#i dont have a genuine piano anymore but i think about that often

[crplpunkklavier]

if youre cold theyre cold. remember to check in on your string and percussion instruments in the season of temperature drops and indoor heating

[oh-theatre]

Sycamore High: Mix and Match (Chapter 23)

A/N: I feel so bad for people who dont know something rotten they must feel so confused...im SORRY. Also yes I did write the entirety of lyrics from memory

summary: First rehearsal for Something Rotten!

words: 2,502

warnings: Swearing, funeral mention, lyrics, implied harassment (at the end, will find out more next chap)

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“Welcome to the first official rehearsal for ‘Something Rotten’!” Chad announces to a loud cheer from the cast. Save except for a very quiet Ted sitting in the front row and a sad distant Tommy shoved in another row. Chad notices and feels a tug at his own heart, he shakes his head continuing. “I'd like to get started by doing a read through, so if everyone could gather on the stage” The crowd follows creating a circle on the stage, each student with a script in their hands. Chad counts before realizing something. “Ok, so we are going to have to sing acapella, because I may have forgotten to call in the pianist” He chuckles awkwardly, Bill ponders before raising his hand. Chad points at him prompting him to talk.

“I can play the piano,” He says, a tug pulls at Ted and Paul as they share a look. It's true, though not his main hobby, his mother did teach him. He stands and goes to the piano opening the sheet music and tickling the keys, something dances through him as it comes playing back to him. He nods at Chad, who smiles back.

“Alright! Let's begin!” Chad spins pointing to Caleb, another cast member who smiles excitedly “Take it away minstrel, Bill” Bill nods, turning to Caleb who studies his music quickly before giving a thumbs up. Chad starts swinging his fingers Bill begins playing the opening song.  

“War of the roses, Chaucer's tale. The brutal feudal system. Holy crusade, Bubonic plague. Can't say that we've really missed 'em. So dark and barbaric, So dull and mundane. That was so Middle Ages. That was so - Charlemagne” The group giggle excitedly as Caleb continues, Bill continues, hitting the note. The cast looks around excitedly as Caleb continues, everything washes away. “Welcome to the Renaissance. With poets, painters, and bon vivants and merry minstrels. Who stroll the streets of London a strummin' they lutes”

“In puffy pants and pointy leather boots!” The male ensemble continues, Chad smiles. It sounds great.

~~~

“Hit it, Bill!” Chad exclaims, and so Bill does hitting the keys ecstatically but carefully. Ted turns to Paul revving up.

“Ohhhhh God I hate Shakespeare!” The crowd cheers. Paul clutches his pearls offended. “That's right I said it”

“No!” The ensemble cries, Ted feels his heart flutter. Everything seems ok as the music plays and the bubbling energy bounces around the room. Everyones buzzing with excitement, happy to be here.

“I do, I hate Shakespeare”  He makes sure to sing that line at Sam who couldn't care less.

~~~

“I am stronger than you think, Don't be thinking I ain't tough I am where you oughta go. When the going's getting rough. So when things are going badly-” Charlotte belts happily, lovingly staring at Ted.

“But they're not” Ted insists, Charlotte bites down a giggle.

“They kinda are” Paul points out. Bill continues happily watching his friends.

“No, things are fine” Ted turns to Paul, who raises his eyebrows innocently.

“But if they weren't” Charlotte tries again, Ted and Paul smile widely.

“But it's ok”

“Love?”

“What?” Something catches Ted off guard at the name, he glances to Tommy feeling his face fall.

“Oh!”

“What?” He watches as Tommy bounces happily, watching the trio back and forth. His heart pounds in his ears he can't hear the music anymore.

“Quit trying to protect me” Charlotte's voice seeps through grounding Ted once more, he shakes his head delivering his line.

“Can we change the subject, please?” He didn't mean to beg so desperately, hopefully, they would just think he was getting into it.

