#i dont need theraphy

[ellaishotterthanyou]

[llavbit]

I never liked that mew the manipulator theory and im still not fully subscribed to it but whether he does it consciously or not he did manipulate rays feelings this episode (and like obviously is kinda going into that villain era with the manipulation at mind so)

From the pool party episode we have seen rays feelings being more and more used against him. By different characters. They keep drilling hole in his stomach about his feelings for mew and hes been trying to move on with sand but with sand they are only friends and he's been literally LOSING IT

But they keep doing it and hes lost and he, quite obviously, picks what he knows and what finally is achievable for him because its all he ever knew to be stable. This is what he believed for years to be what will make him whole again.

So of course he picks mew.

[superbuddiemaxxing]

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[hyohaehyuk]

I was a bit skeptical at first but it seems this person works in the entertainment industry so it makes sense Jacob had said confidencial things to her

[luffythinker]

i totally forgot i had to come back here kjfdjkdf went back to work and there was a lot to catch up

[strab3rr]

(long story and no short sorry) GUYSSS I DID ITT

I INDUCED IT!!!!! I WAS PURE AS A FUCKING BABY

IDK WHAT TO SAY (ok enough w capslock)

i have so much to say and not a thing at da same time idk how

anyway i want to begin with thanking you @b4ddprincess bc youre the reason i realized why i started this thing. thank you for making my life better and make me realized what i need to do: nothing. (its same for you guys, all u have to do is nothing)

two fuckn years ago i said to myself that i need a better life, quiter life, less fight with everthing bc everything was so loud and not clear i was feeling lost like a child in the market, and i wanted to make things better for myself in every way, but the main idea of my reasons to wanting to get in the void was: making anxiety go and having better people in my life. but the ''voidlist'' just never stopped bc im kinda greedy(having the idea of controling on your life, the idea of that power makes you greedy. yes thats a thing) anyway the more i add to the list the more i feel like im movin away from my desires then i feel depressed bc ive overcomplicating it bc theres so many things to do but i dont do anything so nothing happend bc i was waiting to be someth happen. and then i started doing awkwardly silly things such as: void routines and challenges and (im embarrassed of this one bc i was too desperate) drinking water

youve read it correct drinking water.

i was sooo desperate for having those things id do anything to get them.

i am simple. i want what everyone wants🎀🎀🎀: shifting realities bc i have so many crush and i need them to be crush me in bed(for 2020 girlies)

being an academic weapon is so easy for me🎀(bc of the urge to make my family proud) +dream collage

being the girl that everyone gets along w(basic needs)

being the girl who is pretty not cute(trauma response)

glowing aura(cats loves people w glowing aura yes thats a thing too)

dream body n hair(bc i deserve this🎀)

healthy (girlyfriend)friends(basic needs)

and of course him, my sp(i cant tell wich one at that time but i releived that its not him now, bc MY BELOVED CURRENT BF. guyss he is the one. dont u dare ask me how you know? i literally manifested him🎀)

then i realized i can have everything bc its my reality so why not add these:

new phone, +macbook air

dream apartment of my own

pinterest closet

lifa app for this reality

financially free-money(a lot. like really a lot)

knowing 4 languages like a native person(bc i want to be diplomat so bad) +sign language(its in general)

a little drama(its not gonna hurt anybody)

my parents being more lovable and away from me

every time i try to get in, either i was failing or falling

and im sick of it, sick of it so much i quit.(for a year)

then i go to the theraphy(ofc no im jk ilove being crazy)

one day i saw a post ss from tumblr about pure consciousness on pinterest and i was like whaat is thiiss. no mention of void so i thougt its a diffrent thing and i download the tumblr again and search everything abt it. and same excitement again after one year same thougts and same list popes up in my head. and i was like ok maybe this time itll happen.

still waiting to be someth happen so nothing happend, it was such a waste of time trying to get in while i was already be, i was already what i want to become. i was that girl that everyone gets along with but i couldnt even see bc i was too focused on wanting to be. but still tried every night and failed. and again tried-failed-quit circle bc.. have you ever met me🎀

4 month ago i saw the girl, iconic blogger and the goddess of my dreams, her @b4ddprincess thx again love u so much

a post pops in my fyp and i see the words ''pure consciousness'' i was like noo not again. and i was serious abt it i wasnt gonna read the whole thing but it attract me n i couldnt resist it so ive read it from the top to the bottom. and she got my interest so i stalked her page from the last and to the first post. it was quiet a beautiful journey for me. lasted like 3 days, the end of the 3rd day i was ''woaw it was this easy all along? u cant be serious.'' she was. i tried one last time, no breathing exercise, no ridiculous routines and no waiting something to be happen. it was just me being real me chilling out asf.

