#i dont have time or energy to vet every cause

[sillimancer]

hey maybe don't send me solicitation asks anymore

[witchings-ofkoi]

Toadstool's Grimoire: Page Six

Houseplants for Protection

The poll is over! results are in and the option with the most votes was the best houseplants for protection! I love plants and working with them in my craft so im super happy to get into this topic.

Plants have plenty of properties, whether its medicinal, edible or even poisonous. Protection is in my opinion one of the best uses for plants next to healing reasons, especially if you just like having plants in your house.

There are all kinds of plants but some arent easy to care for or can be harmful to pets if they try chewing on them (and knowing cats, they will).

For this page im going to share with you a list of plants i found that are best for protection, not too hard to care for (plus a bit about how to care for them), and whether or not theyre harmful to pets/if consumed.

if you have any questions at all please let me know! im happy to answer ^^

Protective plants

Cacti A cactus can absorb anxiety and negative energies, great for keep your home a calm positive space. These prickly guys love heat and sunlight so they're fine if you leave them in a sunny spot! Do be careful not to prick yourself! Do a little research on the type of cactus you get so you have the right soil, some prefer to be dry with a little water every now and then but some prefer being watered a little more often. Cacti are fine if you forget to water them every now and then and they usually come from dry hot places, so they're pretty easy to care for and don't require too much effort! As far as i can tell most cacti and succulents are safe around pets especially cats but to be safe look up the specific plant you have just to make sure your pet will be okay. Most decorative cacti/succulents like holiday cacti are perfectly safe!

Chinese Money Plants These little guys flourish in positive energy and are great for holding onto any negativity in their leaves to keep things positive. They're super easy to care for needing indirect sunlight and not too much water! They're non-toxic to both cats and dogs so they're plenty safe!

Basil These herbs generate positive energy and are known for spiritual protection! They're not as easy to grow, needing about 1 inch of water every week but aren't too much of a handful and are even worth it because you can cook with the leaves! Basil is healthy for cats and even dogs in small quantities, a non-toxic plant to help protect your home!

Aloe Vera While being known as the best plant to help soothe burns, Aloe vera is also another good plant for spiritual protection in your home. They love sunny spots and water but don't need to be in direct sunlight or watered too often! Unfortunately this plant IS mildly toxic to cats and dog, causing vomiting, tremors and a number of other things so it's best to keep it away from your pets if you do choose to get it, maybe scheduling a vet appointment if your cat happens to get a bit mischievous and nibbles on t.

Sage This one is very well known for helping ward off negative energies among other things but it's important to do your research on the cultural connections to plants as well such as the act of burning white sage. My suggestion is just simply growing other types of sage like green sage in your home. Sage is fairly easy to care for as you don't have to water it too often so long as it's in natural lighting and the soil is wet when watered. They're very drought-resistant so if you forget to water them a few times it's perfectly fine! Sage is thankfully non-toxic to dogs but it would still be good to be on the safe side and limit just how much they end up consuming if you can help it, same goes for cats!

There you go! im sorry the list was shortened to just five plants but others i found required more care than the rest and a lot of us dont exactly have that time on our hands or will remember all that care needed for the specific plants.

Id be very happy to create a part 2 to this list if you'd like more plants and dont mind hearing about ones that require more attention and care but for now, i hope you like these findings ^^

Of course if i left something out, something needs correcting or you feel like adding on another plant feel free to go ahead and do so! you could even share what plants you have in your home! (mine are mostly succulents!)

Thank you for joining my post series so far i have a lot of fun with this already ^^

Blessed be and merry meet!

[dingusships]

(very) long vent post, heavy discussion of animal death, death in general, grief //

so i haven't talked about it bc i haven't been active on tumblr much & i dont feel comfortable posting it anywhere else so i'll give a short rundown. my dog, lucy, turns 15 on the 25th - that's obviously a very long time and i'm so grateful to have had her this long. a few months ago she started having issues with coughing, and was diagnosed with congestive heart failure.

we've been giving her meds to keep it managed but we've had to steadily increase it after 2 or 3 scares. 2 nights ago, she started having problems again, and it was so worrying that my parents used the after-hours emergency call in meetup at her vet at 1 in the morning. she spent all the next day there getting stabilized, and she spent last night there as well so they could monitor her after they stabilized her. we visited her yesterday during the day and she was in good spirits luckily but you can tell she's tired overall.

she's home now, feeling better, but the vet explained and showed how far along her condition has progressed. He said she's stable now but if/when this happens again, we'll be doing her a favor by having her put to sleep at that point. He's given her a bunch more meds to make her comfortable while we spend time with her for however long that may be.

so that's the rundown.

I'm absolutely gutted and devastated, and I don't know how to handle it or cope or make it easier to face. I'm scared, I'm scared of her suffering, and this is utterly pathetic and cowardly to admit but I'm scared of being near her. It's like if I face her the situation will be all the more raw and real. I want to spend every second with her, I need to and want to so bad but it's like at the same time I'm trying to distance myself from the reality of the situation and keep from hurting worse. I'm the one primarily doing her meds, feeding her, taking her out to use the bathroom, making sure she's comfortable etc so it's not like I'm *actually* giving into those fears. I'd like to think she notices I'm doing good for her esp since classes aren't keeping me busy anymore and I have time to now.

Seeing her condition degrade is horrible and weighing on me, it's so heartbreaking and scary to see her try to be her old self but not have the energy to. I'm constantly terrified of something sudden happening that causes her pain and distress. That we'll have waited too long to give her a humane ending and we couldn't have gotten to the vet in time.

Logically I know that whenever the time comes and we take her in, she won't be suffering at all anymore. The worst will be over and there won't be any more dread and agony of knowing what's to come. But despite knowing those objective facts, and being told + telling yourself that to try to comfort yourself, it just... you can't logic your way out of the emotions that come from losing someone you love, animal or human. It's tearing me apart to see her suffer and it's tearing me apart to know she'll be gone.

I'm scared of the possibility that the last view I have of her is her in the vet's office whenever the time comes. I know people always say to go in and stay in-person when you have to do this, even if you know it crushes you, but I really don't think I'm strong enough to handle it.

I couldn't do it with my cat, but I did give my parents a shirt of mine to take in for him to smell. That helped a lot in giving me peace. The part of me trying to protect myself is saying to do that again with my dog. The other part of me that puts her first knows that I owe it to her to be in there when it happens after 15 years together. But I just don't know if I could handle witnessing her pass away. I know it would be very traumatic for me

It's the same thing when it comes to people's funerals I've gone to. I look like a tool when I do this but I cannot bring myself to partake in the viewing. I want my last memory of whoever it was to be as how I knew them alive. Even for, well especially for my grandparents when theirs happened. When I think about people I've lost, even if we didn't have a super close relationship I want the last time I remember their faces to be when they were alive and doing whatever it is they normally do. Not what they look like lifeless. I just know that would be so traumatic for me and I'd never be able to get the image out of my head. If they're alive in my memories then it's...easier to cope. Like they never really "died"... but just...left

I say "cope" but i don't know if trying my hardest to forcing down every negative feeling that acknowledges the reality of the situation, and end up also trying to distance myself from any prior positive memories in (feeble) attempts to not feel any sense of loss whatsoever is necessarily "coping".

[chaewon-62]

hi! here for the ship! this if my first time trying to do an ask box so sorry if i do this wrong. i would like to request for txt, enha, and nct dream! i’m 19 born in 2001 i have long dark brown hair but its currently dyed like the two toned hair with platinum blonde underneath and the two strands in front, i also have dark brown eyes and i am 5’4. im in college studying to either become a vet tech or emt. im a scorpio sun, sag rising and Aquarius moon. im an ambivert i really love meeting new people and making friends but im really shy and quiet at first until you get to know me, i dont like putting myself out there unless im super comfortable with the people around me, i do love to stay inside and just chill at home or hang with friends and i can be a very spontaneous person at times like a lot of insane things like skydiving or something like that draws my attention, i love traveling and i paint here and there. i wouldn’t necessarily call myself the mom of the group but i give lots of advice and people find comfort in talking to me, and friends have said i can get pretty crazy and loud and my humor is very sarcastic and witty so they think im pretty funny, sometimes childlike? picnics and carnivals and all that type of stuff are like my type of things to do with friends or even dates wise and i love music, absolutely listen to every single type i could think of. im a huge kid and animal lover and i love sports, not really into playing sports but i love watching. i guess my ideal type is just someone very trusting and loyal and really funny, i need to make sure i 100% rely on them and are also able to do a lot of things i would like to do but also willing to try new things between the both of us. im a huge physical affection type of girl, i love cuddles, hugs, hand holding anything you name it. my love language is physical touch and a slight words of affirmation. some kinks i guess i have are im definitely a sub, choking kink, hand kink, praise and i wouldnt necessarily say slow sex but like intimate at times and also hard core if that makes sense? sorry thats quite a lot

no worries you did it correctly! and it's not a lot dw :))

for txt i ship you with beomgyu! beomgyu has such a chaotic like personality to him and he loves being around people who match his energy!! he also comes across as a spontaneous person who doesn't stick to one thing so i think you two will work great together :) i definitely see him bringing you to fun things and some days just cuddling on the couch watching a movie. he loves a partner who he can joke around with and laugh together <3 so wholesome cause he's also always touching you in one way or another. gyu is definitely huge on physical touch so he's always massaging your hand and kissing you where he knows you like to be kissed. sometimes physical touch leads to more places.. he LOVES touching your thighs with his pretty hands since he knows you like them <3 his fingers are quite long too so he's always having you suck on them. i think beomgyu also has a thing for praise as well, so in the bedroom you two are constantly praising each other which means amazing sex 😳

for enhypen im getting jay energy! jay is also the adventurous type so he invites you to do fun, and sometimes stupid stuff but you both enjoy it. hes also always down to go to the carnival and win you teddy bears like in the movies <3 he can't help but show you off sometimes, so he tries his best to restrain himself. if he ends up accidentally doing it, dw he'll give you the best sex ever 😳 which also makes me believe he's a make-up sex kind of person. hes ALWAYS touching you ngl!! sometimes innocently and sometimes not, but he's a big baby he loves cuddling you. if he notices you're not feeling good, he picks you up and puts you on his lap so he can snuggle you. he likes playing with your hair or touching your thighs. he also likes squeezing your ass no matter the size. jays kind of a spanking person too if you're into it. he LIVES for how subby you get!! constantly choking you with his sexy ass hands.. one second he can be kissing you on your cheek and cuddling up next to you and the next he's railing you from behind praising how good you take his cock <3 he's probably the most compatible with you out of all the other choices!!

