It's because I'm worried about you. You look exhausted. Are you running away?” Leonard lit a cigarette.

“Uhm... No.”

“You doubt too much, Damien. It's because of your wife, right.”

“No. That's not why.”

“You're running away from someone who hurt you, aren't you?”

William bit his lip.

“I'm not running away,” said William.

“Yes, you are. And I can help you.” Leonard finished his bottle. “I can help ease the pain you're feeling. Trust me.”

“No...” William got up to leave.

Leonard stood up and grabbed his arm to stop him.

“You're hiding, but you don't know if your stunt is going to work, do you? You're hiding from the police? A domestic violence warrant?”

“No.”

William wrenched his arm out of Leonard's hands.

“Leave me alone.”

“The police patrol very often these days. They're not looking for someone.”

William made for the exit, but Leonard grabbed him violently again and ripped the wedding ring off his finger.

“Give it back!” William shoved Leonard, but the latter took a few steps back to inspect the ring.

“William. Annette. William, that's your real name, isn't it?”

William blanched.

“Give it back to me...”

“And the woman you are with is not your niece, is she? Is she your lover?”

“No!" William shouted, fed up with Leonard. “Give it back!”

William angrily lunged at Leonard and punched him in the face, but did not get him to drop the ring. Leonard wiped the blood from his mouth with his hand.

“You're playing with fire, William. Don't piss me off.”

“Fuck you, you freak!”

William kicked Leonard hard in the legs. Leonard staggered and collapsed to the floor. The ring fell next to the couch and William ran to pick it up, but Leonard got up and lunged to tackle William. The two tumbled to the floor, with William face down. Leonard pinned his arms to the floor.

“Fuck me?! You're gonna pay for this, motherfucker! Randy!!! Where the fuck are you?! Randy!!!!”

A man came to the scene, attracted by the noise of the peeling and the voices.

“What's going on?”

“Help me with this bastard. Hit him in the head!”

Randy grabbed the first thing he could grab: the bust of a bear, and hit William over the head as he struggled to free himself.

The impact knocked him unconscious.

Alexia ordered takeaway for lunch. No sign of William.

She was beginning to worry.

She left the gun on the dining room table.

If William didn't show up by 10 p.m., she would go looking for him.

At 7 p.m., the phone rang in flat 302.

“Who is it?”

“Good afternoon, are you Carrie White? We're calling from Brookhaven Hospital. Your uncle, Damien Thorn, attacked a person this morning and was admitted to our facility as a precaution. Could you meet with Dr. Davies tomorrow at 10:00 to find out what happened?”

“Yes, I can.”

“Very well. Thank you for your attention, Miss White. Good evening.”

Alexia walked to the hospital at the end of Carroll Street.

She warned.

A curly-haired man in a denim outfit sat smoking on the stairs leading up to the institution.

Alexia stopped in front of the double doors and breathed in deeply. She focused all her willpower on suppressing the anxiety that was beginning to regurgitate from the memory of when she had been in a similar place. She promised herself not to be overcome by emotions and crossed the threshold.

She looked down at the floor to navigate among the medical and security staff. She ignored the occasional shouts from unidentifiable places and dared not raise her eyes above the wheels of the stretchers. The only time she allowed himself to raise her head was to read the map and find out where Dr Davies' office was located.

She knocked on the office door. A middle-aged man in a doctor's coat greeted her.

“Miss White? Come on in.”

Alexia and Davies sat in armchairs.

“As she was told on the phone, her uncle, Damien Thorn, was brought by the police to our institution after he attacked a man. Fortunately, the incident was reduced to a confrontation and bruises, but your uncle was delirious and aggressive. For that reason, the police assessed her for remand at Brookhaven. We called her to collect his personal effects from reception and get a preliminary diagnosis,” explained Davies.

“What is the diagnosis?”

“Depression, mainly. Once he calmed down, his thoughts started to become coherent and he asked to leave, but we fear about his aggressive outbursts. Tell me, was your uncle ever aggressive towards you? Did such an incident happen in the past?”

“No, it's the first time. And where did it happen? Who did he attack?”

“The incident occurred at a garage in Central Silent Hill. He attacked one of the mechanics. According to his uncle, it was because the mechanic started threatening him and stole his wedding ring, which, by the way, shows a different name than his.”

“William is his older brother. He died in an accident at work. He kept the ring as a memento.”

“I'm so sorry. That could partly explain the attack. However, we think Damien should stay in the institution for at least a couple of days for his safety and to start treatment.”

“He was in treatment. It could have been a momentary relapse.”

Davies nodded.

“I'm not taking up any more of your time. Thank you for coming in.” Davies stood by the door and invited Alexia out of the office. “We'll keep you posted.”

“Could I visit him?”

“Come by tomorrow from 5 p.m. onwards. Call before you come to let us know.”

“Which is your room?”

“The M6. You share a bedroom with another man, so you must let us know. Good afternoon.”

Alexia went out into the corridor. She consulted the map. M6 was located on the first floor at the end of the corridor connecting the patient rooms. There was a lift accessible from her area.

She went to the lift. She got in with an elderly lady carrying a drab bouquet of flowers and a male nurse. The lift stopped on the first floor and Alexia decided to follow the old lady with the bouquet of flowers. The old woman stopped in front of electronically locked double doors. She went to open them, but they were locked. A code was required to open them.

“Would you like me to help you, madam?” Alexia offered.

“Yes, young woman, how do you open the door?”

“You need a code. I'm going to ask the nurse.”

“Thank you, darling, thank you.”

Alexia stepped back and asked the first nurse she saw around the place. She asked for the code. The nurse asked if she had a scheduled visit. She said yes and for the same room as the old lady with the bouquet of flowers. The nurse swallowed the lantern and inserted the code. The old woman, assisted by Alexia, entered the area. She stopped in the second room, while Alexia made her way to the last room of all. Without knocking, she entered.

William had sat up in bed. The man he shared a room with was lying in his room and noticed Alexia as soon as he entered the room.

“Alexia!”

William inadvertently revealed his real name. He had a black eye and a bandage on his head.

“Alexia...” muttered the roommate.

“Carrie.” Alexia sat on the bed next to William. “I snuck in. What happened.”

“Leonard Wolf. That son of a bitch set me up in his shop... He started trying to get the truth out of me and ripped off my wedding ring. I got pissed off. I was furious.”

“Leonard Wolf? What does he look like?”

“I don't know... Curly hair, beard, denim...”

“Like the one who was smoking on the stairs of the hospital?”

William clenched his fists.

“Son of a bitch...”

“Did he say anything else?”

“That he wanted to help me. He told me that he had the solution to all my problems. He gave me some messianic bullshit for I don't know what he wants to achieve.”

Alexia felt the roommate's eyes on the back of her neck. She shivered.

“The wedding ring, remember? The one that belonged to your older brother, William, who died in an accident at work.”

“Okay.”

“The doctor wants to treat you for a couple of days. Be good, be polite and take your medication. I'll come again tomorrow from five o'clock.”

“Be very careful.”

“I have considered moving to the hotel. I doubt that flat is still safe.”

“Yes... Move to the hotel.”

“Damien.”

“What?”

“Be careful.”

“Okay.”

Alexia got out of bed. As she left the room, William’s partner did not take his eyes off her for a second.

The next day, William was reunited with Alexia.

“I have moved to the hotel along with our things. Here, your wedding ring.

“Thank you. How are you?”

“Alone, I suppose.”

“Apart from.”

Stanley, William's partner, returned to the room. He lay down on the bed and continued to manufacture a kind of doll without taking his eye off Alexia.

“We're leaving...” William looked behind him.

Outside, they sat down on a couple of free chairs.

“Have you spoken to the doctor? How many days am I going to be locked up here?”

“Until the day after tomorrow. In the afternoon you will be released, in principle.”

“I'm sick to death of Stanley... He makes me sick.”

“Yes.”

“Have you found out anything?”

“A couple of things. The woman who approached me, Dahlia Gillespie, works in an antique shop downtown. The librarian told me.”

“Anything else?”

“Your friend Leonard is supposedly a father and a member of The Order.”

“Oh, how did you verify the latter?”

“The librarian. She may or may not be a member of the cult too.”

“Don't you want to tell your father? He can get you out of here.”

“No. I don't want to go home.”

“Why not? This is not your place. You are in danger here.”

“I know.”

“Alexia... It won't be one of those ideas of yours... They're going to kill us.”

“Do you want to leave?”

“Of course I want to leave. I want to go home to my family and forget about your father.”

“Why don't you want to go home...?”

“All right. We'll leave. When you're released, call me or go to the hotel. I'll be waiting for you.”

“Well... Okay... Fine... Great. You'd better not come. Stay at the hotel. I don't like this place.”

William and Alexia said goodbye. William returned to the room alone. Stanley had finished his doll: a miniature, poorly made reproduction of a blonde woman in a purple dress. William didn't want to think badly of the doll and held back his nausea.

He wouldn't go another day in Silent Hill without shooting himself.

William dressed in the new clothes Alexia had brought him the second time he visited and cleaned his wedding ring. He said goodbye to Stanley with a curt farewell and went to Davies' office to be discharged.

“Take care of yourself, Mr Thorn. Continue your treatment and stay out of trouble. Be careful out there.”

“Thank you, Dr Davies. I will be careful.”

William left the institution. The cold wind aired his nostrils, congested with the stench of human and disinfectant. He inhaled sharply to clear his lungs. Alexia wasn't expecting him, so he would go to a phone box and call her to pick him up.

William descended the stairs. He saw a car approaching. Suddenly, the vehicle cut him off by pulling up onto the pavement. Through the window he saw Leonard Wolf in the passenger seat.

Run.

William shot off in the opposite direction. Three men got out of the car armed with ropes. Leonard stayed in the car.

William ran with all his might, but fatigue from lack of exercise began to take over. The three men closed the distance before the indifferent gaze of passers-by.

Finally, one of the three men grabbed him by the hood of his hoodie and pulled hard. William choked and fell to the ground on his back. The three men tied him to the ground with ropes and taped his mouth with duct tape. They then dragged him back to the car and laid him in the boot.

They closed the door.

They threw him on the cold tiled floor and removed his hood. Leonard stood in front of him.

“You got your ring back. Good for you. I hope your work as a chemist is not a lie.”

William tried to free himself from the ropes that bound him, but they were firmly fastened.

“Are you a chemist?” Leonard drew his gun and pointed it at his head.

William crawled towards the wall, but Leonard kicked him in the ribs. William's mouth narrowed in pain and hatred for the prick.

“I ask you a second time: are you a chemist?”

Leonard took the safety off the gun. His finger rested on the trigger.

“Yes...” He coughed. “I'm... a chemist. That's right.”

“Okay... I believe you. God commands us to forgive sinners, and I will do that with you. I take your word for it. Can you synthesize a substance?”

“What kind of substance?” William hunched over, lying on the floor in deep pain. He had hit him with vengeance.

“PTV. It is synthesized from a local plant. Your job is to improve the formula. If you succeed, you will be saved, and we will consider releasing you.”

William burst out laughing. Leonard looked at him in confusion.

“And how much are you going to pay me? I warn you, I was very well paid at Umbrella,” he continued, laughing loudly.

“Umbrella? Hey, Randy, doesn't a company by that name ring a bell?”

“The heart pills my grandmother takes are that brand,” said Randy.

“Is that the company you work for? You bastard, you'll all burn in hell for subverting God's work with your dark arts. And you too, Randy, for allowing your grandmother to drink the poison of those damn corporations.”

“If you say so.” Randy shrugged.

William chuckled. Leonard pointed it in his face.

“So, Umbrella employee, are you going to help us with the PTV or not? You don't know us, so be careful how you answer,” said Leonard.

“My niece told me that there was a cult in this village that made human sacrifices. Are you part of the cult?” said William as he sat down.

“Your niece is a meddlesome busybody with a know-it-all attitude.”

“He just comes from an extremely anti-social family. Will you sacrifice me?”

“Do you want me to shoot you?”

“I'll help you with PTV. Is it a drug?”

Leonard holstered the gun.

“You have one chance, Umbrella employee. One chance, or you'll end up fertilizing the garden of Eden with your corpse.”

“Of course. I understand the religious reference. Are you going to untie me?”

“Randy, lock him in the lab. Little devils like you don't deserve my hospitality.”

“You don't know me either,” William muttered. “You haven't the faintest idea what I'm capable of in a laboratory…”

Antique Green Lion.

A sad sign hung on the façade. The stairs descended to a semi-basement. Mould flourished in the corners of the walls.

A lone halogen spotlight illuminated her way to the front door. She pressed the bell.

The woman from the church allowed her to enter.

Alexia glanced inside the shop. She stopped to examine a grandfather clock with the hands stopped at 9:15 p.m.

The woman watched her with wild eyes.

“You sacrificed a child for Paradise,” Alexia whispered. “My great-great-grandfather did too, but for a different concept of paradise.”

“You could have been the mother of God... I see it in you: an immeasurable hatred. A hatred ready to beget God. But you are not like her. You're not a psychic.”

“And what am I then, Dahlia?” Alexia opened the glass door of the clock to touch the cylinders.

“You are His Envoy. You have been sent by God as a sign prior to the consummation of my greatest work: the return of Paradise. God has heard my prayers and sent you to cleanse the Holy Place of corruption for its birth. You are his archangel.”

Alexia closed the glass door.

“Where is the Holy Place?” said Alexia.

“Under the amusement park... The entrance is in a booth nearby. I will tell you where it is and how to get there.”

“Is that where my companion is?”

“The blond man? Yes, he’s there.”

Alexia turned and faced Dahlia. Dahlia crossed herself as Alexia approached.

“I have seen Paradise. Do you know what I saw?”

Dahlia shook her head.

“A place of darkness and silence where only my brother and I exist.”

Alexia took a map out of her jacket and spread it on the counter.

“Tell me where it is and how to get in.”

The Envoy of God, but God did not exist.

Darkness and silence. The hotel room became a dense forest, a patch of woodland in the middle of the greenish Northumbrian wilderness. There was nowhere to go but to wait for the death perpetrated by hunger and cold. With no one else to turn to, the twins held each other tightly. For the first time in her short life, Alexia wept inconsolably. Not for the immediacy of her extinction, but to vent; to find peace before the end. Alfred had forced her to achieve her greatest desire: to escape from her family.

But the escape was narrow, dark and endless. The road twisted back on itself like the uroboro. Again and again, it returned to the starting point. The path unraveled, as the mist invaded the horizon. In that wasteland, it was nothing.

But she wanted to be something more.

She wanted to live, that was the only idea that remained among all her fragmented selves. But which of them was the real one?

None of them.

She did not feel attached to any of the Alexias she had been to in the past.

In that place, she had run away from her family, but also from herself. She had run away from what she was to make a choice: whether to become like them again, or to give birth to a new being.

And, at last, she got an answer.

She recalled shooting practice with her father.

An assault rifle, a combat shotgun, two pistols and numerous boxes of ammunition were piled on top of the bed.

She put on her black leather trench coat.

To be nothing: to be everything.

The tunnel extended into the heart of the Earth.

Stained by the evils of this world,

We keep our sorrows within ourselves.

Only you can heal us from these wounds.

Every morning, noon and night, we call upon your name

and we pray for the day of the Miraculous Descent.[9]

The light bulbs were flashing as she passed by.

I give you my body and my eternal soul without reserve.

Whatever darkness comes upon me, I will bear it with you by my side.

The echo of her footsteps echoed off the walls.

As proof of your miraculous power, guide our obedient and willing souls to the Road to Paradise, Oh Lord.

We will not yield to the power of temptation as long as we have you in our hearts.

The clinking of guns sounded like a chorus of apocalyptic trumpets.

Oh Lord, save us with your compassion.

Oh Lord, bless us.

Oh Lord, favor us with your abundance.

The gateway to the Holy Place.

This gate leads to the Road to Paradise.

Embrace the bosom of the Holy Mother.

Admit your sins and be forgiven. Eternal tranquility can be yours.[10]

She opened it. A mass was being celebrated. The man presiding was the high priest of the Order.

Removed the safety catch on the assault rifle.

The parishioners ascended to Paradise with blood in their hands.

One by one, the screams and cries died down. The high priest fell silent during the first scuffle. His lackeys succumbed during the second.

She shot with pistols all those who lay there to ensure the eternal rest of their souls.

The Holy Place was silent.

The laboratory was in one of the adjoining rooms, not far from the altar.

She heard no human voice as she entered the next corridor.

Silence.

A blow.

She opened the door and shot five other parishioners.

Silence.

Steps.

A parishioner alerted by gunfire.

Shot in the head.

The lab was locked. She used the key Dahlia gave her.

“Alexia! How the hell did you get here?”

Alexia did not respond. She handed William a pistol. William noticed the drops of blood splattered on her trench coat.

They went out into the corridor.

William saw the first body shot in the head. He saw a door ajar.

Saw.

He saw the altar.

William vomited.

He did not see Leonard Wolf among the casualties.

The Holy Place had been cleansed.

William ran after Alexia, mindlessly, his mind blank.

Alexia opened all the doors and, once outside, led him to the car. All his things were in the boot.

Alexia went to discard the weapons and saw someone.

A dark-haired girl in a blue and white dress. She was looking at her. She was pointing at her.

Alessa was disappointed.

William called Alexia.

Alexia got into the car and drove off.

They left Silent Hill.

Notes:

[1] Akira Yamaoka & Mary Elizabeth McGlynn - Letter - from The Lost Days (Silent Hill 3 Original Score). [2] Silent Hill 1 "White Claudia". [3] Silent Hill 3 "Lost Memories". [4] Silent Hill 3 "About syncretic religions". [5] Silent Hill 3 "About the cult's symbol". [6] Silent Hill 3 "Aglaophotis". [7] Silent Hill 3 "Otherworld Laws". [8] Silent Hill 1 "Newspaper article about house fire". [9] Silent Hill 3 "Prayer to God". [10] SH3 "Church door".

#resident evil #silent hill #alexia ashford #william birkin #dahlia gillespie #alessa gillespie #leonard wolf #the longest chapter #halloween gift #silent hill 2 #silent hill 4 the room #resident evil code veronica #resident evil 2 #silent hill 3

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landofzero-archive · 1 year ago

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Nagisa Ran - If There is a Connection

Event: Kiseki ★ Blitzkrieg Autumn Live

Episode 1:

(Location: Shuuetsu Hallway)

Nagisa: …… Um, Anzu-san?

…… Ah, that’s good. I wasn’t mistaken about your name.

…… To meet you in a place like this– what are you doing here alone?

Option 1: Actually, I got lost……

(Response A)

Nagisa: …… Is that so? Then we’re in this predicament together.

…… Yes, I’m lost as well.

…… It shouldn’t be so vast. It’s far too easy to get lost in this school.

(Response B)

Nagisa: …… Where do you need to go? Hopefully it’s somewhere I can navigate to.

…… Yes, I’ll show you the way. When I visited Yumenosaki Academy, I remember you helped guide me to the student council room.

…… It’s a good thing to help and be kind to each other.

Option 2: I came to watch the lesson

(Response A)

Nagisa: …… Lesson? Whose lesson?

…… Ah, I see. Those children from Yumenosaki are here, right?

…… Sorry, I couldn’t remember it properly. I need to refresh my memory with the materials Ibara prepared for me.

(Response B)

Nagisa: …… I see. To meet you again like this, it must be fate.

…… I was a little surprised, I only recall there being those children from Trickstar being here yesterday.

…… Ah, thank you very much. I apologize for greeting you so late, it’s nice to meet you here.

Episode 2:

(Location: Shuuetsu Academy front gates)

Nagisa: …… Ah, we meet again.

…… Just now, who was I talking to? I'm not quite sure who that was.

…… I see… Someone you don’t know. I was approached there and asked to answer a questionnaire.

Option 1: So what happened?

(Response A)

Nagisa: …… I tried to answer it, but since I couldn’t understand what it was asking I could hardly come up with answers.

…… What is the meaning behind the questions? What is the significance of soliciting the survey in the first place? Then I asked him about what his purpose in life was…

…… For some reason, he suddenly remembered he had something to do and left.

(Response B)

Nagisa: “Fuhahahaha! What a stupid question! Bow your head and apologize!”

…… I forgot to act in character again. I forgot about it earlier, too.

…… I remembered and tried to say the same line as I just said, but it seemed to surprise him and he ran away.

Option 2: Was it a catch sale?

(Response A)

Nagisa: …… I suppose so. The purpose of what I was being asked earlier must have been to get me to buy something expensive.

…… It’s fine, though. I almost finished the questionnaire but I never signed it.

…… Ibara told me it’d be best if I didn’t sign anything unless it was for work.

(Response B)

Nagisa: …… What is a catch?

…… Huh? Did I say something funny?

…… Sorry. Without Ibara, it’s difficult to express myself properly.

Episode 3:

(Location: Shuuetsu hallway at night)

Nagisa: …… Ah– Anzu-san. Have you seen Tsumugi around here?

…… We were together not long ago but before I knew it we were separated.

…… I shouldn’t have gazed out that window.

Option 1: Should I contact him?

(Response A)

Nagisa: …… Ah, I see… I could have contacted him with a smartphone.

…… I find it troublesome to operate so I often forget it exists.

…… I have one but I’m hopeless at using it. Sorry, could you contact him for me?

(Response B)

Nagisa: …… Yes, it’d be helpful if you could do that.

…… I’m not in trouble, but it’s likely Tsumugi-kun is.

…… I hope he wasn’t left behind in the bathroom or something like that.

Option 2: What was outside the window?

(Response A)

Nagisa: …… The stars were shining beautifully tonight.

…… A romanticist? I don’t understand what makes you see me that way but when compared to Ibara I suppose you have a point.

…… It seems that we all have different values.

(Response B)

Nagisa: …… Nothing. I was just wondering if it was already nighttime.

…… Were you working so hard on your lesson that you lost track of time?

…… No, I had almost entirely free time today. Rather than losing track of time through lessons, I got lost in my excavation work.

#ensemble stars #enstars #enstars translation #nagisa ran #era: !#type: mini-talk

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myaquariusheart · 2 years ago

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14/4

I usually write in my journal but I've been overthinking too much about my handwriting and at least here I don't need to worry about my handwriting. Another upside to just writing here, it's easy and convenient and I'm always on my laptop. I really want to document every day of my life so I can look back and see what was happening. I hate that I don't commit to writing every day because there are so many memories I forgot about. Even writing about the little things are essential, my mood, what I did in the day, the progresses of my relationships with people, etc. Today I woke up and went to the university to work on my presentation. We're going to present it next Monday and although I am super nervous I think it will be great for me to work on my confidence, and it's only 10 mins so it can't be too bad. I just finished watching the new episode of Power, right now I'm more interested in Monet's storyline than Tariq. The whole Lauren situation is such a bore to me and I can't be bothered with it. Obviously, Tariq is going to love her, but she is not right for him, she doesn't suit his lifestyle. He is a drug dealer at the end of the day and she is just a good rich student. Lorenzo is also dead and I don't get why they keep killing people off, I think it would have been interesting to see Monet and Lorenzo's relationship drift apart alongside the kids but the writers have robbed us of that. Now we're just going to see Cane take over his pops. Tomorrow I'm taking Alv to the cinema to watch the Super Mario movie, which I'm excited about for her and hope she enjoys even though she doesn't know too much about it. I'm sure she will be obsessed with Princess Peach by the end of it. I had really bad anxiety before but it's all gone now which I'm happy about. I started to read YOU again and have made it my mission this year to get through all 4 books. Caroline has released the 4th book yesterday and it came in the post today. It did come damaged which is also irritating my brain. I just hope after all my assignments are finished I can finally get into reading again, I feel so shit that I bought that short storybook about witches and never finished it, but I will finish it after I've completed the You series. Right now I am feeling okay, just happy I'm able to write and need to think of some goals to do this year. I need to book my theory again I know I have definitely given up after I failed but ill put more mind to it once my dissertation is complete. I also have that stupid essay for Sports Science which is another cursed Literature Review. Anyway i need to be positive as i am a powerful human being and everything i say will speak into existence. I haven't been manifesting in a long time, and i need to. I constantly get over fixtaed on something and just forget it about it forever, like last week i went gym EVERYDAY and this week? Not even once. Anyway that's why we have a new day everyday and its another chance to better myself. Maybe i can start gym next week when I'm feeling motivated too. Gonna go back to watching Love is Blind and try and sleep.

