#i dont k ow when it ended though

[fivzen]

Seriously, there is so much I could say about Time Lord Victorious and how much it infuriates me as someone who loves the preservation of arg's/multi media experiences.

[urmomluvbot]

i just read a little life and here's a messy review of the book by saying my opinion on people's takes on it

[THERE WILL BE SPOILERS] also dont expect this to be professional etc

i want to start off by saying that this book is like willem's movie "life after death"; either people absolutely loved it or people hated it. and i fucking love this. would i be rereading it? probably not. but would i think of jude for the rest of my days? yes.

the thing i keep reading about from the people who didnt like it is that a) it's a trauma porn, b.) it's lengthy with various of unnecessary parts, and c.) its just a sad book with a sad ending.

something that i dont really understand is people's need and urge and want to always, always read a book expecting a happy ending. ("and books lied, they made things prettier"). spoiler alert: life isnt like that! its ugly and u cant always run away from its ugliness, no matter how hard you try. no matter how hard jude tried. and i always had this hunch, when i was first reading it, that it wont end the way i'll like it, but still i hope and hope and hoped for jude and for all of them, and thats just the Human part of me. my in denial.

as someone who struggled from mental health, i actually guiltily thought in the middle of the book, "why hasnt he k!lled himself yet?" even before jude's attempt. i cant handle the thought of putting myself in his situation and pushing through, and that's the reality as well. you thought about it and yet , complying to it somehow makes you think that the hyenas won. that brother luke won, that dr traylor won. and the thing about jude is he always try. he tried to get through life, he tried to accept romance in his life, he tried and he tries to accept everyone's devotion and help because even though he feels like he doesn't deserve it; he feels like he owes them that at least. to try.

i can see how people, especially the first ones when it just came out, may be put off by the tones and the topics of this book, but as years went by and it grows in popularity, the trigger warnings had been set. one thing ive set my mind to when i bought the book is the advice i was given: to only read it when im in a stable stage of my life, and that's why it took me almost a year before i started reading it after buying it. the triggers are listed for anyone to see. YES. those things do happen in real life. those things, esp the rape and physical mental and verbal abuse DO come in hand majority of the time. the book is not trauma dumping or a trauma porn: it simply tells. (imo, its on YOU if u think this is a trauma porn. imo, it says a lot about you as a person).

the book is lengthy because it is intended to be, the "unnecessary parts" are not just fillers but a stepping stone to unraveling jude's past, to fully grasp the situation. they are there for a reason. you can skim through the book if you want to avoid them: but believe me when i say you wont fully get the book if you do. the book is not meant to be enjoyed. its meant to tell a story, to make you feel things for the characters, may it be pity or joy or anger.

jude is not meant to be understood or to help or to be pitied at, hes meant to exist. and those things are something that was given to him willingly by the people he loved. and the characters are all flawed. andy is a bad doctor, willem is lovable and maybe had too much love, malcolm is perfect (i love him so much), jb is infuriating most of the times, harold shouldve pushed more. they all shouldve pushed more, but they cant. because the way they love is also flawed and it gets in the way, because judy is also flawed. hes stubborn and confusing. but those are traits that makes them all human.

ive reblogged this before but ill say it again: ik its a meme, but not everything can be solved through therapy. again, it took jude YEARS to finally tell willem his past– willem. willem who jude probably trust with his life, who he lets help him and seeked out for him when he was bleeding to death from cutting too much. you think jude would talk to a shrink he barely knows? someones whos literally paid to talk to him? not even jb and malcolm knew.

smth i wanna address that i rlly dont get is people who claims it's homophobic, and i really and genuinely cant see it, as a lesbian person myself. every talk about sexuality (if there even is any thats worth noting for this part), had come naturally. everyone existed how people exist with each other. even when willem and jude got together, theres barely any talk about willem's sexuality. also, hot take (/s): sexuality is confusing!! not everyone wants to label themselves. ive known multiple ppl who majorly likes girls only, but have fallen for their recent boyfriend. it happens, surprise! not everyone wants to put themselves in a box.

in conclusion: i think people expects this book to turn out for the better as a psychological response. surprise, it doesn't. my opinion? it's not meant to be enjoyed. i dont recommend this to anyone but only because it IS devastating and im a sadist if i want people to experience those feelings the book will brought. however, the characters, the delivery of the story and the pacing, and hanya's god bowing writing style are what makes this book GREAT. great ≠ happy ending, just like how sad ending ≠ bad book. thanks!

[mccarthymolly]

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[macaroki]

traitor , a bnha song fic

where bakugo fucked up and he saw kirishima comforting you at the backstage after breaking down during the concert of you singing a song abt him .

m.list [ mobile version ] < this fic under bakugo's list >

warning(s) : mention of doing that but not heavily described , mention of cheating , swearing , explicit language [ but dw eventually fluff <33 ]

genre : angst to fluff

pairing(s) : k. bakugo x reader / x o. uraraka , e.kirishima x reader

a/n : bruh i swear i couldnt get away from this song 😔 so enjoy my first post here !

new a/n : under the cut because someone ask so :) !

brown guilty eyes and little white lies

yeah , i played dumb but i always knew

that you'd talk to her , maybe did even worse

i kept quiet so i could keep you

You remember every single tiny details that happen during the day you finally admitted the truth. The truth that you afraid to admitted as long as you remember. Though, you couldn't help but call him out through this song. Eventhough your chest tighten due the fucking bullshit they did, you need to carry on the performance, the façade and everything. All the memories flood in your brain like a wave of tsunami. Every single thing from the begining of your relationship till the end ; feels like yesterday. Funny how times flew so fast, right?

and aint it funny

how you ran to her

the second that we call it quits ?

There is one time when three of you in a training mission, and imagine how hurt it was when he blindly follow her strategy, not even brothered to asked yours. Oh, well : you're just you - a nuisance. Judging his feeling by the way he look at her just like he used to look at you. Funny how he actually ran to her after that training mission and just .. gaining a huge admiring to her. He's such out of character, but who to blame?

and aint it funny ?

how you said you were friends

now it's sure as hell dont look like it

You tried to- at least that what you believe- to holding back any tears that dare to fall. You tried to clear your minds, but then remember when you confronts him about the girl? That's when the jealousy, insecurity and self-loathing took over. In fact, it's obvious that he's done, but you were afraid. Too afraid to speak up the truth nor admitting it. She's just a friend, yeah.

you betrayed me

and i know that you'll never feel sorry

for the way i hurt , yeah

you'd talk to her

when we were together

loved you at your worst

but that didn't matter

You hated the fact that he used to be there, helping you with your self-esteem in his own way. The fact that he comes to you after the incident, seeking comfort from you. The fact that he slowly forgot the way he treated you oh-so-lovingly and yet aggresively. Not come in surprise when he's betraying your pure love, cause it's your fault afterall. He's literally looked up by people, and you're just you. Medicore, so easy to being manipulated and blinded by love he showered you with. All the promises and everything both of you did, meant nothing to him.

it took you two weeks

to go off and date her

guess you didnt cheat

but you're still a traitor

He surely don't owe you an explanation when both of you broke up. He'll get bored, eventually because you're just you ; below an average person. He's Bakugo, a hot-headed guy that people find interesting, talented and so. Not to mention the bubbly girl that loved by almost everyone, so where's the audacity to compete with a girl like her? She's so kind, so perfect, so hyperactive and attractive as well. There's no surprise when he wanted to break up with you because of her : Ochako Uraraka.

now you bring her around

just to shut me down

show her off like she's a new throphy

Your glossy eyes scanned through the crowds, wondering why he's even here. As far as you remember, he always reject your invitation whenever you want to go to your favorite concert. But yet here we are, with his hand around her waist, holding her so tight that you wished you were her. You wished that his eyes fixed only on you, just like he promise on the early stage of your relationship. A normal person can only dream, aren't you?

and i know if you were true

there's no damn way that you

could fall in love with somebody that quickly

Sometimes, you wondered, does what happen that day because of your fault? You hold the mic tightly as your mind wandered the way you tried so hard to make he fall in love with you, or at least just make him noticed you. The brunette just snatched him away from him just like a damn theif. From a daily evening cuddles to " i've no time for cuddles, i have study session with that round face, " or maybe " dont be so needy, woman. that round face need some training session with me, ". At that point you started to realise that your feeling weren't valid anymore, you're just so tired of the one-sided relationship. What's the point of him asking you out if at the end he'll break you onto million pieces?

and aint it funny

all the twisted game

all the questions you used to avoid ?

You smiled to them, showing how happy and glad you were but your eyes telling the otherwise. Disappointed - to yourself. Disappointed of being not enough for him. But he could just told you that he's bored of you, how he have found a new one and replacing you. Why on the earth universe being so cruel with you? Found the truth by witnessing and accidentally walk in to them while doing that, and even worst : they didn't notice your presence. Then, the next day you tried to confronts him a about your uneasy feeling and the relationship, but he'll brushed you off just like always. Saying that he's not cheating, or anything, and he'll make it up to you later.

and aint it funny

remember i brought her up ?

and you told me i was paranoid

Funny how the later become never as he tends to brush you off like you never ever existed in his life. Your name look like never been in his dictionary. Instead, he start to pay attention to the brunette more. What makes it even worst is he twisted every single thing when both of you were alone. Oh, how pity you were - remembering all this shit during this fucking concert. Fuck that, maybe he was right. If only you didn't catch a feeling to him, it wouldn't lead to this horrible thing. If only..

you betrayed me

and i know that you'll never feel sorry

for the way i hurt , yeah

you'd talk to her

when we were together

loved you at your worst

but that didnt matter

' traitor ', one word that enough to describe him. Imagine went through your first cliché break up, moving on from your first love. Which is wasn't so easy as the public say so. How hard it was to letting go someone you loved with all of your heart and yet he's trapped with you. Trapped with someone like you, and you don't have any choice than letting him go. Leaving you with a million pieces with Kirishima that picking up those broken pieces and fix you.

it took you two weeks

to go off and date her

guess you didn't cheat

but you're still a traitor

Your eyes eventually locked to Kirishima's figure on the other side of VIP's, and smiled to him. God bless a sunshine like him, cause he's far away than the explosive boy. He understood the assignment, of course he wouldn't left out your feeling nor dismissing it, because for him " that's not manly, ". He always being pure honest with you : whether it about jealousy, insecurity or even ridiculous thing, you name it. You never been happier with him, as he showed you a real and healthy relationship, as far as things you've missed in your life. The best part is, he never leave you and always there in every step.

god , i wish that you had thought this through

before i went and fell in love with you

( haa , aaa , aaa )

when she's sleeping in the bed we made

don't you dare forget about the way..

Unfortunately, your mind travelled back to the past. The pillow fort that both of you used to built together and replaced by Uraraka. The worst thing is, she's underneath him, his name escaped from her lips like a spell and never left even for a second. God, you can't even put a proper words to explain how disgusted you are that time.

you betrayed me

and i know that you'll never feel sorry

for the way i hurt , yeah

you'd talk to her

when we were together

you gave me your word

but that didn't matter

All the confrontation Bakugo's did few weeks after you found out he cheated, but that doesn't matter anymore. He fucked up big time when he knew Kirishima had found you crying in front of the elevator after you walked out from Bakugo's room. He tried to comfort and knock out the sense out of you, and honestly shocked as well because he didn't expect Bakugo treat you that way. Why, out of people ; it have to be his respected bro - Katsuki Bakugo - cheated behind you? Doesn't matter, he already held you on his arm and comforting you throughout the night.

it took you two weeks

to go off and date her

guess you didnt cheat

but you're still

you're still a traitor

( haa , aaa , aaa )

yeah , you're still a traitor

You did reached another high notes and also holding any tears that dared to fall in front of these people. You hated being so weak and so naïve, letting him cheat behind you for only-god-knew-how-long. It's your fault anyway, you're too scared to speak up the truth. You're afraid of the fact that he cheated behind you with your close friend. Being backstabbed by two people that you trusted with your whole life must be another nightmare that horrifying, right?

oh , oh , oh

god , i wish that you had thought this through

before i went and fell in love with you

A huge distressed tone showed in your voice, sending chills over the audience and Bakugo himself. Is he terrified? No way, he's Ground Zero, a hot-headed one and have no fear of anything. He keep convincing himself that Uraraka way better than you, and also tried to convince himself that he would never loved an extras like you. He tried to convince himself that you're just a game,

or so he thought.

