#i don't know why i put so much effort into this it's just a shitpost lol

[rottysphere]

Horsenberg

[marikosenwrites]

﹒⪩nsfw headcanons - karasuno edition

a/n: YES I AM BACK WITH THE NSFW EDITION HAHAHAHA ... yeah i only did five characters because i'm really running out of time before my vacation (two months long) and i assure you my progress will be really slow but i'll still be posting some random shitposts

characters: hinata shouyou, kageyama tobio, sugawara koushi, tsukishima kei, yamaguchi tadashi

gn/fem!reader

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘HINATA SHOUYOU∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

-i would head canon him as the experimental type

-he’s kind of just the softie that looks after you a lot even during sex (and especially during sex)

-not if he goes feral though- (we don’t talk about it)

-mm…if you were sadistic he would enjoy your sadism and be a ma…masochist- (my friends said i was one and i mean i don’t disagree…)

-likes seeing your face!! so doggy style isn’t really that common for you guys

-(i’m actually looking hard into this wait until i get lazy)

-if you or shouyou something find something new- HE’S ALL “OOH CAN WE TRY CAN WE TRY” even if it’s like two in the morning and you have to tell him to quiet down

-“b-but i wanna try!! 🥺🥺🥺”

-and oh man is that face your weakness- you give in anyway

-his aftercare is like the best

-you guys just watch a movie or chill in each other’s arms because it’s comfortable that way

-if you’re only taking a small break i think shouyou would prefer keeping his dick inside of you so he can feel your warm ass walls 🥺🥺

-i don't even know what i'm writing anymore

-would actually only have sex after you're twenty and would make sure that you guys have dated at least a year but if circumstances...

-idk why but he would like to brag about it to kageyama- i mean they *are* rivals after all-

-has incredible stamina

-uh...idk probably into edging?? i'm really unsure with this one

-his moans are uh??? loud

-ALSO REMEMBER THAT ONE TIME HE GOT HIT IN THE BALLS BY A VOLLEYBALL BY KINDAIICHI-

-i'm not elaborating let me pretend he didn't get permanent balls damage

-also try to avoid quickies with hinata he’s going to get overboarded with that shit

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘KAGEYAMA TOBIO∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

-possible power play?

-you like to make fun of him by calling him 'king' and he's gonna be like "stoppp..." and yk it riles him

-sadist

-not really the needy type tbh

-it’s really more of a “how i’m feeling that day”

-but he’s clingier than you expect him to be

-more of the traditional type actually

-doesn’t really experiment much

-he actually puts in effort during sex (i haven’t read enough about this)

-he TRIED during aftercare (keyword is try)

-might try to make you something but cooking isn’t really his forte

-so he gives you cuddles and you guys might just take a bath but that usually leads to another session-

-down for quickies anywhere

-i forgor to mention

-his moans are pretty

-when you guys make eye contact all you see is a hunter eating his prey

-he loves eating you out or vice versa <3

-literal king in bed tbh 😩

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘SUGAWARA KOUSHI∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

-i'd say average when it comes to sex

-really soft with you, and is barely feral

-small grunts and gentle movements against your skin

-you guys would definitely have a safe word

-he gets carried away sometimes...><

-tries to plan everything before hand

-like starting with a date and ending in bed and shit

-possibly breeding kink when you guys are older

-loves being cockwarmed since he feels so warm on the inside <3

-feral-ness 3/10

-not really down for quickies, it's risky

-doesn't like experimenting

-might prefer to keep your sex life private and unlike hinata and kageyama not brag about it

-but the whole team knows of your relationship

-his stamina is just average so usually just a round and a half and he's down and snoring

-aftercare is a must if he isn't that tired

-consists of food, bubble bath, AND TONS OF CUDDLES

-literally an angel

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘TSUKISHIMA KEI∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

-sadist FR.

-he just loves teasing and edging you

-literally when he's helping you with his slim and long ass fingers he stops when he knows you're going to come and goes like

-"you don't think sluts deserve to come, do you?"

-kEiiiii stappppp plz 🥺

-but when he's not edging you he's just a marshmallow

-so fluffy

-OK BUT HIS LONG ASS FINGERS ARE HELL BECAUSE HE GETS TO TEASE YOU ENDLESSLY

-that tall ass blond is gonna tease you endlessly about your height (this hc is both nsfw and sfw)

-pretty moans though <3 probably gives you goosebumps

-there probably is a safe word

-PHONE SEX PHONE SEX PHONE SEX RAHHHH I'M GOING CRAZY HEAR ME OUT

-OK WHAT IF HE'S AT CAMP AND HE JUST CALLS YOU BECAUSE HE FEELS HORNY AND YOU GUYS *lip biting*

-ya get what comes next he guides you to touching yourself and vice versa <33333

-but it's not that often he VOLUNTARILY goes to camp (he also wouldn't call you during the potential youth training camp thing)

-down for quickies anywhere

-i feel like he would be into getting caught by both girls and boys because now they know you belong to him and he belongs to you

-sooo yeah <3 ain't he lovely

-his teasing is crazy btw if you hadn't gathered that from the anime that is like "who said you could come, slut?" and "yeah baby, doing well-" it's like two hell and heaven differences

-his aftercare is amazing though because he shows his soft side

-lightest teasing maybe

-protecc at all costs

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘YAMAGUCHI TADASHI∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

