#i don't think it's dehydration i drank SO MUCH WATER yesterday

[aparticularbandit]

Headache did not go away from napping.

Will try sleep.

Think this is the standard thing that happens every year, though.

Is it allergies?

I just don't know.

[sergle]

BY THE WAY!!!! fantastic news about the kittens. Mr. Seizures gave us a huge scare yesterday, and I really thought he wasn't going to make it. He was having fits minutes, and the moments, apart. We got him to our vet same-day, and he even had a fit on the way there, but was completely okay for the entire time we were AT the vet. Typical. It's not really clear what's wrong. Our vet gave us like 10 things that it *could* be, none that she's very sold on. Nothing fits perfectly. The best guess we have, and I can't stress enough that it's a Guess, is that because both of the kittens were very very dehydrated, and were in a trash can with some pizza and fast food trash, is that there was a salt toxicity problem. So, when he had access to water, he drank too much all at once and it all rushed towards the salt in his body, causing swelling, including his brain- which may have been pushing against his skull. If that was the case, he might have some brain damage now.. But it's been over 24 hours since we've seen him have a fit, and he's walking around like normal, and playing with his sister. Eating, drinking, purring, you name it. Anything could happen, but if things continue the way they're going, I'd like to think his fits are some kind of fluke, and he's over that hump in his life. He has an amazing personality, he's silky soft, and my hope is he's going to be someone's Special Boy once I'm able to rehome him (and his sister, I'll kill myself if they don't get adopted as a set)

Our vet affectionately nicknamed him "Twitch", so we're calling his sister "Chat" LMAO. And for this reason, we have this image:

[sevenratz]

guess who posted the second chapter

He woke up with a slight headache.

Wishing he was still asleep, the boy groaned and turned on his right side, letting his arm fall limply on the mattress.

Uh? Newt thought, feeling something warm with his hand instead of the blankets. 

He slowly opened his eyes to avoid getting hurt by the morning light, trying to make out what what in front of him. There he was, Thomas, laying asleep just next to him, Newt's hand having landed on his naked chest. 

Oh my- Newt pulled back his arm quickly, not wanting to wake the other boy up. 

What the hell is going on? He thought, unsure of how they ended up in this situation. He couldn't remember much, probably because of the stupid amount of alcohol he had drank the night before, but that didn't stop him from blushing hard at the realization he was in bed with Thomas.

What if-  no there's no way... Tommy is straight and we're just friends. There's no way anything happened.

He was thinking hard, trying to convince himself everything was okay and normal, calming himself down. This was partly because he wouldn't know how to even react to having finally confessed his crush to Thomas, who he was sure would reject him Would he? and partially because he wouldn't be able to forgive himself if it happened and he had no memory of it.

Trying to keep the blushing to a minimum Newt tried to recall his memories of the evening, when an image popped in his mind, Thomas, one of his best friends who he had been trying to get out of his head for a while now, almost naked just out of the shower. 

Oh shit, Newt whined, head filled with doubt. What if something finally happened and I don't even remember it? Would I even want it to happen? Of course I would. But what if he-

His train of thoughts got interrupted by the sound of fabric shifting and movement in his blurry peripheral vision; he had been staring at the slightly ajar window behind Thomas's head, not focusing on anything in particular.

"Morning sleepyhead", the boy said, surprising Newt with his groggy but soft voice. "How's your head feeling?". The blond turned his focus to him fully, shyness taking over him as he only now fully realized the situation he was in. In bed, laying close to a shirtless Thomas, after they had slept together. 

We couldn't have done anything... right?  Snapping out of it he forced a response out, "Morning, Tommy", he said softly, throat dry. Smiling as calmly as he could Newt tried to hide his gaze which couldn't be controlled from going over Thomas's features. He just couldn't believe how pretty the brunette looked with the soft morning light shining on his nose from behind him and making his dark hair look almost golden. He was smiling back at Newt, and it gave the boy a feeling deep in his guts, painful but pleasant. Unsure of what to do he mumbled out, "Mh, I'm thirsty" as an excuse to move from their staring contest, before he could reach his breaking point. Thomas chuckled, "Thirsty after your wild night out? You were pretty fun to watch stutter yesterday, you know?", scoffing Newt responded: "I might have miscalculated how much I could handle" He turned from his friend while sitting up, looking over the room for a glass of water and finding one right next to him on a nightstand. 

