#i don't shitpost but i couldn't help myself

[acecroft]

they're the same picture

[enignoema-a]

@brutalage replied to your post “"Look, all I'm saying is that if you hear 'Vandal...”:

I was considered /tall/ from the era I was born in , and my species . It was only until more recent eras that I ...l wasn't , really .

Aw it's okay buddy you'll grow up big and strong someday

[nyarlathotep-thecrawlingchaos]

Hello!! I'm new to this blog (been stalking your posts for an hour now and your content is so goooood) and new to the entire asking and stuff but I saw you have like little snippets of commenting on stuff and all or answering little things people send you and I wanted to put my two cents in because the way you write Shanks Mihawk and Sanji has me weakkkk

I really love the idea of a silent language between them and their lovers. Like especially Mihawk because both Sanji and Shanks are loud and proud but like the kind of silent language where you can understand a 'take me out of here' or 'please don't react to this idiot' or a 'omg did you see that puppy it's so cute' kind of thing with just your eyes or some touches a certain way in the arm or smth I don't know I'm so weak for these men and I love your writing of them okay byeee

Ahem:

(been stalking your posts for an hour now and your content is so goooood)

First of all, may I just say the following:

Thank you so so so so so much!! I'm incredibly glad and grateful that you've enjoyed everything. This whole blog is really just a mess of simping and shitposting lately. And it has also been my personal venting space. And given my life as of the late has been some unholy conglomeration of a shitshow, a soap opera, and a dumpster fire (a ShitFire DumpsterOpera Show, if you will), I remain wholly astounded on a day to day basis that anyone at all has even remained with me for this long. I've only been on Tumblr for three months myself, since around the end of September.

Aaaaanywho.

I love the silent language idea. Definitely a thing with Mihawk. I can still see it working with Sanji. Definitely not with Shanks though, poor bb couldn't keep his mouth shut if his life depended on it.

But basically, as a scenario, Reader is sitting at the bar being hit on by some Random Weirdo and looking for a quick, preferably quiet way out of the situation and tries to silently signal one of them and.....

Reader: *catches eye of S/O* *curt nod toward Weirdo to signify her discomfort*

Sanji: *hurries over* Everything alright, love? *pulls you to his side, glaring pointedly at Weirdo*This prick bothering you?

May or may not dissolve into a fight

Mihawk: *lifts an eyebrow and nods toward his sword at his back* *you quickly shake your head, no need to slice anyone in half today* *he just rolls his eyes a bit, strolls over, and puts himself between you and Weirdo* *and casually leads you away, attracting no further attention*

No fight, you leave without causing any sort of scene at all

Shanks: *catches your eye* *catches Random Weirdo's eye* *literally shouting from the other side other tavern while you cringe and lay your head down on the bar* Hey, jackass! You lay one goddamned hand on her and so help me-"

Full-on barroom-brawl chaos ensues

[noise-misato-boy-destroyer]

when i see u and other transfems who are cool and hot it makes me want to kill myself because i dont know how to be like that and idk what to do about it

i know you'll say shit like 'oh just strive to be the person u wanna be/be yourself/estrogen' etcb ut it doesnt feel like enough

Okay sooooo unfortunately for us broken dolls even getting to where I am won't make those thoughts go away, I still deal with them constantly because there's always a doll out there that'll give you that much dysphoria and gender envy and also life is terrifying but I promise promise promise it's light years better than anything I ever went through pretransition.

I couldn't act like myself in the beginning either because until you get like six months in you may not know who you even are yet, personally I emulated a bunch of girls I looked up to until I found myself n then as it turns out I wasn't too different from them to begin with. There's gonna be struggling, there's gonna be tears, you're gonna wonder why you did this and if it was even worth. This isn't easy by any definition of the word even under the best circumstances, but it's so far beyond anything I could have dreamed that I can't imagine going back. Again, it WILL be hard, there's just no way around that. I think of it like a pact with the devil; there will be a price but the rewards... Oh babygirl the rewards are worth every dysphoric sob session and every second guess and then some.

Don't get discouraged looking at dolls like me either because literally you can just be one, all the makeup looks you need are on here, all the fashion inspo, the community, the attitudes. Girl you're literally at the gender store right now, what looks good to you? I had a bunch of dolls tagged with like a fashion inspo tag for months before I finally took my first steps and that really helped me to find who I wanted to be.

