#i don't think I can make it though a whole book of that

[onskepa]

Left behind: Soft heart

Helloooooooooooo everyone! Here is another chapter of the on going series! Sit back, relax and enjoy!

Left behind series

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Rain trickled down the sides of the sully family home. The children huddle together as they read one of Neytiri's old childhood books. Jake was sharpening his blade while neytiri does some light cleaning. 

“The duckling was crying. For he was all alone, no one to call mama, no one to call papa…” neteyam was reading softly. He was reading the old classic ‘The ugly duckling’. He reached a sad part of the story, and it tugged little kiri’s heart. She was easily emotional and began to cry herself. 

Jake and neytiri were quick to be at Kiri's side, calming her down. 

“Hey, its ok sweetie, its just a story” Jake treasures. But kiri only cries more. 

“N-n-noooo….!!! H-he is a-alone and…and h-has no ooooooooone!!” 

Neytiri pulls kiri to her lap and rubs her back. 

Neteyam was quick to turn the page to get to the happy ending. 

“Kiri look! He isn't alone, he has someone to be with” he shows her a picture of the little duckling surrounded by others that look just like him. Smiling and happy. Kiri wipes her eyes to get a better look at the book. True to neteyam’s words, the ugly duckling had a happy ending. 

“S-still….” she mutters. 

“Oi, kiri, why do you gotta have a soft heart?” lo’ak asks a bit annoyed. 

“Ey, nothing wrong with that” Jake tells his second son. Neytiri agrees with him. 

“Indeed, a soft heart is just as the same as a strong heart” she tells her children. 

“AGAIN!” quaritch shouts. 

And again, little sully missed her shot. 

They were in the middle of a shooting practice. With how terrible little Sully's aim is, they have a long way to go. Though, her aim isnt what concerns Quaritch. 

“Alright, let's take 5” he says. Little Sully happily puts the gun down and walks away from it. Clearly, shooting does not entice her. And that is not good. 

The old colonel sits down on the cold metal benches, “hey kid, come here. Don't worry, you're not in trouble” he says. 

Little sully nervously sits down beside him. The body size being a huge difference between the two. There was a small gap of silence between them until quaritch broke it. 

“Don't like guns?” he asks. 

Instantly little sully shook her head. 

“Never liked them” she softly replies. Fiddling with her thumbs, something playing with the hem of her shirt. 

“That is A ok to not like them. I get it, they are loud, heavy to hold. Gotta make sure not to pull the trigger, all that stuff” quaritch lists out. Though, by the look of little sully, it wasn't exactly what she agreed on. 

“It made my dad lose his legs….” little sully said. 

She remembers clearly. One day little sully got curious as to why her dad used a wheelchair while everyone else was able to walk on their two legs. 

“A bullet struck me. Couldn't walk ever since…” her dad would answer. 

Oh how she misses her dad so much. 

“Can I be excused?” she asks abruptly. Quaritch nodded, it's her first day with a gun, it's going to take time for her to get used to using a gun. And even more when it's time to shoot live targets.

Little sully leaves the room and makes her way to her temporary room. Suddenly thinking of her dad makes her want to cry. 

“This is going to take a whole lot longer. Permission to add a bit of pressure?” Quaritch asks as Tatianna walks into the practice room. Ever professionally dressed, and ever annoying with the clicks of her high deadly heels. This time however, the clicks sounded different. Sounded heavier. 

“Permission highly denied. This is literally her first day holding such a weapon. We must be patient and take great delicate time with her. Remember, this is a long term project, I want this to become perfect in every way. Rushing it will not be perfect, "Tatianna says. 

She eyes on the gun little sully was practicing with. Its a simple revolver with single use bullets. 

“Always the perfection with you..” quaritch mutters. 

“Well, you are considered a perfect clone of the REAL miles quaritch. If you weren't,then you wouldn't be sitting your sorry but here” tatianna smirks. 

“Perfection takes its time, patience, lots of it. Consider this as part of your training as well. I know you are eager to get back to pandora, however there is work to be done here before you get your chance” 

With a click of her heels, tatianna turns towards the exit, “feel free to practice on your aim or head back to your room We are done for today”

“Stupid blue guy, stupid taty, stupid rick wanna be!” little sully paces back and forth as she huffs out her anger. Stuck in a cold, boring white room that is now her ‘room’, she has the privacy to vent out her true feelings. 

“Everyone is stupid….” 

She lays ons her white sheet bed, staring up at the cold white ceiling. Would it hurt them to add color? 

Closing her eyes, her mind summons the old memories of her times with her dad. 

The now war criminal, Jake sully. 