lastly for nct dream, i ship you with mark! he's a leo so you two have a lot in common and can connect on a more emotional level. he's very very good at getting you out of your shell to try new things and enjoy your time together. since he's taller than you, mark is always teasing you about your height and how he can easily pick you up. mark isn't the most romantic, but for anniversaries or birthdays he sets up a cute picnic in a private place for the two of you. he wants to be alone with you all the time he can't take his hands off of you either. he's also always laughing at your jokes because he genuinely finds you funny. he can be a teaser, so you two banter a lot but he thinks it's cute <3 ALWAYS holding your hand !! this man has such sexy sexy SEXY ass hands and he let's you know it. always touching your neck or grazing his fingers against your thighs when he wants to initiate sex. he gives off such dom energy so he loves domming you and have you suck him off while he praises you on how good you're taking his huge cock. during special events, he loves to go slow and intimate for you. if he's punishing you, he also goes slow to tease you. but if you want it hard, he won't hesitate at all 😳 overall, he's always trying to please his lover <3

[mc-slowwalker]

MULLET MULLET MULLET YES

philza being 100000 years old is something I can get behind tbh. my least favourite age hc, which I think I actually hate with a burning passion, is the tommy and tubbo were 9 during the first l’manberg wartime actually ignites a visceral rage in me

yeah!! I managed to make it to pink’s bedwars stream the other day and it was great. yeah lol I was lowkey upset too when foolish was added cause I had no idea who he was but he’s super fun so that’s cool! I like high energy stream more too cause I zone out super easily. unless it’s dream, he can stream anything and I’ll try my hardest to pay attention the whole time

ooooh vet that’s cool. oh my god c!dream going into the dentist after months in prison😭😭😭 I’m imagining c!techno as a beefy pig sitting in the kind of small couch/seats we have in the waiting room. Tommy would 100% bite and then get really mad about getting a toy that we give to little kids after their treatment lol

omg the pet wars 😔😔😔 so sad. everyone in the dsmp is emotionally attached to their animals than anything else and what can I say, I’m the same

oh yeah I also tend to take c!dream criticism to heart more idk why. I’m definitely way more defensive of c!dream apologists than any other they get so much unnecessary shit. though from your other anons it looks like c!sam apologists are getting more shit too which sucks but solidarity ig. oh man I get you I have to tell myself to like take a step back and not take everything so personally. another thing on twitter is that people who vehemently hate c!dream will sometimes just refuse to use /dsmp /roleplay tags like it’s not that hard, tweets without that have already been misinterpreted to hate on cc!dream which just pisses me off like you can have your shit opinion just tag it properly. and like when people tell them to include it they’ll be like “ohh the dream apologists harassed me.” and yeah people genuinely go around calling c!dream apologists abuse apologists and it’s terrible. like I don’t care if you have your bad takes and aren’t willing to discuss them, just tag it properly and don’t shit on c!dream apologists it’s not that hard. though it’s funny the other day, the first time I replied to some shut take on twitter, in a lighthearted manner too, I got instantly blocked and there’s this on person on twt, they’re also on tumblr, that blocks anyone that even slightly disagrees with them. oh well ig

also did you see about that lore that foolish did? it was certainly something

sorry for the late and shorter reply I got halfway through writing this then went to do something then just fell asleep and I just got a notification that ponk is live! and I’m awake so Imma go watch them

Jack Mulletfold I’m on my jack manifold mullet truther arc

The 9 year old thing was bad and I also hated the c!dream was 13 during the l’manburg war thing too like no this is all so much funnier if they are the ages that they are now. And like father like son fundy tried to set a timeline up too (his it’s been a year comment) like no dude stop time doesn’t exist unless it’s real world

With watching streams I’m the exact same way but I usually tune into quackity and tommy’s chill streams as well. I think it’s because I know them enough to care about what they’re saying so the lack of mental stimulation is made up for by my want to care

Wait fuck with the dentist thing would c!techno actually have to go to a vet instead because of anatomy stuff or-

C!Dream is probably missing a few teeth and after not brushing so long ugh

I would joke that c!sapnap’s done nothing wrong but I haven’t forgiven him for henry

I simply don’t user twitter I tried to post a shit post but I don’t understand the tagging system so it flopped. Stopped using it there and then. say what you want about me but you guys gotta know that I’m a petty bitch first and foremost. With the “harassment” stuff I’ve had my fair share of sending anons asking people to tag stuff right and half the time they just say why and then don’t do it. You wanna know why? Please thats why. I have a real issue with the abuse apologist stuff because like bro that’s a serious accusation and it’s overall just seems super inappropriate. It usually doesn’t get to me but if I’m in the wrong mood it can really fuck me up. When cc!wilbur said that every character was morally gray and that c!dream apologists were right & wrong about somethings I was kinda like “oh thank god a streamer I like doesn’t hate me for liking c!dream” and was hella embarrassed that I even let it get me that far skdhfk. Oh yeah about people blocking you there are so many people who have me blocked on here and while I totally encourage using your block button liberally and often I still notice and its like aw man… creeper…… so we back in the mines…….

You’re gonna have to be a little more specific I feel lije foolish has done a lot of lore, though I think I’ve missed most of it. Are you talking about truing to break into the prison? Hilarious that every character despite their opinion on c!dream has at one point attempted to break into the prison. If only c!dream knew that the only common enemy the server needed was a building they were supposed to stay out of

dont say sorry that’s illegal (/j) also the thing I like about anon is that you can come back and respond when ever is best for you? Makes me feel like an old western bar tender who is just vibing. That’s the dream social interaction tbh

[dennis333319]

Bitcoin 2 (BTC2) the technical background and why you should care!

The cryptocurrency of the next decade with several improvements to Bitcoin, Bitcoin Cash, Dash and more.

You may have heard of cryptocurrencies called Bitcoin (BTC), Bitcoin Cash (BCH) or Dash (DASH). Three of the top #30 listed CoinMarketCap coins with the biggest one, Bitcoin, at its top. Bitcoin was the first cryptocurrency ever created by Satoshi Nakamoto back in 2007. Since then many more digital currencies launched and tried to revolutionize and improve the online payment system. One of them is Bitcoin 2 (BTC2), a 2018 launched Bitcoin fork created by Jackles and Hiromono. Why we need it and you should take a look in it is simply explained below and upcoming articles! So dont be concerned if you read words or things you dont know. This will be a series of articles about BTC2.

The complete comparison and the Maximum Supply in detail

Lets start with a simple comparison. Bitcoin 2 has the same maximum supply of 21 million coins as the first Bitcoin. Which causes a limited supply and thus a steadily increasing increase in value through block reward cuts (so called halvings). Unlike Bitcoin the Bitcoin 2 block reward cut takes place once every month instead of every four years and can bring the inflation rate down to a whopping 0.59% by July 2022. For comaprison, the US Dollar devaluates on average 3% every year. For example, in 2018 100$ equalled 103$ in 2019. So at the moment Im writing this article, Bitcoin 2 already has a smaller inflation rate of just 1,18% getting lower and lower every month (fun fact: its even lower then the Bitcoin inflation rate of currently 2,56%)! What is also very interesting is the current supply of money. The US monetary supply increased by over 20% in the last year!!

The current Bitcoin 2 supply can be found here.

The Algorithm

Bitcoin, Bitcoin Cash and Dash use Proof of Work (POW). Bitcoin 2 instead uses the Proof of Stake (POS) algorithm. One of the major differences is the huge energy consumption caused by PoW which urges the miners to sell their coins to pay the electricity bill (fun fact: Bitcoin uses 77,78 TWh this is more energy then the country Chile. A single transaction needs the equivalent to the power consumption of an average U.S. household over approximately 24 days)! With PoS the mining power is based on the percentage of coins held by a miner. This leads to a very, very low energy consumption. For comparison, you can run a Bitcoin 2 wallet with any amount of coins (which gives you a passive income of BTC2) on one of the smallest PCs in the world, a Raspberry Pi. To start mining Bitcoin you need hundreds if not thousands of dollars to buy the hardware you need. In addition, there is the high energy bill!

The Block Interval

The creation time of a block differs from cryptocurrency to cryptocurrency. Bitcoin and Bitcoin Cash have a block interval of one block every 10 minutes. Dash is much faster with just 2,5 minutes but gets simply beaten by Bitcoin 2 and its 1 minute block time! What does this mean? If you want to send a transaction, it must first be processed in a block and thereby confirmed. The lower the block time and the larger the block size, the faster the transaction. Bitcoin has an initial block size of 1MB while Bitcoin 2 uses 4MB.

The maximum amount of transactions per day

The block interval and block size define the transaction speed. Bitcoin can handle up to 500.000 transactions a day, Bitcoin 2 approximately 20.000.000. Thats a 40x increase!

The privacy feature (zBTC2)

Note: zBTC2 is currently disabled while a new privacy protocol is being worked on.

zBTC2 was implemented to fix the anonymity problem of Bitcoin, the public ledger system. In the further explanation I have to quote the developers, as my knowledge is insufficient about this point. Much more about zBTC2 can be found on the official website.

“An address may seem like it is fully anonymous but if you made a transaction with an address that is generated by the exchanges and/or other merchant services, you have essentially linked your anonymous address with an address that may lead to your identity. 

Such transparency may not always be an issue. But it could become a serious problem if the coin that you hold was once associated with an undesirable history or if your address was being targeted by potential thieves.

To overcome this issue, Bitcoin 2 has implemented a well known highly-vetted protocol called Zerocoin with many custom enhancements allowing blockchain-level transaction anonymity in the way of unlinkability.

We call this zBTC2, where BTC2 is a unit of Bitcoin 2 and z prefix is for Zerocoin.

What zBTC2 provides is a protocol-level coin mixing service using zero knowledge proofs to sever the link between the sender and the receiver with 100% anonymity and untraceability. This means that each coin that gets sent using zBTC2 is now 100% fungible as it has no determinable history attached to them.

The use of zBTC2 also means your balance can be masked to avoid being targeted by potential thieves. This is a very unique feature that nearly no other cryptocurrency currently in the market possesses.

Bitcoin 2 zBTC2 accumulators are encrypted using RSA-2048[1] challenge generated keys which negates the need for a developer trusted setup and means that no individual knows the factors. This means that everyone’s privacy is ensured through the use of zBTC2.”

The instant transaction feature (SwiftTX)

Note: The SwiftTX feature is currently disabled due to lack of current use cases.

The SwiftTX feature is made for Point of Sale situations in the real world. Lets say you are in a store and you want to buy a new pair of shoes. In the current world you can pay with a credit card or cash, both methodes work directly and are immediately confirmed. If you want to pay with Bitcoin instead you need to wait for the transaction to confirm. This can take multiple minutes up to hours. This is where SwiftTX comes in. Just like the “InstantSend” feature in Dash a user can choose to send a transaction as SwiftTX. “The transaction will be sent to Masternodes to process and it gets verified and guaranteed by them almost instantly.”

As soon as the implementation of BTC2 occurs in real world scenarios, this function can thus be activated to enable direct transactions. At the current moment, with the average confirmation time of one minute, there is no real use for this.

