#i don't wanna be a hater of a game that is still in testing. but...

[transbee]

every time i see something of the new hades game im just. well. 🤐

[cainluvr69]

Surely, We Can Make Miracles Chapter 3

Previous Chapter

Many people, with many ways of thinking, many of which are different from how I approach things. Everyone has their own set of values. There are many different kinds of happiness…and unhappiness.

Rustica: I've written a new song. What do you think?

Bradley: No offense, but it was boring. If this ain't a lullaby for babies, you need to get more crazy with it.

Rustica: Is this "more crazy with it"?

Bradley: Why're you just repeatin' the same melody now?

Rustica: So that those listening may become accustomed to it. Spicing up something familiar is fun, yes?

Bradley: Well, here's what I think. There ain't any need to get used to anything in the first place. Keep 'em guessin' 'til the day you die.

Rustica: What a fascinating philosophy. It offers the prospect of a song with constant deviations throughout.

Bradley: Hell yeah. Screw the sheet music.

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And should you never meet those people, should you never come in contact with who they are, you'll never know about any of those things.

Nero: Huh?! You sure you wanna add that?

Lennox: It's surprisingly good. Try it.

Nero: Alright, just a little taste test… Woah… You're right. This all goes together really well.

Lennox: Right?

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There are those who treasure the old-fashioned ways of the world. Those who've found a new kind of radiance. Neither of them need contradict or overshadow the other. Both of them can be cherished, respected, and--as they live side by side with one another--loved.

Faust: This type of magic circle is optimal if you should find yourself in this kind of situation in combat. It doesn't require much preparation or materials.

Murr: If you use magical technology, as long as you've got mana stones on hand, you can do all of thiiiis!

Faust: I see… If it can be used reliably enough, it's not a bad idea to take advantage of that on future missions. Magic and magical technology are both just means, not ends.

Murr: That's what I think, too! But I think our local magitech-hater Shylock might hate us for saying that!

Faust: …That's quite the dilemma.

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This manor has wizards from five different countries all gathered together under the same roof. I think that this place, where people of many different social standings, ages, and personal philosophies can all live side by side… …is probably the only one like it in the world. When I think about it like that, I really reflect on what an amazing feat it is.

Riquet: Lord Snow, Lord White. Did this kind of game exist two thousand years ago?

Snow: My, my. Perhaps it did, perhaps it didn't.

White: I believe it did, but instead of a ball, it used the bone of a cow.

Riquet: Would you like to play it with Mitile and I later?

Snow & White: Of course~!

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Akira: Whew… That's enough for today. I've written so much in the Sage's manual. I wonder how many days I've spent just writing about the day-to-day things here in the manor… Huh…? Is someone outside the window…?

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Akira: (It's Lennox… He's just standing in place staring at something…?) (Oh… There's Faust, and Nero's with him… They're drinking together…) (If he wants to talk to them, he should…though now that I think about it, I feel like I've seen this before…)

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Lennox: …

Akira: What are you looking at, Lennox?

Lennox: Master Sage.

Akira: Oh, it's the Eastern wizards. I guess they must've just gotten back from their mission. Do you want to talk to them?

Lennox: No.

Akira: …?

Lennox: Ah… Sorry. Erm… Oh, this is a problem. I'm not sure how to explain…

Akira: Oh, no no! It's my fault for asking without thinking about it. It's fine if you don't want to talk about it…

Lennox: No, that's not what it is. I'm just thinking about…how to do it. Like when you're about to lose when playing a board game, but you still don't want to give in…

Akira: …Is this about Faust?

Lennox: Haha… Yes. I was trying to hide it, but you saw right through me. …Lord Faust has no intention of trying to be happy. I imagine he feels like he can't face our comrades who believed in him and died for that belief. I want him to be happy, but my face only serves as a reminder for why he needs to punish himself. At the same time, when he's with those who don't know his past…when he's with the Eastern wizards…he is at peace. Look… See, he's smiling.

I'll never be able to forget how Lennox's face looked at that moment. I saw no longing nor sadness in his eyes, more vibrantly red than the setting sun. He was simply watching Faust's distant back.

Akira: …Is that the game you've lost?

