#i dont think shes fully conscious of it but shes trying to make the 'being the singular adult in the group' thing count for smth

[houndfaker]

some interactions between kikuno and the pts

[bloodweep]

Gods I fucking love Clay too, he’s so awkward, he made me cringe so hard, this motherfucker (extremely affectionate)

I headcanons the trolls to be actual human heights and everyone else giants respectively.

With that being said I headcanon Clay being the tallest and resting at 6’2

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⇢ ˗ˏˋ First time meeting ࿐ྂ

‗ ❍ Meeting Clay wouldn’t be any different than meeting someone else - he’s kind, respectful, introduces himself and is overall polite

‗ ❍ he doesn’t really open up all that much but he clearly approves of you right off the bat

‗ ❍ definitely a hugger, right after introducing himself he will drag you into a hug - this is mainly influenced by Poppy and her aggressive nature to hug someone when she’s overwhelmed, it kind of just stuck

‗ ❍ most definitely the best hugger too, fully into it, one hand cradling the back of your head, the other hand wrapped around your waist to hold you flush to him, his head resting on the top of yours, his cute ears wiggling softly; his tail wagging

‗ ❍ his tail rests at his heels, not exactly dragging on the floor like JD’s or Bruce, but it’s nearly there

‗ ❍ he’s very polite with it too, making sure it never brushes against you or getting in your way when it’s moving

‗ ❍ gosh he has this stupid biggest smile when he sees you again, but it’s closed lipped

‗ ❍ he’s self conscious about his fangs, particularly because the fellow trolls he was with were terrified of the sharp and jagged teeth of the Bergens and it stuck with him to keep them covered

‗ ❍ ugh he slouches to reach your height too, his ears perked forwards to catch all of yours no matter what they are

‗ ❍ enjoys the fact you listen to the books he is currently reading - totally is ecstatic to know you’ll join his sad book club and cry and hug with him

‗ ❍ he most certainly gives you the most awestruck look every time he sees you; he appreciates the fact you aren’t forcing him to be fun, or try to relive his past

‗ ❍ he may be closer to his brothers now, not fully at least, but he still struggles from the image of being “the fun one” and he doesn’t want people to still see him just as the fun one

‗ ❍ gets really excited to show you how to dance like him - this will be in private though, he wants to solely be focused on you and what he’s showing you without others watching - he’s sell struggling you know?

⇢ ˗ˏˋ Him Crushing on you ࿐ྂ

‗ ❍ definitely a meet cute situation from the start

‗ ❍ in my personal opinion he would recognize his feelings for you rather quickly, not being oblivious like the stereotypical smart kid not realizing his feelings

‗ ❍ he would be so soft to you, lifting his hand in a little wave each time his eyes landed on you, dragging you into a hug

‗ ❍ he would still cover his fangs though, his claws always filed down to appear the less threatening as he could, he understood his height alone can be a major contributor to the apex predator look he must give off - big dumbie

‗ ❍ his hugs would start to feel a bit more personal, both his arms wrapping around your waist, tugging you in as he buried his nose into you air

‗ ❍ he was such an incredible sense of smell, he would inhale your scent for however long you allowed the hug to last

‗ ❍ that damn tail wagging hard behind him

‗ ❍ he would be subtle about his feelings for you at first, allowing his tail to brush against you whenever you were close, your leg, thigh, hand

‗ ❍ gosh he would even allow you to brush the tuff of fur at the end, his eyes closing as he enjoyed your delicate fingers in his fur

‗ ❍ i dont think he could ever show his anger to you, not in any sense his brothers have seen, eventually he would get fed up and tell you about him liking you since his subtle advances didnt do it

‗ ❍ when you guys do get together, he would pull you into a tight hug, a big smile on his face before lifting your hand and pressing a kiss to the palm of your hand - here he would press his fangs into your skin there, letting you get a hint of them before respectfully covering them back up with another tender kiss

⇢ ˗ˏˋ Getting together with him ࿐ྂ

‗ ❍ the first date with him would be a quiet one, sharing a dinner at his personal Pod

‗ ❍ i know his food is so fucking good and presented so nicely

‗ ❍ after dinner he would just love to sit on the couch with you, talking about whatever and everything, each thing you mention he will remember

‗ ❍ he would walk you back to your pod, kissing your knuckles goodnight his hand holding yours the other gripping your wrist ever so softly, keeping you there for a bit- this is way to sniff your scent, grounding himself

‗ ❍ in an almost teasing way he would present his fangs to your knuckles gently, sighing in near peace to feel some pressure being relied as your skin pressed into his fangs

‗ ❍ he then would bid you a goodnight

‗ ❍ it would take him about 5 more dates before he gently cupped your cheeks and kissing you, mindful to never go beyond a peck, his fangs never ever present during this time

‗ ❍ UGH he would slow dance with you at any given time he could, singing softly to you while your head rested against his chest, he would be the fucking sweetest

‗ ❍ always bringing you sweets, flowers and little gifts when you meet up, he just loved watching you light up from the gifts

‗ ❍ gosh when you first sleep over together would be magical - singing, dancing, movies, food, everything - he wouldnt share his bed just yet, but he would make the biggest pillow fort in the living room and cuddle all night

‗ ❍ hes so attentive about you, making sure to know everything, making sure to never bring up the things you dislike, making sure any foods you dont like - even if he liked it- was out of his pantry

‗ ❍ he wouldnt try to kiss you during the sleep overs though, didnt want to ruin the fun you were having - these sleepovers usually tend to last longer than one night but never pass four.

‗ ❍ at the end of sleepover he would bring you to your pod, holding all your stuff and gently putting them down on the couch when instructed.

‗ ❍ when you would walk him out he would pause, unsure what to do before grabbing your face and dragging you in

‗ ❍ this kiss would be the most aggressive hes ever given you, having you pressed against your door, caging you in his fangs pressing into your lip, he need to feel it

‗ ❍ this would end up with both of you gripping each other, panting and kissing, his hands would be firm around your hips, making sure you couldnt pull away

‗ ❍ he only would stop once you touched his fangs with your tongue, pulling back and panting, pressing soft kissing into your cheeks and forehead, before bidding you a goodnight with one last soft kiss on the lips before walking off

⇢ ˗ˏˋ Random things ࿐ྂ

‗ ❍ will definitely read any book you bring up, always showing any interest he could about your interests - though he would definitely rather read sad books

‗ ❍ obsessed with kiwi

‗ ❍ his favorite book is I Deserve a Better Goodbye !! hes so into his feelings

‗ ❍ will probably never be comfortable with his claws and fangs due to the trauma he endured during the run and the put put trolls being terrified that it resembled the Bergens

‗ ❍ has so many plants in his home, even grows your favorite plants and flowers so he can gift them to you

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I’ll get to the nsfw headcanons soon! I haven’t thought about them so I’m kind of lost what to do

I JUST LOVE THIS LANKY MAN

[the-s1lly-corner]

may we please request gn porcelain doll!reader whos on the verge of abstraction (but has zero idea how to stop it and is afraid to admit it) x jax and maybe pomni (separate) ? ot I love how canon your writing is !! have an amazing day/night :3

Jax and Pomni x porcelain doll!reader whos abstracting !

cracks my knuckles. a TADC angst request? dont mind if i do eheheheh! and ueueueueu thank you anon! i gotta admit im really self conscious about writing characters, doesnt matter how long ive been writing them i always feel that i could do better with their characterization... but im so so happy to know that theyre not too OOC!! that means a lot!! got a little too silly on jaxs part so its longer than pomnis i hope thats okay!!

POMNI:

gosh imagine this is the first time shes seen someone actively abstract... like yeah sure shes seen kaufmo in his abstracted form, but seeing the aftermath/complete transformation is totally different than being there in the moment. i think she would.. be all over the place. i mean youre at your worst and you dont even understand whats going on... and pomni doesnt know what to do or what she can do to ground you. can you even be grounded back to the present moment? can you even back up and regain yourself? is that something someone can do? i think her panic makes you panic, which ends up making your.. situation worse.. i think pomni would try to keep you together as best as she can; physically and mentally. i got the image of the readers face cracking open and the abstraction stuff peeking out and pomni just... trying to push the pieces back together... its a horrible situation, and before long you're fully abstracted and pomni just stands there. im not even sure if she would have the mind to run away, probably too caught up in trying to bring you back to her.. i think sometimes she would stop in front of your old bedroom door and just. stare at the brand new red X over your portrait

JAX:

unlike pomni, i think he can more easily catch the signs of someone abstracting, though i dont think hes seen someone actually lose themselves right in front of him and transform right there... hmm... but unless you and him are very close i dont think he would bother trying to check in on you. i mean, if youre not, why would he? but... lets say youre both friends, or even partners, and he notices that youve been acting off.. i think it would still take him a little longer than id like to admit for him to actually come to your room to check in on you. perhaps he wants to give you space, or feels youre just going through something and thats your business, or maybe he didnt feel obligated to ask how youre doing as horrible as it sounds (i feel this is more likely if you guys are just friends, though, perhaps not close but still friendly with one another).. gets tipped off that something is wrong when he sees a stray (and glitching) piece of porcelain on the ground... which turns into two pieces, then three. a trail, leading right to your breaking form. i think at first he would think its some joke, before realizing that this is actually happening. unfortunately, i dont think jax is the best comforter so even in your last moments of being conscious and aware would still be spent in fear and confusion.. but at least theres an attempt to try to help you, right? i think jax would actually try to call for help, at least he might be able to admit hes unqualified to help you.. but regardless of if anyone hears him its too late for you.. i like to think he keeps some of your porcelain shards, on the off chance theyre still hanging around even after youre sent to the cellar

[aonungyoufuck]

hi! i hope my request will be okay to you rules but im thirst for smth like this ;

y/n is sully, and mated with aonung (aged up obv)

so in the first part they do yfkyn (smut) and in the second part y/n is pregnant and all alone in the shore bc everyone went to fight with sky people. the birth started but there is so much complication so she end so messed up with so much blood coming out from her v and half conscious. when aonung come back he found her and first he loose his mind he was so scared but then he take her to ronal who need to do all the things like sew her and everything - her condition was tragic.

firstly im so sorry for my english (it is not my first language so yeah) but i decided to write because i see that youre aonung specialist 😂❤️

Ma Baby Ma Baby

Warnings: Obv birth, Some tear kinda gore? Graphic for sure.