“Not until I know that-”

~~~

“What the hell are musicals?” Ted asks feeling his voice get caught, Tommy can't meet his eyes and seems focused on his sheet music.

“It appears to be a play where the dialogue stops and the plot is conveyed through the song” Tommy says, his voice sweet with a hint of insane. Ted chuckles to himself, he's been practicing.

“Through song?”

“Yes” The group laughs and Ted does too, he's doing exceptionally well.

“Wait, wait, wait, so an actor is saying his lines and then out of nowhere he just starts singing?” Ted recites, he likes this monologue.

“Yes,” Tommy repeats, his grin his wider now. It feels like it's just the two, practicing as if no one was there. Ted looks to Bill nodding, he turns and prepares.

“Well that is the-” He starts singing “Stupidest thing that I have ever heard You're doing a play, got something to say so you sing it? It's absurd! Who on Earth is going to sit there while an actor breaks into song? What possible thought could the audience think other than "this is horribly wrong?" Bill hangs on the note as Tommy smiles wide.

“Remarkably?” He asks “They won't think that!” Ted can practically feel the room buzzing with excitement.

“Seriously, why not?” Ted asks back, Tommy can't hold it in, he flashes his most insane smile.

“Because…” He looks to Bill, they smile at each other “It's. A. Musical! A musical!” Everyone lets out small cheers as the song begins. “And nothings as amazing as a musical” Well, I can think of one or two things that are, Ted thinks as he watches Tommy enchant the entire class. Tommy continues with Ted and for a moment it's as if nothing is wrong.

~~~

“Paul and Emma, ready?” Chad asks, Bill flips to the song nodding at the group. Paul takes a deep breath as Emma just giggles smiling at him.

“Ready as I’ll ever be” She announces, Chad points at Bill who begins playing softly. “I love Sidney and Marlowe and often I borrow their words to express how I feel. I love poems of mystery, fantasy, history, Oh, what seductive appeal. At night, alone in my bedroom satisfying my needs. The candlelight fire ignites my desire...to read” Emma sings sending thrilling chills down Pauls back, he might miss his cue from listening to her enchanting voice. It's suddenly his turn after he misses three verses tuning out the actual words.

“It's the end-all, the be-all, oh, you oughta see all the books that I have on my shelf” He sings softly, a little nervous. Ted and Bill nod encouragingly.

“Me too!” She exclaims “I find pleasure perusing those writings and musings, so often I pleasure myself” She pauses giving off an awkward smile, the crowd laughs “Wait, that didn't sound right”

“No, I know what you mean” Paul goes again, a little more confident “When I'm deep in the throes of impassionate prose I could scream”

“You scream?”

“Yeah!”

“So do I!!” And so she did scream, much to everyone's delight

~~~

“Sam, boys, you ready,” Chad asks excitedly going through his notes. Sam practically bounces a childlike grin wide across his face. Charlotte giggles and Emma can't help but smile, he looks genuinely excited. “Go Bill!” And he does almost less excited. Sam stands, followed by his 4 boys already.

“My days are so busy, it's making me dizzy, there's so much I gotta do. There are lunches and meetings and poetry readings and endless interviews. Gotta pose for a portrait and how I deplore sittin' there for eternity. Then it's off to the inn where my innkeeper friend wants to name a drink after me! Then it's back to my room, where I resume my attempt to write a hit. Just me and my beer and the terrible fear that I might be losing it” He sings drunkenly, the groups nod along enjoying this. He's got the voice down. The boys jump around him singing their lines.  “And it's hard”

“It's hard” They point at Sam playing around, it's a whole routine.

“It's hard”

“It's hard” They go again, struggling to keep a straight face. The whole song is pure fun.

“It's really, really hard, so very, very hard” They sing in unison

~~~

“Welcome to America!”

“Land of opportunity!” Ted finishes strong smiling. The room erupts into cheers with everyone hugging everyone, at one point Ted feels himself wraps his arms around Tommy pulling away quickly. They stare awkwardly giving each other sweet longing smiles before each is pulled off into a respective group. Bill stands to join his friends congratulating them. They pull him into a hug. “Bill! You were amazing! Seriously, singing and piano wise!”

“Oh! Well, thank you” He nods blushing slightly. Chad comes over clapping him on the back. Bill lurches forward making an ‘umph’ sound.

“Bill that was wonderful!” He compliments “You are truly gifted” Now Bill is blushing harder than ever. Ted smiles, pride is not the words he's looking for. Bill leans in a little to Ted who laughs wrapping an arm around his small friend, understanding what he needs. He continues the conversation politely before leading Bill away from the crowd and setting up right outside the doors. “Thank you” Bill mumbles as they sit down on the cool floor, a change from the sauna that is the auditorium. They lean against the wall, Bill collapses onto Ted's shoulder, his eyes heavy.

