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The word you're looking for to describe the common attitude between high control groups and the Jones school of conspiracy belief is "conspiracism". It's frequently described as ascribing disproportionate importanceto the role that conspiracies play in reality, but in practice it virtually always results in the exact flavor of egocentric worldview that you are describing.
Two more quick notes about cults and conspiracy belief. You are correctly recognizing that they overlap quite heavily, and that's because (at best) high control groups generally lump all of humanity into one of three categories: the enlightened chosen, those suffering in ignorance, and the malicious enemy. The second group is basically just a rhetorical tool that is employed for PR reasons, but over time, as cult members alienate more and more people, this second group slowly vanishes because surely people who were merely ignorant wouldn't consistently reject your message of hope, and therefore must be agents of the enemy! Conspiracy beliefs likewise present the world's problems as simple, if massive, things, and so proselytization is necessary to gather the strength needed to solve them, and anyone who pushes back against them must be an enemy agent.
The final note I have is that high control groups don't have any secret techniques or tools in their arsenal. Control is established and maintained via mundane socialization. I think a lot of people take comfort in the idea that there is some sort of metaphysical difference between their own communities and "cults," and frankly, there isn't. Any group can establish toxic norms, require scrupulousity and orthodoxy, and isolate you from external support networks without bringing silly hats or the promise of eternal rewards into it at all. The universality is honestly why I feel like talking about my experiences and findings is worthwhile.
The Conspiratorial Mindset
So, I've always had a bit of an interest in scams and hokum, and what people call "Cults".
One of the common refrains when you talk about religious Cults is, "If you think about it all religions have beliefs that seem odd to outsiders" and this is true, but as I read more about cults I started to think,
"Wait, a lot of these groups aren't united just by having unusual religious or supernatural views; a lot of them also seem to have matching patterns of behaviors that have nothing to do with belief in psychic space aliens"
I'm talking about things like,
Having a leadership structure which is absolute, where the top leaders cannot be disciplined or even openly criticized by lower members;
Exerting tremendous control over the dress and behavior of adherents;
Telling adherents that outsiders are untrustworthy and that contact with outsiders should be strictly limited and heavily monitored by organizational leadership;
The extensive and common use of shunning and reprogramming in response to violation of any of the above rules.
In some groups, failing to adhere to the dress code and spending a lot of time with outsiders is, at worst, the subject of a few little jabs at family gatherings. In other groups, those same behaviors are treated as Defcon one crises and become the central issue of the adherent's relationship with everybody else in the organization until they can be bullied back into doing the organization's bidding.
It was gratifying to learn that other people have noticed these patterns (Some people prefer the term "High Control Group" to "Cult" because it highlights what the actual problem is)
I am starting to notice similar dynamics in what are commonly called "Conspiracy theories".
The thing about conspiracy theories is... Well, conspiracies exist, and sometimes groups of powerful people get together to do something in secret which would get them in big trouble if they were to do it openly.
But I am starting to notice a particular, I don't know, a particular way of conceptualizing the organization and purpose of conspiracies which is unique to some people and which characterizes the kind of conspiracy theorist who takes Alex Jones seriously.
I kind of think of it as a "Witch-Hunting mentality".
For certain people in more primitive times and places, if they, say, slipped off a ladder and hurt themselves, their first thought would be, "That must have happened because a witch cursed me. We need to find and punish the witch who cursed me."
And this isn't just the attribution of malice that characterizes this idea:
One malicious conspiracy that might make you fall off a ladder is a manufacturer who doesn't care about safety ratings. Imagine that the manufacturer is really deliberately malicious here. A subordinate comes to him and says, "Our ladders can't reliably hold the weight of a person and a lot of them will probably break and cause people to fall and hurt themselves." and he says, "I know that but who cares, by the time people figure it out it'll be too late to get their money back."
That's a malicious conspiracy, but, importantly, if Bob buys a faulty ladder and falls off, the conspiracy wasn't trying to hurt Bob; it merely didn't care whether Bob got hurt.