-masochist for a change bc well kei

-really really really gentle with you during sex

-safe word needed!! he gets overboard sometimes

-doesn't really moan that much contrasting to public opinion

-more groans and grunts

-loves to be cock-warmed

-no quickies nuh-uh

-kind of afraid of getting caught to be honest

-no kinks though tadashi's average when it comes to sex

-no phone sex either i guess he's the type of guy that FIRMLY believes that his cum only belongs in your pussy and nowhere else

-squeezes you hard when he comes

-i really shouldn't be doing this at school when i'm supposed to be working but integrity doesn't exist

-i hc that if you want to experiment smth with him

-he would do it with you <3

-overall a fluffy relationship

©marikosenwrites 2023-2024 all rights reserved. i do not own any of the haikyuu characters mentioned. please do not repost on any other platforms or translate them. likes, reblogs, and comments are welcomed! <3

tell me if you want more characters!

[phoenixyfriend]

A lot has been happening today that rep calls could affect. UN vetoes, KOSA, Julian Assange, UNRWA's funding crisis and Israel's demands that it be completely dismantled, the large number of bills we just learned are on the docket for the coming week, and even the good news that is recent successes by the BDS movement.

And like... I care about this stuff. I want to talk about it. But it takes an emotional and mental toll to do it, and it takes time, and... there are two reasons to write up reference, update, information posts:

Compensation. I'm not a journalist, but if I were, I would in theory be getting paid for the information I collect and share to my audience. However, I am not, and am doing this for free. I have gotten maybe $5 in donations since I started this project, and while I recognize that this is probably because people are (quite rightly) donating instead to Palestinian charities or local campaigns or something, it's a basic fact that I am not actually being compensated for this work.

Promoting change and activism. This is in fact my main goal: to have a positive impact on current events by giving people a guide on the news and politics because there's so much happening that's hard to keep track of, and if I'm already doom-listening to half a dozen political podcasts, I might as well save other people the trouble, right?

The thing is, like... most of the reblogs on my guidelines and helpful posts are from me, to me. I am the one reblogging. I am desperately trying to get these things to circulate so I can make a difference, but... no dice. Some of the posts are admittedly pretty long (my 'how to call your reps, here's some verbiage' post is 3.4k words), and I can imagine some people are saving it for later, and then maybe forget, or they don't want to share something controversial, and like... I do get that. I do.

But it does mean the posts aren't circulating, and thus they're having less of an impact, and I can't help but feel like there are other things I could be doing to help that would be more effective. More bang for my buck, except it's my time and effort instead of my money. Like, maybe it would have more an effect if I hunted down a wider variety of elected officials I could bother instead of instructing other people on how to bother theirs? Maybe going to protests (which would be a huge commitment due to distance) would be more effective than trying to help ensure that the effectiveness of "I actually have a vote and you are losing it" of calls has the weight of numbers behind it.

Especially since I did try to blaze it, and tumblr mods rejected the post. I don't know why. It's not against ToS, since none of it was disinformation or election interference, which is the only reason given on the FAQ for why things might not be approved for blazing, but who knows.

Maybe tumblr just decided the possible blowback on them for blazing a pro-ceasefire post would be too much.

I don't know. I just... it's just really disheartening to try to help and it gets stymied because, as much effort as it might be, it doesn't reach more than a (comparatively) tiny audience, especially when my relatively low-effort polls and shitposts get easily ten times as many notes with way less energy put in.

EDIT: This is not a post that I need to have reblogged. this is just me bitching. This a vent post. What I am asking people to reblog is my activism posts that I spend hours on to try and help nudge things in a better direction. Please reblog THOSE. This one doesn't need reblogging unless you have an actual comment. Reblogging this post just to reblog, with neither useful comment nor encouragement, is not helping me with my issue of 'not paid, not making an impact' or helping with any important causes.

[oliviax727]

I finally gotten to it, I am finally going to start learning a language (Spanish)

Wait, why should I care?

You don't need to care at all. I just want to keep a public record of my progress and see if I can pull off the effort for long enough to achieve my goals.

If you're not interested, there's no shame in scrolling past this post once a month. And dw, these posts will be at most monthly. So if you're here for something else, this won't clog things up.

If you're concerned about the physics, reminder this is my personal account, and there's another one exclusively for those who just want the science without the shitposting/personal/political stuff.

Though if you're like a linguist or something - or are interested in language stuff in general, I'm sure you can find some value in this post perhaps.

What language will it be?

tl;dr Spanish

Also I love putting all this colour in my post. It satisfies my autism so much.

Now, I've come from a very multilingual background. I learned mandarin between age 5 - 13, and latin in grades 7 thru 8.

Mandarin was a language I could never get the hang of.

It probably had to do with some child-like racism combined with a lack of motivation.

Buuuuut it most likely was a consequence of when I moved from Hong Kong to Australia, my new school did not accomodate the fact I was already experienced.

Nevertheless, I feel as if my Mandarin skills have been overshot, and I don't think I'd be motivated to re-learn it unless I overwhelmingly succeed in this.

Latin was just a dud - I decided to do it because I thought it would be interesting, but dropped it after I realised I had too much on my plate heading into 9th grade.