Ao'nung (22) Reader (21)

Thank you for the request Anon! Sorry it took me a while since i dont typically write Smut i tried making it up with it some more with the rest of the story (Also i was lowkey coughing up my lungs so excuse my tardiness i hope this was okay!)

Finally. was all you can think about as you felt the stinging pain of the tattoo now being painted over your skin. Sure You dint really need to do this Given your darker complexion and the fact that well you weren't really metkayina well... But that didn't matter. You had stated this is what you wanted for you. For him.

"Almost done don't worry"

Truth be told this was only one Tattoo of many you were sure to have. One of your spirit sister, No doubt later came the mate tattoo.

Just the thought sent shivers down your spine. You had never thought this would happen. That you would be Mated to Ao'nung. Truly no you didn't see this coming.

Had you told yourself when you arrived and hated the poor man's guts. Well You'd probably ask you to drown. However now it was different. He had changed along side you.

"How gorgeous you are"

"Oh stop that i just came to show you" You said slapping his hand off of your hip. No doubt some time later you'd see your spirit sister with one too.

"And yet you take my breath away anytime i see you"

"Oh hush. Do you like it or not?" You asked moving your loincloth just a little bit more to show him fully the full thing.

Feeling his hand stroke your inner thigh and beginning to whisper in your ear. "I do"

"Stop that" You spoke slapping his hand feeling the other now rest on your back and pull you into him.

Now you were not much shorter than him. Not by a lot but right now you felt so utterly small, and in a good way too. Feeling him rub against you, the loincloth now rubbing right above your own.

"Ao'nung stop we cant stop once we start"

"Who said i want to stop" He whispered again now pushing you two down at full force. Him atop you feeling you and you in turn him.

It honestly felt like a bunch of little things were crawling on you with the excitement that you felt.

You two never done anything more than hug or kiss. Never taking it too far. You two knew better than doing anything before mating. But maybe it was time to try something new.

"Ao'nung seriously! Your mother and my father will kill us if we do anything right now"

"Its a good thing your worth it then" He spoke. Kissing your neck and lowering dangerously. Feeling his hand messing with your top.

Jake was a very strict father, It was a blessing he even gave Ao'nung the blessing of courting you. But if this went on any more you were sure you'd lose your mate before he even officially became your mate.

You may as well go out together, you thought now pulling him closer to you. You were thankful that right now it was well past eclipse and no doubt everyone was asleep. So if anyone were to see anything, well it was really their fault.

"It seems even you want this my love"

"Oh shut up"

Almost like messy teens trying to get something from each other. You two messed around with the knot of each other's loincloth. before Finally being expose to one another.

You couldn't help but avade looking at him. Before he placed a hand on your cheek making you turn to him. "Look at me my dear"

Taking in a gulp the air now thick with a tension you had only ever heard of. Looking at him fully. His tattoo on his shoulder wrapping around to his back and little over his peck.

"No need to hide now, dont you think"

You smiled letting him feel you. And you in turn touching him.

"May i ?" He asked looking down to your core. If you weren't high on the emotions you were sure you would have slapped him away to not look. But right now you didn't care.

You chuckled now going to sit at his lap. You wetting him and him in turn causing a friction you so desperately wanted right now. Kissing him. So desperate and yet so gentle.

Both your breathes becoming labored as you smelled each other. Kissing his head and then his collarbone before looking into his eyes.

"Take me as you see me"

He took in a gulp. Feeling you. Seeing you and tasting you. It was all he ever had dreamed of.

And with a prayer on his lips he guided himself to your core. The feeling engulfing you two as he bit your shoulder to hold back a growl that he had been holding.

Now exactly nine months later here you were standing and waiting for Ao'nung to return. Just like you had predicted Your parent's weren't pleased to know you two had laid with each other. Not that you had admitted to.

Actually you had a whole four months to prepare for your ceremonial bond. But Ronal wasn't stupid neither was your mother. Neytiri was talking to jake when the suspension came on. You had been eating too much and so she asked Tsahik to make sure of it.

Sure enough your parents. Especially Jake was beyond furious. And by default you two had your ceremony much sooner than expected.

Now To say Jake and Ronal were the only ones who were furious was an understatement. It really felt that Tonowari, Tuk and Tsireya were the only ones that were happy.

Bless Ao'nung for handling your family.

Unfortunately that short lived bliss of being mates was interrupted. Roa had been found dead with her calf. Now you all stood watching as your father told them to warn the Tulkun. You couldn't move. You weren't allowed.

You just waited watching as Lo'ak and Neteyam were now arguing.

It all happened in a flash. You were in the arms of Ao'nung, and then the next you were asking him to be safe in bringing your brother's back.

Taking yourself into your pod.

You prayed. The pit in your stomach now hurting as you felt your breath hitch. You still had a few months to go. But it felt painful suddenly.

"Eywa please please let this fear leave me" you begged. Hand on your stomach as you couldn't even hear the horns sound.

War didn't just hurt those to went to it. Soldiers bled but the innocent stay and suffer that pain.

The silence of the village was what alarmed you. You were completely alone. Perhaps the stress? The emptiness of it all but you felt your water break.

Panic seeped into your heart. It was far too early. Too dangerously early and you were alone. Nobody in sight. Without even thinking you let out a cry unbeknownst to you calling your Ikran 'Ana.

You didn't even know what to do. All you remembered was what little you had learned from Ronal and your mother. You thanked 'Ana for being ever so patient as you pulled at her face and held her there while you went into the water.

Let Gravity help

That's all you were told was your best of friends. And so you did. Feeling 'Ana Grumble and growl along side you. Perhaps too she was scared of what was happening.

You felt the sting. And then the shooting pain. You began to push on instinct too But that sharp burning pain didnt stop. Looking down at the water you saw red.

Blood. A lot of Blood

'help'

it was the only thing on your mind as you finally felt the relieve of the growing tension ease.

But that wasn't the end of it. Yours lungs ached and the bleeding was getting so much worse. Looking at 'Ana you looked at her finally.

"Please..get mom"

That's all you wanted letting her fly off. You looked down again. Placing your hand down to feel. An open wound. And the head of your babe poking out.

Screaming again as you began to push. Feeling yourself get lightheaded. You looked to the open sea. Cries. War. And you were all alone delivering your babe by yourself.

Begging, Silently praying to Eywa as you felt your legs shake.

Ao'nung along side Tsireya was now dragging back a wounded Neteyam. He made a promise to bring your brother's back. Jake Had told him to take him back to shore and that's what he did.

His people Some wounded and some not so much. Some being dragged. To the safety of his mother's healing pod.

And that's when he saw you. He was so sure he didn't let you anywhere NEAR the battle. He was so sure he didn't see you there. But there you were.

He was one of the very first few people back. And there you were laying on the shore. The water around you red.

"Ao'nung!" Tsireya yelled now taking Neteyam in her arms as she saw him run to you.

So much blood. So much blood. Dragging you he saw the cord that now left your legs and he began to search the water. Scared. Terribly scared, frightened to his core to think that something happened to you or the babe.

And then he brought the small thing up. Its movement now erratic before he let out a shrill cry. He wanted to be happy. He wanted to be so happy

But this babe was so so small. So terribly tiny. And you were bleeding.

"Go take her to the pod! Go" Tsireya yelled again struggling to drag ao'nung but noticing some people coming back.

Ao'nung didn't think he just picked you up and placed the babe in your arms as he took you to his mom's pod.

Now he was no healer. But his mom had taught him how to stop the bleeding So while she would take a while to get here He could do what was the best for the meantime.

Jake now stood in front of the pod where you were being taken care of along side Neteyam. He was both thankful and yet Furious with himself that he let this happen.

He looked at his son in law. his face a distant memory of when he let home tree fall. A loss and yet being so lost in thought.

"kid?"

He didnt respond possibly to shell shocked as he waited

"Hey it'll be alright okay?"

"Will she be alright?" He asked like a little kid. Looking at his family and then Tonowari both parents dealing with having to protect their kids.

Before he could speak. Ronal opened the veil of the pod looking at all of them and then her son. "she's alright"

"and Neteyam?"

"He's alright as well. Hasn't woken up yet but is stable. Come" She said stepping aside and letting them all in.

You kept looking at the ceiling. As you had been the entire time you were conscious. Ronal having to stitch you up and while painful it wasn't as traumatizing and enduring labor alone.

You saw Ao'nung and then your father. And that's when you began to cry. You had been so scared and you were terrified as Ronal had not said a word about your baby.

"Shh its okay. Its okay sweet girl" Your father said stroking your head as you couldn't help but cry.

Ao'nung holding your hand before he felt his mother tap him on the shoulder. A small bundle. Barely the size of a healthy babe in her arms.

"He is tiny. Premature. But he is healthy" She spoke watching as all your family now surrounded her and watched.

She was right. Such a tiny little thing.

Ao'nung smiled. Kissing your head as he just held you. "healthy my love healthy"

You couldn't help but laugh a little through your sobs as you felt ronal lay the small thing on your chest. Sure now came the path of having to care for such a premature babe. But you were just glad all that pain. All that panic was worth it. Because as you two stared at your little son. It made it all worth it.

"Welcome to the family little one" You heard Neteyam say next to you. and Oh Eywa. Was it the thing you wanted to hear after hearing your babe cry too.