The Masternode Yield

The current masternode yield is at approximately 25%. What does this mean? If you have 1000 BTC2 (the required amount to run a masternode) you will get 25% back every year. So in one year your 1000 BTC2 will turn into 1250 and so on. Keep in mind: the more masternodes there are, the lower the yield rate gets. Currently the BTC2 network has 210 active masternodes. So just for owning these coins and thus adding speed, connectivity and redundancy to the network you get a certain amount of your investment back, thats pretty cool! As soon as the SwiftTX feature is activated again, a masternode also processes and confirmes these transactions.

The Staking Yield

Just like the masernode yield you get a staking yield for helping to support the blockchain with your coins. You can switch on staking directly in the wallet and without much effort. You can stake with any amount of BTC2. Lets say you have 450 BTC2, these 450 will give you a revenue of about 0.5 BTC2 a day. Just like with masternodes: the more people stake, the less you get back yourself.

And much, much more interesting technology…

In the next posts you will get an idea how to set up the BTC2 wallet, operate a masternode, enable staking, and so on…

Sounds interesting to you, you want to learn more or you have a question?

Join our community! Click one of these links :)

The Bitcoin 2 Website,

the Discord Server,

the Twitter page,

the Reddit page,

the Facebook page,

the GitHub page,

a great medium.com article from another BTC2 fan,

and a shorter version with just the quick facts.

The end:

Big thanks to BTC2BULL (leave a like on Twitter!) providing these great pictures ❤

Thank you Jackles and Hiromono for creating such a great currency and lots of love to the Bitcoin 2 community supporting this project!

Note: Im not a developer, every theme can be read in detail in the Bitcoin 2 whitepaper.

[xwolfsscarx]

Why can't (so many) people do research before getting pets? (Tiny rant)

I just have to get this of my chest after seeing so many people with tiny hamster cages and rabbits in those "rabbit hutches and cages" that are just not toooooo smallllllll.

So basically my problem with a lot of people is that they get a pet without doing any sort of research into what they need how they should be kept and when you tell them that (for the wellbeing of their pet) they might want to change some stuff they get all defensive.

Hamsters should (unless sometimes dwarf hamsters) be kept alone as they are solitary animals and will most likely fight till they injure or kill eachother.

They need at least 450 inches of CONTINUED floorspace but the more the better as in the wild they run huge amounts to get food. Bar chewing is not a normal behavior.

Guinea pigs are pack animals so they need to be kept in pairs or more. They need hay or they cant poop and they need fresh vegetables every day (not just pellets). They need a big area to run in (dont get one of those "guinea pig cages" they arent worth it build one with shelving units.

Rats are pack animals and need to be kept at least in pairs better 3. They need lots of room to climb and run around in. They are highly active pets. They will love to interact with you if you put in the effort tp socialize them. They NEED mental stimulation as they are very smart and easily bored.

Bettas arent a decoration they are living creatures so dont put them in a f***ing vase or a flowerpot. Give them plants to chill on and to rest those fancy fins get hecking heavy. They need at least a 5 gallon Aquarium with heater and filter.

Btw goldfish get f***ing massive and arent to be kept in a 5 gallon Aquarium but rather a 20-50 gallon otherwise they will grow on the inside (organs) but not on the outside and yeah I guess you know what happens then. They can get older then 10-15 years.

Dogs are basically children. Cute sometimes stupid children and need to learn whats right an wrong and just like children you cant just put them in a crate all the time. Teach them that your home is a safe place for them and that they can chill there and give them toys to play with while you are gone. Oh yeah and they are 12-17 years or responsibility so know what you get yourself into before getting one and then shoving it into the next animal shelter cause you cant be bothered to go out with him 2-3 times a day.

Cats are fluffy little destroyers of worlds. No really they will scratch at a lot of stuff sometimes even you but mostly your furniture. They need a properly cleaned toilet otherwise they will not go on it and rather poop in your bed or on your carpet to tell you that you did something wrong. They should be fed a high quality diet (no sugar, no grains) they are carnivore they neeeeeed protein and many brand name cat foods have sugar and stuff your cat doesnt need and thats not even good for your cats health.

If you dont want to power out your cat everyday by playing with them for up to 2 hours (depends on your cats age and energy levels) get a second one they will play and do all the stuff cats should be able to do with eachother (grooming, snuggling, punching eachother in the face cause they are d*cks sometimes)

Rabbits are a lot of work and they are by no means a childsplay toy. Dont buy your kid a rabbit just cause easter comes around.

They need large areas to hop around (no cages unless they are freeroam rabbits and its their food and hide area but they can get out all the time).

They need fresh food and most of them dont like cuddling or being turned on their back (they are prey animals).

Most of above mentioned animals should notbe bathed or at least not often as they need their natural oils (rats) in their fur or can get sick from getting vet (hamsters).

Trips to the vet can be hecking expensive yes but you have no right not to go to the vet if your pet is in danger or suffering. Some vets might do payment arrangements and you should always have a vet fund in case something arises.

Pets are NOT a basic need. Sure its nice having them but if you cant afford to give them a proper life then dont get them.

Thanks for reading

Tldr: Do your research before getting pets, have a vet fund cause your pet shouldnt be forced to suffer and you dont NEED a pet, if you cant afford it dont get it.

[esotericfaerytumbls]

***MISHANDLED WOMANHOOD & RAVISHED INTIMACY***

From Chris Bale I had a male client communicate to me today: “she’s so hard. I want her to be softer. It pisses me off when she is so hard. What do I do? I keep telling her that I need her to be softer and surrendered in her femininity, but nothing is changing.” You NEED her to be? Slow up brother! “Firstly, you being annoyed by her “hardness” as you put it, is only going to support more hardness.” I replied. There is nothing safe in your reactive judgment towards her current state of being. It says far more about you, than her in this moment. But also, I feel your pain! Lets break it down. —— UNDERSTANDING: A man who demands she be somewhere other than where she is at currently, is a man who is steering her further away from her expressive freedom and bliss. This is a man who does not know. He is shutting her down. But, its not his fault. There is not much assistance out in society for us as men, when it comes to relating with women in a healthy/supportive/polarizing/passionate way. A man who DOES know, understands that whatever his woman is experiencing, is just another ingredient in the “making” of love. Through his non-judgmental presence, he assists her in transmuting whatever emotions/trauma are seeking to clear - If he wants to. If he doesn’t want to, its best to leave her alone. Whats important to realize, is that she he is already “soft” by nature. Minus the fear, distrust, trauma patterns and overstimulated nervous-systems, we all are. If she is not willing to be receptive with you, there are parts of your being which she does not fully trust or feel safe with. (OR, she is deep in traumatic projecting, and it has nothing to do with you. She is so dis-regulated from past experiences, that she cannot find safety even within her own body.) An emotionally reactive and unclear man, is felt as a weak & untrustworthy man. Because he is. You don’t have to like it. It simply is what it is. I should know. Before arriving to my own work, I was deeply untrustworthy in my confusion and reactivity. Which led me to be grossly manipulative in my unhappiness. This is a pattern I see collectively though the immature masculine. —— FOR HER VULNERABILITY: You see, even if her mind wants to trust you, her body will never feel safe enough to fully open in your company; if you are unsafe. It will brace in your presence. There will be an energetic cocooning as a form of protection. Not because you are a bad man, but because there are too many parts of you which are unclear, uncertain, distracted and dispersive. This is unsafe for her on every level of love, surrender, and ravished-fuck. Men, you must realize to some degree what it means for her to be in a place of deep softness and receptivity with you. For you, it turns you on. For her, it’s risking life. Many times when I bring this up…men will laugh it up, and claim I am over-exaggerating. This lack of empathetic understanding will be clearly mirrored in his life with women. Deep physical & emotional intimacy calls on her to let go of control, which she has been forced to barricade up around herself, based on her past experiences with immature males - who said one thing, but went and done another. This is what you are asking when you request for her to “surrender” more. You are inviting her into absolute exposure. Based on your intentions and integrity, do you deserve her absolute exposure in this moment? Her absolute vulnerability is a privilege. Any humans vulnerability is a privilege. You are also wanting to literally insert a part of your erect body up inside of hers, in a way which allows you to have full control over how you move inside of her, in the most sensitive & receptive area of her entire physicality. On top of this, there is also the possibility of a new life being created. Which means her entire experience of life changes, and she is essentially tied to you through another human for the remainder of her time here. Is he trustworthy? Can I rely on him? Is he mature enough to be a father? Will he be there for me and our child? Does he have a vision? Will he disappear and leave me? - Just some possible questions which may arise within her experience of being receptive to you. These question may arise upon first laying eyes on you - physical intimacy need not even be involved for these thought patters to begin arising. So many women spend their intimate lives being poked, drilled, pounded, mounted and consumed s€xually - in a disconnected way. Where the man she is with is not actually present in his body with her. He is just doing her, to cum. Again, not because us men are big bad predatory wolves, but because as young boys we were not given intelligent and empowering information around s€x & relating. We were given perverted and shameful information, by a perverted and shameful society. We then went out into the world and seeded this perversion in the wombs & bodies of women. And because her very nature is receptivity, she then has to carry around years of mishandling inside the tissues of her vagina, cervix, womb, breasts and throat. When women come to me for energy sessions, the amount of pain and perversion her body has been subjected to, becomes very apparent, as she opens, vibrates, and unravels. Everything spills out into the room. In many instances it can look like some kind of exorcism. Its as if she’s been held captive inside of a tiny part of her body, afraid to feel or exist within her totality. Why? —— THE FOUNDATION: In a society which champions emotional numbness as “strength”, the only remaining option she has, is to dissociate from the inner aching & shut-down her powerfully intuitive felt-sense; for fear of it being exposed as weakness. Endless bracing. Even in love-making, most women(not all) have learned the importance of bracing; incase he unawarely thrusts at the wrong angle, causing pain. Because of this, she’s never truly being able to exhale and feel the exquisite subtitles which arise from connected & embodied intimacy. …and please, dont get me wrong here. When I speak of embodied intimacy, im not referring to tickling your partner with a feather under the moonlit sky until she “arrives”, followed by a curtsey. Im talking about sweaty, deep, primally driven, passion drenched fuck - but supported by a foundation of deeply attuned sensitivity and care towards the others wellbeing. This foundational safety, allows the intensity of passion, orgasmicness, love & primality - to reach heights never touched upon before; back when distracted disconnection was driving the vehicle. When both people are present; tuned-in to self and other, God gets to enter the room. Life, spirit, eros gets to fill the space. So please do not confuse embodied s€x for some boring-ass flaccid form of un-pleasurable intimacy. Its more physically, energetically, & spiritually orgasmic than anything else we have access to in this life. —— WELCOME HER CHALLENGE. As a man, maybe you are naturally wanting to experience her receptivity towards you. Her willingness, longing & desire to invite you in; for her to bathe in oceans of vulnerability - A vulnerability which has been, many times before you; used against her. Disrespected, judged & dropped. Based on all of this...why on earth would she trust a man who she hasn’t vetted repeatedly? If as a man you would like to be stronger for woman, for yourself, for community; welcome challenge. Welcome HER challenge. Realize that she is pushing up against you, because she actually gives a damn about you. If she didn’t, she would never feel the need to test anything about you. Once you have proven your character(to yourself) through stable consistency, and she has digested you viscerally, a deeper dropping into devotion and union can begin. (To further clarify: A matured man will not feel these behaviours as "tests" or "challenges", as they will be so minuscule on the energetic scale of that which he is used to engaging with. The concept of a women "testing him" is not something which he holds in his awareness. Also, a woman who is around a mature man, wont even waste her time trying to test him, as his solidarity will be very clear from the get-go. The above sharing is more for "middle-ground" stages.) —— BOUNDARIES We really need to see the beauty present in the opportunity to demonstrate our sharpness and strength, in all areas of life. Welcome the challenging of your boundaries, so that you have the opportunity to show-up firm and clear in your sovereignty. One of the greatest gifts a woman can bring to a man, is through exposing the areas of his being which lack stability. A powerful embodied woman really requires your boundaries and self-respect to be existing at the forefront of your being - At the forefront of the relationship. So that she has something stable & reliable to brush up against. She may also require a necessary spanking from time to time, if she really gets out of line. Depending on her general level of “feist” of course. In many cases, the insatiable feminine will purposefully do things to magnetize you into disciplining, activating & transmuting her to completion. This, is a whole other topic of conversation, which we can keep for a later date. But there is profound trust and turn-on which is built through healthy masculine discipline and order. **Dear Internet humans, Im assuming you know the difference between spanking her, and beating her - and how the 1st is conducive to a passionate, playful, polarized relationship, while the latter…is clearly not.** —— The below advice is written with the assumption that you have a deep love for this woman(women collectively), and you would like to know how to love her deeper, as it aligns with your integrity. NOT to get something in return from her. HOW DO WE LOVE HER?: By supporting and empowering her to be EXACTLY that which she has come here to be. Without conditioning, controlling, or imprisoning her. So she can come to understand & ooze her innate service to the planet. - Claiming her, if you are choosing to be with her. - Leading her with love and truth, in every moment it is required. - Protecting her. Both physically, and energetically. - Saying what you mean, and meaning what you say. - Remaining diligent and disciplined in your own relationship to life & your mission. Without compromise. - Calling her out/being real with her - holding her accountable. We love her, by reminding her of the tremendous power she is, in any moment she happens to forget it, or falls victim to the disempowering social narratives of backwards womanhood. To add to that - Making love/penetrating/fucking her as deeply and as profoundly as you can arrive to. Which will unveil & shift her experience of this life. As will her “opening” transform how you experience yours. Learn to love her, especially in her “hardness”. Especially in her anger. Especially in her frustration. Especially in her tension. Especially in all the places she has been mishandled and traumatized. You need not viscerally like it, but through showing up and loving her when she is deep in it, we assist in transmuting the collective pain present in so many women, AND men. If you don’t want to love her, and you have no interest in any of the above; there’s nothing wrong with that - But leave her alone. She doesn’t need another half-assed version of undercooked love. None of us do. If you are going to be there, at least commit to it. ---- Finally, please understand that this is a nuanced process, which has its own flavor for each individual. This sharing is to offer some experiential information which I deem as valuable sign posts. Please note that In everything I share, my individual mission comes through heavy, so I dont expect it to resonate for everybody at all times. Perfection is never the goal, but I believe impeccable integrity ought to be, in whatever we do. However you arrive to your way, is right on time. And it need not look like my or anybody else’s way. Here’s hoping what I have shared today can be of some value as you walk the path of “what the fuck is going on down here?”, and support us all in having to carry around less numbness, and more ALIVENESS. In love & service, Chris Bale