As easily as breathing, fresh tears fall from her face. 

Despite being told what he did, little sully still hopes. She hopes that one day, he will fulfill his promise and come back. Even better, come back with uncle tom. All she hears is stuff that Jake sully did, but never Tom sully. 

What happened to her uncle? 

She never got to say goodbye to him. 

“I hope they are together….Sully’s stick together. No matter what” a motto that she keeps close to her heart. Really the only thing she has left from her family. 

Her dad better come soon, to take her away from all of this.

“I found you!” Jake announces with a playful growl. 

He tickles tuk as they end their game of hide and seek. 

Tuk squeals in happy delight. 

“Hahaha! You found me!” 

Jake picks her up and spins around, sharing a happy moment together. 

“I knew it dad! I knew you find me!” tuk says happily. Rubbing her little nose against her dads. Jake accepts her loving gesture. 

“You kept your promise!” 

Jake felt his body become slightly chill, just a bit. 

He held tuk tightly in their embrace, not letting his youngest see his expression. 

“Yeah….yeah, I kept my promise” 

“She is not progressing,” Dr. Sanchez tells tatianna. Neither are happy about this. 

Its been 3 months and not a single microscopic improvement. Her fear of guns are still present, her reluctance to even pull the trigger is annoying, and now she begs to return to her school life. 

“We need to add some form of pressure…” Tatiana thinks out loud. 

Before Dr. Sanchez can offer a suggestion, an alarm went off on tatianna’s watch. 

12:00 pm 

“Think of something while I go give her the medicine”

“Noon already…” 

Little sully can only guess what time it is by the food she receives from tatianna. 

“Delicious beef stew with your favorite crackers and veggies on the side” 

Little sully should be grateful, even fresh veggies are scarce in her school. To have this level of luxury is something only few can ever afford. Yet this is a luxury that feels more like a transaction for some reason. 

“Don't forget your tea first” 

Tatianna offers her a white porcelain cup with a red liquid inside. 

Hibiscus tea. 

Might as well be drinking gold at this point. 

“Drink it all, don't let a drop go to waste” 

Little sully does so, taking in the warm, sour tasting drink. 

The young girl thinks of nothing, while the high heel woman holds in her breath as she watches the young sully drinks in every last bit of the medicine.

“NO!” lo’ak looks away in stubborn anger. Kiri rolls her eyes and sighs tiredly. 

“How are you going to get better if you won't drink it?” she asks. Her silly brother got sick. Again. Normally their grandmother would be the first to give any of them medicine if they ever fall ill. This time however, she was too busy so she relied on kiri to give lo’ak his medicine. 

But his stubborn ass refuses. 

“I don't want it!” lo’ak rejects. 

His head hurts, eyes are slightly red and cant sleep. He is suffering on his own will yet hates it. 

“Then take this medicine!” kiri pushes. And again lo’ak shakes his head. 

“NO! If its not from grandma! I dont want it!” he states. Does he doubt his sister? 

“Grandma did make it! She told me to just give it to you” kiri explains with her patience wearing thin. 

Lo’ak slowly turns to face her, “you promise she did it?” 

“YES! Now take it!” without missing a beat, kiri shoves the medicine into his mouth. Lo’ak tried to spit it out, but kiri held his mouth shut making sure he digests it good. 

“Always has to be a struggle with you…” kiri mutters. 

“Again kiddo” the recom says for the millionth time. 

It's been 5 months and not a lick of progress. Quaritch is starting to think the kid is doing it on purpose. 

And again the kid misses the target. 

“Again” 

Miss. 

“Again” 

Another miss. 

“Again” 

She shot way off of the range 

“AGAIN!!” 

The bullet barely scraped his left ear and into the solid wall. 

Time froze. Heart beats were skipped. 

There he was, the sully quaritch knew. Standing in front of him with those angry blue eyes. 

He blinked, and instead of jake, he saw his spawn. Her eyes mirrored the traitor. Her hands gripping tightly onto the gun, aiming at his head. 

Now this was more like it. 

“Im done” little sully said coldly. Dropping the gun she leaves the room. 

Quaritch gently touches the spot of his ear, a thin scratch, nothing much but it meant a great deal to him.

“That little shit…” Dr. Sanchez looked through the cameras. Tatianna already left to speak with the girl, leaving both of them in awe. 

So she was pretending and had enough. 

“HAHAHAHA!! Oh she is cracking�� he twirls around in the room, shoving more candy into his mouth as he goes around like a lunatic. 

“One crack is all it takes to branch out! HAHAHA! Take that old man!” sanchez mocks to the man that still haunts him. 