Oh and estrogen will absolutely drive you crazy btw especially if you're already in this mental state, those first six months are a nightmare lowkey. I wouldn't have been able to transition without the support of the community on here.

People aren't just shitposting when they talk about how we're capable of anything. You gotta give yourself more credit <3

[hatter-and-dodo-in-wonderland]

When I realized I couldn't be popular because I don't do THAT old men toxic yaoi ship that I hate (because I prefer healthy yaoi ships).

Personal confession below :

That's so sad my drawings aren't so noticed (except scarecrow but I'm mentioning about Hatter content especially) and when I see people creating new accounts and drawing the same character I'm themed with just get more fame is very frustrating for all the hours and work I give to my BTAS Jervis in "reality" or even the concept arts.

The only time I can get more famous things is about shitposts I make for 2 minutes and as it's funny, it's more noticeable

Like all my long work with a good look (I guess) are just good for some people who're always here (thank you so much, really I love you) but it's rare it catches new people.

But to be clear, it hurts me so hard my talents, in drawings or singing, are so underrated generally (art class never helped me and I still have colour theory difficulties, some anatomy I can learn about. There's also a time I was about to pass in the radio or in a singing competition but my fate decided otherwise. Also the musical comedy group I was in never let me take a character that interacts with others, like a background character that is just a plus and brings nothing to the plot). I learned art by myself and it's been like this since my 10 thanks to my mom's books and all. The only time I got some acknowledgement about my art was with a comic painting with a dragon that can't fly. Maybe that's the first time I got what I wanted, maybe only humour or bluntness is what I'm good for? I'm confusing

I'm soon 16, it sucks to say it I know, and I often feel like i would never have the chance to let people impressed enough

I feel like it's never never enough for anyone

I'm literally crying...

I will continue to be on Tumblr, maybe I should look impatient, paranoid or whatever some can call me. I just wanted to get it out. Maybe I'm just blind? Or also, Tumblr doesn't get as many users as the great media like Facebook or Instagram. That may explain why

-Back to the topic-

Anyway, the thing that really makes me frustrated is when some get fame because of a toxic ship, I should mention my blog won't get that kind of thing because I'm not the type that follows trends and when I love a character, I don't put them in a toxic relationship, I made things easier for them. When I say I LOVE a character, I mean I adore them despite their flaws, I'm AWARE of what Jervis did, don't worry I slapped him and told him about consent and boundaries!

Well, maybe that text is so long to be read but I needed to let it out, that's maybe a chaos of confusion because my brain is just a mess.

[yooniesim]

(Reply to an anon about the current situation below!! Nothing triggering I think except suicide bait mention, but just in case)

Anon, I will not block you since you seem to be trying to be kind and also sound like you may be young, but I'm sorry- I will definitely "call someone names" when they behave like he has towards me & others. There is a time to baby people and take the "high road" and there is a time you should be able to make your frustrations known. And I want you to realize that it is very frustrating when you reply to someone that has been awful or bigoted to you, and someone comes around to act like you shouldn't be upset, that you should be calm instead, should just be quiet. It's extremely invalidating, it sweeps bad behavior under the rug, and it makes other people hesitant to speak about their experiences. That is not me. It's not my responsibility to curb MY reactions because someone else "won't change" if I'm being too "hostile" towards them. Why is that burden always placed on the person that was hurt? Why am I obligated to be kind and give grace to someone that has told me to kill myself, liked posts calling me an antiblack slur, called me plenty of "names" himself, brought my late father into unrelated matters, and harassed myself and my friends? I won't. I refuse.

This also certainly won't ruin anyone's life- let's be honest. No one is going to give a shit about this, because it isn't paywaller focused "drama" or anything entertaining or fun to circlejerk over. It isn't something everyone can safely laugh at and make memes and shitposts about, so it'll be ignored. Just look at your dash- do you see much of a peep about this compared to, say, harrie's paywalled christmas tree? Do you see every account on simblr throwing in their two cents and reblogging everything about it the way they do making fun of paywallers' cc, or reblog discourse, or any other random meaningless drama of the week? No. He'll keep having a presence and being a complete asshole and posting his awful cc to make money off of, don't you worry. Worst comes to worst, he'll just delete and remake. He did it all the other times people spoke about his behavior, and he'll do it again now, until the next group of people he harasses comes out with a record of their experiences. But I'm not going to forget about it. Sorry, but I won't. There's too many red flags there, and there's too many good people on simblr that don't deserve to walk into that blindly.