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cursingtoji · 3 years ago

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Royals

Pairing: Gojo x Roality/Sorcerer!Reader

Summary: Yuji was told by his sensei that someone very special was coming to evaluate his new cursed energy.

Warning: fem pronouns, slightly suggestive, hickeys, established relationship.

a/n: naruto's anbu uniform is what i based reader's outfit off, so keep that in mind i guess? i apologize if i forgot some tag in the warnings, feel free to point anything out to me. thank u and enjoy <3

“How pontual” Gojo smiled when he felt your presence on the top of the building he was standing along with Yuji.

“Huh?” Yuji looked around confused till he saw a black silhouette behind him.

“Hope you don’t mind Yuji-kun, I wanted a professional opinion and called a friend”.

“Are you sure this is the best place to do this Gojo?” You asked going around the boy with pink hair staring at his figure and sensing his cursed energy.

The building you agreed to meet him was one of the tallest in Tokyo, you could barely see the people on the streets from here.

“Sensei, is your friend a ninja?” Yuji asked, staring back at your figure, your black outfit left no skin to be shown while the kitsune mask covered your whole face and two swords remained crossed at your back.

“You worry too much Princess, don’t you believe I am the strongest?” You frown upon the use of the pet name. Yuji tilted his head to the side.

“I just don’t want things to go out of control” you moved your hands to remove the kitsune mask, your identity would still be protected by the mask that covered your nose and mouth beneath it, but Gojo stopped your hands as soon as you approached him.

“Keep it on until we finish okay?” He smiled, although he did not say anything else this was enough for you to understand he did not want the curse inside Yuji to cross eyes with you. “I’ll explain later, Yuji, now can you give us ten seconds with Sukuna?” Gojo stretched his arms preparing for a quick battle.

You moved to the corner of the building to give him space but still keeping an eye on the pink haired kid.

He was so young...

Black marks soon appeared on the kid’s body and the new cursed energy overwhelmed you making a shiver run up your spine.

As the heir of a clan that for centuries has the ability to control cursed energy, this scared you.

Sukuna’s energy was enough to destroy a big city like Tokyo as easily as a snap of a finger. In the past your clan helped Sukuna by increasing his cursed energy during battles but in the end, your clan also helped destroy Sukuna by suppressing his cursed energy as much as they could. Gojo asked you to come watch a quick demonstration, if the plan succeeded and Yuji managed to live long enough to eat all Sukuna’s fingers, it would be just a matter of time until the king of curses took control of the vessel and attempted some kind of mass destruction. If the time comes you wanted to be able to perform the same act that your clan did in the past.

Although, since Sukuna’s downfall your clan did not act as sorcerers anymore, instead they turned into rulers and politicians, living in big cities as Tokyo and controlling cursed energy just by existing there, a natural balance to the modern world, they would tell you, but none of this changed your mind when you decided to break the chain and become a sorcerer almost ten years ago.

The fight started when Sukuna ran towards Gojo murmuring something about seeing him again. Gojo controlled the situation fast by immobilizing Sukuna on the floor, far enough to not harm you.

“So?” Gojo asked, looking at your direction.

“You asked me to not do anything so I can’t say for sure, but I think it’s possible” you answered the white haired man.

Sukuna’s attention now was brought to you, he tried to read your cursed energy, you sensed that, but with the kitsune mask covering your face and eyes you doubt he recognized you as part of the clan that caused his downfall one thousand years ago.

Gojo again smiled at you, proud of you being able to take such a fast reading without messing with Sukuna’s energy, which he asked you to not do.

It would be better for everyone if Sukuna doesn’t make a target of you so soon.

“Alright, guess we are done for now” Gojo raised as soon as Yuji took back control of his body. You watched amazed as the cursed energy came back to a normal level.

Gojo asked Ijichi to drive Yuji back to the school and promised to talk to Yuji in the morning.

“I don’t know, Satoru. There’s only so much I can do alone, and I’m sure the rest of my clan won’t get involved with Sukuna if he returns. This is a huge responsibility for me...” you stopped talking, not even wanting to consider the possibility of such a powerful curse having complete control to do whatever he pleases and you not being able to do much by yourself.

“I won’t put you in danger, but for now it would be good if you could stick around Yuji, just to observe... I can put a good word for you with Yaga” Gojo dropped his arm around your shoulder playfully.

“You really want me to stay at jujutsu tech Tokyo just to keep an eye on him?” You removed the kitsune mask, now allowing Gojo to see your teasing eyes.

“I have my own selfish reasons too”.

The next morning Yuji crossed his path with Nanami around the school, having worked together once Yuji felt comfortable with asking Nanami about his sensei’s friend.

“Oi Nanami, do you know Gojo-sensei’s ninja friend? I met them last night but still don’t know what happened”.

Nanami stared at Yuji like he was speaking some foreign language “...Ninja?”

The elder was about to ask him to elaborate when the said sensei turned around the corner with you by his side.

“Gojo-san, Ojou-sama” Nanami bowed low when he noticed you coming closer.

“Ojou-sama?” Yuji looked at the person walking to them alongside Gojo. He did not recognize you at first, you now were using a colored Yukata and nothing covering your face.

“Nanami please, you know me long enough to drop this title” you smiled at your friend.

Yuji quickly made the connection between Nanami using the princess title and Gojo calling you Princess yesterday.

“Oh sensei, I didn’t know you had a girlfriend. You two make a beautiful couple” Yuji smiled.

“Itadori, show respect, Y/n-sama is an actual royal” Nanami whispered to Yuji.

After the downfall of Sukuna your clan reigned for a while, being the heir of the main clan branch and if your clan was still reigning that would technically make you a princess. Nanami insisted on referring to you as Ojou-sama in public even though you two attended school together years ago and long passed the formal titles.

“Sorry” Yuji bowed, still confused.

“It’s okay Itadori-kun, we will have enough time to get to know each other” you assured the pink haired boy.

“You are moving here?” Nanami asked.

“Isn’t it great?” Gojo smiled widely, now placing his arms on your shoulders and Nanami’s. “It will be like old times again”.

“Yaga accepted my request to stay on the campus and assist the kids,” you explained Nanami. Of course he knew that by ‘the kids’ you mean Itadori and his new found cursed energy.

“What a great set of teachers you will have Yuji-kun” Gojo tight his grip around you and Nanami “Why don’t you go find Fushiguro and Kugusaki while I show y/n her room?”.

“Yes, sensei!” Yuji smiled and bowed again before leaving to find his team mates.

“Let’s keep y/n secret between us, okay Nanami?” Gojo asked now that the three of you were alone. “Sukuna might not find out about y/n’s origins if she doesn’t mess with his or Itadori’s energy, the elders agreed to keep her around for now as protection”.

“I see… Well let me know if you need anything, Ojou-sama” Namami replied and fixed his tie.

“I need you to stop using that title, Kento” you smiled again at your stubborn friend and dropped Gojo’s arm from your shoulder going back to the path that led to your dorm.

“Always so polite, Nanamin” Gojo teased “Just don’t forget I’m the only one allowed to get on my knees for her” he released Nanami’s shoulder leaving his fellow sorcerer flushed.

“What did you tell him?” you asked Gojo when he got back to your side.

“Nothing he doesn’t know already” his large palm touched your lower back.

Your arrangements with Gojo were something known only by the heads of your clan, the two of you and few close friends. A promise made almost ten years ago allowed you to attend jujutsu tech and become a sorcerer if the only descendant of the Gojo clan married you by the time both of you got to your thirties. There was nothing in it for Satoru, but he agreed even though he barely left his teenage years.

“Satoru, What are we gonna do now?” you asked looking at your feet.

“We can start by getting you a pretty uniform, maybe a short skirt and a v-line” the hand that wasn’t at your back moved to the collar of your Yukata exposing more of your neck and collar bones and all the purple and blue marks painted there “A masterpiece like that has to be shown”.

“You are shameless” you slapped his hand away and adjusted your Yukata back. His flirty personality taking your mind away from the new responsibility of being Yuji’s guardian. “You know, we are two years away from the arrangements and I still wonder why you accepted it” you confessed, stopping in your tracks.

“Oh Princess, I’ll always be taking the side of rebel soul and you so happened to be the one that stole my heart from day one, you are not getting cold feet now, are ya?” he leaned and placed his arm on the wall behind you, an old habit that made you flushed when you two were younger, but now you can only bite your lips and raise a hand to lower his blindfold and meet his shining eyes full of admiration.

“Marrying the prince that saved me and the strongest jujutsu sorcerer? How could I get scared of that?”.

“Prince huh? I can get used to it”.

#gojo x reader #jjk x reader #jjjk #gojo satoru x reader #gojo x y/n #jjk x y/n #jjk gojo #gojo satoru #cmc.fics #jjk imagines

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morganayenneferburnham · 3 years ago

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Have I Known You 20 Seconds or 20 Years? – Nikolai Lantsov Series

Chapter 1: Devils Roll the Dice, Angel Roll their Eyes

Chapter 2: You Did a Number on Me

Chapter 3: You Could Call Me Babe for the Weekend

Chapter 4: The Best of Times, The Worst of Crimes

Chapter 5: All I Know Since Yesterday Is Everything Has Changed

A very short summary: Y/N has been working with the crows for a few years. Her life feels complete until she meets the insufferable Nikolai Lantsov. She finds herself forced to work with the King of Ravka on one of Kaz Brekker’s crazy schemes.

Word count: 2k

A/N: Hey there! So this took me a bit longer than expected but here it is! I should probably mention that it's an angsty one. Sorry. I hope you guys enjoy it. I'd love to get some feedback :)

Chapter 5: All I Know Since Yesterday Is Everything Has Changed

She woke that morning wishing she didn’t have to leave her room for the rest of the month. That was going to be difficult, however. Kaz would come to drag her out himself if he had to. She knew he would. It was probably best to avoid angering him any further. He had made his anger quite clear the night before.

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Kaz had sent everyone away for the night after having heard their reports and studying the plans for a few more minutes. His gloved fingers had wrapped themselves tightly around her wrist when she’d tried to slip past him.

“Can you get the job done? Or do I have to worry I’ll lose my corporalnik to a king?” His voice had been heavy with disdain.

“Of course, I can do the job, Kaz! How long have I been working for you?” she’d felt panic rise in her, making her nauseous.

“I’ve known Jesper even longer. Doesn’t mean he hasn’t disappointed me.” He snickered. “You haven’t answered my question, Y/N.” The way he’d said her name had sent a shiver down her spine. It had been a barely hidden warning.

“Kaz…” her voice had broken. Would he send me back to Tante Ingrid? She simply couldn’t tell.

“Start tailoring Nikolai and yourself back. I’ll see you in the morning. Do not be late.”

She’d spent the next 3 hours tailoring the king, who threatened to ruin her life by occupying her every thought, and then herself. Nikolai had at least had the decency to stay quiet this time around. She had been far from done when they’d called it a night, but she’d judged it would be enough to keep Kaz off her back.

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Y/N got ready quickly, keeping Kaz’s warning in mind. She shrugged off her nightgown. She’d slept terribly. She pulled her white shirt over her head, tucking it in the pants she’d chosen for the day. Her mind kept travelling back to Nikolai’s kiss and Kaz’s terrifying fury. She loosely tied the strings at her shirt’s collar, letting the delicate bow rest on her chest. Her brain seemed to be stuck playing both moments repeatedly. It was ridiculous. Nikolai had only kissed her to keep up the act. There was no reason to jeopardize her place with the crows over something so meaningless. So why couldn’t her mind stop bringing it up?

When she finally reached the music room that currently served as their boss’ office, Inej sent her a look of pity from her perch on Kaz’s armchair. Great, she thought, Kaz is still mad.

Jesper and Wylan were lounging, limbs tangled, on a small couch. She nodded to them, returning their greetings, making her way to the opened glass-paneled doors leading to the garden. She watched Marya Hendriks paint while they waited for Nikolai and Zoya to join them. The older woman was working on a beautiful landscape of the Geldcanal. Y/N focused whole-heartedly on the paintbrush strokes letting them erase the memories of the previous night from her mind as they went. She knew it wasn’t permanent, the problem would still exist once Marya stopped painting, but it brought her comfort for the time being.

“Thank you for gracing us with your presence, your royal highness” Kaz’s raspy voice brought her back to the present. His rage and disdain were barely leashed. She turned in time to catch the surprised look on Nikolai’s face. She might have thought it was funny if she wasn’t so scared of what Kaz could do.

“Good morning, are my general and I late?” Nikolai schooled his feature into a charming grin. “Though, you know, I was under the impression that Kings couldn’t be late, everyone else is simply early.”

Just when Y/N thought it was impossible, Kaz’s eyes darkened further. Nikolai had managed to make him angrier somehow. Kaz sneered, “You are late.” They were in for a horrible day.

The air felt colder than it had a few minutes prior to the Ravkans’ arrival. Kaz continued, “The first part of the job was a success. However, that was the easy part.” He sent a pointed look her way. “The next part will require everyone to follow the plan to the letter.”

She flinched. Kaz isn’t mad. He is livid. She moved away from the open doors opting to take place on the arm of the couch where Wylan and Jesper were still lounging. Jesper reached for her, letting his hand rest on her thigh, giving it a small squeeze as if he felt her distress. She was thankful for that small gesture. It would help her endure Kaz’s wrath.

“I still need time to figure everything out. These blueprints do give us the layout of the factory and the warehouse, but we still don’t have the guards’ rounds schedule. We’ll also need to find out the shipment schedule.”

Inej interrupted him “I’ll take care of that. Just keep planning, I do quite enjoy your scheming face.” Y/N always loved getting a glimpse of their relationship. It was always subtle, but they clearly did love each other. It was endearing how much they did.

Kaz’s features seemed to soften a bit at that. “Of course, my darling. Perhaps General Nazyalensky can be of some assistance.”

Zoya nodded. “Sure, we’ll get you the information. Just make sure we have a way out with the plans and the prototypes we need.”

Kaz nodded and turned back to Y/N his gaze cold and hard. “You’re not done with your tailoring.” It wasn’t a question, it was a critic. She felt a chill travel down her back. “You have to finish this morning before either of you can leave the house.” He considered her for a moment. “Use your room. We can’t risk a servant seeing you like this.”

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They’d left the room a few minutes later. Y/N leading the way to her room at the Hendriks mansion. She had been quiet, practically ignoring him the whole way. Only turning to him once to check if he was following her. Her brows were furrowed. Nikolai wasn’t sure if she was mad at him or scared. Scared of what? Me? Or Brekker?

Nikolai now watched her from his seat at the end of the bed as she readied her tailoring kit. She had tailored her body back the night before, but she still had ways to go before she was sporting her beautiful features again. She had her back turned to him, her olive pants hugging the soft curves of her hips just right. Nikolai’s mind kept travelling back to the night before and the outfit the Grisha had chosen for the day wasn’t helping him at all. He wanted to rest his hands on her hips and pull her body to his. He wanted to feel her comforting curves pressed against him, closer than they had been the night before, the fabric of her skirt no longer in the way.

He watched her finally settle in front of the mirrored desk, raising her hands to her face. He was glad she was starting with herself. It would give him time to gain full control of his brain again. He observed the careful movements of her fingers for what felt like hours. He was grateful for the time she’d bought him, until he saw her face as she made her way to him. He couldn’t help but glance at her full lips. He wondered just how different it would feel to kiss her now. Saints, I forgot just how naturally gorgeous she was. The urge to pull her closer was threatening to overwhelm him.

“So, I guess I’m only undoing my own tailoring? Not Genya Safin’s? You still need to look like Sturmhond.” She sounded guarded.

“Yeah. I don’t think you could handle how handsome I really look.” He saw her jaw tick. Saints, what a stupid thing to say. And why did I wink at her again? She’s obviously uncomfortable.

He watched her carefully as she came to a stop, standing between his thighs. Nikolai could feel his heart hammering in his chest. She was standing so close he worried she could hear it. If she did, she made no mention of it. “This is gonna hurt. Tell me if you need a break.” She sounded determined; all traces of her previous insecurity gone. He only nodded, not trusting his voice with her standing so close to him, her floral scent drifting his way due to the soft breeze coming from the open window.

Her fingers were surprisingly cold against his skin. He felt the familiar itch of tailoring as she started before the pain of bone remodeling fully settled in. He tried to stay as still as possible, focusing on the concentration etched in the girl’s features instead of the pain. He felt her set his jaw back, making sure Sturmhond’s characteristically pointed chin was just right. She had made a few adjustments the night before, but she hadn’t done any major alterations. He kept watching her as she set the rest of his face back. Her shirt had slipped dangerously lower on her chest as she worked. The small bow coming lose. It was driving Nikolai completely crazy. He wanted to reach out and finish untying the damned strings. He didn’t think he could take much more of this absolute torture. She was almost done with reworking the bone when he saw her bite her bottom lip, completely lost in her work. He was about to finally lose the last sliver of decency he had been holding on to for the last hour when she straightened up suddenly. She backed away to take in her work.

“I think that should be it for facial structure. I’ll work on your eyes next, and I’ll finish with your hair.” She seemed more at ease now. Whatever had been bothering her almost forgotten.

She took her place back between his legs reaching up to his face once more. Her fingers came to rest on his cheek.

“I shouldn’t have kissed you. It was a mistake.” Nikolai blurted out. He could’ve sworn he saw hurt flash in Y/N’s beautiful green eyes, but it was gone as quickly as it had appeared. He must have imagined it. He saw her straighten her spine, her shoulders tensing up.

“Whatever, we got out. We got the job done. It doesn’t matter.” Any scrap of ease she’d gained was gone as she turned her back to him, taking a few steps towards the mirrored desk. Why did you have to open your mouth? Nikolai Nothing. Nikolai the Bastard. Pretender. Nikolai the fool. He had clearly upset her.

“Listen, I didn’t mean to upset you. Brekker told me you worked at one of the pleasure houses before… I just – I didn’t mean to cross a line.”

She whirled back towards him. Fury burning in her deep green eyes. “He had no right.” she hissed. Her rage melted quickly however, leaving her looking panicked. Nikolai saw her hands start to shake before she clenched her fists.

Another blunder. “He only told me because I asked about your tattoo.” Her hand flew to the bare skin of her arm hiding the iris burned into her skin from him. I am only making it worse, he realized. I should really learn to stop talking so much.

She lowered her head. “He’s going to send me back.” Her voice was trembling. She sounded absolutely terrified at the idea. Nikolai wanted to reach out to her, to comfort her. Why would she think that? Surely Brekker wouldn’t do that. She’s a corporalnik. If Brekker is actually stupid enough to part with such a gifted Grisha, she could have a place with the Second Army. She could have a place in Ravka… She could have a place with me.

“You could–” Nikolai didn’t get to finish his sentence. Inej had opened the door and walked in carrying a tray with tea and biscuits.

“Figured, you two were probably hungry!” Her warm smile faltered when she saw Y/N’s expression. “Everything alright?”

“Thank you Inej. You are absolutely right!” She laughed; all traces of her panic gone. “I’m starving. I could eat a stack of waffles as tall as you!” A talented corporalnik and actress, Nikolai thought.

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liyuesbian · 3 years ago

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✧ pygmalion!au [ningguang]

notes: btw idk how commissions from museums work i just made the process up LMAO and this one's kinda angsty? i mean, it is the pygmalion greek myth so iykyk. also, i describe this figurine of ningguang here but w/o the colour... i've linked it in case any1 needs the reference. (btw, this is not set in ancient greece specifically)

only yesterday had you been commissioned by an art gallery in the capital to create a piece for their up-and-coming collection titled desire, love and identity. yet here you are, slaving away to make the perfect image you had in your head come into fruition. your vision is exquisite once sketched on paper—you can't find any faults in it so you take the risk.

as soon as your chisel meets the marble, a feeling so invigorating dominates your body. no further references are necessary as you place your trust entirely on your hands, coarse from the labour. you find such mindless toil addicting and you work day and night, only stopping for a half-baked meal and the odd collapse into bed.

for months, love streams out of the tips of your fingers and through your sculpting tools to arrive at the stone figure. you sincerely hope the intimate emotion has been reached.

when you finish, you wipe the bead of sweat running down your forehead, rest the other palm on your hip and take slow steps backwards all while maintaining eye contact with the statue. a wave of sweet relief hits you and you fall to the floor, uncontrollably sobbing into tired hands that still grip the hammer and chisel.

it's beautiful.

you stagger, struggling to get up with your bruised knees while clumsily wiping the tears off your stained cheeks. setting the instruments aside, you lift your head to admire your handiwork up close. a woman made of stone sits elegantly atop an oriental chair, crossing her smooth, white legs over each other. her left elbow is propped on the arm of the chair while on the other side, a long smoking pipe is balanced between gloved fingers. around her lies an assortment of objects: a vase containing scrolls, a floor lamp, and a charmingly decorated folding screen.

you see, you had already thought it all out. you'd imagined ningguang's preferences for a life of luxury, her affinity for constructing and sprucing up interiors. she would be a master of the trades and a woman who likes to keep an air of mystery around her. and like how you increasingly project her to be more of a person than she ever will be, there is a creeping concern in the corner of your mind that you will lose your rationality just as quickly.

the sculpture's body is clad in a qipao with a slit that reveals alabaster skin below the waist. the dress—embellished with patterns and neat linings—hugs her figure and shows off a lean build. the extensive train and sleeves of the fabric are shaped curvaceously to mirror the flow of a waterfall. and her face. the section you strived so hard to refine. she stares at you with an imperious expression and a hint of a smirk. her gaze, so piercing, makes you avert your eyes in shyness but you find yourself gravitating back to her profile.

you muster up the courage to draw closer to your creation and unconsciously stroke her cheek with your thumb, captivated. if she were an empress, you'd be a common peasant—undeserving of setting your sights on such a goddess. you can feel your soul being sucked into eyes devoid of emotion—of anything, actually. after all, the woman sitting before you is not a person but an inanimate object.

the weeks following the completion of ningguang—which is the name you've picked up the habit of calling her—are spent in said lady's company. every minute of every day, you surround yourself with her presence as if she is your closest friend. you eat with her, tell her your troubles, even going so far as to decorate her with various types of jewellery and bringing her gifts you think she'd like.

