#i dont really write a lot of stuff like this

[afriendofblahaj]

just btw, the reason you are experiencing memory issues and or freezing/crashing might be because your computer doesnt have enough ram. when an OS gets close to using all your RAM, it starts writing something called pagefiles (at least, this is what its called on windows, but if you use linux you probably have already found 3 "errors" with what i said (no hate btw, linux is the best)), which use your system storage as extra RAM. (as a note about size, 8gb of ram is what comes in a budget computer, 16gb is the recommended minimum for building a new computer, and 32gb is the way to ensure your computer runs smoothly) Problem being, your storage is a *lot* slower than RAM, and when its full, the problem only gets worse, because it takes a lot longer for the controller to assign a space for new information to be located at (im a bit oversimplifing here, but really its the effects that matter not the mechanism), so your computer might get so slow to the point of unusability. point being:

firstly, if this is happening to you, obviously you have one option to move stuff to a bigger/external drive, but if you dont want to move your files, and you do have a second drive, one option is to follow this tutorial to move where the pagefiles are written to that other drive (note, its for win7, but as of win11, none of the steps for the written instructions have changed, and only the first step has visually changed). the only note is to make sure you are not moving these pagefiles to a hard drive, only an SSD, otherwise your system will get even slower. to find out if a drive is an SSD or hard drive, press ctrl+shift+esc, then on the left hand side click this:

then look if it says SSD or HDD under the drive you care about on the left

And secondly, to OP: its not really the space itself that matters, its the ammount of the drive taken up. because the drive is so full the SSD controller takes significantly longer (well, not a on a human timescale, but when even decent desktop RAM normally operates with 250 pico seconds between each operation, any delay matters) to allocate space for the pagefiles. so funnily enough, if you were to put windows on a smaller drive like you suggest (Tiny11 could be run on a drive as small as 8gb total) it would have no problem at all running with only 6gb left (esspecally if given sufficient RAM) (also as a side note that red bar is entirely cosmetic and is based on the portion of the drive filled, windows just changes the colour to indicate its nearly filled, but your stuttering and crashing issues are most likely from the explanantion above)

Oh I'm sorry C: you've only got 6GB free? Only six fucking gig? We used to boot the OS off fucking floppy drives but I'm so so sorry that six entire gigabytes of free space isn't enough for you you poor starving thing. You've been experiencing worse and worse memory issues for months and now you're freezing and crashing every few minutes because why, you just can't make 6 gig work? Grow the fuck up.

[jumalanpelko]

Hi :) first off, I love your stuff so much. It's amazing. I have two questions:

1. Is Mesi schizophrenic? Is that why she sees Viima, or is there another reason for it?

And 2. In like, 2021 I think? Before I knew about the existence of Jumalanpelko as a whole, I made a character that is similar to Suncat (she coughs up blood, starts out looking pretty healthy and then ends up looking a lot like Suncat right now, but human.) I'm wondering whether it is okay to put this character in my story, with how many similarities she has to Suncat?

Again, love your stuff, have a cookie 🍪 :]

1. I didnt write her as schizophrenic, she is being haunted by her guilt and grief that kinda. Became a ghost (and that ghost isnt really Viima, it is something Mesi greated)

2. I dont own illnesses lol go ahead!

[hawkmetrianon]

Wake up babe new hawkmetrianon au just dropped. this is the "my girl is mad at me i hope i die" au, or, even more accurately named, the Stupid Idiots AU

typical moment happens post season three with the boys where everybody just assumes theyre together and have been together since the house fight

except, when someone (probably miguel) brings it up to eli, instead of being like "what? no, we arent", hes like "SHIT wait we are? oh my god demetris gonna be so mad if he finds out i didnt know"

cue eli slowly doing more and more obviously romantic stuff in an attempt to make up for the however many weeks he didnt know he was dating demetri ("oh my god im the worst boyfriend ever")

demetri remains completely oblivious to this and simply thinks eli is suddenly doing all this over the top baloney "because he feels really guilty for what he did" and "hes in his redemption arc"

secretly hes soaking up all the attention while also trying VERY hard not to read too into any romantic subtext because "no way does eli like me like that". but he pretends hes just chilling about it all

