#i dont need no sketchy substances to feel/act high

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

you know, a little while ago a... aquaintance? almost-friend-but-we're-not-that-close? invited me to their birthday and i was in a very sleep-deprivation zero-social-battery low-spoons caffeine-zombie kinda mood (tho it was fun in the end) and i excused myself to the bathroom. like, mostly to get away for a few minutes. get my shit together. ended up scrolling through one (1) page of my dash bc tumblr seems to be good for Brain Soup and i calmed down enough to like. be able to talk to a human.

but apparently i was gone long enough that said aquaintance and their friend made a bet whether i was doing drugs. and me, eyes slightly too wide bc i need to appear awake and if i close them ill just fall asleep immediately, slouching about like a zombie, running on one glass of coke, apparently did not solve that question by coming back. like, they looked at me and couldn't tell if i was totally zonked out.

which, i wasn't. idek where to get drugs (tho they're apparently kinda wide-spread in my town, yikes) if i wanted to, and i am purposely keeping faaar away from anything addictive. but. yeah okay sleep-deprivation is one hell of a drug. it was kinda funny especially in hindsight. but also. damn. do i really look that bad. do i look like that every other day in school, like i'm on a trip? damn.