"I put that there yesterday, I thought you might wake up dehydrated" the brunette said, as if his action needed an explanation. "Trying to make sure you don't hurt yourself you shank" 

This made Newt smile, a mix of embarassment and gratefulness, spreading heat in his chest. As weird as this situation seemed, it still made him incredibly happy to be so close and intimate to his friend. 

After gulping down the fresh water, the blond looked back at the other boy and smiled.

"Thanks for that, Tommy. And uhm, I want to thank you for yesterday too, I'm not a hundred percent sure what happened but I do remember looking for my keys and coming to look for you. You're always takin' care of my messes with me and I'm glad you didn't turn me away." He said the words with honesty, a smile on his face to show he meant it.

"It's not like I really had a choice since I just found you in here when i got out of my shower, but you're welcome Newt" The boy could tell Thomas was joking but it still worried him a little that he could've bothered his friend. "Either way I'm glad you're here, at least I know you're okay after the night at the bar, I asked Minho to send me updates when I got in my room but you know how he is."

Newt nodded, "Glad I didn't bother you too much, and yeah Minho is probably nursing a killer hangover in his own room if he even made it back" he laughed a little before continuing, "By the way, what are you doing in bed with me without a shirt on, uh?" 

The blond blushed a bit while saying this, but it seemed to him the best way to ask about the previous night's events without being too obvious about his thoughts, and not being drunk definitely helped with shyness. He couldn't explain why but it seemed like drinking had the opposite effect on him then it had on others, making him less confident, and more commonly, pushing him in a spiral of emotions and feelings he had a hard time managing.

Thomas laughed, "It was way too warm, you're a heater when you sleep Newt. Plus I thought you'd enjoy the sight! I mean just look at this", the boy said it while pointing at his own naked chest, a teasing and joking expression on his face.

Oh, I'm looking, Newt thought, rolling his eyes but smiling, "Oh shut up Tommy, I'm not that desperate that I need to look at you for that", he was teasing his friend but deep inside he felt a hot feeling spread and tried not to think about it too much. 

Thomas acted extremely offended, as if the blond had told him he was the ugliest man in the world, his real feelings being given away by his chuckling. 

The talk had calmed him down but the doubt still ate Newt up inside, he had to ask. 

"You're sooo dramatic." He commented. "I know this might sound weird but did I do anything out of pocket yesterday evening? I just remember splotches of it and I wanna make sure everything's okay." He tried to say this with a light tone, masking his real worry that something might have gone wrong even though his friend was acting as he usually would.

"Well, the gist of it is that I was showering, came out of the bathroom to find you sitting on the bed looking like a lost puppy, and you mumbled something about losing your room key. I went back in the bathroom to get dressed and when I was done you were already dozing off." He explained. 

Newt let out a breath he didn't realize he was holding, "Allright, good" he added. He was glad he remembered most of it and that he hadn't fucked up their relationship, however a hint of disappointment grew in his chest. He kinda did want to tell him how he felt, he wanted something to happen, whatever it would be. 

"Why, what were you thinking happened?" teased Thomas, sly smile on his face. 

Is he flirting? He has to be. But it can't be, we're just friends. He has to know how that sounds though.  Grinning, he commented: "Nothing Tommy, don't worry that pretty little head of yours." Newt was trying to match his friend's energy, but struggled to hide how the question caught him by surprise and made his insides stir. Another feeling was growing inside him, frustration. Frustration over not being able to say things openly, ask what was on his mind. But to blurt out how he had been replaying seeing Thomas wet and almost naked in his mind didn't seem like the greatest idea.

[pbandjesse]

I have a really bad migraine right now but thankfully I am home. So I can just be a lump in bed and rest in the AC. I am really happy to be home right now.

And it wasn't a bad day. It was just really warm. I was just covered in a light layer of sweat all day. I drank a lot of water but I still really felt dehydrated. Which is probably why I have the migraine now. It started in the afternoon. But for most of the day I was fine.

