#i feel like if they gave her a different villain to deal with people wouldnt root for her

[weregonnabecoolbeans]

Killgrave is an underrated villain and season one of Jessica Jones is amazing

[inkybunny]

MIDORIYA AND A S/O WHO WAS AN ASSASSIN

Midorya was almost finished with school when he met you. He was growing so fast in popularity, the biggest candidate to be the next number 1, of course, that worried villains and paying villains are always welcome to the people who own you. You were the deadliest assassin they had, fast, precise and silent with no fear of death, you were giving all his information. It was a simple plan, luring him with a robbery, attracting him to a specific location without letting he see you and finishing the job, but, of course, killing him proved to be way harder than that.

    It was a surprise when you attacked and he was fast enough to dodge it, you knew he was fast but not enough to dodge an attack he didn't know where or if was coming at all, now, in combat, if he called for anyone it would be mission failed automatically so you needed to finish that quick. Thing is, you weren't made for long battles, you were made for single deadly strikes so the strength difference between you two became obvious quickly.

Deku didn't like the vibe you gave him, not only because you didn't use your quirk at all in the battle so he was always worried about what type of quirk it was, not only because he’s 100% sure he broke one of your ribs while releasing too much power onto you and you didn't even flinch before attacking again, not only because he didn't notice you at all at first and while he was going easy on you to try analyze the situation you almost cut his throat, not only because you didnt talk or react to any of his words. Above all, he hated your eyes, by your appearance you were almost the same age as him, maybe even younger, but your eyes had no life in them, they were… empty. 

    In a blow he managed to destroy your mask and apprehend you, bending some pipes to serve as handcuffs for your arms and legs, a bit overkill, yes, but it was what he had at that moment. He knew he should just call the police and be done with it but, looking at you, since he destroyed your mask he was able to see how innocent and pretty you looked, even with the obvious signs of bad fights, you looked so normal and cute and yet, it felt like you never felt anything, anything at all, not even anger or sadness, you looked so empty and that bothered him so so much.  

    He sitted on your side and tried his best to sound as gentle and kind as possible while talking to you, “What's your name?”, “How old are you?”, “Why do you do this?” he asked as he looked into your eyes with this sad worried look, something you never dealt before, something that filled you with rage. How DARE him treat you with PITY? WHO HE THINKS HE IS? WHO HE THINKS YOU ARE?

    He watched as he notice you were not happy, thinking it would be a nice topic he tries.

“What's your quirk?” 

    You look at him. “Great, at least that got her attention” 

“I figure, since you didn't do nothing special during the fight it was either something to boost your physical abilities or something more mental, like strategic wise, but it could be something other than that and you simply did not got the chance to use it or needed something specific to use, tho I find that quite unlikable since you seemed pretty well prepared to kill me so it would be very out of character to not bring an specific thing you needed to use your quirk” 

You kept looking at him, confused. “He didn't notice?”

  “So… What is it?“ He asked you, with some excitement in his eyes. “She doesn't seem unpleased, just confused, maybe that I was capable of noticing that much?” 

    You scoffed.

“I dont have one.”

“What?” Midorya got a little bit frustrated. “She's lying to me? Probably, but....”

“I don't have a quirk” You looked deep into his eyes, not a single trait of lying on your voice. “I’m quirkless” You said, getting your eyes off him again, looking at the ground.

    A little bit of silence filled your space as Deku was thinking about what you just told him.

“You’re amazing” You looked at him again. “You were able to fight me that well while being quirkless? That's impressive”

It's not like you never heard that before, your owners would often call your victories impressive, but never sounded that… sincere. You looked at the green haired boy as he felt more and more puzzling. “I’m Midorya Izuku, but you can call me Deku if you like” He smiled at you. “What's your name?” 

“I don't have a name, my owners call me 7B”

“Your...Owners?” You nod.

    You could not help but feel extremely comfortable next to that boy, like you could trust him, that he would not take advantage of you, which was super weird, since you just tried to kill him. Midoriya on the other hand, felt his heart grew tight as he felt you had dealt with way too many horrible things.

“Don't move?” You nod as the boy bended the pipes restraining your arms and legs, making you free again.

You got up, killing him was a no chance now, even if you tried to catch him while he was distracted you knew it wouldn't work, you are way too tired and your pain and difficulty to walk straight was an indicative your ribs were definitely broken. You were considering your particular killer alternatives while going away when you felt your arm being grabbed.

“Where are you going?” Silence. “You’re going back?”

“No, they would never take me back with a failed mission, I’m the quirkless assassin, they consider me disposable and less capable than the others, my perfect score was able to keep me alive until now but that's out the window.” - “Others?” Midorya thought with himself.

“Come with me!” You looked at him, confused. “Look, I can help you, Aizawa-sensei can help keep you safe and you can help us find those who did this to you, we can hunt them down and-”

“No”

    No? What? Why? Weren't you unhappy with that life? Didn’t you want to stop murdering people?  Midorya asked himself as he looked at your serious expression, crying for answers.

“You wouldnt understand it” You release yourself from his grip.

“I… I can't understand it if you don't tell me! They are your parents? That's who you call owners? I know it's hard to betray them but…” He stared at your back as you walked away unfazed.

    Parents. Tho is quite unlikely you came into this world with no mom or dad, even tho sometimes you think god created you from nothing to pay for the sins of your past life, your owners weren't your parents, you never had the luxury of meeting them, you don't really know if they are alive or not, not that you have any energy to desire the answer for that. No, all your memories are from inside your owners training, all your memories are being trained within those grey walls and only being out to kill.

“Do you want to live like that forever?” Deku’s voice echoed in your mind, making you angry again.

“Do you think I want to live at all?” You went back to staring at his eyes. “You can't understand it, this is all I am, I’m an useless, quirkless person but being able to force myself at maximum, training harder than anyone else, that made me be here today. How many people do you think I killed? There’s no going back ‘cause there is no back to go to, this, a murderer, is all you’ll have from me.” You felt warm tears coming from your eyes, huh, you can't remember the last time you cried. “Actually, not even that, I couldn't kill my target so, even at the only thing I ever was, I failed. You think you can fix everything with your hero bullshit? I got news for you, some things were made to be awful and there’s no fixing.”

“Do you want to bet?” 

You looked at him, his face was completely serious, bet? Bet what?

“Stay with me for a month, I can make it so you are not suspicious at all, no one will make questions.” He slowly got close to you. “ If, for this entire month, you can't find a single thing you appreciate, if living a normal life, helping people with me, can't make you feel even a little bit of happiness…” 

    Midoriya looked into your eyes with nothing other than honesty in his words. He wiped your tears with his fingers as he looked even more determined.

“I’ll let you kill me!”

“What?” You were so confused, he was saying he would give his life up? For nothing?

“You can't go back to your owners with a failed mission, right? Stay with me for a month, if I can't make you appreciate life then you can go back with the mission completed, say that I captured you to take information but you were able to escape and finish the job.”

    This boy is insane, he has to be, giving his life up for someone he just met? Or he was just so confident in his plan? Maybe he was planning on betraying you and giving you up for the cops, all those questions pop off in your head, in all the ways you could look at this it was weird and completely crazy, insane! And yet, when he standed his hand to you, to firm the agreement, there was a small part of you who wanted to accept it, a small part indeed but so so loud, you felt like the will to accept it echoed through your body as your heart skipped a bit when you looked into Midoriya's eyes and shook his hand. “Deal” you thought.

    Midorya’s smile was the prettiest thing you ever saw.

“Well, since we’re doing this, you're gonna need a name, right? It would be weird for me to call you ‘7B’” You silently looked at him, you never thought of a name for yourself before. “No ideas huh? I could have imagine” He laughed.

“What about...Shizu? You know, as in silent? Since, well your very quiet and all” The boy kept feeling a little embarrassed, he never named a person  before. “No? Thats stupid?”

    The first time in a long long time, you felt yourself smile.

“Shizu is good.”

    Midorya kept every single promise he made you, he took you to so many places, to do so many different things, you read stories for children and went with him seeing the flowers blooming, not even a week in and he won the bet. Your heart was so heavy when you told everyone the truth, way more with the friends Izuku presented to you than to Aizawa-sensei or the cops, when you helped with crashing the Assassins organization. Being completely sincere with yourself you felt happier when everyone from class 1-A accepted you even as an assassin and continued to be your friends like nothing changed than when the judge decided you were not responsible for the things you did while in the organization. 

You still remember the rush of multiple feelings you felt when the widow of one of your victims went to talk to you, as she petted your head kindly and looked at you with those very very sad eyes.

“I’m sorry for everything you had to go through” She smiled. “It's okay, it wasn't your fault, I forgive you.”

    The agonizing feeling on your throat as you fell on your knees and screamed and cried “I’m sorry! I’m so sorry” those words felt like they were trapped for so long.