As you walked to the backstage, Kirishima quickly slipped out from the crowds and eventually make his way to you. The staff at the backstage allows him to enter anyway, he's a Red Riot after all.

It's breaking his manly heart nonetheless at the sight of you stiffened in front of the mirror. The thoughts of your previous relationship running to your heads, how invalid your feelings back then, how shitty Bakugo's used to treat you : but you snapped out from the humiliated thought as Kirishima tapping your shoulder softly and bring you to a comfiest hug as he afraid to break you. He let you - his lovely angel - to cried on his arm, and never ever being bored to comfort you ; whispering sweet nothings to you. Though all the make up ruined because of the ugly tears, you still look stunning on his lovely gaze.

If he don't have a little respect to the explosive boy, he's literally almost losing his shit even when thinking about it. He hate how the bad memories still planted in your head, cause he could've done better. He hate how the toxic things happen to you : because you clearly don't deserve it. He wish he could save you earlier.

At this point, nothing matter anymore than both of you safe in each other embrace with no words exchanged. Because you knew what you need most right now, the comforting gesture and silence were enough. Just like that, Bakugo realised that he love you, and he still. Yet he couldn't do anything than standing on the doorway, imagining that he's the one who's holding you, comforting you like that, and not Kirishima.

i honestly dont know how this turned out [ look pretty good to me though HAHAH IDK ] but i hope yall enjoy nonetheless :)) sorry for any grammar's error or misplaced words !! i hope yall doing fine and great ^^ pls enjoy this turtle cheering you up a bit :)) have a lovely night/day <33

[musicallygt]

Borrower Skyes Au: Ema and Klavier Sizeswap - A Small Problem

Im not much of a writer lmao, but I really wanted this. Bullying Klavier is way too fun. I dont expect there to really be an overarching story with these one shots, I just think I'll do whatever I think would be fun to read about lol EDIT: i lied there's plot now lol

NEXT | MASTERPOST

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In hindsight, mixing unknown chemicals together in the glimmerous fop’s kitchen was probably not the best idea. But Ema wasn’t about to admit that any time soon, not when it was easier to blame the fop himself for what happened to them.

She had been standing on the kitchen counter, surrounded by the different chemicals that she and the fop managed to borrow from the prosecutor’s office, many of them unlabeled. She wasn’t very picky about choosing what to borrow, though; as long as she could do her experiments, she was good. Besides, there was something quite exciting about mixing together unknown substances, finding out how they reacted with each other.

She was on the tips of her toes, carefully pouring a clear liquid from a test tube into another liquid sitting in a beaker. A slight burning scent permeated from one of them, though she didn’t know from which. Another beaker, a larger one with some steamy substance emitting from it, was sitting some distance away, filled with another mixture of various chemicals, some she knew and some she didn’t. 

“What are you making here, Kleine Fräulein?” the glimmerous fop suddenly asked, seeming to appear out of nowhere.

Ema almost jumped at the sound of his voice, gripping the test tube in her hands tighter. She turned her head to glare at him, the fop just smiling that stupid smile as he leaned down.

“It’s really none of your business, fop,” she snapped, turning back to her work as the test tube she held finally emptied. Carefully, she set the now-empty tube down on the counter with a soft clink! and moved to try to lift her new mysterious solution to the second beaker.

“Ah, so one of those secret experiments of yours, ja?”

Ema didn’t answer. She just wrapped her arms around the beaker as best as she could, which was difficult given that it was about her size, maybe bigger. It was also definitely way too heavy to lift by herself, as she was barely able to lift it from the countertop.

“Here, allow me.” With one hand, the fop lifted the beaker much more easily than she did, and maybe she should’ve been grateful– he was trying to be helpful after all– but the fop was touching her stuff, and she might have gotten a bit defensive. Just a bit.

“I can do this myself, fop!”

Okay, so maybe what happened next was kind of her fault, but only a little. It was mostly the fop’s fault, really.

As he lifted up the beaker, she did her best to wrestle it out from his grip, shoving her weight into it to try to get it out of his hand. Unfortunately, while it did slip out of his grip, it ended up dropping into the larger steaming beaker.

And the stuff exploded.

Next thing Ema knew, she was sitting on her backside with her eyes shut tight, her head absolutely pounding with pain. “Ow…” she groaned, raising a hand to massage her temple.

As the throbbing died down, she slowly opened her eyes, blinking a bit. It didn’t look like there was any broken glass around her, that was good. And it seemed she had fallen to the floor at some point. Was that why her head hurt so much?

She couldn’t feel any other injuries, though. The floor still seemed so far away, too. And the kitchen countertop wasn’t that high up when she looked up.

(Wait a minute…)

She touched her hand onto one of the kitchen tiles, realizing that her hand was so much bigger than it should be. She reached her other hand up for the countertop and found that it was so much easier to do so than it should’ve been. And just now she was realizing that the fop’s kitchen was suddenly so much smaller than before.

“K-Kleine Fräulein?”

That was the fop’s voice. Except it was so much softer, a lot less glimmerous, and from somewhere below her. Looking down towards her boots, she gasped, her eyes widening as she brought her hands to her mouth.

She didn’t even have words.

Sitting just past her boots was the glimmerous fop, staring up at her with wide eyes and now so much smaller than she was.

For several minutes, they just stared at each other, unmoving. Ema was too dumbfounded to even think about what she should say or do. If she wasn’t mistaken, she was currently the size of a bean while the fop was now the size of a borrower. How did someone react to something like this?

The fop, meanwhile, was beginning to breathe much faster, and if Ema looked closely, he was shaking like mad.

Despite it all, the fop was the one to speak first.

“This is… This is just a dream, ja?” he said, his voice unsteady as he gave a shaky smile. “This is all just some crazy dream, and I’m just knocked out from that explosion, and the world isn’t so huge, ja?” 

His smile grew wider, but he sure didn’t look happy. “And I’m normal size, and you’re not so massive, and everything is just normal and just the way it should be, ja?”

Ema blinked, and blinked again. Finally coming to her senses, she leaned forward and plucked up the tiny fop by the back of his jacket collar, the fop yelping as he was lifted into the air. “Does this feel like a dream to you?” she asked, letting him dangle in front of her face.

Now that he was closer, she could see him shaking a lot more clearly. The way his eyes would dart down a bit, clearly trying to focus on her rather than the drop below. The way his throat moved as he swallowed.

“N-Nein,” he answered nervously. “This is… it feels t-too real…”

Without really thinking, Ema brought her other hand up, gently pinching one of the fop’s arms between her finger and thumb and lifting it up carefully. He seemed so fragile now, his arms smaller than the length of her finger. She could hear the fop sharply inhale as she lifted it, though he didn’t fight back. He just tensed up, letting her slowly move his arm around as she studied him, rotating it a bit, before letting it drop back to his side.

He was just… so small.

“Am I really this tiny compared to you?” she asked in awe, pinching his leg as she let go of his jacket.

The fop yelped again as he fell, his breathing heavier as he dangled upside down. “W-Well, right now, no…”

Ema had to admit, there was something quite amusing seeing him so small and helpless, his stupid glimmerous hair now messed up as she held him upside down by his leg. It made him a bit more… tolerable.

“Ach, Kleine Fräulein?” The fop let out a nervous chuckle as she lightly twirled his leg between her fingers, causing him to spin side to side. “Do you mind… putting me down? Bitte?”

Hm. Maybe she could set him down. She wasn’t so mean that she’d keep him hanging upside down forever, even though she wanted to.

With her free hand, she pushed herself off the floor and onto her feet, leaning against the kitchen counter as she got used to her new height. Then, rather unceremoniously, she dropped the tiny fop onto the countertop, the fop letting out a pained grunt as he fell those few inches.

At least, she was sure it was only a few inches. It was kind of hard to gauge now that she was so big.

“D-Danke,” the fop forced out, getting up onto his knees.

Ema didn’t reply. Instead, she stared at where she was working earlier, still marveling at how small all the equipment looked now. The two beakers were now laying on their sides and basically empty; barely a trace of whatever she was working with remained, and she doubted that the few drops remaining were enough to change them back to normal.

“Well, fop,” she said, crossing her arms as she continued to look over what remained of her work, “it looks like we’re stuck like this until we can get the chemicals I used again.”

(And until I figure out what exactly I used…)

Not that she was going to say that part out loud. She didn’t need him giving her some lecture about how “irresponsible” it was to experiment with stuff she didn’t know.

The fop’s face fell. “Ach, that’s… less than optimal, isn’t it?”

Ema just shrugged. “Hey, we borrowed them from the prosecutor’s office you work at, right? We can just go back, borrow more, and get back here, easy.”

“And how do you expect to get to the prosecutor’s office?”

“On your bike like we usually do, duh.”

The fop shook his head. “You can’t drive, Kleine Fräulein.”

Ema groaned, making sure to emphasize her annoyance, but unfortunately, he was right. She’s never driven any kind of bean vehicle, and for the sake of everyone including herself, it was probably best she didn’t try.

This was definitely not going to be as easy as she thought.

“Then we’ll… we’ll just figure it out!” she just said. “I can probably walk or something.”

“Walking will take you way too long to get there.”

Ema just smiled. “Well, I’m not exactly in a rush to switch back. We’ve got time.”

The fop groaned, dropping his head into his hand. “You do plan on getting us back to normal, right, Kleine Fräulein?”

���Of course I do, fop! I don’t plan on staying bean-sized forever, you know.”

She was being honest about that, really. However, getting to be bean-sized was definitely not an opportunity given to most borrowers, so she needed to have some fun with it before going back. And maybe mess with the tiny fop a bit more while she was still bigger than him. He kind of deserved it anyway, for being such a glimmerous fop.

She couldn’t let this opportunity go to waste.

[shit-scfandom-did]

so i have a few questions

1)i cannot understand how you ship k*ramel. their relationship was FILLED with toxicity. from mon-el failing over and over again to listen to what kara had to say to him basically telling her to give up being kara danvers. convincing her that "being supergirl and having you is enough” was absolutely horrible. karamel had their moments but overall it was toxic. then in s3 mon el was married and the whole point of season 3 was allowing them to move on. accepting the toxicity from s2 and pushing past that romanticized time. mon el was a better person by 3b but he was still married. even if mon el and imra did break up in the finale there’s no future for karamel. even during 5x13 kara went to ask on advice about lena. and when winn came to visit from the future not a word about him. she’s moved on and it just wouldn’t make sense for kara to end up with him.

