#i don't actually care that much but the fact that ppl kept asking if they could make designs with it and i said 'yeah if ur not profiting'

[treesbian]

someone is selling my "gender is a prison and i chewed through the bars" quote on redbubble. how rude :^( that is my funny little phrase i wrote

[l1nghuarchive]

SHOOT IM SORRY TO THE ANON I LOST YOUR REQUEST :( AAA FRICK OMLL AAA IM SORRY BUT HERE IS THE REQUEST YOU WANTED!! I can't remember what the reader was.. I wrote this during lunch :') IM SO SORRY ANON

★ CHILDE, TIGHNARI, ALHAITHAM X FEM!READER WHO LIKES TO OVER DRESS & GLAMOROUS

CHILDE/AJAX

• The fatui are known to be rather rich, no one knows where they got their mora from after the death of morax of course no regular person would ask.

• Perhaps Childe might keep the fact that he is a harbinger from you, as he didn't want to frighten you off l. Harbingers are known to be fearsome, cruel and heartless yet you somehow fill that void inside his heart.. He doesn't know how to describe it but it felt like a tree just bloomed into his heart.

• When you went on one of your shopping sprees, you may have forgotten your wallet back at home but he came up and paid for all your stuff! You were really surprised because that stuff cost like 100k+ mora but you were really grateful to him!

• Turns out, he wanted to get a present for his siblings but didn't know what to get for his sister, Tonia and he thought you might be an expert since you walked around the liyue district like the back of your hand.

• Sure, even after Childe left Liyue, he always tries writing to you and keep thanking you for helping him pick out a gift.

• After he confesses, he loves you no matter what <3 he'll glare at the person who was judging you while you're looking away not really wanting you to see the harbinger side of him since he doesn't want to scare you off :(

TIGHNARI

• Perhaps Tighnari met you when you were in sumeru city while he was still studying in the akademiya, of course you stood out to him. Not many people in sumeru focus on their appearance as their main focus is always their studies.

• So he went up to interact with you, thinking you might be a foreigner from liyue or fontaine and was surprised to know that you aren't.

• After a few encounters and small talks, he soon realised that his heart kept pounding whenever he sees you perhaps after a few sassy comments he ACTUALLY confesses.

• Tighnari would get ready with you! Perhaps he'll even share tips on how to untame your hair easily since he does groom his tail and ears frequently, maybe he might allow you to put some of your accessories on him! <3

• Of course, if you are overspending your mora he will stop you and teach you spending habits you shld pick up :)

• he doesn't want his girlfriend perhaps future wife to go broke after all, he does love you dearly so please don't take his comments to heart he just really want you to look after yourself :]

ALHAITHAM

• Same as Tighnari's, i think that ppl in sumeru don't really care much about their appearance.

• alhaitham is someone who likes to lay low and not draw attention to himself when in crowds.

• so kaveh was surprised when he heard that alhaitham was dating you.. Or at least dating someone before him like his jaw literally dropped to the ground and Kaveh kept asking if you were brainwashed.

• Kaveh definitely loves you platonically, you and him are best friends who share tips about improving each others appearance of course all alhaitham can do is just sigh at you and his roommates behaviour before going back to his book.

• wanting to keep you safe, alhaitham only shares your relationships with the traveller and kaveh. He has made countless enemies throughout his years in the akademiya, it was only natural if someone were to target you just to get back at him and since you stood out more he doesn't want you to be in danger.

• if you think alhaitham doesn't approve of you liking to standing out, please don't think that way! Alhaitham seems like someone to love his s/o no matter how they act since if he fell love he knows that they are the one after all no one made him feel this way other than you! :)

Im deeply sorry for the anon who requested this idk what i clicked.. 😰

[wellpullmystring]

hm. knowing how so many ppl disliked ts4 (i know ppl who actually hated it) and also knowing disneys tendency to self-correct, added to bo not appearing in that first look... im scared man. i have faith in pixars writing teams of course (even monsters university which i didnt care much for had some really interesting concepts) but then i think of the incredibles 2 and the whole screenslaver thing, and in general how ppl dont know how to talk about technology to kids who were basically raised by it... its a lot to ask from a movie. and then i dont really like the delusional buzz bit anymore tbh... idk. from what you said im kinda worried

There's so many intricacies to filmmaking, especially when it's a big franchise that's being overseen by a massive corporation. It's really so hard to tell how a product will turn out when there's such a wide array of moving parts here. The fact that all four Toy Story movies have been great (IMO) is a complete miracle. I don't think any other franchise has kept that consistent quality. There's always risk involved in doing another one. I'll say that I have faith the movie can be as great as the others. Andrew Stanton hasn't let us down with Toy Story yet. He has a great track record. And The Incredibles 2 did have a different creative team behind it. I think a movie being directed by the man who did Wall-E has the potential to sell the whole "technology" bit. Toy Story 4 seemed like a completely different movie when you compare the teaser with the final product. I know that Disney has overcorrected sometimes, but Toy Story 4 was still a critically acclaimed film that won an Oscar. I can believe that any undoing of TS4 can be done with tact. I noticed on another look that Woody isn't wearing his badge in the concept art. Jessie still has it. There's some continuity being kept there. Regardless, it's gonna be an interesting ride. Thanks for the ask

[notthestarwar]

for the WIP game, can you tell me more about ‘Fox gets a job- quin/ Fox’ 👀👀

thank you for asking!

OK so i know i've talked about this on here before but i love this au so i'm gonna repeat myself a bit probably.

so its set post war, no order 66. The idea is that the war opened everyones eyes to cloning, in a very bad way. loads of half bit criminals are like. free labour? people we can raise to do whatever we want? why don't we give it a try. theres a background of a lot of shitty gangs going about trying out cloning in a way that would horrify the kaminoans really. this is not good science, this is comic book-esque backstreet cloning in order to take advantage of people.

they are largely not successful. the problem isnt that there are loads of gang owned clones around. the problem is that they keep trying even tho they dont know shit about cloning and so vulnerable ppl are getting kidnapped off the streets for gennetic material and in a baby farm type way to grow clones in. its bad.

enter fox. he's drifting after the war. he doesnt really know what too do with his life. he is looking for a job and he says he wants a job but everytime he gets an interview he's overly honest and tells them things like 'yeah i killed my last boss' (palpatine) and 'my greatest flaw? i'm too competent. it makes my bosses feel inferior' and so understandably nobody will give him a job

he doesnt actually need a job. quin is paying all his bills cause theyre in a weird not relationship and wont admit they care about eachother. fox is deadly embarrased about whatever quin funding him and spending all his days off in fox's apartment might signify and so it is a MASSIVE SECRET that must be kept from fox's brothers.

so fox at this point in his life, stumbles on to one of these cloning ops and ends up helping someone. and it becomes kind of addictive. he wont admit it but helping these people, who are being hurt by cloning, settles something in him. maybe it settles the thing in him that he wont admit is so hurt by the cards he and his brothers have been dealt, by what was done to them.

so fox sets up as a private investigator. but because he's a weirdo who runs from intimacy he kind of. doesnt tell anyone (he cant. this is important to him) but of course, his brothers find out anyway and they also find out that he's running the worst business ever because he's not taking money from his clients. because he doesnt feel right doing it.

now where this is building to (and this is the part that i kinda got stuck on) is he stumbles on to a BIG criminall gang cloning conspiracy. one where they are actually succeeding in cloning people. he ends up investigating this one with Boba! which pretty much happens cause at the start before he knows how big this is, he walks in to this lab, and who has also broken in to the lab and is investigating the same conspiracy? BOBA. and its just like. fox and boba stood on either side of this illegal lab like. spiderman meme pointing. looking out of the window of a car as they drive past each other. that vibe.

and the rest of the story is boba and fox on this unwilling team up. neither of them wanting to admit to feelings but having to kind of both admit. yeah. bad things happened to us and i dont like the idea of anyone else being out there with similar stuff happening to them. they also unwillingly get close. then theres the side plot of fox having to admit his feelings when it comes too quin and admit that theyre kinda living like theyre in a committed relationship without the words. and then the other thing thats going on in the background is cody and obi wan, who are living together, in a happy relationship apart from the fact that they never have an empty house becuase one of them is aways inviting some wayward sibling or other to stay with them. cody and obi wan respectively have no shortage of family so its just constant and both of them act like theyre annoyed each time the others do it, but really, its why they love each other and theyre both so big brother coded and yeah.

so i know i've alread shared some bits of this here and here (and possibly theres a third one floating around here as welll? cant find it)

so here are some other snippets from other parts of the au:

and from a bit later on, a quin/fox bit

later on, fox being uncharactaristially honest (it's easier when the person doesnt matter to him)

and finally, fox's thoughts on the cloning problem

and i've shared loads sorry so i'll stop now, but yeah. this is an idea i am very excited about and i am very frustrated that i havent been able to form a conspiracy that fits right for him and boba to investigate

[skykashi]

What made kakashi your favorite character and hope you have wonderful day

Thank you 😊

I did answer a similar ask here so you might wanna check my answer there too

But anyway, I only started watching Naruto in 2017 with my brother who has been watching it since 2002 and with all of my Kakashi obsession ppl would think that I fell for Kakashi right from the start but actually, unlike most Kakashi fans, that was not the case for me.. my first impression about Kakashi was as everyone else "oh this guy is so cool" and I was pretty much neutral, up until that moment when Kakashi chose to teach Sasuke Chidori and leave Naruto to Ebisu and I was so angry, like I literally paused the episode just to scream at Kakashi's face like.. "how could you leave the baby 😭 he needs YOU! gdi not stupid Ebisu" and I kept watching and kept being angry at Kakashi until we got to see the flashback between Kakashi and Jiraiya when Jiraiya asked him to leave Naruto to him and focus on Sasuke and why this was the best choice for both Naruto and Sasuke and then I started to think also about all of the aspects about Sasuke's situation with the cursed mark, Orochimaro and Gaara and all.. and the fact that Kakashi didn't actually abandon Naruto at all, he made the right logical choice only when he was sure that Naruto too was safe and in good hands and just like that all of the anger turned into admiration and starting from this point my love for Kakashi started to grow, he wasn't my favorite character yet but he got my attention and that's when I realized that Kakashi is doing so much actually, he cares a lot and he's very kind but you have to pay attention to the details or you'll miss a lot of things because this man is really good at hiding his kindness and giving the credit to everything good he does to other people, he never say in words how much he cares but all of his actions shows how deeply he cares about everyone and how selfless he actually is... Until Shippuden, specifically this part And I turned to my brother and was like "I love him! like I don't like him, no! I LOVE HIM!!" and my brother was like "yeah that's what everyone says at the start we all went through the Kakashi phase but we're still at the beginning, as the story advances you'll see other cool characters and you might like them more" and I furiously shook my head and was like "nope! nah! absolutely not!! I LOVE him!! and this will never change, I'll never love any other character more than this man, nope! I mean, look at him!, no one can ever outdo this!!, he's the love of my life! I KNOW IT!!" And I was right, from this point my love for Kakashi only grew stronger and stronger getting to know more about his backstory and getting to see more of his wholesomeness... No matter how many anime I watch, no matter how many characters I see, no one has ever and will never take this man's place in my heart, it will forever be him.

[inchidentally]

tricky asks time! yeeeesh some of these are... yea I did my best and had to censor stuff. (part 1/2)

there's a reason I bundle these together under a cut so please skip if discourse etc is not your thing &lt;3

oh lordddd. so I think (hopefully) this conspiracy theory either died or ppl just decided to live in denial I really do not care either way. I can't comprehend being so far off base with Carlos and Lando's friendship as to think that Lando replying to his teammate with that clip is somehow heinous or askgfasgfsal "unlike him" it's so on brand for him.