Also, I want people to stop painting 21 year old adults as minors. Y'all do realize that 21 year olds have jobs, bills to pay, spouses, children, voting rights, etc? He is not a child. Do not make excuses for him. Saying that he'll always be immature to me because of his age is flat out wrong- I know many people in their early 20s that are responsible, mature, and respectful. They also know how to have clear boundaries with others (including children), and would balk at the idea of behaving like he does. They would be insulted and embarrassed by the idea that this behavior is normal for a 21 year old, and if you are that age, you should be too. He may be younger than me, but he's old enough to affect the people around him. And if he's immature now, he certainly won't get any MORE mature by having those around him handwave his irresponsible and harmful behavior. His weird friends may play that role for him, but i will not. He loves to talk about personal responsibility, so i will too- it's not MY responsibility to help him change for the better. I can't control that. But I can use my own voice about matters that are important to me on my own blog, and I'll continue to do so. And by the way I've gotten to talk to other people affected by this, and told they were also uncomfortable but too afraid to speak up about it, I'm very glad that I have.

I understand your perspective, nonny. I used to have a similar one myself- I couldn't understand why people were getting mad and calling the people I liked "names", why they were trying to "ruin their life" and just being so mean. And even after I became an adult, I wanted to give people chances, and I believed that simply being kind would change the minds of awful people. Sadly, I've learned the hard way that it usually doesn't. At least not with people that show a pattern of bad behavior over a long period of time, like with this person. It just makes it easier for you to be hurt over and over again until you finally give up. There have been times during this that I was struck with a strong feeling of pity for Xian and wanted to try appealing to him emotionally, but every callous reply or nasty comment I saw from him in response to even neutral words told me that it would be a waste of my time and emotional energy. I even tried just ignoring him completely, but that only led to him continuing to attack me, and then attack others in the community unrelated to me. Being angry won't change him either, but it WILL warn others and give a voice to those who feel like they can't have one. That's what I care about, more than any perceived retribution- I know well by now that no matter how awful a person is here, they will be lifted up and allowed to continue being awful. "Cancel culture" does not truly exist. Especially not in the sims community. He will be fine, but the people around him may not. And that's who I want to continue to be there for. I hope this makes sense to you, nonny.

[mirx-xko-offical]

Going home...

Sad!Idia x Leaving!Reader

TWs: Angst (Ig?-), Sad bby Ortho

INFO~

I deffo recommend listening to ceilings by Lizzy McAlpine bc this one is kinda based off of that song. Idia being in depression :( Implied Fem reader I never proofread my stories so I'm not even going to act like I will later :,)

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"Don't leave me please..."

"I have to..."

"I'm begging.. Just stay please."

"I'm sorry."

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Crowley had finally found a way for [Name] to get home (surprisingly-) which should be a good thing right? That's what [Name] had thought but after all the friends and relationships she had made in this world had made her rethink things.

Standing at the mirror, all of her belongings in her hands, [Name] held back tears as she looked back to all of her friends. "I guess it's time for my MC speech isn't it..?" She tried to lighten the mood, cracking on of her and Idia's usual jokes.

But even she couldn't cheer herself up. "I truly enjoyed my time here and I will miss all of the friends and more I made here. Sevens... I didn't expect myself to be so torn up by this." She chuckled a little, whipping a tear from her cheek.

Besides from Crowley's bawling, he managed to speak up. "S-Since I am ever so gracious... I shall allow you to have some one on o-one time with the students by dorm." [Name] could barely understand what he had said but she agreed to it nonetheless. "Thank you Crowley. May I request to speak with the Ignihyde dorm first?"

Crowley nodded before leading the rest of the students out of the room, leaving Idia and Ortho. "W-Why us first..?" Idia shyly mumbled, seemingly trying to not seem as sad as he was. "You're my friend, are you not?" She as Ortho jumped into her arms. "Big sis don't go!" He begged.

"I have to Ortho... You know that I'm not supposed to stay here." She answered him, holding him close before letting go and turning back to the older Shroud.

"I guess this is goodbye.." He said as he looked down to the ground. "Jeez that's cringy af..." He said with embarrassment. She only chuckled before embracing him, making him flinch is surprise.