and it was this easy and it should be this easy bc being your 4d self is being nothing also being everything at the same time. if u wanna be everything you should be nothing first(as wizardliz saying: drop the old story, leave the victimhood, for being better stop being bitter etc.)u should make a space for everything first and then u can be everything.

for being 4d self of yours stop being your3dself.

sooo long story (no)short i am writing this from my mac in my new apartment(in middle of the night bc i couldnt sleep and then one tumblr notification reminded me i have a success story to share too) and my phone buzzing two minutes a time bc of my friends while im writing this, so if theres anything wrong ignore it pls.

oh u asking my bf how cute, hes sleepin in my bed now, exhausted from the work n school balance.

YWS SCHOOL!! im in my dream collage and im going to be in paris for a week. i deserve a vacation i guess(its for another conference), i kinda hate french men bc theyre so mansplaning(not like how i imagined, its hard to be friends w them)girls are cute but i feel like theyre aware im not permanent there so we just con buddies still cute and hepful for this foreigner.

and i canceled the lifa app thingy bc i can be my purest consciousness anytime i want, so i am my lifa app.

and thx to 4 languages i make a lot of money and that brings us to the pinterest closet, yesterday i realiased that. theyre not comes to me w an imaginary way like i imagined! i go outside for shopping casually and theyre there luckily i have enough money to buy them.

and my family theyre living in our hometown now so as i want it to be, we are away from eachother.

and the most magical thing: SHIFTING REALITIESSS

i did 5 world before i met w my bf. it was such a wonderful experience. if you have doubts abt shifting you can go fuck urself

because sir i did it and i am very sure that dean winchester being my husband is not a daydream, fantasy nor lucid dreaming. believe it or not he kissed me GOD HE KİSSED ME(someone should stop me i have a bf)

is there anything i missed let me see.. cats i have 2 cats now and theyre adorable. glowing aura-check

the girl who is pretty not cute- check +make anxietygo-checkcheckcheck

dream body and hair- check and check

i wanna give u a info i didnt have all my desires by being my4dself

not directly actually. but i have them all. and thats the point.

im not trying to be a blogger but if you have any question abt anything, id be happy to help

now i need to upgrade things in my farm byeess

loves, siena.

[ninja-confession-go]

can we please talk abt how much skylor's trauma is overlooked?

(fyi most of stuff i'll write there is from memory so yall are allowed to punch me if i would say anything wrong)

she is boiled down to either noodles, girlboss (tm) or just kai's love interest who comes once in a while to save his ass BUT SHES MORE THAN THAT

i think some ppl forgot that she grew up in a literal fucking cult and her father as leader of said cult

THERE WERE A HOLES IN WALL OF HER ROOM TO THE CORRIDORS WHERE MINIONS OF HER FATHER AND LIKE MOST OF THEM WERE LIKE GROWNASS MAN????? LIKE??? NINJA WAS MEANT TO BE LIKE LATE T E E N S MAYBE IN THAT TIME AND SINCE SKYLOR IS SUPOSED TO BE SIMILAR AGE AS THEM???? MAN THATS WEIRD

the overall whole stuff with her father only caring about her powers and himself???? THATS MAN IS SO SHIT AT PARENTING MY FUCKING GODS

OH AND ALSO SHE TURNED INTO SNAKE and since its ninjago and ninjago is fucking racist towards snakes!!!!

THEN SHE WAS POISONED BY POWER OF FUCKING GOD'S SON AND ALMOST DIED!!!!!

AND LIKE... WHY IS SOLID 70% OF THE FANDOM IGNORING ALL THAT STUFF

SKYLOR IS PROBABLY AS IN NEED OF THERAPHY AS NINJA

no anon cuz im so pissed i dont give a fuck

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[justkillthetitan]

This is my small list of fics that I love (these are either more recent publish fics or fics I found searching for specific tags):

(Decided to add more fics to the list because I have found some gems*)

Authors: 

angelets (their fic when i reach for you, there's just a supercut (of us) is keeping me alive right now).

grayqueen (one of my faves fron then is I Said It Was Love, and I Did It for Life, I Did It for You ).