Lennox: Yes. Forcing someone to be happy is as cruel as forcing someone to be unhappy, I think. No matter how tranquil sunlight may be, if someone doesn't want to be in it, then its light will burn them. I lived never giving up. I continued moving forward believing that we'd meet again for four hundred years. But right now… I think that if I don't give up, his heart is going to break. He doesn't need me at his side.

Lennox's expression hadn't changed. I, on the other hand, felt my chest twisting as painfully as if I were the one in his position.

Akira: No, that can't possibly be true. Faust always seems so peaceful when you're with him, Lennox. I think he can rest his heart around you. I've never heard him say anything but good things about you…

Lennox: No, I'm aware that he cares about me. But caring about someone and loving them are two different things. Speaking for myself as an individual, there's no greater reward. But what hasn't been rewarded is… This loyalty that's too much for him to bear.

Akira: Lennox…

Lennox: Don't worry about me, Master Sage. I'm sorry for complaining about something so pointless… I'm simply…getting stuck when I think about what I should do.

Lennox smiled gently down at me.

Lennox: Master Sage. I'm a shepherd. So that my sheep don't stray from the herd, I lead them, ringing a bell to guide their way. But in the past… I simply blindly chased after a single flag in front of me, no better than a sheep myself. I just…still haven't forgotten how he shook my soul back then. He made me see how beautiful the dawn could be.

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Akira: (Oh, Lennox… I wonder if he wants Faust to become the savior he once was again…) (Or maybe the happiness he's talking about means something different to him… This is hard… Happiness…) (What is happiness…?) Oh, Saku-chan… You're right. I should go to sleep soon.

This little darling is called a sacrificium. The twins created it and gave it to me as a sort of guardian. Because I was summoned here to this world as its Sage. So that I could save it.

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This world has a beautifully shining moon in its sky, one they call <the Great Calamity>. Once a year, every year, <the Great Calamity> draws close to this world. So that it doesn't come too close and destroy the world, it must be intercepted and pushed back. And that is the duty of the twenty-one Sage's wizards, gathered from the five countries of this land.

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And my duty is to guide the Sage's wizards and save the world. I don't think I can lead them as smartly as I should, being called the Sage and all, but… If I can at least be a good friend to my wonderful, talented wizards… Then that's what I want.

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Oz: …

Figaro: Hey, I'm coming in.

Painting Snow & White: Mmrrgghh…

Snow: Oz.

White: Dearest Oz.

Oz: You three, I see…

Figaro: Still awake, huh. I'm guessing you've barely slept since that surprise attack.

Oz: What do you want.

Snow: We came to tell you there's no point in you staying awake like this.

White: Dear Oz. You're afraid of once again being forced to bleed and lose consciousness, and thus, you're keeping yourself on guard. You poor thing. You've never lost in a competition of magic before, after all.

Oz: I did not lose.

Snow: You may as well have. You simply weren't killed. And at the moment, that's the same thing. Even we could kill you right now. I imagine that fact alone is humiliating enough to make you want to die, and yet, it is still the truth of the matter.

Oz: …

White: Oz. It's fair to say that Mithra and the others on this floor that night kept you alive.

Snow: Their pride is the only thing that kept you from turning to stone. For at night, you, the world's strongest wizard, cannot use your magic.

Oz: Get out.

Figaro: Oz. Just think for a second. You're not in a position to order us around right now. We really have been keeping your pride in consideration, but we can't do that anymore. Right now, all you can do is ask others to keep you alive.

White: Exactly. Oz, you must study the ways of the weak. You must live as one of them. You have no choice but to be protected by the strong at night. Bow your head to Mithra, Bradley, and Owen, flatter them…

Oz: Get out!

Snow: Ohoho! All you can do is shout at us? Before, it would have taken you no more than a moment to drive us away… What a tragedy this is.

Figaro: Lord Snow. You're going too far. Oz still has his pride.

Snow: And that's what makes this a tragedy. I'm saying it because he's our dear adorable Oz.

Figaro: Oz was the world's strongest. Even if it's tragic, he still…

White: We're telling him to abandon that pride. How do humans who cannot use magic survive in the North?

Snow: Tell us, Oz.