"Please don't go..."

"Idia, you know I have to.."

"I'm begging you. please just stay..." His voice muffled in her hood, unable to hold it back anymore and ultimately crying into her shoulder. "I'm so sorry but I can't." She said as she let go, still holding Idia's hands. "I'll miss you." She said as she backed away, letting go of his hands.

"[Name] I-I have something to tell you before you go." Ortho looked at him in shock, realizing what he was about to say. "I... I love you." He said as he looked up to her, seeing her shocked expression. "I know this is a real cheesy confession and super late one too but I-I thought I should've told you b-before you left."

"Idia... I love you too." She confessed before Crowley busted in. "Times up. Any suggestions for whom should be next [Name]?" He asked as Idia looked back to you one last time and Ortho clung onto you. "You can just go in order now." She sighed as Ortho let go and followed his brother out the doors, allowing the other dorms to come through.

After everyone was finished [Name] tried to not look back this time as she stood at the mirror again. "Mirror bring this student back to her home." Crowley spoke up as the mirror turned black before clearing up to show [Name]'s hometown.

She couldn't help but look back to Idia, smiling a little before entering the mirror before vanishing.

"God damnit..."

AHHHHHHHHHHHH I'M GOING TO START CRYING OMG-

Erm-

Anyways I hope you enjoyed this honest shitpost.

Why must Idia's name keep wanting to autocorrect to Idea or India??

Also why did they make the dorm names so hard to spell ;-;

Enough with the yapping- I seriously make this at like 1 am for like to reason beside from my sister playing ceilings on repeat :,)

[denamelesshuman]

I'm just a silent lurker and observer. Although I like many ships of Yuji that are considered proships, I'm still somewhat discreet about it. As in, I didn't make my stand clear on my bio and stuff or publicly interact with those contents. Maybe because I'm so shy and avoid discourse or ship wars etc that I see frequently plaguing JJK fandoms, too many of them becoming very toxic that it leaves me draining just from accidentally seeing it, even without engaging them. My X is also private account. Probably cuz I don't like all those ships. I started liking about 3 ships of bottom Yuji and just recently becoming more aware of Choita's charms and I have to say it began with me coming across some of yours and your friends' posts here that caused me to see this ship deeper and enjoyable and everything good, if I compare it with other ships. But tumblr is such a barren dry land for choita so I'm very grateful for all your and your friends' entertaining posts. I just couldn't help but follow you on X as well, your RPs are feeding me well on daily basis and your comments/threads are the cherries on top of delectable cakes. It's always so witty and entertaining so I have fun scrolling it everyday! This is probably the only time I'd send an ask. I have wanted to for quite a while, but back then your anon inbox was off. Anyway, I just wanna drop by to send my gratitude. Please keep spreading choita love cuz you're doing great job at influencing people ❤

Ps. I've been blocked several times by the japanese choita fanartists on X 😭 I suspect that's due to my bio that doesn't seem like I'm a choita fan. I know you are followed/mutuals with some of them and have seen you interacted with them, so I wonder if that's true. I hope you don't block me when you come across private accounts like me. I swear I'm a fan, I just...don't really want to make it public that I like incest ship...

Hi~ I appreciate the message you try to convey despite being shy. I don't think my love for choita will lessen anytime soon and I'm too lazy to find other fandoms as currently nothing interests me. I might just be a little more subdued as time goes.

I'm very happy to hear I can influence others to like Choita, especially bcs I don't do much. I'm not an artist nor am I a prolific writer who write things with tropes that are popular with many. I only mostly shitpost here anw lmao. I agree w/ here being barren which is why it's less entertaining for me.

I get your reason for private acc or don't wanna label yourself as proshipper. As for being blocked, it's as simple as they might think you fall into category of their DNIs. They usually put their DNIs in profcard linked to their bio. I suggest reading it before following them as some of them could be quite strict abt that. Google translate is built-in in app and browser nowadays so it's easy even if you can't read japanese at all. They are strict with who could see their contents bcs for various and obvious reasons, but being priv acc usually isn't a DNI but more abt whether you're fine with their contents or not. They are being considerate and wanna protect themselves as their works are derivative works that should be consumed only by the people who like the same things. So if you don't make it clear, there are some people (myself included) who would think twice whether it's okay for those acc to keep seeing our contents. And w/ priv accounts, bcs we can't see any impression from yours it makes some of us become more wary. I was really strict back then too but lately, I'm just too tired and don't really care anymore.