    You were the one to suggest yourself as a “hero” to the police, not exactly it but that's what they call you. Your skills were very appreciated in the police force and mainly used to serve as a scout or in missions who required fast and silent work, you were technically a hero but, without a quirk, you kept doing those kinda jobs and maintaining yourself low on the hero chart. Not like you didnt like it, in fact, you were quite satisfied with things exactly like that.

       After a year or so, as Midorya were already competing into the top 3, he confessed to you, he never went away and always supported you, even when you were in your “I’m a murderer, a garbage human who dont deserve any of this” moments, he never left your side and always made sure you felt welcomed and cared for, his feelings for you developed steadily for that year and you were completely in love with him as well.

       He was the hand that helped you out of that hell, that showed you kindness and care, nothing more than natural, you fell for him considerably quickly. He was so happy when you said you loved him back and he show you off constantly, to him, getting you off that life was the best thing he ever done, as a hero or not, he can only wish for you the happiest times and he will try his dam best to make you the happiest person on earth, cause, to him, that's what you deserve. 

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BONUS: “Ah! Shizu, there you are.” Your boyfriend waved at you with the picnic caddy on his hand.

“I thought this was going to be a good spot for the flower blooming.” 

Izuku smiled and seated next to you, starting to open the caddy and put the food on the towel.

“You say that but this is the spot you choose every year!” You laughed, it was indeed, it was the spot Izuku brought you to see the flowers blooming the first time you met.

“You know” Izuku said as he finished with the food and gave you a little kiss on the cheek, he was trying his best but casual mouth kisses were a bit far for him yet. “I was thinking, we gave you a name but isn't it a little bit annoying having to deal with paperwork without having a last name? We should get you one.” 

You looked at him lovely and gave back that cheek kiss making him go a little bit red and smiled.

“I have one in mind, just, not the time yet.”

The green haired man looked at you saying “Hmmm” curious about what type of name you picked. He got two sandwiches and handed you one, your favorite, as usual, you giggle a bit and looked at the trees while taking a bite of the sandwich.

While you looked at the petals falling from not finding a space on the overcrowded trees, you felt happiness and peace. You beg the universe to let you be greedy this one more time, to be able to desire one little thing, you beg the universe as you mouthed the words taking care to not let your boyfriend read your lips, you beg the universe to grant you this one last thing and let you be named

“Shizu Midoriya” __________________________ HEY! Soooo this was fun :3 This is part of a small request I received but I had so many ideas to it I cound not help myself to write and oneshot about it Hope you guys liked it! Gonna post the request soon, dont worry

[czechforrain]

Caught up to the RWBY manga...and I’ve got opinions

CW / TW : Some discussions of implied sexual assault. 

Spoilers up to Ch 18 of the RWBY Manga and Vol 2 of the series TV show. 

So last time I commented on the manga I was just past the white fang thing with blake and I responded idk interested in how the manga took it’s approach with it. I wouldnt say positive but curious about it in a harmless way. 

THINGS REALLY FELL OFF THE RAILS. 

The manga basically speeds through the rest of volume two leaving behind major scenes and shortening the rest to where the impact of them is almost completely diminished. There are also some character differences that bear out due to the author giving people more or less focus.

The biggest changes are with Yang and Blake’s relationship. Now even if you dont like BEES, the formation of their friendship is a vital part of the show. Someone can read everything as “just friends” but them having a close relationship is inarguable. The moment where Yang confronts Blake on her single minded focus to find Roman / Adam and the White fang is this crucial moment where Yang gets through to Blake, shares her backstory and establishes a bond between them. 

It’s nowhere in the manga. IT WAS CUT. 

And it’s such a shame because up to this point you could have mis-characterized Yang as the dumb party blonde stereotype that even she would play up in the early season where it’s apparent that she’s someone who is sharp, focused and can read into people pretty well. She recognizes Blake’s anger and tells her that it isn’t wrong for her to want Justice but if she doesn’t take care of her self shell never be able to achieve it. 

Oh some other cuts. RAVEN. Just never showed up because they didn’t even fight on the train. They just kind of got to the point of train impact without facing that much obstacles before all the Grimm attacked. 

It’s really frustrating because 

1. That was an S tier Fight. 

2. It did a great job at pointing out what Yang’s weaknesses were. 

3. Introduced Raven as someone super important and powerful. 

For some reason they still have Banesaw around and he fights Blake later. It actually makes more sense he’d fight Blake than Weiss narrative-wise but that’s besides the point, it’s just kind of weird he’d just be there anyways since he wasn’t a big shot or anything. 

Oh and STRQ isnt mentioned at all. 

Ok now that we are talking about the Villains. 

Roman is weird, in the show’s he’s this dashing suave dude who’s like “ah there you are red, you’re too late hahaha” *dips but in the comic he’s got this weirdly sadistic side almost like he’s being built up to be more of a threat than what he was and a more unhinged person. He threatens murder directly a lot more and one time I even thought he threatened Neo but the paneling was just weird and he’s talking to Banesaw. Either way it seems like he’s less kind to Neo in general and since that’s literally the only person he seemed to get along with in the show that makes me care less about him besides “ 100% evil sunday morning cartoon villain” I’ll take my “80% evil sunday morning cartoon villain” thank you very much

BUT THERE IS ONE SCENE WITH HIM EVERYONE DESPISES

It’s a HORRENDOUS scene in Chapter 15 thought where 

CONTENT WARNING: Sexual Assault Implications 

Ruby gets captured, in the manga it’s because she’s trying to get back Zwei, in the show it’s because she falls into a hole. That doesn’t really matter anyways she’s tied up and well here’s the page 

followed by 

and this isn’t as bad as it was originally before pressure to change it  https://www.reddit.com/r/RWBY/comments/f2f8j9/the_controversy_regarding_rwby_manga_chapter_15/ 

This is absolutely messed up. Just going over the content you have:

“I’d love to Entertain you myself”

“Have far more pressing concerns with a human like yourself”

“Plenty of Fun to be had, I’m sure”

and then Ruby gagged, and handcuffed to a chair as a bunch of tall faceless men in long black cloaks loom over her. You could say this all is just a misunderstanding and it’s just meant to foreshadow violence as a threat but it’s just done with such a sexual assault that the most charitable take is it’s a dogwhistle to that subject matter. Anyways thaat absolutely didn’t belong in RWBY and even reading it in Viz made me double take how they set up this scene and gave it such dark implications. Not that it was a deliberate narrative writing choice because it is undone really quickly. It just comes off as edgy and gross. 

Anyways some other things: 

JNPR Saga. Jaunedice is gone and while I’m not gonna lie, it’s definitely good that we didn’t have to relive through jaune going through his “ If I keep asking, maybe i’ll eventually get a yes through persistence” arc, I really feel like the pyrrha and jaune content is also weakened and though they might have overplayed this up in the show at least it ended up working on making me a shipper. Idk it wasn’t terrible but it felt a lot more surface level here. Also Ren and Nora were here too but even less prominent. 

Speaking of the dance, Blake goes with Sun instead of Yang. Because Sun invites her under the context of “you owe me”. Even though it’s done tongue in cheek, like even manga sun would hold it against her if she refused I think that this line does a good deal of disservice to Sun and also paints him in a weird Adam-ish tone. Sun’s whole deal is that he’s about unconditional kindness, he likes blake but he wouldnt want her to go with him unless she wanted it for herself. Leaning into the “haha let’s just say you owe me” leans more into something that Adam would use a source of manipulation. 

Oobleck: Is given a major glow up and actually ends up doing a lot in the end to the point at times it almost seems like it’s his story. He pulls of 300 IQ moves and ended up coordinating all the hunters and huntresses to the point of the breach based on the direction the wind was blowing and schematics he saw through someone’s pocket. Ok that’s an exaggeration but not by that much. The author is a fanboy over him and it’s good for memes but I’d argue it doesn’t improve the story by making him a more important character. I guess cool to see him fight a little bit more but it was kind of odd when he stunts on everyone so damn much. 

The fighting in general has some weak panelling except for a few scenes where it’s showing impact. The light as hell inking style makes it kind of annoying when there’s multiple people in one fight against a big target and you have to differentiate everyone and how people move from place to place. The way your eyes are supposed to move while reading a fight and how character motion transfers through panels. 

Neat informative video about that: https://youtu.be/zFFru4q_4H8?t=420 (whole video but I started at the point where they talk about panelling)

The art style is unique and i’ll give it that but too often it seems a bit more contrast and thicker lines would really benefit the series. Even when I was enjoying it, I still had these concerns. It’s just annoying when the artist is generally pretty good but you gotta zoom in to see certain things and all of that. 

