#i feel so weird cuz he does offer to get me things + help me out

[grossillygirl]

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When the Levee Breaks (pt. 4)

Daryl Dixon x OFC

The one in which a stripper that used to know Merle and Daryl shows up at the Atlanta camp. Daryl’s feelings are complicated but mostly he hates her, right?

Chapt. Setting: Highway outside of Atlanta. 

Chapt. Warnings: degrading and sexist language, degrading behavior, season 2 Daryl, smut, oral (m receiving)(kind of) weird. Just weirdo perv (out of desperation) Daryl. 

Word Count: 3200

A/N; Daryl’s POV 😩🤷‍♀️ 17+ mdni

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Been keepin’ Merle’s stuff pretty well hidden. Guess I should probably just get rid of it, right? But I can’t. S’not mine to get rid of. So I just hide it. Separate bag from the rest of his meds, all the way at the bottom of a backpack, stuffed under the seat of my truck. 

Beatle says she’s been sober off spazz shit for three years. Pretty sure three years ago s’when I met her though, so I’unno how she figures that. 

But now we’re ditchin’ the truck and I gotta find a way to carry it without Beatle finding it. Don’t even have time to be upset about my truck. Had it for at least the last ten years. Loved this thing like it was the only thing I had. Basically was for a while. 

Takin’ Merles bike. It’s got some dumbass Nazi shit on it, but ‘m not complainin’. That shit don’t matter anymore. Neither does bein’ upset over a truck that’s not gonna do me any good without gas. 

Pack myself two bags. One goes with Beatle in Dale’s RV, the other is the pack I’d had stuffed under the seat. Spazz gets hidden underneath a few shirts, smokes, the couple sips left of girlwhiskey, and the rest of Merle’s scripts. Stuff I don’t trust Beatle with.  

I think she knows, too. She doesn’t say it but she gives me a look when I tell her ‘m holdin’ onto it. I offer her a whole cigarette. All for herself. And it shuts her up enough not to push it. 

Don’t know if I like when she’s happy or not. Kinda makes me feel sick so I try not to think about it. Dunno. Whatever. Don’t got time to think about that shit anyway. S’always somethin’. 

Don’t really even got the time to think about what a shit show the CDC was. Just gotta keep movin’. Guess the plan is Fort Bennet? Don’t know. Don’t care. ‘m just goin’. 

It’s nice to be back on a bike again. Can’t feel nothin’ but the vibrating underneath me and the air in my face. Can’t hear nothin’ but the engine. By myself. Like all this shit hasn’t happened…

No use in thinkin’ ‘bout it that way, though. Has happened. And I ain’t gonna be one of those sorry sacks that wants to pretend shit ain’t the way it is. That’s one thing I like Beatle for. She don’t pretend shits gonna go back. Don’t miss nothin’, ain’t lookin’ for no one. Far as I see it, she’s happy mostly. Guess it’s easy when someone’s takin’ care of everything for ya. Me. Giving her my smokes and buildin’ fires for my damn self, thinkin’ everything tha’s mine is hers. It ain’t. 

Other people makin’ plans. Other people findin’ shelter. Other peoples food. 

Too many people in this group ain’t pullin’ their own weight. It’s gonna catch up sooner or later. Beatle’s a weak player. Can’t decide if I should help her out or not. Can’t decide if I should protect her or not. Cuz she don’t want it, she don’t think she needs it. But she’s gonna need it. Sooner or later. 

Cuz I know I hate her and all that. Dumb fuckin’ bitch for sure. But after what happened at the CDC? Thought we were gonna die. Thought she was gonna die. Fuck. I’unno. Guess I felt somethin’. 

I’m in between knowin’ it and hatin’ it. It can be both right? Cuz it’s definitely both. One more thing I gotta care about. Real fuckin’ stupid. 

We’re only on the road a few hours before shit blows. Literally. Dales radiator. Good ‘n done. Then more bullshit happens but ain’t that the way shit is now?

A whole herd of ‘em come through and everyone’s fine. Andrea’s havin’ a panic attack ‘bout the geek that almost ate ‘er, Carol’s kid run off into the woods, and T-Dog’s all but bled out. But to me? Basically fine. No one’s dead or nothin’. 

Don’t know where Beatle was when the herd came. But she’s fine too, and any worryin’ I’d been doin was a waste of fuckin’ time. Not gonna waste any more of it bein’ mad I was worried in the first place. That I couldn’t think ‘bout anything else. Just images of her stupid happy face gettin’ ripped apart. Guess I care now. At least ‘bout her not bein’ dead. ‘Bout her bein’ here.

She’s standin’ outside the RV with me, sharing a cigarette cuz I don’t know how else to tell her I’m glad she’s alive. Can’t stop lookin’ at her. She’s either ignoring my staring or pretendin’ I ain’t doin’ it, and ‘m grateful. Don’t wanna talk ‘bout that shit. Just wanna look at her, and fix all those images in my head. Her face still happy and perfect and smilin’ at me like it wasn’t bein’ eaten by monsters a few minutes ago. 

I feel sick. Somethin’… different. 

“Can I just hug you, please?” She asks like she’s been waitin’ to say it. 

“Why?” I squint at her, dragging the smoke. Kinda want to - kinda mad she asked instead of just doin’ it, “Since when do you ask permi-“ I’m cut off by her body wrapped around mine. All four limbs holdin’ on like I’m keepin’ her anchored to the world. 

I hug her back, arms pulled tight around her. Why am I doing this? What the fuck is this? Goin’ fuckin’ soft for some dumb little girl. I can hear Merle laughin’ at me from inside my head, and I drop Beatle back down to the pavement. 

“I’m glad you’re alive.” She says, and I look down at her. Now she’s all covered in the gross shit I’m covered in. She doesn’t seem to care. Doesn’t even seem to notice. 

“Yeah?” I say at her, cuz I don’t know what else to say. Can’t tell her Im glad she’s alive. Can’t give her that. I hugged her back, that’s enough. She should know. 

She nods, smiling that stupid fuckin’ smile that I’m startin’ to like. ‘Fore her face starts wrinklin’ up somethin’ nasty. There it is. She looks at me, then down at herself. “What the fuck, Daryl?” 

Me?! “‘Pleeeease can I hug you, Daryl?’” I mock her. 

“I was worried!! And then you’re alive and okay and I  didn’t have time to look at you covered in guts and shit!” She squeals. I swear she knows it irritates me. I can see her goin’ to punch me in the arm so I let her, then pull her into another hug. 

Grabbin’ at her head to bring it close to my chest, covered in week old decaying monster meat, “C’mon, Beatle. Gimme a hug!” She’s tryin’ to fight it but ‘m stronger. 

She bends her knees and slips down and out of my arms. The blood on my hands making her too slippery to hold onto. She starts runnin’. I run after her til we get to the side of the road and she tries to hide underneath the trunk of a car crashed into the rail. 

Maybe this ain’t the time for fuckin’ around, but it don’t matter. Not when I finally got her cornered. The look of fear in her eyes does somethin’ to me. Not real fear.  Naw, cuz she’s smilin’. Cuz she’s laughin’. Just excited that we’re both still breathing. Still, smile on her face and laugh in her throat, she’s cowering beneath a cars trunk, beggin’ me to stop. The beggin’s doin’ somethin’ to me too. Fuck. 

I pick her up, slingin’ her over my shoulder, she yelps. Don’t she know how this shit works yet? “Fuckin’ quiet, Beatle. Dumb bitch.” I slap her ass once and she fuckin’ yelps again. “Wha’ did I just say?” And I slap her ass again. This time she’s quiet. 

Shit, that worked? Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck. My dicks hard. 

I’unno if it’s cuz I never carried a girl over my shoulder like this, cuz I spanked her couple times, or cuz she listened. My dick gets even harder and I realize it’s definitely fuckin’ all of it. But mostly that she listened when I told her what to do. Maybe I should tell her what to do more often. Fuck. ‘m not helpin’ myself, or my problem, at all. 

I dip my head down to smell the sick I’m covered in to make it go away. It works. Even with her ass next to my face. So close I could bite it. For fucks sake. I put her down but she doesn’t run away this time. We walk slowly back to the group. Not sayin’ nothin’. Me, cuz I’m trying to focus on the smell of rotten flesh and definitely not Beatle beggin’ me to stop. Definitely not about what her face looked like when she felt my hand on her ass.  

Wonder if she’s quiet cuz she’s thinkin’ about it too.

 Wondering what she’s thinkin’ about and tryin’ to will away a stiffy. Fuck this fuckin’ high school bullshit. Like she reads my mind, I feel her needy little fingers snake into my hand. For a second I think maybe I’m smokin’ a cigarette I don’t remember havin’ but ‘m not. She’s just tryin’ to hold my hand. 

At first it feels nice, and then I feel sick again. Too many questions unanswered. Too much shit that’s already happened. Can’t trust her. So I shake her hand off, “Stop.” 

“Fine. Fuck you.” She stomps away and back into the RV. I’unno what the fuck’s wrong with me that it makes me smile. Do I like when she’s happy? Shit, I dunno. If I did, wouldn’t I not like it when she’s upset? So why does her being mad at me do it for me too? 

✨🏹

Whatever. 

She comes with me to go look for Sophia. Andrea stood up like she was gonna come too, but once Beatle and I are standin’ next to the RV Andrea doesn’t follow us out.

 We don’t stray too far from the road. It’s dark, and mostly just came out here to help ease Carol’s mind. ‘m definitely goin’ soft. But I’unno. Hurts to watch people lose stuff. Their families. Hurts to watch people hurt. 

Gonna hurt Beatle in a fuckin’ second if she doesn’t shut the fuck up. We’re walkin’ through the woods. At night. She’s gotta know this shit by now. “Beatle, keep your fuckin’ voice down. Please.” Did I just say please? Fuck me. 

“Did you just say ‘please’?” Fuck. Me. 

“Shut up.” 

“Don’t think I know how.” 

“Yeah, no shit.” She laughs, and it makes me smile. And that makes me feel sick to my stomach. Again. 

Her voice cuts through while I’m makin’ myself even sicker thinkin’ about it, “You wanna play another game?”

My eyebrows raise in her direction, “Yeah, that went real well for ya last time.” 

“Nevermind.” Her face falters and she crosses her arms across her chest. 

“What, you don’t wanna get half naked and cry again?” And for fuckin’ once I wish Beatle had somethin’ to say back. Some smartass shit that isn’t even funny but she definitely means it to be. But she doesn’t. She doesn’t say anything. She just lets my question hang in the fuckin’ air and suffocate me. Cuz now I’m thinkin’ about her half naked and crying and my fuckin dicks hard again. What is this shit? Rock hard cock every time I pick on her now? ‘m not gonna be able to do this. She’s gonna notice. Where the fuck is a guy supposed to jerk off and relieve some of this shit? 

On her fuckin’ face.

Shit.

She’s been quiet for too long and my brain won’t stop. It’s just getting worse. Images of her now, her face covered in my cum, her lips humming together making little bubbles with it, smiling. Shit. 

Beatle, say something. Anything.

“How big’s your dick?” Not. Fucking. That. 

She listens… right? She wants it, right? Why else would she ask that? Now, when it’s just the two of us out in the woods in the dark. She wants me to show her. 

So show her.