“Leave me alone!” young sully shouts as she starts to pack what little she has. 

Tatianna ignored her demand and went inside either way. 

“I said leave me alone!!” young sully throws a pillow at the female scientists to which she dodges effortlessly. 

“Where are you going?” tatianna asks cooly. Not bothering to stop the girl. 

“Back to my school! I hate it here! I hate holding that gun, I hate that blue ball asshole! I hate Sanchez and I hate YOU!” 

Tatianna lets a few seconds go before sitting on the naked bed, “back to school? Ok, let me know when to pick you up” she said casually. 

Still packing, young sully asks, “what are you talking about? I'm going back and staying there! With my room mates and friends!” 

As if nothing, the scientists just examined her nails, “do you really think they are going to accept you back?” 

This halted the young girls movements, she looks at the bored looking lady. 

“What are you talking about…?” 

“Naive little sully, think about it. That school is RDA funded, every kid had or has a family member working for the RDA. Much like your dad, they work for the RDA and in returned kids like you get education” 

This was not news to the young sully, everyone knew that. 

“And thanks to your dad, almost more than half of the student body is now an orphan. Your dad killed theirs. Since you saw what happened, everyone did as well. Tell me, how will they think or feel when the child of the human traitor walks in their halls while they won't see their family ever again?” 

Tatianna begins to see the shift in the girl's blue eyes, her hands stopped picking things. So she continued to plant her seed. 

“Dear, right now, as much as you hate it, this is the safest place for you. Back at school, no doubt many are wishing you dead” 

“B-but my friends…” 

“Are no longer friends. The whole world is against you. But we arent. You have to trust us in helping you. That is all we want, to help you. To make sure you understand everything, yes its complicated but as you get older, things will begin to make sense” 

Tatianna places a hand on the girls shoulder, slowly guiding her away from her half full bag. 

“But the gun! I hate using it, I dont like violence” young sully protested. 

“Its not violence if its for self defense. Remember, everyone hates you. Enemies will try to find you, at some point, you have to learn to defend yourself, even if it means carrying a gun or other weapons” 

Young sully looks at her own hands and thinks back to her training. 

“I dont like hating….I dont want anyone to hate me…hate is a bad thing to feel…” she mutters. 

Tatianna gently places her hand on young sully’s chest, “that is a kind yet soft thing to say…” 

“What's wrong with that? What's wrong with being soft?” 

Tatianna smiles, trying her best to not laugh, “being soft means having a soft mind, and a soft heart. And having a soft heart is as good as a dead heart”

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand that is it for this one! Now for the next chapter there will be a huge time skip! Look forward to that! Until next time! See ya!

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[tokyo-daaaamn-ji-gang]

Yo! I hope you're doing well. Actually i'm really confused why Mikey is ranked as the worst boyfriend when i think about it (yk in the Character book) i mean...why?! He's really affectionate and gentle in my opinion aside from his dark impulses because they don't define him

But takemichi ends up saying "he's hard to be around with, like a spinning wheel a bit intimidating" :D

Ok I'm gonna start this off by saying I really like Mikey and I don't think he would be a bad boyfriend however I think I do get why he was put there. It's also important to remember Mikey was put there in the toman character book so only his time in toman is going to be taken into consideration here. Mikey is difficult, there is a reason multiple character's get annoyed him and he is very difficult. Mikey is demanding, stubborn and can be quite selfish at times (we see him getting annoyed over no kids meal flag, he interrupts Takemichi while he's at school, and frequently doesn't listen to others). He's also immature and doesn't always think others or how his actions effect others (we see Draken has to help Mikey attend school otherwise he won't go and Mikey refuses to apologise multiple times when he makes a mistake, he also refuses to bow to that girls parents until Draken makes him and doesn't realise toman is breaking apart because of his feud with Draken until Takemichi tells him). None of these are particularly good traits to have when dating someone.

It's also important to remember he is a gang leader in Japan in 2005 which is going to make things not only potentially dangerous for anyone he dates (like what happened to Pah's friend's girlfriend) but is also probably going to make a lot of people not interested in him as a partner (he is a teen while in toman so if he dated here it would be another teen, so even if they were fine with it, there could be potential issues with their parents or family (kinda similar to what happened with Takemichi and Hina's dad). There's also the whole dark impulses thing but I don't think I need to explain that one.

So although Mikey is very protective, loyal, caring and shows some consideration towards the people he loves, he's also a handful. Though I think by the time we hit the good timeline future he's probably grown out of a bunch of these behaviours or they're at least not as bad since he's matured a bit. I also don't think Mikey would be a bad boyfriend back then either, it's just a bunch of the others would be better choices, like he's the worst but not bad. And it's also important to remember these are Wakui's choices, based on what he thinks a good boyfriend would be. It's normal for people to have different standards and opinions on this though, so if you don't agree it just means you look for different qualities in partners which is fine.

