#i felt kinda artblocked today

[octo-blobs]

they invented being stupid

[morgan-squeezy]

i didnt felt like drawing rn but i knew i have to keep my followers entertained 🔥🔥 did this long hair scott drawing today and it kinda sucks bcs... err artblock i think but its aight. take it and have fun w it

[untitledmugwump]

Look at this reindeer i drew on my break. I love him. I named him Leroy. I haven't posted in a while. I kinda just stopped doing art stuff. It feels really good to get back into it. I definitely felt like I was lacking something. The pages after Leroy were drawn before him and they were that weird stage where you kinda have to relearn how to draw for a couple days. Also ALSO I took my driver's test today and got my license. That's all I thought I'd share. #reindeer #crayon #sketchbook #raccoon #opposum #eye #friend #snail #frog #grek #cat #fynnguliman #pencil #art #artblock #bababooey https://www.instagram.com/p/ClmedBAu6h9/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[thef0lly0fman]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLIVER!!

happy birthday to my number 1 scrunkly wunkly scrimblo dimblo, oliver !!! he really means a lot to me, so i'm gonna make a big, sort of sappy post under the cut :3

3 years ago today, august 5th of 2020, i created a funny little cat character based on a dream i had. little did i know he would become one of my favorite OCs of all time.

for about a month or so after creating him, i was totally fixated on him lmao. however, the fixation faded after a while and i kinda just. stopped thinking about him for some time.

during 2021, i was in one of the worst spots of my life. i was really depressed and going through a major artblock. like MAJOR artblock. worst and longest artblock i'd ever been through. one day, i was really tired of not being able to draw, so i decided to just scribble something down without worrying about how good it looked. i thought it might be fun to draw oliver again after quite a while of not drawing him, so i decided he should be the subject, with a new design.

after this drawing, i started thinking a lot about him again. he became a large source of comfort during the stuff i was facing that year. i dumped a lot of interests i had at the time onto him (weirdcore and liminal space stuff my beloved <3) as well as problems i had on my mind at the time. (feeling like i'm a bit too immature/uneducated for my age, really bad social skills due to rarely leaving the house all my life, etc.)

he also was just really fun to doodle and come up with ideas for honestly. just drawing or developing his story helped me get a break from the shit that was going on back then. he's a fictional character, but he was there for me during the darkest moments of my life when i felt like there wasn't anyone else for me to turn to.

and i think that's the main reason he's just so important to me. i fucking love this dumb cat. to this day i still project a lot of my struggles onto him and it helps me cope with it. he's my favorite little guy in the world and i love him so so much ^_^

thank you for reading all this if you did !!! i know it's pretty long but i thought it would be fun to talk about his origins and why i love him so much lol

[lavendel081]

Thank you to @snokoplasmic for letting me use one of their scenes as inspiration for this!

Read it here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/34485277?view_full_work=true

[alexandria-is-my-firstname]

More sketches as always,,,

First one would be a Charles Raisinburger sketch, didn't like his boss form and felt like making him more menacing,,, perhaps having boss phases, starting with this Chainsaw Man inspired design as his half or mid-form,,,

(Raisinburger having his hammer as a head that could combust like a rocket aand having a chainsaw-attached gun arm, a mix of Denji's chainsaw and Gut's prosthetic arm)

Second yet supposedly first sketch,,,

Monster Ethan wearing a bigass bath robe cause there's nothing else he could wear in that form, was kinda inspired by Lady D,,, in a way,,, (couldn't find a thicker pencil, reason why the sketch doesn't look visible)

Third sketch,,,

Fairy God-mother and Meowy, Rose's two besties. Ethan's dynamic with Meowy is basically the dad who doesn't want pets but ends up becoming bros, as well Ethan sorta mimicking Meowy without realization (really deepens the Catboy Ethan headcanon, damn),,, (I did had an idea where Ethan - before getting booted to death - was allergic to cats, reason why he isn't fond of cats nor' having any pets nor' there were any pets shown in his and Mia's house)

Idea of Meowy started from here,,,

Lastly,,, the continu-angst-tion,,,

Last sketches were supposed to be drawn for a previous post but artblock hit me like a brick, but here we are,,,

Sketch 1-5: Thought about Ethan saying something that resulted Mia to stare and have interest in him, the quote "the rain sure is beautiful, surely an angel is near" was both from my mom who believes the rain were led by angels, and from a cultural belief where rain brings good luck (mostly for farmers) and kudos to my friend who turns it into a dialogue,,,