Now, this distinction doesn't take away the malice and hostility towards Bob, but if you go to the ladder manufacturer and say, "Hey boss, Bob bought one of our faulty ladders, but he's really skinny so the ladder didn't break" the manufacturer will go, "Who the fuck is Bob? And good, that's one less angry person."
Whereas imagine Bob's ladder has been cursed to break by a witch. The witch did it because she hates Bob, and wants him to fall, and if she finds out he didn't fall, she'll go, "Curses, I'll have to find some other way to hurt Bob."
Conspiracy theorists, it seems to me, are far more inclined to conceptualize conspiracies as acts of deliberate malice aimed at them rather than acts of negligent malice.
@loving-n0t-heyting posted this article from the New York Post which contains a good example of what I mean:
“I thought I was on the cutting edge of promoting rights for gay people,” Yang said. “But then I started looking deeper into where this was coming from and who was paying for it, and I started to get very disillusioned...
I assume the people paying for it are LGBT advocacy groups? Did you, uh, not know that the people you were working for were paying you to work for them?
“When you really dig down you can see how much of this comes from documents and plans at the United Nations,” Yang said, referring in part to the UN’s “Gender Equality” initiative. “It’s part of a global agenda to restructure society, re-structure our social norms and the economy,” Yang claimed. “They are undermining the sexually dimorphic nature of reality and breaking down the differences between the sexes to break down our identity. They are constructing identities for us and they want us to adopt them.”
Oh, I see.
This is exactly what I mean. LGBT rights efforts make Yang and others feel disoriented, like society is being restructured and that they are being left behind, like they aren't quite in control of social norms and that stable identity categories can't be relied on anymore.
Now, one kind of conservative might look at that and say, "These are bad second order effects of LGBT people trying to assert their lifestyle in public and that's why we should oppose them."
But another kind says, "These changes make me feel unstable. Therefore, the main purpose of the changes is to make me feel unstable. In order to understand these changes, I need to figure out who wants me to feel unstable and what they would gain from making me feel unstable."
The idea that Yang's feeling of instability is simply a side effect of a series of efforts mainly focused on LGBT rights is incomprehensible. Instead, she believes that there is a series of efforts focused mainly on making her feel unstable, with LGBT rights as a kind of side effect to the main goal of making her feel unstable.
This kind of thing is, to me, a big red flag that indicates that we are starting to float away from reasonable conspiracy thinking into crazy town.
I am particularly curious if folks can recommend any writers or researchers who have noticed this dynamic.
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Made this for that Discord art challenge.
#joker out#kris guštin#bojan cvjetićanin#jan peteh#nace jordan#jure maček#speedruned this in 18 hours#i am physically and mentally exhausted#i hope yall like it and other people like it and i win but honestly#i don't like the final result as i hoped so#i tried making colors match but in the end they look maybe too dull#but maybe i am overthinking#idk#gonna go continue being academic victim
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bozo dubbed over dubbed over
#video#elevenlabs#i've been fucking obsessed with these stupid fucking elevenlabs dubbed videos#specifically a friend sent me a ytp sexer dub and i absolutely lost it (laughing)#so i wanted to try a few videos out myself to see what the site would do with them#for some reason my first thought was to use bozo dubbed over#''i... i...... i.... ah..... i hope nobody leaves'' fucking killed me#i only did like 5 videos to see what it'd end up generating but usually if the audios too clear it'll just repeat what was said#except in the ai voices that it uses#the second video i did was just bozo dubbed over again. but that version is like really evil for no reason#third video was hotel mario high quality. and it basically says what they already say but with weird annunciations and the likes#fourth video being meet the sniper. it wasnt exactly what i wanted but it did alter a few lines#the final one just being hotel mario again but lower quality. which did result in me laughing really hard#granted. all of them made me laugh really hard to some extent#for the record. i didnt do any alterations except just make it dub from english to english#i don't know if there's more you can do with it. i don't think i can make any more without making a new account#unless the limit resets every week or so
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I still love you (Song: Still in Love with You by Deeps)
#scum villian self saving system#svsss#shen qingqiu#yue qingyuan#qijiu#79#Wow I have not posted on the webstie in a hot minute#I also keep forgetting this acc is the one with the kira theme#I haven't drawn a jojo in a long time#but yknow I still love him quite a bit#In any case I finally finished this animation! wow! I'm very happy hehe I hope you all enjoy#I really gotta feed myself when it comes to Qi ge#I just don't really like how he's always the background character or a yandere if he's in the main light#can't I just have a sad and pathetic little guy? can't I just enjoy his guilt complex? I understand he has potential for yandere-isms#but you cannot deny that he is truly a coward and so so so mired in his own guilt I don't think he'd really be a good yandere due to that#but also because he's just a guy alsgkhal I said he has potential but honestly? I think its the kind to stay theoretical yknow#Anyways I just really like him and I need to feed myself so here I am#I'm really bad at searching for fandom content I usually just... have it fed to me cause the internet stalks me yknow? so Idk how to find#the qi ge content I want ah... unless its fics ha I'm scouring the ao3s I'm on page 134 on the scum villain fic search results I'm lookin'#anyways enjoy I'm gonna spend another 84 years making a new animation peace!