“Beatle.” My voice is low, barely there. Just a rasp of a word. 

She turns around, ready to explain herself before she even looks at me, “I-“ 

“C’mere.” If I don’t cut her off she’s gonna say she was just jokin’ but we both know she ain’t jokin’. She wants ta know. So she’s gonna know. 

Feel like I can see her blushin’ in the moonlight as she walks toward me, even though I can’t. Just know she is. Smile on her face like I ain’t about to wipe it off with my cock. Shit, hard as a fuckin’ rock right now. I rub my palm over the length of it, and I watch her eyes follow my arm down. Watch ‘em get bigger, wide and nervous, and it makes my dick twitch against my jeans. I pull out a smoke and light one, for a second I see a disappointment in her face, thinkin’ maybe I’d just called her over to share a smoke. Naw. “Down on your knees.” 

And Jesus Christ, does she kneel so fuckin’ fast. She stares straight ahead, and somethin’ comes over me. Can’t wait. Don’t want to. Don’t need to. Beatle does what I ask, at least when it comes to this. Like a good little slut would. That is what she’s good at, ain’t it? 

So maybe it’s a little fucked up that I grab her head and force her against the rough fabric of my jeans. Pushing my cock into her cheek as hard as I fuckin’ can. Holding her by the hair and rubbing her face on me. 

But this little bitch moans. At first I wasn’t sure, but she keeps fuckin’ moaning. She likes this. Somethin’ close to a laugh escapes my throat, past the cigarette between my lips. I take it with my fingers, letting one hand go from her head, the other hand pulls her back to look up at me. Her expression absolutely blown. She just looks at me for a second, before putting her face back on my cock on her own. It’s not the same amount of pressure but it still feels fuckin’ good. And somethin’ about her doin’ it on her own. Like she can’t fuckin’ help it. Like she needs it. 

She’s starts to lick at the fabric right where my head is and my dick spasms again at the sight of it. This time she can feel it underneath her mouth. She smiles up at me, smirkin’ down at her. Putting the cigarette in my mouth, I drag it, before bringing it down to her lips. A little reward for listening. 

She drags it once and I drop it on the ground. Beatle says “Thank you.” In the smallest voice I ever heard come out of her mouth. Fuck. I could fall in love with this Beatle. It’s just your dick talkin’ Dar, don’t get crazy. 

I grunt a laugh and start to unbuckle my belt. Unbutton my pants. Barely have my cock in my hand ‘fore her mouths around it. I pull her back by her hair, sharply. She winces in pain and reaches up to her head where I’m holdin’ on. Her eyes shoot up to look at me. 

God, fuck, what I wouldn’t give to have that image burned in my brain for the rest of my life. Her face, all discomfort and contempt because I won’t let her touch me. Like she’s fuckin’ dying for it. “Nah, keep your mouth shut Beatle. Gotta learn ta do what yer told.” 

She nods, and closes her lips. Looking from my eyes back down my body again. I lean back, takin’ myself in my hand and pressing my cock into her face. 

For a while I just rub myself all over, letting her feel the weight of it. Letting her know just how big it really fuckin’ is. Lifting it off her face and smackin’ her cheeks. Makin’ her flinch, her eyes squish closed but I press my hard cock against her eye and push up forcing her eyelid open. Fuck. I do the same thing with her lips. Smushing and rubbing the head of it into her lips to open them, I fuck against her mouth for a second. Beatles groaning and moaning but she doesn’t open her mouth. Somethin’ about it makes me need to cum. Now. No more fuckin’ around. “Open up.” 

She does. I spit into her open mouth, and she moans again, without swallowing it. Like a good slut. “Fuck, Beatle. Shit. Now stick your tongue out.” 

She does. I can see my spit falling off her tongue and I quickly catch it with my cock, before smearing as much of the slick spit from her mouth onto me. Taking myself from the base, holding hard to cut off the circulation. Always feels better when I do that. Rubbin her tongue with my cock til I can’t fuckin take it anymore. I’m about to fuckin’  cum. I pull away for only a second, my breathings all fucked and I can barely speak, “Close yer mouth.” She looks confused for a second but closes her mouth. Good. Was about to smack her. 

My left hand finds a place on the back of her head again, gripping into her hair to hold her in place. I push my hips forward and put the whole length across her face. My other hand pressing myself down into her from above her. And I fuck myself on her face. Grunting and sloppy and desperate to cum. Never done this before, shit, does anyone do this? But fuck, it’s so fuckin’ hot. Her lips and her cheeks and her eyelids and her nose all squished and being fuckin’ ruined by my cock. Shit.  Fuck. 

Right as I’m about to cum I put both hands around her head and hump her face like… I don’t even know. I feel fuckin’ insane, but she’s still moaning at the feeling of being used. Not even in a way that should be enjoyable to her. 

I don’t think I’ve ever cum that much in my whole fuckin’ life. Most of it ends up in Beatle’s hair, but there’s still a whole lot of it on her face. I mess with it for a second. Swirling my puffy post-nut dick in it before I get oversensitive. 

I put myself away, and sit down on the ground next to Beatle. Still in the exact same position. I let her kneel there, don’t tell her she can move or nothin’. Guess that’s why she doesn’t. Don’t think she can open her eyes either. S’funny. 

Relighting the short I’d dropped to the ground, I pull a bandana from my pocket. “Is it big, Beatle?” I ask her while I wipe only her mouth off, and put the cigarette between her lips. 

She sucks on the filter, and smiles. “Yep.”

Eventually I wipe off her eyes too. Can’t do anything about her hair though, so I promise to find her a hat from one of the cars on the walk back. 

And I don’t let myself think about what this might mean. Who cares? I don’t. Don’t think Beatle does neither. We’re just goin’. 

pt 5

A/N: Yeah okay,  I know. Daryl’s all back and forth. Does he not give a shit about Merle and Beatle? Does he know deep down they never did anything together? Or maybe he just wasn’t thinking about it at the time? He’s confused, guys. He also really doesn’t have all the information (Eventually he’s gonna ask but first we have to deal with Sophia. Sorry. I don’t want to either.)

[edenfenixblogs]

Hi, I have a question and you seem like a really balanced person, so here goes: I want to join a drag king collective, and I’m so excited about it, but the king leading it has some Interesting views. It’s the kind of thing where it’s constant “fuck Zionists” and what feels like extremely performative activism (Palestinian flag in bio but no actual fundraising/peace efforts, posting misinformation/irresponsible rhetoric etc.) I’m scared that if I join it I’ll be treated different, and even more scared that my friends will think the antisemitism justified (they aren’t great at understanding what antisemitism looks like these days). Idk what to do about the fear of someone being antisemitic because I don’t want it to stop me from doing what I want, but I also know it’ll devastate me if it does happen. If you can offer any insight I’ll be very grateful.

Hi friend!

I'm really glad you reached out to me. Not because I pretend to know all the answers, but because I love that we can all rely on each other during this time.

Unfortunately, whether you sign up for this is ultimately a matter of your own personal priorities and how you are prone to handle confrontation.

Personally, if it was me, I would join. I'm not afraid of defending myself (but I very much used to be, so no shame if you're not there yet). If I wanted to explore my gender identity through performance (if indeed that is what you are doing. I've never been personally drawn to perform drag, so I cannot pretend to know exactly why one might start. But I don't think I'm out of line to assume that it involves some kind of exploration or critique of gender both personally and societally) I certainly wouldn't let antisemites be the reasons I didn't go for it.

If the Anti-Zionist jerk starts coming at you, you can simply say "OK, great. Real quick question: What's a Zionist?" And watch him squirm to say anything real or substantive other than "a Jew." He might say, "They're basically Nazis!" or "They're people who want Palestinians to suffer!" or some other confidently incorrect hyperbolic statement. If he does so, you can say, "Oh! Well, then that's definitely not what I am," and move on.

If he says something slightly more substantive, like, "They're people who think Jews should get to take land from Arabs/Palestinians in order to have a Jewish ethnostate!" You can use the same response as above. But you can also say, "Oh, weird. That's definitely not what I thought it was. Which Zionist Jews have said this, exactly? Cuz I heard it was something completely different." Remember, their goal isn't actually to educate you or help anyone or even to provide limited but factual information. The goal is to shame you into aligning with their self-righteous point of view. That is not an effective tactic when you respond with QUESTIONS instead of outright CORRECTIONS. Making people explain themselves is a great way to defang a bad faith accusation like that.

Finally, they might say, "It's someone who supports Israel." In this case, either of the above methods will work. Or you could question even further. Here's an example of a chat:

You: Supports Israel how?

Jerkface: They want Biden to use our tax dollars to fund a genocide!

You: Oh, well then I'm definitely not a Zionist.

Jerkface: No, you don't understand! It's people who think that Jews can only be safe in a settler colonial apartheid ethnostate that justified its existence by crying about the Holocaust.

You: Well then I'm still not a Zionist. I don't know why you're assuming these things about me. But people should generally cry about the Holocaust. It was really bad thing that people did to Jews. Do you not think the Holocaust is a big deal?

Jerkface: Of course I think it was a big deal. That's why we all have to condemn THIS genocide. The Jews are the Nazis now.

You: I don't know. I don't think that' show Nazism works. But I definitely don't like genocide. If liking genocide makes a Zionist, then I'm definitely not whatever you're accusing me of.

Jerkface: No! I'm just saying that Zionists don't want a ceasefire. They're trying to kill all the Palestinians.

You: I don't know what to tell you then. Because that's still not me. Of course I want Hamas and Israel to both stop bombing each other.

Jerkface: No, Palestine is JUSTIFIED in bombing Israelis because of the oppression.

You: I think its weird that you're conflating Palestinians with Hamas. Are you saying that Palestinian civilians are bombing Israel as as a protest tactic? I thought for sure that Hamas, a terrorist organization, was the group responsible for Anti-Israeli violence. Personally, I've always though that most Palestinians just want to live in peace and don't support terrorism and violence. I don't know why it would harm Palestinians to suggest that both Israel and Hamas should end this conflict diplomatically rather than with violence.

Jerkface: Right! That's why we need to tell Biden to call for a ceaseefire!

You: OK, but I still don't know if you're saying Israel should just stop firing or that Israel and Hamas should stop bombing. I definitely want everyone to stop bombing each other. But I'm not really sure why Hamas would care about what Biden says.

etc...

I call this the "Rabbi method," because when you go to a rabbi, they never really give you an answer to your question. They answer with other questions designed to get them to see their own answer.

Either Hamas is a terrorist group unfairly targeting Israeli civilians and launching bombs into civilian territories--something that is clearly bad and which makes average Palestinian civilians innocent victims (this is the truth btw) that require both Hamas and Israel too lay down their arms. OR Palestinians and Hamas are interchangeable terms and the ongoing oppression of Palestinians have driven them to violent, offensive, armed resistance--which you may or may not agree with as a revolutionary tactic (To be clear, this is NOT TRUE OF PALESTINIANS. PALESTINIANS ARE NOT TERRORISTS AND DO NOT DESERVE TO BE BOMBED). Palestine IS NOT HAMAS. Hamas is bombing Israeli civilians.