“Of course,” Ted says nudging his friend, Bill yawns flexing his hands. They're cramping after such a massive play, he feels the ivories phantom and urges to keep playing. “You really did do amazing Bill” Ted compliments playing with his fingers, Bill chuckles nodding. A comfortable silence falls between them, Bill can't seem to relax his hands so Ted takes them applying soft pressure. It feels nice, Bill sighs relieved. He looks up a bit to Ted seeing him stare far off as if playing with Bills fingers is the only thing keeping him from drifting off, becoming particles of sand left in the wind for all of eternity.

“Would you like to discuss it?” Bill inquires softly, Ted's eyes merely gaze over to him. “You and Tommy, I mean” He clarifies, wanting to be there for his friend as he had so desperately failed in the past few months.

“Hmm?” Ted hums, he shakes his head a sad smirk appearing on his face “Not unless you want to talk about whatever's going on with you” Ted says, he's sure the subject will be dropped, that he has ‘won’, perse.

“Ok,” Bill says sitting up, Ted's face falls and so do his hands, losing contact with Bills. He giggles softly before continuing “I dont know whats going, or what was going on with me. I treated you unfairly and was somebody that I was not. I let my emotions get the best of me, the fight with Billy…” He eyes Ted, his tone becoming softer “And at the funeral” He barely whispers. Ted nods processing the words his small friend speaks.

“I miss my mom, and my dad...apparently kill-” He chokes suddenly, Bill squeezes his hand, no pressure...take your time. “And I made a mistake, I took it out on Tommy,” He sighs rubbing the bridge of his nose “But he doesn't deserve me! He deserves someone better, someone whos not…” He grunts pressing his lips together tightly, irritated “Me...someone whos not me” Ted finishes, Bill takes a deep breath.

“You're right,” Bill says, Ted's eyes go wide, oh? “He doesn't deserve you, in my opinion, nobody does Ted. Nobody is good enough for you” He says, Ted feels his heart pull “I've always thought that you're my best friend how could I not?” Ted chuckles lightly “But I have never seen you happier than when you're with Tommy, every word, every movement, every smile...I see how it affects you” Bill remarks, Ted struggles against tears. “You love him, and mind you, he loves you too” Ted nods, that he knows, I do love him. “I will always think that no one is good enough for you but Tommy? He comes pretty damn close” Bill finishes, Ted raises his brows lovingly.

“Bill Dorris, did you just swear?” Ted asks teasing his friend. Bill turns to him, dead serious.