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Oof I'm so sorry, I I have a fever these days and I couldn't reblog it like I wanted.
I have to say you did a divine job, it must have been very long and nerve-wracking, but I really like the final result 👏
Each of them has personalities and characteristics that I can also recognize in general in the ethnicity of the character.
The expression, the looks and the cut of the eyes, the hair, up to the angle of the noses, it's all perfect 😱💪
I hope I don't sound too verbose but I wanted to compliment you, it must have really been a lot of work!
oh yes, Michele or Michelangelo Loconte, you chose a singer with a lovely face, perfect for Ita chan.
he has a precious little face 🥰 great reference and muse for him!
I'm curious: for Russia instead, who gives you the right inspiration? An actor, a singer...?
This is awesome 🥹👏😍 my good friend, I'm amazed by your patience and skill 🙇🥂🫴🌹
P.S.: so Michele has a Russian fan club?
That's so cute 💞
Something I've wanted to do for a long time.
I tried to do it a year ago, but then I gave up. This time, when my style developed sharply, I decided to take on stylization. The most difficult were Italy, Japan and China. But for China everything was decided quickly - I remembered that cosplay that I really liked and used it as a reference. Japan has always seemed round-faced to me, but by beauty standards almost all their models have a different type of face, so I used several references.. I still think I should think about his design for a bit more. But Italy... it's a headache, I didn't even have any idea what he would look like(There was only one thing I knew - puppy face), so I went to Wikipedia to read abt famous people in Italy... and found my muse - Michelangelo Loconte.(He's quite interesting, read about him! He also has a Russian fan club... someone even asked what perfume he wears) He's identical in height to Feliciano! I took the hairstyle from Jacob Elordi. This is where the difficulties end. For now I will use this art as a reference for future drawings, although I usually try to do everything from memory.
#hetalia#not my art#hetalia russia#hetalia italy#hetalia germany#hetalia america#hetalia japan#hetalia china#hetalia england#hetalia france#look at them#puppy face#i love your style too much#great job#hetalia fandom#calling the fandom#because everyone needs to see this#applause 👏
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ummm. my fic is done.
