#i don't read many ship fics so i can't really guess the tastes of people who do

[dropespeon]

something that fascinates me is the different sorts of aus different fandoms are drawn to. like i see a lot of canon divergent aus for isat, but then with other things like orv it's mostly different settings (classic fantasy aus and such). and then there's whatever the bnha fandom has going on where they just make the protagonist a completely new character

[vanilla-lip-stick]

Brainrot

So I am about ten years late to the fandom, started reading Elsanna fics about half a year ago. A few times before that, Elsanna stories appeared in my AO3 searches, but I shied away from those because of the incest aspect, I won't lie. However, I was running out of femslash stories to read, to I thought, well, I can read the unrelated stuff, it's fine.

I found those two utterly charming and adorable, and I couldn't get enough. So I eventually peeked into the pile of stories where they were sisters but not only sisters. And I still found them utterly charming and adorable, but also, at times, broken, repressed, yearning, hurting, fighting, loving. It quickly became my favourite ship (and it currently still is), and I particularly like the sister aspect because I always was a sucker for forbidden love, always liked it when writers ventured into difficult territory, asked difficult questions, gave ambiguous answers, because that's what life usually is, at least from my perspective.

After, at the time of posting this, five published stories on AO3 with about 70 k words, I'll tell you a little secret: I have never seen Frozen. Most I know about it and about Anna and Elsa I know from fics, and bits and pieces from other sources. If you read hundreds of thousands of words of fanfiction about them, I guess something sticks.

Also, many of those fics have inspired ideas of my own. New entries keep popping up in my backlog, and I already have about 50 outlined in various degrees. Just to give you a taste of what's in there, have this screenshot:

Yes, those numbers on the right are page numbers. More numbers? Then have this:

Before I started to treat writing seriously some years ago, before I finally committed myself to try my best to become a professional author, I was one of those people you wondered: where do writers get all these ideas from? Now, I find myself on the other end of the spectrum. I have too many ideas. (That above is, mind you, just my Elsanna backlog. My backlog for originals is even longer. Not that size matters.) There's no way I could possibly turn every idea I have had until now into a story even if I turn 100. And sometimes, this thought is so hard to cope with because while I don't think each of these ideas is a gem, there are many of them I love in one way or another.

(Some ideas, I am really scared of, and one in particular makes me sick whenever I stumble across it because it covers a topic I, as a reader, usually give a wide berth. Not so long ago, I read a fic that had this, thought I could perhaps take it, and looking back I have so say: no, I can't, and I have to fight the images in my head when I remember certain parts of the story to stay somewhat sane.)

Anyway. I wish writing didn't take so long, and I wish I were immortal until one day I decided I have had enough. I'm sure many of you can relate. (If there even is someone out there reading these ramblings. If there is, come say hi. Or find my stories on AO3.)

[alice1505]

I made the mistake of rewatching Sherlock because I never did finish it back in the day (I was -clenches fist- seething over the queerbaiting and rage quit after not fully watching episode 1 of s4) and I'm here to make my side hyperfixation (what year is this??? Who am I???) Tumblr's problem. The more I sit with s4, the less I like it 😂 There were pieces and elements I liked, but overall, it left a bad taste in my mouth. Forgive me if any or all if these points have been talked to death, I missed all the discourse and I'm hella late, but I need to flail and send my thoughts into the void because what even WAS that season? I can't believe I avoided it for years, got drawn in by a couple of tiktoks making fun (affectionately) of superwholock Era and That Scene about the fucking phone charger port, binged all of it, only to be left with..... that. Not nearly as disappointing or rage inducing as spn's ending but by God, did it leave a hole in me. So please ignore my rambling thoughts as I slap them down here for my own sanity.

• First and foremost, what - and I can't stress this enough - the fuck was UP with the assassination of John's entire character???? What was that??? Why????

• Related to that point - I can appreciate the angst point and potential it provides, as I'm reading many, many fics, but AYO WHY didn't anyone rip John an entire new one for that beat down he did on Sherlock????? Hello???? 911?????

• Tell me why everything felt so stilted and borderline icy. Like I get the high emotions and shit, but after a certain point... 😭 was there a falling out between Benedict and Martin that I'm not aware of? Did they just try to ungay everything so hard and were so pissed at the audience picking up everything THAT THEY PUT???? into this show and their interactions that they just hit the brakes hard enough to make everything feel weird???

• A lot of it felt weird. Off kilter a little. Forced in some places, toned down in others (and toned down where it shouldn't have been), a nod to ships but weirdly/hatefully??? Idk if that makes sense. Like the whole Sherlock and Molly phone call (I do not mean any hate to this ship, I really hope it doesn't come off this way. Not my cup of tea but you are valid). Why was Molly so upset BEFORE the call? Did I miss something? Also I don't personally think or feel she'd still have those feelings for him??? I??? I am bamboozled.

• to that whole point, Eurus was.... Hmm. Mmmm. She was. Something. (Confused derogatory)

• I like Mary as a character. I also hated her. (Definitely biased by my shipper trash ass self for johnlock, I'm sorry). Wtf were those messages, please. Edit: AND ANOTHER THING. John's reaction to Sherlock's death - awful, gut wrenching, beautiful, my heart breaks with and for him, utterly devasting. John's reaction to Mary's death - had me sitting there like🧍‍♀️(it was weird. so weird. awkward. w h y. (we know why, but also the acting choices were Something TM, in both cases! for different reasons!) i'm sorry i just can't get past my anger and put off-ness with mary, fun as she could be)

• why did mycroft and John switch roles 😭 pls. The last episode was just. So Much. The lackluster responses from John, to John, to Sherlock, between them, like.... hello???? Who are these people?? Help me. Moriarty saved me for a brief shining moment tho, God bless.

There's more I could spew, but that's what's sitting right at the top of my head. I guess all this just to say, if a show runner/writer really just fucking hates the audience they got (instead of the one they wanted), they probably shouldn't have fucking become a show runner/writer in the first place. Either hand it to someone who can actually handle it and listens, or fuck off. I will never understand when shows and plots and characters gets kamikaze'd because of a show runner being pissy and egotistical. Like ????? Grow up. Learn from Bryan Fuller and Hannibal or something.

Sorry for all the rambling, bless anyone who reads this and makes sense of it 😂

[celinou]

Thanks @lenorelovesmax for tagging me 🤍

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 2, currently. Well, more like one and a half baked scene that has no context, to be more accurate.

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 194.036 words.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? I have like the one fic, the other thing has 2 kudos. So... - A Walk in Chiaroscuro (354)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Yes, absolutely. It's pretty rare when I don't. I like to tell people that I appreciate their support and comments or to answer questions they might have about the story or the choice I made.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I don't do angsty endings. I'm too old and too jaded by life to appreciate them anymore. I'm at a point in my life where I need to know there's hope and happiness at the end of the line.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? I'm guessing there will be some kind of repetition since I've only published Awic... Soooo, it's a Walk in Chiaroscuro! ...but if you want to know about the ones that I keep in my drawer never to see the light of AO3, the happiest ending goes to Let's Write a Love Story (it's a Homestuck fanfic)

8. Do you get hate on fics? No. I'm writing in a mostly dead fandom so far and for kind of a rare pair so, people have been starved of content. They were so nice and sweet to me in the comments.

9. Do you write smut? I wish! I don't have the chops for it but I so wish I could write good smut! Honestly it's something I really want to push myself into exploring. Unfortunately your girl is a bit too vanilla in her taste which makes for poor reading. I don't fear being bad... I fear being boring, you know?

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've ever written? I've never done that, no. But who knows what future will lead me to write.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? No. I don't have enough reach to be the target of theft.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope. And tbh I don't have the patience to translate it myself in my native language.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Could have... but no. There was an attempt at a joined project for Dragon Age but, unfortunately, it didn't work out in the end. I'm not abandoning the idea of writing for Dragon Age but I'll probably go in a very different direction since it would be a solo project.