2) how can you hate lena so so so much?? it’s been said over and over again that all she’s ever wanted to do is good. though she’s designed to be this morally grey character. she has FLAWS but that’s what makes her so good. she’s a victim of abuse and you can see her struggle with that especially in seasons 4 and 5. in 5 she definitely goes down a questionable path but how can you expect her not too? after being emotionally abused by her brother, betrayed by her family, andrea (this did happen before kara), and then eve. finding out that kara and EVERYONE she loves has betrayed her as well. I mean how could you not go mad?? and even when she “went mad” she was trying to rid humanity of PAIN. something she later realized was a necessary part of life. her hurt blinded her from reality and lex’s manipulation pushed her down further. she’s been hurt and broken so many times and while that’s not an excuse for what she’s done you have no sympathy for her and that I find appalling. lena has realized what she’s done is wrong, that she’s made mistakes, what she did to kara, and she will have to live with that isn’t that punishment enough? she’s apologized and is trying to make up for everything she’s done by saving the world (again). your unnecessary hate towards her infuriates me. cant you take a step back and see the whole picture?

3) why DONT you ship supercorp or accept the queerbaiting? (watch this: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=C2w2GBXd_Pg) They are the core relationship of the show while the danvers sisters are the heart. they’ve gone through so so much together and practically dated in early season 2. they love each other it’s just oh so apparent. i like to believe one of the reasons lena reacted so strongly in s5 is because she was in love with kara and she couldn’t handle the person she was in love with lying to her. and kara flew around the world to get lena’s favorite food!! if that’s not romantic idk what is. I feel like you’ve developed such a clouded view of supercorp that you need to take a step back and understand what lena is the love of kara’s life.

wow what a long message. im not here to hate. im here to inform & undertand. i get it. karamel had their moments and even MY perception of them might be a little cloudy. im not going to hate you for liking them. hell I even shipped them for a little! my brother thinks 3b mon el and kara would’ve been perfect but he understands that supercorp is just where the show is leading and he wants them to be endgame. but what I will hate is your hate. what’s the point of all this? this thread, this account is going to do NOTHING. so why bother? I debated sending this and I hope I’m not too harsh at times but I really wanna see what you say. I hope you can open your eyes to lena and supercorp. maybe even become a supercorp shipper yourself!

- thanks and supercorp endgame 💙❤️

First of all, if you want to discuss ships in the future send this type of anons to facepalming-since-chernobyl, this blog is not for this, but for gathering receipts.

1.I just ship it, I don’t get why you have to understand it. It’s shipping. But if you insist:

No, it was not filled with toxicity. Count me when he failed to listen to her when they were in a relationship. Secondly, he is not a dog, he has his brain, he is his own person. People don’t always do what others asked them to do. It’s not slavery.

He has NEVER said to her to give up being Kara Danvers. How did he exactly convince her? How can you read the scene that he convinced her that being supergirl and having him is erasing Kara Danvers? In this scene he supports anything SHE WANTS to do. Also, Kara Danvers doesn’t equal Kara being a reporter in CatCo. On that moment she had her blog. She change people’s live with it like a real reporter. She took the risk and met consequences of her actions aka being fired by Snapper. Also, remind me who told her to create a blog? With your logic Lena was erasing Kara Danvers too.

Friendly reminder that he was forced to the marriage to keep peace. Also, friendly reminder Imra and the Legion out him in this situation without telling him about her plans. She and Brainiac put him there, knowing exactly how much he loved Kara and how much she meant to him. Imra knew that, that’s why she asked him to stay and solve his feelings. She said if he had come back, she would have known he had no doubts. But he wanted to stay, that’s why they broke up. He came back because once again he sacrificed himself for the greater good, like a real hero. Maybe watch the Argo eps because they clearly show that no, it was no about moving on.

It was not accepting about so called toxicity. First of all, she already forgave him that he lied. Secondly, all of she was screaming in that scene, when she was infected with M’rynn’s powers, happened before they got together and it was already approached in the musical ep. Aka, this scene had no point.

There is no future for karamel because you say so?

Kara went to asked him, because she truly believed and trusted him and his judgment. And yes, she asked about Lena and what did he said? That Kara deserved the same compassion she gives others, something Lena never gave her. And sorry, I know all scs scream the 100 ep was about sc, but it was about Kara fully realizing she is not responsible for Lena’s horrible choices. That’s it. And friendly reminder she called her a villain in the last scene. Also, the ep showed than no matter what, Lena always ends screwing something, because she has too big ego, always knows better, doesn’t stand criticism and doesn’t trust anyone.

It doesn’t make sense for you. Suit yourself.

2.Her fans made me hate her :) Thanks to them and how they excuse her every horrible action, how they treat her as a victim, while she abuse everyone etc. I started to watch her more carefully. And well, she is a horrible, white, privileged capitalist, who plays god, judge, jury, has mommy issues and acts like typical Luthor while crying she is not one, while still using Luthors money and resources.

Yeah, many people want to make good and end doing evil things. Common people pay for their sins, she has never. Since allowing hostile Daxamite army to invade the Earth (also, her portal affected the other aliens who destroyed the NC), producing a device that could recofnize aliens without their consent (and it was used by Children of Liberty,)producing and lying about Kryptonite, trying to make people superpowered without any supervision, killing Adam during illegal experiment, supporting openly alienphobic president and in a way Agent Liberty, killing Lex and then blaming Kara and finally manipulating Kara for months, lying, gaslighting, yelling, making her steal Lex journal, trying to lobotomize her and tortured with kryptonite, hurting every way possible, physically and mentally. Working with mass murderer, enslaving 3 people (kidnapping Eve, without her consent putting AI into her mind, basically RAPING her brain and making her a puppet in her own body; enslaving end experimenting on Malefic and Russel – threatening to kill him to steal Andrea’s necklace) – none of it are flaws. It was horrible abuse and violating every human right and the fact some people excuse it is disgusting.

First of all, being victim of abuse doesn’t give you the rights to HURT other people. The fact I have to explain pains me. Secondly, what abuse exactly? Lillian didn’t love her? Lex kidnapped her? Said he was going to kill her? You know what? Winn HAD HORRIBLE past and he didn’t turn into a murderer. Mon-El was abused by his mother and never tortured Kara with Kryptonite. J’onn killed a lot of white martians but last time I checked he doesn’t feel good about it. Also, never said the things he has done were GOOD. See a difference?

Yeah, and all of it, still doesn’t give her the rights to torture people. Also, friendly reminder she lied to Supergirl about Kryptonite in s3, much before the whole drama. Remember how she destroyed the life of a girl that stole boyfriend in middle school? It clearly shows she always had THAT in her. Plus, sorry not sorry, if she wanted different life, outside her family she could have easily done that. She was in Star City, with Jack, doing her researches, making her career. And she threw it all away, because she WANTED to be a Luthor.

Plus, sorry not sorry, if you feel betrayed and hurt because your friend didn’t tell you something she didn’t OWE you, you go to therapy, not trying to lobotomize entire planet.

Mate, she wanted to lobotomizer entire humanity, without ANYONE’S consent, because SHE, one single Lena, felt hurt. This is playing a GOD. Nothing explains it.

Planning a cold ass revenge for months is not being blinded by feelings.

Once again, even if could argue about how many times she was broken, most of that was a white privileged life she chose herself but whatever, it still doesn’t excuse her. All of she has done should meet consequences. Paying for shit you have done, accepting it, fully realizing what you have done is a part of redemption. Still in s5 she didn’t even apologize to Kara. Because she still didn’t understand what she has done and doesn’t feel sorry about it.

Feel appalled as much as you want, because I’m not going to feel sorry for a white, privileged woman who has never paid for her actions and is basically a living avatar of the worst Karen you can imagine.

She realized Lex was using her horrible experiments (remember? She experimented on puppies too) to his own agenda, that’s why she went to Kara. That’s not grasping a thing. Mhm, if you call that an apology then suit yourself. She is not saving the world, she is helping once again other people fixing the shit she created.

Feel infuriated as much as you want, because I don’t care? Especially when it comes from a person who tells others to take a step back while being totally narrow minded about Mon-El and karamel.

3.Because actors, prodcuers, writers call SC a female friendship. Mel did that in her last interview. See whatever you want but maybe stop forcing people to ship a horribly abusive ship.

Well… no. Kara is the heart and soul of the Supergirl. Alex is her most important relationship. Lena is an important friend, who doesn’t deserve it yet, but we all know Kara is the Paragon of Hope so of course she is going to forgive her.

I know you people think sc dated because they breathed in one room, but in s2 Kara dated, had sex, kissed, cuddled and enjoyed her time with Mon-El.

Yeah, they love each other as friends. It was said more than once.

That’s your delusion, you are free to do it.

Kara done that to Alex too, so you are saying she is romantically in love with her sister or something? If bringing people food is romantic and damn, most of the people I know loves me, god.

No, lena is not Kara’s love of her life.

Cool, you are not going to hate me because I ship karamel, I’m touched.

Sorry that you are going to be super disappointed in the end of the show I guess.

You will hate my hate – what’s the point of it?

Once again, because I don’t think you understand the point of this blog or read the description – it’s gathering receipts of assholes who cross tag and hate on the actors. Maybe go and search #gross hate or #cast hate on this blog so you can see how amazing your fandom is. Have fun.

I would rather eat my own shit than starting shipping the victim of abuse with her abuser.

Thanks and no :)

[starlight-writes-stuff]

hey! i sent in the ask for the party fic with ethan (which was so good holy shit) and i was hoping you could do the SFW alphabet for him? can I be ⚙️ anon, as well? (get it?)

⚙️anon (thats so clever ily for it) , welcome !! im sorry this took me forever , but here’s your sfw alphabet - this came so easy to me i spend too much time consuming ethan content - anyway ! i really hope you enjoy this ((: reblogs are always appreciated <3

AYO LOOK AT THESE : soft , fluffy ethan content , no tws ! also , yall rockin with the new blog theme ⁉️

a = affection (how affectionate are they? how do they show affection?)

ethan is incredibly affectionate in all senses of the word- big gestures, small moments, and everything in between. he brings you flowers or food quite often, just something small to show you that you were on his mind while he was out and about. you two would have a designated date night once a week where he’d clear his schedule to spend quality time with you; either taking you out to dinner or cooking and watching movies at home with spencer. also, ethan would definitely go out of his way to do little things around the house to help you out - washing the dishes, vacuuming, folding the laundry. however, ethan wouldn’t shy away from larger gestures of affection, either: he’d take you on surprise vacations or road trips for holidays or anniversaries. 

b = best friend (what would they be like as a best friend? how would the friendship start?)

being ethan’s best friend would be so much fun. he’s definitely the kind of guy that would send you a text when he was 10 minutes away from your house because he was bored and wanted to go do something together. you’d never be bored around ethan- he can talk for hours, and would 100% know how to make you laugh, even if the two of you were just chilling on the couch. a friendship with ethan would be filled with adventures; concerts, midnight snack runs, campouts in the backyard and lots of fun with spencer. 

c = cuddles (do they like to cuddle? how would they cuddle?)

yes, 100%. thinking back to unus annus, ethan was a vvv touchy guy with mark, and i think that would only be amplified with his significant other- touch is one of his love languages, for sure. he’d be the type to always have some soft of physical connection; a hand on your thigh while he drives, mindlessly drawing patterns over your skin while your working, aways holding your hand in public type beat. if ethan wasn’t getting your attention when he wanted it he, would not hesitate to pick you up over his shoulder and carry you to the closest soft surface before plopping you down and wrapping you in his arms. i think he’s probably a fan of having you laying on your side, facing him so that he can hold you, but still see your face/ talk to you. he’d also love laying on your chest because he’s such a boob guy but that’s a conversation for another time ,,,,,

d = domestic (do they want to settle down? how are they at cooking and cleaning?)

i think that if you and ethan were committed and had been dating for a while than he would absolutely want to settle down- but i feel like dating ethan would also include being around each other all the time (constant sleepovers while you aren't living together) so it wouldn’t be that drastic of a change. while he was living on his own, though, ethan obviously had to take care of himself, so he taught himself to cook and clean and do general, domestic tasks. i think he’d be a really good partner when it came to things around the house like that; ethan would always do his fair share and would pick up anything that you needed him to. 

