#i dunno i guess in my traumatized brain at surface level it leaves too much room | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lovelyrotter · 7 months ago

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STILL feeling like the only fictive on this site whos really fuckin uncomfortable with other fictives talking about generally-to-really-personal shit and *tagging it with ships* like please. please stop. i want to look at davedirk in peace without some random guy running into the room yelling HEY YOURE LOOKING AT ME ACTUALLY. like bro i get it i am also ''a dave'' but im just a fuckin guy first. person first fictive 3rd tbh

#my t #i dont like talking about this stuff cause bad faith singlets take it and run with their already shitty opinions but like #you are not part of a ship. it just wigs me out cause of the nature of stridercest yknow it just really wigs me out #believe it or not irl incest scares the shit outta me. hot take i know #i joke about kissing ''my bro'' in my partner system but we're not related and have been together for 12 fuckin years and also *just kink*#i dont live in a delusion where i believe im kissing my actual fucking ectoparent #and talking about it to strangers like theyre gonna be okay with it and not shocked at all or assume that im actually #literally kissing my goddamn sibling. which makes my skin crawl just thinking about it #and ive got kinks on top of kinks including 'cestuous ones but like #i dunno i guess in my traumatized brain at surface level it leaves too much room #for - again my traumatized brain - to immediately go to the worst possible assumption which i wont go into and would never say to an #actual other person but like. i dunno its one of those triggery things where *im* the one #who should take myself out of the situation #but other ppl *really dont help* because 1) they dont see the problem of conflating themselves with fiction and #2) because they dont see the problem they keep posting very personal shit in ship tags #and bc the ship gets dark its just. uncomfortable to be around. i dont wanna know that about strangers #especially other fictives. cause i dont want them to think im okay with doing that to myself too #when i cant afford to be back there #we're already having massive reality issues i dont need to see that shit imma just block and move on

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