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been thinking about something wicked a little too much lately. no harm in romanticizing the ominous dreadful unstoppable force
#ultrakill#v1#v1cked#<- unsure if ive ever officially decided that was the tag id be using but i dont recall anyone else having an idea for it#v1 and something wicked... ouhehehe#in a game like this... with conflict and violence and unceasing demand for a spectacle it is a step back to have v1 find themselves in a-#dark and quiet labyrinth belonging to a force that scares even them#idk. i think about it. its so unlike everything v1 has gone through thus far (though albeit not much as 0-S is in prelude. but i assume-#-there was some killing before they decided to drop down)#maybe it reminds them of their home? where they were built? light humming of wicked passing feels like the buzzing of bright artificial-#-lights that were routinely shined down on them for maintenance#a strange but welcome connection...#and something wicked is very lonely. i dont think it has much of an issue with this seeing as it knows its maze so so well.. im sure it-#-cares for it extensively. but a machine? coming here? i wonder if something wicked has the ability to interact with the terminals at all#terminals do really only talk to machines#but this one seems quite lonely. i dont think itd mind if something wicked happened to take a look#ok im done#gen art
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LET PEOPLE WRITE WHAT THEY WANT AND FOR WHO THEY WANT !!!!!
#if you feel entitled to a character get help#or a trope like get a grip#thats not normal#i promise you the trope you think you invented has been on ao3 since 2008#the character doesn't belong to you no matter how much time you invested in them writing wise#the way i have to say this is crazy#i will never understand gatekeeping a pixel like that is insane#and if you're mad im saying its insane then i just want you to know#womp womp go outside#if you're a gatekeeper like that unfollow me#i dont want you here#AND LET PEOPLE BE HAPPY !!!!!!!
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#hi im j here 2 talk . saw this cow yday so i drew her and now u get 2 say hi#but omffgg my gd i dont know if any of u relate but i feel like my ability to socialize w others#specifically online and speciifically in interest-circles has gotten so much harder for no reason whatsoever#like im just becoming more self conscious ab how i portray myself and its so weird bc like . LIKEE I DONT KNOW like . ok#people r super njce . always super nice and reach out to me and talk w me or i reach out first and they respond and r soo sweet#and something happens in my brain where like . i feel like im suddenly like . inserting myself where i dont belong (not true) but why am i#the bus driver all of a sudden . in all of these situations . me when i just show up like hey#i think i j feel annoying >__< . and i dont want to bother other people but said people r literally never bothered ykwim like Will Reach Out#and im the one that pulls back but 4 no reason . i cant even think ab why i do that .why am i doing this 🧨#so many ppl i want to genuinely befriend in all of these spaces but im self sabotaging soo frwaking bad#literally rn thinking of some dms i left on read bc i panicked or mutuals ive talked w before who im nervous 2 be familiar w . hrmm#anyways . i kind of wish i had the ability 2 just talk to new people and not actually gaf ab the outcome#HELPP .. early tmblr or wcf or devart where u have thirty million friends 2 now where u r too scared 2 say hi to an almost friend .#me problem though . if not alr clear HEJAHHAAHA i think part of my reluctance also stems from the fact that i know i get this way#and so i dont want 2 rope someone else into that insecurity so i try to keep it at an arms length until i fix it#but i think i also know its a longer & more introspective thing to work on so i do need to just try anyways
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i made a ruby twitter layout!!! i also made a shitload of alts that i posted on my twitter
also i've never tried making a tumblr layout before but i imagine it cant be that hard. if anyone wants me to try it i totally will
#rwby#ruby rose#rwby fanart#rwby ruby#rwby ruby rose#my art#i dont know what other tags belong here#roosterteeth#rooster teeth
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Youre the reason autistic people shouldnt be allowed in fandom spaces. I thought they were joking about how shit your Saiki K takes are but they were so right. 💀
HELPPP WHATSVHWUAHAUS i know half the anons i get are just people trying to piss me off but this is the craziest one yet i think
#this is worse than the people calling me the r slur#you shouldve just done that#i wouldve been less confused#also im pretty sure autistic people are most of the people ruling fandom spaces#how do you think we obsess about our interests so insanely#what is this about btw i wish i had more context#ALSO WHO IS THEY.#should i know...#damn im such a creep im such a weirdo what the hell am i doin here i dont belong here#meows post
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NO I AM NOT OKAY. IF THIS PERSON WHO DID IT IS SOMEONE WHO FOLLOWS ME TAKE IT FREAKING DOWN. I NEVER GAVE PERMISSION FOR SOMETHING LIKE THIS AND NEVER WILL.
If someone knows about this fic. Please please please I beg you please send a link to me so that I could report it. If I remember correctly it is only the author who could report something being stolen on wattpad. (The story they took from is one of my original works that is Just One Drop) And please if you do know or if you find out don't go attacking this person.