e = ending (if they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

ethan just comes off as a very feeling, sensitive person (his brand is literally soft boy what do u expect), so i think breakups would be really hard for him. he wouldnt break up with his s/o until he was 10000000% positive that it as the right choice, and had thought through it multiple times. even then, it would rip his heart out to end things- he wouldn’t be afraid to show his emotions. ethan would definitely break up with whoever he was dating in person- he knows that he owes them that.

f = fiance(e) (how do they feel about commitment? how quick would they want to get married?)

okay, this one is up in the air for me. i definitely feel like ethan would settle down with his person and be completely loyal to them- thats a no brainer. i just don’t know how he feels about marriage? i feel like ethan wants a life partner, i just dont know if he would marry them. (this could 1792049384% be my personal bias peeking through because i think marriage is fkn weird, but for some reason i think he would too ????? maybe thats just me)

g = gentle (how gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

ethan is just ,,,,, soft hearted, dude. he’s just gentle in general. i think emotionally he’s a total teddybear, and he feels all his emotions incredibly deep- he rules with his heart, for sure. he wants to make sure that everyone around him is happy, and if they arent, it would affect him more than he’d like to admit. physically, ethan can vary- like i said, he’s always touching you in some way, but i think he’d be down for getting a little rougher in bed when you guys want to. 

h = hugs (do they like hugs? how often do they do it? what are their hugs like?)

ethan is an envelope-the-whole-ass-person kinda hugger, hug-with-your-whole-body type deal. if you look at pictures from unus annus, even old old pictures from the tour he did w/ mark, ethan is always completely wrapped around someone, hugging them with everything in him. i think if his s/o was shorter, he’d love to stack his head on top of theirs, and if y’all were around the same height, he’d bury his face in your neck. he’s very huggy- when you’re out and about, he’s always hugging you from behind, pulling your body closer to his. i also think ethan would love koala hugs, where he was sitting and his s/o wraps their arms and legs around him- he’d sit like that forever, rubbing up and down your back.

i = i love you (how fast do they say the l-word?)

hhhhhhhhhh don't clock me for this one, yall- if ethan was feeling some type of way, he would tell you. i don't think the length of the relationship would matter as much to him as the intensity and depth of his feelings; if ethan really truly loved you and wanted to say it, he would. he’d definitely preface it with the fact that you didn’t have to say it back, that he just wanted to get it on the table and out of his head. 

j = jealousy (how jealous do they get? what do they do when they’re jealous?)

ethan would be very secure in his relationships, and i think it would take a lot to get him jealous. however, when he was,,,,,,,, it wouldnt be pretty. like, at all. if it was a situation where someone was hitting on his s/o, he wouldn’t step in until you’d already tried to get them to leave you alone- not because he didn’t want to, but because he knew that if he did, it would get ugly. when he did step in, he’d start by saying something (not kindly worded, but to the point), and if that didn’t work i don’t think ethan would be above getting physical- he’s extremely protective of you. 

k = kisses (what are their kisses like? where do they like to kiss you? where do they like to be kissed?)

I THINK ABOUT THIS A LOT AND I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I'D LIKE TO SAY SO THIS ONE’S GOIN IN BULLET POINTS , GANG

okay- ethan loves to kiss you. he just loves kisses- they feel so personal and intimate to him, and he kisses you all the time, everywhere

he’ll dip you and kiss you in the middle of the grocery store aisles, he dgaf

but i think his favorite spots for kissing you would be your forehead, your lips (duh), collarbones/shoulders, down your spine and on your inner thighs hngggggg

but it goes vice versa too

ethan wants ALL your kisses . all of them , everywhere

He’s such a sucker for you kissing his neck and you cant talk me out of that (:

l = little ones (how are they around children?)

cute. literally so cute. i think that ethan would love other people’s kids, but definitely doesn’t want any of his own- at least, not right now. however, with other people’s babies he is S O F T; he loves to hold them, and would absolutely offer to try and calm a crying baby down, rocking them and singing soft lullabies to calm their woes. i also think that he would LOVE toddler aged kiddos- like 3-6. he’d be cool uncle ethan, playing catch with them, taking them to the park, finding games to play and always letting them win. he’d totally try to teach them how to ride their bike, or how to do a cartwheel, or how to jump off the swings for maximum height. ethan would totally bring them a fun lunch at school or sneak the kid’s favorite candy over to them and eat it together in a secret spot.

m = morning (how are mornings spent with them?)

mornings with ethan would be slow and lazy and filled with golden light filtering in through the blinds. if he woke up first, ethan would be as soft as humanly possible in order not to wake you up & would sneak downstairs to make coffee and start breakfast for the two of you, sometimes bringing it up to surprise you with breakfast in bed. the two of you would spend an hour (at minimum) in bed together, waking up and peppering each other with soft pecks all over. i think ethan would be extra soft™ in the mornings- he’d be super cuddly and affectionate. 

n = night (how are nights spent with them?)

nights spent with ethan would always hold a sort of unexplainable magic- there’s something about the thought of falling asleep next to him thats just so… comforting? he’d be so warm and easy to fall asleep with, all soft and hazy and gentle; he’d fall asleep holding you as big spoon, but when y’all woke up he’d be wrapped in your arms, laying on your chest. also, if you were having a hard time falling asleep, ethan would stay up with you, talking through whatever was on your mind even if he was barely able to keep his eyes open. 

o = open (when would they start revealing things about themselves? do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

i think that ethan would open up more and more as the relationship progresses, going along with the natural advancement of things unless something happened that made it crucial for him to open up; if that did happen, though, you wouldn’t have to pry anything out of him. ethan is a pretty honest, open person and wants to be transparent with you always- trust is something that he values above all else and he wants to remain very truthful with you.

p = patience (how easily angered are they?)

ethan is incredibly patient and understanding- it would take a lot to truly upset him. sure, the two of you would get into little tiffs here and there about stupid things, but the small arguments would be resolved within the hour with lots of hugs and kisses and soft “im sorry”s. however, if yall managed to get into a big argument, i think it would take ethan a bit to calm down and he would want to put some space between you two while he did- not to anger you any further, but to make sure that he didn’t say anything he didn't mean. ethan has a bit of a temper while he’s angry, and he wouldn’t want to say anything just to hurt you out of anger. after he cooled off he would come back and be willing to re-examine whatever had caused the issue with fresh eyes. 

q = quizzes (how much would they remember about you? do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

if you’ve watched ethan ever, you know that the sweet bby doesn’t remember shit (cue the instagram live thats purpose was to help him remember a word)- but listen. i think that ethan would go out of his way to hold on to little pieces of information about his s/o, and would put so much effort into trying to remember little details. he’d store them in his brain (things like your favorite flower, the brand of chocolate you like best, etc) and reference them when he needed. 

r = remember (what is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

a couple moments would stick out to ethan - when y’all first met being his favorite. he’d remember every detail of the moment he was first introduced to you; what you were wearing, where you were, what y’all had been doing that night. it was something that he though about a lot, actually- he loved to reflect on the way you’d blushed as he’d introduced himself, how you’d hugged him at the end of the night. 

s = security (how protective are they? how would they protect you? how would they like to be protected?)

ethan isn't possessive, but he is incredibly protective of you. he secretly hates whenever someone flirts with you, even if it’s strictly platonic- you're his s/o, and he doesn't want anyone thinking any different. like i said earlier (reference letter j), ethan wouldn’t be afraid to step in and put someone in their place of they were getting a little too friendly. he likes when you’re protective of him as well, even if its something very subtle to show that he’s spoken for, such as calling him a nickname or dropping a kiss on his cheek.

t = try (how much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

romantic ethan my belOVED- he would try so hard. ethan would plan surprises for you for weeks before they would unfold, even roping your family and friends into his schemes. He’d be so creative with date ideas too; picnics, art classes, different seasonal excursions around california. For bigger occasions like anniversaries, holidays, birthdays and all that, ethan wouldn’t hesitate to go bigger- i definitely think he would take you traveling. he wants to see the world with his love :,)

u = ugly (what would be some bad habits of theirs?)

ethan bites his nails, which is why he’d had you paint them- he’s trying to break the habit

he’s a very sweary human, but so are you; the only issue is he has no filter and accidentally swears in front of kids all the time lmao

v = vanity (how concerned are they with their looks?)

eh. ethan is more particular about certain aspects of his appearance over others, but he’s generally well put together. he likes for his hair to look good, though- that’s the one thing that he’s picky about. 

w = whole (would they feel incomplete without you?)

ethan is his own person and is able to function on his own, but the two of you have developed a sense of codependency with each other, like any couple does. he can’t see his life without you at all anymore, and would much rather have you around than not. the two of you have fallen into a flow together- you and him against the world. life is much easier when you have another person on your team, and he’s honored that he gets to play that role for you. 

x = xtra (a random headcanon for them.)

(this may or may not be a lil hint to a fic i'm working on shshhshshhhhhhhh)

on the night unus annus ended, ethan was a wreck - rightfully so

he had a bit of an existential crisis , and started to spiral a bit

you were worried about him , and knew that he would just continue to get into his own head

so you got him out of bed

and took him on a v special date

thats all for now ;)

y = yuck (what are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

ethan wouldn't like smoking (nicotine), and if that was a habit that you were willing to budge on, he would really try to help you break it. 

overall, ethan is a very considerate and kind person, so someone that was rude or had a sense of entitlement just wouldn’t fit well with him.

z = zzz (what is a sleep habits of theirs?)

ethan can’t fall asleep without background noise. his brain gets too loud when he’s just in bed in complete silence, for better or for worse; sometimes this leads to great video ideas or new concepts for the channel, but other times it just lead to him overthinking his life. when it was that kind of night, ethan would fall asleep to soft music or one of those white noise apps- then he became dependent on it to be able to fall asleep. something about filler noise managed to calm him right down and lull him to sleep, and he pays $5 a month for the premium version of his favorite white noise app.

[thoughts-on-bangtan]

I m just having these random thoughts. Like tae has always been very clingy and affectionate with other members like jhope or rm or jin or even jk. Whereas wgen it comes to vmin its mostly jimin being clingy. Like u can see even when vmin sit together its mostly jimin touching him or clinging to him whereas when they sit with others while jimin is equally touchy tae becomes clingier. Its so wierd and i dont know what to think.

Looking at the history of vmin from beginning until now (here’s an amazing timeline post by romanticdrift you should check out), in the first couple of years both of them were clingy and affectionate with each other, but also rough and lacking the experience that came with age of how to properly communicate with each other about their feelings and thoughts and in general. So, while in the beginning they just had fun with it, some of it being for show to entertain ARMY, some not, it’s true that things have evolved over the years and nowadays they are very different from how they used to be in like 2013, for example. That isn’t a bad thing though. It’s a natural progressing even.

Besides, Jimin and Hoseok are the two most physically affectionate members, that’s true, but just because that’s their love language (at least in primary free content, yet in paid content like ITS or BV, have you noticed how suddenly even they are way less physically affectionate, how the members don’t feel the need to constantly cling to each other, hug and touch each other, and rather just spend time together doing something or being in the same room doing their own things while enjoying each other company), we can’t expect everyone to have the same one. For instance, Yoongi is more about showing acts of service toward his members as a way of showing them how much he cares about them and loves them, it’s his love language. Does that make his affection for them any less valuable than when Jimin is clingy with another member?

