#i dont really get what that means actually

[determinate-negation]

another reminder to donate to mohammeds @save-mohamed-family campaign. as ive said before, mohammed’s entire immediate family was killed in the war and he is trying to save his wife and kids. i know people have been reading sentences like this for months now but seriously think about what it actually means to lose so many of the people absolute closest to you like that. its an unimaginable amount of loss and i don't want him to lose any more of his family.

this is #192 on the Vetted Gaza Fundraiser List

donations have been going slowly today but this is still extremely urgent. although he was able to buy some medicine for his kids with the funds i transferred last week, they’re still suffering from skin diseases and a lot of the money will need to go towards securing a stronger tent for the winter.

here are photos he sent me of his son who unfortunately is suffering from the skin diseases caused by the idfs destruction of sanitation and medical systems

mohammed goes every day to internet hotspots to send messages and try to raise money for his family, even though its more dangerous because the idf frequently targets wifi hotspots and places where people gather. he’s putting himself in danger constantly to try to save his family. please dont let his efforts be in vain.

please donate to this campaign, even if its $5. every donation adds up and the collective action of many people really makes a difference. i really hope this can get to 14k by tonight.

$13,127 raised of $50,000

[lucabyte]

transfem loop + siffrin... you agree

i does agree.... i does in fact ... write a 7k word essay on the subject..... if you would like to perhaps click that link and read it if you were not already aware...... kisses u on the forehead......... sorry its that long but i had to cover all of my bases you know how it is with textual analysis when you're trying to draw a distinction between "headcanon" and "reading of the text" because those are different things.... to meeeeeeee.......

[heaven-s-black-box]

Notes- Shy S/O Scaramouche & more

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Recovery date: September 18th, 2024

Description: hii so i was wondering if you could write about genshin characters with a s/o who's rlly shy and just hides behind them when someone talks to them? For the characters i'm think scaramouche, lyney, zhongli, xiao and any others you want! Feel free to delete if u dont wanna write it, and thanks!!

Notes: This work was recovered in conjunction with an anonymous researcher, we thank them for their contributions.

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Scaramouche

As Scaramouche? He scoffs

The chances of you being around his height or taller are high

So he thinks it’s stupid

But he loves you, though he’s loath to admit it, so he’ll stand a little taller and glare at the person

You don’t want him to glare? Then stop using him as a shield

As Wanderer? Rolls his eyes

Which is an improvement

Also tries to work on your confidence because what if there’s no one to hide behind

You can hold his arm if you want, no he won’t repeat himself

In both cases, if anyone makes fun of you for it he will resort to violence

He’s actually very proud you feel so safe with him

Lyney

He’s used to Freminet, so he’s quick to adapt

Though he has to admit, you hiding behind him makes him proud

Sure, the kids hide behind him all the time; even Freminet does it sometimes

But this is different

At first he thinks the person talking is a threat, so he squares up and puts an arm arm you

Then he realizes you aren’t really afraid of this person, just shy

It remind him of when you first met, how you kept hiding behind your tea cup

That’s when it clicks, it’s never been a coincidence you’re always holding something to hide behind

Works with Freminet to help you find something like  his helmet

Also tries to pull you out of your comfort zone by putting on magic shows for the house of the earth kids

Zhongli

You have no problem hiding behind him

He’s also very understanding

Introduces you to Ganyu, she’s soft spoken and you almost remind him of her

Dragon instinct are purring

You see him as a protector, if he were his younger self he’d be preening

I mean, he is, but it would be more obvious

Offers you his coat for when he isn’t around

You can hide in it, or maybe the feeling of it will help

Definitely tries to help you out of your shell

Xiao

Actually thinks you’re in danger

You called his name 100% by accident, startling the person who asked for directions

That just made you bury your head into his shoulder

Which flustered him, so he teleported you both away

He wishes he could be there for you, but his karma means he can’t be in the city often

So he introduces you to Ganyu, because she’s pretty unsure of herself at times

Xiao totally gets insecurities, he just bottles his up

But Ganyu faces hers so surely she can help, it’s a very awkward first meeting

Anyways, if you two are out together (on the rare occasion) will gladly let you hide behind him

Unfortunately he has a bit of a resting bitch face, so anyone who tries to talk to you gets really uncomfortable

[cokoweee]

Heavens to Betsy I’ve been meaning to go on this rant forever but I keep forgetting for some reason

Quick disclaimer- I’m not analyzing your comic at all, I just notice little accuracies that make me happy.