Oz: When dawn breaks, I will kill you both.

White: Oh, dearest Oz.

Snow: Ohoho. He certainly told us.

Oz: <Vox N…> Zz… Zz…

Snow: Goodness…! He was truly trying to kill us just now.

Figaro: This is exactly the kind of situation we're talking about, Oz. You're the only one who won't admit it… Come on, wake up.

Oz: Ah…

Figaro: And the two of you are just trying to provoke him! That's why he did that! Oz, you need to calm down, too. I know exactly how you feel. I know how horrible it feels to have the spirits refuse to obey you… And that's why I know we need a plan in place. Okay?

Snow: Meticulous as always, dear Figaro. Though you always are.

Figaro: …And what's that supposed to mean?

Snow: That you're trying to set the two of us up as an enemy to get in Oz's good favor and then manipulate him as you please.

White: Dear Figaro. Please recall that you're the ringleader of this. You said you would persuade him.

Figaro: Yeah, I did say that. Because I wasn't expecting the two of you to be this stupid.

Snow & White: Excuse me?

Figaro: If you want Oz to listen to you, you need to be more careful with how you say things to him. What you've been doing is just pointlessly riling him up…

Snow: Ohoho! Make him listen to us? Surely you heard us, Oz.

Oz: I do not recall submitting to you.

Figaro: Oz, do you have any idea what position you're in right now? I'm trying to cover for you. Don't be ungrateful, and don't be stupid.

Oz: Hah?

White: Figaro dearest, you're being so meeeaaan! Oz, darling, come here. You're not stupid at all.

Figaro: Are you for real? The ones blatantly trying to manipulate Oz are the two of you.

Snow: Oh, now there's banging on the walls.

White: My, we've made dear Owen start banging on the walls. I suppose we should withdraw for now, then.

Figaro: Anyways. Oz. If you're going to continue pointlessly keeping watch, at least try to build some better relationships while you're at it. You don't want to follow this pair's lead on how to end relationships in the worst way possible, right?

Snow: Figaro, you're getting punished for that.

White: Yep, punished.

Figaro: Go die, you senile old hags.

Snow & White: <Noscomnia>

Figaro: <Possideo> …You get it, Oz? At this rate, Arthur's going to get turned to stone trying to protect you when you can't use magic.

Oz: …

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Owen: Jeez… They're so loud. This is the worst. This is worse than the worst. …

Mithra: Owen.

Owen: Mithra. The twins and Figaro were talking to Oz about something weird.

Mithra: Huh.

Owen: They were mocking you.

Mithra: Hah?

Owen: They said that at night, when Oz can't use his magic, he should bow his head to you and have you protect him.

Mithra: Huh, that might not be bad, actually. I wonder if he'll really bow his head to me?

Owen: Get a clue. They're saying they think you're stupid and a coward.

Mithra: How's that?

Owen: Do you want to protect Oz? No way, right? You want to kill him and eat his stone, don't you?

Mithra: Of course.

Owen: But they think you won't kill him. Because you're a coward.

Mithra: … I'll kill them.

Owen: Haha… Maybe they're right. Your heart and body are both wavering. Half-hearted. There's nothing scary about you now.

Mithra: The same goes for you.

Owen: Excuse me?

Mithra: You're being completely half-hearted, too. You're not frightening, and you're not tough. You're making friends and getting pushed around.

Owen: … I'm not getting pushed around. Are you stupid?

Mithra: And I'm not going to be protecting Oz. Definitely not.

Owen: Uh-huh. Not that I care.

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Owen: Mithra's really pissing me off… Ah… I can see a light still on in the manor. Hehe. Maybe I'll go scare their wits out and have some fun.

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Chloe: Yaaaawn… Alright, one last push! Ah… Someone's coming to the window. It's Owen! Owen.

Owen: Fufu. What are you up to?

Chloe: I'm making clothes for everyone to wear to the party on Borda Island tomorrow. You'll wear yours, won't you, Owen?

Owen: Nope.

Chloe: Wh--why not?!

Owen: Because it'll make me waver and be half-hearted.

