#i feel like underdeveloped is the wrong word but i can't find a better one????

[sebille]

Looking at how technologically advanced Garlemald is compared to the rest of the world and like ......... yeah

[warmaidensrevenge]

What do we name her Eddie?

Pairing: Papa!Eddie x Fem!plus size reader

If you want to read my other work you can find it HERE

A/N: I know I've been slacking when it comes to this series but I'm going to try and be more current. So without further Ado. Meet my 9th part in my daddy Eddie fan fic. Thanks for reading. As always feedback is always appreciated. Kay love ya byyyyyeeee.

Warnings: 18+ language, mentions of blood loss, premature birth, jealousy, arguments, and not proof read and no word count.

Summary: You and Eddie deal with the aftermath of a difficult birth. With Thomas now in the picture, Eddie can't help the feeling of losing you.

Part 9

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Eddie left work in such a rush that he nearly crashed four times. He was so out of it he had to pull over for a minute to calm down.

This morning he felt like he should stay home. The way you were walking had him nervous. But you were smiling and so happy that he shook off the dread he felt.

He was working on welding a part for a machine when he was called to human resources. When he got there he just knew. He didn't even let Linda the HR manager finish her sentence. All he heard was the word hospital and he was booking it to his van.

He was shaking his head and cursing at himself. He should have stayed home. He should have gone with you to visit Bastian.

He didn't know what was going on until he ran into the hospital. He saw Rosie first. A little bit of relief washed over him when he saw that she was okay and with his uncle.

But he stopped in his tracks and saw the other guy. He knew who that was. He went to school with him too. He didn't know why Thomas was here. But he hated that fucking guy.

The very moment Wayne saw Eddie's worried look turn to anger he quickly got up and went to him.

"Son-"

" What the hell man?! What-"

" Stop! Listen to me!" Wayne used his dad voice. " He found y/n and Rosie in the cemetery. He's the one who got her here as fast as he could....son if he hadn't found her. We don't know what could have happened."

Eddie swallowed his anger and was now just worried about you.

" Where is she? What's going on? She can't have the baby yet. It's too soon!"

" Yes son, it's early. Y/n's in surgery right now. It's been about an hour since she got here."

" Surgery?" Eddie whimpered.

" Yeah. But it's gonna be okay....okay."

Eddie nodded.

"Let's go sit down son."

Eddie nodded once more before following his uncle. He no longer cared that Thomas was there. All he cared about was you and his baby.

After a little while Wayne took Thomas back to his car. That's when Eddie's friends started to come. He originally called Erika and asked for her to watch Rosie while he waited to hear about you. But now Dustin, Mike, Erika, and Gareth were there.

Wayne finally came back and sat with Eddie. He tried to comfort him but Eddie was gone. The surgery was taking too long. Something was wrong. Eddie could feel it.

It was about 3 hours after you got there when the doctor finally came out.

" Mr Munson?"

Wayne and Eddie said yeah at the same time.

" I'm sorry. Edward Munson?"

" Th-that's me." Eddie said standing up.

Eddie gave Rosie to Erika and he and Wayne went to the doctor.

" Hello. I'm Dr. Martin. Your wife's surgeon. Let's have a seat."

The doctor led them to a few empty chairs.

"How's my girls doc?"

" Well let's start off with your baby girl. She came a bit early. So we have her in the NICU. She's just a little underdeveloped. But she is a fighter. We need to keep her here for a while and get her weight up. But as soon as she gets stronger you can take her home. I will write out a list of regiments for her in order to make sure she continues to get all the necessary nutrition she will need."

Eddie looked at his uncle.

" Does she have pulmonary hypertension?" Wayne asked.

" No. Other than her coming early, she is very healthy."

Eddie felt a little better. But he still was worried about you.

" So Mrs Munson came in with vaginal hemorrhage and going into early labor. With tests and closer inspection I found that she had a complete placenta previa. That's when the placenta covers her cervix not allowing your baby to be delivered normally. So we had to do a C-section."

"How did that happen?" Wayne asked.

" Well sometimes it can occur when a previous C-section was done or when a uterine fibroid was removed. Which Mrs Munson has had both. So it's very likely that was the cause."

Wayne nodded. " So is she okay now?"

Eddie thanked God for his uncle. He wouldn't know what to do without him right now. Eddie was at a loss for words. He needed to hear if you were okay.

" She lost a lot of blood not only before she arrived but during the surgery."

Eddie's heart sunk.

" We had to give her a blood transfusion in order to replace what she had lost. But the sudden amount of blood loss has caused her to slip into a coma. However..."