"thank you," you whisper. "for always listening to me." in truth, you're always so immersed in your work that you forgot what conversations could feel like. though, you fear your art would never be on par with something so transcendent ever again.

you become curious, wondering what she would be like if the nymph in front of you were not just a figment of your imagination.

you perch yourself on top of ningguang's stone-cold lap and trace the contours of her visage. you inspect each crease on her lips and the minuscule crinkles in her eyes, applauding yourself for the well-crafted details. you don't know what possesses you but you close your eyes and press your lips against hers, hoping that once you open them, a living being would erupt from underneath the marble. but, of course, as soon as the light hits your retinas, ningguang is as unmoving as ever.

realising what you've just done, you drop off of her thighs and laugh anxiously. however, you could've sworn that you had felt warmth in the lips of your beloved muse.

"i've finally gone mad!" you cry aloud.

hell, you say to yourself, is it even possible to fall in love with such an... an artefact? you dismiss your glaringly obvious infatuation.

"nonsense," you mutter under your breath, sensing your heart breaking slightly. how can something so painfully humanlike also not be human at the same time? you must've caused a tremendous atrocity in your past life to have made the gods harbour a grudge against you. of all things, you'd never have guessed that a lifeless piece of art would be the object of your desire.

you can't bear to look at the handcrafted lady any longer and with an anguished face, cover her with a large cotton cloth. the plan was to wait until you could hand the statue over to the curators and try to ignore its existence until then.

for a few days, you act according to the plan, going about your daily routine but eventually, your stoic demeanour crumbles. you lock yourself in your room refusing to eat or believe that your affection would never be returned.

during the hours of sunlight, you weep under your sheets, drowning in self-inflicted sorrow. and at night, you do the same, lamenting over the loss of what could've been your true love. she would've been so perfect in your eyes, your other half, and the only one who could calm this growing turmoil!

the reality pains you. hence, you do the only thing you can do: you pray. you pray to the gods for a miracle, that the light of your life would stride into your room and pull you from the depths of despair... but she never does.

your last day "cohabitating" with the sculpture has arrived and for the first time in—what felt like—an eternity, you open the doors to your workshop. taking a deep breath, you unveil the stationary maiden.

it's still as beautiful as you remember.

you give it a sad smile, wanting to get its departure over and done with. you manoeuvre about the room to prepare the things for the movers who're due to come in a couple of hours. while you go down your little list of errands to be done, you cough and bat away the smoke—wait, the smoke? frantic, you spin around, eyes darting everywhere in search of its origin until they land on the smoking pipe you so intricately moulded for the commissioned piece.

it's strange, you don't recall colouring the statue. and how on earth is smoke coming out of the pipe? suspicious, you approach the motionless entity and almost stumble when you spot its chest rising.

oh lord! — i really must be descending into madness! you clutch your head, clawing at your hair in hysteria.

"stop, please don't hurt yourself." the sound of a low, worried voice penetrates your ears. you shut your eyes tight.

"no, the gods have cursed me! i mustn't listen to your poisonous words!" you exclaim. your state of agitation is alleviated when the woman caresses your tensed arm.

"what has happened to you? i haven't seen you lately either." the tone is more soft and more tender than you had imagined. you release your grip.

"is it really you, ningguang?" your voice cracks at the end, and the woman you sought after witnesses your features twist into an expression of longing and hope.

"yes, my darling. i dare not go anywhere else."

helplessly, you rush to cup her face to check for heat, for the blood traversing under her skin—anything that would prove that your sweetheart is truly alive and breathing. and when you do get the confirmation, you beam, trying to withhold tears born from elation.

you bend down to kiss ningguang, who is still seated on the chair, once, twice, and three times to rid your scepticism. oh, deities! she's real.

"i love you," you declare.

"i know." you watch as the same creases you'd etched on the corners of her eyes spread into a loving half-moon shape and you kiss her again.

you reach a conclusion: you couldn't give away your lover—let alone a live person—to be displayed as part of a museum exhibition so when the workers arrive, you hide your muse away in another room. you apologise profusely and spin a lie, rambling on about how you had nothing to relinquish for the piece you had prepared had been oh-so-viciously stolen by a mob of trespassers!

the movers share with you their sympathies and ask what the work of art looks like and maybe they could sort something out with the authorities. nodding, you recount—so ardently—the details of your divine maiden. you feel heat rush to your face, chuckling when you realise that you'd run your mouth for too long.

in response to this, the two labourers exchange dubious looks as they peer at the static sculpture standing in the middle of the studio—its appearance unmistakably matching your elaborate description.

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k-comfyspace · 4 years ago

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Star: Jeon Heejin, Kim Hyunjin (Loona)

Idea: No

A bond stronger than anything in the world meant for the two people that were destined, but what if the world gave you something unexpected, something better than what was already happening➶?

A/n: It was a random idea I had in my head, hope it’s not too much of a stretch😂

They believe that when the earth was created, there was a myth that something had its own pair: the clouds with the sky, the moon with the stars, and the trees with the flowers.

This often applied to the people who lived on this planet, two people who were destined to stay together and were connected by an unbreakable connection.

Where one day you will meet your other half and you will love each other until the end of time.

A bond stronger than existence itself because you are both linked in every way, or Soulmates.

It was a concept that appeared difficult to believe, rumors that they were supposed to be with each other and that they could feel each other's physical sensations.

Everyone dismissed it at first, saying it was impossible and false, before they found it themselves a few years later and were proven wrong. Which continued for years until it became widespread.

That everyone would find their true love, the one with whom they would spend the remaining days with.

You waited in line, clutching your book as a small smile made it to your features before taking a seat in front of the first girl, "Hi, what’s your name?" You handed her the book, watching as she flipped to the page she was supposed to be writing on,

"Y/n," you replied, watching as the younger girl raised her head to look at you, eyes scanning before she asked, "Y/n? Is that you?"

"You shouldn’t really be asking your fans such questions, Hyejoo," you replied playfully, your voice teasing as the girl showed you a bright smile, "It’s been a while. How are you?" she asked, scribbling down on the book while you hummed,

"Been super busy lately, thankfully I had some free time to come here," Hyejoo grinned at you and slid the album back to you as you moved to the next person who seemed to be as happy when she heard you talking to her member.

"Wow, it’s been such a long time, Y/n," you giggled at the younger woman’s comment as she scribbled your name without asking,

“You girls assume too much. What if it’s just a coincidence? There are a lot of people named Y/n in the world," Chaewon laughed at your comment as she handed you the album,

"There are, but there’s only one Y/n that would talk to us like that," she said before the staff asked you to move over, throwing a playful glare at her jab.

"Hi, how are you, what’s your name?" The energetic girl came next, making you giggle when she didn’t seem to hear your conversation with the woman before her,

"Y/n, I'm fine, thank you," you replied, watching Jiwoo nod and write your name. "Your name is Y/n too? We know someone named Y/n," she replied, writing her signature on the bottom and handing you the album, "Really, you should introduce me sometime,"

You said, making the girl meet your eyes when she found a little familiarity in your voice,

"Y/n-ah?" You smiled behind your mask, nodding in confirmation before hearing the girl squeal, smiling brightly as she took your hands in hers, shaking them excitedly as you tried to match her energy,

"We missed you so much!" You squeezed her hands in response. As the manager asked you to move, you smiled at Jiwoo and moved on.

As the fan sign continued, the rest of the members showed their smiles and didn’t hide their excitement when they met you.

Most of the fans just thought that it was normal since they repeatedly said in most of their lives that they missed orbits so much. When you arrived in front of Haseul, you signaled for the girl to be quiet, motioning to the two members who were playing with each other, the older girl nodding as she smiled.

You gave Haseul your eye smile, squeezing her hand as she held it before moving to the side where Hyunjin turned to smile at you, yet to recognize who you were when she asked for your album,

"Hello, what's your name?" she asked, flipping through the pages before stopping at her picture, "Y/n," you answered seeing the small smile on her face before she nodded scribbling down your name and a small smile.

Though before you moved to the last member, you pulled something beside you, lifting the paper bag and handing her the plushie inside. Hyunjin giggled when you pulled out the bread plushie.

Taking it in her hands and embracing it, you pulled down your mask a little, calling the busy cat as she squished it in her hands. Hyunjin glanced up, her eyes going wide when you showed her your smile,

"Y/n?" Your name being familiar to Heejin’s ears, caused her to turn, seeing your face before you covered it back up again.

The bright smile that overcame both of their faces was satisfying to see, "It is you! How have you been?" she asked, but before you could answer, the manager was already telling you to move, giving the cat an apologetic gaze when you saw her pout, so you told her instead, "Let’s meet up when you’re free."

Moving to Heejin, the bunny took your album and finished it quickly, wanting to talk to you as you gave her your present. Like Hyunjin, you gave Heejin the exact same plushie, adoring the look that she had when you showed it to her.

Holding out her hands, Heejin held yours in hers, smiling when she saw your eye smile, imagining your smile behind your mask before you eventually stepped off the stage, back to your seat.

You’ve been friends with the girls for about a year now, having known Heejin when she was training and being classmates with Yerim made the two of you become closer again until before you knew it, you were friends with her whole group.

You were the hidden member as they liked to call you, always hanging out in their dorm and acting like you were living with them for years.

Though you were particularly close to the first and second members, they still treated you like their long lost sister. Along with that, you were relieved to have people that didn’t always pester you about your life, constantly asking you about whether you’ve found your soulmate, or if you have plans on finding them.

You were getting sick of it, but when you met them, even if they each had their own, they never once asked, never brought it up.

Though they teased you by being so lovey-dovey, you didn't mind because you knew it was all in good fun, and they weren't trying to show you something that would make you feel pressured or sad.

In fact, they gave you an opening to tease them back, giving them a pinch on the arm, or purposely pinching their cheeks too hard, which you knew both would feel. It was like getting two birds with one stone.

"Thank you everyone, this has been Loona!"

You clapped for the girls as they each left the stage, sending their fans hearts and smiles before everyone left soon after.

It took Heejin and Hyunjin a couple of days to text you asking if you were free to head down to the dorm, which you didn’t deny, washing up before you left. When you arrived, you received hugs from all the girls, expressing their excitement and joy to have you back again,

"Come on, sit, we have a lot to talk about," They sat you on the couch while the rest stayed inside the living room, near the area doing their own things as they conversed with you.

"How long has it been? We haven’t seen you in a while. Has college been treating you that bad?" Haseul asked, attending to the food she was cooking as you hummed,

“It’s been a month or two, college has been getting busier and busier, sorry if I couldn't stop by as much," you answered, all of them turning to look at you with smiles,

"It’s alright, Y/n, it’s not your obligation to stay with us, school is more important," Kahei told you with a laugh bouncing out of your lips at their unintentional matching responses.

The rest of the afternoon you catch up with the girls on what’s been happening for the past month, while you will also share your experience in school with them.

When dinner time came, everyone ate together, laughing like one big family would, continuing the previous conversation that you’ve had.

You offered to wash their dishes after eating, but you knew they'd object, so you had one of them assist you instead, which Heejin did not refuse.

"So how have you been doing?" You asked Heejin, not having had a chance to ask earlier because you were talking to most of the girls in the living room, "We're alright, having a lot more fun, we could finally see orbits again," You smiled at her response, finding it touching that she would still be that cute and caring for her fans even if there were no cameras present.

Continuing to wash the dishes as you talked with Heejin, you felt arms wrap around your body pulling you a little away from the sink. Glancing back, you giggled when you met Hyunjin’s eyes, a small pout on her lips as she looked at you,

"Do you need anything?" You asked, turning back to see Heejin smiling at her partner, moving to give her a kiss on the cheek.

"Let’s go buy some bread," she whispered, making you laugh, "We just had dinner!" Hyunjin whined, shaking your torso as she argued, "It’s for later, obviously," You glanced at Heejin, raising your eyebrows at the smile she had,

"Your stock ran out?" you questioned, knowing how much the cat loved bread, there was bound to be an entire closet filled with it, "Oh, we were supposed to buy it yesterday, I forgot," you nodded your head, turning back to Hyunjin,

"We’ll go out later, rest first, then we’ll leave,"

Almost like a baby, the girl nodded, placing a kiss on Heejin’s cheek before sauntering to the living room, a content and happy smile on her face making you and Heejin laugh at her absurdity.

You grabbed your coat when you opened the door, announcing that the three of you were leaving, and you heard a few people answer before closing the door. Wearing your masks and leaving the apartment to get some bread, as you promised.

When you got to the convenience store a few minutes away from the dorm, Hyunjin went directly to the pastries, getting a few loaves of bread while you got a basket to get some food for the others. A few minutes later, they settled on getting one each instead,

"It’ll last us for about a week," you heard from Heejin, giggling at their antics when they discussed how they were going to budget it.

Paying for the food, you headed back to the dorm. On the way, the three of you decided to walk through the park, strolling quietly, as both of them walked on either side and hooked their arms around your arm.

Spotting a bench, you took a seat sitting quietly with the two while you observed the night sky. When you went out, it was always like this, filled with excitement and playful energy.

There were also times where you sat in silence, hanging out with your friends while you did nothing but relax with them, and as they rested their heads on your shoulder, you often wondered how you were this close to them.

That it was greater, to a certain degree, than the other members who also mean the same to you. You think it was because you’ve known Heejin longer, and you got along with Hyunjin, but it never really explained the weird sensations you would feel around them.

You closed your eyes and relished the company before you felt something different. Your whole body shivered, as you suddenly felt light headed. Heejin felt you shake, sitting up from her place and pulling both of you to your feet,

"Let’s go back, it’s getting cold," she said, both of them sensing your cold hand as they lowered their own to hold yours. A small smile spread on your face at their actions, already feeling warmer as you walked back to the dorms happily.

It was a week in when you started to feel strange, your body started to feel random pains. At first you thought nothing about it, thinking it might’ve been your body being tired from all the things that you were doing in school.

The day you finally paid attention to it was when you were walking down the hall with your friends, talking about your projects when you felt pain shoot up your ankle.

You let out a scream, dropping your books as you held onto the lockers. Your friends grew alarmed, moving to support you as they asked what was wrong,

"M-my ankle," you whimpered, closing your eyes as you held back the tears, feeling your friends loop your arm around their shoulders before they brought you to the clinic.

"Does it hurt here?" You gripped the bed in pain, nodding when the nurse pressed down on a particular spot. She stood up and got some ice and bandages, wrapping your ankle and placing the ice where she asked you to hold it,

"What happened?" The nurse looked at your friends who were watching from the side, "We were just talking when Y/n suddenly screamed and held onto the lockers,"

"Nothing happened while you were walking, you didn't trip or step on anything?" shook your head at the nurse who wrote it down in your letter, "Is your soulmate in any sports?" A blush seared on to your face, hearing your friends giggle before you answered, "I haven’t found mine yet,"

They hummed before finishing the letter, ripping it from the stack and handing it to you, "Then either you had an accident or it was your soulmate, hand this to your professor. Make sure to keep it on ice and make sure not to move too much. It should go away in about two to three weeks. "

You thanked the heavens that it was already after your classes, so with the help of your friends, they brought you back to your apartment, teasing you on the way about your soulmate, gushing at the thought of you being paired with one of the people in your school teams.

When you arrived home, they made sure to wait for your parents to arrive before they left, but, unfortunately for you, your family was even more annoying when you told them what could’ve caused your injury.

Having their own little party as you shuffled to your room where you sighed as you hit the sheets. Relaxing as you tried to find a comfortable position to lay down in that wouldn’t hurt your ankle too much, and as you laid down staring at the ceiling, you couldn’t help but think how you got your injury.

Could it be a sign that you finally found the person that was connected to you? The thought made your mind turn, thinking of all the possible things this could mean for the following days to come.

The next three weeks were not as bad. You didn’t experience any more problems with your ankle and nothing much happened during it.

Your friends stopped by often, handing you some notes and projects that you did while you were on bedrest, so you didn’t miss out on much. The only time you got back outside was when the girls invited you over to the dorm again for movie night, which you agreed to, of course.

You were helping some of the older members to prepare food when Heejin and Hyunjin both came out to the hallway from their room, greeting you excitedly as they hugged you and when they pulled away and went to the couch.

"What happened to them, unnie?" you wondered as you were asked by Haseul to wash the vegetables while the leader hummed absentmindedly, tasting the soup first before turning to answer you.

"Heejin accidentally missed her footing, she twisted her ankle, and since Hyunjin is her partner. You know how it goes," you furrowed your eyebrows at her explanation, looking down on your ankle as you faced the two on the couch. It could have been a coincidence, after all, they were already soulmates.

"Do you remember when it happened, unnie?" you asked again, the gears in your head once again turning as one side fought against the other.

"About two and a half to three weeks ago, why?" She turned to look at you as you gave her a smile, shaking your head and looking back at your work.

One side of your head wanted to believe that it could be possible, but the other side forced you to get it out of your head and see that none of the things that you were thinking were even remotely possible. Even if you made up different reasons and points, you would contradict yourself.

You felt something sting on your finger before you instinctively jerked your hand back, a yelp escaping your lips as you accidentally cut your fingers. Haseul went to check on you, holding your hand while everyone was busy with their own stuff. Then suddenly, hearing someone yelp, they left their rooms and checked to see who got hurt.

Heejin and Hyunjin were both watching on TV when they heard you yelp, standing up. They suddenly felt pain run up their arms. They looked at their hands and saw the cut, the red liquid running down as they froze in their places,

"Yah, Heejin, you’re bleeding!" Sooyoung called out, pulling both stunned girls to the sink where your eyes lingered over them. Watching as they were unresponsive while Sooyoung washed their hands.

Haseul pulled you to the table, cleaning your hands as she did her best to patch up your cut.

"This might hurt a little," she put some disinfectant, making you flinch at the burning sensation as the other two seemed to draw back from the sink.

Haseul put on a cover, making sure it wasn’t too tight before facing the kitchen where she just noticed her two other members being taken care of by Sooyoung. Glancing back at you, she had her eyebrows furrowed. Seeing the blank expression on your face as the two sat beside you.

Sooyoung also noticed your finger but didn’t say anything and just helped the two to cover it, though at the same time, when she applied disinfectant you flinched in your seat, grasping your finger as if you were the one who was sprayed with it.

The members watched in confusion, seeing the three of you seated with unreadable expressions while flinching from time to time.

When Sooyoung pulled away, she let you be as they gathered around you, all of them having the same thoughts before Hyejoo walked up and did the best she could to solve your problem.

She drew her hand back and swung it, punching your shoulder as the three of you groaned and whined at the punch, the members looked at you baffled, before Jiwoo was the next and pinched Heejin on the cheeks harshly, watching as you would hold your cheek in discomfort.

"Yah, we’re not play toys, what are you doing?" You whined when you saw how Jinsoul was about to flick one of you in the head. You already understood the situation, you just had trouble accepting the reality and possibility of it all, when Haseul noticed the lack of communication, she finished the rest of the food quickly and gave a look to the girls who watched the three of you in silence.

One look from the older girl and everyone understood, going back to their separate rooms to give you three the privacy you needed.

Once you saw the older’s room shut, you fiddled with your hands on your lap, paying attention to your cut that had been treated by the older girl, "I-uh, don’t know what to say," you wanted to break the awkward atmosphere, but it seemed like you made it worse, seeing as neither of the two were looking at you, still staring at the table.

"I can go away if you want me to?"

"I know you two are happy the way they are. I'm not sure what I'll do if I randomly join in. I don't want to ruin anything that you already have," you said, and you thought that if they didn't do or say anything, you would've left the dorm.

So you were glad when Heejin’s hand moved to yours, clasping your right hand in hers and intertwining your fingers together, "I don’t mind," Heejin whispered softly.

You glanced at the other girl as she stood up, moving around the table until she got to your side and held your other hand in hers, "We’ve always had this connection, right? If the world destined us like this, then I know you’re good enough for me,"

The joke made you and Heejin giggle before they leaned closer and rested their heads on your shoulder. It was like every other moment you shared. Soft and sweet, yet you enjoyed it all the while. It might’ve been the same as the other moments, but this particular one had one detail you wouldn’t forget.

They say that when the world was created, everything had a pair. But sitting there now has made you realize that not everything you believed in was true, and that just because everyone else had it doesn't mean you needed it as well, you couldn't determine it, how could you?

You were with the people to prove it.

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pink-imagines · 4 years ago

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snow day

request: Hi hi! Can I get a headcannon of needy Todoroki were Todoroki is in the ~mood~ 😏but his s/o is out shopping. But when they get back he’s all on them and pretty much attacking them w kisses and cuddles.

a/n: let’s just say for this fic’s sake covid never existed!! (stay safe ppl, try to stay at home as much as possible!) also hi! i’m back, i literally have no excuse now but i’ll be posting a bit more soon hopefully. (you can probably tell that i started writing this back in january)

warnings: mentions of something smutty that might go down but no smut and no other warnings!

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The snow couldn’t seem to stop falling. It had already been snowing for the past few days, but the weather didn’t change. It stayed the same and the snow piled on and on. You quite liked this kind of weather, somehow seeing people wrapped up in their scarfes with beanies dragged far over their ears made you feel warm - despite the cold weather. Today was your day off work, so you had a wonderful lazy morning with a bath and eating breakfast while watching TV. The only thing you could think of that would make this better was if Shoto would be here. He was, unlike you, out doing work. You remember teasing him lightly about it yesterday, that you got to spend the day at home while he had to be working out in the snow. In reality you worried that he’d become sick or catch a cold, even though you knew he stayed safe. Either way, you decided to treat yourself today with some shopping. It had been so long since you could actually go out to shop, so despite the cold you wanted to go outside.

You took the train to the mall and walked through the stores. The only thing you were planning on buying was a sweater, considering that you had been frequently stealing more and more of Shoto’s hoodies so you should probably get some of your own. When you saw the little jewlery shop you stopped dead in your tracks. Knowing that your wallet would start screaming if you walked in there you decided to keep it to window shopping. Earrnings, necklaces, bracelets... but most importantly rings. The memory of your mom straight up asking Shoto when he was planning on proposing came to mind. A smile grazed your lips, he had been so flustered that he choked on whatever he was eating. You had been trying to tell your mom off when he put a hand on your thigh and lightly brushed his thumb across your skin there. “No, it’s fine.. we’ll see in the future.”, he had said and had given your mom a soft smile. If it weren’t for the fact that people were around you would’ve started giggling, but you held yourself back and kept glancing over the rings. One in particular caught your eye, a simple silver one with a smaller diamond. You knew you couldn’t wear a lot of jewlery for your line of work so it seemed so perfect. For the sake of the memory that your brain decided to pull out from the dust, you took a picture of it and sent it to Shoto. -So... when’s it happening? :P You snickered to yourself and started walking again but your phone buzzed quicker than you expected. -You’re starting to sound like your mom A laugh escaped your lips at the message. However, it did surprise you that he could be texting you back so quickly since he was at work. -I was just joking.. aren’t you supposed to be working right now? The text bubble that indicated that he was typing appeared immediately. -Not on patrol today and I just finished my paperwork. I’m about to go into a meeting though -Is that a warning or a challenge? -Y/N. Do. Not. Yet another laughed made it’s way up your throat and you put your phone away again. He usually sounded cold over text, but you could always see right through it. Maybe that’s what four years spent together does to you.