Israel is retaliating with extreme force and prejudice against a terrorist organization in a way that is devastating the lives and futures of Palestinian Civilians, who very much deserve for all sides to lay down their weapons and address their mutual grievances diplomatically and responsibly. What is occurring right now is a messy, ugly, brutal war that is killing and traumatizing all civilians in the Levant. And a one-sided ceasefire leaves the side that ceases firing dead. A ceasefire means that EVERYONE must cease firing.

Unless Jerkface has a plan for how to ensure the safety of Palestinian civilians from Hamas that also includes Israeli safety from Hamas, asking for Israelis to simply lay down all their weapons without any guarantee of safety is asking for a nation of mostly Jews to die without putting up a fight. And wanting Arab Israelis and also Jews not to die is not what Zionism means. It's not even what pro-Israel means. That's just called not being violently antisemitic, actually.

Israelis aren't mindless Zionist Nazi Monsters who get off on killing Palestinian babies. Palestinians aren't Noble Savages who have never done anything wrong as individual people and who are inherently morally superior to every single Israeli because they were born Palestinian. Both Israelis and Palestinians are complex, global micro-minorities who have both perpetrated tremendous harm to one another over the course of several decades, and neither group is going anywhere. Neither group deserves for its people to die. Neither group is only "worth helping" if western onlookers categorize them as "innocent" and "good." If someone's activism isn't geared toward respecting the inherent dignity of Palestinians and Israelis regardless of either group's history, then that person is not engaging in activism. If someone is asking you to support that cause because their chosen cause involves perfect cinnamon rolls being targeted by pure evil enemies, then they are not asking you to join them in activism. They are not even asking you to join them in a political reality. What they are asking is for you to join their toxic fandom.

And reducing this conflict down to simplistic fandom rhetoric is not going to help anyone and is frankly offensive to all Jews, Israelis, and Palestinians--all of whom deserve to be seen for the traumatized, suffering, imperfect people they are.

People don't earn support by being good. They inherently deserve support, because they are people.

All that said, maybe it's not emotionally useful for you to engage in this group. Maybe this type of conflict is too much for you. That's OK, too.

And while I would never let antisemitism take away an opportunity for me to fulfill a dream, I will say that my experience of Antisemitism during this time is 100000000% responsible for making me realize that the dreams I had before this experience need to evolve. I no longer wish to be in the town where I live. I wish to be home with my family closeby, because when the chips are down, that's who matters. The idea of moving back to my home state was unthinkable to me before October. Now? I cannot get out of here fast enough. There's nothing I want that is exclusive to my current location anymore. The community I thought I'd built for myself is gone. And while antisemitism didn't take them from me, it sure as fuck showed me that I never had it in thee first place.

If you're going to join this collective, be sure its worth the fight. And if it's not worth the fight, then look for a place that is. Exploring your gender identity freely should not come at the cost of living your ethnic and religious identities openly. Ever.

Don't trade one closet for another. You deserve more than that. We all do.

hope that helps @kit-chaos-doodle

[sugudoe]

HI BABES <3 hruuuu

I've been on ur page for a while and was curious about the jjk matchup and wanted to try 😭

btw feel free to ignore this if u don't wanna do it 🫶🏻

-appearance wise- short? Not athletic at all, casual goth/alt kinda style hijabi/curly ASF short hair, (kinda really conventionally attractive according to shit ton of people ig😭?)

- schizophrenic? Borderline personality disorder and adhd 💀

-Quite smart actually but js lazy asf so usually no efforts

- procrastinates ALOT like that's a huge part of my life atp😭in literally everything

- not really the type to care for own health or anything

-Got a really bad rbf in public +not talkative AT ALL outside of home💀

a huge girls girl

-Really weird mood swings so either talk wayyy while making zero sense or fully mute

-Overall quite confident esp in own body and all so it's pretty hard for other person to win any argument/insult type of things

-Kinda narcissist? Like 1st priority is me so pretty hard to settle for anyone

-childish in relationships cuz ykk trauma🥰🫶🏻

- not taking ANYONES shi esp from partner soo.....

ANYWAYS THAT'S IT ILYYY BYEEE MWAH

my first sukuna!!!! i’ve been waiting for you mwah. this is true form!sukuna and heian!sukuna. also you’re so badass i got inspired to write a one shot, yay.

•⁀➷ 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠. . . ﹫ 𝘴𝘶𝘬𝘶𝘯𝘢 ៹ ༉‧₊˚

sukuna does not give a fuck about anyone that isn’t him or uraume, so when you came on this temple he took for himself with a lot of blood as a payment, he was left wondering.

you arrived as an offering from your village, they couldn’t deal with your personality and ways. never putting your head down or allowing anyone to talk shit. and you, a cursed user, had no restrains on using your technique to defend yourself or prove a point. somehow, they still managed to get you unconscious.

throw at sukuna’s feet, you woke in a daze and you were mad at everyone. seeing this fragile looking little person raising chaos and destruction intrigued him. he killed all of those you didn’t, and you hated him for it.

“hey, you big asshole!” you stormed all the way to his seat. “they were mine.”

“and you are mine now, go with uraume to receive your tasks.”

. . . what?

you start to work under sukuna after that day, he says he doesn’t give a fuck, but it’s an easy lie to spot. sukuna wants to know about your powers, your anger, your everything. and since asking you would be inconsistent to his nonchalant personality, he makes uraume be near you at all times.

uraume hates you. not for jealousy, they just hate how lazy you are with the work. the three of you have an intimidating aura, the closed off faces of you and uraume and the devilish smirk of sukuna is a common last view for anyone who dares face you all.

sukuna begins to view you as something other than a soldier when you keep back talking him more and more. he gets offensive, you defend yourself and nearly gets you face burned or body slashed, that makes you even angrier. he finds amusing your scowling and screeches, so he keeps “missing” his assassination attempts.

sukuna does not court you or asks you on a date, sorry! he will just make clear one day that you are his, like in your first encounter, except this time anyone that comes into his room will be met with a not friendly sight of you on his lap.

now, uraume hates the two of you.

──── 𓇼 ° ⋆ FUN FACTS ᵎᵎ

۫ ּ ﹗it’s all a lie, uraume actually likes you both. and if you ever get sick, sukuna will not help you, but the cooker will make you soup and that’s it. don’t ask the ingredients, though.

۫ ּ ﹗sukuna has a short temper, and you have the light to ignite his anger. you both are very explosive, and yet he stopped getting angry a long time ago, he rather see you worked up. you know where this ends.

۫ ּ ﹗he sees you with a gothic dress, his many eyes won’t leave you alone, never.

۫ ּ ﹗when the culling games start, you come back thanks to kenjaku. it’s like the day you first met, you come his way in a confused state and angry. he missed you a lot.

[onstoryladders]

Kang was such an asshole for half the episode. Like I know his father is fighting for his life but that’s no an excuse to treat his boyfriend (who didn’t do anything) like shit. I don’t like sex work shaming and that’s what it felt like. Im surprised but glad Kang actually showed up when Sailom called him. Now he needs to be a supportive boyfriend to sailom cuz he deserves it.

He acted like a self-centered prick throughout the whole thing... which on one hand, okay, fine, you're in a very complicated mental space, your father got badly hurt and there's a chance he will not survive, so you regress to your default-mode when it comes to dealing with difficult shit, yadda yadda; on the other hand, WHAT A DICK!

Sailom has been by his side the whole time. He's seen him at his worst and didn't leave. Kang hurt his friends and tired to ruin his life and he forgave him. Then Sailom's BROTHER does something bad and he turns his back on him?

What really got me thinking, though, was the scene where Kang told his grandma that "poor people would do anything for money", which... HELLO? That was painful to hear when we've seen Sailom putting others' needs above his own since the beginning. Sailom would never hurt others, not even if it meant he could change his situation: he only ever hurts himself. Not only that, but I feel like the narrative itself has been putting Kang at the center and brushing aside Sailom's issues, and now that they're rearing their ugly head again, I'm curious to see what will come of it.

I liked the last scene of the episode because I live for the drama and that was full of emotions, but I have contradictory feelings about it. What Kang did to Sailom was humiliating. Sailom just got through a very traumatic experience, and here Kang is, screaming at him, shoving money in his face, shaming him for something he doesn't and will never understand. Because Kang doesn't know shit about what it means to be poor. He doesn't know what it feels to have no safety net to catch you when you fall, to be alone in the world, without family to help you and too much pride to get help anywhere else. And I hope they will address this in the next episode.

Sailom has never asked Kang for anything. He worked for everything he received from Kang's family, and when Kang offered to pay off his debts he refused, because he didn't wanna be a burden. On a side note, that whole scene felt so weird to me, because it showed the disconnect between their worlds: Sailom has risked his life more than once because of his debts; and as awful Kang's situation with his dad can be, he's got a system, he's got money, he's safe and comfortable and has a lovely grandma who adores him, so it was weird to hear Sailom say that he doesn't wanna get in the way of his dreams.

What about YOUR dreams, Sailom?

The world keeps failing him, and he keeps forgiving. For once I just want him to get mad at it instead.

[koulakoukoula2003]

controversial opinions: erwin would prefer modern/contemporary art museums because he'd find the art more interesting to analyze and read about, erwin is a bit of a bastard man, erwin actually has a good sense of humor (bit cheeky even, in a casual and subdued way) + he does appreciate good banter with people he trusts, although he values traditions and customs erwin isn't as traditionalistic as people think, erwin isn't necessarily scholarly by nature, "erwin never cries or gets emotional" ???

Finally someone's not asking for smut LMAO

Erwin would prefer modern/contemporary art museums:

At first, I was like nah I don't think so but when I actually considered it, I think you're right??? This man likes puzzles and he likes putting his brilliant brain to use to let everyone around him know that he's smart af so maybe, just maybe, he does prefer modern art but he's also appreciating the older, classic, renaissance whatever it's called, art.

Erwin is a bit of a bastard:

That he is LMAO especially canon!Erwin. If you think canon!Erwin will ever love you, you are a total idiot LMAOOO this man will only use you if you have something to offer and he WILL be feeling bad about it but he still won't stop cuz you're actually pretty helpful with something (fighting titans or being very brilliant strategically or whatever). This man doesn't know how to do this weird thing called feelings.

I know y'all are deprived of the perfect man and you imagine that Erwin IS the perfect man y'all need, but let's be honest with ourselves, he's anything but perfect. He's a manipulative son of a bitch who's going to use up everything you have to offer and you won't even be mad about it.

Erwin has a good, cheeky sense of humour:

On that, I will disagree, Erwin has a terrible sense of humour when all he's making is dad jokes that only he laughs at AHAHAHA ERWIN HAS BOOMER humour ok? this man has no idea how to have fun, all he's focused on is his work and his duties and whatever boring thing you can think about. He doesn't make jokes, but when he does, only he and Miche laugh istg but he DOES appreciate good banter with people he trusts I AGREE on that.

A joke that Erwin would say: "I have a joke about vegetables... but it's corny."

queue crickets chirping in the background

Athough he values traditions and customs, Erwin isn't as traditionalistic as people think:

It's me, I'm people AHAHAH I do think that Erwin is a traditional man and LET'S BE REAL and consider that all canon events take place in a WWII kind of era, so if we really want to be canon, consider that he's a military commander in the 1940s-1950s. What we call now traditional was modern for them back then lmaooo and because I have a smalllll fixation with those decades (cuz I've been writing an original book with an erwinlike character that takes place in the 50s) a military man in WWII who used to fight nazis for breakfast would be a man that we would totally call traditional today.

