#i feel very strongly about this. if u couldn't tell

[boudicca]

kelly thompson giving kate bishop a(nother) bi boyfriend and writing So Much bi subtext <333 VS kelly thompson not understanding literally a single thing about kate bishop as a character and ignoring all of kate's relationships with everyone except clint and america. and also being a bad writer 😐

[teyamsgrl]

I may sound a slut BUT imagine neteyam rlly overprotective and not allow u to go to an party that has boys in it, he just doesn’t wanna see his girl laying her eyes on an other boy 🙁, but there’s an rlly big party. EVERYONE is going to Ight? So we decided to sneak out…but turns out neteyam was acc at that party’s hanging out with his guy friends being a good boy.babes this is the bad part… u didn’t mean to talk with an other boy but u even laughed at his joke… sorry babes we all know how that turns out

❗️MDNI ❗️

OH I LOVE THIS THANK YOU ANON 🙏🏻

anything italicized is your internal thoughts/monologue

no fun without me ✧ neteyam

°˖➴ warnings: fem omatikaya reader, agedup!neteyam, possessive!neteyam, dom!neteyam, sub!reader, argument, semi public sex, dirty talk, degradation, oral m receiving, facefucking, fingering, edging, squirting, p in v, l-bombs / narlor: beautiful, mei: wet, fìtxan: so, mowan: physically/sexually pleasing or enjoyable

feeling left out was a feeling you disliked strongly, as you can imagine every other na'vi would agree with. it didn't help that your friends were bugging you all day about this party and talking about how they were crafting special tops and loincloths just for the event. it wasn't that you couldn't go, but rather it was preferred by your mate that you didn't. neteyam was undeniably an amazing mate, but he was pretty overprotective of you, especially around other male na'vi. you weren't sure why he was threatened by these other men, especially being the future olo'eyktan and one of the most envied hunters of the clan, but you did your best to respect his feelings and wishes.

tonight was different though. every na'vi your age was going to this party and you couldn't handle that left out feeling. you were gonna sneak out.

you quietly tiptoed around your sleeping younger sister, adjusting your top once you got outside of your family's hut. you headed further into the forest, knowing you were close as you heard an abundance of voices getting louder and louder with each step you took. as you finally breach the 'entrance' of the party, you hear a voice exclaim loudly; "Y/N! NO WAY!" you giggle at your friend, ay'olna, and jog up to give her a big hug. "what the hell are you doing here?! i thought-" you cut her off, "i know, but i just couldn't sit at home while everyone else is out here having fun, i deserve to have fun too! plus, neteyam won't know, he never comes to this stuff..." you smile, peeking into the cup she was holding. she smiles and hands it over, watching you take a sip before speaking, "i don't know, i overheard someone say he'd-"

"you came!!" rai'uk butts in, throwing an arm around your shoulder. thank god neteyam wasn't here. you laugh and lean into him, handing the cup back to ay'olna. "you won't believe what happened before you got here though! you know how you tripped on that vine over there the other week? well ay'olna did the exact same thing, and-" he bursts out laughing, causing you to join in from the sound of his infectious laugh. the smile on your face slowly begins to fade as your eyes scan the crowd, spotting neteyam's friends one by one; ikalu, no'ah, naran, even lo'ak, then... there was your boyfriend. staring you down a few feet away. fuck. you watch as neteyam jerks his head to the left, silently telling you to follow him. you clear your throat, "i- i'm just gonna go talk with neteyam.." you trail off and begin to walk away from your friends, ignoring their calls after you.

you catch up to neteyam further into the forest, not extremely far from the party but far enough where the voices were now quiet murmurs. you inhale deeply as neteyam stops in a patch of red-tipped grass, turning to face you with possessiveness very clear in his beautiful eyes. "what were you doing at the party?! we've talked so many times about this, the other men in the clan-" "are not going to steal me away from you, neteyam! i deserve to have fun too and party with my friends! you have no right to prevent me from that!" you shout back, your tail swishing vigorously behind you in frustration. "you don't get it, do you?" he grumbles, stepping closer so you two are now chest to chest. "what is there to get?!" "you're mine, my mate. even thinking of you looking at another man makes me crazy. i can't stand it..."

you lock eyes with him, the tension building as heat overtakes your body. his large hands grip at your hips, his fingers flexing and pulling you flush against him. "mine, right?" he whispers, leaning in so his lips are brushing yours. you nod, closing the minimal gap and pressing your lips against his. your lips move in perfect sync as they do each time you kiss, but the motive behind this one is much different. your lips are frantically moving against each other, small noises leaving your mouth as neteyam's hands roam your body, tracing each curve and dip. your hands fumble with his loincloth, trying to untie it from his tail in your desperate state. you smile as you pull it off and toss it into the grass, hands grazing down his torso and firmly wrapping around his hard cock. it was fully stiff, dark blue in colour and veiny, already leaking precum just for you.

you begin to stroke it, neteyam's jaw slacking at the sensation. you continue moving your hand up and down his shaft, it hardening even further with each glide. neteyam's hand comes to rest on your shoulder, ushering you down onto your knees. you had been in this position many times before, opening your mouth instantaneously and looking up to lock eyes with neteyam. "that's my good girl.." he breathes above you, guiding his cock into your drooling mouth. with his size, he completely fills your mouth, his tip hitting the back of your throat. you whine and slightly gag around him, his hips stagnant as he watches your eyes glisten with tears waiting to spill over. his large hands move to your head as he pulls his hips back then thrusts them for the first time, beginning to fuck your face.

his moans start to fill the space around you both, along with you gagging on his length. "fuck- you're such a slut, letting me use your mouth like this... shit" he groans out, his one hand moving to grip your chin as he keeps thrusting, tears now running down your face. "look at those tears... is it too much for your little mouth baby?" he chuckles, holding you down for a moment before pulling you off of him. you gasp for air, saliva dripping from your mouth as you're still face to face with his cock. neteyam comes down to your level, hands travelling the curves of your slender body. "lie back" he hums, skillfully removing your loincloth before your back hits the grass underneath you.

you spread your legs without your mate having to ask as he kneels between them, his left hand gently resting on your lower stomach while his right slowly begins to circle your clit, puffy under his touch. your efforts to try and grind against his fingers failed as he pressed you down, the circling of your clit slowing even more. "neteyam! please!" you whine, reaching for his wrist in an attempt to get him to continue. "what? what could you possibly want? hm?" he provokes, sliding his middle and ring finger through your wetness. you whine more at the touch, "finger me, please ma'teyam, fìtxan mei". your back arches immediately as his fingers push into you, your pussy clenching around them. "thank you, oh eywa-" you mewl, hardly able to control your noises. "that's it, take my fingers baby.." he whispers, the speed of his fingers bringing you close already. your moans start to increase in volume, chest rising and falling rapidly. "i- i'm gonna-" before you can finish your sentence you feel neteyam pull his fingers out, sucking them into his mouth as he watches you squirm from the loss of orgasm.

"that's not fair!" you exclaim, sitting up to face him. "oh but it is..." he smirks, ushering you back to your previous spot, his hand pumping his cock a few times. he lines himself up before taking your legs and pressing them back against your chest, your hands gripping his forearms as he enters you finally. your eyes flutter shut as he stretches you immensely, his fingers pressing hard into your thighs. "so tight still.." he groans, beginning to thrust and gain momentum while the squelching sounds of your pussy become very prominent. "neteyam fuck, holy fuck" you moan loudly, mind completely jumbled. "i know, narlor... you're so fucking good" he pushes your legs back even further (which is somehow possible) before picking up his speed, slamming into you at an ungodly pace. "oh great mother! shit!" you squeal, your hands now grasping at the grass below you so tight that you start to rip it out from the ground. "fìtxan mowan... that's my girl" neteyam growls, one hand coming back to your clit and toying with it rapidly. "so close babygirl- cum with me, come on, show me" he moans, the knot inside of you forming once again.

all you can do is whine and mewl as neteyam starts to cum, his cock twitching inside of you as you're about to fall over the edge again. "fuck yes! fuck, cum for me, cum for me.." he breathes, his own orgasm just finishing as yours begins, his cock getting pushed out of you as you squirt, gushing all over your own thighs and his cock. "oooh that's it, yes.." he admires as your legs shake, your mouth open with no noise escaping from the pure ecstasy that was your orgasm. you giggle as you come down, reaching for neteyam. he leans over you, pressing his lips against yours lovingly and smiling into it.

"i love you" you smile at him after the kiss, pushing a braid behind his ear. "i love you too, sorry for the- you know... possessiveness" he blushes softly, taking your hand and pressing a kiss to each knuckle. "it's okay, it made for good sex".

[vulpixisananimal]

Carrion!Sif AU, Chapter 2

ACT 2, The Smell

(You wake up.)

(. . . What.)

(You, you were checking for traps in the hallway and couldn't see, smell, feel anything until the very last second and then-)

"Siffrin!"

(It was Mirabelle. She walked up you you just like last time and just like then just started, taking to you!)

"Good morning! Or, w-" >>> "-but not too long!"

(You stared at Mirabelle as she walked off. The scent of that soap she used even stronger than last time. She, she said the same thing, same exact thing?!? But, but wait you- How- how did-)

(Did you-)

(DID YOU JUST DIE?!?!?!)

(You did!! You must have!! You just walked into that hall and said everything was fine and you died!!! You didn't see anything!! Smell anything!! AND YOU STILL DIED?!?!)

(You're USELESS!!! It's your JOB to find traps and you DIED!!! You didn't even get a glimpse of the King and you just got squished flat!!! STUPID, STUPID STUPID!!!)

(AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

(Okay you're over it now.)

(You sit up, dizzy. And now absolutly starving. Your stomach growls. Stars, why are you so hungry again??? Ugh, and now you're gonna have to wait untill tonight, again! You grip the grass beneath you, taking a breath, once, twice, and three times. You're ok, Sifrin. You're ok. You're back here, and now you can do better this time.)

[You got the "Memory of Looping!" You'll always remember this.]

(. . . What was that voice?)

(You stand up, looking around. You could smell the birds, the people, everything around you. Come on, Siffrin. You'll be okay.)

[. . . You should come to the Favor Tree when you have a second, Stardust~]

(You shudder, Stardust?)

>>>

". . ."

(A. . . A star?)

(You had gone straight to the favor tree to see just, what just happened. And, there was a star sitting there, a star person.)