The hours passed by as you walked around in the mall. It was actually quite pleasant, as not many people were there considering the fact that it was a weekday. As you were trying on clothing in yet another store you found a sweater that you really liked. It was an oversized black sweater that went down you your mid thigh and the collar was a bit wider, almost creating an off the shoulder look. You smiled at yourself in the mirror. Under the sweater you had the black bralette you had tried on moments before. Both of the items fit you perfectly and together it created a very cute look. Without thinking you sent a picture to Shoto, asking him if you should buy it. Thinking he probably had his phone off during the meeting, you put your phone down and changed back to your clothes. When you had just finished up putting your pants back on you looked at you phone again to see Shoto’s messages... you forgot his messages are connected to his laptop as well. -Y/N I told you I was in a meeting! -I mean you look very pretty, I like the sweater.. but if you’re going to send me pictures while I’m at work please put pants on. This was not a funny situation, is what you tried to tell yourself... but that didn’t stop you from smiling at the thought of his ears going red in the meeting room. -Sorry, I forgot! I’ll make it up to you by making you soba, okay? It took a while for him to answer so you went out of the dressing room and put away the things you weren’t going to buy. -... fine. I’ll be home after this meeting, so maybe around 5. -See you then ;) Were you being cheeky? Yes, but it wasn’t anything that he hadn’t dealt with before.

After making your purchase you looked at your phone and saw that the clock was nearing 4:45 pm, this meaning that it was time for you to go back home. You went over to the trainstation only to see that the train you were taking home was delayed by 20 minutes due to the snow. With a sigh you sat down on the nearest bench and took out your phone. Because of the 20 minutes it would take to arrive at your home station and the 5 minute walk home, you’d be home in about 50 minutes. Knowing Shoto, he’d probably already be home by now as he most likely managed to cut the meeting short - what was the meaning of staying longer when you had already gotten to the point? Even so, you decided to not call him just yet in case he actually still was in the meeting.

Time passed and as soon as the clock struck 5:00 pm you got a call. “Hey, are you okay? I’ve been waiting for a few and you’re still not home...”, Shoto’s voice was slightly distorted over the line due to your bad connection but you were still relieved to hear his voice. “The train got delayed, can you believe it?”, you sighed heavily. “Yes I can actually, it’s been snowing all day.”, he said calmly, “Do you need me to pick you up? I can be there in 10 minutes.” “No it’s fine, the train should be here in 5 and then I’ll be at the station in just 20 minutes.”, you stood up and looked by the track for the train. “Are you sure? The train’s probably gonna be packed.” “It’s fine, I have headphones with me so I won’t even notice.”, you smiled at his tries to come get you, “Besides I can practically see the train by now.” “Okay... then I’ll meet you at the station.”, he answered, as if it was nothing. “No, baby, you don’t have to do that. You’ve been at work all day just rest please?”, you reasoned. “I’ll see you in 20 minutes, sweetheart.”, he hung up on you. You were taken aback by the usage of the nickname, he barely ever called you by petnames. Before you could think to much of it the train arrived and you put in your earbuds and got on quickly to find a good seat.

The train wasn’t as packed as Shoto had thought. Though there was a crying child in your cart. The mother who frantically tried to calm her baby down gave you an apologetic smile. You made sure to look friendly back at her to make sure she understood that you didn’t mind. The poor woman was trying to keep her child from screaming while also balancing groceries and a stroller at the same time. “Do you need any help?”, you asked and took out your earbuds. “Please.”, the woman gave you a relieved look. You took her grocery bags and balanced them against some empty seats. Then you took the stroller from her hands so that she could properly care for her baby. “He’s just a bit hungry...”, she said and took out a bottle to give to the young boy. “... I’ve never understood how parents always know what their children want like that.”, you said mostly to yourself but the woman answered anyways. “I guess it’s an instinct.”, she said with a warm smile, “Thank you for your help. My husband’s working late so he couldn’t take care of the groceries tonight.” “Ah... I understand.”, you nodded. “Are you married?”, she asked and when she saw your shocked face she quickly apologized, “Sorry I didn’t mean to pry, I was just trying to make small talk.” “It’s alright.”, you stifled a laugh, “I’m actually not married... not yet at least, my mom’s been pressuring my boyfriend for a while now so who knows.”, you joked. “Oh, you have a boyfriend. Have you two been together for long?”, her demeanor had changed back to the kind and warm one from before. “A few years, actually.”, you nodded, “He’s a very sweet guy and-... that’s him actually.” Your phone started buzzing and Shoto’s caller-ID flashed up on the screen. His picture that you had chosen was of him holding a puppy husky that you had been thinking of adopting. Sadly, you ended up not doing that since you were both to busy to take care of a dog - let alone a puppy. You excused yourself to the woman next to you and answered. “Hi, babe, is everything okay?”, you asked. “Yeah, I just wanted to say that I’m by the station. Was the train packed?”, he spoke softly, which made it clear for you that he was in fact outside. “Not at all actually, it’s quite roomy. I told you that you didn’t have to wait for me though...”, you sighed. “I wanted to. It’s fine.”, he said and then added in a whisper, “Then I get to see you sooner.” Your face flushed up in all shades of pink as he said that. He was never usually this affectionate, but you couldn’t deny that you absolutely loved it. “You’re cute, Shoto.”, you chuckled. “Don’t laugh at me.”, you heard him huff slightly. “Sorry, sorry.”, you smiled, “I’ll be by the station in a few minutes if I’m lucky, okay? Thank you for waiting for me.” “No problem... see you soon.”, he said and hung up again. When you turned back to the woman sitting beside her you could tell she was holding back her excitement. “That was the sweetest conversation I’ve ever heard. That sounded like it was straight out of a story!”, she realized what she said and quickly apologized again, “Sorry! I didn’t mean to eavesdrop!” “It’s no problem, we all do it sometimes.”, you tried to control the blush that was creeping across your face but it was near impossible. “I bet he’ll propose to you soon.”, she said and looked back at her baby, “I hope he does.” “Thank you.”, you smiled and looked down at the baby, who was staring back up at you. You waved at the child and he let out a gurgling laugh that had your heart melting. Today was certainly a special day.

You and the woman just happened to get off by the same stop so you helped her get her grocery bags out of the cart. When you saw Shoto standing by himself you waved and called his name. He turned to you and smiled softly, almost longlingly. “He’s handsome too... wow, you’re lucky.”, she smiled to you, “Thank you for the help, miss.” “No problem!”, you smiled back and watch her walk away before turning your attention to the man walking towards you. “I haven’t seen you all day.”, he embraced you with a sigh. Hugs were normal for the two of you, but absolutely not in public. Your body stiffened in shock before settling in his arms and hugging him back. Eventually he let go of you and took a step back. “Who was that woman? Do I know her?”, he asked. “No, I just met her on the train. Let’s get home, it’s freezing out here!”, you said and took his arm in yours.

The two of you walked in silence, as you usually did, but there was one thing that was running around in your mind. “Do you ever think of having children?”, you asked out of the blue, your breath forming white clouds in the cold air. Shoto stopped in his tracks and looked at you. It wasn’t until then you had realized what you had said, maybe not directly but the question was floating around your heads. “Children, huh?”, Shoto took a deep breath. You peered up at him through your eyelashes, afraid that he’d look disgusted or even scared. He didn’t. His mind was somewhere else, you could tell by the far away look in his eyes. Shoto’s face was dusted pink but, just like yours, you couldn’t tell if it was because he was flustered or cold. “I’ve never thought about it, actually.”, he looked at you which made you look away, “Not against the thought of it though. Let’s talk it through some other time.” He said it so casually. As if this was obvious and not a huge step in a relationship. Then he just kept walking. If it wasn’t for your arm that was still wrapped around his, you would’ve forgotten to walk along with him. “Don’t be embarrased about it, please.”, he said suddenly, “It’s good to bring up these things.” “I just thought about it... you know... the woman on the train and everything...”, you muttered. “Sweetheart.”, there was the nickname again, “I told you not to be embarrased about it.” After a few years you’d think he wouldn’t be able to make you weak in the knees anymore. That was wrong. You hummed in response to what he said and leaned your head against his shoulder. There was an urge in you to feel a sudden intimacy between the two of you and that was the first thing that came to mind. “Are you cold?”, he asked. “Not extremely...”, you looked up at the clear sky, “... maybe it’s not the best time for cold soba though.” “It’s always a good time for cold soba.”, he answered, completely serious but you still laughed. You laughed because it sounded like him. You laughed because it would ease the excitement stuck in your stomach from what he had said before. You laughed because at that moment you felt so incredibly wonderful - and who wouldn’t laugh at that?

When you got home you made yourself a cup of tea while Shoto stuck to heating up by the radiator. “Are you sure you still want cold soba? We could always make warm soba.”, you suggested as you poured the hot water into your cup. “I say we make cold soba.”, Shoto shrugged as he kept his hands on the warm radiator. His nose was still red from the cold. “Then we make cold soba.”, you nodded.

After eating and cleaning up you sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. Since you usually sat with a bit of space in between the two of you, you did so. However, this time Shoto scooched closer to you and put your head on his shoulder, only to then wrap his arm around your shoulders. “Is this okay?”, he asked quietly to not disturb the show playing. You could care less about the show, your heart was beating loud enough for you to not even hear it. No words would come out of your mouth so you hummed as an answer to his question. He had been acting very lovingly the entire night, something that he didn’t always do. “Are you okay, Shoto?”, you asked suddenly, “Did something happen at work?” “Why do you ask?” “You just seem... more cuddly?”, you looked up at him, catching him staring but he didn’t look away. ��I just missed you then I guess.”, he said, “... and you sent me that picture and that wasn’t very fair.” He looked away and now he couldn’t blame the cold on his reddened face. That’s how you remembered your sweater that you had bought. “Right the sweater!”, you exclaimed, “Can I show you?” “Sure.”, he said and watched you get up, “You seem very excited about this sweater.” “Yes! And you should be too, because now I won’t be stealing yours anymore!”, you took your bag and walked over to the bathroom. “But I like it when you wear my clothes...” “Then...I won’t be stealing your clothes as often anymore!”, you smiled before closing the bathroom door behind you.

You walked out of the bathroom, dressed just like you were in the picture, and walked up to him. He looked over at you, looked you up and down, and then stood up. “What do you think?”, you smiled as he pulled you closer by your waist so that you could wrap your arms around his neck. “I like it more when you wear my clothes... but this is also very nice.”, he leaned down and kissed you quick, “Let’s go have that talk about having children...”, he whispered and started guiding you to the bedroom.

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littlemisslipbalm · 4 years ago

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Little Border Town Pt. II

Summary: Harry starts to find himself more and more drawn to the bookshop owner. She’s maybe not as annoying as he first thought. And maybe Harry isn’t the worst like she thought either. A little notebook, drinks, shoes, and a boat begin to show each other that.

AKA: Harry and Y/N are neighbors that fight all the time, the whole town wants to know when they’ll just fuck.

ello loves, part 2 is finally here pls let me know what you think!! barely proofread sorry... also i think theres gonna be quite a few parts to this because i keep not getting all i want to say said in each part. and im trying to keep the chunks relatively short. — also I made one direction lowkey exist bahaha

Word Count: 9.2k | Warnings: flirty fighting/banter, slowburn

Part 1

The next day Harry found himself walking into the bookshop next door without really thinking about it. He hadn’t seen Y/N again for his early morning run and he had his list for her of the Paul Simon albums he already had. They hadn’t had their windows or shades open last night either so it was the first night he didn’t give her a salute and she didn’t flip him off. The jostle in routine seemed a little weird to him so as he walked through the shop's door and the bell sounded, he thought the smile on his face was because he was well rested and unbothered by anything.

Y/N had slept in this morning. She couldn’t put her finger on it, but the beginning of Fall always put her in a cozy sleepy mood. She wanted to go to a pumpkin patch and watch a fire burn out in a fireplace. She wanted to listen to her halloween playlist and plan out an intricate costume with her friends. All of this was a wistful dream though. She had quickly learned that the little border town didn’t celebrate Halloween how they did in the States or any major cities. It was okay, at the end of the day, even if she was a little bummed about it. This was her new life and she would have to adapt to the new customs.

After she walked downstairs and unlocked the door, she went back over to her front counter. Yesterday, right when Harry had come in, she had found a booklet of Marie’s. It was leafed over to the point that all the pages were crinkled and dirtied from hand debris. Each page was filled with her loopy handwriting, all of it in French. She must have only liked blue pens because even if the type changed over different pages, the color was always blue. Each page was headed with a name, a customer’s name Y/N was starting to realize as she leafed through the pages. She sat back on the wooden stool she had gotten for behind the counter and propped the book in her hand. After the name of the customer there were extensive details on them. Not their purchases specifically, but their preferences, their personality, and just tidbits about any quirks they had or interesting things Marie had decided were of note.

She found many names that were now familiar to her after her few months of living in the little border town. There really weren't that many people to get to know and the tourists were starting to die down now that the school year was getting back in. After a few minutes of pouring over Monsieur Friedfrickson’s page, who lives across the street from her and runs the flower and gardening supplies shop, she flips to an even more familiar name’s page.

“Harry Styles.” The page had the name written out in strong tall letters. Marie had used a blue inky pen for his page, not a ballpoint. “Likes Music. Poetry. Love stories. Romance with a happy ending, but also likes the practical love too.” The interests are laid out plain and she purses her lips at the idea that Harry is interested in romance novels. She wondered what type of poetry he liked since Marie didn’t seem to think that had to be elaborated on. “He’s a special one,” it reads and Y/N scoffs to herself, really Marie? She reads on, “His heart is in the right place, but he’s got a mouth on him. Quick-witted and charming, but kind-hearted and sincere.” She pauses, and flicks the page back and forth, checking that it still reads Harry’s name when she gets back to it. Was she really the only one who found Harry vapid and annoying? Sure she had softened a little towards him since she had arrived, but they were by no means friends. “While seemingly perfect in every way, Harry is actually-” it reads and she mutters to herself, “Ok, now we’re getting somewhere.” “While seemingly perfect in every way, Harry is actually scared of his own shadow.” “This can’t be real!” She once again scoffs at the book and looks up to the ceiling like Marie is going to talk back to her from beyond. “His exterior persona is very strong, both physically and in his personality, but it seems like he’s just waiting for that right person that he can really be vulnerable with and let them into what he’s really thinking. He’s looking for his Angie.” Now she’s just confused. Who the fuck is Angie? She almost doesn’t finish reading the page because honestly it’s just making her mad, but there’s only a few more lines. “Lots of tattoos, why so many tattoos? Thinks he’s funnier than he is. Flamboyant Harry is best.” And beside that last sentence is a star. She tries to hold in her laughter. At least it wasn’t a complete page of praise for Harry.

Thinking back to her knowledge of Harry, she realizes that Marie must have known him for about three years. Maybe more if he had come to visit before moving there officially. She agreed with Marie that Harry had a lot of tattoos and that he thinks he’s funnier than he truly is, but she was yet to see flamboyant Harry. She knew he painted his nails and wore rings, as well as interesting clothes, but she wouldn’t say he was particularly flamboyant for any of that. That comment definitely piqued her interest. When would Marie have seen Harry where he was being flamboyant?

Her eyes scan over the page once more and realize that this book is only for the most current year. Marie re-did the customers' outlines every year. So this was this past year before Marie died. She wondered where the other books might be and if Harry’s outline had changed over time and also if her name was in the one from when she had visited. That would be interesting to read. It’s strange to read a dead person’s private musings. To her knowledge, no one else alive knew the contents of these pages and these pages seemed especially personal since they spoke of people’s lives and who they were at their core. Maybe that’s why she didn’t hear the chime of the door this morning when the first customer arrived.

Her eyes don’t shoot up from the page until two ringed hands enter her eye line on the counter. The tanned skin, with the gold and silver dazzling rings on each finger and the cross tattoo all register in her mind as her eyes go wide. She snaps the book shut when her eyes meet Harry’s almost ivy green eyes - they’re darker in the foggy fall light streaming through the window today. She hadn’t even turned on the lights yet in the store, the natural light being enough for her this morning. The book is clutched in her hands as Harry’s smile widens to a grin of amusement.

“What have you got there?”

There’s no cover on the book so he can’t make anything out about it. He assumes it’s some novel she’s embarrassed of and has chosen to slip the cover off of to keep anonymity of it. This assumption is why his tone is so teasing and why she grimaces at him in response. Her cheeks have also tinted themselves, she’s flustered that the man she had just been conversing about with the book was now in the store.

“None of your business.”

“I guess not.” He replies easily when she responds curtly and places the book out of sight somewhere under the countertop.

“Why are you here again?” She’s avoiding his eye contact now, feeling like she’s been caught doing something she shouldn’t have been even though it was perfectly within her right to read something that now belonged to her.

Harry’s smile falters with her followed curt reply. Annoyance settling in, Harry straightens up and removes his hands from the counter. The familiar feeling doesn’t exactly feel nice, but familiarity is better than discomfort. “You wanted a list of my Paul Simon records? So you could order me one I didn’t already have?”

She looks at him curiously as the conversation comes back to her from yesterday morning and she nods. That conversation was real. “Oh yeah, I said that.” She replies, still not looking at him. “Okay,” she says when he doesn’t move or do anything. Her eyes widen, silently asking him to get on with it.

His hands shove into his pockets, searching around for a list he apparently had made. They come out empty. He pats over his jacket pockets and feels nothing but his phone and wallet, no list. “Fuck,” he mutters beneath his breath. She scratches at her eyebrow and sits back on her stool, seeming like she might be waiting awhile. After a few more minutes and no produced list, she sighs. “Do you just want to go next door and grab it since you obviously forgot it?”

“I didn’t forget it…” His voice is low and he shoots a glare at her, the annoyance that had come back had now doubled.

“You did, but it’s okay if you can’t admit that-”

“It must have fallen out of my pocket!” He insists.

She rolls her eyes and stands up. Walking to the front door, she looks on the ground and then a little ways outside. “I don’t see it, just go back and get it. You probably left it in your boudoir, it’s fine.” Her tone is a little less condescending now and more understanding. She forgets stuff all the time and she really wasn’t trying to be rude when he first came in. He had just startled her is all.

He turns around to face her. Her body is now completely out in the open area of the front of the store. His head tilts and one of his loose curls flops over his forehead while he takes in her appearance. “Why do you do that?”

She wets her lips and steps closer to him, more on her way back to the counter than anything. “Do what?” She’s oblivious to what he’s taken note of.

“When you have a conversation in English you’ll swap in some words that are French. They’re easy words to figure out and you don’t do it a lot, but you’ve done it enough times for me to notice.”

“Oh...I don’t know. I prefer French to English. It’s so much sexier.” She walks closer to him and utters her next sentence as she brushes past his shoulder. His gaze follows her every movement. “Would you prefer a girl to whisper in your ear, “let’s go back to my bedroom” or “let’s go back to my boudoir.”?” Her French accent hangs in the air with the word and compared to the hard American accent she had employed for ‘bedroom’, ‘boudoir’ sounds far more dirty this time than before.

A shiver rolls down Harry’s spine, but he doesn’t let it show. She shrugs her shoulders, “I think the answer is clear.” He clears his throat in response and a smile grows on her face. “Don’t you agree, monsieur?” She leans her head into her hand now that she’s behind the counter and looks up at him sweetly. He knows she’s teasing him now, her smile more of a sultry smirk.

“Piccola diavola,” his Italian rolls off his tongue and she squints at his words. She knows “devil” but the first word troubles her - it just means little. Her Italian really wasn’t strong and it hadn’t improved that much since she’d been in the little border town. But she also wouldn’t give him the satisfaction of asking what he had said. Harry chuckles at her confusion and relaxes now that he feels the playing field has leveled once again.

“So your list… Do you want to go grab it? Or if you can just list it off the top of your head? As enthralling as your conversation skills are, I actually don’t have all day.” She trails off again, her questions lilting from her mouth after regaining some composure.

“I wasn’t the one teasing about taking someone up to their bedroom,” he huffs. Her face colors with crimson. While she had been teasing him, she didn’t want to be called out for it.

“Wasn’t teasing…”

“So it was a serious offer?” He inquires with a lop-sided grin, changing the meaning behind her words in one fellow swoop.

“That’s not what I was saying! Shut up and give me your list.” Now her blush was all over her face and neck, and she was totally and completely flustered by Harry. She glanced down at her hands that were fiddling with a pen and paper, ready to write his words down.

“I can either shut up or tell you my list. But it’s sadly one or the other, love.”

She groans and takes her free hand to run it over her face. “Just tell me what you already have, Harry. Please.”

“Okay, okay,” he chuckles and spreads out his hands in front of them both. He crosses back to the counter and leans on it once more. They are in close proximity once again, only the counter between them now and she can feel his hot breath fan over her softly. Smells of wintergreen gum, her favorite.

She glances up at him and their eyes hook together for a moment before she tears hers away to look back at the paper. He rattles off a good amount of Paul Simon’s albums and she nods approvingly as she scribbles the names down. She would have to look through his discography to find the ones Harry didn’t have and she probably could’ve made Harry do that and then give her that list, but she didn’t. It was too late now to do that as well, so she’d just have to live with her decision.

When he finishes, she glances at him once again. His eyes are very large. A detail that isn’t really important about him is seared in her mind. They’re big and they’re staring right at her. His pupils are almost as big as his irises, it was interesting. Her eyes shift under his gaze after a beat and she straightens up again. While they went over his list, she had indulged in the close proximity, the mingling of warm breath and brushed hands as she scribbled and he pondered. She nods a farewell, “I’ll let you know when I order next, but I won’t say what album you’ll get. It will be a surprise.”

“I wouldn’t expect anything else from you,” his smile snaps back to his face and he scratches absentmindedly at his side. He hesitates before exiting the store. “I have a question.”

“Don’t need my permission.”

He emits a half-laugh, half-scoff from his parted lips. “Wasn’t asking for it...How come you never go out?”

She stares at him curiously, her head tilting to the right. “How would you know I don’t get out?” She challenges him.

“There’s only one pub in this little town and I’m your next door neighbor. I know.” He’s insistent on being right.

She scoffs, but only in an attempt to cover up her embarrassment. Her skin had finally cooled from all the excitement that had happened earlier and she wasn’t in the mood to grow red once again. Today was the first day she had ever felt flustered by Harry. It was annoying, it made her feel out of control. She liked to go out well enough, maybe more than the average person. But she’d only been in the little border town for a few months and going out hadn’t been on the top of her list of things to do. Sure, it would be nice to go get a drink out in the town, but she didn’t really have anyone to go with. Meeting people wasn’t hard in the town, but there weren't many people who were her age and she hadn’t particularly clicked with anyone where she would want to go out on the town with them. It was embarrassing to face the fact that she wasn’t flourishing as much as she had hoped. She was happy, but being confronted with the truth that she hadn’t gone out yet dampened her belief in her success in the little border town.

“I - It’s not at the top of my list of priorities,” she stutters, her chin raising a little in indignance.

One of his shoulders shrugs and Harry makes a little face as if he was indifferent to her answer, even though she knew much better than that. Harry always wanted to get a reaction out of her, maybe that was all he gained from their interactions - entertainment. She didn’t know, but she didn’t feel like giving him the satisfaction and left it at that. His eyes meet hers again, his stare far more intense now. “Ciao, diavola.” He simpers, repeating the little nickname. It was far more sultry of a nickname than ‘Shrimp’ but she wasn’t going to complain. She rolls her eyes in response, the only correct one at that.

That night, she found herself feeling pulled to journey down to the pub. It was on the Italian side and like she had acknowledged to Harry, she hadn’t been. She wouldn’t admit to anyone, especially not Harry, that his question had been what had pushed her towards the establishment when night fell. Yet, here she was. Her pants were dark red silk that matched the black tank top with red embellishments that she wore over her chest - the only part of her it really covered. Her boots were a matching black with gold metal bits, they were knock-off horsebit Gucci shoes, the closest she could get to the real thing with her modest budget. She was having to be more frugal lately, after buying her car here in September, she had really seen how little money she truly had.