14. What's your all time favorite ship? I... don't have one... Yeah, I'm not much of a shipper at the core. I mean I did write for Caulscott but I practically ship Max with everybody in LIS so... I was more interested by Nathan's potential as a love interest more than the ship itself. Outside of LIS... I can't think of any ship rn, I'm afraid.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? Tough question. If I abandoned a project I don't consider it a WIP. It's a dropped thing that goes in the reusable idea bin... and if I'm still working on it, I don't go into thinking I won't finish it. So, it's hard to say really. To not leave you with such a vague answer, I'll give you this: the fic I planned to write about the Hidden Object Games series Dark Parable, that never took off and never will (for I have better/much more attractive projects to work on). It's a dropped thing. But now you can see I have weird and obscure taste.

As for original projects: I have a Horror RPG project that probably won't ever see the light of day, called: The Clockmaker. (because I realized I'm shit at pixel art, tragic)

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? Hum... No. I don't mind people doing it but I tried it myself in my pirate epic and, let me tell you, I'm not that good a multilingual as to be witty in more than 2 languages. I found what I wrote cringe af when I read back my text in the editing phase and scrapped it all out.

19. First fandom you wrote for? Homestuck. I started writing fics very late in my life. (I wrote original stuff before that)

20. Favourite fic you've ever written? A Walk in Chiaroscuro. Because it's the only fic I went into unafraid to write what I wanted without thinking about who might read it. And to this day it's the truer work I've put out. Not the most personal by any stretch but the one I indulged in the most. And I'm so proud of it. Flaws and all.

I tag @sourrind and @momochizoey if you feel like doing it. And everybody who'd want to as well, consider yourself tagged, friend!

[electroniccollectiondonut]

Monthly Rec Lists In 2024: New Year's Day

For the last four or five years my New Year's resolution has been to get fit but I keep not doing that so this year my resolution is one I know can complete: making rec lists! So for the first rec list of the year I'm reccing some fics I read for the first time in 2023! I've tagged the authors' Tumblr if I could find one, otherwise I've just linked their Ao3.

Regularly Scheduled Miracles by TheSingingHoneybee (@starshinemaiden)

The thing about soulmates when you are a royal is that you don't get to keep them. Wu's mother's was shipped to the Outer Ring. His father's, never spoken of. His great aunt's was imprisoned if you believe the rumors. Wu believes the rumors. And when Wu becomes Prince Wu, heir to the Earth Throne, over night, his chances of finding and keeping his soulmate drop to zero. But despite that, when a soulmark appears on his arm the very evening of meeting his new, hot, firebending bodyguard, Wu can't feel anything but joy. The thing about soulmarks when you have a job that frequently leaves you bruised to hell and back is that sometimes you don't notice them until days later and now you don't know who caused them to appear. And the thing about being Prince Wu's newest bodyguard is that Mako has met so many people in the last week that his soulmate could be half of Republic City. The other thing about being Prince Wu's newest bodyguard is that half of Mako doesn't want to think too hard about his soulmate might be because there is no way someone like him would get so lucky as to have the next Earth Monarch as a soulmate no matter how lofty Mako's taste in people runs.

Cruising for a Bruising by kalechipbuoy

Crozier makes Fitzjames cry and cry and cry. Eventually, they reach something like an understanding.

Warm Sun, Fine Jade by DummyDipl0d0cus

Lan Xichen’s hair is up in a simple bun, careless. It’s a change from his half-tied hair. It uncovers his shoulders and neck, and Wen Ning gets a sinking feeling that they look more delicate now than ever. “Please stay warm, and eat well,” Wen Ning adds softly. Lan Xichen doesn’t say anything, just bows his head. Wen Ning turns to leave after a few long moments, as much as he doesn’t want to. Then hears the quietest request. “It’s raining. Please stay until it’s over?” - How Wen Ning helps Lan Xichen heal, and how Lan Xichen does the same for Wen Ning.

The Severing of Webs by chlodobird (@chlodobird-creations)

After Jon kills the world, he travels back in time. Once there, he gets ready to change the future, to save his Assistants, and to watch as everyone learns to hate him again. Unfortunately, the tapes wrap around him like a fly caught in a Web—he can't move. He's trapped reliving the original timeline, stuck acting out his past actions like an actor rehearsing his lines. Sasha will die. Tim will die. Martin— (Jon screams inside his mind, and someone hears him. Fate is not as immutable as he fears.)

Chameleonic by recrudescence (@re-crudescence)

When River finally takes a fall, the result of an ill-conceived equation and a screwdriver on the cargo bay floor, Mal gives her a knowing look and totes her to the infirmary.

7 rings by butterflywings6

random people watching kanej be rich and in love <3

Look into the Mirror (Tell Me What You See) by Drag0nSt0rm (@sweetteaanddragons)

His best guess for what had happened was some kind of head injury, given that he recognized almost nothing and had no idea what was going on. With few clues to work with, he was either going to have to confess the truth or bluff frantically. Gil-Galad had never in his life decided to confess anything.

A Little Mishap by Asidian (@asidian)

When the dust clears – and it is a frightful amount of dust, all told – Astarion is marginally surprised to see that no one has been left a bloody smear on the cave floor. Really, he can't be blamed for assuming the worst. The boulder is the size of the tunnel, nearly, the sort of impending doom that ranks with gale-force winds and approaching dragons on the list of things that might inspire a man to pray to any gods kind enough to lend an ear. Astarion isn't that sort – any god who might have granted him a boon has had centuries of prayers they might have chosen to answer before this, after all – and yet here they stand, miraculously intact, as though some deity just so happened to have glanced their way at just this moment. Perhaps Wyll is a religious man.

Underwater by euromagpie

About him, the world swam in dizzying degrees, pulsated with the throb of the veins at his temples. Beneath him, his legs, protesting against the movement like a couple of libertines, had gone frustratingly jelly like, and Hodgson stumbled, a landsman at sea, and crashed into the wall opposite. The wood was so cool, and he sank his burning forehead against it gratefully, for once gladly accepting of the biting freeze that prowled the desolate landscape. Booted feet clomped past his door and he jerked his eyes open, not having realised he'd closed them. Christ alive, but he wanted to stay there - in fact, he'd love simply to crumble and wait out the end of his days in a tidy pile of gormless flesh and lazy bones right in this place. Above them, Terror's bell rang in the turn of the watch, and Hodgson realised his plans of embracing mortality would have to wait. He had things to do.

That's 'Cause I Got People With Me by Castlewood_Bard (@r1ver-6)

Mal has to be sure he knows his crew

Beyond the Reaches of a Long-lost Life by elvntari

Feanor is reembodied at long last and Elrond attempts to reconcile the image that he has of him in his mind with the image of the man standing before him.

Fever Dreaming by dramatispersonae

Gerry encounters a plot by a nascent avatar of the Corruption. It should be straightforward enough to deal with, especially considering his apparently ongoing… "alliance" with Michael. But when have things in his life actually been as simple as they appear?

The World Was Young by Drag0nst0rm (@sweetteaanddragons)

This was not what Maglor had expected when he retreated to his brother's stronghold.

A Taste of Home by Twice2Ennien

"It's good, right?" Koveyook grinned all the way to his eyes, watching John's matching expression. This was the feeling that had drawn his family to restaurants: the warmth, the radiating comfort of a good meal, shared. John made a satisfied sound in the back of his throat, nodding. He covered his mouth as though tempted to speak but thought better of it. Still chewing, he took hold of Koveyook's right wrist and squeezed his thanks instead.

Refiner's Fire by JediRobertHogan

The men knew Hogan looked after them—more than was typical of a commander and his crew. It was in the little things, the details of everyday life, yet sometimes it struck them in undeniable ways. They saw Colonel Hogan as more than a commanding officer, and knew, somehow, that he saw them differently too. - or - Four times Colonel Hogan took care of his men, and one time they took care of him.