which of course, because this IS the Stupid Idiots AU, eli takes this as demetri being a Petty Bitch and depriving him of boyfriend-ly activity as a punishment for not knowing they were dating

and so he works double time to work his way out of boyfriend timeout which comes to a head around prom where eli is like "ah, yes, i will win demetri's affections back by doing the coolest most dramatic promposal ever to affirm my love for him and say sorry"

i dont know exactly what this promposal is (suggestions welcome) but i assure you its probably eli-typical levels of drama and over the top flair and he also probably ropes so many people into being part of it

demetri says yes (how could he not!) after being incredibly caught off guard and definitely embarrassed, but once he and eli are alone he STILL asks if eli meant that platonically or romantically

"so... we're going to prom as like... dates, right? not as like... bros?" / "why would i ask my boyfriend to prom as my bro?" / "SORRY?"

demetri full blue screens (thinking eli has just very smoothly and not so subtly asked him to be his boyfriend) while eli is still yapping about how hard he worked on that promposal

once demetri stops freaking the fuck out, hes a little peeved like you do that whole romantic ass promposal and then THATS how you ask me to be your boyfriend? you charismatic jerk i hate you? wow i cant believe we're dating now?

and then of course eli is like "now? we've been dating for like, months"

cue this whole stupid ass situation unravelling and face palming at their own idiocy and making out

they have two anniversaries. one for when they got together and one for when they got together

another silly one for you guys. i will post about my angst aus soon (threat), its just theyre a lot more complicated and im a bit lazy to write them out lol. hope this one made you chuckle a tad bc this one makes me lose my mind THEYRE SUCH STUPID IDIOTS

[nobylerdoubt]

A lot of people say the duffers are just queerbaiting but if they were wouldnt they have like byler front and centre and not behind subtext and stuff you have to analyze? Some folks also say if byler DOSENT happen its queerbait and I genuinely dont think so. Do you think the duffers are queerbaiting if byler dosent happen or are they not?

It is 100% queerbait if Byler doesn't happen.

I can kind of see where you're coming from because if you look at the actual definition...

Queerbaiting is a marketing technique for fiction and entertainment in which creators hint at, but do not depict, same-sex romance or other LGBTQ+ representation.

... you might think Stranger Things is in the clear because they do include same-sex romance (Robin/Vickie) and have canonically queer characters (Robin and Will).

However.

Netflix, the Duffers, Shawn Levy, Noah Schnapp, etc, have fed into the byler narrative in marketing.

I also know of overseas Netflix marketing that specifically frames them as "boyfriends".

So if Byler doesn't happen, Netflix has been luring in viewers with marketing that alludes to Byler, without delivering on that promise.

My brother in Christ, that's queerbaiting.

But aside from the marketing, the mere existence of this huge thread of clues - something people can make 3 hour videos, 300 slide presentations, and dissertations on - without having any payoff would be queerbaiting. They would have kept a whole audience of queer people engaged, waiting to see this story pan out, toying with their emotions, dashing their hopes and breaking their hearts and then reeling them in with new hope.

If it pans out the way it should it's good writing, and an amazing story that was well worth the wait.

Otherwise, it's queerbaiting, and a log of people are going to be left really, really hurt.

[cyberscratch]

werster and susie interaction comic after a suggestion from a friend. some of it was rushed due to circumnstances out of my control, so i apologize for the bad writing (also, yk. non native english speaker)! text transcription with some fixes is under the cut!

+ bonus context + possible future mini comic (i hc the axe gerson gives susie is a paint brush. despite her having more stuff in canon with music than visual art... as an artist i obviously focus on the latter for my little fan oc interaction comic.)

text transcription, sorry it's styled this way, copy and pasting this on Mobile from discord. best i got!

(2) [BANG BANG BANG]

(3) W: Hey, easy on the door, would'ya?!

(4) W: Oh, it's Susie!

W: From Ms. Alphys class, right?

S: Yup.

-

(5) W: What brings you here?

S: ...

(6) S: You do art classes here, right?

(7) W: Oh, I do! Why, would you be interested?

(8) S: Um - No - Yea, I mean -

(9) S: Duh. Obviously. Why else would I be here?

(10) W: Y'know! I'm a tad surprised!

(11) S: For... For what?