As the doctor trailed on Eddie officially stopped listening. The last thing he said to you this morning was if you want spaghetti for dinner. He should have said he loved you. He should have been with you.

...

Eddie refused to see the baby. He sat with you every day holding your hand. Begging you to wake up. Days went by with no change.

Wayne came and tried to comfort him and get him to see the baby but it was no use. You needed to wake up. He needed you to wake up. Rosie and the baby needed you. He needed you.

It was two weeks later when the nurse brought in the baby. She was still tiny but she was getting bigger. When he held her he cried. He felt awful for not seeing her. She was so beautiful. She looked just like you. But she did have his hair. He looked at her then looked at you.

Why was this happening? Haven't you two been through enough?

Another week went by and he was changing the baby. Rosie was sitting on the hospital floor coloring you a picture when he heard her talking.

" Mommy. When are you coming home?"

Eddie's heart broke. Rosie missed you. She's been asking for weeks when you would come home.

" Mommy. Daddy cries a lot...He says please wake up."

Eddie felt his tears again. He really has been crying a lot. He missed you so much.

" Mommy?"

Eddie was wrapping the baby in a blanket when Rosie tugged at his jeans.

" What is it princess? Did you finish coloring for mommy?"

"uh-huh. Daddy?"

Eddie picked the baby and held her close to his chest, looking down at Rosie.

" What is it princess?"

" Can mommy come home now?"

Eddie frowned. " I'm sorry princess-"

"Look. Mommy's up."

Eddie's head shot toward you. Rosie was right. You were up. He saw you trying to sit up. He quickly put the baby down and went to you.

" Baby!" He cried out.

He helped you sit up and waited for you to get your bearings.

"Ed-eddie?" Your voice was soft and low.

" Sweetheart."

" Where...where is she?"

" She's right here." He said grabbing the bassinet and pulling the baby closer.

" Rosie?"

" She's here too... princess come here."

Eddie put a pillow behind your back to get you more comfortable.

He lifted up Rosie and sat her at the foot of the bed.

" Hey sweet girl. Are you okay?"

Rosie nodded. " Mommy. Sissy's here." She pointed at her

Eddie started to cry. He rubbed his eyes on his sleeve. Finally you were awake.

" Eddie can I hold her?"

" y-yeah."

He picked up the baby and carefully handed her to you.

" She's so small." You whimpered.

Eddie put his arm around your shoulders while sitting on the very edge of the bed.

He sniffled " Yeah but she's strong...just like her mom."

You finally looked at him with tears streaming down your face.

" I'm so sorry Eddie. It's all my fault."

" No baby. No...it wasn't. She just wanted out."

He gave you a loose hug. He wanted to hug you tighter but he didn't want to hurt you. He wiped your tears away along with his after.

After a little while Eddie could tell you were tired. He tried to grab the baby but you didn't want to let her go.

" Sweetheart. You need rest. I promise she isn't going anywhere."

You nodded and let him take her.

He helped you lay back down but moved the head of the bed up a little. He put Rosie down for a nap and moved her to the cot he had been sleeping on for the past three weeks.

You scooted over and motioned for him to lay with you. He did wrapping you in his arms.

"I missed you so much sweetheart...please don't leave us again."

"I won't. I promise."

After a few minutes of crying he kissed you.

" Honey?" You said after.

" Yeah baby."

" What's her name?"

He sighed. " She doesn't have one yet."

" No?"

" I-I didn't want to name her without you."

Your little laugh made him want to cry again.

" How about Lilly?"

Eddie smiled. " Lilly Munson...hmm I like it."

" Yeah?"

" Yeah." He said kissing your forehead.

" Rosie and Lilly Munson."

Eddie repeated his daughter's names. They were perfect. And now that you were finally able to come back everything was how it should be.

He had his beautiful daughters and the most amazing wife. And he swore to never let you or them down.

...

A few days later you guys finally went home. There was a conversation that needed to happen. Not with just you and Eddie. But with you and Thomas.

Eddie was so grateful for what Thomas did. There were no amounts of thank yous he could say for saving both of you. However, he was worried that Thomas came back for you.

Deep down he knew you would never leave him. You and Rosie and his uncle have been the only constant in his life. And just like you fought for him and Rosie. He would fight just as hard to keep you.

One night you were feeding Lilly in the rocking chair. While Rosie was playing with her dolls and Eddie was fixing his van.

" Mommy?"

" Yeah sweet girl?"

"Can you sing to me?"

" Of course princess. What do you want me to sing?"

She didn't know the name of it but she started to hum it.

