#i dread the future

[jigsawsbrokenpieces]

Having a complete mental breakdown at work today but at least I'm in the Pac Man pod so it's not in the open.

[possibly-not-a-ghost]

My desire to know more about Jon and Martin post-finale verses my intense desire for whatever happened to them being known to them alone whether it was a life Somewhere Else or not FIGHT. I find myself thinking about Adelard Dekker and his letter to Gertrude (KAG 157: Rotten Core)

"May you find your rest where no shadows are cast, and no eyes may see you slumber."

[serialreblogger]

hot take but "old" is a good thing, actually. contrary to popular belief we aren't guaranteed a specific number of years before we die. You don't have a countdown written in your blood, your birthdays don't mark "one less year left," what you have is the past you've already lived.

The future is not yours yet, and maybe not ever. We cannot lose something we've never had; but no one can take away the past. The more years you've lived, the more years you have that are yours. Yeah, 30 isn't old, etc etc, but also - so what if it is? Why do we have to extend the deadline for youth in order to tell each other we have worth? Are the years we've lived not worth something, in themselves?

[tadpal]

i think when bruno first got his gift there where almost no steps up to his vision cave and then as he began to dread using his gift the stairs got longer and longer as a way of the house trying to protect him by giving him as much time as possible to prepare

[mrs-gauche]

Hey, you know what? It's a good day to remember that

- The hashtag #TheDreadWolfRises that was first used in the 2018 teaser is most definitely a reference to Sandal's prophecy in DA2, talking about how “All magic will come back” and “everyone will be just like they were, when he rises“.

- The now official title of DA4 "Dreadwolf" is an anagram for "World/Fade". “Dread Wolf” became one word, the space between the two literally and figuratively disappearing, like the World and the Fade coming together when the Veil is gone.

- The cover of Mark Darrah's "mysterious red book" from 2016.

Which was since revealed to be (quoting the BioWare 25th anniversary book) "an internal guide for developers and publishers to summarize the vision for "Joplin" (the first code name for DA4, until that project was revised in 2017 and renamed "Morrison", the version of DA4 we're getting now), but that "still contains plenty of ideas that will appear in the next Dragon Age", showing a flaming rook and a wolf head, which is suspicious considering that a rook is a piece in a game of chess...

“Rest assured, Solas is placing his pieces on the board as we speak.” (- BioWare in their blog post announcing the official title)

...A game in which a master strategist like Solas was willing to go so far as to sacrifice his queen (*cough* Flemeth *cough*) to win the "Immortal Game", but the word “rook” can also be used in the sense of a swindler/trickster/deceiver. Though if we take the alternative term for the rook and call it a tower instead, isn't it interesting how:

- Solas' final tarot card is "The Tower", commonly interpreted to symbolize massive change, upheaval, revelation, destruction, liberation and chaos.

Let me just quote bestselling author Brigit Esselmont's interpretation of the meaning of this card here and I’ll leave it to you to guess what it could indicate for DA4, but GOD, do I get CHILLS just reading this flippin paragraph:

"Your world may come crashing down before you, in ways you could never have imagined as you realize that you have been building your life on unstable foundations – false assumptions, mistruths, illusions, blatant lies, and so on. Everything you thought to be true has turned on its head. You are now questioning what is real and what is not; what you can rely upon and what you cannot trust. This can be very confusing and disorienting, especially when your core belief systems are challenged. But over time, you will come to see that your original beliefs were built on a false understanding, and your new belief systems are more representative of reality.”

“The best way forward is to let this structure self-destruct so you can re-build and re-focus. And let’s be real – with a card like The Tower, you have no choice but to surrender to the destruction and chaos, no matter how unwanted or painful. Change on this deep level is hard, but you need to trust that life is happening FOR you, not TO you and this is all for a reason. This destruction will allow new growth to emerge and your soul can evolve."

- Promotional stuff for DA4 keeps repeating concentric circles, which is widely believed to represent the Veil itself, and appears to get more broken with every new update. (There are also seven “spheres“ surrounding it = There are seven Old Gods/seven Evanuris that were banished when Solas created the Veil. With only two of these spheres still “lit” = There have been five Blights, two Old Gods left that are still sleeping.)

Also, the new background image of the official website showing even more broken pieces resembling those in the circle, completely falling apart...

What I’m trying to say is... If that Veil isn’t coming down some way or another in this next game, I’m calling false advertising! 😂

[starbuck]

rewatching Black Sails deals psychic damage because characters will speak passionately about a future they believe in with all their heart and you know it isn’t gonna happen for them, you know exactly how things are going to come crashing down but, for just a moment, while they’re talking about it like that, it’s so real to them that you can see it too, clear as day, and it’s beautiful and then everything collapses again.

