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scarlet-yuno · 11 months ago

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oh shit i have to do requests

#(☆) ramble.#exams end tomorrow but fuck it we ball #i don't need to study for math #ohhh mikosys #(holds them tenderly in my hands)#my lovelies i missed them

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archerstreet · 2 months ago

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can someone tell me how to keep going if your hardwork does pay off but you don't feel anything when you achieve your goal just relief and numb again

#ive been having a bad week again since the exam ugh😭#im really really REALLY trying to study but a little head in my voice keeps saying what is even the point of working so hard #which is soooo ridiculous because it's bc i worked so hard that i got great marks #but like. i didn't feel happy like i thought would. i just felt like 'oh. okay. cool'#and then i just. didn't even have anyone around me to celebrate with #which is idk kinda dumb i guess it's just an online exam #but like see. there are technically total 8 exams to become. um to get my degree #and i just cleared 1 of them #like that was a full 100 marks paper i studied for of that level and i did it #ive just never done this before not since this course ive always scored JUST above passing (not counting the times #i literally failed twice lol)#so yeah anyway it is big for me. but why doesn't it feel like anything 😭😭😭#and why hasn't this motivated me to work harder😭😭😭#idk i thought i had gotten over the 'just do it. just do it!!! just. do. it.' phase i was getting so many things done #but it feels back to square one now #man that book about habits was so right don't have goals have habits because when you do achieve your goal #you'll be like well now what? and slip right back into bad habits again #that's exactly what happened #i used to think lol achieve my goal that's never gonna happen im a shit person and a failure #but like what the hell!!! i did!!! so now what😭😭😭#i think i need a hug #but ive never really hugged anyone except one person and she's 4 years away now #i think i need. my dad to tell me he's proud of me. but he's already forgotten about it so that's not gonna happen #man the day i stop craving external validation. it's over for yall #ugh yuck i used to hate the word validation it always sounded so desperate and needy and pathetic. guess it was just #another form of self loathing lol #im not even sad im like genuinely asking. im trying to solve it like a math problem. like does anyone have the answer

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folkloregirlfriend · 3 months ago

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i hate feeling ambitionless aimless the future is so bleak

#this is about me not the events #i really don't think i have a plan lol and i ever will...#because all through school i had this thing. need to pass this unit test this half yearly this 2nd unit test final exams need to do this #cocurricular activity and the absolute relief when i flipped the report to see i was promoted every year. that was the aim right #now i don't know what's happening #a set set of friends i met everyday sat next to permanent place in the field where we had lunch. like?#it was all so permanent #i knew teachers did not like me or how people there felt about me #and i think a lot of it comes from the fact that i never changed schools #14 years in the same place then one random tuesday it ends everything ends and im supposed to start from scratch #losing friends was all my fault but goddddddf. i used to be good at things #like when i was in 10th grade i gave my everything to studying maths because mom threatened me that if do not get science here we'll change #your school #to wherever you get science #so i studied like crazy did not touch my phone for months and got science #like that is my level of attachment to that place #i just miss it so much probably more than my own home #and i can't belong anywhere because i'm so stuck and nothings good enough and i miss being good and being academically productive #it was my only win i think #this is so sad but i don't think i'll ever get that past work ethic back and it will never be good enough for me to feel good about myself #which can only be through study or work because im a loser who thinks she's worthless if not for a successful career #and I've felt this way for three years now. it is going to be permanent #everything is lonely

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spaghett-onaplate · 11 months ago