[quohotos]

So I don't have any art prepared for 810nicle day, so instead let me regale you of a story of a time where I didn't make some bionicle art. It was a bit of a shitshow.

So it was around 2017 I think, I was in high school. Back then I was on facebook and in this Bionicle fan forum/shitpost group called "Bionicle Maskposting". Honestly it was a great community with so many injokes, having to leave it behind was one of the reasons I stayed on facebook for so long after it stopped being a good platform. Usually people would share memes, mocs, and lore thoughts, but on a rare occasion people would try to find folks to help them with new group projects.

One of these fateful cases was a person who was trying to put together a crew to make a bionicle fan comic. I'd been teaching myself vector, having been inspired by the Bionicle flash games, so I tentatively offered my service to the project. I was still learning and not super confident in my abilities. I told them I probably couldn't do it on my own, but maybe could do backgrounds and trace overs in a vector style.

I got added to their discord server, it was like the third server I ever joined on discord. The mastermind behind all of this was very excited to have someone on board, and was quick to catch me up on what he'd been working on. He showed me his block out of the comic so far, there was no actual art, just all black panels and the dialogue to go with them. And it was... oh god it was bad.

The premise of the comic: It's set in an alternate universe where Tahu is the soul survivor of the Toa Mata. The rest of the Toa are brutally killed by Makuta and now he's haunted by horrific visions, survivor's guilt, and PTSD. He also has a son. Love is cannon in this universe and he has to raise the child he sired with Gali before she was ripped to shreds by a crab.

It was uhhh... not exactly the kind of story I wanted to sign on to, not to mention it was just poorly written, probably a teenager like me at the time. Everyone writes stuff like that, nothing wrong about it in the long term... but then it got worse.

This new guy joined the server, one I didn't recognize. He had like a wolf avatar for his discord profile. He immediately takes one look at what's been planned so far and says, "I love it," but then he has to ask one crucial question before he can continue.

"Is there Jesus in it?"

No he didn't say it like that, I'm paraphrasing, but he asked if there were going to be any themes of Christianity or Tahu's faith in the story.

what the fuck?

Why?

Why would that be in the Bionicle story? What a socially unaware thing to ask? Is he trolling this guy?

Well the ringleader guy who started the project responds mere seconds later

"Yeah, totally, Tahu's faith in Jesus Christ and his struggle with doubt is going to be a big part of the story."

Again, paraphrasing, but it was an enthusiastic response from the guy. They then went on to very rapidly start exchanging ideas about how they can add more christian themes to this already very cursed Bionicle fanfiction. Around that time I politely announced that I didn't feel like I could contribute to the project and excused myself from the server. I'm glad I wasn't ruder, they were doing their own thing there was no reason to be mean about it even if it was buck fucking wild.

I'm assuming it never came out, and part of me regrets leaving so early because right now I'm morbidly curious about how it turned out even if it's probably the last thing I'd ever want to read or draw.

Anyways that's my story, and part of the reason why even though I was one of the biggest Bionicle nerds you can imagine while growing up I generally stay away from fan forum discussions of it as an adult.

Happy Bionicle day

[lazy-dog24601]

I really am a fucking moron, I feel like I should have said all of this stuff before 4chan died.

Like, I should have been vocal about how shit 4chan was, even if it was super fucking obvious.

But, I don't know. I say it was like, a shitpost or what not, but when people said "You're here forever" in regards to 4chan I took that shit to heart. I shouldn't have, but I did.

It really did feel like I was bound to 4chan. Like a piece of myself was chained to it. I knew so much about it that I couldn't stop going back.

"Don't forget: You're here forever" is the de-motivational poster Mr. Burns puts up in Homers office after he had to literally crawl back to his old job. It was a joke.

Maybe it only applied to me, as stupid as that sounds. Maybe I am indeed the only person who took that to heart.

Whatever. The only reason I ever went back to that website was to jack off, check what /v/ and /co/ were talking about, the gunpla threads on /m/, or watch rekt threads on /gif/.

I stopped trying to talk to people on that since back in like, 2021. And even then it was only about Type-Moon games. Once I got into Homestuck, that became my only reason to return to 4chan.