You smiled. "Okay sweet girl. How about I sing it for you and your sister?"

" Okay "

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Moon river, wider than a mile. I'm crossing you in style some day Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker Wherever you're goin', I'm goin' your way. Two drifters, off to see the world. There's such a lot of world to see. We're after the same rainbow's end Waitin' 'round the bend. My huckleberry friend. Moon river and me.

🎵

While you sang you heard Eddie singing too. When you looked at him you smiled.

" Daddy. That's mommy's song."

" Oh I'm sorry princess." Eddie said sitting with Rosie. " I'll let mommy sing it."

He softly smiled at you while you sang again.

This was how it should be. Eddie's life with you and your daughters. How it should have always been. The love you gave him and Rosie was what he always wanted.

While you sang there was a little bit of sadness in your voice. It has been there since you and Lilly got home. You barely talked now and you stopped sleeping in the room. Eddie would constantly wake up to find your side empty. When he would look for you, he found you asleep in Rosie's room with the rocking chair pulled up between Lilly and Rosie.

Every night he found you, he would grab two blankets and a pillow. He would cover you and lay on the floor next to you.

You would wake him up with a cup of coffee and some breakfast before tending to Lilly and Rosie. You kept looking sadder and sadder every day. Sometimes Eddie would hear you crying. But you wouldn't tell him why.

That was until he came home from work one night. It was a month after the difficult birth when he found you sitting at the dinner table.

" Hey sweetheart."

You looked at him with a small smile. But it was as if you weren't looking at him. More like passed him.

" Hi" your voice was melancholy.

He went to you giving you a hug and a kiss on the forehead.

" How was your day?"

" It was fine. The girls are napping."

He nodded.

" How was work?"

" It was good. Everyone misses you."

You didn't respond to him. You just sat there.

Eddie pulled up a chair next to you and sat down. You looked so tired and just so damn gone. He didn't know what to do.

" Baby? Talk to me... please."

You hung your head and started to cry. " I don't know what's wrong with me."

"What do you mean sweetheart?" He said grabbing your hand.

" I don't...I feel like...I'm failing...I'm trying to be with Lilly all the time. And...I just feel like we're not bonding how we should...I don't feel like she's mine."

Eddie cupped your face making you look at him.

" I don't know what to do Eddie... I'm scared that I don't love her as much as I should."

" No baby. That's not it. I see you with her. You love her. I know you do. She's yours and you love her."

" I'm so sorry Eddie... I know I'm not me. I just-"

You were cut off by a knock on the door. Eddie looked towards it and then back to you.

" Are we expecting someone?"

You shook your head wiping your tears away. He got up and opened the door. He was instantly enraged when he saw Thomas standing there. He was about to tell him that you guys were busy. But then he felt your hand in his. He looked over to you and your eyes told him everything he needed to know.

" Don't be too long sweetheart." Eddie said giving you another kiss on your forehead and went to check on the girls.

...

You stepped outside, closing the door behind you.

"What's the matter bunny?"

You rolled your eyes. You always hated that nickname.

"Nothing Thom-"

" No. I can tell you've been crying. What happened? Did that guy hurt you?"

" Who? Eddie?"

" Yeah. That guy was always a fr-"

" Don't you dare! Eddie is my husband! He's not a freak. He never was."

Thomas sighed. " I...I'm sorry bunny...It's just you know I hate seeing you sad."

You rolled your eyes so hard that you swore you saw the back of your head.

" What do you want?"

"I wanted to see how you were. How's the baby? How's your... daughter... Ruthy was it?"

" Rosie." You corrected him.

" Right. Sorry. Rosie."

" They're both perfect."

" Yeah? That's good. Really good...Had me worried there for a second."

" What were you doing there Thomas? You never visited Bastian before."

" Yes I have. I just don't go on the exact day of him passing."

"Why?"

" Because bunny. I know you wouldn't want to see me there. I...I know I hurt you. And I didn't want to keep on hurting you."

" Yeah sure."

" Stop it! You know I don't lie. Not when it comes to you."

" But you did lie. You said you loved me and you said you would always be here. That was a lie. Or how about you promised to marry me and be a father to Bastian. That was also a lie."