[vegansunlover]

huh i think i was supposed to wear these hearts on my sleeve and not the cheeks 🖤⛓

[fermented-writers-block]

Honestly, while about every other person and their uncle are cooking up angsty AU thoughts of Anne(1) being haunted by the ghost of the original Anne, I can’t help but think of the idea that the reason the guardian couldn’t simply revive the original Anne was because when she died, she reincarnated.

Like, just picture post-time skip Anne(1) running into a 10 year old kid from several states away visiting LA and the aquarium, and they spend a few hours talking excitedly with the frog lady about frogs before the kid has to leave with their parents. Or Marcy’s webcomic unexpectedly picking up a lifelong reader from a kid that avidly pays attention to every detail and even her sources of inspiration like Vagabondia, taking care to listen to her words and trying their best to grasp Marcy’s intent in the narrative.

And of course, one of my favorite thoughts on this being child psychiatrist or therapist Sasha getting a young child with a strikingly familiar tendency to get leaves and sticks stuck in their hair, loses their right shoe, eating bugs, and maybe even an imaginary friend(s) that sends a jolt through Sasha’s spine. 

Like perhaps a grandfatherly frog and his frog grandchildren...

That, or an imaginary friend with a glowing white appearance, blue aura, and looks remarkably like an older version of the lady in the middle of Sasha’s photo of her and her BFFs lol

[shadeswift99]

Top Procrastination Tip:

If you have a habit of starting multiple projects and not finishing them, try sitting next to The Hole! Spending just 10 minutes per day listening to the low unearthly hum of the thing below as its anger at abandonment rises and wondering if its rage is directed at you or the mortal world in general or both, and in any case which hapless target it will choose first to manifest its wrath upon if you do not correctly guess and comply with its will before the coming of the end of days which it will almost certainly initiate as an indirect consequence of your own hubristic pride in thinking you could ever control this force in the first place, as well as your failure to compete your exterior decorating tasks, is scientifically proven to boost motivation by up to 200.6%! Subscribe to Grian for more top procrastination tips 🥰

[hella1975]

life’s falling apart except im being very howl pendragon about it in that im keeling over and becoming a giant goo monster and my hair changes colour and im sobbing inconsolably

[dreadfutures]

Solas reached up and unhooked one blossom from her hair. Then, he took a step back; she turned to follow him and watched warily as he turned the blossom over in his hands.

“What if I name you Champion?” he asked the blossom.

“Fine,” she said. “On the condition that I named myself first.”

His smile grew softer around the edges. “As I have learned,” he agreed. “You chose yourself. You gave yourself a name, decided its meaning. You hold your own promise.” He closed the distance between them and lifted the blossom above her head, cupped in two hands. “And thus I would name you Panelan’vierlan,” he said, “and Rogasha’ghi’lan, and Champion of the People. As you have named yourself: for all you shall serve, and for all shall you lead.”

My favorite moment from Dead Pasts and Dread Futures (Ch 49: Ardent Blossom), captured by @hanatsuki89​!

[rad-roche]

test run of drawing garrett in the dishonored art style

it's taking all my restraint not to add a 'u' to that dishonored but let's not worry about that right now

super fun project!! i feel like i've learned a lot doing this. there are things i'd tweak here and there looking at it but i think it's a fine enough start

timelapse for the people who dig that sort of thing ( ᐛ )و

[willandmichael]

i need mike delivering a speech to will as jaw dropping as this one if he keeps trying to get him back w el

[devilsskettle]

nostalgia and dread are the two emotions that i feel the strongest but i’ve realized that they’re actually the same thing, or they’re coming from the same place, like nostalgia is the dread that you’ll never be able to go back to the past, dread is the fear that you’ll never find the things you’re nostalgic for in the future (not universally but the kind of general dread of existing that i get a lot of the time) and i’m working on a couple different stories in which characters are trapped in bad situations because of nostalgia or remain in situations and seem “stuck” to others when they’re perfectly content and have no desire to strive for a different future or continue to return again and again to the same places/people/behaviors out of habit or comfort and it’s just. hm. the stories and characters are pretty different otherwise but there is an undercurrent of this nostalgia/dread duality just under the surface of everything i’m working on

[scriptmyworld]

watching cr during work is kinda terrible bc I tell myself ‘I’m gonna make a post about x’ and then I don’t remember until twelve hours later.

anyways imogen and ashton. love them love their dynamic don’t know if I have cohesive thoughts on them just yet but if I do they’ll come out eventually.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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