Wanted: Dead and Alive by Astereae (@astereaes)

“Hey, I do I... Do I know you?�� Danny asks, a hand coming up to brush something off Tim’s cheek. “No,” Tim says. “We haven’t met.” “Oh, no, I do.” Danny says, and he smiles, teeth white and sharp. “You’re that guy who rearranged my guts!” Rearranged his- Tim glances at the knotted scars on the boy’s abdomen. He can see the shine and shadow of haphazard stitches that weren’t meant to hold forever, that tore and healed over. His- This- “WHAT!?” Nightwing shouts, equal parts confused and delighted. Tim’s fucked. OR Danny Fenton's been in GIW captivity for 4 months. Tim Drake gets kidnapped by the GIW one Tuesday evening in May. Considering how many of the Bats and the Birds have died and come back to life, it was only a matter of time for some people interested in the afterlife to come poking around. The detectives can't seem to uncover any information about the mysterious white vans, however. And they keep losing the mysterious boy who seems to be the one person in Gotham to know anything at all.

Like Melting Ice by pointyshades (@oughtnots)

Francis Crozier dies. Turns out he can't even do that right.

You missed a spot by Lookingkindofdumb (@lookingkindofdumb)

It is just like Dean, Sam thinks, to befriend the man who has chased them across the US in hopes of bringing them home in cuffs. AU where Victor survives and decides to become a hunter. He doesn’t stick around with them for long but they bump into him on occasion.

A Shot's Distance by Blue_Sparkle (@asparklethatisblue)

After digging the bullet out of James Fitzjames’ ribs, Dr Stanley kept it as a memento. A man needs something to hold on to while quietly pining after a friend after all.

we know nothing (so we hope) by TolkienGirl (@thelonelybrilliance)

Sometimes, Neal wonders if Kate loves him. (Mostly, not in so many words.)

A Pavlovian Approach to Honesty by Stratisphyre

“Are you feeling compelled to tell us anything?” Lan Xichen asked. “Not precisely. It does feel nice. I hadn’t associated honesty with anything pleasant before now.” “I don’t think you’ll appreciate this in the morning,” Nie Mingjue muttered. “Do you want us to leave you be? Or gag you?” “I’m finding this entire affair curiously enjoyable, actually,” Meng Yao stated.

Now Sure As the Sun Will Cross the Sky by providing_leverage (@providing-leverage)

Dean Winchester wakes up in his car quietly, heart racing. He reaches for his stomach where the metal bar or pipe or whatever it was had been but there’s nothing but flannel and leather. Leather he’d long ago lost. He rubs the sleep from his eyes and digs a phone from one of the pockets of his Dad’s jacket. Flips it open to check the date. “Well shit.”

Zapped by unholygrass (orphaned)

Gavin Reed used to think androids couldn't feel pain. He's proven wrong. He may hate Connor's fucking guts, but he wouldn't wish this on anyone.

[silvysartfulness]

12, 17, 19, 22 for the choose violence ask game👀

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

Oh man, like. All of them? I tend to only fall for unpopular characters, so that's a long list. But keeping it just to a few choice people in the Untamed;

Xue Yang. Obviously. He's brilliant, he's dedicated, he's fucked up in some really interesting ways and he got so close to having a redemption arc and happy ending before everything came crashing down! If he'd been the protagonist/viewpoint character, you know he'd be getting the fandom's WWX cinnamon roll treatment. But alas.

Jiang Cheng. That so many people dislike him honestly baffles me? I see so many takes that are frankly based in extremely shallow readings, disregarding his trauma, his world context, the impossible balance between his crushing responsibilities and the people important to him. He's not your homophobic dad or schoolyard bully, he's a deeply traumatized person doing the best with what he's got despite losing everything dear to him over and over, and he's trying so hard. He's loud and has a hot temper, but for fuck's sake, there's so much love there and you'd almost have to be willfully blind not to see it!

Jin Guangyao. Another of those "if he'd been the main character/viewpoint character, people would have loved him" ones. He's intelligent, determined, hardworking and loyal - though frequently pushed way beyond his breaking point in that loyalty. Pragmatic to the point of ruthlessness, but it's because the world's one big trolley problem to him - he sacrifices the few to help the many (even if yes, that does include himself in 'the many'), but he doesn't take pleasure in the hurt he causes (except in that one pretty understandable case of his dad). He deserves so much compassion, or at the very least understanding!

Should I put Song Lan on here? A lot of people seem to hate on him for very shallow, ship-related reasons, but within the plot, he tried his very hardest to set things right. It's not his fault they were all already doomed by the narrative and he walked into Yi City that day as the unwitting catalyst.

17. there should be more of this type of fic/art

For fics, Yi City fix-its that don't count killing Xue Yang as "fixing it". Stories digging into the hot mess of the complex, fascinating canon-verse, or at least reincarnation.

More fics with characterization I vibe with - a complicated, rough-edged but ultimately lovable Xue Yang, a compassionate but stubborn and somewhat brittle Xiao Xingchen and a Song Lan who feels so much and is so bad at showing it. More SXX fics overall!

For art, more art with the CQL character designs! The designs for the other adaptations are kind of cute, but they're just not my guys, and I feel pretty lukewarm toward them on the whole.

(And fellow artists - please, please, please don't forget Xue Yang's missing finger! 😭 I see so much fanart with either 10 intact fingers, or a glove with a fully articulated left pinky. His lost finger is the driving force of his entire character arc, don't just forget about it...😢)

19. you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

Hmm... 🤔 On the whole, I don't feel a lot of shame for my tastes in fiction. I'm surprised I actually ended up really liking the main couple as much as I did - in a love story, no less? That literally never happens, I always go for the sideline gremlins.Other than that, though...

Trying very hard to hold up the blorbos and my usual go-to tropes, groping around for any sense of horror or shame, but I can't think of anything really. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

22. your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

I guess I'm that one (1) person who actually likes the Yin Iron plot? I genuinely think CQL made a lot of good choices to tie the sprawling narrative together more cohesively, and I liked the introduction of the Yin Iron and how it led into the creation of the Yin Tiger Seal rather than tossing the latter in as an "Oh yeah, this was a thing that totally existed all along, forgot to mention". (I know MDZS was written and posted in installment, and that can make it hard to work with foreshadowing etc, but even so. I do think CQL did a good job tightening up the story in many ways.)

And don't get me wrong, I absolutely don't mind the idea of Xue Yang as an absolute nobody clawing his way up from nothing! It's a delicious version, too! But there's just something about the idea of a family he could have belonged to, a sense of community he could have had, ripped away centuries before he was even born.

If I want to be a petty, I guess I could put "Xue Yang is canonically brilliant" under this question, too, because I wish that was explored in more fics and meta. The boy is a prodigy. He's a genius. He's also a street-brawler, petty thief and murderous little piece of shit, but that doesn't take away the first point. Let Xue Yang be the highly, dangerously intelligent Problem that he actually is!

[nias-nook]

Hey I stumbled on a few MF fics of yours some times, I didn't know you took requests!

May I ask what type of requests you take/don't take (apart of morally unacceptable ones, that is)? What are your thoughts on x readers? Do you do pairings/ships? If so, which ones? What tropes do you like writing the most and the least? How much do you follow and ignore of the official canon? Do you have any favorite characters or any that you are more close to? Which? And lastly, for the sake of taking that out of the way, how do you feel about NSFW?

I'm sorry if those are too many questions and you are completely free to not reply to any/all of them. I'm just curious to know more of the fanfic writers of the fandom (especially the ones who do asks, these deserve to be seen a lot)

Hello! Thanks so much for sending an ask in; I'll try and answer these as comprehensively as possible and hope the read more feature works because this is going to be long!

In terms of what I will write, I'm pretty flexible! Angst, fluff, romance, I like to keep my options open tonally!

I've never written x readers and I can't say I have a huge interest in doing so in the future. Respect to people who do, though! There's clearly a huge market for it and I do have a level of nostalgia for that kind of contnet.