But Spanish on the other hand, well, there are three better reasons why I choose to learn it:

I never really got an opportunity. I stopped wanting to learn from my abuela when I was 3-5 yo, and my Australian high school also didn't offer it either (my high school's curriculum was dogshit)

A big portion of my relatives are tied to Argentina, with my mum being born from Argentine immigrants. She spent her high school years doing ESL as Spanish was her second language

Aspiring to do Astrophysics is likely going to land me in Chile, as the Andes is home to telescopes-a-plenty

I could've also gone with other languages I'm interested in, like:

German (because my abuela was born from German immigrants - no they were not Nazis, they actually fled in 1936 to avoid conscription)

Croatian (my abuelo was born in Yugoslavia and fled in the 1950s)

Greek (I don't know why it was my "latin is cool" phase, so I guess I wanted to do ancient greek but I don't know how much drift there has been over the last 2000 years thanks to the romans)

And thus I go with Spanish.

But what about regional dialects?

I am very aware that there are various dialects of Spanish within Latin America, and generally, most online methods of learning will teach you Spanish Spanish.

But I think it's more important to first learn a bit of basic vocab, and the grammar, before worrying about my regional dialect. I'm still pretty sure that the most common and important grammar conventions are still shared between languages.

And I already know that people will tell I'm a foreigner, because I'll have an "English"-like accent to it. Learning a specific dialect will only make it harder to tell, not eliminate being "language clocked" entirely.

So what's this going to look like?

Every month or two I'm going to personally report, to myself, via tumblr, my progress in learning. I'll list what I learned, what I still need to work on, and what I wish I could do next.

Effectively this is going to be a public journal of sorts, to make sure I feel like I'm doing this productively.

What's the weather like now?

Given that I've already attempted to learn Spanish twice previously, and being exposed to cultural influences, I already know a bit of Spanish.

Most of it is just random bits of vocabulary, that sound a lot less impressive if you were to try and make me say a sentence:

Custom greetings "Hola", "Buenos Noches"

Expletives "¡Ay caramba!"

The basic conjunction "y"

"Niño, niña, hombre"

Agua (with the "con gas" or "sin gas" tacked on too)

Counting from "uno" to "treinta-nueve"

Some month names like "Mayo" or "Diciembre"

Some colours like "Rojo"

Some utensils and tools like "Boligrafo"

Other stuff that I won't be able to recaly suddenly

And I mostly only understand the pronunciation, most of the spellings I had to look up on google translate. Extra I's like in December or thirty, or that there's no "ph" in pen.

There are other simple grammatical rules that I know of:

Gender i.e. words that end with a you tack on a "La" and for o's you tack on "El". More generally you have to pay attention to grammatical gender

As an educated guess from knowing a bit of Latin, I'm sure there are noun and verb declensions that interact with gender as well

Word order, much like English, is SVO

Clearly, I have my work cut out for me. But I also have a head start over a lot of people primarily because I have experience in other languages related to Spanish, which can help inform me on grammar and common vocabulary. I also have some (minor) knowledge in linguistics.

Another one is that I don't just assume that Spanish is a 1:1 translation of English, where you can just swap words for others. This seems like a trivial fact. But you'd be surprised at how much "English-speaking privilege" can blind people who don't require learning second languages.

It can be much more effective to learn a language when you know your expectations.

What are my Goals?

Well, in the spirit of a SMART goal, I don't really know. Because I don't actually know how long it will take me to get to a desired level of fluency.

Sometimes a language can take years to learn, sometimes it can be picked up in just one. And there are so many different "levels" of acheivement.

Which is why my goals in the long term will be more vapid:

At some point, I want to have a semi-fluent conversation with my abuela in Spanish

I want to be able to speak and understand a proper, unbroken sentence within a few months or a year

Now, what I mean by "Sentence" is really finicky. I don't mean "Las mujers leen; ¡Soy una de las mujers!" (see I'm already learning ha ha). I mean a sentence you'd normally say like:

"Hey X, I'm gonna go to the store, what do you need me to buy? Ok see you in half an hour."

That will be a bit difficult. It requires a lot more vocab to get to that level. But of course, I know it's do-able because millions of people have done it already!

What are my short-term goals? And how will I learn?

For the short term, my goals are a little more simpler. Primarily because there will always be a course or an app that will help me learn.

And for the first few months, my goals are most likely going to align with whatever the app has designed for me to do.

The problem is that I feel like most apps will act as if they can take you from no-knowledge to fluent speaker in like 5 months tops, which for an adult sounds a little fishy if you ask me.

When reading through the recommended applications, I came across two that were appealing:

Duolingo, which is more fast-paced and short-form. It gamifies language but may not be great for formal education

Rosetta Stone, which is advertised as better for natural language learning. And requires more effort.

I decided to use both, mainly because I'm lucky enough to afford it ... for now. I don't have much other means to spend my money regardless.

The reason I choose to use both is simply because I want the best of both worlds, and that I can't tell which one is better until I try it. Duolingo makes it entertaining, Rosetta Stone makes it serious. Sort of the balance I'm looking for.

At some point I hope to stop using at least one or the other. But for now I have nothing better to do.

Anyways, that's all I gotta say on the matter for now. Wish me luck!

[genericpuff]

Same anon as before talking about writing stuff and worrying about if people will find it (but not the same anon as the other asks before that) - I think many people who are budding writers and artists have these concerns and bring them to you because you A). Are a creator yourself so you know what you're talking about in a verified sense and B). Idk about other anons but some of us (like me) take your reasoning (and critique) in regard to writing seriously because of your experience and how you analyze stuff such as LO.

I think at least some of us (again I can't speak for everyone nor can I or should I) wants to make sure they're not making mistakes such as the ones RS does in writing.