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noooo i got covid 😭😭

#any other time over the past three years i would have been happy to have a week off in exchange for illness #the last time i had covid my lifestyle barely changed in fact. staying in bed all day was just another week #but now? that i have plans? places to be?#for the first time in a long time i actually don't want to be confined to my room but now i have to be #frick man #and i was just thinking the other day #'boy oh boy this routine sure is great but i better not get sick and lose momentum otherwise i may easily slip back into the Depression'#so let's hope. let's hope and let's try to pick things back up at the other end of this #i have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow tho and i just asked to change it to a phone call instead of rescheduling #bc i want to pick up where we left off #and discuss this with him now #and i also really need to talk about my friend's recent suicide attempt bc i still. have Not brought it up #but on saturday my fish died and its dead body was in the tank unmoving and it just. yeah it just broke that dam a bit i fear #ok looking on the positive side i have some time to rest #and watch movies #today i watched baby driver and drive #baby driver is as good as ever #drive i fear i do not see the huge appeal to it. it's not bad but it's nothing special in my eyes 😔#and i also have my maths test delayed which is great bc i know nothing about the content so i'll have a bit more time to study #will i actually utilise that time to study? we will see #oscar.exe

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brinnanza · 9 months ago

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the fact that the genetic lottery rolled sensory processing issues severe enough that just regular chilling hanging out existing in my physical human body can be so overwhelming I am too exhausted to do basic tasks is a real fuckin snake eyes situation there is a lot about autism that I truly love and am genuinely grateful for but ripping all the labels off the sensory knobs and givin em a random spin is not fucking one of them

#my number one problem is that I don't know what most people experience yknow #like I have nothing to compare my experiences to sometimes #this is probably why people have therapists huh someone to check your math #shit that actually does sound appealing it's just so much work to find someone whose math I can trust #cause I'm not interested in being more paletable I just want to be more comfortable #I simply need more data ykwim #man I shoulda stuck with psychology I could be doing some dope studies #instead I have to worry about capitalism and rent and buying groceries #which is really cutting into my human behavior data collection time #you'd think they could be done simultaneously but unfortunately I cannot participate and observe

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transgenderbobdylan · 10 days ago

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i think. i'm going to have to go back to school. & not kill myself😓🙏the question is what do i go for

#something i should have figured out a long time ago but everyone was like. you have time! don't worry about it just get general studies out #of the way! well. turns out i really Need to know what i'm doing & have a goal in mind. sorry #so. i need to figure that out. & then probably this summer retake that math class i failed

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evanwevand · 3 months ago

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I'm so fucking close to dropout school

#this year started like shit #i failed most tests and I'm probably gonna fail most subjects this term #and the grades i get NOW apparatus are important for an access exam for in two years #and access grade on biology is like 11 #i want to kms #i have a physics exam tomorrow and a maths one the Wednesday and I can't understand shit #also i couldn't go any single day last week bc i got sick #it's not even like I don't want to study anymore #i just need a year long rest or something #i don't have time or motivation for anything #like I want to draw but I suddenly remember I have school stuff to do but I get distracted very easily and I neither draw or study #maybe this isn't for me #but i also don't want to be an entire year without doing anything #god i wish i could be like my classmates and be good at studying #but I NEVER studied before #i always retained information well without studying #and here i am now possibly with ADHD #I'm gonna tell all of this to my psychologist tomorrow but idk what to do #i don't think my parents will allow me to dropout #i technically can since I'm no longer on obligatory education #i can't do anything #not art #not scp #vent

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radioactive-cloud · 1 year ago

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saw a man so beautiful i cried

#my reaction to him needs to be studied scientifically #(the scientist needs to be jan and i don't care that it's not connected to math)#who gave him the right #nacko jordan my beloved #nace jordan #joker out

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fearandhatred · 10 months ago

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tmi thursdayyyy

thank u to my beloveds @crowleys-bentley-and-plants @eybefioro @ineffabildaddy @captainblou for the tags in that order. i think <3

my wips...

transitional heart taxidermy (almost done...)

the hanahaki one

the house of leaves one

i have other dead wips (the bible fic and the freudian theory fic) but i think i've answered all i can about them already lol. all under the #fearandfics tag

ask me about:

my wips

fanfic writer questions here and here and also here

send a made-up fic title and i’ll tell you what i would write to go with it

if u have anything else to say/ask about my fics then go for it :)

writer mutuals pspsps (no pressure) @knifeforkspooncup @midnights-dragon @sabotage-on-mercury