[nonbinarychaoticstupid]

hai,,, what r ur sulemio headcanons

OHH I AM SO GLAD YOU ASKED!!!

they are autism4autism this is Very important to understand. suletta stims by swinging herself around miorine stims by being swung around and the distinction is small but IMPORTANT. this also because literally every time i try to write suletta being happy i always imagine her straight up wiggling around with it and i Fully imagine that when they're lying around some nights and cuddling she will just swing miorine around with her while she joyously rolls entirely from one side of the bed to the other on her back giggling and kicking her feet etc etc. miorine is like This is perfect for me I am winning

this also relates to this one tweet that changed me as a person lmao i am of the very firm belief that miorine needs to sometimes be Crushed into a Hug. compressed into a file even. flattened like in a tom and jerry cartoon. and suletta needs to be Holding something all the time. autistic girls who stim by hugging (they are in love). you understand. miorine discovers weighted blankets and her life is changed.

adding onto this they need to be touching All the Time they cannot go anywhere without grabbing onto each other. miorine consistently is like no you dont understand i have to be holding onto her every second of every day or i'll die and for suletta this is just normal behaviour that everyone expects

personally i do Not see miorine as butch (i see the vision though.... i see the vision) but i feel like she would get to earth and start looking into earth history and discover butches and her mind would be BLOWN

EVEN MORE AUTISM!!! miorine has sensory issues regarding clothes and is very specific about the work outfits she wears because otherwise she will have the literal worst day in the world and come home and just Not talk for a 24 hours straight. suletta of course is like. why do you own this blazer anyway it's Evil

they are always talking to each other all the time every moment of every day when they are separated for work reasons LMAO i keep seeing art thats like. work mio vs talking to suletta mio and i think that idea is SO funny. she goes from being your very serious boss to 'affgdhfjdsfggfsgjfgsdh hiii ♥♥♥♥♥♥' the MOMENT her wife is on call and she is So insufferable about it. suletta is equally annoying she will literally get a call and be like 'excuse me MY WIFE is ringing :)' and be on the phone for the next hour telling miorine about her day in excruciating detail (they are going to call again when miorine's meetings end in less than 2 hours). earth house is very divided on whether it's absurdly cute or not (chuchu vs Everyone Else)

miorine and elnora very specifically only get along for the purpose of making suletta happy LMAO they don't hate each other but they are absolutely not at any level of friendship and will likely not be for a very very long time. elnora does help with her work stuff a lot because she's used to the insane machinations of loser capitalists though

speaking of relationships with elnora i think it takes suletta a long time to work through the whole repli-child stuff and it's very important to her that she starts on that separately to spending more time with elnora. she tells miorine about the whole thing (she's been trying to work up the courage for months) and miorine is immediately like. do you want me to punch her for you. i will punch your mother for you. this is great for suletta because she fully thought miorine was going to break off the engagement and everything (there is no basis for this) + she continues to have a lot of identity issues about it as regular life progresses because it turns out that pretending that everything is fine does not in fact make it fine!!

i choose to believe that there is enough space in the cockpit of chuchus mobile suit for them to squish in behind her seat when miorine comes and finds her after quiet zero. suletta is barely conscious but miorine (who is terrified she will just die there and then) keeps talking to her (mostly sobbing hysterically and telling her off for making her think she was dead) and its at this point that suletta asks her if she loves her. (chuchu is very pointedly pretending not to notice and doing her best to tune them out)

miorine, still sobbing hysterically: oh my g-d. are you insane. of course im in love with you. what do you think all of this was about suletta: oh sweet! :3

i have written this scene out and will post it one day i think it's the catradora in me thats like. they HAVE to have a love confession and kiss NOW. i just think itd be so neat if it paralleled their first meeting even more.... miorine helps suletta take off her helmet and kisses her.... do you see my vision

suletta plays the guitar and miorine sings. you agree. reblog.

genuinely though i think suletta would pick up guitar to help with her hands and miorine, who is also getting back into playing piano around this time, gets into the habit of singing along while she's doing things around the house

suletta calls her wheelchair aerial 2.0 and nuno and ojelo help her paint it in aerial's colours. when she moves to crutches they get the holder colours

technically they still have a year of school to go but for most of it suletta isn't able to go to lessons + focusing mainly on her physical therapy and miorine is too busy dealing with the benerit group's funds that for all intents and purposes they're no longer enrolled. miorine's rooms aren't wheelchair-accessible and so they stay in earth house instead until they turn 18 and can legally buy a home on earth. all of earth house subsequently has to third wheel

they don't get married for a little while. mostly because suletta is in recovery but miorine also needs to work up the courage to actually ask. (eri bullies her into taking her with her when she goes ring shopping) eventually she gets around to it after suletta's health starts improving and when she pulls out the ring box suletta is like Oh! and reveals that she literally cut up and made paper rings one day for this specific purpose

their wedding is on earth, to sort of start the official move. miorine pulls some strings to get nika to at least be able to See whats going on + they have the ceremony in a big field not far from their new house. suletta's chair (aerial 2.0) is decorated with So many flowers as per the instructions of the kids in the neighbouring town (who love her + want to be her first students) and miorine absolutely did not get away without getting Flowered too. they both are crying the whole day and neither of them are subtle about it

miorine's hair gets shorter and suletta's gets longer. miorine just wakes up one day and is like I HAVE TO GET RID OF IT

mio fell basically immediately but i think that its only when suletta is in space with el4n that she realises + it clicks for suletta when miorine literally starts a company for her lmao

[junotter]

ive been on and off working on a little dw oneshot story thing for just my own enjoyment. idk really want to call it but its basically just like an episode storyline im writing? like its within canon, just another story i wanted to add and experiment with.

not sure if ill post a lot of it cause i feel like the average dw has no interest in the silly story im making but yeah...

its basically just cause i wanted to put the doctor and rose into a more horror feeling scenario and ended up also wanting to make something in the vibes line of fatal frame, silent kill, res evil, etc etc

more info on it under the cut if you have any interest

the story mainly revolves around entertainment, fans, and a dash of sexism/commodification of mainly women + some thoughts about vr

essentially the doctor and rose end up within a virtual horror game, not knowing it is a game, where the people they interact with are real human minds who've been uploaded into this game as protagonists for players to play as. its essentially a game where the player "tortures" these game protagonists by putting them in these horror game scenarios, haunted houses, demons hunting them, monsters of all kinds, etc etc where everything that happens to these characters is fully happening to a real human conscious.

the game itself has this massive following with obsessive fans who dont exactly know the truth of the characters theyre playing. the company running it uploaded these minds as a profit incentive, believing that all they needed for their game to succeed is the "human touch", and it pretty much worked.

the doctor and rose initially meet and spend the most time with one woman who is in a more silent hill like scenario and spend most the time running from these monsters and trying to figure out what happened to this world and how to yk solve it (not knowing its all a game). the game also builds bad guys off the data in the real minds of the characters in the game so a bunch of monsters and stuff chasing them around slowly turn into other things theyve encountered by like 10x creepier and awful.

i wont really explore the darker stuff ive been brewing but idk heres some stuff i thought was more fun:

1: when the protagonist they're following runs, its like the stereotypical horror girl half run that would barely be fast enough in real life, but depsite the fact the doctor and rose can be in a full sprint, she still is somehow faster than them

2: when the same protagonist essentially gets played by a player, she just stops where she is and enters a door neither rose or the doctor can see and leaves them stranded in the horror like scenarios she lives in regardless if she's being played or not.

3: literally the moment the doctor and rose enter this "world" all the colors become desaturated and the environment is dark and foggy, they basically just become characters within the game as well

4: all the horror protags really have no memory beyond whatever event set off their games, like one will be like "ah my husband, i miss him a lot, at times i think he's still there besides me" and rose is like "what was his name? your husband" and just the person she's talking to basically short circuits and loops the convo

not sure if there's much interest in stuff like this and im just testing to see if any of yall have interest because i do have some art ive done for it that id be up to sharing!

[setsunatekiblast]

sorry this is like fully just insane babble and a look into truly how fucking weird i am in the head im really considering making a blog JUST for venting but im too lazy to do that rn

so like general rundown for context

i did some really downright shitty things as a teenager as a result of unresolved trauma in basically every corner of my life at the time (obviously this doesnt absolve me from what happened). when i was told about the extent of it i apologised and distanced myself & never talked to anyone involved ever again.

months later when i expressed that a former friend who had (in my opinion, rightfully) stepped in to stop the situation from worsening had caused me harm prior to all this and that it was still impacting me on my private account, it was leaked to her. i was threatened with a callout post and she was acting like i wasnt truly sorry for the things i'd done/trying to change even though i had done my level best to be accountable for my behaviour and do what was asked of me.

because of everything that'd already happened + this i was living in this constant state of severe anxiety. as in, i could hardly eat due to feeling nauseous every moment i was conscious, would randomly start shaking and crying & my physical health was deteriorating at many points. i was like this from about july all the way through to november-early december, i think?

like all of this happened five years ago but ive absolutely refused to let myself move on because i thought i would be dodging accountability for my behaviour but i've kind of just had a mental shift recently (maybe from my kansai trip i think it did something to me). looking back while talking to my friend i internalised everything about that series of incidents so hard that i considered myself a horrible and irredeemable person, so ive been keeping myself at arms length from others because i didnt want it to happen all over again and didnt trust myself to actually change. i thought that if i was pursuing relationships with others, i wasnt being accountable enough and dodging my past behaviour.

idk im just tired of living like this. im tired of all the self-sabotage and the fear and anxiety i have over the most minor of things. i'm tired of jumping up and running at the first signs of closer friendships forming. i had a panic attack over someone calling me a friend for gods sake, that's not normal. its not! the fact i even struggle to call people friends because of all this fear about relationships with others after all that isn't good and i need to change from that lol

even just thinking that i deserve better makes me feel like im swallowing needles and glass though, and it sucks so fucking much LMFAOOOOOOO. i dont even know what to do because i feel so shitty about even trying to pursue support from those closest to me. i feel like i'm asking so, so much of people when i cant give much of anything in return. not to mention that right now even the idea of being misunderstood makes me feel absolutely terrible and like i need to be on the defensive. in general i feel like i offer so little that trying to lean on people is selfish and that i'm just going to end up hurting them like i did that friend who simply just wanted to help me. i don't want to feel this way anymore but it's a cycle and i don't know how to stop feeling so horrid about everything and actually. well. allow myself to feel supported AND be normal in the head about it

like i need to move on not just for my sake but because. really. it's been such a long time and i don't even recognise the person i was in those messages. but i can hear just how much pain my past self was in and that just sucks, man. my friend didn't want me to suffer, but he was rightfully hurt and angered by the way i behaved. the best way to show my remorse has always been to do better by those who come into my life, but i never wholly succeeded in that because 90% of the time i would sabotage my own relationships with others and not get too close out of fear that i was going to ruin it all and just be as shitty as i was before. i thought closing myself off would be doing right by him, and to a degree it was. but it wasn't productive for me because i wasn't doing anything but closing myself off

anyway i handled something pretty good tonight that i know my past self wouldve probably flipped out about so that's probably a good sign i guess. its actually kind of surprising to see that even though my spoons are maybe a 1 at best rn i can still handle things with some grace and tact and Not be terrible. idk. maybe things are gonna be okay, especially since i have so many people in my corner nowadays who want nothing more than to see me overcome everything

[fictionkinfessions]

Finished Windblume!! (so SPOILERS for anyone who hasnt finished it yet)

And wow!