Sketch 6-11: I think Ethan watches a lot of movies, being the geek one in the office while Mia barely watches any movies, giving a reason for the two to hang out and afterwards date,,, (edit: it was supposed to be Ethan saying "we should have a movie night", damn my dialogue-forgetting arse)

Sketch 12-15: Imagine the happiest moment and the most painful moment drawn in one paper,,,

Sketch 16-19: Dunno what to write,,, so, for the people of RE7,,,

Sketch 20-23: for 20-21, Ethan and Mia were about to plant a flower (dunno know what else to say),,,

Sketch 24: Alas,,, they snuggled,,,

Origin of the last sketches,,,

Before ending it for today, Ethan being a systems engineer and geeky everyman to becoming the megamycete's host and the second-coming of the black god felt like something particularly out of Devilman, the protagonist who once lived a normal everyman or avarage joe life only to become a devilman yet who's heart still retain humanity and love.

I mean, Mia and other characters aside,,, imagine being Ethan's co-worker from the beginning of RE7, your acquaintance or perhaps office buddy called you and informed that he found his presumed-dead-wife's location,,, and of course, you'd be surprised by the news yet skeptic knowing that 3 years had passed and how would your office buddy's wife survived all those years?,,, and,,, after the call, your office buddy was never seen nor' heard again except for the article/newspaper relating to the Bakers' estate,,, and you were the last person to hear your office buddy,,, and as years passed by, you're not aware that your ol' buddy turned out to be a moldy corpse, had a mushroom-messiah-daughter and (in the continuation) became a mold god,,, shit escelated hard,,, and you're just a human continuing your joey days til' your dead,,,

To make it short, the concept of some normal guy being put in a situation where they develop into a dangerous entity who's heart is still pure really fascinates me as both artist and writer (I do have original works involving with that concept but i'll share later),,,

And alas, Mia putting Ethan in varies dangers - resulting him becoming a moldy boi - and feeling overwhelming guilt yet still being loved by Ethan after all the painful events is really something,,, can't find the right words to describe it but yeah (LIES!! IT'S THE SONG "Juan Karlos - Kalawakan" THAT HAS THE VIBE!!). That's it for today,,,

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And yes,,, Ethan's now a god and here's how,,,

[rouge-heichou]

The past few months, and esp during my artblock that lasted I believe close to 3 months, I was just feeling like shit over my art.

Usually I'm not someone who compares because I know it's not good for me and I'm also pretty good at that. - And usually I'm also trying to tell myself "You're pretty good at what you're doing, you're not perfect but that's fine, that just leaves room for improvement."

But sometimes I was sitting there and see everyone around me improving so rapidly and I just felt like I was stagnant - I just really didn't see my own improvement.

BUT TODAY, Today improvement hit me in the fucking face.

It's not really the same pose, or god, I didn't even do the new one with the Hades intent, but while doing it, it just felt kinda familiar and realised I did something similar a while back.

And now I'm looking at both and I'm like

"Good fucking job Rouge, you actually DID improve. You actually did not reach your limit."

So yeah, feeling good about this now. :)

[greencharisard]

I promise I'm still working on that pokemon project, but it's a pokemon-trainer set of 6 of a 'mon that's very detailed so it's taking a lot of time, and I ended up artblocked.

The first pick was the first thing I did after almost a week of not drawing, what happened is roughly this:

- Was still working on-and-off on the pokemon pic set, and a new TLK one.

- Re-downloaded Steam for some reason I can't remember.

- Found out Spore is in there with all three packs  and on sale (base game+creepy & cute+ galactic adventures)

- caved and bought it cuz it's been years and I wanted the third pack and a convinient way to access it that wasn't a 10+ y/o disc/code I've used a million times on 5 or 6 PCs.

- Played it for 3 days or so, including a day were I completely messed up my PC by tampering with the core folders (went back to normal now THANK GOD) and played switch games for that day.

- Spent another half day after fixing my PC making an EA account to have a proper acc on Spore itself (had to go forum digging, it's a mess). Then played Spore more.

- In all of this watched one HK meme video and stated getting a bajillion of them in my YT recommendeds.

- Played a bunch of switch games for a day trying to stay away from Spore and start drawing (failed).

- Decided to start playing HK again at piss off o'clock in the evening. Still couldn't get past Hornet in Greenpath.

- Next morning finally beat boss 2 and open up a MASSIVE CHUNK OF THE GAME.

- spend the next 2 or so days playing that, including most of today.

So yeah, I fried my brain, in an attempt at grudging trough the art block I tried making an OC, then also tried making self-inserts because Hollow Knight has been my lifesource for the past few week or so, while Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss have been one of my latest obsessions for months, so it only felt fitting to morph my crittersona to fit in those universes.