So yeah, i’ve been disappointed in the later chapters to say the least and that’s incredibly incriminating when I wasn’t even that big of a fan of this adaptation to start with. I thought that maybe it could have been a loose reinterpretation for someone who was put off by V1/V2 animation standards/ wanted to get through the series even quicker but I couldn’t in good conscience recommend this as an alternative for the main series anymore. And that’s a shame. Luckily this all ends with V2 so we won’t have to worry about what else would be cut, shortened or ignored from the main series and we can focus on the actual show which all of love...or like at the least. 

[loststormtrooper]

Ive been slowly reading the Splinter Cell books and im almost finished the third one and I have complaints

Spoiler warning I guess for books that are over 10 years old if anyone cares about them.

So the first book was great. They got one of the bond writers to do it and it was so good. Splinter Cells identities have been leaked and Sam Fishers life is at stake throughout the whole thing because for the first time ever, the enemy know who he is. His chapters are in first person which makes everything feel so much more personal. All the other chapters following other characters are in third which gives this nice cutscene kind of feeling that games have when they show something your character wouldnt know. Its a book series based on a game, it just felt right. Sam's daughter gets kidnapped because The Shop (big bad weappns company) wants to stop Third Echelon from getting in the way of their sales and Sam is the one who is trying to stop them and stop them from doing deals with The Shadows which are trying to get the US out of the middle east so their country can take over another. Fisher ends up disrupting these deals and saves his daughter. But like, how it goes is so well. Sams daughter gets invited overseas with her friend and they both ger drugged and kidnapped by someone they thought was their friend! The stakes are high af because they killed off the friend and are going to kill Sams daughter and him if he cant stop all this stuff from happening. And theres the whole war nuclear weapon deals going on that he also has to stop. So good.

Anna Grimsdotir isnt present in this book because they need wiggle room for the next book and shes replaced with Carly who is also an analyst. Theres this nice tight nit friendship between Sams team at Third Echelon with Lambert, Carly, Sam, and and Mike that sets things up for the next book. Also Sams Grav Maga teacher, they flirt a bit, nice side story which leads into the next book. Pretty much everything leads into the next book because even though Sam defeated The Shadows, The Shop is still a major weapons dealer and have the identities of other Splinter Cells and needs to be stopped.

So next book, Operation Barracuda. Sam and his team need to find out who leaked the Splinter Cells information and stop The Shop. Uh oh! It was Mike and he had to kill Carly IN THE THIRD ECHELON OFFICE because she was about to figure out it was him and he escapes and the Triad offer to get him out of the country, he just has to get to the right place and theyll fly him out. Good setup for these cat and mouse chapters where and FBI agent is trying to keep up with Mike. Also Mike was actually planted in Third Echelon years ago and he and his brother have deals with the Triad to sell stuff which The Shop does t like because theure supposed to sell things to them and then they sell to the Triad.

All of these bad guys have one goal though. Theyre dealing with a rogue chinese general that wants to invade Hong Kong. So theres all this infighting and build up to when people, even the bad guys, start to figure more stuff about the other groups. The Triad, being in Hong Kong, dont want to be invaded, but the deals theyve done with bad guy general have provided him with a nuckear submarine that he threatens to detonate on the US coast unless they withdraw from Taiwan.

During all of this that krav maga teacher and Sam have had a few dates and are at Sams place. But when they are walking down the street she is gunned down and Sam is forced to leave her dead body on the street with people around because he cant risk being having anyone looking into who he is, even local police and government because he is in a secret agency. Amazing side story. It's a lot like the side stuff with his daughter in the first book, it gives him more motive outside of it just being a job, these people have killed 2 of his friends, one of which he was really into.

Back to bad guy stuff. FBI guy gets killed by Mikes brother after he goes into a shady place to arrest him. The triad are already there and hes just dead now. But he did arrest Mike so they got info from him which leads same to the Triad. In a pretty cool turn of events the general invades but theres no one to stop him! Oh wait! The Triad takes arms and fights off his army and its rad. Sam had gone into that shady building (just remembered its a night club) and gave them information about the generals attack and then left. It was a different chapter because he wasnt being stealthy, he just walked in and demanded to speak to people and it worked. When all this general vs Triad stuff is happening, Sam is dealing with The Shop. The general is defeated, the leak for the Splinter Cell information is in custody, and The Shop is finally shut down!

Next book... set before the first and has a new writer. All of it is in third person and it doesnt feel like the first for obvious reasons. Theres a handful of spelling errors spread throughout which really take you out of it because now youre thinking about this spelling error.

Starts with Sam having to sneak onto a ship thats going to crash onto the US coast and its packed with radioactive material or bombs? It wasnt clear to me. But he stops it and gets out. Its a pretty one track story whereas the other two books had a handful of stuff going on and it all worked neatly. Third Echelon need to know where the nuclear stuff came from to know who did it. He sneaks back on the ship which is under quarantine and takes a sample or something? There was something about having to get engine manufactuing codes to find out where the ship had done repairs and see where it came from but that branching plot just ends later in the book when Lambert says that his analysts found out where it was from. Sam need to find out where nuclear stuff came from. For reasons i cant remember because nothing in this book is worth remembering half the time, Sam has to go to Chernobyl to collect radiated material to see if they match. Thats not the unmemorable part, how they decided to go there to find it specifically is. Anyway, its a match and they figure out who did it and why by knowing who made the ship and how they got the nuclear material. The whole Chernobyl bit could have been better. It didnt feel like anything was at stake. And there was this awkward side story with a woman who helped him get into the dangerous areas unnoticed where theyd flirt and nothing would come of it and then theres nothing else about her ever again.

Then theres all this stuff of Sam infiltrating other places which leads him to another place which leads him to another place. Its very linear and theres a few chapters where he sneaks into a private island thats impossible to sneak onto but he does and it doesnt feel like anything is at stake. The whole book is about having to find out who did this one almost bombing and poisoned a whole towns water supply with radiated material, making it a wasteland, before the US declares war on the wrong nation for ot. But every time they get more information, they suddenly have more time and need to hurry, but then they do that and get more time but need to hurry! At one point they mention the president will declare war in 24 hours and im pretty sure its been like 4 days since then and nothing.

Also! Theres this terrible character cliche guy i hate. There's like 5 chapters spread out through the book where its this weird guy who is clearly the villain ( not bad guy or terrorist, hes just a bad villain) that talks all fancy and as if hes got this grand plan happening and keeps talking about chess and imagining chess moves after he gets new information. Its annoying and i hate him. Get a new character. It doesnt even have to be him, use one of the heads of the bad guy groups that are already established, god. I've got 6 chapters to go and Sam doesnt even know about that chess bad guy yet.

Tbh im considering skipping the next book because its the same writer and the Conviction books and Blacklist book are written by other people. It hasnt been release who i dont think though. Its all a pseudonym.

So i just finished Splinter Cell Checkmate. Its 2 days after i wrote that whole thing and it gets way better in the last 5 chapters. It was much more fast paced and actiony. The rest of the book was slow and not that interesting. There was a bit that brought back a character from earlier who was shot in the head but the bullet hit ar a weird angle and he was left to die. Sam found him and theres this nice calm part of the chapter of Sam trying to get him out without making his wound worse but he wasnt fast enough and he dies. Then Sam finally gets the location of the annoying chess bad guy with some information from now dead guy. It literally ended with Sam saying "...checkmate " to him which fealt really forced... they never met until now and Sam onlt mentioned chess once in the whole book besides that. I think he played it with a friend for a paragraph while they chatted. Epilogue was ok too. The woman who helped him into Chernobyl was in a wax museume and Sam rocks up with a passport for her to get out and fly back to the US with him. Was weird. They flirted maybe twice halfway through the book and then he rocks up with that. She didnt even know his name until the epilogue because he used an alias.

Anyway, first two books are great, third was super slow but ended ok.

[seduceme-lovestruck-thearcana]

SE MCs background chapter 4: The Villain Shows Himself.

It’s rlly fricking long so...sorry.

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Erik soon walked in the break room. He saw me having a death grip on the counter and me hyperventilating and instantly rushed over to me. He put his hand on my back and made me look him in the eye. “What’s wrong? What happened?” I couldn’t exactly answer. I was just lost in my thoughts and panicking. He began to rub his hands down my arms up and down. “Hey, lets do a breathing exercise, yeah?” I nodded and he walked me through it. “Breathe in slowly, hold it for four seconds, and then exhale for four seconds,” he told me while doing that. I copied him and my heart rate soon went down. It took us a few tries for me to be calm enough to speak, but it happened eventually.