Traditional meaning that he'll be the one to provide for you, he'll work day and night, he'll be bringing you flowers and chocolate boxes whenever you're having an anniversary. He's a soft dom (or rough if you ask him to lmao) BASICALLY he's 100% a dom, TO SUM IT UP he is everything your grandpa/great-grandpa was in his prime I guess.

BUT if we're talking about modern AU erwin, then yes, I will agree. Modern!AU Erwin is not as traditionalistic as most would think he is. Such traits and mindsets are vastly dependent on where and when someone was born ofc.

Erwin isn't necessarily scholarly by nature:

If his father wasn't killed by the government when he was just a child, he wouldn't have thrown himself in books and conspiracy theories and historical books. IF Erwin's dad never died and he had grown up normally, he probably wouldn't have joined the army at all???? Im not sure, just saying that his father's death had a huge impact on his life and his decisions.

But I DO think that he's a bookworm??? In every scene we have of him in snk he's in his office surrounded by hundreds of books LMAO if that ain't a nerd right there, idek what is. I BET in modern AU he'd be wearing glasses too.

LET'S BE HONEST a man who reads and studies and is literally buried in books IS HOT. I DON'T WANT MY MAN DUMB and Erwin certainly isn't

Erwin never cries or gets emotional:

NOT in front of others. And even when he does breakdown, it's very, very, VERY rare. He does have the 'im a big strong man and big strong men are not allowed to cry' ego. He IS harsh on himself but most of the time he's trying to ignore all the burdens and guilt and regret that befalls him that eventually pile up and he's breaking down and crying, but EVEN THAT is silent and quiet.

I imagine him TOTALLY ALONE with his back against one of his many bookcases, seated on the floor, messy hair, wrinkly shirt, unshaved face, a total mess, crying silently cuz every time he closes his eyes all he sees are friends that he's the one who's sent them to their deaths.

Listen, canon!Erwin suffers probably more than most characters in snk (actually no everybody suffers in snk but you know what I mean ok?) he does act like the big strong commander with a resolve of steel BUT HE IS HUMAN and he DOES breakdown however silent it is.

There's lots of shit that comes with the position he has. No one could have ever dealt with all of this better than him, but he still breaks in the late hours of the night when no one is there to visit him and see him in a state that he doesn't want anyone to see him in.

And that's why hoes like me write fanfiction uwu

[doughguts-art]

I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T BEEN FOLLOWING YOU THIS WHOLE TIME.... I'M A JOKE OF A MAN...... Okay okay okay not gonna reblog to the last one again cuz I'm not one to make super long threads, I'll just explode your inbox again hahshd,,,,

Alright where do I even begin?? Um, first, did something happen to Bandit to make him resort to doing what he does now, or did he just do it out of boredom? Was it that he needed adventure or needed his life to change? Second, can I hear your imaginary scenarios where Bandit meets the guardians??? Pretty please???? I'm really interested to see how he'd treat them!! Third, you said you had a game concept featuring Just Finch, right? Is the game itself currently in production or do you never plan on actually making it? Cuz if you need. Production help.? I'm always willing to be of service?? Okay there's a really low chance you'd accept a stranger's help on a personal project ESPECIALLY since said stranger is still kinda sorta an amateur at everything ever but I'm already so used to helping everyone around me with anything they're doing at any point in time so I thought it'd be kind of me to offer anyways. Sorry though... Anyway back to the Bandit questions! Fourth, if Bandit encountered a burnt, what's his first gut reaction? Obviously I think he'd most likely pull out his gun, but how does he feel? Is he not at all fazed by these shells of people that have become more hostile than they were before, maybe because it's a usual occurrence? Or is part of him still afraid, either because he's disturbed by the uncanny horror in front of him, or because he's aware that if he's not careful enough (despite all the tickets he has for himself) that could easily be him? I need to know if this guy has fears or not!! Fifth, I can't help but be curious to know if there's any songs you associate with Bandit? If I have the time I'll prolly listen to the songs mentioned too lmao,,, And lastly, my favorite thing to think about when it comes to OFF OCs, does Bandit have a competence list? If so, can I please read it, I love making and looking at fanmade competences for some reason, probably because of how creative the nonsensical titles can get while sticking to a single theme, mixed with the general role of the character in battle matching with their personality. But if I'm the only person here that actually cares about that stuff I totally get it!!! And I don't want you to feel pressured to make a set of competences just for this ask either, if you didn't make one you didn't make one and that's okay. I just thought I'd ask if you happened to have one. I think that's all I have for right now, thank you :D

Thank you for following :D Alright, to the questions!

I think you've hit the first question that I can't answer outright because of Lore secrets I'm saving for askbandit. Partially related to the X story, that's all I'll say

Wuhhhh imaginary guardian scenarios?? They're pretty vague but here's some ideas Dedan - Dedan getting increasingly angrier and angrier as he tries to order Bandit around and fails. I also imagine Dedan being confused on who Bandit is, like "DO YOU EVEN WORK HERE?" and Bandit's just "Shouldn't you know that?" Japhet - Like the sketch, Japhet would flap around Bandit and fret about the X. Bandit would probably keep the bird at arm's length though, he rarely lets people close, and Japhet wouldn't be one of those people lol. Enoch - Enoch would have a special bone to pick with Bandit because of the sugar smuggling. He'd try to squish Bandit Judge? - Bandit loves cats. Judge would get many pets, scritches, and treats Sucre? - Sucre is a sugar dealing client for sure. Queen? - I imagine Bandit sarcastically complimenting the architecture of the Room. I imagine the Queen would be passive, maybe laugh a little at his silly musings. Hugo?? - Kick the baby (LMAO KIDDING, KIDDING). Truthfully, maybe they'd talk about comics or something. Idk the room is a weird place and I don't think Bandit and Hugo would ever purposefully meet

Yes, the game is called Project GoldFinch, and it is in production. I haven't done enough to do another big dev progress post, but here's the announcement post if you want the little info I've provided about it. I appreciate the offer to help, but this is a personal project and I feel more comfortable doing the work myself.

This is actually a question I've gotten on askbandit and haven't answered yet, but Bandit is not intimidated by Burnts. Most Burnts (in my lore) aren't necessarily violent, or burn quick enough to that they don't do that much damage, so Bandit wouldn't pay it any mind. If a Burnt was to attack, he would probably choose to avoid it until it recovers rather than shoot though. Also, Bandit doesn't burn, can't burn*, so he doesn't worry. He has no fear. * this info could only be found on his artfight profile previously. Public info but out-of-the-way.

I really should make a Bandit playlist, but the song I currently associate him with the most is Catch Me If You Can by Set It Off. Obvious reasons for that one. I also listen to the music used for his shop theme in UNKNOWN. Also ALSO, I commissioned a really cool person (hai @amygdalum hope you don't mind the tag) to create a Bandit theme inspired by Synchronicity, so if you wanna listen to that, here ya go! I did the cover art on that one.

And finally, competence list. Funny story, I have never actually thought about making a competence list for him, but when Bandit was still the Final Boss in RISE, he did have one (so credit to Brandy again for this, screenshot ripped straight from the old files). These are thematically relevant to his role in the game more than how he is now, but I gotta say, I really like Reckless Charge. If I were to keep any of these, it would be Reckless Charge. That feels very him. The other ones are badass but I see them fitting Tate better. I don't remember if they were changed for Tate or not, but either way, great attack names all around.

Thanks again for the asks ^^

[inquixotic]

EVELYN & DANTE, DAY 37.

stairwell, outside dressing room

with @graftisms !

evelyn mendoza.

"how was the bedroom last night?" with his concerns about marcus and romi, not them together but the lack of privacy, she wishes eden had gotten to keep the living room bed instead of her and charlene. with how marcus had behaved in casa, maybe they'd make better use of it, even if evie couldn't complain about the privacy. "or like. did you and romi sleep outside?" her eyes go wide at the possibility — she doubts it, but she'd like to see him have a win past them just choosing him too.

𝗱𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲 𝗼𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗶𝗿𝗮.

"it was good," he smiles, leaning back against the fire pit bench thing. "it didn't feel very different, but i did miss charlene. it's sad you still can't sleep inside with everyone else." maybe it felt like a two star version of the hideaway to charlene and evie, considering they got their privacy, but for dante it feels a lot like they're somehow being punished, unable to play with the rest of the class. "no, we were inside," he shakes his head, coy smile on his face because it was the first night since being back that marcus was sharing a bed with someone that wasn't josh, and dante took advantage of it. "did you and charlene sleep well? hopefully she wasn't scared."

evelyn mendoza.

"psh. no biggie. we had a whole room to ourselves!" even if she weren't nervous about tv sex, she probably would've been too scared to make a move anyways but that's neither here nor there. the privacy is still nice. "you were inside, aaand?" she drags it out, nudging him a little at his smile. "or do you not wanna kiss and tell? i'll totally respect that, cuz, but like, god, i hope you showed them a good time after your cute little speech." she would've been swooning if it had been for her, she already probably did have stars in her eyes when he gave it. "nah, we def did. she was like, a little scared? i think because it's a little dark in there, and she doesn't like the dark." a little spooky, too, being the only ones there in a room that wasn't hers. she grins brightly, though, proud of herself for not also being scared. "but i was totally brave, i cuddled her and, like, was a right proper protective girl."

𝗱𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲 𝗼𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗶𝗿𝗮.

"did you take advantage of it?" he can't help but ask with a grin, eyebrows raising playfully. it seems fair that he can ask, since she's doing it as well. but the question does make him laugh, tickled that someone would actually want to know. "no, i do not mind, but... it wasn't only just kissing," he says, smirking a bit. "but this is not new. me and romi... i never notice other people in the bedroom," dante laughs, a little sheepishly. "it's a lot easier to ignore everyone else than you may think." he doesn't know how to nicely say they've been banging the entire time. her compliment on his speech makes him beam. "i think my speech was so bad," he admits sheepishly, a hand on the back of his neck. "i was so nervous. yours was good, too. i'm happy you chose charlene. she deserves a protective girl who will cuddle her. do you really like her?"

evelyn mendoza.

"nothin' much more than what we had already done?" she offers, a tiny grin, but her flush betraying some of her excitement. charlene had told her she and dante were close, getting lost together and what not, so she didn't feel weird exactly sharing that with him. she doesn't know how much he knows but that felt like a very safe answer. "oh, i thought you guys were, like — " with marcus back, she thought they hadn't been having sex, but maybe she was wrong on that front. the way he phrases it, though, the framing is still just sweet as far as she sees it. 'he sees only them' vibes."nevermind. that's still fuckin' sick, though, super sweet, babe. so it's like, a little chilled from a couple days ago?" she doesn't remember what day of the week it is already. "are you kidding? it was so perfect. short, sweet, and romantic," she gushes, her hand going to his arm to reassure him. "i think so. she gives me butterflies, y'know? the nice kind."