[sirsagrell]

The holidays have passed so it's time to yap critically about Veilguard some more.

So. I like to project themes and meanings on Dragon Age stories that weren't even necessarily intentionally put there by the writers. And how well Dragon Age used to lend itself to that favorite pastime of mine, was, I think, one of its main strengths.

Hear me out.

Dragon Age is a game, and a game is not a book. A Dragon Age narrative is not done being written until you the player play through it and fill in the blanks. And you don't just play a role, as in define the player character and make choices for them. Through the interplay between your character and the world, trough the influence you have on the world and the people in it, you pick out the themes and meanings that your very own Dragon Age narrative explores and expresses.

It used to be a damn fantasy writer simulator. No wonder it inspired so much creativity.

Some of it was intentional, and some, probably, not. Some, but far from all of it was due to the infamous Dragon Age Grey Morality(TM).

(Where that Grey Morality(TM) was executed well, and where not is a separate conversation, and that conversation has very much been had, extensively, over the past ten years. I'm not getting into that here.)

Most of this effect, however, relied on the simple fact that Dragon Age never presumed to tell you what the correct themes and meanings of a Dragon Age story were. (Yes, you could arrive at some really unfortunate themes and meanings with the story building blocks given to you, yes, I know. But you never had to.)

You were asked questions (Yes, some of them were stupid questions). But if you were in any way interested in thinking about the messy source material presented to you, you immediately arrived at questions even deeper than the writers ever intended to ask, and weren't some of them just fascinating.

Veilguard, I feel, almost stopped asking questions. Worse, when it does try to ask them, it tells you what the answers are supposed mean. Literally. In a tooltip (!) in the interface (!!). There's a correct way to read Dragon Age now, somehow.

I'd say the most egregious example of this shift is Rook's unquestionable heroism.

We, Dragon Age and I, used to ponder the meaning of being celebrated as the hero, regardless of what kind of person you really were. Or the futility of trying to be the hero when all the societal systems work against you. Or the terror of being the hero, when you're suddenly forced to become a whole societal system yourself. My Dragon Age protagonists had a really sad and shitty time being protagonists. 'Twas good for their souls.

Enter Veilguard and Rook.

You start the game and you're introduced to Rook, the game's hero. You are repeatedly reassured that you're the hero, and Were Chosen For Reason. You can attempt to express doubt about maybe having made the situation worse, and you're immediately assured by your companions that you shouldn't. "You got this Rook", the game repeatedly says. (It's thankless work, fixing the world, Solas shares, but Solas is from a different game and probably didn't get the memo.) Everyone is actually super thankful to Rook, even the people you left to be blighted, you're a universally good influence, after all, and you couldn't be two places at once, any reasonable person understands. You're doing your best. Don't you worry, your best will be enough.

Oh, and just in case you're still having doubts, Rook, all your antagonists are mindless and/or power-hungry fools, and, like, elfy Thanos. It is objectively correct to oppose them. By doing so you're not just saving people but helping the world move past the violence of the past and into a brighter safer future.

Honestly, I don't think I have ever played a game that went to such lengths to assure you you're the Good Guy here. I've never played Marvel games though, are they like that? Is this why…

This is getting too long. So I'll sum it up as best I can.

Veilguard isn't juvenile in meaning, not really. In tone, yes, in meaning, for the most part, no. It does tackle some heavy stuff. But Veilguard knows what exactly it means to say and it will beat you over the head with its message, until you know it too.

And that, to me, for a Dragon Age story, is just sad.

[florenceisfalling]

speedrun bc im in the dairy queen parking lot as we speak

You certainly never see people arguing NOT to put it in your bio

yes you do, i know this because i used to be one of those people and shared/supported dozens of posts about it. are you forgetting the whole premise of my original post is that i used to be a transandrobro against those terms?

how awful it is that a transandrobro doesn't think it's a good or feasible solution to kick all the Jews out of Israel?

i made a second post explaining his zionism, and this is just a blatant inflammatory misrepresentation of it.