#i dont know how to react to this... lost sleep a couple of time cause i was always scared that one day i will find out that someone#stole my works and say that it was there own or something like that.#but now that it finally happened i feel like a deflated balloon more than anything#more of the mentally of like “I guess it finally happened to me.” i cant say i am too surprised about this situation#but i am definitely not happy about this at all.#if you are someone who stole one of my works why do you even do this?#likes or whatever??? there is literally nothing nice about the whole thing. do you feel happy?#do you feel happy that you get likes over something that you didnt make? will anything do to make you happy then at this point??#i am not trying to be understanding here i am trying to get it in your skull that in the end#you get nothing from this#doing something like this will only get you likes if not that numbers then what else? You built everything on stuff that didnt belong to yo#fame? what fame could you even get from something like this. sooner or later you might just abandon it and then what??#there is nothing to feel good about it.#this is the reason why people hesitate to even post stuff online at this point cause why even bother#when everything that we make will be stolen at one point and posted again under someone else when we clearly said that we do not want that
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Hello Dungeon Meshi fandom, i have a very, very important question for you, soooooo....
Are people here who want to fuck the Winged Lion?????
I NEED TO KNOW IF THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO WANT THAT MF AS MUCH AS ME
pls...... Pls tell me....... that im not te only one......... please...... PLEASE TELL ME IM NOT THAT WEIRDDDDDDD
(im a fucking freak, pls send help)
#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#the winged lion#dungeon meshi x reader#winged lion x reader#im a fucking freak#HEAR ME OUT#PLS#I SWEAR#IM NOT CRAZY#I AM NOT CRAZY#......... u know what???#YES I AM#IM A FREAK#IM A WEIRDOOO#WHAT THE HELL I AM DOING HEREEEE#i dont belong here.......😴#i dont........#(PLEASE SOMEONE CACHT THE REFERENCE)
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they like to talk about how the sky is so, so, so far away.
#doodles#fanart#trigun#trainer trigun#vash the stampede#pokemon#melody#i like giving him….sonic hair…….#my go-to doodles to do on scrap paper at work has been vash. and ive decided he gets sonic hair.#melody likes the sky. its kind of an instinctual thing inside her due to her evolutionary line.#she doesnt know that she can turn into a flying creature yet...she thinks shes a person.#but anyways in this au vash (and knives) comes from the planet itself!!#vash often wonders about humans and their space travel and its a bit sad#that they had to crash here.#they really dont belong here. they really dont! but theyre here now. what can you do about it.#anyways the point of this post is that they both think about the sky.
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And while I'm on my tirade, it's important for me to state that submission is earned. No one is entitled to it and quite frankly not everyone deserves to see your vulnerability. It is an honor and privilege to relinquish control to someone and it should be treated as such.
#honey.txt#we rlly gotta talk about the entitlement aspect of kink one day#alas im not in the right headspace to go into it#but through being on here ive experienced so much entitlement towards me and its rlly gross tbh#its not hot its not sexy its such a turnoff#like why should I submit to you? I dont even know you?#or the mfs who are like “you're mine” im sorry what.#im actually not yours I dont belong to anyone lmfao#ftm nsft#nsft#submission is a gift#trans nsft#nsft trans#t4t nsft#t4t trans#trans t4t#t4t mlm#ftm t4t#trans ftm#ftm trans#tagging for reach bc I needed to hear this#me when im just not realizing this too btw lmao
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the last unicorn post from earlier has me thinking about the master. that yana is still in there, you know? is still someone he was, if even for a brief flash across the life of a time lord. there’s no way to unlive that life. there are ways to twist it later, sure, to make utopia into hell on earth. but the life was lived. in much the same way that the doctor can remember, can feel, the love he held onto as john smith even as that life is ripped out of his hands. the doctor choose denial and then grief and then to shutter it all away. and so john smith died, and so professor yana died, and the doctor and the master live on. the doctor has done this before, and he lives in orbit around humanity, trying to keep the best parts of them and hold them deep enough to take root (which he can pretend he gets to choose, as a time lord. as a human, it all floods in and can’t be dug back out.) but what about the master, right?
to borrow a turn of phrase: i think there are two time lords left in the universe, and they both learned how to regret.
#regret here meaning less feeling the emotion of actual regret obviously because time lords do not actually funxtion on unicorn rules. they#already get sad just fine on their own. no humanity needed for that.#but i dont know. i just dont think he brushed it off so easily. i think he did a hell of a job convincing himself he did.#and what better way then to twist his own great works and destroy the species he was working so hard to save at the end of the universe.#but what about the knowledge that he *could* be that person. that somewhere in him exists a version that wanted to save people.#a version that is painfully too much like the doctor. even. now is that part worse or better than the human part?#but if past regenerations are ghosts i think yana deserves a haunt.#anyway maybe ignore this one im rambling about nothing here#theres just. i dont know. what if you were the last of your kind and in surviving you made yourself Not Like Them in a way you’ll never#escape.#i mean doctor who is just so concerned with all these plots about hybrids and children of the tardis and clones and What Makes A Time Lord.#but they’re so obsessed with it in just. a very Lore way. is what it feels like. we get brushes of more like with jenny and how she’s#physically a time lord and the doctor denies her that inheritance. a shared suffering…#but me myself im just fascinated with the doctor and the master as the time lords who survived. but they survived Wrong#its. its. children of gallifrey that don’t belong to her anymore. you know?#i dont care if river’s got time lord dna!!! or the metacrisis is physically human!!! i dont care!!! talk to me about what it means beyond#their blood and bones!!! what’s it like to have your sense of self stripped from you like that!!!#what’s it like when so much of you is the shed skin of time lords past. but one of you was human. one of you was painfully *humiliatingly*#human!!!#enough about how much dna you need to count as a time lord. i want to know how much they can mutate until they can’t be recognized as one.#does that make sense?