I had trouble falling asleep last night. I don't think I fell asleep until 1:30. And it wasn't a bad sleep. I woke up at 6:00 and was a little unhappy about that but I felt okay. And then I blinked and it was 8:00. I have no idea how quickly I fell asleep.

It took me a while to get up and get myself together. But that was fine. I knew I wanted to wear my Hawaiian pants today. For Hawaiian shirt Wednesday. And I had my biscuit but I had a bad taste in my mouth and it didn't really like the jelly that I had. It was like mixed fruit and I did not enjoy that. But it was fine.

Tatiana came again today and it turns out she did not have the loom. So I have no idea where the 12th one went. She looked at me like what and tried to look around same way I did and neither of us can find it So I'm just assuming a child took it. And it's gone. Which sucks but I ended up just continuing using the cardboard looms today and the kids really liked it and so honestly in the end it worked out.

We had two groups this morning and they did a good job. We had top bar and then pioneers. We finished girl week and we start boy week. And the boys were good. Everyone seemed to try pretty hard for the most part. And I enjoyed everyone's company. It was a good day.

And lunch was an actual meal. I did not get the vegetarian option because it was just the same sad sandwich from yesterday. So I had a very good salad because they finally had hard boiled eggs. And I had that and pasta salad and tater tots and we finally finished the special week ketchup. So I texted James because I knew they were going to get groceries. And they would get us a new bottle.

My afternoon groups were again very early for some reason. And I decided to make a sign for the door because they were 15 minutes early and just came through the building to the back and they were like we're here and I was like no no go do something else. But then it turned out that they weren't even the right day camp group and weren't even supposed to be there! My actual day camp group came on time. Cuz then all of a sudden both of them were there and I was like what is happening. And they're counselor came and took them away because it was their CIT that had misread the schedule I guess. But the day campers did really good and it was fun and then we had a little break to reset and Ty came over so I could help him finish his loom knit hat.

Which actually looked really good! It's a little small for how big his hair is but I was really proud of him. We're going to work on sewing next week so we'll see how that goes. And we both have tried to talk about how we're going to try to stay positive and that our materials are coming and things are good. We're going to try our best to be positive. Things will get better.

I had stockade next and they were very good. The curse too much but they're very funny. And they were very sweet. I got to do a lot of sewing and talking to them about stuff and teaching them bracelets. And I enjoyed chatting with Quan and I showed him the camp TikTok I made last night. Which took me a while because I had to make sure I cropped as many kids out as possible but there's one clip where the kids are in the background so I'm hoping those are okay. I'm going to try my best to make sure my angles are better next time. But Quan gave me a cookie and my headache was right behind my eyeballs but I was still having a nice time.

My last day camp group was fun and I had double-checked that horses was not coming this week so I could go home right after my last group. I got their blooms all finished up and showed them how to tie things off and they helped clean up and then they headed out.

I went to the office to let them know I was leaving and to sign out in our little book and I also wanted to just let them know how great Tatiana is doing and how helpful she is and Heather told me that Tatiana was considering taking some AP classes this summer but instead she decided she's going to stay with me and I just think that is so sweet. So even if she is taking away from my sitting in the dark time I really do appreciate her and her tapestry that she worked on today is so good! She put four of the nail looms together to make it and she really is taking to it and I love that so much. I love when people find art that they really enjoy. She's talking about making blankets and stuff too. So proud of her.

After I talk to Heather and Alexi about the art building flooding for a little while longer I let them know I was going to go home. And that my head hurt and I just needed to be in my house for a while and they understood and I said goodbye.

I did get stuck behind that can't bus for a couple minutes but I got out of there and got on the highway. There wasn't really any traffic. I let James know I was coming home and they were going to order pizza for us and they did but then they canceled because the place had no delivery driver so James had to reorder and then walked to the place. I wish I would have caught that text because I just would have went gotten them.

But once I got home I took a shower and that helped me feel a lot better. I still had the headache but it wasn't quite as uncomfortable.

I open the mail and I had a little gift that I had gotten for James come and romper that I ordered. And soon James was home with pizza and I ate that in bed and now James is recording their podcast and being sweetp are laying in the air conditioning.