Also I might just take you up on your offer of Zelda fanfic - I do so love LoZ 😅.

ugh god, am I y'all's role model now or smthing? why would you do that to yourself (ㆆ_ㆆ)

okay but jokes aside, obviously people can't help who they look up to and I'm not gonna be a dick if y'all look up to my work and what I do here, just remember also that you're not obligated to agree with everything I say or take it to heart, you also shouldn't take my analysis of LO and how it's written/drawn personally because so much of that analysis is within the VERY specific definitions in which LO exists, definitions that don't really apply to many other webtoons on the platform. If there's anything I say or criticize LO for that speaks to you and your own work on a certain level, try not to take it as a direct personal attack towards you and more just like... if the things I'm saying about LO feel like they apply to your work, take it as advice for improving your own craft.

Or don't! You can literally ignore me and do what you were gonna do anyways. I literally cannot take that away from you and you absolutely shouldn't let me. I have no real power over anyone here, that's what I mean when I say I'm just a guy participating in their hyperfixation so don't feel like you gotta take me too seriously lmao

Also, yeah, okay, I'm a webcomic creator myself, but to put myself on the cross for once - I've never succeeded at this gig. Rekindled is the most consistent audience I've had in years, I think the last time my work was in a banner rotation was in 2015 (and it wasn't on WT), and I somehow make something like $20/month off Patreon. I've had small victories along the way, it hasn't been all bad, but this isn't my living and chances are low I'll ever find mass success with it. Everything I said about not taking my opinion too seriously because I'm just a random Internet guy applies to people like Rachel as well, while I criticize her work on the basis of it being a commercial product that should know better and I DEFINITELY harp on her for a lot of shit, at the end of the day she's in no way obligated to pay even a second of attention to me because she's made way more money in webcomics in the last 2-3 years than I could ever dream of making in the 10 years I've been doing this, that's something I can't take away from her and that was never the goal when it came to discussing her work. All I have to show for my own efforts is experience and rhetoric, and a few odd readers who have been around so long I wonder why they even still follow me LOL I am your typical "can never live up to the success of those who they criticize" chronically online shitposter. I don't think I should have to be on Rachel's level to be able to discuss her work, mind you, that's half the function of an audience to begin with, but it's not like I have any real legitimacy in this industry that you should worry about what I have to say. It's not like I'm capable of robbing Rachel of her awards or the money she's made lol

And by all means, go ahead and look for my fanfiction stuff, but I'm not providing any eye bleach because I wrote it when I was like, 13 years old, so search at your own risk lmao

(and if you do find it, no you didn't （︶^︶）/hj)

[miguel-owhora]

Rip, I didn't see your post yesterday about the reaction YouTuber/College AU. Well, I think Micah wouldn't really go to college on his own; he is just there because, like in Canon, it's a tradition for the Bells. (The tradition of being shady criminal lawyers instead of outlaws is simply because I like Better Call Saul. Someone please give me better ideas.) So while Amos is actually doing it and working for his father's company, Micah is just at this college to half-heartedly study law so his father can't complain or something. 

Micah's channel definitely has some stupid rat machcott similar to Schlatt with goats because, why not? I'm half German, aka I grew up with JuliensBlog. Micah definitely has some decade-old video, which is a tutorial to hit women as insane ragebait, together with his early videos being shitting on news papers and news channels. I don't got a lot for you today 🙏

OG Anon

god i love this au so much

Micah studying to become a shady crim. lawyer is so true. He's actually very intelligent but pretends to act dumb, and I feel like his half-hearted effort only exists bc he doesn't really need to study all that much. Coming from a bloodline of shady lawyers means he more or less has a solid idea of procedures and terms and whatnot.

That being said, I don't think he ends up working for his father's company, which I imagine is probably located somewhere in Cali (following along the canon timeline of Amos moving to Cali, i think?) and stays wherever the hell the AU takes place to instead work for Dutch's shady law company; which, since we're on the topic of outlaws = shady crim. lawyers, most gangs are shady law companies. It fits so well, you're so right.

People still don't like Micah because he's still so crude and perverse, and just the biggest troll to walk the world. Dutch only hires him bc of his connections to Micah Bell Jr. (Micah's dad, idk how names work tbh 😭) and realizes he'd be good for their business + he's also Arthur's bf.

On another note, Micah doesn't really care for anyone else other than Arthur, and maybe, Amos, but just barely. He thinks Amos is a suck up for following in their dad's footsteps and for trying to earn his approval, so he looks down on him for that, but has very low contact with Amos bc at the end of the day, they're still brothers. But he truly does care about Arthur, and does love him. Like genuinely, wholeheartedly, does value Arthur.

Anyways, in the beginning Micah didn't really post, and if he did, it was shitposts and obscure, and insane ragebait as you put it. As he grew in popularity, this didn't change — well, if only to follow the YouTube guidelines. Just barely tho. Anyways, as he grew in popularity, so did his haters. They doxxed him and swatted him, sent him death threats, and Micah would just double down.

I imagine they'd try to get him kicked out of college or get him fire, but either they forget or don't know that 1. he has money, and not just from youtube, but from his lineage of being successful lawyers, even if that money is less than earned. and 2. Dutch won't fire him. Not because he's Arthur's sweetheart and he doesn't want his son to be angry at him, but also bc for all the wildcard that Micah is, he's actually good at his job. Like genuinely, bc c'mon now, we all can agree that Micah is a good ass criminal. He's a literal career criminal.