He walked me to the table in the break room and gave me a glass of water. “Can you tell me what happened?” I took a deep breath and explained what the man had told me. Erik seemed to get a shock look but then it turned to a worried look. Was this man dangerous? Was I just talking to someone who could’ve hurt me? I mean, everyone could’ve hurt me, but none of them seemed to have that intention. He was the only who looked like he wanted to hurt me. Erik sighed and glanced at the clock. “I’ll ask the boss to let you leave early. I’ll tell him your sick. You need to see Gabriel,” he told me while getting up and walking away with a fast pace. I was worried now. Not just about the man. I was worried about Gabriel and Erik.

I don’t want them to get hurt. Erik seemed like he knew the man I was talking about, but he wouldn’t tell me anything. However, I didn’t want them to get hurt. I’m just a random person that dropped into their life on accident. They don’t deserve to get hurt because of me. I sighed and just waited for Erik to tell me if I could leave. I honestly did feel sick. Sick with worry and fear. Erik did come back and told me to go home. “I’ve already called Gabriel to come and get you. He’ll explain when you’re at home safe and sound.” I waited out in the front for Gabriel and he soon pulled up. I walked up to his car but he got out first and walked towards me. His body seemed tense.

He got to me and put both of his hands on my cheeks. “Are you okay?” His voice seemed so frightened, and his eyebrows were curved upwards in a look of worry. I put my hands on his hands and nodded. He’s never done this. Never touched me without asking. He must’ve been very worried. But I didn’t mind if he touched me. I don’t know why though. I’ve always never been one for touching, unless I was dating the person. He took his hands off me and we both got in the car and drove to his house. We pulled up to his driveway and he got out and held my hand. He didn’t look at me while we walked inside. He seemed to have a little blush on his face, but an angry look as well.

He took me inside and we both ended up on his couch in the living room. He sat there, staring at his hands for awhile. I didn’t push him, I didn’t even say a word. I waited. He sighed and clenched his fist. He looked at me and moved a bit closer to me. His thigh was now touching my thigh. The contact made me blush a bit, but I focused on what was going on. This was serious. “I knew this kid I met when I was younger, the man you met. His name is Orion. He was a very narcissistic kid. He believe he was the best. However, he wasn’t.” I looked at him intently. “I am a dark magician as you know, and so is he. He believed he was the best, strongest, and that he could have anything he ever wanted. Especially, any girl.” Uh oh. I think I knew where this was headed.

“There was a woman we both loved. She was beautiful, and we both wanted her attention. We tried to impress her and do everything for her. In the end, she chose me. However, she was just like him. Snotty, demanding, narcissistic, and a lot of other words I don’t want to mention,” he said with a little chuckle. “I didn’t stay with her long because I hated that type of person.” Oof. I agree, Gabriel. I don’t know how those people think, but it does make me angry. However, I don’t say anything and I let him speak. “He got angry at this. However, this wasn’t enough to make a grudge. I beat him at everything he ever did. Mainly because he never studied or practice. He just believed he was good enough. I never had it out for him, I just avoided him and never did anything with him. I would be kind to him, but only ever angry or rude to him when he was rude to me. I believe I was being fair. However, he thought otherwise. He believed I had it out for him and that I was trying to make his life miserable.” “Well that’s just stupid. The only person out for him is himself,” I said. I looked at him to tell him I’m sorry for interrupting him, but he just laughed at me. He nodded in agreement though.

“Well, he just held a grudge. He now wants to ruin me one good time to get back at me. He tried to blame me for everything. He wasn’t raised right so I couldn’t blame him. Maybe if he had actual parents he would’ve been a better person.” Wait. That stopped me up for a minute. What did he mean by “actual parents”. “Did he not have parents?” I asked him with curiosity in my voice. He shook his head. He took in a big breath and exhaled it. This seemed to be tough for him to explain. Did he also have something to deal with his parents? “I didn’t really have parents either. My parents weren’t good to me.” I took his hand that was laying on his lap and squeezed it. I tried to give him my support without saying anything, because I was at a Lost for words.

He squeezed back and began to speak once more. “You know how my sister is a light magician right? My mother was a light magician...and so was my father. You’re wondering how I am a dark magician right?” I nodded. “Well, my uncle, on my mothers side, was a black magic magician. So, it carried over to me. The problem was that my father hated black magic. So, he began to hate me.” I let out a little gasp. That was so wrong. He shouldn’t have been hated for what he was. He couldn’t control how he was born or what he was. It was cruel and unfair damnit! “It started off as just treating my sister better than me, giving her more attention and more things. Whenever my sister did something wrong, she got a warning. When I did something wrong, I usually got a beaten or got grounded. Sometimes he just beat me for the heck of it. My mother tried to give attention to me and comfort me, but I think my father threatened her a lot of the time. So, I was basically alone in my family. But my big sister still loved me so much and was there for me. However, something happened that I thought would never happen,” he said while looking out the window. It seemed like he couldn’t dare look me in the eye. I guess he doesn’t share this often.

“One night I woke up to someone shaking me. I saw my dad with an angry look. He had a bag in his hand and he told me to get out and that someone was waiting for me. He guided me out and basically threw me outside. I then saw someone with a car. She called me over to here. She told me that she was with an orphanage. I didn’t do anything and I didn’t deserve to be separated from my family. I never once used my magic around him or hurt anyone with it. In the past I tried to impress him by being good and not using my magic at all around him. However, it wasn’t enough, and that was the day he gave me up. I guess he was just...so disappointed that I was a part of his family. My mother was sad but she still watched as they took my bags and as I was forced to leave my family and my sister behind. My mother told me that she tried to convince him to stop, but I didn’t believe her. She never really tried to stop my father. I never knew why though. Soon my sister came downstairs and saw me getting in the car leaving. She didn’t know what was going on and asked my parents what was happening and they explained. She didn’t want me to be gone, but she couldn’t do anything. She was only 15 while I was 14. She ran up to me and hugged me one last time and was forced to go back inside the house. They drove me away to an orphanage and I was stuck there for awhile. But Natalie wouldnt leave me alone. One day I saw her come into the orphanage. However, she was with one of the orphanage people. I thought that they gave her up too, but she told me that she told the police about my father and mother and they were arrested for child abuse. Since she had nowhere else to go, she joined me here. We never looked back and I’ve never missed home.” I saw a tear run down his face. This was so personal and horrible. I could see why he didn’t want to open up. He wanted to keep it to himself, not let anyone know of his problems. I honestly felt like crying too.

“I don’t know what happened to them after them being arrested. I don’t know if they’re out or not, but the orphanage brought along good things and a bad thing too. The orphanage is where I met Erik and where I met Orion.” He finally turned to look at me and I could see the tears running down his face. I sat there in shock. I’ve always thought that magic could’ve been used for good and that everyone had good inside of them. I thought that if we had magic, life would be better. I guess I was wrong.

[I]I guess our worlds aren’t that different after all.

I didn’t know what to say to comfort him, so I put my hands on his cheeks and wiped away the tears. I put on a little smile to try and cheer him up. “I’m so sorry that that happened to you, but look at you now. You have an amazing life. You’re strong, you have friends, you’re loved, and you’re so kind despite everything that’s happened.” I tried to list everything that was amazing about him to help him. I was also doing this because he was always saying he wasn’t good enough. I guess those emotions and feelings were also caused by his past. He looked at me for a minute and didn’t seem to do anything. One hand went to one of my hands on his cheeks and squeezed. He leaned into my hand and closed his eyes and let out a breath. “You’re special, you know? I don’t tell that to everybody.” I smiled and let out a chuckle.

I hugged him and he pulled me into his lap so I could hug him better. My hands wrapped around his torso and I squeezed as hard as I could. I knew I didn’t hurt him, I wasn’t that strong. He freezed for a second, but soon wrapped his arms around me. My head rested on his shoulder and when I breathed in, he smelled like incense. It was sweet and a good smell. He let out a sigh which made goosebumps rise on my neck. He pulled back so he could look me in the face. He had an intense look on his face. It didn’t seem angry or sad. It just seemed content. He leaned in and I realized what he was about to do. I got a little bit worried. What if I messed it up? But I wanted this. It just felt right and I wanted him to do it. So, I leaned in as well, and he met my lips with his. His lips were cold but sweet. He must’ve drank or ate something sweet before we got here. It was around lunch so he could’ve ate something. His arms seemed to tighten around me, not too hard, but still tightened just a bit. I lifted one of my hands to the back of his neck and my hand got tangled in his hair.

He smiled in the kiss and pulled away. His forehead leaned against mine and I let out a happy sigh. I don’t know what this would lead us to, but it felt very nice. “What are we going to do about Orion?” His face turned to a little bit of a pout. “Wow, okay. Ruin the moment.” I let out a laugh and he smiled. “I don’t know yet, maybe he just said that to scare me. But I won’t take a risk. Don’t go near him if you see him at the cafe again and if he hurts you,” he said while looking me in the eyes, and I saw his purple eyes turn dark purple. He got colder and it was scary. “Tell me and I’ll deal with it.” His eyes turned back to regular purple and I just stared. “Do your eyes normally do that?” He frowned a little. “It only happens when I get very angry.” I nodded. “Then I’ll try to not make you angry.” He leaned his head into my shoulder and I did the same to him. We both just sat there, in comfortable silence, dealing with the past events, and I sat there processing everything I just learned about him. I was happy though. He finally opened up and my heart was happy and I felt feelings. I don’t know which kind yet, but they’re there.