Chloe: I don't know what you mean by half-hearted, but I did pick colors based on the image of wavering light on the water's surface! They're super pretty! I'd really like to see you wear it tomorrow!

Owen: … If I feel like it.

Chloe: Okay! Goodnight!

Owen: Stop it.

Chloe: …?

Owen: … I'm not a coward.

Next Chapter

[marcusrobertobaq]

I'm telling ya, Connor "deviated" this guy before deviating himself.

Unfortunately this one got a direct canon proof called gauge but realistically speaking the cases were what "deviated" Hank (same with Connor), but having to work with an android when you're a hater really got a weight. Was really only a confirmation humans were to blame for all this bullshit too that he realized what they've been doing was "wrong".

SI by Hank is narratively a thing after Connor discovers he lost his son, coinciding with Hank making Connor get in contact with his emotional factor in The Bridge cuz he wanted to test the things he saw. I'm 100% after The Eden Club Hank really don't wanna be a part of this anymore and the only thing he wants is to learn more about deviants instead of capturing androids and arresting 'em (or even killing 'em) for wanting to be free when it's actually a human's fault they're like this in the first place.

That's where empathetic actions start getting in the way in the narrative - it would make sense if Amanda's dialogue didn't got bugged, she literally scolds Connor for saving Hank's life in The Nest where Connor was conflicted about saving a human life (basic of all androids) or capturing Rupert.

U can see Connor sympathizes with Hank's depression fr no matter the route, that's the "feeling" she asks about I guess. The attachment to a human was something expected but putting androids lives above the mission cuz he thought wasn't right is a whole new danger. Unless Amanda really thinks Hank is making up Connor's head somehow as he's in conflict with himself too and that's why Connor is sparing androids (cuz Hank don't like seeing androids dead around and keep disapproving some shit, so u'd technically be obeying Hank instead of Amanda), nothing more - which ain't really the case, the real clash in deviancy is between Connor and the androids he met narratively, they challenge his pov, his propaganda. But I just know players be sparing androids cuz they think Hank won't like.

In the end of the day Hank just wanna Connor to realize he's wrong like he himself was wrong and make the right choice about it: humans are to blame, we're destroying a new form of life, let shit happen cuz it can finally make a change. He ain't wrong but I doubt Hank knows or care about Connor's corporate dirty work dog background, he would've used it against Connor in Last Chance and HPR but I think Hank's main topic here is about "emotions".

Hank interference on Connor is more about projecting himself, u can see how he wanted Connor to "become a person", and in the game having rebellious acts against priorities means doing things for yourself a.k.a. driven by emotions a.k.a. deviancy a.k.a. becoming a person, not a perfect machine. Hank himself is a rebellious person. And as a bonus, well, Hank is a human.

Androids obeying humans, copying humans, listening to humans is... The default imo. They made Connor with the ability of disobeying orders that ain't from his handler but that part of the program still the same doesn't matter how much Amanda hates it - she's an AI herself, obeying CyberLife board decisions: humans. Connor can be the kind of android that is mission>pleasing humans but even to make his mission easier to deal with he gotta deal with humans, he was made to integrate. But I like how the environment during assignment is actually rejection towards this "integration" thing, but still not a complete kick in CyberLife's ass cuz they know people usually hate androids, and no friendly face and voice gonna help with that - it'll actually have the opposite reaction.

So what they've done? Made Connor able to bypass some shit and not let any human become a threat to the whole scene. That's why Amanda gets pissed if u go the friendly route, she wants u to leave it aside and focus on the mission only cuz U CAN and U SHOULD. And that's may be the reason the game considers saving Hank something about empathy - still not make sense, tho. As I said, no matter what u do Connor's still an android. Now, sympathizing with Hank about his trauma and really becoming an emotional pillar cuz he wanna do something about it is already a more complicated area as we got an attachment here, I could still argue androids supporting humans like this is just default but Connor is genuine about it and the issue here is the so called "I want to". It's quite ironic considering Connor is basically an autonomous android, almost all choices are left in his hands alone and they trust his nature as android of always seeking the best outcome for the boss desires and orders. He's programmed for it, it's hard-coded. Wanting to help Hank can still fall under the "I'll be friendly cuz it can help me in the task later" and Connor indeed got a lack of self as NEUTRAL from The Bridge suggests, but the fact he's really worried is already a red flag for Amanda even tho it's expected.