If you look at how Tae’s behavior has fluctuated across 2020 due to obvious reasons in the first half while settling down and turning happier in the second half, you’ll notice that he’s in general “calmed down” with how affectionate in a physical way he is with the other members. He’s still silly and making jokes with them when he’s in a good mood, he still touches and shows physical affection toward Jimin, like in the RUN episode with Chef Baek and the rice cooker moment, yet there are also times when he simply doesn’t want to do that. It’s not a bad thing, and it also doesn’t have to say anything at all about the state that vmin’s bond is at. It runs so much deeper than some physical touch caught on camera during a 35-minute RUN episode, or lack thereof in some other content.

Jimin and Taehyung worked so hard and over a long period of time for the bond they have now, especially since they did it not as BTS Jimin and BTS V, but as Kim Taehyung and Park Jimin, the real-life people. They put in a lot, and I mean a LOT, of emotional and physical labor into creating and strengthening this bond they’ve always had (in some form or another) because they saw something in each other, saw that they’d found their person in each other and wanted to make it work despite their differences, despite hard times making not only their lives hard but also putting their bond to a grueling test, and at the end here we are today where their bond is literally one of the closest and strongest bonds I’ve ever seen.

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Now, imagine you put that much into a relationship (and for this argument the only viable reason for why they behave this way and guard this so fiercely is because there’s something romantic here since why else would they be so protective about their bond and “hide” it so much?) would you really want to showcase it so obviously to people, strangers who only wait for reasons (even if there aren’t any actual ones) to be vicious and nasty toward you? Just to see people drag your bond through the mud, to insult it, belittle it, and write it off as “fanservice” (even more than they already do) even though it’s something so precious to you, even though this person is your person, your soulmate, your special someone you want to keep at your side until you’re grandpas?

I highly doubt it.

And that’s where the difference lies. Yes, all the bonds in BTS are strong and special in their own rights, but what Jimin and Taehyung have, that is something so rare, so precious, so once in a lifetime, yet also something they worked so hard and long for and on, who would want to “sell” it to the public? Wouldn’t you, too, want to keep it safe and close to your heart? Think of Taehyung’s lyrics from the song he posted and then deleted off of twitter, of him wanting to protect his love from those with evil tongues, to save his love and save himself with an umbrella, think of the drawing from the Snow Flower cover of the boy protecting the flower with an umbrella from the snow. Wouldn’t you, too, want to protect someone who is this special to you, with whom you share such a special bond, from the horrendous opinions and words of others?

It’s easy to be affectionate with people who are your best friends, your found family, your brothers, and showing that to people, but showing the same with someone so important to you, with whom you share a different level and kind of connection, it’s a completely different story.

Besides, we still get glimpses of it from time to time, we see their affection for each other, and yes, it’s different, it might come across as weird to some, but that doesn’t make it any less meaningful and their bond any less real and deep than any other bond within BTS. Does the closeness of two members truly only depend on their on-camera affection, yet the moment it’s something we only hear about yet not see, therefore is something off camera and not for us to view, somehow not exist and not matter?

At the end of the day, we know so little about their private lives, and much of what you see and hear about from some is just speculations, some of which are f*cked up to say the least in regard to some other pairings within BTS, and yet the things we do hear about their private lives come from their own mouths, especially in connection to vmin, are immediately dismissed and ignored because…because some loud part of the fandom just decides that that’s how it is and everyone else is meant to just follow their opinion, I guess?

That’s not right, we know that and, in a way, I’m sure they do as well, but they follow their own agenda, one we don’t have to follow or agree with. What they do is their thing, but as vminnies, we know what we know, we see what we see, so instead of looking what everyone else is doing, why don’t we do as they do and stick to our opinions, our feelings, everything we know about Jimin and Taehyung, as individuals and as pair, and feel happy for them but also happy for ourselves because we got to witness them grow into the people they are today, in general but also with each other. Isn’t that much more valuable than some short touch of a thigh or a teasing joke?

I know it’s easy to fall into the pattern of comparing, especially when it comes to the amount of content you get etc, but just because others want to impose their bad shipper habits on us and take how supposedly real a pairing is solely based on “”moments”” and turn it into something akin to a di*k measuring contest, who’s to say we have to participate? Besides, regardless of which shipper camp wins, it has no effect on the actual idols, says nothing about their actual real-life bonds. They are the only ones who know the true nature of their bonds and their depths, so looking at everything we know about vmin, things they’ve shared with us through visuals and words, do we really have any reason to feel insecure about our opinions? What reason do we have to think of how much or how little affection and clinginess they show toward each other in on-camera moments as the be all, end all evidence and standard of their bond? When we know how much they’ve worked for this, how much they matter to each other, enough so to cry and laugh together, to sing a song about it co-written and co-produced by Jimin, for Tae to write 4 O’Clock and many more, and for them to decide to want to stay together forever? In the face of all that, is it really that imperative for us to see them share affection on camera, for them to be clingy?

Isn’t everything else we have, these more than eight years’ worth of friendship and more, isn’t that enough for us to see and know their worth to each other?

And sure, there are moments where they are clingy, where they are affectionate with each other, so isn’t that enough? Do we really need more, or some kind of elaborate explanation for why it is that way or not a different one? Besides, they aren’t eighteen-year-old boys and rookies anymore, they are grown men who want to be seen and treated as musicians, Grammy nominated ones at that, who have learned how to communicate their love for each other in a way they are most comfortable and happy with, so do they really need to cling to each other on camera? No. They don’t owe us visual proof of their bond, don’t owe us visual reminders of their bond either.

The fact that we still get glimpses of their bond is a wonderful thing and I’m grateful for it. Generally, the fact that we get to see and witness so much of the members lives is something we should treat as special and not as a requirement, like a quota they need to fulfill. They could only ever show up during comebacks and promotions, but instead we get so much, just yesterday we had Jimin spend time on weverse replying to so many posts and even coming back a second time a little while later into the night, also replying twice to posts about Tae.

From anon: I think that, especially Taehyung, has succumbed to restrictions and fan service and the falsification of everything. This is the problem with the entire Makne lineage. Maybe they are all very real with each other in their personal lives, but in front of the camera they all seem very scripted. Because of that, I think Vmin does not present himself in front of the camera and does not want any fan service. What do you two think about it? Thanks for great posts!

This is another ask we got a while ago that I think fits thematically. Even more so when you consider that many consider anything vmin do together just fanservice, thus belittling and cheapening their bond in such a blatant and awful way despite having no right to do so. I’m sure vmin know about all of this, have seen the comments since they are everywhere, so it can’t possibly be fun or pleasant at all. You could argue that they could just not care about what people say, could just not care about how their interactions are viewed as fanservice, but that is way easier said than done when there is practically no escaping those comments at this point.

There’s a shipping rule, so to speak, especially when it comes to real people ships, that you are to keep your shipping away from them and keep it somewhere where they don’t see it. That rule has long been broken, burned and turned into micro particles that can never be put together again. And we know that’s a fact because we literally had Tae tell a shipper off on Weverse, something that usually never happens. But it did. Not that it changed anything or had any kind of effect, but it’s more about the gesture itself.

As for the scripted part, of course much is scripted but not because they are fake, their personas are fake, and the whole BTS are family thing is fake, but because their words have weight. Their actions have weight. Everything they say and do is put on a scale, measured and accounted for, analyzed, theorized and twisted one way or another. While they could be wild during rookie years, now that they’ve reached this unprecedented level of fame for Korean artists, that’s not possible anymore. They have to be careful, have to be on guard during certain content, have to put their very best foot forward at all times. It’s hard. Incredibly hard. We’ve seen them struggle with it, but that’s how it is. And when you struggle, it’s easier to have a script, even just a loose one, you can follow to make it easier, to make you less unsure or keep yourself from overthinking everything you say or do.

One thing that is incredibly important to remember is that when they are on camera, they are at work, they are BTS Jimin and BTS V, BTS RM and BTS JIN, and while parts of their real personalities are also part of their BTS personas, it’s still work, not free time. Especially during interviews or performances, while backstage getting ready to go on stage, or while going from schedule to schedule. Think about it this way, vmin are affectionate and clingy and loud about their bond in places where we see them, so now think about how loud they must be in places where we don’t see them, in their private lives? 

Enough so for none of the members to laugh or react or comment on how casually Tae spoke about wanting Jimin to come sleep next to him. And enough so that Hoseok said that the person Jimin shows aegyo toward the most is Tae (though I’ve seen at least three different translations for this moment, the one I mentioned, another one that translates it as Jimin being spoiled the most by Tae, and yet another as Jimin treating Tae as big baby) in one of the Japanese interviews (NTV Buzz Rhythm) in July 2020, Yoongi nodding in agreement, the mention of that making Tae flustered (?) and want to downplay it a little by acting ‘surprised’ and asking “(To) me?”. This, too, is something we don’t see that often (anymore) yet it obviously must be there if Hoseok mentioned it and the others agreed with him. And at the end of the day, the members truly do know them, far better than any of us ever will. Or that time at the airport where Jimin waited for Tae and they only started to hold hands when they must’ve thought no one would be able to see it. Do things like this not sufficiently show that there are simply things they don’t want to show us? And thus, shouldn’t we simply respect their choices?

And even if they are calmer now, less clingy, less ‘showy’, we still got a bed selca they took while hidden behind their legs and blankets creating as though a wall so the ITS cameras didn’t see them, with a caption that…well, opens up some interesting implications (positive ones, of course).

Let me end this post on this: if vmin were just friends, or even if they weren’t friends anymore like some so vehemently insist is the case, surely there would be no issue for them to show their just friendship the way they show it with the other members, be clingy and affectionate in physical ways, possibly even just play a role of bestest buddies like some idols supposedly do, and yet they don’t do that. So, since they don’t do it, the only plausible reason I can see for it is that they simply have something between them that they want to hide and that it’s valuable enough to them that they want to guard and protect it, that makes their bond different from the bonds they have with the other members.

[geekywritings]

JUNGKOOK X READER PART 2 - Is this real life or am I in a drama?

Part 2 of my little Jungkook x Reader story. For all who need a recap of Part 1: You are a young vet, just trying to make your way home from work when suddenly Jungkook falls right into your car, taking refuge from a group of sasaengs. You give him a ride home and he exchanges contact details with you, promising to stay in touch.

The prompt for part 2 is: “It’s pouring rain, why are you here?”

For the next few days, all you could think about was that meeting. It still seemed so very surreal. And you didn’t even dare tell anyone about the incident, because who would really believe you? Even your best friends and work colleagues would just raise and eyebrow and shake their heads most likely. Such things simply didn’t happen to people. They were part of k-drama scripts or popular web toons and after a week, you did start to wonder if it had all been some kind of strange dream.

But exactly that evening, when you had just come out of the shower to enjoy a cup of tea and a new episode of your favourite show, your phone beeped with a new Kakao Talk message. You gave your phone a lazy glance and then almost dropped your mug when you saw it was from none other than Jungkook.

JK: “I’m sorry for the late reply, Miss Vet. Things got kinda hectic. But I have not forgotten my promise. I still owe you that thank you.”

You had to reread that message a few times and for a second you wondered if it was a scam perhaps, but who else would now about that event but him? For a second you wondered what to answer before typing:

Y/N: “No problem. You are an idol after all. And you did already thank me.”

It took only a few seconds until his answer popped up.

JK: “It still doesn’t feel like enough.”

Wow, did he know how cool that sounded? 

Y/N: “You don’t have to worry. Really. I’m glad I could help.”

This time he took a bit longer to reply.

JK: “Do you like flowers?”

Y/N: “Yes of course. Who doesn’t?”

JK: “Which ones are your favourites?”

That one was harder to answer. You liked quite a few and just named them all, allowing him to make the final choice.

JK: “Great. Can I send them to your workplace? I don’t think florists deliver late in the evening.”