When it comes to Metal Family, my taste in ships is incredibly milquetoast. I'm a huge Glam/Vicky and Glam/Ches enjoyer! I also like Dee/Lif in an 'aww, these kids are so lame, they deserve each other' way.

Oooh, tropes! Well, if my works are anything to go by, I'm a sucker for flashbacks (do they count as a trope? I'm gonna say yes). Mutual pining is super fun, and I generally love writing anything with a lot of banter. On the flip side, I'm not a big fan of slow burn or enemies to lovers. I don't tend to think in 'tropes', I guess! Everything can be pulled off amazingly or failed miserably, so I try not to judge a story based on what tropes may be present.

I adhere to canon pretty strictly where I can. I know a lot of people like to mold characters for their stories and put them in extreme scenarios, but I prefer to work with what's already established! Which is pretty tough with an ongoing show like MF, where anything I've written could be contradicted by a later episode at any given time. The official comic says the Freaks' original recording space was in Lordi's house and not Bob's like I mentioned in my fic, Gettin' The Band Together!, and it tears me up inside.

My favourite character is, to no one's surprise, Glam! I've written several fics about him already and I don't plan on stopping any time soon. I'd say he's my main favourite to write, but characters like Lydia and Ches really surprised me with how much I ended up loving writing them.

As for NSFW? I can't say I have any plans to dip my toe into that kind of thing at the moment; I CANNOT imagine being any good at writing it and frankly I don't have a whole lot of interest. I'll leave that kind of content to the pros.

Okay, this is probably WAY more thorough than you wanted, I kinda underestimated how much I was going to ramble. But I hope this is the kind of answer you were looking for! I actually had a LOT of fun answering these, I'd love more questions like these in the future!

[skoati]

Hi! I saw your recent reblog, and since you're bored I thought I'd send some questions (´·ω·)ﾉ(._.`) ←us lol

When did you first get into hetalia? Whose your favorite hetalia character? And why? Do you have an otp or pretty equal on liking the ships you like? Do you have any ships you dislike?

Most importantly have you hydrated today? Have you eaten? Stretched or move around some? And today have you reminded yourself that you're cool because I'm pretty sure you are (I just have a Spidey sense about cool people what can I say) it won't let me make that whole sentence small,, fuck.

Anyway I hope you have a good day! Cheers! -🪽

I first (actively) got into Hetalia in early 2022 iirc. So I'm pretty new to the fandom but I can't believe it's already been 2 years!

My favorite Hetalia character fluctuates and it's so hard to decide tbh!! So it'd be easier for me to list my top favs instead: Nyo Russia & Russia, Nyo America, Canada, Germany & Nyo Germany, Nyo Belarus & Belarus, Romano, and Prussia. I like a lot of others too ofc... England, France & Nyo France, Nyo Italy, Spain & Nyo Spain...

If I were to pick a top top top fav it'd have to be Nyo Russia(if you couldn't tell by my pfp lol). I love her design and the personality I gave her in my head. I'm very picky about her characterization and tend to throw out many drafts attempting her. She is so complex... Although Nyo Germany, Nyo America, and more recently Canada are up there too. I love writing and reading them! I've also gotten a new appreciation for Arthur? I now get why he used to be a Tumblr sexyman lol. He's very versatile

My top otp must be Amecan I guess, though USUK was my first ship and it's still a top contender. I was obsessed with Gerpru for some time so it's also up there! I also like Rusger, especially the Nyo Russia x Germany combination which tends to be nonexistent in the western fandom. And Nyo Rusbela gives me brainworms that regular Rusbela doesn't for some reason

As for ships I dislike... I'm probably gonna have to go against the grain here and say Rusame. The art and fics of it are usually so beautiful but it's just really not to my tastes. I don't like it in any variation, though I'll still read it if it's well written. My friends are VERY into it so no shade to anyone who likes it lol. Other popular ships I'm also not into are Rusliet, Prucan, and Rochu.

And yeah I hydrate myself like a camel don't worry. Drinking tea nonstop is part of my culture. I hate coffee but my doctor says I need to consume more caffeine so I may have to force myself to start drinking it 😔😔

Anyways thank you so much for your ask!!!! Reminder to everyone that I don't bite and am open to any and all dms, I have made a lot of great friends in this fandom and am always happy to have more~ Warning though I am chatty!! My discord is the same username as here if anyone wants to friend me ^_^

[alphonseelriic]

Happy almost Christmas Sofia!! Gosh the days go by so fast! I can't believe it's almost here. Probably my last anon msg before reveals 😉 but feel free to continue talking to me after if you want to, it's been lovely to be your Santa!

Oh! I hope your time at the beach has been eveything you wanted? ☺️ 

Still wanting all of the food you talk highly of haha ❤. Would be really cool to visit south america one day and try some of these authentically! Will keep my eyes out to see if there's any around tho heh. 

And wow your mum is a professional baker! You must be used to the best goods then!! 😵 She must be so flattered you love her pannetone best too. And that's fair about not being into the kitchen lol but good to know you're capable there. ^^ I like cooking/baking but I'm not a fan of the cleaning that comes with it 😆 and these days I'm so tired, it sometimes feels like a lot of work to make a meal beyond basics lol. But when I'm in the mood I really like experiment with new recipes and decorating baked goods is always fun! Do you have a "go-to" meal you cook? 

Oh please do try duck! Theres so many ways to eat it...all delicious ha. Though it has a gamey taste that some people don't like, so I wonder if you prefer those or not too? 👀 Do you like lamb/goat flavors? (Since that has an even more gamey taste haha). Ooo tteokbokki is so good, a food fair sounds fun!  Alsjdkkdd honestly I'm so drawn to hot cocoa during the winter haha so totally valid and cappuccino too!! Yum!! Fresh fruit juices, so refreshing 😍. I love mango smoothies.

Oh no, what did you get to read instead in high school? We had a list of authors and books we could pick from to read during Lit class in high school that was a lot of classics including Jane Austen! It's been so long though, I honestly don't remember much. Do you like any of the jane austen movies too? 

Omg I know the struggle to find the fics that fit what you want to see from your favs lol, it's esp. hard in smaller fandoms or not as popular ships. What kind of ships are you into? 👀 And what kind of fics draw you in most? 

The struggle not to rewatch haikyuu all the time, yes!! 😆 Because it gives so much serotonin lol, but I know if it wait longer and don't remember everything, it'll be better haha. Speaking of MOB, ugh I haven't seen the last episode yet but I'm already sad it's over 😭 but deep in the feels. I'm particularly in love with "exist" ost this time. 🥲

Totally get what your saying and thanks for that bits of information! All the examples you linked are so pleasing to look at 😊 and Mazusu is easily one of my fav editors too. ❤ I can't wait to also see what you'll edit for this event! And hope you'll enjoy my lil gift to you! 🤧 Also thank you for your work with animanga creators, agree their challenges are a lot of fun 😄.

Be back very soon and happiest of holidays to you! ❤💚

- Animanga 🎅 

Omg happy Christmas Eve, secret santa ❤️ yessss!! I'm so excited to find out who you are >:) Awww thank you sm! I'm very glad to have had such a wonderful santa this year :')

Yeah, my time at the beach was v nice! We arrived back home yesterday afternoon. We didn't do much but that's actually what I wanted hahahah I was just so tired.

That's so sweet, I would love it if you visit 🥹 this continent may not be most people's first option for a vacation but it's truly beautiful and has such touristic potential!!

Ohh yes my mom bakes a lot of stuff! It's mostly for orders and we are forbidden from eating anything tho, but she does also bake for us occasionally ^^ I would be lying if I said she wasn't partially responsible for my sweet tooth...