Perfect machines don't let 'em own internal shit interfere in the mission. Hank hated androids and was an obstacle due to his "I don't give a fuck" nature the moment he was assigned to him, why give a shit about him instead of the mission? Dependency. They still gotta cooperate, there's no other way.

Also I think it's the first time ever Connor makes a "friend" on his own. They're forced on this cooperation and Connor gotta decide how he wanna approach things so we have a good outcome in his task, there's nowhere to run. The fact he could get a guy from hating him to being friendly is a big accomplishment in this sense, Hank got a big issue with "fake" and Connor being an android is a challenge for both, not to mention the lack of "self", for example, in how androids are just destroyed like nothing and just replaced, back from the dead even.

No wonder Connor would get attached (i think it's part of the job), no wonder Hank would see androids being repressed for having feelings (something he thinks humans are missing) and hope Connor had genuine feelings like 'em and finally fight against the same propaganda Hank used to believe - and it's ironic how Connor uses Hank's old discourse (a common one) about everything being fake but this time it makes the dude annoyed. Although Hank lacks important details and perceive things in his way I'd say his hypocrisy is ones of the things that challenge Connor - on emotional level and esp if he's trynna befriend him. It can both make him develop resentment towards the guy (as we see with Connor 60) or really be one of the things he takes for him, this rebellious nature of raising your voice, complaining and questioning your superiors and 'em propaganda: everything CyberLife didn't like and something that could lead to deviancy. Lucky him dealing with unpredictability is one of his features.

But comparing Hank and Connor journey is just not a thing, they ain't the same, they come from opposite sides. Hank was born with the choice, Connor... Not exactly, he literally got code blocking him and is sold as merchandise, made for this purpose only. I know Hank wants Connor to make a choice, he wants Connor to make the "right" (in his pov) choice, but Connor is still an android. He notices Connor is always disobeying him and everyone and doing shit he has never seen an android doing before and wants Connor to use it for "the right thing" but if this affirmation is true Hank is lacking a huge background here.

Remove the android emotions and deviancy aspect of it and have just Connor being an assistant in common cases and we have a forever "Waiting for Hank"-type shit. I know Hank's the bark but no bite type when it comes to androids, the "I hated androids until I had actually deal with one" kinda guy or just want 'em away from him.

After sometime he would eventually get used to Connor and even forget he ain't a real person and wish dude was cuz being android is about being fake, realistic but not genuine - and this is infuriating. But it's Hank's interaction with deviants what makes him go "maybe I was wrong. Androids feel emotions, androids can be irrational and make mistakes, fight for their lives. Androids are showing what humans don't these days, maybe we're more similar than I thought" and that's a key point in his "deviation".

It's so ridiculously funny what they tried doing in this game 🤔

I give a less of a fuck about the buddy cop aspect besides the comic relief, but if u wanna talk about the characters alone I find it more interesting.

Hank's only impact in Connor's deviancy is the fact he's also in transition. Remove this factor and see something funny happen.

[autiezo]

6, 12 and 28 for the ask game :D

heyyyy Riem! Thanks for the ask :D

I used to care a lot about my YouTube stuff but not anymore lol. Not caring has been super freeing.

The best parts about being online are the fantastic fanart on stuff I love, and the wide variety of amazing comedy.

The worst part is seeing people argue about stupid celebrity drama I don't care for. Urgh. I'd literally pay money to never hear anything about USA singers against my will. AJR is the only exception, I love AJR so much.

Also billionaires should shut the fuck up about money, and just donate to the poor, and stop fucking around with humanity. Every time I see news about a billionaire, my mood gets soured for at least 10 seconds.

hmmmmm...

a) All that positive talk like "Be yourself", "The power of friendship", "Forgiveness and Love are the answer.".... I find that many people don't relate to them, because they are hurt. They are tired. They have been burnt too many times before. I was one of those, kind of, a little. I only started believing in goodness, when I was further along in my own healing journey. I only learnt it after years of therapy and emotional support from loved ones, and there's no shame in that.

b) To get people to change their mind, shaming or accusing them of being the bad guy is... a very bad idea. It almost never works. You'll instead need to meet them half-way, and try to understand their point of view first. Then you can structure your side of the discussion, in a way they can understand.