𝗱𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲 𝗼𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗶𝗿𝗮.

oh, he knows exactly what she's talking about, having gotten the lowdown about the kiss in the rain from charlene yesterday. "that's nice," he grins back, pleased to hear it. good physical chemistry is important, after all. eyebrows raise slightly as he tries to gauge what she's inferring, a cross of confusion on his face before she says nevermind, pulling him out of it. "yes, it's chilled," he nods, although after a second he hesitates, remembering something marcus had told him the other day (that mochi just threw at me now). "but..." does he throw this at her? the offer to confide in someone new is too tempting to resist. "i don't think marcus is trying to get over her. he told he wants to keep being her friend, so he can not let her go. i... worry a little, that romi is not going to let him go, either. but i don't want to ask her to do that, because i know he is important to her. do you think i should worry?" talking about charlene is a nice distraction from himself, smile warm. "butterflies are good," he says. "new love is always so exciting, no? i love the feeling of it."

evelyn mendoza.

“yeah, i think so too,” she smiles back easily, happy to have someone to share that with that’s just pleased too. his hesitation gives her pause, clear on her face as she chews her lower lip. “he said that?” she asks, slowly, to confirm for certain. eden is being lowkey, but she wants them to work, and she doesn’t want to see eden get played if romi changes their mind, either…but. “look, i think it matters that they picked you, y’know?” marcus came back single and they still chose dante. her eyebrows are knit, the line between her brows deep. “i think…it’s hard, because i don’t know that i’d want them to be his friend either? but i don’t think they’re gonna mug you, either? so like, i think you’re human if you are a little bothered, but i don’t think you should think too much on it.” her nod is more determined, chin set, before it fades into something more akin to worry again. “that’s like, totally in confidence, right? i can’t go blabbin’ about it?” she asks, speaking quicker, almost a plea to give her an out to not have to tell eden any of it. “me, too. tell you the truth, i’m not sure i’ve ever really felt it? like, real love.” the admission is sheepish, but he’s got a few years on her, so she’s sure he knows way more. “i get butterflies, but i dunno. i really want to feel something more than that, too, eventually.”

𝗱𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲 𝗼𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗶𝗿𝗮.

slowly he nods, not really thinking about the uncomfortable position he's putting evie in by telling this to her—only that he could really use someone who isn't also friends with romi to talk about this with, if for nothing else than to just vent a little. "no?" he asks, hopefully. "did you watch the season before coming? i will say, i was looking forward to meeting romi most, but i did think her and marcus would get back together. being here makes me believe otherwise, being with her, because i don't think she would do that to me. but... nevermind," he sighs, not really sure how to explain all he's feeling. all he knows is that he cares about romi too much to not give her what he wants, and after everything they've been through, he still has doubts that dante is exactly that. he didn't even think about the possibility of evie telling someone, but he nods. "please," he asks, dark eyes on her. "i told marcus i would not tell romi what he said, too." evie's admission makes a smile bloom on his lips, a needed contrast to getting in his head about romi. "i don't think there's such thing as real love and not real," he tells her. "maybe you feel more love for someone over someone else, but it's all still love, no? have you been in many relationship?" dante asks.

evelyn mendoza.

she hums in confirmation, nodding a little. "yeah, they seemed very nice," she agrees, although her lack of commentary has everything to do with the fact that most of what she paid attention to was romi with marcus. "i really don't think they'll mug you off, sweet. cross my heart." she mistakes his hesitance for not wanting to say too much, and in turn moves to reassure him, her hand moving to pat his with a tiny smile. "i'd tell you if i thought you needed to be worried, for real." aside from the fact she can't lie for shit, her romantic notions also tell her someone wouldn't go back on a decision like that. "you can talk about it to me whenever you need to, though, i really don't mind." especially with the confirmation that it's private, confidential, and she has an out should anything go wrong down the line, giving him a quick, determined nod. "i'm great at secrets. well, except surprise parties, but those barely count. i'll take it to the grave." his comment, thoughtful and much deeper than she was expecting after her own silly admission, brings a grin to her face. "you're like, really wise, you know that?" maybe it's the five years he has on her. "i like that a lot. i've only really been in two, three if you count the boy i "married" in primary. i think i had a lot of platonic love for them?"

𝗱𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲 𝗼𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗶𝗿𝗮.

dante meets her tiny smile with one of his own, leaning into the brief touch. "thank you, evie," he says, sincerely. in reality, it's not like she has much insight on his relationship with romi or romi's relationship with marcus that would make her opinion hold more weight than most, but dante is comforted nonetheless by how sure she sounds. he's always been the type that trusts people by how they speak; if they sound like they know what they're talking about, they usually do. besides, it just feels good to be talking about it to someone, considering this is usually the sort of thing he'd keep to himself. "i'm good at secrets too, if you ever have any to speak about," he offers in return, smile glowing at her compliment. it's not often he's been called wise, if ever. "i'm really glad you are here," he tells her, arms wrapping around her to pull her into a hug. she's so small that it's easy to tuck her into his body, as if he's trying to put her in his pocket. after a beat, he pulls away. "that makes sense," he nods. "when was your last relationship?"

evelyn mendoza.

her smile broadens, reaching her eyes, at his offer to keep her secrets. she doesn’t have any, painfully bad at keeping them for herself, but the offer is so sweet that when he pulls her into a hug, she wraps her arms around his waist comfortable, like she’s known him for a lot longer than three days. “you’ll be the first to know, soon as i have any,” she promises into the hug, comforted by the proximity and reassured that at least she has one friend here. “you mean that? you’re so sweet.” her lower lip juts out for a moment at the sentiment, a semblance of the pout that she’d make at a really cute puppy. “um, just over a year ago i think?” she tries to do the mental math, continuing to speak in spite of it. “i’ve gone on dates and things but none of them have really panned out, and she only lasted like…four months? it was nice, though.”

𝗱𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲 𝗼𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗶𝗿𝗮.

he doesn't actually remember the last time he was in a real relationship, having to consider his own question to compare it to evie's. over a year ago sounds about right, but it's the word relationship that's the hardest thing to gauge, used to little love affairs that never hold any titles. "how do you meet people at home?" he asks. "do you use dating apps?" where he lives is too small of an area to use one of those things without having to travel far to meet someone, but dante's seen enough about dating apps through media to find them pretty fascinating.

evelyn mendoza.

he earns a broad smile for that, with evie’s amusement at the question. dating apps are pretty much all she uses, for her little flings that she doesn’t consider relationships. “sometimes, yeah. my last girlfriend i met in a pottery class.” the drama of that one will be saved for another time, though, with how lovely their conversation has been. “i’m in the city, so it’s pretty easy to just meet up at a bar, right? but you must be more rural,” every vineyard she’s been to has been, at least. “so do you do things the old fashioned way? what was your last relatio

[onmymasa22]

I need to be loved strongly. By someone who is unwavering. I'm not patient in love. I need love now. I need to know that someone wants to be with me. This is too slow. I need to see interest. I dont know. I feel like im ready to love but i need conversations, not small talk.

If i died and came back, would everything be

What was I talking to my dad about on the phone for almost 3 hours tonight?

A) I was telling him about my day (I get distracted telling stories)

B) he was advising me about budgeting (adulting points right here please)

C) we were plotting to take over the civilized world as a father daughter duo, with hopes to eventually settle down in the galapagos islands

So there was a siren at the end of my shift and im already acting like an overtired five yr old girl laughing at absolutely everything... to the point where i was not allowed on "giving out drugs" duty, and one of my old guys calls me oofnikit cuz he says im like flying in the air, and asks me to go with him to tzidkiyahu, his treat... like when u wanna invite me to a burger, fries, and a coke, come talk to me... also, sidepoint, ur like 65.

When all ur plans for the day become canceled but wednesday is ur day off from work where u l do u. And theres traffic everywhere so ur not going anywhere more than a walk away. So u get out ur guitar and tune it and go to town on all the adir getz songs u know by heart. People ask me how i became fluent in hebrew in 2 years, and its cuz i love music, music gave me the drive. Id learn all kinds of songs, look it up, and learn the words. Theres writers who make very high level songs, and theres also fun music. Adir getz is pretty much the taylor swift of israel in my opinion. Love songs that are kind of stupid, the chords r country like where theyre not complicated but its pop and very fun. I could blast him all day long. So here i am, on a day where i have nowhere to be, just a girl and her guitar, remembering how much i love guitar.

Its interesting u know. When ur friend calls u and is having a bad day. So u offer to go for a walk, to go get icecream. Whatever it is. So u take a shower, get dressed, and ur just waiting. And then she calls and says that she really just wants to go home. And u dont make her feel bad for that decision. Cuz the goal was always to make her feel better, that she didn't come to Jerusalem for nothing. If hanging out isnt helping her, than its not worth it. Like i get her sucky day

Im not a jealous person, i think when i was in highschool one of things i learned was that theres a difference between being jealous of them and what they have where u want it instead and wishing, where u like their sweater so u buy it too, in addition. And that language is a huge deal. Im trying to nix "oh my gd im so jealous" even tho im not, i dont really have it in me to want to take something away from someone, its just words to show im excited, it doesnt give off the right energy. The energy i want to give is by using the words "i love that for u". I feel like that does the job of creating the girl gang we all are apart of. Of raising eachother up. Of coming together with goodenergy. Abd its ok if u say "i need to throw up all the crap of the day" or "im not doing great tonight" but ur not allowed to drag ppl down.

I am so excited for a quiet shabbat, i will be able to just be. Take a shower, go for a walk in the evening, maybe go to the kotel. Sit on the balcony with a vogue and a cup of coffee where its quiet and peaceful. I love it.

I have come to a conclusion... the things i like to read r very weird- I'll read vogue cover to cover. Or ill read zera shimshon cover to cover... and there is no in between

Everyones leaving shabbat which is so nice! Im so happy to get just a quiet shabbat

U know what I tell ppl- I want the guy who I take home to meet my dad, and with the way he treats my dad and my family and people, I'm proud of him- that he's the one I chose. I look at my parents and say "that's my husband! I picked him!" I want to be so proud of him. And thinking about that moment now is making me well up with tears because i know at some point it'll happen for me. And i almost cant believe how good itll feel. Who is so good ill just think hes gotta be the mashiach. I always said i want to marry the mashiach. I want my mashiach. Its not a reward. Itll happen when its meant to happen. Im just emotional and excited thinking about when. Because when it does, i wont have a doubt in my mind that we're gonna be together forever.