Carlos moving to Monaco is pretty overdue tbh and yea, literally a chunk of the grid already live there. I'm sure he'll eventually hang out w Lando but why wouldn't he also hang out w all the other drivers lol. and if he - god I cannot believe ppl think this - is moving "for Lando" then why wait so long? but then you have to start asking why did he go to Ferrari and well. there's no reasoning w that shit.

side note that's very cute that Lando and Max live close together - rly supports the ask I got about how Max is the driver that Lando actually spends the most downtime with even during the offseason.

and yea, Rebecca has been with him when she's not been on modeling gigs and they both posted parallel stories from the Dolomites today. so if ppl are worried about Carlos not having support then his literal gf is there with him so he very much does. the idea that two hot people found each other on dating apps is I guess too simple!! but if they also believe that Ferrari hate Carlos then why divert resources from their already exhausted PR dept (this is Ferrari we're talking about lol) to the point of hiring, paying and arranging an entire relationship for him?? like you've got to fucking laugh this 1D 2012 stan shit off.

agflasgj wow that was a pretty quick flip from thinking Lando's sm is run by PR to now he personally runs his karting IG!

sorry but I haven't stopped laughing since anons informing me how Charles has had a karting brand for years and this is apparently pretty common for drivers to do. everyone kept acting like it was a carlando moment so I just went with it but apparently - shocker! - Carlos made a business decision not based on Lando.

I mean, I don't ?? Carlos has had the exact same dynamic with each of his teammates but what makes the relationship with Lando special is that they're big brother/little brother. Lando latches onto Carlos as a security blanket and Carlos likes having him around and actually is able to shut down his red mist anger in the car when it comes to Lando. apart from that they're mostly relying on the bromance format of friendship that you can see in most of the grid.

so while if Lando and Oscar had chosen to do the bromance/playing gay thing then sure I'd find it cute and ship it but like. the fact that Oscar is carrying around this sweet years-long sort of crush/fanboy thing about Lando and Lando has openly said that Oscar helps him be reminded to just be himself and be calm... like that is so sweet?? they're both so bashful about physically touching but they have this bond of being basically the same age and both being introverts.

sorry but I wouldn't replace that with a facsimile of someone else's friendship personally!

I do not. get it ! this absolute fantasy that Lando and Carlos would've survived let alone thrived being actual direct competition on the same team has got to be someone who doesn't look at anything F1 related ever outside ships. bc I'm literally a fake and even I know that there's no such thing as teammates competing for race wins and championships with zero friction. and like between Carlos and his family airing all that kind of thing on social media and news outlets and the fact that Lando cannot hide anything on his face, moments like this one would've been happening every other weekend. it's precisely because they weren't on the same team that they could get over that as fast as they did !! even ignoring that Carlos Sr has never once hinted at a return to McLaren, Carlos would never want to risk seeming like he's begging for his old spot back AND no way in fuck would Lando accept being the no 2 driver again.

we get plenty of carlando content still and Lando has said over and fucking over how he's been pushed by Oscar to perform at a level he's never seen in himself before. how are ppl mad about that just bc they don't get a few stupid carlando challenges every couple of weeks?

babe, Lando did have a gf and it didn't dampen carlando truthing at all. it just resulted in a breakup and Lando posting that Luisinha had gotten harassment and death threats. Rebecca is literally dating Carlos and there's a full blown conspiracy theory that she's been "bought and is paid for" by Ferrari to beard for Carlos. do not expect girlfriends to ever change that behavior and don't wish it on any woman.

I just. I'm sorry but how many years have to go by where Lando has a more intimate relationship with countless men and women than he's ever had with Carlos before they just accept that Carlos is one of Lando's F1 buddies but he's not one of his closest friends outside of it (Lando's words!!!) like just enjoy carlando for what it is and stop getting into hysterics bc they're still not fucking or dating or married aslfgjslagflsgalfg

for my own sanity I'm going to pray that twitter acc is joking bc the larry/kpop/yaoi/heteronormative fetishizing of homosexuality/the "girl one" must be hairless and look like a teenager and only bottom as if he were a cisgirl has SURELY been left in 2012. it has to be satire?? it's still extremely cringe satire but like. that cannot be real. either way, block and cleanse that tl anon. I'm not going to spend any more time on that in case they're serious bc that would be tragic.

and I've got to say one thing: I'm sure you didn't mean any harm by it but even suggesting that someone being called or assumed gay is an insult or overstepping is not it, babe. we're not here to coddle cishet ppls anxieties and prejudices or pretend that outrage about it is anything but homophobia. but I fully agree that no one should be talking about a celebrities' sexuality or sex life on highly public platforms esp platforms that the celebrity uses - and esp when it isn't censored and could show in their tags.

at least to anyone under 40 tumblr at least is a known no-go area and fandom-only. it's also extremely difficult for google to trawl (I've googled specifically for a post many times and couldn't find them) and you aren't allowed to scroll past a certain point (even on public accs) without being logged in. so there's no risk of 'stumbling' onto anything here even if it gets directly sent to them. unless the person is older in which case they prob have someone else fielding their sm. this is literally THE place to come and be stupid and silly about fandom.

I mean I do have to agree that there's always an element of 'for the image' when it comes to the Sainz family but honestly Lando is so disarmingly sweet and genuine - and they got to know him as a such a baby - that I have to think at least most of their affection for him is real! now if they knew the carlando content they like on instagram and twitter was intended by a lot of fans as gay then bye bye carlando lol. I'm not gonna wade any deeper into that but yea. we should be grateful they don't understand that aspect of the bromance thing.

but as for the DTS thing I have to think that anyone who sees a bromance being danced around so loudly and publicly and thinks that it's actually a secret gay ship complete with paid beards is twelve years old. it makes me too sad and scared to realize these are tax paying grown women driving these narratives alfhlsahff

IKR?? Oscar is out here with an actual form of real life fanboy crush on Lando but he's incredibly happy and content with Lily and doesn't even push himself into Lando's hobbies or life outside of F1 at all!

whereas Carlos says things like "it's weird that you all want me to kiss Lando" and literally cuffs and scolds Lando like a big brother but supposedly that's being "threatened" by a bashful quiet boy who is happily in a LTR and content to just stare at Lando from afar and be his teammate ????

meanwhile Lando is living his best life being petted and bedded and adored by a queue of lovers that stretches the entire globe and Carlos is continuing his years long habit of serially dating beautiful women and spending most of his time outside F1 training with his buddies. everyone's happy folks, let's just accept that!

honestly anon there's a heavy sprinkling of this that I disagree with and I think I've covered why with the other asks. and I do not engage in war of the rpfs bc none of these ships are "real". and as someone who ships carlando I do have to say that there's at least some decent amount of us who don't do the larrying shit. and that Netflix/DTS have as much a role to play in false narratives as "fangirls". they could easily decide to focus more realistically on the sport but they're choosing to appeal to fans with extreme biases.

but the part about the whole yaoi/heteronormative self-insert quality of how certain people ship carlando is pretty damn accurate. I immediately skip a fic if it's clear that Lando's just going to be this empty character reacting to Carlos the whole time. it's the same thing w people who want Lando to have stayed an insecure teenager w social anxiety who leaned on Carlos' personality and experience. that era was cute but Lando grew up and his career and his life are all his own making. he doesn't revolve shit around Carlos or any other person.

like it's fine if that's how ppl choose to ship something in fandom spaces where everyone else can just block it. but it absolutely should NOT carry over publicly and I should not be seeing as much of Lando's content on various accs and platforms flooded w irrelevant comments and gifs about Carlos as I do.

in a weird creepy way, a lot of Lando pages and fan accs have sort of turned him into how they view girlfriends ?? as if Lando can't be allowed to exist without it always being brought back to Carlos and carlando - and sometimes they'll randomly make an entire edit or carousel about carlando for literally no reason ??

ig that's why they get so angry when Lando blatantly has real life intimate friendships and relationships. hence the Martin hatred mentioned above.

anon you've got it in one. even down to how they've both dealt with the latest drama. they did that drive into Maranello together when we now know they were fully aware of what was coming. and then the BTS of their photoshoot for the 2024 race suits. and then Charles stating at the event the other day how he and Carlos have a special relationship and are friends outside racing as well.

it's got to be awkward as fuuuuuck but they're both choosing as always to put it aside and not let the relationship fall apart or into the distant coldness of Ocon and Gasly. they've been through periods similar to this before and always came back to that place of leaving all that drama at the door.

which is so funny bc if it was all just PR, then Carlos and Charles wouldn't bother! teams have never needed their partnerships to be friendly. they just need each driver to go out and get points. so for them to remain friends despite their families and fanbases being constantly at war, they absolutely are choosing to be!

wellll, I have to disagree bc Carlos being called Ferrari's best strategist by fans means that he clearly is able to ignore team orders and is allowed to not be "perfect". honestly I think Carlos' ballsiness and inability to play second to anyone has clearly never served him poorly w Ferrari ?? this is a team very immersed in traditional patriarchal culture and for all that they are the il Predestinato brand in this era, Sainz Sr said this last season that the car had Carlos' input and customization. so idk I feel like Carlos using aggression and decision would if anything be appreciated by Ferrari. (but I do think the hardballing by his dad with the Audi interest was a step too far for them - even though it sounds more and more like the decision to not renew Carlos was already on the table long before that)

whereas I think that very culture is why Charles is both subjected to and "upheld" by it. there's a difference between a brand like Ferrari deciding to hang your banners over the parapets and them actually having your best interests as a driver at heart. I can't find it now but there was a great post about Charles' frenetic and often erratic driving style getting in the way of his obvious skill and talent. idk I feel like if I was smarter I could draw up a commentary on Charles seeing his name and his face and his successes being spread across everything Ferrari and an almost impotence from fans assigning him such unrealistic idolatry and power - while also assuming an untouchable quality that ends up making him appear weak and in need of constant defending, even from his teammates and Ferrari itself.

it's fucked up, anon, we can agree on that. Seb and Carlos suffering the blunt end of Ferrari's cudgel doesn't necessarily mean that Charles is enjoying much if any power in being protected by it. I wish I could express that better salfsgjlaf

obv again I am a fake so I may be WAY off w all of that so that's why I'm burying this at the bottom - pls ignore it if I'm being dumb <3

[tailoredshirt]

you mentioned you don't have any anon asks rn so here i am! :D how do you feel after this ep? i've seen ppl saying that looking back at tarlos' scenes from the previous eps might've been tainted by this – him harbouring this big of a secret to his literal fiancé, of all ppl – and i do get where they're coming from too :(

also, i'm soooOOooOOooO annoyed that tk just brushed it off like that 😭😭 for someone who has been so heavily affected by a) being cheated on (although imo this marriage is more of a desperate need to belong/be loved, knowing that there was no way he'd ever find oor marry the love of his life, and then afterwards, more out of necessity for the health insurance aspect of things) so i don't really count this as cheating, but i understand ppl have diff definitions of it), and constantly having ppl he loved and cared about (re: owen and gwyn) keeping (big, life-changing) secrets from him, i'm trying to make peace with the fact we didn't get more out of that scene. although, i do hope that his need to console and support carlos at that time far outweighs his need to process the news, so that has taken backseat for the time and would probably resurface as we progress further along in the story.

so far, i don't trust anyone or anything that has been said from the actors and writers of the show, so i literally just will be going into the upcoming eps with zero expectations.

Hello!! <3

I pretty much agree with everything you said, I think? I've got a lot of conflicting thoughts that are living side-by-side right now. Like...how I feel about this situation vs. how I feel about it as a plotline vs. how I will treat it going forward. If this was real life, I would agree that it taints their relationship (and that I'd be dumping his ass), but as a plot device I don't find this secret as difficult to reconcile as I would if one of them slept with someone else or had some kind of emotional infidelity. This falls more into 'huge breach of trust' territory than cheating to me, but ymmv.

I think I'm glad for my own tender Tarlos feelings that TK mostly accepted it, because it makes it easier to kinda mentally skip past it if they're not showing a bunch of angst between TK and Carlos onscreen, but like you I do hate how it feels like the narrative is brushing it away (even if I am simultaneously happy that they're doing it??). I dislike the sloppy execution, although there are aspects of the storyline I honestly don't hate? Carlos being married to Iris for the reasons discussed is actually giving me a ton of feelings, and would probably be giving me more if they'd laid a better foundation for their friendship in previous seasons. I keep imagining them as "lost", lonely teenagers and it kills me. Even if I gloss over most of this plotline moving forward, I will take that with me.

But yes, I am hoping they at least acknowledge that Carlos fucked up by not telling TK much sooner! Until then I just imagine that TK's angry/sad reaction is delayed. The spoilers say it will affect them throughout the season, and it would make sense if TK's feelings over Carlos's lack of communication was part of it. They can't go into marriage if Carlos is going to make decisions for them and/or withhold huge things he'd prefer to avoid.