About a month passed and no sign of Orion. Maybe Gabriel was right. Maybe he just did that to scare him and make him very worried. However, I couldn’t stop thinking that the next customer to walk in could be Orion. I tried to think that he just did it to scare him, but it seemed too serious and I felt like he was going to do something bad.

I was right.

One day a man with a black suit walked in. He stood there and looked around, like he was searching for someone. He noticed me and began walking to me. He came to me and I got nervous. “Can I speak to the owner of this cafe?” I nodded and walked him to the boss’ office. He went in and I just didn’t think anything of it. He probably was there for business. He did have a fancy badge on the front of his suit. I went back to working and it soon came to my break. I went to the break room and that’s when I saw the same man come walking in and spotted me. He looked at me with disgust on his face. I was offended. He laughed and came to me. “I know you’re human. You need to come with me,” he told me while grabbing my arm. I didn’t seem to have any other choice. He was a lot stronger than me and he wasn’t any normal human I could hurt. I walked with him for a minute, but then I stopped walking. “Can I talk to my friend for just one second?” I looked at him with puppy eyes and he seemed to be very annoyed. He sighed and nodded. “One minute.”

I got excited and began to look for Erik. I found him working in the kitchen. I stopped him and told him everything that just happened. He looked at me with sadness. “They’re gonna erase your memories,” he said with a whisper of horror. “Is there anyway to get out of it?” He sadly shook his head and he looked like he was gonna cry. He opened his mouth to say something, but the guy soon came back in and grabbed me once again. Erik looked at him with a straight face, but I could tell he was angry underneath. “I’m sorry that this human is bothering you, sir.” Eriks calm face then turned to look at me with a fake look of shock and disgust. “I know right?” The guy said with a laugh. Now it was my turn to have a look of disgust. After that exchange, he pulled me along with him to the car. I started to panic but I couldn’t show it. Would Erik and Gabriel get in trouble? Would they get hurt because of me?

I started to blame myself. It was all my fault. Maybe if I’d been more careful, I could’ve avoided this. I was enjoying time here and I began to feel feelings for Gabriel. “What are you going to do to me?” He looked at me annoyed through the little mirror in the car. “I’m going to erase your memories. Can you tell me how you got here.” I sighed and explained. There was no reason to lie. He would probably hurt me if I lied and might hurt Gabriel and Erik. He might even hurt Natalie. “Through some bushes in the park?” I nodded. He drove me to the park and asked me to tell him where exactly I came from. I showed him and he walked through the bushes with me and, surprisingly, we ended up right on the path that I was at before I ended up in the magical world.

He smiled. “At least this time it’s easier. Did you stay with anyone while you were in our world?” I knew this question was coming. I couldn’t tell him anything. I shook my head, calmly, as I began to lose my mind inside my head. “I would go back and forth. Come to your realm during the day and come here at night.” He made a hum noise and just sighed. “Okay. It’s time. Look at me in the eyes.” I did so and his eyes glowed. They were a bright blue and began to get even brighter. “Wait, before you do it, can I ask a question?” He sighed angrily. “Who told you that I was there? Was his name Orion?” “Yes it was. Why does it matter?” I knew my feeling was right. He did do something. Did he mention Gabriel? I hope he didn’t. He’s already done enough damage by making me forget. I sighed and just shook my head. Without any way to break free from this situation, I looked back into the mans eyes and they glowed once more. I prayed in that moment that I could see Gabriel again. I didn’t care how long it took. I just wanted to be with him, Erik, and Natalie again...

I began to feel dizzy. It felt like I was losing consciousness. Was this it? Would I never remember anything? The edges of my vision started to go black. Soon, the whole world went black and I couldn’t remember a thing.

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I woke up to my family surrounding me in my room. What was happening? I just woke up this morning to this. “What’s going on?” I asked them while still sounding groggy. It was morning and too early for me to be up. “You were missing for 3 months, Melody!” My mother shouted at me. She seemed on the verge of tears. I still had my clothes on that I had when I was walking in the park. Actually, walking in the park was the last thing I recall from that day. I don’t even remember coming home. What did she mean when she said I was missing for three months? If it’s true,I don’t remember anything. “Some men dropped you off at the police station and said that they found you in the park passed out! They then called us and we picked you up yesterday.” Wait. Ive been asleep for a whole DAY? “I slept throughout the whole day?” My mother and father nodded. Wow. That’s a new record for me. “Oh, sweetie, I was so worried,” my mother said as she came to me and hugged me. “I’m sorry, Momma. But...I don’t remember a thing.” “Are you sure?” My father asked me. I nodded. It was true. I didn’t remember who took me, where I was, or anything.

[I]I didn’t remember a thing.

Soon I got up and my parents decided to do everyday things to make me feel better even if I didn’t feel bad or anything. However, I didn’t feel right. I felt like I was missing something. Something important. It felt like I forgot something and I can’t remember it. I felt a little bit...

[I]Empty

[crafiet]

1-50 of the writer’s ask thing, go!

BITCH UR RUDE AF

The Basics1.     Do you listen to music when you write?mostly yeah but it depends on my mood2.     Are you a pantser or plotter?both, i was a complete pantser up until recently but ive been trying to outline big scenes so i know where im going3.     Computer or pen and paper?computer for drafting. pen and paper for outlining/planning4.     Have you ever been published, or do you want to be published?not published, dont wanna be5.     How much writing do you get done on an average day?none but yesterday i wrote 2k /shrug6.     Single or multiple POV?usually single but ive been trying multiple!! its hard!!! idk what voice is!!7.     Standalone or series?ugh again mostly standalone, but ive been dabbling in series8.     Oldest WIPmy spies one which went though a fantasy and scifi phase and was originally dystopian9.     Current WIPmy mages! i have no titles bc who10.  Do you set yourself deadlines?nup

The Specifics11.  Books and/or authors who influenced you the mostuhhhh to be fair im v easily influenced so if i read a book and really like it i subconsciously try to implement that style of writing or try out that genre in my own work12.  Describe your perfect writing spacea desktop next to a big open window where i can play music without headphones13.  Describe your writing process from idea to polisheduhhhh i dont have a finished wip yet so idk lol usually: idea→ characters→ plot→ spur of the moment 10k word vomit→ more planning, outlining→ more words→ repeat planning and drafting until finished14.  How do you deal with self-doubts?i just take a break, read some bad books, read some good books, look at writing tumblrs and just marinate for a bit before going back in15.  How do you deal with writer’s block?i perpetually have it and since i dont have deadlines or a publishing contract i just ride it out, writing is strictly a hobby for me16.  How many drafts do you need until you’re satisfied with a project?i edit as i go, im onto draft 2 of my mages but its technically a rewrite bc i changed most of the plot17.  What writing habits or rituals do you have?i have none atm, but i usually pick a time where i know i wont be disturbed/distracted so usually at night18.  If you could collaborate with anyone, who would it be, and what would you write about?idw collab sdkksdlkbnsd die19.  How do you keep yourself motivated?i just really really like my worlds lol conceited 20.  How many WIPs and story ideas do you have?i have!!! 5?