Anyways, I'm in love with this AU, i could talk about it for years

[doorsclosingslowly]

1, 7, 19, 25!

Describe your comfort zone—a typical you-fic. Hm idk I try not to repeat myself too much because I have so so many WIPs to work on. Probably the blorbo du jour with a strong narrative voice and selective perception is suffering due to something that's probably their fault, but someone manages to empathise with him and that doesn't solve the problems it still means something that they don't see blorbo as scum. Either that or a discord shitpost discussion about sex that got way out of hand and now "glove fingering uti" has sprouted feelings

Share a snippet from one of your favorite pieces of prose you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it. (not going too far back bc I'll only be depressed I havent written much this year

Lexicographers were all liars. They put words into the dictionary for things that did not exist, such as “joy” and “calm” and “sleep”. Most emotions were invented, presumably for some malign plot specifically targeting Gríma and obviously connected to stealing his job. What else could they steal from Gríma, after all? He had nothing, not even dignity. Not since Saruman had taken over the department. He’d been so friendly to Gríma before Théoden’s illness and retirement. He’d commiserated about Gríma needing to take over some of the Department Head duties on top of his actual job, just because Théoden was less and less capable.

I just think I really nailed the vibe of a guy who's annoying and self-centred but also genuinely honestly miserable. (this is the catfishing AU, which kinda takes place after Saruman successfully and with Gríma's help conquered Rohan/the art department of a university and then that didn't improve Gríma's ennui at all somehow, in fact life is even worse)

Stephen King once said that his muse is a man who lives in the basement. Do you have a muse? I have an insatiable need to tell myself stories when I don't have anything to do & huge trouble falling asleep. I would make up shit about anything but if I do it about blorbos, I also get to talk about them

What do you look for in a beta? I've never *looked for* a beta specifically bc I'm very scared of bothering people, but I've shouted into the void in case anyone was interested in betaing my work and I've been super happy about working with Alyssa, Ro, Rumpel and Daro on various stories. My biggest needs are probably for someone to judge whether it all makes sense, bc to me a lot of mental jumps make sense that may confuse someone not trapped in my brain, leaving my third person present and nonstandard english phrasings intact, bc that's on purpose I'm not trying to win a grammar prize I'm trying to turn thought processes into text, and also just generally being a person I know and trust. Trust to put in the effort to understand and to be interested in where I want to take an idea and not where they would like to take it. And also especially I have to trust that I'm not forcing said beta to read something they hate, that they would tell me they want to stop and not force themselves to keep going, bc I've worked on myself enough to be ok with publishing a flop fic now but I'm very scared of making someone do something they hate

Thank you!!!!

[bluravenite]

i love tumblr as a platform except for two things.

RANT

there should just be an option to make your blog 18+/nsfw instead of getting every 3rd post flagged for being "mature" its barely suggestive demons girl please chill-

I FUCKING HATE using tumblr on my laptop, which sucks bc desktop version tumblr is so much easier to use for posting, editing, and checking notes... except for the fucking performance bar.

WHY IS IT THERE BY DEFAULT?? i don't doubt that its an important tool to have if you are relying on your tumblr blog to promote merch and income sources, sure.

but for random regular artists and content creators???

that bar was the main thing that discouraged me from posting on tumblr for a while, and why i still prefer posting on my phone, cuz ill never check the number of notes i actually have on a post

but that stupid fucking bar is always there whenever i check in on my laptop and it pisses me off!!!!!!!

most burnt out artists already feel bad if they're not accommodating to their audience and producing good content all the time, which simply should not happen, sorry for all the rants btw <3 I am very stressed and i got shit to complain about before i have time to make more art...

point being,, i feel bad if i am not posting art, and what hurts more is seeing bars like that, where sometimes the DUMBEST shitpost gets more notes and activity than the artwork i spent 14 hours on... that bar can be so fucking harmful to a person's self-perception and its the only thing I genuinely hate about tumblr.

if you are an artist, writer or content creator, just know you are not worth that bar. That bar means nothing compared to the effort and love you put into your craft. I love you and i am proud of you for doing what you love.

[datamodel-of-disaster]

This may not resonate with everyone, and it's certainly not the only way to go about doing creative stuff. But as an incredibly impatient ADHDer with debilitating RSD and highly unreliable interests... If you've ever at some point thought to yourself,

"If my creative output is just... gonna suck for the foreseeable time, and I'm likely to lose interest before I get better at it... What's the fucking point? I'll just feel bad about myself and it'll amount to nothing."

And you've found that thought paralyzing with regards to making art or trying new creative stuff... Here's a realization that has genuinely helped me. You are here right now. On the internet. Seen over an entire lifetime, you're probably spending more than the 10.000 hours it'd take to be any good at a creative skill just scrolling and shitposting. And that's perfectly fine! This is not a "get off the internet and touch grass" post. Just... Realize how much time you put into things in life that genuinely amount to nothing. How much of life is just random distraction and filler. And you don't have any qualms or big feelings about all of that time spent! That's the whole point! That's the magic of it! It's just stuff to take your mind off life! We have this idea that our creative output is special, that it should amount to something. But... why the fuck should it?

Treat your creativity like filler.