" I know. I never...I'm just really sorry okay...I didn't" he sighed. " Look bunny, I know I could never make it up to you and there's nothing I can do to take that pain I caused you back. I know leaving you like that was the biggest mistake I have ever made...and I can't help but think what would have happened if I would have stayed. Would Sebastian still be alive? Would you still love me like you did? Bunny, I didn't come here to try and win you back. I came here because I wanted you to know that I know I made a stupid decision that day...I want you to know how sorry I am for it...for... everything. It took me a long time to deal with losing Sebastian. I know I wasn't there but I always call my mom to see how you two were... When she told me that he died my heart broke. For losing him, but mostly it broke for you...I wanted to be there. I wanted to be with you. But I just couldn't face the shame I brought on myself to face you."

Your eyes filled with tears. Things were already so hard for you. Now Thomas had to come and say this.

" Thomas-"

" No bunny, please let me finish...I was a coward and I was selfish. You were always the most important person to me. But...I understand if you don't want to forgive me. Just know if I could I would take it all back. I wish I wasn't scared of it all."

Your body shook out of such heartache. Could the universe just give you a god damn break for once?!

" I...I was scared too Thomas. I was so afraid of being a teenage mom and getting married. I was fucking terrified! But...I stayed!" Your voice broke. " I stayed... I was hurt and broken. But I still fucking stayed! And I did my best. I tried so hard to take care of Bastian and love him and keep him safe... but it wasn't enough...and when he died." You started to cry." I NEEDED YOU! I NEEDED YOU AND YOU WEREN'T THERE!"

" I know. I'm sorry-"

"No Thomas. You don't get to be sorry. You don't get to come to my home and tell me this stuff. I don't want to hear it. I'm finally good now. I'm better now."

" Are you sure about that?"

" What the hell is that supposed to mean?!"

" Don't you see what you did? You filled the hole in your heart by attaching yourself to him and his daughter"

" No I didn't! You don't know what the hell you're talking about! I love them!"

" I know you do. But you need to just take a step back and look at the whole picture...you replaced us. You replaced me with him and Sebastian with Ruby."

" HER NAME IS ROSIE!"

Thomas stepped closer but Eddie opened the door.

Eddie had listened to the whole thing. And there were so many times he wanted to beat the shit out of Thomas. But you seemed to be handling it yourself. Then he heard that and he knew it was time to step in.

" You need to leave." Eddie nearly growled the words.

" Look man I-"

Eddie stepped in front of you to face Thomas "RIGHT NOW!"

Thomas took a few steps back. He just looked back and forth between you and Eddie. He tried to catch your eye but you refused to look up.

Thomas took one last look at Eddie and took off.

Eddie was so fucking gone. Out of respect for you he held back. He could have killed him. Maybe he should have. He thought if one of the upsidedown gates was open, it would be a very convenient place to get rid of a body.

When Thomas car was out of sight he turned to find that you were gone.

He found you in the room sitting at the edge of the bed crying. His heart sank. This was the first time he heard you cry like that. It was like how when you find out your whole life is over. Or someone close died. Like everything you knew was a lie. Or when you first get your heart broken.

The crying was a mixture of all types of hurt and he couldn't stand it. It was truly the worst sound he's ever heard.

" Baby?" He squatted in front of you. Trying to catch all your tears. With eyes filling up with their own.

" Is...is that...is that what I did ed-eddie? Did I replace..."

" Do you feel like that's what you did?"

You shook your head slowly. " N-no. I love Rosie. And I love you... Maybe...I- maybe at first I wanted to feel needed like that again. To-to feel like a mother again. But...it didn't stay like that."

Eddie's heart broke for you. He knew you needed him then. Just how he needed you too. But it was real. Everything you guys went through, everything that was said or shared was real. He loved and you loved him.

" I know that there's a lot to unpack here. And I'm so sorry this had to happen right now. I wished I had the answers for you instead of questions. But baby when it comes to where you see yourself in 30 or 40 years down the road. Do you see yourself with us? Or do you see it with him?"

You rested your forehead on his." With you Eddie. Always."

Your answer gave him a wave of relief. For a moment there he was scared.

" Okay sweetheart. But let me ask you this. Do you love me the same way you used to love him?"

You shook your head and said a soft no.

Eddie hung his head.

You cupped his chin pulling it gently so he could look at you. "No honey. No. I love you so much more."

He brought your knuckles to his mouth. Kissing them tenderly. " I love you. God I love you."

He stood up and sat next to you, pulling at your waist to hug you.

There was only one more thing he needed to tell you. And he worried it might not be what you wanted to hear.

" Y/n?...I think I need to take you to see the doctor."

You started crying again. "I...I have postpartum don't I?"

Eddie kissed your forehead. " I think so baby."

...