". . . My! Struck speachless at the sight of me, aren't you~?" (The star put a hand to their mouth like they were laughing at you.) "You're so cute, Stardust~"

(Stardust?!?) "U-uhm--"

"Aww, Siffrin. Look at you, all lost and confused~"

(?!?!?!?) "How, how do you know my-"

"Why wouldn't I know, you're Sif! Siffrin! No middle name, no last name~" (The star leaned back against the favor tree.) "Now I know you must be quite overwhelmed, with this being your first loop and all~"

"My. . . ." (You shake your head, this was all a lot to take in, and. . .)

"Oh where are my manners! Take a seat, Stardust, there's plent of room~"

(You look between the star and the root of the tree. Who, who was this?!? You couldn't tell, they smelled of, sugar. Strongly of sugar, and nothing, and a bit of something that smelled a bit familiar.)

(. . . . . . You decide to sit down.)

". . . . . ."

". . . . . . . . . So! You're stuck in a time loop!"

>>>

"Phew, Bonbon! That was DE-LI-CIOUS!!"

(Deja Vu.)

(So, you're in a time loop. Loop was, here, and helping you out. But, that was okay! Great, actually! That means that you could be useful! And that makes it okay, doesn't it? You could get used to this, used to dying. Something about it, it felt familiar, and that felt, comforting? Why should it feel comforting?)

(. . .What were you thinking about again?)

(Anyway! You ate up your food even faster than last time. You felt famished! Even more so than before! But you had to pace yourself at least a little. Right? Don't cause a scene.)

(This'll be fine!)

>>>

(It was right there.)

(It was right BLINDING THERE!!!)

(Right in front of your stupid! Blinding face!! A little hidden switch in the side of a pillar! How!! How could you miss it!!! Stupid, stupid stupid stupid!!!!!)

(You breathe in, and out. Fine, you flip the switch.)

(CRACK!)

(THUD!!!)

(. . . . . There's a pause, a large rock fell a few feet back.)

". . . . Let's go, everyone."

"W-wow! Not even phased! Huh!" (Isa says, falling in step as you lead everyone along. They were scared, worried, you could smell it, it's fine, though, nothing bad can happen now.)

>>>

"Why the need for an armory and weapons in the first place?" (Asks Odile)

(It was a small room, a few spears on a rock, a sword on the wall. The others were talking as you looked around. The smell of sugar only got stronger.)

(You weren't paying too much attention to the conversation, once they were done, you moved on. What else was around the room? There was a big steel thing with a stone on it, and a big brick, thing- O-OH, you take a big step back.)

"You're alright, Sif!" (Isabeau says, reassuringly.) "I don't think anyone will be using this forge aaaaany time soon."

"It's not even hot!! Dummy!!" (Bonnie walks over to the forge and kicks it.) ". . . Ow."

"Be nice, Bonnie." (Odile adds, giving you a look of sympathy.) "You can't exactly controll these things."

"Too true! Let's get going, then!" (Isa finishes, you nod, leaving the room. Fast.)

>>>

"Do you guys, smell that?"

(You had to ask. You had to because it was getting unbearably strong! The SUGAR! The sweetness!! It honestly was driving you a little mad and stepping through the halls only made it worse!! You knew, it was LEADING somewhere!)

"Smell. . . What?"

"I don't smell anything."

"Hmmmm, maybe?"

"Is it the sugar?"

(You turn to Bonnie.) "Sugar?"

"Yeah, sugar!" (They sniff the air.) "It's been around since we got in here. Super sugary."

(Huh.) "Guess I'm not crazy then."

"Hehe, I wouldn't say that!"

(You all laugh, and move on. Right, sugar, that was fine. Just a bit of sweetness. You all walk on, through the hall, to the door at the end. The smell got stronger, why here? Was it a food storage room? Well, you were about to find out anyway. You open the door and walk inside.)

(You gag and stumble to a knee, the smell was WAY. WAY TOO STRONG. Your eye was watering, it was unbearable. You felt Isa kneel down to your side.)

"S-sif! Are you alright?!?" (He asks, worried.)

"S-so strong-" (You choke out.)

"C-careful! There's-" (Mira starts, you look up, there was a weird sadness in the room you didn't even see! You could barely see anything, anyway. It noticed you all, and charged.)

"Gems, Siffrin, get up!" (Odile takes a combatitve stance.)

"R-right-" (You stumble to your feet, gripping your dagger, battle time, just, don't, don't think about the smell, don't, get, distracted--)

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(Obligaroey @traumaboyexo <3)

[takami-takami]

hii I love all ur posts and writing !! (bare with me english not my native language but talking with people helps)

just wanted to ask what do u think hawks would be like when thinking abt getting married, some people think he isnt that type of person more like douchebag / playboy etc but hes a sweetheart deep down considering everything that happened to him (and "mean!hawks" too IDK hes prob just a annoying tease in bed) anyways i was thinking about it earlier and i was like wtf would he do, im sure he would do it in private but other than that idk because the commission, planning, what are ur thoughts? maybe he would be really anxious thinking about it but he knows ur the one? nobody has written about this like for real ( i THINK) if u or someone else has tell me PLEASE. i"ve been thinking about it for a while (a Lil embarrassed ngl)

just asking what u think in general what he would do bc like said havent seen anyone talk about it

at the start of the relationship, he's probably like nervous to even be in one but after like 3 months or something he probably wants to be with you forever and never let u go, it would be a bit hard for him to plan it all out because he barely has anyone to talk about it other than you unless he hired someone which no.. i think because he wants to make it special from his heart + the commission giving him any time to do anything let alone a honey moon and blah ya know?

other than that im stumped no idea

(u can ignore idm !! )

(MHA season 6 episode 3 spoilers ahead!)

People say Hawks is a playboy, but that couldn't be further from the truth. He's such a sweetheart. Self sacrificing.

I think he falls hard. It is extremely difficult for him to trust, given not only his childhood, but his time with the commission, too. With the amount of undercover dirty work they made him do, there's no doubt they taught him from very young to trust no one. The message from his parents and the commission is clear: he can only trust himself.

But... We know Keigo still feels; so, so strongly. Dabi mocks him for it, mocks him because he can't stop himself from being "distracted by his emotions". Even when he knows what he's "supposed" to do in the Twice scene, he hesitates because it fucking hurts, he still feels pangs of empathy. Despite all he was taught about shutting off your emotions, that's something he still can't do completely, even if he ultimately decides to do the opposite of what he feels.

So. It would take a very, very long time for him to truly open up to you, much less recognize his feelings as romantic (he goes through a stage of denial, because he never saw himself actually being "selfish" and allowing himself a real relationship). But once he has his mind made up, and really makes that decision to be yours, he will not give that up for anything. He follows through to the end.

I think he always wanted to get married. Not in the way his parents did; he never did have a good example. But the way people on TV did, the way they wax poetic about in songs he never understood. He is definitely the marriage, soulmates kind of guy. He craves that slow, that domesticity, to protect.

You make such a good point that he wouldn't know what to do because he has no one to talk about it with... But he knows he wants it to be special. He would fret and fuss so hard about it being perfect, trying to impress you and stressing over it so badly.

Until one day, you grab his hand and tell him, "lets get married, right here. Right now." It doesn't have to be official to be entirely authentic and in love and you. To the backdrop of the dim light of a summer evening, under the flourescent glow of the string lights adorning your back porch, you have your first dance to the tune of the creaky wood beneath your feet. You dance to the tune of a love song he finally understands.

[hwnglx]

could u pls do how beomgyu acts when he’s around his crush ?? <33

how would beomgyu act around his crush?

based on tarot. i do not know these idols personally. energies are always changing. what i say is NOT straight fact. pls take it with a grain of salt!

pagow, 7osw&knosw&6ow, ju, 2ow, 5oc, 10oc, 3osw

+ having his ☼ in pisces and ☾ in scorpio, beomgyu is a deeply emotional and sensitive person in general.

however, once he's in 🥰 mode, he can get surprisingly assertive and fiery. his aries venus and sagittarius mars, gives him this active and direct approach when it comes to romance.

having a crush, is something that enables a lot of passion and excitement within beomgyu. it makes him feel alive. his heart beats strongly, his adrenaline shoots up, he gets very enthusiastic and passionate. there is this almost childlike exhilaration he will feel. he's definitely the type to get all thrilled over a single text message from his crush.

he'll be incredibly curious about his crush. once he develops interest in a person, he wants to know everything about them. he wants to know what his crush likes, what they dislike, what they enjoy doing, what they don't enjoy doing. beomgyu won't do this in a particurlary creepy manner, but his crush will just be so interesting to him. he'll wonder a lot like.. "wow what could this stunning person be like?" he'd ask them to tell him about themselves if they ever went on a date and pay a lot of attention to his crushes words. he'd also be very interested in learning about the person's views on deeper things, and love to have a lot of meaningful conversations about topics that go beyond the standard small talk.

beomgyu will do a lot of thinking and pondering over how to proceed, on his own. he isn't really the type to let everyone know he has a crush on someone, and is a person who prefers keeping this matter more private.. however, he'll be pretty direct and straightforward in his pursuit.

he showcases his interest in someone in a confident manner, and won't be afraid to make his liking obvious to his crush. quite the opposite, he really wants to act on his feelings. definitely the type to just come up to a person he finds interesting and flirt with them directly. compliment them bluntly, like telling them they're probably the most beautiful person he's ever come across, he couldn't resist talking to them. he can be very straightfoward and smooth, great at flattering. to the extent where it could surprise some people, since he usually doesn't seem like an extremely blunt guy. but in romance, he's all in.

he will be incredibly attentive. i can see him being amazing at keeping intimate eye contact and closely listening to every word his crush says, just letting them speak and rarely interrupting them. beomgyu will be excellent at making his crush feel thoroughly listened to, cared about and special. he's the type to make his crush feel better about themselves so naturally, whether that's through compliments or just the raw attention he gives them. he really wants to make sure his crush exactly knows how crazily attracted he feels towards them, and is very eager to make them fall for him as well. having his crush like him back, will be one of the best feelings in the world for beomgyu, and boost his ego a lot.