~

Ok coming from a psychology major student, your description of PTSD and mental health issues is actually pretty dang good. Idk if it was intentionally researched or not but there’s like a ton of stuff that’s consistent with real life trauma and it’s quite frankly impressive

Again not sure if this was intentional or not but the thing on his back reminds me so much of old school electroshock therapy which I adore bc

A: it causes confusion and memory loss which you’ve shown and

B: kinda implies that maybe he did his own research when deciding how to deal with everything or

C: again is incredibly accurate in the fact that most trauma patients continuously seek pain out, and in turn report feelings of extreme boredom and numbness when not actively experiencing pain or reliving trauma. In his case going borderline catatonic when he’s not freaking out.

On the topic of “freaking out” a lack or decrease in serotonin leads to a more reactive and intense episodes in PTSD. Or, because the little guy is like mega depressed coz of the whole situation, he gets way more intense and violent episodes that someone who was on like Prozac. And would tend to be more on edge and sensitive to triggers.

Then there’s his family. For some background, there’s a part of your brain called the amygdala. It typically works to control basic emotions, but responds very well to fear. In traumatic experiences, it pairs with the hippocampus (the memory center of the brain) to store vivid and occasionally sensory memories.

When a memory trigger is provoked and brought back into consciousness, it actually changes slightly depending on the context of which it recalled. Those memories are changed to fit how we make sense of them. So if he feels guilty for his brothers death, then his memories will reflect it whether or not it’s actually true.

Essentially, him having his brothers showing up all the time (looking the way they do) is really bad for him on multiple levels, and not just because they’re triggering visually. They’re like actually impeding his ability to recover by keeping him in an aggressive form of already intense fight or flight that comes from trauma.

On a happier note, one of the best ways to improve is to establish and nurture caring relationships. Awww

Aight ima stop here so I don’t bore you to death with random psych facts, but like kudos to you my dude because I could go on forever about some of the stuff in there

Uh yeah

-writing anon 🤡

WRITING ANON? SLAPPING OUT ANALYSISSISIS AND SHIT?

Bein real I dont do much research on shit even tho I should. I just go off what I’ve seen/ learned throughout the years. It’s always good to hear I’m doin ahit right tho!

Lowkey right with the shock tho. Or high key lol. Seeking pain there’s other ways people do it but mmm somehow this seemed the tamest way. Oh writing anon u silly lil saltine cracker

[notveevee]

NOT ANYWHERE

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cp 10: prolly not

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when toge woke up late, again. “he should probably stop streaming so much” is the advice yuta gave to toge although he did NOT take it. but now he has 20 minutes until he has to be at class. ☹️

he arrives 2 minutes late, internally thanking yuta for reminding him to do his homework last night. i mean, he did it.. but most of the answers were copied offline.

yuji sits next to him again. and almost immediately starts a conversation with him, maybe maki was right.. he is loud. toge sinks deeper into turtle neck and closes his eyes hoping he would get the hint to talk to him later.

he doesnt, whatever…… i guess i actually have to talk to him. toge listens to whatever he was saying and it sounds like he is trying to find out if he is a streamer or not. “so.. i was on… Twitch.. the other day.. ever heard of it..?” yuji says. “yeah. arent you a streamer” toge replies, hopefully he didnt sound too mean.

yujis eyes widen slightly as his voice goes down to a whisper “WHAT HOW DID YOU KNOW” yuji whispers. “my friend watches your streams” yuji makes a quiet “oh” … “are they also a streamer” yuji asks. “mhm” toge replies

“we should stream together sometime!” yuji excitedly says. “oh, i dont know if one of my friends would be… thrilled… to meet you”

“whatttt…. why nott”

“i dunno, shes been weird lately” toge laughs slightly

“mmhm”

they both go back to their notes

at the last 5 minutes of class they resume their conversation on streaming, “we really should, it would be good for our accounts” yuji says with a smile

“i could probably get 2/3 of my friends to come. one might be a little harder” toge says

“do you want my number so we can plan it ?”

“sure. its xxx-xxx-xxxx” toge says

“thanks!” yuji walks off when the class ends

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spongebob pfp!!!

i do have a test on monday 😭😭

i got a 98 on my science test guys!! (clap)

heh!!

so smarttt!!

maki keeps auto correcting to maki

OH IT DOESNT DO IT THAT TIME THO.