Sweetp is looking at me with so much love in his eyes and it's so cute. He misses me so much I think! And I hate that he seems so sad about it but he loves me so much when I come home and that is so nice. Even if he is stinky I still am glad that he is next to me.

I'm riding my post early because my head hurts so much and I don't want it to get worse So I'm going to try to get off my phone for a while. I hope you guys all have a great night and I hope tomorrow is fun and not a sweaty. Good night everybody. Have fun out there.

[theevilmaninyourcomputer]

For the past few weeks I've felt like I've been in some kind of mental decline. Stringing thoughts together takes way too much effort, and I feel weak and faint when I stand for an extended amount of time. Also, my head has hurt constantly. I mean, I've had a headache for three weeks (I have chronic migraines so this isn't that unusual). I came to the conclusion that I was just extremely burnt out, and coming down off of final exam stress. But I'm a hypochondriac, so I secretly began to assume the worst. Maybe I have a blood clot in my brain, or I've spontaneously developed early onset alzheimer's or childhood dementia! I actually cried about this to my mom yesterday and she was like, "I'm not taking you to the ER for 'brain fog'" which is honestly reasonable. So, because I am incapabale of being normal about anything, I started doing research and I realized: I am so fucking dehydrated. Like, ridiculously dehydrated. There have been multiple days in the last month where my daily water intake has been one or two cups of coffee. And fun story, my sister absolutely despises the flavor of water. So much so that she has developed an irregular heartbeat, is randomly overcome with vertigo, and has done irreparable damage to her vital organs. It's bad. She's probably going to have to go on IV fluids in the near future. Anyway, I asked her how much water she actually drank, and she was like "I don't know, two, three cups a day?" Well, shit? If she's experiencing these symptoms and drinking more water than me, then what the hell am I doing? So long story short, I probably don't have a serious medical issue. I just need to drink water. Hopefully.

Still, it's freaking me out. I keep forgetting words, like, really basic words. Or accidentally substituting words for other words. And if I focus too hard on the spelling of a word, or the grammatical structure of a sentence, the words lose meaning. When I referenced my hypochondria, I wasn't exaggerating. I legitimately do have hypochondria. So since I've noticed this, I've been in a state of constant panic. I'm used to my head being a place I can retreat into. But lately, I haven't felt compelled to invent elaborate daydream worlds or internally monologue for hours. And to combat this, I find myself straining, forcing myself to do so anyway. I miss the comfortable chaos that used to be my mind. It's too still, too stagnant. It's disconcertingly silent. I feel like something is legitimately wrong with me and I'm fucking scared. But at the same time, I recognize the possibility that I am making a mountain out of a molehill.

My anxiety always worsens during the summer. I wouldn't consider myself an extrovert (far from it), however I do need some level of human contact or I lose my fucking mind.

But still, what if this is just how my life is now? What if I'm just not smart anymore? My entire life, I've been told that my writing is what's going to get me into college. If I can't form a coherent thought, or write a sentence without second guessing myself, how the hell am I going to get anywhere in life? If I lose the ability to create, then I am nothing.

This is besides the point, but I've already made the decision not to pursue a career in writing. I think I would enjoy journalism, or screenwriting (just, something creatively challenging), but with the recent developments in AI, I don't think that dream is feasible anymore.

I'm trying not to spiral, but thinking gives me a headache. An actual, physical headache. That's not fucking normal. What the hell is wrong with me??

Anyway this blog is like, my journal now. I know that no one will really see (or read) these, and word vomiting into the void makes me feel better. It's like, the potential of someone stumbling across it and connecting that is reassuring to me. So if you see this, just...idk. Tell me I'm not going insane. Or having a stroke. Or losing myself or my mind of whatever. Tell me I'm just dehydrated, and that the world isn't ending, and that everything is going to be okay. Because every day feels like the fucking apocolypse and my head hurts so bad and I wish I could just feel good and normal and okay.

So I'll try to drink more water (like, wayyy more water) and I'll update you guys. My head feels like it's full of cotton balls right now.

Later, dudes.

[webincubus]

obvs said already i wasn't counting yesterday, but last night never really ended and so I've not kept track of today either. I drank sooooo much and got insanely dehydrated. I think I've had about 4 litres of water today.

I've been just sleeping, drinking water, and snacking all day. mad asf i forgot to put my berries in the fridge and they were mushy...