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#i dont feel like i fully belong here anymore. not after what happened#and i wanna set things right but i cant talk to one and im too scared to talk to another#like i made and learned from my mistakes. i HAVE. and it might be v#and it might be because i lost a fear friend and that feels dumb and ingenuine but its true#im just. im sorry. im so sorry#even if we never talk again and i see you interacting with my other friends knowing that i cant. im glad you were in my life for that-#-short time#im so sorry
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obligatory ere edit for any media with filipino fans. sorry
#alien stage#alnst#alien stage ivan#alien stage till#ivantill#sorry i know this belongs more on somewhere like tiktok but i dont like posting on tiktok#so im just dumping this here#para.mp4
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hey guys. wh
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#i literally had the longest art dry spell in my life just now#dont know whats going on w the hand behind judas' head we're just gonna have to accept the fact that it slightly doesnt make sense#wouldve posted this on my art blog but it feels like it belongs here. since this is the catholicposting blog#happy late orthodox easter#judas#karinyo.art#id in alt#judas iscariot#christposting#catholicposting#where is the noose coming from? why it's coming from god
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Being queer and neurodivergent is great and all until you're with relatives and you watch other people and feel like an outcast in your own family
#extra fun that i cant exactly tell my therapist that being queer is one of the reasons i feel this way#because peoples opinions on queer people here generally arent good#idk sometimes it feels like I dont belong anywhere and feel really alone even though i know im not#its just the way other people live and do things seems genuinely impossible for me. i dont get how they do it#sometimes wish i wasnt who i am ngl#can someone please tell me something nice. my self esteem is buried deep underground right now and i feel not great#sorry for bringing vent posts here on tumblr. i just genuinely dont have many people or places that I feel okay talking about this stuff#especially no one irl i feel okay telling all this to#and dm'ing people is also really difficult. i genuinely struggle to do it#vent post
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How can you tell your mother, home is not your home anymore? That everytime you come back here it feels more alien. How can you tell her that this is not your safe place anymore and you don’t want to be here?
I romanticise this place when I have lonely days, but in reality, every time I come home I am reminded how much I hate it. How much it drains me, and how much I wish I was free to be untethered from it forever.
How do you say I love you, but I don’t love this place anymore?
How do you say I love you, but I wish I didn’t have a reason to come back?
#long distance family#long distance daughter#lonliness#to be loved is to be known#i dont know#i don’t want to be here anymore#home is not here#far away from home#i don’t belong here#writing#this place was so beautiful#this place is not my home#missing family#missing home#nostalgia for a time that never existed#i wish i could go back#i wish i was small#to be known is to be loved#spilled thoughts#love quotes#life quotes#quotes
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Happy Halloween Month, wish you were here!
Rip 😔 another soul(player) lost
(/lh)
Hello again! I do apologise to everyone for my absence; I have been going through a lot of real life things. I received your other ask inquiring about my well-being; sorry that I did not answer it, but I am well! I've finally got some semblance of a plan together for my life.
I've returned to university and finally figured out what path I want to take. I am a creative person, and touching other people with the stories I tell and the art I create is something I believe I was born to do. (Emphasis on the 'other people' part. My art is important to me because it is for others, and I enjoy fine-tuning my work to evoke specific emotions in those who view it.)
I have been busy with other projects, but October is my favorite month, and Halloween is my favorite holiday, so I'll likely be around, if not on this blog, then on my main blog or other sideblogs. I am keeping my main blog a secret, however; I enjoy the anonymity of this blog, and I enjoy the lack of bias it provides to my followers. To everyone here, I am just the Seer of Heart, and that's all I intend to be.
When Homestuck comes back around in my hyperfixation rotation, I'll return here and begin to post again, but I thought you all deserved an update. Thank you for your care <3
#ao pesterlog#((on the topic of aspects im going to take the front and ramble a little in the tags here#((im an osdd system which means i have multiple personalities (aka alters)#((and we've classpected some of our system friends - every alter has a different classpect!!! which is SUPER interesting to us#((it definitely means we contain multiple classpects as well. we're not all just the seer of heart. we have others too#((im pretty sure space is one of them but i dont know which of us it belongs to. i know who the seer in our system is and it isnt him#((me? im a life player hands down.#((the seer says i should stop introspecting in the tags lmfao. PEOPLE CONTAIN MULTITUDES!!! and we are people!!!#((regardless. we all find the seer's work really interesting so we all tend to participate a little bit here and there with his directions#((we love this blog and we really wanna get back to it! we've just been super busy </3#((anyways thanks for reading this if u did lol. go get urselves a cookie. and some water. that shits important <3
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