@salenorona23 @browneyes528 @b-irock @mrsjaderogers @erinsingalong

[readingrobin]

Well, chalk this book up as yet another one everyone else seems to be gushing over while I just shrug and go "It's all right." Don't get me wrong, there is plenty to love about this book: its open, honest, and real depiction of being trans, hopeful messages, themes of immigration and the trials of trying to assimilate to a new place, the gorgeous descriptions of food, music, and setting. And yet, even with all those wonderful things, I didn't find myself growing too attached. For one, I think whoever wrote the blurb for this book gave it a little disservice by marketing it as "Good Omens meets The Long Way to a Small Angry Planet." I haven't read the latter yet, but, as to a former, having a Faustian bargain in a book does not automatically put it in the same league plotwise as Good Omens. There's so much difference between the two in terms of tone, humor, themes, etc. that it makes the comparison somewhat disingenuous. But that's only a small nit from me. As for our characters, I was the most drawn to Katrina's storyline, as it was one I could more relate with. That, and, out of the other perspectives that we get, her's appears to be the most developed. Her journey has the clearest emotional arcs and the progression moves constantly forward instead of spinning its wheels, which unfortunately happens to the other perspectives as they go on.  Lucy's story is probably the best example of this. Compared to the multiple conflicts of the other characters, her's is solely "I want to go into the family business, but I can't since I'm a girl," which, when that's the only trouble a character faces, it becomes incredibly repetitive. Among our cast, she feels the most irrelevant, especially when she doesn't really interact with the other protagonists all that much, so the overall plot loses some cohesion at times. Her story feels like an afterthought, which is a shame seeing as it could have been more given some better development. The Tran family also suffers a bit from underdevelopment, mostly from Markus' entirely dropped plotline more than halfway through. All in all, I think if this story had been solely Katrina's, I might have liked it a lot more. I think the fact that this book combines both supernatural and extraterrestrial doesn't do it any favors for me as well, since I find that the two don't really mesh well all that often. I mean....in this world, what's really the difference between demons and aliens if both serve as otherwordly beings? Does the religion of earthly beings have any weight on the aliens? It all becomes a bit of a mess if you think too hard, or maybe that's just me. It also leads to an extremely cop out ending that, while lovely and beautiful in concept, just kind of had me rolling my eyes. So, this is a exquisitely worded, touching story that will resonate with so many people and one that I will encourage others to read in the hopes that maybe they'll get more out of it than I did.

[kyrodo]

I deal with significantly less selective bullshit than I used to. Ever use wordplay for anything other than manipulating and gaslighting people?

i used to use it to communicate negative emotions and thoughts. I would think up a negative or painful word to express what I'm feeling, find edgy art, or I'll just straight up retweet a post if I can't find furry artwork with it, that is not gaslighting. That is a direct reflection of emotion. Or I would retell recent events in my favorites cause that was my obsession at the time and perhaps still so. And then find random art to bury it so stalkers aren't finding it right away. That used to be my stupid form of leaking emotions into the public space. On the other hand what the fuck were you doing?

My inner thoughts leak like an open wound when I am stressed I just don't bother to obfuscate it anymore. That's the difference between now and then. I don't care what you think or feel about me because that ship has already sailed so I'm free. I'm free to be as literal or figurative as I want to be. I'm free to monologue as much as I want even when it's excessive, because it doesn't fucking matter who's reading it anymore.

I like it better when you're not there to respond and twist everything beyond recognition. When you're not there pretending like you actually gave a shit, excited about things that were never going to happen, because you wouldn't drop the mask for half a second and actually give it a chance.

Boundaries, relationship status, what I can say, what I can't, what I have to let go, so much of that could have been padded out with time, communication, peer pressure whatever the fuck needed to happen. It seemed so simple in my head. But I'm the only one that understood that.

It wasn't a great time for me and I used you to cope with it like a wet rag. But I would have gotten better later. And your role would have changed even if just as a friend or an acquaintance. I would've eventually stopped being codependent on you. And things would have died more peacefully. Feelings and such time fixes those things sooner than you think. If I didn't need to be there for us to recover there were better ways for that to happen too. If me lurking was an issue, you just had to give me time or have everyone block me. I was persistent but not that persistent. Or at least you should have tried it first so I couldn't make that excuse. Instead I was provoked beckoned encouraged manipulated so your friends could have fun and traumatize for no other reason than spite. And that shit hurts and that shit lasts and it still hurts. And I'm still stuck here asking myself why. Why did I deserve this? Why can't people talk to each other instead of half ass everything they try to get across, be reasonable, act reasonable, resolve conflicts instead of actively and excessively make them worse? I'm sure I seemed overly tenacious, but the fact that you plainly didn't even fucking try is still there. The whole taking a hint thing kinda went out the window when we just completely gave up on human language.