- i can sense that there seems to be a bit of an inner conflict he can deal with, because of this obvious clash between him as a person, and him as a lover. beomgyu does have high standards, not only towards his partners but also himself. it's easy for him to feel regret over some impulsive things he said or did in the heat of the moment, look back on his conversation with his crush and think "i shouldn't have said that" or "did i overwhelm them?" "did i ruin my image?" "do they think i'm too much?" he puts a lot of importance into his crushes opinion of him, and can be afraid to make himself a fool by being too excited or direct sometimes. he wants to appear like the perfect man to his crush, someone they could never say no to.. so, he'll put a lot of effort into making the best impression on them, however deep inside he can struggle with a lot of doubts and worries.

beomgyu doesn't like seeming like a very sensitive or overly emotional person in general, since that's a part of him he hesitates to showcase openly. he doesn't like making himself very vulnerable. so, especially towards a person he's interested in, and wants to appeal to, it's easy for him to hide behind a more confident and strong facade. he feels like his "softer" side is one that is much more complex, and difficult to like.

[lucinatta]

GIRL OK I'm going to vent. If u want to read that'd be great cause I want to know if I'm in the wrong here lol. It's long tho so no need <3

Last monday was my birthday, it's a sucky day to have as a bday so what I did was invite my friends over for dinner on sunday, wait till midnight, blow the candles, eat some cake, open presents, and send everyone on their way at about 1 am so all of us could sleep relatively early. These were like, my "important" birthday plans, because they happened on my actual birthday. I invited my closest friends + 2 girls my friends have been dating for about 7/8 months, because a) I like them! and b) I knew they were spending that weekend over at my friends' places anyway so bringing them was easier than not.

Context for later: The 2 friends with the girlfriends are male, those are the only 2 partners that are external to the friend group, there's 9 of us, and we've been friends for about 10 years.

Anyway, so when I set that plan up on the gc, I explicitly asked both my friends to bring their girlfriends. They told me they would, they did, everything went great. After sunday's plan, I proposed we go out to dinner and then for drinks this saturday so I could have like proper bday plans that don't get cut short because everyone has to get up early for work. Everyone said they could come. Great, no issues so far.

Issues start yesterday, in a gc I'm NOT in that my friends made so they could discuss my present for sunday + a surprise cake (that now I know about lol) for saturday. This is not uncommon, we have bday groupchats for everyone in the group. One of my friends (girl) proposes the surprise cake, and apparently one of my male friends says that his gf can make the cake (as a gift) because she works as a baker. My friend (girl) says that it's not a good idea, since it be weird to have her make a cake for a plan she's not invited to. Apparently this caught both my male friends off guard, because they were under the impression that both their gfs were invited and had already told them about the plan. Now, to be clear, I didn't invite them and at no point did I imply they were invited. Not necessarily because I didn't want them there specifically, but rather because I wanted a night out with just my friends. These 2 girls come to a lot of our plans as a group, but when they do it's because we either tell them to, or our friends ask if they can come. NEITHER OF THESE 2 THINGS HAPPENED!! I want to clarify though, I didn't and still don't feel strongly about them not coming, and if it had been up to me, I would have liked both my friends to reach out to me and let me know that they had misunderstood, that they thought the girls were invited and that they had already invited them, and I would have told them to bring them!! like it really wasn't a big deal. Instead they got upset and told their girlfriends that they couldn't come because I DIDN'T WANT THEM THERE, which sounds sooooo much more drastic than what it actually is. So I find myself in a very shitty situation with NO WARNING (because again, this started in a gc I'M NOT IN!!!), when one of my friends sends me this really long message about how sad and hurt he is and asking me if I'm mad a him or his gf or whatever, and how he had hoped that I would think of her as my friend after all this time. To clarify she's not my friend, she's my friend's gf (that I really like!!), and "all this time" is 8 months lmao. Now these 2 girls think that I hate them, and I have to apologize for something I DIDN'T DOOOOOO. Like this wasn't my misunderstanding, I wasn't even on the gc!! and like what options do I have, realistically? Telling them to backtrack and invite them back gives major "you can come, IF YOU WANT" vibes and I hate that, and telling them that, no, they're not invited sounds like I don't like them or want them there. Like both my options suck.

Things have smoothed over now with my friends but I know they're mad about their gfs being hurt and SO AM I but like, it's not my fault!!! They (my friends) assumed they (their gfs) were invited when they weren't!! But again, it wasn't something I felt strongly about! like honest to god idk why they didn't just tell me they had invited them because they thought they were invited before stirring the pot behind my back. Now everything's a mess and things are tense because the rest of the gc sided with me. And I'm not gonna lie I'm kinda mad that they made this my problem on my bday week. Like couldn't you have waited a week to bring it up?? Anyway that's it lmao

[bnhaobservation]

How much do u think Enji and Touya loved each other? Do u think Touya still loves Enji? (And the family too ig)

Let's start from the easy part, with the premise that, of course, this is my opinion and my understanding of the story. Different people might have different understanding and opinions. I'm not Horikoshi, I don't own the truth.

The Doylistic approach first.

Since this is a story targeted to young people that aims to a happy ending and to transmit positivity and so on, I'll be very surprised if it were to end with Touya not loving his family and this having no hope to be fixed. The message would be that the situation can't be saved, that once you screw up there's nothing you can do. Which is realistic but it's a bad lesson to give to youths.

Shonen manga generally prefer to drive home how, with hard effort, you can overcome even Nighteye's predictions of the future, how there's always hope and nothing is the end.

So, of course, since the whole Todoroki family is putting an effort in saving Touya and wanting to reach him and Touya has a sympathetic backstory that basically tells us he became a Villain (and not a Hero as he originally wanted) because his family screwed up, it would stand to reason that the story would reward all this by confirming it's not too late for them to be a family, a functional one.

And, of course, the same applies to Enji, as the story is likely meant to drive home how, despite all his mistakes, he loves his children very much.

Likely, to a Japanese audience, this is meant to feel even more hammered, as Enji is also one of the good guys and therefore needs to love his kids, never mentioning Enji is also the one that, in Horikoshi story, who is meant to be used to discuss of the family as Japanese people view it.

It's highly unlikely Horikoshi would want to promote the image of parents who don't love their children to young readers, more likely he's just interested in showing how parents can make mistakes but, despite them, they love their children and, eventually, (if they stay alive) they can even fix them (so as to get in line with the positive and hopeful message of the story).

The Watsonian answer now.

Touya's feelings (and Enji's as well) are complicate and complex.

Generally, when we talk about "love", we talk about the one of the pure and selfless kind, the one in which you care about someone and wouldn't hurt that person and prioritize that person's need or, at least, consider them as equally important as yours and so on. In short of the one we would call 'true love'.

Actually the definition of "love" is just that 'you like someone/something very much' where the definition of "hate" is 'you dislike someone/something very much' and the one of "indifference" is 'you feel nothing for someone/something'.

Why all those definitions?

We'll get at them soon.

Let's start with Enji because, again, it's simpler.

Enji loved his children. All of them. However in the past his love hadn't been of the 'pure' type, because it had been tainted by selfishness. When interacting with his kids, he has always prioritized himself, his wants and his needs.

He had them so that HE couldn't feel negative feelings, when he didn't know what to say to Touya he dumped him on Rei so HE wouldn't feel uncomfortable, he ignored Fuyumi and Natsuo because HE was busy with his own Hero ambitions, he forced Shouto to train because HE wanted Shouto to fulfil HIS ambitions.

So, even though he loves his kids, for most of his life he had their needs taking a backseat compared to his own, which is... kind of like the ultimate sin in a parent, as we expect a loving parent to always PRIORITIZE his kids.

Enji doesn't, and, in this, he's helped by the culture he lives in. Japan is a country who for centuries strongly believed in what Enji did, kids being viewed as something that existed to serve the parents' ambitions, needs, whatever and nothing else some things Enji did were, for years, presented as something absolutely natural and acceptable for a parent to do in manga and anime.

I've talked in reply to another ask to how in manga/anime they used to depict the idea of tough love and how Enji is probably one of Horikoshi's attempts to subvert that old trope (there are others through the manga).

Now there's a problem that come with being selfish.

Caring about yourself is important, but stretching things too thin is wrong.

There's a nice Aesop's Fable "The Horse and the Donkey" that discusses this (interesting enough it seems in the English version the fable is called "The Ass and the Mule" with the Horse being the Ass litterally and figuratively).

A donkey and a horse travel together with their master but the donkey is overburdened so he asks the horse, who is carrying nothing, help in carrying his load. The horse refuses so, when the donkey dies, the master put all the load of the donkey on the horse PLUS the dead animal's skin.

The horse in the story didn't wish for the donkey to die, he had no ill will toward the donkey he just... didn't want to give up his own comfort. It was so nice he could travel unburdened by any load... why should he care about the donkey's problems?

And this works just fine for him, until the donkey's problems became HIS problems because he had refused to help the donkey.

While the story isn't meant to be a perfect mirror of what Enji did, it shows well the consequences of selfish behaviour.

Out of his selfish behaviour Enji causes his wife to be hospitalized, Touya to 'die' and his children to reject him as a father.

If he had left his comfort zone a little and cared about them more things would have gone differently... PLUS he gets the donkey's skin, aka Touya coming back from death to return with interests all the pain and the damage he suffered psychologically.

Enji's arc is one in which he tries to overcome his previously selfish behavior, in which he starts spending his nights thinking no more at what he can do to get rid of his envy for All Might, but at what he can do for his family, the family he loves, because he has realized his previous behaviour with them was wrong. And this includes his behaviour with Touya, the child he has mourned when he thought he was dead and that he can't fight not even when Touya attacks him.

Shouto fights Touya but Enji can't. He doesn't lift a finger against his son, his behaviour contrasting sharply with how he was with Shigaraki. As far as Villains go, Shigaraki and Touya are the same, and Enji was more than willing to murder Shigaraki but he won't do the same with his child.

Since however he doesn't know at that point how to save him, how to stop him, he thinks he'll die with him even though he admits he never thought about dying before, he wanted to LIVE and atone but instead he's willing to die with him so that this time Touya won't be alone, dying a quite horrible death being burned alive.

So yes, Enji, for most of his life, acted in the wrong way with Touya. Even now what he's doing isn't the best he could be doing, but it's the best he could think of. There's love and it's finally he's trying to express it in the right way, leaving his comfort zone and doing things FOR HIS CHILDREN'S BENEFIT instead than thinking solely to himself.

It's of course a story, so it makes things simplers and, despite this, there's plenty more to say and I've just summarizing the whole thing as overwise this reply would be a 60 pages meta, so don't take this as all that there is.

And now we switch to Touya who, instead, is a more complex case.

Touya started by loving his family and, specifically, his father, very much. When he can't train any longer and feels Enji is ignoring him, he's desperate for his attention.