The Favourites21.  Who is/are your favourite character(s) to write?oh mannngggg i like all my protagonists, ary is the easiest bc shes the one i work with the most, but its super entertaining to be in remy’s head, and i like calyp’s bc hers is so different AAHH22.  Who is/are your favourite pairing(s) to write?remy and seth orrr red and kieran. if im answering this correctly? or do u mean types of pairings lol idk23.  Favourite authorhummm idk every author i really like have books i dont like so i cant say24.  Favourite genre to write and readfantasy25.  Favourite part of writingworldbuilding *.*26.  Favourite writing programgoogle docs. it would be word but im too poor to buy it lol27.  Favourite line/sceneidk if this is my favourite but“I am at least trying to be civil.”“I am being civil. You want me to yell at you? Turn into a wolf and fight it out like you’d want?”Kieran closed the file and stood. “I don’t—rem—”“Remember.”“I don’t remember you being so—” He searched for a word, but gave up and growled instead. Red got the idea.“Angry? Callous? I ought to reteach you the English language.”“I know how to speak,” Kieran blurted. “Remember, I spent twenty-four years a full human.”“And look how fast that’s disappeared.”28.  Favourite side characterwhat are side characters lol ENSEMBLE CASTS29.  Favourite villainossssshhhh probably michael bc i love him30.  Favourite idea you haven’t started on yetive started on all my wips im one of those bastards who can multitask

The Dark31.  Least favourite part of writingactually drafting lmao32.  Most difficult character to writeprobably christine bc shes meant to be relatable and down to earth and thats boring smh33.  Have you ever killed a main character?yes, not a pov one though34.  What was the hardest scene you ever had to write?probably any scene that requires a lot of research on a topic i know nothing about, like hacking or sword fighting or whatever35.  What scene/story are you least looking forward to writing?bridging scenes suck theyre necessary but they SUCK

The Fun36.  Last sentence you wrote“My plan would go smoother with you involved, but I can find others. Many want his head.”37.  First sentence or your current WIPShe squinted in the harsh light.38.  Weirdest story idea you’ve ever hadugh this girl who could see deaths coming and she worked for the fbi but she was like 15 so she still had to go to highschool lol39.  Weirdest character concept you’ve ever hadprobably her, only bc i was 13 when i created her and was reading this banshee series but somehow didnt connect??? and didnt realise she was a banshee?? without the screaming40.  Share some backstory for one of your charactersomg all of my characters have purposefully murky backstories bc i find that trope cool af lol. i guess ary has that typical woe-is-me backstory where her parents were killed, she spiraled and got involved with the wrong people and then was betrayed and arrested lol

The Rest of It41.  Any advice for new/beginning/young writers?literally i swear by: trying anything out. fiddle with pov, tense, perspective, genre, character identity, hell take a story you like and try to put your own spin on it. writing as a craft only gets better with practice and my best work is when im going outside of the box/my comfort zone42.  How do you feel about love triangles?is this even a debate anymore, this trope got flamed so hard i havent seen it in ya in years. i dont really care about it43.  What do you do if/when characters don’t follow the outline?good lol my outlines are usually done on the spot and i come up with more creative plots/scenes if i can think on it a bit44.  How much research do you do?i edit as i go so i research as i go. my pre-drafting research extends to saving links on things i might wanna write about and thats it lol. i would say i dont do as much as i should45.  How much world building do you do?a lot lol i LOVE worldbuilding. but i find it hard to incorporate it into my draft naturally so a lot of minute details get cut 46.  Do you reread your own stories?all the time lol i forget what i wrote half the time47.  Best way to procrastinatetwitter–OR if u wanna seem “productive”, writing blogs are a good way to get distracted48.  What’s the most self-insert character/scene you’ve ever written?bitch there was a time where i only wrote self insert characters lol49.  Which character would you most want to be friends with, if they were real?im too lame to hang out with any of my characters. they would be nice to me but i wouldnt get to know them like how i know them from an author perspective50.  [Other question—ask me anything]u didnt ho

[darlingsdream]

My Story With Voltron and Season Seven Thoughts

So, this is the first time I’ll be posting something personal on here about my story with Voltron and how I feel about it. It’s going to be long, and yeah, trigger warning.

A year ago, I was in a very, very bad place mentally. I was learning a lot about who I was personally and dealing with a lot of losses and emotional baggage. As a very young child, I was very into the original Voltron. I loved that stuff, however, when I grew older I didn’t stick to it and didn’t hear about the new reboot of it. Last year, one of the biggest things I was dealing with was my sexuality. Hi, I’ve recognized I’m BISEXUAL! And I’m very proud! But, I found it very hard to accept that about myself last year, seeing as my family did not approve of that stuff. I always lost myself in LGBT members in TV shows because I felt like I could relate to the characters and they helped me get through my emotional stuff. I would hyperfocus on them to drown out the very, very bad stuff I was going through.

One day while scrolling through YouTube, I came across a Klance edit. I did not know what show they were from, and genuinely believed they were a cannon gay couple. I fell in love with them instantly and began watching more video of them on YouTube. After my spree, I looked it up and figured out they were from the new Voltron reboot! I was like, woah! A voltron reboot? A gay couple, in a child’s cartoon? I was DEAD SET IN LOVE with the show right off the bat. I watched all four seasons that were out at the time and yeah, realized Klance wasn’t a cannon ship. I fell in love with the plot, characters, ships, and fandom though.

Voltron gave me something to take my mind off how bad of a situation I was in. It gave me something to hyperfocus on and fall in love with. I’ve met so many nice and friendly people through the fandom, people that understand me! The fandom is so amazing with great content? Like, the fics? Amazing! Art? Stunning! I loved the VA’s immediately and even recognized them from shows I used to watch! I became so involved with Voltron and progressively found myself getting happier and happier as I met new people, found myself, found relatable content and happy spaces to put myself into. Long story short, Voltron saved me from a shit filled situation. I’ve loved Voltron so, so much.

For the past three seasons, I’ve stayed up just to watch them immediately. I’ve worked on many fan fictions and read AMAZING ones by BEAUTIFUL writers!

You could only imagine my SHOCK when I heard there would be LGBT rep! Something I personally struggle with, even now! I cried when I found out Shiro had a male fiancé when he was on Earth! It made me so, so happy!

So, here is where my issues start...

You can tell I’ve loved Voltron whole heartedly for a very long time. Yeah?

This season, season 7, hurt me in more ways than one. It was written poorly compared to the other seasons in my opinion. The episodes where a bit everywhere and the villains were out there! The time warps were confusing, and having twenty new characters thrown at you at once is confusing! Especially when the show is close to ending. Don’t get me wrong, there was a lot of good things in this season! An amazing and well deserved Hunk arc, Lance’s strong and smart sister! The Paladins all being with their families! Shiro getting a new arm! Major Paladin and Lion bonding! Keith loves his mom!

But, there was just as much bad things as good things... I’ll start with the plot, so people won’t think I’m shitting on a show I’ve adored for MONTHS because “MY SHIP DIDNT BECOME CANNON”. Because that’s not it.

The plot was, for this season, confusing! The space stuff happening was weird. And, as someone who has an 8 YEAR OLD SISTER who watches this show, she was startled by the hostility Keith began showing the fellow Paladins during their “space madness”. The game show episode, while supposed to be a tension breaker, was useless in the long run and more of an aggravating spit run than anything else. Like, it was nice seeing Zarkon, Haggar, and Lotor! As a family! But odd, we never got an explanation as to how. Then we have everyone bashing on Lance, poor lance, for being an idiot, which he is not. As well, Voltron is captured TWICE this season... never had that happened and the way they always get out of the trouble seemed very OP.

Now, I’ll go into characters. Shiro: a supposed LGBT member, handicap, suffers from PTSD, and is of a different race, gets put through the RINGER in EVERY SEASON. They have done this character dirty, I’m not even going to lie. It’s not “character development” to throw your character around like that and kill it a hundred times but allow it to still live. Poor Shiro has barely had ANY good luck through out this show! Then, they go and say, he’s an LGBT character... They kill off his ex fiancé? They said there would be a major plot with Adam and Shiro, and I feel like they did both characters dirty. No, Adam’s death was far from heroic. It was a flash death, not even sudden, and people were left confused to it. I’m pretty sure they even referred to Adam as PERSON 1 in the subtitles. Shiro’s grieving of his old partner is so rushed too. We got an entire clip of Pidge sobbing her heart out over her brother, but see barely a flinch as Shiro looks at his ex fiancés grave. You wouldnt even be able to tell they used to be a couple if the producers didn’t say something. I’m sorry, but personally, I can’t count this as LGBT rep when it’s so concealed like this... it hurts, because they hyped the rep up so much and I was so excited, and then shit hit the fan.

Then there is Lance, who we were promised would get development. The only development for him has been on his crush for Allura and it’s painfully obvious. He is used as a joke. The other characters mistreat him... and it’s very hard to watch. This, as a kids show, just shows that it’s okay to be rude and make fun of other people. My younger sister even picked up on this and said the way Lance is treated by everyone, especially his sister, is bad! The whole gameshow episodes they kept calling the poor teen Dumb and Stupid. Like, jeez, that’s kind of damaging? They even showed that Lance has many insecurities and yet, they don’t go any further about it. He cries? No one comforts him. He’s worried? People shoot him down. He tries to help others? He gets yelled at that he can’t do things right or disregarded. It goes to show as a regular trope kids are taught today, it’s bad for boys to have emotions! It’s like it doesn’t even matter! It agitates me so much...

Then, Keith. Keith is my favorite character, he’s gotten SO MUCH development. More than anyone else... which, I kind of dislike.. but, his personality was totally screwed over this season! They changed him completely, and it’s sad to see! Sure, he grew up, but there is literally NOTHING left of his old character!

Now, I guess it’s time for the major controversial ship talk.... this, is a fucking WRECK. The producers of Voltron said that romance wasn’t going to be a big thing in the show. In my honest opinion, they shouldn’t have done ANY romance, no Adam and Shiro, no Allura and Lance, no nothing. They’ve gone about it all wrong, and it’s just disappointing and UNCOMFORTABLE!!!