“Yes I did, and no one will ever believe you” They erupt into tired laughter and sit until the night comes to a close. The professors come to collect Ted, and Bill gets a ride with Paul. But something changed that lively night, another part of the puzzle was found and it fits perfectly. However, another part of the puzzle was lost that night, a part no one thought could be lost, a fury of love and sunshine...finally dimmed out.

~~~

Something had died that night, and it had died alone. Tommy watches as Ted led Bill out of the theatre, smiling at the pair happy to see things falling back into place. He waved at Ted who only caught a glance but smiled at him. He sighs happily turning towards another group, he starts a polite conversation with them but feels something boiling in the back of his brain, an itching. He glances around seeing Billy leaning against one of the sides watching him intently. He shivers trying to shake off the pit now consuming him.

“Bye Tommy,” Charlotte says hugging her friend, he hugs back eyes wandering towards Billy, he holds on a little tighter wanting her to stay. But she does and soon so does everyone, until its just Tommy, Chad, Billy and his friends. Chad and Tommy carry on a conversation that leaves Tommy feeling pleasant, it comes to a slow however much to Tommy’s disappointment.

“Oh wow” Chad says looking at his watch he perks back up to Tommy “I gotta get home, um...have you by any chance seen Ted?” He asks, Tommy ponders for a moment recollecting the events that had transpired.

“He went out towards the foyer with Bill” Tommy smiles, as the professor nods. He thanks him quickly, giving him a rushed farewell until suddenly once more Tommy stands alone on the stage with Billy watching him. He moves to the piano feeling himself wince at every step. He reaches for his phone checking for an update from his mom or anything really...from Ted.

“Hey” A slimy voice whispers abruptly, a painful shiver runs down Tommy's spine as he recoils jumping. Billy smirks at him, play the part, Billy. Tommy feels his lip quiver, he feels his phone buzz and reaches for it once more. An instant wave of relief hits him seeing a familiar, not yet changed name pop up.

Dearest

Ted: Hey… I just wanted to make sure that you were really alright

As much as Tommy wishes to reassure him, to continue to another subject he can't. He wastes no time sending an urgent text, something he knows he’ll understand. How could he not? It was pretty clear.

Tommy: Still at school, alone with Billy, please help.

“Oh no need for that” Billy's voice intrudes his mind once more, he watches as the disgusting teen grabs the phone from Tommy's hands throwing it on the floor. Tommy winces instinctively as the shatter hits the ground...and the pieces all fall apart.

[smokethroughgrittedteeth]

! Tagged by @zaereph (thank you zae!)

  Answer the 30 questions and tag 30 people (spoiler i am not tagging 30 people)

Questions:

Nickname: ..many. Sila/Silly/Si/Silo (sometimes, from less official names, Zaz, K, theres like a lot but only first ones are ever really used always)

Name: Silas (again many but this is the Main Name so)

Gender: Agender, mostly more masc presenting

Star sign: Pisces (aqua cusp) and according to a test online im a lot like a cancer?? ye

Height: 5′ 6″

Time right now: 7:11pm

My bday: 21 Feb 1997

Fav Band: I genuinely can never choose this. ;; and like, im gonna just answer this as first bands that came to mind that ive listened to recently? ones that first came to mind were ITM, Silversun Pickups and like, Chevelle? so there’s that

Fav solo artist: ...does..hozier count as solo? if not move one up

Song stuck in my head: all the king’s horses - karmina

Last movie I watched: ..um..I..I dont remember..? I dont watch movies that often sadly, though i do want to but sorry i genuinely cannot answer this omg..a good one i saw semi recently was (finally) princess bride so thumbs up

Last show I watched: Castlevania? Was that it? ..Or that one 70 something dangerous places to live if that one counts

When did I create my blog: Sometime in late 2015 but ive had tumblr since 2012(ones ive since abandoned long ago)

What do I post: Lots of nature/scenery, gems and minerals, dragon art, and some political and funny stuff

Last thing I googled: how long it takes for dragcave eggs to grow,,

Do I have other blogs?: the older blogs i abandoned and a few sideblogs on this, two are gonna be public when i actually put anything on them if i do, and some are for figuring out specific personal things

Do you get asks?: Sometimes i do! no a lot though

Why did I choose this blog name?: i sat on this url like...three legit hours i think. i wanted something dragony and firey (as this started out as a dragon and fire aesthetic blog only) ultimately it just sounded cool, though maybe smoketeeth would have been less l o n g as hell (is taken though, and i have smoke-teeth saved up anyways. i also am smoketeeth on a lot of places recently, its my new go to user)

Blogs I’m following: 249

My follower count: 110 (i love yall!!)

Fav colors: ...um, mostly all blues and cyan, teal, that kinda thing (always), black too, but i liek all colors in different combinations and situations so like,,y e p. omfg

Average hours of sleep: idk anymore? ive been sleepinga Lot lately and especially since i moved out so like..9?

Lucky number: Ive no damn idea but I really like 9