For example, I was homophobic when I was a teenager, so more than a decade ago. To be fair, I didn't know any better and only heard about LGBT from the bible and misguided christians. When people told me to fuck off or insulted me about my views, they didn't really explain why. Even if they did, they would have already lost me, because they viewed me as an enemy. Teen Zo's response to that was to double down, see the 'haters' as enemies in return, and then follow more extreme Christian stuff.

The way I was very slowly convinced to be a LGBT ally, was by people sharing their personal stories about their sexuality. By education that gave me the benefit of the doubt. By LGBT friends who weren't afraid to be themselves.

Of course, there will be people who will never listen to your opinions, no matter what you do. In that case, telling them to fuck off is incredibly justified. I'm just saying that a "Two strikes and you're out" system is probably better than instantly insulting a jerk.

c) If you are a teacher, don't punish your student for simply speaking their mind or asking questions. They're exploring and learning more about the world everyday, of course, they'd test the waters. You should only correct them when they are being intentionally disrespectful or malicious. However, most children don't really do that. It's much more likely that they're trying to have fun, or that they are parroting a phrase they don't really understand.

Treat the youth like humans, like your equals. Their opinions are valuable even when they sound silly at first. They'd respect you more in the long term.

d) Do not befriend fake people or those who like to talk smack about others behind their back.

e) The NSFW / porn online community is weird as fuck, and the number of creeps and gold-diggers on there are much, much higher. If you venture there, it's best to be a lurker.

Yes, there are good people, but it's still a dangerous place...

f) If you wanna get started with voice-acting, you can the Audacity audio editing and recording software. It's free and very useful. All you need is that app, and either a cheap microphone or good headphones with a mic, plugged into your computer.

g) For voice acting again: If you are trying out a new voice, and if your throat feels scratchy after a few minutes, stop using it. No new voice is worth sacrificing your throat for.

besides disco elysium fanart? Nope lol. Does my decorating Livly Island game count? Probably not

[b00bconnoisseur]

60 questions for @not-my-brain

1. selfie.......Ugghhhh ok. Imma take one rn

Ok here u go (yes thats a bmth shirt)

2. what would you name your future kids?.....Ooo hmmm well when i was a kid i really liked the names disney, and mesiah. I didn't know at the time that mesiah was another name for god i think lol. I liked it cause of handlers mesiah. I still do. Ooo and maybe Tj too

3. do you miss anyone?......Yeah. My friends on Pinterest from a year ago. My friend lucas. Stan lee. Bob ross. My cousin who died from cancer some years ago. Snape. Sirius. Lupin. Tonks. Dobby. *continues to name every unfortunate death in hp*

4. what are you looking forward to?.......SE-YA next month!! Its the south eastern young adult festival at this college. You can have meet n greets with authors and alot of stuff its the besstttt

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?......DEFINATELY. @dirtysocke @mysisterlooksforthisaccountsobye @cristal-kyd1280 @sammchenry my friend lucas and @septembersbloom. ^^

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?..... What like...romantically? Or like a death? If romantically uhhh idk it took over a couple weeks but im ok now. Ive never had another relationship so idk. If death oof yeah idk maybe. Ig it depends on how much i knew them idk. Like when my nanny (great grandma) died i was sad for days (is that alot?)

7. what was your life like last year?.....Sucky af. Still is. But the highlights of my life last year was getting and making friends on tumblr, going to the tøp concert and going to warped tour, volunteering at the library, going to seya and meeting some of my favorite authors, reading, changing and improving my art, listening to all the bands i listen to now, getting into more fandoms, going to a friends house for the first time

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?.......Yes lol. Some years ago when i couldn't find smtn id be so annoyed and pissed id start crying. I dont now but still lol

9. who did you last see in person?.......Hm ig family doesn't count....? Wait do u mean a friend? If so uhh my friends rebekah, anika, and Judah at a TAB meeting at the library sometime last month.