I'm used to Omi's group, I'm not used to yours, and yours is underdeveloped as fuck. Either that or the personality of it is complete ass. I know for a fact we wouldn't do that shit to someone. Does Omi Lucas Belle or Kay seem the type? Didn't think so. Nope it's just fucking you. Guess you can't approach everyone the same way huh? I mean I don't share lyrics and vent imagery with them but the point still fucking stands. Why are you a fucking dick?

Do I make sense now? The man behind the curtain? Still waiting for you to. The contrast with my personality irl, to the one I show people that are dicking around with me, you gotta fucking earn that. You gotta be doing something wrong. And even then I'm blowing hot air on a keyboard not raiding your fucking apartment.

You don't know how stupid it feels to think you mean something to someone only to finally talk them and fall flat on your face like it was all a complete joke. Of course I was mad, and people are allowed to be mad at you. Being mad at someone is not a fucking crime. Showing you're mad at someone is not a crime. Making someone's life miserable directly because you're mad is. And no amount of technicalities and wordplay makes that okay.

Having someone to squeeze a pillow and obsess over, it seems I do that from time to time, you're the only that's hacked me for it. Hell you're the only one that's caused any real drama for it too. Guess you'll need to find someone else for Luke to have a manipulative power trip over. I don't know if you noticed yet but I'm not the type for that shit to work on for very long. If I didn't ground myself in enough logic back then back when I was pathetic and crushy I certainly have now. The ground beneath me is full of fucking concrete and I'm not desperate for some asshole that keeps trying to hurt me wherever they know Red can't protect me.

Bringing Red up to speed sucked but your leverage fucking died. All I had to do was give up on you. Something I really shouldn't have had a hard time with, cause you don't deserve it. You did everything in your power to kill that off.

As silly as I presented my mental playground back then I have an extremely hard time trying to figure out what mental gymnastics it took for you to make your stupid ass decisions. I like how I went from romantic bullshit to being the one telling everyone common sense is a bitch

[sweetlittlemessenger]

This post was made originally for MBTI Amino and INFP Amino back in 2018

so i finally made this after the long wait

introducing my INFP SQUAD 😀😀😀

Firryn

• Firryn is my Fi(Introverted Feeling), the dominant function. I kinda see her as some kind of "law enforcer" of my inner values. She seeks to find the truth and what is right, whether it be for myself, for friends or acquaintances, or a community.

• She strongly values the "right" of being special and unique. Such "right" leads to the peculiar choices of fashion, music and hobbies, which may clash with others' taste that they would find "not fit."

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Netalia

• Netalia is my Ne(Extroverted iNtuition), the auxillary function. Since Ne is like the one making lots of ideas and I mean LOTS, I thought of her as some "mad inventor" who always "invents" concepts and ideas.

• Now look back at the first pic of this post, did you notice how Netalia glows brighter than Firryn? That's because she tends to be more highly active than her most of the time, especially at idle times, constantly brewing up underdeveloped OCs. So if you're wondering how I made my characters, it's all mostly made by Netalia UwU

• Not only does she invent characters, she also invents other ideas, like fashion designs and dessert recipes, so basically she likes to improvise

original recipes are still under development though :p

• Netalia plays a big role among in the squad. Since Ne is INFP's aux function, I would see Netalia as Firryn's "right-hand woman."

• Firryn tends to be very stubborn when it comes to her beliefs and perspectives, if something is not in line with her values, she will conclude it is "wrong."

• This is where Netalia comes in; she helps Firryn in being more open-mined and develop the ability to gather in more information to support her own values.

• Netalia also acts what I would call a "chain breaker", because she is the one who stops Firryn and Sirene (the Si) from looping.

• Loops are stopped when the auxillary function is "activated." I would see this as a very important job for Netalia, because I am very difficult to be taken out in a loop, since I loop most of the time 😅

• Netalia and Firryn really get along well, they're basically besties helping each other to keep me as a healthy INFP

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Sirene

• Sirene is Si(Introverted Sensing), the tertiary function. Since Si is all about the past, I would see her as some Child Prodigy Historian, who records as much as many memories as she can.

• Sirene's job is to keep the memories of past events and moments, whether it be good, bad, or just plain neutral. She usually looks back at the past if I lost something (like a notebook) or if I did not know what I did wrong.

• Sirene is fond of looking at my previous memories whether it be long ago or just recently, the older the memory, the bigger nostalgia.