While from Enji's perspective Touya is disobeying him because he keeps on training, for Touya's perspective he's doing all that to make his father proud, to make his father see him again.

Then he burns himself alive, spends three years in coma and, when he finally comes home, he snaps under the belief his family has conveniently buried and forgotten him and comes to hate them all.

Even heard of the proverb "the greatest hate springs from the greatest love"?

That's his case.

So now it's just hate?

No, the problem is that in Touya's case love and hate or, if you prefer 'odi at amo' are the two faces of the same medal, his hate existing solely and specifically because his love also exist.

"I hate and I love. Why I do this, perhaps you ask. I know not, but I feel it happening and I am tortured." [Catullus 85 by Catullus]

If he could stop loving his family, if he could feel indifference toward them, then what he perceived as rejection wouldn't hurt and wouldn't push him to hate them.

You might say Touya loves his family but hates so intensely the way they handled him he came to identify their behaviour with his family.

He's not just trying to punish them for what they did, he's still trying to force them to look at him, only now instead than positive attention, he's searching negative attention.

It's something children do, in children getting the attention of adults is a PRIMARY need (and with attention I don't mean just the adults watching over them but also showing interest in what they do and giving them emotional care), if this need isn't satisfied there can be psychological consequences which can be pretty severe.

Touya is destroyed, physically and psychologically by his family's neglect.

Sadly, one of the maladaptative strategies to cope with neglect is to try to force the others to pay you attention, we see often in children who are neglected, how, when they realize that by behaving well they don't get attention, they resort to the opposite method, they misbehave to get you to look at them.

Touya becomes the opposite of what he wanted to become, if before he wanted to be a Hero, now he becomes a Villain and destroys society (which he views as complicit in the neglect he suffered) and tries to do the same with all he thinks his father hold dear.

The root is still the same, he wants his father's attention, he wants his father to finally look at him because Enji's indifference (and his family's indifference), the indifference of who he loves, kills him emotionally (and it almost has physically), but things had gotten so warped and out of control in order to have the attention he needs, he tries to kill them all as he can't see any other way for them to finally look at him and be with him.

In real life it would require a lifetime of therapy to unpack all this because, of course, his behaviour solves nothing, this doesn't really make him feel he's being seen, that his family is with him (never mention you can't go around destroying a country but we're talking about Touya's feelings for his family here). He needs genuine positive attention, attention that's given to him freely and unconditionately and out of love, and not because he forced their hand by 'misbehaving', or tried to humour them by making them proud.

He basically needs to feel loved because he's part of the family, not due to what he does or doesn't do, what he can or can't do.

And because he has this need, we know he loves his family, and because this need doesn't get fulfilled, he also hates his family and the two feelings are inescapably tied together and exist together. And yes, it's very warped because this is what happen when two hugely contrasting emotions exist in such a fierce way inside a person. Love and hate are often emotions which are tangled together in one way or in another (for example in Shouto and Natsuo they are in a very different way) but in Touya's case they aren't just tied together, they overlap. It's madness.

The other option for him would be, of course, for him to finally let go of his family, to get indifferent to them. In that case his hate would also eventually die with his love, because what he perceives as his family's indifference toward him wouldn't hurt him anymore, which would result in him not hating their indifference anymore, and so the hate inside him would have no fuel any longer and would die as well.

Honestly though, I don't think Horikoshi will go for this endgame.

The most likely solution to have a positive ending is for Touya to finally realize his family is sorry and not indifferent to him at all, that he doesn't need to kill them and himself to be with them.

Again, I've oversimplified the whole story because here we would need a 6000 pages meta for how complex the whole thing is, so please, forgive me if I didn't dig into it as well as the whole topic needed but the reply would have gotten too long if I had.

Again, all that is just what I think, I don't pretend to know the truth.

Thank you for your ask! I love to talk of the Todoroki family!

[bunnyluvs-blog]

Baby Blue Love (RottLeo x reader)

❥ Hiii loves so this is a Leo x reader inspired by the song "Baby Blue Love" by TWICE, (this takes place before the movie) this will be a one shot because i dont think i can do a full series for a while, school is making me wanna strangle my stuffies 😒 anyways enjoy !!

You've known the turtles about the same time April has, and you love those green reptiles to death. Sometimes you wish you could take them everywhere with you but you knew that couldnt happen. During weekdays, seeing the turtles was the only thing to keep you sane, but one of them was the highlight of it all. Leo, the leader, and the second oldest. While all of them were amazing, there was something about how Leo would "flirt" with you that just made you fall for him. He was touchy but in the way that didn't make you uncomfortable like it did with other people. If you wanted too you could go on forever about him, but sadly you had homework to do, and just like that you heard a knock on your window.

"Psst, open the window and let me in" you heard him quietly through the glass before you opened it. It was just leo today, which wasnt weird. Sometimes it would be everyone, or just Leo. "What are you doing here? Its almost 2am!" you said to him, it was a saturday and assignments from school somehow would their way onto your desk at home. "Wellllll i knew you were gonna be busy with school and i couldnt wait for you to come down to the lair, soooo i just came to you!" He said with a little to much enthusiasm but thats just how he is. You smiled and handed him one of your airpods, he accepted as you put in the other one. Y'all had this kind if relationship where words werent needed to make it feel not  awkward.

You shuffled your playlist and the song "baby blue love" started playing. Now no matter how much you tried not to, this song always reminded you of Leo. He was your baby blue love no matter what. You hummed along softly to the song as you did your work. Leo peeked over your shoulder to see what you were doing. "Whatcha working on?" he asked. "Math, tbh Mrs.Vincent has it out for me" you said resting your head on the desk. Leo took this as a sign to rub your shoulders. "Yk you could always work on it when the sun is out" he said sarcastically as u sighed. "But fr you need to sleep, its late even for you" he said picking you up and putting you in bed. Both of you were fine with the friendship where people couldn't tell if you dating or not but now, tonight. you couldnt have him leave you. And you didnt know why but you couldnt be alone.

"Leo." you said softly but strongly. "What is it pretty?" He responded. "Im in love with you." shit, thats not what you wanted to do. You just wanted to ask for him to spend that night but now he knows that your IN LOVE WITH HIM. "Haha very funny" he responded. Naur dude thinks your joking. You sit up and hold his face with your hands. "Im. Not. Joking" You could hardly see his face turn red but you still could. "I- im in love with you too, idk how or why but your always on my mind and you make me lose my cool when you laugh, i just, ive been inlove with you for a while" you hear him as he pours his heart out to you. You both looked at eachother for a minute until you giggled. "So does that mean were, together?" You asked softly. "Nope, i can't contain my love for you anymore mí amor" Lord, whe. he spoke to you in spanish it always had you melting. You patting the spot next to you on the bed and he snuffled over to it. Tonight woild he the first night you and Leo would be cuddling as lovers, not as friends, and damn it felt good

[lesbian-gnf-archive]

(im lurker anon but im going to assign myself an emoji now)

THOSE PICTURES ARE SOOOO TELLING like tone it down boy. i havent stopped to watched any of their streams (i was a huge fan of minecraft when i was a kid but i havent played in ages and im not too interested in gaming) but they seem soooo sweet together :] i see their clips around here a lot and its always very nice! might watch some of their streams when i have the time

its so weird to know how people were mean to dream when he came out because it cant get any more vile than that. sexuality is a very personal thing and i think everybody should have their freedom to explore it in whichever way they feel most comfortable. being under the public eye at all times must make the experience so much harder :/ but glad hes feeling comfortable with his community to share his experiences and explore his queerness!! thats really really nice and im happy for him

also pls pls tell the rose quartz elephant story im so curious about it - 🌼

Hello hello hello!! Ur right he's always been uhmmm Like That like the fact that he looks the same when talking to him before and after seeing his face and it's always been so full of love and warmth and ohhhhh he loves that boy to death.

They are the sweetest, they have been friends together since 2016 and Dream said that he was 19 and cocky and studied the YouTube algorithm so he went to George who just finished college with a computer science degree and said "I'm going to blow up, come with me" and now three/four years later Dream has 31 million subscribers and George has 10 million and they live together and also with their other best friend Sapnap (who Dream met when he was 13 and Sapnap was 11 on a hunger games server, Sapnap said "type 123 for Skype team" and Dream responded "123" and they've been best friends since and call each other brother even if not through blood, they're very sweet and I love them). And they're dating and they're in love and they've made it and I'm so proud of them.

I strongly recommend watching their streams if u ever have the time!! And honestly I'd even recommend Dream's manhunt videos, they changed Minecraft YouTube community to what it is today and Dream edits them to be very cinematic and to tell a story. You don't really have to like or know anything abt Minecraft to enjoy them, they're just overall really fun and cool (the last one was February 2022 it's also one of my faves).

And yeah, Dream has always suffered a lot online because he was faceless for most of his career so it was easy for antis to be cruel bc they couldn't associate him as a person. And when he face revealed it had already been 3 years of dehumanizing him that it just kind of happened, he's somehow become the internet's scapegoat and my heart breaks for him. But thankfully he doesn't care that much and he's living his best life now that he can go outside for the first time in 3 years and enjoy life and experience it all again and this time with his boyfriend and brother

[yellowcry]

The brain is flooded

Chapter 2

Bruno ran. He didn't know where; he just wanted to get away. Why was he reacting like that?! The family reacted to him way better than he thought they would. It was just too much. He used to be alone, sitting in the small room in silence, only with rats quietly squeaking. But now there were too many people talking to him, asking about what happened... He just couldn't stand it. The voices, touches, and endless eyeing on him... It was overwhelming. 

The small buildings rushed past him. Bruno was choking on his own breathing; his side was aching from exhaustion. But he wanted to get away. He didn't want to stay with anyone, to think about it... to hear their cruel whispers. Maybe it was stupid or childish, but he just couldn't stay here. It didn't matter if he was alone; this awful and degrading denunciation was screaming in his head.

"He's causing misfortune."

"He's seeing bad things, so everyone would be miserable."

"It's not true! I'm not causing anything!" Bruno yelled at the air, his voice hitched from panic. He didn't want to be blamed for things again! Why... What if they sent him back? He didn't want to hear them; he didn't want to be expelled again, this time not by himself. He was already sick from hearing cracking inside Casita and from being barely able to see his family at all for years. He couldn't handle the idea of actually never seeing them again, left alone some even worse scenarios.