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?......I think so? Like i mean I can hide whenever i get my....time of the month from my mom (talking abt stuff like that with her makes me uncomfortable) and i hid a breakup. And other p big stuff too. So imma say yeah

11. are you listening to music right now?........*pops on earbuds after reading this* yee im listening to bitch lasagna by pewdiepie xD (do i have the best spotify playlist or what?)

12. what is something you want right now?.......To hug @mysisterlooksforthisaccountsobye but SOMEONE has to live so far away

13. how do you feel right now?........Happy that my earbud still works cause they got washed in the wash yesterday....oops. Its not my fault. I told my dad to remind me to take it out of my jacket pocket before they threw it in but noooooo he forgot

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?.......Uhhhhh fuck idk it was probably from my lil 4 yr old bro sometime last week. Other than him (hes my favorite sibling) i dont let them hug me too much

15. personality description.......Nerdy. Fangirl. "Emo". Tomboy. Hotsause obsessed. Book lover. Music lover. Black. Blue. Harry potter. Introvert. Fall. Sports. Values friendship. Loyal. Uhhhh i cant think of much lol

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?.......*sigh* yes. Yes yes yes. Theres some things abt me, or my life really, that i havent told anyone on here or my irl friends that i sooooo want to so bad but i haven't cause i feel like they'd feel bad and pity me and i don't want that

17. opinion on insecurities........I dont really understand this one. Everyones insecure abt something. Is this askin like if i think its ok or not? I say its ok. Im insecure about literally everything about me. My face. My personality. My socialness. My art. What i do. What i say. Basically my whole body. The things i feel good abt are my books, music taste, and my friends (ily fuckers)

18. do you miss how things were a year ago?.........Hmm this time around a year ago....idk its sorta the same but all the stuff i mentioned abt my year from last year didn't happen yet so nah tho my life sucks rn its better than this time last year

19. have you ever been to New York?........Nooo but i want too soo baddd i wanna visit @septembersbloom !! Im coming for ya soon gramps *does the eye watching thing* my dads been to nyc before tho cause he does construction and he had a concrete job to do there. It was a 23 hr drive for him

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?........Uhhh idk!!! So hard! Maybe.....the whole thats the spirit album by bmth ;)

21. age and birthday?.....15 yrs of age and September 27th 2003 (whats yours brainy? I'll put it on my calendar)

22. description of crush......Its weird idk im not sure if its a genuine crush or not but uh....They like hp :).Thats all u get

23. fear(s).......Losing my best friend @dirtysocke and my other friends. Death. Failure. Momo chasing after me then killing me slowly keeping my eyes open to look her dead in the eyes while i die

24. height......5'6 call me short and I'll fuck u up with THIS *pulls out trusty potato peeler named now steve* dont test me boi

25. role model......Hhhhhhhh so many! But uh gosh one of them is @superraedizzle (youtuberrrr) and vexx and bob ross and da vinci and aaaaaaa so many

26. idol(s)......First person that immediately comes to mind is @sammchenry cause he's super cool and he's really nice and his art's reallyyy good (if u havent seen it w-w-what are u even doin with your life?) And he has a great sense of humor and *continues to ramble about why samms the best*

27. things i hate.......Dabs. Transphobes. Homophobic ppl. Basically any hate on the lgbtq+ community. Bullies. The ship starker. Umbridge. Snape haters

28. i’ll love you if….....U you'll eat pizza, draw, and rp harry potter with mee

29. favourite film(s)......Fantastic beasts. Every hp film. Twilight. The maze runner 1-2. The hunger games. Spiderman homecoming. Kingsman: secret service. Into the spideyverse tho i havent seen it yet

30. favourite tv show(s)......Inkmasterrrrr. B99. The mick. The middle. Uhhh idk mostly ink master xD

31. 3 random facts........Ive never had shrimp. I had a beta fish for over a year once. Im eating pizza crust rn

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?.......G i r l s. I have all girl friends irl and one boy. And on tumblr it seems like i just meet girls? Likei agree with @cristal-kyd1280 its like alot more gals then dudes here. But i do have some guy friends on here too. But mostly girls