• The ones to hit her with nostalgia the hardest is music. If the music is like made way back in my childhood...yeh

• Most of the time she revisits the previous chat messages to re-feel the moment of fun. This would also apply to playing games that have not been touched for a very long time.

• She constantly feels deja vu, when I gather info about a character or a person. For example: Sirene saw Chisa Yukizome(DR3); she will think she is Monika(DDLC) 2.0

• Her constant views in the past results her into becoming slightly unhealthy, like wanting the good old days back, and refusal of change, or sometimes past mistakes that she still regrets. This is one of the causes of Sirene and Firryn looping, constantly looking at past events.

and ignoring Netalia •w•

• Netalia hates it when they loop, due to the fact that Firryn is not giving her any attention while looping

• I would imagine the loop would be some kind of dark red chain with a dark aura that keeps them together

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Terratora

• Terratora is my Te(Extroverted Thinking), the inferior function. For Te, I see her as some kind of military officer who wants to get everything done.

oh the oh so many words I can say to trash talk about you

• Terratora is responsible for organizing and simplifying stuff. She is also making sure all of my tasks are finished in time.

although I fail to do that sometimes ;w;

• She is very direct and honest (brutally honest, so to speak) on what she says and she ain't having anyone's sh*t(including mine yes). Her way of speaking and her arrogance makes her sound like an insensitve douchebag honestly.

• Because of her agressive nature and "want to get things done quickly" attitude, she constantly attempts to take over Firryn's job because she thinks she can handle it better than her. But of course we all know she can't.

[plutosmoonchild]

The placement/aspect you relate to the most: pluto exactly conjunct my asc in scorpio. it's not an easy one but it shaped me in so many ways, I can't imagine being myself without it.

The placement/aspect you relate to the least: when I was younger probably my cancer venus, but I've gotten better with it these days. I still find my saturn placement hard to grasp, though. I have saturn in aquarius in the 3rd squaring my mars in the 6th and I guess I kinda reject this energy a lot.

The placement/aspect that is your favourite: weirdly enough I love my pluto placement AND 100% MY SCORPIO RISING haha, pluto also trines my moon and venus and so I also have those two trining my asc as well - which makes social interactions super easy for me. I also love my jupiter placement (in the 10th conjunct my mc), it also sextiles my sun tightly which I love since it gives me hope and an optimistic outlook (which I really need with my pluto and 8th house heavy chart haha).

The placement/aspect that is your least favourite: saturn square mars and pluto. pluto opposite mars. mostly because I still feel like I don't really understand how they work in me? I also could do without my venus-uranus and venus-neptune oppositions, I mostly project them outwards (as you do with oppositions) which makes it hard to recognize those energies in myself.

The placement/aspect you wish you had: cap or scorpio mars but in a more "light-hearted" house, like the 5th. a virgo/gemini or aqua mercury would be neat as well. love the qualities those signs add to the planet.

The placement(s)/aspect(s) you often get romantically involved with: pisces and scorpio placements, I'm super attracted to cap placements, too. also aquarius mars and venus, libra venus and aries mars.

The placement/aspect you would never date: none per se. But underdeveloped pisces/scorpio placements (especially combos) are... something haha. But so are all placements when underdeveloped, so

The placement/aspect you think deserve more love or attention: Aqua venus, cancer placements, especially the sun: Alice Sparkly Kat has a beautiful post on her blog about cancer suns. gemini placements also get a lot of shit.

One mutual’s chart/placement you would like to have rather than your own: I don't have any mutuals on here - I'm not good at making internet friends; but I admire @immortalink 's mind and aesthetic (even tho I believe they have a cancer mercury and no offense but I wouldn't really want that haha but I'd love to have their aqua asc for some time), I also love @astral-obscura 's thoughts SO much, I believe she's a scorpio sun with a sag mercury, which I definitely could do with haha. <3

Lilith and why you love yours: Aqua Lilith in the 3rd conjunct Saturn (with a 0 degree Orb, otherwise I wouldn't count that). Wouldn't say I 'love' mine, but I kinda dig how I can have a seductive (and tbh manipulative) way with words and an aloof vibe which is so contrary to how my cancer venus feels inside. I still feel I need to be really careful with acting out my lilith-side tho, since this saturn conjunction could get me into some serious trouble karma-wise haha.

The Sun sign(s) people often misunderstood you for: Leo Sun (I guess due to my leo Mercury and the wrong prejudice most people have who think cancer suns are timid which is not true). I also often get scorpio which doesn't surprise me at all, given my 8th house sun and scorpio ascendant.

