#i dont think people realises the true weight of future sight

[edensrose]

Well yes. That's the whole part of his character. He's not allowed to say anything and I'm tired of people acting like he can<3 a little cognitive reading tells you that he can't.

Stern and dispassionate, never forgetting a thing. Speaks the Prophecy of the North against the Noldor Elves leaving Aman, counselling that they should not be allowed to return.[b] The prophecies and judgments of Mandos, unlike Morgoth, are not cruel or vindictive by his own design. They are simply the will of Eru, and he does not speak them unless he is commanded to do so by Manwë.

[thequeenb]

It all ends where it begins

I kept thinking about the vision of the future and decided to write something:(

Pairings: KamilahxMC

And there they were. The woman who promised safety and harmony is now the one who brought chaos and drew blood of innocent people in her way. Rheya and her followers stood in the middle of the city, on her side were Kamilah, Adrian, Lily and Jax, they fangs were bared and they were ready to attack humans, innocent souls.

Amy stood at the right side of Rheya uneasy, her stomach turned at the sight of millions of people screaming. The person they trusted is the very same who is killing them. Amy stepped forward, how brave. One vampire against thousands, against her.

Swallowing hard she locked eyes with Rheya. "This isn't what you promised are you crazy!!??" Those words caught everyone's attention as they looked between the two of them, "You dont understand child, they want us dead, they manipulated me, saying they want to be civil yet they killed many of my children, of your kind" every word echoed in Amy's mind, she was indeed right but that never meant anything.

"I give you two choices" Rheya said approaching dangerously close. "You will either stand beside me, or you can die trying to stop me." Amy searched for Kamilah's eyes , why she didn't even flinch? Why she looked at her in disgust?

Amy nodded as Rheya smiled satisfied "I am done with this, i knew you were full of shit since day one!!" But without turning back Rheya's hand was rised. Every vampire ran, grabbing humans by their neck drinking their blood, others pushed them so hard their bodies were in pieces, the metallic smell of blood filled the air.

Rheya flew high above the city, watching the chaos with a smirk. Amy took a step back as she watched Kamilah. Her hands were red, carrying the blood of innocent people. The sight made Amy sick, the woman she loves is brainwashed into becoming a monster.

She ran grabbing Kamilah forcing her to look into her eyes "Kamilah wake up!! This isnt you please!!" she shook her in hope that helps but nothing happened. The eyes that were once Amy's safe place were now a threat, that icy look she hadn't seen in months came back.

"You betrayed our Goddess" Kamilah's tone made Amy step back, but Kamilah cupped her cheek. For one moment Amy thought she would say she pretended, that she will keep her safe, that they will run away together away from this madness but then her grip got tighter and tighter as Amy realized Kamilah's hands were now on her neck pressing hard.

"No one betray our Goddess." Kamilah was now smiling, she was satisfied by the sight. "Kamilah please..you hurt me.." but she didn't listen, she only pressed harder "i..love..y--" but Amy couldn't speak anymore, her breath left her body completely. Closing her eyes she accepted the fate. Her lover was now her enemy but she couldn't bare to lay a finger on her, she felt powerless.

When she started to lose her senses she heard that laugh, that god damn laugh she hated. "Kill her my darling" Rheya said, now standing beside Kamilah. Amy felt all the anger she had inside of her so much that it almost felt like her blood was boiling.

When she opened her eyes they were crimson red, her fangs were on sight as she pushed so hard Kamilah flew to a nearby building. Rheya was about to grab her but she moved fast dodging the attack. "You have so much potential" that melodic voice almost broke her but she resist her charm. "You ruined everything!!" Amy screamed lurching towards her, with a delicate move she cut a wound into Rheya's chest with her sword but it healed so quick.

"Oh my darling, you don't know who you are against with" Rheya said looking over at Kamilah who tried to stand up holding her stomach in pain. "You told me you love Kamilah no?" Amy opened her mouth to respond but Rheya raised her hand, Kamilah kneed to the ground screaming in pain as her veins burned inside her body.

"Surrender to me and she wont get hurt" she said smiling, looking deep into Amy's eyes searching for an answer. Amy couldn't respond, her eyes were focused on Kamilah who was in pain as tears streamed down her cheeks. When Rheya didn't get an answer she raised her hand higher, Kamilah's screams became louder.

That was the last straw for Amy, she felt something new inside of her, a power like no other. As Kamilah's screams echoed through her mind the urge of this power to get out became more and more until it was impossible to hold it in.

Amy screamed so loud that she felt her head will explode. As she opened her eyes she realized that time had stop completely and everyone stranded still looking at her hoovering through the air. Amy's eyes were so red like blood and without any warning she flew high speeding down at Rheya who watched her stunned. "YOU!!" she yelled kicking Rheya sending her away, Kamilah laid there on the ground looking at Amy with her eyes wide.

But Amy didn't stop, she didn't want to "YOU WILL PAY!!" her harsh tone echoed through the city. Rheya laughed "i see you unlocked your true powers" but as she finished her sentence she lurched towards her grabbing her so hard it felt like she will rip her arm apart. But Amy didn't backed down. She sank her fangs deep into Rheya's flesh ripping pieces out.

"You really thought you can win??" Rheya laughed sarcastically and with one move of her arm Amy was sent away flying but she never landed she flew so high like a rocket through the night sky. Rheya did the same trying to find Amy. Her only advantage was that Amy wasn't familiar with her new powers and she would use them wrongly.