- First I wanted to draw him as an imp, technically I already drew him as a demon/sinner, so a creature native to hell seemed like the next best AU choice. I didn't think much about what he would do, I just focused on the design part itself, and even then as you can see I had quite a few ideas I tried out on the side. One of the main reasons that made me think he'd fit as an imp is that in an earlier design he had that I never posted the tip of his tail was arrow shaped instead of being just a tuft like now (I should draw that impish form again sometime, he was basically like now but not a noodle). For the clothes I kinda used stuff I own irl as inspo, while thinking "what would fit the HH/HB style?" so I used a sleeveless hoodie, a black shirt (I have a lot of those, I just made one with a generic skull pattern here), and the only pair of jeans I own that I can actually stand to wear... escept by the time I remembered I wanted to draw those I had already drawn cargo pants on him out of habit, so I just colored them like jeans instead... I would probably love pants like these lmao. Oh and chains linked to the belt loops, I actually have those too, they're made form crafstore legit normal chains, not ones made to be actually worn like this. Listen I got them in high school I was an edgy basard and I didn't know where to get stuff like that so I just asked dad to get some like this instead ok. I have a pair of normal steel and a pair of black ones, here he's wearing the latter.

- The other idea was to turn him into a HK bug, more specifically, a mosskin tribe member from greenpath, cuz it's my favorite stage of the game with how pretty it is (listen the artwork of that game is goreous ok). He would probably be a bit of a loner/outcast, always hiding with his leaf/bush cape; the lighter fuzz is part of his body. I imagine he'd be a side character you have to go out of your way to meet and interact with, and depending on how you do so his outcome in the story may vary: one option is that he just stays like normal if you befriend him, the second is he succumbs to the infaction and he ends up being a secret boss an you have to kill him, a third however is maybe he does get infected, but if you do some sort of side quest before defeating him you can cure/save him still(?) Idk. His boss/infected form is partially inspired by aspids (because they're some of the most annoying enemies and I think that fits him/me well enough :') ), he probably attacks from a distance with a combo of spitting at you directly from the ceiling and throwing bubbles of infection around the stage by swinging his tail; maybe even releasing bursts of orange gas like some other enemies when you hit him (in later pahses). And yes, the name is a pun; I noticed the characters in this game either have descriptive names/adjectives, or normal names so I went with a combo of the two.

art and characters by me, do not copy, trace, repost, reuse ecc without my permission please.

[littlemissgeek8]

“Sometimes I make up my mind That I'll stop being so blind And tell him off real bad But then he turns on those charms And there I am in his arms And I forget why I'm mad I ought to tell him "drop dead!" But I keep loving him instead My momma must have dropped me on my head He's a demon, he's a devil, he's a doll “ --Betty Hutton, "He's a Demon, He's a Devil, He's a Doll"

Sorry it's nothing fancy today, hit another bit of artblock and it's just been kind of a grey, gloomy, non-verbal day today. But, I didn't want to let my art skills rust even for a day, so I decided to sketch something.

Basically this came about because I've been playing a ton of Fallout 4 lately and this is one of the songs on the in-game radio. I've been kinda low-key shipping Jenny and Chad for a few months now, and this just somehow really felt like it fit the way I see their relationship working. It's perhaps not the healthiest relationship, since Chad tends to be a bit of a lazy jerk. (to put it nicely ^^;;) But who knows, maybe Jenny will rub off on him? XD One can hope at least!

[rxanizmm]

a long long post about my drawings

Well, I’ve been thinking about posting this for a while now. I just... feel like I owe my followers some explanation. Even if most of them forgot about my blog and works already, I know there are some who still do remember me and I just feel guilty keeping them in the dark about what’s going on and why I’m not posting much. It took me a lot of thinking to put what I want into words. It’s scary, I’m really scared and I think ... I don’t really know. Can anyone even help me? Since it’s going to be long, I’ll just put the rest under cut.