#I mean it still needs a bit of editing but like after almost four months#the hell (writing) is finally over#it's clocking in at around 61k words rn and im tired#time to relax ((cry))#actually you know what. fuck it I'm gonna overshare about this a bit.#I've never written fic before#and besides that - this is the first thing I've sat down to write seriously in about ten years#and ten years ago I was just writing poetry and papers for college#(I don't mean 'just' in a bad way - I only mean that it's been a very different experience for me personally)#very protective over this fic in that it's been sitting in my lap and in my brain for a few months and I don't want to give too much away#so I've deliberately been vague with the marketing of it. because I want people to read and be surprised and experience it firsthand.#and I know it's supposed to be self-indulgent and writing should be about the process and not the results but#I hope people read it??? I've poured my soul into this thing. a bit. a lot. and I'm a simple creature who craves validation.#it's very personal yet at the same time I feel like I haven't done anything new or groundbreaking which. okay it's self-doubt saturday so.#I should ignore that feeling. anyyyyyyyyway.#I hope to post the first chapter in two weeks. crossing my fingers that I don't abort mission before then aaaaaahahaha#also comparison is the thief of joy etc etc etc#danny.xls#danny writes
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lorenzo sonego serves, winston-salem open 2024
photos by grant halverson
#lorenzo sonego#tennis#nico posts#he was a pain to watch/be a fan of this season but i'm in this sonego shit for life#i'm still sort of in disbelief that he won a tournament#not bc i don't think he's capable of it!! obviously he is. but bc the rest of the season's results really did not match#neither before nor after. he got to 3 quarter finals. that's about it for his best results bar winston salem#well no okay he got to a challenger semi but. with all due respect to challengers this is a player who was n.21 in the world#he can do way better than this. which is why this has been so frustrating#like genuinely at a certain point i started bracing myself for him to go out in r1. which is an awful thing to think of one of your favorit#players... but it kept happening? that's how most of his season went!#but. let's hope for a better season in 2025. hopefully the new coach will help him and he'll find his best tennis again. please lorenzo#i believe in him#sorry for rambling. i'm emotional about lorenzo sonego today.
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smile for the camera!
crisis belongs to @amyupup47
#art#illustration#my art#fanart#crisis#errormare ship kid#TAKE THIS AMY!!!! you sweet sweet little goose >:'Dc#i've been planning on drawing you something for weeks now i can't believe i sat down and finally made something HHH >:'D#side note just aughgh i normally would be satisfied with the end result but dude.#DUDE you won't believe how hard replicating the swag your ocs have in my style iss WAA i can't draw hoods for the life of me hhh#hope i did the lil bean justice >:') his design is so warm!!! loved working with his colors<333#your art is crazy good too btw can't believe you don't hear this daily but GHGHGHG HOW DARE YOU HAVE SO MANY BANGER STYLES OMG!!!#you say you don't have a consistent one as if you don't have the insane power of turning your art into whatever you like and STILL#still SOMEHOW keeping the little things that make me go 'oh! that's amy's art!' which is BONKERS. you powerful evil WIZARD#have a nice day buddy muah muah muah muah muah (FIVE TIMES as payback<3333)
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(ooc)
*clawing my way out of my grave*
I finally restocked the queue! Sorry for my continual Corpse behavior,, but you should have regularly scheduled content again for a bit!
#mostly posting this to say that I am going to try Very Very hard to finally get the werewolf fic's first chapter out by new years?#ideally with bonus scenes as thanks for the patience#i forget if ive stated it publicly here but ngl the election results really just killed my drive yknow? it has been. difficult#but a lot of really good and fun stuff has happened to me lately and I'm making strides according to my therapist so I think I'm finally +#+bouncing back!#I was kinda hoping I could try and take some commissions before Christmas but it looks like maybe early 2025 is when I'll start taking those#anyhow. i put like 40 things in the queue so it should run for a couple days if I don't continually feed it. idk if I'll have the time or +#+energy to do that but we'll see? (I'm hoping to maybe make some paper mache masks or something for a ren fair stall my mom's gonna run ✌️)#ooc#txt
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and then an overwhelming sense of dread apear.