Oh the cleaning, what a struggle LMAO it does indeed suck when you prepare a rather small thing but it leaves a lot of dirty dishes behind 😔 experimenting is really fun indeed!! I guess a meal I tend to "cook" often are different kinds of salads made with whatever is on the fridge, as they're so easy to make! I also like frying eggs and eating them with leftover rice if there's any. Grilled cheese sandwiches are also a classic. Maybe this is cheating bc nothing is actually made out of scratch, but oh well :p

I tend to like stuff with strong flavors so I think I may like duck! I don't remember the last time I ate lamb but I do remember liking it. The food fair was really fun indeed 💕 had a great time even if the weather was terrible that day. Oh I forgot about smoothies, I really like them too! Same with milkshakes.

I honestly don't remember much about what I had to read in high school 🤔 I remember reading Frankenstein, Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde and The Catcher in the Rye. Also a few books and short tales from Latin American authors. Unfortunately we couldn't choose for ourselves, the teacher decided for us :( but I liked most of what I read thankfully!

Yeah I loooove the pride and prejudice movie from 2005! I also want to watch the 1995 miniseries but I haven't had the time yet. I want to watch the Sense and sensibility movie too after I finish the book to see how faithful it is heheh

Tbh when it comes to ships I tend to like the popular (or canon) choices, like EdWin, TwiYor, RinShi, HanaNene, SasaMiya etc. But for media that has a big cast and doesn't focus on romance (like Haikyuu or Genshin) I tend to multiship and I like less common ships too!! I admit I'm not very creative for finding new ships so usually I end up drawn in by that one artists that is obsessed with a rarepair but has a really cute art style 😅 I'm trying to think about some examples but my mind is blank rn 🤔 maybe this is my sign to go back and consume more hq fanart like I did back in the day lol

Ohh I still haven't watched the last episode either, but idk, it's hard to say goodbye to this series 😭 my excuse is that I usually wait to watch it with my partner but we haven't had the opportunity to watch it together yet. I can't delay it for much longer tho or the entire episode will be spoiled for me sooner or later hahaha

Oww I'm glad my examples were useful for you!! Yeah masuzu's stuff is simply wonderful :') I'll upload my gift as soon as I finish answering this ask so you'll get to see it very soon 😈 I'm 100% sure I'll love what you made for me!! I can't wait to see it 🙈 aww thanks!! I still feel I don't do much despite being a mod but I want to have a more active rol from now on, my friend Roh had such a good idea when she thought about making this network, it's been an awesome experience so far and it reignited my love for this community ❤️❤️❤️ this event was super super fun!!

The happiest holidays to you too 💕 I hope you have a magical time alongside whoever you celebrate with!! Have fun tonight and eat a lot of delicious food ❣️ thank you so much again for being such a great santa! couldn't have asked for more ;)

[frukmerunning]

do you have hetalia fanfic rec’s? I feel like you have good taste.

boy do I!

These are like... all of my favorite fics, I'll organize them by ship. I BELIEVE all of these are completed. if some aren't then you can yell at me later.

I highly recommend all of these, they're all wonderful pieces of literature (and if they're not, then they're still fun to read)

FrUK:

If I Never Asked, Would You Tell Me?

- Human Au where Arthur and Francis meet on a park bench as children and never exchange names, but keep meeting throughout the years. It's very cute, and a short read!

Anatomy of an Anomalous Relationship

- FACE Family. Arthur and Francis are the single parents of Alfred and Matthew, respectively. Alfred and Matthew become best friends at school and shenanigans ensue for their parents. It's old, but so worth the read

The Difference Between Angels and Englishmen

- The first of many university au's on this list (I have a bias). Arthur is is med school and Francis is a art grad student. I can't recommend this fic enough. I think it's pretty well known in the fandom for being really good, but it's another oldie.

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- listen.. I'm so in love with this fic that I literally copy-pasted the ENTIRE thing into a google doc just in case the original livejournal page ever gets taken down. And if it does ever get taken down I'll enter a state of mourning akin to the people of England with Sir Arthur Conan Doyle killed off Sherlock Holmes.

-Anyway... it's very good. Please read it. They were roommates

Every Day

- Every day for four years, Francis stands on his balcony as Arthur walks by, and asks Arthur to marry him. I remember nothing about this fic but I know I liked it. Also it may contain ameripan, I don't remember.

What We Remember

- I also don't remember anything about this fic except that I liked it!

The Art of Being Emotionally Detached

- I think Arthur is a coffin maker in this one which... goals I guess.

PruAus:

The Shapes of Things

- Gilbert is a single dad raising his son, Ludwig. Ludwig watches as Gilbert falls in love with his kindergarten teacher, Mr. Edelstein. It's old but it's a very sweet fic

What Love Is

- This one is nationverse! PruAus from Germany's perspective, he learns what love is through watching their interesting relationship. Also has side notes of GerAus if that's something you don't like.

Whiskey Lullaby

-*Has a graphic depiction of suicide, so read at your own risk*

-This fic makes me bawl, every time I hear the song I have a visceral reaction to it. After Gilberts suicide, Roderich spirals downward while reflecting on the mistakes he made in the past. It's heartbreaking.

Hands of a Musician, Heart of a Soldier

- Gilbert is discharged from the German army due to injuries during WW2. He returns home to find his father harboring a Jew, Roderich Edelstein. They learn to live with each other.

- If you like Lily of the Lamplight by he who shall not be named, I highly recommend that you read this one. It actually has a good depiction of Jewish Roderich during WW2. It's one of my favorite PruAus fics, very much worth the read.

Other:

Upright Citizens (GerAus)

- Germany and Austria fucked during the Buon san Valentino strip...

Acceleration Waltz (AmeGer)

- Set in 1950s New York, when anti!German sentiment was at it's highest. Immigrant Ludwig finds an unlikely friend (and more), in Alfred. I haven't read the whole thing, because it just got finished in 2020, but when I started reading it in 2016 I was absolutely in love with it.

Staring at the Sun (Germano)

- This is literally the best fic I've ever read, please read it. If you don't like germano this fic will convert you.

- 1960s Italy. Ludwig is trying to find himself. But he finds a sexy-ass Italian man instead.. upgrades. This is a terrible summary just read the fic

[queenofthearchipelago]

Okay so, not gonna lie, I did have to look up what exactly RPF stood for so that I could properly engage with your reply here.

The Internet tells me that RPF stands specifically for Real People Fanfiction. (I have been in fandom for so long I feel embarrassed to not have known that lol, but hey, it wasn't my thing, so I guess it makes a little sense I didn't know that). But yeah, anyway, RPF is not exactly what this post is about.

I've scrolled past my fair share of Michael and David fanfic, and while I do think it's odd, I'm pretty much never going to judge anyone for their fanfic tastes, both in writing it or in reading it. I'm sure I have my fanfic tastes that would make you ask me why I enjoy fics like that. It's just human to be different and have different preferences with our fiction. And also, there's such a large pool of reasons for someone to write or read a fic. Maybe it's just for fun, maybe they're working through something, etc.

But, again, that's not what this post is speaking to. I'm speaking of something I've noticed in the fandom, where I've watched some blogs turn from being active members of the good omens fandom, to saying that the good omens fandom is Toxic Actually, and they ship Michael and David now.

Now listen to me, I am absolutely NOT saying that the good omens fandom is perfect. I've never had an issue here, I don't see hatred of any sort in this fandom but I also know that I've found my people and I largely stay out of the tags these days. I've found my circle and I'm so happy with all the meta, fanart, and fic writers I've become friends with. But this specific turn I've seen - Good Omens is a Toxic fandom and now I ship Michael and David - it feels like a strange choice. How do I explain this in a way that makes sense?

It feels like they can't ship Aziraphale and Crowley the way they wanted (because their experience of the fandom is toxic) and so they're turning to analyzing Michael and David in those ways instead.

I do agree with all you've said in your reply, it's actually really refreshing to read thoughtful insights on fandom and how we should approach others preferences when they differ from our own.

Especially since, yeah, people have been speculating about celebrities lives in invasive ways for as long as there have been celebrities to be curious about. But that doesn't make those speculations any less invasive, any less rude. And that tells me a lot about these people who speculate this way, it tells me a lot about their character.