(And yeah, TK having been cheated on and people keeping things from him makes me hugely sad for him. Like...he found the love of his life! This man who kept proving time and again that he loves TK and will be there for him in ways other people haven't. And then...... PSYCH. That's so traumatizing.)

Zero expectations is the way to do it lol. I was driving myself out of my mind with anxiety before the episode aired, and I can't sustain that all season. It's why I'm trying to just go with the flow as much as possible. I am not telling anyone else how to feel. I've dropped shows for doing things I hated. I'm just not at that point with LS and don't want to be.

[1eos]

reading anon's ask and ur response only serves to remind me how sickening it is for society to expect women and young girls to somehow be "naturally motherly caretakers instantly capable of taking care of children," to the point where mothers are considered the "default" parent and therefore the one expected most to do the child rearing while nothing is expected of men/fathers (in fact they are expected to be bad at parenthood which is why we have the whole "idiot dad" stereotype) 😐😐 reminds me of this reddit AITA where OP got sick of having her identity reduced to being merely a mother: she kept on getting gifts related to motherhood and nothing abt her own interests while her husband got gifts related to his hobbies/interests (like no father related items at all), which shows just how much the "the woman/mother is the default parent" crap has been normalized.

yeah....the 'all women are naturally amazing caretakers' is the bane of my existence tbh. the vagina to mother pipeline is getting a BIT better but the ideals are so ingrained in society it actually drives me crazy. and i saw that aita! that made me fucking sick like other adults in her life weren't even calling her by her name just 'mama'. 😭😭😭😭 i swear the more i hear accounts from women who have kids the more i feel like i would rather die than have kids. ppl really will act like you exist for nothing but popping out kids! dark sided! but this also raises my respect for ppl who DO have kids. like wow............you're made of sterner stuff

and speaking of reddit i feel like that's the easiest way to see just how fast ppl are to shit on a woman for not wanting to take a bullet for literally any child or infant on earth. they will light women UP for not wanting to swoop in and breast feed some other man's child regardless of how weird and manipulative he is abt it. a man could literally bring his children to a strangers house and if she's a woman someone will get mad that she didn't take them in and sacrifice her whole being to raise them when she didn't want to. it's VILEEEE

and even tho my family has.......issues.......i'm thankful p much everyone has seen my lack of """"""motherly warmth""""" from birth and accepted that it's not gonna change 😭 apparently when i was a kid i begged for one of them dolls that acted like a real baby and when i got it and it started crying i immediately asked my mom to get a refund lollllllllll. but even with this bare minimum im INCREDIBLY lucky like soooooooo many girls are basically being harassed by everyone around them to be a mother and if they're not perfect at raising a child they may not have wanted they get vilified.

which is my main problem tbh and shows that most ppl don't respect children like coercing ppl who don't want kids to have them and then do a BRUNT of the child rearing will inevitably negatively affect the kids? the kids you are so desperate for? 89% of shit around children i don't understand but it's like? by forcing ppl via societal pressure to have kids there's a slim chance these kids are gonna have the upbringing they need? and they think oh suck it up even if you resent having kids they'll suffer without you but they'll also suffer.........with you....bc you resent them? children are a gift but they don't raise themselves and the fantasy that everybody w a womb who don't want kids will change their mind when they look into the baby's widdle eyes is literally just misogyny lol

[superfluouskeys]

omg i just realised you're in law school?? can i ask what prompted you to pursue a (i presume) 2nd degree? i am nearing 30 and considering going for a 2nd degree as well but i'm super reluctant haha, would you mind sharing something about your experience? are you doing like a master's, did you choose it to get a specific job you are aiming for?

Ah, I would be happy to talk about my questionable life choices lol! For law school in the US if you want to actually practice you get what's called a Juris Doctor (JD) degree, which is a professional degree, and you have to have completed a Bachelor's to pursue it. People who want to like, specialize in something will sometimes get an LLM (Master of Law), but generally do that after the JD, even though a JD is technically "higher" than a Master's. Absurdly long story of my Journey TM under the cut lol

I tell people law school was a response to the pandemic even though that's not really true bc I don't want to get into the years-long insane series of thought processes that led me here lol. I only have a Bachelor's degree (in German/Music) and never intended to pursue anything beyond that. I'm naturally intelligent and did very well in school without trying, but I never had any particular interest in pursuing a higher education and pretty much just did it because that's what you're supposed to do. Looking back I feel quite embarrassed that I didn't fully appreciate the value of my education, even though I obviously wasn't doing it on purpose LOL. I got a lot of value out of college in general but it's frankly amazing that I did fine in my classes given my general self at the time. Fortunately I went to one of those schools where ppl hear the name and go oooOoooo woOOooOOow and don't generally care about my mediocre GPA.

I never really had a clear idea of what I wanted to do with my life, and I don't feel I'm one of those people who has a Calling TM. I'm good at and enjoy a variety of things, and I have a hard time being happy doing the same thing for a long period of time. I worked as a professional actor/singer when I graduated, and even within that field I became unhappy when I did too much of the same kind of work. Ultimately, as I grew into myself, I became frustrated and disillusioned with the industry in general, and with how I was being forced to live my life. I so rarely got to do anything I genuinely enjoyed, the work that paid best was utterly soul-sucking, and the general attitudes of the people around me esp. towards maintaining one's appearance were very unhealthy for me. They're unhealthy for everyone of course, but I was trying to recover from viewing my body in a negative light, and being around ppl with these attitudes made it pretty much impossible.

So I was already sort of looking for a new path of some sort a few years ago, but what I didn't realize at the time was that I had completely lost faith in myself and my abilities, and was selling myself incredibly short. I tried to do a bunch of dumb shit which obviously wouldn't be fulfilling in any way, tried to reshape my life into something bearable, and failed miserably several times. I was in fact halfway through discarding another failed attempt and taking up a new one when the pandemic hit. I ended up having to move back in with my mother, and what we all hoped would be a couple of months turned into Whatever This Is. So I found myself with a lot of time to think lol. And while it was a very difficult experience, I kept telling myself, whatever you do, no matter how bad it is, you need to actually think ahead for five fucking seconds and try to do something that will actually work, you know lol, because otherwise you're just going to end up in the same place again.

Law school started as a whim like any other; I was having lunch with my mom, and she mentioned offhand that she thought I should go to law school (she didn't go but she has a lot of lawyer friends). And I was feeling just insane enough that day that I was like yeah idk maybe I should. So I went home and was like okay how does one go to law school. I looked up a practice LSAT, took it knowing absolutely nothing about the LSAT, and did EXTREMELY well. So I thought, well. Huh. I need something to do w my life so I stop wanting to eat drywall, why not study for the LSAT lol, can't hurt.

And it just sort of kept going from there. Practicing for the LSAT gave me a sense of purpose, applying to law schools gave me a sense of purpose, and that sense of purpose enabled me to start slowly improving the horrible circumstances I was in. I didn't know how anything would shake out and to be honest I didn't particularly care at that point. Looking back I think I really had no hope for the future, and I was pretty crazy and didn't really feel like I'd be able to live very much longer. I didn't envision myself as a lawyer really, more as a law student lol. Schools have a lot of free resources and people who want to help you, and even as crazy as I was I felt I was in a much better place to take full advantage of those things than I had been in undergrad, in order to achieve SOMETHING. I wasn't really worried about what that might be.

So, I vowed to myself that whatever happened, I would really try, not just in school but to build a better future for myself. I did not arrive here in a good mental state, to say the least lol. And going back to school brought back a LOT of painful memories from my previous time in school when, as I mentioned, I was infinitely crazier. As just a couple of random examples, I was sort of toying with the idea of trying to learn a new language, and realized that I was still holding onto this intense guilt about the mental breakdown I had while taking a Russian class in college. One of my professors told me that I was an amazing writer, and I realized no teacher had ever told me that before. I had these insane moments sitting in class where I would get emotional because I was just so happy to be there, in spite of absolutely everything. I stopped regretting all of my past mistakes, because I genuinely think, no matter what horrible things I've done, I would do them all again if they would bring me here. My favorite professor literally saved my life, and is probably the only person in the world who could have successfully convinced me to go to therapy. I can't really even wish I'd done any of this sooner, because I know without a doubt that I wouldn't have been ready.

There are definitely some challenges to being back in school after so long. I remember feeling especially when I was around my friends who were in grad school that if I had to, like, write a long-ass paper or something, I just wouldn't be able to do it lol, like I'd just be so pissed that I had to do some arbitrary assignment. But it should be noted that I, like, despise philosophy-type subjects and things with no practical application, and always felt like I was bullshitting my assignments to make them longer. Not only do I love law school assignments because they are about applying the law to a set of facts (which may be made up but still have real-world relevance), but I always have a LOT to say, and am always struggling to make my papers SHORT enough rather than dragging out my dumbass takes to meet the minimum lol. It's a lot of work, but generally it's work I actually WANT to do, which makes all the difference.

I definitely also feel a bit of a disconnect from most of my fellow students. I think this is partially an age thing and partially a life experience thing. Like, for example, I had a series of hilarious conversations with ppl a few weeks back bc one of my classmates was like "where do you go?? you leave class so fast?" and i was like ?????? when class is over you get to leave that's the deal??????

And I was talking to my fave professor about this and she was like yeah that's definitely a difference of being a little older, you're probably just not in the same mindset that they are. Which is definitely true, and worth keeping in mind. It's not a big deal really but it can be very isolating if you don't feel like you can relate to your classmates on that level. I sometimes get a little :( because I don't usually have a hard time talking to people but I'll just have the most insane interactions w some of my classmates and have to talk myself down like it's okay it wasn't you the other person was the one acting weird LOL. Also, for me at least, I definitely have a little bit of a 'you can't tell me what to fucking do' attitude sometimes LOL, and will get really irritated when professors keep us over time or make us do something pointless. That may just be my sweet personality, but I think in general having been out of school for awhile and also being a bit older, I'm MUCH less tolerant of trifling bullshit than when i was younger LOL. Generally I think there's a lot LESS trifling bullshit to deal with in law school bc there's just so much that's genuinely important to learn? But something to keep in mind.

But god there are SO many benefits! Like, as I mentioned, I'm a naturally intelligent person, but it's actually terrifying how much my mind had slowed down over the past few years. I've had SO many moments here where I was like oh my god, I'm stupid, I'm just stupid and I can't understand this-- and then I was like okay sweaty :) have you considered taking a nap and maybe you'll calm down :) lol but you get my point. Learning new things in a structured environment where you literally have to do the work I think is so beneficial especially at this particular age, since most people get pretty settled into their ways around 30, and personally I don't particularly like being set in my ways and want to always be growing and improving and pushing myself. Every aspect of my life has improved noticeably since I've been here, my physical and emotional and mental health, my memory, my writing, my personal relationships--everything.

BUT that is a direct result of all the work I've put in, because I did this at the right time for myself, and at a point in my life when I'm able to truly appreciate the value of a good education and all the benefits and resources that come with that. So, I would say that if you're in the right mindset to go back to school, it's absolutely 1000% worth it. But if you feel like, 'I don't want to do this, this is a waste of time and will make me miserable,' then I'd say wait it out a little more. There might come a day when you're like, wow, I'm so ready. Or you might think, I can't believe I was gonna go to grad school for That TM that would have been insane, and want to go for something else lol. I think we're so conditioned not to listen to our intuition that we don't realize a lot of the time our gut instinct will tell us whether something is the right move or not!

Wow this was long lol, thank you so much for reaching out, friend, and I hope some of this was mildly helpful or entertaining! I wish you the best in your ventures, and of course I'm always happy to talk more!

[llycaons]

ep18 (1/2): in which wwx manipulates and lies to his friends and family (lovingly)

forgot this. he can just fly around catching birds. no wonder it's so easy to camp

I feel like birthdays really only crop up in american tv in the context of little kids. it's something children do.

xy twirling his hair as he walks away 😭 can your believe ppl still ship them after he murdered SL's entire family

this was such a good change for the show to make bc 1. this introduces the idea of bssr really naturally and 2. it gives wwx another interaction with SL, which is emotionally significant later for both us and the characters

also they need to slip in his backstory and all of its parallels to wx somehow and waiting until yi city is way too late

oh cool I love a t/n

wwx making it a mystical quest bound in ceremony and ritual to prevent jc from suspecting or asking too many questions, and to control his actions. ugh

that post abt jc hero-worshipping wwx continues to baffle me. in fact this is the only time we ever see jc so eager to follow wwx's directions and do what he says

'let her do anything' she is a grown woman she can gather herbs if she wants and what authority do you have to stop her 😭

this smile after he convinces jc about his plan is so haunting. you can see he's sxcited and then the smile fades and he just looks...resigned? fucking misery

yanqing warriors! when wwx mentions jyl leaving soon, wen qing freezes and doesn't say anything for a few seconds. what can it mean hmm?