I don't think I've had more than 1,000 today. I have however eaten more than planned... it's ok, over the next few days I'll be keeping it very light

[ericvilas]

Everyone is always going "hey you should make sure to drink water, hydrate regularly, no seriously how much have you had to drink today was it enough? Make sure you're not thirsty" and it's easy to go "yeah yeah I had a glass of water today... I'm sure it was less than 2 hours ago" but holy fuck y'all

I had been feeling like absolute garbage today, and yesterday I was really low on energy and have been sleeping like shit and it was all awful, and I sortakinda blamed it on the fact that we're approaching summer here in the southern hemisphere and we've been having some really hot days here, but hey my apartment has AC so it's not like I feel the heat when I'm inside so idk why it's made me feel so bad.

But you know what doesn't go away when you go inside? THE FUCKING DEHYDRATION.

I was brushing my teeth and as I was rinsing my mouth I realized just how parched I was and I drank some water and couldn't fucking stop I ended up drinking like 3 cups of diet coke and 1 cup of water and I suddenly felt like I could think clearly for the first time in like over a day???

And I started to think and I've probably been slightly dehydrated for the past 6 days??????? And not noticed???????????????

So yeah. Actually. Drink water. Or anything, I don't care, but hydrate. No, seriously. Actually. Hydrate.

[shwoo]

This time, I crashed because of... (spins wheel) Daylight Savings, I guess. I only got five hours of sleep that night, which would probably be fine as a once off, but my health is still so stupidly fragile that it made a big difference. Some of the reasons I didn't get much sleep were even my own fault.

And then all my time management issues got worse. Mysteriously. It's like I kept thinking it was an hour earlier than it was, somehow? Weird.

I don't like Daylight Savings, if that didn't come across.

And then yesterday was Labour Day (King O'Malley must not have got his hands on the spelling of that one), and I guess I dehydrated myself going on a nine-kilometre walk? I brought water, and drank more water afterwards, but as usual, it didn't seem to do much. Got to find the right balance between electrolyte drinks and not damaging my teeth.

It was a good walk, though. Pretty naturey for being in the middle of the city. Canberra has a lot of those, I guess for planned city reasons. Also, I saw some white stuff on the ground near some poplars, so it looks like wattle season is ending and fluff season is coming up. Heard some cool frogs, too. I said they were pobblebonks, my sister said they probably weren't.

But I guess I could have done it at a better time.

[cynicalrecoverysociety]

New low two days in a row. 252 yesterday and 251 today. I'm not getting my hopes up too much because I know I didn't drink enough water yesterday so could just be dehydrated but the 252 is pretty much on track. I'm really, really pleased with how this weekend went. I mentioned in another journal this is the 2 year anniversary of when I started really yoyoing on my health and I was terrified that having a weekend where I'm eating out a lot and not planning my meals would make history repeat itself. Luckily, I had a few more tools than usual to make this weekend a success and it paid off.

Fasting works great, of course. At this point fasting is so easy and so natural to me I cannot imagine going back to thinking about food and preparing food constantly. It definitely helps that if you know you are going to have a crazy decadent dinner breakfast and lunch aren't going to add to the pile. Also just little things, like I didn't eat any of the appetizer everyone got for the table, I made sure to park far away and walk so that way I would not be tempted to stuff myself. And I skipped dessert and only drank water. These things aren't the end all be all of health but little things like that helped me from binging. Instead, I just genuinely enjoyed some high quality food I don't make at home. I didn't see this as an excuse to go hog wild for 3 days like last time. That is definitely progress.

Anyway, back to my normal starting tonight. Eating out is a big weakness of mine and it's important that after a few days of guilt free indulgence we go back to whole foods we make at home. I'm thinking maybe honey mustard chicken thighs?

[mollydollyjournals]

Saturday 16th January... My old scales told me I was 155.4, I checked with a dumbbell and it gave me 1lb too high. But my new scales arrived and apparently I really am 156.6, which is what my old scales were telling me the past few days

(yes, I got up at 4pm)

So this was the day after 2 units of alcohol which means it could be skewed in some way. Dehydration and all. But I won't know for sure yet so I have to act like it's fine. I tried the scales a few times before I synced it to the app, and it gave me the same weight each time. With all that in mind, they seem to be accurate. It's also about the body fat percentage I expected. Didn't know it counts as being obese but hey. Worst thing is dehydration might be lowering that reading too.