[gaberoothekangaroo]

i havent been okay for awhile. there was the trauma of my childhood, early teens, and late teens that i had begun to process once being out on my own in college for the first time. but i wasnt focused on the trauma or what it had done to me. i was too busy exploring things that id hever had a chance to experience or do like my friends or peers had done. i was allowed to like things. i was allowed to buy things. to exist. and thats more of what i focused on. hard to have something taken from you if theres no one around to take it.

and then i graduated and returned home because i wasnt financially stable and didnt know where i wanted to go with my life. id gone to college for something i was good at and liked, not something i could make a life with. and i dealt with that instead of my trauma.

one of the things that cropped up in my late teens that never left, that i never ignored or put on the back burner was my picking. zits, pick. bumps, pick. scars, pick. enough time wasted that id lose myself for hours in front of the mirror picking at my face or sitting idly in my room picking at different parts of my body. its continued throughout my life. getting on a long dose of acutane helped to clear up some of the picking cause now there were less things to pick. but that happened more recently. i learned picking was most likely a body repetitive disorder. a cousin of ocd.

no one is a paragon of mental health in my family. my mom needs help mentally and refuses to acknowledge any issues. my dad is bitter over the fact that during their marriage she needed help and instead created a toxic divide that led to their divorce. no one ever talked about mental health in a positive way. or in something to look out for.

so i guess i never realized that picking was something i needed help for. trauma, yes but later in life was when i realized i needed help for that. so being away in college paranoia? ocd? something of the two slipped in alongside the picking and never left. it was never bad. i didnt count. things didnt have to be a specific way. but i checked the door. and again. and again. again. again. which graduated to checking the car. if i was still within 15-20 ft i would go back, unlock it, and check to make sure i locked it. yank on the door handle. and i would have continuous anxiety about is the car locked? not enough to overtake my thoughts, but enough to bother me until my attention was diverted to class or groceries or whatever. repeatedly check that i turned in an assignment. not just one, but multiple calendars or checklists. constantly asking my dad something multiple times. but are you sure? are you though? what about now?

and very quickly it transferred to my cat. check to make sure hes still inside. crack open the door to make sure hes still inside. look around the stairwell. check the door. is he still inside? and that progressively got worse over the years. before the pandemic it was bad enough that i would pick him up from wherever he was and put him on the couch in view of the window by the door so that i could see he was there when i locked the door. and checked the door. and checked. and checked.

pandemic hit and. i couldnt keep things clean. i couldnt keep my space clean. i couldnt keep myself clean. my cat clean. and i moved out of my room and into my office/the den. i did it while everyone was gone. i shut myself away because i could control how clean i felt in my room. but that progressed to not feeling very clean in my own room and hardly in my own bed. ive reached the point where i dont feel safe or clean being near my dad or sibling. they go out. they see other family. they dont social distance. theyve been out drinking and to restaurants. and theyre not vaccinated. and i feel so unclean next to them.

and the feeling of being unclean led to my showers growing from just washing extra long to multiple hours. 20 seconds is good enough to get the germs off your hands? must be applicable to the rest of your body.

it takes a lot of effort and energy and hypervigilance to be downstairs the 1-2 times i do it a week. then the effort and energy of showering until i dont feel dirty. its a lot. its been a strain. ive had the strong desire to stab myself and cry and scream because im at my wits end. this is not sustainable. ive trapped myself and i dont know how to get out. i dont know how to ask for help or where to go. what to do.

my cat has a cold and has been prescribed medication thats refrigerated, given 2x a day every 12 hours. i leave my room twice a week, spend an hour downstairs, and then the next four in the shower. i cant medicate him. and my anxiety is too high to call the vet back and ask them for something else. and im trying to be open with my dad about my mental health but its hard. he doesnt know everything. he doesnt even know 1%. and all i want to do is cry

im so tired. the pandemic has forced me to deal with my past trauma because theres a lot of patterns in the current trauma. its forced me to deal with my ocd or germaphobia or whatever it is. my chronic health conditions are out of control. i feel like im drowning in mental illnesses and trauma. and im so tired

[satisfaction-explorations]

Suppose that a bigger problem is made up of a million points. Each of these points is breaking through something hard (whether by 1 go or by 100 different pushes) to get to the final solution. And these points are ranked from the #1 hardest block to the millionth hardest block.

Because if there’s a million, it’s motivating that we move as many points as we can, isn’t it? At the end of the day, we didn’t just move 1, we moved 100 or 1000 or 10000 or 100,000. That’s motivating if you’re working on several things right (e.g. Venezuela and Yemen)?

The problem with the million points method is how to figure out which group of people should solve each group of points, because, well, there’s a million points.

Maybe you use the million points method to motivate yourself when you’re working on multiple problems (e.g. I’m going to focus on 20 this week- you might focus on 3 or 6- or 1,2,10- whatever motivates you),

And the 10,000 problems method is for figuring out what group of people should solve what types of problems (as it’s not overwhelming)

And it helps to always stretch yourself a bit- aim for the harder points, the harder #s, in a sustainable (i.e. motivating way)

Maybe the easier parts of the 1 million aren’t that hard, they’re pretty easy

 And in a more overall way, I wonder what the best worldwide methods could be for:

Effectiveness- 1 million best points

Safety- 1 million best points

Rewards/Motivations- 1 million best points

Self-care/Health/Take not aging much seriously Please- 1 million best points

Because it looks like there is a strong likelihood for the sanctions to continue on the PDVSA in Venezuela, how would you create 100 new ethical, safe income sources for the most vulnerable Venezuelan people? As in, what would some of them be, in a way that covered all or most of the most vulnerable people, income wise? 

They would need to be “incomes that cover all of a family/person’s needs, at the different levels going for- e.g. going for level 1, going for level 2, going for level 3”- e.g. a whole income/business/self-employed with low capital startup that employs a tonne of Venezuelans- especially those that bring in export money.

And how can Venezuelans (and foreigners- although treat this like a boost rather than any kind of dependency) intensively train Venezuela’s most at-risk and vulnerable to quickly get the skill level to do these?

For example, it seems like 4 potential income sources for Venezuelans are (1) contracts in ship parts, and anything to do with ships- how do you win contracts with these, (2) anything that makes the other Latin American countries better off with transportation- how do you win contracts with these, (3) manufacturing cleaning goods, (4) IT skills or app development- we don’t need computer science or IT degrees- we just need job tasks that need to be done, and we can export them and everyone can get enough money for food, gas and needs; and people who organize these (high value), (5) ethical ways to optimise your immune system and survive the coronavirus.

For people in Venezuela, it would be incredibly important to build (ethical) relationships with the outsiders who could help a lot and see them as potential boosts in the points up to solutions that cover everybody- but do not be dependent or sit around and wait for outsiders- in very, very, very safe ways, keep creating momentum yourselves too. 

Therefore, money comes into the country via these exported sources. Then the people working in these export businesses also spend some of their disposable income on local businesses. Then some of the local businesses support local businesses. That’s the idea. Money flowing in, with a % spent on internal businesses.