[the-firebird69]

So far it's been eventful we found it to be eventful today so far and we mean it too a couple things were discovered he went to salvation army just now and they have a couple of his suits hooray they're too small maybe he has a ton of suits and he knows they're special but it's argument is I don't really need to fill my apartment up with suits unless they fit and you haven't tailor 0 Devin Taylor is expensive prohibitively expensive it costs as much as a cheap suit and that's what he wants right now occasion you might have to wear one but he doesn't need anymore he does need in Taylor we're going to do that but is a very good argument right now they're going to steer it away from BG and a couple others into the right thing and they know how to do it and it's precise if they want to celebrate directly doing it correctly or do it right and other people will have a crappie made on them back footboard of a pickup truck as John moment it's complex and microwave something so he left it there because my son is he wants to be under arrest and if he picks the Taylor it's usually a pain in the ass even if b&g is there and does it you got to make some mess it up this way they're all saying we want your suit but that's jobs I'm talking about the iron Man suit so we begin working today and we're working at the store and there's a couple toy Nerf guns and you said I could actually make those work and we know he can and you can get special paint and you spray it on and it looks pretty good it's automotive paint and he knows how to do it and it will be one can for both of them and it's a nice idea but they're kind of too large and it wouldn't be exactly right yep and we are witnessing the people here are kind of weird and they don't speak so you can hear them just want to sit there and talk to you and feel like vampires or something and you're not really weird people you don't like it a lot of people are disconnected and fear and can't really need to have their bridge club and crossword puzzle love the morning coffee it's a lot of fun there's so many things to make fun of then he wants to join in and you old ladies are going to have a 250 lb middle linebacker coming to coffee in the morning for bridge and he wants to win okay he probably win every game and old lady says I don't think so it's just a kid and yeah he could have beat Tommy f that they're saying that he's special. So they take it seriously so he's off to a destination number two and he's going to try and find another cosplay item

Thor Freya

This is great okay it's a really good idea it actually works very well for me I needed to see this in action cuz he says it's working and I said yeah it is and I saw a little bit of it but now I see what it is and it's giving me a lot of Hope and some people have a plan that does stuff if you can see people bothering him and it's specific people couldn't find the father of the wrong people sometimes but he saw my husband in the shelter and he was helping a little and he got people out that people out ahead of others I'll get them out and really the guys just sitting there wasn't doing much but he said he's probably going out after your stuff and your people and they were they're offer half of people and even the pseudo empire was just sitting there like a fat man you didn't see it the result is this war started from earnest and it's a bloody war and they're all going to lose it was a stupid thing to do but really this is good fun and he wants me to remain positive because he needs help doing it so I'm telling him to go screw but I'm going to help him yeah I'm trying to copy these people he says it's not working so we looked at a couple of toy guns you can spray paint them but yeah the ones that they fired like the the big Nerf it's like a half an inch across is pretty big so they're big and fat it'll look kind of funky but it's kind of good in the way you want to you want really looking real is kind of a pain and he's going to have to have a backpack with him because he doesn't want to look like the real thing on the street now that's an issue with this particular costume but that's the way it goes there's a couple more things to keep in mind when he's doing this people are already saying he had his best with him and I'll tell you we won't stand and Sherry and not going to make it we are very repulsive pja Trump Terry cheesman are not going to make it so I need people to look at them and see why

Hera

Olympus

[ray935sworld]

Hello, so first of all, I wanna send lots of love to you and turtle anon. I have been enjoying your thoughts on pedrenzo amnesia au for the past few days, they just make me want to scream into a pillow.

I hope you don't mind me crashing your little party and sharing with you a trope you might like. This would be set after dani has started feeling more comfortable sharing a bed with jorge. One day he wakes up before the other man does and trying to get jorge to let go of him so he can get out of bed. But jorge is still too asleep to remember what happened + he's been holding back affection that used to be natural to him for so long, and he just holds him closer and tell him they can afford a few more minutes in bed and just doesn't realize what he's done and goes back to sleep. Cue dani just not knowing what to do with himself cuz they may have been getting closer during the course of his recovery but he still can't reconcile the jorge he know from the one that is holding him now so close to his hear (or whichever position you think feels more natural). but at the same time he likes this feeling it's familiar and comforting. Also think about the aftermath when jorge realizes what happen and feels very guilty about it because he overstepped even if he didn't mean to.

I really like this theme of domesticity in amnesia fic where for one person there is this whole world of gestures and signs of affection that they have practiced over and over and feel like second nature to them and they're just taken away. The person they love is still physically there but also not really. And then you have the amnesiac who may remember very mundane things about their partner(how they like their coffee, the fact that they like to sleep with the curtains open) but they don't actually really remember them.

Anyway I'll stop yapping now. big hug to you and turtle. looking forward to hear more of your thoughts

<3 <3

🐢 YOU NEED TO READ THIS. THIS ASK AMAZING

Okay I wanna start this with 2 things, okay? First of all, I am VERY happy that you enjoy this AU as much as I and turtle do. It means a lot to me that you said that. I am sure I will actually make this into a proper AU and write it once I find some time. And my other point is that I am VERY grateful that you had an idea and shared it with me. That means a lot to me, so please, feel free to yapp as long as you want. Really. I was grinning and kicking my feet while reading. Aaaaaand if you tell me about it, can I assume that it'd be okay to include the idea in a possible out written story? Only if you agree of course!

Okay now - I LOVE the idea. It fits perfectly. I adore the "he holds back affection" cause he does. And in a moment like that, not really aware, he would totally forget what's going on. So I see Jorge pulling him close and maybe even kiss him? What do you think? Like he maybe kisses his cheek or forehead, depending on the position and kind of whining about not getting enough affection in the last days. Okay sorry, I really couldn't keep this out my head so here is a quick first draft:

"Jorge, can you - I ehm - I want to get up" Dani asked, trying to shift a little. But Jorge just hold him closer. "Nooo...." he replied, his eyes closed again. "I don't wanna... Didn't cuddle enough. Come on, corazon" Corazon. Heart. The nickname seemed to fit in the situation but it didn't fit in Dani's head. He stared at the man. He was younger and now he somehow felt older all while acting younger. It was a weird situation, the Spaniard found himself in, like so many he had found himself in over the last couple of weeks. Jorge pulled him closer, his arms still holding him in place. Dani contemplating waking Jorge up properly, telling him more firmly so he would let him go. Or he could give him this short moment of comfort. It really wasn't a lot, considering all the help Jorge had offered him. So he let it go. Then he felt Jorge's lips on face. They felt dry against his skin. Still he could tell how soft they were. They felt warm, still they caused him to freeze. He suddenly remembered who he was cuddling up with. He wasn't supposed to feel soft, warm kisses from him. "Missed your kisses" Jorge whispered as if he had managed to read Dani's mind.

AND OH THE AFTERMATH. The reaction of Jorge would definitely be something. I hope you don't mind that I included a face kiss, I think it would add to the drama but if you think it'd be too much, please let me know. I thubk he would feel really guilty and kind of distance himself a bit. Like he'd still be there for Dani but maybe he'd be even more hesitant with physical contact and Dani HATES it. But he doesn't know WHY he hates it. OR maybe while Jorge is busy apologizing over and over again (he feels real bad) Dani admits that he doesn't mind it and he thought it was nice. At least depending on which point in the story this would be. Like this would definitely only fit if they were already at this point. As if Jorge would be afraid he'd just destroyed any progress they made.

And I know what you mean. I think it's very Intresting to have one person that remembers everything. Like every single detail because they've spend so much time together that they know each other inside and out while the other has no idea. Like it hurts so much. In a way the love is gone but it's still right there.

Thank you so much again for reaching out. Big hug for you too! Feel free to yapp again for as long as you want ❤️

[unktto]

OH DUDE SO LET ME TALK ABOUT MY DAY SECOND DAY ON THE JOB ACTUALLY NOT BAD I WAS MAKING PHONE CALLS ASKING FOR A GENERAL CHECK UP WHILE HE WAS GONE I CALLED LIKE 15 PPL AND LIKE BRO I WAS SO LOST AND SOME CHICK FINALLY ASKED ME A QUESTION LIKE GENERAL CHECK UP OF WHAT 😭

GIRL I HAVE NO IDEA THATS JUST THE SCRIPT THEY GAVE ME

LITERALLY ONE QUESTION AND IM OUT

BUT I MEED TO STUDY IVE BEEN PUTTING IT OFF

anyways so i first got there and like he was in a meeting with a client and he took him to go check a house he was wanting

anyways i was theee with rob for a bit and he is the construction manager

but anyways after greg came back the client left and then he showed me how to do calls today and i was like ehhh not great at first but i was just nervous

anyways after we had this one client who said his floors still have the glue in it and that rob hasn’t came by and then was complaining because no one has taken care of him and i told him to give us one last chance and ill make sure we get there today and then i called him back like 3 times and he was actually cool

then OH ME AND MY BOSS (greg) SO ME AND HIM WENT TO GO LOOK AT THE NEW NEIGHBORHOOD THEY ARE BUILDING WHICH ONCE WE FINISH WITH SIERRA VISTA WE ARE GONNA BE MOVING TO WHICH IS GONNA GAKE US LIKE 2 1/2 TO SELL LAL THE HOUSES THERE

oh but anyways we went to go look at the new place and we had to go through a back road AND BROO SWEAR TO GOD I THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA KILL ME LIKE YOU DONT UNDERSTAND IVE ONLY MET THIS GUY LIKE 3 TIMES AND IT WAS ONCE AT WORK WHERE HE OFFERED ME THE JOB AND THEN MY FIRST DAY AND NOW

SO LIKE WE WERE TLAKING BEFORE THAT AND I THOUGHT IT WAS ALSO SO SWEET CAUSE HE WAS LIKE IVE ALWAYS WANTED A DAUGHTER AND SHIT SND IM ALR LIKE FUCKED UP IDK IF YOURE ASKING BUT LIKE YEAHHH I GOT YOU LETS GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER A BIT MORE THO AND HES ACTUALLY COOL AS SHIT BUT IM SO USED TO OKDER GUYS BEING CREEPY AND NOT CARING FOR ME OPENLY IM SO USED TO LIKE MEAN LOVE CUZ THATS HOW MY TIOS ARE AND I LOVE THEM BUT THEY ARENT THE TYPE TO OPENLY SHOW THEIR FEELINGS SO ITS WEIRD WHEN THIS GUY DOES IT AND HE HASNT TOLD ME HE LOVES ME BUT LIKE HE ALSO HAS BEEN LIKE OFFERING TO BUY ME SO MUCH SHIT AND I KEEP TELLING HIM I AM GOOD AND I DONT NEED IT AND IM FINE AND I DONT LIKE TO BE GIVEN THINGS I LIKE WORKING FOR IT AND HE JUST TOLD ME THAT I AM DAMAGED AND THAT ITS OKAY TO RECEIVE HELP AND THATS GODS WAY AND HE IS VERY RELIGIOUS AND I HONESTLY LOVE THAT BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL SAFER

but we also talked about his son apperently they aren’t close cause his son is more mean and selfish but he thinks it’s cause he’s an olny child and that’s when he told me he had always wanted a daughter and shit

his first wife died and he has a second wife i think they are still together i just found out today he had a second wife i seen the wedding ring but i thought he was one of those widows still in love with their so

anyways the last 30ish minutes i kinda was just watching tiktok and reading instagram post and then he paid me and i got to go he’s going on vacation today til the 28 so no work until he gets back but gives me enough time to study

ughh studying but i really like this job and i see a future here

he’s a really great boss dude we made a promise not to lie and to be honest and open with another and we shook on it

he’s genuinely gonna be my work dad >:)

my mom has one of those his name is andy

he is really nice she did the same shit when she was younger she was cleaning hotels and got hella fucking good at cleaning and moved companies where andy found her and kept working with her and seeing her hard work

i love my mom and look up to her in the aspect of how hard she works

i need to work hard asf i love this job already and i am ready to know everything about it

BUT ANYWAYS

went home with my 100 for the day and i only worked 5 hrs 😎

i got to leave an hr earlier since there wasn’t much else to do

hmm but good day :)

[niyabiblioteca]

i can help

PAIRING: best friend!hyunjin x fem!reader

WARNINGS: not exactly smut cuz i have horrible writers block, dirty talk, manhandling?

you’re so deprived and you have yet to receive the treatment you deserve. how could hyunjin not help you?