"TÍO!" A strong hand grabbed his shoulder. Bruno gasped in horror, desperately trying to get away. 

"L-let me go! I... I won't do anything!" He begged, feeling the tight grip on his shoulder. He was trembling rapidly, very scared that it might be someone who still held some hatred over an old vision. "I'm sorry! I didn't mean anything bad with whatever vision it was!" He begged, gibbering in panic.

"D-don't worry! Just listen to my voice, okay?" It was low-female tembre. Bruno closed his eyes tightly, thinking of who it possibly could be, but his mind was jumping around at too rushing pace to actually remember anything.

The voice spoke again. "Take a deep breath, alright? And tell me, Where are  we?"Bruno winced in surprise. Why would anyone ask him to see present? Oh, wait, didn't he lose his gift already? When Casita fell?

He looked around frantically, spying on any sign of explanation. "E-encanto..." he muttered. "It's..." He tried to remember exactly where he was supposed to be. "It's maybe around four streets from the main plaza." He guessed so due to how far from here was the church. A neat lines of colorful houses surrounded them, Bruno strained his eyes to read the sign over a building behind the woman. "The tavern is here..." 

The woman, who was recognizable now, squeezed his shoulder supportively, as if trying to hold Bruno from the sea of gazes. "Great, do you hear anything?" The low voice now clearly sounded like Luisa as Bruno forced himself to listen to her. He couldn't understand why Luisa would need this, hoping that she wouldn't do anything to him. At the next moment, guilt hit him. Of course she wouldn't; how could Bruno even think about this? 

He held his breath for a second as he raised his chest, staring at the ground. He saw how strongly his knees were shaking. The old signboard was slightly creaking in the wind. Birds were flying above their heads, singing something to each other, and cutting through the thick air. The water dripped from a broken gateway. There was some strange clicking sound that Bruno couldn't understand.

"A lot of sounds, heh..." But it also might be because Bruno spent ten years in complete isolation that it was hard to tell if those words were 'many'. "L-like that tavern sign or birds..." He moved his hands quickly while speaking. "And water's dripping." Bruno could tell that Luisa's face became slightly more worried on the last example. She muttered something about the work under her nose, her eye twitched a little, making this strange clicking sound.  

Luisa let out a long breath, filled with exhaustion, before she looked at Bruno again. "Okay, what can you feel?"

For a moment, he focused on the firm, gentle grip on his shoulder and his old, oversized ruana which always brought him some childhood comfort, like a little gentle hug. Which especially contrasted with the tight cuffs of his shabby shirt.

Bruno spoke out again. Luisa, who was obviously kneeling down this entire time, slimed at him and ruffled his hair, forcing Bruno to let out an annoyed huff. But he had to admit that he felt way better right now. When the panic got into the background of his mind, Bruno was able to be in present. Not in the past hateful whispers, nor in the endless possibilities of the future. 

There was only Luisa; no one was blaming him for things that happened ten years ago. It was okay... There weren't any distrubing gossip or dissapointed gazes; his family didn't hate him. 

"Thanks, I... feel better." Bruno scratched the back of his head awkwardly. He remembered weakly how he once told Luisa to do something like this while she had a panic attack. Bruno hoped that she just remembered it from this single time, but he couldn't be sure. 

Luisa nodded, patting his shoulder. "You're welcome!" She stood up, rubbing off her skirt. It was strange to believe how much Luisa grew in those ten years. Of course, Bruno saw her through the crack in the wall, but being just next to her felt completely different. Luisa wasn't a five-year-old who was running around and testing her gift; she wasn't an eight-year-old who was crying over a broken fence. She was... Gosh, Luisa is nineteen now. And she was towering over Bruno as if he were a child. Even if he gave credit to the fact that he was pretty short, Luisa still grew up so much.

"But really, kid, thank you.." Bruno smiled, making Luisa wince in surprise; he guessed people didn't used to call her 'kid' now. Thankfully, for Bruno, it wasn't important. All his sobrinos would always be his 'kids'. Even if not his.

Luisa smiled at him, putting her hands on her sides. "That's what family is for." For a moment, she looked at the broken gate and bit her lip. "Do you want to go back at...." she stumbled, seemingly trying to make a sentence that would make sense. "...at whatever is left from Casita?"

Honestly, Bruno was still scared. Some logical part of him knew that his family loved him, but years in complete isolation made his overworrying personality even worse. And even with their best intentions, his family was still overwhelming. It wasn't a secret that the Madrigals weren't quiet people. Only a few of them could actually keep their voices and excitement down. Especially in moments like those. It was just a part of them. 

Luisa frowned, her brows arched worriedly. "You sure you're okay?" The sonorous ring of the church bell sent chills down his spine but Bruno didn't pay attention to this.

"Oh... Well" Bruno held his elbow, looking away. "Just a bit... surprised over everything!" It was technically also true; he really didn't expect to ever come out of the walls. "But... I mean... I guess you... missed me?" His voice was awkward, as if he were making a strange, unbelievable assumption.  

"Hey, of course we did! You're our tío Bruno after all!" Luisa assured him, patting his shoulder once again. "I... I missed your stories, you know?" 

"Oh... heh, sorry..." He smiled at her awkwardly, as if trying to make up for those years. "I can tell you another one later!" 

A kind smile spread across her face. "It... It would be amazing, tío Bruno."

But at first, Bruno still had to contact with others and remember how to actually talk to people again after so many years in the walls. But again, Luisa didn't hate him. No one seemed to hate him. Maybe it was going to be okay. Bruno hoped that wouldn't go too badly.

[dejabooooo]

So is Madoka actually happy, not just content, as the Law of Cycles? Because as I gather there's a lot of material strongly suggesting she just straight up isn't.

Director Shinbo has said something to the effect of the outcome of the TV series, "a human becoming a god" might be too heavy a fate for a girl in middle school to bear, the lyrics of Mata Ashita (the end song for the first 2 episode) might be... somewhat telling, becoming the LoC is directly called a fate worse than death in the original series, it's been strongly implied in various side materials (and directly by the MagiReco game apparently) that the LoC isn't actually much of an afterlife, more like a long peaceful sleep like some interpretations of the Buddhist concept of Nirvana, and Madoka herself doesn't actually have regular contact with the girls in her care outside of missions and such, and of course the old concept movie had the "what is happiness" thing about how God is denied the simple pleasures of life.

She might be watching over everyone she cares about but that isn't really a... relationship if her friends and family that aren't magical girls simply don't know she exists.

well thats a good question! because i don't think there is an incredibly definitive canonical answer. not a simple solid yes or no anyway.

one thing i did before writing "be not afraid" (which i assume is what ur here from?) was watch a video of ultimate madoka's quotes from magia record to get a feel for how she spoke in that form. one thing she stated repeatedly was that she absolutely did not regret her decision, she was happy with it. but being happy with her decision does not necessarily translate to her being happy in general. in fact one particularly heartbreaking line was about how she could see her brother drawing by himself and was sorry that she couldn't play with him.

so the argument that madoka is satisfied with her wish but it regardless comes at the expense of her happiness in almost the same way that devil homura exists is a very interesting thought.

I think because in canon these concepts are so immensely complex but our knowledge about how exactly they exist is somewhat vague, there are lots of different ways u can interpret it.

My personal depiction (which i fully admit to containing plenty of speculation) is this:

Madoka is absolutely lonely and not always happy as the loc. but she isn't in a constant state of happiness or sadness anymore than when she is a human. the thing about madoka kaname is that her happiness throughout the series is dependent on how much she's HELPING OTHERS. of course she becomes god as a middle schooler human girl, but in becoming the loc, she becomes something other than human. being in that state of nirvana, in that state of otherness, i can't imagine that the feelings and thoughts of this immense concept she becomes can translate directly into human ideas of happiness or sadness, i can't imagine emotions being completely definitive in a being of such immense power with infinite facets. she is in a constant state of helping people tho, and the human madoka that is left must be happy, not just content, about that. She is aware of everyone she loves, she can see them at all times and watch over them, and i think a contradiction occurs here where she is glad she can watch over them but at the same time there must be a part of her that misses them.

i know this is all very abstract. but put in simpler terms madoka is the embodiment of hope while she is in the form of the loc. i imagine she must feel hopeful and if she is constantly hopeful and purposeful then that has to prelude to happiness in an overall sense too despite everything else

so my final answer as to whether madoka is happy as the loc is: it's... complicated😭

[juuheizou]

hey! ^^ i really love hearing your thoughts on suzumutsu bc i feel like you understand their characters & dynamic so well, so i thought i'd ask a few random questions i've been thinking about, if u feel like sharing your thoughts on them. for one i've been wondering if animals would like/trust them bc honestly i can see both sides lol. juuzou clearly likes them and in the anime there was that cat in the zoo that liked him too but i can also see him constantly chasing after spooked stray cats... as for tooru i guess it'd depend on what we actually consider canon from whatever the hell his arc was💀 i've also been thinking about how they'd do with kids, like if they had to babysit or something lol. just awkward? terrible? surprisingly good? and finally, what do you think tooru's hobby would be? i can imagine juuzou with a bunch of different hobbies but i couldn't really think of anything for tooru... i think his character is a lot harder for me to understand than juuzou, maybe bc i'm autistic so i relate to juuzou way more lol😅 anyways sorry for this long ramble and hope u have a good day<3

NEVER apologize for sending me a long ramble about suzumutsu! I'm so flattered by the fact that you would want to hear (read? it just doesn't sound the same) me ramble about these things, and to say I do their characters and dynamic justice is probably the nicest, highest praise you could tell me about my suzumutsu ramblings, so thank you! My heart is exploding right now, and I hope I continue to do them justice with this rambling haha.

for one i've been wondering if animals would like/trust them bc honestly i can see both sides lol. juuzou clearly likes them and in the anime there was that cat in the zoo that liked him too but i can also see him constantly chasing after spooked stray cats...