And what are the 5 structural things that most need to be done to support this- e.g. do people in more vulnerable areas have more access to

Because considering the recent report and what is happening with not allowing elections that genuinely reflect what the people need and want (as well as the drug and crime related risks to the international community), the sanctions might be there for another 4-8 years.

It is also worth all Venezuelan focusing 99% of their emotions and energy on the things that they Can Do, Control or Influence (currently existing and to be created/thought of), and avoiding thinking about things that they can’t Do, Control, or Influence (stoicism).

World help would also be greatly be appreciated as this is one of the world’s biggest humanitarian disasters.  

What are the hardest one million points that need to be solved and implemented for persuading the 150 most powerful and influential people in government to genuinely do what is best for the people?

The one million hardest bits that need to be solved and implemented?

What are the hardest one million points that need to be solved and implemented so that the most vulnerable 40% of Venezuelans- and especially the most vulnerable 5%/10%/15%- have enough to get by/ aren’t too stressed- and for real reasons, not false ones. 

I have given it about 20 goes so far, most reaching maybe 10-10,000 points each. But every time I reach something that creates huge points (e.g. 100,000) I’m feel really excited and happy. 

Work done in the spirit of service is the highest form of worship. Abdul Baha

The diversity in the human family should be the cause of love and harmony. Abdul Baha

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https://www.nationalheraldindia.com/opinion/we-are-judged-by-the-way-we-treat-the-weak

Act justly, love mercy, walk humbly with your God. Micah 6:8

Let’s also all memorise that superficial appearances mean nothing. We are all individuals: all of us. 

Real liberty can exist only where exploitation has been abolished, where there is no oppression of some by others, where there is no unemployment and poverty, where a man is not haunted by the fear of being tomorrow deprived of work, of home and of bread. Only in such a society is real, and not paper, personal and every other liberty possible. Joseph Stalin

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A true revolutionary is not one that demonstrates value in the period of the victorious uprising, but who knows how to fight not only at the time of the victorious advance but also at the retreat of the revolution; that demonstrates value in the period of the defeat of the proletariat, which does not lose the head, which does not abandon the road when the revolution suffers a defeat and the enemy records successes; which is not dominated by panic, or falls into despair in the retreat of the revolution period. Joseph Stalin

revolutions seem unsafe and scary

Quantity has a quality all it’s own. Joseph Stalin

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There needs to be a better way than sanctions though. If a country is a dictatorship, there is very little the people can do to remove it. Dictatorships frequently just don’t give a shit and ignore the worst suffering of their people. because they can. people dont have the power to change much in these contexts, other than help themselves and their communities. 

Rather than doubling down on cruel policies and draconian economic sanctions that squeeze the Venezuelan people -- but benefit the regime by giving them false excuses for economic failures (e.g. hyperinflation and the most at risk, not being able to diversify ethical industries, and public services) - a new US-Venezuela policy should seek to help the people. America's failed policies on Cuba should be a lesson, and Venezuela should not fall victim to a repeat of that approach. For decades, provided the Cuban regime with an excuse for failed local economic policies, and now doing the same for Venezuela. Never-ending sanctions on Cuba have not resulted in regime change. That tactic will not work in Venezuela either. Sweeping economic sanctions primarily hurt the people of these countries.

Targeted sanctions on specific individuals in the Maduro government, military, and security services would be more effective. By the end of 2019, and almost a year after the United States imposed broad economic and oil sanctions on Venezuela, 96% of households in Venezuela were living in poverty, and of that number, 79% in extreme poverty. Yet, Maduro remained in power. US sanctions should target Venezuelan nationals supporting and funding Maduro; those who commit human rights violations; those who undermine democratic processes and institutions like the National Electoral Council (CNE); and those who run drug trafficking and money laundering operations.

However- the PDVSA is (1) a huge source of tax- for public services and (2) a huge employer and a (3) a huge source of exports for the imports that Venezuela needs. Also, focusing only on not importing anything is a short term strategy but not a medium or long term strategy. The highest income and product value benefits come from exporting and importing, as most sea-based countries learn over time.

The blunt tool of general sanctions further degrades the poor economic conditions in which the majority of Venezuelans now live. We are deepening their suffering rather than providing leverage for a solution.

[majorasnightmare]

personal

hate how im losing speech daily, hate how my brain is constantly short circuiting once im home from work to the extent that i cant even talk to my partner at all, hate how ive been in an extended mental breakdown for months now, hate that my living situation excaberates all of my worst symptoms of all my neurodivergencies, hate hate hate that instead of getting better everything just gets worse

i go weeks on end without any form of stress relief while everything gets exponentially worse, my brain is so fried i cant even watch tv anymore because the level of under stimulation physically hurts, and i no longer have the mental strength to maintain my focus on anything. if theres a show on or a sudden sound or sudden movement, my brain blue screens and im unable to do anything else

im solely responsible financially for three cats i didnt ask for (even if i love them to pieces) and because of that none of them have been to the vet or gotten fixed, which means the two females have to be seperated from our male, which means they sleep in mine and my partners room. and one of them wakes me up every two hours on the dot trying to tip over my partners 50 inch flatscreen he got as a gift from a now disowned relative that we cant afford to replace. i havent slept longer than 3 hours at a time for months plural

my body is breaking down on me at a pace i cant recover from with constant shooting leg pains and constant arm and shoulder pain that makes it difficult for me to move. on top of that 3 weeks ago i went for an emergency dentist visit for tooth pain and i have to somehow schedule and pay for two removals, two subsequent bone grafts and implants, and four crowns. and im trying to schedule more xrays but the office never calls me back even when they say they will so i end up waiting weeks to have enough free time to actually call them because of my work schedule

im constantly hysterical, im constantly exhausted, im constantly in pain, im constantly sleep deprived, and my workload increases exponentially. my partners mother expects the two of us to end a summer infestation without using bug spray or calling in exterminators. she expects us to tear the whole house apart cleaning with broken worn down bodies and then keep going to work for 8 hour shifts in jobs without air conditioning in 90 degree weather surrounded by asphalt, where we are constantly on our feet, where her job is mostly deskwork in an air conditioned office with occasional bouts of admittedly back breaking cleaning.

im no longer capable of relieving my own stress by any coping method i have available. it feels like my brain is rotting in my skull. i cant focus on anything. the amount of effort its taking to write this post is insane. everything is tv static and misery and im so suicidal im genuinely alarmed. im so miserable and so relief deprived that i cant bring myself to find any reason to continue existing in this torture. i cant even get any relief from my partner anymore.

any attempt at stress relief that i dont have to manage or be responsible for is sabotaged by my hysteria and anxiety, further denying me any chance to recover emotionally and worsening my emotional state.

im breaking down daily. im losing my ability to formulate sentences and coherent thoughts daily. im losing my ability to leave the bed daily. im only able to eat one meal a day. i havent been able to shower for months because my body is so run down that i cant go through the sensory load of standing in my narrow cramped tub while scratchy clingy shower curtains stick to me, just to force myself to scrub my body and wash my hair, only for the experience of washing my hair to be so nightmarishly bad it causes another breakdown and i go into overload. ive had to rely on wet washcloths, wet wipes, dry shampoo and deodorant for so long im scared itll make me sick, but im physically incapable of standing in a shower and going through that, even if someone else does it for me. the sensations inherent to showering are so god awful that i cant power through it. im scared its gonna make me sick and my only saving grace is that its difficult for my body to sweat in high heat, and while it makes me more prone to heat stroke, it keeps me from getting too dirty and gross

my parthers mother agreed to foster sugar gliders, who are very sensitive to cold temperatures, and so the whole apartment is forbidden from using the ac. in aforementioned asphalt surrounded 90 degree weather. our window doesnt have a screen, so because we keep the two cats in our room we cant open the window. we cant keep our door open because the cats have to be seperated. our room is consistently the hottest room in the house, with differences in temp being 10+ degrees between our room and the living room directly outside it

i cant talk to anyone. i dont have the energy to form sentences or maintain a conversation. im a ghost in every group chat im in. i cant string words together enough to even indulge my special interests or hyperfixations. i cant focus on them enough to enjoy them. i cant focus on my games or my own thoughts. i cant string my thoughts together enough to participate in any of my creative outlets. all my energy is devoted towards work and then to cleaning, and i am a hollow scraped out shell of a person for it. the one thing in this world that has deep comforting spiritual and philisophical importance to me, food and the making and sharing of it, has been reduced to barely registering to my body. it tastes like ash and dust to me now and i dont even want to eat it anymore.

ive lost everything that keeps me going while my living situation tries its damnedest to wring every last drop of energy out of me

my life is a living hell and i just want it to stop

[paws-on-contact]

So I adopted a shelter pup about a month ago, and I think I need to bring my sweet girl back. We live wth two other pups, and while she was fine for the first month, she finally seems settled and seems to have developed some dog aggression issues (She's always had over-excitement issues, which I could deal with, but it looks like as her confidence grows, so does her aggression). Any time she's around the other pups, her hackles are raised and she just seems stressed. I've always been big on 1/2

keeping dogs for life, regardless of inconvenience, but while she fits like a glove personality-wise, I can’t keep up with her energy level (a 4.5 mile hike on a biking trail did nothing to tire her out). I’m going into the school year, and I don’t want to keep trying to force this to fit when it clearly doesn’t. Id try and dismiss the aggression, but the more I think about it the more warning signs I see in her previous behavior that I didn’t before. (It’s gonna be 3 messages oops 😅) 2/3 

She’s a pitty mix, and she’s around 3, so her personality is pretty set. I dont want to risk making her aggression worse by having to kennel her for my school days (more pent up energy=more stress=more aggression). I desperately want to keep her, but font have the resources (mostly time and energy) to give her, and I can’t let it just get out of hand until she does damage and has to be put down. It breaks my heart, but I think it’s what’s best for my girl. I trust your opinion tbh, thoughts? 3/3

Oh geez. I’m sorry I didn’t get back to you sooner, Anon. I’ve been busy as heck lately. But honestly, I really understand where you’re coming from.

Baylee was the same way after we adopted her. Although her reactivity didn’t start to manifest until a year after her adoption, which I think was due to her finally settling into the household and maturing into an adult dog; thus, developing her adult personality and adult insecurities.

I strongly agree - do not dismiss the aggression/reactivity. If you dismiss it and push off managing it, your dog’s reactivity will cause a LOT of problems for both you and her later down the line. Now is the time to start managing her reactivity to the best of your ability, if you really plan on keeping her, that is. Personally, I wouldn’t give up on her just yet. I would carefully look into and consider all of your options while trying some different methods to manage her.

Although it’s not ideal (it never is tbh….trying to adult while managing problem dogs can suck), it is possible to manage a reactive dog in a household with other dogs while working and/or in school full-time. And obviously, I’m not a trainer, a vet, or a behaviorist. I’ll give you a bit of advice for what works and continues to for Baylee, which may or may not work for your dog.