(12) W: You called my classes 'dumb'!

S: HEY! I THOUGHT THE *ART* WAS KICK-ASS!

(13) W: GWAA HA HA HA!

(14) W: Eh, don't fret it, lass. Appreciation for art is a skill. Come on in!

(15) S: Wait, you're taking me in? For real?

W: Yup!

-

(16) W: Don't mind the mess.

(17) W: So, what kinda art skills are we workin' with here?

S: Uh, none. Like, at ALL.

(18) W: Really, nothing at ALL?

(19) W: Tell you what. Show me what you've got!

S: Dude, what?!

(20) S: Sorry, I mean... Don't you usually do like, boxes and stuff first?

(21) W: Eh, it's mandatory school (material).

W: Either way, I just gotta know what YOU can do.

(22) S: So like, what do I draw?

(23) W: Whatever.

(24) S: Shouldn't you teach me what, though?

(25) W: Gwa-ha! Nope!

W: Here, focus on the blank canvas.

(26) W: What drives you?

(27) W: What ignites a flame within you?

(28) W: Your dearest inspiration. Hold onto that thought.

-

(29) S: Psh. That's pretentious as hell.

W: OR draw a dragon! I saw you ooglin' my art there!

(30) S: (Nah) I know what I'll draw.

(31) S: [Damn. I don't even know if I'm supposed to wash the brush. Or how to do anything.]

(32) S: [How do artists even do this?]

(33) W: [And they say this girl's trouble.]

(34) S: ...

(35) S: Just tell me it's ass.

*(There was meant to be a pause here)*

(36) W: You really care about your friends, don't you?

S: ...Yeah.

(37) W: What you see as "ass", I see as you spilling your heart out! W: What you lack in other aspects... (You) make up (for it) in passion! AND you'll learn (more)!

(38) W: The moment you create anything, it's art!

W: You pass the first lesson!

(39) S: Pass?!

(DONT ASK WHY THE PART BELOW IS NORMAL. IDK FORMATTING. TUMBLR IS FUNCTIONAL.)

-

(40) S: I didn't even sign up (yet)! W: Would you like to? (41) S: … S: Hell yes. (42) W: HELL yes! That's the spirit! S: HEEELL YESS!

(43) S: Though, can I ask you a question? W: Yea, shoot. (44) S: The teacher in my class… BEFORE Ms. Alphys… (45) S: Gerson Boom? S: That's your dad, right…? (46) W: GWAA HAA HA - W: -ha! Yup! Me 'n Alvin's! (47) W: Haa haa… (48) W: He would've loved to (have) you. (49) S: Really? Huh… S: I, uh… Think he raised good kids. (50) S: (And) From what I know… S: You're a lot like him! That's all. (51) S: Thanks for the lesson, Mx. Boom. (52) W: Pleasure havin' ya, kid! W: See you soon.

-

(53) W: That girl's a riot.

W: Oh dad... You would've gotten along (so) well.

[lunarmoves]

tbh as a writer im always so amazed when i see other ppls art bc im like 'wow i cant even draw a circle! how did they do that?' it very rarely occurs to me that artists are just as astonished at writers whenever they pull out stories. like oh yeah, i can write a 50k fic with a plot and overarching themes easy peasy (for the most part) - ppl are amazed at that??? crazy.

[starryeyed-seer]

What is nice about the fl community here is that. While I have big anxiety anyway I don't feel too pressured about having to do... moral caveats. I love the bazaar i think judgements are neat, I trust people understand I like. Get that i know killing people and upholding systems of oppression are bad. The bazaar is harvesting stories and drowning people and this is not like, a great thing, from a human morality perspective. But also go grandpa go!!! ♡♡♡ her personal ambition involves the deaths of millions for a cause that may not even get her what she wants ♡ yay

In general fallen london fandom has been very empowering for my anxieties around moral correctness, like. This is a space where people loooove characters who do bad things and have complicated relationships with everything. I've always struggled with that "but what if people think I'm evil for writing or caring for a character who is Too Flawed?!" And it's actually healing to look at ocs and go 'hm. You could be more fucked tbh'

[seiwas]

sellllllll it's meeeeee. hehehehehehehehehhehe

so for ur writing exercises.... deku + light? please? pretty please?