vogelarmin (great dead dove stories).*

nothoughtsjustabuttloadofstupidity (love their fics so much).*

itspastmybedtime (their AOT Modern AU is cheff's kiss).*

Happy Fics:

Not as Single Daddies and Their Bratty Teenage Children by AllieChick

Here's My Credit Card, So Spend It Maybe by nothoughtsjustabuttloadofstupidity

An Exorcist, a Hypnotist, and a Manipulator Walk Into a School by Edeoria_246

Together Forever by Cleaning_Ravioli

I see you (I remember you) by hatredwithpassion

Observing by dottylikehottie

Summer Sunshine by peely*

welcome to mcdonalds whats your order bruh by dottylikehottie*

The Perfect Date (Without Me) by Blueberryshark*

I need an Ocean full of Love by Blueberryshark*

Swingin' Party by RosaTonta*

Sad Endings:

The day he died, and the events that followed. by 333ducky (it includes Jearmin too)

One Last Time by jearminbrainrot

When My Time Comes by 72HoursMassacre*

Funny Chat Fics:

Ciscord by nothoughtsjustabuttloadofstupidity

y'all don't get no sleep cause of me by erros429

Time Travel:

Painted Skies by FreshGrassAkiie

A Deal With The Devil. by Rosalindax

Dark/Dead Dove (check trigger warnings):

Lines in the Sand by LivianLynx

Two Faced and Pretty by SunriseMod

Pets by Kumikoko

Love Like Duct Tape by SunriseMod

Eren and Armin's Infinite Playlist by elthedane

Waiting on Him to Suffer by ACKER_MIKA

to live gently on this earth by clysmicthoughts (phosophenes)

Run Against The World by vogelarmin

coagulant by assentodele*

Porn (With/Without/Little) Plot:

Can't You See? The Perfect One for You Is Me by grayqueen*

I Want You to Remember (I Want to Forget) by malfxy*

hey lover! by honeyspit*

Dick Move by nothoughtsjustabuttloadofstupidity*

Pixie Girl Armin

Synesthesia by Fangirl_on_fire*

Baby, You're So Cliche (I Am Too) by SunriseMod

Non-Romantic Eremin/EMA (very worth reading):

''Hey'' by iooiu

Not A Chew Toy by GreyKestrel

Birthright by Frosty_Haven

Thunder Breaks by TheSeasonOfWinter

Boulders by aikrm

(and i beg of you) please find your grace by ranchdiip*

Having my Eremin awakening and realizing I have a whole new world of fanfiction to enjoy fffffuck yeah

[animeshotsh]

Choso and Yuuji with a OP lil sister HCs

Notes: Completly random fic. Just brainrot moments. AU. Gojo its your adoptive Dad! We dont follow the plotline because we want to be happy. SFW. OP lil sis because I say so. PLATONIC.

You are probably one of the many Kenjaku kids they had in their lifetime. Having human features but a big curse energy that envolves all your body and scares away the curses.

However, since that cursed energy showed itself late Kenjaku was sure you were a failure and left you.

You meet Yuuji first and he is confused about you being his lil sister till he sees you punch off a second grade curse giving him the most confused look when he runs to get you in his arms because you are so little and small? And you could have died? And poor Yuuji has lose too many people.

"But Gojo-sensei says im strong" add Gojo at the side nodding.

Under no reason you should be at Shibuya but you go because you have no sense of self preservation.

You also started to miss Yuuji and no one was back at the school to check on you.

Takes you few seconds to find Yuuji appearing behind him and staring to heal him. (So OP you know reverse curse technique Gojo is jealous).

"Big bro dont die! You promised we could go to the Park with Gumi-San (Megumi) and Kugi-san (Nobara)

Nobara its alive! You actually passed to say Hi to Yaga (who was pissed but no suprised to see you there). On your way to Yuuji and helped Shoko heal her.

When Choso hears "big bro" he turns to you and once you two make eye contact a flash of memories go into Choso's mind. You two being together since you were a few months old and how he would help you eat and walk.

Choso its in shock but if Itadori its his lil bro then you are his lil sis. No problem, he is happy he has a New family member.

And Kenjaku its pissed because how did such a perfect toll scape their sight?

Does not matter! Cause Yuuji and Choso are in big bro protective mode!!

Till you snap your fingers and Kenjaku brain explotes leaving behind Geto Suguru's Body and...a box?

A box you soon take cause its look strange and you are curious.

"....are these Gojo-sensei eyes?"

And somehow you end opening the box?