Contact your veterinarian. Doesn’t hurt to rule out any medical issues/changes that could be aggravating her reactivity.   

I would strongly recommend crate training if you haven’t already. Re-enforce that her crate is her safe space in which she can decompress if she starts feeling overwhelmed. Offer special treats (Kongs with frozen goodies inside) to keep her busy, feed her meals in there. Make it so the crate is not a punishment to her. If you can, find someone trustworthy (that is also highly aware of her issues) to take her potty while you’re away.

You could also use the crate and rotate method. Crate the other dogs while she is out and vice versa. Use baby gates to separate them/confine them to separate rooms…example, I have a big baby gate on the door to my bedroom so I can easily separate Baylee if she’s being super reactive. I would also pay attention to what the other dogs are doing. Watch their body language and interactions - maybe there is something your dog doesn’t like the other one is doing. Baylee hates when Rylee makes certain sounds/movements, she thinks Rylee is very threatening….Baylee also can not be around Rylee when certain toys (usually tug toys or balls) are present as they will gladiator fight for them.

Use a lot of positive reinforcement around other dogs. Treat her for every good behavior…for example, I would treat Baylee every time she was calm and quiet…or if she simply broke her gaze from the other dog and acknowledged me. Lots of treats and lots of praise to being focused on me. This came in very handy when we go to agility trials and are in small, confined areas with lots of other dogs around us. 

Do mental stimulation activities with her! Sometimes mental stimulation tires dogs more quickly than physical stimulation does. Teach her various tricks and let her sniff out treats hidden in/under various tins/containers. Make her use that big beautiful brain! Even a short 10 minute session (which you can do a couple times a day) can tire them out for a while.

Muzzle train. This will play a huge role in managing her reactivity around other dogs. Once she’s comfortable with a muzzle, you’ll be able to train around the other dogs without the potential of her hurting them. Here’s a good video on how to get started with a Baskerville Ultra Muzzle ((x))! I also found a nice playlist of Kikopup videos to help with muzzle training and teaching calm behaviors ((x)).

Not sure if you’re into reading or not, but I’ll also list some reading material that has helped me a lot:

Beyond the Back Yard: Train Your Dog to Listen Anytime, Anywhere! by Denise Fenzi

Train the Dog in Front of You by Densie Fenzi

On Talking Terms With Dogs: Calming Signals by Turid Rugaas

Behavior Adjustment Training 2.0 (BAT 2.0) by Grisha Steward

When Pigs Fly! Training Success with Impossible Dogs by Jane Killion

Don’t Shoot the Dog by Karen Pryor

Fight!: A Practical Guide to the Treatment of Dog-Dog Aggression by Jean Donaldson

And if all else, contact a professional trainer or a veterinary behaviorist. They may be able to lead you in the right direction with your dog.

I really hope this helps some! Please don’t give up on your girl yet. She needs you to show her the way. It might be hard sometimes….and it will certainly take lots of time and patience. But in the end, it will make an incredible difference if you keep working with her. I believe in you two!

Please don’t hesitate to reach out to me again (whether on or off Anon). I wish you both the best.

[luziflor]

Update (long post)

So I wouldnt say I was astral projecting today. Much more of lighly travelling up there and getting to some sort of inbetween spot between here and there, maybe?

Background: Years ago in my coven my mentor had us do a meditation exercise. We would visualize roots growing from where we stood, and tree branches growing up from us. It would lead you into a starry space, and she taught us to put up a ward and shield there. You would then travel into the tree to get to something that was supposed to be a personal temple, to meet with your deities and such. Not really the same as astral home. So im gonna like.... push it up there. Or something. Point is, I have a home thing already its just not really in the right location yet, but is close-ish maybe. Another problem i have with this though is that I used to be into thoughtforms. I had a few, and they had pet dragons. We had a lovely home with lots of wooded areas and a sea and everything. I could tell that one was strictly in my head at the time though, as I used to get severe headaches and even feel the energy in my brain severely shift. Thats a different story, but causes me to again question if im actually doing anything or just creating more thats only my brain (then again, ive heard of egregores being able to see egregores of others or travel to their homes.... ). Clearly, I have some things to work through.

About the home/temple that was already there - literally was created by 16 year old me after seeing an aesthetic pic on tumblr. Maybe I can find it again but I really doubt it. Anyways, the inside is light and dark blue marble. It has gold accents, and greek styled columns. The whole thing is really an old greek looking place. I recall I had a waterfall or something in there that would cause severe damage to a real house but I liked the look so it didnt bother me. There is a white greek statue of a woman in there but I could not tell you who it is. To the left there is an altar. The original was above a stone fireplace.

How its been updated: Same color scheme, theme, and random statue. The water feature was changed though, now its a small pond outside my house with a mini rock waterfall. Like for turtles. My altar is now a weird wooden desk bookshelf hybrid, that doesnt fit the theme at all. But its pretty. And I added a pet altar, it came to me as a wooden slab on metal legs or something, and it has wings that fold upward on it. Very cheesy but its a lovely piece, so I let it be. It has constant offerings of meat, water, and leaves or veggies to my passed away pets. I´ve also made it so they have a space where they can come and go as they please. I was also interacting with my deities and like uh hey guys u can make your own rooms if you want, just follow normal human rules. And I dont think any of them except Hecate did, and she did it immediately hahahah. But its not something I expected from her, though I am new to her as well. She made one that is kind of like a cave? And it had glowing amber light from the inside, and a gold metal accent piece at the top. She placed it very close to my altar but not rudely close. Apparently theres also a kitchen in there but its much more modern looking, and I got blocked from going in there (see below). I added new shields and wards, and a symbol appeared to me but its not related to any deity or anything. It came as I was setting up the shield and looking for sigils too. Its at a weird angle, a bunch of buildings mostly sky scrapers on a flat street. Below it are one line going down, and two lines attached to it with arrows or something going out. I would also like to point out that I huge painted ball python wrapped itself around my house, but it only came in images and energy I cant actually see it on the house.

Experience this time: Went in, established my being there. Looked around, was mostly the same as when I left it though some features such as my altar and water had been changed. Basically anything that worked with elements had disappeared really, or left behind a mild energy and base to build off of again. 

Welcomed in my deities to talk to them. Had a great meeting with Zeus, Poseidon, Lilith, and for the first time, Hecate (though I have interacted with her already).

Hecate was the first I greeted. She had her hair in a nice smooth updo, and looked like an oil painting. Im still working on visualization, she didnt move much  but I heard her speaking and felt the energy. She also had a golden bird metal band in her hair, which surprised me as well. Shes very nice so far, though i find it funny that she, mother of witches, had to put her room right next to my altar (which only has one side available). I thanked her for her work with me so far, especially as my oldest dog passed just recently, and I have another one whos young and sick now (he is much better today!).

Then was Lilith. When i first saw her, she was old and cranky but none the less friendly to me. Just kinda like a grandma with a temper. That had been in winter. Now as it is summer here (or spring? guate is weird), she came to me as a woman who had to be 19-early 20s. She had light olive skin, and swamp green eyes with slit pupils. She had brown loose curled hair that was every so slightly frizzy and very full. She was full human, but this time her body was super limber and a bit long like a snake. She was in a plain white dress, but it was like you could feel that her abdomen had a very specific shape that was like a snake. She was lovely, very kind, and patient with me as always. She is sweet but definitely has a jokester and teasing energy about her. After I left her, a huge californian king snake wrapped itself up around my shoulders just to chill, and I felt his scales moving across my shoulder. I havent held a snake in years, and I know for a fact my old cal king has died.

Next was Zeus. He is so much like a father figure to me, and he was very cheerful. Unfortunately because I havent really met up with him in a very long time, he looked to me like the animated Neptune from Little Mermaid. Yeeaah, sorry man. But he was fine none the less. We have a good relationship, he was glad to see me reaching out to them again. Even though I could not see him as he is for me, I could feel his energy. For me he is very hearty, and big. Its like santa clause with an attitude problem. (sorry pops)

Finally, Neptune/Poseidon. This one has been confusing for me as he presents himself to me as both. First it was more of Neptune, but now more of Poseidon. While Zeus is more like a father to me, Poseidon is the one that has all of my interests or is coincidentally related to weird things that happen to me. While Zeus has always been like a father, Zeus and I were more detached to begin with. But Poseidon was always the sweet uncle who related to what I liked and taught me valuable lessons. Today I saw him and felt him at the time, but once I was recording it in my journal I forgot almost everything about the experience other than it was super nice. 

There was some point where I had looked down, and noticed I had on partial armor in the color of gold on my legs and on my lower arms. Then I saw light dusty blue fabric draped over my arm, and more detail came from there. I was somehow wearing a stereotypical greek dress, but also bits of gold armor. I looked into a mirror and also saw that I had on a golden crown which felt a bit much in my tastes, but it was lovely so I kept it anyways! 

I saw my old dog Molly in there, though we didnt interact. Muffin, my recently passed, was there too. And I met up with her, and while I cant for sure say it was her it was good to have a few moments where I felt like I was playing with her again and hearing her weird snorts she makes when shes happy. My physical body had started crying after that. I could feel her bones again, if it was her shes happy but needs some serious vetting, which is probably the case anyways. Hopefully the offerings and me getting more experienced will help as time goes on. 

In my pet altar, I opened the drawer and found pictures. The only one I could really make out was one of my passed kitten, Possum. Possum had been a soul mate of a cat for me, ive never felt a connection like that before. And when he was passing away in the middle of the night across my whole house, I woke up for no reason not feeling tired at all. Then something told me to go outside because I had to go get him. He died a few hours after that, and im broken hearted to this day. 

At the beginning of this whole thing, I created an athame. Its based off of the ones they sell here but I have yet to actually get my hands on. Its made of metal and stone, and the tip of the handle has a tigers head. This one is a regular athame but I was immediately moved to make it into something to defend me from malicious spirits as well. I immediately slipped it into a knife holder that happened to be around my waist.

I was going to the kitchen, as my deities had left, there were no pets running around in there (maybe Muffin, but I had been interuppted in the physical world so our session broke off), so I was lonely and wanted to explore. I immediately felt blocked from going in there, and a black figure flew out at me. I felt just about nothing from this experience so I dont think that part was real (and I will go into more detail about this in a second). I grabbed my knife, stabbed it in the head, and the spirit was passed out or whatever for a second. I took it outside and realized I could removed the black around it, it was just cloth. It was what appeared to be some sort of white teenager, but the look of him really made me feel like he was not modern times. I dont know. Ive never seen him before either, and again, I didnt feel any panic from this at all. Only when i got blocked from the kitchen.