I’ll start with Allurance. I, originally, liked Allurance. But now, it’s so over done, it’s so awkward, forced, and uncomfortable! The past six seasons, we’ve seen Lance have a meaningless crush on her. I don’t see what’s so great about her to him? He said she makes him want to be a better person, but, anyone on team Voltron makes him try harder, honestly! It just seems so stupid! And now, that lotor is out of the way, Allura all of a sudden shows interest in him? No build up? No back story? Just random blushing and caring? It sounds like a rebound! I mean, yes, I understand peoples feelings can change, but this? They’ve gone about it ALL WRONG! As well? They have said Allura doesn’t get an endgame, but Lance does? This makes no sense. They have also said for Lance’s endgame: he ends up with someone he NEEDS, not WANTS, the person he ends up chose him as a first choice! This doesn’t sound like Allura, yet, they keep pushing it on their interviews and it’s just awkward! This ISNT slowburn!!!!

Finally, Klance. Yeah, I’m upset... very upset actually. They make Lance like Allura violently and now Axca is randomly showing up and now Keith is HET? Yeah... I don’t get it. I don’t get why they made all those unnecessary Klance moments now. Bonding moment? Elevator scene? Comforting? The soft looks? The concern? The colors in the backgrounds? The built up from rivals to friends to co-leading? They were getting along so well, it was so nice! I really thought that they were the slowburn relationship the cast was so excited and quiet about! It seemed so right! But then, Keith left for the blade, and in the shipping panel they said Keith and Lance were soulmates and they wished they could have seen that earlier. I was hurt. Beyond hurt. When Keith came back, I was disappointed. They changed Keith’s personality so much... he was rude and snapping at Lance, I was like, woah? And then when Keith was rude to Allura and Lance told him he should have just stayed away? That hurt! During the game show when Lance and Keith picked each other to leave, I felt so happy! I was like, wow, they care so much for each other! Lance was so earnest with his response! He made such a soft expression and said Keith was like the future! But then Keith ruined the entire moment and said he just picked Lance because he didnt want to spend an eternity with him! Like, what? What happened to the Keith that hung onto their bonding moment? Why was he so snappy? I am so confused why they built up a nice friendship and then we get THAT from them! It seems so.. wrong now! I am hurt over it, like, genuinely. I don’t even care if they weren’t going to be in a relationship! They could have been AMAZING friends, but they ruined that! They made their friendship seem so toxic!

After this season, I’ve honestly lost my passion and fire for Voltron... I’m so disappointed and sad. Not just because of ships, but plot as well.

I also would like to say as a side note: it’s okay for people to watch a show just for ships. That’s their interest, let them do what they want and don’t attack them... we all have our personal reasons for stuff!!!

[seduceme-lovestruck-thearcana]

SE MCs background chapter 4: The Villain Shows Himself

Erik soon walked in the break room. He saw me having a death grip on the counter and me hyperventilating and instantly rushed over to me. He put his hand on my back and made me look him in the eye. “What’s wrong? What happened?” I couldn’t exactly answer. I was just lost in my thoughts and panicking. He began to rub his hands down my arms up and down. “Hey, lets do a breathing exercise, yeah?” I nodded and he walked me through it. “Breathe in slowly, hold it for four seconds, and then exhale for four seconds,” he told me while doing that. I copied him and my heart rate soon went down. It took us a few tries for me to be calm enough to speak, but it happened eventually.

He walked me to the table in the break room and gave me a glass of water. “Can you tell me what happened?” I took a deep breath and explained what the man had told me. Erik seemed to get a shock look but then it turned to a worried look. Was this man dangerous? Was I just talking to someone who could’ve hurt me? I mean, everyone could’ve hurt me, but none of them seemed to have that intention. He was the only who looked like he wanted to hurt me. Erik sighed and glanced at the clock. “I’ll ask the boss to let you leave early. I’ll tell him your sick. You need to see Gabriel,” he told me while getting up and walking away with a fast pace. I was worried now. Not just about the man. I was worried about Gabriel and Erik.

I don’t want them to get hurt. Erik seemed like he knew the man I was talking about, but he wouldn’t tell me anything. However, I didn’t want them to get hurt. I’m just a random person that dropped into their life on accident. They don’t deserve to get hurt because of me. I sighed and just waited for Erik to tell me if I could leave. I honestly did feel sick. Sick with worry and fear. Erik did come back and told me to go home. “I’ve already called Gabriel to come and get you. He’ll explain when you’re at home safe and sound.” I waited out in the front for Gabriel and he soon pulled up. I walked up to his car but he got out first and walked towards me. His body seemed tense.

He got to me and put both of his hands on my cheeks. “Are you okay?” His voice seemed so frightened, and his eyebrows were curved upwards in a look of worry. I put my hands on his hands and nodded. He’s never done this. Never touched me without asking. He must’ve been very worried. But I didn’t mind if he touched me. I don’t know why though. I’ve always never been one for touching, unless I was dating the person. He took his hands off me and we both got in the car and drove to his house. We pulled up to his driveway and he got out and held my hand. He didn’t look at me while we walked inside. He seemed to have a little blush on his face, but an angry look as well.

He took me inside and we both ended up on his couch in the living room. He sat there, staring at his hands for awhile. I didn’t push him, I didn’t even say a word. I waited. He sighed and clenched his fist. He looked at me and moved a bit closer to me. His thigh was now touching my thigh. The contact made me blush a bit, but I focused on what was going on. This was serious. “I knew this kid I met when I was younger, the man you met. His name is Orion. He was a very narcissistic kid. He believe he was the best. However, he wasn’t.” I looked at him intently. This must’ve been the man I was talking too. “I am a dark magician as you know, and so is he. He believed he was the best, strongest, and that he could have anything he ever wanted. Especially, any girl.” Uh oh. I think I knew where this was headed.

“There was a woman we both loved. She was beautiful, and we both wanted her attention. We tried to impress her and do everything for her. In the end, she chose me. However, she was just like him. Snotty, demanding, narcissistic, and a lot of other words I don’t want to mention,” he said with a little chuckle. “I didn’t stay with her long because I hated that type of person.” Oof. I agree, Gabriel. I don’t know how those people think, but it does make me angry. However, I don’t say anything and I let him speak. “He got angry at this. However, this wasn’t enough to make a grudge. I beat him at everything he ever did. Mainly because he never studied or practice. He just believed he was good enough. I never had it out for him, I just avoided him and never did anything with him. However, he thought otherwise. He believed I had it out for him and that I was trying to make his life miserable.” “Well that’s just stupid. The only person out for him is himself,” I said. I looked at him to tell him I’m sorry for interrupting him, but he just laughed at me. He nodded in agreement though.

“Well, he just held a grudge. He now wants to ruin me one good time to get back at me. He tried to blame me for everything. He wasn’t raised right so I couldn’t blame him. Maybe if he had actual parents he would’ve been a better person.” Wait. That stopped me up for a minute. What did he mean by “actual parents”. “Did he not have parents?” I asked him with curiosity in my voice. He shook his head. He took in a big breath and exhaled it. This seemed to be tough for him to explain. Did he also have something to deal with his parents? “I didn’t really have parents either. My parents weren’t good to me.” I took his hand that was laying on his lap and squeezed it. I tried to give him my support without saying anything, because I was at a Lost for words.

He squeezed back and began to speak once more. “You know how my sister is a light magician right? My mother was a light magician...and so was my father. You’re wondering how I am a dark magician right?” I nodded. “Well, my uncle, on my mothers side, was a black magic magician. So, it carried over to me. The problem was that my father hated black magic. So, he began to hate me.” I let out a little gasp. That was so wrong. He shouldn’t have been hated for what he was. He couldn’t control how he was born or what he was. It was cruel and unfair damnit! “It started off as just treating my sister better than me, giving her more attention and more things. Whenever my sister did something wrong, she got a warning. When I did something wrong, I usually got a beaten or got grounded. My mother tried to give attention to me, but I think my father threatened her a lot of the time. So, I was basically alone in my family. But my big sister still loved me so much and was there for me. However, something happened that I thought would never happen,” he said while looking out the window. It seemed like he couldn’t dare look me in the eye. I guess he doesn’t share this often.

