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mutedeclipse · 2 months ago

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Can i rant about being mixed for a minute. Too bad bing bong identity issues time.

Why the fuck is it so isolating? I dont belong in black spaces because im too light and i dont belong in white spaces because im not white ENOUGH. I dont belong in any other of my background spaces either because im severed from nearly every root. Practically disowned by the fully white half. every other mixed race person i see is first or second generation ... Not a fuckin. mutt like me

So much to say about this yet it feels like i shouldnt have a voice ykno. I dont want to speak over other people who are affected by this stuff more. But my mother has experienced racism and fetishization, ive experienced racism a little bit. Probably would experience more if i went outside, but regardless. My personal experience isnt really enough to like. Have any sort of real claim to anything.. everyone probably experiences a little racism ?

Whateverrrrrrrr whateverrrr nobody give a shit anyway.

#lunar myth rambles #im whining about my identity issues because i dont feel like i belong anywhere ever forever and ever #vent #← ig?#i dunno what i ammmm #also pretty severed by the native roots too but thats mainly a canada problem than a me problem. Lol.#Just gonna tack that on at the end because its important for the mutt comment

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nerves-nebula · 2 years ago

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"as fascinating as this is (and it is fascinating, i love to learn shit like this) it doesn't really help my situation. i am still daily ATTACKED by anxiety. my ptsd havin ass WILL have trouble breathing due to an emotional flashback once ever few hours. idk how to fix it and im very tireddd."

Not to be that person but, therapy with a GOOD therapist, and considering what ik about you so f a r, probably medication that is used to treat anxiety and depression at the same time that is considered "mild" cuz ur brain chemicals may like that better. (One like Zoloft!) (If my gut instinct rings true I'd bet actual money on other medications increasing irritability an unfortunate amount for you)

I dunno if this is pushing a boundary or anything sjdhsjdj psychology major go brrrrr

🫐

yknow its funny, one of the reasons i cant stand the idea of looking for a therapist is just how long it'll take to find a good one i can trust. it seems like an insurmountable obstacle and i ammmm so tireddd aguhausghg.

im on fluoxetine and it sorta helped with the most extreme symptoms my first year of college but boyyyyyy howdy do i still have Symptoms.

its fine its not like ur actually diagnosing me or giving me meds ur just suggesting things that COULD help.

#nnstuff #ask #asks are sweethearts

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peebabii · 2 years ago

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Oh little one, you're already leaking through your new pull-ups? You might not be quite ready to go back to big girl underwear just yet.

But I ammmm!! It only leaked cause I dunno what the limits are!!

#babii talks #babii answers

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eidolonightmare · 14 days ago

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will make an acc soon when i can !!!! you use so kmany big words ur like a wizard casting spells . i like the last one the most , i dont know how to read with rhythm but it still sounds cool . i can imagine the few like music ppls i like singing it :3 very talented !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i will most definately have you help me learn french in the future idf we are friends !!!!!! also THANBK YOU for the list i will take them thru out the night and let you know what i get :DDDDD i love quizzes tysm !!!!!!!! see for me i think i could listen to it and (maybe) read it well but NOT write and not speak ?? that goes for all languages tho

THE LAST TIME I WAS ACTIVE IN YANBLR WAS 2022 (I THINK) WHERE I HAD MY OWN ACC AND THEN SUMMER OF THIS YEAR WHEN I JUST KINDA LURKED LMAO , I WAS TOO SCARED TO MAKE POSTS BECAUSE THERE ARE A LOT OF POPULAR USERS I DONT LIKE AND I DIDNT WANT TO RUN INTO THEM OR THEIR MUTUALS , now i dont care AS MUCH but i still dont like a couple of them tbh

and i have no idea when i graduate . like none uhm .... im also homeschooled (/neg) so that will definitely contribute to if im even like able to . iiiiiiiiii have a slight feeling i might end up dropping out once i am seventeen sdjekjrfr but its okay . will live my house dog dream ^___________^

and i took computer science and i failed it ! so LMAO , U HAVE MY CONGRATS . my neocities is also bland-ish because i REFUSE to use iframes , FUCK that .