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you love hyunjin so much.

you love that as your best friend, you can always confide in him. even with the most personal or embarrassing or pathetic stories.

hyunjin has heard stories from you that most people would take to the grave, but he has made it clear in your friendship that he would never judge you and will always lend an ear or a shoulder when it’s needed.

you have taken complete advantage of that promise, hence why you’re in his kitchen for the 3rd time that week, scraping the remaining ice cream from the bottom of the tub after yet another ruined hookup.

“i swear it’s like i’m cursed hyunjin. why does your species just fail to know basic fucking female anatomy?”

hyunjin chuckles in amusement but also remorse as he watches you frustratingly take bites of the vanilla ice cream he’s bought for this occasion especially. he’s even designated a spoon for you at this point because after the amount of times you’ve ended up in his kitchen just this week, he figured you’d need one.

“like how hard is it to find a girls sweet spot or her clit or her g-spot? especially when i fucking tell you where all three are! if i have to experience a man rubbing on my fucking inner thigh again i’ll lose it.”

hyunjin listens intently, nodding and you’re honestly impressed at his ability to engage in these kinds of talks with you as if it’s so casual.

he has to admit though, this is getting old.

not the whole having you in his house talking about your problems thing. no, he promised you could always count on him and he really meant it. but the fact that all week it’s all been about how your sneaky links just completely leave you high and dry makes him feel so bad for you.

“i don’t think i’ve faked this many orgasms in my life. maybe it’s me, my vagina is broken or something. because there’s no way this keeps happening to me and i’m becoming more and more strung up by the hour.”

he let you continue to go on as he disposed of the ice cream tub and spoon for you, listening and plotting his response when you’re done. the crazy thing is, he doesn’t feel shy or weird about what he’s about to offer at all. he feels that he’s actually a very good friend for considering this because he’ll be damned if his bestie is without a proper orgasm for the rest of the week after the hell she’s been through.

“i just can’t do this anymore, hyunjin. it’s actually causing me so much stress and anger i might explode.”

you almost feel bad for going on like this because you think this isn’t even a serious issue. you just wanna have a goddamn orgasm. a real one.

hyunjin thinks it’s a very valid reason though.

“i can help you.”

literally hyunjin hasn’t said this much the entire time you’ve been over. so this definitely caught you completely off guard.

your eyes widen as you almost choke on your saliva.

“y-you can help me what?”

“ i can help you cum.”

ah. so you definitely weren’t fucking hallucinating.

you couldn’t exactly react as hyunjin grabbed your hands and pulled you out of your seat so that the two of you were standing not even two inches away from each other.

“tell me. what could i do to give you the most mind-numbing orgasm ever? what did those men do wrong?”

he put his hands on both sides of your face as he looked you dead in the eyes waiting for your answer. he was very serious about this and he was taking your pleasure seriously. that alone made your whole body hot, especially between your thighs.

“t-they were too soft with me. i wanted it rough and they didn’t give that to me.”

hyunjin gave a cute eye smile in response to that as this information was all making sense to him. he was glad he was given this insight about what makes you tick so that he could accommodate you properly.

and that he did.

not even 30 seconds after you said that, he spun you around and pushed your upper body against the countertop so that you were bent over in front of him.

he wasn’t gentle either. he had used every bit of strength and aggression to get you where he wanted you and oh did it work so goddamn well.

you whimpered as you felt his bulge press against your heat. you couldn’t see him, but just the image of his lean figure pressed against your body as his hand reached forward and gripped your hair to pull your head up made you so fucking wet it was actually surprising to you.

“mmm. this is better. so tell me, y/n. how else can i make you cum so hard that you forget about every last hookup this week?”

you were downright embarrassed of the response you managed to let out, but hyunjin felt there was no need when we was doing everything in his power to make you feel good.

“s-spank me. slap me. choke me. fucking ruin me, please.”

hyunjin let out a low growl at your tone and pressed his bulge even harder against your core, causing you to whine and push your hips back at the same time.

“please, what?”

you knew what he wanted you to say. he knew what he wanted you to say. so badly. the moment he heard it, all hell would break lose and he would give you every last inch of him if you wanted it.

“please, jinnie. fuck me.”

god, hyunjin is such a great friend.

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[pineappleciders]

Could you do omori x reader thats rich and spoils them with gifts and trips and stuff? 💛Thanks

A/N: i already did this with aubrey but i'm gonna redo her part cuz it was awhile ago

RW OMORI characters with a rich S/O who spoils them

includes: SUNNY, AUBREY, KEL, HERO, MARI, and BASIL

SUNNY

SUNNY hates it

not because he doesn't like gifts or money or anything, but he truly thinks he doesn't deserve it. you can spoil anyone in the world, why him?

he'll get flustered and look away mumbling "thanks" if you hand him a gift

concerned as to why you can just. blow money on him

he'll accept these things, because he doesn't want to be rude, but it's still awfully embarrassing . he has no idea how he scored someone like you

he wants to scream into his pillow whenever u show up to his house with his favorite drink/food

tries to go all out and hand-make you gifts for your birthday and such but he feels bad since it can never out-do your gifts

he's kinda scared you're gonna betray him and you're trying to get on his good side or something, so it helps if u reassure him you just love him a whole lot

AUBREY

she doesn't get it, why would you do something like that for lil old her??

but she cherishes everything you do for her to the fullest extent.

she spends a lot of time at ur house and has lots of sleepovers with u to get away from her own home life

she rlly thinks she doesn't deserve you. like at all

tries to take you places and pay for your meal but she can't do it all the time, so she makes the most out of every date and trip

gets embarrassed if u show up with a gift and just hugs you until she isn't flushed anymore,, she can't have you seeing her face!!

she doesn't have a lot of money so she really appreciates everything u get her, especially food

gobbles on any food u get her or dinner u buy,, she isn't passing free food up!!

KEL

"oh! for me?? are you sure??"

he'll be awfully confused every time you randomly show up with something he's been wanting

if you buy him food or take him to GINO's a lot he'll try to cut down his order to make you pay less but gobbles it all up

gets embarrassed if u ask him if he wants anything else,,, like stop !! spending!!! money!! on! me!!!!

"haha, no, i don't wanna make you pay more... wait, where are you going?!"

he tries to tell u not to get him anything but he is a big growing boy that needs his nutrients. he gobbles up whatever you buy so you know none of it went to waste

he accepts your offers and gifts gladly, but not without hesitation!! he hates being a bother

"hah, i'm supposed to be paying for your meal.." lowkey damages his masculinity

HERO

he's also confused. why are you buying him all of this?? cookbooks??? new, fancy silverware??? paying his dogs medical bills??? what the fuck

he's actually kinda skeptical about it at first,, like what if you're breaking up w him?? are you trying to soften him up so you can backstab him?????

but he realizes that's stupid and awkwardly accepts anything u do/give him. he gets all blushy about it and starts stuttering though

he spoils you back. to an extent because your family is richer n all that, but he still tries to spoil you by getting you gifts and flowers and chocolates and stuff you like/need

it's weird to him because he's usually the spoiler/gentleman in the relationship,, so he's lowkey swept off his feet

he would've done that for you anyway, but now he has to do it extra so it isn't unfair!!! he feels like he's taking advantage of you or something

MARI

she always denies everything u do/get for her,, but she'll eventually accept it and kiss you on the cheek as a thanks

like SUNNY she doesn't think she deserves that kind of treatment,, you shouldn't be wasting your money so fast like that!!

she does love the romantic aspect,, like if you went on a trip together all alone and romantic,, or if you show up to her house with flowers and chocolates and... is that a diamond ring?

it gets her all blushy but she tries to hide it by being devious and teasing u,, then she goes home and goes crazy over you in her room

"oh? is this for me?? why, if i didn't know better i'd say you're in love!"

teases to cover up the fact that she's embarrassed as fuck

BASIL

he's constantly telling you not to spend any money on him

he tries to spoil you back by giving you home-planted flowers and drawings and pictures, but he never feels like it's enough

"really, you shouldn't be spending this much money.."

makes him super flushed if u show up with something he said he wanted,, he didn't mean for you to actually go out and buy it!!!

always insists that he pays for dinner. always

gives u lots of hand crafted things and drawings,, he really hopes you think it's the thought that counts

cherishes everything u give him,, new garden shears? he's going to use these the rest of his life

if u two go on a trip he takes lots of photos of you and the scenery, and has an entire album dedicated to you

[poisonmemarie]

Me & You Together | Remus Lupin

Remus Lupin x reader

words 2,1k

modern!au, fluff, Remus' POV, language, friends to lovers

a/n: spontaneous one, hope you'll enjoy <3

MASTERLIST || REQUESTS

And there's been no way for me to say That I felt a certain way In stages, oh I think the story needs more pages, yes

Every single time I see that girl — swear, every single time — I tell myself 'I need to talk to her', and somehow I never do. I'm not even sure for how long I've been looking forward to see Her at all those parties — always hated them, but not anymore.

Don't remember how we met, but that's unimportant, we did nonetheless. Couldn't be happier for James finally seeing Lily, well, because The Girl is her friend, so now we are friends.

Honestly, that's even worse. Why didn't I ask her out when I first saw her? This will forever be the mystery to me. Because now she only sees me as a friend.

"Didn't take you for a jokester, Remus," she cooed from behind, patting my shoulder.

"Well, I am a man of many talents, thank you very much," I answered. That was weird, right? Stop being weird.

"I figured," she chuckled, fixing herself a drink.

"I can help you with that," I got her the whiskey from the top shelf, gently tapping her hip with mine.

"Oh, wow, thank you," she was looking at my hands as I was mixing the only cocktail I knew — it was her favourite. "Always the gentelmen."

"Anything for you, my lady," I offered her the glass.

"Oh, Remmy, you're so nice," she playfully squeezed my jaw with her small hand.

"If I'm so nice, why don't you go out with me?" I boldly stated. What the hell is wrong with me?

"Oh, God" her hand fell. "I'll have to think. Because we're mates, it doesn't feel right."

She got so serious, I panicked.

"It's cool," I answered. "I'm just messing, Y/N/N."

"Ohh," she let out a breath and a little laugh, "sorry, I thought you were serious, you didn't sound like you were jo- okay whatever, you were messing, okay- uhm- I better- uhm- go?" she gestured to the room where everyone was.

"Sure." Does it sound convincing? Yeah, it probably doesn't.

***

Have you ever felt possessive over a person that was never yours? Well, I certainly have.

Y/N was sitting across from me, reading a book I recommended, and, of course, this bloke must hit on her, right in the library. What a prat!

"I love me a smart girl," this pillock said.

"Congrats," she looked at him with disgust and quickly returned to the book.

"What're you reading?" he closed her book to see the cover.

"Listen, mate, fuck off of her," I chimed in.

"D'you mind?" he said.

"Yeah, I do," I stood up, which proofed to be the right move, because he got scared and fucked off.

"Thanks," she said sheepishly and sighed. "Are you done yet? I wanna leave."

"Yeah, I'm done," I answered putting my things in the bag.

"No, Remmy, if you're not, it's fine, I'll wait," she looked guilty. Why the hell would any of this be her fault?

"Y/N/N, I am done, don't worry, okay?" I assured her. "Let's go to mine, I'll get you some tea, huh? How does that sound?"

I came up to her side of the table to put my arm around her frame.