So. For the past months my life has been kinda.. rough. My relationship ended, I had a really stressful time in uni, since it was the end of the semester. I had a lot of projects to finish and heard a lot of harsh words about my work. I’ve been thinking about opening commissions as soon as I finish my projects so I could buy a new tablet. My old bamboo is starting to act up and I miss the feeling of seeing my hand when I draw. I finished uni on 27th June. Today is 16th July. Have I gotten at least a penny? No. I pretty much wasted the entire time not drawing anything. And it doesn’t really affect me much. I remember I used to suffer when I couldn’t draw, I’d use every opportunity given to doodle at least. Now I don’t do anything. I play games, I watch videos. As soon as I open my art program, I close it again because it’s stressful. It’s stressful looking at that blank canvas. I thought it’s just an artblock. Or maybe I’m tired. Maybe I’m exhausted physically and emotionally and I need some rest. But it’s not that. I keep thinking about drawing, I think about what I want to draw, I look through artworks, tutorials, tips, speedpaints every single day. But I don’t draw myself. I’m scared because I know I’ll fuck up. I know it’ll come out bad and I’ll just disappoint myself. I know there’s this whole thing about how your expectations and your skill go through different phases, sometimes your expectations are higher than your skill, then your skill is higher than your expectations. It goes back and forth. But fuck, it’s like my expectations skyrocketed to Jupiter, while my skill is somewhere on the ground level. I tried to do redraws of my old works, I tried to work on my anatomy, I tried different styles. It just all looks so wrong to me, I wouldn’t want to show anyone. It got to the point when I really don’t want to even start drawing, because I know I’ll end up hating it anyway - so what’s the point? It’s a waste of time. I know I need to make mistakes and fuck up a bunch to improve. I know artists say ‘go and be bad at it, then you’ll get good at it’, but it’s like my brain refuses the first step. If I’m not good at it then what’s the point of doing it - I think. I look at my friends improving, making great artworks, achieving things - and then I look back at myself. I’m tired of drawing headshots over and over, but that’s the only thing I don’t fuck up much. Though lately, even those look bad to me. I’m scared I’m slowly burning out. I’m scared of drawing because with each disappointment I get less and less interested in drawing. And I hate it, because drawing is all I have. I can’t do anything else, really. I don’t have any other passion. I just feel so dull with everything. I still have art on my waitlist that I owe people, but how can I send them something I can’t even look at? It’s just not right. I wish I felt happy when drawing, like I did back then. When I was younger, my art was far from good, but yet I loved it and did it. My artworks were interesting, I would draw dynamic poses and multiple characters, and I didn’t care if I fucked up the anatomy or not. I had no fears, I just put what I had in my mind on paper the best I can. But now I’m stressed. It came out wrong, I can’t post it anywhere, what if someone comes and points it out? I’ll die of embarrassment. People have certain expectations of me. /I/ have expectations. Expectations that I can’t meet. And I can’t meet them because I can’t draw. And I can’t draw because I can’t meet my expectations. It’s an endless cycle. Can I ever get out of it? If you got through all this text until here, I congratulate you. And thank you so much for reading this. I just feel helpless, scared and down. I really want to just draw again.

[nureinebenutzeroberflaeche]

Art block & Nick Cave

Writing kinda calms me down, I enjoy writing things down, not stories or anything like that, just how I feel or what happened. today I painted a lot, it felt good, after a long time I could finally paint good, I crashed the art block in front of me. I painted myself, my body. As a painting, I even like my body. I should have studied art, instead I overcame an artblock, so I guess that day wasn't too bad. I also watched the movie "One more time with feeling", it was so great and emotional, I cried. The things he said in that documantary were really thoughtfull. I hope I can go to the Nick Cave concert.

[mylittlesparklingshadows]

I am officially ReyLo trash. I guess I already was ever since I watched TLJ a week ago. My other blog is filled with reylo posts to the brim. And I regret nothing. In fact, I made Reylo/Star Wars fan art for the first time. I only finished it just now. Took me 2 to 3 days. My graphite-stained hands are sore. Can't take a decent photo of it in nighttime. I shall tomorrow when there's proper lighting hehe. I'm kinda proud of it since it's my first semi-realism artwork. But I'm kinda ashamed with my shading skills lolz. It's nothing compared to the more amazing reylo artworks I've seen here in tumblr. But it's one way of showing my support to this (canon) pairing. At best it made me crawl out of artblock. 😂 Sou ka, otouchan is home, again! Thank God for the safe trip. He travelled for a whooping 7 hours coz there's no heavy traffic due to today's holiday. However... I'm back to work tomorrow!! 😢 Gosh I really wanna absent... but I can't coz i still have some unfinished business. Anyways, Marvey dropped by for a while earlier today to invite us for a cousins get-together at their home this saturday. The thought excites me! It's been a while I spent time with my cousins.. like I literally have been distant with them... hope to have a good time with them soon! Marvey also told us about his younger sister's recent fascination with Final Fantasy 9. She played by emulator, and is very much into it he said. Talk about mana sa mga insans! Gaming is really in our blood!!! 😂 Sore ja... 3 days holiday break felt too short.