The Moon sign(s) people often misunderstood you for: pisces, but people don't often guess my moon sign, I'm the 'astro one' among my friends, so yeah haha.

The Rising sign(s) people often misunderstood you for: same as above: people don’t really guess my rising. But I’ve gotten Libra and Taurus for a game with an outfit pic here once haha.

The Moon sign(s) you relate to the most: I love taurus moons but I wouldn't say I relate to them. Probably scorpio moons minus the fucked up paranoide side and in some ways cap moons for feeling like carrying this heavy burden - I just don't feel like that as much as them, I guess.

The Rising sign(s) you relate to the most: Libra, Virgo and Aqua Risings. Cap Risings are a hit or miss.

If you were a planet, what planet would you be: a mixture between pluto and the moon.

Tell me ONE story that you think embodies all of your natal chart: I got a moon tattoo in lisbon because I loved the symbolic meaning behind the moon and lisbon is one of my favourite cities - some months BEFORE I drew up my natal chart for the first time ever and I think that say's so much about my strong cancer and scorpio placements that I don't need to say anything else haha.

I tag @immortalink and @astral-obscura because I mentioned them and I think their answers would be super interesting to read, but no pressure whatsoever! xx

🎏 Advanced Astro Tag 🎏

Hi loves I wanted to start this astro tag to get to know you all a little bit better:’) Feel free to join the game if you want to no pressure<3!

The placement/aspect you relate to the most: Leo Rising or Leo Venus. I feel that pride imprinted in my bones haha, but I can’t imagine me having no fire in me ever😭

The placement/aspect you relate to the least: This is actually so hard to choose haha but I think Sun trine Moon. I don’t feel it as much as I should despite it being very tight in aspects (0.8° I think?) But I guess it also make sense cause it does brighten my Pisces Moon a lot

The placement/aspect that is your favourite: Mars conjunct Jupiter 11th house. Makes me so humorous by nature🥰I love entertaining AND intimidating people at the same time hehehe, not to you guys tho

The placement/aspect that is your least favourite: Uranus in the 7th house. Makes me emotionally unavailable 😍 Sometimes its so hard to just ✨feel✨

The placement/aspect you wish you had: Any Aries or Mars placements, they are the few people that get me simp so hard;)

The placement(s)/aspect(s) you often get romantically involved with: Libra rising is common, Leo Venus is also very common, Aquarius placements, fixed Moon or water Moon🥲, Mars Rising, Aquarius Moon are my kryptonite, Leo NN (😂), Libra/Aquarius/Capricorn Mars and Capricorn Venus hehe

The placement/aspect you would never date: Cancer Moons. Never again please I an so scared one time is enoughhhhhhh

The placement/aspect you think deserve more love or attention: Virgo Rising, Mercurians’ beauty, 2nd house stelliums, Mars Rising, 12th house placements, etc

One mutual’s chart/placement you would like to have rather than your own: @bratz-kitten literally the one chart I would trade mine for, or @rattaemin’s chart is also so cuteeeeeee

Lilith and why you love yours: Aries Lilith 7th house, Scorpio 4°. I love how seductive I can be ofc heheh but I know I’m really tough in love and it takes a lot to make me fully committed. This is good bc it gives me so much stability among loads of chaos.

The Sun sign(s) people often misunderstood you for: Leo Sun💀 Libra Sun and Scorpio Sun.

The Moon sign(s) people often misunderstood you for: Aquarius Moon or Sag Moon haha, funny how they’re some of my closest too

The Rising sign(s) people often misunderstood you for: Someone rly thought I’m a Cancer Rising (I’m not) or a Libra Rising (how). But I can see why they might think I have a cardinal Rising tbhhh

The Moon sign(s) you relate to the most: Aquarius Moon, Cap Moon, Sagittarius Moon, Aries Moon

The Rising sign(s) you relate to the most: Aries Rising, Libra Rising, Aquarius Rising

If you were a planet, what planet would you be: omg I would be either Saturn or the Sun HASHHA i love them both with all of my heart

Tell me ONE story that you think embodies all of your natal chart: one time, after comforting my friend who had just found out her long term fwb do not want more, I proceeded to call the local floral shop and got a dozen of roses for her. I didn’t forget to lecture her and we were just drinking rosé and oversharing all day.That night they had a party and everyone was invited including the dude. He came in her bedroom cause obviously they’re gonna “talk”. He saw the roses I left on her nightstand and asked her wtf is that and she told him: “Flowers.” He proceeded to go bat shit crazy and idk what happened in there but they didn’t return to the party. I had fun. She had fun. We won. 🥳

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