:3c

heheh heheh hehe niku. this will be the death of me. me writing izuku for the first time 🥲 i will only do this for you </3

contains: established relationship, spoilers for the end of the manga, aged up deku but sometime in between the final outcome (he doesn't get the h*** s*** from bakugo yet), mentions of sex and scars

deku + light

izuku only sleeps with the lights off.

it isn't uncommon; many people you know can't sleep with even just a sliver of light turned on somewhere in the room. but the difference with izuku, you learn, is not that he's unable to stand the light―it's that he refuses to.

you quickly pick up on it the first few times he sleeps over.

he fidgets in bed, pretty badly, actually. the nightlight you sleep with glows a warm yellow, illuminating the side of your face and coating him in its afterglow. you chalk it up to nerves, how he pulls at his sleeves and adjusts his position constantly; he is, after all, one of the most anxious people you know.

and this relationship―it's new. heck, even you feel a little jittery with his arm wrapped around you.

the rhythmic tapping on your hip only increases pace. you don't think he realizes it, so your hand gently reaches for his, intertwining your fingers as you turn around in his arms.

he's close, nearly touching you nose-to-nose; the proximity leaves you fuzzy, a little ticklish, so you giggle, a soft "oops," as the freckles dusting his face almost glisten under the warm light.

"hi," you whisper, meeting his eyes; they stare back at you wide in surprise, "can't sleep?"

he looks almost guilty at your question, as if you’ve caught him with the one thing he's been trying to keep from you.

"just—" his voice comes out louder than intended, prompting him to chuckle nervously as he readjusts his volume, "just winding down, sorry."

you inch closer, nuzzling his nose lightly, "it's okay."

"did i wake you?" he asks, cheeks flushing pink as his eyebrows furrow in immediate concern. his expression is something caught between stifling a grin and feeling sorry.

you shake your head against the pillow you share, strands of your hair tangling with his. "just winding down," you tease, watching as his gaze turns softer, eyelids drooping heavier.

sometimes, you think, izuku holds the world in his eyes―a deep, dark green, the color of life. most times, they look at you with wonderment, bright and alive; photos from inko tell you they're the eyes of his inner child.

on nights like this one, however, they hide a depth in them weighted by what you can only assume is time, and all that has happened to him in such a short span of it.

you try your best to understand what lies beneath them, knowing full well he'll never tell you outright what truly bothers him.

"is it the light?" you bring up, some time after laying in silence.

"hm?" he clarifies.

"do you have a hard time sleeping with the nightlight?"

his eyes widen briefly once more, as if shocked that you've caught him again. these split second reactions are ones you've learned to be attentive to when it comes to izuku.

"no," he tries to lie, but you know better as you turn to your nightstand and reach for its switch, "you don't–"

"it was hurting my eyes," you quickly make up an excuse, tucking yourself closer under his chin as you cut off his attempt to deny it again.

finding out that the light was the problem was the easy part—

you'd begun to notice much earlier on that izuku was barely rested on the nights he'd spend at your place. it was only when your old nightlight broke that you began to notice him waking up much later than you did, groggily rousing from a deep sleep.

—what was hard, was figuring out why.

at first, you suspected it was his scars.

"s-sorry, it's not—" he'd warned you, right as your hands gripped the hem of his shirt the first time you were about to have sex, "—it's not nice."

you didn't care though; you still don't care, and you've made that abundantly clear to him since. you love izuku and all his parts―all the nicks and jaggedy pieces of skin that make up who he is.

when you eventually ask him about it, with a request that he be honest with you for once, he tells you that it is and it isn't―the reason why he exclusively sleeps with the lights off, that is.

it's an odd, comforting relationship he has with his body—that he is simultaneously grateful and sorry for how its become a canvas, both painted and marred to symbolize japan’s historic last stand.

you find out the real reason when you catch him staring at his hands.

he does it often, when he thinks you aren't looking—his fists bunched up in the same way he used to watch the power of one for all course through his fingertips; the same way he used to prepare them in battle.

there’s a faraway look in his eyes that lingers, you notice—a little wistful if anything.