FUCK RHINEDOTTIR!

MA'AM YOU DON'T GET TO PRETEND ALBEDO'S THE ONLY CHILD YOU MADE THAT "SURVIVED."

YOU DONT GET TO TRY AND ACT LIKE EVERYONE BEFORE HIM DIED. LIKE THE REST OF US WERE SOME WEIRD HOMONCULI EQUIVALENT TO A MISCARIAGE.

YOU FUCKING THREW. ME. AWAY. OF YOUR OWN VOLITION! YOU FED ME TO YOUR STUPID FUCKING DRAGON. WHILE I WAS ALIVE AND FULLY CONSCIOUS. AND JUST HOPED I'D DIE AND NEVER TURN UP AGAIN. WHY? SO YOU COULD CONCEAL YOUR LIES???

YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED TO CALL YOURSELF A MOTHER! YOU SHOULD BE LUCKY IT SEEMS ALICE DIDNT FUCKIGN KNOW WHAT YOU DID BECAUSE I CANNOT FATHOM HER EVER BEING OKAY WITH YOU THROWING OUT A LIVING BREATHING BABY. (even if I dont remember us ever being children, the event visuals clearly show we WERE infants at one time within canon.)

IM SO FUCKING MAD! IM PISSED! THAT THIS WOMAN IS GOING AROUND ACTING LIKE ALBEDO'S HER LITTLE MIRACLE CHILD AND SHES SO LUCKY TO HAVE THIS ONE LITTLE THING WHEN SHE COULD HAVE HAD AT LEAST TWO! WHO FUCKING KNOWS HOW MANY LIVING BABIES RHINE THREW OUT BEFORE ME IN CANON.

I'm not looking forward to how the fandoms gonna pretend she didnt say this! Or at least not fucking recognize what shes implying!

Bitch you dont get to PRETEND I NEVER EXISTED! Or that you didnt THROW ME OUT LIKE TRASH BECAUSE I WASNT "GOOD ENOUGH" FOR YOU! WHAT KIND OF MOTHER THROWS OUT HER CHILD FOR THAT REASON? I WASNT CLOSE ENOUGH TO PERFECT? WHAT MADE ALBEDO DIFFERENT? HE'S NOT PERFECT EITHER BUT YOU FUCKING KEPT HIM! WAS DURIN JUST FULL THAT NIGHT? CANT FEED HIM TWO BABIES?

GOD I FUCKING HATE YOU! I HATED YOU BEFORE BUT OH MY FUCKING GOD I DIDNT THINK CANON WOULD MAKE YOU THIS BAD! I THOUGHT MY OWN TIMELINE WOULD BE WORSE, BUT NO. CANON IS!!! YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED! THE OTHER MAGES SHOULD HATE YOU! YOU DONT DESERVE FRIENDS. YOU DONT DESERVE TO BE CALLED A MOTHER. YOU DONT DESERVE ANYTHING OTHER THAN WHATEVER MISERABLE FATE IS COMING FOR YOU. DEATH ISNT EVEN GOOD ENOUGH TO ATONE FOR THE BULLSHIT YOU'VE DONE AND THE LIES YOU'RE SPEWING. Luckly Celestia already made sure death isnt a fucking option for you. I'd say you're the only Khaenri'ahn that fucking deserves it.

GOD I fucking HOPE I HOPE I come back in the future. I hope that I turn up and everyone sees how much of a shit person you fucking are, Rhinedottir. Albedo seems to know at least! I want Alice to know! You're closest friend! I want her view of you to shatter so hard she'll hunt you down herself! Because there is NO FUCKING WAY She'd ever be okay with this! Not with how quickly she'll jump to adopting anyone in need of a good mother! Because CELESTIA KNOWS YOU'RE NOT ONE. I hope that if you EVER get a chance to apologize in canon, you'll take it. And nobody around will accept it, even if it's straight to me. Because you don't deserve forgiveness. I want you to lose everything. And it still wont be good enough.

Fuck you fuck you fuck you. I hope you're fucking miserable in this life if you're out there because you don't deserve SHIT and Karma's a fucking BITCH.

~Subject Two/Rubedo 🕯♟ Who genuinely didn't think his hatred of Rhinedottir could get WORSE but has been proven oh so very wrong.

🫘

[haemosexuality]

FNAF MOVIE SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT DONT READ IF YOU HAVENT SEEN IT YET I MEAN IT!!!!!!!

im ab to rewatch it at home and ill be writing what i think during it

im not gonna be talking ab stuff i already said in my other post lol

the FIRST SCENE is already fucking visceral dude. like they dont show any gore or anything but damn the fucking. aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAA ITS GOOD its so good. also the previous security guard does exactly the same thing mike does later own to try to escape the freddy mask but mike succeeds and he doesnt, which is kinda like how in game phone guy (previous security guard) goes through the same process we do but we/mike survives and he doesnt. cool!!

THE INTRO WITH THE MINIGAME STYLE... DUDE. DUDE. I LOVE THIS MOVIE ITS A LOVE LETTER FOR THE FANS FR I WAS SO HYPE WITH EXCITEMENT I ALMOST STARTED CRYING IN THE THEATER. ALSO ITS JUST FUCKING COOL LOOKING

the rainbow!!!!! in the coffee shop scene!!! its the fnaf world rainbow!!

see the movie has the scene where william reads the name michael schmidt and pauses and long time fans will prob be like aha is that william realizing this is his son. but no thats where it tricks you bc hes actually just realizing this is a relative of that kid he kidnapped a while ago. which like obviously cuz why would william realize this guys his son by reading his, fake name?? but confirmation bias or smth

I WAS SO SHOCKED BY SEEING MATPAT THE FIRST TIME I WATCHED THAT I DIDNT CATCH HIM SAYING "THATS JUST A THEORY". OH MY FUCKING GOD DUDE

🎶It's getting lonely, it's getting hard to breathe

The arcade's empty, I think it's Christmas Eve

Someone's broken in, now they're painting on my skin

Breaking me and taking my quarters

Bashing in my face with a crowbar

Kicking me and pushing me over

Now they see my blood on their sneakers🎶

i am so jealous of the midnight motorist shirt its not even funny

my complain is that how did none of the animatronics have blood on them after brutally killing several ppl. come on!!!

me hearing the words "follow me" on a fnaf movie: holy shit is this a motherfucking fnaf reference?!?!?

oh my god that totally is the fucking fake dog animatronic

oh my god they dont actually swear in the og. she said "what in the heck" but portuguese translated that to what the fuck. incredible. amazing.

"i know what crazy looks like, mike. this isnt it" OH. OH

vanessas behavior was already pretty understandable without the extra context but knowing shes williams daughter makes it JUICY. ooo yeah baby gimme the trauma gimme the guilt

the scene with the animatronics and abby being besties felt a bit too ooc at first to me and ive heard that other people felt the same but as i think more about it it does kinda make sense. one of the main differences from the game is that in this the ghost kids' minds seem to be pretty intact? or like they can think theyre fully conscious etc so. i can see them wanting to do kid stuff. and i saw someone point out that they were actively trying to get abbys trust too so they could convince her to 'join them' (bc afton was somehow influencing them to be #evil) so, theres that. and either way it doesnt take away from the overall experience so who cares

the tv scenes were such a missed oportunity they couldve shown the immortal and the restless... i kept waiting for it :(

oh my god the airplane. i just realized she had garretts toy airplane bc william gave it to her after he killed him oh my god i feel sick

the ball pit wasnt even time travelling 0/10

i didnt watch the credits long enough in the theater to hear the COME FIND ME but AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA dude

yeah so good. i fucking loved this

[lorisystem]

I feel so so miserable and dysphoric in this society ngl. I feel like i need- not even want but need to be in a place thats accepting of me and that makes me feel loved and welcome or at least. Tolerated or something and that i cant get that. I know its my problem bc so many people somehow live being themselves and taking criticism etc. But i just cant deal with unsolicited comments or aggression etc i just cant. Bear to think that people in society might perceive me to be weird. I feel like people cant be normal around the weird and weak, they just turn hostile and try to subjugate us or at best they become patronizing.

I feel like i dont belong to any community at all not even people like me theres always this or that trait that keeps me from belonging fully and no matter what i always feel like im an impostor pretending to be normal.

I know this is my own issue and im too sensitive to what i think people think of me and how they react to me etc and i shouldnt care but i cant help caring it was literally taught to me the hard way. Everytime people have wanted me so much to care about what they think always its so hard to unlearn.

Im at this point in this reaction of flight cycle where instead of trying to figure out how i could possibly find an accepting community im trying to figure out how to not be dependent on society anymore. My fantasies are turning to like going to live somewhere alone and subsisting by my own mean even if it means sacrificing things like comfort or some dignity i would aggressively protect being alone so nobody can come near me and perceive me or anything.

Obviously thats not realistic etc so. But im still thinking i cant help trying to figure how i could do that.

I just feel like i cant compromise- i cant be happy in this situation at all.

So im thinking the other way out is to die- which obviously is a thing i cant do bc some people depend on me and like. Its so so sad to die even though theres still technically hope of getting better. And its not fair. But im getting these urges and its like not even on a conscious level bc ive been suppressing suicidal urges but i have these parasite thoughts idk to do it in a way that makes it everyones problem bc i resent this society (and no individual in particular) so much and i want everyone to know that they failed and they were trash and they hurt me etc. But i cant pinpoint any specific people that i really resent. When it comes down to people who actually hurt me i think they just wouldnt understand (or sometimes care). No matter what i cant make anyone understand me or what i go through and the pain isnt going away.