The heels of her boots clicked against the cobblestones as she stalked up to the front of the bar. There was happy chatter seeping out the open door, the warm but dimmed light also flooding out along with the sounds of people within. Taking a deep breath and fiddling with the waistband of her pants for a second, she made her way into the bar. Stepping off the deep end and making the plunge. She knew there was nothing to be afraid of, but after months of not going there, she felt a little sense of apprehension now.

The warmth was the most surprising bit of the bar that she felt when she stepped past the threshold. Some Italian song was buzzing below the words of the patrons and she smiled at the automatic welcome she felt upon entering.

At the tables, there was a mix of younger and older patrons. At the bar, there wasn’t much of anyone. The young bartender leans across the bar to talk to another man, who had dark brown wavy hair and a dark linen shirt on. He’s seated at the bar and his back is to her so she can’t make out anymore than that. She doesn’t notice the myriad of tattoos gracing the patron’s arm that rests casually on the bar as he laughs at something the bartender had said, just for him.

She smiles, thinking it’s a cute little flirtation between the two and hates that she has to go over to break it up. Her movement gets the bartender’s attention easily and has the patron glancing her way as well. The smile she had once had falters off of her face and her eyes go wide at the realization of who she has settled herself beside. She had left a seat open between her and the man, but now she wished she had chosen a spot across the bar and simply flagged down the bartender. Better yet, she wished she had stayed home. As her smile falls away, Harry’s only grows wider. He’s grinning down at her as he moves his whole body to face her.

“Ciao!” The bartender starters, not noticing her discomfort at seeing Harry. He begins to ask what she would like in Italian, but her eyes widen even further. He’s speaking far too fast for her and she blushed in embarrassment. In her fluster, she forgets to even try French and she just stares dumbfoundedly at the handsome man behind the bar, who’s now looking at her with great curiosity. Harry has watched the entire thing and chuckles behind his glass. She has no attention span left to allow her to even try and guess what he’s drinking.

He interjects for her, actually saving her any more embarrassment, surprisingly. “She doesn’t speak Italian. She’s from the French side and new in town, so she hasn’t been able to refine her Italian.” The bartender gives a smile and nod of understanding in her way and she wishes she knew what Harry had just said. Whatever it is makes the bartender switch to French for her and her jaw goes from being dropped back into a normal position.

“What can I get for you, mademoiselle?” He transitions smoothly and she smiles, his French accent sounding practically perfect. She’s recomposed herself, but Harry is still watching her intently, like a reality television show that he can’t wait for the trainwreck finale to occur on.

After she orders, the bartender gives her a wink and then walks off to get what he needs to begin preparing her drink. Harry slides over, eliminating the courteous one seat between them. Her eyes watch the movement and she refrains from the letting out the sigh festering in her chest. She really had hoped he would not be here tonight, at least that’s what she believed. She truly felt embarrassed that the night after Harry had accused her of never going out, he had seen her out. But it also was nice not to be sitting in the bar alone. It seemed that Harry had been sitting alone at the bar before she had come in, but she also wasn’t Harry and didn’t know how much enjoyment she would have gotten out of being alone.

“I see my words had some effect on you.” He says out of the corner of his mouth after running his tongue over the bottom of his lip. Her scoff once again dies in her throat because she knows he’s right and he knows it too. There is no being proud right now. He essentially caught her red handed.

“Thought I’d come out and see what all the fuss was about. I see you’re alone tonight, but I assume that’s how most nights go.”

“You should know by now that is simply not true.”

“Just because you leave with someone doesn’t mean you come with someone.”

“I guess…” He trails off.

She picks up when he doesn’t seem to have any more of a response. “How do you even meet people here? Isn’t it all locals?”

“Not always. Not all of the people here are locals tonight,” He scans the crowd. “She’s visiting...So is she...that whole group actually. Look French. So we’ve got a group from Nice tonight…” He looks a bit more. “Eh, that looks like it tonight, but still. It’s plenty.” He finishes with a smirk and she grimaces, understanding the meaning behind his words.

The bartender returns with her White Russian, which Harry had cocked his head at, but had kept his opinion to himself for once. Expecting Roman to return to their conversation, Harry turns his attention back to him, but he is only greeted with the side of his head because Roman is still staring at Y/N. He coos something to her in French, that Harry can’t pick up and his nostrils flare when she emits a giggle following their exchange. The two people he was last talking to were now ignoring him to talk to each other. How rude.

After another moment without their attention, he huffs loudly. Roman seems too entranced in Y/N to notice, but her eyes slide over to him. “Yes?” She inquires, albeit disdainfully.

Harry isn’t sure what to say to her now that he’s gained her attention. He was on his second drink and her stare has made his mind go blank. All he had wanted was for her to stop flirting with Roman so that she’d pay attention to him. But he hadn’t thought of his next step yet. He takes a sip of his beer to grant him a little more time and she rolls her eyes at his action. His mind rattles through possible things to say, but every single one is coming up as not good enough.

“I used to be in a band.”

Her head tilts and she swivels more to Harry. His comment is unexpected and rather intriguing. She had expected something annoying or rude. Truly she had just expected him to say “Nothing” once he had swallowed his drink so he could distract her from enjoying her night.

“You were in a band?” She asks incredulously, her voice pitching slightly higher than normal. While Harry was many things, including handsome, she just didn’t think he had the right persona to be in a band. He dressed like a grandfather most days and he tended to a little shoe shop, he didn’t come off as a guy who would enjoy traveling around performing. The constant praise would be on brand though, she conceded.

Harry nods and bites back his smile, knowing he had struck the perfect chord. “I was...it only took off in the UK but we were pretty popular.” He boasts.

“So what do you play?”

Harry’s eyes widen, expecting more of a question about the name of the band or something. “Well, it was, like, a boy band…” He says.

She was taking a sip of her drink and she contained her little laugh behind her glass. Another hum as she swallows the liquid that burns her throat a bit. “Oh. Interesting. So no instruments.”

“Well I can play a bit of guitar and piano!” He adds quickly, seeing her eyes shift away from him, like she thinks the conversation is over. “I was thinking of trying a solo thing, but then plans changed...”

“And now you’re here?”

He echoes her, affirming the question. “Now I’m here and I’m not leaving.”

“You don’t miss it then?”

“Didn’t say that. I miss it at times, but this is where my life took me and I’m happy to be here. Maybe happier than I ever was in the band.” His eyes stare at the liquid in his glass and he swirls it lightly, determined to study the way it moves as he ponders something quite personal to him. He never really talked about his past with anyone here. Saying he was in a band and retrospecting that time are two very different things to share with someone. She’s just watching him now, not trying to make a quip or bug him. His demeanor shows that’s not something he’s very interested in hearing right now.

She experimentally puts a finger on his knee when it seems that he’ll never raise his gaze from his glass. His eyes move down to the tiny pressure he feels and sees her painted nail poking in to him. His tongue darts across his lower lip as he raises his head to meet her eyes. He notices the sparkle in them, she finds amusement in the childish gesture and so does he.

“I do miss the stage though,” he admits, smiling more now. “Performing. It was like nothing else.” Instead of a sad state of mind, his look is far more wistful now and she actually feels the smile growing on her face.

“You’ll have to sing for me sometime, then.” She says resolutely after taking the last bit of her drink and then pushing the glass across the bar. Roman had wandered off, much to Harry’s pleasure, but now they both needed another round so she was looking for him.

Harry slides over a chair so that they’re sat side by side. He had originally done it to reach across her for a napkin, but then hadn’t retreated to his original seat after he was successful. They talk as they drink, but most of it seems to be flirtatious teasing even if neither of them recognize that fully. Harry just wanted her attention earlier and now he found that he wanted to keep talking to her all night. It was a Friday and usually he would be looking for someone to take home. The group of women at a table that he had observed were visitors would be a perfect place to start his quest, but that wasn’t on his mind. He liked watching the different shades of blush Y/N’s face kept turning as she drank more and how silly she was getting with each passing drink.

She was enjoying her time out, she had only gotten wine drunk in the confines of her little home since she’d been in the little border town. And that endeavour was all by herself. It was much more fun when you had someone to talk to, so joking around with Harry was a nice surprise. She no longer felt embarrassed about showing up after he had teased her for never going out earlier today. Now she felt empowered, like she could come to the bar whenever she pleased. He was nicer than she had realized. His hand was quick to encircle her back respectfully when she laughed a little too hard at a joke and began to tip off her stool. His smile was genuine and his eyes didn’t flit over her body more than once. His jokes were funnier than she had first thought or maybe that was just the alcohol clouding her mind, that one she wasn’t sure about. But, truthfully, Harry was exceeding expectations tonight and being a stand up human being for once, in her eyes.

A couple at the end of the bar, locals, watched on as the shoemaker and the bookkeeper threw back their heads in boisterous laughter and placed their hands on each other chastely. The older women smiled to themselves as Y/N smacked Harry’s bicep after an especially cheeky joke he told her. They were going to have a field day with this interaction once they told their friends tomorrow morning.

After drink three, she definitely felt drunk. Not completely out of it and can’t walk drunk, but I haven’t drank anything stronger than wine in months so three cocktails are kind of hitting me drunk. And because of that buzz that’s enclosed her mind and body, it makes perfect sense to her that Harry’s hand is resting casually on her knee as they talk. It also makes perfect sense to her to cross her legs, causing two things to happen. Harry’s hand shifts up further on her thigh and her boot is now dangling right next to Harry’s shin. The fabric of his cream linen trousers look especially soft and so the next logical move in her mind is to rub her foot against the fabric. She hooks around her foot easily and the patent leather of her shoe slips softly against the pant leg that flows over Harry’s calf.

He hums lowly at the feeling, but makes no other notion to acknowledge what she is doing. After the hum he gets back to the story he’s telling her about his boat. She had been extremely interested in the boat initially, but not she was transfixed on the feeling of the fabric slipping past her boot. When he shifts his leg, absentmindedly or not, she almost squeaks because this movement has Harry’s foot brushing around her ankle. The footsy was occurring without any acknowledgement of it besides small sounds the two had made in their chests. No knowing looks, just the presence of each other’s bodies against one another.

He had switched to a Manhattan after his second beer for some reason that she didn’t ask, but he was enjoying it nonetheless. When she slipped her foot against his calf, it had sent a spark of electricity from the point of contact up to his alcohol muddled head. It felt nice so he went with it.

Around midnight the two of them were practically in each other’s laps, nursing their fourth round. Brains a million miles away while their glassy eyes stared at each other. Harry’s arm nestled around her waist while hers played with the stir stick in his glass. Their heads inches away, closer than they’d ever been before.

Somehow they decided they should walk home about then. Maybe Harry had checked his phone and decided he was done. Maybe she had glanced at the clock above the bar and realized she needed to go to bed. Either way, they slammed down the last bits of their drinks and stumbled into the street. With only each other to hold them up, they had some trouble gaining their balance. They could walk just fine if they wanted to be serious, but Harry kept trying to step literally on her toes and she kept throwing all her weight into his side. Both of their actions would cause them to stumble one way or another along the empty streets. Their blurred minds thankfully didn’t get them lost, but the travel time back to their places was far greater than the travel time to the bar initially.

Finally arriving at the border of Italy and France, their shops and homes, she stared up at Harry under the glow of the streetlamp across the street. His hair looked more dark brown than his usual caramel chestnut in the light. His linen outfit billowed across his pectorals that were exposed. A tan golden color that he seemed to maintain from his frequent runs and trips on his boat. His jaw had a bit more stubble on it now, his morning shave no longer sleek on his skin. His mustache was still the most prominent bit of facial hair he had and she wondered what he might look like without it. She also thought if she’d ever kissed a man with a mustache, her mind was pretty sure she hadn’t.

As she stared, she moved from his side and took a step closer to her door. His hand reached out and grabbed her wrist, stopping her and bringing her attention to his eyes. He dropped her hand and stepped closer to her. They had been laughing about some weird encounter she had in Nice the other week. But now their laughter had faded out, the conversation all but forgotten.

“Hi.” She says meekly.

“Hi,” Harry laughs.

“I had fun tonight,” she muses and takes a step forward. She began swinging her arms back and forth, rocking on her feet. She felt antsy now that it was so quiet. The silence made her realize it was really just her and Harry together right now. Which wasn’t unusual, they had been alone together plenty of times. Maybe it was the time of night, but it felt far more intimate to her this time which made her squirm a little. Why was she nervous with Harry right now?

Harry nods and laughs again at her actions. “Yeah, you’re not so bad.”

Neither of them realized the proximity of their bodies until her hand swung a little higher and hit Harry’s hip bone. “Oh! Sorry!” She moves to take a step back, but Harry grabs her hand once again and tugs her even closer. Bringing them chest to chest under the lamp light. Her eyes flicker between where their bodies touch and Harry’s face. He’s looking down at her sweetly, gently. She feels safe with the way he’s looking at her. The warmth radiating from him was a nice contrast to the dark cold of night. The open expanse of skin that lived between the two sides of his mostly unbuttoned shirt seemed to have the most heat coming off of it. He had a jade cross that hung between the two muscles and she almost reached out to play with it. If it hadn’t been so dark and she hadn’t been so inebriated she would have realized the color matched his eyes almost exactly.

He’s not quite sure what he’s doing, but for some reason it feels like he might kiss her. The mood that was set by their surroundings made it sound right. Romantic even. Her lips look precious too, plump and puckered, flushed from alcohol and the brisk night air. They look a little glossy too from the last time she had wet them. He wanted to feel them for himself. His head ducks to move his lips to touch hers.

Upon registering his movement, she moves her hand from his grasp and places it on his chest, causing him to take a small step back.

“I think...I think this should be goodnight, Harry.” She breathes out. She’s trying to clear her mind enough to have conviction in her decision.

After a little intake of air, less than a gasp, Harry agrees, running a hand through his hair, “Yeah, you’re probably right.”

Her hand slips from his warm chest, immediately curling in on itself to maintain the warmth his body had just provided. She watches her tendons in her hand ripple before looking back at Harry with heavy eyes. He doesn’t seem to want to make eye contact with her, but she’s determined to leave on a good note.

“Thank you, Harry.” He looks up from beneath his lashes at his name, like a shy toddler. “You gave me the push to face a fear of mine.” With her final words she crosses the little distance between them once again and places a chaste kiss to his cheek. Immediately, his cheek flushes and she can feel the heat beneath her lips, as well as the light prickle of his stubble. Harry swallows, causing his Adam's apple to bob quickly, at the contact. His senses get overloaded with the sweet kiss and the smell of her perfume. It all swims through his consciousness.

She smiles as she pulls away and then turns to let herself into her place without another word. Once unlocked, she gives one last glance to Harry who’s also busying himself with opening his door. She doesn’t see that his free hand is caressing over his cheek where her lips had just been.

The next day, she woke up and groaned feeling the stiffness in her body. Especially her head. Oh god, her head. It was like she was back in college, but worse because she wasn’t as young. At least she didn’t have to roll out of bed for an 8 am lecture. For that, she was thankful. Still, the pounding needed to stop or subside at least. Grumbling, she threw her legs off the side of her bed, the fuzzy socks she had slipped on in her drunken stupor settled on the hardwood. She dragged her body to her window and raised the shade. Her window was fogged from the difference in temperature outside and in her room. Kneeling down, she began to pull open the window, in need of the cool fresh air on her clammy skin. Three drinks, or was it four? She couldn’t remember, either way, it was too many.

Her eyes glanced around the view of the window. It wasn’t much since it was so close to the building right next door. Peaking up, she could see the already clouded sky. To the left she could see the street and to the right was more buildings. The scene most easily accessible was the window right across from her. The shade was mostly closed, a little bit of the floor could be seen where Harry hadn’t lowered it completely. It was just the same hardwood as what she sat on staring back at her. She sat there, breathing in the crisp morning air. After a night of drinking, she usually woke up rather early, today was no different.

It dawned on her, far too slowly, that a pair of feet had entered the plain hardwood scene she had been staring at outside her window. A tiny stage now filled with two matching characters. The pair of feet were tanned and large. Little tattoos seemed to be sprinkled both on the toes and the ankles of the feet. She couldn’t read them even if she tried. But upon realizing what these feet might be doing, she had been discouraged from staring any longer. Still, her brain was foggy and her body was not nearly quick enough to hide her from view as the owner of the feet did something to open his shade as well. Then, once again, like deja vu, she was staring at her naked neighbor. Thankfully, this time, he had briefs adorning his hips to keep covering the part of him that would keep her up for weeks trying to forget again. The briefs were, just that. Brief. Low on the hips and barely touching his thighs, it seemed they really only existed to keep that one appendage covered. Still, she had to tear her eyes away from the lower half of his body and let the embarrassment wash over her when she met his eyes.

The knowing smirk of his has him nibbling at the inside of his cheek. She had been checking him out. It was a nice confidence boost after last night. The awkwardness of her stopping him from kissing her had him spiraling in his mind when he went to bed. He didn’t know why he had even tried to kiss her in the first place, probably just because he was drunk. Yeah, he was drunk and feeling needy on a friday night. That’s what it was and she had been there.

He’d have to thank her today for putting a stop to that colossal mistake. They were barely just friends, he hated to think what would happen if he’d done something so reckless as to kiss her out of the blue. Still, he couldn’t shake the thought in the back of his mind that he had gotten the vibe from somewhere. Why else would his drunken mind tell him to kiss her under the glow of the lamp light. He thought back to the bar and what they had talked about. He wouldn’t categorize it as overly flirty. He thought back to their physical interactions at the bar, okay, maybe his hand on her thigh and her playing with his drink was a little flirtatious. But that could be boiled down to him being close to hear her in the bar and her idle fingers wanting something to do while she was drunk. The footsy, though. He wasn’t sure if he could explain that one away. Instead, he would choose to ignore it. If he didn’t think about it, did it actually happen? Was it something he had to worry about? Not in his mind.

Returning his focus to the girl in the window across from him, his smirk was now fully fleshed out on his face. She was still sitting on her knees as Harry looked down at her and if they were in the same room this might have seemed like a rather compromising position. Her cheeks were still red, noticing the difference in height, she clambered to her feet.

“G’morning,” Harry’s voice is groggy and deep. Scratchy almost from the alcohol he had drank last night. It rings through her ears lowly and seems to have her blushing even more. It’s a different feeling than how his voice used to make her feel.

“Hey,” She clears her throat before responding, not wanting her morning voice to crack in front of Harry. Usually she would talk to herself a bit or sing along to her music before going downstairs, not wanting her first customers to hear her as if she just woke up. For some reason, she makes a little wave along with her greeting, feeling especially awkward at this moment. Harry chuckles and repeats her motion. His large hands mimicking the same daunting motion makes her laugh and releases some of the nervous energy she had been holding in her body.

“Fancy seeing you here,” he openly flirts, placing one hand on his naked torso and the other against the frame of the window, leaning towards her. His movement flexes just about every muscle in his body and she keeps her eyes trained on his face, determined not to be caught gawking once more.

A roll of her eyes and she’s back to staring straight into his green ones that he’s still blinking awake. “It’s almost like we’re neighbors.”

He scrunches his nose at her deadpan. “You’re no fun,” he mutters.

She sighs, “I’m fucking hungover after last night…” and runs a hand through her tousled hair.

Her foot rests itself over her other, causing her hip to just out slightly. The movement of her body that accentuated her curves and her words have Harry blushing now. The red flowers at the center of his chest and begins to spread up his neck and cheeks. He’s once again presented with the almost kiss last night.

“Big night out for you,” he laughs, “I’ll admit I don’t usually drink that much, bit of a lightweight myself.”

She only hums in response, her fingers beginning to twiddle with the hem of her t-shirt. It reminds her of what she is precisely dressed in. The big t-shirt and tiny pajama shorts that Harry can’t even see are the only things on her body besides the socks on her feet. She glances down at her legs and takes in the expanse of fleshy skin that is showing just below the shirt. Harry’s eyes follow hers and admires the skin there, wondering what it would feel like underneath his big hands.

“I should probably start getting ready for the day,” She says finally, shaking herself from the random thoughts flitting around her mind about bare thighs and the man across from her. “Are you open today?”

Harry emits a noise from the back of his throat at her question. He draws his arm back from the window and stands up straight. His head tilts as he thinks about her question, his mind still muddled this morning.

“Er..no, actually. I was planning on going out on the boat today, switching my closed day to today instead of tomorrow. Why?”

“I’m in need of shoe repair,” she smiles, her eyes catching the glimmer of the sun starting to peak out. Harry swears it’s her eyes genuinely sparkling on their own accord. “But if you’re out today, it can wait.” She begins to walk away from the window to go to another room in her apartment.

“No!” Harry steps forward, but is restricted by the screen, which keeps him from falling out of his window. She swivels around, looking at him curiously. “I can - you can just come over. I’ll fix it up for you before I head out.”

“Really?” She’s truly surprised that Harry would do such a nice thing for her. She knew they were getting along better, but for him to open shop just for her repair seemed overly nice.

“I mean,” and Harry’s once again blushing under her gaze and he’s hoping she can’t see it. “What are neighbors for?”

“I guess,” she’s still unsure. He seems like he’s nervous, his body tenses and one of his hands twisted in his curls. Harry’s so weird. “Thanks.”

She jogs the short distance from her front door to Harry’s once she’s ready. The pair of deep teal almost navy loafers she needed new soles in - she was pretty sure - in hand. A red pinstripe blouse half buttoned falling over her figure perfectly, hugging the right spots and flowing over the others. She’s in white jeans today that are flared slightly but also cropped. As it gets closer to Halloween she keeps having to remind herself not to dress festive and it’s a struggle everyday.

When she reaches the door, it doesn’t open. The cream door doesn’t budge as she tempts the handle with her free hand. She looks between the handle and the inside of the shop. Her eyes search for Harry’s figure. She had been inside his shop only a handful of times, never for a repair before. Maybe less than a handful, once to check it out and once again when she thought she needed a new pair of shoes and then decided against it. Oh, and that one time she went over to yell at him about something. Maybe the planters, maybe the shade, she couldn’t remember anymore.

Now that she thought about it, she had been in the bookshop once more. Two and a half years ago when she had visited the little border town for the first time. It was a little fuzzy for a memory, but she was sure she had at least peaked into the shoe shop after her lengthy visit with Marie the second day there. It looked just as it did now, maybe it used to be a little more vibrant, but she couldn’t be sure. She remembered an older man in the shop greeting her in Italian and her offering her sad ‘Ciao’. Back then she was even worse at Italian. He had looked at her with kind eyes and a sweet smile. It was a similar lopsided grin that she had now grown accustomed to on another man’s face. After beckoning her over to him the old man had turned away from her and shouted into the back of the store in quick Italian. It blew over her head completely. There must have been someone in the back of the shop who he had talked to. She was sure of it, because after she had perused the cute boots and shoes he kept, she saw a swish of hair coming around the counter. It was just as she was turning around to exit the shop, after she had bid farewell to the man she now connected as Joe. Whoever it was had long hair and was tall, slinking out into the main shop floor. The mysterious stranger was whoever Joe had shouted to in the back.

Y/N wasn’t the quickest when it came to timelines and how people could change over time. She didn’t connect the year she had visited with the year of someone else's arrival or the same chestnut waves cascading around someone’s face, just now much shorter. It made perfect sense who would be in the back of the store, but for some reason the idea of time and hair length were standing in this girl’s way. Oh well, maybe Harry would spell it out to her someday.