“do you miss it?” you finally ask. he gives you the same shocked look he does every time, as if he’s been caught with a secret he’s been trying to hide.

he’s learned a fair bit about you now, too, though—lying to you is futile when you’ve perfected reading his truth. he stares at his fists again as you take a seat beside him, moving to give you space. you rest your head on his shoulder gently, waiting.

“sometimes,” he admits, but you know it’s an understatement.

“i think about the vestiges a lot. i miss them the most, i think,” he continues, clenching his fists tightly, “i always try to reach out to them, but i guess it doesn’t work that way.”

“i… i try to replicate the right conditions every night, but…” then he lets go, stretching his fingers out wide. the scars on the surface ripple through his skin, telling its own story.

you hum, acknowledging what he means. silence sits with the two of you as you take his hand in yours, slowly unfurling his fingers until his palm reveals itself to you. it’s rough to the touch, seasoned with hard work and all that he’s been through.

“is that why you prefer the dark?” you ask softly, after some time.

it's not often that you stay up later than izuku does. when you do though, you catch him shifting in bed, moving from side-to-side. you pretend you aren't awake, but you hear him mumble their names, dwindling in volume as he dozes off to sleep.

he stares at his palm for a moment before he admits quietly, "yeah." his brows furrow as if contemplating whether to say more, but he shakes his head, dark green strands swaying to the beat of his embarrassed chuckle, "nevermind, it's silly."

"it's not."

you intertwine your fingers, sandwiching his hand between yours. a slight sheen glosses over his eyes as he tilts his head up to look at you. he draws in a breath, before it spills over.

"it's..." he finds the words, and you squeeze his hand in comfort, "it's easier to believe it was all real when the lights are out, and that maybe it can happen again."

[jumalanpelko]

Also (since there are so many new people here and since plans keep changing) my plans after Jumalanpelko is done:

1. Kurittomat - Jumalanpelko sequel

@kurittomat

Takes place in Jumalanpelko universe and focuses on different characters, mainly Naakkatar and Ukko, qpr cats who can switch bodies with each other

STATUS UPDATE

I havent had the time to plan the story to the point that I could start making this one right after Jumalanpelko. So I will most likely start one (or both) of the other projects and plan as I make them. I dont want to just kinda fart and call that a sequel

2. Katastrofiballadi

I am an indie author and ive been writing Katastrofiballadi for YEARS. It is this really stupid satire book series that I adore. It gies from silly to me hitting ur face with trauma so fast.

I have few very loyal readers for the books and if possible I want to continue writing at some point BUT it is very hard mentally since I have like. 10 readers (since u know indie books + in Finnish) so i will be turning these into a comic thats in english!

Ive already written 3 books so I have lots of material to work with and can start these anytime once im done with Jumalanpelko and settled with a style.

3. Ruotola

@ruotola black and white furry cat comic that has a slice of life vibe but keeps taking dark turns. Something is very wrong in the island of Ruotola and a haunting seems to be the least of the problems

STATUS UPDATE

I was kinda lost with this one for a while but sometjing just clicked and im pretty sure I know what I want to do! It needs bit more planning but all in all it is looking good!

I need to try out of I am making the comic on paper or with computer

My school is coming to end soon, i will graduate next year. I will have to look for a job but I am also very much trying to figure out a way to be an independent comic artist, I would love to just be working on my stuff with patreon ect :3 and thats how I could also draw many comics at the same time.

But we will see what happens!

Btw we are almost at the storys end! We have still:

-next chapter

-minicomic or two

-a chapter

-chapter right after that

-and an epilogue

And after that I will add few minicomics ect that happened somewhere in the middle of the story but i didnt think of them then + sugar and her suncat + Guards dad and his suncat

[razzafrazzle]

another character from die as lovers may, my funney vampire story... had this design bouncing around in my brain for years honestly

[image description: a reference image for an original character named dr. pranali guin, a fat, older dark-skinned woman that has black hair with a white streak pulled into an updo. she is wearing a tight white dress with a cropped black jacket and an orange ribbon around her neck. next to her are blurbs stating that she is 55, that her pronouns are she/her, that she is an aroace woman, and the following: "acclaimed sexologist who is rather humorless. incredibly suspicious of rowan, but isn't quite sure why. not as stern as she looks. has really bad eyesight, but refuses to wear glasses out of spite. loves melodramatic soap operas and keeps a journal detailing every plot point in them. probably autistic." end id]