And i know this is not a good way to feel or to think bc its very selfish and its nobodys fault in particular. And i have this toxic trait of when i feel bad i think its fair that everybody else feels bad too- which is bad and also i hate having this trait cause this is just what my dad does!! So im repressing thoughts like these and i dont talk about this to people around me bc the last thing i want is to actually harm someone especially if i care about them.

But yea i feel like i dont connect to anyone really. I connect to my spouse but i think its only bc we spent so much time together we attuned to each other but still. He is a person n i guess i need unconditional acceptance and love of my whole being- literally everything i do or say and i know its dumb and i shouldnt want it etc

Rationalizing doesnt make it go away though.

This spiraling was literally caused by a call from my landlord's girlfriend bc shes asking me to fill somth that doesnt matter and i shouldnt have to fill it and she was so rude bc i didnt receive her stupid email. As if its my fault?! N like. This is way more interaction ive had with this landlord than i care to have for my entire life. With these neighbors. I hate it here i hate it here!!!!!!! Theres always drama in this building!!!! I want to be left out of it!!!!!!

I feel like my life is just a nightmare that im trapped in. I have to pretend to be a human person all the time and i have to rely on my imaginary world and comfort interests to escape it all the time but when i think about it this is the only thing that makes me feel safe and accepted.

Idk why im struggling so much just feeling human and living with other people. I dont think anything ive been through is enough to justify this level of dysphoria and distress. I didnt ask for this. I just want to be left alone and live my life but that is too much to ask.

Sorry for the rant. Ill be ok though!!!!!!! Idk if anyone else feels like this but when it comes to DID i feel like for me its all about feeling unimaginable amounts of pain and still being able to function and be ok bc everything is kept compartmentalized. So in the end ill be ok n functional but ill hate it the entire time.

Anyway bye.

- ???

[pesterloglog]

Dave Strider, John Egbert, Roxy Lalonde

Candy, page 11

DAVE: yo john what do you think about me and karkat

JOHN: um...

JOHN: you two are pretty cute together, i guess?

DAVE: together

DAVE: i need you to be way more specific here

JOHN: oh, ok.

JOHN: hmm. i guess i’d have to say that you’re both cute individually when you’re with each other, and you make cute friends, which is why you’re cute together. something about it just works!

JOHN: i feel like i’m saying cute a lot here.

JOHN: for the record, i don’t mean you’re cute as an individual. no offense.

JOHN: alone, you’re just dave.

JOHN: but together, yeah. you guys are cute.

DAVE: together

DAVE: you mean

DAVE: like a couple

JOHN: er... yes.

JOHN: that’s exactly what i mean.

DAVE: why

JOHN: didn’t i just explain it? good friends make good partners!

JOHN: you’re similar in all the right ways, and different in all the even more right ways.

JOHN: you two balance each other out and keep each other from going off the rails, like when you were kids.

DAVE: huh

JOHN: you were both kinda... crazy when we were kids? again, no offense.

DAVE: thats not what i was saying huh about

JOHN: oh.

DAVE: i was saying huh because that sure was a coherent egbertian thesis on the state of the davekat situation

JOHN: well, i’ve thought about it that way for a long time. i think it’s what everyone else thinks too.

DAVE: i dont know

DAVE: if id been thinking about it that way i wouldnt be in the mess im in right now

JOHN: you’re in a mess?

DAVE: yeah

DAVE: theres a metric fucking ton of shit about to come down on me because i dragged my heels on doing some serious self reflection

JOHN: is this just some more stuff about...

JOHN: being gay?

DAVE: maybe yeah

DAVE: ok definitely yeah

DAVE: its 110% about being gay

JOHN: i thought you’d already worked all that stuff out?

DAVE: turns out it takes a long time to figure out your sexuality after a childhood filled with repression and abuse

JOHN: dave...

DAVE: i mean yeah i woke the hell up to my inner potential for gayness in a big way

DAVE: but then i just kind of pressed the snooze button and rolled back over because we kinda had to fight all those jacks and also create society

JOHN: holy fucking shit.

JOHN: there’s a gay snooze button?

DAVE: yeah man theres a gay snooze button

JOHN: wow.

DAVE: when i was having my gay coolboy awakening it wasnt a full no homo but it was at least a quarter no homo

DAVE: if i hadnt done that then instead of talking to you about this id be at home right now

DAVE: uh

DAVE: kissing karkat probably

JOHN: i don’t get this dave. am i your gay confessor or something?

JOHN: you don’t need my blessing to go kiss karkat. in fact, i was pretty sure you were already kissing karkat!

DAVE: nope

JOHN: in that case, as the lord pope of dave’s fully awakened gaydom i give you my blessing to immediately leave and rectify that as soon as possible!

JOHN: go now my child, and kiss karkat right on the lips!!!

DAVE: ok as much as i appreciate how weird a thing that was to say

DAVE: its not that simple

JOHN: i might not exactly be the expert, but kissing seems pretty easy, dave.

JOHN: i’m sure it gets more complicated in the later stages obviously, but i think you can figure out how to get your lips on his without much trouble.

DAVE: no i mean like

DAVE: in the greater fabric of our weird incestuous social group

DAVE: it might be the wrong move i think

JOHN: how so?

DAVE: because

DAVE: ...

DAVE: jade

JOHN: right.

JOHN: i almost managed to forget that she was trying to fuck you and karkat.

DAVE: wait you knew about that

JOHN: uh, yeah?

JOHN: did you not?

DAVE: of course i knew about it

DAVE: i was lookin at the whole thing through several complicated layers of conscious denial but i knew

DAVE: its just that you like

DAVE: never leave your house

JOHN: well it probably helps that jade literally said the words to me... and i may be paraphrasing here, but...

JOHN: “hey john, i’m gonna fuck dave and karkat!”

DAVE: wtf she said that to you

DAVE: what did you say

JOHN: i dunno, it was a while ago. probably that it was a bad idea.

JOHN: but i thought it was kinda obvious... she’s always had a crush on you, dave.

DAVE: yeah i know

DAVE: thats why i think that i should

DAVE: give it a try i guess

JOHN: give what a try? dating jade?

DAVE: yeah

DAVE: and karkat

JOHN: oh man, dave. i don’t know. that sounds like it could really blow up in your face.

DAVE: yeah thats why im kinda freaking out right now if you didnt notice

JOHN: sorry dude it’s just... do you even like jade?

DAVE: of course i do shes one of my best friends

JOHN: no i meant... do you LIKE-like her?

DAVE: oh my god john youre twenty three years old can you at least pretend to talk like a grown man

JOHN: ok dave, god!

JOHN: are you IN LOVE with jade?

JOHN: ...are you in love with karkat?

DAVE: thats

DAVE: thats a big fucking question

DAVE: thats the biggest fucking question that ever got asked

DAVE: its like the paleolithic megafauna of questions like its so familiar but your eyes just glaze over it in denial because its too fucking big

DAVE: why did megalodon sharks need to have such big jaws john

JOHN: uh... to eat smaller sharks?

DAVE: ive never been so fucking terrified by a question in my entire life

DAVE: seriously my heart is pounding so hard right now that i feel like im gonna hurl

JOHN: well, doesn’t that answer the question?

DAVE: nah because

DAVE: because its not like i feel nothing for jade

DAVE: in fact i feel a whole lot of things for her

DAVE: too many to just tell her off after all this time

DAVE: i mean she spent all those years alone on the ship and i know she missed me

DAVE: and then davesprite died

DAVE: or turned into fucking davepeta i was never clear exactly on what happened there

DAVE: and god knows he didnt make any attempt to clear the fucking air with her

DAVE: but when i think about it neither did i

DAVE: so maybe im just a huge asshole whos been leading her on for like a whole goddamn decade at this point

DAVE: and if i have been dont i owe it to her to at least try

JOHN: if that’s your logic dave, then haven’t you been leading karkat on too?

JOHN: doesn’t he deserve the same chance?

JOHN: i mean, if you think it’s the kind of decision you can lay on another person like this...

JOHN: why don’t you just flip a coin?

DAVE: ...

DAVE: have you been talking to terezi

JOHN: um...

DAVE: damn i thought she ghosted everyone

JOHN: not me... i guess?

DAVE: huh

DAVE: anyway

DAVE: i know you thought that sounded like a totally cool thing to say but i dont really think you grasp the full metaphysical implications of whatever youre quoting there

DAVE: do you know what a coin flip is

DAVE: like universally i mean in the grand scale of all this time space infinite string theory bullshit were always dealing with

JOHN: of course!

JOHN: it’s like when you know that you’ve already made a decision you’re reluctant about, and need an outside force to show you how you really feel?

DAVE: no dude thats dumb

DAVE: you should know this cause youve done the retcon thing

JOHN: what does that have to do with flipping coins?

DAVE: ok so every time you flip a coin youre creating an alternate timeline right

DAVE: one where it lands heads and one where it lands tails

DAVE: but while the coin is flipping both possibilities exist simultaneously

JOHN: but what if you knew for sure that you’d make the same decision no matter which side landed up?

DAVE: you cant

JOHN: so... it’s like the coin never lands then?

DAVE: sure

JOHN: then if you dated *both* jade and karkat it’d be like you’re winning the schrodinger’s cat paradox.

DAVE: uh yeah thats another theoretical paradox that i think you gotta read up on a bit more there buddy

JOHN: i probably won’t, but ok.

DAVE: fair enough

DAVE: but yes metaphysics aside me dating both jade and karkat at the same time literally is the issue at hand and it is that with which i currently and explicitly struggle

JOHN: yeah.

JOHN: sure seems that way.

DAVE: so...

JOHN: i dunno, dave.

JOHN: this all just... it doesn’t sound *right* to me.

JOHN: i mean... it doesn’t sound...

JOHN: *canon*?

DAVE: ugh not you too

DAVE: rose is always going on about canon

DAVE: i dont give a fuck about canon

JOHN: then what DO you give a fuck about?

DAVE: doing the right thing

DAVE: i guess

JOHN: this doesn’t seem hard to me at all, dave!

JOHN: go home right now and tell karkat how you feel.

DAVE: look i

DAVE: i cant

DAVE: if i did that it would be like

DAVE: like

JOHN: like what, dave? like you would be really happy, and karkat would also be really happy?

DAVE: ugh im not explaining myself right i need to

DAVE: i have to... talk to dirk i think

JOHN: uh, ok?