I had an online hangout today. I drank a little but stopped after 1.5 units. I started to just feel like it wasn't doing anything so I would have liked to keep drinking but that would just be poisoning myself for no reason. The nice feeling only lasted a while. So I poured the last half of my drink down the sink. I haven't had much water today so I don't think I've made up for it enough. I tried to have some but I just really don't like to drink water and stuff. I need to try harder tomorrow. I also need to avoid alcohol tomorrow. Somehow the last few days I've had some every day. I guess if I only have one tomorrow then it's still less, but I'll try to only do that if I start getting really bad withdrawal or something. Otherwise I should go without, to make sure I don't slip back into it.

I also tried to make myself have healthier food today. I'm still not happy with my intake but it was better than yesterday and other recent days. I'll try to cut it further tomorrow, and restock on safe foods and salad ingredients. Which will be difficult as I may have to self isolate. Possible exposure to a positive case...it seems like given the circumstances it's very unlikely that I would catch it, but none of the guidance on this exact situation is clear, and I don't want to be the reason someone gets sick. I want to go to the local shop tomorrow and buy my ingredients and stuff but I don't think I should. I think I should at least isolate as much as I can, so I'll get delivery. Hopefully they'll have everything I need. Though I just remembered I got some prepared stuff before... hopefully it's still in date, that'll make a salad with less prep if so. Easy for when I'm half asleep.

Last night I was trying to guess what my weight was. I was sure I'd gained. I was so sure. My belly felt huge. But I measured my waist and it was still 29.3in. I'm not really sure what's going on. Today I guess it's kind of similar, but currently I don't have the huge feeling in my belly. I want to go weigh myself and check, but if I do that it'll get logged on my app, and I only want my morning weights logged. I'm not sure if you can delete readings, or maybe if I turn off my phone for a bit or something. Maybe it'd just send the data later. I'd rather have some morning data logged first before I risk putting anomalies in. It's probably a good thing - maybe I can get out of the habit of weighing myself throughout the day.

I watched a movie earlier and it was basically just a movie, I didn't feel like it was amazing or anything, but it has an actor I really like in it. He has a really nice voice, and for some reason he reminds me of bf. It's kind of comforting to watch him.

The character's girlfriend though. I'll have to find the actress' name because she had such a beautiful neck. That sounds so creepy, but y'all know how it is. When I was on my zoom call earlier I kept catching sight of my neck and noticing how spongy it is. As the call went on I don't know if I bloated or moved positions or what but the rolls got bigger. Maybe I just perceived it that way. I don't know. But after seeing my neck and how disgusting it is, seeing her neck in the movie hit harder. And her arms. And another character who was just generally small, though probably my height.

I just looked them up - the last one was Jeon So Nee, who is about 1-2cm shorter than me so I was right about that, the actress with the amazing neck is Lee Yoo Young who is a couple of centimetres taller than me and weighs 48kg so just under 106lbs...I just said the other day my ugw is about 105. Ugh. No wonder. (And the one I kinda have a crush on is Lee Sun Kyun. Fight me)

Jeez. I weigh one and a half of them. Both of them together weigh not a lot more than I do by myself.

Ugh. I'm going back to looking at face mask reviews.

[bonni]