Surprisingly Rheya was pushed to the ground wincing in pain. "Surprise bitch" Amy now smiled holding Rheya's neck but it wouldnt be that easy. She expected to be pushed away already but Rheya just stood there, her eyes distant and soon Amy knew why.

Her and Rheya unexpectedly found themselves in the darkness, cold creeping inside of them. But suddenly a light could be seen far away. They both shared a look before they started running as fast as they could. Suddenly they found themselves in a familiar place, hearing a familiar voice. "Mama?" a girl's voice could be heard as they were approaching closer. As they reached for the light it led both into a place they both knew well. Standing Infront of them were a little girl and a tall handsome man looking stunned at Rheya.

"My love.." he said approaching her but the girl was quick to hug her tight "Mama you are back!!" Amy gasped realising that they were trapped somewhere unknown. "Why are you bloody? What did you do?" the man said as Rheya parted her lips unable to respond "i.."

"Stay with us..this is where you belong" the man said reaching for Rheya's hand before everything started to fade.

They both gasped for air, Amy's hands were still on Rheya's neck pressing hard. "You saw.." she started but her tears were so many that her voice failed her. "I belong with them.." she finally responded "take me to them" her commanding voice was scary enough for her. Amy was shaking her whole body was confused but she did as she was told. Holding a stake she found nearby she took a deep breath.

Before she could even think the stake plunged deep into her chest. Rheya didn't flinched instead she smiled mouthing her last words "it all ends where it begins my child.." but before Amy could speak she was turned into ashes.

Everyone stared at Amy, finally freed from Rheya's powers they gasped, looking at the chaos they created. Lily's crossbow fell from her hands, Jax let a human he was holding down shaking his head as Adrian was processing the sight Infront of him.

Kamilah looked at her hands in disgust, memories from the past storming her mind. Searching for Amy's eyes she spotted her in the middle of a pile of ashes trying to stand up. Amy turned her head looking at Kamilah who gasped, covering her mouth. "No!!" she screamed but Amy was confused not knowing what was happening but she soon knew why. She was bleeding from her chest, a familiar pain brought her down to her knees.

"Amy no..not again" Kamilah tried to control her sobs as she held her once again in her arms. "What.. happen.." Amy tried to speak but her mouth was filled with blood as it dripped down her chin. "You saved us once again..she..she is dead." Kamilah said looking at the ashes that the air blew away. Amy's eyes were closing, still confused on why this was happening, when suddenly something clicked on her mind. It all ends where it begins

Rheya's words echoed in her mind "No..i dont want to go please Kamilah please.." she begged to stay and with every beg more tears ran down Kamilah's cheeks.

She was helpless, she couldn't stop this, she will watch the girl she love die in her arms for the second time. "I love you Amy..more than anything" for just a moment Amy was speechless but she knew she didn't had enough time "I love you too Kamilah..i always will.." her words were short yet so touching. She had a faint smile on her lips, she would die happy.

Suddenly the weight in Kamilah's hands was getting lighter as Amy was now a pile of ashes in her hands "No Amy!!!" she screamed so loud as the chaos surrounded her completely.

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[hol-eage]

sometimes i step back and see life from the outside, it makes me feel silly, but its grounding in a way thats different than in the way that walking my dog and making coffee and studying is,

its not the drive of the day to day

its the reality of the future, and past but not lingering on what might have been or anything like that, rather, how the past will be mirrored in a thousand ways by the end of my life, and how things will happen that will make me feel experiences that i have never had even a mirror echo of so far

The real stuff, i guess, that makes life make sense are the moments where the ground is hot or air frigid or bricks reflecting light or just, those moments that make you realise that being alive and being in love can be the same thing

Not always, i guess there are moments just as everlasting, which have impact that will last, that are dark, those of moments of a true true losing feeling, the trauma

If those are the trauma though

And trauma leaves us with echo moments, subconscious triggers that tell us we’re indanger because a smell or sight or sound or touch is TOO familiar, too much like that trauma

If that is so

Then the moments of life love, the echos of those, that smell that takes you to sitting on your brothers floor age 10, that sound that leaves you feeling as though youre dancing on a rocking chair twisting your hands through the floating dust age 6, that smell that makes you feel as though youre sitting on a canal lock reading a ghost book in the height of summer age 15...

Those are the same thing as trauma just the exact opposite

Sometimes when i think a lot about this, i feel this sense of distancing from the present, not stepping into the past but viewing my entire life that has been and is to come

Maybe i have large chunks that are as poetic or meaningful or calming as fiction is, maybe thats because fiction is looking to recreate those moments in time

Will i fall in love? have i been in love? do i need to fall in love? have i loved friends as much as you can ever love anyone? will i have a child? how far will i travel? how often? will I spontaneously meet people who i’ll grow to love? or will it all happen in a forced way? will i dream still when im old old old? will i love myself when im old old old? will i be satisfied when im old old old?

is it enough just to have a life with plenty of love moments and i guess also trauma moments, is that being present? truly alive? Is that regretless?

you can feel those without falling in love or having a child or traveling far,

You can have them i think as long as you keep going, stay alive, stay stay stay, dont let the weight of it keep you still or take you downwards, stay stay stay and the light will hit the bricks just so and the sun will warm the floor and the cold will chill the air