MAKING

toge did NOT listen to maki.

btw i do nkt proofread anythin i write, you can probaly tell tho.

MY PHONE IS SO GLICTHY

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

no i didnt spell prolly wrong 🌀🌀

your telling me a shrimp fried this rice

when yuji said theyre he was talking about maki, he doesnt know anything about her yet

taglist (10/20) ask to be added

@frogtits1 @megumisdivinedogs @asparkofapricity @satoryaa @starmaiya11 @1ndee @tuna-toes @loriisheart @kurtcobaingirlie @city-of-lovers

if you werent tagged then idk… sorry…..

[crazy-lazy-elder-sims]

-Gates of Ishtar Arabic inspired wedding venue-

so i have a build! this is for Arabic weddings as they are a different style of wedding than what the game usually caters to, i did have to add an arch because the game requires it for a wedding to happen but for a typical Arabic wedding the actual marriage part happens sitting down at a table with the officiant parents and witnesses either days before in the church or mosque or even at home then this party or in a private room in the venue same day as the party, then you go to the venue to "announce it" and celebrate by walking in to music dancing eating and receiving congratulations from your guests and taking pictures, the newlyweds sit on a couch at the top center of the room sometimes elevated like it is here. NOTE: alot of people celebrate differently ofc im not saying this exactly how it happens every time! also this is based on the outdoor weddings i attended mixed in with bablonyan style of decor, inside weddings look a little different the difference being that its well inside in a massive room and the dance floor is in the middle between the two sides. AGAIN weddings will probably be different to people from different areas keep that in mind.

anyway

features:

no cc.

50*50 lot made for oasis springs but not required to be placed there

2 small kitchens and the second floor has two bathrooms on either side

following the tradition of the bride and groom walking to their seat from outside the venue while people cheer on i have placed invisible aisles on the walkway outside and the hallway leading up to the actual walkway

swans in the lake hehe

4 buffet tables and 2 drink trays! you can remove the end tables in the buffet rooms and add a bar if you want there is space for that

fully playtested. im about to go have a second wedding in there actually

packs used : packs with dots on them means i only used one or two things and can be ignored if you dont have them

things will be missing if you dont have them: lovestruck: palm plant -discover university: bathroom stalls- get to work: photobooth - home chef hustle: decorative plates - paranormal: potted plant - movie hangout: the one couch- perfect patio: the outer fence - revira retreat: drinks tray

FREE. DO NOT REUPLOAD OR PUT BEHIND PAYWALL I WILL CALL YOU OUT IF YOU DO

DOWNLOAD: simfileshare - mediafire

here's a nice wedding i had here <3

this was actually really fun and worked smoothly <3

[werebutch]

whats with the whole slew of hateful ass posts in regards to being trans? its weird to see you talk about how dysphoric you are, and then put down other people because you say more of a man than them, or you're more butch, or masc, or you experience dysphoria and they dont. youve really been edging more towards "you need to present a certain way if you want to be a [insert label here] (i.e. a man/butch/etc)" or "you need dysphoria to be trans" and its just a bit disheartening to see

I grew up a little and realized that it doesn’t make any sense for someone to be trans and not put any effort into it besides changing their name and pronouns and maybe wearing button up shirts I’m sorry but I feel like that’s a pretty normal opinion. 14 yo me would hate me for saying the stuff you mentioned but once i got out of highschool and out of my theater kid friend group I kinda changed my way of thinking a little. LMAO

As for specifically me saying I’m more masc than whoever is kinda ummm well I don’t know about you but where I live it’s pretty much all no-transition trans dudes who like hazbin hotel. I’m being serious here. To be honest it makes me sick to be associated with some types of transmascs and even if you disagree I think you know who I’m talking about. Obsessed with only using the word ‘boy’ to describe themself, boypussy jokes, hot for chasers to tell them they’re women, afraid of or disgusted by most of the effects of testosterone, etc…. Why even bother calling yourself a dude. I mean does this not make sense ? Feel like these kinds of transmascs also always hide under being afab when presented with evidence of their own transmisogyny or even just misogyny. Guys no, I’m really a woman!!! Type stuff 🤦

I know hating on other trans people does zero good but this is my blog where I post my personal thoughts LOL. I get along with the people mentioned above just fine in real life and I really actually don’t care that much. We’re all oppressed and whatever. But I give myself the chance to be a little bit chronically online on here LMFAO

[mundaneblue]

Alien Stage Theory time!!