#finished my last exam for this year YAY YIPPEE YAHOO ETC. but also now we wait for if i pass or not DREAD FEAR WARINESS ETC.#which i rlly don't think i will like. did not feel good abt the 1st exam period felt worse abt the 2nd and this one is like.....idk idk...#pretty confident abt the books part of the exam bc i KNOW i got everything on that correct but the thing is it was an oral exam and i was#stumbling over my words so bad + my voice was quivering i could hear it. hoping they don't count that as minus points but for the speech#thing i also had to do 2day they DO include how your voice sounds when you speak and like stammering and such in the final point count so#like. what if it's the same there.....ALSO they include use of gesturing to emphasize what you're saying and CORRECT EYE CONTACT in the#final point count. which. i don't have a problem with gesturing & i had a piece of paper in my hands so at least i wasn't too bad on that#front but when it comes to eye contact it's only flitting eyes or unnerving stare with me and nothing in between so i'm completely fucked i#that regard.#r.txt#WHATEVER it's done now. stupid ass weird rules WHO CARES if i don't have correct usage of eye contact what even is correct usage of eye#contact?????? like HOW am i supposed to know what the quote correct amount unquote is man. ALSO WHO GIVE A SHIT.#anyway going 2 luxembourg with my family for two weeks on august 5th probably. maybe sooner maybe later. we're going hiking + camping ⛺🌲👣#but the hiking is mostly done without backpacks and the camping is gonna be in campings. camping places. however english calls it.#which is a little less fun but also easier. but also less fun. but ANYWAY we're going on vacation and my final exam is done so no more#stress 💪🥳🙏🗣💥‼ (<- guy who's SO gonna be still having stress until the results come in. and then some afterwards. yay 4 me 🙂👍)
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I actually have . Much to say abt the monty erasure but I fear I maybe just autistic and overreacting n he will appear in a dlc or something I just love monty so much n him being cut out of that gingerbread cookie ruin art was my last straw ((slash jay
#i just find it frustrating how monty is a new character wit a lot of potential to explore the mystery around why he is so aggressive n yet#its like hes justt#been completely written off. for glam bonnie. whos dead since the beginning of the sb era.#it just genuinely baffles me how they introduce a whole new character. tease this backstory n lore for him. and never finish it.#im personally a monty fan who does believe he probably killed bonnie but i dont think it was pure malice. bc thatd be so boring!#theres potential for sm more. i always thought his aggression could have been a result of the virus and he wasnt always that way.#not gonna fully get into my mini-theories and hopes but just. he could be so good if they'd give him literally anything.#hes such a wasted character 💔 literally one of the coolest designs too#im sorry gator they don't deserve u 😔 at least chica got like ... 2 mini games finally#bonnie is my second fav animatronic ever its just so annoying how he has literally 0 character of his own in sb n still managed to shove#monty. who has potential to be explored. just... out of the game lol#montgomery gator#fnaf
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i wish i enjoyed making art aughhhhh
#people say ''it's ok if your drawings are bad as long as you had fun making them'' and like sure that's true & good advice#but what if i don't have fun making them? like i don't enjoy making art i only enjoy experiencing it#so when i make art it's so that i can experience the final product. so when my art doesn't live up to my standards of quality#then it was just. i struggled doing something i didn't enjoy only for the final result to just not be worth it#and then it's just ughhhh. no hope for tooie
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the 2010s sure were a time in my life
#there's just....... there's just something about that time#it might have something to do with 2011 being the year i started high school and 2019 being the year i finished my BA#and also the last year before the pandemic#I DON'T KNOW I JUST. THINKING BACK ON IT THERE IS THIS MYSTIQUE TO THAT TIME. THIS STRANGE EXCITEMENT#which is most likely a result of me finally beginning to feel like i can shape my own life and who i am and daydreaming abt a better future#and like exploring myself. in 2010 i turned 14 and fully realised i'm bi and throughout the decade#i experimented with a variety of different like...... identifications and imaginations of who i am#some of those were quite consumer identities (e.g. i strove to be and was a very hipster teen) but nevertheless#i don't know dudes like. the pandemic took a lot from me in terms of ability to be excited about what's to come i think#even though my life is pretty good i'd say#but also maybe that's just what it's like to grow into adulthood and get a job etc. SIGH why am i writing an entire fucking essay#abt my 2010s teenagehood nostalgia#like majority of those years also SUCKED because i had zero real irl friends and was really lonely lmfao#it felt like life didn't really start for me yet#and i was constantly waiting to burst into it. maybe that's the mystique. constantly hoping i am on the precipice of smth extraordinary#is nostalgia for one's teenage yrs inevitable? even if you feel like you missed out on most experiences considered quintessentially teenage?#i only started having Teenage Experiences™ when i went to uni lmfao (i.e. early 20s)#but idk it's such a loaded period psychologically and it's horrible and frustrating when you're living it but then you think back on it#and you're like man..... sure was a time huh. wow#but idk my experience could also be influenced by so many other variables#e.g. smartphones and social networks becoming widespread and common#that was also a pretty significant thing that happened#anyway i think i'm abt to run out of tags so. that's it#sry this shoulda gone into my diary probably but i inflicted it on you instead#neptalks
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What is your OC’s Role in a Tragic Play?