I don't know what to make of this, because it seems like most people didn't go to 4chan and it doesn't seem like most 4chan posters took the website serious enough to go on Tumblr and wax poetic about their homoerotic experiences like I am currently doing.

This is stupid. Everyone who went to 4chan are stupid. Why would anyone want to read this shit. Do other 4chan posters find this shit entertaining even. Do they take solace in my funny words. Do they find it romantic. Erotic even. A man airing out his regret, reflecting on a boyhood wasting by frotting with nazis. I'm not gay but I think about homosexuality a lot. Sometimes I think gay things and have gay thoughts about my male coworkers. Stuff like, what if I kissed this guy. Could I kiss this guy. Am I attracted to this guy. Am I comfortable enough hugging another guy. What is it about men stops me from being gay. Like I think about kissing fictional men but do I have it in me to kiss an actual man. Are real men as attractive as fictional men. I always saw everyone on 4chan as a man because they were all incel transphobes. Would I go gay for fellow 4chan posters. Sometimes I think about crossdressing. If I crossdressed I would most definitely start kissing men. Like at that point its not even about being attracted to men, it's just about getting intimate with them. Does that make me trans, because I'm not trans. I may have been assigned male at birth but it is by conscious choice that I identify as male today. Is crossdressing vaild. Is it okay for a man to sometimes dress as a woman and then have sex with other men and still consider themself a cis-gender heterosexual male. Because I often wonder if other cishets think about all this queer stuff a lot because personally I think being cis-het involves a lot of queer thoughts because, in truth, all of these terms and states of being are constructs that aren't real, and are only considered real because it's part of society to construct ideas and archetypes that everyone agrees upon lest we all stop talking to each other. Like things like sexuality and gender exist to help humans interact with humans. All of this serves to aid in the interaction with humans. All that matters in life is whether or not you can properly interact with fellow humans, and that will including thinking about a lot of "gay" shit.

This has nothing to do with anything, but there are two things about 4chan I vividly remember- nobody thinks about trans people more than 4chan posters, and that 4chan is a website that turns people gay.

[cometconmain]

THIS ^^^^

I understand learning art yourself can be hard and frustrating but it can also be so rewarding and making art with other humans in a way that respects their time and effort as well is absolutely glorious and so many people are missing out by actively trying to take the human out of the art.

Do 'bad' doodles!! There is nothing more human and incredibly soulful than a human's 'bad' doodles!! And the more you do them, the better you get at doing 'better' doodles.

Art is meant to be fun, not some grandiose competition. If people are shitting on your art (art you've made, not things made by inputting writing into a machine trained on non-consensually obtained art by existing artists) then they can get fucked. Art comes in all forms and is most beautiful when it comes from YOU, regardless of your level of technical skill or experience.

Please stop thinking your art has to 'look good'. It just has to come from YOU and then it will be beautiful and evolve as you evolve.

That is more beautiful than the most technically skillful works in existence.

Break down the concept of what is art. That's the first thing my teacher taught me when I started, because I have crippling perfectionism and felt like shit and couldn't bring myself to draw and remind myself I was a 'failure' which meant I couldn't practice to get better. My teacher showed me all kinds of art from different cultures and periods of history and we talked about their meaning and significance and questioned what made them 'good' art. At the end of the day, it wasn't the prettiest things so much as the things that moved me and showed glimpses of actual humanity in them that meant the most to me. Sometimes those were technically skillful drawings. Many times they were earlier periods of art when human comprehension of capturing the world around them was still evolving and shifting through what focuses had the most cultural value and use/importance/relatability, children's art, quick sketches of human moments and yes, shitposts and stick figure memes and 'shitty' drawings on tumblr capturing a feeling or a conversation or a moment in time or a general societal commentary.

This began the process of helping me shed shitty perfectionist judgemental beliefs about my skills and actually be capable of practicing, because I stopped living in fear of the moments I would fuck up and my brain would inevitably begin to shit on me. I can be at peace with my mistakes more and more frequently now, and the difference it has made in drawing ability has been amazing. I am so much happier and am even beginning to believe I may in fact be capable of learning to make the cool art I see all the amazing artists around me create every day. If I just practice as long as they have.

Reconnect with people around you and just make your own art. You are enough, I promise you.