Because yes, David and Michael have this fantastic close relationship. It's wonderful, I love the glimpses of it that we've gotten to see at award shows and in interviews. And yes, they both know about the fans of their relationship existing. And yes they do make jokes towards that.

But... they aren't Aziraphale and Crowley. There aren't any carefully laid out Clues. They don't want you to "figure out" that they're cheating on their partners with each other. They aren't hinting at a polycule because they can't just be open about it. (Like, they either would want us to know or they wouldn't.) They also aren't hinting at divorces from their partners or a separation.

They ALSO aren't "overcompensating" for a lack of sex in the bedroom at home with love-bombing in public because a divorce between David and Georgia is inevitable because David would rather sleep with Michael. (Yes, a take I read with my eyes.)

It tells me a lot about someone to see takes like this. To see a picture of David and Georgia smiling at each other and claiming it's fake because they clearly don't love each other anymore. (They literally have 5 young kids together, they work together all the time, and David makes as many sex jokes about Georgia in public as Michael makes about David. This totally looks like a loveless, sexless marriage from the outside. 😑)

These are people, not a jigsaw puzzles to figure out to make us feel smart or involved or like we know them. We don't know them.

And that was my point. Like yeah sure, go on and write the fics about the foursome. The rule about not bringing it TO the real people themselves, that seems like a good rule.

But from where I stand, speculation like this is dishonest (and it's usually presented with a very strong confidence.) and it's invasive and rude.

The F in RPF stands for Fiction. But this isn't about fiction. This is about assuming that a marriage of 15 years is a sham because those people act like they love each other in public. (Like yeah, I'd hope so...?) It's fabricating fiction about their real lives in a way that's presented as truth. As if you can, you should, and they want you to put the Clues together. So that the fans can have a secret club of being the only ones who Know The Truth.

It's just odd. It doesn't have to be this way and I'm sure that a great deal of the majority of people who like seeing Michael and David together don't go that far. But again, I'm talking about a subsection of the fandom here.

Thanks for replying, it was great to read your thoughts and I learned something! (If you want to continue discussion, I'm open to doing so!)

I'm genuinely shocked and a little disturbed that there's this subsection of the good omens fandom that has turned from just loving the show and shipping the characters to shipping Michael and David.

Like first of all, please don't ship real people.

Second, it goes even further than that with some people, somehow finding "evidence" to hate their partners and speculating about their sex lives.

It's just weird... I'm here for the good omens. I enjoy Michael and David as the actors and public figures they are, I enjoy the bits of their friendship that we get to see. But I'm not going to spend time speculating on whether or not they're divorcing their spouses, or how their sex lives are, or anything else going on behind the scenes.

A person being a public figure is not an invitation to speculate about them in invasive and quite frankly extremely rude ways. But that's just my take.

[set-wingedwarrior]

Ok so you talked about your ships, what about fic/ship tropes? Don't have to be guilty pleasure ones, just the ones you really like.

I like enemies to lovers, hurt/comfort, coffee shop au's (I think I just find them cozy), I recently started reading more smut so I'm discovering that dirty talk and praise kink is a thing I enjoy reading about also. Any domestic fluff and the fic already won me over lol.

Oh wait I got a guilty pleasure one actually! It's omegaverse stuff I guess. I get that others don't like it and I get why that might be, but all the ones I read actually have nicely written character along with all the smut that comes with it.

Since reading Swimming Lessons I found myself very weak for the Single Parent AU!

I can't explain it, it's a mix of love story and found family (litterally, lmao)? The parent having struggles since their child became their number one priority, and also being afraid of not finding someone able to accept that? And love interest needing to get approval of the child as well before being welcomed in the family and, eventually, being seen as the second parent? Idk, there's some many layers of trust and relationship bonding and dynamics here and I'm so into it, that's some good shit!

I also love some classic Coffe Shop Au, and Childhood Friends to Lovers (also known as Best Friends to Lovers basically)! More generally, I also like High Schools and College AUs (just them being classmates basically xD). Meanwhile, fluffy things are always great reads!

I enjoy reading smut as well, mostly for the intimacy and trust themes! You know, making yourself (litterally) bare in front of your partners, I love this kind of things! (And I find praise and soft dirty talk very enjoyable to read as well, you got good taste xD) That applies to the good smut of course. Bad smut to me is either disgusting, or incredibly hilarious! (kind of like horror movies thinking about it)

I can see your appeal of the omegaverse to be honest. I ended up reading and enjoying a few works from some specific writers, and I find that universe and its rules kind of interesting. I can see why people like those fantasies, and if a story got also good writing and characters, why not enjoy it?

[phantomofsilence]

Title : Stuck Between A Rock And A Hard Place

Word Count : Honestly who the hell knows?

Warning : Sad Bucky, sad Steve, you can see it from the request.

A/N :

Alright so i already posted this request but Tumblr somehow deleted it. So i had to do it all over again. Well thankfully not the story, i fortunately wrote it in the notes, i learned that lesson the hard way. Anyway along with a story the request itself was deleted. So i think this is how the request went, if it was your request message me if it was wrong. Also i had a really hard time with this request, i don't know why i just wasn't inspired, well probably more tired from college than inspired, but that's why it took so long. I wanted to do it right. Also for anyone else who send me a request i saw it, and i will right it as soon as my obligations allow me some free time. Also i did the P. O. V. thing so don't get confused. Okay, enough rambling, i hope you like it. And also i believe there was a compliment in the request for gif usage, thank you for that. 😘😘😘❤️

Request : Can you do a fic where you and the new agent are getting closer to the point where the team suspects that you are falling out of love with Bucky? (angst to fluff).

Steve's P. O. V.

As soon as he saw her enter the kitchen Chris was out of his seat smothering her in a hug, but Natasha and Steve, hung back and watched with frowns on their faces.

They stayed quiet during their conversation occasionally sipping coffee.

Their stubbornness and Steve's persistence in making sure both him and the team stay out of this complicated and deeply personal situation, rendered them mute, as they stood there cold and stoic, as they sipped on their coffee.

Many would say the intimacy in the embrace, those gentle smiles, and completely unnecessary gazes they were curently being subjected to were highly inappropriate and Steve would have to agree with them.

The more he watched, the more sorry he felt for his friend. But no, Steve wasn't angry at her, he was hurt. How could such a sweet girl be so uncaring? No one deserves this kind of treatment, his friend the least. He's been through so much already, Steve thought you out of all people understood this.

He lost so much, did he have to lose you too?

You were the rock that kept thing moving, a force anyone could fall back on if needed to be. And you want to abandon it all, for this Chris, a man you barely know compared to his friend.

Steve knew he was letting his feelings cloud his judgement, and you haven't really done anything but spent time with a man you claimed was your friend, a man that was your partner. He knew he spent just as much, if not more time with Natasha and she was one of his most valued friends.

Also, Chris seemed like a nice guy, the kind of man if you were still single he'd advise you to go for.

But that's it, you weren't single. In fact you were in a committed relationship with the most important person in his life.

He was stuck between a rock and a hard place, and he didn't know what to do. Invade his best friend's privacy or let his best friend be hurt when he could at least cushion the blow.

One more look at the 'lovely couple' and he decided, privacy be damned, his friend deserves honesty at least and he was gonna make sure he got it for him.

"Steve.." a voice trailed off cautiously, he looked over the see Natasha leaning on the counter facing them, with her head turned towards him looking at him.

"I know, Nat." he knew he shouldn't have snapped, it wasn't her fault. She sighed.

"Steve it should be one of us, I know it sucks to hurt him like that, but it's even worse if he caught them, and we knew but didn't tell him."Like always the redhead was right, but he still tried to reason with her.

"But she hasn't done anything yet Natasha, we can't make things up when they didn't happen."

She rolled her eyes at his statement. "Yes, Steve, she hasn't done anything, yet Steve. The key word being yet. Come on, Steve! They've known each other for only two months, and they are joined at the hip. If you think Bucky didn't notice you are mistaken. Dude's been giving her the kicked puppy eyes for days now and she hasn't even noticed choosing to ogle at her new beau. This calls for revenge! "The redhead took a deep breath and said.