It was sweet that he was so dead set on sending you flowers as a proper thank you and while part of you was delighted, the other part wondered how to explain the bouquet to your colleagues at the vet office. Still, you typed in your adress and sent it out. 

From then on you thought the conversation would end, but apparently Jungkook was in a talkative mood. He revealed that he had a free evening and was just relaxing on the couch with a good meal, before asking you what you were up to. You told him about the drama and he suggested watching at the same time, sharing comments through text. 

You had never done anything like it before, least of all with a stranger, but Jungkook seemed so nice and it didn’t feel so intimidating to write with an idol over messages. And after the first few shared comments, you actually started to really enjoy it. You two ended up talking throughout the entire episode, which was almost an hour long and then even half an hour on top until Jungkook announced that he was heading to bed. Noticing the time, you realized it was time to hit the pillows yourself. 

But as you laid there in your bed, you kept reading through the chat history, as if making sure it was still real. Especially that “Goog Night” with the cute little emoji brought a smile to your face, before you finally turned off the night light.

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For the next two weeks, he kept writing texts every other day. Sometimes it was just a random “How are you?” or a comment to your recently posted Kakao Story that he didn’t dare post publicly. But sometimes he would ask if you were watching that drama again to share comments in real time. It had become kind of a ritual when the third week started and a day without his messages felt weird. You still couldn’t tell anyone about it, but your friends and colleagues did start noticing your smiles and your eager grabs for the phone. But whenever they teased, you just said it was some guy online. Their would never believe the truth and you didn’t want to put Jungkook in trouble either. You had seen how crazy his fans could be, so the last thing he needed was your chats to become the topic of online gossip. Besides, it was kind of exhilarating to have a secret like that. At this point, you had already totally forgotten about the flowers.

During the fourth week of knowing Jungkook, you were staying late at the clinic, taking your regular night shift to take care of your little patients. You had just made your rounds, giving all the animals their medicine and checking on their bandages, before sitting down in the reception area, in case of emergencies coming in. But it was a super quiet evening, so you took out your phone. Almost on cue, a message popped up: “Finished work?”

Y/N: “Nope, having a night shift today.”

JK: “Oh, sounds tough.”

Y/N: “Not really. It’s quiet tonight.”

Nothing came after that and you put the phone away again, turning your head to the entry, the glassdoor giving you a perfect view of the rain shower outside. It really was coming down hard today. Bored, you took another round visiting your furry patients, giving them an extra round of cuddles. Suddenly the sound of the door tore through the hallway and you were quick to place the cat with the broken paw down to go and check on the new arrival.

You were utterly stunned to see Jungkook standing in the half opened door, dripping wet and with a huge bouquet of your favourite flowers in hand. 

“It’s pouring rain! Why are you here?!”, you exclaimed, approaching him with a shake of your head. 

“Well, florists dont deliver at this hour.”, he said cheekily with a shrug. “So I came personally.” 

He held out the dripping bouquet to you, which you took gratefully, enjoying the heavy fragrance of the flowers.

“You really shouldn’t have, but thank you. They are gorgeous.”, you said, sending him a smile, before inviting him to the staff room. 

“Let me make you a tea and grab you a towel.”

“You got coffee instead?”, he asked, running a hand through his hair. It had changed color, you noticed, though you also instantly thought that you prefered it black. 

A few minutes later you came back with a small towel and a steaming cup of coffee, taking a seat across from him at the small table. The entire room was tiny, but it was enough for the team.

“So this is where you work, huh?”

“Yeah, it’s a good place. It has nice people and I like how we truly take our time for each patient.”, you explained. You knew that not every clinic was like that, having done internships elsewhere during your studies. 

“Aren’t you busy though?”, it was now your turn to ask him a question.

“I am most nights, but we do get our time off as well.”, Jungkook replied. “Our agency is a good place too.” You nodded, having read up a bit about Big Hit since your meeting with one of their idols. You also realized that you did know and enjoy quite a few of BTS’ songs, even though you had never been able to put a face to them. Now you enjoyed them even more.

“Do you want a tour?”, you asked, after a minute of silence fell between you, during which Jungkook tried to dry his hair. He agreed with a nod, before following you around. There wasn’t much to show, but he did spend some time in the patient rooms, giving the animals some pets and cuddles. He was good with them, you notcied and they seemed to like him in return.

“You have two cats at home, right?”, he asked, his hand still stroking a fat tabby, who was at the clinic because of stomach problems. The owner insisted something was wrong with him, even though you had determined that he just needed a change in food and a consistent diet. 

“Yeah, Mr. Paws and Pogi.”, you replied. “I got them both from here, when the owners didn’t want them anymore.”

Jungkook’s eyes snapped to you, one of his eyebrows raised. “People do that?”

“Sometimes, unfortunately. Mr. Paws has a missing paw, ironically. We had to amputate it and the owner thought his cat would need special treatment because of it. And Pogi just needs regular medication and special food.” Small things really, but some owners just couldn’t handle it. 

“I saw pictures of them and I never notcied the missing paw.”, Jungkook said.

“I don’t make a point of making it the focus on pictures.” 

You ended the tour back in the staff room, where Jungkook took his coffee for a few sips, the drink instantly helping to warm him up. 

“I have to miss our drama this friday.”, he suddenly announced. “So you have to give me detailed updates or at least a good summary.”

“You could just watch the rerun online.”, you suggested.

“It’s no fun alone. So unless you can wait a day for the new episode...”

“I make no promises, since the last episode ended on a cliffhanger.. but I’ll try to be patient.” He smiled at your humor, but you were serous. The show was more enjoyable with him. 

“How did you get here?”, you eventually asked.

“I took a cab, but told them to let me out in front of a restaurant nearby. From there I walked.” In the pouring rain no less. Probably so the cab driver wouldn’t tell where he went. It was a clever ruse, but it was a shame that it was even necessary. 

“Need a ride home?”, you asked. “I think I’m not a bad driver and I have some minor experience with idol passengers.”

His smile grew even wider at that. “I wouldn’t have it any other way.”

“But I do stil have to work for an hour before I can take my break.”, you said, glancing at the clock on the wall.

“Just a break? What time do you go home?”

“This is just like a hospital with normal night shifts. Usually they are covered by our senior staff, but because some are on holiday, the task falls to me. So today, I’m staying till 7am. But I get the next day off.”, you explained. Those almost 24 hour shifts were draining, but rare, so you didn’t mind them at all. 

“Oh, I think I will need loads of coffee to make it until 7am...”, he said.

“What do you mean?”

“Well, I might as well keep you company. That will be the perfect way to show my gratitude.”

“You really don’t have you...”; you started. 

“I have a free day tomorrow as well, so I don’t mind.”, he insisted casually. “Besides, we get a chance to talk about that drama in person. It’s easier than typing.”

You still didn’t get why he wanted to stay. Somehow you could not imagine that it was because he simply started to enjoy your company through your online talks.

For almost the whole night, you just talked and drank copious amounts of coffee. He followed you on your patrol rounds, helping you with minor tasks whenever he could. And although it was strange, it was the best night shift ever. Most of the time, it didn’t feel like you were hanging out with an idol, but just with a really nice guy. A really handsome one at that. 

“This is nice.”, Jungkook said, voicing what you had been thinking. “But I do need another coffee.”

“You could also just take a nap.”, you offered. “I’ll wake you before it’s time to go.” It was already 4 am at this point. 

He seemed to think about the offer. “Ok, but we will grab some breakfast together to make up for lost time.”

Did he really feel like he owed you all this time? You weren’t quite sure what to answer, so you just nodded and went to grab him a blanket. There was a small sofa in the staff room specifically for the nightshift or patients who could not see blood. 

“Goodnight, Jungkook.”

“Goodnight, Y/N”

Hearing it live was so much better than reading his text you decided. And with a smile you made yourself another coffee to last the remaining hours. 

[our-inspire-verse]

Suicide**

Long post, vent....*

Thinking about money instantly makes me wanna k*ll myself tbh.

Im so fucking tired of being broke and exhausted and unable to physically do anything to get more money. Its stupid i should live like this. And i know my death is what They want and what They have been pushing us lower people to do and they would win if i did. But im coming to a point where i dont want to be a soldier to fight for the Rebellion. I dont want to die in war. I dont want to live in this much pain. I dont want to go on like this. I do not want to go on.

I quit my job too early even though i had another one lined up because i was fed up and ready to get out. The thought of working 6 more hours with someone who would rather accuse me of stealing and write me up than let me take a small fry because i hadn't eaten in 20 hours.

I needed out, i always need out. Im never safe and im never well and theres nothing i can do to fix that I'm never going to just. Be. Or be okay. Always something owed. Always something i have to do Or Else.

Its always world ending. The north is on fire when it should still be snowing. The reefs are almost gone and i lived to watch it. I cant keep watching it.

None of my 3 computers work. My phone barely loads anything and my room is cluttered with things i cant bring myself to get rid of even though all i do is walk around the same animal exhibit every day and lay in the same spot watching the same things over and over. I always keep the library books i borrow long overdue when renewing them at the very least would only take minutes and a simple few clicks on my phone. I eat far more than i should on days we dont have enough and far too little when i really need it.

I never clean, i never give anything. I never create even when i promise and others need me to. I am nothing and no one and i cant understand why i would ever have mattered. Im just some guy. My great uncle was just, some guy. We all die and he didnt change a whole lot, he just made a bunch of people like him. And thats all i am. I'll never actually affect anything real. I'll never fix anything or improve anyones environment. I'll never have a rhythm set up that i can fall into and keep a routine. I never keep up with medications even when its accessible and available to me. I never solve my own problems. Im so done with all of this i just want it to be over and to be proud of myself without someone shitting on me, leaving me, or thinking im incapable and unnoticeable. Even when im shouting people turn away. I hide away and no one comes looking. I lay down or stand up and cheer and it doesnt change anything. I wish i could die but im just here laying in bed crying because i know i cant. I have too many things i cant leave. Im already damaging the things i cant leave. My roomate would be practically homeless without my financial help and i already cant afford anything, i never buy myself anything ever ever ever ever ever. I bought a kurtis conner ticket because my 2 friends going with me said they'd pay me for theirs and he feels like a once in a lifetime opportunity, i adore him and wanted to go see him. But i shouldn't have spent the money. I only buy food and rent and i cant even afford therapy. I cant afford my hormones. I pay for a minecraft realms subscription because i dont want to lose the world and so many people seem to like it. I stopped picking people up for fun events like dnd or parties. I dont go anywhere i cant walk to or dont need completely to go. I barely use water or electricity or dishes. I cannot take up little enough space to afford to live.

[berserk-jewel]

SFW ALPHABET with SCYLLA ANGUIS

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Her way of showing affection is essentially bullying you. She likes to tease you and see you get flustered but she's never explicitly mean.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

She's definitely the kind of friend who you go weeks without speaking too and then she'll send you a random text and you'll go get coffee together. But you'd still classify her as a close friend.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

I don't think she likes to cuddle but she'll allow it if you like to. But she'll definitely make you owe her something just to mess with you.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

She's been engaged so many times...I don't think she wants to settle down. But she wouldn't mind being with you for the foreseeable future. Honestly, I don't think she's good at any household chores. She seems capable but isn't used to doing practical things on her own.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Like Felix, dramatically. But she won't be torn up about it at all. She might miss you a bit but she won't show it and will move on pretty quickly.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

Never ever ever. Until/unless she has to, I don't think she'd ever actually get married. She might propose to you though so good luck; it probably won't go anywhere.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

She's gentle physically but not emotionally so you'd better have a tough shell. She doesn't try to come off as cold like Felix but she also doesn't mince her words.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

She doesn't like hugs but will grudgingly except hugs from you. After awhile, she'll probably warm up to them and be more pleasant about it.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Probably fast but casually, the first few times she definitely doesn't mean it. Who's to say if she'll ever actually mean it?