I'm going to make you explain to me how you defend the scores of genocide txttletale openly supports or considers NBD as a tankie.

yknow, im not a tankie, but this seems to also be a pretty big misrepresentation of whats going on with healed. either way, i can dislike both avi and healed if that makes you feel any better. i did straight up say in another post that i agree with spacelazarwolf on some things, its almost like you can agree with some things someone says without vouching for all of them

there are TRFs out there writing books about reclaiming radical feminism

plenty of transmascs are openly transmisogynist terfs. and i don't think trying to look for good in second wave feminism and push it away from its current transphobic standing point is a bad thing.

almost all of the hostility has been from the TMA/TME crowd.

i like that you said you'd provide examples of this in your original reblog - and i was sure you actually would, considering im VERY aware transfems will say transphobic things abt transmascs sometimes. and then you just didnt even try

We're not doing that. What we're doing is describing harassment we've gotten in the transandrophobia discourse trenches

giving voice to transmascs by ignoring transmascs who disagree with you

We don't tolerate being transphobic towards other trans people 'round these parts!

y'all have a very fast and loose definition of transphobic, is the thing

Yeah? Her good opinions about genocide?

me: here are three good posts id like to source that explain something

you: oh so you agree with all of her posts?

Yeah, sorry, two harassment campaigns against trans women by mostly cis people and completely unrelated to transandrophobia drama is not relevant here.

my original post is quite literally about how its bad that transmascs harass trans women constantly. this is one of the most relevant things i can think of. what are you talking about

weird to claim it was mostly cis people when the people spearheading some of the most vitriolic shit, as linked, were trans men, and toonimal was a trans man abusing trans girls

TERFs would never try to exploit legitimate cases of transmascs being treated poorly, they're just attracted naturally like flies to all the evil transmisogynistic rifts in the community!

why are some of you so cozy with them then

The first was written by a trans woman and the second was a very funny joke about hyperbolic whining about sOcIaL mUrDeR.

tgirls can be transmisogynistic, case in point You, though im curious about why you get to bring up your transphobic harassment experiences when mine get responded to with "we're not doing that"

straight-up not about trans men bro

youre openly ignoring the examples i included of why trans men, specifically transandrobros, were relevant

thousands of TMA/TME weirdos will die on the hill that jokes about killing trans men are okay and non-binary people being called slurs is a transfeminist W.

hm i wonder if theres any reason why lately trans women have been especially frustrated or jumpy about trans men

it's the name of a radfem group that sexually abused other trans women, or was it all just complaining because it's, like, such a totally mean name to call people?

actually yea, there are a lot of trans women who take issue with the fact that when they acknowledge transmisogyny they get equated to a hated group of specific tgirls in 2016. also, doesnt excuse calling people a medieval slur, bc it didnt fucking originate in 2016. im not going around calling people faggots derogatorily just bc some of the transandrobros have it in their urls

fuck yourself

what problem exactly do you have with people referring to gender assignment as coercive??? do you want people to infinitely ignore the fact that gender assignment is a binary system that assumes all the details of ones life from birth??? i need you to know that when i block you in a minute, it isnt because you "owned" me, its bc you take issue with an intersex person using the term cagab lol

so laser targeted

i know who posted that, i know that shes informed by the fact that there are plenty of people comfy calling themselves theyfabs in her inbox. while i dont like the term, saying "people who have systemic privilege over trans women have internalized bias against trans women and need to learn to take a joke " is once again not that crazy of a statement

no it's just a term invented by 4chan transmeds to mock non-binary people

we dont know where it came from specifically bc its a simple ass term, unlike baeddel which we know started for sure as a slur. but either way i hate transmeds regardless, theyre not what im arguing against atm

I'm trying to keep you focused because you keep going off track like an imaginative child that doesn't want to be constrained by coloring in the lines

you really don't get to correct me on whats being discussed on my own post, especially when you failed to follow your own "rules," but im also gonna tell you that ^ sentence is the second reason i'm blocking you. why is it that you can cry tone policing bc youre "a bit bitchy" in response to a perfectly polite post but you take issue with other trans women being a bit bitchy in response to targeted harassment?

If you want to call all the people who have directly attested to me that they were kicked out of "trans friendly" spaces for being too masculine liars, you may!

they aren't liars, i just don't believe that the cause is masculinity in itself, and you are putting a lot of words in my mouth!

there was a brief period of time when i empathized with transandrobros largely out of my personal discomfort as a nonbinary person with the terms tme/tma - this pretty much entirely dissolved when i began to understand those terms not as obligatorily publicized personal descriptors but as tools with a communicative purpose. perhaps more importantly, i learned that most of the people involved with the proliferation of the "transmisandry/transandrophobia" concept were treating trans women like complete and utter shit and then making tgirls out to be the instigators. for this reason i seriously encourage every transmasc who finds themself feeling riled up against trans women to, like, double check the kind of messages and comments the angry girls are getting. i promise you, it becomes a lot more evident why those women are describing discomfort or fear or bitterness around trans men when you see the kind of sexually abusive, misogynistic, violent messages they're getting first. no, that doesn't excuse every joke or response, but it makes you understand how disproportionate the transmasc reaction can be. and if you can't find what i'm talking about, you don't see any examples of trans men being misogynistic, literally just message me and i'll be happy to provide as wide a range of examples as possible

[soclonely]

My R2, welcome back!!! What do you think the 501st would do to celebrate the New Year? And what do your family do if you're comfortable sharing? My family have curry and play games

HELLO! I AM BACK AND WELCOMES ILY FRIEND! Uhh for my family we normally go skiing! This year though I just took it easy, binged watched some shows, and had delicious snacks all day long!