33. something you want to learn.......TO DRAW ANATOMY DAMMIT

34. most embarrassing moment........Every moment of my lifes an embarrassing moment. Idk of i can pick a "most" embarrassing one. But one time i i sent my crush (now ex bf) a hey fuckface and like some hearts or whatever for an ask game that meant like "i have a crush on u" "youre adorable" etc and said Hewo but i did it all anonymously. But he confronted me askin if i sent it cause im the only person he knows that actually says hewo lol. Then later on i finally admitted i really liked him and well y'all know the story after i think. Unless you're new

35. favourite subject.......A R TTTT OFC

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?........meet my friends on tumblr. Get into mtsu (college i wanna go to) and study art. And go skydiving

37. favourite actor/actress........favorite actor uhhhhhh probably thomas brodie sangster or tom felton and my favorite actress? Hmmm idk maybe evanna lynch (luna lovegood)

38. favourite comedian(s).......probably kevin hart lol he's p funny

39. favourite sport(s)........basketballllllll and football

40. favourite memory........uhhhhh idk?? One oh my favorite memories was when we went to see tøp in concert

41. relationship status.....single as a pringle

42. favourite book(s)......harry potter and the order of the pheonix. Harry potter and the half blood prince. Simon vs the homo sapiens agenda. Divergent. Maze runner. Twilight. Fangirl. Fallen. Red queen

43. favourite song ever.......TOO HARD DONT MAKE ME CHOOSEEEEEE

44. age you get mistaken for.........16 and 17 sometimes lol

45. how you found out about your idol........i was watching someone on yt and superraedizzle always poped up in my feed and my mom turned on one of her vids cause she always saw her vids too now ive seen most of em i love her. Id heard of vexx but never watched him and i was watching a collab from anthony miller art and shrimpy and i checked out shrimpys channel and was lookin at comments and alot of ppl said his art is like vexxs so i checked out vexx. At first i was like eh ok. Now i cant click fast enough when he posts a vid. And i actually fpund out about bob ross from my grandpa on jan 20 2017 when trump was getting sworn in or whatever. We turned on pbs and my grampa told me to look and bob ross was on and i was IN. I loved it. I even started watching full episodes on YouTube of the joy of painting after that. Wonderful man. My first painting i ever did i think was when i followed one of his tutorials xD (i didnt know it was popular at the time)

46. what my last text message says......."ok your turn"

47. turn ons.....uhh nerds ig idk um book lovers, music lovers, art lovers, potterheads, idk and nice ppl

48. turn offs......jerks. Homophobia. Idk ig whatever i said in things i hate

49. where i want to be right now......uhhhh idk wait didn't i already answer this? Ok this ones different ig so uhh with my friend lucas

50. favourite picture of your idol.....oh shit...favorite? Idk xD i have a fave of vexx but not of rae or bob. But heres pics of them any way

51. starsign......a libraaaaa boiii

52. something i’m talented at......drawing and speed reading. Thats about it lol. Oh and procrastina

53. 5 things that make me happy.......ooooo art, my friends here on tumblr, books, harry potter, and music ^^

54. something thats worrying me at the moment.....if my friend thinks im being annoying

55. tumblr friends......hhhhh so manyyyyyy. @dirtysocke @mysisterlooksforthisaccountsobye @cristal-kyd1280 @chinesewaffles2 @kingantlion @queen-baelin @sammchenry @septembersbloom and more

56. favourite food(s)......green beans, pepperoni pizza, and vanilla madelines

57. favourite animal(s).......basically any reptile. Puppies. Cats. Any animal really but my #1 are snakes

58. description of my best friend.....well she's a tiny bean (5 feet) and she has dark hair, she wears glasses, she doesnt take shit, she's in love with Josh dun, she's awesome, funny, nice (YES youre nice jackie) and shes the best friend ive ever had. Oh. And she has a weird obsession with spaghetti

59. why i joined tumblr.......well i heard abt it on Pinterest over a year ago but didnt want it. Then @mrfastbass-deactivated20181231 on DeviantArt said he got tumblr so i made one then followed him and figured id just post art and that's it cause i thought tumblr was boring as hell when i first got it. Now im p much obsessed with it

60. ask me anything you want.......go ahead brainy shoot. Give me smtn good