me: yeah I totally feel way better now you know it all started this morning I totally forgot to take my ADHD meds and I was super tired because I had been crying and well I was crying because I broke something really important to me and I know that it's dumb to cry over silly things like that but I just couldn't help it I always overreact to things like that because of my anxiety oh right I have like three separate anxiety disorders and I take prozac but it really doesn't cut it so I notice that when I forget my vyvance I see an increase in my depression and anxiety in addition to my lack of focus and other ADHD stuff like I get super sensitive and really tired so anyway I was feeling awful this morning and I wanted to just stay in bed all day but my mom called me and made me go to class I picked up breakfast but I forgot to get something to drink so I was in the subway I was off my meds I was dehydrated it was hot as SHIT and I was surrounded by like 500 people AND I was tired because I'd been crying so much oh and by the way this isn't the first time I've blacked out on the subway I think it's really dangerous how hot it gets down there because I've passed out like four times it's funny I was just talking about this yesterday because I saw another woman pass out and there were like six guys there and none of them would help her and I was so angry and then I got to thinking about how women are always the ones who help me when I faint which is weird because you'd think that the patriarchy would encourage rescuing women from danger especially when they show physical weakness but guys never seem to care as much as girls and anyway sorry for the tangent so I blacked out for just a second and since it was so crowded I kind of just feel over on to my professor and like three of my classmates helped me up and gave me some water it was really sweet and then my professor helped me up the stairs and bought me an orange juice and at this point everyone was being so nice that I was determined to get through the trip even without my meds although at like 11 I did remember that I carry some spares with me so I took one of those and I immediately felt better just from the placebo and i drank a whole bottle of water and got hydrated and then I was able to get through the trip and I actually had a really great time it was amazing and I learned so much and my mom was totally right about how going would cheer me up but don't tell her I said that lol so I feel waaaaay better now and if I do go out again today I'll be sure to take an uber because as long as I'm either outside or in air conditioning I should be totally fine the only times i ever pass out are when i overexert myself in like gym class or whatever and when I'm in the subway there have also been times when I stood up too quickly and i fainted it's because I have some issues with postural hypotension and I don't think I'm technically anemic anymore but I used to be but i still don't eat a lot because I'm recovering from an eating disorder i think I'm slowly getting healthier and my stamina is growing but sometimes stuff like this still happens I just need to pay attention to my diet and how much water I drink but really I'm totally okay and look at this cute little plush I got from my trip we went to sesame place so I got a mini grover :)

my poor counselor who just came in to give me a bottle of water:

[itsme-mianmian]

the first time Xue Yang received his personal allowance from a successful hit, you bet your ass he bought a fuck ton of candy. who's gonna pry them from his grubby nine fingers? that magistrate prick cheng gora- oh wait, that's right, he dead. naturally xue yang ate too much. can't talk shit for days afterwards. the doctor was like "listen kid, if you want to heal you should eat sweets in moderation and drink plenty of water" and xue yang took this as "if I drink plenty of water then I can eat all the sweets I could buy."

now succeeding events will depend on the universe.

(more under the cut because this went unexpectedly long oops)

in a modern criminal underground AU, xue yang's code name is Bottle Gourd because he carries the damn thing everywhere. I mean, blood bath is no excuse for hydration, ya know?

in a fix-it, redemption arc fic xue yang's road to becoming an accidental health nutritionist all began when he, for once, used his eyes to look at actual breathing people that are not targets. he was passing through Yi City when he noticed there were a lot. of. chapped. lips. it just rained yesterday?? why aren't people drinking plenty of water?? what happened to the water supply?? oh no his bottle gourd is running out and he hasn't drank in three hours. this is unacceptable. next thing he knows xue yang's helping the town head and villagers digging up a new source one was contaminated with resentful energy (oooh), and the other one dried up (uuuugh). grateful villagers ply him with produce. xue yang may or may not have dispelled the resentful energy in the well as a bonus. it was just practice!! also, more water sources the better.

so okay, that was a one off thing, back to business. except xue yang arrives in the next major town and not only are there many chapped lips, but there are also people who think tea and alcohol?? is equal to water?? so like xue yang finds himself giving unsolicited hydration advice to any poor farmer or merchant that would listen to him. one prick is like "isn't tea just water with tea leaves? why should water be better than tea when tea has these extra benefits?" and look. xue yang would love to decapitate his head and feed it to the corvids because he is absolutely wrong, wtf, but. see, prick's got a point. what's the difference?

so xue yang tracks the healer from all those years ago and holds a knife to his throat and demands an answer. the healer is like "look, I can give you a quick answer but the next time some asshole asks you again about the benefits of proper hydration, it might not be enough. oh, wow, that's a really nice and sharp knife, did you make that? yes, yes, you have very quick and adept hands, no doubt. listen, if you're not busy why don't you be my temporary apprentice? my regular is on maternity leave. you're a natural. we handle all sorts of needles and blades too, and it would be much easier to show you the benefits of hydration if you understand your meridians. no, nine fingers will def not an issue. the healer from the town across the mountain has one arm. she made the best tonic for hay fever."