Do I play any instruments?: ..no actually. i mean i can mess around and it might maybe sound like music but no actual playing. ...i mean unless that electronic piano site counts used to be able to play some silent hill theme on it and a few other songs

What I’m wearing?: my ld wolf shirt and long pants (its not that cold but i have no other pants and im sick n thus colder today)

How many blankets I sleep with: one (though none in the summer)

Dream job: One I’ve always actually gone for? Engineer. I really wanna be an engineer and still hope i g et to go to college and Be That some day.

But for one that would be fun to just wake up one day as without all the work I’d prbably also enjoy being an astrophysicist..but id also hate the -actual- job probably due to people and companies and whatever i just wanna study the universe and i do it in my free time anyways

So engineer, really

Dream trip: SPACE. OTHER WORLDS. OTHER TIMES. ...but if i have to be mortal about it, literally anywhere in nature? like..camping under the sky and shit. ...and the top of the everest would be fun though I’ll never get to do that one. ..or anywhere. honestly, trips are all dream trips

Fav food: ..good question. depends what i want at the moment. id probably eat fries and some types of fish anytime though. also cheesecake. ..and pancakes

Nationality: romanian yep

Fav song right now: does it count if ive just been listening to it a lot..Siames - The Wolf, although there are Others and i cant answer these ;;

I uhhhh. idk who to tag? @wytch-baby @revenge-served-petty @bullethail @the-cloud-road @ollieirrepressible @vatespluviae and honestly just. everyone who wants to. srsly. idk who o tag ever yall are in my open chats omg

[transssexualheart]

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllll

1- what images do you have set for your desktop/cell phone wallpaper?my phone has pictures of my friends and my desktop is still dan avidan i keep forgetting to change it

2- have you ever had a crush on a teacher?no

3- what as your last text message?sent? it was “me too”

4- what do you see yourself doing in ten years?probably dying

5- if you could be anywhere else right now, where would you be?in someone’s arms

6- what was your coolest halloween costume?uhh probably last years even tho it wasn’t that great bc i made it myself and had a styled wig and everything

7- what was your favorite 90s show?i was not alive in the 90s

8- who was your last kiss?still zee

9- have you ever been stood up?no

10- favorite ice cream flavor?strawberry or cotton candy

11- have you ever been to las vegas?no

12- your favorite pair of shoes?probably my pink ones they’re soft and have tiny one inch platforms

13- honestly, have you ever cheated on a significant other?no

14- what is your favorite fruit?watermelon or strawberry

15- have you ever talked to anyone on tumblr that your could see yourself dating/having sex with? if possible?well i mean one of my exes i met over tumblr so it’s not a wild concept to me but currently i’m not like,,, interested in others

16- are you into hookups? short or long term relationships?long term

17- do you smoke? if so, what?no

18- what do you do to get over your anger?rant about it on this blog or sometimes to a friend i guess

19- do you believe in god?idk man

20- does the person you’re in love with know it?yeah

21- favorite position?sleeping

22- what’s your horoscope sign?leo

23- your fears?being abandoned, myself sometimes, everyone secretly hating me, never being loved, etc

24- how many pets do you have? what kind?three, a cat and two fish

25- what never fails to turn you on?uhhhhhh

26- your idea of a perfect first date?idk uh,, get food maybe hold hands a little 

27- what is something most people don’t know about you?idk,, i guess most people don’t know what i look like during a full on breakdown that i’m not trying to disguise

28- what makes you feel the happiest?hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

29- what store do you shop at most often?i dont shop a lot

30- how do you feel about oral? giving and or receiving? never gave or received, both sound good to me tho

31- do you believe in karma?idk

32- are you single?yeah

33- do you think flowers or candy are a better way to apologize? the best way to apologize is to mean it and not expect forgiveness if you really fucked up and to be genuine and honest and if you do those things it shouldn’t really matter whether you choose flowers or candy

34- are you a good swimmer?i mean,, i won’t drown

35- coffee or tea?tea

36- online shopping or shopping in person?i do both

37- would you rather be older or younger than your current age?i’d prefer to keep my age so i don’t fuck up the timeline of my life thank u very much

38- cats or dogs?how can i choose

39- are you a competitive person?i don’t think so

40- do you believe in aliens?yes

41- do you like dancing?don’t really do it much 

42- what kind of music do you listen to?many kinds, mostly anything but country

43- what is your favorite cartoon character?how can i choose just one

44- where are you from?albany

45- eat at home or eat out?eat out

46- how much more social are you when you’re drunk?i’ve never been drunk

47- what was the last thing you bought for yourself?i don’t remember

48- why do you think your followers follow you?idk actually why do u guys follow me

49- how many hours do you sleep at night?it varies, sometimes like ten sometimes none

50- what worries you most about the future?i pretty much rely on the fact that i’ll probably die before it matters but if i don’t die i’ll have no idea what i’m doing