When I had egregores, I had a nice home for them. But in the upstairs I would hate going to because a black figure would come up to me. I would feel panic and even feel this in the physical realm sometimes. It is not around me anymore I dont think, or if it is, its only kept in my mind so its something personal I would assume. He was banished long ago, I changed their house, and didnt see him ever again. I questioned that experience at the time but it felt more real than the one I had earlier today. I dont know. 

Long story short- met up with the deities, Hecate had to put her room next to my altar, new guards up, snake things happened, might have killed a spirit but maybe nah, maybe hung out with my deceased dog for just a few seconds.

[andrieh-vitimus]

Do Magick: Enchantment Plus Day 1

So the whole of my enchantment + plan is one of health and a sort of balance.   Now I know this is a much longer term goal and I have done a lot of work in May to create a plan.

I created well formed goals, that actually tend to steer away from Weight Loss.  It would impossible to not loose weight with the goals I set out for end goals.Shit like Finishing my black belt, certain levels of timed runs. Shit like that.  Why Weight Loss is a negative goal ( instead framed all the outcomes as achievable through time, things I want to do not a LOSS).  Now I know my goals are achievable, specific, well formed. I vetted them.   I had a rough run of letting shit getting to me ( mostly people).  Shit that requires purification.  I am working through a system of planning and magic detailed in my shapeshifting course, its pretty effective.  Those tools also deal with effectively dealing with the aftermath and figuring out internal tools and magick.  Anything that is an obstacle basically, you have to find the way to get around that obstacle as part of the planning,enchantment and challenge. 

It might be life steps, or enchantment or both.  SO.. lots do -> adjust -> timeframe -> magic -> do -> adjust .... 

So I am couple steps in the plan ( I won’t be sharing the action plan):

Daily Qigong or other magic.  We will get into that:

I already made major diet changes and started using My Fitness tracker and dropped down around 1500 Calories a day.  Minus one day and that was only because my cousin came in.  ( every day for the last 11 below 2000, and mostly actually really healthy).

Using banishing and or meditation ( sometimes with my Light and Sound machine to get rid of the emotional toxin.

Started up Tai Chi again, and yes we actually spare, fuck I am sore. 

 I have a detailed plan to keep escalating and doing magic depending on what I need.

So we are 11 days in ...   I am trying to cut myself away from any obligations that kinda are unneeded or unproductive, focusing on this goal hard core, and slowed down alot of other shit.  Once I feel better, I will start on some of that.

Day 0 included a Ogun work

 This ended up going to possession quickly and I had some help.  I can say exactly what happened, but sometime the lwa will act in weird ways.    The Gigong was keeping me going and there was a slow heal going on ( definately a mental peace), but I am really good at Gigong and basically shit was getting better real slow.  Too slow.  He proceeded to do what we asked him to do, then acted as a Houngan ( yes spirits can call other spirits in Vodou), called out Simbi Makaya and basically told me I had a few real bad magical wounds, proceeded to tell me he cauterized the wounds, told me to go rest, and told me he was protecting me in some bad ass fashion ( hence I know I can talk about shit).   Now, when I did some sitting Gigong today, yep leaks all fixed up.  The emotional shakeups from the Kali work I did did a number.  I was told to basically call him up as soon as I got a little stronger, and he will beefify the healing and health work.   This would be considered Strong healing enchantment magic within the plan.  The plan called for me to call him up once a week, but given the divinations and the directions from possession ( I will give it a couple weeks then move in that direction).

CAUSE I AM FUCKING SORE.

I was going to to go to record some videos, use that for the challenge, and then went to Tai Chi, and Sifu wanted to spar ..  Literally throwing punches at 50% speed.  So fucking sore I am ... In my plan, this was about 10% over what I thought was what I could do.  I could tell it was definitely pushing myself a little faster then the plan intended, but I got through it and thats whats needed.  This was sorta a slow workout compared to what we usually do.

I don’t want anyone to think this is just “doing the health kick”, one does not just do the health kick.  Nobody just has that willpower and shit sneakily works against you.

NOBODY

I have been doing enchantments for mental strength, backing it up with energized visualization. I have been on a internal demon hunting kick using NLP, energy work, and all the tools of the shapeshifting course to make shit stick and even making needed Visioning changes to incorporate shit.

You see, this health issue, .. it stems from real old demons of abuse, I know it.  Usually, I don’t talk about shit  but I getting my voice back fully after years of kinda watching what I say, is part of the balance work.  Part of the health journey ( although this is a aspect of mental health, and yes all my plans and enhancements include this).

On the first couple days in, I enchanted for the doctor to give me the right medicines too so I could deal with stuff.  As I said, mostly the doctor gave me a ton of BULLSHIT, but she did give me one medicine that really did help with the negative emotional side of things when parts of my social life came crashing down do to the last #domagick challenge ( where I did Kali work).   Nope its not antidepressants haha, but it took some of the edge off, so I could use my strongest tools without getting too sucked under with negative emotions ( BTW, those strongest tools, AIR and analysis).

 So I know I am on the right track with the plans, and the magick.  Everyone says I have lost alot of weight already, but I dont even have a fucking scale to measure it.

 i will get it, but I wont be obsessed by the weight loss, its about WHAT I GAIN in the process, not what I loose... WHAT MORE THINGS I CAN DO.

As part of hunting my internal demons down and making friends with them, I have made some personality alterations.  No I won’t say what they all are but some include:

Ignoring anyone who gives me unsolicited health advice ( and that’s mostly ignoring them on multiple levels till they show me they are useful). I have asked people for advise, usually I find unsolicited advice a) doesn't fucking work, b) just belays a condescending arrogance..  In generally, ignoring any of the arrogant stream  ( so that means limiting facebook).

Giving myself deep pause, when I feel like a person is demanding ( or expecting) some sort of action of me.   I am working on recovering, balance, and health.  I got a little too wrapped up in what could only be called the expectation game.  Really, if anyone at this point in my social circle starts the expectation game in any way, I simple put them in the time out box, then reapproach later.  These are needed self-respect transformations.

Forcing there to be some sort of respect/exchange, and taking hard looks at situations that do not seem to have this.  If I suspect it doesn't, time out box for a while.

Tonight I am not going to double dip on the Gigong after the Tai Chi. But I am going to us my light and sound machine to use some Theta meditation tools.  This was helping immensely with the state of mind and internal wellness.   A big part of this challenge and transformation is to fucking LISTEN to my body.  I hope by the end of the process, I can start dancing out enchantments too ( like some of you did in the last do magick challenge).

I am a pretty much a type -A type of guy with enormous willpower.  Pretty much I can set out to do something, and come hell or high water will fucking do it.  Sleep eh, fuck it.  Shit will get done.  That was happening alot.

  This time, I am trying to listen, and like the other tools in the shapeshifting course, talismanic creation of my body.  There was a time, I could some pretty amazing things, just using Gigong ( like making people’s nose bleed, doubling them over, healings)... so I know what’s possible.  I am a way better magician now, and lets see how far I can take it.

 I think I have the plan and the enchantments to do it.   Will try this challenge on Tumblr why, eh fuck it... why not.

[grublypetcare]

The Best Dog Food for All Life Stages

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If it were up to your dog, he’d be on a steady diet of pizza and cheeseburgers. Since those things aren’t good for dogs, your job as a pet parent is to pick healthy food made especially for canines. Choosing a food brand can be daunting enough with all the different choices out there. And what about type of food? And then there’s canned versus dry — which should you pick? Let’s break things down by the best dog food for all life stages.

The best dog food to feed a puppy

What is the best dog food to feed to a puppy? Photography ©cmannphoto | Getty Images.

When my Corgi, Nigel, was a puppy, I fed him the puppy food recommended by his breeder. It was a quality premium brand, and he liked it. He only ate dry kibble because his sensitive tummy couldn’t handle the canned version. Dry food has less moisture than canned, so Nigel was less likely to get loose stools with dry food.

Puppies are as different from dogs as human babies are from adults when it comes to what their digestive systems will tolerate. While Nigel had trouble with canned food, my parents’ Pomeranian, Monique, did great on canned food as a puppy.

Whether it’s dry or canned, what’s most important is that the food is made especially for puppies. “Puppies need more protein than adult dogs do,” said canine nutrition expert Mary Straus of DogAware.com, who added that, despite what some people think, high protein does not cause orthopedic problems in growing pups. “Too much calcium and overfeeding in general are the culprits there.”

The best dog food to feed a puppy is a food formulated especially for young dogs and to give the amount listed on the bag or can. Being a Corgi, Nigel would have eaten three times the recommended amount of food if I’d let him, but the result would have been an overweight puppy who may have developed joint problems. I had to deal with sad puppy eyes when he asked for more and I said no, but it was for his own good.

The best dog food to feed a growing dog

What is the best dog food to feed a growing dog? Photography ©UserGI15966731 | Getty Images.

Dogs in the age range of 6 to 18 months are ready for adult dog food. They need a lot of energy at this age, so the best dog food to feed a dog this age is a quality food with a good amount of calories.

My friend, Jorge, feeds his 10-month-old German Shepherd Dog a premium-brand kibble for adult dogs. Hemi is a bundle of energy, and Jorge finds it hard to keep weight on him. Hemi gets a big helping of dry food twice a day and is still hungry all the time. Dogs his age are very active and are still growing, so they usually have big appetites.

For some owners of young, growing dogs, money can be an issue. That makes dry food a more obvious choice. “Dry food is almost always cheaper than canned food, providing a comparable number of calories,” Straus said. “This impacts owners of large dogs more than those with small dogs, who may also have trouble getting through a bag of kibble while it is still fresh.”

Luckily, dog food manufacturers usually offer kibble in different sized bags. You can find bags starting at 5 pounds all the way up to 50 for some brands. If you have a small dog, you should buy a smaller bag. You don’t want to store dry food for more than 30 days because it starts to lose its freshness.

The best dog food to feed an adult dog

What is the best food to feed an adult dog? Photography ©damedeeso | Thinkstock.

My 6-year-old Australian Shepherd mix, Candy, has a slow metabolism. When I first adopted her from my local shelter, she was about 5 pounds overweight. She was probably eating kibble at her former home, and I’m sure that’s what she was getting at the shelter. To help her lose weight, I started her on a quality canned food. Canned food is generally lower in carbohydrates than dry food, and since Candy isn’t a very active dog, I thought putting her on a lower-carb diet would help her shed the pounds.

Of course I had to be careful with fat content, too. “Too much fat can lead to weight gain, especially in dogs who are not very active,” Strauss said. “If the amount fed must be strictly limited to prevent weight gain, this could contribute to nutritional deficiency, so I would reserve higher-fat foods for young, active dogs.”

After a few months of eating a measured amount of canned food, Candy dropped her extra 5 pounds. I then put her on a maintenance diet, which consists of both canned and dry food. She’s now at a good weight on this diet.