That's a super valid point to bring up-- as someone who interacts with a critical mass of people who often like animals but don't know how to do right by them as my actual job, I have to admit I never even considered Suzuya being one of those people. That being said, maybe there is some bias involved because, like you, I relate really strongly to him myself, but part of why I never thought of it that way is he very easily clicks in my head as a fellow cat whisperer. Meaning someone who can even befriend the mean ones and soothe them when they're scared or hurt, with a strong intuition for when something isn't right. And I think being as blunt as he is at times, he would be the one telling people to stop chasing after spooked stray cats, probably with some vulgar word choices and his glare that can unsettle a Washuu into giving him what he wants. I do think that even though being perceptive of their subtle body language and understanding them enough for strays to let him pet them-- which he does habitually enough in :RE that some of Hanbee's last words to him in that omake where he gets sick are to please wash his hands after petting them, is intuitive, he took some trial and error to nail down the practical side of caring for animals. I have no doubt that he would have wanted a pet of his own from the day he learned that humans could not just be pets, but have them. His first was probably a stray he found and smuggled into his dorm as a teenager one day and he figured that having been one himself, he was an expert on what pets needed and how to care for them. He can't bring himself to hurt this precious little creature like Mama did with him, even as a reward, but he has the other things covered. Except he doesn't. He sneaks bits of his school meals back to it because he thinks that since that's what Mama sustained him on, all pets eat their owner's scraps. He's 16 with no job and only lunch money he pickpockets off of day students, so this cat is unvaccinated and has no veterinary care. He tries really hard to make it a warm, safe nest under his bed and the nicest collar he can make out of that he has around, but animals need more than that. It's just not a great situation, and he can tell his newly adopted stray isn't doing well but he doesn't want to let it go because he knows what no one else knows/believes yet about Tokage and for some reason he really doesn't want that fate for this cat. Within a couple of days, he finally confesses to Shinohara that he smuggled a cat into his room and now something really bad is happening with it, what does he do? He does end up having to relinquish the cat to a shelter-- he didn't fully grasp it at the time, but he never would have been able to offer it any quality of life under his bed at the Academy even if he did know how. Shinohara is there as his ride, for emotional support, and to make sure he actually does relinquish the cat. Frankly, he's shocked that Suzuya would care so much about a living thing. It break's Shinohara's heart seeing how devastated Suzuya is over losing the cat, but it also gives him an idea. He is an advocate for rehabilitating Suzuya after all, and now he's found something that can live and die and suffer and Suzuya isn't indifferent to it. It's pretty rare, since Suzuya can only leave the Academy with supervision and Shinohara is a busy investigator/teacher (my excuse for it only being a thing in my head and not in the series haha) but whenever the pieces fall into place, Suzuya gets to spend some time cleaning up after, feeding, grooming, and giving some human affection to the shelter cats, which also teaches him how to take care of them when he can one day get his own. As an adult, with that experience and his natural affinity for his feline friends, he is extremely good with them, and while I see them being his specialty, I think he's good with other animals too.

as for tooru i guess it'd depend on what we actually consider canon from whatever the hell his arc was?

OKAY everyone but anon and I, I promise I did not write this ask to myself, because anon, it is absolutely sending me how much this sounds like something I would say haha. I think the “we've known Tokage was killing animals since the original series, but what if it was Tokage AND Mutsuki now? not that it makes any pieces of anyone's story click into place or anything” thing doesn't make much sense and nothing makes me happier than compartmentalizing it straight into the garbage. Although you might think he is good at gaining their trust with how gentle and patient he is, I don't think Mutsuki is an animal lover per se and his nervousness around them makes them wary of him. I see him as a blank slate. He didn't grow up with any pets even before he became a ward of the CCG. He doesn't know much about animals, and he has a kind of respectful fear for what he doesn't know. He feels sad about and wants to help the poor animals in commercials and news stories suffering in bad conditions, and if he did have any idea about Tokage as a child (which, for this reason, I doubt) he would probably do something as reckless as getting into Torso's cab to try and help just one because that's just how he is about helping others. However, had he ever gotten the opportunity to be a good samaritan with an animal, he would have no idea how to handle the creature itself and probably be nervous to even touch it for fear that he will hurt it or it will just bite him without warning. However, once they grow close and Mutsuki starts hanging out at Suzuya's apartment, he does slowly come to like Suzuya's cats. It terrifies him when Suzuya teaches him that animals probably don't come up to him or let him pet them because they pick up on his fear. Once he realizes that he is the reason these little beasts that Suzuya adores don't like him, however, he gets really dedicated to learning as much as he can about how to win over a cat. It's actually good practice in controlling his reaction to fear, trying everything his research leads him to until finally, finally, the cats start coming to him for affection too. He's not as bad as he was before he met Suzuya, but to this day, though, he usually doesn't approach unfamiliar animals out of concern that he will bother them.

i've also been thinking about how they'd do with kids, like if they had to babysit or something lol. just awkward? terrible? surprisingly good?

Complete reversal of roles compared to animals. There are a lot of things that are great about Suzuya Juuzou, but patience, empathy, and discretion are not among those things. And those are pretty important when interacting with children. Plus, in a babysitting-type arrangement, he has a hard enough time taking care of himself on his own and believes sometimes to a fault in letting people of any age learn from making their own mistakes, so something will probably catch on fire. As if the experience wasn't already infernal enough without literal fire surrounding him and the hapless child he's been left in charge of. On the bright side, he is calm and competent in an emergency, so while his limited child-handling skills probably contributed to something being on fire or the kid getting a big scary gash across its head, he's in his element once the disaster is already happening. He'll control that bleeding head like a professional and probably distract the kid enough to get a laugh while they wait to be seen at urgent care. He'll put out that fire and teach himself how to repair the damage enough that it at least looks like it never happened. If you've ever seen the live action movie of “The Cat in the Hat,” that sums up Suzuya's skill set with kids pretty well. I also just don't see him liking or wanting to hang out with kids when he could be doing literally anything else. If someone was desperate enough to guilt and beg and annoy him into watching theirs, which if they did enough to sway Suzuya of all people, they probably deserve a hard time, I wouldn't put it past him to let the children watch a very age-inappropriate scary movie or just go through his most recent case file right before the parents came home. Not that he wants to harm the kids or blames them for the fact that he's stuck with them, but their psyche is acceptable collateral damage to him if it means their parents will never even consider him as a last resort again. Mutsuki, on the other hand, is both good with children and likes children, and he really cares about making every one he meets feel safe and loved and everything he wasn't at their age. Honestly, whenever I start scheming an AU that doesn't revolve around a certain vocation already and I need to give him a job other than ghoul investigator, teaching, counseling, and childcare are up there with my top choices for him because we know he cares deeply about helping and protecting others. Helping professions have their own unique rewards and challenges and while I think he would at least try helping anywhere he could, working with human(oid) children would have the challenges he could handle the best and the rewards that would keep him wanting to come back the most. In canonverse, if/when he has friends with kids, in addition to being good with them, we know he can be a bit of a pushover, so he would often get suckered into babysitting. Sometimes it goes so well he even questions if he really doesn't want his own kids. That said, as soon as an emergency goes down or his squeamish self ends up splattered in any bodily fluid or child-related mess, he immediately stops questioning it, and the first person he calls (second only if he has to call actual emergency services) is Suzuya. Although the latter might not be as good with children, he at least fills in the few but important strengths Mutsuki doesn't have mastered.

and finally, what do you think tooru's hobby would be? i can imagine juuzou with a bunch of different hobbies but i couldn't really think of anything for tooru... i think his character is a lot harder for me to understand than juuzou, maybe bc i'm autistic so i relate to juuzou way more lol?

It is hard, and in addition to some characters just clicking and being more relatable to certain people, I think it's also hard because he canonically gives so much time and energy and even puts himself in danger for others. I can actually see him neglecting to carve out nice things for himself, such as hobbies, in the manga. It's not just us, it's him! This is also the reason why these headcanons are, frankly, much more based on vibes than any panel, illustration, or omake I could even loosely tie them to. I think to keep from giving up on life as a whole, he needs an activity that makes him feel a glimmer of confidence, like he is good at something. Also, as much as he shies away from any eyes on him, appreciation for something he did secretly lights him up inside. Training with Suzuya is one thing that fills this need, but something that he does by himself that isn't career-related is cooking. We know from Shirazu that he can cook, but I think he also likes to. It's less about what he's cooking or who for, so much as it is that feeling of executing something with competence and having the people around him enjoy something he made so he knows it's good. Plus, it's hard to ruminate on your worries and frustrations and secrets when you're concentrating so hard on not burning something. He definitely strikes me as the type to stress-cook or stress-bake. He also strikes me as a journaler. I couldn't even begin to try justifying why with logic, but he just seems like the type. Trying to make beautiful aesthetic doodles would probably just make him think about how he's not good at drawing, but he would have a guilty pleasure for cute sticky notes, motivating stickers, nice pens, stuff like that to decorate and organize his cathartic writing about his day. Probably no one whose opinion matters would judge him for liking to make his journal look nice or thinking some little frog stickers are cute, but he feels paranoid about it and carefully hiding his journal with all his stationery and supplies and moving it to a new hiding place when he gets anxious that someone is going to find it is its own entirely separate hobby. Another reason why I think it's hard to see him with the same amount and variety of hobbies as Suzuya is I think he would find a couple of things to give him that sliver of “me time” and stick with them. Suzuya's reasons for doing a lot of what he does for fun are different from Mutsuki's, so for him, bouncing around between several things helps him keep it exciting and avoid boredom. Those things don't matter as much to Mutsuki, and what does matter to him is having something that makes him feel competent and/or helps him feel at ease, so actually diving into something new on the regular would do the opposite of fulfilling some of the things he needs in a hobby.

[ryvols]

What MHA narrative choices r u talking about? (feel free to spoil idc for this one)

full disclosure: i kind of fell off reading after midoriya went rogue, so i can't speak on how the manga has developed in light of chapters following.

in general, i have felt from the very beginning that i couldn't tell what horikoshi was trying to say or do with mha. what really stands out for me is (forgive me its been some time since i read) when the villains broke into that training facility at the very start of the manga. to this day i can't remember why that happened or why it was important? what it was supposed to accomplish other than introducing the villain alliance? TBH....most of my beef is with the villains. for the first half of the manga, i felt absolutely no tension/raised stakes bc they were crummy. which i guess was the point? but they were not a compelling threat nor that interesting as individuals.

i did enjoy the stain arc A LOT as an amazing catalyst for iida's development as well as todoiideku friendship which was wonderful. but again...more of a villain of the week. overhaul was really interesting too!! but too short lived. perhaps im biased bc i really dgaf about shigaraki nor do i feel any sense of impending danger (see: sukuna, makima).