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

She gets surprisingly jealous but is also confident in herself and knows she's better than whoever is trying to flirt with you.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Terrible. She thinks they're gross and snotty and doesn't know what to do with them.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Not a morning person. She needs her beauty sleep and to be woken up with a fresh cup of coffee and a scone or something. If you wake her up before she needs to be, she'll be absolutely impossible to be around for the rest of the morning.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

She doesn't want to be disturbed at night so you'd better not snore or be an active sleeper or she'll kick you out.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

She's not open at all. Why do you need to know things about her? She'll only let you know very surface level things like her favorite color.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

She gets frustrated easily but it takes a bit more to get her actually angry.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Definitely doesn't remember a lot. She'll remember really random things like your childhood dog but doesn't remember your birthday or that you're allergic to peanuts.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

If you ever meet Escell and go off on him, she'd absolutely adore that. Or meet Felix and call him out for being a brat.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

She's not very protective unless it's an inconvenience to her. If protecting you is useful to her, she'll do it but only something low-effort. Like setting a tavern on fire. Don't protect her. She'd take it as an insult.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

In some ways, she puts in a lot of effort but very shallowly. She'll give you expensive gifts and take you somewhere nice because she thinks that's what she should do/what you would want.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Disregarding your existence. If she gets busy, she'll probably forget to check in with you and make sure you're alive.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Very concerned. She knows she's attractive and always looks her best. She makes it seem effortless and even when she first wakes up, she looks amazing.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Not at all. I dont think she gets very attached to partners and if she does, she still wouldn't mind if you leave. Everything comes and goes.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

I headcannon that she's aromantic! Am I projecting? Yeah, a bit. I think she also has a complex over not being able to use magic so don't bring it up.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

If you're needy or clingy. I headcannon that she hates things that are high maintenance or take a lot of energy.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

She definitely sleeps on her back with an eye mask and like, noise canceling earmuffs or white noise.

[blbylink]

Kirishima gives out all of his presents during December and they all end up opened before Christmas rolls around. Bakugou cooks for everyone as thanks (I DONT OWE U’s) for the gifts he receives. Everyone except Kiri.

Kiri had gotten Bakugou’s present first, an All Might poster from one of his favorite artists. He’s learned though that he won’t get a present in return until the last minute on Christmas Day when they’re finally alone.

A scribbled “K+E” is immortalized in crimson letters on a black pin. Kiri would know that handwriting anywhere. Bakugou had his idol write their initials and then cast them in metal. Kiri sobs for days.

[peepo]

why are you traveling n the middle of a pandemic? and dont say bullshit like 'EvErYoNe eLsE iS doINg It'

i wasn’t going to say the first one and also people have so many personal reasons to travel it’s a little weird & nosy to ask this question but here you go: so the job that i thought was going to supply me with a steady income (itsa a contracting job so i’m not gonna get shit until someone hires me which they haven’t made me any calls to potential clients even though they said they would) is based in seattle on the account of they found me through indeed while i lived there. i lived in seattle with a roomate (850$ per month place for each) who’s dad is paying for all of their amenities and college as long as they go to it and also bought a 2mil apartment there (besides the point but still pissed at rich people cause she guilted me with this till now even though i said id pay her back for the 2 months even though i lived for 2 weeks in the place) and we were expecting another 20k in the bank roomate to move in with us but she kind of fucked us over imo by saying she would and never moving in but she payed for my plane ticket back from russia and didn’t ask for any payback so she’s been really sweet with that and of course im paying her back as soon as i get the money lol either way blame doesn’t lie with these girls im just so POOR LOL!

anyways me, broke, i don’t have triple digits in my bank account nor any savings cause i lived by myself last year in russia using all of them up (like 1 k lol) got fired from my job the moment i came off my paid vacation (i was only making <1000 usd with currency change a month and for my vacation i got 100usd before they fired me) the price for me moving there was that sure i’d pay my first month before i got fired i don’t really wanna live in an abusive household or in the same state as the guy who gave me lasting sexual assault trauma as well as lasting every single year before he moved out of the house trauma and also i thought that the girl would move in cause i can’t afford to pay this cause some months id get paid less than 800$ before i got straight up fired so i moved back out leaving half my shit there cue me not traveling again after that until the job im employed at rn thats not paying me shit asked me to turn in my I9 in person even though their whole gimmick was that they’d give me work from home in a pandemic and i needed to grab a suitcase worth of clothes and sentimental value things (baby blanket) so i went since they wouldn’t let up and let me fax my info in (i guess so they would know im a real person? i sent them my greencard maybe they thought it was sus but they ended up using it for the I9 check anyways LOL) and now im back home also my mom works in healthcare and we can’t afford to buy food for a month its fine cause we can just use all our pantry shit but that sucks ass huh also lets hope i dont get corona and pay off 2k i owe my roomate fairly soon 

anyways please comission me? im sick of asking for money cause it leads to everyone in my life holding it over me you can give it but please just ask me to draw something little for you paypal is the easiest way for me to get money straight into the bank sorry i used you to whine but i should have a therapist when im out of social isolation so wish me luck!

[danganronpalimits]

chapter 3 - pains of a girl,part 3

"K-Kazuichi!!"

Gundham shouts,stepping back a bit in shock.Kazuichi gave a muffled cry back,as he shook in his place.Kaede also jolted when she saw this,as she plaved a large nearby sheet over the dead bodies.Gundham was currently trying too drag a shaking Kazuichi out of the closet

"h-he was here this whole time?!h-his so hurt-"

"now is not the time for idiotic blabber,Pianist One!!weild me those blades at once!!"

"you mean scissors?!"

Gundham nods,as he tried undoing the tape hold Kazuichi's arms together beforehand.Kaede kicks the scissors over too him,as he grabbed them.Kaede made her way over too where Kazuichi was,as she sat down beside him.

his face was all cut up,as blood poured down and stained his jumpsuit.the large red mark on his neck seemed too be getting worse too.mustve been from the tazer

Kaede sighed,as she grabbed one end of the tape covering Kazuichi's mouth,causing him too jolt

"th-this may hurt,but...i dont know" Kaede warns,before ripping it off

"MUST YOU BE SO HARSH?!"

"o-ow ow ow!!th-that HURTS...!!"

"i-i didnt know it'll hurt that much!!"

Kaede throws the tape aside,as Kazuichi took some deep breaths and shook.Gundham was now moving onto freeing his legs,so Kazuichi held himself up using his now free arms

"Kazuichi...?wh-what happened too you...?"Kaede asks,worry in her voice,as she goes too touch Kazuichi's neck for some reason.he jolts away,whimpering a bit

"d-dont touch that!!pl-please dont!!i-it hurts...!!"

"Kazuichi,do you recall the fiend that did this too you?"Gundham asks,as he looks up from the taped up legs

"w-well...no,not really...i-i remember hearing noises coming from in here though,s-so i went too check it out...a-and i saw...!!"

"you already saw Byakuya and Korekiyo?"

Kazuichi nods at Kaede,before yelling in pain from moving his neck.by then,Gundham got the tape undone around his legs,as he lifted Kazuichi up as if he was about too burp a baby.Kaede got even more confused

"...no need too fear,Kazuichi.i shall personally make sure the imbecile that did this too shall burn in the very depths of hell,because NO ONE gets away at harming a friend of the great Gundham Tanaka!!"

this got Kazuichi crying,as he latched onto Gundham.Kaede got more confused

"th-that was sweet but...keep it down,maybe?i think your scaring him...!"

--DING DING DING--

"well well,looks like we found our lost boy and two bodies!!how fun!!"

"anyways,y'all get the memo!!adios!!"

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by the time everyone that wasnt there got too the stoarge room,Gundham had carried off a brawling Kazuichi too the nurses room,as he intends on patching him up himself

"w-we just sure Kaz!!is he gonna be okay?!"Aoi asks,as soon as she enters the room

"hopefully.Gundham's looking after him,and those two are best friends...it'll be fine!"

"but his also MY FRIEND,Kaede!!and who the hell goes around hurting people like that?!i wanna kill that bastard so bad now!!"Kokichi yells,as he kicks Byakuya's corspe out of anger

"woah,chill out man..."Kaito says from his side of the room

"hey,Tenko doesnt understand this all exactly.who locks peoples in closets?"

"obviously assholes..."Kokichi replies

Kaede picked up the tazer,turning it on out of curiousity.it zapped a bit,causing her too drop it.Peko came up too her and stood next too her

"remember when i said i heard screaming?i assume it was Kazuichi's now with...this..."

"wait...screaming,and running...i think i figured it out!Kazuichi mustve walked in on the killer while he was taking a break from the training!sometime mustve drawn him here,and when he opened the door,he saw Byakuya and Kiyo!!"Kaede shouts out,snapping her fingers

"errr,wait a second...then why did the killer just badly injure him?!wouldnt they want him dead?!"Kaito asks

"true...they had a choice,really.they mustve choose not too kill him,judging by his injuries.he can make it through them,but he might be badly scarred...but,in other words,the culprit let him live!!"Kaede replies.one of the students gulped at the explaination ...but no one knew who

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by the time they finished their investigation and went too the trial room,Kazuichi and Gundham were already there in their posts.Kazuichi's entire face was bandaged up,except for his eyes and mouth.his neck was also bandaged up,as he rubbed it a bit.Kaede couldnt help but feel bad for this

once everyone got into their posts,the class trial began

"w-well,at least we only had 2 dead bodies,not 3,right?imagine that..."Kaede thinks out loud

"i-im sorry..."

"hey,dont say that Kaz!none of this is your fault!!chill out!!"Kaito replies too Kazuichi,giving him a thumbs u

"anyways,we should begin officially.from Peko's explanation of his screams,we know our culprit must be female"Celestia says, interwining her hands together

"y-you guys HEARD that?!"

"yes.may you please tell us who harmed you this way now,Kazuichi?"Gundham asks,as he gave a quick glare too everyone else in the trial room

"i-i dont remember a lot...b-but...i-it was...i-i think...Tenko?"

[sweetmisschesire]

Pt 3

Eve

Her fight is similar however there is way more fighting

Between the brothers

Between eve and west

Between eve and zuke

West’s bitterness and jealousy comes out

While zuke’s frustrations about how his brother treated him after college and everything else comes out

Z: her art has really changed

W: i think it looks great

Z: it does but it’s like it’s missing...her. It’s missing nadia

“My name is eve. And my district would disagree. They prfer this art. The other kind was taking to long to make.”

Z: do you even get to enjoy your art anymore

“That does not matter anymore.”

They manage to beat eve with her retreating into her realm

Zuke and west argue some more but manage to somewhat reconcile and zuke follows eve

They talk like they do in the game till one point

Z: she’s right i do owe you an apology and more than that. I wish i could make this up to you but you dont need me, you complete yourself.

“I hate this art, but it’s all i can make anymore.”

Z: you shouldn’t let your fans control you, remember they dont complete you, only you can complete yourself.

Zuke goes to leave when eve speaks

“She’s not a bad person, she’s actually very kind. But she can never be herself.”

Z:... why not

“She’s scared, it’s all she was ever taught. We’re all scared.”

Interlude

during the walk back the brothers talk some more and discuss things more civily

While it doesn’t completely fix things, this talk and the revolution have defintely repaired thier relationship by a lot

Tatiana

Again like the canon fight but dialogue changes

“You dont have what it takes to power the city youre music will never be enough, especialy not on its own”

W: we’ll see about that, lets show this woman what rock and rap can do

“You still just dont understand.”