[slasherflicks999]

erm what is slashers relationship with the other creepypastas :3c

before we begin im so sorry this took me legitimately SOOOO disgustingly long to answer holy SHART 💔💔💔 i needed to solidify some of his relationships ngl and i didn’t wanna give a half baked answer :,33 but now that it’s finally hereee…..

slasher room reveal GASP yes he’s sitting at his little computer answering this for u personally :3 i wanted to make it more fun hehe plus background practice…… thank u the sims 4…,,.,,

but anyway THE LITTLE CHIBI THINGS OF THEM WERE SO FUN TO DRAW and also nina with glasses canon i don’t make the rules sorry she’s just too cute with them :,,o

i haven’t been active much at all lately unfortunately BUTTTT more slasher content is soon to come..,.😈😈 TRUSTTTT i shan’t abandon thee tumblr my beloved :333🫶🏻

[yuukei-yikes]

dude i'm sorry for all the kanoshin posting but like the way shintaro immediately forgives kano for telling him as ayano how it was all his fault. what shintaro went through was so awful he lost all his friends and his Best friend committed suicide after apparently saying "it's YOUR fault for never noticing" like that shit does irreparable damage to ur well being bro. for all this time shintaro thought it was HIS FAULT that ayano killed herself

and when kano admits it was him who said that shintaro doesn't isolate it from everything else kano was going through at that moment, so he doesn't hold it against him and he forgives him so easily. and that bit is from shintaro's pov so when we switch back to kano and he's so guilty and sort of in disbelief shintaro doesn't hate him. sorry that entire part with kano's pov in the seventh novel reads SO extremely romantic towards shintaro it's crazy. maybe i'm just gay but "he used to smile at my sister in a different way than he'd smile for everyone else. now he's smiling at me just like that" girl. EXCUSE ME. i didnt even care about kanoshin when i first read the seventh novel btw and i was still like oh so kano's into him. got it.

like shintaro's the victim to probably the most cruel thing kano's ever done to someone and he FORGIVES HIM so for kano who hates himself it's like. something something he sees me at my worst and still has the nerve to be kind to me. something something.

and in between all that there's kido and mary like god shintaro ur so lameeee, and kano in his mind is like i think he's cool actually.... im not saying it out loud though. he's down so bad for him it's so funny because it switches from all those convoluted guilty feelings to kano sort of twiling his hair like omg he's so heroic. and it's kind of endearing

kano's crush on shintaro is infuriatingly well written it's crazy. and it's even crazier that it's by accident and then u read the stuff not written directly by jin like the anthologies and the manga and instead they go for the weird incest shit, it's so jarring lol. and i'm not saying jin intended for it to be romantic. in fact it seems to me at least like jin thinks haruka and shintaro are the gayest ones?? just from how he jokes around and stuff. but it's funny how he wrote all that for kano but NOOOO kano's like such a flirt with women he's totally a lady's man. what's REALLY gay is haruka and shintaro crying in front of each other. can u imagine, boys... crying and being vulnerable with each other... hahhh so gay!!! girl maybe but RIGHT before that u wrote haruka going on about how he realizes he's into takane romantically precisely because HE'S NOT into shintaro romantically. like it is very much a point he makes. sorry that was a side tangent. anyways.

[wishyoudwell]

I really, really admire fic writers. I like to write sometimes too, but it’s hard to keep going and finish writing long fics (and my english is just kind of OK).

So I’m mainly a oneshot warrior and even then that’s tough…but LU gives me more writing ideas than any fandom ive been in before. I guess it’s the spirit of the whole thing since fanfiction is a major part of it. All the passionate hard work is really wonderful…!

[jayparked]

feelin a lil silly after being so adamant on not wanting to be in a relationship and wanting to take a break from dating and then this goofy boy just appears in my life and yeah well

[burning-sol]

You know what? I realise why the Sinsmas episode is pissing me off so much, it's because it's juggling so many different ideas that it doesn't spend enough time committed to a single one. Let me just break it down the way I see it...

The first idea we're introduced to is one about Stolas' depression but then when he sits down with Blitz we're introduced to the idea of Stolas' poverty.