THAT BEING SAID: i vaguely remember a crazy ass fight with shigaraki right before i stopped reading that made me feel horikoshi finally knew what to do with him, what his purpose in the narrative was besides a supervillain protege. and then i was like OHHHHH ITS ALL COMING TOGETHER. so mha very well could be meeting my expectations now.

tl;dr i kind of feel that stakes in mha have taken their time meandering to get to a point where i as a reader strongly feel tension and conflict in a way that is cohesive with the story as a whole. it's a shounen - so by no means is it required to be 'that deep' but these days i look for a little more in a story, at least within an oversaturated genre like kids with superpowers. i very much enjoyed it when i was reading and i probably would still like it if i reread it. it just does not compel me.

i wish i could give a more detailed overview but it has been at least 3 years since i last read anything to do with mha.

[mulletmitsuya]

Toman groupchat

Warnings: just Toman being silly, swearing, akward texting, its really long (im so sorry idk how to do the read more thing)

Desc: Draken's confession doesn't go as planned

Draken: hey

Draken: so uhm

Draken: i'd rather just get all my feelings out at once so don't type or say anything till im done

Draken: so i've been thinking about our relationship as friends

Draken: and how we've know each other so long

Draken: and i've realized that i kinda don't see you that way anymore, as just a friend

Draken: when i found out i was bi, you were the first person i told, and i dont think it was just because i trusted you, but cause you were like, the reason?? sorry it's hard to put my thoughts into words

Draken: and i realized that you dont feel that way about a 'friend'

Draken: i didn't wanna tell you cause i don't wanna ruin our friendship but i feel i need to tell you the truth cause iv'e felt this way for a while

Draken: i really like you, and not just as my best friend, i like you romantically

Draken: you just mean a lot to me, and tbh i dont think i could imagine myself without you cause i feel that you're my other half

Draken: i hope im not freaking you out, and i hope this doesnt change anything between us just because you dont feel the same way

Draken: yeah

Draken: i'm done

Baji: ...😧

Mikey: HELLO????????????

Mikey: WHO WAS THAT FOR

Kazutora: wrong chat Draken💀

Chifuyu: aww😊

Mitsuya: Draken i think you pressed the wrong chat

Mikey: HOLD UP, PAUSE

Draken: ...

Draken: fuck

*Draken has gone offline*

Baji: WHAT JUST HAPPENED SJWKWJNSN

Kazutora: nah cause if that happend to me i would not be okay

Mitsuya: maybe we should check on him

Angry: who did he mean to send it to??

Mikey: I THINK IT WAS ME NGL

Baji: KJSBMSHSKBM??????

Smiley: STOP

Smiley: WHY WOULD U THINK ITS YOU

Mikey: NO HEAR ME OUT

Mikey: HE WAS GOING ON A RANT LAST NIGHT ABOUT HOW ROMANTIC FEELINGS RUIN FRIENDSHIPS

Mikey: AND I GAVE HIM SOME ADVICE

Baji: WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT????

Kazutora: Mikey your not capable of love why would you give someone relationship advice

Mikey: STFU

Mikey: SO I TOLD HIM TO BOTTLE UP ALL HIS EMOTIONS AND ISOLATE HIMSELF IN ORDER TO DEAL WITH IT RIGHT

Smiley: ????

Chifuyu: that explains a lot actually

Baji: is that how you think??

Kazutora: ohhhhhhhh

Mikey: AND THEN HE TOLD ME THAT HE COULDN'T KEEP RUNNING AWAY FROM HIS FEELINGS

Mikey: THEN I STRONGLY DISAGREED CAUSE YOU CAN IF YOU RUN REALLY FAST

Mikey: THEN I GAVE HIM "HALF" OF MY DORAYAKI

Mikey: HE SAID "OTHER HALF" IN THE CONFESSION

Mikey: AND IM HIS BEST FRIEND

Mikey: ITS ME ISN'T IT

Baji: im worried about your thought process

Smiley: are you stupid?😁

Kazutora: Mikey that literally made zero fucking sense what are you talking about

Mitsuya: that's bullshit bro

Mitsuya: its makes no sense

Mikey: haters

Mikey: you're just mad that Ken-chin's in love with me and not you

Baji: wait

Baji: omg it's Mitsuya

Smiley: OHHHHH

Smiley: THAT MAKES SENSE ACTUALLY

Angry: OMG OTHER HALF CAUSE TWIN DRAGONS

Mikey: you guys are misunderstanding the situation

Kazutora: MIKEY STFU

Kazutora: MITSUYA??

Mitsuya: stop making assumptions

Mikey: :/

Baji: WHY ARE U MAD DONT U HAVE A BOYFRIEND

Mikey: yeah but Ken-chin being in love with me would have been such a huge flex

Kazutora: k guys if you read back a lot of shit points to Mitsuya

Kazutora: it just makes sense

Mitsuya: guys stop, let's stop talking about this, its his business. okay?

Baji: no

Baji: so anyway, Mitsuya is the person he's known longest

Baji: and he told him he was bi first

Baji: and they're best friends

Baji: BROOOOO

Smiley: Mitsuya go ask him

Mitsuya: no??

Kazutora: what do you have to lose

Mitsuya: my pride

Kazutora: if its not you??

Kazutora: we've established it is

Mitsuya: let's stop talking about this

Chifuyu: but its very obviously you Mitsuya-kun

Mitsuya: you guys are reaching

Mitsuya: i'm kinda busy with smth so im just gonna

*Mitsuya has left the chat*

Baji: hmmmm

Baji: suspicious

Kazutora: how do you confess your undying love for your best friend in a groupchat by mistake lmao

Mikey: is Mitsuya okay tho he seemed kinda upset

Dm between Mitsuya and Draken

Mitsuya: hey

Mitsuya: are you okay?

Mitsuya: sorry i didn't check up on you earlier i was trying to deal with those jerks

Draken: thanks man, dont worry about it

Draken: ..what did they say?

Mitsuya: they were mainly just trying to find out who it was meant for

Draken: oh

Mitsuya: yeahhh

Mitsuya: you sure you're okay tho?

Draken: yeah i am, just kinda embarrassed since i worked up all that courage

Mitsuya: you shouldn't be, it was sweet

Mitsuya: a shame it didn't get to the intended person tho

Draken: ....yeahh

Draken: you think it was sweet?

Draken: i was scared that it would be cheesy

Mitsuya: doesn't matter if its cheesy. they're your honest feelings and there's nothing wrong with them

Draken: thanks Mitsuya

Draken: really means a lot

Mitsuya: don't worry about it <3

Mitsuya: sorry, the heart was weird lol

Draken: no it wasn't don't apologize. i like it

Draken: also don't you wanna know who it is..?

Mitsuya: i do, but only if you're ready to tell me. dont wanna make you uncomfortable or anything.

Draken: ...

Draken: you're making this really hard for me

Draken: my palms are sweating and i can't type properly

Draken: fuck

Mitsuya: why are you sweating???

Draken: cause i'm texting the person i like

Mitsuya: you are???

Mitsuya: then why are you texting me?? focus on THAT conversation first

Draken: ...

Draken: i mean you

Draken: you're the person i like

Draken: sorry if that wasn't clear

Draken: the confession was meant for you

Mitsuya: ...

Mitsuya: oh

Draken: ...

Mitsuya: sorry just give me a sec im freaking out

Draken: i'm sorry that wasn't my intention we can just forget about it if you like

Draken: actually no, i can't just forget about it

Draken: i have really strong feelings towards you and i can't just forget them

Draken: i tried, the first time i found out that i liked you i really tried but i can't

Draken: i get like, zero sleep cause i'm thinking about you

Draken: i wish i could have said this in person

Draken: i'm sorry

Mitsuya: i really like you too

Mitsuya: i just thought it would be unrealistic for you to like me back

Mitsuya: so i didnt say anything

Draken: ...

Draken: really?

Draken: thank god

Draken: i was about to cry

Draken: this was really stressing me out

Draken: do you really??

Mitsuya: yeah

Mitsuya: a lot

Mitsuya: i really like you

Draken: ........

Draken: can i come over? so i can see and talk to you in person?

Mitsuya: yeah, that'd be really nice

Draken: ok

Draken: see you soon Kashi

Mitsuya: <3

[intimidating-fettuccine]

wondering if u would write an scenario with jeff trying to court his angel crush but it's hard to woo(?

Jeff is many things. He's strong, athletic, kind and caring, loyal, trusting, a good listener, an amazing partner, and a good observer... But he's not smooth. At all. For all the other fields that Jeff excels in, flirting is definitely not one of them, and that comes across very strongly to you as he tries, again, to flirt with you using horrendous pickup lines that even he doesn't feel confident with, always ending with you chuckling and shaking your head as you go back to your work.

However, he will not be deterred, and even if he has no clue what he's doing and you just end up more confused than anything at all of his useless attempts at flirting, he's certainly trying his best, and being quite earnest about it. Despite months of endless pickup lines, it had yet to bear any fruits to his labor. You have to give him some credit for his efforts in all of this, and it leads to you spending just a bit more time in his presence, giving him a bit more of your attention, spending a bit more time listening to all of the things he tells you, even if they ruffle your feathers and make you cringe.

-

You were back in the Underworld for business again, having finished your work and deciding to rest in a park for a little while as you ate your lunch before taking the long flight back up to the Overworld. Of course, your peace and quiet had to be interrupted by none other than your not-so-secret admirer himself.

"I hope you angels know CPR because you really take my breath away." Had rung out from behind you, causing you to choke on your sandwich as you bit down your laughter.

"And what if I say that I don't? Guess that's rather unfortunate for you, huh?" You'd mused, returning your attention to your lunch as he maneuvered to sit beside you.

"At least the last thing I'd be blessed to see would be such a shiningly radiant angel." The cheesiness in it made you want to gag, but instead, you settled for a sigh, shaking your head and taking a swig of your drink.

"You really don't know when to stop with all the angel stuff, huh?" Your voice was firm and almost threatening, but from the small smile on your lips and the mischief in your eyes, Jeff could tell you didn't mean anything by it.

"Do you really not have any other pickup lines?" He hesitated for a moment at your question.

"Well- I mean- I do, but uh, well- I mean, I've never tried to pick up an angel before, so, I just, uh, I defaulted to those, I guess." Now that you were sitting so close to him and watching him so intently, he couldn't help but get a bit nervous, especially with the teasing smile you were sending him, making his skin flush red.

You merely hummed at him, resuming your meal with him sat quietly beside you. The silence was comfortable, and you'd ended up realizing that his once annoying presence beside you had now become something you were comfortable with, something you'd missed, something you'd desired. With another sigh as you stood and stretched, you'd turned and looked at him with the fullest smile he'd ever seen from you, and he'd felt himself choking a bit.