Harry finally rounds the counter that separated the back room to the front. The shoe shop was set up a little different from the bookstore. Her counter was right when you came in while Harry’s was about halfway through the shop. He shakes his head and laughs at her expression. The sound brings her out of her memory as well as a grimace on her face.

“Sorry, I was a million years away.”

“I’m pretty sure it’s ‘a million miles away’, love.” Harry continues chuckling while correcting the girl in front of him.

She holds up her pair of shoes, ignoring his teasing. “Fix my shoes, shoe man.”

His smile drops and he walks back from the door. His feet taking back steps as he beckons her into the interior of the shop. When they reach the corner, he takes the shoes from her hands and places them between their bodies. The teal loafers stare up at them. Harry inspects them, a serious expression falling over his features. His brows scrunch together slightly, the wrinkles in his forehead growing more prominent as he examines the shoes. Large hands reach out and begin to finger over the patent leather on the top and the leather soles. After a few minutes of silent deliberation, he places down one of the shoes and then holds the other up as if to showcase it.

“These,” he juts out the shoe in his hand, “need new soles. What did you do to ‘em?”

“I wear them a lot.” She insists while Harry looks on quizzically.

“I’ve never seen you wear these.”

Her brow quirks at his comment. “I wore them a lot before I got here,” she corrects. “They’ve been feeling wonky every time I try to wear them, must be because they need new soles.”

Harry nods, now satisfied with her answer. He hums, regarding the teal shoe in his hand once again. “Alright.”

She looks at him confused once again. “Alright what? Can you fix them?” What does he mean by ‘Alright’? “I’ve honestly missed wearing them these past few months.”

Harry bites his tongue, a quip ready to be voiced. He’d gotten so used to fighting with her, he was confused how it had slipped away all so easily. His fear of them not talking if they stopped fighting didn’t seem to come to fruition so he could rest easy on that front. But now he was going to have to retrain his brain not to be rude after every comment Y/N made.

“Yeah, of course.” He sighs, placing the shoe next to its mate and then turning his face to her. She had been chewing on her bottom lip, actually worried for her shoes. They really were her favorites. She’d had them forever and it would be heartbreaking if they had to be thrown out. If she couldn’t wear them though she was almost sure she’d just let them collect dust in her closet rather than dispose of them if it really came down to it.

“But it’s like a good amount of my day to replace soles…”

Her face falls, but she tries to hide it. She knew Harry was doing a favor by taking a look right now. If he could fix them it didn’t matter when he did it. What he says next though truly throws her off. No normal enemy-ship turned somewhat friendship overnight would engage in what Harry was about to propose. If any such relationship other than her and Harry actually existed.

“Do you want to come out on my boat today?” His brow arches, his lips in a soft smile, he’s being genuine.

“Why would I do that?” Her brows raise along with her voice, taken off guard by his suggestion.

“More fun waiting for me to fix your shoes on a boat than in your shop.” He says simply before taking the shoes and placing them in a little cubby hole behind the counter for safe keeping. “Trust me, you’ll love it.” Her expression doesn’t change. “Just say yes,” He pleads now.

She sighs, “Fine.” All of the reasons not to go out on Harry’s boat are at the forefront of her mind, but she still finds herself saying yes easily. His pleading really wasn’t necessary to get her to agree. The bookstore could live with being closed today, it wasn’t going to hurt anyone.

#harry styles fanfic #harry styles fan fic #harry styles x y/n #harry styles x you #harry styles x reader #harry styles fluff #harry styles fan fiction #harry styles angst #harry styles smut #eventually both of those will bop up #harry styles fanfiction #harry styles oneshot #harry styles one shot #harry styles imagine #feedback pls ❤️#me putting this uo at 12:30 am oops

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spidernerdsblog · 4 years ago

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🎄First Times🎄

A/N : This is an extra for my first ever series I Forgot That You Existed. Feedback and suggestions are always welcome.

Pairing : Dad! Tom Holland x Reader

Summary : Your and Tom's first Christmas with your baby girl.

Warnings : fluff

There's something about first times. The first time riding a bicycle, first love, going on your first date, first kiss. There's an unknown excitement in it, a thrill, a feeling of adventure. Those first times will always be special. Just like your first Christmas with your baby girl.

After 3 years of marriage you and Tom are proud parents of your one and only daughter Vienna. She was the apple of your eye after all she's your first born. The first time you got to know that you were pregnant was during one of your recording sessions when you suddenly felt nauseous and had to run to the bathroom to throw up. You knew this wasn't mere food poisoning from your past experience and to be honest you and Tom had been trying for a baby for quite some time after you finally decided that you are ready to embrace motherhood again.

You were rather thrilled than scared this time while you took the test and seeing the two pink lines made your heart swell as a few tears of joy slipped your eyes. When Tom returned home you just ran into his arms to reveal the news that you were expecting and joy knew no bounds for him. He immediately lifted you up and spinned you around in the living room in excitement.

The first time you went for your check up and saw your baby girl on the monitor Tom was literally sobbing. You were being very careful this time. During the last trimester Tom didn't want to leave your side at all. You had to literally throw him out of the house (pun intended) to go for his shoots.

You couldn't believe how time flew so fast that the little human you both brought to this earth is almost a year old now. It felt like yesterday you brought her from the hospital wrapped in a blanket in your arms and now she crawls around the house as well as has learnt to stand on her little feet. You never get tired of listening to her continuous babbles with some broken words she has learnt eventually.

And not to be surprised her first word was obviously ‘Dada’ ofcourse she was daddy's girl because the way Tom has spoiled her rotten since the day she was born you really are gonna have a hard time in future saying no to her and hearing that Tom went on a shopping spree that day, if he could he would have bought the whole toy shop you thought.

Christmas was around the corner and everyone was in their festive mood. You were in the kitchen baking cookies when your husband came down the stairs hastily.

"Honey where is my Christmas jumper?" he asks from across the living room.

"Tom, what is your obsession with that old jumper? Now even the jumper also says let me go Thomas." You joke from the kitchen. Tom huffs rolling his eyes.

"That jumper carries a lot of sentimental value for me. C'mon now tell me where is it?" he whines.

"It's in the left bottom shelf of the cupboard." You yell from the kitchen.

"I already looked there."

"Then look hard it's there only." Sometimes you really feel that you are actually looking after two babies.

Tom ran upstairs again to your bedroom where your 12 months old daughter was sleeping peacefully. He searched through the cupboard and finally found his jumper but the noise he made while doing it woke Vienna up. Tom turned to see his little princess sitting up on the bed with sleepy eyes.

"Oh did I wake you up bubs? So sorry peanut. Daddy was looking for his jumper." He went and sat beside her on the bed. She instantly got up on his lap, her little hands clutching onto his t-shirt as support and standing up. Tom forgot about everything and began playing with her, her little giggles making his heart melt. After a while she started to get a little fussy and Tom knew that his baby girl was hungry.

"I know baby it's time for you to have some brekkie, let's see what mommy is doing eh."

"Look who’s up." Tom announces cheerfully walking down the stairs. You turned around and your face instantly lit up seeing your morning sunshine resting her head on her daddy's shoulder suckling her thumb.

"Aww you are up my little pumpkin wait a moment mommy is almost done" Tom strolled around the house with her. He went and stood near the glass doors overlooking his snow covered lawn.

"Look at that peanut, it's snowing isn't it beautiful." He cooed, rocking her gently in his arms making her giggle. Tom was about to slide the door open to the lawn to take her out.

"Tom it's freezing outside, V isn't wearing enough warm clothes. She will catch a cold" You stopped him.

"Your mommy is way too paranoid." Tom says rolling his eyes dramatically looking at your daughter.

"I can hear you." You say in a sing-song manner from the kitchen. Tom makes his way to you in the kitchen.

"Here I can do the rest of the batch" he offers, taking the tray from your hand."My little princess needs to be fed first." He says and you take Vienna from his arms. Tom continued with preparing the rest of the batch of cookies as you fed your daughter.

Later in the evening you were busy decorating the christmas tree with Tom when you noticed Vienna playing and tugging on to some wires. You panicked out of your motherly instinct.

"Baby no don't touch it, you'll get hurt." You came rushing, taking away the lights from her small hands. She stared at you with her doe eyes for a while before crawling away to get the other decorating stuff from the box.

"God, she's such an active baby, never sits in one place." You shake your head smiling.

"Well she's my daughter." Tom says proudly.

"Okay Billy Elliot, now go and put Billy Elliot Jr in the crib or else she will not let us set up the tree." Tom did as you said as he placed Vienna in the crib when your attention went to the lights you were holding in your hands and you frowned.

"Tom, why did you bring the bigger lights?"

"Why what's the problem with the big one?" He asks casually.

"Tom the big ones are for the lawn and the small ones are for the tree. It has always been like that." you state in disappointment.

"For a change let's put the big ones on the tree this year." He suggests.

"No way! it will look odd." you say annoyed.

"Gosh you're such a control freak." he huffs.

"No I'm not, it's just my tastes are better than yours." You retort. Soon you both began arguing and seeing the tension between her parents Vienna started crying. Both of you stopped arguing as your full attention turned to your one year old and you both felt guilty of arguing in front of her.

"Aww baby did we scare you? We are so sorry honey." You rushed to her picking her in your arms, rocking her gently pacifying her. She stopped crying after sometime. You sat down on the couch with Tom beside you.

"We shouldn’t have fought like that on such a petty issue I’m sorry I over reacted." You felt sorry.

"No it’s my fault that I messed up the lights, I’m sorry Y/N" Tom apologises

"Hey it’s ok we can put the big ones this year." Tom and you leaned in for a reconciliation kiss but was interrupted by your little munchkin’s hand as if she didn’t want you to kiss Tom.

"Someone seems to be a little possessive." You pout scrunching your nose.

"Well what can I say my little girl loves her dad more, isn’t it princess?" He boops her nose gently to which she giggles.

"Don’t flatter yourself mister." you snicker.

"Aww don’t get disheartened, love." you slap his chest playfully.

"Shut up and do the rest of the decoration I need to put her to sleep, it’s almost her nap time."

"Okay mam." You took Vienna with you to the bedroom to put her to sleep while Tom carried on with the rest of the decorations. After finishing he went upstairs to call you for watching a movie together.

"Hey Y/N" Tom popped his head through the door.

"Shh!" You hush him immediately. "She just fell asleep". You whisper.

"Sorry." He mouths. I have set up everything. He whispers.

"Okay I’ll be down in a minute." You whisper back. You went down to the living room to find two cups of tea and snacks kept on the coffee table while Tom was lounging on the couch busy choosing a christmas movie to watch for tonight. You went and sat on the couch snuggling close to him resting your head on his broad chest, he smiled wrapping his arm around you. Even though you were totally enjoying parenthood, you also cherished these alone times with your husband. Just two of you cuddled close into each other’s warm embrace. The intimacy of the moment is so soothing and relaxing after a long day. You wondered what you did to get this perfect man as your husband with whom you brought an angel in your lives. You felt you have everything you could have asked for and you are grateful. Tom noticed you lost in deep thought.

"What’s going on in this little mind?" He taps on your head lightly.

"Just can't imagine she's already one. Soon she will go to school then college and a few years later she might bring a boy for the Christmas Dinner to meet with us and then get married and have her own children" you went on as Tom perked up.

"Woah woah slow down, love. You are going way too fast forward. And moreover she isn't dating until she turns 30." He says like a protective father, you let out an airy laugh.

"Look now who's been paranoid huh?" you raise a sly brow.

"Well you know there’s a lot of no good sons of bit.."

"Uh uh language." You interrupt.

"Sons of butterflies out there." He corrected his dialogue as you both chuckle softly turning your attention back to the movie playing in front of you.

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Taglist in bio.

#tom holland #tom holland one shot #tom holland x reader #tom holland fluff #tom holland imagines #tom holland x you #tom holland x y/n #dad!tom #christmas

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guesst · 4 years ago

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some of the best fantasy au fics for bnha that i've read

i decided to make a fic rec list of one of my favourite aus/fusions. mostly midoriya-centric, there are some crossovers (with hp), and a lot of different ways in which the authors have taken them - so it could be Quirks, ghosts, outright fantasy aus, spirits, witches etc etc. there isn't a specific order and there aren't a tonne (these are the ones i could find buried in my bookmarks lol), but the ones on the list are all really well written i love them.

i've tried adding relevant information, the summary (shortened if it's pretty long) and just. adding some random tags that may be important. not all of them though. obviously this is not a complete list and there will most definitely be more fics out there, if there are some really good fics that you know that aren't on this list, feel free to tell me, i'd love to read them!!!

i hope someone enjoys these!

Faith Becomes You by SugaSuga

oneshot | gen dfo, quirkless midoriya summary 'There's a tiny shrine in Musutafu that's overgrown with kudzu vines between Izuku's apartment and his middle-school. There may very well still be a god inside it. There may be nothing but the myth of a man from when Quirks were first emerging. Izuku hides in its walls for a while and ends up tending to the forgotten shrine. All good deeds have their impact, don't they?'

Of Mythos and Men by Oceanbreeze7

oneshot | gen spirit animal au, kinda summary (shortened) 'When he was young, Midoriya always wondered what his mythos would be. The matching half to his quirk, the ancestry of its power. Mythos were strange things, not linked genetically like quirks seemed to be. [...] Midoriya hadn't met his mythos. Even in UA. (In his dreams, something called to him, 'Chase me!')'

what a lion cannot manage by LadyLiterature

multichapter | ongoing | f/m, m/m kitsune au, female izuku, future bakudeku summary (shortened) 'She wants to be a hero. Wants to save everyone she meets and even the people she hasn’t. [...] A smart fox avoids fights. A smart fox does not seek them out. A smart fox does not fight for everyone. A smart fox, when they absolutely must, only fights for themselves and what is theirs and nothing else. Izumi, for all that she tries to be, is not a good fox.'

My Magic Academia by Kiterou

series | oneshots and multichapter | ongoing | gen HP crossover, wizard midoriya, platonic bkdk, some ocs summary (shortened) ' [...] In which Midoriya Inko is a witch and Izuku a wizard and even after 150 years of quirks taking over the world, Izuku still couldn't tell Kacchan that he isn't worthless and that he still could become a hero all on his own.'

A Lonely Windchime Makes No Sound by Musecookie

multichapter | ongoing | multi reader/shinso, total fantasy au, very wholesome summary (shortened) ' [...] You enjoy visiting your slightly creepy local library. When you accidentally befriend the elusive owner's familiar, he begins to appear more and more when you visit. You don't really mind, and he doesn't seem to hate you, even when the two of you become tied up in each other's fate as you pursue the secret to reviving a magical species of flower. Soft Strangers to Friends to Lovers type beat with lots of fluff and naps! Sleepy cuddles included.'

The grapes of friendship by Gentrychild

oneshot | gen crack, dfo, vampire izuku summary 'Izuku, a dhampir hiding his real identity as he goes to UA, the best wizard school in the country, spends the day with his friends. None of them are aware of it.'

Yesterday Upon the Stair by PitViperofDoom

multichapter | complete | gen less supernatural, izu's quirk lets him see ghosts, he still has ofa summary (shortened) 'Midoriya Izuku has always been written off as weird. As if it's not bad enough to be the quirkless weakling, he has to be the weird quirkless weakling on top of it. But truthfully, the "weird" part is the only part that's accurate. He's determined not to be a weakling, and in spite of what it says on paper, he's not actually quirkless [...] Not that anyone would believe it if he told them.'

sum of all (and by them driven) by Elemental

series | multichapter | ongoing | gen dadzawa, spirits give quirks, izu sees these spirits series summary 'Quirks aren't what you think they are.' first part summary (shortened) 'Midoriya Izuku is medically quirkless, not technically homeless, perpetually exhausted and doing his damned best despite it all. He also sees spirits, which might be cool if not for the fact that a) no one else does, b) they really don't like him very much, and c) he's pretty sure the heroes now think he's a villain working for the League [...]'

The Struggles of a Modern-Day Vampire by miraculousemily47

oneshot | gen crack, 1-a shenanigans, vampire midoriya summary 'After Midoriya Izuku is turned into a vampire towards the end of his first year at U.A., he decides he wants to tell his classmates about his condition. The only problem is that he can't physically say the words, and his classmates are fucking idiots.'

Lights in the Dark by FrostKitten

series | oneshots | ongoing | gen supernatural au, izuku can see demons etc, quirkless/magic au summary (of first part) 'Midoriya Izuku, like most young kids, knows there are monsters. They live in closets, under beds, and occasionally in the park. As he grows older, his friends stop seeing them...but he still does.'

Hand in Unlovable Hand by jumbletea

series | oneshots | ongoing | gen vampire midoriya (and aizawa), dadzawa, toga n dabi n mido being siblings summary 'A collection of stories surrounding a not-quite-human Izuku and everyone he meets along the way.'

Simply Superstitious by CryCaladrius

multichapter | ongoing | gen lots of folklore and yokai and stuff, 'quirkless' magic user izuku, decent dad hisashi too summary (shortened) 'Izuku Midoriya’s father is a Hou-ou — a Japanese phoenix. For some reason, this means yokai have a standing invitation to pester Izuku with their existence. Birds assemble choirs for his birthday. If there’s no cedar leaf under the welcome mat, the amazake babaa that lives two apartments over will be knocking on their door by evening. His yokai-purifying excursions get mistaken for vigilantism far too often. [...]'

Cuckoo Bird (anonymous author)

multichapter | ongoing/maybe discontinued | gen it may be discontinued but theres lots of fae folklore, deku is a changeling, deals etc, plus some platonic shindeku building up?? summary 'There's something off about Midoriya Izuku. (change·ling /ˈCHānjliNG/ noun a child believed to have been secretly substituted by fairies for the parents' real child in infancy.)'

tread softly as you go by IceEckos12

oneshot | gen if you read any fae au please let it be this! has faeries but mido is not one summary 'Humans used to be good at the old ways. They used to know how to bait the trap, to spin a web of words and lies that would ensnare even the most wily. Humans used to be able to twist deceptions around knots of iron and turn them into weapons of power. They forgot a long, long time ago. A boy unwittingly makes a deal with one of the fae, severing his ties to humanity. However, he finds that the fae world is far more strange and complex than he ever could have imagined.'

Hell is just a shoujo manga by supercrunch

multichapter | complete | f/m fantasy au, bakudeku, fem!izuku, isekai, dekusquad stuff, also some iidachako summary (shortened) 'Izuku wakes up crushed under a statue, trapped in the body of a princess who doesn't exist. Turns out she's a demon, which is weird. What's even weirder is the déjà vu that surrounds Kamino palace, reminding her of the events of this one manga she used to love. [...] But that's probably just a coincidence. [...] The problem here, obviously, is that Izuku's the demon princess. Ergo, she's a villain. And that means she's going to die at the end of this manga. Again.'

hold your breath as you cross by cassiopeia721

oneshot | gen dadzawa, another 'quirks are from spirits au' (expect more of those actually), mido is sad :( summary 'As the bridge between the world of guardian spirits and the quirk users who are blessed by them, Izuku's duty is to clean up the mess his predecessor left. It's taken what feels like an eternity worth of work, but Izuku's finally finished, and he's ready to rest at last. Unfortunately, the pro heroes who just watched him take down the Scourge of Kamino have no intention of letting him just wander off, and he finds himself stuck in an interrogation room with a bunch of humans who he's sure will never believe a word he says.'

To See with Eyes Unclouded by CrazySatan

series | oneshots | ongoing | gen witch au, witch midoriya, quirkless mido, bkg is not a good friend series summary 'Midoriya Izuku is a witch. A powerful witch. And even though he doesn't have a quirk, and magic doesn't Work Like That, Izuku ends up a hero. Somehow.'

Demons and Darkness by wolfsrainrules

series | oneshots | ongoing | gen dadzawa, shinso and mido and bkg are becoming friends, they can see monsters/spirits/bad things summary of first part 'Izuku has believed in the things that go bump in the night since he was small. That means he can see them, and almost everyone he knows....can't. So he decides he's going to be the shield humanity needs, no matter what. Eventually, he finds others that See too.'

know what i've made by the marks on my hands by simkjrs

multichapter | ongoing/maybe discontinued | gen dadzawa, quirk spirit au (this inspired most of the others on this list), also eri summary (shortened) 'Midoriya Izuku just wants to lead a quiet, peaceful life. This is foiled by the fact that a) he can see spirits, b) his good nature demands that he help anyone he sees in trouble, and c) he, by all rights, should not exist. [...]'

Izuku haunts class 1-A by Artistic-Gamer

series or multichapter whichever floats your boat | incomplete (hiatus) | other there are some triggering themes! such as suicide, blood, body disfigurement! please take care of yourself and avoid reading if this will hurt you! in other news: so much dadzawa, so much friendship, hurt mido summary (of first part) 'Class 1-A is rumored to be haunted, only the residents are aware it’s more than just a rumor..'

U.A's Resident Ghost by BeyondTheClouds777

multichapter | ongoing/maybe discontinued | gen ghost midoriya, dadzawa, friendships!!!! summary 'There is a ghost at U.A. Not haunting U.A. Not even hanging out at U.A. There is a ghost. Enrolled. As a student of U.A. And it's just Shouta's luck that he has everything to do with it.'

and now, the weather by xylophones

oneshot | gen CRACK, paranormal/ghost hunters au, dekusquad stuff summary 'Izuku runs a fictional horror radio show. Because ghosts aren’t real. Right? (“Holy shit, ghosts are real,” Izuku whispers. Then, with the smugness of a sixteen-year-old who just won a decade long bet, “I knew it! Kacchan owes me five hundred yen!” “Midoriya,” Todoroki sighs, “this ghost is trying to kill us.”)'

U.A Unsolved by handcrusher(ameliafromafairytale)

oneshot | gen (it's a fic of a fic, so if you've read yesterday upon the stair then you'll understand better) izuku can see ghosts thats his quirk summary ' "Hey there, ghosts," Midoriya says, "it's me, ya boy." The dorms are haunted. Shenanigans ensue.'

The Haunting of Class 1-A by BritishRobutt

multichapter | ongoing/maybe discontinued | n/a ghost midoriya, vigilante au, crack, the ghost bit is izu's quirk summary 'Everyone always told Izuku he couldn't be a hero, so when he dies and discovers his quirk, he becomes a vigilante out of spite. Whoops. After becoming Spectre, Japan's most wanted vigilante, Izuku realizes he can just fulfill his dreams of going to the top heroic school- after all, who can physically stop him from attending UA when he's a literal ghost?'

Caged by SternStunde

oneshot | gen tododeku, fantasy au (todo is a dragon, mido is a princess), genderbent deku (fem deku) summary 'Then she held up one of the books and smiled. "Want to learn an ancient language with me?" She was kind of a nerd, and she really hoped the dragon was too.'

Magic Runs Deep by draconicschinx

multichapter | ongoing/probably discontinued | gen mido has a quirk and he can see mythical creatures. summary '"Midoriya Izuku has always been good at making friends. Not human ones, really, but they are good friends nonetheless. " Izuku can see and talk to and interact with mythical creatures. It's not exactly the quirk he was hoping for, but he's going to use it to help humans and his non-human friends all the same.'