51- if you had a friend that spoke to you the same way you speak to yourself, how long would you be friends?not very, i’m not friends with myself tho so

52- are you happy with yourself?no, never really have been

53- what do you wish you didn’t know?i don’t know

54- what big lesson could people learn from your life?i guess,, not to take people for granted 

55- if you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be?what

56- what’s your favorite website?i visit this hellsite most often i guess

57- what’s the habit your proudest of breaking?the only habit i could think of that i broke was biting my nails

58- what was your most recent trip of over 50 miles?idk how many miles i travel bc i don’t drive

59- what’s the best bargain you’ve ever found at a garage sale or thrift store?idk

60- what do you order when you eat chinese food?sweet and sour chicken and white rice 

61- if you had to be names after one of the fifty states what would it be?no

62- if you had to teach a subject to a class, what would it be?alright so there are three things that i feel like i’m able to do well those three things are draw, write, and play pokemon and i’m a failure at everything else i do so probably an art class or creative writing class

63- favorite kind of chips?i like doritos

64- favorite kind of sandwich?grilled cheese

65- which do you use more often, dictionary or thesaurus?dictionary

66- have you ever been stung by a bee?yeah, only once, and i have a history of not fucking eating for whole days and that was one of those days and i guess the sting just triggered the dehydration and all that and i got really dizzy and my legs gave out and my mom had to carry me home

67- what’s your favorite form of exercise?my what now

68- are you afraid of heights?more afraid of what i’d do to myself than the height itself

69- what’s the most memorable class you’ve ever taken?eight grade science, i had a bunch of friends in that class and we hated the teacher at the time and the shit he did and we were constantly like going insane and here’s the main reason: my mom went to school with that teacher and she managed to find a fuckin. story that he wrote in 11th grade and she showed it to me and my god it was so bad and the main character was such a self insert and i was like “oh my god this is amazing” and you know what i fuckin did? u know what i did? i decided to make c o p i e s of the story so i could bring it into school and show my friends. so i had like ten copies and we gave one to my friend kevin however. we gave it to him DURING science class. so instead of doing his work kevin is sitting back there reading this story and laughing at it and the teacher is like “what are you doing kevin?” and kevin, instead of putting it away and being like “my work”, was like “oh i’m reading your 11th grade story” and at this point i’m like “oh fuck” and then the teacher asked where he got it and he points to me and i’m like “OH FUCK” so he comes over and asks where i got it and i’m like “surprise my mom went to school with you” and he’s like “i haven’t seen this story in years” and guess who’s like “DO U WANT A COPY” and reaches over me and into my backpack to pull out a fuckin copied version :^) anyway that day was wild some girl i never talk to who didn’t even know my dead name let alone my actual name came up to me asking for a copy

70- what’s your favorite breakfast?pancakes or waffles

71- do you like guacamole?no

72- have you ever been in a physical fight?no

73- what/who are you thinking about right now?um

74- do you like cuddling?yes

75- are you holding onto something you need to let go of?can we not have this conversation over tumblr’s ask system thanks

76- have you ever experienced one of your biggest fears?i live with myself every day lmao

77- favorite city you’ve been to?nyc!!

78- would you break the law to save a family member?probably

79- talk about an embarrassing moment?me, as a person

80- are there any causes you strongly believe in?idk

81- what’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?not sure

82- fav day of the week?none

83- do you consider yourself sexually open minded?idk what that means

84- how do you feel about porn?i don’t watch it really, but if that’s your thing then it’s your thing

85- which living celebrity would you like to know?idk

86- who was your hottest ex?it’s hard for me to like,, determine that because my sexual attraction to someone usually isn’t there until i start liking them romantically (in most cases, there’s people i never liked romatically but found attractive or people i found attractive before i liked them but that’s not the case with anyone i actually dated) and it disappears when i don’t like them romantically anymore so ???? also rude question especially considering at least two of my exes follow me here

87- do you want/have kids?don’t have them, might have them but that’s dependent on whether or not my partner is able to take care of kids i’m not gonna have kids if i know that my partner can’t be a good parent to them. also still not sure if i want them myself

88- has anyone ever told you that they wanted to marry you?no

89- do you get easily distracted?hell yeah

90- ass or titties?why… choose…..

91- what is your favorite word?to use in writing, probably “gentle”. to use in speech, probably “fuckin”

92- how do you feel about tattoos?i want a lot, i have two

93- do you have any pets?this was already a question?