Last thing Gojo expected to see once out was you looking up to him confused (you look so cute he wants to hug you forever) and his best friends body (he needs theraphy).

Lets do a big time skip.

Choso is slowly adapting to the life in the school, he is so lucky to have Yuuji and You to help him!

Oh, and Yuuji grounded you because you went to Shibuya when he told you not to. But that same night you two slept together because he had nightmares.

Choso has so much big bro love towards you. He likes to chase you around and loves to let you do his hair. He is also amazed and scared of your powers. Would have loved if you had met his other brothers and sometimes cries because you are them when they were young.

Yuuji knows you longer than Choso does, he knows how Gojo raised you with Megumi, he has accepted that Megumi its your other big bro. But Choso cant seem to do it. The first time he saw you on Megumi's shoulders he went to his room and cried because he was not a good brother. (You never asked him to carry you on his shoulders so he feels bad).

But you are also a sneaky kid!! Since Gojo raised you, you got his sense of humor and ego so of course you go and scare both of them from time to time. Appearing at random times. Choso almost hitted you the first time and you almost broke his arm in self defense (amazing bonding).

He actually tells you, you can attack him if he tries to attack you first.

Missions are still happening and both Yuuji and Choso are so against you going out, even when Maki points out you are probably the next Gojo sussesor along side Yuuta.

-Its Yuuta another one I need to worry about?-

Choso thoughts because he is now worried you may have another big bro. (Who may be better than him and he cant risk it).

But no, you let him know only Megumi its your non biological big bro.

"And im your dad!" Gojo.

Anyway, Yuuji and Choso only let you go on missions if they can go with you. And most times they wont even let you fight.

So you are just there 🙍‍♀️ basically getting money from the missions by being a stand by.

One time a curse scaped Choso attack and decided you were its Next target.

It did not end well for the curse and Choso almost has a crisis because you ended covered in curse's blood.

Yuuji has to tell him the same happened while he was fightning a curse along side you to calm him down.

Somehow he gets stronger after it so no curse can Escape him. He PROTECTS.

Choso once decided to stay still all night because he could not bring himself to wake you up. Yuuji tried to tell him he could move but Choso insisted on not moving.

MOVIE NIGHTS. The three of you do lots of movie nights. During most of them you end sleeping in the middle of the movie on top of one of your big bros.

First time it happened to Yuuji he felt asleep too and Gojo took pics because you two looked so cute!!

Turns out you only wake up if you feel danger around you so now they can freely move you after you end sleeping again. (They end knowing this because you once feel asleep during a mission Gojo took you with him and when the curse got too close you woke up and vanished the curse). (Gojo was so proud of course he told everyone and got hate from Choso and Yuuji for putting you at risk).

Also, if Gojo spoiled you then your brothers now have a personal competition against him to spoil you more. You will be getting lots of gifts and treats!

[reine-uls]

Legit… Real talk.

It’s not that deep. I’m saying this though.

I honestly dont know if I’m ever going to finish my KNY fics, especially Cold Affections. Because sometimes I would get new hyperfixations of different fandoms and hop on into that and put my current works into hiatus. I have done that thrice and that’s why I barely update. That’s why I tried to go back to KNY and not move on bc I genuinely like the fandom and the story.

Another reason is my mental health. I’m genuinely sorry that I have the most crappy mental health. I’m not joking. I’m sorry. I know I’m pathetic in real life. I have low self-esteem. I have extreme anxiety and depression. I couldn’t keep it together despite with theraphy. Update: I’m actually relapsing again, and I’m lying to my therapist now that I am “recovering” My problems in my house and school, genuinely got worse and I’m just trying to hide it. Everything is just on a shaky status and I tried so hard not to go insane. My suicidal thoughts are there again and it’s getting vividly persistent everyday.

Another reason. Readers losing interest in KNY. Since anime KNY is almost done, probably gone in less than 2 years, the fandom might is well disappear. And no one will be there to read my works. I know I decided to write fics bc I wanted self-indulgence, yet in the end I wanted recognition. Sounds stupid. I know. It’s just a fanfic. It’s just a meaningless fantasy non canon story. And yet I spent years writing it. Honestly, reaching 200k+ in Cold Affections exhausted me. And I am even rewriting it because I’m a perfectionist. I hate that.

There. Another reason I hate about myself is being a perfectionist. Idk why I had the need to please people when I’m writing these fics for myself. It actually tires me yet I still do it. I don’t mind but it actually tires me.