#fearandhatred #doing this because i have a harrowing day ahead of me and i need a BREAK 💀#2.3k word portfolio due today AND a math test this evening i have to study for. no i love it here really #deleted one of the “ask me about” prompts bc i don't like it lmfaooo #also trying to tag the mutuals i haven't tagged often. NO PRESSURE THOUGH just vibes #good omens #tag game #q

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mintypsii · 1 year ago

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one million creative ideas rushing into my head whenever i have to do any amount of hard work:

#maybe I should've been a little more stressed out about finals #😔#im suffering the consequences now #i hate studying #but also not #i think it's more of the action of putting my brain to use for something I don't particularly enjoy or feel the need to do #like i kinda enjoy history and math but i dont wanna take an exam for it #starts crying #send help #i just wanted to draw some silly sanuso 😞#my rambles

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askfairyromano · 7 months ago

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(ITS BEEN????? A MONTH??????? IM SO SORRY FOR BASICALLY DYING BUT IM HERE AND IM BACK AND IM STILL READY TO DRAG ROMA KICKING AND SCREAMING OUTSIDE THAT CASTLE (if you want <3))

Roma! My sweetest angel!!!! The last time we talked I believe you asked for a breather and I life may have taken that a little too literally! But I hope you're ready and less horny (and hopefully you have some fresh gossip because I'm dying to know what I've missed these last few weeks)! You're not gonna wuss out on me, are you? I'm fully prepared to pelt you with more eggs if need be.

(Gorgeous, how have you been! I saw on Twitter you finished your second exam, congrats! That's so exciting!!! Sorry again for totally leaving you hanging for a month, life has been very hectic lately. But I am back now! And I'd love to keep sending you silly asks if that's alright! Also, your art lately has been gorgeous!! The villain Roma stuff, the designs, those Spamano ones, they're all amazing! For my own selfish reasons I am in love with the idea of Spain being the light and you bringing him back, but I can totally understand your hesitation haha. But just know I fully back the idea and I think it'd be so cute!! Ah I'm so happy to be able to send you asks again, I've missed you!!)

(Also, signing off with an emoji will def help me find my asks in the future, and I'd love for you to assign me one! Any ideas?)

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popcorn-plots · 7 months ago

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Me: I got a 25 on the ACT!

Mom: it won't get you into BYU, especially with your math grade the way it is.

Me: I have a 3.7 GPA, and I can always retake the ACT?

Mom: you're going to need a really good admissions essay if you want to get into BYU.

Me: thanks, mom.

#25 without even studying #so anyways now i don't want to tell her about my AP test score #it's a 3 which means that I passed #but at the same time #I'm always told to do better #and there's no validation there #just do better so you can get into your dream school #like mother. i'm trying!#but do you know what straight a's get me? panic attacks every time i get anything less than an A #do you want to repeat 9th grade where i was told that every second counted towards college and you'd have to hold me #as i cried at 10 pm at night because I thought I wasn't good enough #and it's taken me literal years to finally reach the conclusion that my grades aren't everything and even then i still panic #whenever i get anything less than a C #the math grade was an outlier from a set of horrible circumstances #i finished 11th with 5 A's two B's and a D and you come after me for the D #it's always 'do better; your grades suck' when I have one bad grade #i'm taking 3 AP classes next year because I want to college credit #I was on the honor roll the entirety of junior high #I'm working towards a chord at graduation #maybe one day i'll be praised for everything i've sacrificed just to be good enough #i know that I need better grades and scores for BYU #and I've literally been working my ass off to get into BYU my entire life

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watery-melon-baller · 8 months ago

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past me would be rolling in her fucking grave if she found out that present me is the kind of math nerd who loves doing calculus