With Round 7 just around the corner, I felt it fitting to look back on my theories I've gathered so far and very heavily believe in. But my most CRUCIAL one that I always feel like talking about is:

Ivan meant for both him and Till to die in Round 6.

So I am of the opinion that Ivan did NOT plan to do the whole sacrifice at all.

It was spontaneous.

And I have several reasons to back this theory up.

So we all know that ever since Ivan and Till were kids, Ivan had been obsessed with the idea of them escaping together.

He knew Till valued “freedom” and because he did, Ivan started to value it too. But never alone. Only with Till.

Since Ivan went back to Anakt instead of escaping after Till did the same because of the fear of leaving Mizi.

Even in the scene where Ivan finds Till passed out in around 6, he looks helpless, and cradles his face in a “Dont worry, it’ll all end soon” kind of way.

So when Till stops singing and Ivan approaches him to kiss, the kiss was NOT planned.

Now this was the factor that surprised everyone. Even Unsha. It was so unexpected that he wished he knew what Ivan was thinking, but that’s the thing.

Ivan WASNT thinking.

Even Ivan himself was shocked at what he was doing since he had no control over his actions at that moment at all.

And this correlates to ivan's eccentric behaviour. As we know that ever since he was a child, he never really felt like he fit in with his fellow peers. This is very interesting to me as in Black Sorrow we are shown this picture of Ivan being very uninterested in spending time with the kids in his class. He has this mundane look of unamusement.

But as we look at more alien stage content, we see that Ivan was actually one of the most social in his class. Everyone admired him.

This shows that the rounds/videos don't necessarily mean what was infact happening but what the characters themselves felt.

This is also why I believe Ivan and Till were way more closer than what Ivan painted in his rounds. He just never felt the same love from Till, hence his constant inner mantra of wanting Till to look at him.

Now we've gotten that clear!

The main thing I want to deliver is that Ivan is an unreliable narrator. And he doesn't know how to handle his feelings in a methodical way. He has this distortive, almost possessive view when it comes to love and honestly that, to me, is what makes Ivan Ivan.

Ivan doesn't know how to properly think when he's faced with his emotions. He's used to tuning out his emotions to do things. So when his emotions get involved? It's like an electric shock and he relies on the thing closest to him to hold on to.

And that thing is Till.

Ivan was obsessed with Till. I'm sure we all know that but people really undermine his determination when it comes to Till.

I really do believe that Ivan planned for both him and Till to die in R6 as an ode to their longing for freedom.

Because all Ivan ever wanted was to be free with Till.

The counter statements that suggest he wasn't choking Till and merely had his hands on him simply doesn't sit with me as the animation clearly showed Ivan's hands clenching hard as he progressed to choke him.

Look at the dent formed by Ivan's fingers on his neck, right at the crucial point of air supply.

And Till is shocked but as he's gradually losing air, his eyes start to get heavy and he gets ready to accept the darkness that follow

And while Ivan is getting shot, he chokes him even harder.

Because that IS his goal.

For Till and him to die so they'd be together in whatever life that follows hereafter.

I disagree when I hear that Ivan meant to sacrifice himself for Till. Yes that did happen at the end but it was never what he initially intended. His initial intent was far more dark and possessive. Which is very on brand for a Vivinos character.

However, now we're getting to the sacrifice part and I believe this is where Ivan had a turning point.

As he gets his final shot and basically sees he's about to die, he looks at Till in surprise.

Because no matter how much he wished for them both to be together, he can't kill his God. He can't kill his Universe. Ivan is possessive but Ivan is also weak when it comes to him.

This smile of his shows that sentiment. "Ah I really can't go through with it afterall"

Ivan always believed he and Sua were similar but he resented her for sacrificing herself for Mizi. He believed he was better than that. He won't ever do that. Wherever Till goes, he goes. Yet, when he was actually faced with the task of doing it, he finally realised what Sua felt. Because Sua, just like Ivan, was also quite possessive of Mizi.

He couldn't do it, and at that moment he knew that he and Sua really weren't so different. Only difference was that while Sua was loved, felt love. Ivan never felt it.