I don't think jc would have accepted the core if he knew what wwx planned, which is why wwx kept it secret. one of the reasons

this is kind of manipulative no? not in a way to hurt her just to get her to agree with his plan. and maybe he means it too. maybe he would have done with without the debt of the jiangs held over his head. we'll never know

drugging you sister. sir!

I think it's really funny when wwx insults jc sorry I always will. he deserves to at least a little

first shot of wwx looking like a little mousie with his threabare pillow and jc a raging little brat. very similar to the first shot of the show! wwx bleeding and suicidal, and jc stalking over to finish the job. but in that scene and this one, we see there's more to the story

im going to fucking isekai myself into cql universe for the sole purpose of cuddling this child

you know I was so excited for jfm to say that. like go jfm! the haters were wrong about you! you love and protect at least one child under your care!

and then it IMMEDIATELY cuts to wwx hours later freezing because jfm told him 'jc is a good kid' and then he LEFT HIM THERE AND WENT TO BED

FUCK HIM FUCK HIM FUCK HIM. USELESS BASTARD. YOU ARE THE PROBLEM HERE

ugh it's not cool to hate on a 9 year old esp since he's lonely and neglected by his dad but he's such a brat

her parents and sect are so useless this preteen girl has to go out into the woods at like 1 am to find her new brother

wwx's first instinct was to find a tree to climb. dogs can't climb trees, but how many trees were in yiling for him to learn to climb? hmm

wwx falling is such a theme and jyl being the only one besides lwj to ever try to catch him....ough. his two lights indeed

jyl also actually explains why jc is upset rather than just telling him he'll be fine

HALF A DAY??!! hasn't he suffered enough. mein gott

and of course now she has to parent her two baby brothers one of whom is very traumatized and newly adopted and the other is very socially inept and clumsy so he came out to help and now he's BLEEDING. if I was her I would have carried so much resentment as an adult oops her parents are dead so I guess she can't even if she wanted to

YOU WILL SAY IT CRYING SOMEDAY

it's significant that (iirc) jc never says he's sorry in the main timeline. only twice in the story - here and at the very end. a lot of people consider the finale the end of their relationship, but I prefer to see it as a reset. a renewal. they're starting again. jc is crying and he's sorry for hurting wwx, and wwx forgives him because he's a nice kid and because he does care about him. and they can start from there, even if things will be different

they don't have jyl anymore, but everything's come out between them. they can coexist on equal footing. wwx has someone who protects him. jc doesn't resent him so much. all his anger is spent. he feels bad. they won't be what they were before, but I like to think they'll at least have some of the brotherhood they once did

jc also crying in his sleep with this flashback. lot of sleep crying these days

[the-amalgam-house]

My wife brought up divorce yesterday because a woman she just met online not too long ago would only want to have children if she were legally married to the person.

Let me repeat for my own sake as well: My wife of 11 years asked if I would stay with her if we divorced so she could marry a 25 year old woman from another state that she met online for a long distance relationship probably like a month or two ago. Because babies.

I understand I'm not ideal. I'm not a woman, I can't work, I don't have sex. I'm disabled with so many chronic physical and mental illnesses it's severely impacted my ability to be a person at all. I understand being a burden on anyone who would have to care for me. I even would have been more open to talking about it as an option for trying to get me on disability so my medical needs could potentially be more stable. But to be told "I'm thinking about divorce because I want to marry someone else, but I still love you!" Is just.

She's polyamorous. I always stated that it's p much okay as long as she always comes back to me. I know that doesn't REQUIRE legal marriage...but I'm gonna be real that fucking hurts. For her to expect me to stay when she wants to leave for someone else. Maybe not physically leave, but she gets so enamored with these women who have never been there for her thus far and are just the current crush and tells me things that any other relationship would be like woah red flag!! I don't even care about her having sex with other ppl because I can't do it and she's hyper sexual so like yeah fine! Again, as long as she always came back to me.

But I guess I'm the fool for thinking I could ever attain lasting happiness? That someone would be unbreakingly bonded and loyal to someone who simply cannot contribute to life in a meaningful way. Too disabled to work too mentally fucked up to be a proper human being.

I don't want to deny her any opportunity to actually have the life she wanted. Neither of us asked for the illness and the stress. If she would rather have that marriage with kids, with an able bodied child bearing person, then that's what she wants. But I don't think she can really expect me to just stay mentally and romantically through that. It's one thing if she could marry another person while we're still married, but to just be casually thinking about divorcing me for that.

Idk. I feel extremely hurt and I don't know if I have the right to. I don't know that if I'm here like I'm okay with you dating other people but will become completely unstable if you try to marry them because it's not legal to marry several ppl and we're the ones who are married...feels selfish? Somehow?? I don't know what to do.

Edit: I was afraid to bring it up at all to her but I did anyway. She admits she doesn't think about just blurting out every thought she has to me, and apologized. Right in this moment, it doesn't make it any better. The fact is she thought about the idea of divorcing me specifically to marry this woman and then came over to snuggle with me and then tell me that thought process out loud and why. I want to be able to work past this, but to me this is a huge fucking deal.

If I had any real amount of disposable money rn I'd run away to my Mami for a little while tbh. I need to be away from here.

Second Edit:

Calmed down a lot. Kanon kept messaging, assuring me again and again that she didn't word it right and trying to clear up that it's that she really would rather be able to be married to multiple people and that she loves me no matter what some government paper says, but like it's not really so much about that I guess? It's that we built this whole life after marriage and struggle and illness and doing the best to ignore ppl who want us divorced for way more malicious and ignorant reasons and then saying "I will never divorce you" turns into "maybe we can little a divorce, as a treat"

If marriage or a license or court record or whatever doesn't matter, would it but then be a thing of compromising that with the NEW interest and not the already committed life partner? And if the new interest DOESN'T want to change their stance then like...I guess just don't have bio kids then? We can't afford them and bringing new lives into the world just cause one can is irresponsible anyway. Plus they aren't even dating they're just talking anyway.

So I guess it's got me more disgruntled now than outright freak out crying. I'm still upset about it and doing think that's going to go away any time soon, cause it's fucked up.

[owlhousefansblog]

A favor for a favor

It was a cold December day. It was only a week left until Christmas and the atmosphere of the holidays was already in the air. It was everywhere, carols were being sung on TV and radio, stores were decorated with Christmas decorations and fluffy snow kept falling from the sky like sugar on a gingerbread house, and childern where playing aroud in show. It was a fairytale atmosphere but Dazai couldn't really bring himself to care, for him was another winter in that metal cage he called home. He never celebrated Christmas, one as he always say and i quote "Christmas is another marketing strategy for people desperate to get out of the monotony of everyday" and 2 bc he don't really have with who to celebrate it. Every single year he was alone, he don't complain since is more peaceful that way, but he wanted to feel how it feels to not celebrate alone, at lest for once, that way he will understand why ppl make such a fuss abt it.

For Chuuya, this was his first Christmas away from Sheep and that hurt even though it happened a year ago but he decide to push that aside, he have more important thing's to focus on and how Kouyou always likes to say "the past is the past and the past must stay in the past". He need to hear it twice to actually understand it, but after all he know Kouyou was right. He wasn't sure what he is going to do this Christmas but in the best case scenario he end up going to drink and play video games

Everyone in the Port Mafia unfortunately never had the privilege of being able to stay with their families or their friends on the Christmas day not even once but this was going to change when Mori called Dazai to his office in a peaceful morning

Did you call me , Mori? *Dazai asked as he entered without knocking. His face was blank and his eyes where empty as usually, his voice seems like it was the only thing alive abt him*

Ah! Come in! aren't the holidays beautiful? *Mori's unusually warm smile greeted him, his cold eyes was watching Dazai closely*

why did you call me? *Dazai asked again impatience and annoyance could be felt in his voice even if his face remained as blank as ever*

Straight to the point aren't we? *He chuckled a bit, a grin was playing on his lips* I officially announce the first Christmas party in Port Mafia.

And why did I need to know that?

Because I want you to come of course! I'm counting on you and your natural liar skills to make port mafia to look good, u wouldn't going to disapointed me, are u?* It was a simple question but yet again Mori's voice was holding a threat*

What right hand man i would be If i do that? *Dazai said simply, unfazed by Mori's subtle threat makeing eyes contact with him*

That's the spirit! As u probably figured out, this party will serve as making new allys, the dragon head organisation got problematic and as u probably know a war is going to come

So we need as much allys as we can get, i get it, anything else?

You are dismiss

Dazai noded and get out without another word closeing the door behind him, he was expecting this, but a party? That would be a pain in the ass, the only good thing abt it will be the alchool and he can annoy Chuuya as much as he likes and the fact Dazai was basically Chuuya's superior now it means that Chuuya will need to obey his orders like a good dog he is "This Christmas won't be so bad after all" Dazai tho for himself a sly grin appering on his face

~Later in that day~

Come on Chuuya~ these decorations will not fall into place by themselves!~ *Dazai shooted in a sing-song voice as Chuuya was flying to put some decoration in the Christmas tree who was huge*

Listen here you bastard! * Chuuya screamed angry and comes down in a blink of an eye in front of him almost crushing the floor grabing his collar, Dazai was having a smug grin on his face looking down at him * bc you are my superior that doesn't mean you can work only me like a FUCKING DOG!!!

I can do whatever I want with my dog , don't you agree Chuuya~? *The smug grin reamin in his face mocking him silently and If that wasn't enough he bend his head a bit down to look eye to eye at him*

excuse me , Sir Dazai? *Dazai was surprised by the sudden voice but turns around , it was a woman with blonde hair, tied up in a ponytail, he smiles at her polite*

yes , that's me "sir Dazai huh? Not bad " * Dazai tho to himself still smiling*

you have to came with me for a few minutes but If it's a problem I can return back later-

no, it's fine I am not doing anything important right now* he throw a smirk over his shoulder at Chuuya and leave with the woman*

Chuuya fliped him off , glade that he have a least ONE MINUTE for himself and not working like a fucking dog for that fucker. Tho at least Dazai did make a good thing in his life, he was too busy to think abt the Sheep, tch how annoying. This tho didn't want to let him the fuck alone! They where hunting him always staying in the back of his head, what a pain in the ass

That evening Chuuya was at the window of his office, smoking and looking at the fluffy snowflakes falling. The view was almost nostalgic, looking at the snowflakes and somking at the same time. It reminds him of the little tradition he and Shirase had every year when Christmas was approaching. It was getting frustreing for him how every little thing's remind him of good times, times he can't and won't go back too. He was so lost in his thoughts that he was startled by the voice that comes from behind him

well, look what we have here, smoking it's not a very healthy thing to do yk?~*Dazai's smugly voice echoed in the room, an annoying grin was playing on his lips*

what the heck do you want? * Chuuya said cleary annoyed throwing a glare over his shoulder at him*

A light actually *he said innocent, casually approaching him and when Chuuya turned to him ready to take another smoke Dazai pulls the cigarette from his mouth and taked a long inhale feeling how his lungs fill with sweet nicotine*

*Chuuya grabed his collar tight shakeing him left and right* What the HECK MEN? You could just ask for a cigarette If your sorry ass can't get one! Give me the cigarette back you BASTARD!

neh I think Chibi smoke enough for this evening*that smirk from Dazai's face didn't disappred yet even if he need to hold onto the cigarette with his teeth, he blow the smoke he just inhal in Chuuya's face just to annoy Chuuya further*

I think u misunderstood i wasn't asking*Chuuya punch him in his face before kicking him hard in the stomach taking the cigarette back from him*

Chibi is so meann, punching me like that! *He whined after he could breath again coughing a bit*

Do u want me to kick u again? Maybe this time will shut u up for good *he narrowed his eyes at him continuing to smoke like nothing happened*

*Dazai start chuckling all of the sudden getting up from the floor*

Tf u are laughing abt?!