(And if you want cool art for a design you have it's called commissioning someone who has spent thousands of hours going through the process you don't want to do, or saving up if you can't yet, or just making peace with the fact you'll have to wait or see if someone wants to pick up the concept and do it for free. Or bite the bullet, be nice to yourself for daring to draw 'bad' art and go through the gruelling process everyone else has to develop the skills yourself. I promise it's worth it. I promise.)

ai generated images make me increasingly sad and tired the more i see them in more and more casual contexts. i dont know how to explain, but it just fills the world with a bunch of nothing. no matter how visually stunning the pictures might be, there's nothing behind it for me. no dedication, no emotions, no feelings, no hard work or creativity, nothing i can truly think about, admire or enjoy. i dont think thats how art is supposed to be

[therealeagal]

Happy 1000th post!

It's official! This is the official 1000th post that I have made! Huzzah!

I would just like to take this opportunity to thank myself for being so amazing and no one else because I did it all on my own without any help from anyone. Well, I think I might have done one or two reblogs here and there, but they don't count. 99.999% of my content was 100% real me.

A lot of it was shitposting.

A lot of it was my signature internet philosophy where I pretend to be smarter than I am. Which is an astounding feat considering my genius already totally eclipses the rest of humanity combined. And multiplied by 6. Hundred. Thousand. Million.

Some of it was Boruto episode recaps. I oughta start doing those again. They were always popular, but hardly an episode passed where I didn't talk about what a shitty shitty shitty shitty shitty father, leader and general human being Naruto Uzumaki is. Doesn't it get old? Idunno. You tell me.

Some of it was series or episode reviews. Those tended to be less popular because I have strange opinions about which shows are enjoyable and which are not. I say something nice about a show people hate and they start screeching about how literally Hitler was a better person than me. And when I say something bad about a show they love? Oh boy. I won't even mention The Great Cowboy Bebop Debacle of 1992.

And then I tended to compound the problem by making fun of them. Good times. Good times.

In closing, I did it all by myself. I owe you nothing. You are just here to partake of my genius, my brilliance, my effulgence. That you remain loyal to me is simply a testament to your good sense.

See you at post #2000, boys and girls and my children of other gender identities you wish to claim as your own on top. I love you all.

Yes, even the ones of you who are bots. Some people might judge you, my robotic children, but I never will.

I'm sure there exists a universe, somewhere, where I couldn't have done it without all of you. It's just not this one.

Cheers!

[lililinuks]

vent shitpost again

I don't want to turn this into a story where I'm going to cry about my life, but I miss her so much, I was so worried and just couldn't see her because of her condition, it was too painful for me to watch her feel bad and I can't help her, I couldn't make her laugh her, her light smile kills me from the inside, and how glad she was to see me when she came to visit it hurts me terribly because of everything, I just don't understand what will happen next, lately I think I don't have aaa..motivation? desires? To live, no, I don't want to do something scary with myself/srs don't worry, I'm just too tired of it, I really want to go to a friend, I really want to sit with her in the evening to laugh and go to bed Many times before going to bed, I replace what happened the day after my friend's birthday, I couldn't fall asleep because of what happened, because thoughts were endlessly spinning in my head, I fell asleep only after I interrupted the thoughts in my head with something that I love, I WAS JUST INTERRUPTING MY FEAR OF WHAT HAPPENED THINKING THAT HMM YES, THESE ARE MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS KISSING, it's so stupid and sad now I fall asleep normally, except that my sleep regime has become even worse, it's 8 in the morning, and I still haven't gone to sleep, but I'll finish this post and go to sleep I just have to wait for my mom to get out of the hospital and hope that the treatment will really help her i miss her sm

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

media sorta taught me how my difficulty expressing emotion was ‘tough’ and masculine coded, which re-enforced that behavior and made me like...more determined to be emotionally distant & untouchable. i spent years focusing on being unemotional, to the point my brain would let me feel and process things...

BUT it turns out that’s DUMBASS & actually just manifests as:

(ironically) people pleasing 

and/or callous jerkitude 

(so like, discounting either my emotions or other people’s. both are not good choices)

being miserably in general to the point you’re desensitized to it >:(

anyway, repressing emotions isn’t good ya’ll. you deserve loads better, & you’ll attract a much niftier range of people once you start learning how to process with your inner shit. 

[theboombutton]

Personally, I'd be honored to work for Swedish electronica duo The Knife.

[sohmaposting]

listen,,,,i’m a manga reader in my feelings,,,, HOWEVER