The fight continues up to the point where it gets revealed that shes Kul Fyra

W:...who?

Z: ugh west.

W: what?!

Z: shes a rock star, one of the best. Or she was.

“No i am not Kul Fyra, i will never be her again. She was weak, unable to be what her fans wanted of her. But now i can provide so much more than she could.”

Z: at what cost though

They fight as they talk some more

Z: seriously the nsr artists, they cant take anymore i dont think you can either

“ YOU dont THINK? What would you know? They have powered Vinyl City for years. Practiced their arts and skills for years. Were granted powers for their dedication! They provide the people their needs!”

W: what about thier needs? The needs of your artists?

They manage to beat Tatiana and see that they haven’t even reached half capacity for power

“See you cannot do it.”

Z: neither can you. Any of you.

“How dare you.”

Z: you all are going to kill yourself! Yinu and the sayu team dont get to be kids, djss lost part of his dream, neon j never stops working and knows nothing beyond it!

“They are strong minded and capable how would you-“

Z: eve- hell part of thats my fault cause im a coward but she doesn’t get to enjoy her art or put herself into it. She just keeps shelling it out without any heart and its affecting her badly!

Z: and i don’t even know even where to start with maysibelle. She’s afraid of her own emotions and is even more scared to show her face! Thats not okay!

“That is enough!”

Z: no you listen-

Kliff(k): she’s right zuke, that is enough.

The conversation between kliff and tatiana is the same mostly save for the fact that kliff doesnt beleive in the negative effects of idol worship, nor does he understand that what he feels is obsession not devotion

Z: what the heck is wrong with you kliff? Didn’t you listen to me when i was talking about what it’s done to the nsr artists?!

K: hah there’s no such thing, just weak artists who can’t handel the devotion thier fans show them

W: that isn’t devotion it’s obsession

So kliff argues with them and when he can’t bring them to his way of thinking he gets angry but it’s zuke who makes him snap

Z: hey everyone out there in vinyl city i know you can hear me. Look at your artists, look how exhausted they are. They do everything you want and you still demand more. They’re human.

Z: They have to be able to rest and gave time to themselves. They should be able to make mistakes and express themselves. They shouldn’t have to lock way their emotions. Just show them some respect. They don’t need worship, they need to be seen as human.

Kliff snaps and calls them traitors before turning to tatiana and speeing outbhis lines about hus devotion and then brings the satelites down

The brothers help and return the districts to the nsr artists as theyre taking the boys decline joining nsr

Z: i- don’t think we’ve earned that right yet. Maybe one day. Will you all be slright.

Tatiana: perhaps one day. We can only hope the people of Vinyl City listened to you. And in time perhaps things will change for the better.

And this is where the main part of the game ends, there’s still recovery needed to be done on the nsr artists part after all of this after all

Please feel free to ask question i would love to answer them

[is-that-another-soulmate-au]

A suggestion/request from @bon-fly

Medieval Au Zukka, I would have added more detail about the other ships but it had already much longer than I anticipated

✨Enjoy✨

"What ever could be the problem my lord?" Came the characteristically grumpy voice of Zuko's Dwarflven Mage Toph

He leaned back from his slouched position to look at the blind woman. "It's nothing much really. I Just... I need to summon the southern knights for the Avatar honoring" he gave a sigh

"Then summon them" she said simply while leaning on his throne. There was a few other advisors in the room, none of them were ever expecting Toph's brash behavior towards the king or the fact that he took it. The high elven king never once found his Dwarven mage's behavior to be uncalled for. His reasoning was simple. She was a friend, one which would lay her life down for his just as he would hers.

"Its not that simple Toph, he's going to be with them" Zuko leaned his elbow on the table and pressed his hand to his forehead.

"If I may, My lord, the avatar is technically escorting the knights, not the other way around" advisor Tayko offered

Zuko gave a snort "thats not who I'm worried about Tayko, but I appreciate the sentiment. Its the Cheif's... ehm, son"

"Did he do something wrong my lord?" Tayko asked with narrowed eyes

"More like he did everything right and managed to fluster mister pointy ears" Toph bellowed and Zuko flushed a deep red

"Shut it Toph!" But he laughed with her "she is right though... I'm just, nervous is all, dont worry Tayko, I'll have the letter written by tonight"

Tayko, still being wary of how Toph behaved but understanding that her king was very brash with people who acted out of line, gave a smile "my lord, may I say something?"

Zuko sat straight and looked at her warily "go on Tayko"

"It is to my knowledge that most people don't support miss Toph being here, but I have never seen anyone make you smile as she has," she paused and looked at her hands in her lap "I'm very happy to see you smile again"

"Well, its nice that someone noticed, thank you Tayko" Toph said with a big grin spread from ear to ear across her cheeks. "Now, Zuko has some writing to do, so run along, I will fetch you when it is written"

Not long after Tayko scurried off she was fetched once more and given the letter to send by hawk to summon the southern nights and the avatar. The hawk response came by the next evening when Toph was training Zuko to react faster on both sides, not just his good side. "I know you're not a dwarf but ANYONE can feel the vibrations, and you're clear proof of that" Toph said as she watched the king use his blades and flames to expertly block and deflect each rock sent his way.

"My lord" Tayko spoke suddenly from behind Toph and had a blade fly past her head missing by a good six inches "Eep!" She tensed while he took off his blindfold

"Sorry Tayko, you startled me" Zuko gave a sheepish grin "what did you need?"

"The uh.." she moved away from the wall with a sigh "the Southern Chief sent back, they will be here in three days time. Shall I summon Lady Mai and Ty Lee?"

Zuko gave a huff and slouched his shoulders, his pointed ears slanting downward as well "that would be best, though they won't be happy to be summoned so soon after their honeymoon"

The pair most certainly weren't, the arrival of them was easy to notice because a knife flew past Zuko's head, barely grazing his ear and landed on his throne "ah, Mai, sorry to summon you so early after you two wed, but youre the only ones capable of pulling off a three day party planning."

"You are going to owe use so many fruit tarts!" Mai spoke harshly as she stormed into the room

"Yeah! With rose petals!" Ty Lee backed up her wife with a much softer voice.

Mai smiled softly at Ty Lee and placed a quick kiss to her forehead "thank you darling."

"Of course, you'll have all the reward you like, but we have to prepare for the avatar and Sokka." Zuko said with a wave of his hand.

"You mean the Avatar and the Southern Knights" Mai pointed out

"Thats what I said"

By the time the third day of planning had finished the kingdom was decked out with shimmering blue flowers of all assortments, ribbons and the like were draped around anything that seemed fit to the recently weds.

At high noon Zuko was found with Ming fixing his hair and Ursa helping him with his robes and jewels. "He'll be here soon Mom"

"I know sweetie, but you need not worry, the Avatar will appreciate the festivities you have set out for him and the knights" Ursa reassured her son while tying off the last bit of silk and Ming slid in the metal hold for his hair piece.

"Thats not who he meant lady Ursa" Toph said bluntly. Ursa turned to the blind dwarf behind her who had a soft smile on her face rather than her normal mischief coated expression. "My lord, they've arrived at the gates"

Zuko flushed "lead the way" and she did. She lead him down the many stairs, with his many layers of silk flowing freely behind him. They followed the winding paths of the kingdom streets until they reached the Knights and Avatar. Chief Hakoda and Bato stood with Sokka on their right and Katara on their left with Avatar Aang in the middle. A hobbit at maybe their hips was a humorous sight indeed, but Zuko's focus was on someone else.

Sokka stood in his formal attire, a pale blue high collar robe ending at his shoulders but his arms covered by a a deep blue draping silk over dress connected in the center by a fire opal jewel. Zuko was of course caught staring by the chiefs themselves "ahem, Lord Zuko?" Bato spoke up with a raised brow

"Oh, uh! My apologies, welcome to my kingdom," he turned to look at Aang who smirked when he noticed the flush on Zuko's cheeks "thank you for coming to the honoring Avatar Aang"

"Say, Lord Zuko, Sokka told me about his last trip here.. well, technically he spoke mostly of you, not much variety in his stories I'll tell you tha-!" The small boy was silenced by a hand over his mouth from a flustered Sokka.

The blue eyed boy stammered out a "sorry about him, he loves to blurt things out without thinking them through!"

"Sounds like someone else I know" Katara said with her hand on her hips. From just looking at her ears he could tell that she was a bender, and a powerful one at that. "Sorry about that Zuko, my brother and Aang love getting on eachothers nerves, especially about you" she rolled her eyes

Zuko however was as red as his robes "oh, uh, thats perfectly alright, Toph, would you mind showing them to their quarters?"

Toph gave a laugh "you want a blind dwarf to lead four southern elves and a hobbit to their living quarters?"

"You may be blind but you can easily see, and you know it Toph-" a rock hit the back of his head and he yelped before giving her a pout

"Haaah! Yeah, youre right, but don't you wanna show baby blue to his room?"

Zuko gave a huff "Chief Hakoda, Cheif Bato, Warrior Karata and Avatar Aang please follow Mage Beifong to your living quarters. Warrior Sokka, I need a word with you about that design you sent over last moon, so I will show you to your room"

"Oh, of course" and with that the group left the two man alone to walk to the palace. For a short while they were quiet but Sokka broke the silence by linking arms "so, about those designs, I was thinking we could easily make a cart that didn't need any animal to pul it if we just used"

Zuko didnt hear much besides Sokka's voice, too lost in the fact that he was finally here to understand what the sounds meant together until they made it into the castle and Sokka tugged him into a small broom closet "I know why you actually separated me from the others"

Zuko cleared his throat "im sure you are aware of my reasons, but you did not need to drag me in here, if you were worried about someone catching wind you made the mistake of going into a broom closet with one of my maids already in here" he turned to help her up "sorry miss Jin, I'll give you the day off paid in full"

Zuko then took hold of Sokka's hand and dragged him out of the small room and back to the empty hallway. "Hah, my bad" Sokka said with a small voice crack

"Don't worry about it, thought you shouldn't worry about the staff catching wind of this sort of thing, everyone here adores you, I hope you know that" Zuko chuckled

"What sort of thing?" Sokka feigned innocence and Zuko being ever so gullible fell for it with a flushed face

"Oh! I'm sorry, I just thought that, maybe you had caught onto my affections for you, and reciprocated them. What did you think I-!!" The king didn't have much room to continue his awkward words because Sokka planted a quick kiss to his cheek to silence him

"Of course I do Zuko, and I was only teasing, you really should be better at spotting that with Toph being around you all the time, hah, she plays the- hey! Where are we going?"

Zuko said nothing, and just dragged him to the room he was to be staying in for the week of festivities and slammed the door behind them. "Don't. Don't.... don't tease me about that okay? I'm not entirely used to anyone returning affections since... well" he genstured to his burn scar and damaged ear.

"Oh, oh Zuko no, Zuko I'm sorry, I didnt realize... I'm sorry" Sokka took the shorter elf's face in his hands and forced him to look him in the eyes "Zuko you're beautiful, I can't get over how stunning you looked under the moonlight the first time we met. And what's even more stunning about you is the ability to make a confession walk seem like a diplomatic walk to anyone but the two of us. You really do have a way with words"

Zuko was practically melting in the hands of the southern warrior, "you... you really think that of me?" He asked with a shy softness to his voice.

Sokka couldnt help the fond chuckle "Of course I do Zuko, now, if its not too much, may I give you a real kiss this time?"

All Sokka needed was a small nod and he sealed the distance between them. Every mile, every inch, every millimeter of distance that had ever been between the fire elven king and Southern elven warrior was gone, and all that remained was stars.

The two wed thirteen moons later, with a promise to protect, love, and trust one another in this life and every life that came after.