94- how tall are you? 5′5

95- how old are you?14

96- 3 physical features you get complimented on a lot?i don’t get complimented on specifics, the most i get it usually like “you look nice today” or sometimes ppl say they like my makeup but that’s not a physical feature of mine

97- is there anything you’re really passionate about?i love,, the jims and the piano

98- do you have trust issues?idk, i don’t let most people see me cry or see me having a breakdown and i only really trust a few people with most stuff and it’s usually because there was something that happened in the past that allowed them to already know stuff like that and they were good about it and i was like “oh, then they’ll be alright about it and i don’t have to explain myself to them because they already know” but?????

99- do you believe in love at first sight?god no, what if they’re a dick?? u can’t judge a book by it’s cover. also i think that now i’ll have to know someone pretty well to start liking them because of past and current events

100- what are some words that you live by? why? i don’t have a specific quote or anything but. if you love someone tell them. i’ve said this before, and i don’t mean specifically romantically in fact in some cases you should keep that to yourself so no one is made uncomfortable but like. tell your mom or your best friend or your dad or your grandma that you love them because they could be gone real soon or you could be gone real soon and they should know that you love them before that happens

thank u for asking

[sweetest--melody]

ALL THE FLOWERS

i mean sure

DAISY:How old were you when you had your first kiss?

16

CARNATION:If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer?

idk pearl jam?

JASMINE: What color looks best on you?

lol nothing idfk ive only worn black and white for the past six years

FOXGLOVE: Name three facts about your family?

my sister is in law school, my brother is a trainer for a college football team, and i cant think of a third thing

ALLIUM: What’s the best thing you can cook?

grilled cheese?

ORANGE BLOSSOM:If you could pick the gender and appearance of your child, would you?

nah. let em be who they are

CALLA LILY: If you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral?

black by pearl jam. those lyrics hit me like a truck, and it sounds sad enough.

POINSETTIA: Favorite holiday dish?

idk a big roast turkey?

OXLIP:Would you ever get into a long distance relationship?

lol that ones kind of obvious

PRIMROSE: Favorite kind of soup?

?????? idk i rarely have soup i usually go with salad

DAFFODIL: What’s the most thoughtful present you’ve ever received?

no idea, i dont get gifts very often, only at like christmas and sometimes on birthdays. i guess this monitor?

ROSE: Are you currently in love with someone?

not mutually, no

AMSONIA:Would you ever become a vegan?

maybe, i love animals but i like meat

PEONY: What’s your favorite hot beverage?

coffee, small amount of sugar small amount of half & half

TULIP: For your birthday, what kind of cake do you ask for?

none. i genuinely dont like celebrating my birthday anymore

MYRTLE: Do you like going on airplanes?

a little anxious before takeoff, but other than that yes

HIBISCUS: Did you ever play an instrument? If so what?

played piano for a little bit, can play guitar kinda

RHODODENDRON:What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had?

a group of people robbed a store and shot me and left me to suffer and bleed, and it dragged on for what felt like forever. even felt the pain

QUEEN ANNE’S LACE: Would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents?

can i say neither? im not good at either one

MAGNOLIA: Favorite kind of candy?

swedish fish

ASTER: Would you rather be cold or hot?

cold

MARIGOLD: Do you listen to what’s on the radio?

depends on the station and the time of day

HELICONIA: Do you like when it rains?

love it

AZALEA: What’s a movie you cried while watching?

i dont know, movies dont usually do it for me. music does

DANDELION: Do you think you’re important?

not to me, not to anybody else, not to the universe, next question

[i-amusemyself]

Every and all space things👍

AAAAaaaah omg ty!!!!! (I did it once and then it deleted in case you were wondering why it took so long)

Planets: Life

Mercury: What’s your full name? I don’t even know my first name at this point

Venus: What’s your first language? English (though you wouldn’t know it some days)

Earth: Where’s your home? Not my house ~I’m not sure I’ve found it yet.

Mars: What’s your sexuality? Technically I’m bi/pansexual but I doubt I’d date a guy sooo

Jupiter: Do you have any siblings? Only step sibs but we’re not v close

Saturn: Any pets? Two very old rabbits that I adore and Borris the cocker spaniel who is currently trying to sit on my laptop and winning 😂

Uranus: What’s your hobby? Self loathing and meme farming 👌

Neptune: When’s your birthday? 6th october

Pluto: What time is it right now where you are? 18:57

Moon: What are you currently studying/hope to study? I’m doing a levels atm, and with any luck I’ll be off to uni in september to start a masters in biochem

Stars: Experiences

Sun: Have you ever had alcohol? I’m doing a levels so ofc

Sirius: Have you ever failed a class? I do p well generally though I almost failed gcse art last year

Rigel: Have you ever gone on a rollercoaster? yh

Deneb: Have you ever been out of your home country? yup!