The previous ideas are what you think that the episode might focus on until you get hit with the Octavia B-Plot. Okay! A-Plot is about depression and poverty, B-Plot is about Stolas not being able to contact Octavia... (I might be using those terms incorrectly, but you get the idea,)

But THEN you get Sinsmas introduced which is about the idea of indulging in your sins, which is shown to be important to the audience because it's expressed in dialogue, right? Wait, no, it's about Stolas's depression/poverty, okay then....

But THEN you cut to the office and we get a Millie and Moxxie bonding scene, so you think, "wait, is there going to be another DIFFERENT plotline introduced into this episode about their relationship??" AND YOU GET MORE ABOUT SINSMAS, multiple shots about the holiday and the idea of indulging in your sins!! So wait, the idea of Sinsmas IS an individual idea from the depression/poverty point? Or isn't it??

Stolas sobs on the phone, there's a very obvious depression/poverty breakdown, but then we get MORE NEW SHIT introduced because it's about Stolas' cheating. And I understand that that's meant to tie into Octavia's B-plot, but there's a subtle difference between that and THIS that adds another layer of shit on top (elaborated on later).

Which, BTW, I just wanna point out how this idea is contradictory to the Sinsmas idea since CHEATING is about INDULGING in LUST - as is established in your PREVIOUS. IMPORTANT. SEASON ONE FINALE... So WHY would you make a character shame a sin that's meant to be in the process of being celebrated which confuses the Sinsmas idea and was also the CORE of the Stolitz will-they-won't-they before now?? If it was to trigger Stolas' breakdown you already HAD the poverty story beat, this is just needless and confusing redundancy??

So then we actually get to Octavia and we get a scene about the idea of Stolas and Octavia not being able to get in contact with each other - the B-Plot - and followed by her introspective song and the discovery of Stolas' pills. And now we suddenly feel like we're back to where we were MEANT to be, with the Octavia B-Plot taking a pause to cut back to the Depression A-Plot. This builds up tension as we naturally feel the two characters drawn together.

And theeeen it cuts to the I.M.Ps and I'm banging my head against the wall because you're like, "Oh! The Millie and Moxxie relationship idea! This is going to be about them!"

But then OH MY GOD a NEW idea is introduced about Blitz wanting a FAMILY WITH STOLAS. I want to shoot someone because the cheating was a set up for Blitz to fantasise about wanting a family??? Is this meant to be a parallel to episode 1??? Am I meant to feel like Blitz has developed as a character?? In an episode that has been about every character OTHER than Blitz???

And then it's meant to be likeee like about Millie's pregnancy because she wants to kill the family instead of leaving them be, but it's also about Moxxie's relationship with her, but it's ALSO about being "demon enough" (WHATEVER THAT IS, IT'S NEVER ELABORATED ON), but it's also ALSO about Sinsmas.

Okay! Okay, back to the REAL plot except- Wait, Octavia walked in??? Wait, so this plot is now about Blitz wanting a family and he's going to bond with Octavia?? No! NO because they don't have any emotional connection and so there is no reason for this scene to exist if either way Blitz was going to know where Stolas went and Octavia was going to end up there as well anyways.

And can you tell I'm tired of writing at this point? Cus I'm losing my mind. FINALLY the A-plot and B-plot that should have been the center of the episode all along gets a fuck ton of screentime and it's beautiful and it's the peak of the episode.

And theeen it's back to Millie and you think, "Okay, so a big part of the pregnancy plot is clearly meant to be about Millie and Moxxie's relationship based on all the scenes we've gotten between them! That means that Millie and Moxxie are going to have some sort of important dialogue-" And then she WALKS OUT on him and she has her emotional moment with her sister! Which isn't a bad thing but need I remind you she isn't even in the center a FULL LENGTH episode, she's from a SHORT... WHY would you NOT integrate Sallie into a proper episode if she's going to be key to a future INCREDIBLY important plotline??

The episode ends with Blitz and Stolas and the credits roll blah blah blah...

This post is basically expands on some of the points of my post about my first impressions, because I just wanted to give a run down of the structure properly so you can understand why this episode is making me feel like I'm losing it. And I get it, if you put in the effort you can get an idea of how all the ideas were meant to tie together... But it doesn't! It's badly written! It makes me want to rip my hair out!