Didn't know Chibi loves me so much to give me an indirect kiss~

Hah? Wtf u are bubling abt?

You inhale and put your lips on it*he pointed at the cigarette Chuuya was holding*so it's called an indirect kiss~

Nuh uh it's called "not waisting a good cigarette on a moron dressing up like a mummy" *he scoffed glareing at him *

Come onnn don't denay now ik u love me~

Hah?! Me loveing YOU?! As If! Your delusional!

Ik, Ik, i am to irresistible not even a SLUG could resist my charm~ *he said cocky grining down at him*

YOU? irresistible? Charm? What did u smoke again? *He mocked finishing his cigarette, throwing it out the window, taking a new one, lighting it up*

Ofc a slug like u will not recognize a charming person even If it will stay in front of u, but don't forget who is more popular with the ladys here~

Hoes and desperate bitches don't count

I at least get bitches~

As if, the only thing u ever fuck is yourself*he scoffed rolling his eyes*

Do YOU want to change that?~

Hell nah! *He aimed a kick to his chest but unfortunately for him and fortunately for Dazai , he dodge the attack and start laughing*

Tch, why are you here anyway?

nothing, I just wanted to smoke and a free cigarette*he said simply shruging taking the cigarette out of Chuuya's mouth and put it in his mouth grining*

Ha! Now u give me an indirect Kiss! fucking disgusting, u can keep that cigarette*he whiped his lips as If it was helping in any way throwing a disgusted look at him before taking another cigarette out for himself*

*Dazai just chuckled and looked out of the window taking another inhal from the cigarette* bet you would be shorter compared to a snowflake~

Want to say that to my face you fucker?!

Why? u didn't heard it the first time since u are so close the the ground?~

I am still growing damn It fuck u! *He kicked him in his side*

Ow! That hurt yk!

It will hurt more the next time u bring that up!

Chibi is no fun*he sigh dramatically*

Fuck off, If you want to waste my time like that I'm just gonna leave it's pretty late anyway *the annoyece in Chuuya's voice was evident. He finishing his cigarette throwing it out of the window turning around and walking towards the door approching the hanger*

What If we make a bet Chibi? * Dazai said turning around too looking at the other with a smirk on his face, throwing his cigarette out of the window too*

I don't want to listen anything coming from you bastard *he give him a glared over his shoulder, looking for his keys to close the office*

I thouge you like my bets *Dazai said in a fake disapointed voice approching him*

Like hell i do! get the hell out of my office!* He yelled angryly finding his keys, ready to leave. He was standing in the doorway contenuing glareing at Dazai who was only 1 m away from him*

now, is this the way to talk to your master chibi? * A smug smirk was playing on his lips, he came a little closer to him, now he was standing right in front of Chuuya*

Say that again, I dare you *he grabed his collar tight looking directly in his eyes* so cocky and full of yourself i can't wait to whipe that smirk off of your face

I'm your superior Chibi, you hurt me, you hurt Mori, your choice *Dazai said with the same smug grin looking too confident for his own good*

Mori don't give 2 shits If i beat u up or not and yk it too *Chuuya smirked and kicked him hard bettwen his legs* witch means i can beat the hell out of u If i please *he hit him again with his knees in the ribs letting the other breathless and coughing on the floor*

*dazai was rolling on the floor ,crouched on himself complaining and whining coughing from time to time * this hurt like hell! How could u do this to me?!

No more smug grin's huh asshole? U make me sick*he looked down at him with disgust*

Now yk how i feel when i see your face*Dazai grumbled, the pain going to his core*

HAH?! Do u want me to hit u harder?!

No thanks i really want to keep this balls

Then shut up and get the hell out of my office!

At least let me to catch my breath, jeez*Dazai scoffed throwing a glare at him from the floor*

Tch, come on u pretty princces*Chuuya scoffed too and dragged Dazai out locking the door behind them*

Rude*he pouted but after 2 minute's he managed to get up* Chibi thinks i am pretty?~ *he teased grining*

Is a way of saying Idiot*he scoffed rolling his eyes and starts walking with his hands in his pocket's*

Sure whatever u say~ *Dazai followed after him with a huge grin of his face*

Why the hell are you grining?

nothing, it's just quiet surprising that you are smoking at this younger age*Dazai said with a honest ton on his voice looking forward*

what is that supposed to mean?! you are smoking too!

Details, details, at least I'm not looking like I'm 12~

Hah?! What's this have to do with anything?!

U didn't denay It tho~

I'm only 16 I'm still growing! *Chuuya shooted throwing a punch at him but Dazai dodge it*

yeah, yeah If you want to lie yourself with it~ *Dazai said mockly again*

I'm going to kill you, u smug bastard!

The both of them continue arguing throwing insults at eatch other and hits ( mostly from Chuuya's part) Dazai manageing to take his revange by triping Chuuya and embaressed him in front of his subordinates. When they get out of the building no one of them realised that outside was still snowing and IT was cold asf. A car was waiting for Chuuya outside since Dazai decided to walk home.

This is mine now~ *Dazai's sing-song voice make Chuuya to cringe himself to the core while Dazai taked Chuuya's hat casually out of his head putting it on his own head*

Oi! Give that back! *Chuuya aimed a punch at him but Dazai dodge it having a smug smirk on his face*

Chibi is so slow today, maybe bc he is so sh- *Dazai interrupted himself when a huge dick fills his mouth, (nah jk u horny asses) interrupted himself when a snowball hits him hard in the face, taking aback by the sudden attack. He didn't stay to think to much, getting behind a wall , dodging some snowballs thrown with force by Chuuya making his own ammunition*

get out of there and fight like a man, pussy!

aww the chihuahua learn some new words?~ *he throw a snowball at him* that's amusing~

more amusing will be to see u dead u mf! *Chuuya lanched an attack at him with a lot of snowballs* AND DON'T CALL ME THAT!!

*Dazai was still hiding behind a wall, also throwing his snowballs from time to time hitting Chuuya a few times, but Chuuya was gaining ground and that wasn't good. He took a deep breath, and like in any action movies he rolled on the ground as if in slow motion, and even if he was hit by several snowballs, reacting dramatic every time a snowball hit him, he got into the car that was waiting for Chuuya slamming the door shut behind him blocking it * drive if u want to live*he threatened the driver while he just nodded and before he left he lowered the window and threw some snowballs at Chuuya which hit his face and clothes*

the next days until Christmas Dazai got back at Chuuya for that snowballs and Chuuya got his hat back kicking Dazai a few times bc he embaressed him and taked his hat. As a revange Dazai maked sure to make Chuuya his slave, making him to clean the toilets, to get him drinks( who he never drink bc he tho Chuuya put smt in them), buy him bandages, makeing him crab who he never eat in front of Chuuya, makeing him to do his papper works and humiliate him AGAIN like a little pice of shit he is making him do all sorts of things( I let here for interpretation)

On Christmas day, everyone was preoccupied with that night party. They were making the last arrangements for the best and most exclusive party of the year. This whole charade was about closing some contracts between the Port Mafia and other powerful associates, everyone know's that but ppl welcomed the idea to have a Christmas party, a party is still a party after all.

That day Dazai didn't do anything special besides annoying Chuuya , ignoring his problemes and playing some game's on his phone. On Chuuya's part, it was HELL , bc that bastard Dazai didn't leave him the fuck alone AND WORKED HIM LIKE A DOG THE ENTIRE DAY!

At the party, everyone had to come in dresses and suits, but with resumes that would influence the Christmas atmosphere. Man's who where wearing Red and green suits, womans who where wearing elegant dresses showing the wealth they have. The mafia guard's where dressing still in black but with some reindeer antlers or Santa hats on the head (it was Elise's idea).

That evening had been a very boring evening for Dazai. He was just a decoration when Mori introduced him to other associates, but when he was alone at a table having to listen to classical music, he really would have preferred Chuuya to kill him when he had the opportunity. Dazai was dressed normally, the bandages being of course visible, only the hair was slightly combed. He wasn't in the mood to dress to fancy for this boring party, that's why when Elise passed by she put some reindeer antlers on his head and left as if nothing had happened. He watched her leave before getting them off of his head. To distract himself, Dazai started drinking a glass of whiskey and thinking about how he could annoy Chuuya when he got to the party.

It was almost an hour and a bit and Dazai thought it would have been more fun sitting by himself in that damn container than surrounded by so many fake people. He looked around the room seeing ppl talking and laughing, it was almost peacefull. He let his head fall, holding it with a hand while looking at his glass with boredom.

He had almost finished his second glass of whiskey when he heard a well to know voice raising his head to look at the person the voice was belonging to

well , well ,well, look who is here, drinking it's not a healthy think to do , you know?*Chuuya's mocking voice greeted him, completed by the cocky grin who was resting on his face *

Stealing my lines now? Chibi is so un original~ *he mocked mirroring Chuuya's cocky grin*

At least i am not an alcoholic mummy

Said the one who get drunk after one glass~

As If !

Oh yeah?~ wanna bet on it?

Bring it on asshole*Chuuya's confidents shine sitting across from the brunet*

I might warn u , i never lost to a game, especially to a dog~ *he said cocky*

shut your mouth,u don't lost BC u cheat!

Is calling cheating if u get caught~

Enjoying the party boys?*Mori's cheerly voice greeted them, the 2 boys were now looking at him * i see u could make it Chuuya, u look briliant

thank you boss *chuuya said with a proud smile bowing his head*

and you too Dazai, looking as alive as ever

Thank you , Mori *he know it was a lie, Mori knows too , he look anything but alive but he give him the most convingeing smile he can master*

Dazai, come with me , I want to introduce you to someone

can you let me finish my glass? * Dazai said with a bored face glanceing at his glass*

it wasn't a request, now *Mori's harsh voice send a little shiver down Dazai's spine his cold eyes fixing him*

alright, anything to get away from this boring slug~*he finished his glass with a big gulp getting up, throwing a smirk over his shoulder at Chuuya* go die slug~

Asshole* Chuuya mumbled pouring a glass of wine for himself glareing at Dazai's back as he disappred in the crowd*

He hates parties like this, no good music, fake ppl, the only one thing who IT was enterteining is the good alchool, Christmas with Sheep were less boring than this, he at least was partying. He miss them even If he don't like to admit it but PM was his new family now and he needs to forget abt them, that traitors, It was easy to say then done and that frustred him. But right now he hates Mori bc he was the reason to came here in the first place, it's not like he has another thing to do anyway but still. After 2 glasses of wine he started to feel dizzy.

Why don't you go and dance? *a voice was heard next to him*

Yeah, like I know how to dance this 1800 dance's*Chuuya scoffed glaceing at Kouyou*

*Kouyou chuckled a bit taking a sit next to him* Boss was always a ... classical persone, but that doesn't mean u can't enjoy the party in another ways then drinking

Easy to say when u are the most elegant person i ever meet *he scoffed again letting his head to fall on the table putting another glass for himself*

Is smt bother u lad? *She said worried looking at him*

No, everyting is fine

Don't lie to me lad

I said everything is fine , don't push it *he said annoyed but didn't look at her taking another sip from his glass* ha, is funny, i bet i look as pathetic as that asshole rn *he scoffed again glaceing at Dazai's figure who was next to Mori, as always* that bastard

*Kouyou hit him lightly with her fan on his head* language

Yes m'am *he rolled his eyes* this party is SHIT in comparation to the party's i was

Alr that's enough drinking for u*Kouyou tooked the glass from him* keep your voice down

Why? Everyone deserve to know that THIS party IS SH- *Kouyou hit him on the back of his neck makeing Chuuya to pass out instantly*

*She sigh tried, glaceing at Chuuya's peacefull face. She watched over him for a while that's until she needed to leave for a bit at Mori's request*

Time pass and Dazai was finnaly left alone, when he returned to his table he wasn't surpised when he finded Chuuya laying with his head and hands all over the table like a starfish. He assumed the other passed out bc of the alcohol since he is such a weakling , witch give him the perfect oportunity to draw on his face. He was going to his office when Mori stopped him

Get him out of here*he pointed at Chuuya who was curently hugging a wine battle* I don't want to ruin our reputation understood?

Can I go and trow him in a lake? *Dazai said hopefully, his eyes sparkle, on his lips was playing an innocent smile*

It's Christmas after all, you don't want to be put to the bad children list right?*Mori said jokenly before his face turns suddenly sinister* i advice u to move him fast, If smt happened with our reputation u will be the one to blame, it would be a shame to punish u , don't u think?