#IM GETTING MORE ENJOYMENT FROM DOING MATH THEN I EVER HAVE FROM ANY OF MY ART CLASSES. GOOD GOD #im giddy solving derivatives rn #can't believe I'm a math and physics nerd this is insane #ALSO GUESS WHAT #so I'm taking physics as a summer class right #i thought it was regular physics #but APPARENTLY its engineering physics (which is fine I need that for my degree)#and engineering physics needs calc 2 (which I have) and general/highschool physics (which I haven't done) as prereqs #SO NOW IM GONNA HAVE TO TRY AND CRAM AND STUDY AGAIN #I've been doing okay in the classes so far thankfully #but my surprise when I walked into class and the prof started talking like “you all know this already right”#no actually #I don't know how this happend #I think it's because I'm not taking it at MY college I'm taking it at my local community college #and so they just didn't ask for prereqs. they didn't ask for any proof at all they just took my money and let me enroll #incredible how I keep winding up in these situations #lilac post

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astrxealis · 1 year ago

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btw to filipino moots im gna be an arenean B) or iskolar ng bayan who knows!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#my only choices for college r the big 4 personally i'm so sorrey ... but minus ust tbh bcs i rlly dont want to be a thomasian LOL #IT'S JUST REALLY PERSONAL i don't like the culture of ust & etc . i have my reasons. dlsu is ok but ateneo or up is my Dream #may be a surprise but i've always been a straight a student and real smart :3 even in anything to do w filipino #but that is the one thing that drags my grades (slightly) down ..... but my math is so exemplary and i get perfect computer anything always #bs cs future major hereee but since i want ateneo i'm going for dual degree cs bs-dgdd #yeehaw i never talk abt really real life stuff like this but this is still okey #one day u might get a face revea but only for my eyes bcs im sorta obsessed w and unfortunately think im really cute. so #ANYWAY !!!!! excited for college tbh. scared. but yes!#i havent finished my admu app but it is due friday i am so crazy LMFAOOOOOOO but i have recos alr <3 yay <33 #rlly confident in myself but i want to be careful and really get what i desevre. gna do my best and try to get top 15% AND MAYBE even 200 #but that one specifically is sorta crazy but tbf i could achieve it if i study a bit more :P so ya #it's amazing bcs ... english is literally second nature to me BUT i am and have always been amazing at math & sci #always been a math kid and sci kid AND art kid AND eng kid and music too and computer #idk. just proud of myself. i love me lol #there's a lot to it but no need to get into specifics :3 im just happy w myself yay!

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casstars · 1 year ago

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It's honestly crazy how many proana/ed tags there are on this site. I blocked a bunch of them back when I was recovering from an eating disorder and lookign back some of them are censored in absolutely insane ways. I kid you not my blocked tags list looks like a screenshot from the matrix

#If anybody ever needs an ed trigger block list hmu cause I think mine is pretty comprehensive #don't go digging through that side of tumblr to block people like i did trust me please #i must study politics and war that my sons may have liberty to study math and philosophy and all that jazz #ed mention tw

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moralchampion · 6 months ago

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#myself #yk I would love to be a full time housewife #like genuinely #no work and just spending time with kids running errands allat #no job no worries #or I would love to just work #why do I have to get a fucking degree when I can literally do FUCKING EVERYTHING I DO AT WORK without a degree already?!?!#like I will gladly be the idiot running around or driving around for others I don't need a degree for that #why the actual fuck did I do dual studies where now somebody cares about my grades and if I get kicked out of uni they care #like why couldn't I come from a family that would allow me to do it and would fund full time uni?!?!#I would rather owe my parents money than some company #like my company is great (meh) my coworkers are great and I love them all #but god everything is so messed up and I hate it #I just wanna be a full time student with 2 months of break every other month...#I wish I had actually pulled trough on the au-pair year or exchange year or whatever #then I wouldn't have all these issues now #I would much much rather go do Einzelhandel like there was this great Ikea offer...#but when I started looking into other things my parents never liked it like bro wtf happened to wanting to let me chose my own thing #anyways I have to do my maths homework now and drive myself even more insane cause suddenly I don't feel prepared for the oral exam at all #like it's in a week and I feel like I know nothing....

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