Ideas are established and then sit there uncomfortably without resolutions to them! Like even the shit. That was meant to be the main shit. The poverty and depression stuff? NO conclusion. Stolas says, "you don't have to refer to me as your highness" I guess?? But like, nothing to show him settling in with everyone else in the celebration to show he's like. Poor? And okay with it? By partaking in the holiday of those that are meant to be "beneath" him? No mention of his medication???

Just!! Okay. To understand the way shit in the writing could have been better, let me list some ways you could change the episode to be more coherent or cut down on redundancy if my points have so far not landed.

Establish Sallie towards the BEGINNING of the episode and her dynamic with Millie, and show how that compares to her relationship with Moxxie, and show WHY she would call Sally instead of talking with Moxxie first. If you're going to make the episode about family btw, this would be the point where Millie could bring up HER family and how much she values them or something in order to establish that as being important. Also, use this to explore what Millie and Moxxie's feelings on having a baby WOULD be, so that if there's conflict there then you have more understanding of why Millie made the decision she did.

Use the actual environment in the background of the montage to show the passage of time instead of it suddenly being Sinsmas. Have demons setting up holiday decorations, in the stores put up discount signs about a "Sinsmas sale!" This makes the story flow more naturally, as well as adds characterisation and makes Stolas' depression more real as he's shown to be so absorbed in his own world he doesn't even realise it's the holiday until Blitz brings it up.

Octavia's phone and the device she listens to music on is the same (I checked S1E2 to confirm it), which causes a sloppy writing issue. Like. If the episode is meant to show Stella is controlling and it's not Octavia's choice not to get in contact with Stolas, then you need to explain why she hasn't called him despite having access to her phone when Stella isn't around. If it were me, I would have had Stella lock it in a drawer that Octavia picks the lock on so she can listen to her music. THEN you can keep the original scene, OR (this is what I would have done) have her check her phone logs so you can see not only how many times Stolas has called but how much time has passed. Maybe this could also be used as another reason to drive her towards the closet as she hides from Stella and Andrealphus. Maybe this could be used as an interesting metaphor about her desire to leave but she doesn't know what she's going to do once she picks the lock on the door... Like how she could call her Dad now that she has her phone but she doesn't know what she'll do when she does... Something like that.

DON'T have Blitz and Via meet up if they're not going to interact. That entire scene is fucking pointless as is and I hate it. Either dedicate a PROPER amount of time and dialogue into making Blitz want to and try to connect with Via, or have them not talk at all. Cut out the whole thing about Blitz wanting a family with Stolas honestly, it's just not well explored enough.

Again with the sloppy writing, the gang did NOT need to stumble into a room of weapons to have weapons. That's pointless. They're assassins, they've been established to bring a stash of weapons with them to fights before. I can think of something much funnier where Moxxie is surprised by Loona's transformation and there's a joke made about her being a noble steed and Moxxie pulls out a sword only for Millie to be like, "Why did you bring that?" And Moxxie says something about how it's a posh weapon cus that's his thing. OR you could have some badass impromptu weapons the gang makes from the ice or they use Sinsmas decorations scattered around. IDK.

Already made my point about Stolas and the poverty idea. Show him settling in with the others during the celebration and him opening up to the idea that he's no longer rich or well respected. The "you don't have to refer to me as your highness" would work if the text bothered to show his mental state properly, instead of him just looking depressed and like he kind of hates everyone there.

Have Blitz PLEASE react to Stolas' depression. Like. Acknowledge it. And share his feelings about it. AND GIVE STOLAS HIS MEDICATION FFS he clearly has clinical depression!! Blitz is sooo head empty in this episode, PLEASE give him more internal thoughts other than :) I'm holding my head in my hands.

And I'm so tired of writing at this point I'm going to stop it there but I hope that was thorough enough to get across my points. And if not then I guess that speaks to how loopy this episode made me that I can't even articulate myself 100% because dear god.

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do you ever think about how all you used to draw when you were 10 was ponies and that you should still know how to do that, then get an idea and proceed to draw something like these in nearly one sitting and it turns out better than any drawing you've done in the entire past month

sooo anyway does anyone have cutie mark or pony name ideas for them?? lol