HOW THE CLONES CELEBRATE NEW YEARS

Rex- The Man is in bed at exactly 8:30 pm. He normally hits the rack at 8, but allows himself an extra half hour, as a treat.

Echo- curls up with a nice book on the couch while some quiet music plays in the background. He has a small tray of snacks out for the evening. Will turn the TV on for the countdown

Fives- Live streaming from the top of the ball as security chases him

Jesse- Hanging out at a small party with his friends! Just small, intimate gathering with those he is close to

Kix- Is the one throwing the new years party that Jessie attends. He is the host with the most and every year its a gathering to remember

Tup- Is making his final decision to adopt the tooka he had brought home to foster temporarily over the holiday season. He is ringing in the new year with the newest member of his family at home.

Dogma- Playing DD for his friends. Very responsible and acting like its a hassle. But really, he doesn't mind because at least he knows they will be getting home safe

Hardcase- committing racing across the country/planet to try and beat the time change so he can celebrate new years in at least 2 time zones

Coric- The man works in the ER. He put in his time of for new years 11 months prior and is off duty, with his comm off, sitting on a beach somewhere and sipping a cocktail while enjoying the peace

Bly- Desperately clinging to Aayla so she can be his smoochy kiss at midnight

99- is having a party with all of the young cadets. he helped them make hats and little homemade confetti poppers. Sure, he will have to clean it all up later but its worth it to see them all so happy and celebrating

Cody- Chaperoning his men around town. KILLS it at new years karaoke at the bar

Waxer/Boil- Just a quiet night at home, creating vision boards and swapping memories of the last year

Wolffe- Also chaperoning his men, but has Plo Koon tagging along. They lose the general somewhere in the crowd at the city center where everyone is gathered and Wolffe efficiently (chaotically) and calmly (panicked) found the general (he hollered and yelled until the crowd parted and Plo was spotted ahead)

Boost/Sinker- Spend the whole night gaming and sipping on mountain dew. they completely miss midnight and don't realize it until they look at the clock and its 2 in the morning.

Hunter- complete self care night where he stays in. He has headphones on, all communication capabilities off, and just decompresses from all the stress of the last year.

Wrecker- hosts an amazing and cool fireworks show!

Tech- is the unofficial manager for Wreckers firework show and party. Has everything coordinated to start EXACTLY at midnight. Researches and knows all of the local rules and regulations so if they are visited by local law enforcement he can argue inform them that despite complaints, they are clearly within the legal limits of explosives for entertainment purposes

Crosshair- acting hammered on what he things is booze (tech only told him that, its really just extra tangy grape juice that they found in the back of the fridge)

Omega- creating vision boards and resolutions and cleaning her WHOLE room in anticipation of the new year.

Howzer- Didn't even realize it was new years until the next morning when he shows up for work only for no one to be there.

Fox- BLESS THIS MAN. He is pounding caff left and right, having meltdowns between arrests, dealing with so many dumb people all night. Yeah, he could have went the easy route and worked in supplies or records like his other batchmates but nooooo he wanted to be the cool one. He wanted to be a peace officer. Looking at help wanted ads first thing in the morning.

Gregor- Sitting behind bars in the overnight cell in Fox's office. He isn't in any serious trouble he just wanted a reason to not go out in the crowds so he picked an argument with Foxy to get put in a 12 hour hold.

[perachel-heretic]

Only reason Chiron didn't yell at them for being alone in the cabin is because there was zero romance happening in there. Stiff hugs and awkward platitudes only.

[s1lv3rp4w3dc4t]

shout out object shows with canon queer ships. I'm talking on screen kiss or even just verbal confirmation. all things considered it's a bit strange you don't really see them that much when you think about how gay everyone here is. I love you ii but c2bc did what you didn't and I think that's actually really nice.

[nakaremfarlei]

Was just thinking about the amount of animals Obi-Wan interacts with compared to literally everyone else and in the Clone Wars episode where Kamino gets attacked he literally gets saved twice by the same ray-like animal and just...