Ivan did everything for Till. He stayed at Anakt for Till. He pursued alien stage for Till.

And his last act was also for Till. He wanted his last action to be for himself, to finally grant his long due wish of being with Till but he couldn't do it. And while the sacrifice was spontaneous, it was just so...easy to do. Because again, Ivan thought Till never cared as much about him as he did (abandonment issues at their finest) so him dying wouldn't really affect him as much.

This makes Ivan so much more tragic for me. And this heavily fits him as a complex character.

"Thank you for being the victim of my shallow emotions."

When were you or your feelings ever shallow, Ivan...

[neonfretra]

idk what cutie mark pld would have but now i'm wondering if you've assigned any hockey players cutie marks

answering this ask shaking and covered in ash (had to fight tumblr for it . did not show up in ask box. had to go through notifications for it . try multiple times to get it to process this post. functional website.)

the unfunny answer is every single one of them with a hockey cutie mark LMAOOO individuality <3 (just pull up the emoji keyboard and imagine)

the funny answer is do you think philipp grubauer would have a horse cutie mark

it probably wont be too hard to figure for players who customize their gear with consistent imagery to an extent right? shout out to goalies for making my life easier LOL olaf (murashov). two bears (ullmark). mackblack with a racial slur on the chin of his helmet.

id pitch tattoos as kind of a similar idea but that is a LOT of cup tramp stamps and photo realistic wolves that are not trampstamps . and it mostly depends on how much meaning it holds to the player

IDK if text is. normal. for a cutie mark. probably a little ugly for a toy. but also sidney crosby probably has an 87 cutie mark . he is more 87 than 87 is 87. you know what i mean??? (actually how many people would have 87 as their cutie mark LMAO)

for players that are ride or die for their team do you think they would have the team logo as a cutie mark . connor mcdavid rocking the oilers cutie mark and now you CANT really change the logo while hes still a player

how do we feel about nicknames as cutie marks?? arturs irbes cutie mark is the wall. (obligatory ARTURS IRBEEEEEE here)

i dont think marc edouard vlasics cutie mark is a pickle but can you imagine how awkward thatd be. ranked worst nickname by players. they failed to change it (aaron dell is on that article! GUESS WHOS A SHARK AGAIN BABY!!! you can check out any time you like but you can never leave)

how many guys would just have their facial hair as a cutie mark. two staches blast. also, joe thornton (see: branding for his retirement ceremony)

logan couture is a blank flank.

the crazy part is IDK anything about mlp or like. any team thats not the sharks.

[pochx]

i doubt i'm going to do a masters in literature (even if i kinda wanna) so like what if i just do the research on my own....

like obviously i won't have access to databases but doing a genre analysis on something that afaik likely doesn't HAVE any peer-reviewed academic writings on it yet means i wouldn't be using them much anyways.

the downside is obviously that y'know no peer review. no guidance from professors. and what other benefits there are but for once i sorta understand the need to do something because i cannot stop thinking about this topic that bo one else likely cares about.

[callisteios]

Hi, feel free to take my new uquiz to discover what kind of vampire you are!

[puppyeared]

id fumble him so bad

[tzarrz]

to all people who said PART 1 made them laugh - i lov u 💗 this is for u

[mortysmith]

i do still occasionally think about that one show

[ganondoodle]

should surprise absolutely no one that i much much much prefer radahn when hes older (and not mindless! or mindcontrolled!)

(doesnt look amused about what malenia just did in that ol trailer- and possibly even moreso about what she said)

that (and base game) version of him is the only one to meeeeeeeee

[blueskittlesart]

deeply refreshing to see someone critical of Swift who also like, genuinely likes her. Like i'm neutral to positive on her, but the online discourse has been absolutely rancid. flipping between "Taylor Swift has never done anything wrong ever and she's a fucking genius" and "Taylor Swift is the worst lyricist of all time and also a bad person" is exhausting, so thank you for like. nuance or something lmao

not to make it serious for a sec but i genuinely think that being able to like things that are bad is really important. like I think that it's an important skill to be able to look at something and see what you personally enjoy about it and then take a step back and acknowledge that objectively it's flawed. and to also be able to acknowledge that liking something isn't necessarily an identity or a moral stance. and i think that fandom space in general could really benefit from more people taking the time to learn how to do that. it's okay to like things that are bad