I was tagged by @corvosattano, @fourlittleseedlings, @shellibisshe and @aceghosts to take this uquiz for my OC/s, thank you!
Not tagging anyone since it’s been a while, but if you see this and would like to do it consider this an open tag, and feel free to tag me in on your results :)
Deputy Morgan Malone (FC5)
misunderstood villain
prepare for an onslaught of both the most dehumanizing and hateful takes, and flood of thirst comments. you are chronically misunderstood. whether or not you're actually evil is debatable. you may be acting out for revenge, to defend someone you love, or even just to protect yourself. you're a pretty jaded person. you don't trust or even really like most people. maybe you did at one point. but that part of you is gone, and you don't go a single day without grieving it. you think a lot about what your life could have been. you're stuck in the past. you're angry and maybe you don't even want to be, but this is the only way you can see to survive. you're open, but less in a trusting way and more like a wound. you don't like to let people see you, but the hurt spills out of you before you can stop it. you're impulsive, even as you try hard to plan and prepare. maybe someday your side of the story will finally be heard. until then, you can convince yourself that being hated is safer anyway.
#so this isn't really the role i see for morgan#but it's a similar result to a few i've gotten from uquizzes#and given that i don't really have a canonical ending for morgan's story yet...maybe?#as time goes on and the reaping really only gets worse for her and her patience wears out and she finally snaps#and then - without going TOO far into the darkness because that's not her - refuses to apologise because 'it was a shitty situation and i#couldn't have done any better'#i don't know#she was created to be a bit of a foil to joseph - and developed as i learned more about him#and she has a very similar 'i saw something terrible happening and was i supposed to do nothing? i chose to act' vibe#so taking on a similar role to him - as a lot of fc protagonists end up mirroring their antagonist - wouldn't be completely inappropriate#for her#going further and further to try to protect the people of hope county and just get it OVER with#while less and less people understand her and she's less and less inclined to explain her reasoning#and has less and less energy to try to connect with people#she is a little untrusting of people - has trust issues - but i wouldn't say she doesn't like most people#but anyway - interesting result#and certainly true of her from the cult's perspective#uquiz#tag games
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Re: My FFXIV Xenoblade crossover
I'm still trying to get the hang of gpose (and I kind of went overboard in my brainstorming for all the things I want to make haha) so it'll still be a while before it's finished, but here's a sneak peek in the meantime ;)
#xenoblade#shulk#ffxiv#i know his foot is clipping into the ground but don't worry the final pics will be nicer i promise haha#i'm sorry it took so long to update this project btw!#it took me literal weeks to scout out all the potential gear/glam pieces that look like their clothes#plus i play on ps5 so i have to steal my bf's computer and ff account otherwise getting the pics would be a huge hassle#also fun fact: the gloves are actually dyed to look like his skin tone! it just so happens the only part that#dyes is the bit covering the hands so it works out perfectly! bc there are zero tank gloves that cover the arms but don't cover#the hands and that's what i needed to emulate his sweater sleeves since this top has long red sleeves#but i'm very happy with the results! :)#there he is it's shulk finalfantasy!#i'm so excited to make share the rest: i'm doing even more charas than just the main party#and i'm doing a ''huyr version'' and a ''what ffxiv race would they play as'' version for each of them!#i also decided which jobs/classes they'd each be based on their xc kits/roles with explanations as to all the matching details#it's gonna be lots of fun! i hope you're as excited to see them as i am to share them!#ff14
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psst pssst PSSSST... you're doing great <3
#i really hope you've all had a wonderful thursday <3#i'm finally here to get some writing done but i may hold off on messages just bc i did some stressful stuff today#and i don't really feel in the mood to chat one on one atm as a result ;v;#i'd like to just write my silly lil posts and disconnect from reality for a minute instead so that's what i'm gonna do!#get ready to ramble | ooc
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