and yes i am currently replaying pkmn legends . this might sound silly but ive never finished a pkmn game . tbh story based games bore the hell out of me JDNFIJSRFIERK I CANT STAND TO PLAY THEM . THERYE FUN TO WATCH BUT BESIDES THAT BLEGH

i dooooont have much else to say tbh :P am very sleepy and tired and i doooont really like the tumblor ask system FNWEJFKWJRFK , u can msg me if you want /nf BUT THAT MIGHT BE AWKWARD ???? i dunno dude my social skills are comparable to like . i dont want to say an ant because ants have like tons of interactions but like . i dunno maybe a worm ........ do worms ,,, are worms talkative ? i mean im talkative i just dont know what the fuck im saying . also i think thats kinda funny because i am LITERALLY a dog and yet i have no idea how to interact with anyone or anything , but that is okay , im like one of those dogs who have their like "person" i guess . idk what the fuck im talking about dude .

anyway uhm YEAH feel free 2 msg me if u want but you dont have to because i ammmm not sure if it is an appropriate time to ask so . uhh u do what YOU want yes . yes . OKAY BYE BYE TAKIUNG UR QUIZZES - ALEX THE THE THE MAN BOY DOG WOLF CANINE IDFK MAN

sorry if this response is kinda dry i am Tired. but i wanted to respond.

alright awesome!! heheheh thank you i suppose. thank you! ^_^ i'm glad you liked it!!!

hehehe yippee awesome...!! great great i'm excited to see what you get. i hope you have fun taking them! yeah i get that. that happens to me, too. i think you just have to practice more when that happens honestly... and get more input so you feel more comfortable.

ahh yeah i get that lmfao. one of my friend's exes is on here and i have an ex on here so i'm trying to avoid them and their friends... lmfao. and another person i don't like. real.

oohhh yeah. i wouldn't recommend dropping out if it's possible for you to not because that's going to make things harder for you in the future but i won't judge you if you do or anything. because school is really hard T_T. dog house dream!!

fair tbh!!! some parts of that class were rly hard for me so i understand why that might happen T_T. also real. i just can't figure out how to make it look cooler; maybe i'll work on it some more.

yay awesome. also that's totally fair.

okie that's alright!! i'll message you then ^_^ hehe that's fair. i think i understand what you mean though idk how to describe it either, lmfao.

alright :D i shall message you. yippee taking my quizzes!! ^_^

#the angel answers #-alex

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asimplechaos · 6 years ago

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i ammmm not liking Dr. Han in the Good Doctor

because he reduces shaun to his ‘skills’ and denies him agency when he demands basic respect/to be listened to, pushing him to having a meltdown

autistic ppl aren’t only the traits you see as beneficial, and they’re not little decorative pieces that you can keep on a leash

they don’t have to earn the fucking right to do what they want, and yeah shaun doesn’t have good people skills, but have you tried ohhhhh i dunno communicating with him to find a way he can understand how he needs to speak with patients? or maybe having it so the other doctors do the talking or smth?

like it’s a pretty good show! i will say that. but gosh darn the character of Dr. Han is agitating me

#casper cackles #lol text it #it's manipulation plain and simple! that's what han is doing #he's holding shaun's mistakes over his head and using them as a scapegoat to deny him the right to actually do what he wants!!#and that scene where he was talking about the private investigator to the ppl going over the malpractice case or whatever it was #i sure hope that was meant to highlight the fact he's a bit of a cutthroat

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sporeblossoms · 6 years ago

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TVE Adventures

Join here!!

Warning: this post is VERY LONG!!! I’m so sorry. 4/6-7/19

anyway after an eventful 13+ hours of this server today i ammmm beat!! Got tons done tho! (sorta??)

So no pictures of this, but me n silv spent a good chunk of time in the end! the end reset was today and, while we didnt actually get there in time to help fight the dragon, we did get to explore an end city!! We gots elytra now!

moving on, this is @melancholy-mel yall are gonna see her a LOT

Her house has a STUNNING view and ohhhhhhhh boy i cant handle it

(a few of these will make their own post bc oh boy are they pretty)

She also broke like 60 things trying to put lava in...

While exploring i got dogs and gave em to her so! Meet Cherry, Wine and their baby who has no name yet!!

I’ve also got a new addition to my OWN dog family!! Obsidian! Call her Oobi 4 short!!

and ofc it wouldnt be me if i didnt glitch into something

After that! We went to go greet somebody new to the server, had to spend time mining so Silver could fix her elytra.. and so on... While we were out we decided to visit Kelo!! He has a huuuuuuuge build.. Highkey forget what its called bc im a fool but its very cool