My friend Michelle, on the other hand, recently had to increase her Australian Cattle Dog’s food portions because Annabelle was a little too lean. After her vet referred to Annabelle as “a Victoria’s Secret model with no fat reserves to fall back on,” Michelle upped Annabelle’s kibble ration. Annabelle quickly gained about 2 pounds. She still has a lean body, but you can’t feel her ribs or hips anymore. So, the best dog food for an adult dog really depends on your individual dog!

The best dog food to feed a senior dog

What is the best dog food to feed a senior dog? Photography ©Chalabala | Thinkstock.

My neighbor’s senior Dachshund, Maynard, has arthritis and some other health issues that mean paying special attention to what he eats. Not only are Maynard’s teeth not working really well these days, he also has a tendency toward a picky appetite. His owners feed him a brand of canned food that he really likes. The wet food is easy for him to chew, and it also gives him more water in his diet.

“The added moisture in canned foods may be beneficial for older dogs to help them stay hydrated,” said Straus, who pointed out that adding water to dry food can do the same. But in Maynard’s case, he doesn’t want dry food. He only wants canned. And at his advanced age of 16, Maynard gets what Maynard wants.

Once a dog gets to a certain age, giving him a quality food that he enjoys eating is the best approach, whether it’s canned or dry. “The question of canned or dry doesn’t have to be either/or,” Straus said. “It’s fine to feed both, either together or in separate meals, as long as it agrees with your dog.”

The best dog food to feed your dog on a fresh food diet

Straus said you can improve commercial diets of all kinds at any stage of your dog’s life by adding fresh foods to her diet, including:

Lean meats

Eggs

Canned fish without bones (sardines, pink salmon, jack mackerel)

Dairy (yogurt, kefir, cottage cheese)

Fresh fruits and vegetables (as long as you stay away from grapes or raisins, which can cause kidney failure in dogs).

If you share some of these healthy foods with your dog, only give him a little bit as a top dressing on his dog food. Too much of a good thing can upset his stomach — and leave you wishing you’d stuck with dog food.

The bottom line on the best dog food

Every dog, regardless of age, is an individual with specific needs. The best way to find the best dog food for your canine is to continually consult with your vet.

Thumbnail: Photography by Jaromir Chalabala / Shutterstock.

This piece was originally published in 2015.

About the author:

An award-winning professional writer and editor, Audrey Pavia is a former managing editor of DOG FANCY magazine and former senior editor of the AKC Gazette. She is the author of The Labrador Retriever Handbook (Barrons) and has also written extensively on horses as well as other pets. She shares her home in Norco, California, with a rescue dog named Candy.

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6 Essential Rules for Raw Dog Food

Dog Feeding Schedule: How Many Times a Day Should a Dog Eat?

Sardines for Dogs? Your Pup Can (and Should!) Eat Them

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logbook 27

Tuesday 13th June 2017

Today we worked on transitions and we ran the show a the end of the day, I felt my energy started of very good and I was very intrigued as to where this show would take us.

Hayden opening scene Megan seeing friends Salt shot lemon 1- Mesha's dare: 2- Angela's dare 3- Gabis dare excite my tongue 4- Toms dare nips 5- Megan's dare meerkat 6- Beth's dare fishy wishy 7- Meet George 3am 8- Friendship (growing with George) 9- Anthem and piñata 10- George is sick, George 2 text, rope dog 2, George 3 (?) (play piano) 11- Present day monologues (?) duologues

Salt shot lemon Come on guys lets practise this!!! I need you to join in! 1,2,3 Ok you guys got it now? You ready for this?! Hit it!! 1,2,3 go Salt shot lemon! Watch that bitterness change your expression Salt shot lemon I'm singing it loud so you'll deafen Salt shot lemon I'm tired of living in this depression Salt shot lemon! It lets me release my aggression Salt shot lemon! I'm using tequila as my weapon Salt shot lemon Your words are affecting me like venom Salt shot lemon Having fun is my obsession Salt shot lemon Your heart might stop, oh shit palpitation Salt shot lemon Fucking hell look at Evan

Mesha's dare (sea shanty) I run uncontrollably, over the hills and through the trees, I couldn't get in a taxi because I needed to vomit. Whahey gonna vomit x3, Ella's gonna vomit I see a cat and go to pet it, see a baby and smile at it, help a lady at her shopping and now they're soaked of vomit. Blugh blugh soaked in vomit x3, Now they're soaked in vomit On my way I saw queen lizzy, all this running made me thirsty, so she made me a cup of tea and now she's soaked in vomit. Blugh blugh soaked in vomit x3, Lizzie soaked in vomit Got to my house and found my keys, ran up the stairs so rapidly, into bathroom finally and passed out in my vomit. Passed out in her vomit x3  passed out in her vomit X1

Angela dare (country song). I'll tell you about a story back when I was 17 A dare to eat some cat poo well that dare was meant for me The cat had laid one on the ground the steam still rising off I took a sniff of the smelly shit and boy oh how I did cough Oh dear tibbles why'd you poo for me? And I had to eat this cat poo back when I was 17

I put the cat poo in my mouth my teeth come biting down I made a face as I got the taste and boy how I did frown I hoped it taste like chocolate with a thick consistency But if you'd ever eaten shit you'd know this couldn't be Oh dear tibbles why'd you poo for me? And I had to eat this cat poo back when I was 17

I wish I never got the poo and put in my chops My friends they all laughed at me their chuckles didn't stop The taste exploded in my mouth and it would not leave I've had this flavour in my mouth since I was 17 Juicy Lucy your legendary You proved your worth and ate that turd when you were 17.

Gabis dare excite my tongue Toms dare nips Megan's dare meerkat Beth's dare fishy wishy

George 1. Gabi: 3am Megan: I was warm and cosy. Tom: Through bonfire smoke he appeared. Beth: I was fucking wasted. Mesha: In the middle of nowhere. Tom: An industrial factory, abandoned. Angela: He looked abandoned. Everyone: Lost. Gabi: Just a dog really, nothing special. Mesha: I’ve never liked dogs. Angela: No way! I love dogs. Tom: He was so happy to see us, came right over Megan: A sausage dog Gabi: Skipping over Everyone: Everyone wanted a touch Beth: I was attacked by the/a dog. Mesha: He didn’t have a collar, Angela: Maybe we should search for his owner? Beth: I was bitten, I’ve got scars. Tom: He sat in the middle of our circle, Gabi: I kept expecting his owner to turn up Mesha: Pull us out of this strange, Megan: Wonderful Beth: Situation. Everyone: All eyes on him. Tom: He moves, I follow (everyone) Angela: He’s in charge now. Megan: We could take him in! Angela: Share him Tom: One day a week between us.. Gabi: It could work Megan: Yes Beth and Mesha: No Gabi and Tom: Perhaps Angela and Megan: Yes! Gabi: Majority rules Megan: Our foster dog. Angela: Our friend. Everyone: George Hayden: Welcome to the group

Growing up wth George

Anthem. Funny how the day turns around With a drink in hand and you're party bound Wednesday night Where else would we be We'll party all night just watch and see

Laughing and dancing all through the night Not a care in the world Not tonight Falling over and over again Cause the musics so loud we can't be still

Chorus x2 We're young and free Just dancing to beat All night until the suns up Living our lives so recklessly All night until our times up

Don't stop now the fun is just beginning We're all here, and we are all living Nothing can stop us No nothing will break us We're in it together We're here for each other

No distance between us will keep us away We're here tonight Yeah we're here to stay No matter the decision we gotta make We're keeping all our demons far at bay

Chorus x2 We're young and free Just dancing to beat All night until the suns up Living our lives so recklessly All night until our times up

Oh we're all falling apart Oh we don't want the fun to stop Oh decision oh decisions Can't we leave them til Twilight Oh decision oh decisions Can't we throw them out of our minds Oh we all have our own lives Oh but tonight we reunite Oh decisions oh decisions Can't we leave them til twilight Oh decisions oh decisions Can't we throw them out of our minds

Chorus x3 We're young and free Just dancing to beat All night until the suns up Living our lives so recklessly All night until our times up

Ok the piano I play c and g Then d and g Then next one ver 2 in the middle a Then c and next to g then back to the beginning again.

Piñata

George 2. Beth: George is sick. Megan: Once he’d clear a bowl of food in thirty seconds. Beth: Nowadays, he scarcely opens his mouth. Angela: Once he’d grin like a happy dog. Mesha: He would leave muddy paw prints on my lap, Beth: He would yip and yowl for attention. Tom: Nowadays he can only manage a weak growl. Gabi: George is sick. Beth: His eyes are sad. Beth: He can't stop crying. Mesha: He's doesn't understand what's happening to him. Tom: Why can't he run anymore? Beth: His stubby legs tremble with each step. Gabi: So he sleeps and dreams of old days. Angela: Leftovers of summer barbeques Tom: Shredding furniture and playing the fool. Megan: Being pampered every Tuesday. Angela and megan: Cuddles and TV in the evening. Beth: Nowadays, George wakes up in agony. Gabi: : We should have taken him to the vets! Angela: Lets give him plenty of water. Beth: He'll recover in no time!

How fucking awkward song* B: hi A: oh hi cal, haven't seen you in forever, how have you been since we were last together? B: yeah fine couldn't be better, why did I do this, this is awkward  as hell and it doesn't help she's drunk as well *fucking awkward again* A: oh good to hear, why did she come over she can see I'm not up for this chat B:how's the family? How's Dylan? I swear a really miss him and youuuu of course. *how fucking awkward* A: Dylan why did she mention him? Yeah things are good got married a couple of months ago. B: yeah saw it on Facebook saw Dannie as a bridesmaid and Even and your sisters best mates cousin. (Pictures of bridesmaid on the screen behind) *how fucking awkward* A: Your invitation must have got lost in the post, I was wondering why you weren't there! Ha ha ha (awkward) oh there's Even hi even, talk to you later. *how fucking awkward* says by Beth.

Angela's monologue When did my so called friends turn into monsters George may be old But that’s no reason to cut his life short. He's been my friend since I can remember Whereas Cal never gave any interest to him. And I bet that's why he's giving up.

George 3 Mesha: we have to show him mercy. Ang: Mercy? This is how you show merc- Meg: Mercy would be letting the little guy spend his days in the best way possible. Gab: i dont know about this Beth: we should do it Tom:  lets be rational about this Beth: we are Ang: hes sick but what gives us this right? Mesh: its .... Humane? Megan: youre all sick All: we are all ill Tom: if theres a virus you kill it i suppose Gabi: but he is our friend Ang: He's not a virus Beth: what good has he done for us? meg+tom: Loved us? ANG: Given us purpose Gabi: Kept us intertwined Mesh: You means trapped us BETH: We're stuck now TOM: It's still our decision, we still get to chose! Meg: There is no choice. We can't do This! Mesh: It's time to let go BETH: We have to ANG:+ meg (back and forth): Stop it BETH + MESHA: Do it