JOHN: what’s up?

ROXY: yo boys not to interrupt but we got kicked outta the restaurant for not ordering

JOHN: what? really?

JOHN: what’s even the point of being famous if that can happen?

ROXY: lmao i know right

ROXY: told u i wasnt classy enough for the joint

ROXY: i got all these breadsticks tho so we can reconvene in the park

ROXY: totes romantic

ROXY: ten minutes, what u say

JOHN: uh, sounds good! i’ll see you there soon!

JOHN: i’m... sorry i couldn’t help.

DAVE: nah dude its not your fault

DAVE: enjoy your date

[dearestones]

Twisted Wonderland Matchup: Ace Trappola #2

Anonymous Request: Hello! How are you today :)

I would like to request for a twst romantic matchup of its alright

- Gender: im a cis female with she /her pronouns.

- Personality: Im pretty extroverted and like to joke around alot. I make friends easily however i do have Adhd. Im the smartest in my class and while im confident and pretty sassy myself, teasing gets me easily embarassmed. I can be impatient and short tempered at time but im still the therapist friend somehow lol. Im stubborn as well and understand stuff pretty quickly. I have a good memory and get pretty observant when it comes to reading the moods of people. Im pretty physical with ny affections, not shying away from giving hugs to my friends.

-Hobbies: i like to read novels especially murder mystery ones. I also play different board games such as chess often.

- My favorite foods include mainly Desi cuisine due to the flavor full spices and im a huge sweet tooth. My pet peeve is invasion ko privacy which i cant handle. I dont like seafood in the slightest and love horror as a genre. Im self concious as well and have fear of bugs EXPECIALLY wasps and roaches.

Thats all! I hope i didn't break a rule

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After going through the description given, I believe that you best pair well with Ace Trappola!

Thank goodness that you are just as extraverted and as much of a jokester as Ace is! He’s the sort of person who, whenever he’s dating someone, he’s more likely to take the relationship somewhat not as seriously as people think he should. Honestly, it’s because he doesn’t want to fully commit; he wants to have some fun first! With you, he at first develops friendship and once the both of you become close, that’s when feelings of the romantic nature start blossoming. 

Smartest person in the class comes with certain privileges… This means that Ace is totally going to ask you for help and take advantage of your kindness if you give in. If you don’t, he’ll beg and plead for mercy! You like him, right? You gotta help him or else he’ll fail Trein’s history exam! If you really want Ace to do his own work, feel free to tease him and back sass him whenever possible. While most of Ace’s attempts might end up flustering you, you can easily fluster him back because he can’t take what he normally dishes out.

And speaking of flustering you, Ace can and will take advantage of the fact that you get easily embarrassed if you get teased too often. Ace is the king of embarrassment; once he senses a weakness or a new opportunity, he’s quick to say something that’s sure to send heat into your cheeks and your heart pumping as you try to cringe away from him. 

However, while Ace likes to tease you, he is also in awe of your confidence. Ace is far from self conscious, but when he sees someone like you unabashedly living life as you want, he feels himself fall harder for you. What can Ace say? Self-confidence is attractive!

Despite your impatience and short temper, don’t be surprised to know that Ace will try to push you to your limits. He does it all in good fun, but really, he’ll back off if you make it clear that you don’t appreciate it when he pushes your buttons.  

You may be a therapist, but Ace is stubborn to a fault. He’s not going to open up to you about his problems unless he’s pushed into a corner or if he trusts you. If it’s the latter, know that Ace doesn’t confide in people like that without really knowing them. If you reach this point with Ace, feel proud. It’s not often that this Heartslabyul student throws around trust like that. 

Don’t be shy when it comes to hugging your Heartslabyul friends, especially Ace. He’ll tease you to hell and back that you’re being too clingy, girly, or open with your affections, but little do you know he craves your touch and affections. He’s also a fair bit physical, but not as gentle as you. He’ll throw an arm around your shoulders or rumple your hair on the odd occasion, but one day, he hopes to hug and hold your hands as a real couple. If you let him, he’ll monopolize your personal space and tease Deuce or the others that he gets to have you all to himself. (This is your cue to remind him that he can’t be selfish with you or to tease him back).

Pfft, reading and board games? Wow, how boring! Ace isn’t much of a reader, but if you push him, you can get him to play a bunch of your favorite games together! Once you’ve had your fill, he’ll try to impress you with his knowledge about the plethora of card games that his older brother taught him or the card tricks that he has up his sleeve. Please indulge him, he wants to make you smile and laugh at his antics. 

What’s Desi cuisine? (Don’t laugh, he knows that you’re from a different world, but that’s such an interesting tidbit about yourself!) If you teach him how to cook your favorite foods, he’ll endeavor to try and perfect it so that you can order Desi food from him. He’ll probably have to hit up his Basketball Club friends to help him out (read: Floyd and Jamil) because they know how to handle food better than him, but eventually, he’ll be confident to serve you! Imagine this, it’s your first date and he hosts you in the Heartslabyul kitchen (surprisingly empty) and he serves you food that you haven’t seen or tasted since you arrived in Twisted Wonderland…

Oh my gosh, please watch horror movies with him! He wants to play the part of protective boyfriend, but chances are that he’ll be the one trying to hold onto you or climbing into your lap to hide away from the horrors. Obviously, once the movie is over, he’ll deny being scared, but that’s your time to cuddle into him and stroke his ego.

As for bugs, he’ll play the part of knight in shining armor, but chances are that he’s almost as bad as Jamil when it comes to his fear of ceeepy crawlies. Thankfully, he isn’t that bad and most of his motivation when it comes to interacting with you as an established couple is to impress you. He’ll gladly smash them with his shoe or usher them outside where they rightfully belong. (And if you happen to catch him asking Deuce or Trey for help, no you didn’t).

In summary, your relationship with Ace is littered with a sense of familiarity and jokes that will have you laughing for years to come. There might be times when it seems that Ace doesn’t take your relationship seriously, but that simply is not the case. If you find yourself worried that he doesn’t care, simply tell him and he’ll endeavor to do better by you. In turn, he’ll want you to continue your friendly and jocular attitude—even better, you can continue back sassing him!

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[v-arbellanaris]

hennyways its extremely telling to me that ww/dits fans are going on about how ohhh the vamps were always horrible blah blah blah and like yeah! they were! im not upset because they were horrible, i fully expected it. but guill/ermo had the fucking balls to say it was wrong for the vamps to be feeding baby colin out of a fucking dogbowl or whatever the hell else and yet in a twist of irony, lectures na/ndor on how he’s “making it all about himself” whilst idk. making it all about himself, too. NO ONE. at any fucking point in this ENTIRE SEASON has given a shit about ma/rwa. which is expected for the vamps but for GUILL/ERMO???

and like sorry not sorry but it’s so telling the differences between how the narrative treats minor characters like je/sk and se/an and whoever, who have horrible awful things happen to them FOR SURE but the narrative usually somehow resolves it to some extent, vs how they treat the one. single. woc they had on the show. how they resolved her arc, after i had to sit there stomaching na/ndor bitching about how she just agreed him w over everything and the way he treated her the entire season and after she showed in the last ep that under that selfish wish she still had her own desires that she was STRUGGLING to express, only to essentially get erased in order to “become” freddie

and that’s not even including the fridge horror of like. if ma/rwa is still consciously present under freddie’s consciousness, because nan/dor’s wish didn’t get rid of ma/rwa and create an entirely new clone of freddie but rather the wish was specifically to change ma/rwa further -- how she looks, thinks etc, and the prev ep established that she was conscious and present underneath that wish (by making na/ndor’s “room” her own room and locking him out). and throughout the ep, it’s emphasised again and again that under the freddie veneer, it’s still ma/rwa in there. and freddie’d ma/rwa then getting together with actual freddie is either a result of her being forced to act the way freddie would or, worse still, if she’s STILL bound to agreeing with what na/ndor likes underneath all that and so is "stealing" freddie like na/ndor would. 

so literally like fuck this and fuck the fans who are acting like oh yeah well i should’ve seen it coming because na/ndor is horrible and its my own fault for trusting him and the writers have done something revolutionary here and im just too stupid to appreciate it. your superior tone & smugness is fucking infuriating and you haven't understood the point at all. na/ndor is a fictional character who doesnt have any agency, i dont give a shit what he does. i fully expect him to be horrible because he's BEEN horrible about ma/rwa the entire fucking season. i didnt trust na/ndor, i trusted the writers to resolve the mar/wa storyline maybe not in the best way or in an satisfying way bc they hadn't with other minor characters but i trusted that they wouldn't continue to shit on her the way they have been the entire fucking season. instead, she got the absolute most horrific “resolution” that frankly has just pissed me off beyond belief. and now i have to sit there and listen to you trying to justify it like shut the fuck UP. and you guys are STILL going "i hope gui/llermo kills na/ndor" i hope marwa kills them ALL for what they've done to her

[mud-castle]

Alright, Dogfang Au below the cut.