The growth from judging Qui-Gon for the 'pathetic lifeforms' he picks up to whatever he has going on during the Clone Wars era. He must have gotten that from Qui-Gon though, right?

And because it's my brain and it's rotting with all the star wars stuff I am consuming I was thinking of Obi-Wan saving all these creatures and the 212th having to deal with that. Surely they made one of the rooms pet proof in case one of them needs a new home. There also have to be clones who love that because of course Obi-Wan can't really take care of rescues on top of all his duties.

After the first few times this happens Cody learns to order animal food and other necessities. And if the Republic doesn't fulfill these requests or asks too many questions he'll just have to make sure to organize them on planet during the campaigns.

[icewindandboringhorror]

I've referenced before how I have a big google document to keep track of every media I've ever seen in my entire life (just for reference because I like to track everything possible lol… I am the Data Collector), but recently as I was updating it, I thought of actually evaluating them to find out random percentages (like for example, out of Total Shows Watched, what percentage did I finish vs. stop watching, what percentage did I like or dislike, etc.)...

Evaluating these things is made easier by the fact that I already place everything on each subsection of the list into 6 broad ranking categories, so I don't have to go back and guess to figure out how I feel about them or anything. The categories are: Ranking 5 - overall best* (despite some criticisms of course because I'm too much of an Analyzer to ever find anything Perfect lol) Ranking 4 - more positive than neutral, but not good enough to be 5 Ranking 3 - either the good + bad negate each other, OR it's just not memorable/interesting in any way enough to be ranked higher or lower (this is the Default category ALL things are placed in if no other rank applies) Ranking 2 - maybe a few redeemable elements but largely more negatives than positives Ranking 1 - So bad that it circles around to being fascinating to observe in some way (not necessarily Funny, or Good, but just interesting somehow) Ranking 0 - Bad in a genuinely frustrating or obnoxious manner

*("best" primarily defined here as most interesting, rather than most good in a technical sense, or some other measure. I tend to value more highly whether there's something novel or thoughtful about the worldbuilding, tone, writing, base premise, etc - than about whether it's actually executed perfectly.)

And here's the amount of shows that have so far been placed into each category -

TV shows ~ Rank 5 (highest) - 20 shows ~ Rank 4 (mid-high) - 28 shows ~ Rank 3 (neutral/default/meh) - 114 shows ~ Rank 2 (mid low) -33 shows ~ Rank 1 (low low but intriguingly so) - 14 shows ~ Rank 0 (iredeemably low) - 2 shows

This would make for a total of 211 TV shows overall. However, there are 57 shows within these list marked as "didn't finish" (typically meaning I quit on the very first or second episode - but log them still to keep a record that I at least had a brief view of them).

So my total of genuinely fully watched shows would be more 154. 211 Total, but a More Accurate Total of 154.

Counting them all and using the Total Number Of The List (211) -- that means roughly 9.5% of all total shows I have ever watched (or at least attempted to watch) have been Mostly Good, 13% have been Moderately Okay, 54% have been either entirely Forgettable or some mix of good + bad that lands them right in the Neutral Middle, 15.6% have been Mostly Bad, 6.6% have been Bad (but in an interesting way), and 0.9% have been Terribly Bad.

Additionally, I didn't even get past the first two episodes of about 27% of the total.

Sooo, discounting ones I didn't finish, my total TV shows ever watched in my life would be about 154 (maybe give or take a few, assuming I might have forgotten some from very long ago).

But instead of entire life, let's just say this is the total for 'About 20 Years' (so, not counting very early childhood when I likely wouldn't remember things I saw/have no detailed recollection of them (like for example, I'm sure at some point when I was like 4yrs old I must have seen an episode of Spongebob or something, but I have zero distinct memories of it, can't quote anything of it, and barely recall the premise - so I don't count it on the list, etc.)).

In that case, 154 divided by 20 would be roughly 7.7 shows a year.

Which is actually surprisingly low considering that I often have stuff on in the background for hours whilst I make sculptures and do costumes and stuff (maybe I should have also marked some distinction between 'things I fully paid attention to' and 'things I kind of half listened to whilst sculpting', but that would further split the categories too much probably lol), but I guess a lot of that is youtube videos or random documentaries, so .. eh.. maybe I get it being lower.

Now, doing the same thing for movies-

Movies ~ Rank 5 (highest) - 4 movies (3.4% of total) ~ Rank 4 (mid-high) - 12 movies (10.3% of total) ~ Rank 3 (neutral/default/meh) - 91 movies (78.4% of total) ~ Rank 2 (mid low) - 8 movies (6.8% of total) ~ Rank 1 (low but interesting) - 1 movie (0.8% of total) ~ Rank 0 (irredeemably low) - none in this category (0%)

That makes 116 for a Total (Actually Remembered) Movies Watched In Lifetime (Or At Least In 20 Years).