“One night I woke up to someone shaking me. I saw my dad with an angry look. He had a bag in his hand and he told me to get out and that someone was waiting for me. He guided me out and basically threw me outside. I then saw someone with a car. She called me over to here. She told me that she was with an orphanage. I didn’t do anything and I didn’t deserve to be separated from my family. I never once used my magic around him or hurt anyone with it. In the past I tried to impress him by being good and not using my magic at all around him. However, it wasn’t enough, and that was the day he gave me up. I guess he was just...so disappointed that I was a part of his family. My mother was sad but she still watched as they took my bags and as I was forced to leave my family and my sister behind. My mother told me that she tried to convince him to stop, but I didn’t believe her. She never really tried to stop my father. I never knew why though. Soon my sister came downstairs and saw me getting in the car leaving. She didn’t know what was going on and asked my parents what was happening and they explained. She didn’t want me to be gone, but she couldn’t do anything. She was only 15 while I was 14. She ran up to me and hugged me one last time and was forced to go back inside the house. They drove me away to an orphanage and I was stuck there for awhile. But Natalie wouldnt leave me alone. One day I saw her come into the orphanage. However, she was with one of the orphanage people. I thought that they gave her up too, but she told me that she told the police about my father and mother and they were arrested for child abuse. Since she had nowhere else to go, she joined me here. We never looked back and I’ve never missed home.” I saw a tear run down his face. This was so personal and horrible. I could see why he didn’t want to open up. He wanted to keep it to himself, not let anyone know of his problems. I honestly felt like crying too.

“I don’t know what happened to them. But the orphanage is where I met Erik and where I met Orion.” He finally turned to look at me and I could see the tears running down his face. I sat there in shock. I’ve always thought that magic could’ve been used for good and that everyone had good inside of them. I thought that if we had magic, life would be better. I guess I was wrong.

I guess our worlds aren’t that different after all.

I didn’t know what to say to comfort him, so I put my hands on his cheeks and wiped away the tears. I put on a little smile to try and cheer him up. “I’m so sorry that that happened to you, but look at you now. You have an amazing life. You’re strong, you have friends, you’re loved, and you’re so kind despite everything that’s happened.” I tried to list everything that was amazing about him to help him. I was also doing this because he was always saying he wasn’t good enough. I guess those emotions and feelings were also caused by his past. He looked at me for a minute and didn’t seem to do anything. One hand went to one of my hands on his cheeks and squeezed. He leaned into my hand and closed his eyes and let out a breath. “You’re special, you know? I don’t tell that to everybody.” I smiled and let out a chuckle.

I hugged him and he pulled me into his lap so I could hug him better. My hands wrapped around his torso and I squeezed as hard as I could. I knew I didn’t hurt him, I wasn’t that strong. He freezed for a second, but soon wrapped his arms around me. My head rested on his shoulder and when I breathed in, he smelled like incense. It was sweet and a good smell. He let out a sigh which made goosebumps rise on my neck. He pulled back so he could look me in the face. He had an intense look on his face. It didn’t seem angry or sad. It just seemed content. He leaned in and I realized what he was about to do. I got a little bit worried. What if I messed it up? But I wanted this. It just felt right and I wanted him to do it. So, I leaned in as well, and he met my lips with his. His lips were cold but sweet. He must’ve drank or ate something sweet before we got here. It was around lunch so he could’ve ate something. His arms seemed to tighten around me, not too hard, but still tightened just a bit. I lifted one of my hands to the back of his neck and my hand got tangled in his hair.

He smiled in the kiss and pulled away. His forehead leaned against mine and I let out a happy sigh. I don’t know what this would lead us to, but it felt very nice. “What are we going to do about Orion?” His face turned to a little bit of a pout. “Wow, okay. Ruin the moment.” I let out a laugh and he smiled. “I don’t know yet, maybe he just said that to scare me. But I won’t take a risk. Don’t go near him if you see him at the cafe again and if he hurts you,” he said while looking me in the eyes, and I saw his purple eyes turn dark purple. He got colder and it was scary. “Tell me and I’ll deal with it.” His eyes turned back to regular purple and I just stared. “Do your eyes normally do that?” He frowned a little. “It only happens when I get very angry.” I nodded. “Then I’ll try to not make you angry.” He leaned his head into my shoulder and I did the same to him. We both just sat there, in comfortable silence, dealing with the past events, and I sat there processing everything I just learned about him. I was happy though. He finally opened up and my heart was happy and I felt feelings. I don’t know which kind yet, but they’re there.

About a month passed and no sign of Orion. Maybe Gabriel was right. Maybe he just did that to scare him and make him very worried. However, I couldn’t stop thinking that the next customer to walk in could be Orion. I tried to think that he just did it to scare him, but it seemed too serious and I felt like he was going to do something bad. I was right. One day a man with a black suit walked in. He stood there and looked around, like he was searching for someone. He noticed me and began walking to me. He came to me and I got nervous. “Can I speak to the owner of this cafe?” I nodded and walked him to the boss’ office. He went in and I just didn’t think anything of it. He probably was there for business. He did have a fancy badge on the front of his suit. I went back to working and it soon came to my break. I went to the break room and that’s when I saw the same man come walking in and spotted me. He looked at me with disgust on his face. I was offended. He laughed and came to me. “I know you’re not human. You need to come with me,” he told me while grabbing my arm. I didn’t seem to have any other choice. He was a lot stronger than me and wasn’t any normal human I could hurt. I walked with him for a minute, but then I stopped walking. “Can I talk to my friend for just one second?” I looked at him with puppy eyes and he seemed to be very annoyed. He sighed and nodded. “One minute.”

I got excited and began to look for Erik. I found him working in the kitchen. I stopped him and told him everything that just happened. He looked at me with sadness. “They’re gonna erase your memories,” he said with a whisper of horror. “Is there anyway to get out of it?” He sadly shook his head and he looked like he was gonna cry. He opened his mouth to say something, but the guy soon came back in and grabbed me once again. Erik looked at him with a straight face, but I could tell he was angry underneath. “I’m sorry that this human is bothering you, sir.” Eriks calm face then turned to look at me with a fake look of shock and disgust. “I know right?” The guy said with a laugh. Now it was my turn to have a look of disgust. After that exchange, he pulled me along with him to the car. I started to panic but I couldn’t show it. Would Erik and Gabriel get in trouble? Would they get hurt because of me?

I started to blame myself. It was all my fault. Maybe if I’d been more careful, I could’ve avoided this. I was enjoying time here and I began to feel feelings for Gabriel. “What are you going to do to me?” He looked at me annoyed through the little mirror in the car. “We’re going to erase your memories. Can you tell me how you got here.” I sighed and explained. There was no reason to lie. He would probably hurt me if I lied and might hurt Gabriel and Erik. Even Natalie. “Through some bushes in the park?” I nodded. He drove me to the park and asked me to tell him where exactly I came from. I showed him and he walked through the bushes with me and, surprisingly, we ended up right on the path that I was at before I ended up in the magical world.

He smiled. “At least this time it’s easier. Did you stay with anyone while you were in our world?” I knew this question was coming. I couldn’t tell him anything. I shook my head, calmly, as I began to lose my mind inside my head. “I would go back and forth. Come to your realm during the day and come here at night.” He made a hum noise and just sighed. “Okay. It’s time. Look at me in the eyes.” I did so and his eyes glowed. They were a bright blue and began to get even brighter. “Wait, before you do it, can I ask a question?” He sighed angrily. “Who told you that I was there? Was his name Orion?” “Yes it was. Why does it matter?” I knew my feeling was right. He did do something. Did he mention Gabriel? I hope he didn’t. He’s already done enough damage by making me forget. I sighed and just shook my head. Without anyway to break free from this situation, I looked back into the mans eyes and they glowed once more. I prayed in that moment that I could see Gabriel again. I didn’t care how long it took. I just wanted to be with him, Erik, and Natalie again...

I began to feel dizzy. It felt like I was losing consciousness. Was this it? Would I never remember anything? The edges of my vision started to go black. Soon, the whole world went black and I couldn’t remember a thing.

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I woke up to my family surrounding me in my room. What was happening? I just woke up this morning to this. “What’s going on?” I asked them while still sounding groggy. It was morning and too early for me to be up. “You were missing for 3 months, Melody!” My mother shouted at me. She seemed on the verge of tears. I still had my clothes on that I had when I was walking in the park. Actually, walking in the park was the last thing I recall from that day. I don’t even remember coming home. Did I go missing? If so, then I don’t remember anything. “Some men dropped you off at the police station and said that they found you in the park passed out! They then called us and we picked you up yesterday.” Wait. Ive been asleep for a whole DAY? “I slept throughout the whole day?” My mother and father nodded. Wow. That’s a new record for me. “Oh, sweetie, I was so worried,” my mother said as she came to me and hugged me. “I’m sorry, Momma. But...I don’t remember a thing.” “Are you sure?” My father asked me. I nodded. It was true. I didn’t remember who took me, where I was, or anything.

I didn’t remember a thing.

Soon I got up and my parents decided to do everyday things to make me feel better even if I didn’t feel bad or anything. However, I didn’t feel right. I felt like I was missing something. Something important. It felt like I forgot something and I can’t remember it. I felt a little bit...

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