Dazai didn't responde. His face was blank again and his eyes where empty, he just noded slightly. He graped Chuuya bride style and get out off the room as fast as possible. Chuuya was asleep or that's what IT seems, he looked more unconces than asleep but Dazai didn't mind, it was perfect for him to put his plan in application. Dazai know, he can't bring Chuuya home bc he didn't know were he live and even If he call a car no one really knows where exactly Chuuya's apartament is, If that was the case he would have break in a long time ago and like hell he will bring him to his "house", no need to have his germs all over the place. He goes with him in Dazai's office, laying him on the cold floor.

He looked in his office for a while until he finded a pen, perfect. He approched him casually since the other was sleeping like a rock, he sit down besides him and starts drawing on his face. Making a funny mostach, a beard, a snail on his left cheek who was pointing at with an arrow writing the word "You" . He writed on his forhead with big letters the word "slug". He draw him glasses aroud his eyes, and all sorts of random thing's on his face ending IT all with writeing jokes with 'u are so short " all over his visible skin.

After he was done he wasn't sure if he should wake him up or not, If he wake him up , he could find the adress and harass him at the same time. If he let him here he will probably do smt to the thing's he have in the office and he was way to lazy to look in Chuuya's files to find his adress. Harrasing him it is.

He tries to slap him, pour water on him but still nothing. That was starting to get annoying but at least now he know how deep Chuuya can sleep, a VERY usefull information for the future.

What a real sleepy beauty, huh*Dazai murmured to himself looking down at Chuuya who was still sleeping peacefully snoreing softly *

An idea came to his mind , smt he was sure is going to disturb the other's sleep and he is going to enjoy It. The last thing he is planning to do is burning him with a cigarete. He didn't had ciggarets with him,so he just steal one from Chuuya's pocket. He light It up with his ligher, and after taking a long inhale, he taked one of Chuuya's hand's, getting the glove down and presssing the burning end on his palm. He opened his eyes more quick then Dazai expected but what Dazai enjoyed the most was Chuuya's scream, even If he needed to take a punch for that. ( scream without the "s" 😉)

*Chuuya punched him when he saw him smirking*what the hell?! *He looked down at his palm hissing in pain when he closed his fist punching Dazai again* u sadistic bastard!!

Look at that! The sleeping " beauty" finally waked up~ *he smirked taking a long inhale from the cigarette whipeing the blood from his broken lip casually, ignoring the pain*

I will whipe that smirk off of your face u mf! *he groaned in pain when a strong headache hit him, laying back down on the cold floor trying to restore his blurred vision*

It will be funny seeing u try since It seems that u can't even see corectly~

Like hell i can't! Don't taste me yk i can punch u even if i my vision is blure u are lucky IT was a light punch!

*Dazai was chuckling, he can't take him seriously while he was having that drawings on his face* sure u can Chibi

Why the hell are u chuckling?! And don't call me that! *He aimed another punch but this time Dazai dodge it* tch, annoying bastard, tf is happening? Where the hell am i?

you got drunk like an idiot ,and ofc Mori ask me to snick you out * Dazai scoffed looking down at him*

Oi is that my cigarette?

Maybe~

Tch annoying mf, I don't give a shit about this party anyway, I'm going home* he tried to get up but falled down the sec he was on his feet*

*Dazai laughed mockly seeing the other* you can't even speak right, I don't think you are going to go to far, but u can try, it will be fun to watch~

i can speak perfectly fine*he glared at him, Dazai was right in the state he was in he can't go to far,he don't even know If he will make it to the front door to the hq maybe If he just crawl* call Ane-san, she will help me

Uh huh, She left a while ago

So what? Call her , she will come back

I don't have my phone with me

Lier, u never loose that thing

This time it seems my phone flyed out of the window*he said innocent shruging*

I can see your phone on the desk Dazai

*Dazai grab his phone and throw it casually out of the window* see? Told ya, my phone flyed out of the window *he said innocent shruging again*

HAH?! YOU ARE NUTS! tch u bastard, i will call her myself*Chuuya give him a glare and serach himself for a while but he realise he have no phone* what the hell?

Oh yeah that phone was actually yours

WHAT?!!

Ups~

YOU ARE LUCKY THAT I AM TOO DRUNK TO GET UP OR ELSE U WOULD HAVE BEEN DEAD BY NOW!!

Chibi is such an agresive Chihuahua*Dazai said in a fake disapointment, shakeing his head throwing the cigarette out of the window*

Fuck u!

Ty but i don't want to fuck with u, i am not into dogs

Hah? *It took for Chuuya a few sec to realise what he was saying before crawling to Dazai's legs punching his dick hard*

Dazai falled to the ground breathless*that was an uncalled for!!*He whined in pain*

It was in fact very called u bastard*He glared at him*

And here I was willing to take you home*Dazai said dramatically*

*Chuuya stoped trying to get up from the floor and looked at him with wide eyes * Hah? And why the hell u want to help me?

Mori and Kouyou will have my head If smt happenes to your sorry short ass while being waisted and also u own me so Is a favor for a favor

Like hell i own u! I don't own u shit!

Oh u do, i win the bet after all~

That bet don't means anything!

Aww is Chuuya Nakahara backing down on his words? How pathetic, i wonder what the other's will say when they will find out~

I don't give a shit abt what other's think

That's what u probably lied to yourself all this time isn't it?~ *he mocked smirking at him , and he suddenly picked him up*

*Chuuya flinched slightly in surprised when Dazai suddenly picked him* oi, wtf? Put me done!

Gladly unfortunately i can't do it rn, Tell me your adress i don't have all night*he said suddenly serious getting out of his office while carrying him*

*Chuuya cursed under his breath but in the end he told him the adress. He sigh, he was tried and drunk and his head hurt's like hell ,he wasn't completly sober but he was slightly understanding what was happening, he was sure this was going to be a pain in the ass for later but all he wanted to do right now is sleep in his comfortable bed. He crossed his arms over his chest, and leaned his head a bit on Dazai's shoulder closeing his eyes*

What the hell u eat slug u are so heavyyy*Dazai whined*

Want to say that to my face ?! *He said angry grabbing his collar*

*Dazai looked down at him smirking* i am afraid i can't do that, i don't have a magnifier with me~

Why You- *before Chuuya could finish that Dazai drope him on the snow*

Oi!

The car is here *he said casually going into the car like nothing happened* u coming?

Oh i am coming alr*Chuuya grabed some snow and throw it on Dazai's face, struggleing to get in the car too*

Chibi is an evil gremlin! And evil gremlin's must be punished! *He waited until Chuuya got in the car too and smirking he pushed some snow in Chuuya's face dragging his hat on his eyes too while the driver was driving to Chuuya's place*

You motherfucker!! *Despite being drunk Chuuya was an excelent fighter the whole thing giveing him enough adrenalina to punch, kick and pull hair. Dazai didn't backed down either the 2 of them was kicking, pulling hair, trying to suffocate each other by showing hand's in eatch other's mouth. Ofc, it wasn't a serious fight, non of them was fighting for real especially Chuuya who even if he could have crushed Dazai by now didn't do so. The most dreaded duo from all Yokahoma fought like 2 kindergarteners over a toy but it was there thing. The both of them where drunk, Dazai was the most sober between them, that's why was more funny for him to mess with Chuuya.

After a while of fighting, they arrived to Chuuya's apartament. Their hair and clothes where messy, Chuuya had scratches all over his face, and Dazai had bruises bc of the punche's. As payback, Dazai triped Chuuya when he get out of the car makeing him to fall face first on the ground.

Ups, sorry my leg sliped*he said innocent*

U fucker*Chuuya glared up at him whipeing his face with his glove* i am going to kill u for that!

I'd like to see u try~ u can't even walk properly

Watch me *he said confident trying to get up holding tightly on the car and in the end he get up standing on his legs trying to ignore how everything was moveing around him even if he was staying still* see? Easy

Alr let go now

What?

U heard me, let go of the car~

*he glared at him , and after he felt more stabil he let go* ha! See i am perfectly f- *he falled to the ground* fuck this!

*Dazai was enjoying the show chuckling* what was u saying?~

Fuck off!

Chibi is so vulgar~

Oh yeah? You can take that and put it in your ass!!

You can leave now Carlo , ty for the drive*he said to the driver, and without a sec tho the driver drives away* are u done? *He said looking down at Chuuya who was laying on the snow* If i get a cold Is bc of u!

As If! Now shut up and help me up

Sorry what was that? I didn't heard u

I said to help me up!

What's the magic word?~

If u don't help me up i am going to cut your dick and make u eat it!

*Dazai blink twice, he wasn't expected that* Can u actully not do that-

Just help me up alreday damn it!

You are such an annoying Chihuahua*he said annoyed but picked him up again. He taked Chuuya's card out of his own pocket and opened the door to the residential block* what's your apartament and what floor?

4 floor, 36 *he felt dizzy all of the sudden feeling like throwing up*

*Dazai observe how Chuuya got more pale then usually, oh shit he know that face* Oi hold up If u throw up on me-*Dazai was cutted off by Chuuya who DID throw up on him , intentionally* ewwww, my costume! It's not enough that i have your germs on me but now i have your fluids too!

S-shut up and wal- *he throw up again but this time he throw up on the floor of the building. Dazai needed to look away and hold his breath to make it to Chuuya's apartament, droping the other on the floor when they arrived*

U OWN me a costume now too! *He whined while letting his shoes at the door walking in Chuuya's apartament like he own the place*

Yeah, yeah, whatever just shut your annoying mouth for a sec *he said annoyed going slowly to the kitchen taking a glass of water to drink it*

Meanwhile Dazai was looking for some clothes in Chuuya's closet knowing the redhead had some oversize somewhere in there

Oi, tf are u doing there? *He ask from the kitchen*

Looking for clothes obviously*he scoffed finding an oversize hoodie and long pants*

Why? Oi put them bk! *He protested walking into the room and going to the bedside table, taking some pills out*

Isn't it obvious? *He pointed to himself* like hell i am going to stay like this *he rolled his eyes going to the bathroom to make a shower and to change*

This bastard acting like he own this place*Chuuya grumbled to himself glareing at Dazai back but didn't said anything more, waiting for the other to end his shower so he could make one too. He was cold asf and wet too , at this rate he will deffinetly catch a cold just bc that mummy let him to struggle on snow. He looked for some comfortable thing's to wear and as a payback , while Dazai was doing the shower he stoped the warm water, water cold as ice poured on Dazai, smirking for himself when he heard some comaplains from the bathroom, that bastard deserve it. He layed on the bed making himself comfortable. He missed his bed more then he tho he will but rn he was finally home, it was a nice feeling. It WAS until that motherfucker ruin it.

THAT was unnecessarily! *Dazai complains while entering Chuuya's room*

Oh u poor baby, want me to take care of u If u catch a cold?

I am not complaining~ *Dazai smirk at him and get closer to the bed while Chuuya get up from it throwing a confused look at him*

tf u think u are doing?

Laying down after a hard day to nanny u , OBVIOUSLY*he scoffed rolling his eyes making himself comfortable bettewen Chuuya's soft pillows*

I never said u CAN do that* Chuuya said angry crossing his arms over his chest narroweing his eyes at him*

U also never said I CAN'T

Well i say it now u CAN'T

too bad

Tch, yk what, fuck it, I am to tried to deal with your bullshit, but it doesn't end here* he throw a last warning look at him and goes to make a shower*

Now ik where the money goes on,he have more shampoo, hair mask, face mask, shower gel, soap then a girl*he said amused to himself looking at the celling. Well at least now he know where he lives and he will make sure to make a copy of his key in the morning. What a Christmas, he need to nanny that slug, he maked a bath in his poke, he maked a shower with cold water bc of HIM and this piajamas are a bit tight on him It this karma? And again, this night didn't end up bad after all, he is laying in a comfortable bed, more comfortable then his, surprisengly he could change his bandages, bc Chuuya had some under the sink, and his clothes are comfy even if they are a bit tight. Who would have tho he was going to spend his Christmas at Chuuya's apartament. Think of it, Chuuya's apartament have no Christmas decoration, no Christmas tree or anything to actually symbolize Christmas. For someone so full of life as him, Dazai really tho he is going to be greeted by a Christmas atmosphere but either way it wasn't that b-

DAZAI U MF!