As in, treat it like just another thing you do to pass the time. Treat it like scrolling on Tumblr, like a YouTube clickhole, like a game you are trying because it looked funny on a stream, like aimlessly checking all the discords you're in for new memes and random conversation. You know, treat it like stuff you do anyway. Let go of the idea that your creative output should be anything, or make you feel any particular way, or meet any standards of quality or meaningfulness or improvement or even enjoyment. It's genuinely fine if all it does is pass the time. I promise, you'll find yourself crafting and drawing and writing so much more when you present it to yourself as just another value-neutral time wasting option, rather than a Big Effortful Pursuit Of Meaning And Excellence That You Care About A Lot.

[primamchorus]

tldr; i'm saying goodbye to something i used to love.

for a bit, i've been struggling with something that i claimed to love doing, though over time, it's come to a point where i ground to a halt and just...had to swallow whatever stubbornness i had left in me about it and accept the fact that i've fallen out of love with roleplay. it still stings to admit, because i used to be so very active in rp communities and had excitement and genuine love for doing rp and rp events.

i feel like...since i've gotten more reclusive and withdrawn from people, it's not so much that the excitement for collaborative storytelling and world building dwindled? it's more the fact i realized that i'm kind of the only one in my group of friends that ever felt particularly strongly about doing rp events.

it gets so...tiring. and lonely.

i've also felt this way about some art things, but less so because i can enjoy drawing by myself. i guess in a way, i miss being able to do some shitpost or even serious art alongside some friends that felt just as excited as i used to about creating scenarios and moments in story that felt significant.

it just sucks, and the fact that it's been impacting my mental health so viciously has sucked even harder.

it's been making me assume the worst about the people around me, and i know it's just my brain being mean. though, even if there's some level of recognition there, another part of me believes that i'm just not the friend that people in my friend group like enough to want to do things with.

i've honestly worked so hard and tirelessly on rp things that i hoped felt inclusive and open ended enough to allow people to come in -- whether they're new to rp within my friend group, or feel like they've done a lot of it to consider themselves more of a veteran at the art. i look back on a lot of the things i've put effort into and have gotten feedback on from those around me, and it all just kind of feels pointless. like...why?

why did i put so much effort into something -- and not even just this something, but the something before that when i was part of the other rp fc that had been put together by friends prior? why did i expend so much time and effort into things that feel so...meaningless?

like...i get that other people have lives outside of the internet, i truly do. fuck, i have my own shit that i have to take care of in forms of just making sure my hospital visits, mental, and physical health are taken care of. i have to make sure i meet my own deadlines. so i get it.

what hurts the most is that i've always felt like i'm just the bottom of the barrel friend. the one that is the, "i guess they're doing something that people can do with them" person.

i thought more and more about it when my partner asked me what i wanted to rp, and i literally just sat here and went, "i don't know..." and that was when it hit me that i just...

maybe it's less that i've fallen out of love with rp, but more it's the idea that i'm just not allowed to love it. i'm not allowed to have like-minded friends about it. i'm not allowed to find people that feel like they like it as much as i do to the point that we mesh well enough to do rp plots and building together.

so...all of this to say that i've pulled the events plug on my fc, and it still hurts that i felt driven to that point because i genuinely felt like i'm the only one interested in any of it.

it just feels awful.

i'm honestly debating deleting all of my rp characters off of balmung and mateus just so i don't have to look at them and all of the time i feel like i wasted.

[sunxrice]

artfight is done! i have words.

writing this before winner reveal so uh Yeah. my goals achievements thoughts and feelings.

bingo card

5 BINGO LETS GO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

goals

let's see how well i did!!!!

not lose motivation halfway through - somehow i feel like i didn't lose motivation this year, but that might be because i didn't really have much to begin with.

more interesting stuff ✅ - i made a 3d attack (7) apparently

character interactions ✅? (2, 4, 7, 10, 12)

ship art ✅ (7, 10)

shitpost /hj ✅ - okay this one was a joke goal but i Kind of did it (2)

try drawing gore again ✅ - didn't get to do anything extreme though (13, 15)

one (1) animated mass attack, probably ✅ - ended up not being animated ..... that's okay for me. (12)

experiment ✅ - i'm a bit looser with my art this time around i think

put more effort into individual attacks ✅

pieces that have story behind them ✅? i guess???

9/10 not bad

SO WHAT HAPPENED??: the actual rambley part

i made 16 attacks, which is very average compared to last year's 18 and 2022's 14...

...and received 11, compared to 21 last year and 10 in 2022 (counting character included in, not counting my own attacks).

also as a bonus: i acquired level 6 revenge chain.

SO WHAT HAPPENED??

it felt different.

i kind of expected that. i just didn't think it would feel worse.

(oh also this isn't about the whole drama thing that stirred up in other social medias and stuff, or the "commentary channels" milking the controversies as usual. that's a whole other can of worms but it's not really tied to my feelings.)

and i'm going to be honest i felt a little lonely this year.

maybe it was relative considering most of my friends / mutuals all have a whole bunch of other friends who talk to them frequently and care about each others ocs.

i've been trying to convince myself that Bro artfight is about giving it doesnt matter too much if i don't get anything back!! even just a comment or a confirmation that they've seen it is enough to make me happy!! because i get it if people don't attack back or even comment, i've been there!! logically i completely understand it but for some reason it still disappoints me!! i don't get why it does that!! what is happening!!!!

also what happened to all the people who liked jaypeg where did you all go !!!!!!!!! /lh /silly

my point is this year i was Really hoping to get some attacks of club house / respite characters, but my most attacked character is somehow still rice. i don't know why this is but it might be because they're the first character on my list (i think people assume i sort my ocs by preference, or just don't bother to click see all) or because they're my sona.