So anyways, there’s a possibility that I might not finish these fics. Yes. Even Cold Affections. For many stupid reasons, because stupid decisions always start and end stupidly right?

I genuinely like my fics bc I made it but at the same time I don’t like to reach to the point I might hate it. I like sharing my stories and yet idk why I can’t finish it.

[sethdomain]

C!tommy headcanon bc why not

-Shit eye sight, from years of living in a condition that forced him to be around ash, explosion and fire, I think it would definitely damaged his vision greatly. Its not to say he went full-time blind, he can still see but its blurry as shit. Maybe, it can also affect from his genetics too.

It starts out tiny, I think in pogtopia arc he has neargsight but its still not that bad, if he were to get glasses he would need 0.5 minus glass. He would occasionally be seen squinting sometimes as if he has trouble seeing something in the distance.

It became worse after exile, because of c!dream constantly bombing his item in front of him some of the ash constantly attacked his eye. So after he ran away from exile he now obtain the worse fucked up eye ever, he’s now farsighted, nearsighted and need plus, minus and cilindered glass. At this point c!tommy supposed to have glass but he’s like traumatized n shit and most people doesnt really payed that much attention. So most of the time he just glares n shit.

I think he would receive glasses when he’s either hanging out with sam or tubbo, both of them are like builder n close to him i think they can give tommy glasses. But i suppose Tubbo would be more keen on making him one since Sam is busy with prison stuff and need to pay 90% of his attention towards it.

I think his ass would genuinely be fucking happy when he finally get glasses, like thank fucking god i dont have to have a huge motherfucking headache anymore from squinting my eye too hard.

-twitchy hand, i think its some sort of trauma scarring from all the battle he fought. I think the tremors would be an occasional twitch here and there, but after c!tommy got his head bashed by c!dream his hand tremors got worse where simply doing stuff like picking a spoon up became very hard for him.

I think, c!tommy would kind of need to do physical theraphy after prison arc on helping rewiring back his motor skills with his hand nerves.

-I think post-dsmp(this is in my head where they managed to kill c!drm) c!tommy would get slapped hard by his mentall illness, especially deppression. Like he just shut down and dont do anything and hid away from everyone. You know that feeling of just hollowness, yeah i think after all of that he would just feel very estranged and felt nothing.

He should be happy! He finally have peace but why doesn’t he wanna do anything? Why does his bone felt like its made of metals and he’s nothing but a sagging slump of meat. He can finally do anything without dream breathing down his necks why? Why cant i do anything?

-I think he copes by doing drugs, i mean the invis pot is deffo a not subtle way that c!tommy struggles with addiction now. I like to think he started with just drinking invis pot to inevitably trying out drinking, substances and stuff. I think c!Tubbo would try to stop him though because he can’t bear thinking his best friend would go off the same path as c!schlatt

[iglowlilac]

so last night i finally had a DTR with my therapist and she said it was a good thing she was having a good day, with a good mindset to understand where i was coming from??? and i mean....... same?? bc last-year-version of myself would def be throwing some really big rotten tomatoes at her but now i'm able to truly CHANNEL my HIGHER SELF to have a formal DTR with her workaholic-burnout-ass. soooooo

and then the enby urge to throw tomatoes at my therapist that took over me last night........ likkkkkke bitch get yourself some rest !!! in addition to dealing with my own neuroses, i also have to deal with your shit??? nah girl get yourself a therapist i swear I SWEAR!!!

[nekonyaniii]

Some thoughts about yexuan with his return to godheim i need to get out this from my head + this is my take and dont come at me also cmiiw!! 😭... spoiler, do not look(read by your own risk also it's so long goodbye)

i was rereading return to godheim yexuan like 88671992974 times ady and I just can't help myself to cry about it everytime I read it.. I really should .. stop .. but I can't LMAO I need to seek theraphy(asmr bday save me pls I just wanna think about 1:30mins make out)

Oh god .., Silver Knight, what have they done to you that make your fate is so harsh in Godheim/Yesai Timeline? Everytime I think about how miserable his fate in there I just can't help myself but get hurted

His explaination is firm but his voice naturally softened when he spoke about her, even Hammel is suprised hearing soft voice. And the more I think, his soft voice is because how he actually care so much about her, likes her from long ago, since his youngself when they meet as a teenagers, he just doesn't realize and can't remember anything(due empire erase his memory) so the only thing in his mind about lilpainter is his senior's daughter but deep down he knows her more than this

After repeating so many cycle of her deaths, he become anxious and hesitates because whenever she is passing away, she affecting his emotions. Hammel noticed and speaks up how this girl hold special place in his heart, he sighs and admit it that he is worried about her!!😭 This cycle is really cruel for him, he see her passing away many TIMES in his own hands how can it not make you anxious? How can he calm after repeating so many little painter's death before his eyes ?