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elspethc22 · 3 years ago

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They Make Sense

Scilesweek Day 1: POV Outsider

Title: They Make Sense

Pairings: Scott/Stiles, Scott/Kira (mentioned only as a possibility)

Word count: 4976

Being the new kid in school absolutely sucked. Being the new kid in school halfway through the school year? Even worse! Being the new kid in school, halfway through the year, with a teacher for a parent? They type of situation that definitely warranted a ‘let the ground open up and swallow me whole’ plea to whatever deity may exist and be listening.

Seriously, was there like some induction for all new parents on how to best embarrass your kids at different stages of their life? Like, welcome to parenthood, here’s your handy guide for embarrassing your child, broken into helpful sections on different developmental stages for your convenience. Good luck and happy embarrassing!

Kira lifted her head off the desk and attempted a weak smile, and catches the eye of a cute boy a few rows ahead and one row over from her. He was staring at her, like most of their classmates, but he was smiling and it brought a real, albeit small, smile to her lips. Then he was poked with a pencil by the pale boy in front of him, and he turned away.

As she watched, the pale boy said something that had the first boy grinning and shaking his head and the pale boy smiling wide.

Although she tried to pay attention throughout the rest of the class, she kept finding herself distracted by the two boys. Whenever her dad was distracted, or writing on the board, the pale one would turn around to say something to the first boy, or show him something or even just grin. Once or twice the first boy poked the pale boy in the shoulder with his pencil, then quickly looked down at his book, as if he was taking notes, a small smile tugging at the corner of his lips. The pale boy never looked annoyed – or he did, but it didn’t look very sincere, and he was always grinning when he turned back around.

She thought about going up to them, introducing herself, but they were some of the first out the door when the bell rang.

Her dad followed her into the hall, and as she tried to explain how embarrassing her was never going to be helpful, she spotted the two boys out of the corner of her eye. The pale one was staring at his locker, hand on the lock, and the other boy was watching him, talking.

Kira watched in confusion as the pale boy shook his head at his locker, then looked up at the other boy and seemed to panic about something, pulling the other boy towards him, keeping his head tucked into his chest and leading him away. Then her dad distracted her, and she let the odd behaviour slip from her mind.

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The following day, Kira decided to spend lunch outside, enjoy the sun before the weather turned. As she wandered around, looking for somewhere to sit where she wouldn’t be intruding, she spotted the boys from her history class. She walked in their direction, and then heard what they were talking about.

‘ – near death experience and comes out of it seeing things?’ The cute boy asked his friends.

‘And is unable to tell what’s real or not?’ The pale boy continued.

‘And is being haunted by demonic visions of dead relatives?’ A pretty brunette girl added on.

‘They’re all locked up because they’re insane.’ Another boy answered, and as Kira approached, thoughts of Bardo coming to her, she only half-heard some weird conversation between the pale boy and the new one about being helpful and childhoods spent in freezers.

‘Hi. Hi. Sorry, I couldn’t help overhearing what you guys were talking about.’ Kira said, cursing herself internally for her weird introduction and tendency to ramble when nervous. ‘And, I think I actually might know what you’re talking about.’

They were all staring at her, and she noticed the pale boy give a quick glance to his friends before focusing back on her.

‘There’s a Tibetan word for it. It’s called “Bardo”. It literally means “in-between state”. The state between life and death.’ She told them, and they stared at her, for a beat, before the red-head girl spoke.

‘And what do they call you?’ She asked Kira, and Kira definitely detected more than a hint of who the hell are you in her tone. But before Kira could answer, the cute boy from history class answered for her.

‘Kira.’ His friends looked at him, and Kira noticed that the pale boy had an almost indecipherable look on his face as he stared. ‘She’s in our history class.’

The cute boy was talking to them all, but his focus stayed on the boy next to him and when he spoke again his voice was softer.

‘Mr Yukimura introduced her yesterday, remember? Before you poked me and told that stupid joke?’ His voice turned teasing as he said the last bit, and Kira watched the pale boy smile and nod slowly, as if remembering. When Kira looked around the table, she saw that the other boy and the brunette were watching the boys with half concerned, half fond/annoyed (the girl and boy respectively) looks on their faces. The red-head, however, was watching her with a look that seemed to be a mix of contemplative and protective.

‘So, are you talking Bardo in Tibetan Buddhism or Indian?’ The red-head asked, drawing attention away from the boys and back to Kira. Kira nodded, and then started to tell them more of what she knew about Bardo, sitting down in the empty space beside the pale boy, and she tried not to notice, or take it personally, when he slid away from her slightly, towards the cute boy. And she really needed to learn their names if she was going to keep talking to them.

When she told them all that the final stage of Bardo was death, the looks they all shared were all scared and concerned, which confused her, but then as she watched, they all seemed to school their faces, and the cute boy turned to her.

‘So, Kira. Your family only just moved to Beacon Hills, right?’ He asked, and she let him change the subject, though it just confused her more.

‘Uh, yeah. Three weeks ago. I think mum used to live here when she was younger, and she and dad just decided to move us here.’ She told them.

‘Well, welcome to Beacon Hills, and Beacon Hills High. I’m Scott, by the way.’ The cute boy told her.

‘I’m Lydia.’ Kira turned to see the red-head giving her a smile, though it didn’t seem quite sincere, although Kira nodded.

‘Allison.’ The brunette told her, and her smile was more genuine. The boy beside her didn’t say anything until Allison nudged him, and he looked at her briefly and said ‘Isaac’ before looking away again.

‘And uh, this is Stiles.’ Scott said when the pale boy didn’t seem inclined to introduce himself. He clapped the boy beside him on the shoulder, which seemed to startle him. She watched as Stiles looked up at Scott, and although she couldn’t see Stiles’ face, she watched as Scott’s went from concerned to fond before he leant forward to whisper something into Stiles’ ear, tilting his head in her direction. Stiles turned his head towards her, gave her a small smile and a wave of the hand, then went back to staring at the table, though Kira thought he leaned in to Scott’s hand which had remained on his shoulder, and Scott’s eyes flickered towards him.

Kira was about to say something, but the bell rang signalling the end of lunch, and the others all started collecting their belongings and standing up.

She stood too, and was trying to think of something, anything to say when they started walking away from the table.

‘Hey, thanks for information on the Bardo thing.’ Scott said to her, having held back to wait for Stiles to finish collecting his things. She smiled at him, and nodded, but before she could say anything else, Stiles stood straight, and then he nearly tripped on – well, Kira wasn’t sure what, actually, there didn’t seem to be anything to trip on – and would have face planted on the grass if Scott hadn’t caught him.

She knew Scott had forgotten all about her as he helped steady Stiles, ducking his head close to the other boy. He rubbed his hand up and down Stiles’ arm a few times, then wrapped his arm around Stiles’ shoulder, and started to lead him away, keeping Stiles close to him as they went.

When Kira got home, she completed her homework, then spent a few hours doing more thorough research on Bardo, so she could give Scott, and his friends, more detailed information on the phenomenon. As she worked, her mind kept slipping back to lunch, and what she’d seen between Scott and Stiles. They were definitely close, and Scott seemed to be very protective of the other boy. Stiles had seemed wary of her, and also, now that she thought about it, looked really tired. Maybe he had been sick recently and was still recovering, so Scott was just looking out for him.

She printed off her research, and made a mental note to put it in her bag before she went to help her mum get ready for dinner.

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The next day, she greeted Scott before class, telling him about the research on Bardo she’d done for him, although when she went to pull out the pages they weren’t in her bag.

‘Kira, you forgot that research you did for that boy you like.’ Her father’s voice sounded from behind her and her eyes grew wide. She took the offered pages, then all but shoved them into Scott’s hands, avoiding looking at his face so she wouldn’t have to see his expression. She moved quickly, taking a seat and was thankful when Scott sat a few seats ahead of her in the row over.

She tried to shift her attention, focus on her dad and what he was saying as he started the class, but her eyes kept darting back over to Scott without her permission. He was flicking through the printouts she’d given him, but she noticed when he sat up straight suddenly. Kira looked up to see his friend, Stiles, had been called to the front of the class to read.

But instead of reading, Stiles was clenching the podium tightly, blinking furiously and looking like he was on the verge of passing out as he looked down at the page and then back up at the class. Did he have a problem with public speaking?

As she watched, Scott stood abruptly.

‘Stiles? Are you ok?’ He asked, but Stiles didn’t respond. He looked around the room, breathing heavily, then looked back down at the podium, closing his eyes. ‘Stiles?’

Scott moved forward swiftly, moving to Stiles’ side and telling her dad he was taking the other boy to the nurse. Her dad just nodded in shock as Scott put one arm around Stiles’ waist, the other on his arm, keeping close to his side and led him quickly from the room. She watched them go, faintly heard Scott telling Stiles to breath before the door closed behind them.

Her dad tried to pull the class back to their work, but Kira didn’t notice until she heard her name.

‘Kira. Perhaps you can come up and read the passage for us.’ She looked over at him, and saw that he was giving her a look which meant she needed to just do what he was asking and not argue. So she stood and made her way to the front of the room and read the passage, helping her dad to pull the attention off the two boys and back into the lesson.

When the bell rang, her classmates began to scoop up their bags, putting their books and other things back into them and making their way out of the class and off to lunch as her dad reminded them of their required reading.

Kira zipped up her backpack, and was about to leave when she noticed that Scott and Stiles had both left their bags behind. She looked around, and saw that everyone else had left, and none of their other friends were in this class. So she picked them up, and went looking for them. Doing something nice was how you made friends, right?

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As the weeks passed, Kira did find herself enveloped into Scott’s group once she was introduced to the world of the supernatural, of kitsunes, werewolves, banshees and more. It was great to finally have friends, but also to finally understand what had been going on with her, and to have people who could sort of understand what it was like to be so different.

There were also a few brief moments where Kira thought maybe she and Scott were getting closer over those weeks, from him coming for dinner at her house, to their foray into criminal activity to delete the photos from her phone and the party.

Then Stiles went missing, the first time, and everything went crazy. From nogitsunes and chaos and murder to finding out her mum was over 900 years old and had been lying to her, her entire life, any possible thing with Scott was pushed to the back burner.

And Scott? Well, Scott’s focus was all on Stiles. And at the end of it all, when Stiles and the nogitsune were separated, the nogitsune, and some of their friends, dead, and some time had passed and they all seemed to be starting to heal, Kira was able to think about possibilities with her and Scott, and she went to find him.

His mum was just leaving for another shift at the hospital and let her in with a quick ‘he’s in his room.’

She made her way quietly up the stairs, and was about to turn into Scott’s room when she heard the voices and stopped. She’d like to say she didn’t mean to eavesdrop, but the pain she heard had her not wanting to intrude, and then fearing that retreating would call attention to her presence – she was actually very surprised Scott hadn’t heard her coming up the stairs.

‘Scott, I don’t know how to keep going. Every time I close my eyes, it’s like I’m back there – trapped in my own mind, with a front row seat to everything it did. And the one memory that’s stuck on repeat? It’s you, that night at the clinic.’

‘It wasn’t you Stiles, you know it wasn’t you and I’d neverblame you for that.’ Kira really shouldn’t be listening to this, it was clearly a very private moment between them and she should absolutely leave now.

‘It might not have been me, Scotty, but I still remember it. I could feel it as it happened, it felt like my hands holding the sword, pushing it in, twisting it, feeding off your pain. Liking it.’ That last bit was whispered so softly Kira almost didn’t hear it.

‘It got into your mind, Stiles. It wasn’t you, and it wasn’t your fault. You heard Mrs Yukimura talk about it, about how powerful it was. There’s nothing you, or anyone, could have done to stop it, especially when we didn’t know about it until it was too late.’

‘I should have done something when I knew I left the message for Barrow.’ Stiles said, his voice broken.

‘Like what? Locked yourself up in Eichen House sooner? All that did was delay everything – until we knew how to stop it, there wasn’t anything any of us could do except try and hold it off, stop the damage from being too much. And you did hold it off Stiles, you tried – I know you tried to stop it, to fight back and minimise the damage it would do. When Derek and I were on the roof of the hospital, before we figured out what it had done to the wiring, do you know what we could smell? You – struggling. You were trying to stop it.’

After this, there was silence, and after a few moments of internal debate, Kira very slowly (and as silently as possible) poked her head around the frame of Scott’s room to peer in.

The two boys were sitting on Scott’s bed – they had clearly been sitting opposite each other as they spoke, judging by the way Scott was leaning forward on his knees to hug Stiles. As she watched, Scott started to lean back, pulling Stiles with him, shifting until he was sitting more comfortably and hauled Stiles onto his lap.

Stiles was crying, and Scott kept one arm wrapped around Stiles’ waist, preventing him from wiggling away, while his other hand rubbed circles on Stiles’ back.

As Kira watched, Scott appeared to be whispering into Stiles ear. Stiles was quieting now, no longer shifting or fighting against Scott’s hold. The opposite, in fact – now he let his body go, slumping into Scott’s arms, resting his head against Scott’s chest.

‘Why are you always so good to me?’ Stiles asked softly, and Scott looked at him fondly.

‘Because you are the most important person in this world to me, outside my mum. You remember what you said to me at that motel? I can’t do this without you either, Stiles. So I’m always going to do whatever it takes to keep you safe and I’m always gonna be here, no matter what. I love you, Stiles. Always have, always will.’

There was a beat of silence as Stiles pulled back, looked at Scott.

‘I love you too, Scott.’ Stiles responded, cautiously, his voice even. Scott gave him a small smile, then shook his head.

‘I know you do, but I meant… I meant more than just how I’ve always loved you.’ Scott told him, and Stiles just looked at Scott. ‘I’m not telling you this to make you feel bad, or like you have to feel the same, but it’s kind of been building for a while and I nearly lost you so I just had to – ’

Scott was cut off as Stiles pressed their lips together, bringing one of his hands up to cradle the back of Scott’s head. And now Kira really needed to leave. Cross her fingers and hoping that Scott wouldn’t hear her she made her way as quietly as possible back down the stairs.

Then, just as she was about to open the door to leave, she realised that Scott would be able to tell she’d been there – he’d smell her scent. So she opened the door as carefully as possible, then knocked, loudly.

‘Scott!! Are you here? Your bike is outside, and the door’s unlocked, so I’m guessing you’re here…’ She called out, stepping inside and closing the door, audibly, then started her way up the stairs, making sure to let each footfall make a sound. ‘Scott?’

Just as she reached the top of the stairs, Scott’s popped out of his room.

‘Kira! Hi! Uh, what’re you doing here? I mean, what’s up?’ He asked, looking a bit flushed.

‘Oh, I just wanted to stop by and see how you’re doing, and Stiles too.’ His eyes widened and she wanted to bite her tongue.

‘Stiles? What do you mean?’

‘I didn’t want to intrude on Stiles and his dad, but I thought you’d know how he’s doing so…’ She trailed off and shrugged, hoping he believed her. And it was mostly the truth – she would have asked him about Stiles before she knew the other boy was here. Thankfully Scott nodded.

‘Yeah, he’s um… he’s doing ok. He’s getting there.’ She smiled.

‘That’s great, Scott. I’m really glad he’s alright. Oh, um, my mum said something last night – she told me to suggest that if he has any trouble relaxing or sleeping to try tea.’ She said, remembering the conversation she’d had with her mum last night as they’d discussed what had happened.

‘Tea?’ Scott asked, and she nodded.

‘Yeah. Specifically chamomile. I honestly don’t know if that’s just a like, mum thing or it’s actually helpful with this specific type of thing but I remember her giving him some when he came over to talk to her.’

‘I remember – it helped. Well, I don’t know if it was the actual tea, or your mum just telling me it would help but it did. It helped me calm down a bit.’ Stiles said, coming up beside Scott in the doorway, nearly making Kira jump since she wasn’t expecting it and hadn’t heard him moving.

‘Oh, hey Stiles. I didn’t realise – I didn’t mean to interrupt or anything, I just wanted to check on Scott, and… well, I guess you already know, you probably already heard.’ Kira wanted to face palm – she’d gotten so much better at not rambling in front of these guys recently, as they’d become friends, but knowing that she’d stood there and listened to what was very clearly a private moment had her flustered.

‘Yeah. Thanks, for not wanting to just drop by my place, I haven’t really been the most… sociable.’

‘Of course. I can’t even imagine… well, I was worried about you, both of you. Hence coming by to see Scott. But you guys are spending time together, and that’s good, and I don’t want to interrupt so I’m just gonna go now, but you’re looking better Stiles, which is good, really good. And you look good too, Scott. Um… ok, bye!’ She nearly shouted the farewell and turned to race down the stairs.

Just as she was reaching for the door, a hand touched her shoulder.

‘Hey.’ It was Scott.

‘Uh, hey.’ She said.

‘Look… I uh… I know you were upstairs earlier.’ He said softly and she felt her heart drop and her eyes widen.

‘Oh, god I’m so sorry Scott. I didn’t mean to eavesdrop, I was just coming up to see you like I said, but then I heard you talking and it sounded really important and I didn’t want to interrupt but then I should’ve just left, but I thought if you heard me leaving I’d interrupt the conversation so I stayed but I shouldn’t have – ’

‘Kira.’ He cut her off, put a hand on her shoulder and gave a gentle, comforting squeeze. ‘It’s ok, I’m not mad. I know you’re not the kind of person to just go around listening in on conversations. And I could’ve said something, but it was the first time Stiles had really talked to me so I didn’t want to do anything to stop that. But that’s not why I wanted to talk to you.’

‘It’s not?’ She asked, confused, and he shook his head.

‘No. I wanted to apologise.’ He told her, and she was more confused.

‘Apologise? Why?’

‘I want you to know that… I like you, Kira. You’re a really good person. And I kinda thought… there were a few times when I thought that maybe you want to be more than friends and for a little while I thought I might too but this thing with Stiles…’ He trailed off, looking like he was thinking about how to say what he wanted to say.

‘Scott. It’s ok. I mean, yeah, I like you. And I did think, maybe… but honestly? If I think about it? It makes a lot of sense, you and Stiles.’ She told him honestly, and the more she thought about it, the more it really did make sense. She thought about all the little moments she’d seen between Scott and Stiles, all the way back to that first history class.

The way they moved around each other, the way their eyes always sought each other out in a group or crowd, the way they’d drop almost anything for the other. How they moved and spoke and often thought in sync.

‘Really?’ Scott asked, and she saw a small smile tugging at his lips.

‘Yeah. And I’m happy for you, Scott – both of you. Don’t feel bad for something this good – and besides, we never really even did anything, or even talked about anything, so I’m not upset, I promise. And more than anything I might have felt or could have felt, I’m just glad we’re friends.’ She told him, smiling.

‘I’m glad we’re friends too.’ He told her, in that amazingly sincere way of his. She reached out and drew him into a quick hug, then stepped back.

‘Tell Stiles again I’m really happy to see him doing better? And hopefully we’ll see him back at school soon – when he’s ready, but hopefully soon.’ She said, and he nodded.

‘I will. And thanks, for coming by.’ Scott told her and she just smiled. Then she turned to open the door, and stepped out. Scott stepped up behind her, holding the door so he could close it. Just before she stepped down off the porch, she turned back.

‘Scott?’ She said, and he cocked his head. ‘It’s really good to see you happy again, both of you. I only saw it a couple of times when I first met you before everything… well, it’s just good to see.’ She told him, and he smiled.

‘It’s good to feel happy again. It feels like I shouldn’t sometimes but – ’

‘I didn’t know her as well as the rest of you, but I think she’d want you to be happy too. She’d be happy that you’re happy.’ She told him, and he looked sad for a moment at the semi-direct mention of Allison, but then he nodded.

‘You’re right. I really am glad we’re friends. I’ll see you at school on Monday?’ He asked, and she nodded.

‘I’ll see you Monday.’ Then she turned and headed to her car. By the time she slid behind the wheel and glanced back at the house, the door was closed, but a quick glance up showed Stiles standing at the window of Scott’s room. She gave a small wave, which he returned before he turned his head away from the window, presumably to the sound of Scott. She started the engine, and headed home.

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Monday morning found Kira arriving early to school, pulling her car into one of the many empty spots. As she hopped out of the car, she spotted Lydia getting out of her own car just a few spots down. Kira made her way over to her, and they were just catching up with each other when Kira spotted Stiles’ jeep turning into the parking lot. She and Lydia both turned and watched as Scott pulled the jeep into a spot.

‘I wasn’t expecting Stiles to come back so soon.’ Lydia murmured, and Kira nodded in agreement.

‘Yeah, I mean he looked better when I saw him but – ’

‘You saw him?’ Lydia asked, and Kira turned to look at her.

‘Um, I mean yes, technically, but only because I went by Scott’s house to check on him and ask him how Stiles was and Stiles was there and heard me when I was telling Scott something my mum recommended for Stiles and he came out and said hello. So I only saw him for like, less than a minute.’ Lydia just stared at her, and Kira tried to hold eye contact before she broke and looked away. Coincidentally right back to where Scott was helping Stiles out of the jeep.

Kira watched as he pulled Stiles in close, saying something then giving the still too thin and pale boy a hug and a kiss on the head before he pulled back. He took Stiles’ hand in his, linking their fingers, then lifting them and placing a kiss on the back of Stiles’ hand, an action that had Stiles blushing and ducking his head.

‘Huh.’ Kira turned back to Lydia, who was also watching the two boys.

‘What?’

‘I didn’t think they’d work it out so soon.’ Lydia said, still watching.

‘What do you mean?’ She asked, looking back at the boys who were still standing by the jeep talking.

‘I always knew they’d be more than just friends. Well, I may have wavered in that belief just a little when Scott was with Allison, but I always thought there was more than just friendship there.’ She said, though it seemed she was talking more to herself. Then she seemed to realise who she was talking to, and turned to look at Kira, her eyes narrowing. ‘This isn’t going to be a problem, is it? Because I like you Kira, I do but these two – they’ve been through a lot, we all have, but they’ve been in it from the very start and they deserve some happiness, so – ’

‘Lydia! It’s fine. I already, kinda knew – I, when I went to Scott’s I… Scott told me. And I’ll tell you what I said to him – it makes sense. And I agree with you, they do deserve to be happy.’ She paused, looking at the banshee. ‘We all do.’

Lydia studied her, and Kira thought she was trying to detect any lies. She must have found her answer satisfactory, because she nodded, then smiled.

‘You’re right, we do. And we will be.’ Lydia told her, then turned away. Kira followed her line of sight, and saw Scott and Stiles were now heading in their direction. Scott still had a firm hold on Stiles’ hand as they approached the girls. And, like that first day she’d noticed them in history class, Stiles poked Scott, leaned in to whisper something to him that had Scott grinning with humour and Stiles smiling wide. Yes, she thought to herself. Scott and Stiles made sense.

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pparkerpoetry · 4 years ago

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Heart of Gears and Gold

Summary: "Morally, Nook knew that eavesdropping was wrong. He’d been coded to do what was right, all the time, consistently, so of course he knew that listening in on a conversation he wasn’t involved in was wrong, but he was concerned. He was concerned about Sam, who looked as if he was deteriorating into nothing. He was concerned about Ranboo, who’s scars on his face were looking more prominent. Most of all, though, he was worried about Tommy. He hadn’t heard anything from Tommy in ages, and it just wasn’t like him to go silent for that long."

-or-

Nook wasn't made with a heart or the capacity to love, but he does it anyway.

Tommy goes missing, they tell him that it's a vacation.

Sam Nook needs to know the truth.

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i made this yesterday but i forgot to post it here, so...