" He is your best friend Steve, if the rolls were reversed wouldn't you like him to say something? "

Steve didn't respond, it wasn't necessary, they both knew the answer. Instead of pushing him, Natasha gently squeezed his shoulder and left him in the kitchen to think it over.

An hour later Steve was letting out his anger on a punching bag. The more he thought about it, the more conflicted he got.

This wasn't his relationship but it was his friend. Thou you were his friend too, after Peggy's death you along with Natasha were there for him, hell you've spent the whole day making jokes just to make him forget.

You were like Bucky, the Bucky from before, not just before The Winter Soldier, but before the war. The guy that got him in a lot of trouble and the guy that stood by him and protected him when he took a bite too large to swallow.

The man that took him to many unsuccessful dates, his companion, his family, it's what drew him to you.

You were a sense reality in the world that no longer made sense, a familiar face in a strange place.

Although he wanted to protect his friend, he also felt oddly protective of you. He couldn't betray your trust, but he couldn't betray Bucky either.

Why did this has to be so hard? He thought and punched the punching bag so hard it ripped and fell few feet away.

"What did that punch bag ever do to you?" Said a man Steve was successfully avoiding since this morning.

"Oh, hey Buck. What's up?" he said trying to act nonchalant. "I could ask you the same thing. Why are you avoiding me? Did i do something?" Bucky demanded.

"I'm not avoiding you." Steve mildly shrugged. Glaring at him he got closer almost to his face. "What the hell is going on?"

Steve could hear the anger in his voice, but also hurt, trying to protect him he's the one that ended up hurting him.

"Nothing, Buck." Steve said. "Listen here, punk!

"It's bad enough the love of my life could possible be cheating on me right now, now i can't even trust you!? What the hell man?"

Steve looked at his best friend, his eyes were puffy, tears threatening to spill, but he refused to let them fall, he had dark bags under his eyes, he hasn't been sleeping well, his hands shaking in anger, this was a man already hurt.

"Look i wanted to tell you about her, but I didn't want to betray her either so I've been ignoring you both so i don't hurt anyone. I guess that ship sailed." He said, his friend deserved honestly at least he can get it from him.

"You think she's cheating on me?" asked Bucky. "I don't know, man. I did not see her so anything, from all we know we're just making stuff up."

Steve frowned, even thou he shouldn't do it now, he was defending her. "You're a good friend, Steve. But i didn't ask what you saw, i want a yes or no answer." Bucky said.

"Why do i matter, why are you asking me? If you really wanted to know you'd ask her. But you're asking me because you know i will never give you that answer. So why are you asking me, Buck?" Steve demanded.

Bucky glared at him, before he grabbed his shoulder giving him a smile." You're a punk, kid."Bucky said, paused to inhale and exhale before continuing." It's because i don't really wanna know. I love her, Steve. If fact i love her so much that even thou, she 's literally ripping me in half, my brain is still finding a reason to forgive her. That she loves me and it's all a mistake. I'm pathetic."

Bucky lowered his head, squeezed his shoulder again, let go and turned to leave.

At the door Steve voice halted him in place.

" You're not pathetic. You love her. Knowing you my whole life, you were never soft on a dame like that. I'm sorry it had to be like this."

Without turning around Bucky whispered. "Me too." And left.

Steve could see it bright as day this man was a mess. He had to do something, you might be his friend, and it wasn't his business , but he was about to confront you.

Steve knew you, you were not a coward.

He would get you to tell the truth, perhaps it wasn't too late. You need to be honest and you might even work it out with Bucky.

Taking his phone out of his pocket he texted you to meet him in his room.

Your P. O. V.

After the workout Chris suggested you go to the diner you always go after a successful mission.

"Come on it's been some time since we been there." Snorting at that statement you replied. "We literally went there two days ago."

Groaning Chris whined. "Exactly, too long, come on i know you can practically taste those fries and that strawberry and vanilla milkshake you like. Eh, it will be fun and if i may say so i make great company."

Although the offer was tempting, and you really could taste those fries and that delicious milkshake, you had to go home to your boyfriend.

You missed him so much, and judging by those sad eyes he's been giving you he missed you just as much, if not more.

The missions you were being sent on this past month left little to no time for your relationship, and now having to prepare for an undercover mission of great importance and you weren't allowed to speak about it with anyone according to Maria, you were forced to spend all your free time with Chris.

Well forced was a harsh word, Chris was a great man and an amazing partner, but he wasn't your boyfriend.

"Sorry gotta take a rain check." You mumbled apologetically. Chris smiled and pulled you in for a hug.

"Hey i get it, if i had a hunk like that waiting for me at home, i wouldn't even bother talking to you. Scram, kid." You arched an eyebrow on chuckling. "Is that so? "

"I'd fuck him."

As you were nearing your apartment your phone buzzed. Looking at the screen you saw you had a text from Steve. Opening it read' We need to talk, met me at my place'.

Steve was not the best texter but he never sounded this urgent and formal. If this was about the mission he would have asked meat at The Tower, this was personal.

Something was wrong.

All it took was three knocks to be met with Steve's hard gaze, he stood aside allowing you to come in.

"So we need to talk?Are you breaking up with me Steve?"A light-hearted joke that was meant to brighten the mood was met with a glare. Okay, not the right crowd.

"Listen, i know it's non of my business and you're my friend, but this needs to end. What the hell is going on with you and Chris? "

Steve asked firmly before placing his hands on his belt buckle. You knew that stance, you've seen it a million times, it was meant to frighted and send a message that he met business.

You never thought you's see it being used on you. But you weren't so easily scared.

"You're right, Steve it's non of your business ." You replied defensively. Who was he thinking he could question you?

"You're right, but i don't care. I'm the one who has to watch my friend heartbroken when you leave with Chris, so excuse me if I'm a little protective. Just don't. Own up to it." Steve said.

"Own up to what, Steve? Heartbroken? My Bucky? What the hell is going on?" You demanded. You have done nothing to Bucky. What the hell is he talking about?"You hurt him and..." Steve began but you cut him off. "Hurt him i haven' t even spoken to him!" You piped up.

"Exactly."

Bucky's P. O. V.

Knowing he couldn't stay cupped up in his room with all those thoughts swearing in his head Bucky decided to take a walk, and by walk he meant a run, muttering angry at nothing and panting wildly.

He wasn't sure if he was panting because he was tired from the aggressive run or the work his mind put him through.

He decided the latter.

As if he was cursed to suffer today, he ran into the last person he wanted to see. Chris strolled up to him, a bright smile on his face, as if he wasn't the cause to his misery. Some nerve on this guy!

"Hey, Buck right?" he said to Bucky holding his hand for him to shake. Bucky just looked down at it frown.

"Not a hand shaker? Alright, i get it. I'm getting used on it myself.Also some say it's unhygienic."

What pissed of Bucky even more was that Chris wasn't even fazed by Bucky unfriendly stance. This guy!

"Anyway i just wanted to meet the man my partner won't shut up about. I mean that woman's got you on a pedestal you'd think your shooting rainbow out of your ass."

Keep rubbing salt to an open wound, Bucky though. This dude was something else.

"Look man, i don't really know her for that long, but she's kinda grown on me. She's one heck of a woman. She means a lot to me and... " Bucky cut him of. "I can imagine." He remarked through his teeth.

"No, you really can't, she has been there for me after the war, you know when you get back everyone keeps walking on egg shells around you, it's a strange place, even the bed feels wrong, too soft. But she made me feel human."

Suddenly the anger for the man was gone and all that was left was confusion. Chris was a marine? It would explain his posture.

" She's not afraid to hold me, i thank God or whatever is out there everyday for a friend like her. "

Bucky knew what he was talking about oh to well, she made him fell the same. She was comfort, she was peace, she was his home.

" Why are you telling me all of this? "Bucky asked.