Then he did manage to get out without any scratches left in her body, but soon the poison affect her body and the way he realize it make me so broke. Like .., He finally did it! Without a scracth??! Rescuing her from there! Can you imagine how glad he is when he thought he is finally rescuing her without her dying in his own hand. But as soon as he realize she got poisoned that delay her death, he cannot express how he's feeling, he thought he did it, he thought now can feel in ease after see her stay alive getting out from there.. he burried his face on her knees regretting his mistakes and hiding his emotions knowing that she soon will die again before his eyes, in his arms again, he must prepare for it..

This cycle is one of the hell for him, she confessed to him that lilpainter like him but he cannot return his feelings due it's heavy for him, he cannot spoke it so easily nor because she almost near her death, but because he is gonna be the one who only carries the memories and feelings alone knowing little painter will soon forget it after the new cycle start. His feeling is mixed, he doesn't look forward to see tomorrow knowing she would leave and the cyle will restart.

Now this, make me more depressed about this man. The only person he cherised is little painter and the only person he cares is her. And what if she didn't choose him after that cycle and timeloop. He will the one who bear all those bitter memories alone remembering how she said she likes him while she doesn't remember anything what she said before. Yexuan cannot avoid it, he have to witness everything about her in Yesai timeline(this is so cruel how they write 'destined' which he cannot escape from it ..), he can only watch from afar and guide her also protect her. He always have a soft spot for her but he always push it away that thoughts because he told to himself it's just a unecessary feelings that will hinder him.. There's so many things I want to explain more.. but Silver Knight fate, is really one of a cheff kiss piece. The good thing in this card is because how the ending they ended up together!! Im so happy for them! They also blessed by the goddess! After so many cycle, after so many timeloop and possibilities.. He happy together..🥹 Definetely why this is now my favorite card 😭 I NEED THIS STORIES RELEASED IN GLOBAL ASAP!!

Also i still love how he said this with a smile on his face, he is so hurted but he have to face it eventually.. Damn it yexuan, thank you for making me mentally ill(i got the ss from bilibili o<-<) hahaha

[saleomanca]

you nasty for that Jade 💀

Oh right!! Forgot I was supposed to be reading something

Also, why are you guys reacting so much...? 🤨 How bad does it get, do things get uh, freaky? Cuz if it is I'm DEFINITELY not reading that, the title implies some real nasty stuff.

Anyways, I'm still waiting for account to get verified or whatever so I can't actually read it yet. Warn a guy first would you? I really dont need anymore trauma to pick apart in theraphy 💀 /hj

[mutedwolf]

okay i am back to pretending nothing is wrong

having an existential crisis at noon 30 love it

[omi-papus]

I was just going to reblog this under @orphanedsource really good modern AU concept where all the fungies meet for court mandated group theraphy, but I didnt want to hijack their post with something compleatly diferent, but ok can I insert my racist D’arse headcanons into this cause it would work so well.

Like just hear me out. Youve ever met a jesus freak, that is really nice and outgoing and really cares about the marginalized (or she thinks she does more acurately) she just belives that they need to accept the lord and comform to eurocentric ideals to be “saved”? Yhea that.

Like she will walk in, see these two foreigners (asuming this takes place in Rondon) and a literal dark priest and think, “Oh my All-mer they dont even know theyve been living like savages. I will help them find the right way!”

She has not just the lawyer but a PR team from her rich family and they have to functionally hold her by the throat anytime she opens any social media, so she dosent say something incredibly out of pocket.

The others should by all means be ofended and Rag definitly is but is INFINTLY more patient with her than she deserves. He thinks shes ultimately a victim of Le’garde. Cahara finds is incredibly funny, and figures out he can essentially milk her wallet if he just tells her the right thing. “Oh I dont have any money to donate to the church Im so sad, if only I had some, I could show the lord how much I care. Like… 69 silver coins would be great.” Stuff like that. Enki just does not give a shit.

At first Cahara and Enki think the cult brainwashing thing is just a rich kids parent creating excuses and getting away with it, but eventually coming to realize its pretty much 100% true, she is actually crazy, and will still talk about Le’guards imperialist campaign if given the chance.