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Sam Nook was the result of redbull and the determination to be better on a Friday night as Awesamdude fought off the remnants of a hangover. He hadn’t even been named, really, and had been sitting in a corner growing cobwebs since he’d been made. Awesamdude had intended for him to stay there, because what was the need for a little robot pal in a land where fires raged and wars were waged every other month, at best? No, the world was a cruel one, and it was no place for Sam Nook.

The cobwebs were dusted away one day, long after his creation. Or so it seemed. Time passed slowly when Nook spent his days in the dark of a closet.

Nook wasn’t sure why he’d been put into use, initially, but Sam had the habit of talking while he worked on improving and upgrading his body. Nook was meant to help a child named Tommy, who Sam spoke of very fondly. The days in the workshop passed and Nook learned about the child.

Tommy didn’t have a good past, Nook discovered. He’d been raised on fields of blood and taught how to fight instead of which manners to use when. He’d been given a sword instead of a toy and told to survive instead of learning how to grow and to cope. Tommy was made of iron and steel, and though Nook knew it was all metaphorical, he couldn’t help but feel happy that there was someone like him.

Sam was nice. Sam just didn’t know how much of a genius he was, and since he had no clue that his robot was aware, instead of being truly able to speak, Nook was trapped in a little metal cage, stuck and still.

The day that Nook was given a voice?

He wouldn’t stop using it. It wasn’t a human voice, but it was unique. He liked it. It was his own, and Nook liked having something for himself. It wasn’t long before Sam sent him off to monitor Tommy’s healing, his recovering, his lessons on responsibility.

Nook had been given a voice, but he had never been given a heart. So why was it that he cared so much? He wasn’t sure. But he liked Tommy. Tommy was conflicted, and hurt, and Nook knew how gentle to be so that Tommy would trust him but wouldn’t take advantage of him. He wasn’t quite able to fathom the power he held, being so close to Tommy, but he knew that if that power had fallen into the wrong hands another time, Nook never would have been improved. What need is there for a babysitter when there is no baby?

He didn’t like thinking about death. It was one of the things he was confused about, and though many things fell under that category, Nook didn’t like death. Tommy spoke of death sometimes. Of his older brother who wasn’t really his brother, but it felt like it, because we were really close and always had each other’s backs- Nook thought that Tommy’s words were an awfully long way to say that he was still grieving. He didn’t mind. His job was to help Tommy, not to fix someone that didn’t need fixing, but support.

Tommy spoke of death a lot. It wasn’t always about Wilbur (Nook learned at one point that Wilbur was the name of the older brother. He thought it was Technoblade, but when he mentioned it to Sam, Sam had said Technoblade was still alive. How many brothers did Tommy have?), and Nook liked death even less when Tommy spoke about death in relation to himself. Nook didn’t want to think of Tommy dead. Tommy was his friend, and he would always be there for Tommy. Wasn’t that enough?

Of course, Nook knew that there was more than the simple life that he led. He never had to sleep, he just sat on his charging station overnight while he waited for the sun and for the child that always bounded up the hill as soon as the light hit the land, eyes dull and face sunken. Tommy had his bad days, so Nook always kept easier tasks on the side to give him.

Oh, the chest needs organizing. Oh, the hotel needs an infinite water source. Oh-

Tommy never caught on. Nook made sure of it, and although there was one bad day that he’d given Tommy a real task (I need hearts of the sea-), he made sure to be careful with the teen. No loud noises, no sudden movements, no being over-top-nice. Tommy had triggers. He’d asked Sam once why Tommy was so jumpy, but Sam’s eyes had turned dark and he had left. Nook didn’t ask anymore, but he figured it had something to do with the prisoner contained in the prison that loomed ominously in the distance.

The prison made Nook uneasy.

Days had passed by, and he grew more protective of Tommy. He wasn’t supposed to. Nook’s whole existence was to help Tommy, yes, but not to this extent. Once or twice Nook wondered if he was becoming more alive, but he didn’t want to think about it. Humanity hurt, and he had heard tales of pain more than anything. Nightmares that plagued their minds, or the injuries that they did to each other-

Jack Manifold was someone to be wary around. He’d tried to kill Tommy a few times, and though he was skilled in playing it off as a joke, Nook didn’t miss the fury that burned behind the multi-colored sunglasses.

Badboyhalo was another on Nook’s mental list of… enemies? No, that wasn’t the right word. What was the right word? Maybe he’d ask Sam. Or Tommy. But Tommy said Jack was a friend, so what was his opinion on Bad?

Nook had learned that Bad was on the side of the crimson vines that edged their way onto the property. Nook wasn’t programmed to show fear, but he wasn’t created with a capacity for love, either.

The egg scared him.

As much as he hated to admit it, the egg terrified him. It got Bad into places he shouldn’t have been able to.

Puffy was a good one, though. Nook liked her smile. She was always nice to Tommy and while she wasn’t as good at hiding her pain as she thought, she helped others. Nook didn’t know what had happened to make her so sad, but everyone was sad those days. Puffy, Nook decided, would get a discount if she ever bought a room at the Big Innit Hotel.

Nook’s days were simple. In the mornings, he’d get off of his charging station and head to the hotel, getting a few hours of building in without Sam if he finished charging early enough. Some days, Tommy would come running after that, other days he’d walk, others he didn’t show at all. Nook didn’t like the days that passed by without the familiar mop of blond hair and the loud swears that he had to hide a laugh at.

Tommy made Nook feel alive, and some days, he wasn’t sure if it was a good thing.

After Sam and himself finished the hotel, Nook had been excited. Tommy had been looking forward to this for ages, and he hoped that it was good enough.

Nook didn’t like the feeling of doubt that wormed its way through his gears. He hadn’t been programmed to doubt anything, he reminded himself, and code didn’t lie. Humans lied.

One morning, Nook was just loitering around the hotel, since he’d had a lot of free time since the build had been completed. He’d been without purpose before, but this was different. He could do whatever he wanted, but he just wanted to help Tommy. There was still a lot of healing to do.

Speak of the devil, Tommy came sprinting up to where Nook stood. “I thought I’d find you here, Big Man!” Tommy grinned. “I just wanted to say hi before I go to the prison.”

Nook turned quickly. HELLO TOMMYINNIT. I WOULD NOT RECOMMEND GOING TO THE PRISON. I DO NOT LIKE IT.

Tommy rolled his eyes. “You never liked it. Just one last time, alright? Then I can catch a break, and I dunno, maybe I’ll take a vacation.” He laughed. “Can you imagine? I’ve never had a vacation before. I’d probably just wake up and think I got exiled again.”

YOU MAY GO IF YOU WISH, Nook nodded anxiously, BUT I WISH YOU WOULDN’T. IT MAKES ME UNEASY.

Tommy snorted and started walking away. He waved, and was still smiling. Nook thought he looked almost like a kid again, not some soldier who was tired of life. “Bye, Nook! I’ll catch you later!”

Sam didn’t show up that day to monitor the hotel, nor the next day, so Nook took that to mean that the job was over. He was almost sad, but he caught himself. He hadn’t been made to be sad. Only to help.

Nook tried to find Tommy, but he wasn’t at his house, which he thought was a little odd, but he didn’t mind. Maybe today would finally be the day he got to listen and observe the birds. They were peculiar creatures, birds were.

He hadn’t meant to spend all day and all night watching the birds, but once he saw them, he’d wandered to a nearby stream to look at the fish, then to the little cricket that had been hopping around…

When he got back to the hotel, for he hadn’t gotten Sam to move his charging station and he was very, very low, the large sign he’d put up was taken down, and another took its place. He couldn’t read what it said, but he didn’t have time to look at it yet. He figured it was just something Tommy put up, so he went to charge.

The next morning, he saw the name, clear and bold. JACK MANIFOLD, he muttered, YOU WILL RUE THE DAY YOU TAMPERED WITH THE HOTEL.

Sure, Tommy had mentioned a few days ago that he wanted to hire Jack, but this was too far.

“Oh, hey, Sam Nook.” Jack himself stood by the entrance. “Hope you don’t mind the rebranding. I’m taking over while Tommy’s, uh, on vacation.”

Nook wanted to yell, but he remembered the kind greeting that he was confined to. HELLO, JACK MANIFOLD. I HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL,- he didn’t wait for a response -BUT YES, I DO MIND THE REBRANDING. WHEN TOMMY RETURNS FROM HIS VACATION, IF THAT IS WHERE HE IS, THEN HE WILL BE VERY DISPLEASED.

He didn’t understand why he felt so angry at Jack, so Nook replaced the sign and took another day off. Sam still hadn’t showed up, so he took a journey to the portal that Tommy had told him about. It shone brightly, and he liked it, but he didn’t dare pass through. Not without someone by his side.

Time passed quicker than he realized, and before he knew it, the purple sheen darkened with the shadows of night. Nook didn’t want to go back yet, so he stayed out. He walked to where he’d heard a new member had settled down, and he liked the flowers there. He stayed there for a while.

When he woke up, Nook was at his charging station. There was a sign that told him he’d shut down while in the flower field, so someone carried him back. No signature was on the note, but when he journeyed up to the hotel, he had an inkling of an idea.

There were more signs. The large one, advertising the hotel, was different, hand-drawn, but Nook wasn’t mad about that. Apparently, Jack had changed it before Puffy put it back. Nook decided that if Puffy ever got into trouble, he’d defend her. She was one of the good ones on this server of murderers and authorities.

Jack showed his face again.

HELLO JACK MANIFOLD, Nook greeted. I REALLY WISH YOU WOULD STOP CHANGING THE APPEARANCE OF THE BIG INNIT HOTEL SIGN. TOMMY WON’T BE PLEASED, WHEN HE RETURNS, AND I SHOULD LIKE YOU TO REMAIN AN EMPLOYEE.

Nook brushed over the fact that he’d told his first lie. Jack called for more attention- he looked cheerful, but not completely so, if was a conflicted cheerfulness. Today was not the day to antagonize him, Nook decided. He was hurting. Why? Nook wasn’t sure.

I AM GOING TO LEAVE, Nook announced, AND WHEN I COME BACK, I WANT THE SIGN TO BE THE SAME.

Jack didn’t respond.

Nook spent the day exploring, just wandering, and he couldn’t shake the loss that he felt. He wasn’t lost, though. He knew where he was.

It was late before he remembered to go back before his battery died somewhere no one would find him, but as Nook walked back, Puffy was burning a part of the path.

HELLO CAPTAIN PUFFY! He smiled. Today had been a good day. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?

When she turned to respond, her eyes were red. Something was wrong. “Hey, Nook.” She said blankly, watching the flames as her eyes welled up with tears.

WHY ARE YOU CRYING? He questioned. HAS BADBOYHALO UPSET YOU? SHOULD I TAKE CARE OF HIM FOR YOU?

Puffy chuckled, but there was no feeling behind it. “No, Nook. Bad’s fine for now. I’ll deal with him later.”

SO HE HAS UPSET YOU? Nook tilted his head. THEN WHY BURN THE PATH? I AM SORRY, BUT I DO NOT UNDERSTAND.

“That’s fine. You should probably head back, though. Don’t let your battery run out.” Puffy sniffled as she wiped her sleeve across her nose.

Nook made a soft sound. IF YOU EVER NEED A BREAK, FEEL FREE TO STOP BY THE BIG INNIT HOTEL. DON’T TELL TOMMY, BUT I INTEND TO GIVE YOU A SIGNIFICANT DISCOUNT. YOU DESERVE IT, CAPTAIN PUFFY.

It hadn’t been the right thing to say. She started crying harder, so Nook left her to mourn whatever had happened. It wasn’t his place to pry.

Weird things kept happening. Quackity had visited that night, too, but Jack pulled him away from hotel property to chat. And then the next day, more people stopped by the Hotel. They didn’t buy a room, though. They just stared. Some in pity, at him, but mostly in sadness.

A rival inn had popped up, and Nook was excited. He’d be able to convince Tommy to get upgrades easier this way, now. Tommy just had to get back. He missed Tommy.

Sam visited, finally. Nook noticed the devastated look on his face, but it was common those days. He wondered if there had been another war he didn’t know about.

HELLO, AWESAMDUDE! DO YOU HAVE ANY INFORMATION ON WHEN TOMMY RETURNS? Nook asked eagerly. I WISH TO BEGIN UPGRADES SOON.

Sam looked like he might cry. “No, Nook, Tommy, uh-” He paused, as if changing what he was going to say. “No, He said he was going to be gone a while, though. You might want to start upgrades by yourself. I’ve got prison business to deal with.”

Nook remembered his conversation with Tommy. DID TOMMY HAVE A GOOD VISIT AT THE PRISON? HE TOLD ME HE WAS GOING, BUT HE DIDN’T MENTION HIS VACATION.

As if distracted, Sam hesitated. “Uh, yeah. Yeah. The visit went okay.”

DREAM PLAYED NICE? He asked, just to make sure (ah, yes, his favorite discovery of recent days. Dream was the one in the prison, the one responsible for Tommy’s sorrow).

Sam froze. “I gotta go, Nook, I might be by later, but don’t count on it. And- yeah,” he hid a sob, “Dream played nice.”

Nook had the feeling that Sam was hiding something from him. And so began a new feeling for the android: Hurt.

He tried to notice things more, but eventually, it was staring him in the face. Like when he went inside of the hotel the next night to find Badboyhalo and his egg group having a party. Puffy was with him, and she began yelling at them, but Nook took over. He drew himself to his full height, which wasn’t that much, but he was still taller than everyone in the room.

BADBOYHALO, he thundered, and he wasn’t used to speaking so loudly. I EXPECT YOU HAVE GOOD REASON TO BE HERE, OR I WILL HAVE TO ASK YOU TO LEAVE. He laid a hand on the hilt of his sword and he summoned the most fearsome look he could manage.

The demon paused before speaking. Everyone had been, when speaking to him. He wanted to know why, but this wasn’t the right moment. “Hey, Nook. Yeah, we were just… celebrating.”

CELEBRATING WHAT, EXACTLY?

“Oh. Well, it’s Jack’s birthday! We figured that Jack was Tommy’s friend so he wouldn’t mind us having a party here.”

Nook didn’t mention that Jack wasn’t even there. He didn’t mention how confused he was, or how much he wanted to know what was going on, but he made sure they left. He wished Jack a happy birthday when he walked by, but Jack had just given him a puzzled look.

Nook added it to the growing list of things that people were hiding things from him. His list of people he trusted was growing thinner.

It didn’t take long for him to discover why.

He’d been walking back to the hotel, just to check if Tommy had gotten back, when distantly, he heard Sam and Ranboo talking. Ranboo was a peculiar subject, Nook had decided. He was also conflicted, and always showed signs of regret whenever he spoke of Tommy with Nook. Nook wasn’t quite sure why, but he’d find out soon enough.

Morally, Nook knew that eavesdropping was wrong. He’d been coded to do what was right, all the time, consistently, so of course he knew that listening in on a conversation he wasn’t involved in was wrong, but he was concerned. He was concerned about Sam, who looked as if he was deteriorating into nothing. He was concerned about Ranboo, who’s scars on his face were looking more prominent. Most of all, though, he was worried about Tommy. He hadn’t heard anything from Tommy in ages, and it just wasn’t like him to go silent for that long.

He was doing the right thing.

Sam sounded near tears, even though it was clear he’d just been sobbing. “I couldn’t stop it, Ranboo. He just, I got into the cell and he was just laughing, I was yelling at him and he was just laughing, in my face-”

“He was laughing?” Ranboo whispered.

“Yeah.” Sam nodded. “And then- oh, god. I had to carry his body out of the cell, and his eyes just stared at me. They stared at me, and he was so quiet,” Sam covered his mouth to hide another sob, “And the blood, the blood got everywhere-”

Nook’s eyes widened. Someone had died in the prison? Who?

“There was no way you could have let him out?” Ranboo asked, but Nook knew that his anger was gone, replaced with the cold emptiness that hope left when it disappeared.

“No, Ranboo,” Sam whispered. “Because if Dream had held him on that bridge, threatening his life if he wasn’t let out, then I wouldn’t have had a choice. I wouldn’t have had the courage to leave him in the cell. I’d have freed Dream.”

Nook thought for a moment. Who did Sam love enough to let Dream out for? He didn’t like any of the options on the list.

Sam continued. “And the worst part of it- The worst part is that every time I see Nook, I have to act as if Tommy’s still alive and having a great time, I have to act as if it wasn’t my fault that Tommy is dead, I have to act as if Tommy’s dead eyes don’t haunt me every time I try to sleep because I coded him to be loyal to Tommy and I don’t what he’ll do if he discovers he’s gone.”

What?

Nook left. He didn’t want to hear this conversation. It wasn’t true, was it? It couldn’t be.

It made a lot of sense.

Nook went to his charging station, and when he opened his eyes the next morning, everything seemed a little duller.

Puffy was out, and Nook couldn’t help but feel hurt that yes, even she had hid this from him. Or maybe not. He didn’t know if it was true.

What was she- oh. She was building a memorial. It was cobblestone, of course, with a picture of a disc in the middle.

Who Are You Building That For? Nook asked, and was surprised to hear his voice sound…

“Whoa, Nook, are you okay?” Puffy asked. Her eyes hadn’t gotten any less red, “You sound sad.”

Who? Nook asked, even though he already knew the answer. Who Died, Puffy? You Wouldn’t Lie, Right?

“Nook,” Puffy sighed, but he interrupted.

why didn’t you tell me that dream killed tommy? Nook asked, his high pitched voice now soft and quiet.

“Sam-”

Sam Wasn’t Sure I Could Be Trusted. Nook shrugged. He couldn’t be bothered to defend himself when all that he felt was frustration. He was coded to build and protect, but damn if he didn’t want to destroy the entire server.

He walked away, pretending not to hear Puffy calling out for him.

Mechanically, (he almost laughed at that thought. Mechanical- he was.) he began to tear down the Big Innit Hotel. Why? Well-

“Nook?” Sam shouted from below the hotel. His voice cracked. “Are you alright?”

Nook went down to the first floor. He was already a pretty good way into the hotel dismantling. HELLO, AWESAMDUDE. He said coldly, almost liking the way Sam flinched away. WHAT BRINGS YOU HERE, TODAY?

Sam sighed, but his breath was unsteady. “So, you found out. Are you okay?”

I AM ANGRY, Nook said simply. THAT SUCH A YOUNG LIFE WAS TAKEN. I AM ANGRY THAT DREAM STILL LIVES.

“Well, I can’t just-”

KILL HIM? Nook asked. Taunted, almost. WHY NOT? WHAT’S STOPPING YOU? OR ME? TELL ME, SAM, WHAT IS STOPPING ME FROM GOING AGAINST MY CODING COMPLETELY? PUFFY IS BARGAINING, YOU LET IT SADDEN YOU, TUBBO MAY STILL BE IN DENIAL BY PUSHING HIMSELF BACK INTO LOGIC AND RANBOO MAY HAVE ACCEPTED IT, BUT TELL ME, AWESAMDUDE, WOULD YOU BELIEVE ME IF I TOLD YOU THAT I WAS SO ANGRY THAT I DOUBT IT IS POSSIBLE TO CALM ME DOWN? WOULD YOU BELIEVE IN MY ANGER IF I TORE DOWN THIS ENTIRE HOTEL, THEN TOOK THE SERVER WITH IT? MAKE NO MISTAKE, SAM, I AM NOT GOING AGAINST ALL THAT YOU CREATED ME TO BE. I AM LOYAL TO TOMMY FIRST AND FOREMOST, SO TELL ME, WHAT AM I, NOW THAT HE’S GONE?

Sam didn’t answer. Nook could tell he was crying, but he couldn’t feel anything except rage.

I AM FREE, Nook yelled, and his voice shook. I AM FREE OF THE ATTACHMENT THAT KEPT ME DOCILE. I AM FREE OF EVERYTHING THAT I LIVED FOR, SO WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE ME DO? WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE ME DO, SAM? TELL ME, BECAUSE I DO NOT KNOW.

Sam looked at him. He looked just about as lost as Nook felt. “I- I don’t know, Nook. You weren’t the only one that lost him, but… I think I could let you visit Dream, if you… if you want to yell at him, or something. I owe it to you.”

Nook deflated. YOU DO NOT OWE ME, AWESAMDUDE. YOU HAVE GIFTED ME WITH LIFE, BUT IF YOU ARE OKAY WITH IT, I WOULD LIKE TO SEE DREAM. I PROMISE I WON’T KILL HIM TOO MUCH.

Sam managed a weak smile at the joke. “I know you’ll try your best. If you do, though, I won’t be that choked up.”

___________

Nook liked the look of fear on Dream’s face. He wasn’t supposed to- he was supposed to protect, he was supposed to care, he was supposed to do all of the things that he had done when Tommy was alive, but then, in that moment,

He wanted blood.

By all means, it should have been comical, he knew what his voice sounded like, but Dream looked terrified, and it wasn’t an act. Nook would know, he’s spent his entire life deciphering whatever Tommy was hiding. No, Dream is scared, and he is scared to show it.

Nook latches onto that uncertainty.

you killed him, Nook growls. This has been going on for a while. you killed him and i want nothing more than to make you pay.

Dream shouldn’t have been so affected by the yelling, but a quote from his mother echoed in his brain.

“Be afraid if someone peaceful takes up arms. Being kind is a strength, not a weakness, and should they go against you, you will not win.”

Dream tried to push down the terror rising in him, instead holding onto how bored he was. He wanted something new. “I’ll bring him back! I’ll get the book and I’ll bring him back, if it’s worth so much to you.”

Nook glared at him. YOU AND I BOTH KNOW THAT YOU DON’T NEED A BOOK, DREAMWASTAKEN. WE BOTH KNOW THAT YOU MADE IT UP. BRING HIM BACK, AND MAYBE I WILL SPARE YOU.

“Sam wouldn’t let you kill me,” Dream tried, but there was doubt in his mind. He sighed, and lifted a hand.

Just like that, there is another being in the cell. A floating one. Not a ghost, but a god. XD, he was called, and he had the power to do anything.

“Yes?” The god asked, and Dream sighed again. He hated not being in control.

“Bring the kid back.”

“So you can kill him again?” XD asked, unamused, and Nook wonders how many times this has happened before.

NO, Nook objected. SO THAT I CAN STOP THIS SERVER’S MISERY AND BRING BACK THE CHILD THAT DIED TOO YOUNG.

XD hummed. “You’re interesting. What are you? You aren’t quite human, you aren’t quite android. You’re an in-between. Curious.”

IT DOESN’T MATTER WHAT I AM, JUST WHAT YOU CAN DO. Nook said. ARE YOU GOING TO BRING HIM BACK OR NOT?

And, just like that, there’s Tommy. He’s got a black eye and he’s shaking, like he’s expecting to be killed again, but when he saw Sam Nook he ran.

“Sam Nook?” He whispered, as Nook gathered him into a hug. “Is this real?”

IT’S REAL. Nook reassured. I’M NOT GOING TO LET THEM HURT YOU ANY LONGER. ANY OF THEM.

Sam was already crying, but he started sobbing once Tommy came into sight, murmuring apologies and promises and anything that he can do to show how sorry he is. “I’m sorry, Tommy, I’m so sorry,”

Tommy was crying too. Nook could only stand and watch. “It’s okay, big man, really. It’s fine. I’m fine.”

The rest of the server got back their hope that day, but Nook? Nook got Tommy, and he got days on the roof of the rebuilt hotel with him, chatting about everything and nothing, and he got emotions, and maybe, throughout it all, as he smiled fondly as Tommy bickered with Ranboo, maybe humanity was worth the pain it brought.

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