Arcturus: Have you cried out of something other than sadness? I cry with any emotion if I feel it strongly enough but if it it’s not sadness it’s usually because I’m happy.

Betelgeuse: What’s something you can never forget about? I don’t remember many things to be honest. I suppose the way people have treated me and what they have said (in good and bad ways).

Aldebaran: What’s something you care desperately about? There are a few specific good people who I desperately want to see happy and will do anything to see them finally get what they deserve 💖

Canopus: Have you ever broken a bone? A couple

Bellatrix: Have you ever been forced to lie/keep a secret? Lmao I’ve been pretending to be a straight girl for 18 years 😂

Alphard: Have you ever lost a friend? Yeah, both in the growing apart and passing away sense. It sucks.

Vega: What’s something you’ve done that you wish you hadn’t? Everytime I speak I beat myself up about it later tbh

Constellations: Favourites

Centaurus: Favourite holiday? Halloween!! 🎃

Orion: Favourite month? October or July

Cassiopeia: Favourite book? Ugh I don’t read enough it’s so bad. I’ll say the 5 people you meet in heaven again.

Delphinus: Favourite study? …..I don’t have one. Though the first thing that popped into my head was the study of fire🔥 

Hercules: Favourite instrument? I’m always a slut for piano covers breaking my heart

Gemini: Favourite song? It changes so often but I’m really digging To Build a Home (by the cinematic orchestra) and Rats (by motionless in white) rn. Bit of a difference between the two 😂

Pegasus: Favourite place to be? There’s a couple of houses I feel chilled in but my fave place atm is just in the corner of this field watching the world go by and just escaping for a little while. I need to go back there.

Libra: Favourite colour? Like, a blood red or black.

Phoenix: Favourite thing to wear? I spend my life in Depression Sweatshirts^TM and jeans atm and I keep telling myself I’ll make an effort at some point but honestly I don’t even know what I like wearing anymore

Aries: Favourite movie? Deadpool/shrek (2)/hot fuzz/my sisters keeper/the life of brian

Cygnus: Favourite weather? I like it warm because I’m always freezing but The Ultimate is when you’re lying in bed watching a thunderstorm

Hydra: Favourite sound? Thats a bit… erm 😏? Let’s go with rain.

Galaxies: Love/Friends  

Milky Way: Who’s your oldest friend?  I don’t really have one. I’m still on pretty good terms with a girl I’ve known since I was literally a baby I suppose

Andromeda: Do you consider yourself social? I like socialising and being around people if they’re the right people but I’m anxious af 

Black Eye Galaxy: Do you believe in love at first sight? Nah, attraction though

Cartwheel Galaxy: When was your first kiss? I’d prefer to say I’ve never had one

Cigar Galaxy: How’s your flirting skills? 👏Fucking terrible judging by my relationship status 👏

Comet Galaxy: Have you ever had to leave a relationship because someone changed too much? No, but then again I haven’t ended  that many relationships.

Pinwheel Galaxy: Would you date the last person you talked to? My dad? No.

Sombrero Galaxy: Do you have a crush right now? Yhhh smh

Bode’s Galaxy: Have you ever had a secret admirer? It was quite a few years ago now but yeah, it was super cute. I still wish I knew who it was!

Sunflower Galaxy: Would you date/make friends with someone out of pity? I once dated someone because I didn’t want to be mean and say no again (for like the 10th time) and it was one of the worst decisions I’ve made. So no, I won’t be doing that again.

Tadpole Galaxy: Would you deny a relationship/friendship? Only if it wasn’t safe or my s/o wanted me to

Whirlpool Galaxy: Have you ever cried over a breakup? Yeaaah

Other stuff: Wishes

Comet: What’s your big dream? To be happy and to be able to look back on my deathbed and go “you know what, that could’ve gone a lot worse!”. Regrets are the worst too, so I’d like to minimize those.

Asteroid: What does your dream life look like? I’d like a stable job and to settle down with someone who genuinely loves me. I don’t know about the rest, I’m hardly the sort to make a life plan!

Meteor: What’s something you wish you could tell, but can’t? There’s people I wish I could tell them how I feel. People I wish I could tell them who I am. People I wish I could tell them where to stick it.

Nebula: If you could undo one thing in your life, what would it be? I can’t answer that, for starters because I’d freak out over the butterfly effect of it

Shooting Star: If you could bring back one thing, what would it be? (I’m guessing this means from the dead because I hardly have a burning desire to bring back VCRs or ought) I’m torn between Carrie Fisher, some people who died too young or a certain dog. 

Pulsar: What do you hope to do in the next 10 years? Oh wow nope I can’t think about the future! In a better place than I am now, with more experience and understanding.

Supernova: What’s one thing you want to do before you die? I mean there’s so many things, but tbh I’d like to ride a giant zip wire

Quasar: If you could spend the rest of your life with only one person, who would it be? Dont make me choose?!!?! Imma just say Lexa Kom Trikru lmao

Wormhole: What’s something you wish would happen, but know won’t? Me finding someone who isn’t out of my league and also a labour majority government (in the near future at least).

Black Hole: What’s the last thing you want to see? The stars!! The moon!! 🌟🌘