" Because I'm not blind, i know a jealous man when i see one. She holds me because it helps me relax, not because she is in love with me. Don't even try to deny it. I know what it feels to love her, but you know what it feels like to be loved by her. If anyone has the right to be jealous, it's me. Don't screw this up, man. See ya. "

Before Bucky even had the chance to process what Chris had said, he turned and ran the other way.

Walking into your room you felt oddly nervous. You didn't even know it but you've made the man you love, a man in doubt.

He now questioned your love and you did not even notice. Sure you saw a bit of sadness but regarded it as him simply missing you.

Not a man heartbroken and riddled with insecurities. He probably hasn't even slept right and you didn't see it.

There was no reason for your fear, the room was empty, no Bucky in sight. Footsteps in the hallway made you turn around. Walking out of the room you followed the footsteps into the hallway, outside your apartment, down the stairs and only when you were outside did you catch the glimpse of the man of our.

Gathering enough courage you called out Bucky who at the sound of your voice turned and froze.

The tension was high, you could feel it in the air as you stared at one another.

Just as you opened your mouth to speak not even knowing what to say Bucky crossed the distance, grabbed you by the back of your neck and kissed you.

It only took you a second to respond, the kiss was desperate, teeth clashing, tongues fighting for dominance, while hands roamed all over, pulling, squeezing.

Pulling away for air you kept your eyes closed. "Tell me you love me." Pleaded Bucky, making you feel even more guilty.

Opening your eyes your hands sneaked themselves around his neck pulling until your forehead touched his own.

"I'm not sure about a lot of things Bucky. But there is one thing i am sure about and that is that i love you, James Buchanan Barnes, i love you and i always will. I'm sorry i ever made you doubt my love. "

"No, i am the one that's sorry. I shouldn't have doubted you in the first place. I got so stuck in my own head. I'm sorry. I love you so much, doll."

"I love you. Let's just forget about it and agree that from now on we will talk about this things. No holding back. "

"You're right. From now, we talk. But please be patient with me. And do me a favor, will you."

"Anything."

"Don't quit on me. I know it can be hard to be with me sometimes, but I love you as much it is possible for this broken man to love. "

"You're not broken, just bent. And don't act like I'm a walk in the park, i know i can be frustrating. But this is a relationship, we work together, we compromise, we fight, we make love. We don't quit on each other, we fight for us."

"I love you."

"And i love you."

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here you go folks, the 36 different combinations of cornley characters and whether i would ship them or not, as someone who will support many different ships at the same time. the order they're listed in is generated randomly, i put them all in a wheel of names and just spun it.

robert/dennis: hell no

trevor/jonathan: honestly a ship i've had in mind for a while but no one else seems to see the appeal of? i think it could work (and i'm planning on incorporating a lil bit of it into a fic i have planned)

max/annie: no thank you no

chris/vanessa: pretty neutral. i see the appeal and the concepts behind it, and i'd be willing to put my sexuality headcanons aside to read a fic based on them, but idk in my head it's platonic. i'll ship it if the fic's good enough.

robert/jonathan: i've never thought about it before but??? it's a concept for sure. i think because jonathan's such an enigma, you can make him fit quite a few ships. i would be willing to give this ship a try.

trevor/dennis: noooo

max/dennis: nah they're too platonic for me to be able to see it. i could maybe entertain a queerplatonic relationship? but not romantically, they're best buds.

sandra/dennis: NO they're siblings your honour

annie/vanessa: YEAH annessa for the win fr

max/trevor: you're not allowed to watch the play that goes wrong and not ship them at least a little bit. anyway despite all of my max/sandra posting, i am a huge maxtrev supporter and i love them with all of my heart.

robert/annie: no no no

annie/trevor: sir that's a lesbian and a gay man

jonathan/vanessa: honestly i do not see it, but if someone wrote a fic i would probably give it a go.

jonathan/dennis: nah

chris/sandra: once again, NO they're siblings your honour

robert/max: i do not personally see it, but i guess there's a few ideas in there? someone could probably make it work. i don't think it's for me though.

trevor/robert: there is like one or two fics with this ship, which warmed me up to it a little, but it's still not one i'd get invested in? i'll say i'm neutral on it.

robert/sandra: exists according to chaptgpt, but it's a hard no from me.

chris/max: i believe this is another one that has a few fics? not really my taste, but if the fic was good i'd ship it.

chris/robert: WHERE ARE MY GROVEBEAN HOMIES AT??? anyway yes 100% love it

sandra/annie: there's something so homoerotic about their fight in the play that goes wrong. anyway yes i support it.

chris/jonathan: like trevor/jonathan, this is another one that i've had in mind as a ship for a while, but no one else seems to think so??? i think it could be interesting, someone please back me up on this.

vanessa/trevor: do not see it at all

max/jonathan: never considered it before. honestly curious to see how it would play out. i would read a fic, if only out of curiosity.

max/vanessa: nooo they're friends

sandra/vanessa: yes! good! i love the existing fics for them, and i would read more!

robert/vanessa: oh god oh no no no no. the power imbalance (him being her life coach) is already screaming toxic as all fuck. absolute no.

vanessa/dennis: listen. i very much interpreted the proposal as panicking x dumbass, not as anything more than that. so it wasn't really a ship i saw in any way. but there are a few very good fics that have made me ship them slightly. they're not my go-to's, but if the fic is good i will get invested.

chris/trevor: HI CHRISTREV BELOVEDS

annie/dennis: nahhhh

annie/jonathan: no. i know they kissed, but they'd both just suffered serious injuries and they clearly weren't thinking straight. no way.

chris/annie: i've seen a few people ship them, but i cannot see it for the life of me.

chris/dennis: nOO

jonathan/sandra: they tried that and it didn't work. let them stay broken up.

sandra/trevor: no no thank you. they can both be dating max (polyamorous max for the win!!!) but it's not a triangle polyamory.

max/sandra: can't believe they were left until last, it's like the name picker knew how obsessed i am. anyway to absolutely no one's surprise, they're my faves and i love them so so much.

should i make a list of every possible cornley dynamic and say whether i ship them

[madara-fate]

Thoughts on SebaCiel? I personally hate it to the core. Their relationship is okay, just not romantically. They can care for each other, just not romantically. They can love each other, just not romantically. Anything romantic between them feels wrong. This ship just triggers me and I don't know why - it can't be anything with Sebastian a demon and Ciel human, because I ship Destiel from Supernatural. (1/3)

I have absolute no clue why this ship just feels so wrong to me. I can’t even say it’s because of pedophilia. The fandom ticks me off the worst. I have seen so many girls ship them just because it’s yaoi and really hot guys, and most of the time they only talk about their sexual relationship (from what I’ve seen). (2/3)

I try to convert myself into liking this ship, or tolerate it, but everytime i go to the tags, this ship literally makes me cry. It hurts me to see that so many people ship something so toxic. Sorry for rant… Needed to confess somewhere…. (3/3)

P.S. i don’t even know if you watch/read Black Butler or know the ship Sebastian x Ciel….. But yeah i just needed to rant.. i was hoping that maybe you would end up saying something that would make me be okay with this ship or maybe i’d realise why i really hate it. Sometimes when people ask things, your words give me more perspective.

I now realise that I’m trying to ship SebaCiel so that I can enjoy everything along with others (artworks, fics), since Cielizzy is kinda nonexistent in the whole Black Butler fandom so I feel kinda lonely I guess?? But I just can’t see anything. Sebastian is only there for Ciel, for his soul. They are on a contract. And I think I heard that Sebastian manipulates his soul to change the taste, which might explain some things. But I just can’t see anything romantic…

Well, I did watch Kuroshitsuji, and I really liked it. But again, just like with SasuNaru, I was ignorant to how many people shipped Ciel and Sebastian romantically, even though there’s obviously nothing romantic between them at all. You don’t have to force yourself to like it, because it’s not like it’s wrong of you to not like the idea of a romantic relationship between the two of them.