116 divided by 20 is roughly 5 or 6 movies a year (I feel this has probably been skewed though by adding everything since like elementary school onwards, as I remember a lot more movies from child/teen years.. Whereas, the past 3 years I feel like I've barely seen maybe even 5 movies?? lol). I also have "Didn't Finish" marked on 18 of them. Which means I quit halfway through about 15% of the total movies.

So, a for broader summary stuff..

I seem to be less forgiving to movies than tv shows, by far. Which makes sense to me, I guess, because I love elaboration and details, so "short form" things that only last an hour or two are often lost on me a bit. My biggest complaint with movies is indeed usually walking away just wishing there had been more exposition, more scenes where characters are doing nothing, more "mindless bantering" conversations, more Quiet Downtime and Lore Elaboration and so on lol, so... of course most 1-2hr films end up feeling a bit Not Enough To Draw My Interest/Nothingy to me.

If you count 5 and 4 as "like" and rankings 2 to 0 as "dislike", then for TV shows I at least somewhat liked 48 of them, and at least somewhat disliked 47 of them.. So it's almost exactly the same lol. I'm just about equally as likely to find something bad as I am to find something redeeming about it. But overall, the largest chance is that I just won't really care much for it at all and it will be tossed into the 'neutral' pile, forgotten forever. Movies have a bit better of a balance, "liking" 16 of them, and "disliking" only 9 of them. So I'm slightly more likely to enjoy a movie than to find it annoying - though still VASTLY more likely to just not find it anything in particular, possibly not even finishing it.

ANYWAY.. this is vague and literally pointless, but like I said, I just really find information fun. Like my document where I've rated every apple flavor I've ever tried (like 40 of them now?), or reviewed every oreo flavor (32?), or ranking data from my entire 10 years of Trying To Make Friends process (out of 100 people, roughly 8% chance of a moderate compatibility, 3% chance of high), or etc. etc.. I love to have random pointless things to analyze I suppose lol.

I doubt anyone tracks things in their life in this same exact way, but I'd be interested in hearing any at least somewhat similar data !!! (like, how many TV shows you watch a year on average, and what percentage of those you like vs. dislike (if you keep track of that sort of thing), etc.)). I guess it might be easier with movies, since I think some people use those websites where you curate a list of movies you've seen and you can rate them or something, so maybe the numbers are already available on those places. :0

[fvckw4d]

The concept of queerbaiting annoys me. I was told that it refers to a work of fiction pretending to cater to a queer audience but then pulling back from it to avoid alienating homophobes, which is an incredibly specific thing. But a lot of people seem to think that it instead means "any time there's any gay subtex, metaphor, or ambiguity" or "whenever something from 1995-2012 was being a normal amount of homophobic for the era."

[moe-broey]

HELP maybe this is influenced by how I'm writing this, or maybe it was supposed to be gleaned from canon and I just. Haven't fully thought about it til now. Haven't Deeply analyzed it beyond the blaring alarm bells that go off when reading this. But. Alfonse's,

Straight into.

This isn't him doubling down. This is him BACKTRACKING. This is him going, "oh fuck I think maybe I came on a little too strong maybe I was a bit too vulnerable and that's really scary. How do I fix this" and he's running through all the dialogue options in his head like Okay. Play it Cool. Keep it Casual. Proclaim your undying loyalty and devotion to your Trusted Partner (person he just told in the beginning of this conversation that he didn't intend to become friends with) by making yourself a blade and shield for them. NAILED IT 👍

[faaun]

oh my god ! haha . anyway a bit buzzed perhaps. anyway here's what happened on the date

[phantajam]

my hot take about descendants is that NONE of the core four were ready for a relationship until maybe like, the third movie (rant in tags)

[seaofreverie]

The Me who bought tickets to see TMBG in february 2023 and the Me who's going to actually go to the show next month are two completely different people

[quatregats]

Started rereading Midshipman and had the cursed thought that these are not too wildly different of a genre than the Railway Series (aka some offset of School Stories) and so you could definitely swap elements from either and still probably end up with a cohesive narrative

[anotheruntitledsong]

i did like the hidden palace but (SPOILER if anyone hasn't read it?) i'm genuinely so annoyed at how Arbeely is handled like... I wish i could be sad but i'm just fucking irritated. I was overly invested in him and that's def why but i just feel like they did him dirty