my other most attacked character is stargaze, who is a fan character, and most people who attack them aren't fans of the media. which i'm fine with but i would have preferred if you attacked a different character.

and my third most attacked character is sunny, who happens to also be my only animal / feral character this year. i guess i should have clarified that changing species is Perfectly Okay especially if you cant draw humans. i could have sworn i put that in my permissions but i think i deleted it idk why

maybe i should not have expected so much. i might hide my sonas next year.

that being said shoutout to artfight user nixthemoon for attacking oliver ily forever /not in any particular way you get the point

...and also to my mutual / friend for doing a revenge chain with me and attacking the respite guys, you know who you are <3 /p

here are the individual character attacks for the 0 people who are curious

rice - 3

stargaze - 2 + 1 included

sunny - 2

evening - 1

nicey - 1

skyen - 1

oliver - 1

all others have 0

anyway i Still talk too much

artfight.net/~dxscmfrt

[rantbunyey]

Hello, been over 8 years.

I know the landscape of Tumblr has changed wildly, and yet I find myself here again. I've tried my hand at other blogs, but there's still something familiar and comfortable here. While this place might not be the best for blogging nowadays, well... who is going to care or even see?

I originally made this blog page because it was my place to rant. Away from my other page where I reposted memes and shitposted. So, I'm back for some more of that. I did draft out another post talking about the difficulties that I've had over the past decade. Things have been up and down, and down again, but that's nothing I haven't talked about before. Still working on myself and surprisingly still finding myself growing and changing in certain ways, even if things around me don't change so much. So I thought... why not take a different approach today, and talk about something that's been on my mind that actually makes me happy. Allow me to talk about her.

Who is her? Who is she?

She is someone who I've known for probably 4 years now, but still makes my heart flutter when I hear her voice. I've had a few relationships here and there over the years. Nothing that got very far in progression, but I've dated. Still, what is it about her that warrants its own happy post? Well, she's not exactly someone I'm in a romantic relationship with. I suppose you can just say that she's someone that I have a massive crush on.

She is a friend. I've always been a bit hesitant to talk about it, because I'm afraid of putting my feelings into words sometimes. She's someone who I've become friends with over the past few years. For the past 2 years or so, we've exchanged at least one message nearly every day, even if it's just a meme or two. Still, she's been one of the constants in my life as of late, and that's due to no small effort on my part. Regardless of the circumstances, she is a friend that I chose. Not a friend that I just happened to sit near in class, not someone I happen to be near due to work or commute... she's someone I chose to get to know.

She is someone that I've had feelings for well over a year now. Last year I drew a Valentine's day card, and this year I gave her chocolates. Perhaps I'm overstepping since we're not in a relationship, but sometimes I wonder if I didn't convey my feelings well, short of just spilling my guts and word vomiting like I've done in the past. I worry about these things. Given the circumstances of our friendship, I have to question whether it's okay for me to feel this way. Given our dynamic, is it okay to feel this way? Even if it's fine for me to have these feelings, is it okay for me to tell her how I feel? I think that my behavior over the past few years have indicated that I'm interested... like... there's no way that she doesn't know, right? And yet, I'm afraid to ask. The thing is...

She doesn't live near me. This is a long distance friendship. Between work schedules and different time zones, I've made an effort to talk to her as much as I can, but it's still tough sometimes. We've... never actually met in person yet. It's... a little embarrassing to admit honestly, but spending time talking to her is one of the things I look forward to most every day. It's one of the things that when I'm down about life, about myself, hearing her voice can always bring a smile to my face. So we've never met face to face, but we will soon.

She recently sent me a gift pack and a letter as a surprise, and my dumb ass was grinning ear to ear as I grabbed the package from the mailroom. I almost tripped over a dozen things trying to get into my apartment to open it. The letter was just a friendly letter of appreciation, but like I mentioned earlier... feeling seen is one of the things that I wanted most. So yes, I was still smiling like an idiot reading every word slowly. A faint scent of her perfume on the letter - my heart was beating out of my fucking chest and I had to reread each sentence 2-3 times before I could make any sense of it through the deafening sound of my heartbeat. Am I the dumb one here? Does this mean anything? I know there's a lot of uncertainty. One thing that I'm sure of in this moment is how much I care about this person, and how much I want to be there for this person, and have fun times and memories together. But... one thing at a time. I'm going to see her soon.

All I know is that right now, I'm looking forward to seeing a good friend that happen to have admired for a while now. I'm excited, but also so so nervous and anxious.

So, who is she? Someone who is very important to me.

And to end on a gushy note...

Say you want me with you here, beside you Anywhere you go, let me go too That's all I ask of you

I'm out.

[pennycat83]

I keep seeing this debate about analog horror and I wanna real quick add one final dunk on Slug whilst I talk about this.

(saw this post on the analog horror subreddit so take it with a lump of rock salt)

(also I find it fucking hillarious Slug's the poster child for all of these)

I don't fully blame Urban Slug for this. I think in general a reason why a lot of people are starting to dislike analog/ digital horror is simple.

It's becoming repetitive. I keep seeing indie shorts/ series that take inspo from stuff like Lacy, TWF, GHE (etc.) that are good, but the same. Hell I don't even get scared by some of them at times, either the artstyle's too cutsie for it or they don't do that spooky of imagery. Like neither the concepts do much, like they could be interesting if they added that bit more thought or depth. People more or less jump in without much depth or planning into something and make good but not memorable stuff.