Well, he is screwed

Yes?~ *he ask nonchalantly and hold in a laugh when Chuuya comes right to the bedroom, with his hair wet lingering on his face , and his face was looking like a clown with all the black ink from the pen earlier dripping down his face*

*oh Chuuya was angry, and from the shower he got a bit sober too so he had no problem to take everyting he got at hand and throw it at Dazai without a sec tho* I AM GOING TO KILL U!

*Dazai needed to role off the bed and hide behind it haveing a smug grin on his face* not my fault If u you overdid the make-up~

I am going to overdo your existence! *Chuuya didn't hesitate when he grabed a pillow and launched an attack at him hitting him with no mercy*

Dazai was surprised and amused by the gesture, dodgeing some attack's and grabing a pillow too , the bedroom becoming a battlefield

Battles still anime taked place, exaggerating the attacks and using everything they learned on their own in combat, the pillows becoming real weapons in their hands. The fact they took so serious the battle and in there heads the whole thing was so dramatic and intense, in reality the whole thing was just funny and cringe. At the end the both of them where laying on the floor breathing heavely

That was a tie

Like hell it was! I killed u before u could kill me *Dazai protested*

We killer each other at the same time, Dazai

As if , i killed u with a sec early

That doesn't count!

It does! What, Chibi can't take a loose?

Like hell i can't! U are just a lier!

That's what all looser's said~

Let's do a rematch then we will see who is the loser*Chuuya said confident getting up*

Nah i am good

What? Is Dazai Osamu scared?~ *Chuuya looks down at him smirking*

As If, but i will get bored If i continue to beat u up over and over again~ *he said smugly mirroring his smirk and get up*

Smug bastard*Chuuya hit him with his pillow and drope into his bed, the tiring that he felt before stabed him like a kinfe*

Btw, that bandages u had under your sink, where for me weren't they?~

Hell no

Then?~

That's non of your fucking bussines*he fliped him off and maked himself comfortable in one side of the bed*

You could just say yes yk~ *he teased and goes to the other side of the bed, laying down*

*Chuuya pushed him off* oi who said u can sleep in my bed?

A favor for a favor*he said casually and get in again*

Asshole*he hit him with a pillow*

Slug*he hit him back*

Motherfucker*he hit him again*

Hathanger*he does the same*

Bastard *he hit him harder*

Chibi~ *he grabed Chuuya's pillow and hit him with his and Chuuya's pillow*

Good for nothing mummy! *He aimed a punch at him but Dazai dodge it*

Chibi is so harsh today u almost hurt my feeling's! *He said dramatically droping on his back with a hand to his chest*

I doubt u even have those*he scoffed and turned his back at him but not before hitting him in his leg*

Fair enough*he said casually ignoring the pain in his leg and maked himself comfortable*

So u hate Christmas too huh?

Who said i hate Christmas?

Just guessing *Dazai said casually shruging throwing a glance at him*

Well u guess wrong

*Dazai stayed a bit silent looking au the celling again* Whatever u say slug, get some rest, you are going to be useless in our mission tomorrow

Me? Useless? I think u talk abt yourself*he scoffed*

shhhh shut your barking no one is listening

Fuck u

Fuck u harder~ wait no that sounds gay-

Homophobic bitch*Chuuya throw a glare over his shoulder*

Never said I am tho~ why u care anyway? Is Chibi gay?~

So what If i am? U got a problem with that?

I don't really care

Then shut your mouth

U shut it first~

Dazai istg*he turns to face him* If u don't shut up i am going to strangle you!

So kinky~

Tch *Chuuya hit his leg for the last time deicideing to ignore the whining bastard who was laying next to him closeing his eyes. And for a while it did work, he was almsot falling asleep when Dazai's voice was suddenly heard in the quiet room*

hey, Chuuya

what?

Shitty Christmas~

Merry fucking Christmas to you too asshole*he said annoyed but It was no real bite in the words*

After that the 2 of them stayed silent. Chuuya falled asleep after some minutes but Dazai was still awake looking at the celling. After all he was right, as always, it wasn't a bad Christmas, he can say it was almsot fun. He falled asleep after a while a small smile was on his lips

[miomines]

OK so two things, and obviously u can separate them or only answer one if either strike ur fancy, feel free to ignore :)

First, u asked for prompts, and honestly I'm hype for the newlyweds au too, it's so cute and I also wanna make Tao blush. So following the thought of them blushing when u call them "my spouse" maybe u introduce them to someone that way? And for bonus points for both u and us, u hug them around their waist and touch *the hips*. Maybe if it tickles ur fancy Mingyu teases Tao the way they undoubtedly teased him hehe

And the second thing, Tao is a demon right? In the bonding over gender one I asked for (ty again ❤) I think Tao said spirit? And I have a habit of overanalyzing so I figured maybe I'd just ask instead of hyperfocusing lmao 🤣 basically may we have Tao lore 🥺

P.s. I haven't said this yet but while I'm thinking about it I love ur art and ur style.

P.p.s. actually I'm here often enough do you like to know when certain ppl are here often? Should I (or u) pick a lil anon sign off or smthn? It's nbd to me I'm shy and happy to be here, but if it matters to u I'm totally OK with it.

tao said they were a spirit but it's mostly because it's hard to describe what they were before they met mingyu! they're a demon first and foremost, even though they're a pretty weak one. like venti was a little wind spirit wisp thing? kinda like that except tao didn't have any type of physical form. tao just was kinda. thrown into existence one day and now they're here. not much lore. they're a pretty young demon honestly!

and if u wanna be a named anon that's fine by me!! it is nice knowing which anons have been here awhile i only have like one named anon. they are very nice. honestly it doesn't matter to me either you can do whatever u want!!

i did this in lapslock because writing with proper capitalization is harder for me apparently. here is tao being flustered. i hope u enjoy it

"-and this is my lovely spouse!"

huh??

tao blinks and stares owlishly at their companion. the one tao had mischievously dubbed 'darling' to fluster them in front of others. darling, who had started the newlyweds act with mingyu and flustered him. darling, the one who got flustered when tao did the act because tao goes all in. they are the one who is shamelessly introducing tao as their spouse in front of their acolytes.

darling laughs and smushes tao's face in their hands. he probably has a dumb look on their face but they can't seem to change it. all tao can do is stare dumbly at darling and try to ignore the heat rising to his face.

"aren't they just a cutie?" darling says in a sing-song voice as they pull him closer. tao can feel as mingyu starts to rouse and desperately tries to push him down. don't be awake for this please.

"your grace.." one of the acolytes starts. it's an archon. tao isn't sure what their name is but they're very purple. the electro one? the one that mingyu respected before the whole hunt began.. "are you aware of your…" her expression pinches up in distaste. "your spouse's… nature?"

"oh, the fact that they're part demon?" darling replies casually. "the whole situation with tao and mingyu is pretty complicated! it's not something you're allowed to hear though. but yes, i am aware of their 'nature'." darling rolls their eyes as they snake an arm around his waist.

"i see," she says slowly. the frown on her face says otherwise. "forgive me, your grace, i was just worried about your safety."

"my safety? you?" darling barks out a laugh as they pull tao closer. he doesn't say anything, too focused on the hand tracing his hip in careful motions. "tao and mingyu have kept me safe the entire time i've been in teyvat. my safety is guaranteed around them but i can't say the same for my safety when it comes to you."

the three archons flinch back as if struck. the electro archon drops to her knees and bows, her forehead touching the floor. if tao had any coherent thoughts at the moment, they might've mocked her. instead, all they can focus on is the hand that traces his skin.

tao can tell that darling is reprimanding the archons but he isn't quite there. all tao can focus on is the closeness, their touch, and the beating of his own heart. has darling always had this effect on him? why is he just noticing it now? they're brought back to the moment as darling lightly runs their fingers along his jawline.

"are you with me, my love?"

what the fuck-

tao chokes on a breath and nods, ducking their head as they cough into their fist. this wasn't how the act was supposed to go. tao was supposed to make darling blush. tao was meant to be the one who was suave and cool. darling was supposed to be shy and cute, red faced and embarrassed as tao flirted shamelessly. 

their face heats up more as he hears darling's amused laughter. is this why mingyu lets tao take control whenever they have to do the act? it's because their darling is an absolute menace when they want to be? tao can't even make fun of mingyu anymore by the way he reacts because tao reacted the same way.

"excuse me," tao hears distantly. the grip on his waist tightens and it takes everything inside of him not to whine at the feeling. tao swallows down the noise, stumbling even as darling guides them out of the room with a hand to his waist. he's lightheaded. is that normal? is he dying? he doesn't want mingyu to be here to tease him but tao isn't sure if it's normal.

"tao?"

the hold on him loosens and without thinking, tao's hand shoots down to keep their arm wrapped around him. they stiffen and all they can hear is their heartbeat pounding in his ears. they can hear darling as they huff, amused and somewhat fond(?). 

"you're normally such a chatterbox," darling drawls as they slide their other arm around him. tao bites his tongue, suppressing any involuntary noises. their hands find his waist and squeeze. tao can almost feel their amusement when he shivers. "i didn't know you had an off button."

tao pouts even as his blush spreads down to his shoulders. they can feel when mingyu finally rouses in the back of their head, only to be met with unrelenting amusement. tao directs his gaze at the floor as they glare, shoving all his distaste at mingyu's presence.

"quite the situation you're in, huh?" mingyu laughs. their expression twitches as tao huffs. they raise their hands to rub at their face, as if pressure alone would get rid of the blush. "i thought demons didn't get affected by things like this, hm?" 

tao is filled with the urge to throw mingyu into a wall. if they didn't share the same body, they probably would have tried. tao tries to direct all their annoyance towards mingyu but all it does is make him laugh more. "shut up, shut up, shut up," tao directs to him on repeat.

"tao?" they blink owlishly as darling turns their head carefully, their hand now under tao's chin. mingyu's snickering in the back of their head is not helping. "you there, love?"

without a second thought, tao drags mingyu into the front to control. the body stumbles as mingyu has to suddenly adjust. tao retreats quickly into the back of their consciousness, burying themselves away. they're vaguely aware of mingyu laughing and telling darling that it's him there now.

tao huffs and makes mingyu stumble again, hitting his arm into a wall before he fully retreats. perhaps this is a good thing about sharing a body… being able to shove mingyu in control while tao retreats. it gives him time to recuperate and try to make sense of all the emotions that swirl around his head.

tao ignores the pointed amusement sent his way. if mingyu trips more than he usually does, then that's his own fault.

[momtaku]

(1/2)I’m not sure if this ask will annoy u or not so i apologize in advance but. I guess part of the reason why i lost a lot of love for levi and snk in general is because what drew me to levi was how selfless he was (call me boring, i know.) the fact that he constantly carried the burden of fallen comrades, his innate compassion and desire to make life better for humans, his upbringing in the underground etc. when some ppl take that away and state “he was thinking only of erwins humanity…

(2/3 oops)) on the roof” or “the promise is the only thing that keeps him going” and kinda makes his primary motivation about erwin, or that he dedicated himself more to erwin the person as opposed to any higher goal, it sometimes upsets me. with all the extra material given from isym, i guess theres no denying it either which sucks (for me) as someone who has never cared much for erwin or eruri. sometimes i wish isym never provided all these extra materials because without it, i never would

(3/3) have drawn the conclusion that erwin was “THE most” important to levi, even more than his goal. ive never been a fan of the trope where person A puts person B above “the weight of the world” which is why yumihisu never appealed to me either. but yeah, idk. and i hope this doenst come off as hate, although ive never liked erwin or eruri i am glad that majority of this fandom is able to enjoy the ship! its just,, been sad for me i guess.

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No sincere ask annoys me. Bait doesn't annoy me either although I prefer to spend time on sincere asks. My baitdar has been a little off these days so I sometimes struggle determining what is sincere and what isn't. With this ask, it seems like bait, but I'm struggling to see what you hoped to accomplish with it. Did you think I'd agree?

The thing is, I don't know any actual eruris (or many fans of the series for that matter) who would agree with this sort of oversimplification of Levi's character when it comes to Erwin. Instead what you've done here is compile every straw man that I’ve seen on tumblr regarding eruris into a single ask, which is sort of fun to see.