I like it, but one question: Why in the world would Pinestar assign Dogpaw to the two cats who tried to kill him a few months ago? There are other warriors.

so it starts with the first time tiny ran off and thistleclaw immediately tried to have his apprentice kill a baby. bluefur of course stops him but tiny is already gravely wounded, and she can't just leave him there in good conscious. so she takes him back to thunderclan to get patched up, no matter how thistleclaw protests or tries to stand in her way.

tiny comes to in the medicine den surrounded by goosefeather, featherwhisker, and bluefur. they ask his name and he realizes Tiny is definitely an embarrassing name that will make him sound weak. so he comes up with the scariest thing to a cat he can manage: Dog. bluefur asks what he was doing out there alone at such a young age, 5 moons or something like that, and he doesn't really give much of an answer. either way, he's stuck due to injuries and doesn't seem in a hurt to get back by the time he could take care of himself long enough to get home, Dog decides he definitely doesn't want to go back there.

its been a moon or so and he's more or less good to go. through a series of conversations bluefur and snowfur convince him to stay and become an apprentice, despite the existence of thistleclaw and tigerpaw. pinestar apprentices dogpaw to snowfur, and its nice. she keeps thistleclaw off his back and most cats are polite when she's with him. and then she gets run over they try and re-apprentice him to bluefur but in her grief, she flat out refuses. they call her up and she refuses to move. thinking on the fly, pine assigns him to thistle. thistle as a mentor isn't great. training leaves him constantly getting torn to bits by tiger, and thistle teaches dogpaw that warriors are nothing but fodder, the only meaningful position being Leader. around this time he starts being taken to gatherings, enter brokenpaw.

things have a rough start with them the first thing dogpaw says to him is asking why his face looks like that (kinda flat), so broken asks him why HIS face looks like that (all scarred up) and they get into an argument about it. the result is that they get into a tussle and yellowfang breaks it up and then the gathering starts and they need to sit next to each other the entire time. through a series of conversations across gatherings they become close pals around this time thistle starts training in the DF, which is a thing I think happens in canon? he also trains his two apprentices there too. dogpaw thinks training with the souls of dead cats condemned to eternal damnation is probably Not good and tries take that up with tiger because Surely they agree on this. they dont. tiger fully believes his mentor is right in all things. at the same time bluefur is noticing that dogpaw is covered in Way too many scars for an apprentice she threatens thistle abt it, and then talks to sunpelt who talks to pinestar.

dogpaw doesn't admit anything as to not show weakness, but blue starts keeping more of an eye on him anyways. DF training goes on until one of the dead cats informs thistle that pinestar is low on lives. so he starts conspiring w tiger to kill sunpelt, saying he's weak ect ect, keeping it from him that he's also gonna kill his dad. dogpaw overhears and the next day is confiding in his closest pal brokenpaw. at the next gathering yellowfang approaches dogpaw abt all that and confirms the story. she then informs featherwhisker who tells sunpelt and due to the allegations thistle becomes a prisoner in his own camp. dogpaw gets assigned to blue and tiger gets assigned to like, sunpelt bc I only know so many characters in blue's super edition. its great but now everyone is on edge beyond belief, either not trusting the story or suspecting others of also training w the dark forest and conspiring pretty much half the camp is for thistle, demanding more evidence, or against him, demanding he is killed for his crimes. pine doesn't do either cuz he can't just let the guy roam around but he can't kill his son's favorite cat either.

with growing tensions, thunderclans presence at gatherings becomes less and less w/o telling anyone why. raggedstar takes this as a sign that the clan is massively weakened bc of something he can take advantage of. meanwhile, blue has had her kits come leafbare, the divide in the clan is huge and they can barely operate smoothly. fearing for the safety of her kits, blue takes them away to riverclan. they all survive this time bc dogpaw is also there to help yayy celebration. unfortunately they're caught by tigerpaw. blue tells half the truth, not saying they're halfclan, and they both get punished for just giving riverclan warriors. tigerpaw gets the name tigereye, while dogpaws own naming is pushed back. then a fight breaks out!

having fallen on hard times, shadowclan has attacked thunderclan to raid their herb supply. during the battle dogpaw runs into brokenpaw, now brokentail. he's got a name and he's been fast tracked to deputy. things start off okay but broken makes some snide comment abt dogpaw still being an apprentice and they fight. there are no casualties in the battle but their herbs are either stolen or destroyed, and they having nothing left. a lot of the prey pile is missing, too.

at the next gathering pine furiously tells the other clans what's happened, much to the disgust of riverclan and windclan. raggedstar however, turns the tables, demanding to know why they've been acting so shady at gatherings. it comes out that thistle was training in the DF, and after the attack, him and tiger went missing. river and wind are even more horrified, the worst crime is forsaking the stars or whatever. thunderclan now has no sure allies.

at the end of the gathering, broken catches up with dogpaw and apologizes. he also lets slip that raggedstar is on his last life, and things will change soon. dogpaw doesn't have much to say. later he tells blue what he said. she worries it may be a trap, but some other cats overhear and decide its the perfect opportunity to strike back. kill raggedstar and maybe even get some of their herb supply back. dog learns of this and runs off to warn broken. he finds tiger instead, tiger informs him that shadowclan has been taken over by thistlestar, and he is now the deputy. he attacks dogpaw, and takes him back to shadowclan. thistle says to just kill him, but tiger thinks a better punishment would be to make his life hell first. so now he's stuck in shadowclan doing grunt work, barely eating enough to survive, and tiger and thistle smacking him around. but hey at least his pal broken isn't dead. they start conspiring to make an escape.

they decide during the night of the next gathering. when that comes tiger is left to keep an eye on dogpaw, much to his annoyance. when he's about to start messing with him, broken charges into his side and dogpaw tears open an eye. tiger can't give chase, being held down by yellowfang treating his injuries. they get to the gathering, and find a fight has broken out. thistle is on pines back, and thunder and shadow clan are going at it. they join the fracas, in which pinestar dies. after the battle, dogpaw is awarded the name dogfang, sunstar has made bluefur his deputy, and dogfang has convinced them to let broken hang out in thunderclan, because he definitely can't go back. despite their reservations, they can't afford not to have another warrior on their side right now. at the next gathering the only shadowclan cat to arrive is thistle, who accuses thunderclan of sending dogfang to try and spy on shadowclan. the leaders all start arguing.

thistle says they'll all suffer for siding with obvious cowards, and leaves. next time shadowclan comes back, they have a horde of alleycats with them. thistle says if the other leaders step down, he won't command the alleycats to attack. this obviously annoys the cat next to him, who dogfang recognizes as rusty. thistle goes on until rusty attacks him, stating that he, inferno, commands the alleycats. they fight, and inferno kills him. tiger, horrified, is held back by several alleycats inferno demands space for his cats in the forest, so they may stop living on scraps alone. the clans deny, stating there's not enough room. inferno agrees, says they'll have to make some, and they leave, forcing shadowclan back as well. back home, dogfang tells broken inferno is his brother. some time passes and on a hunt, dogfang finds inferno at the border. he seems happy to see him, but dogfang is all business. he demands to know inferno's plans, who only invites him to come see.

dogfang refuses and leaves. at the next gathering, inferno shows and demands that dogfang be handed over. sunstar refuses and inferno almost attacks him, before dogfang runs up and agrees. inferno takes him and leaves, a mass amount of alleycats coming out of hiding to follow. back in shadowclan, there are almost no shadowclan cats left. inferno has killed any that get in his way to make room for his own cats. dogfang is giving a position of power, along with his other siblings. ruby, socks, and princess have all joined inferno and are only one step below him on the ladder of power. unfortunately this doesn't mean they're safe. inferno kills socks due to extended disobedience. during his time there, dogfang finds that inferno plans to crush the rest of the clans as he's done to shadowclan, starting with thunderclan. he sends one of the remaining shadowclan cats to warn thunderclan, and challenges inferno to fight for leadership

they fight in carrion place, with a small audience of alleycats to witness. when inferno ends up cornered by junkyard dogs after being lead there by dogfang, none of them help him. he dies there, and dogfang now has control. he tells the alleycats to leave the forest and goes back to thunderclan, preparing for an attack. some of the alleycats listened to him, some stayed in shadowclan, and large portion went to attack thunderclan in the ensuing battle, sunstar dies but thunderclan comes out on top due to riverclan assistance. the alleycats are chased away and bluefur gets her 9 lives. she offers dogfang deputyship and he refuses, feeling fulfilled. brokentail goes back to shadowclan, and tiger is still out there missing. and that's pretty much it. haven't worked out inferno's side of things and what makes him act that way quite yet, but yk.-

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Incel!Shinsou Oneshot: "Why are you acting like that?”

To keep busy I just thought that a oneshot of Shinsou getting self conscious/needy would be cute since we already have his redemption arc rolling in. The next part of the Incel!Shinsou series (Part 3) will have him proving his worth at the Sports Festival. So in thinking of how he will prove himself to you I thought of how will all of those people affect him, especially you. ( This oneshot takes place pre changes, so Shinsou is still his disgusting self but he's figuring out how to woo a woman, especially of your caliber.)

Incel!Shinsou Series:

Part 1: Incel! Shinsou x F!Reader

Part 2: Incel! Shinsou x F!Reader

Incel!Shinsou Headcanons

"I know what you're doin' here. Made your intentions clear. Oh you, you terrible thing, you. Terrible thing, you. Terrible thing, you. Beautiful thing"

TW: Strong Language, Mild Sexism

People were never an obstacle when it came to the things Shinsou wanted. He’s aware that others would do anything for him if he played his cards right. The right words with the right question did wonders for him. So why the fuck couldn’t he have what he wanted when it came to you? You drove him up the wall with the kindness you showed him. He didn’t deserve it and you’re existence almost felt like a punishment from whatever deity that existed out there to make him suffer. You guys were suppose to be studying for your upcoming project that required a poster, a slide show, and one influential person that would help prove your projects point. You left him running circles within his own mind as to how you were so willing to challenge him. He wanted you to obey him not see through his bullshit. It wasn’t like you didn’t listen to him vent, or didn't give him attention, but he wanted to hold you under his control. To be the person you listened to.

In class you where both seated on the extreme ends of the room on opposite sides. You never realized this (you do), but his head would periodically turn towards your direction to look at you, to figure you out (liar). This time, you managed to catch him do it.

“What are you doing?” You asked plainly. You honestly didn’t care that he was staring, everyone does when you dress like you're attending an MCR concert in the middle of autumn.

“You look different....today.”

“Nice.” It was difficult to care. Shinsou was just some guy in your class that you had to deal with. Nothing special really....ok, maybe it wasn’t fully true. You didn’t really know him all that well or anything (Unless it was mocking and belittling everything you did, that was normal behavior for him so it wasn’t surprising to find out he was like that outside of campus.) but he wasn’t all that bad? If he cared for himself a bit more, hygiene wise he would be considered handsome or at least a competent human being (you weren't going to call him a man, men don't act this childish. At least the ones you knew.) Maybe then you would take his opinion seriously, but for now you’ll ignore his...interesting comments he's been throwing towards you today.

“It’s rude to ignore someone when their talking to you, you know?” The neutral face he had now possessed a frown and a furrow to his brows. You still couldn’t process how he took the time to make sure his hair stayed purple but didn’t care for his body odor. (This man dyes his hair purple yet cant bother to shower or use deodorant for once in his life.)