"That sounds lovely, thanks," she still sounded sheepish.

"Hey, c'mon, don't let this idiot ruin your mood," I led her to the exit.

"It's nothing, really," she lied. "I'm just tired."

"Darling, I'm not gonna argue with you, but just so you know, I know when you're lying."

She smiled, finally.

"What kind of tea are we having tonight?" I asked.

"I need cammomile after this."

"Okay, you will stay the night, right?"

"Oh, no, Rem, I've been staying a whole lot recently."

"Well, I'm just saying that I won't let you wander through the night, so you might as well stay."

It sounded creepy. Lord, why the hell did I put it like that?

She laughed. Thank god.

"If you're alright with that, I'd love to stay."

"Good, 'cuz we need to watch a new season, do you remember?"

"That's right," her eyes lit up, at last. "Is Siri home?"

"Yeah, he is, will it be a problem?"

We got outside.

"No, not at all," she answered simply. "Just wondering."

She has been staying a lot lately. So much that at some point we just fell asleep on the couch together — one of the best moments of my live, not gonna lie — and that from that moment on was the thing.

"Can we go straight to your room?" she asked quietly, taking off her shoes.

"Okay, but you can speak normally, Sirius isn't going to sleep any time soon," I whispered back.

"I know, just don't want to disturb him," she got so close and put her hands on my shoulders, looking up at me. I chuckled at that.

"Okay, go change, I'll get us tea," I squeezed her waist.

"Wait, I forgot to bring my clothes."

"Wear mine."

"What can I wear?"

"Anything you want," I smiled at her.

"Will you show me?" she was so timid.

"You can go through my stuff, it's fine, I trust you," I assured her.

"I dunno," she looked away from my face.

"Please, anything, surprise me, Y/N/N, okay?"

"Okay," she said, but it sounded more like a question.

We went our separate ways.

With two cups in one hand — she hates when I do it, because 'Remus, it's dangerous' — I knocked at my bedroom door.

"Come in," her voice sounded.

She was sitting on my bed, wearing my blue t-shirt and some joggers.

"Did I surprise you?" she said with a smile.

"You did," I put the cups on the bedside table.

"Please, just come here already," she patted the bed.

"Eager," I laughed. "In a second."

When I came back in the room, she was under the blanket. As soon as I got under the blanket she passed me my cup and smiled the brightest smile.

"Now, let's watch," she looked at the screen, waiting for me to hit 'play'.

Soon after she finished her tea, she dozed off on my shoulder.

***

"Ohh, here we are again," Sirius said in a raspy voice, when Y/N and I entered the kitchen in the morning. "Didn't hear you last night, don't be so shy, you can make some noice."

"Good morning to you, too," Y/N ignored Sirius' joke. If I'm being honest it probably wasn't that much of a joke, he must know I like her — probably since day one.

"Moony, I don't think you did a good job, she's not tired and still can walk, go back and finish what you started," Sirius went on. Y/N shook her head at him.

"Sit down, I'm gonna make us breakfast," I said.

"I'll help," she stood by my side.

"Darling, your lover boy can manage, sit down," Sirius sneered. She looked at him in disbelieve.

"I'm fine," I whispered to her.

"Okay," she cooed in defeat, and sat across from Sirius.

"Sooo," Sirius started, "can't get enough of my friend here."

"Ha-ha, really funny."

"It is," he continued sipping on his tea.

"No, it's not, I feel really guilty about crashing at yours so often, but I just cannot listen to James banging Lily," Y/N spoke and looked at me, when I turned to them while waiting for a pan to heat.

"Don't feel guilty, it's fine," I chimed in.

"Yeah, right, and you found solace in the arms of one and only Remmy boy," Sirius' grin just widened with every single word that left our mouths.

"What would you do if James was fucking your roommate?"

"Well, if James shagged Remus I would've been really surprised," Sirius was as calm as ever.

"Okay, great," I turned away.

"What are turning away for? I'm not James. Not gonna shag you."

"Sirius," Y/N laughed.

"My lady, do you find it disturbing, me talking about your lover boy that way?"

"Shut it," she was still laughing.

***

"Oi, Y/N, need a ride?" James came in as the three of us sat on the couch.

"Yes, thank you, let me get my stuff," she quickly headed to my room.

"Slow down, I'm not going anywhere, take your time," James shouted. "Hello, lads." He made it to the couch.

"So, did you have a good sleep?" Sirius grinned.

"Sure," James smirked.

"I bet you had it was better than your girlfriend's roommate's," Sirius looked at me.

"What are you looking at me for?" I asked.

"Oh, really?" James said. "They didn't?"

Sirius shook his head.

"But she's wearing his clothes and everything."

"I know!" Sirius exclaimed.

"What do you two know?" I said dismissively.

"Apparently more than you," Sirius started. "Why don't you ask her out?"

"Because," I said, but couldn't think of any reason. I mean, I did ask her out once. But then backpedalled. "Because, her and I are mates. That's it."

"Do you believe that?" James said to me.

"Yeah, mate, for how long you've been dreaming about her already? Two years? Three?" Sirius pressed.

"Definitely three," James helped.

"Not three, and stop it," I escaped to the kitchen.

"So, more?" Sirius followed me.

"Definitely more," James was right behind him.

"Oh my god, would you leave me alone?" I snapped.

"What's with all the fuss?" Y/N reappeared.

"Nothing," I looked at the guys and rage was making its way through my body. "It was good to see you, Y/N, 'till later."

And I just left to my room. I didn't even give her a hug. Yeah, I'm an idiot.

***

"I upset you, I'm sorry, Remmy," her voice sounded soft through the speaker. "I will not bother you again, I promise, just don't be mad at me."

How could she think I was upset with her? Never.

I should've picked up the phone when she was calling.

I'm not mad with you, Y/N. I'm in love with you — that's what I wanted to write.

Sorry if it looked like you upset me. You didn't. The guys did, but I shouldn't have acted that way towards you. I'm sorry. You aren't bothering me. I love spending time with you. Please bother me more — that's what I actually wrote.

Y/N: You're not mad? What a relief!

Me: I can't be mad with you

Y/N: I'll remember that

***

Y/N was dragging me outside.

"What's with you, Remus, I barely recognise you," she started, grabbing my shoulders, so I'd look at her. I couldn't.

"I'm fine," I mumbled, not daring to look at her.

"So you almost got in a fight for nothing?" she didn't stop.

"Leave it at that, Y/N," I tried to shake her off.

"At what? I don't get it! Every time a guy pays me attention, you are getting aggressive. What's up with that?"

"If you don't know, then I don't either."

She was looking at me as I lit a cigarette.

"I thought you quit," she whispered.

"I thought so too," I couldn't even imagine looking into her eyes.

"I wish you would just talk to me," she sat down on the bench. "I don't know what else I should do to make you ask me out again, and I can't ask you out myself, because I'm a coward. I'm spending so much time with you that everyone knows that I fancy you, except for you. Remus, what the fuck should I do? Please, tell me? I'll do it."

I finally looked at her, into her sad eyes, a fag just slipped out of my hand.

"I know, it's my fault, because when you asked me out, I didn't say yes right away. But in my defence I didn't know what to do, I really needed time to process it. But you said you were joking and that's it. Were you really? Was I wrong thinking that you weren't? Because if so, it is fine. It's just, Sirius was..." she went on, looking down at her lap.

"You... fancy me?" was all I could say.

"Yeah, is it so bad?" her eyes were glassy.

"Oh, I am daft then," I took her hand in mine, dropping to my knees infront of her.

"You're not daft, why'd you say that?" she was so close to panting.

"Because I was a git, a blind one too," I kissed her knuckles.

"Stop calling yourself all these names, you are incredible, Remmy," she put her free hand on my cheek, and I couldn't help leaning into her touch.

"Answering your question, you don't have to do anything. Y/N Y/L, will you go on a date with me? Forever the idiot."

"I told you, stop," she wanted to sound stern, but her smile wasn't allowing it. "Yes, Remus Lupin, please, take me on a date already."

She pressed her lips to my forehead.

All along, I should've just talked to her. Idiot.

[twstwonderlandstuff]

Hey, I was wondering if you can do a request. It's a headcanon reaction to Silver, Sebek, Jade, and Jack finding out about female mc/yuu/yn who does competitive weightlifting, and the struggles that females in that sports field go through. Such as finding a trainer who is willing to train females, getting harassed by the trainer or others working out, males in the gym not letting you use equipment because you're female, toxic masculinity in gyms, getting rejected because they don't think you're feminine enough, or getting weird looks and getting put down because "females aren't supposed to work on their muscles or try to be stronger". I've been feeling a bit down precisely because of these struggles, especially the last one. I would like it if mc is already their girlfriend, and just felt self-cautious about telling them. Thanks for reading this 💖.

FUCK WHOEVER SAlD THE LAST BIT IM SURE YOU'RE AN INCREDIBLE PERSON MUAH MUAH <3

i don't rlly deal with this stuff myself, so i can't relate, but im sure its horrible and hopefully, this piece will make you feel better ^^

female reader

tw: body image issues, harassment

requests are closed!

silver

he's on board. enthusiastic to help you train. it's a win-win! you help him fight off sleep and he helps you train.

when he finds out about your troubles, this genuine lad, he offers to take you to lilia: seeing that his pops is a grand general and a man with morals, he's sure lilia wouldn't mind helping you train.

he is quick to shut the harassers down with a firm talking, and if they continue shit-talking... well, you and him make a pretty fearsome duo, don't you think?

silver, being quite air-headed, gives 0 shits on what people say in the gym, so if someone comes talking to you with that 'oh women should stay at home' nonsense, he's quick to direct your attention elsewhere.

sebek zigvolt

them gym mfs better be ready for the ear-splitting beatdown of their lives because sebek WILL DEFEND YOUR HONOR! You are a respectable weight lifter and he will NOT! HEAR! ANOTHER WORD! OF THEIR TOMFOOLERY!

bro, with sebek you won't even be worried NAH he would date you he would be completely in love, head over heels, but he just doesn't know how to say it.

man's would help you in your workout regime: wake you up at like, 5 and encourage you to work out with him.

I'd like to think he is semi aware of how he's preceived, so with that in mind, he uses it to distract you from the nosy-people that might butt heads with you in the gym

overall, a good buddy and partner to be with ^^

jade leech

you're with THE jade leech... what kinda dumbass would dare bother y'all now? okay maybe idiots with no braincells, but yk 🤷‍♀️🥴

boo~ you won't get a single strange look if you're near jade. I am completely certain that man has at least drugged somebody, so if some dumbass still has the gall to call you names? ya bue-bye that person's dead

while he isn't as buff/ into sports as the rest of the boys in question, he'll use his connections to get you a trainer that is of upmost prime condition. he won't let you settle for less.

jack howl

jack will have a heart-to-heart with you about how you feel. he's a good soul, so he definetely have words to cheer you right up. he admires loads of people in the sports industry, so he defo knows what's up

like sebek, he'll train with you, just with lil bit more softness, cuz our boys a good ol' softy. wouldn't want you getting more stressed, ya know?

he won't get the 'getting rejected' bit. excuse me? if anything, that just makes a person all the more appealing as a partner. w- what- no, that isn't his tail wagging?!!?!??! you're seeing things?!?!?

A GOOD BOY OVERALL 10/10