As for Urbanslug, he did it for fun. According to Wendigoon's vid about the series, he allegedly made the series to show off his art and make merch. Problem is, unlike most shitpost series, this wasn't made clear at the beginning, so people took it at face value. Don't get me wrong I fucking hate the series, every part of it makes my braincells drop. But it kinda also proves the slight fault in a lot of analog horror.

It isn't just dying because it's repetitive, it's dying because no one's putting that extra time and care into their projects. Like the same person who made this also praised Shipwreck, a project that was 2 years in the making complete with functioning websites inside the game, layers to the story and an underlining horror to it that isn't obvious.

Don't get me wrong it's still got familiar beats like the body horror of the Shipliners, but it isn't too much, it knows when to stop.

Hell even Slug put work into his drawings. It's not about the actual analog. It's the effort. How much work you put into something equals the amount of adimration you get. It's that simple, horror is as much of an art piece as any other, and should be treated as such.

Like the reason my series hasn't come out yet (outside of my dogshit ADHD and work anxiety) is because I had to plan out the series in full before hand. I deleted my old FNAF ARG because I wasn't pleased with it.

TLDR: Don't just shit out a horror vid on the spot, but some back bone into it.

Also please reblog this is if you want I need to start prodding people into reblogging my shit more.

[blujaydoodles]

my wizard sending a big dragon man to break into the palace and kidnap her parents without having any way to warn them about it was a foolproof plan 100%

based on this, lmao

[twistedtrashposts]

Um, hi there! So I've read your post about Grim's Overblot and I've read your quote: "Twisted Wonderland is not an otome, and should not be one. The game wouldn’t be nearly as fun and complex if it was." Now, to start off, I'm a huge fan of Twisted Wonderland like you. I love the characters, backgrounds, storylines, the whole shebang. And I just had this itchy feeling, this nagging feeling that it somehow should be an otome game.

Now, this is just my opinion, but I feel that even with some female characters as the main characters, the game would still be fun and complex. The female MC would go along their way finding a way back home, dealing with Overblots, making friends, forming connections. Of course, some little crushes would pop up here and there. A little sweet romance along the way doesn't hurt, does it? After all, the boys do need some love after everything they went though.

It does sound silly and naive, but I firmly believe that love is a powerful force that could touch even the hardest of hearts. Of course, there are some problems that even love can't heal, but knowing that they have a loved one looking out for them, with enough confidence, the boys can conquer their problems by themselves.

Overall, I humbly respect your opinion of it not being an otome game. Each to their own. Great post, by the way! Thanks a bunch!

Hey hey! So, I wanna make it clear that no offense is taken at all, and this is just a spark of friendly debate. After all, this is a shitpost blog, what's the point of feelings actually being hurt?

As an asexual and questioning aromantic (Happy Pride y'all, lmao) I really value platonic love being put in stories. Even more so when it's actually valued as highly as romantic or family love. And I think Twisted Wonderland actually makes me feel like it is, especially with ADeuce and Grim.

Does that stop me from making jokes about the boys being down bad for the MC, of course not, and I wouldn't be upset if a crush existed. I just feel really happy to see a platonic relationship valued so highly.

There is the point of a female specific MC that would really exclude a large portion of their fanbase, so I'm glad they went the route of making Yuu gender neutral, but an otome could still have done that. Hell, just look at Obey Me.

But also in general, otome games don't put as much effort into their characters when they stand on their own, because they're meant to be love interests. They never are "complete" without the MC, and that's what I meant by the game not being as complex if it was one. Otome games usually have their LI's issues fixed, or at least starting to be fixed, using the power of love trope.

That works for them, great! And there's nothing wrong with folks who enjoy that. There are a handful of otome games I actually enjoy, myself. I just don't think Twisted Wonderland would have been one of them.

But, like you said, to each their own. Your opinion is entirely valid, and it's fine to have been disappointed that it wasn't! That's why we have fanfiction, yeah?

[dawndelion-winery]

Hey all,

Just wanna preface this by saying thank you to everyone who's interacted with me so far, thank you all for your support<3 However, I will be taking an indefinite writing hiatus from now. I'm sorry to do this so near the 1k milestone.

I don't know how many of y'all will even read this, but I felt I should at least say something in case anyone started wondering why I stopped posting content.

Potential questions and answers under the cut

Are you ever planning on resuming work?

Yes, hopefully. I can't say when though

Will you still be online?

Absolutely, I'll still be shitposting and talking to people as usual, I just won't be posting my writing

Why are you taking a hiatus?

First off, tumblr is being a bitch again, which makes it hard for my work to get seen. Second, and this one might be selfish and rather entitled of me, but people just,,,don't interact with my work much apart from my beloved mutuals. And I just,,,don't really feel like putting in the time and effort into making content for people who don't seem to appreciate it. I also see how a majority of you are blank blogs, and frankly, even if that means you're new to tumblr, it's not an excuse. You see reblogs, use them, scream shit in the tags, anything. I see some of you reblogging strictly shitposts but have dozens of works in your 'likes'. Do better. It's like most of my notes come from people stumbling upon it from the tags.

What about requests and Social Cues?

Unfortunately, the hiatus applies to them as well and they will linger in my drafts until I return

What about the July EBG?

I'll still be hosting it since it's a game and not content, so don't worry