“I’m not ignoring you, I’m just not interested in anything you have to say.” With that you get up and take your things and leave. There was no point in wasting time on someone who couldn’t even look at you directly and had to also sneak glances at you. "Do I really look that unbearable?" you thought to yourself. In the end you didn’t care anymore, everyone was entitled to an opinion and the last thing you need is feeling self conscious because of your out of place classmate.

Shinsou was fuming. How the fuck did you just get up and leave his ass while he was trying to complement you. You should have been more appreciative that he was giving you his attention for once. A bitch like you wasn't even worth it so he doesn't understand why he even tried with you.

He never goes directly home after school but instead to the local theater. It was one of the few places where he could be around others and could genuinely be himself. It was weird, he didn't feel like himself when he was speaking with his "friends", friends that he's never spoken to verbally, never seen, and never would meet. He knew that he didn't deserve this, to have a safe haven when he acts like an ass, yet here he was.

"Good morning Shinsou! How are you? Are you ready for rehearsals? You did remember to read your lines, right?" Shinsou rolls his eyes at his theater mates antics. Monoma never seems to stop but he does know when to tone it down and when it comes to Shinsou he tones it down a bit. (Because Monoma is canonically considerate of others, look back the Sports Festival and the Joint Training Arc.)

"Im good man, yes i did read and memorized the script, dont worry about it." What an odd friendship, the most chaotic gentleman like man out the bunch with the quietist incel in the group. Shinsou should have seen it coming when he was adopted by Monoma but he's running on 2 to 4 hours of sleep so he doesn't really care.

Believe it or not Shinsou does take showers (only for theater) but very quickly and with no care (no shampoo or soap, fucking why man.) Theater means more to him and so making his character look the best they possible can was his first and foremost priority. He puts on his costume, gets to makeup (the minimum, because it's "gay" for him to wear makeup and since the world is unfair and cruel he has perfect skin for a greasy headed asshole.)

"Everyone get a move on! Kodai, Tsuburaba, and Awase! Go to stage left! Light techs, how's it up there?" One of the tech heads shouted out. Shinsou and Monoma got to their positions on the stage and the rehearsals began.

Love, the play was about love. Love that wasn't rejected but also not accepted. He didn't understand the concept fully. Was it romantic? Platonic? Familiar? Admiration? He loved his dad, but he mostly admired him. He worked long hours and middle resents him for not being there for him, yet he realizes that his dad works to give him the world, a home with all the things he wanted. He never had a mother so he never had parental or familiar, again his dad was there but he wanted a parent that would hold him when he came back from school everyday. He didn't have a girlfriend, so he doesn't know romantic. So far all of his characters where villains, or evil in some way. He was starting to get sick of them. Shinsou wanted something more, wanted to play a character that wasn't how everyone saw him as on his day to day life. He wanted a challenge, he wanted....affection. Just to show it. He wanted attraction. Just to abuse it. He wanted...love. To just...maybe...feel...enjoy...understand it.

"You terrible thing you. My love, you're so cold. You've left me hanging on every one of your words. You've made me loose my self, lose my self-control because of you!" He pours everything into his performance, his loneliness, his regrets, his experience. He's been told by his co-performers and directors that he has a great future in the arts, in theater. If he just took care of himself more he would be an amazing actor, not only incredibly talented but also attractive. He would have the world kneeling, bowing to him just from his words alone. He could have anything he wanted just because of his existence.

" You've made me do things i don't want to do...for you." Kodai stands there looking horrified. He's covered in blood, the blood of her lover, the one she left him for.

"No, i-i didn't-"

"YOU MADE ME-MADE DO THIS FOR YOU! You terrible, terrible, terrible thing! You beautiful thing, I've done this for you!...and you still cant and won't love me." He doesn't see Kodai anymore. It's not her face he sees, nor her voice that he hears.

Its you...its your voice. You. You looking back at him while he slowly lowered himself to kneel and crawl towards you. It's you who backs away from him as he starts to cry and hiccup.

"You wreck me, you made me. You leave me in your wake, please let me go!" He sees you and feels you grabbing his wrists back, pushing him into himself.

"Don't you ever let me go...."

You terrible beautiful thing, you.

And here we are again. This was a lot fun to write since it feels more concrete when it comes towards his personality and his full thought process. In many cases people like Shinsou just want attention or some sense of validation, which there is nothing wrong with wanting those things but it's more about the manner you go about it. You shouldn't pressure or force others to spend time with you, but there is always someone out there that will like to give you those things.

Tag list: @blossominglark

[slymanner]

sasharcy drabble :D

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it was late at night in wartwood.

the blood moon was out everyone was sleeping.

expect for one who hasn't even gotten any sleep.

marcy heard a knock at the door, a certain rhythm she's heard before at this exact same tempo.

it was the knock sasha and marcy came up with when they we're kid's when coming over, kept the exact same even after all these years.

as kid's they didn't really have any music reference they just kinda made it up on their own kinda like a hand-shake you'd make up one day with your family or with the kids on the playground.

it always got one of them exicted to hear that little special knock and it hits especially different now after months of not hearing their little knock jingle.

"oh sasha! come in the door is unlocked..."

marcy said with a yawn as she saw the door slowy open as she see's a exhausted, sleep deprived sasha.

her only having a pillow in her hand's as she squeeze's it in embarrassment for what she was about to ask her childhood friend.

"what's up sashy? you seem...exhausted."

"you think? I've been up for hours and haven't slept..."

sasha said with a tired slight deeper voice not really fully conscious as she usually would be.

"well if you came here for a possible sleep potion, I'm yawn not at that type of magic level yet."

marcy said with a sorta smirk placing her hand on her own chin with tiredness.

"well...that's not exactly why I'm here mar mar..."

sasha gave a big deep breath in and out since she's never asked anyone this before and is desperate for any type of sleep, as marcy looks in sorta confusion but interest.

"so you said if i ever needed your comfort i could come to you to ask you right?"

"mhm, i said that today sasha."

"YES I KNOW BUT..."

sasha tries to calm herself down trying to not sound too weak or aggressive.

"HHHHH...yeah okay so i have a question for you regarding that offer?"

sasha clenches her pillow even harder trying to not look at marcy's little face too much so she doesn't flop to the ground in embarrassment or anything.

"oh sure! what's the offer..?"

marcy noticing sasha's little look's away's but letting her keep going

"okay so maybe...possibly...how about we....HHHH...."

"we don't got all nig-"

"CAN WE JUST CUDDLE? JUST ONE CUDDLE FOR ONE NIGHT AND THAT'S IT OKAY??"

marcy looks at sasha in surprise, sasha showing this level of comfort and trust with this subject makes marcy actually smile a bit and even wake up a bit more after it.

":O sashy wants to cuddle little ol ME???"

marcy fans herself off with her own hand in a joking way making sasha all flustered with this dork's dumb as hell reaction

"HAHA SHUT UP NO LOOK."

"ITS JUST ONE TIME. ONE CUDDLE. TOTALLY PLATONIC."

"are you sure? your tomato is showing HAHA"

sasha after hearing that looks at marcy's mirror in her wagon seeing a blushly red tomato that one of the plantars would pluck up

"PFT OH MY GOD SHUT UP MAR MAR LOOK JUST..."

sasha walks up to marcy and picks up marcy her not expecting sasha's sudden strength.

"WAH WH-"

as she throws marcy at the other side of the bed.

"SCOOCH OVER FROG SAKE YOU DORK"

sasha flops onto the empty side of the bed, marcy's soft and comfortable bed making sasha relax and feel like in heaven as she puts the pillow under her own head.

"HAHA JEEZ COULD'VE DONE THAT LESS VIOLENTLY??"

"IM SLEEPY MAR MAR DONT JUDGE ME FOR THIS."

"snort alright alright sasha your the boss i guess."

marcy put the blanket over both of them.

both being at comfort but also slight gay panic as they are both in the same bed as each other.

"so....."

marcy twiddled her fingers as sasha looked at her both in intense eye contact.

"are you a little spoon or a big spoon..."

sasha let out a little laugh, seeing her childhood friend just laying next to her in the same bed seeing the blood moon sorta shine in marcy's eye's.

"HAHA just..I'll be the little spoon alright?"

"you probably couldn't handle me as a big spoon anyway marshmallow."

sasha turned away from marcy waiting for marcy's arm to wrap around her as she wait's for her dumb little comeback to that big spoon comment

"AY NO I COULD!!"

"sure...now just give me your dorky comfort"

right as she says that marcy wraps her arms around sasha's body, feeling marcy's warm but comforting touch as she felt marcy get closer and to her own body, making sasha's worry's of not sleeping fade away as she saw marcy's tiny little soft hands in front of her vision with the wrap around making her maybe second guess this platonic thing and have a sudden urge to hold her hand.

"A"

"you good sashy..?"

"NO YEAH YEAH I FEEL GREAT THIS IS COMFORTING...i..."

"haven't felt...this comfortable in awhile actually."

marcy smiled at sasha's suggestion of this giving her comfort as marcy slid the closest she can be not expecting to ever be this close to sasha.

"that's good!! :D"

"you wanna...sleep now?"

sasha was already getting close to sleep as she heard marcy say that.

"OH yeah yeah for sure yeah."

"Alright then night sasha!!"

marcy yawned holding sasha basically like a teddy bear her hands close to sasha's chest

"goodnight marcy.."

sasha was about to close her eyes but she stopped when.

"OH WAIT MARCY"

"HUH WHAT"

"can we....hold hands?"

marcy gets sorta flusted at that cuddling's being one thing but holding hands was something else entirely.

"um...SURE! if it makes you comfortable..."

"oh great thanks mar mar!"

sasha quickly softly put her hand into marcy's palm feeling marcy's small but gentle hands made her even sleepier then she already was, marcy also feeling sasha's hands comfortably rest in her hands was like heaven to her, both their hands fit perfectly with each other."

"haha...this is..."

"nice? yeah i know marcy."

"this doesn't feel platonic anymore,,"

"don't worry we'll be in denial for a couple of months let's say this a platonic for now."

marcy laughed at that, even she knew.

"HAHA OKAY OKAY FAIR..but...goodnight sashy."

marcy closed her eyes her grip in sasha's hand getting tighter.

"goodnight mar mar.."

they both had a wonderful sleep <3