A straw man is the term for when someone purposefully misrepresents another persons argument in order to make it easier to defeat. Here's an infographic (source) which sums it up perfectly:

An example from the eruri fandom would look something like this:

There seem to be a cottage industry these days of blogs focusing on defeating such pretend arguments. Your ask sounds like you've been spending a lot of time on those.

The thing is nearly all eruris agree that Levi was selfless. They don't reduce him to a vow. They agree he cared about humanity. For two years we defended Levi against groups who reduced him to "must kill monke" and claimed he was only focused on vengeance. Now the conversation has flipped but we're still saying the same thing.

Do I think the promise kept Levi going? Yes. Do I think it was the only thing keeping him going? No. He's always fought for humanity.

Do I think Levi prioritized Erwin's humanity of the roof? Yes. Does this mean I think he didn't care about humanity? No. See above.

Do I think Erwin was Levi's most important person? 100% yes. Does this in any way diminish his feelings for any other character? Of course not. He obviously cared about Hange, Eren, the 104th and all of his fallen comrades. His compassion is the best thing about his character.

So anon, I don't know what to tell you. If you don't like Erwin, Eruri or even (*gasp*) Yumikuri, that's fine. No one is saying you have to. If the series makes you sad, self help would be to avoid it. Your ask didn't come off as hate, it just really had me scratching my head.

Thanks for the ask!

[plan-d-to-i]

damn yk when ppl make wwx awful for doing incredible difficult and unrealistic choices that no teenager(not even a adult) should have to make and yet he did what was less selfish, the hardest choice. like. fandom going like But Wwx murdered thousands in SSC!! mf look at me in the eyes do you think i wanted wwx to go there and be one of the greatest soldiers in that fucking war? one of the main forces and killers? damn no!! i was aching for him, i was bitter in his place, he should have left another soldiers to die! who cares that he could kill thousands in one night, therefore less people that were by his side would have to fight? Let! Them! Die! LP revenge? pft!! wy get it aside my dear heart

or the core transference? "Wwx should have asked jc!" "wwx shouldn't have done it!" that's the first time in my life that I Agree With You; let jc die!! he wouldn't have accepted the transplant for a lot of reasons, such as: he doesn't want to get on top with another person's help, he would never(will never) get over the fact that he only got there bc someone helped him. he wasn't eating, he wasn't cooperating to stay alive, he was a regular person, he Was going to die! there was no other way unless wwx kept his core to himself and let jc Deal With It.

so yeah, agreed, wwx should have left jc to die or live by force in endless pain and gall, should not have helped in the war, and, as a consequence, let more of his allies to die and battle. maybe not even winning or, who knows, taking even more years to win and paying the price of the victory, in men, in soldiers, in family, in blood. as another consequence, never getting back the territory of the Jiang Sect, neither getting money from the war participation to rebuild the Jiang Sect. i have to say, i didn't expect you to love wwx this much at the point of wanting him to be selfish and minding his own business instead of trying to help!!

it sounds awful if stated this way, doesn't it?

bc is the actual point of view we should see things, that's how things would go if wwx was any less good and selfless as he is. i may wanted him to do it for the reason that I Am Salty In His Place, but is twisted bc he being, once more, GOOD AS HE IS, is one of the main reasons y i love him. he would never just let jc, the guy whose the person who gave wwx a house asked to take care of before he died, his shidi, the person he was always meant to protect, die.

- mlisz

haha I too read the novel and my petty heart wishes WWX would just let jc shuffle off this mortal coil... but then he wouldn't be WWX and it would be a very different story. I don't doubt that jc would've taken the core even if he knew where it came from.

The reason some in fandom, usually jc (sometimes jgy) stans seem determined to give all of WWX's deeds a negative twist is that it's really fucking hard to make jc look better. It's not like there are hidden qualities to shine a light on- unless they dive into head canon territory. The most expedient way to do it and to take in as many people as possible, is to baffle them with bullshit try to make WWX (and/or LWJ) look bad. Like : "trying to save the innocent war refugees was AcTuALLY reaLLy sUpeR selfiSh of WWX >:-/". This ironically is the same tactic jc employs in the narrative when he keeps trying to tarnish all of WWX's noble actions and accuse him of only wanting to play the hero, when in fact WWX is just trying to do the right thing that no one else wants to step up and do. No wonder his stans take to him so vehemently, like calls to like ig.

[thisdreamplace]

ashamed to say the 3D reflects our true inner reality, yes? my ENTIRE family has turned against me, after some atrocious conflicts in which they all ganged up on me nd judged me, name-calling, very hurtful things too, provoked me. i been dealing with some serious mental uh 'issues' on my own nd when this happend i was already on the verge of a breakdown nd the good news is while the conflict happened i kept telling myself theyre only reflecting me u can get thru it etc. Later i looked at the hard facts nd realised some of the hurtful things they said were my deep secret feelings abt myself. BUT my question is why the HELL cant they talk to me like normal people? confronting one person vs whole family, why?! i felt so small nd like an object, nd not a single person defended me. am i not a part of the family?

Part 2 is simply its been a week and theyve still been cold towards me as if I yelled AT THEM ABT THEIR PAINFUL 'tRuThS' in front of EVERYONE LMAOOO. At first if i was around we'd have dinner together while they'd all talk to each other like best friends aka sickeningly overly friendly while completely IGNORING me while i sat there. i could tolerate it. I WAS PISSED AT THEM TOO Now its too painful. They're having dinner without telling me, yesterday didnt leave enough food for me knowing i hadnt eaten, serve tea/snacks without my portion. i honestly feel so unspeakably trigered nd sad. worst is these things r reminding me of deep school memories when id feel excluded like this by other kids at parties or class activities nd its like im back there. anyway im glad i controled myself a bit nd didnt counter with horrid things abt them to THEM yet they think they can say the same to me. im so hurt rn i cant even tell u lol i was okay the whole week but now its too much,, ive been crying the whole day

thing is, ik this seems like 'im a victim oh noooo they ganged up on meee'. Nope its more like how do i change myself to change them?! u could say why not talk to them how they made u feel, except whenever ive defended myself in the past regarding hurtful things they/anyone in family did, the siblings/parents would say irritating things like: "oh so YOU'RE the one hurt? Oh thats right, its because YOU'RE right! yes, yes, you're always right. Forgive me for saying anything against the perfect person u are." Or one of them says: "You?! I hurt YOU? What about me? You don't care about me! So you think what ur doing is okay?" or "no, who do YOU think u are to tell ME what to do?" it just goes in circles like this! i dont deserve to hurt myself or do smth to myself even if they dont give a damn, even if years of silent suffering of the 'mEntAL pRoBlEms' (which my lovely parents have already told me is my fault years ago, hence why I NEVER show it to them, unless im crying too much then lol they just mock me, but idc abt THAT bcoz now ik i hav a right to let out my emotions)). i mean this is worse rjan usual. its kinda insane nd when guests come they start talking to me as if nothing's wrong then when they leave, they ignore me!

this whole twisted dynamics, feelijf left out nd helpless is ig some crazy assumptin from childhood of being alone nd unable to defend myself. plus when they argye with anyone, they become overly self-righteous nd over the years its clear they can only scream, blame the scapegoat and never talk abt serious matter like normal ppl. And yes, in the past when i bring this up, they like to reply with stuff like: "no YOU'RE the one who doesnt talk to US bla bla" like, when i do u just shut me down? have belittled my mental 'issues', mocked me when im at my worst, stabbed me with cruel silent treatments nd thinking its alright "bcoz of self-righteousness blegh". Or maybe i think its okay for them to punish me? or whatev? Like law says u get what u r. if these ~~~ keep doing this to me, im doubly ashamed to say this means im the one at fault?! i let this monster assunptin grow nd now idk what to do. the worst thing imo is how i failed to tell them,even if they ignored me in the past, how i feel when anything like this or a conflict happens nd none of them stand up for me, or at least are neutral to me. bcoz now if i do, they say nope, u dont care what we do, YOUR the shameless one :! so yeah they hav the advantage of 'numbwrs' while im too afraid to stand up for myself lol. btw they never apologize nd i suspect they expect ME to apologize to TYEM bcoz everything's already ruined bcoz of 'me'..... i give up on them, i really do, but my heart hurts. Either i harden my heart, nd save up to move out, OR i try to change my self or whatev assumptins i have. But how do i do that? i try afirming: "my familys so nice to me, im respected by them" but it feels so fake tears literally enter my eyes lol

firstly i want to say, thank you for coming here to vent and being open about your feelings. it’s so important sometimes to just let it all out, without holding back. so that way you can move forward more bravely, to create the life you truly want to experience. that being said, i am going to be completely honest with you here in hopes that perhaps it may inspire you and you will be ready to do what is needed for the life you truly want to experience.

“BUT my question is why the HELL cant they talk to me like normal people?” -> “i felt so small nd like an object, nd not a single person defended me. am i not a part of the family?” here is your question, and here is your answer. i think that being completely honest when venting your feelings can actually be so helpful, because if you read back what you have said, you will be able to clearly find the patterns that are creating your personal hell. FEELING IS THE SECRET. ASSUMPTIONS HARDEN INTO FACT. the true way you feel, becomes your experience. Feelings/assumptions/beliefs come first, and the experiences come second to confirm them. That’s all that’s happening here.

i am glad that you were able to keep your reactions to a minimum! that's wonderful and as many of us know, it can sometimes be hard to do in such hurtful circumstances. but you managed to do it, this shows just a small glimpse of the power you truly hold within. although emotionally you may feel out of control, there is still the choice to choose better for yourself which you demonstrated through your reaction to them. good for you!

the truth is, you acknowledge the victim mindset to seem like you’re not engulfed in it, but no, you’re still very clearly engulfed in it. as i have said before, you can’t be a VICTOR and feel bad about it. feeling bad about taking responsibility, about everyone is you pushed out, about any of these types of concepts automatically shows a victim mindset. talking to them won’t do anything, because there are no second causes. you could talk to them nicely, you could be the nicest person in the world. but you can’t pretend your way out of your inner world. your inner world is the one and only cause of your experiences. until you change the story you tell yourself, they will stay the same. this is a hard pill to swallow sometimes. and it can feel heavily, because it’s ultimately only you’re choice. they can’t change until you do. the heaviness of the situation may make it seem impossible to turn around, but that’s just an illusion. your emotional attachment to the situation makes it seem so real and hard to change, but no. that’s just an illusion too. however, it’s ultimately your choice. Do you want to take responsibility for your life, or do you want to keep being tossed around like your lost at sea, victim to the merciless angry waves? Because we always have a choice. No one chooses your inner world, you do. No one can go into your mind and decide things for you, that’s only your job.

you can harden your heart, but who would be the one who suffers more? It won’t be your family, i can assure you. it’ll only be you. by doing that, you keep that old story alive and therefore you keep experiencing it. you keep those stories alive that are desperately showing themselves to you, saying “LET US GO.” but you remain identified with those painful stories, so you grip onto them tight. you keep on thinking of possible reasons for their behavior, but you could just read your entire ask back to yourself and you’ll see every reason. your reactions, your beliefs about them, your emotional pain. its your refusal to let those things go, and focus on what you truly want that keeps you in this state and keeps them in this state. sure it’s painful to face the responsibility at first, but it’s not a blame game. thinking its about blame is just a misunderstanding of the teachings. it’s not about they’re so perfect and you’re so not, so you have to change your ways. it’s about this is how life works here. this is about... you can ONLY ever experience self. whatever is going on within, will be reflected in your outer world. it’s about how they can’t change, UNTIL YOU DO. so instead of feeling sorry for yourself, you have to decide to give yourself the gift of a wonderful life because you have that power too. you stop deciding they can be in control of your experience, and you decide your experience yourself.

to change your assumptions, stop trying to affirm over them and actually face what’s keeping you from believing in your desires. yeah, it’s going to be painful and uncomfortable. but you need to face the pain that you’re running away from, so that it can finally be released. you have to realize, it only stayed true because you believed it to be true. and if you are to live a life free from that story, and experience a more desirable story, then you must let the pain go. give yourself love and grace as you work through it, and know that there is a more beautiful side of life that awaits for you to accept it in.

No One To Change But Self

There is Nothing to Forgive

How to Sit with Your Triggers

give yourself the time you need, it's not race. the love that you wish to experience exists, allow it in. 💖