"I'll tell you what, Jeff. So long as you never, ever, tell me another angel-related pickup line, I'll go on a date with you, if only to get you to shut up. Sound like a plan?" His mouth gaped open, and he stared at you in shock, moving his mouth but unable to say anything.

"Or, if you'd prefer, I can just head home and forget this whole thing?" And he'd shot up at that, almost bumping into you from the speed, causing a laugh to breeze out of you.

"Yes, it's- Yes! I will stop with the angel pickup lines if it means I can finally take you on a date." His voice had gotten quieter towards the end of his sentence, his eyes averting from your form as he scratched at the back of his neck.

"Well, good. I'll be back here in two days' time for more work. I'll meet you here, same time, same place. Sound alright?"

He'd nodded eagerly at your words and you couldn't help but want to tease him a little more, leaning up and pressing a kiss to his cheek, telling him you were looking forward to it before turning and leaving. The shocked gasp that left him and the beet red appearance of his face was something you'd definitely remember to tease him about on that date of yours.

[akiyamaasagi]

꧁~𝒴𝑜𝓊 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝑜𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝑒 𝓃𝑜𝓌~꧂

Hi~~~ this is my first story and I think it's a bit embarrassing n_n but if u have any suggestions, tell me and I'll make the most of it :D

synopsis: He met you some time now and he felt something in his heart that no person or thing has ever impacted this feeling in his life. He realized that feeling is because of you and he is going to let you know it

Includes: Kaeya, and DIluc (I'll write more in the future pinky promise >_<)

Warning: complety sfw so don't u worry :) but a bit of Kaeya preference sry :d and a bit long (with a bit I refer to ridiculously long)

Kaeya~

Everyone knew something was wrong with him and still couldn't get a finger in it, even I knew about it. He would usually make a joke or tease anyone with that smirk of his and drinking one glass of wine after the other and laugh all night long. Now he will just stare at the sky with a serious face, he gets bland talking to me and looking at me confused while I'm just doing my work, but I never thought much about it.

I left the meeting room and Kaeya was still looking through the window, Jean was about to leave when "Kaeya, something is clearly on your mind" he got surprised and just replied "Haha... don't worry Grand Master, I just had a bit of a rough night" Her face showed a really worried side of her "Kaeya, I know something is wrong when I see it, you can be honest with me" Kaeya let a worried sigh and whispered " It's Y/N... I don't think I can see her like I used to when we first met, she somehow just changed me and made me like this somehow. I'm just overthinking what would happen if I told her this..." he realises Jean did heard everything and blabbed " Oh.. ahem don't get yourself over it, it's all alright now" Jean knew things are serious when the all mighty Kaeya gets nervous over something, but still smiled and said "I think she would like to know the truth, and I won't be the one to let her know that" he could only answer back "hehe I'll maybe give it a shot, and if it doesn't work, at least I'll tried"

I was eating a small meal with a cup of tea at the new cafe they opened in Mondstadt when I packed up my stuff and left, I saw Kaeya out the door and got surprised "Oh, good evening Kaeya, do you need something from me?" he broke a small sweat and replied "haha well there's no need to be formal Y/N but I do want to ask for a request to you if you can... not that you need to" I got surprised he got to his normal tone in speaking after those bland conversations we had this past week "Y/N, you have been overworking recently and a lot of people have told you to take a rest and avoid taking a small break, I am requesting you to take a moment to come with me at the bar and take a small time off at least"

My mouth dropped by that request especially when I did took time off right now "Well... I did take some time off right now, and I was planning to buy some things for work so that doesn't count as-" Kaeya interrupted me with his old smirk "Ah- Ah, eating is not a break and work has nothing to do with it either, consider this a favor for me, will you, cute thing?" he really did return to his normal self, probably that week was just something from my imagination "Well... if you really want me to... then I guess I will" I blushed as he took my hand and walked with me "Perfect~ then let's get going" we went to the classic bar he always used to go" we drink glass after glass and night was already with us, most of the people left and drunkard was crawling outside. It was me, Kaeya and the bartender...

"Why did you wanted me to come here, with you?" I could realize he was very lightly tipsy. his ears were red and his eyes were lightly closed "hehe can't I take you for one day without having you thinking about work?" I quickly looked at the clock and realized I have been here all evening, I could've finished a lot of work at that hour! "SHOOT I- I'm sorry I need to leave now!" I raced to grab my stuff and leave the tavern when Kaeya also left and grabbed me strongly by the wrist and hugged me at the back...

"No... please stay... I want you for the rest of the night~" My face was beet red and I got a little confused, what did he mean for the rest of the night? "W-what do you mean. I'm sorry Kaeya but I really need to leave now" He hugged me even closer and rested his head on my shoulder and caressed my cheek with his warm hand " I needed to take it off my chest sooner or later. I know you have been questioning my attitude recently. You are the best thing that has happened in my life and the most beautiful girl I have met, I love you, and I always did and I wouldn't forgive myself to lose you, I want to be the strong one in your eyes and the one that protects you and the one you can love back...if you allow me"

I calmed myself and realized I was the reason he was acting like this the whole time. I picked his face with my hand and whispered "I used to think the same about you, but I never told you..." his face was even redder and his eyes shined with the moonlight "Why that...?" I felt weird in his arms, but safe, warm, and cozy I was so calm I only answered "You are way too teasing to have that loving sid-" he interrupted pulling me for a kiss, his lips were soft and warm. He bit my bottom lip to put his tongue on mine... he showed me his soft romantic side to me and only to me... "haha~ is that a yes?" I got too shy to respond I only looked away and covered my mouth. "I only want to be with you now Kaeya~" he rests his head on my chest and hugged me tighter "Let me be yours and you'll be mine. So don't escape from me~"how would I...dummy~

Diluc~

I did the favor to Lianne to deliver the package to her cousin on the other side of Mondstadt. I like helping people in need so I don't mind, although I am running low on food, and it was extremely late. I saw a figure running towards me in the least of chances, and a whole group of hillichurls began to attack me. My energy was getting lower and lower swinging my sword everywhere when an abyss mage cornered me. When I gave up on fighting, a soft arm was holding my waist, I was so weak I laid unconscious on his arms, I felt like I could trust him whoever he was...

I felt that strong and warm body carrying me until I woke up on a mattress in a room I think I am familiar with... I saw Adelinde open the door with a bowl of hot water "Oh, Y/N you are awake now!" I cocked my head in confusion "What happened? Why am I here?" Adelinde soaked some bandages in the water and carefully wrapped them around my arm "Master Diluc said he found you unconscious on a hillichurl camp. He told me to take care of your wounds until he returns, he said he'd wish to take care of you personally but he found himself on some winery's problem..." My face was red knowing he saved and a bit shameful knowing he came all that way to save me when I could've done it on my own.

Some minutes of rest later, Diluc showed up at the door, worried "Y/N! Are you okay? Do you need anything? He hugged me tightly worrying that my wounds would ache more "Diluc, don't worry I'm fine. Thank you...for saving me..." I blushed and looked away when he smiled and brushed some of my hair away from my face and said "There's no need to thank me...watching you hurt aches me terribly, I'm just glad you are safe now~" Adelinde saw at Diluc with a confused expression. Diluc told me that he still had unfinished work and commanded me to get more rest and left the room.

"Uhmm, Y/N, you know what's wrong with him?" Adelinde came to me with a worried look and I could only say "What's wrong with him, something happened?" Adelinde looked around to make sure no one was around and whispered "He would get really angry and snap at everyone. Right now he would be serious but seeing him with a worried expression weirds me out" I would normally think he is grumpy sometimes, but snapping at everyone is not his thing. Curiosity got the better of me and I wanted to know the truth about it...

Diluc would come from time to time and told me to get more rest, although I did take rest for the past 2 hours, I still think he is hiding something from everyone. I would tell "How have you been?", "You should also rest" and "I'm worried about you, you should give it a rest" yet he always replied with "I'm more worried about you, I'm okay, and I'm just glad you're safe" If he'd really snap at everyone, then I'm into this situation. I already healed myself, so I thought I would just leave. I tried to find DIluc but he wasn't anywhere to be seen, I thought I could just leave and thank him when I'd found him.

I was about to leave the entrance when I heard a soft voice behind me "Y/N what are you doing?! It's raining outside, you'll catch a cold!" Diluc looked at me surprised and concerned, putting a hand at the door, I haven't noticed it was raining until I saw outside the window "Oh, Diluc, don't worry, I am already feeling better, and I was planning to go quickly back to the city-" he hugged me tightly, his strong arms embracing softly my arms and whispered "Please stay, I don't want any threat to approach you, you'll be safer here~" I got slightly frustrated and pushed him away and complained "¡Why are you so worried about me! I did saw how you snap at everyone and get frustrated all the time, I know it's because you overwork yourself and you are tired all the time and keep pushing through, so, please... stop worrying about me..."

His expression was shocked hearing how I complained to him, some seconds of silence later he looked away and got mad, he shut his eyes and murmured "Why do you think its because I overwork...If I had told you sooner you wouldn't be concerned..." I just realized I was throwing a tantrum and looked down "Diluc... I-I'm sorry, I shouldn't have-" He hugged me again, tighter this time, his warm arms around my waist and his head above mine, he stroked my hair and said "All those feelings, all those actions... are because of you~ Because I was denying I loved you, and I was insecure... I don't know who told you about this but... I was stressed out because I wanted to take this out of my chest. I didn't even mind work... I love you and I don't want to deny it anymore, I'm sorry... I made you feel that way~"

He stayed shut and suddenly pulled my cheek to meet my lips with his. He was gentle yet passionate, I knew that he felt a lot of pressure off his shoulders admitting the truth~ When I was running out of breath, he pulled out and rested his head on mine. After a minute of silence, I teared up, he said all that and made me look like a brat complaining at everything "Y/N, please don't cry! Ignore everything I said! But please don't cry...I'm sorry" my tears ended up as rivers when I only cried out "Why didn't you told me earlier, I did love you some time ago... but I got scared, and I hid it from everyone... I didn't want to let you know, and if everything you've done for me today makes me look back at those days... I do love you too, I want to be your lover!" I jumped to his arms and he holds me, embracing me and burying his face on my chest "Please do... I love you Y/N~"

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GAAAAHHH I love them I had to >u< if u have any suggestion or other series u want me to write abt let me know. okie I'll go to sleep bc it's literally 3:30 am rn k bye~