xue yang's like "ugh fine but just a month. got to scram after" and the healer is like "of course, of course, I expect you're going to be a quick study."

so xue yang learns stuff, and a week goes by and xue yang is actually?? enjoying?? learning?? and then the old man does house visits and lets xue yang accompany him. xue yang then makes the quick discovery that 1) sick people don't give a shit about having nine fingers when you make the best tonics and know where to stick the needle, 2) plenty rich and dehydrated people will pay a shitton of money for someone to regularly remind them to drink water and prescribe food which is like, the greatest scam ever, but xue yang is not complaining. and 3) merchants selling the best medicinal herbs also know where to find the best fucking candies and some even give them for free in exchange for prescriptions. so yeah, if xue yang gets a sore throat or a coughing fit from time to time, the old healer doesn't comment. xue yang can nab a healing tonic from his personal stock.

months go by and before he knows it it's a whole season and the original apprentice decided to quit for good to focus on her kids. xue yang is like "i'm here and I like it so this might as well happen." the old healer smiles when xue yang moves into the guest quarters permanently.

in another world xue yang would be picked up by wen ruohan for the yin iron on the streets, and be one of his most bloodthirsty terrifying goons. in this world esp where the sunshot campaign didn't happen, the old man takes him along to Dafan to meet the old man's distant relations. xue yang befriends their best doctor, Wen Qing. they share their mutual interests in sticking people with the needle, and hating stupid men making irrational decisions. sometimes xue yang accompanies Wen Qing on medical missions in the cultivation sect lands. he quickly gains the reputation for giving too much candy for kids, being too comfortable with his needles, and for also being the best goddamn healer for treating amputees and digestion problems. oh yeah, and xue yang def takes every opportunity to plug in his Hydration Agenda. it mostly works.

at some point in the future the old healer retires and gives his shop to xue yang. tears are involved. when the old healer leaves, xue yang chugs a whole bottle gourd's worth of water. gonna replenish the lost liquids, you know?

omg guys i didn't know xue yang was so altruistic to have developed a hydration tracking app for us xx

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I feel so weird today. I just cried out of nowhere because I hate my dry skin, my unhealthy hair. I just cried because I didn't eat well today and drank too much coffee because I have an important test on Friday so I have to learn, now my whole body is shaking. I feel empty I guess Just decided to not go to school tomorrow because I somehow don't feel well? Now I feel bad because I won't go to school tomorrow because I usually just never quit a school day just because I don't feel like going

WIth issues like this I always ask myself, is it something I can change? if yes then that’ll give you some hope.

Healthy food makes you feel better trust me, and it doesn’t always have to taste bland. 

Take things slow, and if you drink coffee don’t drink any after 8’oclock or you’ll probably have trouble sleeping which is the last thing you need.

I think this may be because of anxiety that you don’t feel well, I used to feel this way and not want to go to school as well.

Crying is good because it releases pent up emotions, are you holding things in recently? It’s not good to hold things in to yourself, trust me I would know.

I’ll give you a tip to make your healthy hair very soft and smooth, get some real extra virgin Greek olive oil and heat it in a sauce pan on med till it is hot but not hot that will burn you, now rub all this olive oil in your hair and i’d advise you to wear a hair mask thingy leave it on for about 20-25 mins and wash it out with oyur normal shampoo, do this at night and sleep on it and your hair will be so healthy and smooth that you’ll be questioning life itself.

School is very important even if it doesn’t seem like it now.

Make sure you get the classes that you really want.

DOn’t cram it in at the last minute but if you’re studying for a test here’s a tip for you: right before you go to bed study and then go to sleep and the next day you will remember what you studied yesterday… same goes with speeches. 

Don’t make missing school a habit, it’s really something that I regret myself but I had different circumstances to why I did but that’s another story.

Make sure you drink a lot of water put some lemon in the water and drink that it will help make you feel some better because coffee is really dehydrating.

Remember you got this, and if you’re going to really miss school tomorrow try to use that time to study if that test is so important! Goodluck. (: